#and he just grew soft over the years cuz he matured??????

[astralfist]

Honestly one of the things I really try not to do when writing Craig is focus on his "bland" or aggressive personality, and how he was as a kid.

Like

All these kids have grown up, m'kay?

One would think they were all just dumb kids, but ya know what? These kids grow too.

Kids grow up and they mature, so things change, y'know?

[jayzioxx]

Cuz i cant sleep... some slight angst following up this and this fic isn't the follow up from the poll im just sleep deprived and sad

Also WARNINGGG ooc soft emotionally ✨️mature✨️ wanderer~

Wanderer who tries to atone for his past sins realized how much he's broken [name] throughout the years. [Name] who was undeniably loyal and trustworthy, [name] who nearly gave his life away to help him reach godhood.

"You..." Wanderer muttered as he looked at [name] who was fast asleep on the sofa in his living room. He wondered if he should bring a blanket to cover that scrawny, malnourished body resting so peacefully, but he couldn't take his eyes off the bruises, cuts, and old battle scars littering the skin of those once strong limbs.

"Idiot. Nothing would have changed even if you died for me." He thought. And he was so glad that didn't happen. He couldn't have lived with himself if he caused pain for another he loved.

Wanderer's cold fingers traced around a healing wounds on [name]'s face, which was one of the many he'd gained during his final battle fought as the right-hand man of a fatui harbinger, likely from when he foolishly intercepted the rough attacks from the traveler just to buy some more time for Scaramouche.

Wanderer absentmindedly continued to carass his scarred skin, not noticing how [name] was waking from his afternoon nap.

"Sorry." He croaked, bringing a thin hand up to rub his tired eyes. "It was warm. I didn't mean to fall asleep here."

Wanderer felt a pang through his heart (despite not having one). He'd gained a lot of emotions and grew to feel things during the months he spent under Nahida and at the akademia, but [name] had only spent 3 days in this new setting after roaming around homeless for so long.

Wanderer didn't realize how lucky he was in that aspect, for being given a chance to overcome his past when his counterpart was suffering the entire time.

"Lord Scaramou- Forgi- Sorry, Wanderer." [Name] spoke, stuttering to correct his words as he was still struggling to adapt to his new life. "You were zoning out."

He was. He only noticed how much he had been thinking over things when [name] pointed it out.

[Name] was still laying on his side on the sofa with Wanderer's hand on his cheek, staring at Wanderer's face with his sleepy eyes.

The puppet moved his hand from [name]'s face to his back to gently help him sit up. Truth be told, Wanderer was scared. The man in front of him was far too thin and far too weak. Almost to the point he would fracture at a light breeze.

Without a word, Wanderer got up and went to make some tea, and the other sat perfectly still, eyes unmoving, not even turning his head. He almost seemed like a porcelain doll.

When Wanderer got back, [name] sat in the same position he had been, faced the same direction, with only his eyes following the one who had just come back from the kitched and placed a warm cup of tea in his hands.

"He's like a doll." Thought Wanderer, which only made him feel more upset. He knew he shouldn't be frustrated, that he was the one responsible, but he just wished that [name] would at least move his head a bit more, or maybe shift in his seat. Act a bit more alive.

Or, at the very least, not act like he was living dead.

"Hey." Wanderer said, carefully choosing his words and speaking as gently as he could. [Name] had a slightly uncomfortable look on his face, seemingly confused with how to respond.

"You can respond however you'd like to. Or dont if you don't feel like it." Wanderer spoke softly, noting [name]'s discomfort. [Name] just smiled, a bit relieved. He found it a bit strange to see Scaramouche so... kind.

"I'm not Scaramouche." Wanderer said. He looked apologetic.

"I won't be either." He felt like his words didn't get through to [name], but the sunken look on [name]'s face told him how much impact his words had.

"I'm sorry." He finally apologized. He didn't exactly understand why he was apologizing, all he knew was that there was a lot to say sorry for.

"If you're not him, then why are you apologizing."

[Name]'s words stung like salt on a fresh wound.

"Because I stopped being him without considering you."

Wanderer couldn't stop the bitter tears falling from the other's eyes. He seemed to have a knack for making him cry. Scaramouche's strongest general and the broken human marionette wanderer picked up.

"I'm sorry for how I used you."

...

"I'm sorry for how it broke you."

...

"I'm-" Wanderer choked."...I'm sorry for not telling you I loved you when it mattered the most."

He wasn't crying. He had much better control over his feelings than [name]. But being unable to stop [name]'s tears made him feel as helpless as he felt when he was first abandoned.

The tea had become cold and untouched, and Wanderer gently took the teacup from the other one's hands and placed it aside, engulfing him in as warm a hug he could provide. [Name] too allowed his skinny frame to be held as he quietly sniffled.

For the first time in a long, long time, both Wanderer and [name] felt as normal and human as the rest.

Meanwhile nahida accidentally spying on then through whatever weird magic she's got crying her eyes out with kaveh who's crying cuz he saw nahida crying so now the two of them dont know why the other is crying and they're crying togerther because of that.

Al haitham in the back wondering what the 🦆is going on...

[mrstellmeafuckingsecret]

Sometimes I'm having a good day then I randomly have flashbacks to posts I've seen on tumblr. Mostly of; cat animagus regulus, regulus replacing peter, regulus and sirius being best friends, dramatic sirius, James being all people pleasing and not arrogant at all (save me arrogant rich boy James oml), remus being a jerk for no reason and being borderline toxic for sirius and I'm not okay any longer. But I cant express that to anyone at school cuz they'll just be like who tf are u talking abt????

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i love aus i love reconciliation i love wondering how things could be different or how x character would fit into a narrative but some things are just !! incorrect !! regulus isnt an animagus!! its very fucking hard to become one!! he is NEVER described as intelligent!! quite the opposite!! also, he isnt crookshanks!! he's fucking dead!! he committed suicide!! it's literally one of the three things he canonically did!! stop taking that away!!

regulus could never ever replace peter!! he would never fit into the dynamic the marauders have!! he's also a fucking nazi and remus is equivalent of a jew!! sirius would've hated having him there!!

why? because regulus was a major part of why he wanted to leave leave leave his house!! he was suffocated at number twelve!! constantly compared to his picture perfect brother!! his brother, who was a soft idiot!! who was naive and gullible!! who was the opposite of sirius in everyway!! it was never ever sirius and regulus - it was sirius or regulus!! sirius vs regulus!! they likely had a very complicated relationships!! its very very possible they hated each other!! "i have a brother i could never hate him 😖 i understand sirius, im sure they loved each other <3" unless you grew up in the 70s in a very very uptight house with a mother who was clinically insane and an absent father, both of which supported ethnic cleansing and genocide of a race you live amongst, and your younger brother, who you've likely considered your closest in that torture chamber, ends up going further than your fucked up parents by joining in the ethnic cleansing, by being obsessed with fucking hitler, by fighting against you in war, all while being praised for doing so while you're abused for not wanting to kill innocent men, women and children until you runaway as a teenager to go to the house of someone you've only known for five years because of how horrid it is, i dont think you understand!!

and sirius is called dramatic!! sirius black!! who was in solitary confinement for twelve years, charged for being the very thing he did so so much to be the opposite of, charged for murder of his sanctuary, of his best friends, of his godson, of twelve innocent bystanders, betrayed by one of his closest friends, who was homeless for over an year, who was trapped again in a prison of his old home, constantly exposed to triggering stimuli like his fucking mother!!!!!!! and being made comments about which he deals with so very maturely!! he is dramatic!! despite the fact that he barely, if ever, brought it up!! and if he did, then only to his godson!! his last remaining person!! good god, he suffered so much and he's never, ever allowed to complain!!

and james!! god!! what do we know about him? that he had a massive ego!! a massive heart, yes, but he was proud!! stop with the perspective that one has to sacrifice themself to be good!! i know most people here are teenage girls, that we are taught that this is the only way to be, but it isnt!! especially not to a wealthy pureblood (=white) boy in the 70s!! he likely was incredibly selfish!!

remus, god remus, after sirius - this is the character assassination of the centaury. his entire character revolves around his cowardice!! how unlike a werewolf he is!! how he does everything possible to be the very opposite!! he ruins his life because of how he fears ruining other people!! but fanon remus - he's a fucking proud werewolf, i dont care what people say!! he's abusive, he's a sex-addict, druggie - he's an asshole!! he is literally fenrir greyback!! the man who ruined his life!! 'mr tell me a fucking secret' my ass!! and its just funny! its cute and wholesome and let's focus on how he suffered and how hot he is, when there's no evidence of most of these claims!! let's, instead, focus on how horrified remus would be at what he's portrayed as!! he's portrayed as the very thing he's tried to be the opposite of!! this is just one more example of sirius' trauma being put onto remus to make him some tragic hero, when that in itself is remus' tragedy!! that he died and left an orphan to a fucked up kid, that he had no friends and couldnt hold relationships, that he's forgettable despite standing out, that he's outshone despite being intelligent - it's just not as romanticizable as 'my dad hates me and i'm really hot and smoke cigarettes'

i just yapped so much because god its so annoying!! no one sees it!! "let people have fun" yes, but lets call bullshit out!! dont romanticize toxic relationships to young girls @ marauders fandom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[moonshine999]

Spill your post trailer Helaegon ideas with us please😩

hellooo, I will try my utmost best to articulate them.. sensibly

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as the teaser stands, the performances by Tom and Phia genuinely look phenomenal. It seems stealing the spotlight worthy, especially Phia. Since this is the first season we get to explore her character and also her last season because damn you writers, it looks like she’s really giving it her all and I’m genuinely so excited to see that. details? Love that they grew Aegon’s hair out, the Helaena shot of her looking up might be one most ethereal shots I’ve witnessed, the aegon strut was legit everything. things I am not much a fan of though is the costuming (for them, more so Aegon because we haven’t seen any Helaena dresses in full, at least officially). Because though I love the sunfyre embroidery on his outfit now, it literally looks no different from the coronation costume at first glance. Sure it is dark green instead of black but like cmon. Give aegon pretty costumes 😌. Also sad we didn’t see Sunfyre, Dreamfyre is understandable but come on, we see Syrax and not the most beautiful dragon in the world? Not the dragon who had the strongest dragon-rider bond in history with Aegon? Not the dragon who ends up killing Rhaenyra?? THE FUCK.

but I’ll stop complaining because the teaser is nice and these are just nitpicks about the definite bias. .

. Okay the next things I’m gonna cover are more so ideas for scenes rather than a breakdown or analysis cuz we literally got 2 shots of each of them 🥲

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🕯️Helaena’s visions

I did see quite a few posts saying/implying that we will dive more into Helaena’s visions this season. So I do think it would be interesting to understand that dynamic with her and Aegon when she has them. Like has he matured enough to understand that even though he can’t comprehend his wife, she needs his help OR he still thinks that she is acting idiotic as he did in s1. The leak that said something along the lines that Aegon will first be seen at the council, bored but then is called to attend to his queen could also tie into this. Maybe Helaena isn’t crouching over due to pain of pregnancy ,as some have speculated , but due to the suddenness or pain of one of her visions.

(also I have put a one shot surrounding this in the W.I.P folder along with the thousand others lying there so expect it in about 80 years 😃)

🕯️just them handling being king and queen

this is a pretty vague thing but literally just show them. Just show them getting along, sitting at councils, dragon riding, sleeping in the same room, all before b&c rips everything down. Even one scene of them together handling this can work, in fact just one scene of them being soft with each other would just go to show what it was like and what it could have been like had the war not happened. Just adding more tragedy to their story.

🕯️flashbacks

another pretty vague one. But as I said in this post , I really do think we should have seen them as kids, how they get along and especially their wedding. They could perhaps fit it in, in the episode of the funeral. Aegon or Hela looking back on that day, when things were arguably simpler and their only concerns were stopping Aegon from crying during sex. (IM SORRY, WE ALL KNOW IT HAPPENED)

okay more seriously though, them reminiscing on the past i.e. the day their union was first formed on the day it all broke apart. They as parents should be allowed to feel that grief, with each other and I genuinely hope we don’t get robbed of that. speaking of them as parents though…

🕯️the kids

it is actually so unsettling that half the fans didn’t even realise that they have kids until b&c started being talked about.

Again I beg, SHOW THEM. show them talking to Jaehaerys about becoming heir, how Aegon would go back to his memory of his mother doing the same to him (could also come under flashbacks). Show them trying to stop Maelor to stop crying, show them sitting with their kids at the feast, show them trying to manage their duties as well as their kids.

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but alas it’s just speculation, half of them just wishes. Let’s hope we get some glimpse of their dynamic is season 2 because my god helaegon nation is starving.

[gaykey]

I’m curious, as an og shawol, how do you think the public perception of each member has changed? Obvs they were diff as they grew up but how were those changes seen by fans and general public? i.e. jjong before and after blue night, tae before/after ace, etc. cuz you’ve mentioned before how key esp has been very open recently. I’m a very new shawol but I feel like I can tell the diff when watching old stuff and reading the comments, for example. just wanted to know ur POV :))

hmm, super interesting question anon, thank you.

tbh, i think my view will pretty much be in line with what you've observed. just the way older things are written about shinee, and the way we talk about them now, shows just how much things have changed.

that's another thing to take into consideration.

i was 15 when i found shinee, and i'm 28 now...so, the fandom as a whole has done a hell of a lot of maturing, for the most part, so, that plays a huge part in how we view the boys.

first of all, on a whole, it's mostly interesting to see the shift from talented new rookies, to industry legends in terms of public perception. like, any article that gets written about them nowadays, always has the words, icons, legends, veterans, and i'm just like? yes, but, when did that happen? idk, it feels like the change was a blink sometimes.

shinee, for the longest time, were still so new, and then, it seemed like after view, they really became industry staples y'know? as opposed to the experimental young group they were before.

in terms of the individuals members, hmmm, i think the influx of new fans really plays a part in how they're perceived.

taemin for example

for years, he was the sweet, but slightly weird, adorable, pretty, but very talented, youngest member. i don't know how to describe it? he wasn't irrelevant by any means - he's always stood out to the public whenever he showed off his amazing dancing - but, i don't think people viewed him as an artist exactly. just another idol.

but, since his solo career really kicked off, and super m and stuff, he's become this icon. this paragon of artistry and sexiness. and it's just, crazy when you look back, just how far he's come, and how differently he's viewed now. especially seeing as a large portion of his fans now, never really go to see his awkward stage, or, like, taemin in proper 'shinee's baby' mode.

he's an icon in his own right now. and, i personally, before the last few years as he's really got a chance to take control of his music, didn't realise the level of his creative mind. like, the ideas he has, and conveys with his music??? it's so weird to compare the taemin of 2012, and the taemin of now, in terms of how he's developed his craft.

he stills shows us though, that more than anything, he's a SHINee member, first and foremost. he loves shinee and being in shinee, so much.

jjong, before blue night, i think, was seen as more of a lady killer type? for a little while there. like, maybe because he was the first (and only to this day) member to have a full on dating scandal, people tended to view him as like, the sexy mature one? at least amongst the general public. he was always seen as someone very into music though. that never changed, that was a huge part of how he was viewed. also, the fact that he loved to laugh, and is also a huge dork, which, is a requirement of being in shinee.

blue night, and his solo career though, expanded on that.

he'd matured a lot over the years anyway, and that showed just in his demeanor, but blue night was so personal and so intimate, that it also showed us just how deeply his emotions ran. people outside of the fandom got to know how soft, sweet and passionate he was. his care for people, causes, and standing up for what he believed in. that wasn't something that was often seen from idols, and i think it made people sit up and listen.

he was definitely taken even more seriously as an artist, producer, and general music lover too. i think he was seen as more than just an idol after that. now, we talk about his heart, and his love for music, and his professionalism to describe him, and that time of his life is a huge reason we do.

that change of public perception and also, fan perception is so important. he became so much more open. we got a view into his world, and it changed everything.

minho, i personally think, is the one that has had such a huge change in how he's been viewed, if we're talking like, from debut to now.

there are always a few jokes about how minho was during debut year, but let me tell you, he never used to speak! he was so stoic. it was borderline awkward most of the time. for a little while, i got the vibe that he didn't even want to be there. and now we know that lee soo man told him to act like that, but when i think of the minho then, and the minho we know now?? it's crazy.

people used to just be like 'oooh, he's so handsome, and so serious, so cool!' but that was it. as soon as he broke out of that character, and was more himself, things changed totally.

i mean, people still thought he was handsome and cool, of course, but also, how loud, and funny and dorky, and SWEET he is, as well as his fierce competitive streak.

i think hello baby was a big help in that. minho's genuine love for kids seemed to come out of nowhere, and it's definitely a huge reason as to why we refer to him as choi 'tenderheart' minho now. he's now known for his way with words, his loving and caring heart, and his passion and talent for almost anything he puts his mind to, and his humility and humbleness. minho is seen as the perfect man. the ideal man, as opposed to like, the cool guy.

and then he got really into acting, and he's so GOOD at it. i couldn't have imagined that from the minho then. he's has such a way with emotions and characters and he's such a professional.

what a change from how he was perceived way back then though! it really blows my mind when i think about it.

jinki, ahhhh

well, there's no denying, that a huge thing for him, was his scandal in 2017. we know about ot4 stans, so, yeah, his image was forever changed for them.

overall though, i'd just say again, that jinki's image ahead matured more than anything. he's taken more seriously as a vocalist now i'd say, and more recently as a entrepreneur??

i've already spoken a lot about kibum.

also, his stint on sea of hope made a lot of people fall in love with him i think. his sweet, polite, caring, and soft demeanor (something that's already well established amongst fans) reached a wider audience. plus, more and more people are talking about how unique is vocal is now. it's lovely to see.

he's always been known as the quiet, and kinds goofy, but yeah, i think he comes across as more of a pillar? like, his strength and reliability is spoken about a lot.

he's way more open now. he's always been very direct about what he wants and thinks, but, it's just, more now.

kibum's public perception and fan perception are always so interesting to think about though.

as has been said since the very beginning, he tends to come across as cold, and blunt at first. he's never quite been able to fully shake this image, but as fans know (and those that get to know him better through amasat and ila and other shows) he's actually so soft and sweet and warm, and caring.

he's more than the pretty sassy diva now amongst fans. i mean, he's still that too, but fans look beyond that now. his creative mind and talent are something that people take way more seriously with him. the very fact that all of us had such high expectations with his comeback, shows just how highly he is regarded.

i think key is seen as like, a true entertainer and professional now, by the general public. like, he just, has that all-rounder status. he's good at everything, and you expect a high standard of quality when it comes to anything he does now.

whew, this got long, and i'm hungover af, so i apologise if i rambled a bit, or didn't make total sense lol.

thank you for this message anon x

[katpapple]

A Test of Courage

A Test of Courage

A Banri x Kat fanfic

This is a self ship fic, uwa. Hope you like it! qwq

Focus was drawn to the tv screen as the competition occupies his attention. Well, most of it anyway. Banri’s brow furrowed, his eyes narrowing with a frustrated growl. Itaru on the other hand had a completely stone faced expression, magenta irises honed in on the fight as he won the match once again. The younger man let out a sigh of defeat, rubbing his temples in small circles.

“Dammit…” He muttered. Banri’s skills were rusted. Though they shouldn’t have been; he practiced fighting the character Itaru was good at with her, after all. What was causing him to feel so distracted? His mind was drifting all over the place to so many different thoughts, but it always went back to those smoky blue eyes - that rosy cheeked smile - and those wavy blond locks. The image left a lasting imprint, one that was shaking him to the core. 

“Wow, your game was off today,” Of course Itaru noticed. “Alright, spill it. What’s going on?” And go figure he would want to know what’s on Banri's mind. This made the Autumn Troupe leader groan as he was trying to find good wording.

“It’s nothin’. Must be an off day for me.” Yeah, no kidding. He was just reiterating Itaru’s point. It wasn’t that he didn’t want to talk, it’s just that the words were escaping him. He didn’t wanna sound like a fool that wasn’t making any sense. Though right now, it felt like nothing was making sense to him. Why did he feel this way again?

“You like Kat a lot, don’t you?”

“Huh?” The brunette took a glance at the man sitting next to him.

“I think it’s pretty obvious at this point that you like her in a romantic sense. Your expressions seem so much more soft and doting around her. Plus, Kazunari said you two eat lunch together more often at class now.”

Shit. Banri’s cover was blown. Light brown strands were slicked back through his fingers as he tried not to keel over from the blatantly humiliating callout from Itaru. Now he remembered why he was so off today. It was Kat; She was all Banri could think about right now. He thought about playing it cool, feigning ignorance, but that wouldn't work. Not when Itaru knew him well enough to pick up on his mood just from his performance when gaming. A disgruntled sigh left slightly chapped lips, and Banri rested his chin in the palm of his hand.

"I don't know what it is about her, but-" He paused. "Whenever I'm near her lately, I kinda freeze up and I can feel my face getting warmer." Honestly, it pissed him off a little. He thought he sounded so stupid; getting this flustered around a girl he'd known for about a year now made him feel like some sort of protagonist from a romance anime. Even now, he felt his face rise in temperature, and he could deduce that his cheeks were definitely flushed. God, he felt so hopeless.

"Wow." A reaction that caught the young man off guard.

"The hell do you mean by that?" The question caused Itaru to chuckle, a smile decorating his face with mischief.

"Sounds to me like your life's not in super ultra easy mode anymore, am I right?"

The worst part was that Banri couldn't disagree.

"Ha ha, very funny Itaru," He replied in a mocking tone. "Though, I ain't gonna say that you're wrong. Cuz you're not."

"Well, if I'm not wrong, what's stopping you? Are you scared of rejection?"

"Ha! Scared of rejection? I'm Banri goddamn Settsu," He said that with a smile that so painfully indicated he was scared. "I can bet if I confessed to her right now, she'd be-"

"Banri, I know you're lying." That sentence… Why did it cut so deep? It shouldn't. It was true, of course, but the fact he wasn't able to get away with it made him feel like a deer in the headlights. An anxious pang in his chest only grew as Itaru continued.

"Just like always, you're afraid of losing. Typical Banri mannerisms for you, I guess." 

"A'ight, ya don't have to rub it in, bastard…" Both men let out soft laughter. Though Banri's was born out of fear. It pulsed in his heart, every scenario in his head playing out with the worst possible outcome. These feelings of longing- of teenage anxiety- of a racing heartbeat and lovesick laughter- all of it was so foreign. So exciting. Yet all the same, incredibly terrifying.

"It's just… she's such a cool person, y'feel me?" Banri started. "I mean, she's smart, she's kind, and so freaking talented on stage. And whenever I see her smile and gush over something she loves, her face lights up and it's just so fuckin' cute." At that moment, he snickered, looking at Itaru eye to eye for the first time in that conversation. "And, shit, don't get me started on how her occasional moments where she gets a bit flighty and airheaded make me so damn happy. Like, she can be so mature and caring, but also a bit of a klutz who doesn't always think things through, but also super passionate and energetic, just-"

"Your perfect girl, right?" Banri nodded in agreement with Itaru's statement. In all senses, to Banri, Kat was perfect. Even with all the little flaws and quirks, like her occasional bursts of temper, the way her face flushed tomato red when embarrassed, it was all lovely to him. The two of them got along so well, but he remembered that it’d be likely she’d just like to be friends. 

“I wanna tell her. I want her to know how much she makes me smile, man. I want her to know how god damn beautiful she is. But I don’t wanna make things awkward between us either, y’know?” This elicited a tired look from Itaru.

“Dude, it’s gonna be awkward within the first stages of dating anyhow. Better to tell her and at least get your feelings out and face rejection rather than keep going down this back and forth with yourself.”

“Well how the hell am I supposed to do that?!” The blonde shrugged.

“Meh, I dunno. Never dated anyone so I’m useless in that department.” That just turned Banri’s frustration into desperation.

“At least give me something, dude!” An eye roll from Itaru.

“Look, the best advice I can give is ask to talk to her and see where things go from there. Tell her how you feel about her. Y’know, regular confession stuff.”

“Guess that’s a start…” That unfortunately didn’t do much to settle the nerves from the realization that- oh no- he had to confess to the woman he’s slowly grown to pine for this past year and a half. This wasn’t going to be easy, he knew that for sure.

The next morning makes itself known to Banri from the sun’s rays tickling his face, and the absence of Juza’s snoring. It was the weekend, so he didn’t really have anything to do. Accept… he DID have something to do. Something he desperately didn’t want to do, but wanted to do at the exact same time. He could smell breakfast from his room. Pancakes and bacon. It distracted him from the nervous sensation in his stomach.

After a quick shower, he walks down the stairs, sleep still leaving him in a daze as he reaches the dining room. Pretty much everyone was here, save for Itaru and Masumi who were sleeping in. Kat was on the couch, sketchbook in her hands as she waited for Omi to finish breakfast. She looked up from the paper in Banri’s direction, and gave him a soft smile that melts him into a puddle of happiness.

“Morning, BanBan.” BanBan. A nickname she gave him that she used for some lighthearted fun. It caught him off guard, and he thought it was silly, but after a while, he really grew to love it. It was a nice little term of endearment to the both of them. Though mainly, she was too cute to say no to. Her laughter whenever she used it was enough to get him to laugh along from how infectious it was. Banri sat next to his fellow classmate, and gave a half smile in return.

“Mornin’ Kat. Good to see your face. Always brightens my mood.” A light giggle and a faint hint of blush on those already rosy red cheeks caught Banri’s attention. 

“Aww, look at you being all sweet and charming today. Who are you, and what have you done with Banri?”

“Pfft, wow, rude.” The two of them laughed quietly so as to not disturb everyone else. Lord knows Sakyo would be up their asses for it later if they were too loud. “For the record, I’m nice and charming all the time. I’m Banri Settsu after all.” That got Kat to snort.

“Oh my god, that’s so corny, I love it.” Banri chuckled at that. 

“Yeah, it was, my bad.” Then the fear returned. He could hear his heart beating like a hammer, and his hands quivered ever so slightly. “Hey uh… after breakfast, could I tell you somethin’ at the park?” Kat raised her brows inquisitively.

“Huh? Oh, sure!” On cue, Omi called everyone to the dining room. Breakfast was ready. Kat set down her drawing supplies, and made her way to the table, Banri following suit behind her. Today’s breakfast was simple, pancakes, bacon and hard boiled eggs. Kat smiled happily; they were some of her favorite things to eat for breakfast.  Banri sat across from her, the both of them eating in silence aside from occasionally joining in for small talk with others at the table. Though Banri had a hard time eating at all. The anxiety from what he would have to do later made his appetite seem smaller today. He excused himself after only finishing about half his plate, which surprised everyone at the table. He gave a quick tap to the young woman’s shoulder. 

“Just meet me there, ok?” A nod accompanied by a hum of confirmation from Kat was Banri’s cue to leave. His shoulders tensed up as he left, putting on his shoes before starting a jog to the park. The whole time he ran, he could feel his resolve waver more than it already was. ‘What if it isn’t worth it? What if she’ll feel uncomfortable?’

‘What if we’ll never be the same after this?’

It scared him so bad. And it manifested into tears threatening to spill and pour down his cheeks. His mouth felt dry, his breath laboured as he sprinted frantically to the park, stopping in his tracks at the park’s fountain before it all broke loose. Choked sobs left him as he tried to catch his breath. His lip quivered as tears rolled down his cheeks. Banri tried to collect himself, wiping his eyes and nose, and steadying his shaky breath. This break in confidence made him feel so stupid. He felt ashamed for being so afraid. He felt even more stupid because he knew Kat would ask what’s wrong. He didn’t want her to worry. He wasn’t used to it. His parents never paid much attention; he was perfect at everything. Right now though, he was far from that supposed perfect man he was. He was vulnerable; he was second guessing himself. If Kat saw him like this - all clumsy and anxious over a confession - what would she think of him? 

“Banri?” That voice made his heart sink. He felt like he was in such deep shit right now. His blood ran cold, but his face was red from crying.

“Banri, are okay? Oh god, were you crying?” Her worried tone made Banri feel so secure, but it was so odd to him. The young man wanted to brush it off, say it was nothing, but that was a lie he knew she’d see through. ‘Fuck it,’ He thought. ‘Might as well follow through on what you told yourself you were gonna do Banri.’

“Yeah, uh… I was.”

“What’s wrong? Did something happen?”

“Nah, nah. Well, I mean- I guess? I just- I dunno, I kinda got something on my mind and it’s really stressin’ me out.” A hand came to Banri’s back; a reassuring touch to let him know he was ok. 

“Do you wanna talk about it? I’m always here for you, BanBan.” That smile that followed her words felt so warm and welcoming. And the way she said ‘BanBan’ was so different from any other time she said it. In most instances, it was used to joke around with him when they were messing around being idiots together. Here, it was affectionate, and born of concern for her friend’s well being. Somewhere in his heart, Banri felt it wasn’t ok to be open with her despite her reassuring he could tell her. But right now, he didn’t care about his worries. His brain was silently screaming at him right now to get it out, to just go for it even if you two just stay friends. That was ok with him. It may be a bit awkward for a while if she doesn’t reciprocate, but that wouldn’t change how much he liked spending time with her as a friend to begin with. Worries be damned, he supposed it was at least worth a shot.

“Yeah, thanks.” Deep breaths. In and out. “So, I’ve kinda debated back and forth since the last week or so whether or not I should tell you this, cuz I didn’t want to ruin our friendship. But I wanted to tell you how I feel about you, cuz I have a lot on my mind about a lot of stuff. Ever since we started hanging out over the past year, I’ve kinda started to feel really anxious around you. My heart races, my face gets all red and shit, and I start losing my words.  I really don’t wanna beat around the bush with this but I- I really like you. Like, romantically.”

Silence. It hung over for about a couple seconds, but to Banri it felt like a fucking eternity. At this point one could drop a pin and it would be heard that was how silent it was at that moment. But shock filled the young man’s sapphire eyes when Kat took his hand and held it. She cast a little glance, before looking away with a timid smile. She looked like a blushing bride. Banri didn’t know what to do he was so nauseous from the anxiety, but somehow, gently reciprocating the touch felt so natural and normal. Their eyes finally met, and Kat had a really goofy smile. It was lopsided, and one could tell she was happy but also really nervous. Her face was red, which was unsurprising given she’d get like that when she’d be caught singing by the other company members.

“Y’know, I uh… I’ve kinda wanted to tell you the exact same thing so I’m like, really happy right now.”

“Wait, really?” Kat nodded fervently.

“Yes! Y-Yes I- God, I’ve felt so scared too cuz I really didn’t wanna make things awkward between us if you didn’t feel the same way, But you’re just really fun to be around, you’re really handsome, and I love watching you act cuz you try super hard, and it makes me wanna try just as hard too! A-And I really wanna make you as happy as you make me, so… um…! Yeah, I-I really like you, like, a whole lot!”

Banri’s eyes widened in awe. Was this real? Was this a dream? He wasn’t sure, but a big smile spread across his face, and he started to laugh in relief.

“Holy shit, can I hug you please?” She nodded, and Banri hugged her so tight. He felt so happy. It may have been silly of him to cry tears of joy, but nonetheless he did. Just when he thought the tears had dried up, the euphoria made all the emotions rise up to the surface again. He pulled back to look at Kat, and she was crying too. Looks like she was just as scared as well. It made him feel a little better about everything. Banri tenderly brushed his thumb across her cheek, wiping away her tears.

“God, I knew you were adorable, but do you have to have such a cute smile?”

“What can I say? I guess I’m like your little ball of sunshine.”

“You’re damn right about that,” Banri placed a featherlight peck on the cheek. “I love you so much, Kat.”

“Love you too, Banri.”

Those words made him happy. So, so happy. Right now, time stood still. He wanted to stay like this. To stay close, in a warm embrace, pressing gentle, nervous kisses to each other’s lips. And right now, in this little moment, they would stay like this for at least half an hour. Banri vowed to himself, as they both stayed comfortable in that blanket of love, that he would make her so damn happy. Lucky for him, he was already well on his way.

[alifeasvivid]

Could you please do 50? 🙏😭

Arranged marriage, I’m adding 80) Green-eyed epiphany and also making it cardverse-ish and omegaverse… with a slight twist. (it’s got a cut cuz it got long)

From the time he’d been old enough to understand the concept of marriage, Prince Alfred has known that he will marry Arthur Kirkland, son of a high ranking Spadian aristocrat, four years older than Alfred, and an alpha.

The arrangement is a begrudging one on the part of Alfred’s parents, the current King and Queen of Spades. Arthur’s family has been… rivals of the royal line for many generations and given that both Alfred and his younger brother Matthew were born omegas and their mother cannot have anymore children, Alfred’s betrothal to Arthur represents a radical shift in power in Spades and insurance that the shift will be… peaceful.

The deal was struck when Matthew’s nature became apparent–when Matt was four and Alfred was six. Alfred and Arthur have seen each other many times over the years, but only by way of glaring at each other from across the room at royal and state functions and no effort is made by anyone to convince them to “get to know each other” or some such nonsense as the blood spilled between their families is cold and bitter and ancient.

For his part, Arthur is thrilled at the prospect of becoming King of Spades and restoring his family to their rightful place. He only wishes Alfred weren’t so tiresome. As they get older, Alfred becomes very beautiful and Arthur thinks he might even be more so if he’d stop pouting and whining for ten bloody seconds.

The wedding is set to take place on Alfred’s eighteenth birthday, so a year prior to that Arthur is moved into the palace. He shadows the King often and is now encouraged to spend time with Alfred, who still wants little to do with him although the omega prince can admit, privately, in his own mind and maybe to Matthew, that Arthur actually grew into his absurd eyebrows and wouldn’t you know? his eyes are a very striking green. His face is handsome in the right angles and his voice is soft and steady, but he just says the stupidest, dickish things. Typical alpha.

The more Arthur gets to know Alfred, the more he thinks Alfred will make a very good co-ruler, if an unwilling spouse… which is really a shame because Alfred only becomes more beautiful as Arthur gets to know him and their children would–ah but Arthur only follows that line of thinking all the way through when he’s alone at night.

Alfred continues to resist, resentful of Arthur and his family and everything that they are trying to take from his. The marriage is essentially a coup and while Alfred does actually trust Arthur, he doesn’t know if he trusts Arthur’s family not to hurt his.

Six months before the wedding, an “engagement” party is thrown for the supposed couple. Alfred stands off to the side and sulks as much as he dares; even if Arthur looks really, really good in his fine clothes despite the fact that he’s actually a tad awkward amongst the crowd, many of whom are trying to gain political favor and he glances over in Alfred’s direction a few times, almost looking a bit lost. Alfred could help, he’s better at charm and winning people over, but instead he rebuffs Arthur’s gaze every time and definitely doesn’t feel bad about it in the slightest. Because it isn’t as if Arthur has ever hurt Alfred or even threatened to. He hasn’t even been outright mean or cruel since they were both much younger and he’s clearly matured since then. He hasn’t even raised his voice to Alfred in the entire six months he’s been living in the royal palace. He’s actually quite gentle and nice and has such an absurd sense of humor.

So Alfred shouldn’t so surprised by his own visceral reaction at seeing Arthur dancing closely, very, very, very closely, with another omega. The tightness in his chest nor the churning of his stomach should shock him but they do.

Alfred hides and tries to reconcile this reaction and the fact that he has imagined Arthur during his last three heats, only two of which occurred after Arthur came to live in the palace with how stubborn he has always been and the very real concern he has surrounding their families’ history.

Drama! Romance! Political Intrigue! Cardverse on its head! XD …or something.

[haechanluvr04]

ROYALTY!BTS

I’ve been daydreaming about this recently

Kim Namjoon

. Commander in the army of the Kim kingdom

. Close to the king

. Also Jin’s personal bodyguard

. Came from outside the kingdom and was born into a poor family

. Taken in to train because the commander at the time saw potential in him

. They saw him hunting in the woods for animals (since his family couldn’t afford to buy meat)

. Very educated in literature and the arts

. Has billions of poems that he’s too unconfident to publish that he reads to Jin

. Has had eyes on the king’s sister princess Jisoo ever since they were young (she kinda has eyes for him too)

. Jin’s keen on getting her married now

. Finds fairytale book fascinating and often reads them in his spare time

. Favourite book is beauty and the beast (cuz Belle reminds him of Jisoo☺️)

. Master at fencing and currently teaching prince Jungkook

. DIMPLESSSS!!!!!

. His friendly aura naturally makes him popular in the kingdom and has all the ladies in the palace swooning over him

. Mistakes all the attention he gets as a bad thing

“Every time I walk past all their heads turn, I can’t help but feel judged”

. Jin doesn’t help

“Omg yeah they all think you’re a massive twat especially Jisoo”

Kim Seok Jin

. King of the Kim empire

. Father passed away making him the youngest king in the region

. This leads onto him believing that he’s too inexperienced and not fit enough for the throne

. Prefers when people call him ‘highness’ or ‘sir’ since the thought of being king still terrifies him

. Often takes trips to the Jeon empire to ask for advice and build strong bonds

. Even though he thinks he’s unfit to rule the people and well-being of his kingdom have benefitted massively since he was crowned

. Would’ve found joon and jisoo’s relationship cute if he was a prince from another kingdom but considers him his brother

. Which is why he finds it gross and incestuous

“You know I could throw u in prison if you two get married”

. Speaking of gross - can’t stand his cousin

. Thinks he wastes resources throwing all these extravagant parties but at least he isn’t doing nothing

. He’s known far and wide for his kind hearted ness and stunning good looks

“You know, joon, they call me worldwide handsome now”

“Who? The voices in your head”

Park jimin

. Wealthy noble living inside the palace

. Jin’s childhood bestie

. Mother was a dancer which explains why he grew up alongside Jin and joon

. Whore for Masquerades and Balls

. Helps Tae organise all the palace events even if it’s just a tea party for Jisoo and her friends

. Has met and danced with Hoseok unknowingly many times

. Knows it’s him but doesn’t know it’s hobi if that makes sense (cuz of the masks)

. Aggressive gay for hobi

. Father always used to push him to be manly which is why he became a dancer to directly rebell

“Who cares if I’ve never touched a sword in my life, at least I’m prettier than half the people in this kingdom”

Kim Tae Hyung

. Cousin to the king

. Close with Jimin

. Ran away from his parent’s home cuz they wanted him to have an arranged marriage

. People assume he’s afraid of commitment but he actually finds marriage sacred and believes that one day he’ll find the right one

. Now living in the palace permanently temporarily

. Believes you should value the finer things in life - hence all the parties

. Finds Balls a great way to meet new people from outside the kingdom

. Always hopes that he will find his soulmate

. Sadly doesn’t, but he knows they’re out there

. Has a keen eye for Jewellery and is planning to open a business as a way to show gratitude to the king

. Also like Jin he’s been getting a lot of attention recently not only for his parties but for his angelic appearance

“Jin, please let me throw another Ball, pretty please!”

“ITS LITERAKKY BEEN A WEEK!”

Min Yoon Gi

. Adviser to prince Jungkook of the Jeon empire

. Kinda like a manager for jk

. Takes him to various events and kingdoms to teach him how to behave when he becomes king

. Used to be a musician for the palace until jk’s 16th birthday when he was appointed adviser at his practice coronation

. Grew up with Hoseok as they were both in the choir when they were boys

. But then puberty.......and hobi joined the army

. Skilled in fencing but gets carried away when he’s teaching jk which is why he prefers to be taught by joon

. Slight drinking problem?

. Calls it acquired taste

. Says he can tell the difference between red and white wine by the sound

. Actually maybe he was drunk.....or a genius

. Jk never listens to him even though he’s his fricking adviser

. But he’s still maturing and he has a soft spot for the young prince anyways

. Has faith that he’ll be a great ruler

“Whatever you do Jungkook, don’t ride that horse”

“.......I think I’m gonna ride that horse”

Jung Ho Seok

. Knight and personal bodyguard of prince Jungkook

.LITERALL KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR

. Appointed personal bodyguard at jk’s 16th birthday

. Super super loyal to the Jeon empire

. Would die for the jungkook in an instance

. Often doesn’t think before he does things which is why having yoongi working with him is useful

. They work in a weird yin-yang kind of relationship

. Can be very damaging helpful for the prince as he’s learning

. Very skilled with knives and bows and arrows making him look really cool in front of the prince

. Extremely caring, always asks jk if he’s alright when he’s protecting him

. Radiant smile never fails to make jk feel better when he’s upset

. Also a very keen dancer and he always takes jk with him to every ball the Kim empire throw

. Bonus cuz he gets to see jimin and jk gets to hang out with joon

“Look at it this way, yoongi, by taking Jungkook to this ball, not only am I enhancing his social skills but I’m also showing him how to behave when he has to throw his own parties in the future, everyone wins”

Jeon Jung Kook

. Prince and heir to the Jeon empire

. Basically being raised by yoongi and hobi for these past few years, he’s grow a lot more confidence, but that doesn’t neglect the fact fact that this boy is still shy shy shy

. Idk if hanging around 1 and a half crackheads helps boost your confidence but whatever floats your boat i guess

. Never really being able to talk or trust anyone growing up lead to his timid nature

. However this gives him a strong sense of sympathy and understanding, never hesitating to help someone in need

. Enjoys painting outside and horses🤠

. Horse girl

. Looks up to Namjoon a lot since he’s really smart, good looking, can fight, really cool etc. hobi gets highkey pissed every time he starts talking about joon

. He also looks up to him because that’s what he considers a great ruler, and Namjoon is who he aspires to be

. Found yoongi annoying at first, telling him what to do and what not to do

. Only started listening after that horse he told him not to ride kicked him in the dick

. Didn’t believe Hoseok was a real knight until he saved him from two kidnappers disguised as guests at a ball they were at

. His prejudices only fueled his love for the two of them now

. Yoongi taught him to be well mannered, cultured, respective, and honest

. Whereas Hoseok taught him how to survive with only a dagger and his hope

. The combination of the two couldn’t make up for a better king

“Would you like some free samples”

‘Yoongi would kindly accept them and eat but hobi would drop kick this grandma and dispose of the poison’

“I’m actually a vegan, I can’t eat blueberries”

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #225

“i tried to write your name in the rain, but the rain never came.”

How many times a day do you check your cell to see if you have a text? Considering my dumb phone doesn't let me know I have texts half the time, I do multiple times throughout the day. Ever wonder if the person you hate will become the person you marry? HA HA YOOOOOOOOOOOO SARA AND I DID AND NOW I DEADASS WANNA MARRY HER TOMORROW How many times a day do you wash your hands? It varies. After I use the bathroom or if I'm about to touch food. You walk in on your parents smoking pot, what do you do? lol h u h How old were you when you had your first crush? Hell if I know. I do remember as a young kid though, I was very much "ew boys no thnx." Maybe like... 5th grade? When was the last time you asked God for something? A long, long time ago. Your opinion on smoking: Just don't, dude. It's money going towards gradual suicide. No one likes the smell. You sure won't like how it affects your body. It's an addiction/it's stressful to stop. I'm not gonna like, judge you if you smoke, but nevertheless, I'll tell anyone it's an awful idea. Make love or fuck? It depends on the mood. I was more into the former mood back when that even applied to me, though. Have you ever cried so much over something that later felt like nothing? Oh, I can assure you I have. The last time you were afraid of the dark was: I'm not really scared of the dark, but one time I got up semi-recently in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, and after one incident, I was so, so careful and nervous to step on Bentley's tail. He lost his fucking mind on me when I did it once, of course on accident. The TV was off by this point, so I couldn't see well at all. I love having a dog that fucking scares me. How often do you say I love you to your parents and mean it? A whole lot. Your boyfriend/girlfriend say they can’t hang out & it’s been two weeks. You? I mean sure, it sucks, but if they're legitimately busy, they're busy. Have you ever wanted a wild animal for a pet? If yes what animal? I had a phase where I really wanted a fox, and now I am DEAD serious about fostering opossums at some point. When you go to sleep, do you have to have white noise or silence? SILENCE. Though I don't really get /total/ silence 'cuz I have to have my fan on. My room's always hot. Have you ever gotten in a fight with a teacher? No. Ever had a creepy dream about a teacher? No. Where were you when you had your first sleepover? Your house or a friends’? I believe I was at my then-best friend's house. I had suuuuch bad separation anxiety from my mom that I know I was older than most kids who did. What are you limits for doing stuff for money? I'd never do sexual favors or seriously hurt someone for it. Is there someone you are mean to all the time for no reason? No. I'll admit I'm typically rather short with Bentley, but Jesus, do I have reason. When you think of love what’s the first that comes to mind? Sara. How do you calm your mind and find peace when you are stressed? My best bet is going to sleep; that's pretty much, usually, my reset button. Have you ever given someone flowers? I gave Jason flowers once or twice. I gave my mom some for Mother's Day as a kid. How often do you get on Facebook? A couple times a day... mainly just to see memes lmaoooo. What day of the week is usually your busiest day? Good Lord, Tuesdays. I'm at school for 13 hours. Mostly sitting in the library waiting for classes, but. I do study a whole lot, though, and it's when I get a bunch of schoolwork done. Is there a place that you will never return back to? Idk. When was the last time that you created a PowerPoint? I'm actually working on/off one for FYS 'cuz we have to do this "Lifeline" thing where we introduce ourselves and give our stories. Guess who's not fucking ready. Do you like group work? NO. NO. Particularly if it's with people I don't know. Do you have any stickers on your laptop? No. Is music or the TV on while you complete this survey? I'm listening to Chase Holfelder's cover of "Kiss The Girl" rn. Does your grass need cut currently? No. Do you listen to Nirvana? Occasionally. What color are the doors in your house? White. Have your friends ever not wanted you to be with someone? Probably. What is your favorite use for whipped cream? I hate that stuff. What is your favorite flower? Orchids. And your favorite nut? Ew no thanks. Can you curse in a foreign language? Of course I know "fuck" and "shit" in German lmao. Are you fond of spaghetti? Hell yeah man. Have you ever played in the mud? I sure did zoom through it on my bike as a kid. Do you remember what your first real relationship felt like? That relationship ultimately led to PTSD, how could I possibly forget. Who can make you happy no matter what? Sara, Mark, and Game Grumps are particularly good at that. How tall are you? 5'4.5'' Are there any animals near you? No, I'm at school rn. Do have a lot of lists? No. Are you a godparent? No. Do you sleep too much or not enough? Eh, it depends on the day and my mood. Have you ever gone a full day without interacting with another person? Yep. How many relationships have you been in that lasted less than a year? Four. Where were you going the last time you were on a train? Never been on one before. Do you think having a bad temper is a sign of immaturity? I mean, no? It's an interesting question and I guess a "maybe," but. I feel this depends on the trigger. Have you ever been significantly more physically fit than you are now? I was a fucking yoga master babe in 9th grade, fuckin fite me. When growing up, did your parents keep the house very tidy? I guess? It wasn't dirty. How many watches do you own? Zero. Are there any ways in which you greatly differ from everyone else in your family? Political views, I guess? Or the fact I'm bi? I only know of one person in my extended family that's gay. Should teenagers be allowed to have their cell phones with them in class? No shit? Emergencies are a thing? BUT, respect the teacher, please. I cannot stand people using their phone in class, especially here in college. You're paying a shitload to learn. Spend that time as you're supposed to. Take education seriously. If your phone's on vibrate for said emergency situations, that's cool. Do you have any gay relatives? Lol oh. Yeah, Mom has a cousin. Have you ever had to have a pet put down? Yeah. Have you unfollowed, deleted, or blocked anyone on social media recently? I deleted my sister's mother-in-law in fury over her homophobia because I've seriously had it, then just a few days ago actually I went through my Facebook list deleting people I just didn't really feel connected to/didn't really care to follow their journey anymore. How many cups of coffee do you typically drink per day? Zero. Do you know what your vocal range is? It's not broad. I'd say I'm probably in a rank slightly lower than most women. What’s the biggest financial mistake you’ve ever made? I've never really been in the position to be capable of that. I've never had a source of income. If so, what sub-genres of metal do you like the best? Probably heavy. Or symphonic, though I haven't found too many artists in that sub-genre that I really enjoy. But BOY, when I do? I will BINGE that shit to the ends of the earth. Have you ever turned down someone who didn’t handle the rejection well? Ha ha oh man, I remember in 4th grade, this kid Nick was desperate to date me. It was endearing and cute, but he asked kinda obsessively. Then jfc, when I broke up with Tyler, you would've thought I was Jason and he was me, holy shit. How large is your largest scar, and what is it from? Well, I can't see it, so I actually don't know. I guess kinda long, but not wide. It's from a cyst removal surgery. Who was the last person you sincerely thanked? Omg, my Writing teacher. She really liked my writing on my essay. I was so flattered. When was the last time you went for a walk? Like, just a casual walk for the sake of walking? Not since I was at Sara's last. That was when my muscle atrophy was starting to get extremely bad though and I was very close to death omg. Have you ever been in a relationship where there was a large difference in maturity levels? I don't think so. When cooking a meal, do you clean up as you go or wait til you’re done? I don't know how to cook. Do you develop crushes easily? NO. I am soooooo romantically picky. What’s the longest you’ve ever stayed as a guest at someone’s house? A month or more with Colleen after we were evicted. That was a really good time, honestly, regardless of how we feel about each other now. I don't think anyone's done something so selfless for me, and we really did have fun. How bad was your acne when you were a teenager? I'd say it was normal for someone that age. Do you like salsa that has fruit in it? NO. Do you think stained glass windows are pretty? Hell yeah. That was my favorite thing about the church I grew up with; Catholic churches tend to truly have incredible stained glass. Are you scared of snakes? Nope, snakes are Baby. Have you had your wisdom teeth removed? No; I only have two, and I just slightly have enough room for them. Do you like hard or soft pretzels better? I strongly prefer soft. Have you ever been carded when buying something? Yes. Do you eat meat? Regretfully. Can you sleep with the light on? NOOOOOOOOOO. I have to truly be exhausted. Have you ever broken a bone? No, but I did fracture my wrist as a kid. Have you ever made ice cream in chemistry class? Bitch I wish, tf. Do you use the microwave often? Considering a bitch can't cook, yes. Microwavable meals are the reason I am alive. Have you ever painted a room? No. What’s in your copy and paste? This survey. Do you know anyone that’s painfully, socially awkward? Fuckin ME JFC. How do you usually pose in your pictures? With the left side of my face facing the camera (bc my hair kinda swoops over the right side), and I'll usually smile with my teeth or do a :D face bc at least I look happy instead of high with my squinty-ass eyes. :') Do you know anyone that absolutely freaks out if you try to take a picture of them? um????????? me?????????????? Do you pick on them for it and attempt to take loads of pictures anyway? If someone doesn't want me to take a picture of them, I absolutely don't push them 'cuz I totally get it. How’s your posture? Bad. Have you ever had to take care of a fake baby in family ed? Thank God in Heaven no. I. Would. Have. Raged. ^ were you a good mother/father? N/A What’s your favorite way to wear your hair up? My hair is too short for that. But I generally find french braid buns SO pretty. Have you ever read a ‘banned’ book? Uh, I don't think so. What does your screen name mean? Favorite animal, meerkats, + favorite artist, Ozzy Osbourne. Have you ever had to take a sobriety test? N- no wait. They were mandatory when I've gone to the ER for suicidal thoughts. Do you like movies more if they’re based on actual events? It doesn't really matter to me. What’s the dumbest thing you’ve ever done with your cell phone? Idk, dropped it? What’s your opinion on gold diggers? Selfish, or smart? Both? Uh, I don't think it's exactly debatable to call it selfish... I mean, you're dating for the sake of monetary gain...? What would you do if your bf/gf was hitting on someone else right in front of you? I couldn't even try to picture her doing that, but obviously I'd be uncomfortable and jealous. What’s something you’ve done that you’ve sworn you’d never do? Idk, multiple things. Which ex of yours do you talk to the most? I only talk to Girt. Can you recall the first person you ever drank/got drunk/high with? I drank with family, probably, but I've never reached the point of being drunk, and I've never been high. ^ are you still friends? I mean, I love my family. Have you ever taken someone else’s vehicle without permission? No. What were you doing the last time you were videotaped? *shrugs* Is that something you’d be comfortable uploading and sharing? I don't know what it would be. Which friend wears the same size clothes as you do? Probably none? I don't have many friends to compare to. Is there anyone’s wardrobe that you’d like to steal? UM Suzy Hanson is a B A B E? ?? ? ? ??? I adooooorrrrre her clothing line (Psychic Circle), too, and so wanna buy something. Have you ever been lost in the woods? DARLIN I've watched The Blair Witch Project 2 much for that shit. What did you last stretch the truth about? Idk. Have you ever had withdrawals from something? Caffeine, and then WoW for quite a few months after I stopped playing for like, a year or more. Is there anyone on your friend’s list you know next to nothing about? I know at least one of Mom's friends that I've only met once, and briefly. How old is 'too old’ for you to date? I wouldn't date over 30 (I absolutely stg that has nothing to do with H I S age being 30 lmaoooo). How do you feel about guys in tight jeans? Skinny jeans look good on like, anyone. Favorite hour-long show? Uhhh idk. Well, at least out of the shows I used to like and would be most interested in watching, The Good Doctor. Favorite half-hour show? Meerkat Manor. Most people who’ve slept over at your house all at once? My current house? Just one, I think. Steak or chicken? Chicken. I'm piiiiickyyyy w/ steak. Is flirting really cheating? Yes, if you're clearly not just teasing. What’s something you own that’s /only/ of sentimental value? My pebble from my partial hospitalization program. What’s your choice of chips? Girrrrrllll gimme Cool Ranch Doritos. What song would you use to torture someone? i t ' s  f r i d a y  f r i d a y What is the weirdest compliment you have ever received? Probably that my nose was cute? If someone REALLY fat was upset, and saying how FAT they were, what would you say? First off, NOT say "you're not fat omg ur beautiful." I'M overweight and don't like when people say that. I'm perfectly aware that you're lying "for my own sake," which is sweet, but it's not helpful. Motivate me/the person to improve without being an asshole. Let them know I believe in them, which I do for ANYONE. If I could lose 60-70 pounds in a year, anyone can. What’s the funniest thing you’ve ever heard a kid say? So when I was very little and my mom gave me orange juice, I freaked out because it had pulp in it. And what did I say? "I CAN'T DRINK THAT IT HAS NIPPLES IN IT" look idk don't ask but boy does Mom love sharing that story. A random stranger walks up to you and says 'you’re hot’. You say: Most likely "go away." Possibly "thank you, but please go away." Actually yeah, that's more likely. Like it's flattering to know someone finds you attractive, but yeah, that's just uncomfortable for some stranger to do that. I also wouldn't want to really piss the person off. Do you send messages on Facebook a lot? Definitely not. Almost the only person ever would be Girt. Have you ever gone to a strip club? No. Not my kinda scene. Like I absolutely will not think less of someone who does this, but I just don't like but moreso feel bad for men or women who reduce themselves to their sexual capabilities. Do you like Chinese food over pizza? Hell nah man. Pizza is supreme. What color is your watch? I'm not wearing one. I never do. Do you believe in love at first sight? Absolutely not. Visual attraction, of course that's real, but I promise you dear, you don't love someone upon looking at them. When you eat Frosted Flakes, do you add sugar in it? I hate that stuff. Who’s the biggest hugger you know? Ashley's father-in-law's mom. ... At least I think that's what she is? Do you want to change your name? Nah, it's fine. Have you ever tried to erase someone from your memory? Of course I have.

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[ 365 Days of SasuHina || Day Twenty-One: Time to ___ ] [ Uchiha Sasuke, Hyūga Hinata, Uzumaki Naruto, Haruno Sakura, Inuzuka Kiba ] [ SasuHina, NaruSaku ] [ Verse: Healing Waters and Scorching Flames ] [ AO3 Link ]

Sasuke is a stubborn man. He won’t even make attempts to deny it. If his behavior in the past wasn’t example enough - clinging to his father’s old beliefs, refusing to back down over a war nearly a century old, hunting the Avatar all over the world - then perhaps his bullheadedness now may suffice.

It’s been a number of years since then. Most of them are on the cusp of finishing their second decade, their twenties looming before them. Naruto has been upholding his duties of Avatar well, working with the various nations to continue nurturing the new peace. Sakura is, more often than not, at his side to help ground his sometimes airy ideals. Kiba, what with Akamaru growing old, has retired the polar bear dog companion to a home in the south, but continues to work with the Northern and Southern Water Tribe navies. Hinata, a matriarch of the Southern tribe, works to help her nation rebuild, and both resettle and reintegrate the waterbenders taken captive during the raids.

Sasuke works tirelessly at his brother’s side to help the Fire Nation amend for their atrocities in the war...as well as his personal failings. Sure, he eventually righted himself and helped teach Naruto firebending to help him defeat his father, but that doesn’t erase his actions prior. And he’s nothing if not stubborn. Which means any perceived blight on his behavior needs making up for.

Sakura is just as belligerent. She blows off his ornate apologies with a blunt, “Yeah yeah, you screwed up, you turned your life around...that’s good enough for me. Just don’t go back to your old ways, or I’ll bury you myself.”

He...avoids talking to her for a while after that.

Kiba...stares at him. Squints. Gets up in his face and squints some more. And then accepts his apology. When Sasuke insists he needs to do more, Kiba offers him a job as Akamaru’s caretaker.

Sasuke refuses.

Naruto...he doesn’t even bother with Naruto. The airhead is so happy-go-lucky, insisting they’re best friends despite the past, Sasuke knows there’s no point. If anything, he’d probably just get upset. So, he refrains.

And then there’s...Hinata.

He’s not sure why, she’s just...the hardest for him to approach. She started out as such a timid little thing, but she grew into a fierce waterbender during their time skirmishing. Not to mention she was Naruto’s staunchest defender, what with the crush she’d had on him then. Which meant, when he’d tried to join them, her suspicions and distrust ran the deepest. Eventually it had cooled, and they’d had their fair share of moments that had helped build that trust. But then the war ended, and they went their separate ways.

He still sees her every so often. The group still meets from time to time, usually for political matters. But that also means they’re all busy with their respective tasks, and there’s little time for socializing.

Sasuke isn’t even sure what to say to her. Or if he should say anything at all.

But opportunities do sometimes present themselves...even if it’s in the worst of ways.

It’s yet another meeting of the old team. But this time, according to Naruto, it’s one of pleasure rather than business. No council hearings, no politicians, no schedules...just a rendezvous between five friends.

...that immediately makes Sasuke suspicious.

They find middle ground in the Earth Kingdom, it being the most in need of rebuilding and thus where Naruto spends most of his time, anyway. A cozy cafe in Ba Sing Se plays their host, and Sasuke quickly notices that it’s...oddly empty. Especially given that a meeting of the so-called Team Avatar usually draws a notable crowd of curious onlookers.

...he’s up to something.

Naruto greets them all fondly, full of hugs and handshakes and how-do-you-dos. Soon enough they’re all seated, and Sasuke flickers eyes between them all. Naruto is being extra fidgety. And Sakura looks ready to punch a hole in a wall...not angrily, just...nervously.

Knowing sparks.

“So! Uh...so.” Naruto steeples his fingers, splayed and spinning forward as he tries to find words. “You’re all...you’re all well?”

“Cut the crap and get to the point, Naruto,” Kiba cuts in, leaned back in his chair as it stands on two legs. He pouts, hands woven behind his head. “We all know you’ve got somethin’ to say, so just say it!”

“I, er...well...okay.” The airbender takes a deep breath, releasing it in a gust that flutters everyone’s hair. “So, um...it’s been a long time since we started reparations for...for things. Y’know, the world -”

Kiba groans with a roll of his eyes.

“AND,” Naruto goes on, ignoring him with a side-eyeing pout. “...Sakura and I have been working super hard on getting the world back in working order. And uh...y’know, that means we’ve been...spending a lot of time together, and…”

Suddenly the rest of the table knows what Sasuke already guessed. Kiba’s eyes go wide, nearly tipping back too far and falling over. Sakura bites her lip with a flush in her cheeks.

But Sasuke’s not watching them. He’s watching Hinata.

There was no resolution to their awkward, one-sided affection. At least, not that Sasuke ever heard. She stares straight ahead past them both, expression eerily...blank.

“So, we’ve...we’ve decided to get married! Probably next Spring! Cuz...we’ve still got work to do and all, and we don’t wanna rush things. And of course, you guys are all invited! You’ll be guests of honor! And, uh...yeah.”

Silence.

“...congratulations,” Sasuke offers, tone polite but clearly guarded.

“Yeah man, that’s...that’s great,” Kiba chimes in next, righting his chair with a nervous grin. “We’ll...we’ll definitely be there!”

All eyes seem to move to Hinata.

After a blink, she breaks into a warm smile. “It’s about time,” she replies. “Then again, you have both been very busy. Will it be held at one of the Air Temples?”

The group seems to exchange a glance. “Uh...w-we’re still planning that part! But...maybe! It would just be hard to get all the guests up there...there’s more bison now! They’ve started returning, but...well, not everyone likes flying. Which I’ll never understand! It’s so great! How can you not -?”

“Naruto, you’re rambling,” Sakura cuts in.

“I know, but seriously -!”

As the pair break into some of their typical bickering, Sasuke and Kiba lean in together. “You, uh...you expect that?” Kiba mumbles.

“Not in the slightest,” Sasuke replies. He glances back to Hinata, who just watches the other pair with a weary smile.

“...some things never change.”

With the tension broken, they all manage to have a decent meal, staying well into the evening as Naruto gets more and more rambunctious. But eventually Sakura calls it a night when he suggests showing off a new airbending move inside the cafe .

“All right, it’s late. We need to go.”

“Aww, but -!”

Shushing him with a hand, Sakura smiles - looking a little forced - at her friends. “We’ll talk to you guys later, hm?”

“...right,” Sasuke replies, clearly more than ready to go if Sakura’s temper is in any way awakening. The water tribe members quickly follow as he makes a beeline for the door.

“Well, I’m heading back to the inn...I think I actually ate too much for once,” Kiba admits, lifting a hand as he walks away in farewell. “See you later, guys.”

“Goodnight, Kiba.”

Sasuke just watches him go before turning slightly toward Hinata. “...are you, er…”

“Hm?”

“...are you okay?”

The question earns a startled blink. “...am I...okay…?”

Sasuke almost stops himself, but goes on anyway. “Regarding...all of that. Naruto and Sakura.”

“I...yes, I’m all right. Why…?” Understanding then brightens her face. “...oh. I’m not upset, Sasuke. Well...maybe a small, young part of me is. But...it was made clear a long time ago that Naruto never...saw me the way I saw him.”

“...oh.”

“Besides...we’re all adults now. Our lives are only speeding up.” She gives him a soft, somber smile. “...it’s time to move on. And move forward.”

Something in the bottom of Sasuke’s stomach drops at her expression. It makes her look so...mature.

...so beautiful.

Shaking his head a bit to clear it, he manages to reply. “Yes, er...you’re right. I’m...I’m happy for them. Though if they keep bickering like that, will it really last…?”

That earns a laugh. “I think if it was ever going to be a problem, they’d have left each other a long time ago. There’s something about it, I guess. Not...really what I could ever see myself doing, but it just works for them, I suppose.”

“...yeah.”

They lapse into silence.

“...well, I’m sure Kiba will want to get going early in the morning,” Hinata then offers. “I’d better get some sleep.”

“Leaving so soon?”

“I’m afraid so. There’s still much to be done in the south.” She wilts a bit. “...the raids took their toll.”

The feeling in Sasuke’s gut is replaced with an anxious clench. “...you know, I never truly apologized to you. For...for what I did. Everything that I did.”

“...Sasuke, that’s not -”

“I know you hated me at first, and I can’t blame you. Even all my deeds after the fact have been woefully insufficient. If there’s anything I can do to help make it up to you, just...please let me know.”

She stares at him, expression unreadable.

He stares back, not sure what else to say.

“...you don’t have to apologize.”

“But -!”

“Weren’t you listening? It’s time to move on. That means you, too. You’ve more than made up for your mistakes, Sasuke. The only thing you need to do now is keep making that right choice. Every day. So long as you do that...you have nothing else to worry about.” Another smile curls her lips, this time warmer. More hopeful. “...think you can do that for me?”

...for...her…? Suddenly his heartbeat is echoing in his ears. “...I...I can do that.”

“...good.” Clasping her hands at her front, Hinata gives a small bow. “Goodnight, Sasuke. Hopefully we can see each other again soon.”

“...goodnight.” Sasuke watches her go, the drum in his chest eventually calming as she fades out of sight.

...Sasuke, what are you getting yourself into…?

     Oof...this is very late, I'm so sorry. I had...a very not great evening ^^; But I stuck it out and got this done. Hopefully the quality didn't suffer for my own shortcomings tonight.      I really do love crossing over this group with AtLA. I think they have some very workable parallels that are so fun to explore!      Anyway, I'm going to go sleep off a crummy day. I hope you all had a good one, and thanks so much for stopping by to read~

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Finally He Comes Home, Chapter Four

Title: Finally he comes home, Chapter Four Word Count: 2084 Rating: Mature Relationship: Steve McGarrett x Kono Kalakaua Characters: Steve McGarrett, Kono Kalakaua, Chin Ho Kelly, Danny Williams Triggers: Pregnancy, missing presumed dead 

Kono had been back at work for a while now, her hours varied and with Eve they each took a day off in the week to cover the two days John wasn’t at Kindergarten, Kono having the Monday and Eve the Thursday. Kono loved it because it meant she still got to spend time with her baby boy and it worked well for Eve, even more as she got further into her pregnancy.  Kono had watched Steve come back like he had never been gone, it took a week but he was back running Five-0 like he hadn’t been missing for the last five years. He was living at Danny’s, using his spare room instead of being at the house with Kono and John, whenever she looked at him she saw the look in his eyes was one that made her want to reverse time.

Kono had done a week before she took two weeks leave, the tension whenever both of them stepped into the room unbearable and it left everyone around them walking on eggshells. She knew Danny and Chin made sure they were never alone together and they were never given the chance to be sent out together when a case came up. It wasn’t fair to them and the guilt grew worse the more she knew how much they trying to keep them apart. It shouldn’t have been like this, they should have been happy and now living their life now he was home; but it was the opposite and Kono felt like she was drowning again.

She spent the two weeks at home with John and when John was at kindergarten or with the one of the guys she would take a few moments to herself surfing or reading, or just anything which took her mind off her not so dead husband. Steve had asked through Danny if he could spend time with John, Kono hadn’t been able to deny him and so Danny collected John and would take him to meet his father were they would some time together. She wished she could have been there to see it, the look on John’s face as he finally spent time with Steve. Or the look on Steve’s because she knew how much he had wanted a child before he deployed and now he finally had that. John would come home with tales of swimming and football, shave ice and lunch at Kamekona’s. She felt a touch of jealousy when he came home with these stories, because she wanted to be there, she wanted to be involved, she wanted to be laughing along side John and Steve as they enjoyed their time together. She knew she couldn’t though, this was her punishment, to sit on the sidelines and watch her husband build his relationship with the son he never knew he had because of her. She would accept this punishment, but as she kept telling herself, she didn’t regret not telling him.

The atmosphere hadn’t changed when she returned to work, things were still tense and she knew something had to be done about it. Kono was sat with Chin when they watched Steve come in that morning, Danny not far behind. Kono sighed and Chin frowned. “You need to talk to him cuz.” He spoke quietly, that even and calm that always drove her up the wall. The all knowing Chin Ho Kelly.

“He doesn’t want to talk to me.” Kono answered watching the brunette through the glass as he laughed with Danny who was talking animatedly, clearly a story that was important for so much enthusiasm. “He just goes silent and gets that look on his face which makes me feel like the smallest and most horrendous person in the world.” Kono sighed turning back from the glass and sinking lower into her seat.

“You did what you thought was right at the time, you can’t know whether telling him or not would have made a difference to him coming home or not, however you made the decision you thought was right and it might have taken over four years - but he’s come home.” Kono scratched at her head, couldn’t her cousin just spit it out? “You need to speak to him, you need to get the air cleared between you, if not for us, for John. Because you need to figure out if you’re going to try and make this work between you or not and if not John deserves to know now.” Of course he did. John deserved the world and if she could have given it to him she would have; but Chin was right if her and Steve were not going to work this out then they would have do something soon and get their own lives on track and if needed work out the divorce.

“You’re right, as always.” Kono sighed gripping the bars of her chair harshly as she pushed to her feet, this was a better time than any to start something. “Wish me luck.” She muttered sarcastically striding out of Chin’s office and heading for Steve’s where she had just watched him settle into his seat. She pushed open the door and then watched the humour and light fade from his eyes when he looked up and realized it was her.

“What do you want Kono, we have no case at the minute.” He tone was cool and she flinched the harsh tone of voice. No they had no case, but she should have been able to speak to him regardless if they had a case or not.

“We need to sort this out, because it not fair to anyone around us who has to put up with the tension that is here.” Kono figured there was no point in beating around the bush, he clearly wanted her gone, so she might as well spit it out. “Neither of us are going to give up being apart of this team, we means we need to have each other’s back and right now, I can’t be sure you do.” Kono snapped folding her arms firmly across her chest.

“You can’t be serious?” Steve exclaimed leaning back in his chair. “Do you really think that low of me? Do you really think I would let anything happen you regardless of what is happening in our private lives?” Steve’s comment was fair and it made Kono feel worse, because she did know that regardless of what was happening in their lives he would always have her back. She was pushing him, she knew she was pushing him to get a reaction, get some kind of emotion from him to earn herself that, because he had given her nothing over the last couple of days and she hated that.

Kono watched as Steve pushed up of his seat, his chair slamming back into the unit behind his desk, the items on the shelves rattling as she rose. “No I don’t.” She sighed. “I want to sort this, I want to put this right between us and make it right again.” Kono huffed dropping her ass into the chair opposite his desk, leaning forward with her elbows on her knees, her head in her hands. “I know I screwed up not telling you, I know you must hate me for not telling you you’re a father and I sit with that guilt everyday, but it’s not fair for them out there to be treading on eggshells and John as well, if - if we’re not going to be together.” Kono breathed the last sentence, because maybe if he didn’t hear it he wouldn’t agree with her and say that would be the best option.

“I don’t hate you Kono.” Steve’s resigned tone had her looking up as he perched himself on the corner of his desk, his knee bumping against Kono’s forearm. “I just, it’s hard to look past the fact you kept something so big from me -” He raised his hand to stop her interruption. “I know you were doing what you thought best, and I can’t imagine how hard it’s been these last four years raising our son alone.”

“But even if you knew you would have still missed the last fours, you still wouldn’t have been in his life and he wouldn’t have known you. How would it have been fair of me to tell you that I was pregnant, in the small window we spoke no more than a few weeks after I had found out myself?” It wasn’t a whisper, but her voice was quiet as she looked up at Steve. “Why add that extra weight to your mind when you’re out there trying to fight for your life? I know you worry, I know you think of me and the team when you should be focusing what’s happening around you, if I told you and because of that something happened - I would never forgive myself.” Kono explained, it was hard putting what she felt into words and even now she wasn’t sure she quite got across how she had really felt that day.

“But I would have still known and I would have still be able to hold onto that information. You don’t understand what it would have meant to me to know that I had a son to come home too, what it would have done while I was held in a cell twenty four hours a day, seven days a week, I’m good at what I do Kono, I would be dead by now if I wasn’t.” Steve answered, his tone now more amused than anything. “I want to try and make us work, it’s going to take time, but I still love you, I think I will always love you, you just gotta give me time ʻO kaʻu wahine, kaʻu mea aloha.” Kono’s heart flipped and rolled at name he used for her. Hearing it fall from his lips again meant everything to her and it gave her hope, hope that they would eventually sort things out.

“I’m sorry, if I could change it I would, I would.” She repeated, realizing now that actually yes, she did regret not telling Steve and the guilt was as bad as it was because she regretted not telling him she was pregnant when they spoke. She had been in denial with herself for so long that admitting to herself she had been wrong about her choices would have made her worse, would have sent her into a spiral she wasn’t sure she could ever come back up from. “I was wrong, I’m so sorry.” Her voice broke and tears betrayed her, sliding down her cheeks as she looked up Steve who moved quickly as she blinked.

He was crouched in front of her, one hand on her knee and one hand cradling her cheek, his thumb swiping the tears away. “I know.” His words were soft and his tone made Kono cry harder, he should have been harsh, he should have shouting at her telling her she was wrong, telling her she finally seeing sense. His anger she could deal with, she could work with it; but his acceptance made her hurt more, made each breath she took hurt. He pulled her close, Kono tucking her face into to the crook of his neck, she breathed deeply, the scent which was completely him evening her breath. Her arms around his shoulders, willing for it to never be over. His arms folded around her waist, his hands rubbing smoothly up and down her back as she slowly stopped crying. Even though she had stopped they stayed like they were, holding onto each other and just breathing. Kono didn’t want to release him in fear everything would go back to how it was.

“We gotta a -” The door burst open and Danny pushed in obviously not seeing Kono and Steve finally doing something to sort out their relationship. “Shit. Sorry - I’ll -” Steve cut him off, Kono felt him pulling away so she released him and sat back in the chair turning her face away from Danny so she could wiped the damp streaks from her face and put on a semblance of composure.

“It’s fine, we’re coming.” Steve answered for her, she heard the door close and when she looked to Steve who was stood beside her, there was a small smile gracing his features and his hand was extended to her. She took it like the olive branch she believed it was.

[goldenscript]

dad!yugyeom

author’s note: this was a request from @sadradmom <3 i didn’t forget! i was just in the process of writing it ^^

literally them most precious dad ever

kim yugyeom is the most loving, gentle, and playful father ever

much like jinyoung, he has a major soft spot for his children, so even in the hustle and bustle of his life, he will prioritize his kids

the day he found out you were pregnant he was beyond happy and requested the day off just to celebrate and he continued to make time to arrive to your ultrasound appointments (especially these like once he was like 15 minutes late and he looked ready to cry bc he thought he was missing out on the whole thing)

although to be perfectly honest he was also very very very scared because he was worried he wouldn’t be a great dad

all the questions raced through his mind

was he ready? would he even be a good dad? did you want to keep the baby? was he willing to set time aside from his life to do it?

his parents were certainly very surprised to hear the news, asking if he was sure to do this and raise a kid at such a young age

some of his friends were pretty skeptical too

and it deterred him ;;; it made him want to back away a bit, simply because it all made him feel like no one else thought he was ready so how could he be when no one else had faith yknow?

but seeing you, the tears and the quivers of your body was enough

because seeing you at a moment like this reminds him of how much he would rather be the reason you smile and be the reason to see you happy

he knew he loved you and even in this pivotal moment, he knew he loved you even more than he could comprehend and there was honestly no other person he would rather share this moment with than you

it was you and only you

and when he gathered you in his arms and tried to calm the tears, crying along the way, he knew he would be ready

he would be there no matter what it took and he would do his damn best to be the best dad even if everyone else questioned why he was going to do that at such a young age

anyway, you two end up having two boys (dear lord)

they’re about 2 years apart or so ;;;

one of them is damn near the spitting image of their father like personality and everything

the other is a bit more mellow but somehow he picked up yugy’s savageness lmao

he’s almost like their uncle jinyoung……….. rip

back to yugyeom as a dad tho, so when your first son was born, he was right by your side, holding your hand and trying not to be too affected by the fact that you were in so much pain like he hated seeing you that way but the relaxed and teary-eyed expression on his face when he saw his son was the most adorable

holding his son was a living changing moment for yugyeom because that’s when reality set in

this was the bundle of joy he would help you, the love of his life, raise as his own child

looking back on his life, he didn’t imagine this happening but a lot of things happened that he didn’t plan on like meeting you and falling in love with someone who was more precious than life itself and now he has two of those kinds of people in his life

and he lays beside you in the hospital bed, the two of you sharing that moment together with grins on your faces and tears ready to fall because holy shit the moment came

bam took a picture of this moment and when you both received it as a house warming gift, y’all damn near cried again because it reminds you of the proud achieving moment of your son’s birth

since then, yugyeom makes the largest effort to be the best damn dad ever bc you give him the strength to do it and his son too

he’s the kind of dad that hovers, calls you like crazy when you’re away for like a day, and his mom when your son’s sick for the first time

one time when your son was running a fever, he called the doctor at like 3 AM repeatedly until he answered just to double check on the type of medicine and methods to use in order to care for him

eventually he gets the hang of things by the time your second son rolls around and he’s sure he has the whole thing down

he does btw

yugyeom’s like the superdad who will take on more tasks than he probably should and it still winds up being super amazing like for mother’s day he babysat the boys, cleaned, and made dinner while he sent you out on your own shopping spree until he called you back

the boys were all cleaned and doing their own things, leaving you two to have your nice dinner and you were just in awe

even his friends like jinyoung and jaebum were very in awe about how much yugyeom has matured since he last told them about the pregnancy and they always offer to watch the boys

jaebum sometimes teaches them how to do some dance moves and jinyoung hovers in case jaebum wants to try and show off and the boys try to follow in his example

jinyoung’s also always embarrassing yugyeom with pictures and stories and when the boys return asking their dad about the time he broke a vase and almost cried he’s like “lslfhajsghaskjgha tell uncle jinyoung to stop spewing lies pls”

as they get older, the boys love to spend time with yugyeom

he takes them out to the amusement parks and lets them get toys whenever they’re good but he makes sure they aren’t giving you a hard time because he always emphasizes that they need to take care of you and other girls

basically yugyeom makes sure to teach them to respect girls and to help you out if they can

and oh gosh, so one day jinyoung and bambam came over and showed them videos about their dancing friend and the boys wanted to learn just like their dad

you should’ve seen yugyeom cuz he was so proud

on father’s day, you and the boys surprised him with a giant card that said he was the best day ever and you even got messages from his parents in there saying how proud they are of him for being such a responsible father and for having such a beautiful family

even messages from the other members who told him that he really grew up since his first son and

well

yugyeom totally didn’t cry

he cried

when he hears his two sons calling him the best and funnest dad ever, he can’t help but bundle all of y’all together into the tightest bear hug with kisses and thank-you’s

that’s honestly all he’s ever wanted 

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