#and i cant really just gush about it to my friends because everything i would say would be either
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carrotpiss · 10 months ago
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#in stark contrast to most of my personal posts this is about me being happy and gay#because i need to just get it out my system bc otherwise i am just going to grab a friend by the shoulders and scream (in joy) in their face#i am dating someone and its really really nice and sweet and cute and like nothing ive ever experienced before#and instead its like every tiny little dream about this kind of thing ive managed to hold onto despite every experience otherwise and ahhhh#the lack of focus on just sex or sex appeal is so nice its like there but as a side thing so its nice and i dont feel like an object#i feel like a human person with thoughts and feelings and interests outside if that and feel safe in that and feel safe that everything wont#just be discarded if i dont want to do that like i feel like boundaries and stuff are an option! without jeopardising everything#and el likes me as much as i like them and wants and sees and communicates that they want something long term and ahhhhhhhh#i just want to cry like holy shit this is everything ive ever wondered about like i have spent so long wondering what this feeling would#actually feel like and its so good and so indescribable and ahhhhhhh#waking up on monday night and seeing them in my bed and cuddling me was just so nice i felt wanted i felt... loved#this all seems so out of left field still i still feel like i just never saw it coming but its so welxome and nice and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#my pessimism is still there but its less loud now its more learning to accept this may not be perfect forever but letting me enjoy the now#crouch speaks#it feels so nice to not be scared and to feel secure and ahhh#also it made me laugh El remembered me hitting on then at the Dgoals release show making them blush lol#i only remember the time i hit on them later at the groles show so its funny i pretty much used the same line twice and it still worked#i cant wait to see them again i cant wait to hold hands in public again i cant wait to be idiots who keep blushing too hard and accidentally#kissing eachother on the nose instead of the mouth because we are stupid and gay and pathetic about it hahaha#just ahhhh i could gush forever how perfect the 2!!! dates weve been on were and the fact they want more and more and ahhhhh#this is so lame i know i just haven't experienced anything remotely like this before and its just... wild#like wow holy shit what on earth i have been so increasingly miserablely depressed and insecure from the shea stuff last year and then this#just absolutely removed all of that i actually feel like a human person again with value
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bearsgrove · 2 years ago
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god i wish i had someone i could gush to about pillars of eternity
so many thoughts bouncing around my head like ping pong balls with no outlet in sight :S
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mountslove333 · 2 years ago
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MASON MOUNT - FIRST TIME x reader
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yours and masons first time sleeping over at his house.
this sucks so bad im sorry but cant not post it as it took forever to write so please please please request something juicy
 thankyou sm for all the love on my last post :)))))
and please request ideas (maybe something angsty????) cos im so bad at coming up with ideas
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You were getting ready nervously to go to one of masons matches, you were nervous because you were sleeping at his place afterwards. 
You and mason had been speaking, going on dates and getting to know each other for a couple months, you both longed to spend the night with each other but due to the world cup, your work and just both your schedules you hadn't had the chance to spend the full night with each other as something always got in the way.
But one thing you knew is that you really liked mason, how couldn't you? he was perfect. Always caring if you were okay, having the best sense of humour and his looks certainly helped. You just really hoped he liked you as much as you liked him.
you finished off your makeup, tying your hair into a cute ponytail, then went to wear you laid out your clothes to change into. Some leggings and your ‘mount’ chelsea shirt which he had given you after you first trip to watch him at one of his matches. putting it on you remember the butterflies in your stomach and the smile on your face when he gifted you this and the way he would grin when he saw you in it so you certainly didnt complain each time you had an opportunity to wear it.
When it was time you grabbed your bag of your overnight stuff checking you had remembered everything before grabbing your keys and heading to your car beginning to drive to the stadium.
Arriving at the stadium you smiled, you loved watching mason play. you headed inside and too your seats you were meeting your friend, a long time chelsea supporter so when you went to watch mason she never minded coming with.
“hey millie” you greeted hugging her 
“hey, come on sit down its starting soon” she grinned standing back allowing you to reach your seat
“anyways you excited for tonight” she smirked
you had told her excited last night about mason offering you at stay at his, and about how long you had waited to spend this time with him.
“yes definitely, but also nervous what if it makes him not like me or something” i told her honestly
“don't be silly, it will make him like you more” she reassured me
“i hope so” 
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The match was amazing, whenever he could mason would lock eyes with you even send you a wink occasionally making your stomach spin, and to top it off chelsea won which you knew would lift the mood for the night.
but now you were walking out of the stadium after saying your goodbyes to Millie your nerves heightened, heart beat speeding up as you got closer to him but that all seemed too disappear when your eyes met masons.
“hey you” he greeted as you got closer wrapping you in his arms, grins plastered across both of your faces
“nice shirt” he smirked pulling away from the hug
“it is isnt it” you said looking down at it
“well done by the way mase, you were amazing” you gushed 
“thankyou darling, now come on lets go its freezing” he said ushering you into his car
you had let millie take your car home and were going to collect it tomorrow as she didnt live far from you at all.
You got into masons car placing your bag in the foot well, you looked up at him finding him already looking at you
“i missed you y/n” 
“i missed you too mason” he placed his hand on your cheek bringing your face closer to his, your heartbeat began to quicken again before you lips finally met.
you moved in sync reaching your hand up to place it on his face, you pulled away for a second smiling, just taking him in. you really were lucky. you pecked his lips one last time before going back to sitting normally in your seat.
he started the engine smirking to himself, before beginning to drive,
 the radio filling the comftable silence that fell over you both mainly due to how wide your smiles both were and the red that grazed across your cheeks.
eventually you began catching up on anything and everything, just enjoying each other's company before reaching his home, he took you bag for you once you got of the car and you began to walk inside
his home was beautiful, it was so mason you loved it. you loved how everything was so him it felt so nice to just be surrounded it.
“wow mason it so nice”
“why was you not expecting it to be?”
“no, no that's not what i meant i-” you began to panic 
“im only joking y/n, thank you” he laughed putting his arm around you
“that wasn't funny” you told him half serious hitting him softly on the chest
“sorry couldn't resist” he smirked sheepishly
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He showed you around his home before finally reaching his bedroom showing you where to put your bag, how everything worked ect,
“im going to take a shower, make yourself at home the tv remote just there” he said gesturing to his bed side table
“ill not be long” he said placing a quick peck on your lips
“okay, thankyou” you said your eyes not leaving him as he walked to the bathroom.
you decided to get changed into something comfier as you hated sitting on beds in clothes you had worn outside, you had just packed some joggers and a small top along with your pyjamas and essential toiletries. you chose to change into the joggers and top.
you sat on masons bed scrolling through you phone before you heard the water shut of finally, looking up as you heard bathroom door opening your eyes were met with a partially clothed mason he only had some grey joggers on and was mid way through putting his top on. the wet hair made the sight even better, you couldn't help but stare.
he smiled catching onto your staring 
“you okay there?” he questioned smirking
“yeah perfect” you smiled back.
he laughed shortly, joining you on the bed, you went to lay beside him your head resting on his chest as he pulled out his phone
“you want something to eat?”
“i was thinking of ordering something cos we both know it will be nicer than my cooking” he questioned looking down at me
“yes please”
you both picked what you wanted mason than he placed his phone down and put his hand on your back tracing soft circles, you stayed like this for a while, content. watching whatever mason had put on tv.
“mason?” 
“mhmm”
“i really like you” you told him turning your head to face his
the corner of his lips have never formed a smile so fast
“i really like you too” he placed his fingers below your chin to lift you head up to softly meet his lips, you moved positions to deepen the kiss, your fingers getting tangled in his hair as he pulled you closer
his lips began to trail down you neck sucking softly before returning back to your lips, you fought for dominance, eventually he won flipping you over so he was hovering above you. 
he pulled away breifly smiling at you, pecking your lips before starting to take of his shirt.
the ringtone of his phone rang loudly throught the room startling you and making mason curse under he breath, he glanced down at his phone
“shit the foods here”  
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sitp-recs · 2 years ago
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FINALLY read heal thyself as per your recommendation (it's been in my marked for later for months yet somehow I kept forgetting?) and it's just as amazing and beautiful as everyone said, cant believe I haven't read it sooner. There's no real purpose for this ask I just feel the need to gush about it with someone who I know understands😭❤️ but her draco is perfect, his characterization, redemption arc, it's everything I never knew I needed. Reading about his struggle and determination to be good—and finally being able to celebrate the rewards of his hard work was so touching? to witness... I literally had to take breaks because of how much this fic made me feel. Going to spend the rest of the night drowning in astolats fics
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Ahh anon your ask got me emo all over again, I love this fic so so much and I’m so pleased that you also felt transformed by it! Sharing this feeling of awe and mutual understanding about a fic with another reader is something really special. HT is hands down the best Draco arc I’ve read in years, which is not surprising if we consider not only Astolat’s talent but also the fact that this fic is 100% Draco-centric and for the most part of it there’s no Harry or romance to distract from his individual journey.
I love how you described his redemption path, the fact that for once he got to make a choice about his own life, then reaped the fruits of his hard work (and how brilliant is that he decides to pursue Healing out of pride and spite? So on brand 😂). I think you chose a perfect word to describe our experience “to witness…” that’s exactly how it felt, a privilege to watch him getting the nuance and character development he deserved. I appreciate that Astolat took the time to explore his arc over the span of a few years, it made his success and happy ending even more powerful and satisfying! I can’t think of a better way to spend the night than reading the rest of her catalogue, you’re in for a treat!
Lol okay you gave me an impossible mission there, I gotta say similar characterizations are very hard to find outside of Astolat’s work, her Draco is very peculiar after all. And I feel like HT is unparalleled way beyond his characterization. I’ve been in the fandom for two decades and have never read anything like it before or since. So leaving any comparison efforts aside I’ll suggest these, which have some of my favorite Draco arcs:
The Compact by astolat (E, 64k)
Hermione frowned. “The real question is why the magic of Britain would be failing now, in fact.”
A Young Radical's Guide to Love by blamebrampton (T, 66k)
Memories of the war are still fresh, which is all the excuse Decent People need to do appalling things. In this quietly waged conflict, Draco Malfoy is happy to be on the right side of things for once, and even happier to find he’s not alone.
Who we are in the shadows by quicksilvermaid (E, 100k)
What happens when you’re forced to become the very thing you despise? Ex-Auror Harry Potter, tossed out of the Ministry for something he had no control over, has been looking for a way back to his former life.
A Thousand Beautiful Things by geoviki (M, 104k)
Draco Malfoy struggles with changed fortunes, shifted alliances, an ugly war, and an unusual spell, with the help of a concerned professor, an insightful house-elf, and an unexpected Gryffindor friend.
What We Pretend We Can't See by gyzym (M, 131k)
Seven years out from the war, Harry learns the hard truth of old history: it’s never quite as far behind you as you thought.
By the Grace by lettered (T, 140k)
Harry is an Auror instructor. Malfoy wants to be an Auror.
And some short fics you might enjoy as well:
And Save Me From Bloody Men by blamebrampton (T, 10k)
Draco Malfoy once watched others fighting to stop the world falling apart. This time, he's not just watching.
Rebuilding Draco Malfoy by khasael (E, 11k)
Draco wants to do something to get his life back on track, but no-one seems to be taking him seriously – until he finds himself in an Auror training session led by Harry Potter.
The Loathly Worm by Selden (E, 12k)
When Draco Malfoy is forced to go undercover among the remaining Death Eaters in the aftermath of the war, the last person he expects to find there is Harry Potter.
Unfinished Business by cupiscent (E, 20k)
Ten years after the War ends, Harry and Draco still haven't got their act together. But maybe it's not too late.
Vortex by xanthippe74 (T, 20k)
Who would want a soulmate who was a schoolyard bully, a Death Eater, and a convicted felon? Certainly not Harry Potter. And Draco is determined to take this secret to the grave.
Slithering by astolat (E, 27k)
Draco found the nest down in the Manor’s cellars, while he was clearing them out.
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darklesmylove · 7 months ago
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Did you watch the shadow and bone show? How did you like it?
hey friend! sorry this took me so long, i have been a hermit in his cave and have fallen behind on all the asks so forgive me!!
i will be blatantly honest— i didn’t watch season two. mainly because i knew netflix was going to cancel it anyways because they do that for all of their shows, and i didn’t want to get more invested in the new plot lines that would remain unresolved. the second is that i was wary of this new content and if it would still be good straying far from canon. when a lot of people said it was underwhelming i just felt unmotivated to watch i’m sorry 😔
BUT season one. i really appreciated the attention to detail for the set and characters, everything was exactly how i imagined and executed with a lot of quality. the casting was SUPERB. i would have preferred jesper to be darker skinned as described in the books, but kit still had an amazing performance.
ben barnes was an absolute babe- he portrayed a darkling that was very tears in his eyes emo and i loved him. he’s really different than book darkling though, and i kind of wanted to see that young boy that looks innocent and trustworthy because that was an essence and allure to him for me. love jessica mei li i cant gush about her enough shes so hot and perfect and talented and made alinas charactor even better and more enjoyable in comparison to the written series.
crows actually had a great additional storyline in my opinion and i enjoyed their parts a lot. im not sure if i liked how their characters met so early on, with alina and them, but the kaz and darkling moment will forever be iconic. their collective portrayal of the crows is chefs kiss and the one liners are my favorite thing ever.
SHIT THIS WAS LONG i hope this was a coherent enough answer 🫠
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aleeyenn · 2 years ago
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hi um . that other person encouraged me to also gush abt ur designs but i also find a lot of myself in ur pin design .... as an also plus sized woman of color i find so much of myself in your design . i love baking and i love indulging in feminine things in the sense of like "yes i am a woman . yes i love to scream to very hard and fast paced songs . yes i have bigender swag ." even tho i do like feel myself as pretty masc aligning (it fluctuates a lot) i love ur design and see so much of myself in it . as well as that other person ive always felt i cant sorta be into alt stuff but recently ive sorta dabbled in it (i got the fingerless gloves ive always wanted so bad like a month ago !!!! and it was so exciting :-))) and just seeing ur pin design made me realize i can do whatever i want and i dont have to conform to my parents or my friends or my school's or anyone's expectations for my presentation of gender identity and femininity . i can wear nice frilly dresses with puffs and ribbons and have those fake vampire teeth and skeleton fingerless gloves and black clunky boots with a bright pastel pink bow in my hair if i so please . so um thank you a lot i love ur pin design and um bye bye have a nice day !!!!!!! also also rq i have to say erm if you have like literally any more gijinkas / humanizations ever pleaaseeee post them .love your art a lot ive been following you for a bit and uh apologies for bizexual ranting im just a little crazy /lh ok bye have a nice day i hope very good things come to you
YOU G UYYSS ARE GONNA MAKE ME CRY😢😢😢😢😢HAPPY TEARS OF COURSE BUTGAAHH HH H I NEVER KNEW MY ART WOULD HAVE SUCH AN IMPACT ON PEOPLE EVEN THO ITS WHAT IVE WANTED FOREVER😢😢😢 im so so so so grateful SO GRATEFUL YOU DONT GRT IT I REALLY TRULY MEAN IT pleasepleaseplease to you anon and the other anon and anyone else who needs to hear it BEEE YOURSELFFFF!!! don’t worry about what any community, family, friends, peers, ANYONE wants you to be because what’s the fun in that? not being able to express yourself the way you want to is so boring and doesn’t allow you to be what you want and not being what you want is neither gratifying or truthful! you don’t have to be true to anyone else besides yourself be TRUE to yourself and let yourself be the person you are!!! i’m sure you wouldn’t wanna hold anyone back so don’t let anyone hold YOU back!!! im gonna embarrass myself here but it’s for the sake of this talk But in elementary—early middle school i was a FREAAAKING wolf kid i wore ears and tails and everything but what stopped me???weird glances or rude comments? Nope! NOTHING!!! because being the person i was at the time felt amazing! and looking back at it sure it’s a bit humiliating but i still love that part of myself because i was so free in being me!!! and i look up to me being that person to this day and i won’t stop being myself! i won’t mask or dress a certain way that people want me to or hide parts of myself that make myself me because that’s who i am!!! and i heavily encourage ALL OF YOU to follow my footsteps and be the person you are!!! trust me if everyone in the world behaved and looked and did whatever the same the world would be sooo boring so be the spark of someone’s day and BE YOURSELF!!! who knows maybe you’ll be the person that breaks someone out of their shell to become what they wanna be too! do what makes you happy and follow your heart, don’t let anyone EVER block you from achieving that, never hold yourself against any standard or forum and do what you need to do to be your best self… so to you anon and everyone who needs it Go get some fishnets go get some cute bows go get lacy dresses go get cool looking belts go get ANYTHING THAT CALLS YOUR NAME! find yourself!!! even if it’s a pair of wolf ears and a tail, go for it! i believe in you!!!💗
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pnjrnk · 2 years ago
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i would like to share with you some aspects of and quotes from the longest fic ive ever written because i wrote it a year and a half ago and it is fucking insane (despite me actively trying to make it less insane than the first iteration which is also my second longest fic) its a k2 fic and this is the closest itll ever get to seeing the light of day :))))
i hope this is as hilarious to others as it is to me 😭 also it is indeed less insane than the first iteration lol. that one is.. oh man. oh boy.
kyle calls principal victoria a neo nazi
“Things I'd regret, huh? he mulled. That was true—there are many things he'd done while alone that he would later regret. What had Kenny done? Smoked too much weed? Cheese-grated his jeans a little too much?” one of many examples of me not knowing how to be funny
kyle has abusive parents and a tragic backstory bc of course he does
“In his mind, he hit himself over the head with a rolled-up newspaper as if to knock the gay out of him. It didn't work, surprisingly.”
kyle is a colossal asshole to kenny but kenny continues to try and be his friend (and fuck him) and i even acknowledge in the text that it makes no sense but i dont bother to try and come up with an explanation. maybe kyle was just that sexy idk
“Kyle liked doing assignments on Google Docs because there was no need to get eraser shavings everywhere and suffer through constant hand cramps. It was so much more efficient to turn in his work, too.” did i just put a little google docs ad in my south park fanfic??
“Kyle would do everything he could to get Kenny to stop talking to him. He was not afraid to threaten murder.” kyle please 😭
one paragraph basically goes like this: “kenny wanted to fuck kyle. he decided he would have to befriend kyle first if he was gonna get lucky. oh and he wouldnt mind just being friends with kyle hes cool” YOU CANT SET UP THE PREMISE THAT KENNY IS GONNA BEFRIEND KYLE TO FUCK HIM AND THEN IMMEDIATELY CONTRADICT YOURSELF SARA
“The rest of the day passed by quickly, Kenny being wrapped up in his thoughts and barely noticing the time passing by.” <-me not wanting to write the rest of the day bc i wouldve gotten bored
kyle makes a very un-kyle-like joke (“‘One of these days a poor person is gonna make themselves at home in there,’ Kyle remarked harshly.” [hes talking about stans locker]) because every single character in this fic is so ooc it physically hurts to read
“He didn't know why—he just really liked blood. Maybe it reminded him of all the fights he'd won, the agonized wails of his enemies, the satisfying feeling of bones breaking underneath his fist.” jesus christ kyle
kyle makes so. SO many really stupid and goofy sounding threats but everyone reacts like what he said was actually threatening and not ridiculous (example: “‘If you ever attempt to fuck with me again, I'll scoop our your nerve system with a grapefruit spoon and eat it like spaghetti, with your blood as the sauce.’ … It seemed like everyone's jaws dropped in that moment, Kenny's and Stan's included. He was taken aback, to be sure.” THAT IS SO SILLY WHY)
“It had been so satisfying to feel the bone break underneath his fist, to see the idiot's fat face contort into an anguished grimace. The blood gushing out of his nose was like a beautiful ruby-red waterfall, and his scream was an intricate symphony composed just for Kyle.” KYLE OH MY GOD
i was such a good writer
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m1ckeyb3rry · 4 months ago
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I’m fucking crying the MOM PURSE SCENARIO ALREADY HAS ME ROLLINGGG I CANT HAAHAHHA had to pause to write this down the way he explains it like “my mom said your mom” etc etc has me reeling
Stop. I just passed out. THAT WAS SO GOOD??? UFHEJSKDJOSKSKS dude I don’t even know what to say ugh first of all Karasu characterization chefs kiss a million times I’m LIVING for the rival kinda feel with asshole but secret sweetheart Karasu plus the new insecurities we know about him from epinagi AHHHGHHJJ stop that was too good also FREAKY FRIDAY I LOVE IT SHSGSHSHS wait stop no I’m such a sucker for childhood friends type tropes too this just mixed everything together this was so targeted wtf the childhood friends the misunderstanding the reconciliation goodBYE also karasus such a sap I can’t him video calling his friends to rant and gush has me gone
I think it’s really interesting to see this time how it’s framed more as Karasu being in the wrong as opposed to y/n having had a moment where she outright disrespects him LMAO I love seeing the flip side and how y/n here feels betrayed and all also their fight…too good I really felt all the frustration coming from them like I can imagine them snarkily raising their voices at each other and you can FEEL the pain it’s great
I’m still not over Karasu being such a sap and so smitten like I can’t it was too good wdym this boy pines so much he makes all these excuses to try and see y/n??? Also the way he almost pedestals y/n was such a cute and interesting take like yes let’s see more of his mediocrity complex
I never know how to articulate my words well enough but basically DOES YOUR BACK HURT HARD CARRYING THE KARASU COMMUNITY??? SHSGSHDHSH THAT WAS SO GOOD JDSJDKOAK
Also STOPPP IS THIS WHAT YOU MEANT BY THE YUTA GOJO REFERENCE IM GONEEEE AHAHAHAHDG I bet that edit was FOULLL I remember the memes first coming out and I lost it fr
I’m also crying why’d I imagine baaya as the divination lady LMAO
Erm anyways off to reread that again! Another work to burn into my brain
-Karasu anon
HELPPPP he was giving such “mom i frew up ” vibes in that scene omg LMAOAO “y/n my mommy said your mommy left her purse at my house 🥺🥺🥺🥺” STFU bro (i love him)
OMG HAHAHA YAYYY I’M SO GLAD YOU LIKED IT!! kinda rival but secret sweetheart karasu is my BRAND i was worried this would be a bit too similar to fwtkac but i think the y/n was different enough + the childhood friends trope was a change so hopefully it was okay!! FREAKY FRIDAY TROPE RAHHH it was so random but i think it worked out so well tbh. karasu is such a sappy loser omg him calling all of his friends and just being like “i think…i miss my wife 😔😔😔” meanwhile his “wife” thinks he’s dumb as hell and wants nothing to do w him 😭
i wanted to hint at him being bullied into not beings friends w her anymore (like his backstory implies) but i didn’t think that he would spill that to y/n RIGHT after their reconciliation yk?? also i wanted to show that sometimes people just grow apart. i used to be best friends with a boy when we were like three but once we got to elementary school we just drifted apart naturally and now we don’t really talk 🤷🏻‍♀️ i think it happens and sometimes people reconnect, sometimes they don’t!! luckily karasu was super in love w y/n so it would eventually happen but psychic old lady sped things up quite a bit (without her they probably would’ve like reconnected at their high school reunion or smth very hallmark second chance romance vibes). but yes their fight was fun to write because they both did kinda have points!! like y/n was valid to be mad at him for ditching her and then expecting things to just be alright, but he was also valid to be like “ok look i was SIX” because people are pretty dumb when they’re kids 😭
his mediocrity complex was so cool to write!! i think him having to work super hard at balancing everything and being “perfect” contrasted really well with y/n just floating through life and effortlessly succeeding!! but also he just thinks so highly of her that she could be the most average person ever and he’d think he wasn’t good enough for. he just gives me such head over heels vibes as a character i can’t help but write him as such every time 🥹 and yeah HAHA he really will come up with anything just to see her or talk to her for even a minute 😕 my underrated green flag king…listen his bff is a red flag and he’s kind of a jerk but he would be so SMITTEN if he liked someone that i have to say realistically he’d be one of the best bfs out of all of the bllk characters
PLEASEEE omg doing everything i can to live up to my role as the number one karasu tabito blog fr…carrying the karasu community ain’t much but it’s honest work 😫 i love writing for him i’m glad his five fans enjoy reading my stuff 😭
YES AHAHAH THE YUTA/GOJO FREAKY FRIDAY EDITS WERE EVERYWHEREEE FOR A WHILE they were so funny too…truly vile though you’re right.
BAYAAA she’s working hard to pay the bills 😰 this is her side gig while reo’s at school…she’s gotta get that money somehow 😔
also bonus colorized image of karasu going up to y/n’s desk to tell her about the purse:
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dumbbitchfrommars · 1 year ago
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im tired... too tired to write but smart enough to know i need to write these thoughts down before i forget them.
so much has happened in the last few days. the last week, even. it feels like weeks have gone by.
i am so blessed, lucky and thankful for my friend. she is the most perfect taurus and completely aligned with me to bounce off my energy and listen and understand and hear me and be able to have fun with me ! look at us go. truly manifested the female friendship id been craving for years.
the naughty side of me has been awakened. the devil has been brought out by a dirty, nasty libra man. and im not angry at it and im not embarrassed by it one bit. i actually embraced it and had so much fun with it. and its so unlike me and its so unlike the others before him. he was crazy but focussed on me in exactly the ways i needed him to, too. even when the first time i didnt finish, i didnt top him, and he didnt really top me either. he didnt even finger me for long. but my god... the positions. the placements. the kissing my feet on his hands and knees. sucking on my toes, the strategic placement of my legs and knees and feet. and somehow knowing how to hit the right spots when he was twice my size. like standing his hips were at the top of my rib cage. INSANE. giant, giant beautiful man. the sheer size of his thighs. i cant handle it. i cant even believe it was real life!
i was calling him a slut but look at me gushing over him, when the sex wasnt even that amazing. its like he was edging me. didnt want me to come knowing he wouldnt too? he didnt make me give him head the second time either. i guess it was considerate since the first time he did and went as far as filming him face fucking me with my hands behind my back. and restraining my wrists with his legs will i was riding him?! i actually cannot.. i cannot handle it.
its all just fun and games for the both of us. thats what i liked. it was transactional for both of us. we both care just enough, we both connected just enough, but we were both completely hungry and horny enough to make it easy and playful. he threw me around! like my one dream, and as a tiny little girl its kind of insane it had taken this long to happen. he loved every part of my body. i dont appreciate the comments about my butt but he obviously liked it. im slim thick and tiny. he would be carrying me and fucking me in front of the mirror and i would misjudge the height i was at when hed put me on the ground to change positions. like i had literally climbed a tree of a man. i cant. I CANT!
he was just so perfectly playful, annoying and teasing in the way i like. like stupid on purpose, so i can be mean to him. i love bullying men. but in a playful, flirty way. SO FLIRTY! who knew it was so hard to come by guys like that, people like that. cause i know part of why he was so obsessed with me was because i matched his energy so well. at the end of the day its all about ENERGY! and we matched well. and combined with that, we were both sexy fucking humans. and he had tattoos! he had everything ive been wanting. bare minimum, i know. but those tattoos were so delicious. i will never see tattoos on light skin in the same way. they were borderline not there because his skin was so dark. and i love it. it was like a little extra something something. and the one on his rib was beautiful. they were all beautiful. im so thankful he was so doting and loving on me so i couldnt feel insecure about my own body. i feel like he was unintentionally roasting me too though, trying to be flirty. something about my toes??? im not sure. but he obviously liked them enough to suck on them. so.
anyway. i just cannot stop thinking about this experience. i probably wont stop thinking about it for weeks, months even. as much as i love to read my bridgerton, sometimes i just love the idea of some sexy nasty fucking. he came so much on my back. he gave me HICKEYS! he read my energy and did what i liked. its not even that hard for him. proof hes a fucking hoe. but hes also somewhat committed to me.. or just getting me back in his city to play with me again. i was like his little barbie doll to play with, literally. putting his clothes on me, gifting me his shirt and sunnies, asking me to say i love him? and sayin it himself? and the constant calling. this man... hes a red flag. hes got some kind of commitment issues for certain. but i read him for filth too. somehow he enjoyed me being genuinely pissed off with him. stupid drunk boy. completely different energies when hes sober vs drunk.
anyways. i was pmsing too and he dragged me away from my friends... or did he? did they encourage me to go? no point wondering about it, anyway. i wonder if he wanted her instead tho... i will always wonder. i understand if he did. i would too. tbh, i would want a threesome with her. it could happen...
anyway. he texted me... i want to call him. i cant though, of course. the type of conversation id want to have would need to be private. isnt it odd how a little while ago i was harrassed in my car down the street from my home? now i dont feel safe going back there. this city is so strange.
maybe my sister will move back home. everything will change if that happens. for some reason i get the feeling she will come back and the other will leave. it seems like that is in gods plan. or... me? plus i have my car. interrestingngngnggngn
so... what now? (please read in azealias voice). realistically, even though i do genuinely like him and he genuinely likes me, were from two different cities and wont see eachother again until im back in god knows how long. and its expensive to be flying or driving over there for visits a lot. this is a waste of energy i thnk. im just gonna roll with it. the most likely scenario is that one of us gets bored (probably me) or hurt (probably me, if hes secretly playing around with lots of girls) and things just fizzle out in a messy way that ruins the vibes we had together now. but tbh im okay with that. its the only way i learn my lesson about people. otherwise they keep wiggling their way back on half promises when i forget about their bad behaviour with time.
but honestly, i have a good feeling about him. he seems like an honest person. and whatever it is he's hiding, its nothing severe. its more something i can sense, like an insecurity. hes broke, hes immature, hes a bit of a mess. hes insecure about his appearance? i am too baby. youre good. i love feeling like this with a guy. like im in control but im not. i got the power, and hes obsessed with me and he wants me and hes open and honest with me just like i am. he sees my honestly and thinks - oh, she's safe, she's home, i can be myself with her. not - oh, she's good, i can lie to her and manipulate her easier cause she'll tell me exactly how she feels and what i need to tell her.
the main thing is if I want HIM. cause i do. but he does have weird eyes, and eyes are a big thing for me. wearing sunnies all the time wont cut it. and being broke is fine. but looking a mess in public with me wont do. hes a fashion boy tho. he a trendy ni$$a. but i digress.
UGH! i hope i can find someone that playful, flirty and doting here at home. i probably wont tho. thats okay. ive come to accept my worth being above the capacity of men here. theyre just a bit confused. their cute, confused puppies. the kind that only like their own kind too.. they can have them. i need me a POC. im officially closing for business with the pretty white boys. theyve done enough.
okay ive done enough talking shit. this has been fun!
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yourlostearring · 2 years ago
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brought in the new year by facetiming my girlfriend at midnight with the biggest smile on my face, telling each other how happy we are to have met during what has otherwise been such a devastating year for us both, drunkenly gushing about how much we love each other in between her friends stealing her phone to tell me the same. i went back inside and was greeted with ear to ear smiles from friends ive known for over a decade, my phone flooding with happy new year messages from family members sending their best, and just for a minute i felt happy, i really really did. and then suddenly everything shifted as i was hit with the crushing blow of knowing you arent here with me and will never be again. i finally feel like im learning how to live my life and you wont even get to see it. you’ll never get to see me so sure of who i am and who i want to grow into, finally having the agency to fight for my own boundaries instead of always doing everything that’s expected of me for the sake of other people’s feelings, walking through life on some semblance of solid ground within my own body and mind for the first time. and ill never get to tell you that it’s all thanks to you. as soon as those thoughts bubbled to the surface it was like all the joy leapt from my chest and went down the kitchen sink, and next thing i knew i was outside alone crying harder than i think i ever have in my whole life while chain smoking cigarettes in between broken sobs because the only thing i could think about was all the things ill never get to share with you. big things like this girl who makes me feel so unconditionally loved and looked after in a way i know you’ve always wanted for me, small things like a new video of my friend’s baby that i just know would light you up. i thought we had more time, i really really did. maybe that was silly of me. and now im smoking again and you always hated when i smoked and i just want to tell you dont worry mom, ill quit again soon, i promise, but i cant and what if you think im just not trying? what if you don’t know how much i care? i don’t know how to exist in a world where you don’t and i dont ever want to learn but i have to, i guess. i am just so fucking heartbroken mom. i just hate knowing im entering a new year without you. im going to miss you forever.
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starwberycow · 2 years ago
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This turned out like a love letter
I want to tell my best friends like I love them platonically and that they are my platonic soulmates. I would do anything for them even if I was scared or if it was something I hated.
Like both are the kindest, smartest (in their own rights) and most beautiful people I have ever meet. I would literally destroy Pluto for them. I could honestly gush about them all day.
Like Vir (v1rd1a) is so smart with people and talking to people, she's always so energetic and bubbly. They are so kind and affectionate, have the cutest sense of style we share so many interests and we don't have classes together anymore but talking to them at lunch is just so much fun. She makes everyone laugh. I love listening to her special interests and tho they don't talk about the stuff their into a lot it genuinely interests me especially Jojo's.
My other friend Bee. Is so smart and genuine in everything she does she loves everyone she cares about in her own way. She does worry a lot but I find it really enduring how she worries for peoples well being and how they are doing making sure they are okay and checking in. They've done that so many times with me and remembering small details and things that I said mid conversation. I enjoy talking to Ally so much.
Neither are judgemental and understand me a lot. It makes me feel bad I feel like a burden and than being around is annoying them. They are sociable and people really like them. I feel like they deserve someone better than me. I always struggle socially like I cant hold a conversation if I'm not talking to them, I hate that I want to talk to them about my problems because I feel like its a burden while also wanting to over explain my every action. I cant explain to them that I can get very overwhelmed and everything around me becomes loud and hurts my eyes and that I want to scream and cry. I want to tell them that if I'm mad or angry at the world in general its not their fault and never is and probably never will be.
I feel like trying to explain my boundaries and general issues is pointless as my issues are a burden to my friends. It makes certain situations hard to explain like not going to hangout with them because I'm sick. When in reality i just feel like telling them that my 'anxiety is making me physically sick' will only burden them>
I also hate talking about the things I'm interested in cause one they wont get it which isn't the main issue. I feel like they will think its dumb and a stupid game/interest. Like I know they won't judge me but I just over think shit like this and I feel shitty bringing it up and i don't know when to talk about myself a lot of the time cause I feel like I'm cutting in, trying to be the centre of attention but i also don't wanna try and make what one is talking about, about me cause its not and i know its not i juts feel bad and award.
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beautiful-is-boring · 2 years ago
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Through the phone
Gojo satoru x Fem!Reader (she/her) | Fluff, very minimal angst if you squint, JJK MANGA SPOILERS
Summary: Gojo, your crush, rambles on and on about you, unaware that you're listening.
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writing this was an impulsive decision so if this ends up being bad or cringe or if i make gojo ooc on accident im so sorry lol
"SHOKO IERI" Gojo's loud and booming voice startled his friend who was speaking to someone on the phone, causing her to yelp.
"hold on dear gimme a moment" she said to the person on the other side "satoru what the fuck?"
"I have so much to tell you about y/n!" he said to her with gleaming eyes that were covered by his blindfold, but shoko could easily tell he had heart eyes, since the topic was about you, his crush.
"not now! can't you see im talking to someone?"
"no. I will stay here and say whatever I want, and you will listen, and if that person wants they can listen too because y/n is just one of a kind okay? They also need to know about how cool she is!"
Shoko smirked to herself. Gojo would ramble on about you, and sometimes, he would sit quiet thinking of you; but he never made a move. You didn't either. Both of you were shy, stupid, dumbfucks who were afraid of rejection and attachment, even though you both wanted each other (her words, not mine)
She could have cut the call, but she didn't. She had a trick up her sleeve. It was you on the other end after all; and her long time friend didn't know that.
"go on ;)"
"so..." satoru began "i cannot stress this enough, and i know i said this loads of times before, but her smile is EVERYTHING. And her laugh? HEAVENLY. She could smile and giggle and boom! depression doesn't exist anymore! And everytime she smiles at me or I make her laugh I can feel myself BLUSHING and going RED but obviously she can't know that so I laugh it off saying its the heat, and I am so glad it is summer right now because that girl is really smart. Her brain is so hot. But she's dumb and oblivious a lot of times and its hilariously cute."
'Her smile is everything.' 'I can feel myself blushing.' 'Her brain is hot.' What the fuck? You could hear everything he was saying to shoko through your phone. Blushing profusely, your eyes widened automatically. This was Gojo, your crush, and an egoistical bastard. He would never admit any of the things he was unapologetically saying at the very moment. You knew your feelings were reciprocated yet you continued to listen to know what he actually thought of you.
"Like- she's so pretty its illegal." He continued gushing on about you while Shoko silently snickered to her self and you froze completely.
"Honestly? She's so badass and doesn't give a shit about anything else but she's so caring. I saw her help this small kid in the park whose balloon was stuck on a tree and she helped him get the balloon back, and I instantly fell in love. You already know sweet she is with the students, they love her! AND SHE MAKES SPECIAL CHOCOLATES FOR ME! How cool is that! She..." his voice quietened down a bit "she makes me feel special shoko. She makes me feel loved. She cares about me a lot. Its just a different kind of feeling. But im scared, I don't want to lose her. You-you know what happened to getou- i cant-"
He took in a heavy breath and paused for a second "I dont want to lose her in any way. What if they target her because of me? I know she's so damn strong, nothing can touch her. But that 1% still remains. Or what if she doesn't reciprocate my feelings? Her and I are close friends and i don't want to lose that too. And on top of that I am busy and I am a hard guy to be with."
"well, what do you want to do?" Shoko asked him with a softer smile.
"I..I think i'm gonna stop. She deserves better if im being honest. She needs someone who can pamper her and give her time. I am done-"
"Satoru?"
Your shaky voice could be heard from shoko's phone.
Gojo froze and everything around him went quiet. You. It was you, the one only y/n, on the phone. The one he was in love with. The one he just rambled on and on about to his friend, and you heard every single word. He could feel his mind go hay-wire. He wanted the earth to swallow him whole from the embarrassment. He wanted to go to some foreign country, dig a hole, crawl in it and die. He felt vulnerable, panicked and so much more.
"Satoru? Are you still there?" your voice broke the silence, drawing his attention to you.
He decided to get it over with.
"heyyyy y-y/n? hehe listen don-don't worry about it i-i was just joking- i mean i was n-not- but you don-t have to take me seriously like i-i respect your feelings and if you don't return them t-that is okay but please lets still be friends but i was hoping for-"
"Satoru...please, tell me the truth. Please tell me you're not joking."
With a heavy sigh, he spoke into shoko's phone. "Y/n, I like you. 'I am in love with you' would be a better choice of words, but I don't want to be awkward, it feels as if I'm going too fast. Look, its okay if you don't like me back, and I completely get it; but I have hidden my feelings for a really long time now, and I just wanna say that I will always be by your side, protecting you, supporting you, being the bestfriend that you need during hard times."
"Why do I need you as my bestfriend to support me when you can do the same while being my boyfriend?"
w h a t
Gojo satoru's eyes widened and his mouth hung open. What the hell did you just say to him? "...what? y-y/n what are you saying?"
"I..I wanted to confess my feelings for you for so damn long but I was scared to lose you. I think we both were." you giggled softly and gojo could feel his heart swell. "Satoru, I like you too. I like you so so so much."
"I can't believe it!" he whispered.
"I'm in my office room. Meet me now." That was all you said before you hung up. Gojo could hear the nervousness from your voice, while keeping in mind that he was very nervous too, and he probably gave it away because of his stuttering at the start. He felt butterflies in his stomach, partly from his nervousness and partly from the happiness he felt from receiving your confession.
He looked at shoko with shocked eyes.
"Don't be a wimp and just go to her." Shoko responded to his look, and smiled. "You'll be fine."
Gojo took a deep breath in, then out, and then teleported himself to your office.
His eyes fell on you the moment he stepped foot in that room. You were seated on a big couch that you owned, looking ethereal as ever in the golden rays of the sun that entered into the room through your open windows. Gojo couldn't help but blush at how beautiful you looked, even while being so nervous, and he could feel his heart do a backflip when you gave him a soft smile with a small "hi".
"hi." he replied back, not knowing what to say. His awkward stance was adorable.
"you look really cute when you're flustered." Your compliment made him smile as you both walked towards each other. It was not normal for THE Gojo satoru to be this soft, this flustered, the reason being a person.
"and you, my darling, you...look absolutely adorable when you smile." you both chuckled lightly as he booped your nose with his finger, drinking in the sight of you smiling. "...is it too early to call you darling-?"
"no no it isn't!...I like it." It was your turn to blush now. "What nickname do I use for you?" You tiptoed and wrapped your arms around his neck, feeling his arms go around your waist, gazing into his ocean like eyes twinkling behind the glasses.
"Anything. What do you want to call me?"
"'Toru'. How does that sound?"
"Don't ever call me anything other than that." was all he said before he leaned down and softly placed his lips over yours, feeling a different kind of happiness for the first time in forever.
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mcdingaling · 3 years ago
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I'm FINALLY doing my Sakuatsu fic rec MASTERLIST
I love finding these so i've wanted to do this for such a long time.
Without further ado, here we go: (there will be NO smut -mostly- so its ALL FLUFF AND CRACK AND AMAZINGNESS)
SOCIAL MEDIA CONCEPTS
I adore the premise of social media in fics, so these are my ABSOLUTE favorite ones
The MSBY Black Jackals Take a Lie Detector Test by sifuhotman
i THINK this is my favorite sakuatsu fic ever. like. ever
i've read this so. many. times. And im in LOVE with the concept bc i LOVE the try guys and the build up is SO GOOD and there is so much TENSION and hinata and bokuto are little shi*s. THE CONCEPT OF A LIE DETECTOR IS JUST GREAT OK?? IT JUST IS
MSBY4's Lockdown Survival Guide by minthalo
THIS MOTHERFRIKING FIC OMGKSDHGKLA. idk what it was laced with but you cant. put. it. down
It's SO GOOD, it's based on tiktok and the #sakuatsu stuff is AMAZING dfjskhf only they would realize they love each other bc of HASHTAGS
AND ITS ALSO SUPER FUNNY
MSBY's Miya Atsumu and Sakusa Kiyoomi Take a Friendship Test by msbypr
AjSDBAJFASÑK THIS motherfriking FIC. omg. ITS SO GOOOD
ITS BEST FRIENDS TO LOVERS, and the amount of LOVE they have for each other??? and the TENSION??? ITS AMAZING
Miya Atsumu & Sakusa Kiyoomi Answer the Web's Most Searched Questions by sifuhotman
"SOCIAL MEDIA INTERVIEW AND PRIVATE CONFessoon YASSSSSS"
that's literally what I wrote as a bookmark. It's amazing
Famous V-League Players Make Fools of Themselves on Twitter dot com by crone_zone
my bookmark after i read it was "This is the closest thing to reblogging a fic I could think of 🤍 HILARIOUS" and i STAND. BY . THAT. YOU SHOULD READ THIS FIC. its a crack fic and its SO WELL DONE I LITERALLY LOLed OK??? I LAUGH OUT LOUDED
Channel JACKAL by Aka_aKa_akA
It's literally a video series made fanfic about the jackals being dumb and awesome and lovely and sakuatsu bc yea everyone loves sakuatsu so just enjoy the ride
its a kinda? slow burn. long but WORTH IT
a posteriori by SugarHighs
hsksafhkla competitive atsumu ftw
Subtle Inarizaki Crushes by sifuhotman
ok so, this one is a second part? or first part? of 2 fics. One is Subtle Inarizaki Dating which is SUNAOSA and sakuatsu in the background, but this is SAKUATSU with sunaosa in the background. It's really good, you should definitely read both
in the light by Ann1215
HEAR ME OUT OK???? Sakusa as a SUGAR DADDY???? and atsumu being all cute and hot and collegy???? OGAKGAHLDSKJFH i love this and its a FAKE DATING au so yea its perfect dont judge just read
re: chat by aalphard
Do emails count as social media???? who knows
anyways, this fic is SO FUNNY and i LOVE atsumu so yeah, its reading into his conversations with his brother gushing about sakusa
10/10
Dress to Impress by matchumu
Sakusa just malfunctioning because of a picture of atsumu is GOLD
i keep a window for you, it's always open by volchitsae
I'll just say this is social media bc SAKUSA is a YOUTUBER <3<3 love it. Never understood the title tho hehe
People Will Say We're in Love by tirralirra
yea remember THAT author i said i wouldn't put another fic of? well...
so THIS ONE is so cute bc people ship sakuatsu on twitter and they try to deny it. as IF they werent like in love
SIMPLY VERY GOOD ONES
Again, until it's perfect by fairycake
It's SUCH A GOOD FIC bc the concept of them perfecting a quick is SO COOL and the love story progression is SO AMAZING and yeah, AND THE PINING???? 10/10. I wish I'd read this one sooner
Too Unwise to Woo Peaceably by tirralirra
THIS.FRIKING.FIC omggggg THE CONCEPT??? amazing. THE PLOT??? hilarious. THE CHARACTERS??? wonderful
ITS LIKE OMG AJKJKLAJKL EVERYTHING YOU EVER WANTED AND MORE. LIKE SHAKESPEARE???? AND HAIKYUU???? SAY LESS
as you can see, i like this author sO.MUCH
ATSU101: how to fall in love with your fake boyfriend by solyn
OK SO THIS ONE DOES HAVE SMUT (((kinda tho they make out)))) but hear me out ok? i branched out for a good reason. ITS LIKE ZERO ANGST. minous a THOUSAND angst. all fluff. IDIOTS TO LOVERS which they are, your honor. and at this point it's a classic in the fandom just read it ok? just enjoy loving atsumu even MORE than you ever thought you could bc, as i said, he is the man of everyone's dreams. thank you and goodnight
If you're ever sad just read this fic. plz.
Matchmade by tirralirra
OMG THIS ONE IS SO ADORABLE like best friends sakuatsu is like the best thing EVER to me and this is the CUTEST friends (idiots) to lovers
Love Me, Love My Dog by tirralirra
this is the last one from this author i promise
IAHSDGKL SAKUSA BEING A DOG DAD???? and atsumu falling for him?? the progression is so cute?? and healthy?? and natural?? im in lov
ink blossoms by entrechat
WHO doesn't love a good flower / tattoo shop AU amirite?????? and its very VERY good
The Dos and Don’ts of Loving Sakusa Kiyoomi by liliapocalypse
THIS is AMAZING and the TENSIONNN and the PININGGGG MAJKDFAKLNF. Everyone just wants to make sakusa smile :) and atsumu pisses him off, so yea he's not winning that competition
Sakusa Kiyoomi's Matchmaking Questionnaire by soylatte17
Its SO CUUUUTE <3 i lov this. sakusa is a matchmaker and atsumu is his client, basically. CaN yOu gUeSs whAt could PoSsIbLy hApPeN????
i’ll do anything you say (if you say it with your hands) by liliapocalypse
the slight touching cuteness is too much i cant even
touch me (i want you to) by melstar
PRACTICE TOUCHING??? say LESS
its really really really really really really -and yeah i typed really all those times instead of ctrl-v ing it bc im an idiot - cute
COLLEGE AU
Mostly college Aus, just the ones that focus on that bc there are many college AUs that are important bc of other stuff
don't think too much (i only fell when i gave up) by w0ndrlnd
I didnt knOw i needed a SMART ATSUMU fic until this one. LIkE its ACADEMIC RIVALSSS BUT DONE SO WELL??? HOWWWW
the perfect college AU where atsumu is the man of everyone's dreams. I read this twice... in a row
the posterior probability by izayas
JHSJDH i lOVE this one and its another SMART atsumu and i LIVE. FOR THAT
on the basis of instant noodles by auvelli
Let's say it's enemies to lovers. and its COLLEGE and its pining and crushing and using a microwave so what else can you even ask for at this poing
A Second Truth by tumbleweedfarm
This IS a college AU but like KYIOOMI BEING A SINGLE DAD?? AND ATSUMU FALLING AND BEING THERE FOR HIM??????
?????????? IM CRYING????
three roses and a smile by strawberrycitrus
I meann.... its a college AU but they're both professors. and enemies to lovers. its SUCH A COOL PLOT, like really, trust me, it IS
SHORT ONES:
love and all the wrong answers by tirralirra
This one is SO CUTE and sakusa is SO.DUMB i love it so much
ROAD RAGE by mcbeefy
THIS ONE'S JUST HILARIOUS SAFJKHAKF plz read it it's a great crack fic
Current Predicament by fandomverse
You know when you read sth and you thing hOW did someone come up with this?? well, this concept is AMAZING and the EXECUTION TOO, *chef's kiss*
How to Acquire a Romantic Partner Using Reverse Psychology: a How-To-Guide by Sakusa by awkwardedgeworth
This one is very short, but like.... it's about them COMPRESSION SLEVES... yeah... just read it
pick me by ely_su
A good read, very cute ending
if you want even MORE, here you have ALL my Ao3 bookmarks with comments on them bc yeah
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gorbo-longstocking · 3 years ago
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hey! i really love ur fic and am just a thirsty little flower and you water me with your skeletons <3 question tho: when the slow burn has finally burned itself down, describe the cuddle pile logistics, if u think that’d happen :0?
WAAAAAH IM REALLY GLAD YOU LIKE MY FIC THATS SO SWEET 😭💞💕
ok the cuddle logistics! ive broken them down into how they are with platonic cuddling/touching and how they are with romantic cuddling/touching just in a general sense!
im really happy you asked because i am sitting on so many thoughts and headcanons right now, i want to unleash them. this was a blast to answer! :D
sans - in terms of platonic cuddling id say it takes him a HOT second for him to get comfortable enough to be super touchy feely with someone but after he trusts you casual touching is on the table like leaning on each other while waiting in line, sticking your feet in each others laps while watching a movie, and little squeezy sidehugs are all things hed do. with a romantic partner he will just lay on you 24/7 like a cat whenever the opportunity arises. especially if hes had a bad day. congratulations you now have your very own skeleton shaped weighted blanket
papyrus - oh he is all about platonic hugs, cuddles, and everything in between. kind of guy to pick you up and spin you around when hes excited. he is very casual with his touches, always having a hand on you or something. he loves to pat your head, your hair feels cool and he would love to try and style it in some way (no matter how much or how little you have he will find a way). romantically he manages to be even more physically affectionate and will also start carrying you places like a ferret. he likes to hold your hand while driving, one on the wheel the other tangled with yours.
blue - platonic touching is a double edged sword for blue because on one hand he is all for it on the other hand he is so painfully awkward (an unfortunate side effect of sansism) he feels like he is crossing some unspoken boundary between you two so unless youre very communicative of your comfort he will dance around anything beyond greeting hugs. romantically, hes still very attentive to your boundaries, but he is much more loose with his affection. he is SUPER domestic, hes always loved the sappy stuff from romance movies, so he tends to default to that. he likes to twirl you around, hug you from behind, and gush about you to anyone who listens. a full cuddle session is hard to get out of him, not because he doesnt want to, he just cant sit still. i hc he has adhd which plays a part in that.
stretch - in terms of platonic cuddling or touching he is a very laid back guy. you can lean on him, lay on him, or cling to him all you want, he doesnt mind at all. he wont initiate anything until you do though, hes lax with his boundaries, but hes aware not everyone is. stretch also has a tendency to slap the nearest thing to him when he laughs really hard ranging from his knee, to the arm of the couch, or the shoulder of whoever is closest to him. romantically though, you would need the jaws of life to remove him from your side ESPECIALLY while sleeping together its almost like he coats himself in gorilla glue before latching onto you.
red - platonic cuddling is not really his thing, he feels very vulnerable in that position which makes him uncomfortable. hed have to be VERY close with you as a friend or just VERY tired to really get all in the cuddle zone. while hes sleeping he will just hang onto the closest warm thing he can find. romantically, thats not a problem. to be in a relationship with red, hes gotta trust you a significant amount anyway, so its no longer a factor. hes kind of possessive and loves showing off his partner so he’ll have an arm around you in public (he is your scary dog privileges) or playfully knocking into you while youre walking around together. he really likes to hold you while hes watching tv. i hope you like rick and morty.
edge - platonic cuddling is not really his thing, even touching is weird from him. he is not used to being that open with someone. he will grab your shoulders or have a hand behind your back to steer you places, either out of his way or out of harms way. he absolutely instinctually puts arm out to catch someone when he hits the breaks too hard or before crossing the road. romantically he is not a fan of pda but in private hes kind of a sap. at first he wont ask to cuddle or hug he will just stare at you until you do it and VEHEMENTLY deny wanting it. as he gets more comfortable in the relationship he is much more open about what he wants, though there are some things youll have to juice out of him.
lord - literally do not touch him. platonically youd be VERY VERY hard pressed to get anything out of him that isnt the worlds most stiff and awkward hug or a pat on the back. if you initiate anything, it depends on how close he is with you. he will either remove you, or stiffen up completely for like an hour before relaxing. romantically, its not much different. you are welcome to lay on him or touch him all you want (he silently likes the contact) hes used to his brother’s mode of affection, but hes still not used to dishing it out himself so hes still SOOO awkward about it. give him time, he’ll get better about it.
mutt - the only difference between cuddling as his friend and romantic as his partner is if you are romantically involved he has wandering hands. he literally lays down on anyone and everyone he can in the craziest positions. on the couch, in the car, upside down, in a hammock, on the roof, on the floor of the grocery store. hes just a very tired, very touch starved dude. hes the kind of guy to try to trap you in bed when you have to get up in the morning to do something and whine about it as you try to pry him off.
general cuddle pile: can be broken up into the ones who are all for it and the ones who are not.
papyrus, red, mutt, and stretch are totally cool with melding into a giant mass, theyre pretty comfortable with affection towards each other as a family and having you involved would be pretty epic. it’d probably only happen during a movie night, a game night, or watching a show. (red isn’t comfortable being affectionate towards everyone in the family, just these three and edge despite the fact being affectionate with edge is like lion taming)
sans, lord, edge, and blue will pass on the cuddle puddle. lord and edge are just uncomfortable with that much mass affection, sans is absolutely mildewing with guilt and will continue to mildew about it for an eternity so until he gets blasted with some healing its out of the question, and blue has a very hard time sitting still and he doesnt want to disrupt things so he will not join. he is more than happy to sit on the sidelines though!
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zuffer-weird-girl · 3 years ago
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I may be hella afraid of birds but that wont stop me from making this.
Injured wing
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The poor thing was in the balcony of the apartment. Making sounds and flapping their wings at ferocity to try to take flight again as you watched in pity.
Taking a warm towel from the dryer, your boyfriend's one since it was the comfier to be exact, you picked up the squirming little brow winged creature and took inside. You didn't had the heart to leave it out there, especially due to the snow.
While taking things out of cabinets, you didn't noticed your phone buzzing with the notifications of a certain... top hero calling you.
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"A nightingale." You mused as you read on the internet what type of bird was now having fun on bathing on q small pot of water and singing to its heart content "How adorable!" You gushed as it shock out of the droplets of water as you carefully put a sorta of a tiny sling on a popsicle stick to mantain its feather that seemed to be broken stood on place.
"Sorry buddy, guess you're gonna have to stay like this for some time." The bird seemed to calculate your words before tweaking as you giggled at its cuteness.
That is until you heard the door opening and clicking shut.
Fuck. Keigo.
You grabbed the bird delicately and put it on a box filled with a soft towel and placed on your bed before going to open the bedroom's door to see a soaked wet, hair flat and worried hero with a frow.
"Is this some sorta of revenge or what? I was worried sick (Y/n)! You weren't answering your phone so I thought something happened." You picked your phone in confusion.
"You did?" Shit "oh..."
"Yeah. 'Oh.'" He crossed his arms before sighing cupping your cheeks "Why did you stood me up? I thought we were going to have dinner together on that restaurant."
"God!" You face palmed "I totally forgot! I'm so sorry Kei!" You whined as he let out a chuckle.
"Is fine. Although I would like if you compesate for m-"
Before he could finish his sentence, you both froze when a couple of chirps were heard. You analyzed his expression and soon giggled in nervousness at seeing his wings puff up in alarm.
"Was that.. was that a chirp?" He yed you, his pupils dilated as you took a step back with a smile.
"I.. I dont know? Maybe they are out there singing." You rolled your eyes and sweated when he towered over you as you kinda protected the nightingale inside the box with your body.
Yet the chirps intensified...
"There is a bird in here." Hawks more accused than asked as you giggled in nervousness once again.
"A bird? Why would a bird be-" the nightingale manage to escape the box and tweaked at both of you "...here."
"What is he doing in here?" He asked, if you didn't know Keigo enough, you could assume he was... unpleasant.
That's why you were so hesitant on showing the little nightingale to him in the first place when he showed up. You werent blind, and knew Keigo had some bird attics that showed up here and there. It wasn't as frequent as it would be however he was resting if the commission hadn't somehow put their hands on it. But Keigo didn't hold much strings around you. So... you could clearly see that your boyfriend wasn't happy when another one of "his kind", especially a male, he could tell somehow it was a male by the chirping dont ask why, was beneath the same rooftop as him with his partner alone.
"Is here because he is injured Kei, he needs some treatment." You cupped your hands together for the nightingale climb in it as Hawks hlardd holes at the little thing.
"Take him to the vet or something kid, this ain't a clinic." You flinched at his words but still remained strong.
"No I am not." You said "I dont know if they are going to sacrifice him or not Kei, I cant take chances."
"Do you even know how to take care of a bird in the first place dove?!" He asked, hands up as his wings puffed even more which made you snort and arch an eyebrow at him as the fella in your hands chirped.
"Well, I do have some knowledge of wings. And have to take care of one on daily basics." You giggled at the expression of shock and insulted Keigo did before walking off and leaving him groaning and sulking at knowing you wouldn't get rid of that street bird...
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"Keigo Takami." He froze when he heard his full name coming from your mouth "Put that phone down. That little bird is going to stay until it gets better." He did just as you said with an eyeroll before pouting in anger at seeing the bird at your shoulder.
That's his place to put his chin on and snuggle your neck with his face. His.
"And you have to carry that thing whenever you go now? That must suck." He tried to joke, leaning with crossed arms on the kitchen counter as before his face completely fell as you simply chuckled and said it didn't bother you at all.
"Seriously?" He asked in disbelief before grabbing his mug taking a few gulps before you widened your eyes and giggling "What are you laughing at?"
"Is just that mug was full of water early and maybe our little friend may have took a bath in it." Your boyfriend stood up so fast and soon you heard disgusting noises of vomiting .
"For god's sake KEIGO I WASHED IT!"
"I DONT CARE THAT THING SHOULDN'T BE BATHING ON MY STUFF WHAT THE HECK?!"
You sighed, waiting for your boyfriend to be back as you feed the little bird with some seeds carefully, soon being met with Keigo, still brushing his teeth.
"Drama king." You chuckled as he groaned "You know he is not a thing Kei, is a nightingale."
"Great knowing it." He said with a mouthful of toothpaste before spitting into the trash, saying something about not dirtying his bathroom with other birds germs or something.
He looked at you a bit in defeat at seeing you feeding the bird as you noticed his wings drooping a bit.
"What is wrong now bird brain?" You giggled at his expression.
"You should be feeding me ... your boyfriend." You snorted before picking a sunflower seed and showing it to him.
"I thought you didn't liked this stuff?" Yoh asked cheekily as he groaned.
"There is chicken, takoyaki, nuggets heck everything that I eat!"
The bird chirped and you nodded thoughtfully as he stared at you in confusion.
"Cannibalism. I agree."
"Oh cmon I thought we were over this..." he sighed before getting something from the fridge as he scowled at the chirps following after.
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He glared at the bird chirping a song as you hummed in delight at the sound, staring lovely at the nightingale.
"Oh cmon Kei!" You poked his cheeks which was puffed "You have to admit is a amazing sound! Nightingales are famous for that!"
"Hawks are famous for other things too y'know?" He grumbled before widening his eyes at seeing you werent giving him attention, instead grabbing your phone and recording the nightingale's chirping.
"Hm? What did you say Kei?" You looked up at him with that smirk which made him scoff and stood up with crossed arms and going to the kitchen.
You stiffled your giggled, going to your pouting boyfriend and hugging him lovingly after putting the injured bird back to safety.
"You're really jealous huh?" You carresed his chest as he breathed in and out, cheeks red at being so obvious about his feelings.
"Is a form of flirting birds singing to their mates. That little shit." He mumbled, earning you a laugh that made him smile as feeling you peppering kisses all over his neck and jawline before he caught your lips with his.
You broke apart with a goofy smile as he chuckled before deadpanning at hearing chirps before puffing and straightening his wings on all glory before shouting at the nightingale:
"GO GET YOURSELF A PARTNER! THIS ONE IS TAKEN YOU PIECE OF CRAP!"
You never laughed so hard in your life. A sound that, for Keigo at least, was far more beautiful than any chirping, singing or melody on this whole world.
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After a few days you saw Keigo's hatred for the nightingale easing slowly but surely. Yet you never thought that coming home late on one of Keigo's day off, you would see your boyfriend, layed on the couch with a finger up holding the bird he claimed to hate it and whistling some similiar tone along with the nightingale's chirping.
You stared in shock yet awe at the look of your boyfriend directed to the bird as the sounds came out of his lips before chuckling.
"Your wing soon will be better by the looks of it. Isn't (Y/n) a great nurse?" He mumbled, a sadness deep down on his gaze as he saw the bird clapping the wing that wasn't wrapped up "You got freedom and my dove's attention bud, how could you and (Y/n) not expect me to get jealous?" He chuckled sadly as you frowned, walking slowly towards him, pretending to not overheard his monologue.
"Hey pretty thing, back already?" His cheeky smile was back as you looked at it in awe before kneeling in front of the couch he was layed on and kissing him deeply, making him close his eyes in bliss and pull you closer with his free hand by the neck.
You broke apart as he panted with a glossy yet pleased look. Ignoring the chirps for a bit, you carresed his golden looks as he closed his eyes with a smile.
"Redeeming yourself for giving attention to this bird and not me for these past few weeks?" He murmured happily yet drowsily as you giggled and kissed his forehead softly.
"You could say that bird brain." You stopped for a bit, hearing him whine miserably for you to get back, cupping your hands for the bird to get in.
"Cmon..." he whined, arm dropped over his face as the other rested on him until he felt you tugging on his shirt.
"Just get up lazy, I'm giving you all the attention you want." At this, you saw his golden eyes practically glow in bliss as he stood up as fast as he could.
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He stretched his arms as he sitted up on the bed. Hair untamed and eyes unfocused until they dropped on the bird that had exited his box and was flapping both of his wings. Both.
"Huh. You look all better." He smirked as he felt you shift and rest your chin on his shoulder with a drowsy look.
"Who is better?" You mumbled before he pointed at the bird jumping and trying to take flight.
"Your friend there." You squealead as hs chuckled, grabbing the nightingale in one hands as he unwrapped the the made up sling as he waited patiently for the little fella to flap its wings and fly just a few centimeters above his palm.
"Cmon dove." He ushered you to follow him on the balcony as he had a gentle hold on the nightingale "Go little buddy, being stuck on a unknown place forever isn't goog for anyone."
And with a little movement of his hand, the nightingale took flight with beautiful chirps that made you smile but soon look at your boyfriend with a sad smirk as he watched the little bird fly away.
It wasn't sadness because he got attached to the nightingale. It was because that, even a small bird as he, could be free and not him. A grow up man that had a partner but was still caged by the comission...
You carresed his arm before hugging it and placing a sweet kiss to his cheek which brought his attention back to you.
"How about some hot cocoa my handsome? You still got some minutes stuck with me until you go to work." You said softly in Hope's to cheer him up.
He looked at you in some sorta of shock before chuckling and bringing you close enough to him to hear his heart beat and feel his warm yet chapte lips on your forehead.
"Being stuck with you is the only way that keeps me going to be honest."
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w0nnielov3 · 2 years ago
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enha - reacting to their s/o being tall (5’9”)
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Omg I hope you guys like the new theme for my pin board :D I tried my best with it T^T ,, for sunghoon i didn't know how to go with it but like yeah ur his ice skating partner :p
warning!!: lowercase intended ,, some curse words ,, grammar mistakes
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⁀➷ :: heeseung ✕
I feel like I’d heeseung were to have a s/o he would either want them to be his height or just short ,, but if his s/o were to be tall he wouldn’t care. Height is just height to heeseung so in the end he will love you the same no matter if you’re 5 foot or 6 foot. Will complement you all the time ,, if you ever feel insecure about your height just know he will make sure you know how amazing your height is.
⁀➷ :: Jay ✕
Jay doesn’t give two fucks about your height :p ,, if you’re tall he will try to convince you to be a model …and when he says model he means his own personal model ,, he believes that being the same height make shopping for you so much easier and on top of that he loves to make you wear his clothing and dress you up as everything fits you well which he loves so much. You will have a closet full of clothes that he specifically bought just for you :)
⁀➷ :: Jake ✕
jake would be shorter than you ,, but i don't think he would really mind that much to be completely honest. jake has known you basically all his life ,, you've always been taller and whenever you told him about how you hate being tall he would just tell you how he thinks you being tall makes you very badass. WILL BARK AND BITE AT ANYONE WHO SAYS ANYTHING MEAN ,, jake knows you very well and he will not have you feeling bad because of some moran
⁀➷ :: Sunghoon ✕
you're sunghoons skating partner which would also make you his best friend ...which lead to dating. you were never taller than sunghoon, in fact, you were like toddler size as he likes to put it ,, but then one day he met you for practice and you were just as tall as him. sunghoon definitely has teased you for being tall but he wouldn't go overboard because he still cares about your feelings. doesn't mind you being tall he actually enjoys it more than anything and wouldn't wish anything different.
⁀➷ :: sunoo ✕
SUNOO WILL GUSH OVER YOUR HEIGHT ,, you would be barely an inch taller than sunoo and honestly, he finds it astonishing. will brag to his members how his s/o is better than everyone else's ...but then he makes a joke about them having none- loves to buy you clothing when he goes shopping and tells you how they will go well with your long legs or long torso. will tell you that you would make a perfect fairy ...he's whipped.
⁀➷ :: Jungwon ✕
jungwon is small okay he's a tiny human ,, but he doesn't act like a tiny human which is why the height difference has never bothered him. Jungwon likes taking control (not in a bad way) so yes he would be a little intimidated if you were taller ,, but like said he doesn't act like he's 5'7" he acts like he's 9 foot which makes him forget about the height difference. has never mentioned the height difference because he doesn't really care and if he did he wouldn't have asked you out. will listen to all your vents about being tall and will comfort you all night if he has to.
⁀➷ :: niki ✕
okay so niki is a little different compared to all the others ,, niki would prefer to have a small s/o who he can baby and protect. if you're tall he might feel as though he can't do neither- niki is quite tall himself ,, so having an s/o who's the same height wouldn't bother him that much but i feel like there would be times when he might feel as though he would wish you were smaller because like said niki would love to baby and protect his s/o (not that you cant be if tall). but regardless he will always be there if you feel insecure about your height you're still his s/o and he wants to make sure you're happy :)
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