#and i do not want my first on-campus experience to be a really boring and anxiety-inducing experience i cannot escape

[hl-obsessed]

fic rec | march - april ✨💐🌸

Port and Starbord by @londonfoginacup

(3,1k) Zayn gives Harry a withering look. “There’s a brothel up the main road that I will know if you try to visit,” he says.

“Zayn,” Harry gasps. “I am your captain.”

“And I am the one who has to procure us another lifeboat now,” Zayn says. “Fuck off and find a cafe or something."

Switch! by xunorthodox

(25k) Focus, stop being ridiculous.

He didn't want to hurt Liam, especially when he was such a nice guy, but—but—his best friend, Louis, is so close yet so far. And Harry didn't know what to do with himself.

OR

Harry happily agrees to go on a double date with Liam, but Liam’s best friend looks suspiciously like the man of his dreams.

💎✨ these bad omens (I look right through them) by likelarry

(82k) How on earth does someone his parents' age look so damn hot? All of their other friends look... bland and boring.

But Louis, fucking hell. He's something out of Harry's wettest fucking dreams.

Where Louis is Harry's parents' friend and teaches at Harry's university. Harry can't resist getting a taste.

✨ Lies & Liability by @evilovesyou

(34k) Harry Styles has only three wishes when he leaves River Dane Manor to go to Town for his first season: that his sister has rented a townhouse that will provide him as many of the comforts of the country life he has grown accustomed to as possible, that he will not trip and fall when he is presented to Her Majesty the Queen, and that he will enter matrimony out of true love, no matter how favourable the match with any which alpha may be.

Hit It Hit It Twist It Twist It by @floweredhalo

(3,7k) He notices Harry staring at him and raises an eyebrow.

“You alright?” Oh, god, is his voice raspy? Harry doesn’t answer right away but blurts out the first thing he thinks of

“Do I smell like weed?” Harry blurts, almost too loud considering how close they’re sitting. Harry watches as the guy’s mouth drops open in a small o and the way he laughs startles them both.

“Oh, my god, no. You’re good, man,” he says and laughs again before shaking his head and tapping his papers on the desk.

lemon eyes by turnyourankle

(50k) It's not proper for omegas to mess around with alphas before finding their bondmate. But Harry doesn't give a damn what's proper and fully intends on getting as much experience as he can before even trying to find one. As far as he's concerned, the right alpha won't care, and he'll have some fun on the way.

And who better to start with than Louis Tomlinson, the alpha with the worst reputation on campus?

Frat Boy with Feelings by Niallinjapan2013

(160k) Prompt 345: frat boy harry that is super soft inside, kinda sad and meets louis at some party.

💎✨ touch me baby, put your lips on mine by @insightfulinsomniac

(12k) When Niall and Zayn invite Louis to a monthly sex party, Louis reluctantly agrees because he’s always up to try something new. At the party, each attendee selects a cup based on a color that corresponds with their power dynamic preference — dom, sub, switch, or none.

Louis decides to lean into the preferences he hasn’t had the chance to explore before, but what he doesn’t expect is to meet the prettiest boy in a blue bandana, blue nail polish, and holding a blue cup.

He expects even less to make a genuine connection that keeps him coming back each month.

Aka the soft and sweet sex party fic with a dash of dom/sub dynamics and a LOT of public sex.

Checking Them Out?: How To Use Your Library Science Degree To Get an Alpha by @insightfulinsomniac

(20k) When a flirty, attractive alpha patron checks out an entire shelf of literature on omega behavior and omega rights, Harry can’t help but wonder why the man is so interested — is he a really attentive partner, or is he just a creep?

It doesn’t help that this alpha visits weekly to exchange his books… and that he smells absolutely divine.

Whether he likes it or not, Harry has a crush.

Baby, Teach Me How To by @fallinglikethis

(13k) At 10 am, the door to the studio classroom shuts with a bang that makes Harry jolt in his seat at the sound of it. He turns to see an absolutely gorgeous man standing there, hand still on the doorknob. His hair falls in a windswept swoop over his brow and he’s got a sexy scruff on his cheeks that Harry immediately can’t help imagining between his thighs. The man’s eyes shine with mirth, lips quirked into a wicked grin at having gotten a reaction from nearly everyone in the room. Harry watches him with unfettered curiosity, idly thinking he’d be a beautiful subject for a portrait as the man’s hand falls from the door.

“Hello, class,” he says, clapping his hands in front of him and Harry’s eyes have a hard time staying in his head.

This is Professor Tomlinson?

Or

Louis is Harry's art professor and they both know it's forbidden to fall in love. Somehow, they manage to anyway.

don’t even need to touch me, baby, just breathe on me by ballsdeepinjesus

(7,4k) About three things Harry Styles is absolutely positive. First, he definitely did not read all four Twilight books. Second, there is a part of him – and he knows exactly how potent that part of him is – that wants to test the science behind sucking Professor Tomlinson’s brain out through his dick. And third, Harry is unconditionally and irrevocably in lust with his Professor.

So yes, Harry Styles is a cliché. He’s seen this plotline unfold in porn all the time. He’s not sure if leaning over his desk and offering up his arse for a spanking will yield the same results, however.

[louis is harry’s professor. harry is a cliche.]

Nailed By Louis by @haztobegood

(6k) It had started as a joke, just two months earlier. Louis had tried to make recipe from HarrySizzles Instagram account. It looked doable: no strange ingredients, no scary kitchen machinery. Just a simple layered lettuce salad. The result had been catastrophic. His friends had laughed so hard at the disgusting appearance of his salad, and after a few drinks, Louis had been convinced to start his own Instagram to track his food failures.

✨ Unveiled by @phd-mama

(65k) The train grinds to a halt and Harry leans forward in his eagerness to take it all in. It’s a gorgeous Spring day, the sky the same intense blue that he knows from home, which comforts him. There’s much here that looks almost familiar, but then so much that is new and strange to his eyes. The bustling station platform and winding streets beyond paved in cobblestones look much like home. There are vehicles ranging from small to very large, some with strange and unusual shapes of which he can only guess the purpose. But most surprising are the people. There is a crowd gathered, filled with men and women, some in what looks to be a military uniform, some in what must be the street clothes in this Land.

There are no robes. And not a single one of them is veiled.

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[vanpalmerenthusiast]

hiiiii I just saw ur post abt being deathly bored and wanting asks

was wondering if u have any university! yellowjackets headcanons? literally anything, i’m trying to project my uni experience onto them lol

I LOVE THIS OMG, doing it assuming everyone survives, no plane crash au, this is also the main seven :)

jackie- rutgers baddie, she definitely finally found her way to lesbianism in college and shes majoring in like business or whatever (i have no idea what she would want to be as an adult and that scares me) i read this amazing fic where she moved in with nat instead of going to college and she ended up becoming like the girl version of a handyman or whatever like i don’t remember all the details but i lowkey see that futch transformation for her in her college years

shauna- she went to brown x but she probably she went to europe for a gap year at some point or did an abroad program idk how she did it but she dated french people and had extremely messy breakups x she passed her classes with flying colors by some grace of god x she will be holding onto the jackie ordeal no matter how many europeans she slept with at uni xoxoxox

tai- her uni experience went exactly how she described it in the show; first string on the soccer team, graduating from law school with honors, so so many hot girlfriends 💋 she want it she got it like i have no notes. she is a HARD WORKER and she EARNS HER SHITTT, somehow is managing all that while still partying like crazy. college taissa turner you sly dog you are so so loved

van- our little film major, she is 100% making a bunch of mini movies in college for various film classes. in another life she was a director and that’s what i see for her path at university. tell me she wouldn’t be an amazing director, the way she analyzes movies and shit. van is also the type of person to leave a boring class making a REALLY stupid excuse. you also can’t tell me she was not getting around in college. she was.

misty- this one stumped me so hard but like then i got to thinking she probably could have gotten into a really good school because she’s the type of weird girl who has really good grades, and then she ends up developing a caffeine addiction and being that person who signs up for all the early morning classes and she’s like one of three people who did, misty you are just as much of a silly freak in college and we love you for it!!

nat- i feel like she wouldn’t be going to uni bc i feel like that’s not really her scene, but if she did she would def somehow find out about every party that happens on campus and always be in attendance no matter what. like it’s not even her friend group, but she’s trying to make the dj play grunge music at the sorority pledge party or whateverthefuck. not trying to reduce nat to the whole “she’s just an alcoholic party girl” thing, i just geniunely think that’s something that would definitely be happening unexplainably.

lottie- she’s going to college on another CONTINENT, like my girl is not trying to stay in new jersey. she’s going to school somewhere rich and prestigious (if you’ve got the benefits, use em!!) in like the most random place. japan, ireland, australia, the list could go on forever but i just know she is not staying anywhere near her parents or new jersey. lottie is also getting around in college, no questions asked. jackie is not the only one discovering her lesbianism x

this one made me THINKKKK, never stop sending me these kat i’m obsessed

[murdermortician]

Words about Sarah Reid!

Sarah Reid has always been a very interesting side character to me. She's not on screen for very long but if you pay attention, you can see and understand small things about her. For example, she was quick to stand up to Alex after he started yelling at Tim, she tends to forget her lines easily, and when you look at her up close she definitely looks like she enjoys some color. It might just be me but I think she deserves more characterization in the community and I am aiming to explain my small characterization of her in this post. More below the cut and be aware of spoilers for Marble Hornets in some parts! This is primarily my view of her as a character rather than as canon information.

Reference/Design

Personality

Sarah is a very outgoing woman. She's very determined to have equality, fair opportunity, and she believes in doing the right thing. She can be stubborn with her beliefs and she can be a little forgetful when it comes to small details, but she really tries to be better. She also tries to have other people be better by pointing out when they need to be and she's not quiet about it. Sarah is very loud about her advocacy and her opinions but only because she's educated in them and she knows a lot. She often chooses peaceful ways out but she won't be quiet if she doesn't want to!

Work + Hobbies

Sarah likes to run. She's always been on the track and field team throughout high school and she's definitely not stopped just because of college! She often makes income by pet-sitting. She offers weeks of pet-sitting for vacations, daily, or even just for a few hours. She also babysits and offers multiple-day sittings. Since she lives with her mom off campus, she's able to afford her own living essentials with that money and the money she gets from working on set with Alex.

How she got on set and her experiences

Sarah has always been interested in acting and theatre, it was just never a career she thought she could pursue. When Seth suggested she try out, she did and got a semi-main part in Alex Kralie's Marble Hornets. Even if it was merely a student film, it was still an opportunity and she took it fairly quickly. At first, it was great. She liked the crew, she liked Alex, and the story was very easy to follow. Soon, however, she'd begin to feel ill and unwilling to go to set. It wasn't because she grew bored or that she disliked it, it was that being there always ended with a fight or someone nearly throwing up. The set was like poison and soon, Alex made things worse with his very inconsistant moods.

Relationships

Her relationships with each of the crew members vary. Seth had been her friend long before the whole thing so they were close and she often confided in him about the issues. She and Brian got along pretty well. They'd often joke around and get along during filming.

Sarah and Jay hardly ever spoke unless it was to talk about the script.

Sarah and Alex were not on the best terms near the end of the whole ordeal and honestly, he was a huge factor in her dwindling mental health and self-image.

Sarah and Tim had a very close relationship. Tim was very protective of her during filming when Alex yelled or got angry. He was not afraid to call Alex out or break some rules to help her out and in return, she usually helped him out as well. They had matching necklaces and the crew joked about them dating.

In the End

The tapes depict Sarah and Seth dying in an abandoned building early on. Alex seems to shoot them and leave them for The Operator, but that is not what became of Sarah in this story. Sarah, wounded and afraid, found her way out. Much like Tim, she regained enough strength to get out of the building and run away. Now, years later, she's living with Jessica and wonders if Tim is okay.

[ford-pines-lover]

Sweet Dreams

stanford pines x oc

tags: fluff, college!stanford, sfw

word count: 1389

the summary: Ford and Celeste meet in college. Friends since first meeting. They travel to Gravity Falls together to study the anomalies there. Ford and Bill get too serious about the portal, Ford gets sucked away forever. Celeste has to learn how to live with Stan and try to get her fiancé back. Is that even remotely possible? What would be the cost? Would it be as dangerous as Ford always said it would be?

Prologue

College. A new beginning. Well. Kind of. I am sitting in the auditorium of a small school on the east coast. There’s creaky floorboards every time the speaker walks, the microphone is screechy every few words, and there is some less-than-motivational signage up. “Not your first choice!” and “We’re number two!” are the ones that stand out. The smell in this room is almost comforting in a way. It smells like an old library, but mustier. Not bad. 

Backupsmore University. The only school that wanted me (and a full ride) after I tried to get a full ride scholarship to Harvard or Berkeley, but my sob story wasn’t enough, clearly. Now I am stuck with people that don’t have the same aspirations as I do, but hey, there is at least one in a crowd that has big dreams. Not everyone here is here just for “the experience.”

I notice a boy in the crowd looking bored and restless. He was just like me. The boy had nice brown hair and glasses that made him look like a nerd. Well, I can’t say much; I also have glasses. 

“We’re number two!” The speaker ends his speech, and the freshmen are released to their respective areas. I sigh and attempt to hurry out of the auditorium, but I bump into someone. I stumble and regain my posture.

“Oh, um, I’m so sorry,” I say to the boy—oh, wait, it’s the boy I noticed in the auditorium. He stopped and looked at me, examining all my features before saying anything.

“No, no, you’re alright.” He smiled and kept walking. He had an intriguing energy about him that I couldn’t quite place. I watched as he walked down the hall, towards the library on this side of campus. Ah, so he is a nerd. It was so obvious. I chuckle to myself as I stride back to my dorm. I decided to room by myself. Something was telling me that I shouldn’t share my space with another student. They would be subject to my horrible sleep schedule and nightly romance reading. No, being serious, I just have bad study habits that I wouldn’t want to subject another person to. 

***

“The DNA of one organism is being split apart by helicase…” I mutter as I am jotting down notes for my Biology I class. I decided to study in the library today due to my wanting to explore the library. The amount of books is remarkable due to this being a school on the smaller side. 

I notice someone sitting on the other side of the library with a stack of books on quantum physics. Huh. Wait. No, that was the guy that I bumped into earlier. He looked so calm and focused on his subject. I wonder why he is at this school and not at some fancy science school. Well, perhaps people are thinking the same about me. Probably not, honestly. 

I get up to get another book and “accidentally” bump into him again. 

"Oh, whoops, so sorry,” I nervously chuckle. 

“No worries. It seems like we are seeing a lot of each other today.” The boy put his hand on the back of his neck.

“Yeah, no, it seems so.” I look up at him curiously. “I’m Celeste, by the way.” 

“Ford, Stanford Pines,” he smiles. We share a smile before he begins to speak again. “What are you studying?”

“Paranormal biology, you?”

“No way! I am working towards my PhD in the study of the paranormal.”

“That’s so cool! Would you want to be study partners? I don’t really have anyone else here.” 

“I don’t really either. My roommate seems like an interesting specimen, though.” 

“I’m sure. Everyone here at BMU is odd to say the least.” I think back to when we were being greeted at the door and there was a giant “BMU” mascot greeting us with some less-than-motivational words. “Why have more when you can settle for less?” The mascot would shout as we were walking in. It was a constant reminder that I could have been destined for more. There was something pulling me to greater things. 

“Oh, yeah, for sure.” Ford sighs and moves his books over. I took that as my cue to ask:

“Well, can I sit with you?”

Ford smiles, and I sit down next to him. His body language is tense, and he seems a bit sweaty. His mannerisms were very hesitant. He seemed to be hiding his hands. He was wearing a nice light blue button-down and some khakis. Ford seems too proper for this school, too... smart. 

“So…” I start, deciding I don’t want the awkward silence, “Why are you going to BMU? Clearly you’re worthy of more.”

Ford’s pupils shrank, and he gulped. Did I strike a nerve? Did I say something wrong? I start playing with my hair, occasionally pulling a strand out. 

“I-” Ford sighs and looks to the window. “Yeah, no, I know, it just didn’t work out that way, unfortunately.”

“Oh, I’m so sorry.” I try to comfort him, but I’m unsure of what to do. “I didn’t realize it was a sore subject.”��

He lightly smiles and goes back to studying. His notebook was full of equations and drawings. So was his textbook. Let’s hope he didn’t borrow that from the school; otherwise, he will have a field day. I chuckle to myself, going back to my biology 1 assignment. All of this is a review from my senior year biology class. My teacher was a professor before deciding she wanted to teach high school. She went super in depth, and right then I knew I needed to study biology. Everything about life and cells and the expansion of “what is life exactly?” was something I needed to be answered. That’s where the “paranormal/anamolous” studies came in. Our thoughts on “life” are too Earth-centric. What if life forms out there aren’t carbon-based? What if life forms don’t need oxygen to survive?

“You seem lost in thought, Celeste.” Ford speaks again, giving me a warm smile. 

“Yeah, I’m just thinking about how weird it is that I am a freshman in college,” Lies, “but you know life keeps moving.” I play with my hair, not really wanting to expand on the monotonous reason why I was lost in thought. I don’t want to bore him too quickly.

He chuckles, “I think about that all the time. One day I was the “King of New Jersey," and the next I’m sitting in a college library studying like hell for my PhD. Where did the time go?” 

We both simultaneously go back to our studies in silence and peace. 

A year passes by. I grow closer with Ford while still maintaining my studies. This college isn’t so bad. Just a couple more years.

Another two years pass. 

Knock knock

I know that signature knock. Ford always does two short knocks before entering my dorm. 

“Ah Celeste! There you are. I have some very exciting news to share with you!” Ford walks into my dorm with a winning smile. The light in his eyes could light a thousand rooms. “I just got granted 100,000 dollars to research! Isn’t that awesome?” 

I gasp and smile. “No way, Ford! That’s incredible!” I raise my hand to give him a high-five. Now that I think of it, I’ve never given him one. He hesitantly raises his hand and high-fives me. Or high-six? Why not a high-eleven? “So, whats next?”

He gives me a warm smile while also showing some nerves. “Celeste, you mean a lot to me as a research partner and as a friend. I bargained with the grant money people, and" Ford pulls out another 100,000 dollar check. “This is for you.”

I am dumbfounded. A check? For what? “I– Ford, what are you trying to say?”

“Would you want to join me in research of the unknown?”

I beam. “I would love to! Where would we go?”

His face lights up with excitement. “Well, I have been researching where the most anomalous things happen in the United States.” Ford reaches into his pocket to reveal a map with dots on it. Oddly enough, one dot is in my hometown. Interesting. “It’s all centralized in this one town in Roadkill County, Oregon. Gravity Falls.”

Sweet Dreams

here it is in ao3 for the ones that like to read it there :)

[fanficwriters-posts]

Hiro hamada x spiderman! Reader

Nobody knew reader was spiderman until reader swoops in, in their spidersuit, and saves the main 6 from a villian they couldn't beat. But ends up getting super hurt and having to take their mask off.

That sounds interesting and inspiring! 😃

Hiro Hamada x Spiderman!reader

It was like any other day in a normal human life. I got out of bed, take a quick shower, brush my teeth, pick out my clothes, put on the clothes, grab my necessary items for school and my homework, go downstairs, eat my breakfast my mother prepared for me, kiss my parents' cheeks before i leave to go to Hiro's place.

I do it every single day, it's just the same routine. Until one day...

There was a school field trip to this campus in New York City and mostly it was because Professor Granville didn't want any of us to slack off while she's away so she decided to bring us with her and make us learn about Alchemax with Doctor Octavius being our tour guide.

I got a little bored and was sidetracked with this spider that has a 42 number on its back. I was sorta staring for a few seconds until Doctor Octavius caught my attention away from it and lead us into another room. I didn't even realize the spider escaped its closure. Not did i felt it crawling up my pants and to my hand.

When Doctor Octavius introduced us to one of their latest inventions, i was amazed and wanted to take a picture. That's when i saw the spider. It bit me and i nearly drop my phone from shock. I grab it from the back of my hand and i put it on a table so no one will notice.

Hiro came over to me, i think he saw me when the spider bit my hand. He checked to see what was wrong and I just told him that my hands were just shaking from excitement. He found that amusing and grab my good hand to bring me back to the rest of the group.

Thankfully, that was the end of the tour and we all got home. Me? I was sweating the whole way back so i went straight to my home. A lot of things happened.

I ran really fast like i don't usually do, I can jump really high, i can hear almost everything that's going on, I can even stick to anything. Walls, metal poles, etc. But what made me so shocked is that i can shoot spiderwebs from my wrists. I found that out when i put down my backpack and try to reach for the bathroom.

I decided to experiment on myself and turns out, i have super-strength. I've seen these in the Spider-Man comic books and i didn't think it would happen to me, too. I was so psyched about it but... i didn't tell any of my friends. I was scared that they might report this to professor Granville and have me change back to normal.

But, i wanted to be a hero. Like those Big Hero 6 guys. So, i trained myself in this old, abandoned factory that i can use as my training arena. Of course, i had to put everything together first before i can start.

I've been training myself for 3 months just so i can do everything perfect. Somehow, in the process, i didn't realize that i got myself sorta fit and tough. I even cut my hair a little shorter.

Once i know i'm ready, i started designing my suit while watching the news about the Big Hero 6. Sometimes, i write down the villains and their powers in my notebook that i keep to myself.

And if you're wondering, what about school? Yes, i still go to school and everything went on smoothly. Though, sometimes they ask during the first week about why i'm so happy but i just tell them that the Alchemax field trip made a whole new perspective in my life.

I did everything i could to keep my secret from everyone and it works so well. And now, i'm a new superhero of San Fransokyo. (Hero name)! Heck yeah! I saved a bunch of people, get interviewed by the press, even got my own superhero action figure. Everything went smoothly on my side but with all the homework that started piling up, i couldn't keep up and let everything to the Big Hero 6.

I wasn't aware of what the villains were up to behind my back.

Present time

I'm in Hiro's lab doing my homework per usual but this time he wasn't here or Baymax. I called him and he said he had to help around in the cafe with Baymax before he gets here. I just said, "Take your time." And "Love you." Before we hung up.

When i set down my pen, a notification appear on the screen of my phone while i was watching (Favorite Cartoon Series) and i press it.

"This just in, a group of robot has attacked downtown and with Big Hero 6 on the job- Wait, sorry." The news reporter spoke before he press the earpiece he has on. "Oh! It looks like the Big Hero 6 are down. Take it away, Carol." The screen switches to another news reporter and she's in a helicopter.

"Thank you, Bluff Dunder." Carol said to the microphone in her hand. "It seems like our heroes have been outnumbered by unknown robots and can't seem to find a way out of the corner. Our former lovable mascot, Noodle Burger Boy have gathered robot mascots from all around fast food restaurants into villainy. If only (Hero name) was here to aid them in their battle."

I couldn't believe my ears and immediately i texted Hiro that i needed to get home because my parents called me and change into my spider suit. I grab my things and my clothes into my backpack before i swing out of the campus and drop off my bag at my bedroom window.

I head straight to downtown and... Oh yeah! I can go camouflage mode but right now is not the best time to use it because these are robots we're fighting. They might have heat-signature visions, but it wouldn't hurt to try it out. I landed on the rooftop above the Big Hero 6 and i went camouflage mode as i slowly crawl down the building over the heroes and robots.

"There's no way of escaping, heroes! Give it up!" Noodle Burger Boy exclaims with this girl robot beside him and Hyper-Potamus on the other. There were a few other robots i've never seen before.

"What do you want with us, Noodle Burger Boy?" The guy in purple ask the robot, standing in front of his team.

"The whereabouts of the new superhero, (Hero name)." Noodle Burger Boy replied before the robot girl beside him speak up, "She can be of use as our ally."

"What? No way! She will never side with you! She doesn't even side with us! Because we never ask." Another hero spoke but he's wearing a blue monster suit.

"Then tell us where she is. 'Cause we'll make her." Noodle Burger Boy tells them before the rest of the robots got into stances, ready to attack.

"That's my cue." I muttered before i un-camouflaged myself and jump down between them.

"You wanted to see me, Noodle Burger Boy?" I ask him, my voice high and mighty.

"Oh! There she is!" Noodle Burger Boy tells his group of robots, clapping with joy.

"(Hero name), what are you doing here?" The guy in purple asks me, walking up to me. I look back to him and stop him.

"Stay back. This is gonna get a little ugly... For me." I tell him, my voice slightly deepen.

I turn back to the evil robots and i shot my web at one of them, swinging them to the others before i leap up and attack the rest. They fought back and of course, a hero such as myself cannot take on this many but i try to.

I took the fight elsewhere so that no one would get hurt, using my spiderwebs to swing me and let them chase after me. I landed on a dock and turn around to face them. Finally realizing how many there are.

"Oh, boy." I whisper in shock. They're made out of metal, i should've thought this through.

"No where left to run, (Hero name)!" The girl robot exclaim with a menacing grin before she shoots multiple rockets at my way.

I gasped and dodged it as my spider sense went off. I thought i was save for a couple of minutes until the robot, which i think is Crushroom, punched me so hard that it send me into a side of a boat.

I groaned and got myself out before i stick my feet and hand on the wall of a building. "Okay, this is a bit unfair, don't you think? I mean, there's literally some of you but you're made out of metal and i'm made out of flesh, myself."

I hear the Big Hero 6 coming from my right and i look up. When my eyes landed on the guy in purple, i feel a bit of familiarity to him. Like i knew him from somewhere. Obviously, behind that orange glass shield he has black hair but his face... Somehow...

And it's not right to be deep in thought when you're being chased by a bunch of robots is not highly recommended. My spider sense went off but i didn't have time to react before i was shot off of the wall and fall to the ground. I fell! A great 6 ft from the building and i think i got scratches on my suit because i was not full conscious.

I got up from the ground and i pant heavily from the great impact. I look up to the rest of the robots and i use this advantage to shoot my spiderwebs at their faces to blind their sights. The Big Hero 6 took care of them as soon as they arrived and i had to leave the scene but my limbs were aching with pain. And they're killing me!

Don't blame me. This is my first time getting actually hurt during a mission.

I hear the big red robot land behind me and help me stand up. "Are you alright, (Hero name)?" The robot asks, his voice calming.

"Yeah. I put my guard down for a second and they just shoot me." I replied, holding my side. I look up to the rest of the team and i think a quarter of my mask was torn.

"What were you thinking taking those crazy robots on your own?! You could've died!" The big guy in green exclaimed at me with worry.

"Not to mention putting your life at risk just to save ours." A girl in pink with long blond hair spoke softly.

"Super cool! But dangerous. But SUPER AWESOME!" The guy in blue yell with excitement.

"You could've asked us to help you." The guy in purple steps up, his height same as mine but i was sorta bend down from the pain.

"Yeah. I just... You guys were already in trouble. I just wanted to give you guys a break." I tell them.

I grunt in pain as my side aches even more and i nearly fall forward but the guy in purple caught me before i hit the ground.

"My boyfriend will not like this at all." I muttered under my breath as i let him support me.

"Your body cannot take anymore muscle use and you have a cut on your face. In order for me to heal you, you must take off your mask." The giant red robot said before he approaches me.

My eyes widen and i hold out my hand. "No, no, no! The hospital is fine! You don't have to heal me." I say quickly, holding the guy in purple's shoulder.

"Oh, come on. You can hardly stand up by yourself, let alone swing back to the hospital." Said the girl in yellow.

I groan in defeat and look up to them. "I know where you can heal me, but, you have to promise to keep it a secret." I tell them.

All six of them agreed and took me to my training arena because i have first aid kit and a bed there. Not plain. I decorated them so that it doesn't look so bland.

The red robot lay me down on the bed while the others look around at the training place i build.

"You built this place yourself?" The girl in yellow asks, standing in front of one of my deadly obstacles.

"I like to challenge myself and make it a whole lot more interesting." I replied to her as the robot place a pillow behind my head.

"Huh." She muttered. "Awesome."

"Alright. Let's take off this mask of yours." The robot said. I sigh heavily.

"It's a big no-no. But from one hero to another, i guess." I say to him before i take off my mask and set it aside.

"(Name)?!"

I was startled by the sound of my name and i look up to the guy in purple with wide eyes. "Y-you know me?" I ask him nervously.

He walk towards me and take off his helmet. My eyes widen even more and i stare at him in shock. "Hiro?!" I exclaim in surprise.

The two of us stare at each other for a solid 5 minutes while the red robot heal the wounds on my body.

The rest of the BH6 came and take off their helmets which made my heart nearly jump out of my chest. I look at each of them before i look up to Hiro again.

"Wait, wait! You lied to me about help Aunt Cass?" I tell him, going to sit up but he held my shoulder and keep me down.

"Y-you lied to me about hanging out with this whole new group of friends when it turns out you were here! Training yourself!" Hiro said back.

I frown a little and look down to my lap. "I..." I sighed heavily and lay down on the bed. "I didn't want to tell you because i was afraid that you guys might tell Professor Granville and that she might take me back to Alchemax and make my powers disappear."

Hiro sit down on the edge of the bed beside me and he hold my hand. "So, this whole time you lied just so you can be a hero?"

"In my defense," I quickly said. "You guys inspired me to become one. I thought that with this power, i might be able to help but i just didn't have the guts to say anything, yet."

Hiro frown at that and he brush my hair out of my face. "And yet, here you are, laying on your bed with Baymax healing your wounds."

"I'm sorry for not telling you. For not telling any of you." I apologized, looking up to them with sincerity. "I know i'm supposed to trust you with this but..."

"Hey, don't worry about it, (Name). I mean, we hid all this from you. We should be the ones to apologize for not telling you that we're heroes." Honey Lemon speak up, walking towards me with a warm smile.

"We could've told you but someone didn't want to because he didn't want to risk your life." Fred steps in, looking at me with a smile.

I look up to Hiro from him and he just look away sheepishly with a blush across his face. I chuckled and i hold his hand. "Aww, really? That's so thoughtful of you!"

He smiled back as he turn his head back to me and he lean down and peck my forehead. "If any of them knew that you were connected to us, i wouldn't know what i would do if something happens to you, (Name)."

"You're my boyfriend, Hiro. You have all the right to be worried but you have to trust me with protecting myself. I can handle anything." I tell him to reassure him, my smile never falter.

Hiro chuckled and nod his head. "You're right. I should've told you and i should've listened to my friends, too."

"I told you she'd be cool about it." Fred tells them which made us all chuckle.

And let's just say that from now own, we tell each other everything and we help each other. I'm not part of the BH6 but i still help around. Hiro and i's relationship became stronger also mine with our friends.

With great power, come great responsibility. And that responsibility is protecting everyone i love and this city.

[hinatashiftz]

Sequence Of Events

Vampire DR

W.C 4.5K | WARNINGS/GENRES; Reality Shifting Storytime, ANGST, mentions of crushes, Mentions of toxic relationships/ toxic ex boyfriends, OFC LOTS OF MENTIONS OF VAMPIRES, mentions of feeding from a rat.. , LOTS OF MENTIONS OF BLOOD, crush almost hits me with a car, mentions of anxiety and fear, mentions of college parties, mentions of fighting and arguing, mentions of literally being held roughly at a party, mentions of biting ofc, mentions of bullying fr he’s a bitch, mentions of twilight and mbav, fluff at the end, love confession and kissing

My vampire reality is a combination between the Twilight universe and the My Babysitter’s A Vampire universe. Instead of being high school students, I scripted we were college students to make it better for everyone. When you shift you don’t have to struggle to find the remaining pieces of your memory and about your life, you already know it because it’s you.

I’m Alexandria Morgan, twin sister of Ethan Morgan and older siblings to Jane Morgan. My brother and I have been best friends with Benny as long as we can remember along with Rory. Even though.. we don’t hang out with Rory as often as we do with Benny, he still means a lot to us, we may just not show it often.. I tend to hang out with Rory a lot more than Ethan does.

When we were in High school we heard about the Cullens. We always saw them around at school and nobody really spoke to them, most people just saw them as untouchables or eye-candy. Unlike Bella though, she spoke to them around Senior year when she joined our school and got involved. Around the same time she started to be around them more often, Alice approached me right after I stepped out of class as if she knew when I would get out but I didn’t pay much attention to that detail besides she caught me off guard and scared me. She told me she wanted to become my friend because she should see us becoming good and close friends- like family.

I didn’t know what she meant then.

She wasn’t kidding that she could SEE US becoming good and close friends.

Anyhow- it was the normal high school experience, making friends, lose friends, drama on top of drama, drowning in school work, and falling in love.

I met Leehan shortly after I met Alice, Leehan Cullen to be exact. Probably the only Cullen out of everyone else to actually get out of of his way and talk to people and participate in things, which they never seemed to like.

The way he spoke to me, the way he presented himself to other people and how he acted around me and towards me had butterflies constantly in my stomach. I only had eyes for him for a year-

to now.

College has finally arrived and the first week was actually not as bad or scary as my friends and I assumed it would be. Most of my friends and I went to the same university which was an hour away from our town, Forks.

On weekends in college especially if you live on campus and live near by, most people like to go back home for the weekend to see their family or whatever they want to do. Which is exactly what all of us had planned

Or at least it was the original plan.

Friday evening came by, my friends and I were finished with classes and were all in my dorm, hanging out and trying to finish our homework before we go home tomorrow so we can have fun.

My roommate was my best friend, Jasper. The people who joined us were our small group, Ethan, Benny, Sarah, Erica, and Rory.

Rory ended up getting bored 2 and a half hours into it and left to go to the dining hall to eat dinner, Erica got a call from one of the guys she’s talking to and left as well, leaving us with the main group of us.

Suddenly I heard a knock at my door, I got up from where I was sitting and opened the door to find Sarah’s ex boyfriend, Jesse. I groaned and looked back at Sarah who immediately knew who it was from my groan.

“ fuck- “ I heard her groan from the living room before coming over to the door.

“ well hello there to you, beautiful “ Jesse said in a sarcastic tone as he stood in front of the door with a grin.

“ What are you doing here?” She asked with annoyance in her tone

“ Well~ I came here to talk to you about our agreement” He said as his grin was practically glued to his face, I rolled my eyes and stepped up to the door before Sarah put her hand up, stopping me from getting any closer to him.

“ It’s fine alex- I’m just gonna talk to him-“ Sarah stated as Ethan came up behind me quickly

“ are you sure you.. want to talk to him.. in the hallway..?” He asked and I nudged Ethan’s side and he whined.

“ why’d you do that for ?” He asked and I grabbed his wrist taking him into the living room

“ I think Sarah is grown enough to have a conversation by herself in the hallway with him, you don’t need to stalk everything she does” I said as I went to sit back on the couch.

Benny and Jasper laughed while Ethan stood in the room shocked before coming towards where we were in the living room

“ I don’t stalk.. everything she does !..” Ethan spoke as his volume grew more quieter and his face got more red

“ right.. keep telling yourself that “ Benny said as he rolled his eyes and patted his back

“ I don���t-“

“ just fucking sit down “ Jasper said with a laugh following afterwards

Before he could sit down, Sarah came back in the room in a sudden hurry.

“ hey guys- i’m sorry i have to go” She stated as she grabbed her books and etc. into her backpack before slipping the backpack onto her shoulder

“ what happened with Jesse?” I said as I got up, looking at her concerned

“ Nothing happened, he left but I forgot I have something, I have to go.” She said as she left QUICK, slamming the door behind her.

Everybody jumped from the sudden slam. We sat there for a minute to process what exactly happened.

I got up from the couch as I went to my room to put some shoes on and grabbing my phone, slipping it into my pocket

“ Hey- where the fuck are you going?” Jasper asked and I sighed

“ I don’t know what happened between her and Jesse and I’m gonna make sure she’s okay “ I stated

“ You’re right, I’ll go with you” Ethan said as he got up and quickly grabbing his phones and put his shoes on as well

Jasper and Benny followed along with Ethan doing the same thing before we all headed out into the night. We walked around the area for what felt like hours, it was really just 45 minutes. I held onto Benny as we walked around while Jasper and Ethan walked behind us, the roads were empty from how late in the night it was, few cars passing by and most shops were closed. I sighed.

“ maybe it really was nothing and she had plans” I stated looking over at Benny before looking back at Jasper and Ethan, everyone nodding along, besides Ethan.

Ethan shook his head and looked around the area

“ I don’t think.. I think she’s somewhere near by- don’t ask why I think that but I just do.. let’s just keep looking okay?” He said and we nodded slowly

I continued to walk side by side with Benny as he grabbed out his camera. He started to record our surroundings, trying to make light of the situation and acting like it was an aesthetic vlog before we stopped when we came across an alleyway. By this point we had gotten ahead of Ethan and Jasper as we walked around talking to each other.

“ do you see that..” Benny whispered as he looked into his camera and I shook my head, looking into the camera as we saw a figure in the dark alleyway, hovered over against the wall.. doing something?

“ what is that.. turn the flash on benny” I whispered back to him

“ I don’t have a flash on this camera” He glanced over at me and I quickly grabbed my phone, turning the flash on.

I wish I didn’t.

My jaw fell open, everything in the world fell silent suddenly as I felt my stomach drop.

“ what the fuck..” I whined in a soft tone, I couldn’t even look away even if I wanted to.

“ no fucking way..” Benny whispered as I felt his body become tense

“ guys what the fuck are you whispering about? you look scared out of your mind-“ Ethan said as he walked up behind us

“ shut up-..look..” Benny said as he grabbed Ethan and Jasper , trying to make them see in the camera was we saw in the distance of the alleyway.

“ there’s not-..OH.. MY.. GOSH..” Ethan exclaimed as he started to slowly walk backwards and Jasper grabbed onto me.

“ WHAT THE FUCK” Jasper exclaimed

Sarah was found in the alleyway, hovered over a bunch of trash bags that had been torn open and feeding from a rat. She quickly looked over at us with her blood covered mouth and sharp teeth out.

“ OH MY FUCKING GOSH” I stated as I started to run, holding onto both Benny and Jasper who ran along with me, mumbling a bunch of cuss words as they ran.

Ethan running ahead of us who had a running start when he started backing up.

“ MY CRUSH IS A FUCKING VAMPIRE-“ He exclaimed before a car sudden rushes and pulls up in front of us.

I screamed loudly, grabbing ethan backwards into us and holding Benny and Jasper back. I stood there, adrenaline rushing and pumping through my veins as my body was shaking from fear and anxiety.

My body was frozen.

Leehan quickly came out the car and I groaned loudly, letting go of Benny and Jasper as I walked over to him and pushed him back softly.

“ You fucking scared us ! Almost hit us by the way, Leehan !” I exclaimed and looked around panicked before looking over at him

“ I knew I wasn’t going to hit you- I’m sorry I scared you guys-“ He said as he looked over at everyone and Ethan groaned as he walked over to the car

“ We need to go- LIKE NOW” Ethan stated in a firm tone as everyone headed towards the car waiting for him to unlock it

“ Wait, wait, wait- what happened?” Leehan asked as he grabbed me and looked me in the eyes for a moment before looking at everyone else

My body froze again as he looked into my eyes, I looked at him for a minute before looking around at everyone again

“ Fucking Sarah..” Jasper mumbled

“ What about Sarah-“

“ Guys wait-!” I heard her voice behind us and I hid behind Leehan quickly

“ look guys I can explain..” Sarah said as she stopped in her tracks

“ You’re a fucking vampire !” Benny stated and I nodded my head

“ okay.. maybe I don’t have to explain that much..” She said as she looked down and sighed

“ I’m a vampire yes but.. I won’t hurt you guys.. i’m not even an actual vampire yet.. I’m a fledgling.. I don’t want to actually turn into one.. I don’t want to hurt a human- this agreement sucks !” She groaned loudly and threw her arms up

“ That’s what Jesse was talking about?” I started to slowly relax as I spoke to her

“ yeah.. he bit me in high school and said if I’m really committed to him I should turn into a vampire for him but now I feel like if I turn into one he’ll think I want him still- I don’t !” She said growing upset by the conversation and then sighed

“ just.. don’t tell anybody okay..?” She asked as she looked at everyone

“ but-“ Benny said as I looked back at them and he motioned to Leehan. My eyes widened and I looked at Leehan who looked a little too calm for a situation like this.

“ He already knows..” She said, rubbing the back of her back and I let go of him, looking over at him confused

“ You know already..? Why do you know before the rest of us that she’s a vampire?” I asked and he shrugged slowly

“ I just do- It’s a long story..” He sighed and went over to the car

“ I’ll take everyone back to the dorms”

The next day came by, sleeping that night was a little rough with all the information that was given to me and everything I had seen.

We left early to go back to our family house, which our mom was surprised we went back home for the weekend when she already knew we were planning on coming home anyways. As per usual, the day was filled hanging out with Benny, Rory and Jasper.

Night time fell and Rory got a phone call from a friend about a college party happening a couple minutes from our house.

“ It’s apart of the college life! We have to go to this party-! Come on guys..” He said as he started to put his shoes on while looking at us

“ Rory we have to watch our sister while our parents are out- we were gonna hang out here, remember?” I said looking at him confused as I sat on the couch

“ I remember but.. guys.. it’s a party..” He said as if that sentence would persuade us.

“ No Rory.. we can’t..” Ethan said as he shook his head and went into the Kitchen

Rory sighed and left the house.

30 minutes into us hanging out, there was bunch of knocks heard at the door. I looked around at everyone confused and nervous, Ethan quickly got up and opened the door to find Sarah who walked in hurriedly.

“ Guys I need help, like.. with.. what I told you..” Sarah said and Jane looked at us confused

“ What did you tell them?” She asked and sarah laughed awkwardly

“ About.. some stuff at college- which mentioning college, there’s a college party happening down the road and-“

“ Yeah we know about it, Rory just left to go there a few minutes ago” I stated as I looked at the time

“ WHAT? NO- Oh my goodness, GUYS MY EX BOYFRIEND IS HOSTING THAT PARTY.. WITH.. THE OTHERS.. AND THEY HAVE A PLAN” She said worriedly but trying to be careful with her words because of Jane.

I got up quickly and walked over to her

“ what do you mean they have a plan..” I whispered and she leaned in close to me

“ they are planning on getting a bunch of people to become vampires and make some sort of.. alliance..” She whispered to me and the guys and my eyes widened

“ fuck..” I looked around at them and sighed loudly

“ we have to go to that party- we have to save Rory”

“ and Erica ! She went to the fucking party and I told her not to” She groaned

“ but what about Jane” Ethan said as we looked back at her and she shrugged her shoulders

“ I’ll call Grandma to come watch me, I’ll be okay until she comes here” Jane said referring to Benny’s grandma who she’s known for the longest.

“ Alright let’s go then “ Benny said we all headed out behind Sarah and followed her to the college party.

“ fuck.. I have a bad feeling about this guys..” Ethan stated as we finally arrived outside the gates, looking around at everyone.

“ Well i’m going in because Erica’s my best friend “ Sarah said before hopping over the gate fence.

“ I care a lot about Rory, so we need to go get him or i’ll go alone I don’t care. “ I said looking at Jasper, Ethan and Benny

“ I’ll go with you, I can’t let you go alone.” Jasper said as he started to climb the fence and I nodded my head, following behind him.

I looked back and saw Benny and Ethan climbing over the fence after us and mumbling to themselves.

“ you look outside and I’ll go inside and look for him okay? or if you find erica that would be good too” I said before separating ways from Jasper.

I made my way through the people and finally made it inside the house. There was LOADS OF PEOPLE EVERYWHERE, I sighed to myself. This isn’t gonna be easy.

I walked around the house and grabbed a drink to blend in with everyone. I glanced over to notice Sarah with Jesse, which she looked very uncomfortable and not happy with her current situation. I quickly made my way over, putting my drink down before I shoved him.

“ Leave her alone already” I groaned

“ Stop don’t get invol-!” She exclaimed but it was too late.

He grabbed my wrist tightly and turned me around against his body and held my tightly against him. He grabbed my both of my wrist as his other arm wrapped around my body leaving me just squirming around in his grasp. I groaned loudly and threw my head back on his shoulder.

“ Let me fucking go” I mumbled in a deep tone of voice as I continued to try and wiggle out of his grasp.

“ I know you know what I am already, to see you try and get out of this is so fucking funny, isn’t it? “ He joked around and laughed as he looked around at everyone

“ let her go, Jesse !” Sarah exclaimed as she stomped before grabbing at his arm that held me before she got shoved away.

“ But why? this is so much fun” He said with a laugh.

“ Let her fucking go, Jesse” I heard Leehan’s voice echo from somewhere in the crowd. My eyes looked everywhere for him until they caught him

“ Aw look who finally showed up to one of my functions~ I told you that you would fit in right with us but no.. you became a Cullen” He laughed again and shook me in his arms

“ I don’t want to be apart of.. whatever you guys are..” Leehan said as he stepped closer to us while Jesse stepped back

“ Right..” Jesse started as I started to feel his grip on my wrist, loosening.

“ because everything you are,a vampire and all..is because of those Cullens- you would be nothing without them-“ He said and I couldn’t handle hearing any more of anything he had to say about Leehan.

I elbowed him in the stomach, which wasn’t a good idea for me.

Jesse groaned loudly as he grabbed my body in a tighter grip than before, holding me close to him. Everything happened so fast in a blink of an eye.

“ JESSE DON’T-“ Leehan exclaimed as I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my neck, feeling his teeth sink into me.

He dropped my body onto the floor as I winced and whined loudly in pain, grabbing my neck where he bit as I sat on the floor. Leehan quickly came to my side, grabbing me and holding me close to his side. As I started to feel my hand become wet, I pulled my hand away from my neck and looked down at it to see blood. I looked up at Leehan worriedly and for a second he looked at me worriedly too, but only for a second before his facial expression looked like he longed for something else and I knew it was my blood.

I looked around and saw Ethan, Jasper, And Benny run in at the same time and immediately stopped in their tracks at the back door.

“ Don’t do it, Leehan !” I heard a familiar voice and looked in the direction of the voice and saw Edward come in with Carlisle.

“ You don’t have to turn her, you know that. Hold yourself back.” Carlisle said with a firm voice and Leehan looked at me again before looking away and groaned

“ what do I do then..! t-this is really hard Carlisle!” Leehan said as he closed his eyes tight.

I put my hand on my neck and I sighed, my body felt off. Carlisle came over and grabbed into his bag to grab a bandage

“ Well wait a second there !” Jesse laughed and he walked up closer, he looked down at us with a grin

“ but he does have to do something.. they have a certain blood type that makes them.. incredibly weak as a fledgling” Jesse said as he crossed his arms and I huffed

“ you’re.. full of it..” I stated as I made my way to stand up only to immediately fall onto my knees.

When I stood up my entire body had a rush of lightheadedness and I felt weak. I groaned and laid back on Leehan, fluttering my eyes to gain back a little consciousness from almost fainting as he held me, he felt tense.

“ fuck.. you have that type blood..?” Carlisle asked me and I nodded my head slowly

“ He’s right Leehan.. you have to turn her into a vampire..” He stated and I looked up at Leehan as he finally looked at me in the eyes.

His eyebrows furrowed in as he looked at me, he bit his bottom lip nervously while nodding his head

“ are you.. okay with that..?” He asked as he placed his hand behind my head carefully, prepping himself.

I looked around at my friends and my brother before i looked back at him and nodded my head.

“ yeah.. i’m okay with that..”

is all I remember being completely passing out and waking up in somebody else’s bed and somebody’s house that wasn’t anything that i’ve ever seen or been familiar with.

I groaned as I sat up from the position i was sleeping in before I heard Leehan quickly come into my room

“ she’s awake !” He said before laying next to me in bed, holding my hand.

“ hey- so where am I ?” I asked and he laughed awkwardly

“ you’re at my house.. and this is my room..” He said as I looked around taking in the situation and nodded my head slowly

“ so what happened” I asked and he looked down at my hands

Before he could talk I pointed into the hallway and noticed Alice looking into the room

“ Alice- She’s listening in” I said and he nodded his head

“ yeah it’s okay, my family is.. we’re all vampire.. but we aren’t really.. a family like brother and sister.. it’s complicated “ He said and Alice laughed as she walked in

“ right..well what happened was you got bit by Jesse and Leehan had to bite your neck again and everything to turn you into a vampire because you were really weak.. Carlisle suggested to your brother and your friends to stay here because.. we’re all vampires so he knows how to check in on you and you’re good” She explained and smiled as she held my hand

When she held my hand my body jumped, I felt a rush and saw what felt like was a movie trailer. I saw me and alice being close as friends and being able to see us being vampires and using our abilities. I came back to reality, Alice and I looked at each other and shocked and she smiled warmly at me, giggling.

“ that was your first huh?” She said before looking at Leehan who rolled his eyes jokingly

“ don’t tell me-“ he said before getting cut off by alice

“ she has the same powers as me- but.. she also has something else..?” She stated before looking at the window then back at me

“ Can you open the blinds but.. don’t touch it.. just.. uhm.. think about opening it..think about.. how you open it” Alice said carefully and I looked at her confused but followed what she said anyways

I stared at the blinds and thought about how any person would open blinds, nothing happened for a few minutes and I groaned. Leehan comfortingly rubbed my thigh as I started to think about it again and slowly the blinds started to roll up all the way. My eyes widened after the fact and I looked at the both of them shocked.

“ well fuck” Leehan said as he patted my leg

“ she can control things AND see the future “ Alice said with a smile before getting up

“ I need to tell the others” She said before walking out the room excitedly

I sat in silence taking in everything that has BEEN happening, I laughed to myself and Leehan laughed too.

“ Kinda a lot right? You just woke up and you’re a vampire now with powers and.. you’re in a house of vampires right now..” Leehan said as he looked down shyly and I nodded my head

“ a little.. but this is life now.. so I’ll get used to it” I said as I looked over at him with a small smile

“ I know I had to get used to it fast especially living with these guys who have been vampires for years..” He said and laughed

“ so.. I need to ask..” I hesitated and he looked at me

“ you were there the other night in the street all the sudden in your car.. and you were there last night all the sudden at the party..” I said hoping he knew what I was wanting to ask

“ right..” He laughed awkwardly and sat up, rubbing the back of his neck

“ I..I like you Alex.. I like you a lot.. maybe a lot more than I really should right now.. and.. I just.. I can’t stay away from you” He stated as he looked everywhere besides my eyes

I smiled, my face heated up a bit as he spoke and I grabbed his hand before I went to grab his face softly to look at me in the eyes

“ I uh.. don’t stay away from me please.. like ever again.. or ever..” I laughed and looked away for a minute

“ I like you too and I always have ever since High school and I met you that day..” I confessed, before glancing over at the door laughing to see Alice and Edward watching in, Leehan laughed and shook his head.

“ please close the door” He whispered to me before I shrugged my shoulders

“ sorry guys” I said as I put my focus on the door, doing the same process as before, leehan grabbing me close which cause the door to slam.

“ fuck-“ I jumped and laughed as I looked over at Leehan again who laughed as well

“ did I do that?” He asked and I nodded slowly

“ I think you did..you grabbed me.. like now when i did that..” I said shyly and he smiled

“ can I ask something..” He said in a soft tone as we looked into each others eyes finally

“ yeah..?” I replied back softly as my eyes trailed down to his lips

“ can you be my girlfriend..?” He asked softly, I could feel his breath hit my face, he was so close.

“ Yes.. of course..” I responded back in a whisper

“ can I ask something else..?” Leehan chuckled softly and I nodded smiling softly

“ please do it already..” I said with a giggle and he held me close, wrapping one arm around my body as the other held behind my head, our lips finally touching as we kissed.

With him by my side? Maybe this new life won’t be so bad..

[mortalityplays]

Only tangentially related to today's ask discourse but I was thinking about this- do you have advice on pushing more out of your comfort zone ie media? I feel like its really easy to say you like or want stuff thats making you uncomfortable or is less palatable to wide audiences etc etc but I have trouble going out of my way to actually experience things like that over more popcorn you know

a good way to start if you're intimidated is to look for curated recommendations close to your cultural comfort zone (I'm focusing on US/UK lists here but you can look for recommendations from museums, libraries, and national award bodies just about anywhere in the world). e.g. the BFI Sight & Sound list or the National Film Registry (for movies), Booker Prize or National Book Award winners for literature

Don't feel like you have to watch/read everything all at once, it's fine to skim for something that sounds particularly up your street and start there. It's also fine to jump right into something intimidating and find out what all the fuss is about! the absolute worst case scenario is that you're bored or underwhelmed and can pick something else next time.

a lot of my film knowledge comes from when I was at university. I discovered that there was an A/V library and viewing room on campus that I could use for free l, so I just looked through the catalogue and started picking out things I'd never seen that sounded interesting. every day between classes I'd go, pick a title, and spend a couple of hours giving it a try. I watched Blade Runner for the first time in a darkened basement booth with headphones on, and The Cabinet of Dr Caligari, and Wild Strawberries, and Persepolis, and countless other weird and wonderful things. sometimes I picked something incredibly boring or something that annoyed me, but I always came away feeling good that I'd expanded my knowledge of what was out there.

once you do start finding new things you like, a whole other path opens up to you. you can dig deeper into the work of one writer or director or actor, look up interviews and find out who inspired them. if you loved a specific book, see if the author mentioned any direct influences, or if critics compared it to something else you might enjoy. you get to start building these maps in your head and getting a sense for where different things fit, and it becomes easier and easier to hunt for hidden treasures.

finally! if you can find a group of friends (or even just one person) who is interested in taking this journey with you, start a club. take turns to pick something you want to explore, share the journey, and discuss it as you go along. keep sight of your purpose, whether that's to broaden your horizons beyond your home culture, take on more challenging works, or just be better informed. take it a step at a time, and learn to enjoy the experience of exploration even when you don't like something. figuring out why we hated Lady Chatterley's Lover is some of the most fun I've had with our book club yet. introducing friends to The Left Hand of Darkness and getting hype about it with them was just as good. love the process and you'll change your life.

[this-is-krikkit]

Hey, Kit! I'm here for the writing game and I'm here to play correctly the first time, lol. Please answer these: ✅🌅⛔️

i'm proud of you, Star, you did wonderful on this very first try! hahaha👏

thanks for playing the fic writing ask game!

✅ list one or two favorite lines you’ve written and explain why they’re your favorite

from The Momentum Principle, i'm gonna go with, in chapter 3:

Levi being beautiful was nothing new; in fact, that was a pretty well-known consensus around campus that Hange was not going to argue with. But Levi looking this relaxed, his forehead devoid of its habitual frown, his thick eyelashes falling delicately against his cheekbones, his lips moving slightly as his dreams possibly reflected something similar to the dangerous path Hange’s thoughts were taking… “I can feel you staring, weirdo.”

i love it, because that's one of my favorite things to write (or read, really): one character being grossly in love with another, and something or someone (esp if that someone is the object of my character's affections) completely ruining the moment. i think it perfectly reflects how cruel real life can be when you're busy crushing on someone and pining instead of being upfront about it... this scene isn't based on my own experience SHUDDUP and i'm a big fan of any kind of plot twist, no matter how minor!

🌅 do you typically known the ending to something before you start writing it?

i'd say... 50/50? sometimes i do, and the whole point is to try and Get There, and boy can that be tedious. but equally as often, i have not one fucking clue, and i just let the words take me where they want to go!

i do mostly know where my long, multichapters fics are going. mostly. or do i? aaaaaaaaaaaah!!

⛔️ whats something you try to avoid in your work?

being repetitive! both literally, although i feel like i have around 400 words of english vocabulary nowadays so like i can't completely avoid it, and figuratively: i'm terrified of writing two (or more) fics that are super similar and only realizing it after i've posted both... which happened to me very recently, because i have no memory of even my own fucking works.......... ugh. i feel like i'm just a boring old person who keeps repeating themself over and over again 😭

[skyrim-forever]

EVE! HELLO!

From the "Firsts" list...

Might I please get a 2 for Theo

An X for Theo and Ondolemar

And a 🔥 (First time writing romance/spicy scenes, and how you felt about it) for you?

Hello Winter <3 <3 <3 Thank you so much!

2. First time meeting their best friend

Theo's first time meeting Phy happens when she's 11. around this time her father is doing a lot of totally legitimate business in Northern Valenwood. Theo begs him to take her along because she's bored of always staying in Anvil, save for the few trips she has made around Cyrodiil. She wants to get out of the province, go somewhere different! So he brings her along and while stopping to purchase new armour and materials from a bosmer leatherwork he's bought from a lot, he introduces her to this woman and her daughter. Ricardo was a very proud father so this woman already knew a bit about Theo. Turns out her daughter is the same age and while they talk shop, the girls get to know each other. Theo's first impression of Phy is that she's cool, she lives in the woods with her mom, she knows all the plants, the best hiding spots, etc. Phy asks about where her mother is and she's like "I don't have a mother" and Phy's like "I don't have a father." That's it, they are besties bound together by missing a parent. Now that Theo has a friend here, she gets to come back with her father a lot <3

X. First major hardship they got through together

This is a tough one because the whole relationship is not premitted so they have that hanging over them as their feelings start to develop. But as a consequence of that, the Rulindil situation happens. Which I have written about here. It starts off with them thinking its under control but then things spiral. Theodora goes through a traumatic experience but at least Ondolemar is there to help her as much as he can. Need to write the third part and how their relationship changes.

🔥 - First time writing romance/spicy scenes, and how you felt about it

My first fic was a smut fic actually! I had been wanting to write fanfic and then the Skyrim Tumblr Sexyman Poll happened and people were shipping Teldryn/Serana and someone had put out asking for someone to write a fic. So I thought Hey! Just go for it! What's the worst that can happen!

I wrote it in public, at a library on campus. I struggled as you'd expect but oddly enough, my background in linguistics helped me. I started to look at it as just data, it's just words and throughout my grad studies I have seen all kinds of language. I particularly used to work on stories and they were not all appropriate haha. So I just did it and since then it's been easier! I really like using smut as a way to explore different themes and it's also one of my favourite things to read for this reason also im a degenerate but y'all knew that

[fishys-still-writing-smut]

PJ’s Kaede AND Miu… with Kokichi walking in on the fat assed gyaru’s 🤭

Warning: lewd content below

“My my my, what do we have here?”

“W-what the hell are you doing twerp?!?” Miu was shocked at Kokichi's sudden entrance. Both her and Kaede were completely bottomless, the pianist even bent over at the time he barged in.

“I was bored, so I decided to go lock picking. And aren't I lucky. You both need my help after all.” He used both of his hands to slap both blonde’s asses before gripping them with a surprising amount of force. “How about I help you both put those pajamas on?”

—------

“This isn't helping, this is anal sex!”

“Whoops, my bad! Silly me.” Kokichi said with an evil smirk as he continued to ram Miu's asshole with his cock. The inventor was bent over with her face against her mattress as she lifted her ass up in the air for Kokichi's personal use. Meanwhile, Kaede layed down under the pair, using her mouth to service Kokichi's nuts. She sucked in his ball sack while massaging her breasts, patiently waiting her turn.

“Fuck. You're so fucking big. Fuck me harder!” Miu begged as she received a pounding like never before. She screamed into the bed while gripping the sheets tight.

“Huh? Close already slut? I barely even started.” While teasing her Kokichi began rubbing her pussy. He increased his pace and fucked her faster while at the same time using his skilled fingers to massage Miu's pussy. It all overwhelmed the poor girl until-

“Fuuuuuuuuck!” Miu screamed as she came all over Kokichi's fingers. Kokichi slowly pulled out, allowing the bitch to slump down on the bed as she panted heavily.

“That just leaves you.” Kokichi licked his lips as he turned to his left. Kaede, who had previously been pleasuring him, was on all fours, twerking her fat ass like a prooer porn star. She gave herself a nice hard spank before winking, openly inviting herself to be dominated.

—---------

“Oh my god you're amazing!” Kaede cried as she rode Kokichi's cock. She didn't bother with the illusion that he would help her put on clothes, so she simply threw them on to a sleeping Miu’s body. Now she could ride him with reckless abandon, while also giving him a pretty nice view of her ass.

“Wow, even thought I'm fucking your pussy your still waaaaay tighter than the cum dumpster sleeping over there.” Kokichi snickered as he laid back and watched as the bimbo broke herself on his thick dick.

“R-really? T-thank you. Please, praise me more.” Kaede bashfully requested, feeling a new sick fetish unlock within her.

“What's the magic word?”

“F-faster!”

“Good girl.” Kokichi smirked as Kaede increased her pace for him, panting like a dog. “Let's see, you got the thickest ass on campus. And also the biggest boobs that look ever larger in that slutty vest of yours. Plus, I now know for sure that your pussy is waaay better than that other slut. No wonder every guy wants to fuck you!”

“E-every guy?”

“Oh yeah. If you're really a slut for praise just ask. I bet you could even convince them to share if it means a chance to use your sexy body. Although…” Kokichi suddenly began rapidly thrusting inside of Kaede. “I'm claiming you first!”

“Yes! Fuck me! I'm in love with your big dick!”

“You're going to love what comes out of it more~.”

“Yes. Oh my god. Fuck I'm so close. Please cum in me. Cuminmecuminmecuminmecuminme!”

Splurt!

Kaede's constant begging was rewarded as she felt Kokichi's warm cum shoot inside of her. She fell off his dick and laid on her back, still high off the experience. She was still orgasming from the sensation of having his load inside of her. Kokichi took a good look at the gyarus before laughing maniacally. He had the best idea.

—--------

“I-I can't believe we're doing this.” Miu blushed as the three walked to class together. Kokichi's genius idea was for them to walk to school together wearing matching pajamas. And just pajamas. Miu blushed at people staring at her more pronounced rack, her hard nipples visible through the cheap fabric.

“I-I don't completely hate it.” Kaede muttered. She'd already received 9 cat calls, 6 whistles, 5 “damn”’s, 2 surprise spanks and chest gropes, and someone even pantsed her! As a newly realized attention whore, she was loving Kokichi's idea way more than she was willing to admit.

“C'mon, it's not that bad.” Kokichi smirked. The main reason the girls agreed was because Kokichi also went without underwear today, his meaty cock bulge clearly visible and only guarded by a single thing button. “Besides, I can even show off the new symbols of friendship we got.” With one fell swoop, Kokichi pulled down both of their pants, to reveal their new ass tattoos. One word on each cheek that read:

“Kokichi's property.”

Despite Kokichi's reputation, you had to give it to him here; he definitely wasn't lying about that!

[kbridgelain]

why did I leave university of lynchburg february 10th? (a sh*t show story)

I'm replacing all the names of the people who were actually in this story but here it goes. I originally sent this to the professors I connected with to explain why I left in full detail.

There are 4 parts to this:

"Leaving"

"I'm here"

"somewhere new"

"what's the plan"

Lets go

LEAVING

On February 10th, I left the University of Lynchburg. I left behind the majority of my things, packed up as much of my car as possible, and didn't say goodbye to anyone. 

That day, I woke up and saw little bite marks on my hands. It had happened from time to time that semester since I had moved into a different house, but I didn’t pay it any mind. I did the normal routine and went to class. Then I went to lunch and talked with my friends and my professor. I went to my last class feeling drained and bored. Around 2 pm, I headed back to my house, and when I walked into my room, there was something there for me. Winged termites. They were all over my bed, my pillows, the walls, the floor, and the windowsill that was made of wood. I thought back to when I moved in and noticed the tiny holes in the wood.

Winged fucking Termites.

That's what caused the bite marks on my body. They were the same little bugs I had seen from time to time. Their wings were shed everywhere. I lost it. I was in a fit of rage. I threw away all my bedding and pillows. My bed was the next thing I would’ve thrown out, but I went for a walk on a trail in the woods to get my mind off things and calm down. I sat next to the creek and I asked myself,

"Is this really the day I leave?”

Yes.

When I came back from my walk, I began to pack my things. I packed what I needed and a few extra things I love. I felt excited to leave things behind and start anew. I didn’t leave only because of the termites. During my entire college career, I had questioned myself whether this is really what I want to do. My areas of study are all topics that I love learning about, but modern education isn’t for me. Mixing that doubt with the traumatic experiences I had endured at the University was all the more reason to leave. I felt like I couldn’t heal staying in Lynchburg. I had been feeling stagnant ever since my Junior year when shit really hit the fan in my life. There were people I was seeing every day that I didn’t want to see. It made it harder to focus on beginning anew. Old wounds were still festering because of the inescapable small-scale classes, campus, and cliques. Don’t get me wrong, when I first came to Lynchburg, that’s what I loved most. Everything felt personable, especially being part of a team. But a few immature boys can change that really quickly, especially when they all gossip like school girls. It makes a girl feel like she can’t be herself or even breathe correctly. The people I met at Lynchburg are what made me love it, but also hate it. Some of those people are lifelong friends, and some of those people are just outdated things I’m working through and healing wounds from. So I made a radical decision because I was in need of radical change. Also, I had let Residence Life know that day with photos about what happened, and they never emailed me back, so if I had stayed, I’m not sure what I would have done. I wasn’t going to stay in a big infested room either way. While I packed, I texted my friend and let her know what had gone down that day.

Kayla:

I want to run away 

Just live in the woods

Fuck

aaron:

Same here naked and alive

Kayla:

On god

What if I did

aaron

You have no idea how close I am 

Kayla (A few hours later): 

I’m doing it 

I’m deadass in my car driving to Florida 

You can’t tell anyone 

aaron:

Wait whatttt

While I’m in the car, I originally planned to pass by my friend's place in daytona Beach to get some things I had left behind from an earlier visit. The initial destination was Key West, Florida. I let him know.

Kayla:

I ran away

Might be leaving the country 

I’ll be by to get my things 

On my way to Key West 

donna:

Are you ok?

Kayla:

Intense derealization 

But yes 

I actually feel great 

I know I’ll upset some people

But I can’t do this anymore 

This fake life 

donna:

As long as your heart, mind, gut are all in connection of what you want. You gotta do you

Kayla:

I feel giddy doing this 

But thank you 

I’ll be there around 8am

Maybe 9 

Here are pictures of the winged termites I sent to Housing, Registrar, and Student Accounts.

"i'M HERE"

At 6:51 am on Tuesday, February 11th, I arrived at his house. After a long night of driving, I was exhausted, and he was kind enough to let me extend my unnoticed stay for a few days while I figured out my next move. That Thursday, I set out to figure things out. I wasn’t in any rush to get to Cassadaga that day. I was interested in exploring the town of Cassadaga since I heard the people who live there claim to be psychic. First, I went to get coffee from my favorite coffee shop in the area, then to the public library, and then to the farmers market. The first stand I see at the farmers market is a woman selling handmade jewelry. I felt drawn to speak with her, and so we did for 30 minutes more or less. I had told her what my plans were. I told her I planned to go down to Key West and start working anywhere while growing cannabis on the side, since I had wanted to do so for a while. I felt like my soul had known hers for so long. She felt like a guide. She told me, “Come back next Thursday and I guarantee I’ll have something for you that can help.” And so I trusted her and stuck around in daytona Beach and explored the area. In those 7days, I started at Cassadaga exploring the psychic town, but had felt like it wasn’t my place. It was beautiful and quiet, but didn’t feel right. Those 7 days, I stayed at Tomoka State Park in a tent site. I set up my bed inside my car and went through intense realizations in those moments with myself. I’m grateful for all the wisdom I receive when I listen to what I need and when I sit still with all that surrounds me. I stared at the sunrises and sunsets. I was at the beach every day. I observed the trees and the water. I let myself feel. I dreamt. I processed. I cried. The next Thursday, on the 20th, I visited Katie at her stand and told her about the odyssey I had. I got a job at a surf shop within those 7 days and continued to look at places that I’d like to move into. We talked for about 45 minutes, and she had information for me about a place to live. The money to pay for an apartment was never a problem, but for some reason, it felt off to stay in the area. There was something else. Afterwards, I went back to my friends’ house to pick up some things and then spent my day doing fun things before I headed back to Tomoka for the last night. The next day, I toured around my options and decided I didn’t want to be here. I didn’t want to be in the United States. So I asked my friend.

Kayla:

If I left the country could you take me to the airport 

donna:

When and what airport 

I love when my friends support me in my crazy ideas. So I booked the flight and then told my parents and siblings. They took it well knowing that I’m a free flowing person and it isn’t out of this world that I would do something like that. They supported me the best they could by connecting me to my family in Honduras. That’s where I would be going. Trujillo, Colon, Honduras. My mother and sister were emotional about my shotgun decision. 

They shed tears while asking me if I was okay. I said I was okay, but quite frankly, I wasn’t okay. I told them I had felt called to go to Honduras, which was true, but I also wanted to disappear completely. I wanted to go somewhere no one knew me. I wanted to start over. I wanted to let go of the heavy pain I had been feeling.

 In those 5 days and 4 nights, I prepared myself for a massive lifestyle shift. I was coming to terms with my end here. I was presented with powerful grief and powerful joy in those days. I went to the beach, I sat in the sun, I relaxed, I dreamt, I worked on my art, I laughed with my friend, and I ate good food. I indulged those last few days in what it is to be human. The little luxuries we are presented with in an industrialized world like accessible marijuana, a television, coffee shops, a running shower, a washing machine, a Publix market, and a variety of snack brands.

 On my last day in the States, my mom came to pick up my car. She arrived at the airport and we set off on our day. My beloved Land Rover was leaving me, but I was also saying goodbye to my mom. She’s quite an emotional woman, so it was difficult for her to come to terms with my departure. We did a few activities, got some food, and I showed her around town. I booked a hotel so that she could leave for Virginia the next morning by car. At around 6 pm, we said goodbye to one another. 

That last night in the States, I indulged in my vices. My friend and I smoked a blunt with all the keef (kief, marijuana that has been ground donnan to a powder and is much more potent) I had accumulated at the bottom of my grinder. (I know none of this is important, but it adds character and entertainment to this long explanation.) We went for a walk on the beach with his dog. The sky above the sea was always a spectacular view. The stars and the dark comforted me. I took my shoes off to feel those waters one more time. His rottweiler joined me and ran into the water with curiosity. I looked out into the water and the darkness. I felt one with the void before me, the ocean that seems infinite. It all made me feel intense euphoria for the moment I was in.

I was closing one chapter of my life and starting a new one while being so effortlessly present in the moment. When we came back, we said goodnight, and I took in everything one last time.

 The morning came soon as we both woke up at 4 am, so that he could drive me to the airport, which was an hour away. On the way there, we hot-boxed the car and sat in so much silence. I enjoyed it, I needed it. I was coming to terms with one end and excited for what was to come in Honduras. The silence and peace I feel when I am alone feels the same with my friend as it does with so many who understand how to be here now. Presence. When I arrived at the airport, we said our final goodbyes and I chartered off eagerly on my next adventure. 

Picture of my parked car at Tomoka state park:

"SOMEWHERE NEW"

On February 25th, I arrived at San Pedro Sula airport in Honduras. It was around 1 pm when I arrived, and there was an air of newness as I walked outside. My cousins, whom I had never met, were waiting outside the airport for me.

Wendy and Noe.

There was also a taxi that my uncle had paid for to make sure we got to our destination safely. My parents wanted to make sure I was safe wherever I went since crime is higher in Honduras, and I had never been there before.

We had an 8-hour car ride ahead of us, and I did all I could to observe everything new around me. The rows of sky-high coconut trees, the lawless roads, the vendors on every corner, the “buenas” welcoming we received everywhere we went, and the friendly stray dogs that roamed everywhere. When we arrived at Trujillo, it was 10 pm, and I was exhausted from a long day of traveling. I

was trying my best to stay in the moment and maintain an attitude of appreciation despite making such a big change. I wanted to make this change. I felt like I needed a change. Every day, there was something that killed my ego and taught me something. Every day gave me something to appreciate, no matter how small it may seem to people here in the States who are privileged with material things.

Throughout my 9 days, I met more people who felt like guides in my life, and I received wisdom from people who understood how to be present in each moment.

Going to the ocean every day was my favorite part. I went day and night almost every day. I felt cleansed of my past by the salt in the water. There was a deep knowing that Trujillo would be my home in the near future.

Everywhere you go in Latin American countries, you are always greeted, whether you are known or not. The humanity of people is more present in countries that don’t put as much emphasis on material things.

The culture of the United States is what was crushing me. People everywhere here try to live nonchalantly as if it is cool not to care, and I am not that way. I am a passionate person, and I felt suffocated to partake in something that felt so fake. People shy away from feeling things completely here in the States. They think focusing on themselves and making money and staying busy, and being physically appealing is the new wave. Focusing on the self should be more on the energy you bring to each setting and less about how you look when showing up to each setting.

There is a passionate energy everywhere you go in Trujillo. People want to speak to their neighbors, and music is playing wherever you go. I enjoyed the nightlife and dancing of my culture. Punta, bachata, merengue, reggaeton, and cumbia. I was sweating and smiling while I danced with my cousins at the famous Coco Pando club on the beach. Looking at the moonlight dancing on the water at night was one of my favorite things.

I swam in the water on my last night in Trujillo and floated on my back while I looked at the stars. I knew I would be back soon, but I didn’t know what I would be doing yet.

I felt blessed to be in any setting, despite the poverty I saw my family living in. I knew there was something I could do to help when I came back. I knew there was something wrong with the way we lived in the United States since I was young.

There is a deep disconnection from nature in the United States because of the importance people put on capitalism, their careers, and material things. Every country can be self-sustaining and live in a in a way that conserves the environment instead of neglecting it.

Honduras could be a self-sustaining country if capitalism weren’t shoved down its throat at every turn. The only reason Honduras is considered underdeveloped, like many other countries, is that they don’t put so much emphasis on modern industrialization and capitalism.

Their way of living is more in tune with nature. Of course, there are things to develop, like their waste management system and environmental sustainability education. Just as all these prepackaged products are new to them, so is the knowledge of what is bad for the environment and what is not.

I originally planned to stay in Honduras for good, but I knew there were things in the States I had to set straight.

For one, I had to see my sister and my dad, and my friends I left behind. I irish goodbyed almost everyone. They deserve at least a proper goodbye before I move back to Honduras. 

Some picture of Honduras:

"WHAT'S THE PLAN"

I returned to the States on March 5th and stayed with my sister in Manhattan, Kansas, for two weeks. During that time, I had to adjust to the cold weather, flatlands, and lack of greenery. I adjusted to being bored, but through that boredom, I found the time to think about what I wanted to do when I returned to Honduras. I knew I wanted to do something to help the people in the community of Trujillo. I wanted to bring more closeness and hope to their world. I’ve decided to establish a nonprofit organization once I return. The main purpose of the nonprofit is to improve their waste management and to bring awareness to the state of their environment. Many people do not have enough money to pay for their garbage to be picked up each week, as they have to pay extra apart from their property taxes. The idea is that people pick up trash in exchange for services. People who do not have enough money for their trash to be picked up (most people) dig holes in any clear space and light fires with their trash. I have even seen children do this. People should have easy access to waste management. People should not be living in their trash or breathing in the fumes of their trash. The services are English lessons or Sports coaching. People can pick up either plastic, aluminum, or glass in exchange for these classes, and the items will be exported to a recycling company either in Honduras or in the United States. People also usually do not have enough money to pay for English lessons. English is sometimes offered in schools, but it isn’t consistent since teachers end up leaving. This is to advocate for a cleaner and more sustainable Earth. I will be preparing a formally written plan for the complete idea of the non-profit, and I will be sending it out to friends, family, former teammates, mentors, and professors to let them know my plans. Involvement could range from donating slightly used sports equipment (and other basic necessities like clothing and shoes) to volunteering some of your time to come and teach English or a sport in Honduras.

The land my mother owns in Trujillo is expansive and self-sustaining with coconut, mango, cacao, plantain, and avocado trees already planted. There is room for more to grow and we have the ability to share our abundance with the community around us. 

With the land, my mother and I also plan to have hostel stays for tourists to visit, along with a restaurant and gift shop that will include goods from local artisans. The land would also be used as an event space for the community of Capiro (each neighborhood has a name. Capiro is the name of my neighborhood.). People would be able to host events for teaching beyond a language or a sport. The space will be used to showcase art and music, both local and international. The space will be used for celebration and to connect different worlds. 

It will be a safe space for ideas to be exchanged and for people of all backgrounds to connect with one another and with nature. The community here deserves to be noticed and appreciated for their craftsmanship and creativity. 

The natural world in Honduras deserves to be preserved and protected. I have the ability to bridge two different worlds. They can both teach one another different sides of life, different philosophies, and ideas. Every day we are alive should be a celebration of life. 

We should not be spending our days busy and worried about material things. Focusing on the kindness and unconditional love we extend to one another can create a new world. James Baldwin once said, “Love has never been a popular movement.” In this life, I’d like to promote love and harmony wherever I go. I’d like to live in harmony with the people of this world and the earth itself. We are a part of nature, and this is my way to show my love for the wild. I have said many times before that nature, this earth, and the universe itself are the closest things to god for me. I do not have a religion, but I feel I have a duty, as do all of us, to take care of this planet the best I can. A happy planet will result in happy people. The Earth gives us all that we need, so we must respect her. 

This journey I have been on has been a wild one, and I’ve had to look deep within myself to figure out what is important to me. My spirit has guided me to so many places, and now I am here, ready to give my labor of love to preserving what I can while teaching others to do the same. 

I will be in touch and I will be sharing my plan with you all soon. I appreciate your help throughout my years at Lynchburg and what I have learned has not been taken for granted. Modern education is not for me. I learned a different way of learning through the people I meet, the places I go, and the experiences I have. 

I have been in Roanoke, Virginia, since March 19th. I arrived from Kansas with a dream, and since then, I have been developing details even more. I have been staying at my stepfather's house and spending time with my family here before I leave. I went to Lynchburg in late March to see my friends. I also went to the registrar and student accounts to see if I’d be able to get a refund, and they denied my request, although I withdrew on February 10th. But there was no surprise there. Taking my focus away from that has led me to even better opportunities.I’m hoping for the best. I’m looking forward to it, all of it. I know it will take some time and alignment to get established, but I’m ready for it. 

Until then, I’ll continue to respect the Earth and receive its divine guidance. I know I may sound like a kooky hippie, but I guess I’m happy this way. I hope you’ll be able to see this plan flourish or that you’ll be able to partake in any way you can. Let me know if you have any questions. I’d be happy to share more details. I’m sending you all peace and love. Thank you all. 

Shtty quality picture i took of the blood moon in march:

I hope someone finds this story to be useful in some way.

[webslingingslasher]

i’m gonna admit something, i’ve never dated anyone fr i had a situation ship that wasn’t great at all. but i’m scared to date. i’m not the normal 20 year old, i had to take 2 gap years and i’ve been through more than the average 20 year old. and people just don’t wanna date people who have never done anything.

like i live next to the university campus so it’s not hard for dates and stuff but i just feel so disconnected you know. no one wants to hear about a 20 year old girl who only works and does boring shit with her friends bc i also don’t party (none of my friends do). and i’m shit at talking to people

when you see people around you more experianced or having sex you think EVERYONE is doing it and you're the odd one out. you're not.

twenty is a very normal age to have no experiance and it's a lot more common than you think. you're twenty, you're still so young. if you count 18 as being an adult well... you have two whole years of experiance. you're a two year old!

i'm only a few years older than you but i can offer this one piece of advice, stop putting an age on things. everyone, and i mean everyone is on their own timeline. there are things you will accomplish your friends won't for years, there are things your friends have accomplished that you haven't yet and that's okay!

i had someone come in the other day at work and i was helping her with some colors and we got to chatting about her husband and how lovely he was. she was his second marriage, he was her first.

they didn't get married until she was fourty and she didn't feel like she wasted a day before then.

when you dictate your life around what you should be doing or what you should have figured out by a certain age, and you reach that age, and you don't have things figured out you feel cheated by yourself and it's unfair.

the real honest thing about being an adult is that everyone looks like they have things more figured out than you but the reality is that none of us know what the fuck is going on we just look really good at pretending we do.

sure, maybe you're not charli demelio and a millionaire at fifteen, but haven't we all learned there is beauty and peace in simplicity?

ie. the time will pass anyways, find ways to enjoy it by yourself until everything else catches up to you.

[lottiestudying]

hey lottie, i found your blog about 10 mins ago searching 'australian national university' ... imagine my surprise when i saw you're doing political science, which is exactly what i want to study at ANU!! i live in sydney and am currently in yr 12 and am gonna go to open day on the 16th. i was wondering if you had any advice (no matter how small, id love to hear it) to someone who's currently at my stage or just any info about things i should be prepared for. or any xtra info about accomodation!

hey hey!!!

i have loved my degree, i gained so much knowledge and insight. the quality of teaching is really high, and the profs do genuinely care for their field. the department has some of the best political scientists in Australia

Study wise, get ready for lots of content, first year is pretty much the basics but probably the hardest in terms of volume of content. I actually prefer later years courses because you get more specific information about a topic, whereas first year courses are introductory level. It may seem boring, but these courses will teach you how to study and write essays at a uni level.

My other advice would be to try and get in the APS as soon as you can, either in an entry level role/internship (if you intend on going the public service route. Either way, it’s quite easy for polisci undergads to find APS work, and much better than being in hospo). You can look around on LinkedIn or the APS Gazette website for jobs. Look around for internships and stuff too. If you’re interested in academia/honours, I would suggest asking profs from second year if they need any research assistance, that’s really great experience. Definitely make an effort to show up to class and do the readings, profs love eager students. If you do honours, getting to know profs will be useful in picking a supervisor later, and they’re good contacts to have for job references. Profs will always be happy to give you references if you get like over 70 in their course. Networking and connections are important, so get on that linkedin game and have good relations with profs. It’s very different from high school, but they do care if you reach out.

Accom wise, I’ve been at UniLodge (I don’t want to say which one for obvious reasons) for all of my degree (I’m South Australian originally), and have generally liked it. Very good atmosphere if you get involved, we put on a great o week. Definitely stop by lodge on open day, you can see some of the buildings etc. lodge is still the cheapest accomodation on campus I believe. ANU is great if you’re from Sydney, they are loads of buses and train connections. I’ve been to Sydney several times for concerts and stuff, it’s pretty easy to pop back for a long weekend (way harder for me to go home to Adelaide frequently. I’m jealous of my Sydney sider friends aha).

I hope this is helpful. Let me know if you have any more specific questions after open day!

[guinevere--bach]

Summer Wine

Light slipper-clad steps down the stairs, across the foyer, through the dining room. A brief clinking by the bar in the sitting room. Guinevere set aside all those dusty old opera records that her stepdaughter liked so much, and chose one of her own. She poured herself some cider and swiftly turned the volume of the sound system as loud as it could give.

“Strawberries, cherries and an angel's kiss in spring... My summer wine is really made from all these things...” Guinevere hummed along, eyes closed, lost in the dreamy strings, as she swayed to the music.

Autumn was settling in Redwood Hollow. Even without the shifting colors of the leaves surrounding the house to make evidence of it, the temperature was already dropping fast and the remnants of the honey-thick July heat had left for good. Apple harvest season was upon them, so she could expect the usual uptick in tourism of the Red Orchard. Soon it would be time for scarves, and gloves, and for her to take her white shearling-lined black leather coat, her favorite, out of her closet. Though, she had to remember, those would also be days of catching colds and having flakey skin, chapped lips, and windswept hair. Days of Sofia getting sick, too, as she knew quite well by now, and of her being even slower and clumsier with her chores. Her lips twitched into a grimace. She was so useless, so frail. And on the Orchard’s busiest season, too, as it couldn’t be any other way. Sometimes Guinevere wondered if it wouldn’t have been better for Sofia to stay away at campus, away from her and from the house, where the only thing she did was waste her stepmother’s time and demand attention, like the spoiled brat she was. Insisting on conversation at the dinner table, asking questions, prodding and touching what she was forbidden to. The girl felt lonely, Guinevere was forced to realize.

It disgusted her to also realize they had that in common.

She had another sip of cider. Back in the city, during her last business trip away from the town, she had found a sweet companion for herself, a welcome distraction that treated her with the adoration she had been desiring so much, even if it was so brief. A part of her wanted to find the number written down in her contact list, make the phone call and reach out, but that would be the mark of a desperate person. It didn’t seem as if she would be receiving any calls, anyways. How quickly she had been forgotten, Guinevere thought with a frown and a sour expression. How short-lived bliss ever proved to be.

She closed her eyes again, gently moving to and fro, trying to keep her mind from those depressing thoughts. Focusing, instead, on the bitter aftertaste of the cider at the back of her throat, and on the comforting texture of the carpet under her feet, and of her silky robe brushing against her legs. She twirled her fingers, following the beat of the music, dangling her glass precariously on one hand. Guinevere briefly caught her reflection in the mirror of the sitting room, a red blur with raven-black hair. She looked dressed down, but glamorous. She looked like she belonged in that big house.

“Take off your silver spurs and help me pass the time... And I will give to you summer wine...”

But she couldn’t keep her mind away from it entirely. Against her better judgment, Guinevere recalled the way she danced during her first date with David, so many years ago. How close they had been to each other. How charming he had seemed, all smiles and attentive eyes. How he gazed at her as if he never wished to lay eyes on anything else. That early, earnest fascination. Everything had seemed new and exciting back then. It took no effort at all to conclude it had been love.

And afterwards, how the experience was repeated, slightly staler as it went on. So more often than not the new suitors had been found somewhat lacking, somehow wanting; but they would do, and it was better than growing bored and alone. They had been her ticket to a better life, after all. Doors were opened to her, so many more than if she had simply stayed put in her own small town. In some regard, Guinevere had to admit, she also grew to have some true affection for them, the men who promised her the world. She remembered the warm hands stroking her arms, the hard lips pressed against her cheek. The devotion they had had for her. You don’t find that easily, and she wouldn’t find it any easier as time went on and the marks of age settled in.

But, for the time being, Guinevere kept dancing, and had another sip, almost finishing her glass.

[sweetandglovelyart]

I’m probably not going to be posting a ton of art, comic updates, or fanfiction updates until maybe the middle of August at the earliest (currently working on finishing up grad school so I can become Doctor Sweet and Glovely, PhD and it’s lowkey killing me 🫠) but I’m still here and will still like and reblog stuff and talk to people when I have time to. The Kirby series really means a lot to me and I’ve met a lot of cool people and made a lot of wonderful friends through being a Kirby fan, so even though I’m not posting a lot at the moment I want to make sure everyone knows that I’m still a big fan and I’m grateful for all of my friends.

I’m not sure if I’ve ever talked about this on here in depth before, but I actually got back into Kirby when I was struggling in my first couple of years of grad school. I’ll share the whole story of how that happened in this post in case anyone is interested, but I’ll put it under the cut so it won’t clog anyone’s dashboard.

Being part of the class of 2020, I had the misfortune of both graduating college and starting grad school right in the middle of the pandemic, and the first couple of years were rough. All of my classes and meetings were on Zoom, and everything was still on lockdown since this was prior to the COVID vaccines becoming available. I only really left my house to get groceries or to go do work on campus that I couldn’t do remotely at home. I also wasn’t able to go see my family since it wasn’t safe to travel and I had to move far away from them to be able to attend school, and it was hard to socialize with other students since we couldn’t really go out or do anything together because of the lockdown. It was necessary to help mitigate the spread of the virus, but it was very isolating and left me feeling very lonely.

All of these external factors combined with the inherent stress and hardship of being a graduate student really took a toll on my mental health and affected my ability to focus on my responsibilities for grad school. I was really depressed and was feeling really bad about myself and feeling bad about how my research and coursework were going. Things that I normally loved to do like drawing and writing weren’t really bringing me any joy at the time either, and even if I would try to still do these things that I loved I just didn’t have the motivation or energy to do them after finishing all of my research and school obligations for the day.

Eventually, I ended up getting back into gaming, since that was really the only thing I had any time or energy to do and beating games made me feel like I was progressing in something at a time when I felt like my progress in school was stagnating. I eventually ended up deciding to play some of my favorite childhood Nintendo DS games that I hadn’t played in years. I always really loved Squeak Squad as a kid and I liked Super Star Ultra even though I never really beat it when I was younger (I think that as a child I got bored during Great Cave Offensive and never finished it lmao) so it was nice to revisit the games again as an adult. I felt very nostalgic playing Squeak Squad again and was glad that I gave Super Star Ultra a proper playthrough so I could experience all of the content and truly enjoy it.

Playing these games made me feel happiness at a time when I really wasn’t feeling a ton, and because I enjoyed them so much and liked Kirby as a character I became interested in trying other Kirby games that I didn’t grow up playing and became interested in learning more about the series. I think that the first game I ended up playing that wasn’t a DS game was Kirby’s Adventure, and I really enjoyed it and was very impressed with how beautiful it looked for an NES game. I also played Kirby Super Star since I was curious about how it differed from the DS remake that I grew up playing, and I played Dream Land 3 since it was another SNES game. I also played Nightmare in Dream Land, Amazing Mirror, Triple Deluxe, and Planet Robobot, and eventually I decided to get a Switch so that I could try out all of the Kirby games on there. I played Return to Dream Land Deluxe, Star Allies, Forgotten Land, and Kirby 64 on Nintendo Switch Online and I really enjoyed all of them.

I was in a much better place both mentally and in school by the time I got a Switch, but my interest in Kirby had remained, and I decided that instead of just playing the games I also wanted to join fan communities for the series and wanted to start posting my own Kirby art and writing since I was feeling inspired to make fanart and fanfictions. I joined a Kirby server on Discord, started following the Kirby subreddit, and eventually made my blog on here and made my account on Archive of Our Own to post all of my Kirby stuff.

Overall, I’ve had a really great experience being a Kirby fan. I really love the series and the characters, and I love seeing the art and stories they inspire fan creators to make. I think one of the main things that I personally enjoy about Kirby as a series is the overarching theme of kindness and friendship, and just how wholesome some of the character interactions can be. I really love a good story about a bunch of different weird little guys fighting each other but then becoming friends and going on adventures together. It really resonates a lot with me, as someone who spent a long time feeling very lonely in school. Seeing Kirby making so many friends and causing his friends to become better people just by association/just by his being kind to them makes me appreciate my own friends more, and appreciate how I’m a better person because of them. There are darker parts to the Kirby series too of course, but I think the darker parts help the lighter parts to matter more and to really shine. You can’t have the light without the dark.

To make a long story short, I’m really grateful that I had this series to give me a small bit of joy when I wasn’t feeling any, and I’m grateful that I’ve met a lot of nice people from just being a part of this fan community. Thank you Kirby, and thank you to all of my fellow Kirby fans and friends ❤️ you mean the world to me.

[survivingfreshmanyear]

What I Wish I Knew Before Starting College

I have so much advice for incoming freshmen, but here are some of the biggest things I wish I had thought about before stepping onto campus!

1. If You’re Not a Morning Person, Avoid Early Classes

I really thought I could handle those 8 AMs, but once the semester got going (and mornings got colder), it became harder and harder to wake up, get ready, and walk to class. Not only that, I wasn’t retaining much because my brain just wasn’t awake yet.

Sometimes, you’ll get stuck with a morning class, and that’s okay. If that happens, try to set yourself up for success: eat a good breakfast, drink tea or coffee, and do a quick stretch or two to help wake up your mind and body.

2. Join an Organization Right Away

I know it can feel overwhelming at first, new place, new people, new responsibilities, but joining a club or organization early on is one of the best moves you can make. This is the time to meet people with common interests. Most students form their closest friendships at the beginning of the year, and while it's totally possible to make new friends later, it’s definitely easier early on when everyone’s looking for their group.

3. Go to Class Even If Attendance Isn’t Required

Wow... I really wish I’d known this one. It feels like a win when you realize a boring lecture doesn’t take attendance, but the freedom is deceiving. Skip once, and it’s becomes addictive. Suddenly, you’re facing your first exam with zero idea what’s going on.

Even if your professor posts the slides online, it’s not the same. I told myself I’d just take notes from them later... either I didn’t, or I did and retained nothing. Hold yourself to a high standard. You’re paying thousands of dollars to be here, so show up.

4. Don’t Buy Textbooks Right Away

Textbooks are wildly expensive. I’ve only needed about 2 out of the 20 that were “required” for my classes, and I still aced each class.

Wait until after the first few class sessions to see if your professor actually uses the book. Sometimes you can share with a friend, find a PDF, or just get by without it altogether.

5. Comparison Kills Joy so Focus on Your Own Path

You’re going to meet so many new people with different backgrounds, experiences, and stories. It can be easy to start comparing your grades, your major, your clothes, your body, your social life, well everything.

But trust me, this mindset is toxic. Everyone is trying to highlight their strengths and hide their struggles. Focus on what you bring to the table. You’re capable, unique, and here for a reason. Own that.

6. Walk Your Schedule Before Classes Start

This one’s simple but important. Don’t just glance at the map. Actually go walk your schedule, and go inside the buildings to find your classrooms. Some buildings are confusing, and walking into the wrong lecture hall on your first day is more common than you think.

Also, be aware of how long it takes to get from one class to the next. A 20-minute walk between classes? You’ll want to know that ahead of time.

7. Everyone’s Looking for Friends — Make the First Move

Nobody’s done freshman year before, we’re all new here. Everyone is just as eager (and nervous) to make connections, so don’t be afraid to talk to people. A simple “Hey, I love your outfit” can turn into a whole conversation about your hometowns and what you're excited for in the future.

You have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Don’t let a little social anxiety stop you from building your college experience.

8. Always Go Out with People You Trust

Going out is a big part of college for many people and if that’s your scene, that’s totally valid. Just make sure you’re staying safe.

There’s safety in numbers, but it also matters who those numbers are. Go out with friends who will look out for you, and make sure you’re doing the same for them.

A few key things to keep in mind:

Leave with the people you came with.

Know your limits and don’t let others push past them.

Don’t take drinks from strangers.

Watch your drink at all times and keep track of how many you’ve had.

And if you’re actually feeling that 5'2 frat guy named Collin? Cool, but maybe get your friends home safe first and think it through clearly before making decisions. You’ve got all the time in the world!

I’ll definitely be sharing more about this in the future... but for now, just stay safe and look out for each other.

That’s it for today! College is an incredible experience full of growth, memories, and figuring yourself out. Don’t stress about doing it perfectly, just go in with an open mind, stay true to yourself, and enjoy the ride.

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