#and i can't even fucking talk to them about this bc they need me to be the strong one for once
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When I complained about emotional abuse and parental favoritism of my brother from my family, she told me I "should focus on myself instead of blaming everyone else for my problems" and that "not everyone's out to get you". I knew that! I was like 13-15 at the time, how tf was it my fault for knowing I was being treated badly?
When I talked about how I was traumatized by being restrained when I was overwhelmed ever since I was a kid by both teachers and my parents, I was told I should stop being a danger to everyone around me. Sure, I could act out a lot, it's almost like I was a kid who's emotional needs were being ignored and was punished for fucking everything I did anyway so I stopped caring.
She let my mom talk to her first to decide what I needed to talk about bc autistic people apparently can't be trusted talk about their issues, which effectively got the problems I actually needed to talk about ignored and written off as delusional, even though they were very real and a lot of them caused by the woman she was letting decide my emotional needs for me.
jiraiblr what’s some crazy shit ur therapists have said to yall
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My. Class. Won't. Start. And it's been aFUCKING HOUR
#they always do thissa jfc they send us on break and all of a sudden everyone and their mother has questions about the hw#that just CANNOT WAIT until the end of the class#and i fucking can't like brother people who DON'T have questions are just stuck here#and then we have to stay extra time at the end of class so the teacher can talk about everything he had planned for that day#brother some people work after class. some have to go home to like 20 different chores to do and would appreciate an extra half hour for it#it drives me insane bc they aren't even efficient with it. it's not like it's an hour long bc 200 people go ask stuff#it's just like 20 guys that have a 10/20 minute conversation with the teacher about a specific exercise¿??#and maybe I'm just being a hater here but the times I've needed to ask shit i usually FIRST make sure my numbers are correct#and also that I'm not misunderstanding any theory#and then if it's still not working after many tries and i couldn't find help by any other means#(like someone who has solved a similar thing online and can give me some ideas 4 a different approach)#THEN i go to the teacher and tell them how I've been thinking about the problem and the entire convo usually just goes#'i'm doing this' 'hmmm actually i would think about ut this other way. pay more attention to this part' and then I LEAVE#i leave and i think about it all over again by myself i do not ask the teacher to solve every last bit for me for the next 10 minutes#and it's not like I'm against people asking theory questions bc like some shit IS hard to grasp and it's cool if u need it re explained to u#but it's like some of these people don't even TRY like... oh.. yk.. ACTUALLY STUDYING?#reviewing your notes and actually thinking about the problems for a minute b4 deciding u just can't solve it??#and honestly it would all be nice and good if they did that during the last hour of class bc then it wouldn't be my business anymore tbh#but it's fucking up my class time and now I'm hungry and fucking upset bc i can't leaveeeeeeee
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Just saw this comment on a story posted a month ago.
*cries in Eddie Munson Solo Series no one wanted to read, interact with or request for*
No shade to the person that commented this on their own fic if you recognize it. It's not their fault. I'm not mad at them. More crying in the tags.
#and no I didn't tag the solo series like I normally would because it's not about THAT. It's not about trying to get people to read it#It was just really ouchie to see the same concept I wrote 2 years ago get triple the notes in ONE MONTH.#and double the notes of my solo series masterlist in general in one month vs 2 years of my stories sitting there rotting#Then I see people saying they need more solo Eddie and I'm just here like my dudes I begged for requests. BEGGED. But bc I wasn't#/have never been a popular writer people don't want it from ME. It's like omg we want THIS but not like that. Not from you.#Can't help but let it get you down when nothing has changed in 2 years. It's not like I worked my way up and have the interaction now#that every other blog I used to commiserate with back in the day is getting currently. Fandom isn't a competition but it's not fair either#and I really struggle with that a lot of the time#Also yes I will concede I should be happy with the notes on the solo series because they are the highest of all the work on my page but#they're still nothing compared to what some people have just hours after posting a new story.#I saw someone complaining the other day that there are less new stories in the fandom than ever 1. That's simply not true. 2. Even if it wa#can you blame writers for giving up when readers are checking the same popular blogs over again or reading the same 5 tropes the same#2 pairings over and over. The same series? Over and over. Ignoring everything else and then complaining that their faves don't post enough?#That the popular writer with the incredible series (that rightfully deserves interaction) hasn't posted a new dad!eddie or rockstar!eddie#drabble in ages meanwhile there are writes out there pouring their souls into dad!eddie and no one reads it. There is so much rockstar Eddi#smut out there that it could sustain a brand new reader for an entire year before they needed a new fic#Idk man. I'm just feeling so defeated. I write for fun now. But there was a point in time where I desperately tried to build a platform by#offering requests and writing a lot of things I would not otherwise write to try and gain traction on my page and every time I see another#food fucking fic get hundreds of notes I get so sad that I wrote that stupid Melon fic because I had people in my life that told me#they would be excited to read it and for what? One of them still talks to me. The others moved on so fast. Most didn't even reblog it.#Some of them have since written their own food fucking fics that got triple the notes of my OG. Again. No shade to them. I don't own the#concept. It's just disheartening and fucking sad above all else. How hard I tried to get people to LIKE me and my stories. 😂#Just sad hours in general tonight my guys. Going to go and pour the bad feelings into Aftermath and then maybe make a bad life choice and#pour all my savings into an ipad#YES I KNOW first world problems. I know. That's why I try not to talk about it bc it seems so petty considering the state of the world#But you can't help what gets you down#EMMs Journal#EMM's Journal
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Bro I think I'm. A lesbian.
#read the lesbian manifesto and then stone butch blues today. that novel had me crying for like the entire first 50 pages but it's so amazing#and anyway kinda made me realise properly that sexuality is dumb. but also that its interactions with gender are different for everybody and#there isnt really a rulebook yk#and also ANOTHER one of my male irl friends fucking confessed to me or whatever and it kinda just made me realise how much i hate the idea#like being friends w girls never made me this fuckin nervous that they might end up into me. being confessed to by girls never made me so#fuckin. annoyed and exasperated. maybe its in part bc i hear all the horror stories about men lashing out when they're rejected which makes#it more stressful. but also the manifesto said that identity is always meant to be a RIGHT NOW thing and even if youre like#not sure if you were attracted to men in the past or may be in the future. if right now you dont want to date a man and cant see yourself#happy with one. then you're allowed to be a lesbian lol. and i do think thats where i am#idk where i stand w men physically or whatever but i know i dont want to date any of them. and i can't see myself happy with one long-term#part of the manifesto also talks about how 'not liking heterosexual relationship dynamics' can be part of it but for me that also may be a#gender thing. like obv i dont wanna be in a straight relationship w a man because im not a girl.#but even then the manifesto also talks about how many lesbians are gnc or feel dysphoria bc of the fact that they are socially denied#from womanhood/femininity bc of their attraction to women. who knows. who knows.#i need to hang out with less men. or i guess i need to hang out w more womeb#*women#anyway lesbians👍👍 hmu👍👍👍#dont actually I have 2 lab reports to write which is why I spent all day procrastinating with Gay History
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made a new goodreads account bc i read we have always lived in the castle last night & i need to talk about it and also i want to get Better About Reading so anyway i figured now is a good time to share my external links, if anyone cares you can find me on:
goodreads: lisaswain
letterboxd: rosmullens
spotify
steam: bitchofthewilds
pinterest: withintheshadows
evil elon musk platform (twitter/ x/ whatever the fuck): sapphicpsych
#i need to make a new instagram account but i haven't got round to it yet#you can also find me on ao3 (rosmullens) but i'm even worse at interacting/ posting/ being a human on there than i am anywhere else so#if you're wondering why some of the games i play/ talk about most aren't on my steam (esp. dragon age)#it's bc they're too much for my pc so i've got them on ps5 instead#i'm on psn too but it's too complicated to work out how to generate a link#i'm anoramactirs on there in case anyone's interested#anyway my profile is fucked up on psn bc my brother gave me his ps4 when he got a ps5#so it reckons i've played loads of games i've barely heard of bc they're his games#i've now got my own ps5 but i still can't work out how to get my brother's games off my account#(i do play the first two dragon age games on my pc but i have those through origin instead bc i was a foolish child when i bought them)#personal
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i must be the most paranoid bitch ever like making friends in school is like the only okay thing. online or even back at work felt like my life will crumble into pieces and somehow some person will have to ask me for insane amount of money or try to get all information about me to use on something IDK
#this is before i even watched x files im just....AGH I DON'T KNOW! I'M SUPER SCARED!#but i'm also lonely as fuck but you see news about ppl getting scammed and all that#and this is just a conversation right now they're not selling me anythinf#but like asking to hear my voice freaks me the fuck out. like WHY??? WHY do you need that#they're not demanding but idk i'm...i asked them to do it first which won't do shit bc voice changers are a thing#but nothing's really off about this person i never ask much either idk. i felt the same way from the prev person i talked to#a few months ago i did tell them i was paranoid about stuff like this but they were more okay#i did give out a little bit more about me not like important stuff but i was still scared as hell that i went back to our convos and deleted#certain parts. like idk..#but im...I'M LONELY!!!! I JUST NEED ...WHATEVR THIS IS#why do we have to show our faces and hear voices man i can't. even giving out my bday scares the shit out of me#share ko lang 🙄#na vent ewan
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we're all wasting our time the earth should just explode soon <3
#<3 just ur typical Human moment of Doubting and Being Frustrated move alogn#the dilemmas never end it's crazy. and u're giving out all of this to an overthinkerw/crippling anxiety#can't even romanticize it :( i just have to pretend i'm in a movie? ok. cinematically killing myself#& yea u know when they're right that's another thing like. Yea it won't be like this forever. Yea it's a cycle. doesn't mean it's not#tiring to go through. & sometimes u don't need pep talks u just really gotta whine & complain then u go back to Going Through It &#Fighting Tooth and Nail Against It. whatever#ugh and it rlly just took a friend talking to me about how someone they know also complained about how this town is just really shitty. &#some of the burden is gone like oh?? okay. thank you. i'm not crazy & dramatic & Being Singled Out this town is just really fucking stupid#& another one about how it really is just sooo hard. super super hard. to land a good decent humane job when u're not finished w/getting#ur degree. bc everybody hates everyone <3#& it just really baffled me bc have we really normalized child labor so much that it's actually common behavior to SHAME minors if they#don't have jobs. it's crazy#no that's not the case for me but like. seeing it w/others...wdym that 14 yr old has to hustle no that 14 yr old has to go to the#park with their friends after they finished their homework. what do u Mean they need to be thinking about how to earn 50k a year#it's bad application of good ideologies bc omg. yes children need to learn about survival & careers & their future but not to that extent??#& these aren't even child stars child artists whatever. these r the children in slums children in small towns children in low income#families. mamser why r u pressuring ur child to work in a factory to support a family they did not create#& that shame is somehow so internalized it's so ingrained#oh god i never understood i always thought i was just so behind. but no this town this city is created by satan himself#it's all ab connections. nepotism; our lgu the very embodiment of it. why am i still shocked that the citizens modeled their life after#this too. no one gives a fuck about anyone else unless they'd have something to Gain for giving a fuck#& i'd be so envious of these kids with sidelines w jobs & it's like. no that's their family business. no that's just the business of a#family friend & they work just for fun. or no that's from a scholarship & it's aligned w their educational track. & i just Don't Have That#& i should be ok with not having that. girl. u as a 15 yr old should not have been thinking about supporting a family.#at the very least u can think about being independent & supporting urself if that's what u'd like/u wanna try it but. ugh.#that big responsibility should be just a choice & something u should b doing when u're in an actual stable point of ur life. 20s 30s above.#not when u r Fifteen. shaking ur shouldrs. younger cathy listen 2 me!!!!!#& ik obvs case. poverty & ignorance but god do i hope this won't b the norm forever. when r we gonna let children just be children#when are we gonna do our absolute best to support them & always make them feel safe and stable and free & just let them#discover themselves & the world
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my review of Moonwalk: hot mess. ★★★.
#i will refer to it#but oh god... it's just#1st of all. the added afterword from 2009 should have been a FOREWORD bc it gives you the context for how this book was made#so they did have a real writer put it together based on long transcripts of interviews one of the publishing people did with mj#if those tapes exist or pieces of then exist i need to find them. i think i've seen some floating around#bc ... the way it's written sounds very michael. it's not well written. so i'm surprised they even had an actual writer do it#but that makes me think maybe the writer just pulled a lot of exact wording from the tapes?#i hope that's how it happened#like the publishing lady said i Also wish michael had been devoted to this project. this could've been really good#i'm interested in anything that comes straight from michael so ultimately i'm just grateful he did a book at all#and really WAS involved in it#but it just. it's a mess. it's disorganized. it's disjointed#it just does not deliver in so many ways#there were so many times i would read a couple paragraphs and be like. wait What. that went Nowhere#there are really wonderful parts of course too#first of all i'm happy to hear him talk about parts of his life he didn't necessarily talk about that much#i find everything he says about motown and esp the mid-late j5 motown years Supremely interesting#everything written about music and dancing and performing is great. seeing the way he thinks about those things. divine. enlightening.#the thing is. the tone is extremely defensive and passive aggressive throughout the whole book#which is amusing and i mostly like it. michael jackson was one petty and spiteful mf. he loved being right and he reiterates that a lot#but bc of the press treatment of more personal things like his appearance and relationships. those parts are just. eugh#like when it comes to music/dance/performance he can defend himself no problem. concrete evidence that he's fucking awesome and he knew it#he brings up dating and stuff and it feels like he was like. floundering. maybe he just couldn't decide how much to share?#idk it just feels like. he won't outright SAY some things but he'll sort of hint at things. and i can't tell if what he's hinting at#is the real truth or him being defensive and wanting to give the impression that he was 'normal' so people would just leave him alone#i can't tell. i really can't. i wanna just believe him but i'm like. wtf do you mean. and then there'll be inconsistencies#like WHAT R U TRYING TO SAY. you might as well just tell me what you WANT me to think and what you want people to stop bothering you about#ok anyways#it definitely feels like they rushed to get it out asap#i have like 10 questions for every page. i feel like a writer/editor should've been working with him in that way
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Not to be dramatic and point fingers but why is it that the worst people with no respect towards art or anything that doesn't involve mindless consumption for "the lore" always have to be drakengard 3 and nier fans. like i don't even try to look and search for things to complain about regarding them but somehow every stupid fucking thing in this fanbase comes back to them
#gu6chan's musings#can talk about this here so literally a couple of days ago#this dude decided to post a 'machine translation' of the dod1 side story and you know what they fucking said?#'maybe someone like barnabisms can come pretty it up in the distant future 😍'#and i was like 'what the fuck are you talking about i did NOT spend 4 years putting painstaking effort into my shit just for you to come#along and say 'that could've all been done with a machine; actually lol''#i ended up getting REALLY upset about it (the most upset about something ive been in a while) and was like#'whats even the point. i was gonna do the dod2 sidestory but yk what go ahead and fucking do that too if machine tl is that good'#and eventually they took the post down and apologised and their whole reasoning was they weren't thinking bc they wanted to see the lore.#and like. you just want to consume more content is the fucking thing. you don't actually care about any of this#i should have had an idea when they tried arguing to me about the one -> seere/manah heritage being a good thing bc it 'connected' the two#games (disregarding any damage manahs already established character arc TOOK bc of that 'connection')#and they were a huge nier fan by the looks of it too and like. come on i keep saying SURELY they can't all be like that#and it sounds awful for me to say it like this but it's always fucking them somehow reaching new lows making shit unbearable 'for the lore'#i rlly rlly hate this fanbase man#again I'm feeling a lot better but Godddd it's gonna take some effort to get back into tl again after this tbh#but people were very supportive :') it made me feel a lot better bc at that point i was like please just someone care lmao#hung out with some friends last night and it was a good time#but yeah im gonna have to say more on this whole issue later tbh. i really dislike stirring conversations and shit up but!!!#ppl need to have more fucking respect!!!!
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#and there's something else in there about like ....#tbh once i got over something like 1k followers#i stopped being specific about my ED for a REASON.#yes on ur personal locked blog that u use like a diary go ahead etc#but we are OBVIOUSLY not talking about that. we're talking about the sheer NUMBER of people i could be talking about#in that one paragraph. that you and i probably were thinking about 2 different influencers#bc they get to say that they're just posting FITNESS and if it's FITNESS it's OKAY and im like#jesus christ lord almighty#every person in recovery from an ED: this is incredibly dangerous holy shit do you know how much this would have triggered me#each of these ppl: how dare you!!!!!!!!! i am only harming those who WANT to engage with my content!!!!!#their followers: leave them alone !!! they can't help that they make an hours-long choice to frame their disorder as if it was#fucking cottagecore !!!!#like girlie this person needs THERAPY#again! i didn't even have that large of a following before i IMMEDIATELY deleted any specific mention of calories food etc#bc i recognize responsibility and i didnt EVER want to even ACCIDENTALLY encourage this#and im not even GETTING PAID FOR THIS!!!#aND THEY ARE!!!#something something something they know this content makes them money#they don't give a SHIT about u babe
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back to the issue of not feeling able to talk freely with anyone in my family :'))))) woohoo.
#they were like. the only people i DID feel comfortable talking fully freely with.#so getting ready to send smth to my sister and then realizing i can't/don't want to deal with her reaction to it#sucks!!!#gods#like i can talk about some things with some of them and other things with others but like#fuck dude#even something as simple as 'yeah our sister is still using my car' is smth i can't send#bc i KNOW that the sister i was talking to would have an annoying reaction to it#'cant believe youd let her use your car /i/ wouldve told her to get an uber or a rental' etc etc#(which is what she actually said when i first told her i was letting our sis use my car for work which is why i KNOW she'd say it)#like yeah bro sorry i acknowledge that our sister is already struggling! and that having to share a car with her for 3 weeks#while definitely inconvenient for me and not smth i ENJOY DOING#is something i am still /willing/ to do so that she doesnt. you know. run out of money or smth.#plus 'get an uber' babygirl she literally needs a car to do her job she can't just 'GET AN UBER' you asshole!!!!!!#anyway.#sigh.#sorry that just hit me hard and im very frustrated over many things so#the realization was icing on the cake#shh ac#seriously shut up
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Lads i have Fucked Up Big Time
#somehow I just. Fuckin. Forgot. That if I wanna switch my major that I have to do a bunch if shit#and I missed the deadline for it because I didn't realize that I needed to do it and also forgot to reach out about it until WAY too late#so now I can't do anything until the spring#which is also bad because I don't know what the fuck my class schedule should be!!!!!!!#advisor told me that I can talk to her after the enrollment period and schedule a meeting and we can figure out what I'm doing from there#but like. ouggggggghhg#Im so worried there's gonna be some fuckup with my schedule and I won't be able to register for enough classes to be a full time student#which would be so bad#idk should I just wait until AFTER the enrollment period??? and just have no classes???#I'm gonna try and register for a few classes so I at the very least have Something in my schedule#mainly ones for my current (old) major and a few of the new classes#because multiple classes that I need to take I can Only take them IF I'm enrolled in that major. Which I'm currently not because I'm stupid#im just stressed now and unfortunately there isn't much i can do 🥰#i don't even know which classes I should be trying to take. I can GUESS but like who the fuck knows#so i can't even try and plan out a potential schedule i just get to sit on my ass and stress#sighh. im gonna try to not think about it bc its gonna stress me out#on one hand it's tempting to blame like. idk. literally every adult i talked to because none of them actually told me#“Hey btw you actually need to go to this office and fill out this paperwork and submit it by a due date”#they were just like yeah okay u can take some classes. and then we'll figure it out later#like. i would have gone and done the shit if I knew I needed to do iT!!!!#but also I should have sat down and looked more into it to so#bleughhhhhhhh#I'm just stressed. and annoyed. at myself mainly because like. duh of course I'd have to go fill out paperwork but I just was like#“Yeah I'll talk to my advisor later” and kept pushing shit off until it was too late <3#idk man im. so tired#hopefully it'll all work out okay and fine and i won't have the shittiest schedule on earth next semester#and hopefully the classes i need won't fill up!!!! :))))))#ahahahahahsh#im fucked man#lilac post
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#lately i've been going to twitter to get some lunter action bc most fanartists are there#and god it's just so annoying that over there they're stuck in a 5 day cycle of the same discourse over and over again#is it okay to ship this or is this a dirty nasty morally questionable proship? uwu#then the realization is 'yes lunter actually isn't a disgusting perverted proship which makes it okay to exists even if i HATE it'#and then two days later someone is like um akshually it's disgusting because incest and here we fucking go again#god. we need to extirp anyone under 16 years old from the internet. you have not developed enough brain matter to be on social media#(now if you're an adult unironically arguing in that discourse you either have a lot of free time or i just need to block you)#but man. like i wanna say to those lunter defenders..... can't you see what's wrong?#can't you see that the moment you've chosen to accept the premise of there being 'good' and 'reproachable' ships you've already lost?#that someone will always be able to pick a 'problematic' aspect in any ship ever?#that entertaining that idea from the beginning is the absolute worst thing you could do?#like i prefer when people call lunter boring. okay yeah i do Not see what you're seeing but also#thank fucking GOD we're bringing up actually relevant stuff here#like part of me is so fascinated about this. how murder seems to be the only thing that's accepted in media as a narrative tool#(and at some extent even that is too much)#but this yet again goes back to..... well what the fuck do you interact with fiction and media in the first place#when you're COMPLETELY unwilling to acknowledge any of these things as FICTION (not real) in the first place?#where your favorite character is the most morally correct and your favorite ship is the 'healthiest'?#i just wish we were able to talk about who the characters are and what their dynamic means in the show you know#instead of recycling the same reasons why it's morally 'okay' to be interested in them over and over and over and over and over and over and
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Will I ever get over garp's scottish accent....
#i also think its kinda funny how they do a close up of zoro when they enter the baratie and its like he can sense sanji being there already#he can smell his pheromones....#nvm its because some people there seem to know him... like sanji knew him before he met him....#zoro sitting with the swords like that akdhaj that was funny#he literally has taken them off his waist before but some people looked at him funny and hes now on high alert#fullbody... your wig....#i cant with this sanji i need to stop every 30 seconds... it makes me retract from the screen#and he is SPANISH#mihawk has such a cunty voice akdhaj#and he is wearing cowboy boots....#zoro looking away when sanji gets the bill ajdhakshsksjsks he can't stand him!!!#zeff saying OIOIOIOIOI ajdjqjwk#why is nami spilling ajdhajshska girl....#also patty looks so good akdhskns#you know what i really appreciate zoro and nami moments my guy zoro cant talk with luffy about his grandpa but sees nami weird and#CANNOT leave it alone.... damn#also garps backstory must be really fucking devastating for me to even accept what he does like damn. not even related to opla just thinking#like forcing his son and grandsons into it and being SO HELLBENT ON IT YOU LET YOUR OTHER GRANDSON TO DIE#and still be kinda rogue from the marines like damn how does this work. not that that started before ace but....#imagine being zoro rn... half drunk just had an open feelings session with this girl you met a week ago and here comes your other#friend you met two days ago who is full on drunk and he brings fucking mihawk best swordsman in the world with him. imagine.#and now you have no option but to fight him and die. like that just hit him#also this being another instance of zoro protecting luffy akdhaksj. that is so good#but luffy washing plates and not breaking all of them is OOC!!!!!!!#nami trying to stop him bc they are bffs now..... yeah.....#netflix i hope this dynamic DOESN'T FUCKING DISAPPEAR. FIRST WARNING#look at this fake cynic. i saw you worrying about zoro before you made your bag to get out of there akdhaksjsk#how much time do you think mihawk stood there#he likes luffys hat.... GAY GAY HOMOSEXUAL#watching opla
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Need to finish my Dave design so I can draw him with Mori
#luly talks#as in Lucis. Mori is like calling me myself my second deadname which I'll reveal bc who gives a fuck its Luz#luluco literally is bc each is an initial of my names#but like i dont Have much to draw w L.L. and Dave like they're just dating.#LUCIS on the other hand has some weird familiar platonic love hate relationship w the guy#bc a Huge trait of them is that if they dislike you you won't find out. bc they're very polite.#bc they're shy y'know? and just honestly a dgaf-er. like they dont like you but that's ok they wont be rude there's bigger worries#that is unless they like. pick trust. in which case they lose the shyness.#and while L.L. is sopping wet i need y'all to understand Lucis killed himself on a suspicion of danger.#like they're volatile as FUCK#they keep it down mostly bc there's No need to let it out but sometimes something tips them over and they go wild#and they love Dave but they'll also hold him hostage for a while if they have to. doubt he'd mind THAT much#this is a joke bc of me using him for emotional stability btw#Lucis digging their nails into his shoulders like YOU'LL HELP ME. and he's just like ugh fine -_-#i like to think of Dave seeing them in a paternal light. i mean lucis is a young cryptid without parents too so he sees some of himself in#them. lucis doesn't always Pick on this tho so they get a bit uncomfortable like fuck does this guy want.#lucis does appreciate having a fellow cryptid tho. even if they're way different dave is some lizard mori is a little demon#but hey. he has a tail.#it's also an excuse to have this be like. a happy au. bc it means less reasons for Dave to kill kids he's busy being the dad he never had to#this weird freak. and! jack is helping him :)#jack is technically related to lucis too. brothers in law 🙏#lucis still can't stand Dave bc he's obnoxious and also mean but likes him bc he's silly and nice and sticks with them#wags hand around tis but thr nature of them. ask lucis about the mermaid.
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@viopolis asked- Character Setting! ( do tell! ) send me “character setting!” to learn about my muse’s home! (accepting!)
There's a certain section in Motor City where that street in particular is a permanent farmer's market. Trinkets, jewelry, clothes, food, just about anything you can imagine and most of it is going to be found in that part of the city. You're not going to be able to walk down that street without seeing something different at every single shop.
Newcomers to the city though may be a bit confused when it comes to getting something they'd like though. Items aren't purchased with money but instead, they're bartered for (or you can simply ask if you can have it, most people are willing to give up an item when asked politely enough) either with an item the seller might like or offering to do a task for that person. Time is just as a valuable after all.
#//I FINALLY GET TO TALK ABOUT THIS PART OF MC YESSS <- (kept forgetting to do that)#//but yeah there straight up isn't any money in motor city and that's on PURPOSE#//it's a bit different for places like stores or restaurants but even then not quite#//either way it's a capitalism free zone babey!#//forgot to mention the market is big as fuck too like it almost takes up two whole streets. there's a lot of stuff there#//also the task thing is say someone needs a job covered but they can't do that bc they're at the market so it's doing a favor for them#//as long as it's not too complicated ofc#//or giving someone a cool rock for a neat scarf more or less#//it's kind of neat? but also really need to work on it lol#why are you botherin' me? {answered memes}#city of second chances {motor city}#viopolis
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