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"Im not trying to care for you as if it's an effort I'm trying to care in a way you need" AUGH WAAA Every conversation with Eaves tonight has had a moment that absolutely kills me I love him so much
#vaerna#i love our party with my entire heart and body#jalandri and eaves are so so special#and eaves and georgie making soup?#augh!!!!!#of course she wants him there!!!#shes scared hes mad at her#and hes scared shes mad at him!#slash lightly reductive
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I don't care what the hatman says I firmly believe Ahsoka is not describing Anakin as anything other than the most cringefail jedi ever.
When she finds out Anakin is Darth Vader? The same Vader she's been fighting against for a decade? The same Vader who's crimes she's had a front row seat for in the rebellion? Who killed all the friends and family she grew up with and is now also killing the new friends and family she's managed to scrape together in the ashes of everything she ever knew? Who puppets around the 501st, her and Rex's brothers, the men who trusted him with their lives, as nothing more than mindless murderers? Ohoho she wants him dead sooo bad. She takes 3 business days to process then comes back with full murderous rage unlocked. She's outside his evil lair banging pots and pans together telling him to square the fuck up, Master. Her Cain instinct is fully activated. Move outta the way old man, Ahsoka's going to do what she must and she's actually going to follow through with her words.
Obi-Wan's got the cornerstone on depression, Ahsoka's got rage covered, together they almost form one healthy grief response. (I'm imagining them both living at the same rebel base post O66 and the twins going between them for wildly contrasting takes on their dad lmao)
#she's hopping on the holonet and setting up bots to call darth vader a bitch ass little loser on every social media platform#this is her most important work as Fulcrum#also Rex too he fucking hates Vader for what he did to the 501st Ahsoka might eventually make peace with it all but he will fucking not#and thats so valid of him king#Vader being just a little proud of how good Ahsoka is when she duels him which just makes her even more mad because he has no right anymore#slightly scared cause this feels like a hot take in this fandom#ahsoka tano#darth vader#star wars
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Radahn designs + Headcanons
Lands between's biggest horse girl
#Elden ring#I like to think Ranni and Miq were friends because they shared a love of scheming while being cutie patooties#like they had sleepovers together where they would just surf the dark web#meanwhile radahn befriended Malenia by throwing her like a football until she wasn’t scared of him anymore#she’s like ‘radahn my arm fell off but look Miquella made me an arm that’s a sword’ and radahn spent the next 15 years begging#Ranni to make him a sword prosthetic for Leonard#Ranni is like ‘that’s Miquella’s job’ and radahn gets mad and calls her a shitty empyrean#rykard is left alone in the corner and is planning how he wants to get eaten by a snake
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An excerpt from a fic I’m writing:
“DON’T-”
The Red Hood turned toward her so fast, he hissed as he felt a sharp pain in his side. Oh right. He’d been shot. Twice.
“Touch that.” Jazz finished quietly. She strode over to his bedside and sat down, revealing a first aid bag. She waited until he nodded his consent to check his bandages and started to change them.
Shit that hurt. Her touch was light but a bullet wound was still a bullet wound. In an attempt to keep his mind off of what she was doing, he asked about the object.
“What is it?” She looked up. He nodded his head toward the… whatever it was. He could have sworn it had a faint green glow around it now.
“Oh that.” She resumed her work while she spoke. “It’s highly contaminated. One touch and your food will come alive and attack you for days until it wears off.”
Ooookay. Not what he expected to hear. And she was so nonchalant about it.
“Really?!” He asked incredulously.
“No!” She finished wrapping his side with new bandages and moved on to his arm.
“I just don’t want you to touch it.” She said with a mischevious smile, then resumed her work.
He chuckled at that, then winced at the pain.
“Careful. Don’t tear the stitches I put in. I won’t do it again.”
#danny phantom#dp x dc#dc x dp#dp x dc prompt#jazz fenton#dp x dc crossover#jasmine fenton#anger management ship#hardcover ship#jason x jazz#jazz x jason#she didn’t mean to scare him#he was about to touch a ghost zone rock or something#I haven’t decided what the object is yet#but it definitely causes ecto-contamination#and she definitely told the truth then lied about it#because she’s pretty positive he won’t believe her#she’s right#for now#red hood still has his helmet on#she wasn’t about to try to take it off until he was conscious#anyway still a lot to write#but chapter 2 is well on its way now#half to death and back again#brainrot is real and I’m mad about it
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all my pdh s2 doodles i need u guys to keep in mind i didnt know All That was gonna happen😭😭😭😭
#I FEEL SO BAD BRO HOW THE HELL WAS I SUPPOSED TO PREDICT THAT CRAZY ASS DATE#aphmau#phoenix drop high#aphverse#aphmau mystreet#ein mystreet#aphmau pdh#kai pdh#im not tagging everyone thats too much just jnow i love them all#SORRY KAIS HAIR LOOKS DIFFERENT IN EVERU DRAWING I COULDNT FIGURE OUY HOW I WANTED JT TO LOOK☹️☹️#U guys should have seen my face when ein was revealed to be Evil bro Jaw Dropped i was mad as hell like WTF WAS THAT#KAI ESPECIALLY THAT HURT SO BADD BRO I LOVED KAI I EVEN MADR HIM A FIGURE SKATER LIKE ME Like that was literally my Friend😭#ive geniuenly Ranted and written so much about this in my notes app i HATE how kai was treated at the end there Bro idgaf THEY LITERALLY#CHANGED HIS ENTIRE PEROSNALITY ALLL BHIS VALUES Mr ''learning about other people is a wonderful thing''Jessicaaa😞😞#I THOIGHT THAT WAS INTENTIONAL TO LIKE CONTRAST THE PREVIOUS SEASON LIKE WOW here's a guy that geniuenly Cares too ESPECIALLY SINCE#HE Gives her examples of things she's said in the past things specific to HER that he Knows in his MIND like a GOOD FRIEND!!!#IN THE SAME EPISODE!!!!!! AM I CRAZY LIKE ACTUALLY WHAT AM I MISSING HERE#Guys Om sorry i know he comes back in a later season of mystreet or whatever and is Weird but like im only on love lovenparadise rn i cant#deal wirh Whatever happens thats Seperate Ok im a Pdh defender exclusively#i have so many more thoughts but like im lowkey Done these have been in my gallery for so long i was too scared to post after finishing the#season but like whateverrrr sorry for rambling goodbue❤️#awesome
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I'm going feral again with a silly headcanon.
I just had that post on how Odysseus made Puzzles for himself and Penelope and I have another idea and I'm just really excited to share it lksdjf
I basically plan to have this man in love with Penelope within 10 mins (I HAVE A PLAN! It sounds crazy but I think it'll work. Plus these two are reckless and young when married. His first crush and he's not handling it well.)
This is them. Or at the very least Penelope is definitely playing it off very nonchalantly and is kind of messing around at first, thinking that the "trickster" is "not being genuine" when he's never been more genuine in his life. She can see right through all his lies and bullshit and basically forces him to be vulnerable, something he loves yet is TERRIFIED of. Especially as she "unmasked" him so quickly (and tricked HIM.😉 Won't say how. no spoilers yet) and so effortlessly and he's just a MESS. Athena isn't helping and just watches them both fumble around, even when Odysseus is asking for some guidance, Athena just smiles and is all like "I'm the Goddess of Wisdom, not of Love. Figure it out yourself." (PENELOPE IS JUST AS MUCH OF A BLORBO TO HER AS ODYSSEUS IS, YOU COWARDS!)
(Art by isei-silva right here on tumblr! Their post! )
I won't go into huge details. I WILL write this fic someday and I need to leave SOME things a surprise. But KNOW this man will be pulling out all the stops trying to impress her and tries to show all the things he's good at and one will be his "puzzle making".
He'll bring a puzzle to her TRYING to talk all "suave" (he'll be semi-tongue tied. Something that he's not used to and is annoyed that he can't seem to think around her)
It'll probably have a little gift inside and he'll be chatting away about how he worked hard to make it and that there's a trick to it and blah blah blah
Penelope: Oh! There's (some sort of treat or gift) inside!
Odysseus: Wait, you solved it already?
Penelope,🤨: Yes. All you have to do is this.
Odysseus, falling (more like sprinting at this point) further in love but also mad his plan to woo her didn't work: Well... Yeah. That's a gift for you.
He's trying SOOOO hard but he has to stop "showboating" to genuinely impress her. Man has to be fucking vulnerable for her to be impressed by him because she already can read his "tells" on when he's pulling something. No more "tricks". Be yourself, you fucking idiot >:D
#uygfidhsojhf I revealed a LOT already but I just??? I really love writing this man being a fucking mess and not knowing what to do#for once in his life. The man who “always has a plan” now DOESN'T know what to do and he's all feelings right now.#And Penelope has no time for tricks (unless she's the one pulling one). They've both met their match (in practically everything. Likeminded#remember?) and they're both excited and scared because#I'm a trickster. He/She is just like me. I desperately want this to be real but I know how good I am at tricking people. What if this is a#lie?“ BOTH have to stop ”tricking“ in order to truly bond. And then I get into the nitty gritty >:D#Like how Odysseus has to be vulnerable and sob about their bed to get her to believe it's him. They did the same in their youth.#It's a PATTERN for them at this point.#I love making this man simp and her realizing that this “trickster” IS genuine. This man actually loves her and that there's no “game”.#then it's HER turn to be a mess >:D#odypen#Mad rambles#shot by odysseus#my headcanons#Hi. I'm vibrating from excitement and I don't know what to do.
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One of the most iconic Soy Luna scenes if not the very best is the scene where Luna's all nervous about to declare her feelings to Simón only for him to basically cut her off and tell her he's in love w Ámbar
#like that scene has me in a choke hold even after all this years#i laugh so hard every time#like she really thought she could toy around w him and keep him as s second option and he would stay put through it all#after everything she “took” from Ambar that was so refreshing to see#like she was pining for him so hard the previous episodes and when he started talking I got scared bc he really didnt seem interested befor#and then the si... de Ámbar#ugghhh#the way her name scapes from his mouth and Lunitas face completely drops#simbar#soy luna#simon alvarez#the man you are#luna beson#ámbar smith#soy luna 3#(instered in Luna I mean)#like I was like if they used the little simbar moments for clout Ill be so mad#also iconic Matteo falling from the gate
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In My Closet
A short comic strip for the MAD!AU (This is just a concept! I highly doubt that this will end up being a series, but I'm too hyperfixated to just do nothing)
TWs for gore and suggested child death
Enjoy <3
#fnaf#fnaf au#fnaf 4 crying child#crying child#evan afton#chris afton#elizabeth afton#cw: gore#cw: death#mad fnaf au#I like to imagine that she just stands there in his closet#right before he actually passes out#and scares him awake#horror#tw horror#tw dead body
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oh yeah i do think freya found val. like that’s in my head 23/7
#the leftover hour is elena time#anyways I like to think that they thought he was sleeping in so Hans was like Hey Useless Kid go look for my heir#and vals always had breathing problems so she sees him facedown in bed and is like hey you know Hilda doesn’t like it when you do that#i think it scares her :(#come on man dads getting mad already#val#val wake up.#:3#og
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hey so do you think wtv keiko had to deal with growing up with yusuke could be considered a type of parentification
#god chapters where barely anything happens except a character's realization about things can be hard ...#im writing another keiko pov chapter and it's hard because well!!#keiko was never really a main focus in the series and as time goes on she gets even less of a focus so i have to fill in these spots#in her personality and views that aren't really explored. im taking a lot of liberties lets say#and idek if it's gonna read as in character cos of that#anyway im tryna say that like. pre series keiko was basically this presence in yusuke's life and he saw her as a pain but he cared#she was there to scold him and cajole him into going to his classes and she was his only friend#now we know atsuko was negligent and idk how involved the yukimuras were in his life but i feel like keiko#whether directly or indirectly was given this duty like you have to keep him outta trouble#you're smart you're mature he needs someone like you. this responsibility just kind of put on her before she can understand the weight of i#and she can't really comprehend that weight until it's abruptly taken from her. yusuke dies and there's no one to shepherd#i feel like keiko should get to be mad about this. this realization of the nature of their dynamic. keiko planning things around yusuke#who's never done that in his life. not because he's purposely being thoughtless but bc he was never the one to have to plan#to think about what their future looks like. he just kinda drifted along and keiko tried to do damage control. it wasn't fair#yusuke is keeping secrets from her she is scared of high school and that he'll die again without her knowing why and it's unfair#so she should get to be mad also because girls getting to be mad is one of my favorite things 👍🏼#the realization that yusuke won't be lost without her so she shouldn't hinge her life on the expectation that he will be#she worries about yusuke a lot i think. especially after he comes back from the dead. and i think kuwa's presence would help ease that#dread in her heart. it doesn't have to be just me. there's someone who can be there with him always and it doesn't have to be me#the guilty relief of not having to be the sacrifice. but kuwa doesn't mind so maybe it's okay this way#idk just rambles about my fic while i puzzle out how to word it#character analysis#yukimura keiko#yu yu hakusho
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Bail: *reading something for the Senate at his desk*
Fox: *comes slogging in*
Bail: Oh, hello love
Fox, faceplanting onto the couch: Helourhhghhhhdjdhfjgfh
Bail: Rough day at work?
Fox: Uhhhggghhgg, I don't even know where to start. First we get one suspect in and then the Jedi want to come and interrogate her, and then we get the Jedi murdering the suspect on tape, and then of course she is Skywalker's Padawan, and he comes in after Tarkin has been there-
Bail: *reaching for the comlink to ask Padmé if she has heard anything more*
Fox: - and he starts demanding to be let in because 'that's his Padawan' and he doesn't stop when I tell him that Tarkin said no, and then he gets mad and starts to threaten me if I'm not letting him in-
Bail: *eye twitching* what
Fox: - who does the think he is, who does he think I am? I cannot just jump from one order to another, if I did what he told me to then Tarkin would get mad and I would get hurt anyway, and now three of my troopers are dead and my head hurts and I want to slam it to a wall or something-
Bail: No, no, don't do that. I'm going to get you some water and painkillers, do you want a hug?
Fox: UughhhfhhfhhfhhhhHHHHHH yes
Bail: Of course, I'll just send this message
Bail: Padmé, I'll let you know that Anakin is not invited to our Garden Parties anymore until he stops being a Karen and starts respecting people who do unpaid labor. I'll sic Breha on him if he doesn't
Bail: Alright, c'mere
#Bail to Padmé: is this your man#id remember if Anakin and Padmé are having their relationship break at this point but she still takes him back so the point stands#I also firmly believe that Bail is the last person you want to make mad and if he gets mad you should be very scared#also if you go to the comments on the clip of that scene there are fucking i n s a n e ones there#one dude started to write his own fic to justify why he thinks fox sucks and some other comment called it 'fox derangement'#Imma start using that from now on#anyway Anakin has now been banned from Alderaan until he stops being a dick to retail workers#star wars#the cloner wars#commander fox#bail organa#bail/breha/fox
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i think i need to up limes "bully mochi" stat he needs to harass her more
#playfully harass*#hes too sweet to her i need to make him bully her more#not in a way that genuinely makes her mad but just slightly annoying#yoink her hat off#take the milk gallon out of the fridge but before you pour your glass press it against her lower back kinda shit#shes leaning back on a swivel chair? jump scare by yoinking the back of the chair down#hand on face after skin care routine#(oh you want [thing]? come get it) holds it 3 feet above her head#wash hands and then flick her with water#eventually she starts beating him with her brokmstick out of fustration#and then he has moments of extreme tenderness and it makes her so ????/?/???/?///
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#currently on the worst road trip of my whole entire life! well. i don't want to jinx it lmao but#today i popped TWO TIRES at once in the middle of the Katy Freeway in Houston TX (the widest highway in the US; 26 lanes btw)#managed to make it over to the shoulder without DYING but then had to sit there for like an hour? and panic called a tow truck because duh#I know how to change a tire but I was – again – sitting on the shoulder of the widest freeway on the continent so#anyway I called a tow; a guy showed up. I assumed it was the tow! turned out it was not. but he helped me put on the spare and then was lik#“follow me to my shop I can do the tires for you” and I was like okay! 👍 but then the ACTUAL tow called me and I realized this was#just a random guy (very nice up to that point but then I got scared about following him to a secondary location?) and so I didn't lmao#I just kept driving and didn't follow him but the guy on the phone was then mad at me because I wasn't where I said I would be because#AGAIN – I thought the original guy WAS the tow company that I called? but anyway guy 2 on the phone was like “YOU OWE ME $200!!!!”#and I said for what? also how would I pay you? and he tried to get me to cash app him lmao?? I didn't. I hung up on him#he called me like 6 more times yelling at me until I finally just blocked his number 💀#however NOW at this point I'm driving on one spare tire and one rapidly-flattening second tire and I still have 3 hours left to get where#I was going for the night and to top it all off I'm in the middle of a city I've only been to one time before? so I manage to get to a hote#like a nice-ish one where I'm like “okay if I get stuck here this won't be the end of the world”#because keep in mind today is a national holiday so basically everything is closed!!!! btw!!!!!#but eventually I'm sitting there and it's literally 100F outside and I remember oh right lol I have car insurance which pays for a tow#(a normal one; not a random one I panic-found on google who calls me screaming at me to cash app him $200)#so anyway I call my insurance and the guy on the phone is very nice and is like “it's okay; we'll have someone to you in 45 min”#and I'm like okay. OKAY. 🙌💪 I am a strong independent woman who is figuring this out and no longer on the side of the highway#but instead in a nice calm neighborhood and all I have to do is wait 45 min and everything will be okay#one hour goes by. I call back. get redirected to the tow company that was dispatched. guy says oh! is my guy not there yet?#I say no. he says okay – I'll have him call you. hangs up.#okay. 20 more min go by. guy finally calls me. says “I'm 20-25 min away” at this point I've been waiting about an hour and a half#I say. okay? okay. 30 more minutes go by. I try to call the guy back. straight to voicemail. three more calls. three more no answers.#I call my insurance back. sit on hold for 15 min. eventually get put through to a different person who's like “okay let me check on him”#get put on hold. eventually she comes back and says “okay he says 15 minutes” I've been waiting over 2 hours at this point. I have to PEE#I just... burst into tears. on the phone with this poor random woman from Geico Insurance. I'm bawling my eyes out.#she was trying to get claim info from me but I'm crying so hard she's like “oh baby no. okay. okay. we can get that from you tomorrow.”#when you cry so hard that even the insurance company is like “you know what we're just going to let this one slide”#anyway guy eventually shows up. he's very nice even though I hate him a little for being so late. he drives me to an OPEN TIRE SHOP
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November 30th, 1942
This is very much inspired by that post thats like 'remember how Bucky said he enlisted so Steve wouldn't worry about him'. I just couldn't stop thinking about Bucky getting his draft letter and being so worried about people worrying about him. This draws heavily from the lore developed in the chat with @bucknastysbabe , inculding but not limited to: Rebeccas food thing, George Barnes the WWI vet who died from a medical problem caused by his time in the amry, Steve and Rebecca being close, Ma Barnes being one of the kindest people in the world and a midwestern girlie...etc etc. Sources for the bits of research I did for this fic are here and here.
November 30th, 1942
In 1942, on the Monday after Thanksgiving, Bucky got a letter. He saw it when he got home from the docks, slightly crumpled between Rebecca’s algebra and geography books on the kitchen counter. It had gotten a little damp in the mailing process and was stuck to the front of a letter to his mother, from her own mother back in Iowa. He didn’t think too much of it-he was too exhausted to think much of anything. Unloading crates from ships was far from the worst work in the world, but it sure did zap his energy and fill his sinuses with dust and dirt and smoke. Some of the old timers-guys who claimed to remember striking for a 5 cent raise-liked to joke that pretty soon ‘pretty boy Barnes’ would get to know the sort of back pain that went hand-in-hand with a lifetime of hauling cargo, and that would trump exhaustion every time.
Bucky always laughed it off. They were just joking around, and he’d take any ache in the world if it meant being able to take care of his family, anyway. Even if his Ma kept bringing up trade schools that weren’t too far or too expensive, and Steve was champing at the bit to join the military, Bucky was fine right where he was. He was just fine in the apartment he grew up in, working hard, flirting with the girls running telegrams in the harbormaster's office, walking Rebecca home from school when he got off in time. He got fantasy novels from the library with Clark Gable knights and Lana Turner princesses on the covers; He boxed on the weekends and was always a good sport; He caught Rebecca in the short hallway connecting their bedrooms every morning and gave her a noogie; He went to the cinema with Steve when they both had a little change in their pockets and flicked popcorn kernels at each other like they were kids.
All that to say-Bucky was doing perfectly fine. He wasn’t raring to make a name for himself or see some great bloody glory. He definitely wasn’t interested in signing up for the war. The picture of his father on the mantel, clean shaven in an army uniform from twenty years ago, kicked the sense back into him whenever he thought about it. If the photograph of the man Bucky could barely remember didn’t work, the urn next to it surely did.
And all of these things were reasons why, when he unstuck the damp mail from his sisters schoolbooks, the bottom just about dropped out of his stomach. The ink was a little smeared from getting wet, but still perfectly legible: for him, with the selective service system logo stamped right on the front.
It was like the entire apartment tilted, rocked like a seesaw and threw him completely off balance. Without even thinking, Bucky stuffed the letter into his pocket. He didn’t want to look at it, think about it, deal with it. Whatever it said-as if there was any question as to its contents-he would worry about later. Preferably not standing in the middle of the kitchen in his grimy work clothes, whale eyed and frightfully pale.
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The letter remained stuffed deep in Buckys pocket until after supper. Bathed, comfortably full and bone deep tired, he was usually out like a light after working a full day. But instead of passing out underneath the quilt-a gift from the elderly widow two floors up, after he’d spent the summer of ‘35 bringing up her mail and groceries and painting over the water damage on her kitchen ceiling-he fished the letter out from the pants strewn on the floor and just…held it. Looked at it. Turned it over, looked at where his address had been smudged a little by the damp. It was definitely for him; no mistake there. His full name was right there on the address line, middle initial and everything.
Maybe it was completely mundane! Every guy had to sign up for selective service-tons of them probably got letters about misspelled words or unchecked boxes. Maybe he’d written something down incorrectly back when he had filled out the forms. 18-year-olds were stupid, after all, and he probably hadn’t been paying that much attention to the information he was putting down. That was most likely it; He’d put his birthday down as October 3rd instead of March 10th by accident, or initialed something that was supposed to be a signature or vice versa. So what if it’d been four years since he filled out that paperwork? Tiny errors like that were probably pretty low priority for the selective service, especially after America joined the war.
He was just going to open the letter and see what they needed him to fix or resign.
He opened the letter. He read it once, then twice, then three times.
There was no problem with the paperwork he’d filled out at 18.
He didn’t need to resign any forms or recheck any boxes.
He did need to report to the local selective service board the following Tuesday.
Oh. Oh fuck. Oh fuck.
Buckys first thought wasn’t ‘I don’t want to join the military’. It wasn’t even ‘I’m scared’. Buckys very first thought was for his family. He couldn’t be in the military! He was an important part of the household! The Barnes had only recently edged back into a relatively comfortable financial situation because of the combined incomes Bucky and his Ma brought in, and someone had to be around to look after Rebecca-as much as she’d protest and whine that she was 16, she didn’t need to be looked after-when their Ma couldn’t. Someone needed to haul Steve out of fights and into dance halls, because yes, Steve was as good as family, would’ve been even if Rebecca hadn’t declared he had ‘adopted brother rights’ years ago.
Buckys second thought was ‘I don’t want to join the military’, because he didn’t. He’d never wanted to, never even seriously entertained the idea. There had already been a Barnes man in a war and it had destroyed him; robbed a good man of his peace and his health, robbed Buckys mother of a husband and himself and Rebecca of a father. Hell, Rebecca had never even met their father-he had died two months before she was born. A couple of old photographs, a ceramic urn, and a watch and wedding band with no hand to wear them were all she knew of the man.
It made Buckys stomach turn to think about leaving his family for the thing that had put his father in the grave before 40.
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The next morning he started to think. He couldn’t tell his Ma he’d been drafted-he certainly couldn’t tell Rebecca or Steve. They’d all worry too much for him. The downside to having loved ones was that as much as you loved them, they also loved you. And loving someone meant worrying for them when they were about to get scooped out of their life with less than a months notice.
It’d be less worrying if he'd just enlisted, if he had made a choice, even a rash, ill-advised one. At least that would imply he had some sort of excitement or confidence in joining the military. At least that would imply that he was ready, that nobody needed to worry about him because Bucky himself wasn’t worried or scared or hesitant.
That was the thought that he chewed on all day. Chewed on it so much, in fact, that he barely chewed anything else, including his supper. And that was strange behavior for Bucky.
“What’s wrong with you?” Rebecca had asked him. It sounded incredibly blunt, but to be entirely fair, she had first made a frantic gesture towards the peas on her plate with her head-because Rebecca was not eating peas that week, and if she could switch their plates without their Ma noticing she could avoid a stern look and a ‘clean plates club’ lecture-and then kicked him under the table when her head tossing got no response.
Their Ma was looking at him, too. If there was one thing the Barnes siblings were, it was chatty, and although Rebecca had been blathering on about how a girl in her geography class had gotten in trouble for wearing lipstick, Bucky had been almost entirely silent. And he’d barely touched his food even though he wasn’t on the same legume strike as his sister.
He shrugged, trying to play it cool, casual and calm. He took a bite of his food-the peas were fine even if they came from a can, because their Ma was an excellent cook. Rebecca was just weird about food sometimes-to give himself time to think.
He settled on “I can’t walk you home next week.”
Rebecca sighed in that ‘God, you’re all so uptight and dramatic’ way that teenagers do. “I don’t need you to walk me home. I’m not a kid, I know how to get home from school.”
Their Ma gave him another curious look, though. “Did you make plans?” she asked. “With Steve? With a girl?”
She didn’t sound upset, just…curious. It was odd, after all, for Bucky to not want to walk Rebecca home. He tried very hard to align his hours at the docks with her school schedule. It was important to him, to make sure she was safe and that nobody bothered her.
“Sort of.” He replied.
He knew that wasn’t a very good answer, and his Mas face reflected it. He’d never in one million years chose some dame over his sister, and Steve was as good as Rebeccas second brother. He was more likely to just join in on the walk than make plans over it. Hell, half of the time they did things as a trio-things like pooling Christmas and birthday money to go to Coney Island, an outing upon which the then teen boys had ridden the Cyclone, Steve had vomited into a public trash can, and Rebecca had proven that she was somehow remarkable at darts despite never having played before in her life.
His Ma raised her eyebrow. God, he was bad at lying, bad at keeping secrets, bad at misleading people.
“I-” He met his Mas eyes for a moment, took a deep breath, steeled himself. “It’ll be a few days next week, actually. I enlisted and I’m reporting to induction on Tuesday.”
The world didn’t end once he said it. A small part of him-the part that reminded Bucky he hadn’t lied to his Ma since he was 17 and she asked if he had cigarettes in his bedroom, and even then he’d come clean about two hours later-had expected something huge and dramatic to happen. Maybe both his mother and sister would drop their forks and snap their heads up, maybe a police siren or fire alarm would go off somewhere nearby, maybe lightning would strike the building.
But none of that happened. Rebecca continued pushing her food around her plate. “No you didn’t.” She scoffed.
Their Ma didn’t dismiss his statement as a joke, but her expression was difficult to read. “You did?” She asked, her voice stern and level.
Bucky kept going. In for a penny, in for a pound. “I was just thinking about it and it seemed like a good idea. I stopped at the recruiting center last week. I…”
He trailed off. This wasn’t a perfectly thought through lie, but it felt like a necessary one.
“Yeah.”
Rebeccas fork actually did clatter to her plate once he finished talking. She looked up at her brother, agape with bright pink spots at the high points of her cheeks.
“You’re fucking joking! You can’t just leave!”
“Rebecca Grace!” Their Ma snapped, though it was clear that her heart wasn’t in it.
Rebecca shot up from the table, her eyes-bright blue like Buckys, like their late fathers-welling up with tears. “No! You can’t leave, that’s not fair!”
With that she stormed off, the slam of her bedroom door in the small apartment sounding like a gunshot.
Bucky swallowed and looked down at his food. He wasn’t hungry anymore.
“James.”
He looked up at his Ma. Guilt immediately began to eat at him. Guilt for the lie, guilt for having to leave them, guilt for everything his Ma had been through and would go through in the future.
“What branch?”
He swallowed again. The guilt was crawling up his throat like vomit. He wanted to admit it was a lie, to say he was scared and didn’t want to go and didn’t know what to do. But there was nothing to be done. All he could do was help the people who loved him to not worry so much.
“Army. Like dad.”
She raised her eyebrows. They barely ever spoke about George Barnes military career. Not to say that they never spoke about Bucky and Rebeccas father at all-he’d been the love of their Mas life, she had plenty of stories about him. But they didn’t talk about his time in Europe. Bucky had always gotten the impression that his father hadn’t spoken much about his time in Europe when he was still alive, anyway.
“Your father was drafted. He didn’t choose the army.”
He shrugged.
She sighed and put her fork down, picked it back up, put it down again.
“I don’t-” She sighed again. “I can’t tell you what to do. You’re a grown man and you get to make your own choices.”
Bucky didn’t feel like a grown man at that moment. He felt like a little boy trying to convince his mother that he wasn’t afraid of the dark.
“Do you genuinely want to join the military?”
The earnest concern in the question was what broke him. He took a very deep breath and met his Mas eyes, blue on brown. She had asked like there was any changing it. Even if he had voluntarily enlisted, he wouldn’t be able to do anything about it after the fact.
“No. I-I…the letter came yesterday and I have to go on Tuesday and I-.” Bucky cut himself off, feeling something far too much like tears in his eyes, something far too much like a sob beginning to choke up his throat.
“Jamie, sweetheart…” She stood from the table and opened her arms to him, a hug that he gladly accepted. Three inches taller than his mother or not, 22 years old or not, there was nothing more comforting than his Mas embrace.
“It’ll be alright, Jamie.”
By god, he hoped so.
#my writing#bucky barnes fanfiction#rebecca barnes#winnifred barnes#bucky barnes#bucky barnes fic#I made myself sad multiple times writing this#height ref: winnifred barnes is Yuylia Aug who is 5'9 and sebstan is 6'0. three inch difference. also in the chat lore george barnes is#alain delon and rebecca is katie mcgrath#it all makes sense dont worry about it#rebecca barnes your personality is entirely made up but I love you#also I KNOW he was born in 1917 so 25 in 42 not 22 but. listen guys fucking listen.#Once upon a time I gaslit myself into thinking his bday was 1920 so thats just how it is in this fic.#we're all gonna have to make peace with that#I love rebecca I love her and buckys relationship#she is 16 and moody and scared to miss her big brother even more scared of losing him#still mad about endgame bc what steve just left rebecca and her mom hanging like that??? thinking bucky was dead??? never spoke to them ?#no#not my steve rogers he wouldnt. he told becca about the donner party when she was 6. he saw her cut her own bangs when she was 12#she's family he wouldn't leave her hanging like that#cross posted on ao3
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Where Did Alisa’s Dad Go?
Mr. Ortega is in one scene in the first book. He is mentioned by Alisa one or two other times in the first book, and then NEVER TALKED ABOUT AGAIN. Like??? Avery gets his phone number???
Also- in the final gambit, does NO ONE think to inform him that his daughter’s been kidnapped? Alisa doesn’t canonically have siblings, but her dad is IN AVERY’S CONTACTS. You have time to threaten Mr. Laughlin that you’ll burn a maze down (how does she expect to find people without Alisa?) but you don’t have time for a quick call to a probably worried father?
Maybe Nash or someone told him, but I find it HIGHLY unrealistic that he wouldn’t come banging on the door to help get his daughter back.
In conclusion- justice for Alisa and her father.
#alisa ortega#mr. ortega#avery grambs#the final gambit#the inheritance games#literally where is he though#Give Alisa someone who doesn’t have conditional love for her my god#is the trauma she must have had from being kidnapped ever shown?#NO#Just let the Ortegas be happy#jeeze#Nash if you didn’t tell him I’m so mad#Avery’s literally like “Nice you’re not dying but probably are shaken up and scared after being kidnapped because of me#this is a GREAT time to threaten your job”
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My current favorite Ward headcanon that is absolutely untrue to everyone but me is that Florence Vasil gets along so well with Foil and Parian
This is mostly just because she likes frilly goth tea party dresses and so does Parian. But it is also because Florence is the most nightmarish Vasil and I think there's a lot of comedic potential pairing her with the least nightmarish undersiders
#the other vasils are mad because sabbah and lily are all nice but a little bit scared of them but not of Florence who is way scarier#alec deus ex machina resurrects just so he can get into an argument with foil about how she hated him but loves his freak sister
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