#and him mentally abusing her

[versacherries]

i had to live one year in my mom’s shoes to forgive her and understand why she acted the way she did when i was little

[marzipanandminutiae]

reading Shirley Jackson's college love letters to her future husband is like watching the heroine go into the basement in a slasher movie

like. girl. I know he's also a big nerd, and probably sometimes takes breaks from incessantly criticizing and trying to change you, but I'm from the future and this relationship is going to suck until you die please dump his ass

(also speaking of dying, Just Say No To Mixing Barbituates and Amphetamines. yes, even if the doctor says it's okay. no reason. celebrate your hypothetical 49th birthday really hard I SAID NO REASON CALM DOWN)

[lesbianfakir]

Who would play who in a muppet adaptation of princess tutu? Tumblrinas I need our greatest minds on this

[deathbysports]

currently thinking of how abusive some hockey coaches are and how players are supposed to act like that sort of stuff is normal

[petrichorium]

pluvi begging you to expand on gojo not wanting what happened to his mother to happen to you 🙏

warnings: it’s all a dream so nothing is real aside from the flashback stuff but pregnancy as horror, (sewing) needles, implied gore/eye trauma, implied child harm, gojo is messed up yo!!! and its bc of his mama!!!

he dreams about her.

it’s an odd thing, really. gojo isn’t much of a dreamer—not much of a sleeper, all things considered, but it’s difficult not to give in when you drag him to bed and curl up in his arms. the soft rise and fall of your chest, the steady thump of your heart, the sound of your breath; it soothes him into slumber.

and he dreams about her. she was always young. he’s older now than she ever got to be. frail, thin; borderline skeletal, robes hanging from her body like webbing. she sits in a chair facing a window, swathed in moonlight, the silver of her embroidery needle glinting with each stab. her face is veiled. her stomach is swollen with child.

she doesn’t turn to him, but she beckons without noise. his feet take him easily to her, and he kneels at her side as she sets aside the embroidery hoop to let him place his head on her knees.

her hand is cold as it threads through his hair. it’s gentle, at first. then harsher a moment later. she grips firm, tugs him up by those electric white threads, stares down at him through all that elaborate lace.

he imagines she’s weeping beneath it. his mother never wept before him, but she was pretty in the aftermath, eyes puffy and pink and shining. they were a cold kind of loving when they regarded him. she must have been beautiful once, elegant and lithe and willowy, cruel like the heartless sea and sharp like a brilliant diamond, but whatever was there is long gone. he thinks all sons must empty their mothers, bleed them dry from within, because his was always a shell.

she trails her hand down the side of his face, and he turns into the palm and closes his eyes, and she is silent as she sets down her embroidery to lift her veil. she is silent and hollow and eidolic as her fingers brush down his jaw and tilt his head up to look at her.

but it’s your face that he sees when he opens his eyes.

it’s your hand against his cheek, your eyes pink and puffy and pretty, your stomach bulging by his own doing. it’s your fingers that pluck up the needle, still attached to a thread of brilliant cerulean, and raise it to his eye.

his mother never was able to pierce him with that needle. she stopped herself, each and every time, dropping it and tugging him close in shame. she never doted, never was kind, but she never did manage to harm him.

you do. he lets you. it’s only fair. whatever thing is in your stomach can’t be human—whether god or demon what does it matter, at the end of the day—and didn’t he put it in you himself? if his mother never got the satisfaction of spilling his blood, shouldn’t you?

but he wakes just as the tip pierces his iris, and you hold him in your lap, eyes wide with concern and not puffy from weeping, and you hold no child within you. your hands thread through his hair and they’re warm, your lips plush when you bend to press a kiss to his brow.

he turns inward to press his face into your (empty, blissfully vacant) abdomen. the wetness he leaves there, falling from his so very coveted eyes, is colorless.

he thinks it ought to be brilliant crimson.

[proudfreakmetarusonikku]

again considering how much my health has been fucking with my writing lately i doubt I’ll ever write it but like. man is dr. starline in the hypothetical bad end au sequel like. one of the absolute most despicable guys I’ve come up with. and that says a lot coming from me. the worst part is that it's all out of very bored pragmatism. he ruins at least five childrens lives in extremely horrific ways just to try and curry favour with his idol in a plan that’d never work in the first place bc he dehumanised those children so much he failed to consider eggman would be pissed at him if he broke his daughter into being the mindless obedient tool that starline assumes she’s meant to be or. y’know. drove her to suicide. which was his backup plan and something he got disturbingly close to doing. absolutely every horrific action you can think of a grown ass man doing to children who are at max fifteen (and at least one of which is single digits in age) he does them all and not out of spite or malice or even sick enjoyment. no he just wanted to curry favour with a guy who he had a parasocial attachment with and didn't even hesitate to do absolutely horrific awful things to actual children for status.

[kennyomegasweave]

If Nene thinks Rak and Kawi are evil because their dad has an evil nature, then wouldn't she be evil as well since he's her father too? Granted, he didn't raise her, but he also clearly did fuck all to raise Rak and Kawi.

Like her story is sad and Khem is obviously the worst man alive, but her mom was fucking delusional, and she just saw firsthand at the hospital how much he doesn't give a damn about Rak and Kawi. So like, babygirl, what are you doing here??? Besides acting a whole donkey.

(I know she's taking it out on Rak and Kawi, and even Orn, because of her mom. Her mom wanted Khem to love her and their child, but he picked his reputation his wife and their kids over her, which led to her losing her damn mind and then dying young. And Nene is clearly not ready to acknowledge her mom played a major role in why their lives sucked because she's dead and I get that, but still. You gotta get it together babygirl. This isn't the right crusade.)

[mischiefprincess]

I've been thinking a lot about Loki and Frigga these days, I don't think she's an evil, manipulative monster like some people but I do think she's a very flawed mother, from what we see in the movies she's very quick to justify and sugarcoat Odin's actions, Yes there's a deleted scene where she confronts him about Thor's banishment but it was deleted for a reason, in the movie itself we see her telling Loki that "there's always a purpose to everything your father does", she's always defending him, never her sons and that tells us a lot about the kind of mother she is, idk if it's bc she puts her position as queen above her position as a mother but she always stand by Odin's side no matter what.

Ofc we know she asks Odin not to kill Loki in tdw but that's just the bare minimum she could do, she always does everything thinking about pleasing Odin above all, she goes visiting Loki as a illusion, in secret to not anger her husband, when Loki is going through the trauma of finding out the truth about his adoption she never acknowledges any responsability for what she and Odin did, she justifies his lies agian by saying he lied to protect Loki

She doesn't acknowledge Loki's pain or his right to be angry at them, she tells him he's their son as if that's enough to heal his wounds, she doesn't ask for forgiveness and doesn't offer Loki any comfort bc her husband was taking a nap and she had to stay by his side at all seconds, it doesn't matter that her son had his whole sense of identity stripped away from him, holding Odin's hand was way more important than giving Loki a hug or anything else

I think at some moment Loki realized that she cared more about being Odin's queen than being their mother bc she'd never stand up for her sons and defend them from the abuses Odin put them through, she just kept justifying it bc she wouldn't dare going against her king, it must've hurt for Loki, realizing that he was truly all by himself in Asgard, he couldn't count on his own mother to publicly defend him from the humiliations he undoubtedly suffered, she would just sneak into his chambers and whisper some words of encouragement privately but when in public he was entirely on his own and he knew it

That's why I care more about Loki reuniting with his friends/found family than him going to New Asgard or to Asgard in the past, I have no doubts that he loves his family with his whole heart and he wants to see them again but I love the new family he built for himself in the show, he has Mobius who will defend him with everything he has and will be his emotional support, validating his feelings and genuinely listening to him, he NEVER felt like he belonged in Asgard but in the show he finally found his place, he found the people he belonged to (as stated by the crew) and he fought to save them for hundreds of years so there's no way I'd want him to leave his new home for him to go back to the place where he was mistreated, belittled and mocked just for being who he was, I want him to stay in the place where feels free to be his true self thank you very much

(Ofc that doesn't mean I don't want him and Thor to reunite again, I just think it's best for him to stay with the people he chose to be his family)

[swordmaid]

been thinking about how modern au hags would meet and -- my one belief is that shri'iia would be a sugar baby to the matriarch, and astarion would be in some shady relationship with cazador too, and what if they would've frequented the same circles but never meeting.

until one day shri'iia gets dropped with virtually nothing to her name and they end up meeting each other in some bar or something.

[princessofghosts-posts]

ToA: The Dark Prophecy Opinion (2/4)

I reached my goal for today and I only have 14 chapters left,so I think I can finish the book by tomorrow without a problem :D

I don't really have much to say about the quest to the zoo,it wasn't impressive and except Meg,who finally comes back with us (which I'm happy about),and Calypso going berserk on the net,nothing really happened.

I liked when both of them sang to the griffins,but we need to talk about the plot armor here. Apollo one second is weak and the next has a boost of powers like nothing happens. At least in the other books I don't really feel it that much,idk why in ToA is so obvious and annoying for me. He is the MC,of course he is gonna have plot armor. I can excuse Calypso a bit,because Britomartis literally forced magic in her body and then she fainted for a while because she couldn't stand it (is this....violation?). The idea that she can get her powers back is not really my cup of tea but ok- You gotta do what you gotta do to make the story go (and not necessarily is a good thing).

Apollo trying little by little to make Meg accept the reality for what it is,by making her mention Nero's name instead of addressing him "stepfather" is so sweet. It takes time to make a victim of abuse realize that the way they are treated is wrong,and Apollo recognizes that and tries to take little steps–which also helps Meg because she can't even hear Apollo speak ill of Nero at the moment,since she is too down the rabbit hole. Also,the way Nero took Peach away from her? Because "she didn't deserve it"? And Apollo analyzing the pattern in a psychological way? I was smiling so hard at that part. It's always nice to see these things acknowledged (No,I do not have a morbid obsession for these types of trauma,why are you thinking that?)

I find the concept of the Waystation a lot similar to CHB,with Josephine and Hemithea welcoming demigods and all,offering a real support system before letting them go once they want to or are ready. The thing is,while CHB fucked up,I feel like the Waystation is more secure and actually offer a good support system to its guests. Sometimes you don't need a thousand-year-old centaur (that can't do shit most of the time) but two moms to make everything work.

When Apollo stated that he murdered someone,and then proceeded to have a whole flashback about it and how he felt about that,made me snort. Apollo you are a God,multiple people died directly or indirectly because of you,and you are only now having a guilt complex about it? And it's about his former lover too (or closer to it-). Of course,he wouldn't feel guilty otherwise. Also,the fact that the book stated that,other than killing Commodus because he wanted to save Rome and the citizens,he also did it because "I could not stand to see my beautiful Commodus die by anyone else’s hands" ,the Yandere energy is stronger with this one.

Between,Meg was in her Harry Potter era by saying Commodus name like nothing,while everyone else until then tried not to. Also a good reality check for them,since by treating them like Gods,they will actually end up being Gods. And we can have that in this serie.

I liked how Apollo also had to go with Leo in another mini-quest,like he did with Calyspo before. Build dynamics and they are still a trio,since Meg was with them in both quests. I like how they rotate teammates.

I do have a lot to say about Commodus and his palace. First off,the dude is sick as fuck. I can pass on the animal cruelty because he is a villainous and bloody roman emperor, clearly obsessed with massacres and killing,but slavery too? Yeah,no,fuck that. I loved how Apollo specified that in ancient times he made sure to have a system to free the slaves and set them free. Also,his palace suck. Why the hell would you want sewer pipes in your throne room? Especially with how much you care about aesthetics and names?? Not to talk about the security system. You have your entrances protected by eldritch horrors but the inside is empty. He is a total bipolar too,one second he wants something and the next he changes everything. Alright bro- He might be worse than Calypso.

Anyway. They found Georgina,Festus and one of the hunters of Artemis too while snooping around. Georgina really took one look at Apollo and went all "You are going to die!". Nico would be proud of her for that. Apollo really can't catch a break,lol. And she then started screaming at Meg about Nero,idk if the Oracle said something about them to her or if she knew something,I'll know tomorrow. But at least what she said did confirm that Apollo will have to hear the Oracle,I can't wait to see how it will turn out.

The fact that Apollo can carry the whole throne on himself???? Also made me snort. Idk how to feel about that,but apparently the whole thing isn't that heavy. Even if it's a big chair made of carved wood. He also didn't have plot armor with his divine strength,so I don't even want to ask how he can lift it and then fight with it on him.

Meg literally hijacked the plan because she sensed Peach nearby (even if she didn't know that yet) and then proceeded to try killing Commodus while in the stadium. She is a mood. Shame that she didn't get him in time tho,I was cheering for her. The whole fight in the stadium is a bit of a mess between the cars and the animals,but I liked it. Especially when Apollo decided to go with the elephant while Meg crashed out and tried to get the emperor.

Then shit hit the fan and Commodus decided to join in. The fact that he can lift an entire car and throw it away??? Not cool- And according to Nero he should be the weakest among them,damn. It's gonna be hard killing him but I hope they will end him in this book. I don't really want all 3 of them to live until the end,then the final battle will be a mess (like last time with Gaia and the Giants-).

I was so happy when I read Thalia's name on that page,I called it! Unfortunately I'm pretty sure that after this I won't see her anymore because Riordan allows her only a brief cameo per serie. I don't really like the Hunters,but I really wish Thalia would be more involved in the narrative in general. She doesn't even need to be in the books with the whole cult,just her is fine. But nope. It would be too good to be true.

I also liked how Apollo sometimes still thinks about Kayla and Austin,especially when he recalled how sweet they were to him at CHB (no Will?? Why no Will???). Not to talk about Artemis. This whole book has him discovering a lot of things that his sister never told him and hides from him,and of course he is feeling bitter about it. But he still cares for her and most of the time thinks that she is the one coming to save him (like also in THO). They clearly have a strong bond. Wish he would say more about his mom too but we can't have everything.

Overall it wasn't as interesting as the previous part but it's still fine. There is still a lot to go,especially now that they have to defend the Waystation from Commodus forces. I do hope to see more of the Oracle in the end because we focused a lot on Dodona in the last book,while here it's barely mentioned most of the time. But I'll see for myself tomorrow.

[wordswithkittywitch]

Planning writing:

Hoo hee hoo, bad things are happening to my characters!

Actually writing:

Oh no, bad things are happening to my characters!

[daughter-of-lethe]

None of you is going to change the fact that Nesta always wanted Cassian.

"Let me pay tribute to my fav character by shipping her with Eris and being proud of that crackship" without realizing that this is the biggest insult to Nesta and her perfect character development ever. You're shipping your fav with a man she hated, stated she wanted to unalive, never felt anything for. A man she was groomed to get and that keeps be a bully.

Oh so you N*ris shippers support this? Shame

[kingcunny]

#watching curious case of natalia grace. adoptive father really trying to say a 6 year old with dwarfism is stronger than a 30 yo with lupus. i guess whatever helps ease your conscious about abandoning a disabled 8 year old!

[transvamp]

bg3 fans be normal about wyll and dont instantly discount his trauma challenge.

[iolesbookshelf]

Is it a coincidence that all my fav characters are in urgent need of therapy?