#and he was like ''isn't it kinda weird though like they're really feminine but they have a beard which is usually masculine?''

[gender-euphowrya]

my therapist telling me i'm his point of reference when he deals with other trans patients

[prince-liest]

Ok so I know you haven't officially trans anyone's gender in any of your Hazbin fics, but I lowkey get really trans vibes from Alastor in most of your fics?

Idk, it's a little hard go explain but what really tipped me off was his... distaste? Disfavor? Aversion? To his "male body" in one of the 666 fics. (I think the line was something akin to "the male body being what it is" in reference to Alastor getting hard fairly quickly).

There's honestly a lot of interesting things to speculate in relation to how Alastor views his body. Especially with his relationship with touch, and how he initiates touch and how he actively dislikes it (depending on the person).

Not to mention his feelings regarding his non-human features. How he doesn't inherently dislike them for being what they are, or rather, that they're "abnormal", but more so that they're not what they're "supposed to be", and not "what he was before" (though I do think that his dislike of his deer features is linked to his dislike of how he died, being viewed as something so easy to be put down - an animal).

Which also relates to how dressed Alastor constantly is. How he shields away his body using clothing, a customizable thing that he takes great pride in making sure is up to his standards (notice how when his coat is damaged he immediately goes to get it fixed, even though the ends of his coat is already damaged. He seems to have very complex opinions on how, exactly, his coat is supposed to be damaged)

I do think that Alastor's preference to being so dressed is linked to his dislike of vulnerability, but I also think it's a very trans(tm) move, lol.

(And I also do think that his dislike of vulnerability is tied to his transness, kinda in a weird "chicken and egg" scenario.)

I find it really interesting how Alastor's true feelings are revealed by his shadow, a being that can transform to look different, is mostly hidden, and is internally mysterious. Idk, it's just very trans(tm) to me!

I also think that Alastor's transness is linked to how he views masculinity, how he seems to automatically like woman, while automatically disliking man. How this is also tied to his parents. I've noticed in your fics (and could be completely wrong about) that Alastor seems to relate femininity (and his mother) with "safety" (how he compares the gentle touch in your last fic with feeling like his mother and his like of jambalaya).

I'm not sure if I would say that Alastor is a trans woman, but I also wouldn't say he isn't. Overall I think he has a very complex view of gender, but it's definitely something he doesn't put a lot into. Which relates to him not knowing what asexuality is.

I have a lot more Alastor trans thoughts, but this ask is already getting pretty long so I'm just gonna cut it off here. I hope I made sense, and that you're comfortable with me speculating on a character you've written about gender. (Totally valid if you're not though! If so, then please disregard this ask!)

I'll take "asks that made me realize I'm out here accidentally writing a character as nonbinary" for 300, please! Please prepare yourself for the mistake of letting me have a keyboard and talk about gender after 9pm, so sorry to literally everybody else.

You're gonna get a real fuckin' kick out of the first bit of the next 666 that I'm gonna post tomorrow. ;) It's definitely the point where I finally acknowledged to myself that I have a strong urge to inject some genderfuckery into Alastor in the form of him continuing to use his thing with Vox to explore his own relationship with, like, existing in his own body, and then also threw those feelings all over Angel Dust like a fistful of glitter while I was at it.

Like you said, I wouldn't say that I've ended up writing him as a trans woman, but I think I have seen him from the start as a character who is not exactly cis in a wibbly-wobbly way I have not previously defined but that I think I would perhaps characterize as "gender: monster condescending to play at humanity."

I don't think he eschews masculinity entirely, for what it's worth. He definitely strikes me as a person who aligns himself with the image of a smiling gentleman (if a hellish one) as the proper way for a person like him to be, and for whom that is an important, comfortable, and satisfying part of both his identity and how he relates to both his female friends and to men. However, he also strikes me as someone for whom that part of his identity is what he shows the world on purpose, presented as he would like it to be seen, rather than as something that reflects his bodily preferences. To put it another way, if he'd been AFAB, I think he would put just as much into his presentation, just in the direction of femininity, and it wouldn't make him any more or less comfortable with himself.

You're right in that I've definitely written him with a faint distaste for the mundane physical reality of his body, and a lot of this comes through in how he alternates between short moments of fascination with what new things his body is doing as he explores it and decides whether or not he likes it, and his much longer moments of utter disregard for the same thing. It also extends to the rest of his mundane humanity, though: his physical limits, his adrenaline-rush of fear, etc. He values the coat, the cane, the reality-bending static, the smile - but whatever he sees in the mirror when he gets undressed or whatever doesn't function to his purposes, he can take or leave.

I see Alastor as someone who defines himself first and foremost as the radio demon: not a person, but a monster and an enigma. A voice and a personality. Everything else is more or less incidental, and he would prefer to keep it set aside, thank you. The occasional dysphoria isn't just about his sex, it's about the humanity of his body as a whole.

[victimsofyaoipoll]

Round 1

Propaganda Under Cut

Safu

I am adding my vote because the yaoi may be canon in this one but Safu is still Shion's best friend and the way ppl leave her out of stuff sucks ass. Her character development was the ONE thing the anime had over the novels and manga but even the anime only fans won't look at her. She literally said "I want your sperm" out loud with her mouth in a train station to ask her best friend to date her. Weird girl extraordinaire who became bee jesus people need to stop sleeping on her for the guys.

She has a crush on Shion and makes it quite known She also asked for Shion's semen once

Neurodivergent queen! She autismed her way through puberty so hard, she thought her feelings for the protagonist Shion were purely sexual, until she spent time away from him to grow as a person

Annabeth Chase

I feel like fandom is kinda split on her with percabeth shippers loving her but any m/m shipper I've seen does not like her, really. She is my bae tho <3

Percabeth antis grind my gears so much because they never hate Percy, nono, even though he's arguably done more questionable stuff than Annabeth. Not everyone who hates her is doing so because of a mlm ship— the Perachel stans claim that Annabeth is a misogynist. However, basically everyone that isn't trying to ship her boyfriend with Rachel is trying to ship him with Jason, Nico, or her old friend Luke. They make her out to be this horrible abusive girlboss(derogatory) that she's simply... not. She doesn't insult Percy for having ADHD just because she's highly intelligent. She doesn't physically abuse him, and doesn't lay a finger on him outside of training. She's really devoted to him in a non-anti-feminist way. They just hate her for 'getting in the way' of Nico's convoluted attraction to Percy, or Jason's close friendship with him, or Luke's rivalry with him. But those relationships all flourish the way they were intended by the author: non-romantically. It's not Annabeth's fault for being intelligent or capable or jokingly snide or determined or any of those non-stereotypically-feminine qualities. She's just out here existing and people hate her for not being a man. Sorry for the rant.

She's canonically in a relationship with Percy Jackson for most of the books they're in, but he often gets paired in canon with other male characters, such as Nico di Angelo or Jason Grace. In fan fiction (especially yaoi focused ones) she's characterized as being a stuck up know it all, but she gets into plenty of shenanigans in canon and can be pretty goofy and sweet!

I think I may have accidently used fanart for Annabeth's picture, if you have official art of her, send it in!

[floralovebot]

isn't helia kinda meant to be respresenting of diversity in the specialists group? in winx you got tecna with short hair or musa with a tomboy style (both discarded in later seasons, too bad), even aisha with her sporty side.

helia to me is like that but on men's version. he's pretty, he likes art and he got luscious long hair, obviously gonna stick out in a school of martial artists that wield weapons and kill monsters.

but he's still a man that kills monsters, like musa wears cute fairy dresses.

he's like that one character that is just different but at the same time the same. in like tecna and musa, in the series they got rid of his artistic side and more quiet personality to the point I even saw him trying to punch riven for imitating a werewolf (but mischaracterization of season 3 onwards aside).

he's obviously showing that men can be pretty much straight and masculine but hace attributes that feel androgynous. you don't need to guess his gender or orientation outside fans' headcanons or little oc universes. helia is the same as his friends with a more refined design that adds more diversity.

he's pretty, got a pretty girlfriend, likes to draw, he's head over heels for his girl, flora is his muse, he loves his grandpa, he can lead missions, he's a skilled fighter, he's levelheaded and he enjoys the quiet.

exactly! like i really do not understand why this is such a big issue for some people. if tecna can be less traditionally feminine without anyone questioning her canon gender, why can't the same be true for helia? and again, absolutely no issue with headcanons (as long as they're respectful and not offensive)! but the rumor that he was supposed to be a girl is just so ?? like who said that. give me their number NOW alhgd

even though most of the specialists now fit into one neat little category, there was still diversity! timmy wasn't as buff, he was more sensitive and emotional, etc. he got buff in the third season, but at least his personality stayed. and just like they made flora latina to add diversity to the winx, i think they made helia Very Noticeably asian to add diversity to the specialists. nabu added racial diversity too but then they killed him so

but anyway yeah, even disregarding race and just focusing on personality and interests, helia was meant to be a better fit for flora which means he's not going to be a super nasty macho man. obviously. her type is sensitive, emotionally cognizant people who don't explode every five minutes (sorry flora/riven likers). and when designing him, they were pretty clearly inspired by shojo anime/manga. and Again, long hair on men isn't a "weird" or Strictly Feminine thing in the winx universe. like i'm saying dude people are weird as shit to Helia Specifically. like this doesn't happen to timmy or tecna. it's Him.

[kitpanthera]

haters can't stand to see me pondering ‼️ (thanks so much for the previous response! again, no pressure to respond to all of these, this is just what i've come up with since seeing your response 🩵)

1. you mentioned dipper's dad not liking that he got into gymnastics -- is that because he views it as a woman's sport? is this where dipper gets his weird relationship with masculinity and needing to be perceived as a man despite being 12? (would love to see him unpack all of that at some point) also, bill teaching dipper more about how to be a man than their father ever did???? (someone cooked here)

2. are there any physical side effects of dipper using magic? i'm thinking something along the lines of his fingers turning black, or his hair changing color. just a physical sign to signify that he's messing with things normal humans don't (even if it's only visible to other magic users). or even something like that for possession? you said his eyes are bleeding but does he experience anything else (even if bill isn't doing it to him -- more just something that happens from the physical toll of being possessed)?

3. does mabel actually realize how serious the situation is with dipper and bill? obviously the adults are probably going to have a better idea of why an interdimensional demon that's been alive longer than we can conceive hanging out with and befriending a child in order to use them is Bad, but i'm not sure if mabel realizes that beyond just knowing he's not a good person who's turned dipper's preteen angst up to 15.

4. will dipper ever interact with other human magic users? does he practice magic differently since he learned from a demon rather than another human?

5. i know i've asked a lot around the subject of their family. i am just,,, so upset about how literally every adult in dipper's life has failed him. have any of them realized how bad it is (besides ford, though i think he still has a narrow view of it since he's basing it on his own experience with bill)? has anyone realized how the pines parents are favoring mabel over dipper? i'd like to think that, on some level, mabel knows, but she's also known to be short sided (the curse of being 12!).

6. what's the axolotl up to? will the audience and/or dipper see him again? i can't imagine he's terribly pleased with how things are going right now.

7. Is there anything you'd like readers to ask more about/read more into?

as soon as i submit this, i'm sure i'll think of more. thanks so much for the responses! :)

Do all the pondering, screw the haters

1. Yeah, so Dipper's dad is definitely the "man's man" type. They put him in gymnastics as a kid because they thought it would be cute, but when he started being really into it, his dad freaked because he didn't want Dipper to be into such a... well, he didn't perceive it as feminine, per se, but more so kinda... wimpy, sport. Dipper always took it that his dad thought it was feminine (they encouraged Mabel to stay in gymnastics, but she didn't like it), so he has always felt the need to prove himself to him as a man, until Bill came along and became the new "man" to look up to, and had standards Dipper could fit while being himself.

2. Any physical manifestations will show themselves soon :)

3. Mabel is somewhat aware, seeing as she's read Journal 3 pretty much cover to where it stopped off. She knows Bill is dangerous enough for Ford to call him dangerous. More on Mabel's thoughts will be explained in the mini-novella I release between books 1 and 2!

4. Well, he doesn't practice the same type of magic in the same way that other humans do, so it differs a lot. Whether he'll interact with other human magic users is yet to be seen :)

5. There's kind of a reason why their parents are black sheep in their own families? In their own ways, they both suck, and the twins (especially Dipper) find themselves unfortunate victims to that. Neither of them notice what's going on because they're too absorbed in their own selves. Stan wouldn't know because he's not there, and Dipper hasn't talked to him about it. I honestly don't even think Mabel really notices, either, not really. She has it bad, and doesn't realize he has it worse.

6. We will see the Axolotl again, he's watching and waiting :)

7. Literally anything from any chapter, I've put so much effort into subtlety in this story, so many details I hope people will find, and I feel the things I omit are just as important as the things I put in! As well as the little seemingly random details, I haven't forgotten about the slowly expanding cabin in the Mindscape :)

[11queensupreme11]

Your favorite and least favorite things about ror and pjo?

PJO

favorite things:

pretty much the entirety of the first series!

i love how rick was able to perfectly (imo) entertwine the ancient greek world with the modern world

i especially love how most of percy's journey was similar to the ancient greek heroes' journeys in the myths

THE FACT THAT PERCY REJECTED GODHOOD TO TRY AND GIVE DEMIGODS AND MINOR GODS A BETTER LIFE HE'S SO SWEET I LOVE HIM OMG

no seriously, i LOVE how instead of being selfish and becoming a god, he tried to actually fix the root of the problem so no other child would ever go through the same things his generation of demigods went through THATS HOW YOU END AN OPPRESSIVE REGIME, I'M PROUD OF YOU PERCY

everything about the last olympian. he writes war and battle SO well, my heart was literally pounding throughout the whole book!!!

the character deaths.... they gutted me, but they were executed so well

least favorite things:

the gods weren't very similar to the mythical counterpart.... like how pjo!poseidon was a chill, mostly nice guy whereas in the myths he was a rapist psycho.... and how pjo!ares was implied to be abusive towards clarisse whereas in the myths ares respects women and killed his daughter's rapist (tho i get why he couldn't do that since this is a kid's book)

the entirety of heroes of olympus 💀

no seriously, i didn't like any of it

the lost hero and the son of neptune were okay, but after that things started getting messy. probably because of how many main characters he had to write about

the plot was very very.... weird??? especially around the part where they were looking for the physician's cure. a side quest took up a major chunk of the book

BLOOD OF OLYMPUS WAS SHITTY OMG

the final battle against gaea was so lame!!!! the seven weren't even fighting here, only a few of them were!!! the fact that piper was able to put her to sleep too even though rick literally wrote a list of ways charmspeak would fail AND GAEA CHECKED EVERY ONE OF THEM???? yet piper succeeded anyway???

no seriously, i was expecting the last olympian kinda shit in blood of olympus, but i got NOTHING

rick's shitty view of 'feminism' wasn't feminism at all, it was more misandry (the hunt) and piper ESPECIALLY had some glaring internalized misogyny

i get he was trying to make her a feminist icon, but he really failed with piper. piper clearly hated femininity and looked down feminine girls AND SHE WAS PROVEN RIGHT because 99% of her enemies (major or minor) were girls that were comfortable with their femininity and rick had her triumph over them every time

rick's favoritism over piper. her charmspeak worked on opponents that it shouldn't have worked on (gaea and khione), every other female character suddenly gets downgraded whenever she's around (drew, aphrodite, annabeth, the entire fucking aphrodite cabin, etc), none of her actual flaws were called out (this is mostly because rick never intended for her internalized misogyny and obsessiveness to be her flaws, they were created by accident and noticed by the readers).... and you get the point

ROR

favorite things:

the character designs are sooooo 🤤

99% of the characters have 8 pack abs OR MORE

THE GORE!!!! WOOHOO I LOVE THE VIOLENCE (in the manga at least.... the anime censored it smh 🤦‍♀️)

there isn't really much worldbuilding yet but i love what we've been given so far!!!!

the fact that the mangaka was able to create a universe where ALL the gods of ALL the pantheons are in it and it doesn't look like a hot mess??? much respect!

THE FACT THAT FAMOUS HUMANS ARE FIGHTING TOO!!!

THE MATCHUPS ARE AMAZING LIKE IMAGINE BEING TOLD NIKOLA TESLA WAS FIGHTING THE DEVIL

the death scenes!!! yes they're tragic, but they're so well done!!!! the way lu bu's men rallied up to join him in niflhel, the way every human grieved when adam, their father, died, how tesla's last words were to give hope to humanity, I LOVED IT ALL 😭😭😭

least favorite things:

i really need them to explain wtf a demigod is cuz i get how humans are considered demigods (they're humans with the strength of a god) BUT I REALLY NEED AN EXPLANATION ON HOW THE VALKYRIES ARE CONSIDERED DEMIGODS 💀

the gods were.... kinda underwhelming. they seemed more like superhumans than actual gods. poseidon didn't use his water powers? hades didn't summon the dead? no lightning from zeus? most of the gods were fighting physically and not using their actual powers which was kinda...... meh

the list of fighters for both humans and gods.... the gods literally have 5 greeks and 3 norse gods whereas the humans have 4 japanese fighters 🫤 i'd like a lil more diversity

the way the fight scenes are animated in the anime..... they are so bad..... like SO bad 😭😭 my jaw dropped when i watched them

the censoring of the violence and gore in the anime 😔

[king-nyx]

The Rising Son sexuality and gender headcanons

Apollo - bisexual with a preference for men. Apollo is a romantic who dotes on all his lovers. He definitely can connect with both men and women very very easily. He's a feminine guy which lands him in a weird area when he's perceived, but he is cis.

Artemis - butch lesbian. honestly, don't think Artemis ever thought there were options outside of lesbianism. she definitely leans into dressing more masc and enjoys presenting as more masc, however she is cis and has her moments where she wants to wear dresses and put on makeup (Apollo helps her)

Dionysus - bisexual with a preference for women. Dionysus has an easier time connecting with women and also tends to have more romantic relationships with women. His relationships with men, while some are romantic, tend to be mostly about physicality. Gender-wise, he's trans and uses he/him pronouns.

Hermes - bicurious to bisexual to pansexual. he didn't have a whole crisis, he kinda just wondered what it would be like to date men. started dating men, enjoyed it and it kinda spiraled from there. he's gender neutral, still uses he/him pronouns because that's what everyone assumes and he doesn't really bother with pronouns. it's all just meh to him. he's a guy in the same way a group of people are a guy.

Ariadne - femme lesbian. her issue is that she didn't think lesbianism is an option. with theseus and dionysus, she thought she was on the aspec or the arospec, because she didn't have any of the firework, heart leaping into the sky type of excitement. but, when she ended up dating women, she knew she was a femme lesbian. she is pretty sure she's cis, but she isn't against exploring her gender if that ever comes up. and, she has used she/they pronouns before

Ares - unlabeled. he hates labels, he hates when people ask him what his label is. he hates when people assume his sexuality. he hates when people try to push labels on him. he hates all the discourse. he hates all of it. to him, all that matters is that he likes the person and the person likes him back. nothing else is important to him. this has led people to assume he's pan online and those people have become public enemy number one to him. ares appears to be a macho buff cis dude, but honestly he's a softie. he is cis though. he's also definitely experimented.

Aphrodite - pansexual and nonbinary. they also hates labels and they don't really appreciate what they deem a simplistic way of perceiving a person and their capabilities of love. the reason they chose their labels is because, unlike ares, they wanted to end all discourse around their sexuality and gender identity. however, they are also just a person. they're femme and they're attracted to all things that are feminine.

Persephone - thought she was a lesbian, is actually a bisexual with a strong attraction to women. she never really considered dating men until she met Hades. Hades was where she started exploring her sexuality more. not in a "turned her straight" way but in a "oh, i thought i only liked x turns out i also like z" way.

Hades - straight (non-derogatory)

Poseidon - straight (derogatory)

Zeus - sexually fluid, biromatic and cis. listen, you don't sleep with that many people and not be sexually fluid /lh.

Hera - demiromantic, demisexual, cis. Zeus is the only person she has ever felt romatically and sexually attracted to.

Athena - aroace, uses she/they pronouns. thought she was a lesbian asexual at one point, but she realised that she did not feel any romantic feelings either.

Lex - lesbian and asexual. she always hated sex and sexual relationships were never something she ever wanted to explore. she is happy in romantic relationships.

(Bonus because I love her) Peitho - bisexual. she thought she was straight for the longest time, but after befriending Aphrodite, she decided to experiment and found out she actually did like girls. She and Aphrodite had a thing for a bit, but they decided staying as friends was a better option for them.

[thiotchi]

Have you seen Zoro’s family tree from oda yet?

yes I HAVE

I've been obsessing over his mom. Like yeah, I knew he was most likely a Shimotsuki because of one of Oda's previous SBS'. BUT HIS PARENTS CAN WE JUST

inhale

Furiko most likely had dark blue hair like Ushimaru. And based on her silhouette, you can tell she has that strong Shimotsuki chin and nose and long eyelashes. Pinzoro? Don't know him. He isn't important beyond being a samurai and named Roronoa I guess.

Arashi probably takes mostly after his mom, because those Shimotsuki genes are strong, man. Though his hair may or may not be that strong dark blue, depending on his dad's coloring. The man never learned how to use a brush though.

TERA THOUGH.

TERA.

There's supposedly a character named Tera in FF? somewhere. I forgot which game. But green hair, silver eyes, and a swordsman? That's how I imagine Zoro's mom. And given that she was the daughter of a criminal? She definitely knows how to take care of herself on the battlefield, even if she wasn't a swordsman herself.

she was though bc I said so shh

With her small chin and nose, and long-ass eyelashes, you know Zoro got those from her. Also, how she ties her hair back in the silhouette? If Zoro had long hair, male or female, that's how I'd imagine it. It's. It's perfect.

Zoro literally taking after the women in his family tree.

as a side note, Kuina's mom doesn't have any noticeable eyelashes in her silhouette so all I can think of is Zoro ending up with more stereotypically feminine features than his cousin lmao

as another side note, Kuina and Zoro's moms both dying from the same illness while they're children. You know. Just to make it Sad™️

All their names are apparently gambling references? So that's probably an (albeit kinda weird) explanation for why Zoro was so good at gambling in Wano and also why he seems to be really good at math? idk but it'd be funny if that's why.

Ushimaru def had a back tattoo so I'm kind of curious about if the "marks on the back is a swordsman's shame" is from Pinzoro's side of the family hmm

but also I still can't get over PINZORO. I know it's a legit reference but PINZORO. Arashi and Tera named Zoro after his grandpa knowing that THAT was his name.

DID ODA HAVE THAT PLANNED SINCE THE BEGINNING???

Speaking of Ushimaru, I haven't caught up to the manga or anime but does he look like he has big tiddies? Because Tera def does so that would explain how Zoro has the biggest badonkadonks on the Grand Line. Because it's from both sides of the fam /joking /notjoking

Anyway.

I'm having IDEAS.

There was a wip I was thinking of about maybe giving Zoro a mom where she doesn't die like in my HS AU and now I have CANON stuff to work with. ehehe

[mamamittens]

You know, June is a really strange time for me.

As part of pride month, it kinda makes me reflect on my own very weird journey about my own sexuality and identity. Even now, I'm not entirely sure I have it all figured out. I just kinda ended up sliding in pieces that make the most sense.

Pieces I didn't even pick up until way later than most of my peers, though I know it's not nearly as late as many others.

I literally didn't even consider my sexuality until college as part of a preparation for possibly talking to a guy about if I was interested like I suspected he was. He was and I very much was not. Literally didn't occur to me that it was odd I'd never initiated romance or had crushes before that point. I mean, I had one. In kindergarten with my then best friend because I thought he was cute and funny.

I still remember him fondly but we didn't talk after first grade lol, so that didn't go anywhere.

Then there was the introspection and research as I realized my experience wasn't normal but also was? Like, demi sexuality isn't the norm by any means, but it's hardly crazy. Some part of me was always this way, just compounded by my asocial nature in such a way it literally never came up until one dude on the verge of taking the red pill tried smoozing me for two whole months.

And I didn't realize until near the end of that time. I just liked talking to someone new. It was nice.

Bullet dodged, he was convicted with DV charges a few years after, yikes.

Then again, summer tends to be when I do the most introspection.

Had an ongoing panic attack for June and July a few years back, which was... Something.

Realized I was very likely autistic about two years ago now, like, RAD-S score of 163 kinda likely lmao (thanks for not telling me you opted to not get me tested, mom, I appreciate the sentiment but damn would I have approached certain things differently if I knew from the start my baseline wasn't the norm).

I've come a long way from the little girl on the swings who liked the boy she considered her best friend for maybe a month. The very lost but well intentioned young college student baffled by the void of interest compared to her peers. Someone more comfortable associating with an alien avatar cause my body didn't feel right in a way I couldn't explain. It's mine, I've grown in it for so long, but I hated so much of it. It took so long to appreciate what I have. To really look in the mirror and think "that's me. It's me. Despite everything... It's still me".

I'm still not sure how much I identify with feminine aspects. I feel "female" simply because that's what I've got. And I do think I'd be a bit thrown if I suddenly was physically male (dicks sound like more trouble than they're worth, honestly). I don't think I'd hate it beyond inconveniences though.

It's just so... Casual for me? Not serious? Apathetic. If you called me sir irl I'd laugh cause it's hard to not notice my tits, but I wouldn't be offended.

As for sexuality... I like the idea of romance. Of a partner. But I've never hung my hat on an ideal partner, really. Partly because for the longest time I could never imagine anyone wanting me like that. Why would they? I'm not hideous but I'm hardly worth the trouble in any aspect. Better fish out there and all that.

Just a weird little alien looking at the stars.

But I'm working on that.

Still tooling the words to describe what it's like being "me".

It's not been smooth, this journey. I've felt silly, and stupid, and unwanted. I've hated my reflection and the numbers on a scale. Wondered what I was missing that others had and let them experience all these crucial steps to growing up.

Sometimes I still do.

But I've begun to settle in my skin like I never could before. Even the ugly parts.

Pride months is a time to celebrate and reflect on the LGBTQ+

The people, the struggles, the victories.

I'm ill prepared to do an event at this time, but I hope that you all take a moment to appreciate how far into your own journeys you are. And I hope that you all find peace in your reflections and names and labels (should you use them, change them, or even come back to them after a time), no matter how different they are from the start.

The only one who can decide what you are, what kind of person you are, is yourself. You're the one who will have to wear and walk in those shoes.

And I hope you travel far in them, and see many beautiful, wonderful things.

"...It matters not how strait the gate,

How charged with punishments the scroll.

I am the master of my fate,

I am the captain of my soul."

William Ernest Henley, "Invictus", 1888

[the-little-devils-blog]

Coming to a Conclusion

Hey guys...

So, this will be a little bit of a sad post. I'm just really depressed right now. It has nothing to do with the person in the post before. With that, it probably isn't going to happen. Even though she isn't back together with her ex, she keeps going over to his house whenever he is home. But she doesn't want to get back together with him, even though she knows that he does. I kinda think she is leading him on.

But that's not the point of this post. This post is mainly about how I have come to the conclusion that I am going to be alone forever. I've been depressed for about a week or so because of the lack of being in a relationship. I know many people do this when they have been single for a long time, but I've been single all my life. I'm 24, my first kiss was on stage for a school play when I was 21. I've made out with a friend before and a few people playing spin the bottle, but I have never had like, an actual make-out session filled with love for the other person. I know people had crushes on me, but I'm not attracted to them or their weird. There is a whole story about that I can tell later.

Since I haven't had a real make-out session before, obviously I haven't done anything further. In high school, I didn't care about losing my virginity because a lot of people were virgins that I knew. But out of my entire friend group, other than the super religious ones, I am the only virgin. You know how embarrassing it is when you meet new people and you fucking tell them that you haven't dated anyone before and it is clear you're a fucking virgin at 24?! They either make fun of you or say "Wow, good job for waiting. Blah, blah, blah." Fuck off. A part of me wants to see if a person just wants to be a fuck buddy with me or something, but there is like only one friend I'm attracted to that I would be willing to do that with them.

I've tried dating apps. Since I'm a guy, I get about 5 likes a year! Surprisingly I had 6 when I opened the app again after a long time. I did almost have a date with this one girl in England but she was taking forever to respond I just gave up with her. Now that I think about it I probably should've asked for her insta or something idk. But if I do get a like, it's either a girl I don't find attractive or if I match with a girl that I do fancy she doesn't respond back or she unmatches with me. I don't say anything creepy or anything. I hate dating apps so much because I also hate talking to strangers and ugh! Then the girls I did have crushes on either aren't interested back or I'm too late. Why does dating have to be so fucking hard?!

It makes me feel like I'm unattractive. Maybe that's the reason. I don't personally think I'm ugly, well sometimes when I look in the mirror I do, but overall, I think I'm maybe a 6 or 6.5. But when I'm hanging out with friends who are girls, they are always talking about guys they like or something and it's never me. Like, I don't like them back, but it would be nice for someone to have a crush on me. Who isn't fucking weird! I have a guy friend who a lot of other people say he's cute, and it makes me jealous because what about me? I know this makes me self-centered, but...I rarely ever get people liking me. The most I had was my first year at uni where people were fighting over me, I will tell the story another day but it was crazy lol. I keep telling myself, that maybe it's because a lot of people think I'm gay. I'm not, but I have a lot of feminine mannerisms. I just want people who are actually cute, and a woman to like me! I also hate when people say "You don't want to be in a relationship, it's so hard." When they're in a fucking relationship and are happy! Fuck off you twat!

My parents are out of town for the weekend and I was driving to get food after wandering around some stores. I had my radio off because I didn't have my phone plugged in so I was in silence. The only sound was the outside world and the thoughts in my head (if that makes sense lol). I felt so lonely all day, and I was looking at some restaurants imagining if I went in and got a table by myself and how sad that would be. When I see people eat by themselves at restaurants it makes me sad. I've done it when traveling, but not at home. Then it hit me, that I could see myself being one of those people, sitting at a table alone...because I have nobody...

I want love, I want to give someone love...I want someone to give me love back...to care for me the same amount I care for them. But a lot of my friends seem to not care as much about me as I do them. I'm always the one reaching out, and rarely ever them to me. I give so much and don't get that much in return.

I want to get married, I want kids, I want to go on dates, travel, be young and grow old with. Hell, go grocery shopping, the doctors, the fucking DMV of all places with the woman I love...but I got nobody...and I'm starting to accept that from how things are going...I'm never going to have that...

People always tell me when you're not looking the person will come...I haven't really been actively looking. I'm probably going to be 60 years old, have never been in a relationship, eating soup alone at a restaurant. (Hell, I don't even like soup that much). Living by myself with my pets. Sleeping alone in bed night after night. Wanting to know what it would be like if a woman I loved was lying there right next to me, and when I looked over nobody was there. I could always adopt and be a single dad, so my hopes of being a parent aren't fully gone...but of being a husband...being a boyfriend...I'm starting to lose hope in it. I'm now coming to the conclusion I will most likely never find my romantic soulmate...and it hurts. I'm a hopeless romantic and dream about this all the time. I wish my life was sometimes like one of those sappy romance novels where it is obvious who is going to end up together. I also wished we had that mark thing where we could find who our soulmate was as they have a matching mark.

People keep on saying that everyone will find their soulmate one day...but not everyone has a soulmate...and I'm one of them.

Hopefully, that'll change and my soulmate will actually be out there...but I really doubt she's even real at this point...

Thank you for listening...I really appreciate it... <3

[5-pp-man]

I've hit the 3rd ep for all of the things I'm watching (except for 1 but shhh). Crazy. As per the rule, I guess I'll write down my thoughts for them now.

Atarashii Joushi; Fun and heartwarming in a very tame sort of way. It reminded me of CDD a lot in the first episode, but I feel like it's really making itself stand out now. Also, the 3rd ep made me cry. wtf.

Bullbuster; Very interested to see where this goes with the island plot. I like the touch of realism for how the company operates. Kataoka is actually my fave character so far just because he has such a strong presence, lmao

Dekoboko Majo; It's your standard over the top gag anime (which I like! it's just stupid silly fun) I do like the allusion to a deeper plot though

Hypmic; I already loved Hypmic and I never even expected another season, so I already feel spoiled. I love how they're weaving all the divisions into the ongoing plot, it's actually done pretty well? Though the anime original group (TBH) feels a bit jammed into the story, but it's only natural when you've got something with a plot like hypmic (that's already jammed full with contrivances, lmao) Also, Dotsuitare Homos episode when? (probably next week. yippeee ^u^)

Kamierabi; It's starting to become apparent with the 3rd episode that the plot in this show. Might not be that great. But I love death / high stakes games, even if they're kinda shitty. The animation isn't nearly as bad as everyone wants you to believe though.

Kamonohashi Ron; Ron he is so sillay <3 I love detectives, I love buddy teamups, this is a winning combo in my book. Their banter is super manzai-like though, very dry / reaction based humour. Which I think is funny but not when overused (is this show overusing it? not rlly as of now thankfully). Also, very intrigued by what the hell happened to Ron

Kawagoe Boys Sing; Uhhhh this only has 2 eps rn but the 2nd one was already so much better than the first. I love IT kun and Otome kun, excited for the rest of the cast to be introduced Ok I've seen the 3rd one now and in the very first sentence from Adachi I heard it was Kimura Subaru. I'm so happy he's here!! It was a good call to get him for this show since he's a great singer (in English too so it was nice hearing him in the ed this time!) Just an aside I actually think it's really nice how cool everyone is with all the weird quirks the characters have. Like, they consistently see Otome's feminine traits as a genuinely cool thing, and it's such a breath of fresh air compared to other shows

Migi to Dali; This is def up there as my fave this season, I loved Sakamoto so I'm super happy that Sano san's other work got adapted as well. May she be freer where she is now. Her strange brand of humour will forever be one of my faves, and having it mixed with a mystery this time is like a dream come true

Undead Unluck; I'm watching this one w my brother and I'm glad, it's exactly the kind of stuff we tend to watch together. The animation for this one goes crazy hard btw.

Watashi no Oshi; I wasn't feeling the first 2 eps all that much (they were funny and had a few good moments, but they weren't fantastic or anything), but goddd the third one was so good... and the 4th was really funny. I'm enjoying this one more and more each week :) also the op is super catchy

Yonkyoudai; This one is really sweet, I love the usage of different animation styles to evoke certain emotions, and the way it often mimics children's drawings works so well for this story. I get all teary eyed watching this one every time...

[thatoneguy031]

So, I realized that I never really did anything for Pride Month. My bad, especially since I'm a member of that group.

I know it isn't a lot, but what if I talked about where my characters sat on the LGBT spectrum? That works for you guys, right?

First things first, Delta. Hoo boy, is he an odd case. Like, he's obviously asexual, he literally doesn't even have genitals to begin with. But, as you'll see way, way later in his storyline, he is interested in the concept of romance. And, he follows the "It doesn't matter, love is love" mentality, so I guess he's panromantic? Is that a term?

On top of that, he's not really opposed to the idea of crossdressing or looking feminine or anything. He's the kind of guy to wear a full, Princess Peach-styled dress because it's comfy, or something like that. He goes by any and all pronouns, but I use he/him in my stories about him, for no reason in particular.

For Jason, he's ace/aro, simply put, clear-cut as his Oshawott's fighting style. Similarly to Ash, he doesn't really care for love too much, as long as you and your Pokemon are strong and give him a solid challenge, which you'll see more and more time passes(He referred to Bianca as "girlfriend," because they were just that close with each other to do stuff like that. They weren't dating or anything). The only "love" he shows is towards Jayden and his Pokemon, who is family and are considered family respectively.

Trevor, as I've mentioned before, is straight and questioning. He's always thought he just liked girls when he was in middle and high school, but his best friend, Bryant...

Bryant. Just Bryant.

...Yeah, that Floatzel definitely flipped Trevor's world view on its head, and now he's just confused. Please send your condolences for our turnabout Typlosion-Ampharos-Blastoise... guy.

Funnily enough, Smudge is the only character that I've made with the intent of being purely homosexual. At least, mostly, but I'll get to Chris eventually.

Smudge is pretty clearly into Charles, but their situation is kinda complicated. Smudge thinks that he doesn't have a chance in heck with Charles due to his childhood, so he sticks with them just being friends, and Charles thinks that Smudge is way out of his league due to the dragon's now-popularity, so he doesn't even bother asking him out. But, they do still talk to each other, and Smudge jokingly brought up the chance of them just making out once, which Charles clearly wanted. He denied it, though, in fear of looking too weird.

You know how I said I'd get to Chris's whole deal eventually? Well, now it's eventually(The first time I've followed up on that kind of thing in a while).

Chris had a rough childhood. He was often picked on, mostly because he was an easy target, but also because he was just a loser to his bullies. So, he never really got to even discover his options.

When he was turned into a Pokemon, he got to see the rest of Team 7(Besides Stephanie, because he already knew her from when he first arrived.) Insert some wacky, emotional missions later, but he sorta began growing feelings for Lucas, that Cubone I keep mentioning. It wasn't love, at least not at the time, but Chris definitely felt like he could connect with him more than anyone else on the team, since they've had similar backgrounds. So, it's not like he's dating Lucas or anything...

...But he isn't repelled by the idea of getting to know him a little more.

For yours truly, I'm bisexual. At least, I'm pretty sure I am. There's no real explanation for this. I kinda just discovered I liked dudes one day, and I rolled with it. Nothing special, no interesting backstory, that's sorta just... it. Point, blank, period, 'cause it ain't no question.

Off topic, I love the bi flag. It gives such a vaporwave aesthetic, and I can really vibe with that kind of thing. The colors blend in with each other so well, they're so easy on the eyes.

[a-libra-writes]

Hi! Kind of a weird request, but I love collecting perfume and was wondering what kind of scents some of the asoiaf folks would either wear or like their partners to wear? I feel like some of the big tough men would pretend not to care, but do actually have a favorite. Whichever characters you think would fit. Thanks I love your writing!

oh this is fun! also im kind of a noob when it comes to perfumes so pls accept this shortie :>

Quite a fan of perfumes and really love your's in particular:

Sansa and Margaery were delighted when they were old enough to wear perfumes, and they both tried out different scents until they found something just right. Sansa likes to chat scents with you and gets a little flustered if you want to share your's. Margaery insists on sharing now and again; she loves to smell like you when you aren't around. She'll tease you endlessly for having a rose-scented perfume, though. Isn't that a little passe? Or do you just like her that much? Margaery loves a strong floral scent, while Sansa prefers a mix of foresty and berry scents.

For Arianne, she has her signature that she sprays on her clothes and herself. It's probably amber, vanilla and a strong citrus and she adores it. It's more feminine than seductive, but certainly not a gentle and 'light' femme. She also the type to chat perfumes with you and help you find a "signature"; probably something unique made for you. She keeps a tiny vial for herself, just for when she misses you. Not that she'll ever confess to it.

Petyr is very much into perfumes, as he uses them himself - he's particular how they smell and where they're made, and he probably knows how ingredients will mix. Naturally he picks up on whatever you wear and he'll appreciate it, but... wouldn't it be a fine gift to have something custom made, with special ingredients? Everytime you wear it, he has to keep himself from pouncing on you, especially in polite company. Maybe it's kind of a kink ...?

Oberyn - Quite fond of scents himself; he loves spices and citrus with a dash of something hard to place, like maybe notes of the sea and sand. Oberyn will openly compliment you on how lovely you smell, and likes it when you change things up. He likes to guess what the ingredients are and pretends he needs to get extra close to be sure.

Didn't think much of them until you wore them:

Robb & Edmure - The sort of men who know ladies wear perfume, but insist your's is somehow different and more special. It could be a scent that's wildly popular and every lady has, but they're positive it's different on you. Edmure is not above pulling you into a tight hug and nuzzling your hair, where some of it has settled on. Robb really loves the small amount that remains on your neck and arms after you've taken a hot bath.

Daenerys - Perfumes were not a luxury afforded to her, so she's not sure what to wear. She kinda just goes with whatever the custom is wherever she's staying, or what her handmaidens recommend. If you personally recommend something (or gods forbid, make it) because it made you think of her... Well, that's all she wants to wear, thank you very much.

Davos - Obviously this man hasn't been around perfumed ladies his whole life, so when he picks up that you smell lovely and it's because of a perfume, he suddenly feels embarrassed for enjoying it so much. It feels a little weird to stand so close and still remain there after you leave, enjoying whatever you're wearing. He's too shy to outright comment on it, even when you're together.

Tyrion - Wears a nice scent most of the time, but he really loves whatever you wear and remembers it for future reference. If he can get something like that, or similar, and you wear it, he's very happy. Tyrion likes the more unique scents you wear, and having you describe them to him. He starts to learn the different scents and notes and how they work together. Very interesting.

Very fond of a specific scent they attribute to you and get confused/don't like it when you switch them:

Stannis - He's just generally very aware of when you change something about yourself. Stannis is too embarrassed to compliment any specific scent though, even if he can tell them apart. He can't really pick out his favorite, either... one of them just seems "right". The "one you wear all the time", he calls it. Not "the other one". Yeah, he can tell them apart, but he has no idea what the specific ingredients or name is.

Ned - He doesn't have much experience with perfumes, but he'll start to really like a subtle, everyday scent you wear. The special occasion ones can be too much. Ned probably likes something distinct that can't be found in the North, like citrus or rose. Really loves it when it's left behind on your pillows or when it rubs off on him. If you change it suddenly, he's kinda disappointed.

Jorah - Will never admit how much he likes picking up some of your perfume on your own skin when you're together, and how comforting such a scent can be - if it's something unique from Essos, he attributes that specific spice or flower with you only. If it's more Westerosi, it makes him painfully and sweetly homesick. If you ever change it up, he notices immediately and kinda hopes you'll switch back to your tried and true. He actually has a good nose for these things but thinks it's kind of weird, so he won't comment ... Though he likes to bring you nice-smelling oils and candles he finds at the markets.

Tywin - Well, a little bit of this section and the one above. The only time Tywin really cared is when it came to Joanna, because she had a signature scent she just adored and always wore. He hates smelling anything remotely close to that now. If your perfume had something similar, he'd displeased at best or at worst, tell you to stop wearing it. If your's is utterly different and also your "signature", he starts getting those strong associations again. Honestly hates it when he assumes you entered the room, but it turns out some other lady is wearing it. Awful. He glares her and her husband into oblivion until you show up.

Wait, perfume? Ladies don't just smell nice?

Theon, Victarion, Robert, Brandon, Bronn, Jon - Honestly the types to get really hung up on how nice you smell, especially if it's a specific unique scent you love to wear, and are startled to realize it's something you actually put on.

Theon likes things that are more "flashy" and strong - he wonders why the hell he thought it was natural, but he really likes it. He won't grab your wrist outright to smell, but he wishes he could.

Victarion likes more amber, smoky scents. Something too overtly "foreign", like citruses and strong florals, is just too jarring (again, how did he think this was natural?). A surprising favorite is gentle lavenders and patchoulis.

Brandon, Jon and Robert like "light" and feminine scents, like florals or slight foresty smells. Bronn knows perfumes exist but doesn't think about them until he notices you put it on. Well, whatever. Ladies do that, he just forgot. Bronn and Robert in particular are used to the harsh strong perfumes and incense from whorehouses, so something more "subtle" is nice.

"Meh":

Roose - He doesn't think much of it, except that his previous wife was fond of various perfumes. Roose rather likes it when you stick to one scent; it makes telling when you've been in a room easier, and he knows when you've entered one whilst his back is turned. He likes when it's leftover on your bedding or his skin, too. Well, maybe he doesn't mind it. He certainly doesn't go out of his way to comment, even if you've changed it up.

Edd - I mean, what perfumes are you gonna find on the Wall? And his Lady mother certainly couldn't afford any. They make him sneeze, anyway.

Sandor - Every lord and lady at the Red Keep douses themselves in the stuff, especially to distract from the general sewer smell of King's Landing. Ugh. They probably give him a headache.

Asha/Yara - She also forgets they exist because she and her lady mother don't use them; it's not like average Ironborn women bother. She's amused if you like them, though. It's just one of those quirks you have. She likes to say she always knows when you enter the room because suddenly it doesn't smell like seawater and blood anymore.

Cersei - Every lady ought to wear one and have a specific scent, especially considering how awful the servants and smallfolk smell. She doesn't think much about it apart from one more thing she has to do for her morning routine.

Ramsay - Surprisingly sensitive to strong scents. They make him feel nauseous if they're too sweet and he gets sneezy if they're too floral. Yeah, he doesn't appreciate it much. If you wore something very light he'd probably assume you just smelled nice naturally.

[arx-aru]

#i honestly think miquellas whole theme of childbirth and unborn stuff is really cool#like i dont really believe it has anything to do with mohg- take his haligtree form for example.#his cocoon was in the womb of the figure and the figure is likely female so that also has gender implications but thats not important#mohg was probably trying to….. replicate. the womb stuff with the pelvic bone maybe he thought it would help in some way??#egh. mohg is weird. but anyway#forever nascent. his butterflies are said to look like theyve just emerged from their cocoon for their entire lives#eternal childhood. trying to rebirth himself. his cocoons in the haligtree. the land octopus and crab eggs.#theres so many like…. childbirth and feminine themes with him and i think its incredibly interesting#like. i dont think it HAS to be thought of in like a. weird sexual way. i think its just a…. positive theme.#my personal little theory is that rennalas rune of the unborn was supposed to be miquellas. it would have helped him perfect his rebirth#hmmm…. i dont really know how to explain it?? it feels like a commentary on how beautiful motherhood and childbirth is in a way??#from what ive heard bloodborne also has themes like this? im not sure tho since i havent played that yet#eh well. theres probably a post out there explaining it. i just make it sound odd and strange#i promise you i do not view those themes as anything sexual. thatd be weird as fuck#elden ring#cw: mohg#i do think he needs therapy though hes got some horrid stress

@solpuff yeah!!! I get it--I think I absolutely agree from a similar angle; Miquella in of himself, I feel, is definitely like. very connected to motherhood/reproduction/renewal, and I think it is in a positive way. The vibe I get from all the stuff that does associate those themes with negativity seems very much a point of outside interference, every time. I kinda read his depicted "struggles," where all that is concerned, as another discussion of disability, plus obviously a ton of trauma, cuz, like...

the crab eggs are definitely like. completely fine, in of themselves. that's just how crabs do! it's that people prey upon them, and--with how the description is phrased--almost fetishize the consumption of them. It's not the crab or the eggs that's "gross" here, it's how they're explicitly seen/misused by a third party.

the octopuses are forced to require outside nourishment for their own reproduction because their biology just isn't set up right. It's not really their fault, but the twisted circumstance that surely affected their ovaries such that they don't function "normally." which ties in, I think, with how Miquella's and Malenia's afflictions are implied to be largely thanks to Marika's selfcest. (i personally find it pretty meaningful cuz like-- needing to reckon with bodily issues stemming from forseeable-but-ignored complications by parents is relatable stuff for me)

the singing bats! little fellas are sad they can't reproduce. they're literally and actively expressing the trauma of their infertility through art. combined with how they tend to be near flowing water or an overabundance of rain, it's definitely like-- they're really really sad. and it's not their fault they have to deal with this.

the mohg stuff can make it all super uncomfortable to approach for obvious reasons like you mentioned, but in spite of that it is absolutely like. pretty important just to miquella i think-- and i don't think it detracts from the basic, pre-mohg "reproduction-as-a-good-thing" idea. it's just kinda. real. cuz that happens--his pre-existing trauma and struggle got amplified and compounded because somebody tried to force him to do something he couldn't do(in the worst sense imaginable, in his case, ofc).

since it's really common for disabled ppl to be put in similar situations, it does feel meaningful that the game explores that part of disability/vulnerability/trauma...

i just hope that the dlc expands on that reading in a positive way, and that FromSoft doesn't like. do what they did to ds3!Gwyndolin again. I'm pretty hopeful about it tho, since the twins are currently a big improvement and sign of growth in terms of narrative handling of these heavy themes as compared to their myriad soulsborne predecessors like Quelaag and her sister, Lothric and Lorian, Gwyndolin, and so on. (and I think there's good themes and very real and positive aspects to those representations too, but improvements are refreshing and exciting for sure)

Also yes!!! there's already a ton of connections between Miquella and Raya Lucaria, where Rennala is--which is super interesting because the rune of the unborn is surely of unique and extreme interest to the twins.

There's all sorts of Miquella items & mobs around Liurnia--which is flooding!--, and the nearer you get to Raya Lucaria there's more and more Trina items specifically instead, which I think suggests he(she, here? they? i like the idea of the trina thing being indicative of like, genderfluidity but that's neither here nor there lol) was subtly trying to get nearer--or at least investigate--the rune of the unborn or rennala's studies of it. although that's equally likely to just be more of him looking into "heresies" to help malenia after abandoning fundamentalism (that said--he seems to have moved towards 'faith' rather than 'intelligence'(fundamentalism being split int/faith) by the time of the Shattering??? unclear tbh). i like to think it's at least both though--hopefully in the future we get to see a bit more what the deal was with miquella's hypothetical on-off alliance/association thing with the carian ladies.) bah

trina lilys like big crabs fun fact

"wow miq rlly likes crabs that's cute :)" wrong.

it's another. reproduction thing. ):

take note of the how weird that last sentence is. and that it's trina(sleep) lilies rather than miq lilies in this case.

can somebody please get miquella therapy

[g0reoz]

GIVE ME UR XHAKA HEADCANONS RN ALSO RUWEI IF U WOULD BE SO KIND

of COURSE i would be so kind ^^

xhaka:

-tbh when u mentioned smth about him being like. some kind of mlm but also just using "queer" as a general descriptor i was like Yeah That Checks out. so. OUR headcanon ☭

-iknow he is probably cis. i know this in my heart. but also have you considered that Baby Trans-And-In-Denial Gavin realized that wearing baggy, straight cut pants and fucking w your posture makes it nearly impossible for ppl to read ur hip structure as feminine? have you considered that this guy saved me so much dysphoria. what if maybe he was transmasc and just fuckin killing it out there.

-listen xhaka and ruwei are best friends they are lovers they're a qpr they're dating they're in an unlabeled relationship. i don't even care. they are everything 2 me.

-mannn i wanted to see more interactions w him and shu in s1 :') dude was sooo desperate to battle shu and then the one time it happened was in s2 when shu was red eye and we rly only saw the aftermath :( more battles more interactions etc i think they had an interesting dynamic

-i don't really know or care enough abt shipping to have anything to say about a notp. aside from weird age gaps n stuff, it's kinda just whatever imo :)

-random headcanons: did you know he's a human space heater. now you do. not to project Too much, but if you're under the same blanket it's gonna be like a kotatsu lmao i also feel like he would be really into growing his own food; the dojo probably has a decent-sized garden :]👍 oh! and he has a nokia brick in 2022.

-ova. look at me. i think at this point you Know my opinion. for those of you who don't: i want to put him in the microwave. i think he would start sparking like when you put metal in there. this dude cracked the trans egg back in 2016 and has just sorta been rent free in my brain ever since. he's responsible for at least half of my outfit decisions at this point. he's not even that dynamic of a character he doesn't have any major arc or anything and yet..still one of (if not my absolute favorite) burst characters!! he's just like me fr (concerning)

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ruwei:

-i think ruwei is bisexual. not gonna ngl.

-he/him but in a gender apathetic nonbinary way. the same way you refer to a random animal u see as he/him. i don't just say nb ruwei because of the long hair, either--he just sorta has that vibe.

-already mentioned that above lol

-ok this isn't exactly a brotp, but i want to see him interact with free at some point. they both come across as like rly calm and laid back but then they're both kinda Actually Insane. itwould be interesting. we should just let them go in the woods and befriend the local wildlife or something.

-idk. once again what else r people even shipping. i do feel like it would be annoying to see ruwei paired with ana though, just because it feels compulsively straight in the same way valt being paired with shasa is.

-RUWEI LISTENS TO WEEZER HE IS A WEEZER IM SORRY. IT'S TRUE. IT HAD TO BE SAID. HE TRAINS WHILE LISTENING TO IT SOMETIMES. he also can't keep a houseplant alive for the life of him. he isn't aware of this fact bc xhaka's been paying really close attention to the one he has ever since it was brought home. his bones and joints are also constantly cracking, which occurs so suddenly and loudly that it scares anyone in a 15-foot radius.

-my general opinion is that ruwei is cool 👍 like, in the way where he tries to be cool and badass but ends up looking kinda goofy while doing it, which circles back to being kind of impressive in a weird way. maybe not one of my favorite characters from all of burst, but definitely one of my faves from season 2!!

[lilacerull0]

Ok another thing!

I really like how... feminine Jack is. It's sort of an extension of his manic-pixie-dream-boy status. He's kind, soft-spoken and Rose generally makes him pretty nervous (though he's socially talented enough to work through that really well). This particularly stands out to me during their sex scene. I think it's my favourite sex scene of all time, actually. That may be a weird thing to have, but still. Rose is the one who initiates it ("Put your hands on me, Jack" is a GREAT line) and we immediately see Jack at the most nervous he's ever been. Then when they're done he's literally shaking so Rose asks if he's okay, and then SHE holds HIM as they (mostly Jack tho) calm down.

The movie is so conventional and so unconventional at the same time which speaks to its genius.

Reversal of gender roles isn't something that didn't exist before Titanic though. (and I KNOW that's not what you're saying here, but hear me out) LMA has done it in 1860s!!!!!!!! Greek mythology deals with gender themes (where do you think the term hermaphrodite came from?) In my opinion, Titanic didn't handle the concept in an innovative enough manner (and everybody knows I'm a BIG fan of that concept). It's cool! It's great! Blockbusters introduce the wider audience to great many things, but that doesn't mean they should be praised for every remotely unconventional idea that's a part of the story they're trying to tell. (making the already existing concept your own? that's another thing entirely and I LOVE IT!) What makes a good movie for me is taking what's already there and crowning it with your own unique perspective. What you're praising Titanic for is actually what I appreciate about Lady Bird (2017). It makes you think that it's all about tropes and cliches and everything that's stereotypically meant to speak to the female audience, but then it surprises you and does this fantastic spin on everything you've ever known without disregarding the tropes completely. But it's not just about simultaneously defying and celebrating the tropes (and here's the main difference), it's about this very personal viewpoint that Gerwig incorporated into the film. It's kinda like when you're adapting a book, you shouldn't try to make the movie resemble the source material (because that's NEVER gonna work, you simply can't meet everyone's expectations), you should make it resemble your own understanding of the source material. That's what makes it feel more personal to the viewer. Titanic didn't feel personal to me despite being meant to appeal to people. My point is: it's a movie that was made to be liked and appreciated which yes, isn't inherently a bad thing, but maybe I'm just too into modernism and avant-garde to appreciate that. It really is a personal preference! I like it better when the art I'm consuming doesn't make a big deal out of itself and ends up hitting the emotional mark without meaning to. (the main goal is usually to send some kind of message that tends to be controversial in some way) I don't like it when movie directors assume I'm going to relate to something because "everybody relates to it in some way". You CAN'T know that. (it puts a pressure on people, like you have to be a part of that specific circle or you're not human enough or whatever) This feels like that literature discussion about supposedly pointless overanalysing of motifs or claiming that classic lit is inherently difficult to read or whatever... Maybe it's not just propaganda coming from the male dominated world, maybe I LIKE long discussions on life and death and politics in my movies. (and just because something is problematic in one regard, it doesn't mean it has no significant value or worse, that it shouldn't be explored. you can always learn! from everything!) Which doesn't mean that I don't like a good coming of age story about a teenage girl. Or spend my time watching a teen soap. Or that somebody can't enjoy a romantic comedy if they love Dostoyevsky. Or that these art branches necessarily cancel each other out. (I'm referring to some of the points you made earlier, sorry for drifting away djsjdkkd)

What you can always do in film is present your own unique perspective and celebrate that uniqueness. That's something people can connect with, regardless of the topic. If it makes its way to the heart of ONE person, it's a winner. And Titanic is definitely a winner in that respect! It just didn't get to me. And that's fine too.

Also! The intention behind a certain line doesn't make the line itself good (same goes for film in general)!!!!!! "Put your hands on me, Jack" is just... it's funny. I laughed when I heard it. This movie is just... way better in theory. I LOVED what you had to say about the ideas that went into it, but I didn't really catch that on screen. Both the characters and their love story failed to be compelling in my eyes, the aesthetics got in the way of that even if it wasn't supposed to. That's what happened if you ask me. Oh and disliking traditionally feminine tropes and plot directions and things such as grand romantic gestures or melodramatic confessions of love doesn't immediately mean that you're sexist or have internalized misogyny? Society is responsible for giving those things a bad rep, but disliking them doesn't always have to go beyond disliking them.

I'm making a lot of points here and I'm not wearing my contacts, dear tumblr forgive me. (I don't need you to, I'm just trying to be polite dhjdjdi)