#and how much worse he's gotten
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Noooooo, why is Nooroo an Adrianette shipper. Doesn't he know that Luka is bestest boy
coz he ALSO was on the front lines of Gabriel being a dickhead. He sees Adrien as a family member and wants him to get whatever support and connection he has that's outside of the Agreste's megamansion and away from Gabriel
#replies#its not so much that he's a shipper#and that he wants him to have support other than his fucked up family#because he KNOWS how bad Gabriel is#and how much worse he's gotten#and he doesn't want Adrien to be frontlining that since Gabe doesn't have Nooroo to abuse anymore
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It’s so embarrassing and heartbreaking being in so much pain over losing someone while knowing they don’t give a fuck if you live or die. Your favorite person becoming a stranger is a special kind of hell.
#I fucking hate having bpd#while I’m at it I don’t understand the fuckin audacity some people have to say they love you and do horrible things to you#I feel so stupid#I feel so stupid for believing all the lies#but I was so in love and put him on such a pedestal that I just allowed it all.#thinking about someone constantly and grieving over them and knowing they’re perfectly fine and to them you don’t exist#I’m still in such a state of grief and I don’t understand why time hasn’t healed#it honestly feels like it’s gotten worse w time#I just torture myself but I can’t help it my brain wants me dead#it’s so painful I feel so fucking stupid#being abandoned with no closure by someone who’s your entire world#for someone they were unfaithful to you with multiple times (I don’t even know how many and dony want to know) immediately#like that was the plan all along#he took our cat hundreds of miles away and I don’t even know if he still has her or if she’s still alive and I miss her every day#I never loved someone like that and it feels like the heartbreak is actually physically killing me#i spent 1/5 of my entire life with him#I was my prettiest and had the best body at the time and I wasted it on someone who didn’t appreciate me#not wasted. it wasn’t wasted. we had some incredible times together#I’ll never be that beautiful again#and now idk what do so bc i can’t decide which is worse: being alone and isolating or loving deeply and ending up horribly hurt all over#it’s all just so upsetting.#and I feel so stupid for allowing it all#he knows more about me than anyone and he made me feel like he loved me so much sometimes and then did horrid things and it’s so fucked up#nobody read this I’m so embarrassed and horribly broken#it traumatized me so much there was so much abuse and pain idk if I’ll ever recover#I deserved it but it still hurts my heart#I was so mentally ill and sick I know it had to have been miserable to be around me#there are so many things only he understands and knows about me and I need to talk about them I j wanna b able to b there 4 each other#but that girl is so beyond insecure and controlling so. if I want to talk to who fuckin gets me I’m just fucked#why lead someone on like that for years knowing you’re going to abandon them the second it’s convenient
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i think what gets me about rick is that he wanted to do so much more but didn't get the time
#rick wright#pink floyd#like. he wanted to see talking heads one day but he felt like he was too busy with pink floyd to go and see them#he wanted to do another solo album#hell it's been hinted at that he and david wanted to do an album together outside of pf#he should still be here man. genuinely think we live in a worse world floydwise because he's not here#and that's not just my bias for him talking that's seeing how much worse the feuds gotten the longer he's been gone#how much more vitrolic its gotten again these past few years i know my boy wouldn't have stood for it
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I just talked to my friends about this but I feel like Felix is a little too well liked in this fandom. Like yeah he’s realistic, he’s a coward, he’s selfish, and he’ll do anything to help himself
And there are millions if not billions of people out there who are exactly like him
It’s not a bad thing if you like Felix but I feel like it’s really not that well understood just how actually dangerous he is. There are people who will hurt you either intentionally or by accident and what is often the first thing you hear them say?
“Don’t tell anyone.”
If Edd and Molly had lived, I have no doubt in my mind that is exactly what he would have said to them
#twf#the walten files#felix kranken#if he didn’t act like a real person I wouldn’t care as much but he does and I’m fairly sure people have gotten away with crimes like his or-#worse. and it just feels very concerning how often it’s brushed to the side#especially in a fandom like twf that’s filled to the brim with young teenagers. please guys please be fucking careful and do not ever-#trust anyone like Felix. they are not your friends and they will throw you under the bus the moment they get the chance.#If Felix was a real person he’d do the exact same thing to you. do not defend him he does not need it
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this constant interpretation that writers seem to go with, this understanding that Leia is quite important to Poe, but the way few writers seem to be able to follow that line to its natural conclusion that Poe is similarly important to Leia - gives a very unsympathetic reading of Leia for me. The idea that she "deals with" him, or thinks he's arrogant, or questions whether he's a good fit for leading the Resistance (or, apparently, thinks he's vain), really doesn't paint their dynamic in a good light - and I feel like really dismisses the surrogate mother/son relationship they have, and brushes aside the foundation of subtle affection that Carrie and Oscar worked into their performances which made tlj so good.
There is conflict you could go with between them! The fact that Leia wants to bring Ren back - how Poe might feel about that! It'd be a neat full circle moment to Leia's conflicting feelings about Luke believing and accepting Vader's redemption, when he'd tortured her and been present when they destroyed Alderaan, because it'd be placing her firmly in Luke's shoes. But instead, all canon seems to want to deliver is the concept that Leia means the world to Poe, and that Poe means very little to Leia.
#i'm so much like. she wouldn't fucking say that! but it's so exhausting because that's like. 60% of all media that features them together#and what's worse is beyond this trend of ignoring that the love and affection and familial relationship might be mutual#is that poe is never allowed to be angry with leia over how he's been treated!#i think the CLOSEST we've gotten to him expressing any real frustration over it is in through the turbulence#with his crack about how their /esteemed/ general stunned him#my thoughts about this are so messy but i'm frustrated!#this is my favorite thing about the sequels!#carrie and oscar put SO much into their performances#i can't believe the adaptation REMOVED literally every scene between poe and leia BUT their argument and had her call him arrogant#nym speaks
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A 4th IEYTD game won't be enough I need starstuck to have a canon interaction
#god I don't even care if juniper is dead have it be a flashback to reggie's gay little voicemail PLEASEEEEEEEE#schell games i am on my hands and knees I've been a fan of the ship for almost 2 and a half years PLEASEEEEEEEEEE#god I can't evenmake the 3 hour makeout session joke because i am living in my own world of fanon content with them i need a hint of canon#a whiff and morsel a crumb PLEASE#they are truly my ship ever like the only ship for me whatever but it's TRUE#ieytd#sorry#im insane you guys i only get worse about them#especially because I've been having crazy juniper thoughts and how it'd relate to my interpretation of starstuck#like god he should be transfem in this rant I will-/j..#well#hj#cause like genuinely?????????? god it's been on the mind#MINIMUM? him in drag. like I've thought about juniper in drag sooo much#and waugh REGGIE god he's such an icon like I've also been having thoughts about him in general and UGHHHHHHHHH#schell games 1 canon interaction it can be 1 line please#it'll sustain me for years#I've gotten this far off delusions (/j) please
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idk how i hadn't watched everything everywhere all at once until now, but holy shit thats one hell of a movie, i am crying rn.
the cross section of, maybe life is just laundry and taxes over and over forever but it's forever with you, and we have to be kind to each other, and just everything. i've been that kid that wanted so badly to just get away from it all, from everything that hurt so much, even if i had to die to get away. i've been there and god it hurts, and this movie got exactly to the heart of my emotions.
and then the base of the multiverse concept is just the kind of story i wish i could be living. you are special and important, and everything that's wrong can be fixed, and every single misstep and mistake you've made is not just necessary but makes you the one that will fix everything! it starts with this concept that everything matters, even if the life you're living is bland and cyclical, it's all important, it all led you here. but as our view is expanded we're challenged with this idea that nothing matters, that none of our decisions actually mean anything, that it'll all happen in a verse so who cares about any of it. and i don't exactly know which camp i subscribe to at this point. yea, maybe none of my decisions will ever effect anything enough to cause actual change, and maybe nothing i do matters, but you matter. the people right in front of me matter. maybe the rest can just be, and maybe if i can just look out for those i care about it'll be enough for me.
also, totally different note, but i love the foreshadowing of everything, of the cyclical nature of the world Evelyn lives in. the laundry, and he taxes, how Mrs. Deidre circles the one form with thick black marker just like the bagel.
anyways. go watch everything everywhere all at once.
#i'm not gonna do it#just so we're clear#i've gotten a lot better#and college is definitely helping me get some space to process everything#but i know i used to be in a far worse headspace#just with everything going wrong with the world at the same time my personal life was crumbling because of my father#i used to dream about where i am today#dream about getting out of that goddamned house#and i'm honestly kinda jealous that joy got to regain that connection with her mother and start to work everything out#i just wish that he'd recognize how much the shit he did hurt me#and actually apologize for it#anyways#tw suicide mention#everything everywhere all at once
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#seriously seriously one of the most beautiful pieces of music i have ever heard#i feel so conflicted thinking about this but i was always afraid to get more into shinee because of jonghyun#i remember the exact day he died when i was in high school and i remember feeling slammed with the news even though he was just guy from...#...clue + note to me and as i have gotten more into kpop in the past few years i have been there for all of shinee's comebacks from don't...#...call me on and i always kept them at a distance bc even though i thought they seemed so cool i was worried to get into them and always...#...feel like someone was missing. and now that my little sister has gotten so into them i have too#and it does feel like someone is missing all of the time and we watch so much content of jonghyun together that sometimes it hits me all...#...over again how unreal and bad it is that he isn't in the world with us anymore#i am so sad too thinking about how i almost didn't hear some of the most beautiful music out of the fear of grieving him#one of the most beautiful voices and i click with his words so so much#like he's my friend and i almost never got to know him :( and that thought it so much worse than the worry of having to miss him :(#it also makes me sick bc if it would have changed anything for him at all. he's still making so many people happy. he's still there for me.#i don't get this emotional every time i listen to him but sometimes it all hits me#music#Spotify
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tired :/
#work was maybe supposed to calm down this week and instead has gotten worse#one of the guys was like 'well i only got yelled at by one person in [] today!'#not even a guy i like very much bc he's always forgetting to do shit but i feel so bad.#if i could figure out how to balance things the yelling would decrease by like 90% but i haven't been able to#idk if it's even possible! but i feel like i should be able to
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I feel like I'm v academically smart but oh my god I am fucking hopelesssss at anything people related
#i feel so stupiddddd#like theres this cloud around my brain i cant c past it#i dont kno if im js easily confused or if im so scared 2 ask 4 elaboration/clarification i feel i need 2 js brute force my way thru things#that i havent fully understood#coz if i ask2 many times it js pisses ppl off#an then i dont get help. an they get annoyed an think im stupid. so we get nowhere#ughhhh#im js so terrified of annoying ppl i js dont do anythin#like @ all!!!!#iv become so fucking boring u wouldvt believe#all my friends manage 2 talk 2 new ppl so easily and can actually carry a conversation#every joke i make falls soooo flat#an every hi gets ignored#i dont talk abt myself enuf or i do it 2 much#or i have no fucking opinion#an dunno how 2 add 2 thr other persons#girl im hopeless#where did my socail skillz go.....#ive always had the fear im annoying sum1 but l8ly its gotten so much worse#i think coz of. the altercation w that 1 irl#UGHHHH#im always operating under thr assumptions he doesnt like me whenever im w him#an idk what 2 say anymore#is there a way 2 get better a socialising w/o annoying ppl or embarrassing urself#idk i think mayb if im more confident itll help#but. how the hell am i doing that chat#mannnnn#i dunno#ive got more 2 say but im gonna reach tag limit😭😭😭😭 goodby#rivers rambles <3
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love how my shitty health insurance chose THE perfect time to expire. just really impeccable timing
#pentababbles#it expired on november 1st out of nowhere#i was on my dad's health plan but he got a job with a separate health plan and forgot to renew his other insurance#i was supposed to be able to stay covered under united healthcare until 2026.#sure that would've only given me two more years but at least then i'd have time to plan what to do next#what's especially annoying is how much trouble i had with my insurance previously when i tried switching my pcp#and this happens to be THE time of year when i typically get sick#just this september i was hospitalized for a severe asthma attack/respiratory infection combo#which could've been prevented if i could've gotten my asthma medicine from my allergist sooner#but ofc i had to go thru a ridiculous snafu dealing with doctors and insurance just to get a damn referral#and literally on the day my insurance ran out i caught a cold.#i'm running low on my antidepressants and my asthma medicine already.#i have a little money in my savings for emergency so if worse comes to worse i can at least get my medicines refilled#but. i can't go back to the doctor for more tests bc it'll cost too much.#i only have a part time job as an assistant teacher. i only get paid hourly and it's not that much#even if i did get a salaried position at this job the insurance benefits aren't that great and the pay is much better#plus since i work with kids they're very germy so i'm always at risk of getting sick and having to go to the doctor#i don't want my insurance to be tied to my job but i need to get a better job anyways. so i can start digging myself out of this hole#i need to get my vaccines updated stockpile lifesaving medications and get a new job with insurance before jan 20#bc i need to survive. i need to outlive the empire no matter what#and i need to be there for my friends
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I can't believe there was a point in my life where I loved pique
#I will always have fondness for who he was/how I perceived him at that time#but it's so incredible how much I cannot stand him now#he's just like..... the worst???#i still think he was a great footballer etc etc and I still think all the 'iconic' things he did were indeed hilarious/iconic etc but yeah#his whole schtick has gotten old and he's gotten worse#gerard pique#fcb#barça#fc barcelona#barça legends
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Looks like I just lost another close friend to guy who isn't worth a pile of dog shit. 😊
#my best friend no less#i cried about this shit practically all afternoon but i'm all out of tears and now i'm just pissed off.#this shit has been going on for a long ass time but i've finally reached my breaking point with it#i love her#but she is delusional#and it kills me to say that#but that whole “relationship” (if you even want to call it that) is fake. all he cares about is money not her#the worst part is that she knows it too#oh but she “loves him” and “wants to give him one last chance” girl what the fuck?#oh but better yet he dumped her once 2 years ago already and i've hated his punk ass since#never should've gotten back tother after that and i told her as much even back then#all he does is make her cry#not do anything arount their town house#and sit on his ass and watch tv or sleep when he's not working#that's the tame stuff too i could say sooo much worse but i'm actually not trying to air her dirty laundry out her#i'm just pissed off#but suddenly IM the bad guy when tell her i won't support her or this “relationship” when she told me they were getting back together today#this is after i helped her and her parents ans brother move all her stuff out of the town house last Monday and back to her parents place#after she told me they were done for good#but IM the bad guy for bringing up all of fhe reasons listed above and all of the REALLY bad things about the relationship#when i tell her i won't be supporting her any longer and that i'll be walking away if she goes back to him#best part is her family agrees with me and they tell her all the things i say about him and then some#but when i go out on the line and put my heart down on the table for her and all i get back is a text saying:#“i don't really like how you're texting right now so we'll talk about this later.”#girl#i don't know whether or not i want to cry harder or strangle her#i think it's both#so yeah i think i just lost my best friend to a guy who doesn't remotly deserve her and everything kicks rocks rn#it's just like my other friend all over again#why do my friend have such dog shit taste in men
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Making my nonbinary watch RWBY and they are invested and also during season 4 they were like "how many people thought ironwood was going to be a bad guy when he was first introduced" and I had to sit there like 👀
#they changed their mind and now think that ironwood is a good guy and im sitting here vibrating like *spongebob face*#cuz ironwood totally DOES seem like a bad guy all the way up until the end of season 3#and then they pull the wool over our eyes#but they dont REALLY pull the wool. he is clearly unhinged during season 4#but he doesnt LOOK unhinged because he was Right. he knew what was coming to vale and he acted on that foresight#that puts him in direct opposition to oz who actually knew Way More and did nothing#and this fact only looks Worse after season 6 when you learn just how much more ozpin knew than everybody else#but Still decided to sit on his ass and let his kingdom get ransacked. and they havent even gotten to season 6 yet#the betrayal is going to be SO GOOD 😈🙏 just delicious
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the more i think about the 60th specials the angrier and more despondent i get. i actually wish rtd had never come back get him out of here
#seeing old stuff of eccleston vaguely talking shit on rtd and his cronies.. thinking about how badly written the specials were#not just in a storytelling sense but also politically. he somehow got so much worse#and he was already very dubious in his original run especially in regards to race and i am SCARED of him penning the first black doctor#uh. i just wish theyd gotten someone new who wasnt a piece of shit.#idk im just so nervous lol rtds writing has taken a nosedive into being absolute crap where he drops in little cancel culture lines#and shit like that and nonsense dictator of the planet doctor moments to quickly wrap up a problem and no critical analysis#of anything thats going on ever. its actually horrific#im sooooo so fucking nervous for s14 lol#peter capaldi save me (i need to rewatch 12 to feel better)#txt
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guys i keep thinking about loop and nameless bard being friends. they are. rotating around up there
#doodling their meeting wasn’t enough i fear#holds out my hands. i need to show you all the vision /lh#i think bard would be friends w sif too#actually would ven…#ven is just as emotionally shut tight actually 😭 beloved. he is very emotionally intelligent but like hell he will Say anything abt his#problems#how many times have we even Gotten to hear abt what’s bothering them#okay digressing#ven would get along with a lot of the party honestly ?? hed be so fond of mira#AND bonnie#okay okay anyways#i keep Saying it but like. loop and bard would enable each other so much#puts my head in my hands. do you think theyd talk abt their gods/universe …..#how their divinity upset them#how it went so wrong …#also why did i get on vens case like that 😭 bard i feel is like. even worse. good Luck getting him to show true emotions#<- voice of a guy who keeps thinking about bard telling loop theyre not that good of an actor (Very fondly mind you)#and loop. kinda. breaking over it#do Any of these make sense#i just think bard would try his damnedest to be there for loop and vice versa as loop warms up to him and finds another person to love#<- why do i keep going in depth over relationships and friendships over characters from two completely different series 😭😭😭#this is. not very spoilery yeah ?#lantern says stuff
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