#and i also think he really wants to make sure YOU accomplish your goal YOURSELF so that you can reap the benefit of it šŸ„ŗ
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willowser Ā· 8 months ago
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please šŸ„ŗ whenever you complete some kind of personal goal, bakugou will hook an arm around your neck and tug you into his chest and press his lips into your hair an murmur a quiet, "proud of you," šŸ„ŗ
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hazbinhotelxreader Ā· 8 months ago
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Lucifer x GN adopted child reader
A/n: still have writers block. Trying to move and do school! Sorry itā€™s taking long! But Iā€™m also going through some stress and emotions too and couldnā€™t write- but to heal me, I have made some Lucifer parent headcannons because he is the father I never hadšŸ˜”šŸ˜”
-Platonic
-He adopted you out of depression, and being lonely. Not seeing his daughter for so long, and his wife(wives) really broke his heart. And since he canā€™t have children due to his lack of woman, he decided to adopt! Where you come in!
-When he saw your adorable little face in one of the foster home rooms, he knew you were perfect. You were young, not old enough to know who he was since Lucifer/Satan wasnā€™t out in public all the time, or at all. So while the other kids that were older cowered in fear, you were curious and un afraid, something that Lucifer loved about you.
-He can cook. Good. Expect him to make you home cooked meals all the time, so homemade dinosaur nuggets, arenā€™t you lucky? Heā€™ll also help you learn how to cook, family bonding time! He has so many pictures of you two cooking together. He doesnā€™t mind the mess, heā€™s literally Satan, just a snap of his fingers and everything is clean!
-He definitely gives you rubber ducks as gifts almost everyday. Heā€™ll make you personal ducks for you, a character, friend, yourself, anything! Of course, heā€™d never test any of the rubber ducks with abilities on you. Heā€™ll give you those once heā€™s 100% sure theyā€™re safe. Expect him to get or make you duck costumes or clothes. Heā€™ll order some matching duck pajamas for the two of you to wear on movie nights, both of you watched DreamWorks ā€œmigrationā€ so many times, but itā€™s your favorite movie, you both watch it together at least once a week.
-heā€™s not big on punishments. The farthest heā€™ll go is put you in time out. He has a stool for you in the corner of his office(with duck prints of course) and makes you sit there until you learned your lesson. Heā€™s never hit you, or punish you physically, nor would he hurt you mentally, he loves you to much to do that.
-He would help you accomplish your dreams. He wasnā€™t able to accomplish his, but he can help you. He wants you to be free, to be as curious as you want, to let you learn. He wants you to be happy. Heā€™ll give you everything he didnā€™t get. and, heā€™ll make sure you are on the right path to your life, and that you have everything you need to accomplish your goals and dreams. Heā€™ll do make sure every obstacle is solved for you, but will also let you try to get through it on your own.
-He will never let heaven know you exist. He doesnā€™t want you to be targeted but them, especially exorcists. If your a sinner child, heā€™ll protect you with his life in his castles heā€™ll put you in a hidden room with him, and to keep you entertained heā€™ll play with toys with you, watch tv, sing to you, or just talk and tell you his past dreams. If your hellborn, then heā€™ll be less panicked about the extermination. But he wouldnā€™t let you outside, or near any of the doors and windows during that time.
-Lucifer would be very nervous to tell Charlie about you. He doesnā€™t want her to think he replaced her l, he just needs someone to take care of and protect that wouldnā€™t leave him. The day you met Charlie was the day Charlie had called him over to talk to him about getting them into heaven. And he thought it would be a ā€œgreatā€ time to meet your older sister.
-You were Nervous, but more excited than your father. When Charlie saw you, she was overjoyed and knelt down on say hi, she was so kind and sweet to you. You were a little kid! She couldnā€™t be mean (if she was). She asked her father who you were and when she found out you were her adopted sister, she was both excited and heartbroken. She was upset. Not at you, her father. He was just starting another family being her backā€¦? She would have loved to help raise you, play with you. But she canā€™t change the past, so she might as well make the most of your appearance now.
-After meeting Charlie, Lucifer brought you to her hotel more often after they felt with all the extermination stuff and rebuilt it. Heā€™d leave you with Charlie for a weekend every now and then so you two could bond. You two have sleep overs all the time. Plus Vaggie. Vaggie likes getting involved, she wants to get to know you more and have someone from Charlieā€™s family like her more. You three have little ā€œgirls daysā€ together, even jf alastor joins from time to time
-Speaking of Alastor, neither Charlie and Lucifer let you go near him alone. Heā€™s too dangerous. Charlie will let you go near him, speak to him and play with him only if she is with you. Lucifer will not let you go near him at all. He tried to talk Charlie out of letting you see him, but Charlie doesnā€™t want to start any tension. Lucifer fears you may be taken away from him or hurt by Alastor. Charlie clearly likes Alastor more than him, and Lucifer doesnā€™t want it to happen again, so your interactions around Alastor are very limited here Lucifer is around.
-But he is a pretty great father otherwise. He wants to treat you right, and be there for you even if he couldnā€™t be there for Charlie.
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nostalgiccrystalic Ā· 11 months ago
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Can you write pen15 characters and their first kiss with the reader
Sure!! Im so sorry that this took so long to write, but i had school and christmas + new years eve preparations. I wrote it as a one shot (it also includes them already having a crush on you, because I never wrote anything similar and it's my first ever " x reader" that im publishing). I included Maya, Anna, Sam, Brandt, and Alex, I wanted to write for Dustin and Shuji but I completely didnt have an idea how to write it with them (but if I do I will also publish it someday).
Maya
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You, Maya and Anna were friends since the beginning of seventh grade, so it's not really a long time, but you two quickly learned that you have crushes on each other. Anna was torn apart between you two, because you both kept telling her about eachother, she was silent, but eventually she revealed to you both at the same time that you two are crazy for eachother, and you definitely should be together. You started dating a couple of days before the big dance that everyone was so obsessed about, you two were once again separately telling Anna that you really wanted to kiss eachother at the dance. Well, Anna obviously kept her mouth shut about the kiss in front of you two, so that you could surprise eachother with it.
After the fight that Anna and Maya went through, you didnt left Maya for one second at the dance, so she wouldnt feel lonely and abandoned, and also you still wanted to accomplish your goal. When the music became less jumpy, and more romantic, you quickly pulled Maya on the dancefloor, and started slow dancing with her, hoping it would light up her mood a little. It was really awkward because it was your both first times dancing with someone like that. Halfway through the song, you started to lean in closer to Mayas face, you saw that she was kinda taken aback by that, but she didnt backed away from you. You took it as a perfect moment to kiss her, and you did.
You did it rather quickly and as a little peck, because of the embarassment that has taken over you. But it didnt stop Maya from also kissing you, she did it a lot better than you have imagined, she was slow and careful to not hurt you with her braces, after the kiss that felt like forever, she looked you in the eyes.
- You have no idea how much time I practiced this kiss on Anna's bed knob... - she said after a while and you both started to laugh at her comment, that made her smile goofily. You both now had a silly memory of your first kiss, and after Maya and Anna made up, you both told her about it with details.
Anna
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You were friends with Anna and Maya since you were like 8 years old, so going into seventh grade with them, meant a lot to you. But what was more important to you was Anna. You were crushing on her a long time before seventh grade. Naturally, you started to get jealous when Brendan started to look at Anna during your school band practices, and when he started to pass her cute little notes. You didnt like it, you hated it. You told yourself that you had to do something, before Brendan asks Anna out. You were thinking really hard, and during final practice before the show, you got an idea. You will kiss Anna after the show.
You told Sam and Maya about it, they started to crack silly little jokes in front of Anna, but luckily she didnt really understand what they were talking about so you were safe. During Anna's opening solo, you looked a bit dreamy at her, that's what Sam and Maya will probably make fun of later but you didnt really care about it. After the show, you hurriedly jumped off the stage and went straight to Anna, she was talking with her dad, but when he saw you he immediately went somewhere else telling Anna that "he has to talk to someone". When he left, and you two were alone (well, not really because it was like half of your school in there), you looked up at Anna (she was taller than you, at least in this particular situation), and you kissed her tenderly but also really long on her lips, she started kissing you back, so right now you were sure that Brendan didnt stand a chance with you. After the kiss, she looked at you and smiled widely.
- I thought that I had to make my first move, but you finally did it. -
You smiled too, and took Anna by her hand, going straight to Maya and Sam to tell them that you're together now.
All of this happening in front of Brendan, who was now mad at himself that he didnt thought about doing something similar as you did.
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You and Sam weren't really close with eachother, but that didnt stop you two from feeling something for one another.
You were almost always paired up with eachother for projects in different classes, so you were kinda forced to talk and spend time at yours or his house.
One time, while sitting in your garden and discussing something for your physics project, you two developed a strange conversation in the process.
- Do you have like, an eye on someone Y/N? - Sam asked while dribbling something in his notebook.
You were kinda taken aback by that, and you didnt really thought before saying your answer.
- Yeah, I do... - you told while looking down at a pile of dirt.
Sam got visibly surprised with your answer, but not visible to you, because you were looking down.
- Well, who is it? Is it someone that I know? - he got interested in your answer, and he was mentally chanting to himself, that you will call out his name.
When you were just about to lie to him, that he didnt know this person, you suddenly heard a car honking in front of your house, it was Sam's mom. You two said goodbye to eachother, but you saw Sam's cute smile while he was waving to you, driving away with his mom. After you closed the door, you sprinted to your room, and thought about something slightly absurd. Does Sam like you too? You were left alone with this thought for the night. The next day, you wanted to look extra pretty for Sam, you knew that it was dumb, because he probably wasnt talking about you, but you had nothing to lose. So you put on some light makeup, with the help of your mom, because she was better at putting it than you. After your mom drove you to school, you went to your first lesson, and you sat at your assigned seat, next to Sam.
- Hi, Sam - you said while looking at him, smiling lightly.
- Whoa, Hi Y/N, you look pretty today, I mean you always look pretty but today you look like... extra pretty - he got visibly embarassed, and Maya who was sitting before you and was laughing at Sam's attempt to compliment you, didnt help him out. You just smiled at him and directed your attention at your teacher, who was just about to start the lesson.
After some classes, you had some time for lunch, so you entered the cafeteria as always, and you saw Sam waving at you to come sit by him. It was weird for you that he was sitting afar from his friends.
You sat next to him.
- Why are you sitting alone? - you asked him, visibly confused.
- Oh, I just wanted to talk with you... - he looked at you, and got closer to you.
You were looking at eachother for what felt like eternity, but finally Sam kissed you by surprise. He kissed you really long, and kinda messily, probably because he didnt thought about it before actually doing it. After he backed away from you, he just looked at you, scared that you will run away from him.
- You know, yesterday I was talking about you, Sam... - you looked at him and smiled.
He smiled too, and took your hand in his.
- So are we like, boyfriend and girlfriend now?
- I guess so... - you both smiled and went to sit with Sam's friends who were howling at you both mockingly.
Brandt
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You and Brandt were like totally opposite, he was one of the most popular guys in school, and you were just a normal student, almost invisible to others, but not to him. He secretly liked you, and behind every rude comment about you, in the back of his mind he thought about your pretty features, how you're so nice to everyone that are nice to you, and how you always replied to his rude comments with such creativity. So, when it came to the big dance, he decided that he will kiss you that night, and then he will see if you like him back, if not, then he can find another girl in a blink of an eye (at least, that's how he thought so). You were a loner, you didnt really had any close friends in school, of course you talked with some of them like for example; Sam, Gabe and even Dustin if he wasnt an ass to you, but you didnt had any close relationships with anyone, you were once again just there, just someone, not really outstanding.
You still wanted to look pretty, you picked your best outfit, you asked your mom to do your hair and help you with your makeup, maybe someone would dance with you? Of course you didnt want to exaggerate your look, so you kept it simple, just added some things that you normally wouldnt (like light lipstick, or colorful eyeshadow).
Your mom drove you to school, and told you to have fun. Brandt was standing in front of school with his friends, and Heather's "gang", you quickly walked past them, not paying attention to things they were saying (just Heather and her band gossiping about your outfit, but who are they to judge?). When you finally walked inside the school, and the hall that the dance was taking place, you were kinda impressed by how the place looks, and how everyone is dressed up (for example Brendan's new look), but you decided to just have fun and not really look at anyone else. You were chatting with anyone that wanted to talk to you, you had a great conversation with Sam, Gabe and Jafeer. After talking with them, you kinda stood under the wall next to the table with drinks and snacks, then you saw Brandt going up to you with his friends, but they stood a little far away from you. You looked at Brandt, who had his infamous smirk on his face.
- Nice look, wanna dance? - he asked with his bored tone in his voice, you were surprised that he didnt insult you in anyway. That made you think he was making fun of you, but his face right now was deadly serious.
- Is this some kind of trap? We'll go dance and one of your friends will pour something on me? - you asked cracking up a smile, but you were kinda nervous that you guessed it right, and he would make a fool of you as soon as you'll go dance with him.
- Promise it's not... - he said smiling a bit, it wasnt his smirk, it was a normal, sweet smile, you never saw him smiling like that and you thought that he was being serious. So you went to dance with him, as soon as you both stood on the dancefloor, the jumpy and fun music faded, and now the more slow and romantic one played in the background. Brandt took your hands and put them on the back of his neck, his arms went to your back, his grip was strong but also careful to not hurt you. You both started sway to the music, you desperately tried to avoid Brandt's gaze, but it was nearly impossible cause he was kinda burning a hole in you with his eyes.
- You know, I really like you Y/N... - He said while looking into your eyes, you were kinda confused by his words, but then he went straight for your lips with his, and started to kiss you really strongly and passionately. You didnt know what to do, you wanted to kiss him back but he was way more invented in it than you, so you just kinda stood there in shock, he finally backed away from your face, but still held you.
- You want to be my girlfriend? - he asked and looked at you, you didnt feel it but he was nervous that you will tell him "no". But luckily to him you didnt.
- Sure - you nodded lightly, and smiled.
You wouldnt thought this morning that you will suddenly be with Brandt, but now you were, and you liked it.
Alex
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You and Heather were once inseparable, that was until she started dating Alex. Their relationship was rather awkward, because Heather was really jealous and posessive of Alex, their relationship was on and off. You stopped talking with Heather, because she also started accusing you of trying to steal her boyfriend (which was really dumb, because you rarely spoke with him). But anyway, after cutting off contacts with Heather, you started to notice something weird. Alex was always by your side, I mean like literally. He was always sitting close to you (not like directly next to you, but close enough for you to notice it). He was always looking at your direction (not saying he was looking directly at you, because you never caught him doing that, but it was still weird). Sometimes you thought that he was telling Brandt or Dustin about you, because they were whispering to eachother while you were walking past them, or when you were looking at them occasionally in class.
You always got that weird gut feeling while looking or thinking about Alex, that's when you realized you started to develop feelings for him. It was really infuriating for you, you felt uncomfortable in your own body while getting that feeling. You finally decided to talk to Alex of your assumptions (not that you love him, but you wanted to confront him about his sneaky glances at you and gosipping about you with his dumb friends). So you did, you lured him to janitors closet, and you stood before the door, so he wouldnt try to escape. You looked at him, and saw that he was kinda scared, I guess you couldnt really blame him, you would be scared too if someone locked you up with them in janitors closet.
- Alex, why are you like staring at me all the time? - you looked at him seriously, he looked at you with his big eyes.
- I dont know what are you talking about? - he started to get visibly nervous, something that you never thought you will see, because he was always calm and he sometimes looked really bored.
- I dont know if you are lying to me right now, or if im going crazy, because I always see you next to me, I always see you looking in my direction and I see you whispering to Brandt or Dustin while you're looking at me! - After you said this, a long silence came afterwards, you were looking directly into Alex's eyes, and almost as you were hypnotized you started to kiss him, which he almost immediately returned back, you were both kissing eachother messily, as if someone would pull one of you away from eachother. And that's how it all started with Alex And you, Heather wasnt pleased by that, but, who cares?
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I hope that you liked it! I tried to write gender neutral reader (which was easy to do with Maya and Anna), but with the guys i kinda forgot about it, but you can still imagine reader as a male or a female.
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tommyssupercoolblog Ā· 1 month ago
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A moot of yours who used to be a singlet but recently found out I'm actually plural, any advice?
BE NICE TO UR HEADMATES and figure out a way to be at peace with each other āœŒšŸ» because in system conflict SUCKS ASS
Get to know urself and each other :0 differences, similarities, all dat. You may find that a food one of you hates is one another person in your system LOVES, etc etc. try things out and you might find things you really like! Plus it just feels nice to know who u are
If in-system communication doesn't come naturally to you, find ways to do it! Work towards being able to collaborate šŸ¤ and communicate with each other
Connected to the above in a way; boundaries. It's important you all are able to communicate boundaries with each other, especially on privacy. For example, SeƔn is a more private person than me and he doesn't want anyone to share like, MOST info about him without permission- so if we're talking to someone, I (and everyone else) won't just share stuff without asking, because we know he likes to be in control of that and be able to keep things to himself, or at least be the one to share it. He also has a lot of stuff that he'll only show me, or keep to himself entirely, and everyone knows not to go through his things. I, on the other hand will tell people almost anything if they ask me, and I don't really care if other alters go through my sketchbooks or anything because if they asked me like, any question about myself, I'd answer it anyway. So make sure you're on the same page with each other on boundaries with regards to privacy (and also anything else you can think of).
Simplyplural app can help you track fronting times, but can also just be a handy place to store system info :3
If you DO have a headspace, it usually pays to make sure you're able to access it and practice that, assuming you can't access it easily (some systems can, some can't). If you DON'T have a headspace, you can either try and make one (some systems have managed to do this and have it work) or just account for it in system communication stuff (it might need you need to leave more physical notes or use the polling/chat features in simplyplural, for example)
Pluralkit bot for discord will allow you to have seperate usernames and pfps in discord if u want them. There's also a Minecraft mod for that, I'll go figure out the name and edit this post with it
Chill out and just exist. Don't worry about system roles or what your "purpose" is as an alter, let yourself just. Be.
If any of you want/need a sperate space (their own Tumblr sideblog or blog, for example, like how me and SeƔn have seperate ones) then go ahead and make one! But don't feel pressured to do that if you don't want to. There's nothing wrong with sharing everything!!!
If you're out as a system to a person who's in-person with you, it might also pay to communicate who's fronting; for if you want them to know in general, but also for if one of you has different boundaries or preferences than other people. SeƔn doesn't like to be touched (he'll tune out when I hug people in front) so if he's fronting/piloting, people know not to touch us. Mom will hug me and play with my hair a lot but when she's with SeƔn she's careful not to do that- she'll occasionally offer a fist bump tho
Once you're ready, consider ur goals for the system in the long term- do you just want to exist peacefully as multiple, or do you want to fuse together? What does ur future look like, ideally? Different alters may have different wants and needs, so don't force it!! It's possible some of you will fuse and the rest will stay separate or something like dat
Don't wallow in misery. Being plural can be hard but it can also be awesome, and to quote a certain Tumblr post, you don't have to perform your rock bottom for the sake of people believing you. If you only focus on the negatives and beat yourself up, all it'll accomplish is feeling SUPER depressed and miserable. Love yourself/selves, all of you. It makes life better.
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mqverick Ā· 1 year ago
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Waking On Air || chapter 4
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Three whole days accompanied by swollen puffy eyes, night sobbing and restless mornings had passed ever since your fight with Iceman. Youā€™d put it as a personal goal to isolate yourself from everyone, mostly Maverick, which you had successfully accomplished. Youā€™d seen him looking at you in Top Gun academy, quite an amount of times, but dodged every single one of his looks and disappeared into thin air whenever you caught him walking towards your figure.
You missed Tom, but not as much as you missed Maverick, which had been a shock to you at first ā€” had you been lying.
The fact that Tom hadnā€™t reached out to you ever since, though, was making you sick to your stomach. You never meant to hurt him the way you did and youā€™d expected yourself to be more civilized than to go cry off to Pete Mitchell, for crying out loud. However, having in mind that he needed time to think and process just as bad as you did, you came to the conclusion that begging for forgiveness was not going to work.
There you were now, pushing around the dreadful food in your plate with your fork, all alone in the lunch hall. The weight of another person sitting next to you slightly scared you off as you flinched a little, hoping it would be either member of the messed up love triangle youā€™d gotten yourself into. The tiniest hint of a relieved smile formed on your face when you looked up to see Goose.
ā€œMy girl, Roger,ā€ he greeted with a hug, lingering a bit longer, providing you the comfort you needed the most at that specific time in your life.
ā€œOh, Nick,ā€ you sighed, burying your face in your hands. ā€œIā€™ve screwed up. I donā€™t know what the fuck to do, itā€™s driving me restless. Not even flying makes me happy anymore and it used to be my only way to escape from reality.ā€
ā€œHey, there,ā€ Goose said sympathetically, running his hand up and down the length of your back. ā€œUncle Goose is here. Iā€™d ask you to tell me whatā€™s bothering you but Iā€™m pretty sure Iā€™ve painted quite the picture in my head. You know, with Maverick up my ass and all.ā€
ā€œI donā€™t even want to know his name.ā€
ā€œYou donā€™t mean that, Roger.ā€
ā€œYouā€™re wrong,ā€ you argued, coming off too strong. ā€œEver since that guy showed up in my life, everything between me and Ice has been going downhill ā€” and I like Tom so much. Now he probably fucking despises me.ā€
ā€œIceman is a tough guy, but he surely doesnā€™t hate you. His ego probably got hurt after he heard youā€™re going out with his biggest opponent.ā€
ā€œIā€™m not going out with Maverick.ā€
ā€œHe seems to believe otherwise.ā€
ā€œHe can believe whatever the fuck he wants, Iā€™m done ruining things I already have and love for his sake. Heā€™s not all that either, to be honest.ā€
Goose exhaled rather loudly as he shifted closer to you, giving you a soft nudge. ā€œYou know how much I love you, Roger, but I also love Maverick. Look, I get it, heā€™s a little too much than anyone can handle, heā€™s not famous for being good with words and sometimes his attitude doesnā€™t help him make the greatest first impression, but once you get to know him, heā€™s actually a really nice guy.ā€
ā€œYouā€™re biased, Goose.ā€
ā€œMaybe. But all Iā€™m asking for is to not break his heart. Heā€™d probably kill me if he knew what Iā€™m telling you right now, but heā€™s not just trying to get in your pants. He genuinely cares about you ā€” a lot ā€” more than Iā€™ve seen him care about anyone in his life before. I mean it; heā€™s constantly looking for an excuse to bring you up in the most random conversation.ā€ You blushed at Gooseā€™s revelations about Maverick, finding the idea of the cocky aviator being so caught up in you so incredibly distracting. Truth is, youā€™d been kind of feeling the same way about him. ā€œJust, please, donā€™t lead him on if thereā€™s a zero chance with him.ā€
ā€œI donā€™t know,ā€ you sighed, eyes burning and stinging with tears. You were so torn, so unable to decide, so incapable of thinking straight.
ā€œAs much as Iā€™d love to see my two best friends together, Iā€™m not here to convince you to date Maverick. Thatā€™s your own decision, but just know that if you ever need to talk to someone, my door will always be open for you,ā€ Goose reassured you with a bright beam, which you weakly reflected.
ā€œI meant what I said about Ice, Nick. Heā€™s been treating me like royalty ever since we started going out. Heā€™s a completely different person than the one you get to see here, butā€¦ā€ you clenched your jaw, eyes dropping back on your plate, scanning it as if it were the most interesting thing youā€™d seen in your life. ā€œSee? Thatā€™s the problem; there shouldnā€™t even be a but.ā€
ā€œDo you feel like somethingā€™s missing?ā€
ā€œYeah. I mean, no ā€” maybe? All I know is that whatever that but represents, it goes away when Iā€™m with Maverick. And it terrifies me, Bradshaw.ā€
Goose chuckled. ā€œMaverick terrifies you?ā€
ā€œThe way he makes me feel does. Itā€™s like Iā€™m seventeen all over again and Iā€™m experiencing this unruly and intense wave of overwhelming emotions that I canā€™t control. Itā€™s like Iā€™m flying so freely and fast, but at the same time, Iā€™m about to crash and catch on fire. Heā€™sā€¦ heā€™s special and he knows it.ā€ For a split second, you let yourself wander through the fantasy of being with Pete, forgetting all about the present actuality. You dreamt of hugging him, telling him how he made you feel, kissing him. It was growing into something that was beyond physical attraction, beyond than an innocent middle school crush.
Goose looked down, trying to cover the knowing smile on his face. ā€œYou deserve to be in a perfect relationship, Roger. You deserve to have someone whoā€™ll make you happy.ā€ And with that, he patted your back, giving you a quick peck on the forehead before heading back to his table.
Making difficult decisions is a common occurrence in life, you decided. Your eyes were burning, shutting as you combed your fingers through the roots of your hair. Gooseā€™s words were replaying through your mind, driving you close to insanity. He was surely right about one thing though; and that was that in the end, it was your life and your choice whom you wanted to spend it with. You weighed every advantage and disadvantage of the situation, but still found yourself unable to audibly make a decision.
Your heart only had one person, one choice, one future. It was beating into the rhythm of three familiar syllables of a certain call sign, sending a wave of unsettling feelings in your stomach.
Were you actually about to do this?
Go big or go home, your inner voice encouraged as you stood up, eyes locked into the reckless aviator that went by the name Maverick.
ā€œRoger?ā€
Out of the blue, you felt yourself glue on the floor, knees trembling at the sound of Tomā€™s voice. He hadnā€™t talked or even looked at you for the past three days ā€” you thought heā€™d cut you off ā€” but there he was, hands nervously shaped into fists against his sides, pupils scanning the ground. You didnā€™t even know how to respond. ā€œYeah?ā€
ā€œI feel like weā€™ve got some things to discuss about.ā€
ā€œOh.ā€
What was it with you and the monosyllabic words that came out of your mouth in the most unfazed tone of voice? Tom grabbed your hand and dragged you all the way to the lockers, making sure no one else was there. He then proceeded to hug you; an action you hesitantly and half-heartedly returned as your eyes pricked with tears for the bazillionth time that morning.
ā€œIā€™ve missed you so much,ā€ he breathed against your neck. You wanted to reciprocate, tell him you missed him too, more than anything else in the world ā€” but he wasnā€™t Maverick.
ā€œTom, before you say anythingā€”ā€
ā€œNo, let me speak first,ā€ he interrupted and you sighed. ā€œI acted like a douche to you. So much anger bubbled up inside me that it fogged my brain and I couldnā€™t think straight. All I could picture was losing you to Maverick and it drove me over the edge. Youā€™re the most important person in my life and I had a very different and more romantic way of telling you this in my mind, but I love you. I love you and I donā€™t want to let my jealousy affect what we have again. I swear to you, Iā€™m trying to be a better, more positive and compatible person and I think itā€™s working ā€” only because you motivate me to be the best version of myself.ā€
With your jaw slightly hanging, you stared at Tom speechless. Never had you ever been expecting such a heartfelt apology from him and you were pleasantly shocked. You liked him, you liked him so much and youā€™d remind that to yourself until it would actually become true.
ā€œIā€™m sorry as well. I shouldā€™ve never talked to Maverick behind your back, let alone to meet up with him. But Tom, about what you just saidā€”ā€
ā€œI understand it might be a little too soon, you donā€™t have to worry about saying anything back. I just wanted you to know.ā€
Your face steeped in guilt, bitterly regretting every interaction between you and Maverick. Why were you so afraid of owning up to your own feelings? Pangs of sweat washed the back of your neck as you gulped what felt like a rock covered with thorns roll down your esophagus.
Tom Kazansky was a great guy and an even greater boyfriend, but could you imagine yourself falling in love with him the same way youā€™d already been doing with Pete Mitchell?
ā€œLook, Ice,ā€ his call sign rolled out of your tongue with a hint of uneasiness ā€” and lord, you wished the ground would swallow you from the face of earth. ā€œI like you a lot, butā€¦ā€ your trail of thoughts died down the moment his expression dropped when you mentioned a certain three-lettered word heā€™d been hoping not to hear from you.
ā€œThereā€™s a but,ā€ he noticed, struggling to hide the fact that youā€™d somewhat crashed his dreams.
ā€œItā€™s not your fault,ā€ you attempted to comfort the blond pilot, but the sadness written all over his face was giving you such a hard time to come up with an excuse that your body intuitively lunched at his, arms wrapping around his neck hurriedly as your lips silenced whatever else youā€™d been about to blurt by landing right on his. Though youā€™d shared loads of kisses with Tom before, none of them had the same awkwardness and force of that one. He seemed to be quite enjoying it, pulling you closer to him as his hands snaked around your middle, but you, on the other hand, were suppressing tears of frustration (you were furious with yourself for not being able to handle such a hardship, let alone the fact that said hardship shouldā€™ve lead to a breakup).
Nevertheless, you were not opposed to giving Tom a second chance. Maybe you could take it from the top, go slow, reignite the fire. Yeah, you could do that, your inner voice convinced as you pulled away from him with a small smile, rubbing his shoulder a little bit as he leaned his temple against yours.
Little did you know that by opting not to break Icemanā€™s heart, youā€™d subconsciously gone against Gooseā€™s earlier pleads and had broken Maverickā€™s instead, whoā€™d stood frozen during the entire scene across from where you and Tom were, words strangling in his throat as his eyes blurred achingly at the sight of you smiling in his opponentā€™s arms.
Chapter 5
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webslingingslasher Ā· 2 years ago
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please 24, 26 & 30 with a happy ending for our spider boy?
based off this prompt list
everytime I try to write happy it falls short, I only know pain and anguish. thank you friend, i hope you like it.
ā€œItā€™s true.ā€Ā 
Your words shake, your hands tremor, you have to remind yourself to breathe, one, two, three times. Peter was telling the truth, not that you would think he was a liar but maybe just confused on this one, lost in space, unaware of the surroundings.Ā 
No, out of his mind.Ā 
Peter was out of his damn mind.Ā 
Sure, he did tell you, and it was unlike you to ignore or disagree or straight up deny his thoughts and opinions. Peter was beautiful, not just physically but in general, in his day to day life. Peter was quite literally the guy who would give you the shirt off his back, heā€™s done that with his jacket one too many times. Peter brought peace and serenity wherever he went, that's why he was so good at being Spider-Man, even the most shell shocked persons could settle in his eyesight, they didnā€™t need to know who was under the mask to know they were a good person.Ā 
And you were you, sometimes aggressive or bitter. Sometimes underwhelming and cautious, sometimes hateful and full of spite, sometimes sad and alone, sometimes you were also joyous and calm, and bright, and cherished, and lovely, and beautiful, and just overall a wonderful human being.Ā 
Those were Peterā€™s words, you donā€™t believe them for a second.Ā 
Ā With all those reasons on board, you thought, no, believed, you believed that Peter was wrong. Deadset, terribly offtrack wrong. So wrong not even two lefts could make it right.Ā 
I mean, how could Peter Parker, your best friend, be in love with you?Ā 
ā€œPlease, say something.ā€Ā 
He pleaded with everything in him, he just wanted you to say something back to him. It could be a terrified scream, a giddy squeal, an unsure attitude with a million questions.Ā 
He would even accept a slap to the face, anything but the deafening silence you gave back to him.Ā 
It was unbearable in the room, Peter suddenly felt hot and flushed, he craved the outside air. He watched as the trees shook outside in the wind, he felt slightly outraged, the trees didnā€™t know what they had.
Ā Peter didnā€™t want to say anything else, I mean what else is there to say? He came clean, he leant into his emotions and feelings and poured them all out on the table and just hoped you would cradle them in warm hands and promise they would be safe. But you instead recoiled your hands to your sides and looked disgusted that he would even say such things to you.Ā 
Peter supposes itā€™s the way it happened, maybe thatā€™s why you felt so torn apart.Ā 
He was dating your friend, was, thatā€™s the keyword. And, yeah, girl code or whatever but you and Peter were closer than you and she were, and youā€™ve known him longer, and when Peter ended it, not that it even really started, she didnā€™t seem all that shocked. Like she knew you and Peter were always end game.Ā 
And yeah, maybe he shouldnā€™t have pushed himself too far and gotten a little too drunk and blurted them out in one go, but how could he hold all that in when you looked like that? Looked at him, like that. Blinking lightly at some guy near the pong table his heart thumped, he always had that voice that begged no one else would see you like he does, no one else would see how you always give more than you could think to take, they wouldnā€™t see how far you push yourself for your accomplishments, and not for anyone else either, the praise was nice but you did everything with the goal of making your own damn self proud.Ā 
He just couldnā€™t take it, especially when you grabbed the strangerā€™s arm. So, he rushed up to you, pulled you by your hand and explained that he needed to talk to you about ā€˜something super, uberly important. Like, super important.ā€™Ā 
And he dropped the news, you pulled away, refused to believe it, and instead left the party and the next day, Peter called, then texted, then texted, and texted again, and on the second call you picked up.Ā 
ā€œWanna grab a coffee?ā€ He paused into the line, he tried to make a joke, ā€œOr a gin and tonic, maybe?ā€Ā 
You laughed, ā€œSure, what about?ā€Ā 
A pause.Ā 
You thought this was Peter trying to meet up to backtrack, because there was no way he actually liked you, or loved you as he swore. It wasnā€™t possible, instead, he blurted out words he didnā€™t mean while drunk and was trying to make a point that yes, he loved you, but wasnā€™t in love with you.
Ā It was the only plausible action.Ā 
Oppositely, Peter wanted to talk to you about it, because it is real for him. And you blew him off, you never said a word, just backed away shaking your head, he still wasnā€™t sure if that was a good or bad thing. He expects itā€™s bad. He just wants to let you know he is a thousand percent serious.Ā 
ā€œYou donā€™t think thereā€™s anything we need to talk about?ā€ Teasing tone, gut punching words.Ā 
ā€œI donā€™t know, do you think there is?ā€ Ignore, ignore, ignore.Ā 
ā€œYes, Y/N. I think there is.ā€ Disappointment.Ā 
ā€œOkay, text me. Iā€™ll see you there.ā€Ā 
And he told you again, therefore, it was true. It had to be.Ā 
He begged you to speak once more, you took several minutes.Ā 
You finally responded, you shook your head solemnly, ā€œNo. No you donā€™t.ā€Ā 
ā€œI- What?ā€ Did he look offended? He did.Ā 
ā€œYou donā€™t love me like that, you just think you do.ā€Ā 
ā€œWhatā€™s that supposed to mean?ā€Ā 
ā€œI donā€™t think youā€™re in love with me, I think you love me for sure but thatā€™s what friends do.ā€Ā 
He snorted, ā€œNo, trust me. Iā€™m in love with you.ā€Ā 
ā€œNo you donā€™t. Stop saying that.ā€Ā 
Now he was getting offended, ā€œAre you trying to mansplain my feelings to me right now? Like, as I am confessing here youā€™re actively trying to shove the words back in my mouth.ā€Ā 
ā€œI dunno, Peter. Think about this, think about us. Does it make sense for you to love me?ā€Ā 
Confusion again, ā€œBro, what are you on? Think about what? I mean Iā€™m lost here.ā€Ā 
Fingers pointing back and forth, ā€œThis! Us! Whatā€™s happening, it doesnā€™t make sense.ā€Ā 
Frustration is eating at Peter, ā€œOkay, listen. And actually hear what I am saying, okay? I told you how I feel, pretty explicitly, several times now. If you donā€™t like me back, or believe it, or if you want to deny it forever thatā€™s on you. But donā€™t you dare sit here and try to tell me Iā€™m the crazy one.ā€Ā 
ā€œYou are crazy though! Are you not getting that?ā€ You pulled at the roots of your hair, he was about to cause you to have a mental breakdown.Ā 
ā€œHow? How am I crazy? Please enlighten me.ā€ Peter threw his back against his chair, how was an admittance of love turned into this?Ā 
ā€œBecause I donā€™t deserve you, Peter!ā€Ā 
It was said louder than you meant, the coffee shop quieted down for a moment before picking back up to normal.Ā 
Peter looked perplexed, then upset, then point blank looked like he was about to cry.Ā 
A slow head shake, disappointment, betrayal, disagreement. All three?Ā 
ā€œIā€™m sorry that you found out this way, it was unfair. It was a heavy load dropped on you, and that sucks on my end. But, I love you. I am so unnaturally in love with you I need my brain studied. And you can sit here in your own pretty little head and daydream that Iā€™m too good for you, or Iā€™ll get bored and leave, or Iā€™m faking or unsure in what this is, but it wonā€™t change. Nothing will change, if you donā€™t love me back thatā€™s fineā€ A sharp inhale, it didnā€™t feel fine.Ā 
ā€œBut I will spend the rest of my life trying to change that.ā€Ā 
You bite your cheek, you watch the steam rise and curl from your cup, he was telling the truth.Ā 
You nod slowly, releasing your cheek from your molars, ā€œIā€™ll take you up on that challenge.ā€Ā 
ā€œI fell first, but Iā€™m going to make you fall harder.ā€Ā 
You laugh, ā€œIā€™d love to see you try.ā€Ā 
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ratatatastic Ā· 4 months ago
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its finally luosty turns last but not least eh? his topic? cranky sasha šŸ¤£šŸ¤£šŸ¤£ (whoever came up with these topics wanted to get sasha riled up oh my goddddd)
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ofc the way he chooses to show off cranky sasha is through his spartan hockey huh and OF FUCKING COURSE he gets lundy to come up and help him because who else but lundy does sasha crack the good ole whip for IM DYING
he also makes sure to mime in the goal posts too so everyones on the same page that this is of course about hockey because this has turned into an improv exercise mama hes a star hes a THEATRE kid
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luosty is very good at mimicing cranky sasha must have lots of time watching him get fussy with lundy huh i can imagine the only directions given to lundy here was act like yourself and somehow that makes this funnier
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they absolutely both think luosty is the funniest fucker alive OH MY GOD HE GOT LUNDY TO SMILE (WHICH ISNT MUCH OF AN ACCOMPLISHMENT HES SO SMITTEN WITH HIM) BUT HE GOT MIKKSY TO GIVE A GOOD TOOTHY GRIN TOO LUOSTY WHAT POWERS DO YOU HAVE šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
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he has this whole couch bewitched by his antics oh my fucking god... kicking the bench...throwing the water bottle...cranky sasha indeed
THE WAGGING FINGER AT LUNDY hey man whyd you move your hand to your crotch did that incite any revelations in you do you need to cover something that had unfortunate timing huh do you understand why mikksy cant stand them do you understand now
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on another episode of i genuinely dont think anyone else could do this and get sasha this giggly in the midst of it of making fun of him luosty has really charmed them all
Sasha Cup Party | 7.31.24 (x)
#eetu luostarinen#anton lundell#aleksander barkov#niko mikkola#florida panthers#luosty could absolutely get away with murder and the finns would be like noooo you didnt do it not youuuuu#he has the charm of a siren WHAT IS THIS#apparently boyish does work on sasha and all is forgiven if you have it#while i think the humour runs a little dry and sharp in the finn group which means sometimes someones gets a little bristled in the process#luosty has such joyous slapstick comedy that its impossible to feel offended even if he is teasing you#hes like a rodeo clown to me#like sometimes mikksy and sasha go a little hard while lundy runs a little sensitive and luosty is the perfect bridge between all that#does that make sense? am i making sense right now?#like luosty can end up making everyone laugh#like in the NHLWAP series while luosty made a jab at mikksys goal production it wasnt in a way that felt malicious in any wY#mikksy has tough skin but even then hes aware hes a defensive minded dman whos priority is not scoring so when luosty says ā€œwhen you score#less goals than mikksy THEN you worryā€œ (in regards to his personal lack of production in the 2324 season) hes diverting the attention in#a comedic way while also kinda pointing out how ridiculous the notion is like yeah he hasnt had the same production like the previous seaso#but thats nothing to worry about personally. mikksy also giggles and goes ā€œwhy am i suddenly being attacked?ā€#its just such a perfect way to jump to the next topic where no ones feathers are ruffled and everyone wins#i didnt like the q either and i wouldve answered a lot more snarkier but luosty does it with such grace and humor its really admirable#sorry this turned into a luosty splurge but i just think its important to point out#there IS a reason why he charms people so much and i feel like this and the prev thing i said is a good few reasons why
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stormflypirateskin Ā· 2 years ago
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hihi! can i ask for zen, seven, and jaehee with a (preferably gender neutral) s/o who loves singing? Itā€™s their main passion, and they hope to be a full time music artist at some point. Maybe s/o prepares a song for them as a surprise?
thanks for hearing me out!! have a good day!!
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Zen, Saeyoung and Jaehee with a reader who loves singing!
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Here you go, dear anon. Sorry for the delay.^^ Thank you so much for requesting, I hope you like it, have a good day as well! <3
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The first time Zen heard you sing, he felt himself falling for you once more. Your voice made him feel good, it was so nice to hear and definitely a great surprise as well! His dear lover can sing? You bet he'll always want to hear you, even a little.
If you want to pursue your dream, he is always there to help you and support you as much as he can. You two can practice together and he can help you improve your singing as well since he has some tips up his sleeve. You could be singing and he'll play the piano for you.
Zen is one of the best people to ask for help with your singing. He has the most experience in the RFA with this and he always has this smile on his face whenever he sees you coming towards him to ask for some help. He can't help but give you a good luck kiss before you start to sing!
Whenever you start doing what you love, he is always nearby listening to you. And as much as he adores complimenting your sweet voice, he is always glad to help point out things you can improve on so your stunning voice can reach even more people.
And no matter what, he will always aid you in reaching your goal. You two could even team up to make the best songs with your voices. He gets so hyped up and happy whenever you sing and he gets to join in as well. Singing with his beloved makes his heart race and feel all warm and tingly inside.
But the moment you surprise Zen with a song dedicated to him? Oh my, he feels so happy that he even starts to tear up. You bet he'll wrap his arms around you and pick you up as he starts to spin you around. At the end? A passionate kiss on your sweet lips.
Sing him this song whenever he feels discouraged and you'll start to see his cheeky grin once more. Zen is always happy to help you as much as he can and you have also helped him with your experience in music. You'll always be given a bear hug and sweet words because his love for you only keeps growing.
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Saeyoung has heard plenty of singing before but your voice in particular was enough to shook his entire soul and make him fall even harder for you. It doesn't matter how little he hears your singing, he is hooked and his love only expands for you. He always loves to listen to you.
He definitely has the tools to help you get your voice out there but only if you want. He thinks your singing is really really good and can help you greatly with getting you known. But he is always happy to support you if you want to accomplish this goal by yourself. He has more than enough money to get you anything you will ever need, just please tell him.
The smile on his face only tends to grow when he sees you doing what you love. You enjoying what you do and with a passion always makes his knees weak and his heart very soft when he witness this sight. If you want to improve, you bet he'll do the best research to ensure you reaching these goals.
Your voice is enough to make him relax and feel calm and comfortable to rest near you. If you hold him and play with his hair as you sing? Y'all, he is dying and melting in your arms so hard. The affect you have on him is amazing and is enough to even calm his raging soul. He just won't ever sleep if he has things in his life to be paranoid about. But he definitely will do that if he is truly free in years.
Always your biggest and definitely your loudest supporter. He will make sure to encourage you and motivate you whenever you want to sing so you feel good as well! Saeyoung always sets the mood right so you always feel your best when you let out your voice. Seeing your smile as you sing makes his day instantly.
He might as well ascend to heaven the moment he sees you surprising him with a song about him. He is so happy that he ends up breaking down in front of you honestly. You are someone really special for him and he will make sure to make you just as happy as you made him. He will treasure the song in his heart forever.
Whenever you are away from him, he likes to hum that particular song and he finds himself calming down. It's special for him and he loves it so much but not as much as he loves you, of course! He also found out it's useful to remember when he is having a hard time in general, it makes him feel like things are gonna be okay. Just know that his affection is gonna double from now on.
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Your singing definitely has Jaehee hooked, and she always wants to hear more every time she listens to you. She can't really understand but it makes her feel more drawn and closer to you. It's like a sweet kiss in the morning from you, so sweet that she melts, feeling light and motivated.
Jaehee often hums your songs or any other singing she heard from you. She realized that it makes her feel more calm and focused whenever she is working in the cafe with you. It's also really cute how you catch her randomly smiling while doing it too. And gosh, listening to you is better than drinking even the best coffee in her life.
Doing what you love makes her feel so happy and glad, because you know what you want to do and you are working on it and she's also right there with you, being your number one fan and also your sweet lover who encourages you and praises you a lot. It makes her feel soft and warm every time she sees you going after your own goals.
She will do anything she can to help you reach your dreams. You helped her so much in her life and she wants to do the same for you too. Jaehee is great at doing research and even giving you ideas and thoughts about how you can reach high and accomplish the goal you want to do. Her sweet smile and a kiss from her will bring you the best of luck!
Since she is also a big fan of Zen, you two sit together and observe his own singing so you can learn more from him. As a big fan, Jaehee has picked up on a lot of things that she hopes can aid you in making it to your goal to be a full time artist. You can definitely count on her on making you the sweetest drink so you can have a strong voice for singing.
But man, she covers her mouth as tears are very close to spilling from her eyes the moment she is aware of the amazing surprise you made for her. A song?? For her?? She is trying so hard not to cry because she is so touched by it. Hold her and she will cling to you with the biggest smile. The song becomes her favorite thing ever, she'll cherish it forever.
When you two are having a break to relax, she'll shyly ask you to sing that song again. Hearing it directly from you makes her soul feel at ease because she loves your singing so much. The end price? A passionate and a long kiss that will make your knees weak, don't forget the cute smile after! She loves you so much and wants to stand by your side through anything.
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maleficore Ā· 7 months ago
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I donā€™t even go here but your replies to deepdragons were so needlessly hostile.
ā€œIf you found it so disrespectful then why didnā€™t you block me?ā€ This is childish and hypocritical. If you found their take so bad, why did you go out of your way to go to their blog, find the post, and then argue with them? Why didnā€™t YOU block them first so you wouldnā€™t have to see their takes? Why do people need to block you, to actively prevent you from interacting with them entirely, for you to not be rude to them?
People will have shitty takes and you will not agree with every post you see ā€” thatā€™s the nature of fandom. You canā€™t control how other people post or think and thatā€™s annoying, I get it, but YOU can control how you interact with others. The way you were speaking to that person was so needlessly rude and hostile. Is that how you speak to people in real life? Iā€™m so curious as to what your goal was in talking to them like that. Surely it wasnā€™t to convince any one of anything. Who would want to agree with someone being so dickish and annoying about something as inconsequential as the politics of elven aging? So, what was all of that for? Did that make you happy or have you just riled yourself up? Do you feel like you accomplished something by speaking to someone like that?
I really hate when people tear others apart for being wrong about fandom things. If you were wrong about something, do you think you would appreciate someone talking to you in the way you spoke to deepdragons? Or would you rather they approach you with respect and understanding? Golden rule and all that, yeah?
You did not have to seek them out and you did not have to engage with them. Next time, either speak to others with respect or just make your own goddamn post. Not everything needs to be a debate.
I also find it funny how you were coming at them for not being faithful for the lore or whatever and then, when someone with more textual evidence than you rebutted your statements and called for you to back up your claims, you were like ā€œI canā€™t be expected to cite all of my claims like an academic paper!!ā€ Fucking lol. The onus of proof lies only with the people you disagree with, huh?
Have you seen the original post? I'm guessing not because then you'd know that my reply pretty much mirrored the exact condescending tone used by the OP. I also didn't "go out of my way" to do anything. I've said so before and I'll repeat it again: I got an error while reblogging the OG post, went to check the person's blog for what's up with that and the first thing I saw was them calling people stupid for pointing out that They're Not Correct. I already had the post written at that point and I simply copied it from one tab to another. This is the internet, you post something publicly people can and will interact with it unless you stop them. I didn't block the OP because at the time I did not give a shit if they interacted with me or not, I was just setting straight misinfo I see regurgitated over and over again to the point I'm sick of it. Because of the attitude they displayed I was actually fully expecting to get blocked straight away myself.
I'm not actually a dick unless someone annoys me into it. Because sometimes people get annoyed and they're rude, that's just how people work. But I guess you know that? Since you're annoyed at me and wrote a whole essay trying to make me feel bad?
And just to finish this off.. none of my statements were rebutted. I got lore dumped on and half of it wasn't even interpreted correctly from the linked books. Yes, I don't need to cite like it's an academic paper because all the goddamn info needed was already in my first post. Astarion was not a child because he was a grown ass man with a government job. There's no basis for "Ascended Vampires can't love" because Larian homebrews their vampires so the written lore doesn't apply. That's literally it. People on this site just can't fucking read.
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reno2005 Ā· 2 months ago
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Reno Iā€™m so glad you talked about Leon change being not black and white. Because when Ada told him he didnā€™t change, it irked me. I love Ada and I know what she meant by that, that he still is a good person that wants to do the right thing. But it also felt so disrespectful because Leon changed, heā€™s not that bright eyed rookie anymore.
Itā€™s just that Iā€™ll always mourn Leonā€™s self before the trauma, so when someone says he hasnā€™t changed it, it almost feels dismissive of all heā€™s been through.
Leon reminds me a lot of the Ship of Theseus. If you're unaware of what it is, it's a philosophical question of sorts that basically goes like: You have a ship made of wood. Over time you replace certain pieces/planks/etc so that the ship can continue to run well. After years of maintenance is the ship still the same?
I think about the question a lot here and there since I started playing the game. There isn't a right answer really(I suppose) but I personally believe that it is the same ship. The ship still has its own personal goal/service/etc that it commits to.(In the case of the ship of theseus, to commemorate the saving of the children of Athens) Sure you may change pieces of board over time or exchange one working part for maybe a more updated one but the ship still has the same purpose/goal/etc. and even what it stands for. I also count the build of the ship being part of its identity. Again, you may have changed boards to keep it in good shape but the same could be said of the body. Updating and maintaining it to stay in good order for its purpose and goals. Its all part of its core identity.
I think the people who tell Leon he hasn't changed perhaps focus on the parts of him that they maybe lack within themselves or don't like seeing having stayed the same within himself but not themselves.(Some people will also just always have their pride and will want to feel like they're on the top if that makes sense) The want to do good for no other reason than that it's the right thing to do and not for money's sake or a personal lie of independence and being unable to step away from doing questionably moral things because you think you can't turn away from the life you've made for yourself. Staying true to yourself and how you go about things in a true and honest manner and sticking with wanting to do good despite the bad that has happened to you and trying to move on from it despite the burning desire to focus on it and let it consume you whether from fear of weakness or losing the only life you've ever known. One is stuck(you can argue they do good things but does it come from a genuine place), the other changed for the worse.
The only person who asked him whether one can change and didn't tell him whether he did or not was also trying to change themselves and they at their core weren't all that different from before either. They wanted to do good and were simply blinded by their research and what they were accomplishing in an attempt to reach for some sort of redemption from their own past and what happened to them. They still had their personality but showed clear signs of guilt and moments of taking things seriously.
Maybe that's why I thought it was weird when the "Leon treats Ashley cold" thing was floating around. He's still the kind caring heart of justice person from before. If he wasn't he wouldn't be so concerned with "saving one person while a hundred others die". He wants to save everyone he can, just like he did back then. When I take pictures I'm surprised when I look back at some of my shots of scenes because I always forget/don't realize how often he smiles in the game, especially when he's able to help Ashley or sees that she's okay after a tense situation.
Did you know Leon always gives out a tense sigh of sorts after you do your first stealth kill? I interpret that as him not being a cold killing machine but only doing what he has to for goodness sake. He needs to save an innocent person and unfortunately it's him or the Ganados.
But yes I also think he's not naive anymore. He calls her out for just using him again(you may argue she helps him and etc but again the underlying motive is her obtaining the sample) and rejects her offer to join her. He immediately figures out Krauser kidnapped Ashley without a doubt despite trying to change his mind on the whole situation and their personal seemingly close history with each other. He's suspicious of Luis the whole time and doesn't give him his full name and takes most of the game to warm up to him just to be assured he's not bad either.
I'm going on and on here so I'll end it by saying I feel Leon has changed but not completely and despite what he's been through, it could have been for the worst but he tries his best to stick true to his morals and character even if he has to get his hands dirty and he needs to be more wary of others for the most part due to the kind of business he's in unfortunately. The ship is still the same, the parts are just updated.
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torialefay Ā· 10 months ago
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Hii, been loving your work with the readings!! If it's not too much to ask could I have a reading with Felix? I have sun in pisces (11th house), ascendant in aries (1st house), moon in virgo (6th house), venus in aquarius (10th house) and my birthday its 21/02/00 (02/21/00) šŸ„¹
I just want to point out how absolutely cute it is that you put your birth dates in both formats bc i am from the states and use month/day/year so it was the most adorable thing iā€™ve ever seen wow ā¤ļø
Ascendant in Aries (1st house):
With ascendant in Aries, you probably come across on first meeting you as someone who is very sure of themself and independent. You probably also come off as someone who is very passionate or has a strong passion in life (you could even be passionate about living life itself. In some aspect, people probably think on first meeting you that you are very skilled at one or a few areas in particular. In my opinion, Aries Ascendants make great activists, so if there is a cause you are passionate about, definitely consider it!
Since thereā€™s no birth time for Felix, we canā€™t know his Ascendant, BUT from what Iā€™ve gathered about him, I think he would actually really vibe with your initial energy! I think we all know Felix is a sweet guy, but he also has this sort of ā€œcharming?ishā€ nature to him when first meeting him that can also be mistaken for a subtle confidence. I think he is probably attracted initially to someone who holds a lot of confidence too. Especially looking at your Sun in Pisces, I think itā€™s fair to say that you will balance that independence with introspection, which would be an alluring quality to Felix.
One more thing to note is that Felixā€™s moon is in Ariesā€¦ the Moon being the most subconscious part of yourself. Likely he would be drawn to you/resonate with you initially and he wouldnā€™t even know why lol.
Sun in Pisces (11th house):
The 11th house is all about our connections, groups we belong to, and how we fulfill our dreams. Having your Sun in Pisces here is a super cool placement :)
Sun in Pisces really values creativity and individuality. You probably highly value self-expression and may show this through clothing, art, music, literature, etc. Pisces are definitely about emotions and about understanding others. You know how to make people feel SEEN. I also always associate Pisces on the axis of ā€œserviceā€ (along with Virgo on the other side of the axisā€¦ and Virgo is your moon!) Being in your 11th house, it is likely that using your Piscean nature through social networking or through groups will lead to accomplishing your goals. In other words, try to channel your ability to see the good in others THROUGH working with other people, and it will ultimately give you fulfillment in life. In your Aries section, I talked about you being a great activist. I think your Pisces placement here realllly supports that statement. Just from looking at these 2 placements alone, I think youā€™d make a great activist in an area such as mental health or counseling.
Obviously this is a great placement with Felix. Felix is a Virgo, which I previously mentioned is on the ā€œservice axisā€ (aka thatā€™s just the vibes I get from it lol but technically it just means they are the houses in opposition). So what does this mean for you two? You probably have the same goal, but you go about obtaining it in different ways. You both want to be helpful. You can dream up what to do, and Felix can help put it into action. I think he would also be great on that activist train, even going into what I talked about with mental health.
Moon in Virgo (6th house):
Your moon in Virgo in the 6th house means that you probably put a large emphasis on self-development. You are more than likely always finding ways to better yourself or to keep yourself well-informed. But you are able to do this maybe without even realizing it. You are also able to do it in a practical way- you know your limits.
Iā€™ve said this time and time again, but to ME, the Sun/Moon match up is the MOST IMPORTANT indicator of a long lasting couple. Your Moon (emotions ) in Virgo matched perfectly with Felixā€™s Sun (personality) in Virgoā€¦ meaning that he would really feel like you UNDERSTAND himā€¦ because you do! Lol you operate on that plane with him.
Felixā€™s moon in Aries would be a good match for you as well because I think it could inspire you to keep wanting more for yourself. Kind of like a flame to keep you going.
Venus in Aquarius in Midheaven:
Okay literally your placements just keep confirming what Iā€™ve already said šŸ˜‚
Venus represents love, balance, and beautyā€¦ An Aquarius represents individuality, uniqueness, and freedom. You likely find beauty in very unique individuals. You also support others to be their TRUE selves, even if it goes against societal norms. You probably think moreso that people who ARE different are actually more beautiful (sometimes lol).
The 10th house (midheaven) governs our career path and who we are seen to the public based on our career choices. I feel like at this point, I donā€™t even have to say it lol. In your career, you would literally be known as someone who is an activist for finding beauty in uniqueness and self-acceptanceā€¦ like babe, that is you. If you arenā€™t in that field, pls go into it bc the planets are calling for you apparently.
Felixā€™s Venus in Libra also means that he is able to see beauty in all kinds of people and really reallllly values it on a deep, personal level. He needs to find that in order to find peace within himself. With the two of you paired, I could see you as having a cool and honestly fun sex life. Both of you WOULD need a level of devotion tied into it, but definitely not all the time. I could see you all trying a lot of new stuff, but things would be mostly light and airy.
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pompous-puffed-up-penguin Ā· 2 years ago
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Comfy Cozy (Farrell!Penguin/GN!Reader)
Just a small little thing I came up with on the spot. You stay over at Ozzyā€™s place and steal his bath robe
CW: literally just fluff, I donā€™t think thereā€™s anything offensive here
Word count: 931
It's not that you didn't want to walk home in the rain. You looked at the forecast today and remembered your umbrella, and it wasn't as if it was far from the lounge to your apartment. But as soon as your boss noticed the first drops on the window, he wouldn't hear any of your excuses.
"I'm not having you go out and catching a cold," he said. "You're staying with me for the night, and that's that."
Well, you weren't going to argue with your boyfriend. He was too proud to admit it, but he took any excuse he could to get you to stay with him (not that you ever complained). And besides, he had the penthouse of your dreams, with everything looking like it would take you ten years to pay for. Just stepping inside, you felt like you had to pay a tax for dirtying the floor. It was a wonder that anyone like Oswald Cobblepot would let you breathe in here, let alone spend time in here.
And even when he had to suddenly run out for 'business' emergencies, he would always say that you were free to do whatever you wanted in here. It took you a while to get used to the idea when you first started dating. Actually, you still think it's a miracle he noticed you in the first place. The only thing you had in the foreseeable future was polishing glasses and pouring drinks. But now you had one of the most powerful men in Gotham spoiling you and keeping you company on cold nights.
Unfortunately, you were left alone tonight, since Oz had to meet with a client at the last minute ("Got to do everything myself," he mumbled). And as always, he reminded you that you were free to anything in his home. He promised he would be with you before midnight.
Well, as long as you were here, you might as well get cleaned up. Knowing him, he was going to be stressed and wound-up tight as a spring. And what better way to help him relax than with some TLC? That's what you were thinking as you grab a towel and dry yourself off after stepping out of the shower (of course he had your favorite shampoo and body wash ready. Why wouldn't he?).Ā Unfortunately, you didn't think to bring anything to help you accomplish your goal. You would just have to settle for your usual PJ's.
But then you spot something hanging on the bathroom door. A deep violet robe, silky smooth, looking oh-so-tempting. You reach out and feel the fabric in your fingers.
Well, Oswald did say you were free to have anything in his home. Surely, he won't mind if you borrow his robe for a bit. You let your towel fall to the floor and wrap the robe around yourself. It feels so nice on your skin, like a blanket fresh from the dryer. And as you breathe in, you can smell a faint aroma lingering on it. His musk. You can't help but smile as you bring a sleeve closer to your nose to savor it. It was like he was giving you a hug right now. If you weren't careful, you might accidentally steal this robe and bring it home with you.
Comfortable and relaxed, you make your way to the bedroom and lay down, sighing as you listen to the rain drops lightly hit the window. Resting your head and staring up at the ceiling, you wonder how long Oz's business will really last. He's had too many all-nighters to count. You really hope it won't be one of those again. The fatigue was getting more and more noticeable by the day. Maybe it has something to do with that guy running around in a bat costume you've heard about? You've overheard some stuff about him recently, especially on the news. Just another guy looking for attention, you think. It's hard to get that in Gotham when everyone else is reaching for some. But it's also hard to ignore how anxious it's making everyone.
You close your eyes, concentrating on the rain to empty your thoughts. You're just going to give them a rest, you think. And when Oz comes home, you'll be wide awake and ready for him. Ready for...something. Eh, you can improvise. --- Lingering on the edge of sleep and wakefulness, you shudder as something rough brushes against your cheek. You swat it away, curling up further into Oz's robe, your robe. Stupid bug, interrupting your dream. It was so nice, too. Oz just came home, and he was sitting on the bed next to you. Even now, you could feel his presence, and his smile as he looked down at you.
"I think you got something that belongs to me, sweetheart."
Wow, this dream feels so real. You can even hear his voice, along with a gentle hand on your back. Smelling the cologne in the robe makes you feel like you're in heaven.
"Comfy?"
Yeah, you mumble, it feels really nice.
You hear a soft chuckle. "If you want one of your own, you can just ask." You know he could, but then it wouldn't have that wonderful smell. And it wouldn't be warm like he is.
"Hm. Alright, you make a good argument."
You know you do. Now is he going to sit there and stare or is he going to get in bed with you?
Oz laughs. "Okay, alright, just let me get out of this suit and I'll be right there."
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tobiasdrake Ā· 1 year ago
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The ultimate showdown. Time to reveal yourself.
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Since Makoto was Number One's homunculus, it would have been trivially easy for him to get intel from the WDO. He might even have been the one that pulled the Book of Death out of the library and passed it off to Yuma.
Though if he did, that makes it even more bizarre that he'd go to such lengths to smuggle Yuma and Shinigami into the city.
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Makoto's right where he wants to be. I don't know why he's having this duel with Yuma. But it's clear at this point that all of this was for the purpose of tricking Yuma into bringing him into the Mystery Labyrinth.
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To be honest, I'm not entirely sure. Bringing in the detectives as a whole provided a cover to smuggle Yuma in. Is that what they're going for?
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*deep breath* Okay. Yeah, that makes sense. The purpose of bringing everyone to Kanai Ward "to investigate the Great Global Mystery and the Ultimate Secret" was to play the WDO against the Peacekeepers and ultimately remove Yomi from the organization.
But that can't be the whole truth. We wouldn't be standing here on this eldritch rooftop if it was.
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So.
To clarify.
Makoto: I can excuse fascism but I draw the line at corporate espionage. Yuma: You can excuse fascism!?
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That. Doesn't. Sound right.
First, because he could have shot us instead of shrieking at us about how badly he wants us to break out Shinigami's powers.
And second, because of the pink-blooded "Master Detective" corpses. That still doesn't seem right.
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There it is. Makoto's pink homunculus blood revealed. Mystery Phantoms don't bleed, and an outsider's blood is supposed to be red.
But it wouldn't be, if he was the UG homunculus.
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The burning question. Those bodies couldn't have been theirs, Makoto. So where are they really?
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I believe you, with regards to the WDO bombing. Once Yomi was out of the picture, you couldn't risk them following up on the mission you gave them in the first place.
But that doesn't explain why you fed pink-blooded homunculi to the ferals dressed in our pals' clothes and then pretended to have killed them.
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Yuma. Bro. Do you still think that's what is happening here?
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If I hadn't caught that pink/red blood problem with the corpses, I'd be right here with Yuma's vindictive fury. Ironic that we've flipped positions like this.
I mean. I still agree that, y'know, fuck 'im. I just don't have the outrage now that I know our pals are probably alive.
What are you trying to accomplish, Makoto? I don't understand the goal here.
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That's terrifying but also it makes sense. Mystery Phantoms manifest as people who seek to conceal the truth. For Kanai Ward, every resident has an investment in preserving the secrecy of the Blank Week.
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Oh, fuck off. It'd be better for them to try and live well than to survive complacently while waiting for a fate worse than death to slowly come for them.
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You're projecting. You hate yourself for what you are, and you think that because you're the Superior Pyramid Peak that your opinion is universal. That you have the authority to speak for everyone because you're their hierarchical better.
I bet you wear that mask because you can't stand to look in the mirror and see another man's face looking back at you. That's it, isn't it? Your reflection reminds you of what you are?
But that's just, like, your opinion, man. You're a sample size of one. You know who else is a sample size of one? Kurumi, who adjusted to the discovery of the ferals so quickly that she was able to take advantage of the opportunity and snag some closure from her deceased bestie. She has incredible emotional and mental fortitude, and adapts quickly to horrific revelations. I bet she could handle it.
You don't know how people will react. Who are you to take this choice away from them?
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Yeah, man. I get it. You took a lot of weight, both moral and emotional, upon your shoulders. You unilaterally carried this city on your back. I'm sure it was very hard.
But you didn't have to do it alone. You chose to do it alone. Because you're poisoned by the philosophy represented in the WDO's very creed.
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Oh good, and now this is happening. Sure, he can join the party too. Why not.
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Actually, none, funny as that is. Wouldn't describe them as fine and dandy but everyone we "killed" is wandering around the Restricted Area right now looking for a snacky-bun robot. If we could all agree that researching ways to repair their broken gene sequences should be the priority going forward then everything would be fine.
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To be honest, Yuma, neither do I. At the big picture level, it's hard to know what would truly be best for Kanai Ward. All I can say with certainty is that we'll never get there if we remain mired in a status quo that's doomed to end in tragedy.
But we can start by wringing the truth out of Makoto about what happened to our friends. That's critical. If they're alive, then maybe Makoto can be made to see reason. To understand the importance of working together towards a brighter future for everyone in Kanai Ward.
And if they're dead, then we stab him in the fucking throat and dump his body off the ledge. If he isn't with us when the Mystery Labyrinth comes down, then he'll be trapped here, unable to escape, doomed to wander as a tormented specter for all of time. That's what Shinigami told Vivia, anyway.
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archiveikemen Ā· 2 years ago
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Abe no Yasuchika Main Story: Chapter 26
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Read this before interactingā”Šaikmā€™s Genjiden Glossary
This happened a while agoā€¦
It was right after Suzaku was exorcized and the peace in Kyōto was restored.
Yasuchika: ā€” And so, the four gods agreed.
Yoritomo: Is that something you can just say so casually?
Yoshitsune: I sure witnessed some pretty amazing things back there but for some reason he sounds so unconvincing right now.
The Shogunate and Rebel Army shot astonished and exasperated gazes at Yasuchika-san as he passed his report.
(As always, there's amazingly little difference between being serious and his usual self.)
Tamamo: Anywayā€¦ it must've been hard on you, Yuno.
Tamamo: I admire your act of bravery towards the end.
Yuno: Thank youā€¦ Tamamo.
Shigehira: If you got your fox powers back, does that mean you regained your memories too?
Yuno: Yup. Iā€™m grateful for your care and support throughout my period of memory loss.
(Thinking back, everyone here was really caring towards me.)
I bowed deeply to my fellow members of the Shogunate, and my silver hair swayed before my eyes.
Kagetoki: You got kidnapped but found a way to escape all by yourself, I must say youā€™re a rather amazing woman.
Morinaga: I know right? If Yuno were a warrior, she would've made tons of military feats by now.
Yuno: I just got lucky in my caseā€¦ the truly amazing person here is Yasuchika-san.
Yoichi: Certainly. At first, I thought he had become an evil Onmyōji who practiced some shady magicā€¦ but in the end, he became an Onmyōji who was like a ray of hope. What a stark difference in character.
Benkei: I feel like we got manipulated by himā€¦ but ultimately, what matters most is that everyone on the battlefield was saved.
Sueharu: You got yourself the coolest part, huh.
Kurama: Iā€™m sure Yasuchika is one hell of a powerful guy, but for some reason I don't feel like competing against him.
Yasuchika: Youā€™re making me shy.
Kurama: That wasn't a compliment.
Ibuki: Come on now, donā€™t say that.
Ibuki: It's the first time in history that someone became a shikigami of the Four Gods.
Ibuki: Youā€™ve become a legend, Yasuchika.
Yasuchika: Maybe I can finally defeat you.
Ibuki: I hate how youā€™re so obsessed with wanting to get rid of me.
Akihito-sama, who had been right next to Ibuki, shrugged his shoulders and stepped forward.
Akihito: I was so anxious, but anywayā€¦ Iā€™m glad youā€™re safe, Yasuchika.
Yasuchika: ā€” Akihito-sama.
(Akihito-sama must've been worried sick about Yasuchika-san the whole time.)
I could tell what they were both feeling from the way they were looking at each other.
Yasuchika: It was all thanks to you that I could accomplish my self-indulgent goalā€¦ thank you.
Akihito: Didnā€™t I tell you that it was my wish too?
Akihito: However, Yasuchika.
Akihito-samaā€™s smile vanished and the look in his eyes turned serious.
Akihito: The second promise you made was to not dieā€¦ were you trying to break it?
Yasuchika: ā€¦ Erm.
(Yasuchika-san nearly sacrificed his life to save mine and everyone elseā€™s lives.)
(He didn't see himself being in the future he tried to create.)
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Yasuchika: ā€” Iā€™m sorry, Akihito-sama.
After he bowed his head and sincerely apologisedā€¦
(Ohā€¦)
Yasuchika-san suddenly took my hand.
Yasuchika: Yuno-san is the reason why I can still stand here.
Akihito: ā€¦ I see.
Akihito-sama turned to me.
Akihito: Thank you, Yuno. For saving Yasuchika.
Akihito: And alsoā€” I would like to apologize to you on behalf of the Imperial Court. We have caused you a great deal of trouble.
(Akihito-samaā€¦)
I was surprised by the unexpected apology, but I managed to give a response.
Yuno: I was actually the first one to be saved.
Yuno: And it was painful to be attacked after losing my memories, butā€¦
Yuno: Similar to how the Shogunate and Rebel Army have their reasons to keep fighting, I understand that you and everyone else in the Imperial Court also had their own.
(I hope I have more opportunities to spend time with the Imperial Court in the future and get to know them better.)
Akihito: ā€¦ Iā€™m afraid Iā€™m going to struggle to keep my head up in front of you from now on.
Yoritomo-sama spoke up after a while.
Yoritomo: So, Yasuchika. How do you intend to finish this up?
Yasuchika: Yeah about thatā€¦
Yasuchika: ā€” I want to negotiate with you all.
Yasuchika-san looked at Akihito-sama.
Yasuchika: Akihito-sama, are you sure about this?
Akihito: Of course. Iā€™ve already decided to let you make all the decisions related to this matter until the end.
Yasuchika: Thank you.
(I wonder what heā€™s going to negotiate aboutā€¦)
Depending on the topic, the Shogunate and Rebel Armyā€™s reactions may vary widely.
I anxiously watched the situation unfold.
Yasuchika: My request isā€¦ for everyone here to sign an agreement of nonaggression with the Imperial Court, even if it's only temporary.
Yoritomo: You were the one who broke the trust between the Shogunate and Imperial Court in the first place, were you not?
Yasuchika: That sounds weak.
Yoshitsune: We have no reason to attack the Imperial Court. But we would need some benefits if we were to promise complete nonaggression.
Yasuchika: You're absolutely correct. Therefore, I have a suggestion.
Yasuchika: Why don't we extend the truce between the Shogunate and Rebel Army for a while more?
(...!)
Not only me, but seemingly everyone in the room was shocked by his suggestion.
Yasuchika: When the two parties combined forces to save the civiliansā€¦
Yasuchika: Their soldiers must have lost their morale after witnessing those supernatural stuff like ayakashi and spirits.
Yasuchika: What Iā€™m saying is, this war will have to start again from square one.
Kagetoki: Well I canā€™t say I disagree.
Benkei: It wouldn't do much good to order an attack at the moment either.
(I used my powers in front of the soldiers tooā€¦ so I don't blame them for their confusion.)
Yasuchika: Both parties suffered significant damages to their forces during this war. Wouldn't it be most ideal to have more preparation time if you were to restart your war?
Yoshitsune: I hate to say it, but you have a point.
Yoritomo-sama shrugged his shoulders and agreed.
Yasuchika: Moreoverā€¦ on top of me being blessed by the Four Gods, the Imperial Court has also become stronger.
Yasuchika: Doesnā€™t that mean we qualify as a third force apart from the Shogunate and Rebel Army?
(A third forceā€¦)
Yoritomo: What are you trying to say?
Yasuchika: The Shogunate and Rebel Army will have to be wary of our movements once the war is back on.
Yasuchika: A three-way war sounds tricky.
Yasuchika: Therefore, I believe that in order to avoid such a warā€¦ the Shogunate, Rebel Army, and Imperial Court should all come together and sign an agreement of nonaggression.
Yoritomo: But will it really go that smoothly?
Yoritomo-sama scoffed, like he was testing Yasuchika-san.
Yoritomo: The feud between me and Yoshitsune is far too complex.
Yoritomo: If the details of the agreement are not planned out carefully, it could do more harm than good.
Yasuchika: The Imperial Court will oversee all negotiations made between the Shogunate and Rebel Army.
Yasuchika: I kind of know both the Shogunate and Rebel Army to some extent, so I think it won't be hard for me to help establish a common ground.
(Amazing. Yasuchika-san isn't backing down even with Yoritomo-sama pressuring him.)
Yoritomo: ā€” You imprudent man.
Yoritomo-sama thought about it for a while before speaking up again.
Yoritomo: The evacuated civilians witnessed the exorcism of Suzaku, and it didn't take long for word about the country's protector to spread all over Japan.
Yoritomo: Because of this, Yasuchikaā€¦ it would be equivalent to disregarding the peopleā€™s feelings if we were to attack the Imperial Court.
(I see. Thatā€™s how influential Yasuchika-san has become.)
Yoritomo: Alright. The Shogunate will have a discussion amongst ourselves.
Yoritomo: What about you, Yoshitsune?
Yoshitsune: ā€¦
Yoshitsune: Yasuchika, I have a question.
Yasuchika: What is it?
Yoshitsune: What is the Imperial Courtā€™s goal as a third force?
Yasuchika ā€¢ Akihito: ā€¦
Yasuchika-san and Akihito-sama briefly exchanged looks.
Yasuchika: We will keep that question in mind and find an answer to it later. Howeverā€¦
Yasuchika: The Imperial Court will need some time to restructure ourselves after this incident.
Yasuchika: It appears that all the Onmyōji in the Onmyō Bureau have run awayā€¦ so I think the restructuring will be rather large scale.
Akihito: I agree. If the Imperial Court is to become a central power, we must change the way we operate.
Akihito: During the ceasefire, we will strengthen our constituency and live up to the people's wishesā€¦
Akihito: We shall embark on the right pathway to becoming an organization worthy of having Yasuchika, the countryā€™s protector, as a part of us.
(The Imperial Court is going to changeā€¦)
My heart was pounding rapidly at the thought of the future being repainted to be so bright.
...
ā€” There will be a quick meeting tomorrow to discuss the armistice.
The Shogunate and Rebel Army returned to their respective camps.
(Too many things happened today.)
When I was sitting near the bonfire at the Shogunateā€™s campā€¦
Yoritomo: Yuno.
Yuno: Ahā€¦ Yoritomo-sama!
(This scene has happened before.)
Yoritomo-sama approached and sat down right next to me.
Yuno: Has your meeting with Kagetoki-san and the others ended?
Yoritomo: Yeah. We discussed the main focus points of tomorrow's meeting.
Yuno: Itā€™s already this late at night and youā€™re still hard at work.
(It must've been tough on him to have to command the war and evacuate civilians.)
Yoritomo: You're the one who worked the hardest.
Yoritomo: ā€” Iā€™m glad you got your memories back.
Yuno: ā€¦ Yeah.
The two of us stared at the bonfire in silence for a brief moment.
Yuno: Iā€™m sorry, Yoritomo-sama.
Yuno: Even after so much has happenedā€¦ I still love Yasuchika-san.
(It hurt my heart so badly even though I couldn't remember why.)
Yoritomo: I know.
Yuno: Eh?
Yoritomo: You always did whatever you wished, even without your memories.
Yoritomo: Once the armistice is signed, it will mark an end to your job in the Shogunate.
Yoritomo: You have the right to choose what you want to do after that.
Yoritomo: But as for meā€¦
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Yoritomo-sama fidgeted with my hair using his fingertips.
Yoritomo: I feel that it's a pity to give you to Yasuchika.
Yuno: Yoritomo-samaā€¦?
Yoritomo-sama removed his hand from my hair and gave me his usual haughty smile.
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Yoritomo: The Kamakura Shogunate will always have a place for you.
Yoritomo: Remember that as you embark on your own journey.
Yuno: ā€¦ Thank you, Yoritomo-sama.
(Iā€™ll always be proud of the days I spent with the Shogunate.)
In the evening, six days laterā€¦
Yasuchika: Sorry Iā€™m late, Yuno-san.
Yuno: Ah, no worries. I was busy treating the wounded as well.
I met Yasuchika-san by the lake.
Yuno: The final meeting ended today, right?
Yasuchika: Yeah. It took quite a while, but the Shogunate and Rebel Army finally had an agreement.
(That's great to know.)
We sat side by side under a shady tree, feeling the cool lakeside breeze.
Yuno: Weā€™re going to have peace for a while.
Yasuchika: It feels strange knowing that all my scheming brought peace to the world.
I found myself grinning as I was drawn to the way Yasuchika-san laughed awkwardly.
Yuno: This is going to be a norm from now on, youā€™ll get used to it.
Yasuchika: I hope I get used to it fast.
Yasuchika: When that comes, itā€™ll become natural for me to stand by your side.
My heart ached sweetly as he lovingly stroked my hair.
Yasuchika: Also, I heard this from Tamamo. ā€¦ You decided not to break your deal with him?
Yuno: That's right.
Yuno: So can you make me your assistant again?
Yasuchika: Yuno-sanā€¦
Yuno: Iā€™ll still work as an apothecary because that's my dream job, butā€¦
Yuno: Since you're now the countryā€™s protector, I want to help you.
(Ahā€¦)
My skin grew hot when he pulled me into a tight hug.
Yasuchika: ā€” Iā€™m so happy. Thank you.
Yuno: ā€¦ Me too.
(I can boldly hold Yasuchika-sanā€™s hand now.)
Yuno: Iā€™m grateful to Tamamo for allowing it.
Tamamo seems to have taken a liking to Kamakura, so heā€™ll be staying on as a house guest from now on.
Yasuchika: Hey, Yuno-san.
Yuno: Yes?
Yasuchika-san gazed at me in the light of the setting sun.
Yasuchika: I love you.
Yuno: W-why so suddenā€¦
Yasuchika: Hmm there are many things I want to tell you that Iā€™ve never been able to.
Yuno: ā€¦ Me too.
Yuno: Today and always, I love you.
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Yasuchika: ā€¦
Yasuchika-sanā€™s eyes widened slightly when I confessed my true feelings.
(I love how he can so casually say he loves me, but get so flustered when I do the same.)
(Itā€™ll be great if being loved becomes a norm for Yasuchika-san.)
Yasuchika: It's embarrassingā€¦ my heart is fully occupied by my feelings for you.
Yuno: Do you hate it?
Yasuchika: Nope.
Yasuchika: ā€” It makes me happy.
(Ah, that's good.)
An image of the young Yasuchika-san, who had grown up without knowing love and had a dead look in his eyes, flashed across my mind for a split second and vanished.
Yuno: I hope that we'll have tons of fun and happy memories together.
I learnt that Yasuchika-san had a precognitive dream about my death, and he changed that future.
(Thatā€™s why Iā€™m going to devote all of me to this man from now on.)
Yasuchika: Iā€™m up for anything as long as it's with you.
Yasuchika-sanā€™s eyes that were so close to mine had a continuous burning flame of passion behind them.
Yasuchika: I would've done everything possible to become more powerful, but I wanted to keep my humanity.
Yasuchika: In the pastā€¦ I wanted to protect you with these hands.
Yuno: In the past?
Yasuchika: Yeah. But there were other people who also wanted to protect you.
Yasuchika-san smiled bitterly, perhaps he had a specific person in mind.
Yasuchika: But thatā€™s alright.
Yasuchika: I decided to fight back.
Yasuchika: I want you to stay by my side simply because I like you. Itā€™s such a laughable and miserable desire.
Yasuchika: Even if everyone forbids itā€¦ or you get scared, Iā€™ll force you to do that.
Yuno: ā€¦ I wonā€™t be scared.
Yuno: Iā€™m going to be stronger than everyone else.
Yuno: Iā€¦ I want to protect you too.
Yasuchika: ā€¦
Yasuchika-san touched my face as if trying to ascertain my features.
His handsome face drew closer andā€¦
Yuno: Mmā€¦
A sigh spilled from my mouth the moment my lips were stolen.
(The sound my chest is makingā€¦ it's so loud.)
Yasuchika: How lovely. You had this same look last night.
Yuno: Ahā€¦
(I got reminded of all sorts of things when you said thatā€¦ please don't.)
Last night ā€” Yasuchika-san and I had our first time.
Perhaps sensing that I was getting embarrassed, Yasuchika-san let out a low chuckle.
Yasuchika: Hey, Yuno-san. Last night, I tried to ā€œpersuadeā€ you in my own way to remain in Kyōtoā€¦
Yasuchika: Iā€™m going to ask you the same thing one last time. Just tell me honestly what your choice is, you don't have to worry about me.
(What?)
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Yasuchika: Do you want to go back to Kamakura?
Yasuchika-san was no longer smiling.
He waited for my answer with a serious look in his eyes.
Yuno: Iā€¦
With the path leading to my future laid out in front of me, my answer to him wasā€¦
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somestoriessomewhereelse Ā· 24 days ago
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Inktober 2024
1 - BACKPACK
Yesterday was the time
of going back on the road.
Today is the the time
of unpacking some truths and lies.
And tomorrow might be
the end of this times.
2 - DISCOVER
I've always thought that, in a group, I was only as best as the worst person among us; and thus being surrounded by mediocre people would make me mediocre. But I'm realizing my worth does not depend on those around me, and if I'm the only star shining in a dark night, then so be it.
3 - BOOTSĀ 
These boots are made for walking in Koblenz. Yeah it's PLANE to say, but this is not MONEY enough to write better. My creatity feels stuck in a GERMAN CORNER, what if I drink in some magical FOUNTAIN. I know there will be some BOMBINGS during this walk, but I'll be safe up in the FORTRESS. So yeah, I've got my boots i know my roots, let's go it's PEANUTS time!
4 - EXOTIC
"Which (in western perception) is perceived as strange and distant and stimulates the imagination"
I don't know what could be the topic of today, in order not to be inappropriate, but for sure it won't be fall in Germany, because this is not stimulating at all.
5 - BINOCULARĀ 
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but too many people can't see shit by themselves
6 - TREKĀ 
like... star trek? bitch dafuq is this theme i'm too gay for thatĀ 
7 - PASSPORT
When a door closes, another open somewhere, inviting you to begin your next journey. But if you forget your papers, all the doors remain closed and your journey is just back home.
8 - HIKEĀ 
Baby let's get high and higher together. It will take only one bite, of the most delicious cake, luscious sweet meant to take you to space. And we'll see dreams and panoramas to good to be true.
9 - SUNĀ 
"What are three things that cannot stay hidden? The sun, the moon, truth." And by sun we mean you, yourself, your ego, your light. No color shall be erased, no voice shall be silence. Thus will rise your true power.
10 - NOMADICĀ 
It's not only about where I'm going to, but also what I'm running away from. I didn't know what I would meet, but I knew what I was leaving behind. And putting all of these things aside, turning the page and starting this new chapter, was one of the best decision of my life.
11 - SNACKĀ 
I know you have a sweet tooth, I know I can be your midnight dinner. I can lay down naked in your bed, offering you my cupcake ready for you to bite. You can eat me until dawn, tell me I'm your delice, and eat me again all day long.
12 - REMOTEĀ 
You can't control me. You can't negociate with me. I'm strong enough to impose my will, and make things happen the way I want them to. I don't care about what you want, when I say it's over, it's over and that's it. Next time, show me some respect and maybe I'll be more kind to you.
13 - HORIZON
It's simply the finish line. The main goal, the final objective. The end of the game. Sometimes, no need for an after. We can just sit down, contemplate the sunset, and beliĆØve croire en nos rĆŖves.
14 - ROAMĀ 
Sometimes I wonder why I keep getting up - why would I? My life is exhausting, unstable, unpredictable. My thoughts wander and focus on the negative, and, suddenly: I cross her face, I see her smile. And all this bullshit gets worthy, because we are together.
15 - GUIDEBOOKĀ 
Life tip: always bring a mantra with you. Something that calms you down and cheers you up. A guideline, a spell, any charm to feel better. Words cannot do all the work, but they are a powerful source of magic able to accomplish great miracles.
16 - GRUNGY
You think you're edgy, mysterious, cool. You're not. You're just a dirty mind in a dusty soul. You don't fit it, you don't belong, you're not interesting and nobody likes you.
17 - JOURNAL
Dear diary,
I've spent some time with my crush today. We sat under the shade of blooming cherries, and he rightfully popped mine. I'm so in love with him, I could put a ring on his... finger. They say love is blind, but I see clear in our future together. He's really the man of my dreams!
18 - DRIVE
Don't let your future insomnia ruin your present resting time.
19 - RIDGE
I had a dream about the ocean. We were standing on the top of a cliff, eating pancakes and drinking cider, contemplating the waves of a beautiful summer. Then, the dream start glitching: the colors started disrupting, your smile became crooked, what was happening? I tried to wake up but I couldn't. Was it a dream or truly my last memories of you?
20 - UNCHARTED
What if my next destination to explore was within me? What if there was a land in my mind I still don't know about? What if I could find in my heart a new treasure to cherish? What if all this time I was good enough?
21 - RHINOCEROS
Let's talk about the elephant in the room: THE HEAT. We thought we got used to the shitty heating system on board and today plot twist: THE SUN IS SHINING? in October in Germany??? gurl i'm sweating like a hooker in church i feel gooped and stomped.
22 - CAMPĀ 
There is a forest, up north. Follow the white road and you'll find it, higher in the mountains. Walk deep into its heart, where the trees are so close together that you can't see no light. You'll feel it when you have arrived. There will be your treasure. There will be your fire, and your light.Ā 
23 - RUST
I feel like I lost my flirting abilities. I don't know anymore how to behave with men: there is a rush to seduce them fast because I'm always moving, but I'm not good when I have no time. I've become this cringe pushy version of me, and I just miss my old lovely self. Maybe I should make no move at all.
24 - EXPEDITION
How about I stop looking for something or someone and I just stay by myself with my work and my thoughts?
25 - SCARECROW
Once upon a time, I lived in a beautiful House. The House was my castle, where I felt loved and protected. I had built for myself the perfect illusion, made out of words and dreams. One day, the House started moving, and I had to leave. From this day of my waking up, I feel cursed, and I wander looking around for a new Home.
26 - CAMERA
Lights, camera, action. I am an actor. I perform entertainments and emotions for your good graces. I play a role on this world stage to make you feel better. I am the version of me that you paid to watch. I am myself only when I'm alone. I am myself only when there is no gaze on me to witness.
27 - ROAD
It might be short, it might be long. It might be easy, it might me hard. It might be towards success, it might be towards failure. But to me, the road was never straight.
28 - JUMBO
Bigger is better, as they say. Bigger hopes, bigger dreams, shooting for the moon to end up in the stars. However, they don't teach you that the biggest strength is to learn to embrace your weaknesses. Be at peace with what you did wrong in order to feel right again.
29 - NAVIGATORĀ 
Time heals. Each day you're healing. It's not about forgetting, it's not about laughing about it. You won't, because you can't. But each day you suffer a little less. Until one day you don't suffer at all. And you're ready for your next love trip.
30 - VIOLIN
Why do we define people by their mistakes? Why their defaults is what we remember of them? We are always ready to point out the bad, to judge and to punish, to blame and to exclude. We now live to be opposants, to walk against each other, to succeed only if the other fail. Well, we have failed, at creating long-lasting communities, and this is our biggest mistake.
31 - LANDMARK
This is the final destination. I am the traveler. I asked the questions. Who am I? What's missing? What is the path behind, and what is the path ahead? I overcame obstacles, and got my windfall. Thus indeed I am reaching the final destination. But I've learned something all along: each cruise only leads to another one.
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berryyuni Ā· 5 months ago
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jay as your boyfriend headcanons
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pairing - bf!jay x gn!reader genre - est. relationship, fluff wc - 673 warnings - skinship, kissing
tiana's note šŸŽ€ - this is a revamped version of a post from when i first made this blog. this was requested by an anon so i'm a bit sad that i have to delete the original post...
ą±Øą§Ž reblogs and feedback are greatly appreciated !! <3 āœ§Ė–Ā° ... (library)
āŠ¹ ą£Ŗ Ė– jungwon | heeseung | jay | jake | sunghoon | sunoo | ni-ki
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jay is definitely the romantic boyfriend. everything he does for you feels romantic even when he doesnā€™t try.
jay puts you as ā€œlove of my lifeā€ as his contact name. and he smiles at it every time he reads it.Ā  you really are the love of his life, no exaggeration.
you guys arenā€™t actually married yet but are practically married. you guys act so much like a married couple people often tease you for it.
he is very very proud of you. he loves seeing the things you do in your life and will always give you his love and support. adding to that, he loves to talk about your accomplishments and how youā€™re doing overall.Ā 
jay is very very protective over you. he wants to make sure youā€™re healthy, safe, and secure. because of this, heā€™s constantly asking you to drink water, eat properly, wear a jacket when itā€™s cold outside, tells you to be careful when youā€™re doing something risky. youā€™re his baby and itā€™s his job to keep you alive. heā€™d wrap you in bubble wrap if he could.
if you refuse to or if you arenā€™t taking good care of yourself, he would scold you and side eye you insisting that you should. itā€™s all out of love though, he cares about you too much.
however, if you tell him to take care of himself he would honestly shake it off. youā€™d have to make a deal with him, if you do, i do type situation.
jay loves to give you ā€œjust becauseā€ gifts. no special occasion is needed, if he wants to buy you something, heā€™ll buy you it.Ā 
like jake, youā€™re his princess. he always always treats you like one. jay loves to buy you flowers, sometimes heā€™d even leave them somewhere to surprise you. heā€™d write you little notes and letters from time to time saying how much he loves and appreciates you. heā€™d write anything honestly just to bring a smile on your face. and of course he loves to cook for you.
jay goes over the top when it comes to dates. he just loves seeing you happy, his goal is to have you smiling when you go to bed.
his gaze always lingers when he looks at you. he can never get enough of you. he wants to spend every second of the day with you.
jay has eyes for you and only you. the way he looks at you easily gives it away. his members even tease him saying that he has literal heart eyes when he looks at you.Ā 
jay is very loyal to you. if anyone thatā€™s not you approaches him with the intent to flirt, he will immediately walk away from them like ā€œyouā€™re not my partnerā€.
jay loves to play the guitar for you whether that be to practice or simply serenade you with soft tunes. whenever you fangirl over him heā€™d get so flustered.Ā 
youā€™re his inspiration.
jay is very attentive when it comes to you. you have his full attention whenever youā€™re together.
he always puts you first. youā€™re one of his top priorities, if you need him heā€™ll be there.Ā 
jay waits for you to fall asleep first (or at least tries to if heā€™s not so tired. and if heā€™s away on tour he calls you every night to make sure you fall asleep.
jay is super gentle with you. youā€™re precious to him.
jay is a waist grabber. no explanation needed. he also likes to put his hand on your lower back when youā€™re walking somewhere, crowded and in general.Ā 
very big on forehead and cheek kisses. he also loves patting your head (he also just loves to play with your hair, he even asks to style it sometimes).
jay is very very talkative around you. he feels safe when youā€™re with him.
jay gets a confidence boost when he makes you laugh or smile.Ā 
thereā€™s never a moment where jay is not thinking about you. you live in his mind rent free.
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