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feroluce · 6 months ago

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Belobog was my fave main quest but a lot of it is so. Contradictory. It's like they had multiple groups doing different shit and none of them checked in with each other for consistency. And you see this so much in Gepard's profile.

So in the main quest, they made him unfailingly, unquestionably loyal to Cocolia. Gepard's character arc is him learning to question authority etc etc. And this isn't even a bad thing; that's a story worth telling! It makes good conflict between him and Serval! And I love that we got Gepard as a boss battle and I get to see him all the time in SU!

But then you look at his character stories and it's like. The complete opposite.

According to his profile, Gepard has already HAD this awakening, long before the Astral Express, and he'd already decided Cocolia sucks. Even outside of his stories, there's a pretty damning readable between him and Pela.

He even disobeyed direct orders right in front of her- he has been disobeying orders for a while now!

So I've decided I'm marrying the two different sides of this into a 1.5k fic-ish thingy, because I think there's some fun potential there with Gepard not trusting Cocolia, but still having to pretend to be a good obedient little soldier.

Anyway. I love to think of it as like. Gepard knows Cocolia has sunk into her apathy. He can see it in her eyes every time he looks at her. She doesn't care. Not about him, not about Pela, not about all his soldiers on the frontlines giving their lives to protect the citizens. And that's... It makes him bristle a bit, but ok. Gepard can deal with this. Even if Cocolia no longer cares, as long as she does her job then it's fine. Having compassion behind an action doesn't matter as much as the action itself. If Cocolia's heart is no longer swayed, then he'll just have to care twice as hard to pick up the slack. He considers it part of his duty as a captain of the guard anyway. It's fine. Gepard can deal with it.

And then, Cocolia starts coming down to the restricted zone. Issuing direct orders.

And Gepard realizes he is in way over his head.

Because Cocolia orders him to stay back and issue commands from the ramparts, away from all his comrades, away from where he can protect them.

Gepard had thought nothing could be as bad as watching a fellow guard die right next to him. But the first time he watches someone struck by a killing blow, so far away, it hurts. Every defensive scar across his arms itches, his fingers curl in want of a weapon, the cold cannot numb his hands enough as they desperately ache for his shield. It hurts.

Gepard tries to find any reason to stay. Because surely... He knows Cocolia has lost her love for her people, but surely... She wouldn't...

One day, Cocolia orders for their gunners to advance 20 yards. There are no survivors. She almost looks like she smiles.

Gepard doesn't sleep that night.

Pela brings him the report at the end of the first month; and then the month after that, and the month after that. A significant uptick in losses, and all of it started on that first day Cocolia started overriding his authority and issuing her own orders. The ends of Gepard's pens have all been nearly chewed off. Pela outright calls Cocolia an idiot, and Gepard corrects her. Cocolia isn't an idiot. Gepard had known her through Serval, knew her through all her college years and then some, and he knows how intelligent she is. It's not that she's stupid, and it's not that she's inexperienced, it's nothing of the sort.

Cocolia knows exactly what she's doing.

She must, there's no way she could make such a horrible mess of things so badly by accident. And Pela, quick as a whip, sharp as a tack, always too smart for her own good, catches onto the meaning behind Gepard's correction without any further prompting. The tent goes deathly quiet, nothing but the wind howling outside.

"...She's trying to kill us," Pela whispers, her voice swiftly suffocated by the silence.

Gepard swallows. He can't bring himself to correct her this time. There is nothing he could say that he would actually mean.

His gaze drops, back down to his desk and the reports on it. The names aren't listed, just the numbers, but Gepard knows them, knew them, and there must be something wrong, something he's missing, because why, why would she-? What could this possibly accomplish-?

“Gepard! Focus!” Something snaps right under his nose, and Gepard startles, eyes instantly honing in on Pela's irritated face as she leans over his desk. She holds his gaze for a moment before she huffs and begins to pace, wedges a knuckle between her teeth and bites like Gepard hasn't seen her do since cadet school.

Pela angrily strides from one end of his tent to the other, words hissed between her grit teeth. “What are we going to do?” In the dim lighting, Gepard can just barely see the damp spot of blood weeping under her gloves. “We need a plan.”

“A plan?”

“Wh- Yes, a plan! Unless you want more people to die!” Pela rounds on him then, all the wrath of a blizzard, winds roaring and snow sharp enough to cut.

“We don't even know-”

“What does it matter?! She killed-!!” Pela cuts off with a garbled noise when Gepard leaps up from his desk, hastily shoves his hand over her mouth. The prosthetic, not the flesh one, because he knows better than to assume Pela won't seize the opportunity to leave teeth marks in his skin.

“You're right. I'm sorry, I'm sorry; you're right. But you need to keep quiet.” Pela quirks an eyebrow at him and Gepard can read the question in her face. “Because we both saw what she did to Serval,” he hisses.

It's amazing the snow plains haven't thawed out yet, the amount of heat Pela can put behind a glare. The mere mention of Serval, and the smoking ruins Cocolia had made of her life and career, have her bristling up like a riled cat. The sudden hot breath she takes fans fog across his metal skin, and Gepard wisely keeps it in place until Pela finally sighs and reaches up, taps her fingertips against the back of his hand.

The second she's free, Pela bats him away and then her knuckle is right back between her teeth again, Gepard leaning back against his desk with his arms crossed to watch her resume her pacing. “If we spread the word, she'll have us discharged and make sure we can't even touch the frontlines,” Pela's voice seethes like an open sore. Gepard nods but keeps his silence. He knows better than to get in her way.

“And if you and I are both out of the picture, Belobog is fucked.” A little harsher than how he would have put it, but there's no denying that they're both important to the city's survival. Pela has the restricted zone running as efficiently as ever, and Gepard had become the youngest captain on record for a reason. “We need to keep this tight under wraps, at least for now… It can't leak to anyone higher up the chain.” Another nod. “Serval might know other discontents…” Another n-

Gepard's head snaps up. “No.”

“No what?”

“No. We're not involving Serval in this.”

Somehow, even the same tone that leaves entire squadrons shaking in their boots has never worked on her. “You're not deciding that for her, Gepard.”

Pela hadn't seen the worst of it, though, back when his sister had just been banned from the Architects. Serval's pride hadn't allowed it. Pela wasn't the one to find her passed out bottle still in hand, hadn't been the one to wash the sick out of her hair or carry her to bed.

Serval still has trouble thinking clearly when it comes to Cocolia, still can't quite bring herself to be objective. And Gepard maybe doesn't want her to be purely objective- but he would worry a lot less if she thought twice before she acted more often.

“At least let me be the one to bring it up to her.”

“Whatever, fine,” Pela gestures affirmatively at him as she paces past, and Gepard sighs. Good, at least that's one thing he can help.

From there, it's a lot of hemming and hawing and frustration. Cocolia has them under her boot, and Gepard and Pela both know it. Even with the way she's been cracking down on freedoms lately, Cocolia is still, overall, liked by the people. It's unlikely anyone would believe them. They don't even have solid proof, because most people don't know Cocolia as well as they do and won't see the clues in the same light.

The Fragmentum has been ramping up in recent years, too. Everyone is struggling just to survive as is, they can't afford a fight on two fronts. Gepard is a damn good captain, one of the best for that matter. But they're at a massive disadvantage, his experience is narrowed to fighting a defensive battle against monsters, that's all he's ever done. That's all anyone there has ever done. He has no way of finding first-hand knowledge for taking the offensive against a human opponent, and if he goes at this blind, there's no way he'll get everyone out unscathed. He's going to lose people. He's going to lose a lot of people.

He'd never thought before that Cocolia would have it in her to have someone killed. And with this new knowledge, he has no guarantee she won't go after Serval or Lynx if she decides to retaliate.

Gepard has to remind himself to breathe when he realizes this.

Pela writes down every name the two of them can come up with. Lists and lists of names and groups and anyone they can think of who might be an ally in all of this. They memorize every bit of it, make their plans of who to talk to and when. Gepard watches the sparks reflect off Pela's glasses as they burn the evidence together.

Pela finally leaves, far too late to make it home, but says she wants to stay in the restricted zone anyway to investigate. Gepard watches her make her way in the direction of Dunn's tent, watches her back until she's out of his sight and squashes down the urge to follow and keep an eye on her. His tent feels empty.

In the morning, Gepard is up before the wake up bells. He drags himself out of bed, leads his soldiers through their morning training. The same people gravitate to each other everyday. Friend groups and training partners. There's an ongoing rivalry between a few squadrons that everyone bets on. Some of them have lockets around their necks, keepsakes, mementos. Some of them wear wedding rings.

Gepard is suddenly, painfully aware of something acidic clawing at the inside of his throat, of a heavy weight low in his chest that blooms, takes up room until it threatens to spread his ribs. His mouth tastes of bile and blood.

He rearranges the schedules. Puts himself down for every open patrol into the Fragmentum, makes sure he'll be on the frontlines every single time Cocolia visits.

He only hopes that it's enough.

#honkai star rail #gepard landau #hsr gepard #pelageya sergeyevna #hsr pela #hsr #smacking Gepard out of Hoyo's hands and running off with him skzjmdkd #tentatively Figuring Out how to write these two... It feels a little tricky starting out with extreme circumstances like this haha #I feel like a lot of people see Gepard as naive for trusting Cocolia so much but I don't think that's quite it. He's not stupid.#He's not even naive.#He's someone who has been groomed since birth by his own parents to be an obedient Guard and nothing outside of that role.#You are not immune to propaganda etc etc #But even then there are a lot of things like all the included screenshots where he. Doesn't actually seem to like/trust Cocolia much.#I think Serval was a really good influence on him as a kid. He might have turned out much much worse without her.#and even with how I've written him here. I don't think he's normally slow to act or one to stand aside and make other people lead.#it's just that this specifically was a pretty extreme circumstance for him.#and also he openly states elsewhere that Pela is overbearing and he tries not to interfere with her work whenever possible nskzhdjdjd #Pela too. I don't know that I normally see her as someone with a bad temper or quick to anger.#But again; extreme circumstances haha #Bc like. they both would have seen what happened to Serval when she stood up to Cocolia. they know damn well what's going to happen to them.#if they fuck this up and get caught then they're done.#and I mean. What are they supposed to do? they're two people against the highest authority of the entire nation.#regardless I do love Gepard agonizing over this in the future after Bronya takes over and everything has settled down #did he do the right thing? did he make the right choice? if he went vigilante how many soldiers would have died without his protection?#would Belobog have fallen completely? how many people died because he DIDN'T run away? was it actually enough?#I love characters forced between a rock and a hard place. no good options. pick your poison.#no winning- only weighing what you can and cannot bear to lose.#make your choice and decide whether you want to rot or to burn.

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grinchwrapsupreme · 1 year ago

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i'm still reeling at the fact that we got havers back in series 5 like what do you mean he's back at button house??? what do you mean the captain got to see him again???? what do you mean that's his fucking swagger stick???????? ben willbond i'm going to hunt you for sport!!!!!!!!!!!!

#bbc ghosts #bbc ghosts captain #lieutenant havers #anthony havers #bbc ghosts spoilers #ben willbond #them there #six idiots #i fully honestly 100% never expected to see him again #i still think a lot about a post i saw once complaining that people 'didn't get' that havers was a symbol #for a role in the captain's life that was empty #and he wasn't meant to be an actual literal person to ship with him #guess what tumblr user? the bitch came back #i didn't expect it either #oversharing because i have to go to work and i don't want to but #when i was watching the episode i actually paused when it showed us the room with the soldiers #because i saw havers without realizing it was havers #and had to take a breath and be like 'is that him? that can't be him. there's no way that's him. man he looks a lot like him though'#guess who was wrong (it was me)#had to pause several more times in that sequence but the initial shock of seeing him again never really went away

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lieutenantselnia · 4 months ago

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Yesterday I've been doing some proper physical exercise for the first time since last year and I'm just imagining how proud my f/os would be of me🥹

#it was just a 20 minute beginners home workout and I can feel every muscle in my body now but I think they'd be so happy I pushed through!#I've had particularly Heinz and Maximilian on my mind I think they would be sooo happy that I'm trying to take better care of myself💖#Heinz because he's always there anyway of course but I kind of imagine Max is probably overall the fittest out of my f/os #he seems like the kind of guy who'd want to be an example for his soldiers and always hold himself to the same standards as them #he'd be so supportive and cheer me on and be proud of me every time I get myself to do something😭💖💖#I've never particularly enjoyed doing sports (aside horse riding but in the past year I didn't have time anymore for that bc of uni😭😭)#so I didn't really do anything anymore after I finished school #I started doing simple home workouts last year but in winter my mental health went a little📉 and then I had no motivation to keep going #dunno how long I'll go through with it this time but better than nothing I guess #again with the home workouts lmao bc driving to the nearest gym ain't worth the time for me and I'd need some basic fitness first anyway #I'm doing it mainly for health reasons but this time I'm also motivated to actually get a bit stronger #I don't mind looking like a stick figure and I'm overall content with my body (maybe it could help me to look a bit more masc tho?👀👀)#but I know especially for my posture and such it would be good if my muscles were just a tad bit more developed #my mum was proud of me too when I told her about it hehe :) she works in healthcare she's always a little concerned #she's just a little worried about me getting health issues when I'm older that could be avoided by taking proper care of my body now #I get where she's coming from but it's not easy but at least I'm motivated to try again now :)#selnia talks

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scrawnytreedemon · 1 year ago

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People are headcanoning Sephiroth as illiterate now. As in. The fucking reason he took so long in that basement was because he had to finger-read every single fucking book.

I'm putting Sheltered Sephiroth on the top shelf until you goons stop veering into outright ableism. For fuck's sake.

#scrawny rambles #ffvii #sephiroth #these people confuse vulnerability with infantilisation so much #it's driving me insane #this has been happening for years but it's hit a peak #i GET wanting to knock seph off his pedestal and make him human like the rest of us #especially after the Sexy Leather Daddy who Does Everything Flawlessly era #but like. This is downright ableist. They didn't say he had dyslexia they said he was *illiterate*#quick question Why the Fuck would ShinRa neglect their top soldier to this degree #reading is VITAL in systems like these you think Sephiroth ISN'T sifting through piles of paperwork on the reg???#of all the characters to pick this has gotta be one of the worst #i've seen people make similar shitty claims about zack's education #(who is btw another vector for just. Stunning fanon ableism what the fuck)#but in that case even if it were *initially* true #ShinRa would almost certainly have funded the rest #there's a sliding scale of literacy but you NEED at least some to work in fucking *ShinRa*#curse be upon you cris for dropping this on my doorstep 😭😭#this fandom loves confusing vulnerability with infantilisation. most do but again. What the Fuck.#disk horse #fandom wank

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aq2003 · 2 months ago

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What do you think about the 2012 black and white much ado?

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#first much ado adaptation i've seen where if this was my first/only exposure to it i would hate the play lmao #amy acker was imo the best part of the movie (her 'eat his heart in the marketplace' speech was pretty good) but also #one scene is not enough to save it and again i REALLY didn't buy the chemistry between ben/bea. those first scenes were rough #clark gregg was the only guy that looked like he wanted to be there but also i think he's way too nice to play leonato #he plays into the 'loving father' side and i don't buy him lashing out at hero at the wedding #much ado #ws #i think also. the reason i didn't warm to denisof's benedick is bc he just doesn't play his wit well at all #he just comes across as Dumb Jock. that is not my boy.#if you want to lean into his soldier side i feel like you have to play him as prickly. cynical. a little bit of an ego.#silly sometimes but also can be dangerous if he needs to be. ie. what dt did in the 2001 radio play version

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windor-truffle · 4 months ago

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Wallbridge hhhhhhhh... for as much as the dungeon itself sucks it's probably one of my favorite parts of the main story, i have many feelings about it...

i know it's the fucking point but god the juxtaposition of how Richard acts before and after Wallbridge just breaks my heart 😭 (though i love his gay ass poses lmao work it bitch). Richard is fun as an antagonist very angsty and all but I'm REALLY gonna miss having him in the party because I, like Asbel, actually like Richard as a person. He's perceptive and clever and caring, he's emotionally wounded but trying to make the best of a horrifying situation, and he is genuinely grateful and kind to his friends for supporting him here. The writers managed to make him a likeable character quite quickly considering he doesn't spend that long in the party.

If I were to change anything about the writing around this part, I might actually try to highlight Richard's resentment pre-Lambda too? I know I just said how much I love his kindness but part of the reason why he falls is because he and Lambda fed off of each other's negative feelings, which he admits to at the end of the game and seems still haunted by in L&L. As the story is, with the intentional whiplash between considerate and ruthless, Richard's post-game guilt can almost seem like he's blaming himself too much and that Lambda was the real problem (granted he is like 90 percent of the problem). It wouldn't hurt to have Richard's tone carry a little more anger and hurt when speaking about his uncle prior to Lambda's interference (as he speaks in canon it tends to be more somber than resentful) in order to explain why Richard was particularly susceptible to Lambda's influence. I think Richard can be altruistic on the wide scale while holding a spiteful grudge against those who have wronged him personally, that's actually quite human. But maybe I'm just saying this because I'm an angst magnet 😅 also this could be something that was lost in the localization, I haven't checked the japanese footage yet.

Moving on...

RIP Pascal's EXP 😅 I just want to know why Malik was carrying a sea bream??? Also I love Asbel's blunt courtesy: "This resounding defeat was brought to you by your former student."

also forgot to mention this extremely missable skit, you have to go back behind Duke Dalen's manor after the cutscene. Once again Pascal being the one to interfere with the shippy vibes, but this one is definitely more homophobic 😅 they weren't even talking about anything inherently romantic, Pascal just saw two guys having a close conversation and decided it was too icky -_-. (I'm blaming the writers though not her character). It seems like this was set up to be a "Pascal comedically misunderstands a thing because she's so quirky lol!!!" moment. Isn't she just so silly for thinking that intimacy between men is inappropriate, romantic or not? 😜

sorry i arranged these pictures to be deliberately misleading, the skit happens long before this scene, but I feel the need to continuously dunk on sulky Asbel 😂 I enjoy exploiting his flaws, i feel like Asbel has a bit of a rep for being a one-note do-gooder who believes in the good in everyone no matter what but he actually loses faith in himself quite easily, I mean look at this:

I literally don't have time to unpack all of that bc I've been at this for hours and I have to go to work soon but bro. BRO. you've got some issues here that read as potentially homoerotic and codependent my friend

#dolphin plays graces again #tales of graces f #richass #it really doesn't take much to turn the story of this game from a chipper power-of-friendship narrative to a tragedy #and the tone's not afraid to go there sometimes (while maintaining its E for everyone rating of course 😅)#'he was bleeding like crazy!' game shows zero blood asbel never even turned richard over 😂#'but i saw how deep it was!' well we the audience didn't 😂 no gore. even the soldier's body disappears after the scene is over 😂#do y'think the game devs had to make the chairs look extra small so the table would be low enough to throw people on top.#also remind me to ramble some more abt richard and lambda i want to pinpoint when richard actually became aware of him i have some theories

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nthflower · 2 years ago

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I am having thoughts about Xavier wtf?

#i will real immortal X-Men xavier issue again #later #i love xaiver as a self hating mutant who cares more about looks than actions etc. etc. like #he likes being messiah being a figure good figure a hero #and he loves also mutants too he is not evil not intentionally but it always comes second or third #first is looks how humans sees them how public sees him #he want to still be respected and accepted he didn't even say puplic he is a mutant for years #he is egoist also i think #like he love having powers and good things being mutant brings and rehects hates avoids bad things it brings #mind reading is cool but he still need to be respected professor attending conferences getting applause #shit man #this is why i am not a cherik girlie #magneto is also flawed like i ilove uwufing him but he is deep complex etc. but his relationship and brotherly or loverly love for Xavier #just sad #this is why i love he is rejected him #i am really interested now in xaviers fall and i want him to be pathetic about him #xavier needed to be betrayer not moira tbh i want him to sell mutant kind for saving his looks #and by selling not being cartonishly villain but also wgile keeping his looks good for mutants that he cares too #kinda like leaving morlocks because he need acceptable mutants for his X-Men but also sending his acceptable child soldiers to save them #i am missing points probably definitely i am not good at getting things but i like thinking #and i like this version #long long tags

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kyliafanfiction · 1 year ago

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Stop woobifying Faith!

She committed manslaughter and her first reaction was to hide, lie, pretend she didn’t care, blame someone else, act like he deserved it, and then when she was finally past all that, she immediately switched sides.

#I love Faith but she sure is a murderer #and while yes the Mayor cared about her and gave her a sense of belonging etc etc she hadn't know #known him before she changed sides and had no idea what he had to offer #Faith's reasons for doing what she did are complex and in part are rooted in her trauma but she still CHOSE #to do what she did #Buffy thought she killed a man by accident and she did not react the same way #Again Faith's trauma and issues are legit factors but even if she didn't act the way Buffy did she could have acted a million other ways #and she didn't #She's not some uwu baby child soldier victim of circumstances #at least not the way ya'll want to talk about her #Grumping #In Which Kylia Responds To Another Post Indirectly #Anti-Faith Lehane #Technically #Faith Lehane

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obessivedork · 11 months ago

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My Sole Survivor, Michael, bemusedly dealing with The Brotherhood of Steel: Yeah sure I'll indulge these weirdos wearing the same armour my fellow soldiers used to wear, if nothing else then to see where the hell they're going with all of this and also because they seem to be the only ones ABLE to do something about this evil "Institute" I keep hearing about. Maybe if I'm nice they'll help me find my son.

#Don't worry he meets Nick Valentine and realizes he was fucking wrong AGAIN very soon #He also thinks they're just pretentious looters but like. The old world is 200 years dead and he was ALREADY a little disillusioned #He wasn't super patriotic or into being a soldier anyways- it was a means to an end (free post secondary)#and he has a fucking son to find #so he doesn't really care about looting a tech company and he likes what Danse has to say about the corrupt shitty corporations #(His lavender marriage wife was in pre-law and got accepted to law school and that's part of why he came home #because they felt like they SHOULD have a kid but he didn't want her giving up on her dream of legally challenging corpos for motherhood)#(Also they're younger than the prologue paints them as. He's about 23ish and during those few months he had he was a REALLY good Dad)#anyways #fallout #fallout 4 #FO4 #kat plays FO4

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charizardstolemynickname · 1 year ago

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Having an emotional day, so decided the only proper thing is to rewatch episodes of doctor who, because, I know these episodes will fill me with feelings

I forgot how hard S4 EP13 hits.

Tenrose fans fucking won with this episode. LIKE CMON, we got SO MUCH, so much happiness, AND PAIN

If nobody has me, i know S4 EP13 of New Doctor Who got me (in emotional turmoil)

If Tenrose has 1 fan, its me. If Tenrose has 0 fans, I am not only dead but someone chopped up my brain because there is no way my dead body is not still a tenrose fan

Donna fans (also me) won desperately and then suddenly lost. It hurt just as much as the first time watching.

#Don't get me STARTED on the other parts in the episode #DON'T MENTION THE NAME DONNA TO ME IF YOU WANT ME STABLE #DON'T MENTION HOW THE WHOLE SEASON WAS WRITTEN SHOWING THE DOCTOR HATING GUNS AND THEN EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM HAD ONE #DON'T MENTION HOW HE TURNED THEM ALL INTO SOLDIERS DESPITE WANTING TO HAVE THE OPPOSITE #DON'T SPEAK TO ME ABOUT HOW THE DOCTOR DIDN'T GET TO KEEP ROSE BUT ROSE GOT TO KEEP THE DOCTOR #DON'T MENTION THAT HE COULDN'T FINISH THE SENTENCE AFTER ROSE TYLER *AGAIN*#the “making this time travel- dimension cannon uh so i could.. well so i could ”#“what?”#“so i could come back”#*big fucking grin from 10*#“shut up!”#AHSHHUDD #don't mention to me what Sarah Jane said as she left the doctor AND THEN THE FAMILY SHE SPEAKS OFF SLOWLY LEAVES #DON'T SPEAK TO ME ABOUT HOW ROSE ENDED IT BY BEFRIENDING ALL THE OTHER COMPANIONS #as you can see I am in the feels at the moment #i am in shambles #doctor who curse strikes again #good omens did this to me #NEIL YOU CAUSED TENROSE TO HURT ME #doctor who #doctor who spoilers #tenrose #timepetals #I LEARNED THAT NAME THE OTHER DAY FROM SOMEONE AND OH MY GOD #i love it so much #doctor who season 4 episode 13 #doctor who s4 ep13 #doctor who journey's end #journey's end #metacrisis doctor i love you for saying it to rose

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clumsycapitolunicorn · 1 year ago

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#it's sucks so much that like 6 weeks later i still feel meh about tl and it's just made me bitter and fed up with it that im not looking-#-forward much to emmys #im only here for the actors nominated and any non-writer noms...#i will not shut up if the finale wins for best writer let that be known #regression of two male characters for last minute love triangle sh*t... trying to give keeley a girl boss ending when they didn't even show #-her being a boss in her own storyline...#ruining all the r/k scenes for s1 and 2 so what would be the point of a rewatch...#making ted so detached and tbh the ep felt detached too and sending him back to kansas when rebecca had an offer right there and not even-#talking with his family all because of his mother showing up once and doing a tell but not show about henry #yes his son is important but ted is more than existing for his son and the last shot just felt like he was d*ad inside #their lead female character's big plot about finally getting someone to love who will treat her right in her life because she wants it...#only for the said guy to be some guy who showed up half way through the show and had barely 20 mins of screen time with her and most of it-#-was him being creepy pushing her boundaries (like ohhh he made her dinner and washed her clothes and didn't hurt her the bare minimum) and #-giving them t/r 1x02 callbacks which was a kick to the face #never mention him again only once after the ep and no seeing him until the last f*cking second on no seeing them together in the montage #quickly shoved in dude who is dutch!ted #freaking teased t/r throughout s3 knowingly with the matchbook and soldier and hallway moment and having ted pining for her in the ep she-#was with boat guy #they have actual build up and it felt natural to go there but they shoved her in with a random dude #and they made a wedding for a toxic ab*sive couple that one writer thinks isn't abusive and also made t/r fans feel sh*t for seeing the-#-love with scenes and parallels THEY WROTE #THEY ACTED...#so yeah f*ck that they don't deserve that win

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rescnatd · 2 months ago

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Only the veteran survivors of the Battle Beneath the Crescent are aware of how much Geshu Lin's death affected Jiyan. Even fewer actually the truest extent of this and why.

#hc; jiyan #//he himself is rather frustrated at his own lingering attachment to the man. Bc really; he SHOULDN'T be #//It wasn't as though he and the man ever really saw eye-to-eye in life; their core ideals the furthest thing from each other #//It wasn't as though the man's stubbornness & ruthless strategies didn't make his blood BOIL more often than not; as solider & medic #//It wasn't as though the man would have EVER looked at him the same way Jiyan did to him #//Be it due to the power imbalance b/w General & combat medic or the near decade & a half yrs between them; or the fact that GL's eyes were #only ever on the battlefield ahead; fighting for a future he & everyone else around him damn well knew he would never live to see #//Jiyan knew it was hopeless the moment he'd realized how he felt; the foolish little bloom of first love amid resentment & frustration #//& yet even three years later; Jiyan can't help but CLING to those phantoms of him; those of the Retroact Rain & within his own memories #//He yet clings to the way the man had always seemed to shine; like the full moon on a cloudy night. Of the first sight he ever had of him #when he'd been assigned to the man's service; the cold determination glinting in his eyes; sharp as a blade and just as merciless #//He clings to the Respect he had for him; for his quick choices in battle; seemingly unwavering resolve; the power he possessed to protect #& destroy with chilling ease–things Jiyan himself wished he could have. He desperately strove to be exactly like him; sans the way he would #endanger his own men for the sake o victory. That; Jiyan would never forgive & never let the man forget it. & was most definitely annoyed #to hell & back when he'd get brushed or even laughed off times he dared step out of line & call it out; to the horror of other soldiers #//It felt as if GL acknowledged & willingly accepted his vitriol with open arms. Was it a challenge or self-punishment? Jiyan never knew #//All he knew is it always made even more upset; and prompted more clashes between the two on their ideals. A selfish part of him liked to #believe these arguments helped distract GL from the horrors of war; a twisted solace amid it all. It did.does help ease the sting a bit #//At first; he confided in folks like Ningwei or trusted older soldiers about those sightings; how shaken they left him; how guilty he felt #in wanting to see MORE of them; so tempted to try and talk to them; rather than fight or ignore them like he'd supposed to #//But w their increasing concern & gentle attempts to get him to step back or even suggest stepping down as General; he's clammed up tight #//Now no one but him & the phantoms know how frequent & intense the sighting get; as far as anyone knows; he hasn't seen any of GL in 2yrs #//Meanwhile; Jiyan is fightin for his life & sanity; feeling his heart break over & over again each time he bears the brunt of harsh words #over his intentions & strategies; his soft heart unwilling to sacrifice his men for victory. Of just SEEING him & that steely gaze again #//At times; Jiyans wonders what would happen if he gave into selfishness & tried to act on his longing upon these phantoms #//Would they disappear? Reject him? Accept him? Would he stop being so haunted by him with the closure it could bring?#//But he's terrified of any and every possibility. And most of all; he's disgusted in himself for daring to sully the memory of his General #with such thoughts and desires. It's a disservice & insult to him; wanting to use what's left of his presence in this world like that #//& yet Jiyan can't bring himself to let go of it. If this is all he has of him now; how can he bear to let him go? To let him be FORGOTTEN #//He really can't. No matter how much it hurts him to do so; in every sense of the word

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cave-monkey · 8 months ago

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Monkey King Episode 8 (Part 2/2)

*BUSTS THROUGH THE DOOR* All right, time to finish this!

It's been two days since I watched this episode let's see what stuck.

"The Six-Eared Macaque has six ears! Isn't he really cute?"

Ginseng Fruit thinks Six Ears is cute. Canon.

Okay, so. The fake bunny ears? Absolutely adorable. Holy shit. These kids are the cutest. Jade Rabbit's body dysmorphia is probably on a level to qualify as the full disorder, and that's less cute and more sad and distressing, but it's so nice this attempt at comforting her worked and they were able to make her feel a little better about it.

Stone Monkey was so worried about her, too! Six Ears was clearly only there as emotional support (desperately needed, because Stone Monkey was not doing okay) since he had no idea who she was and Ginseng Fruit just didn't like her, but Stone Monkey probably would have started ripping the island apart stone by stone to find her if they hadn't managed to coax her out. He was worried! And emotionally unstable about it! Ginseng Fruit losing their patience and insulting her got them attacked.

Like, it took Marshal Ma a multi-episode timespan to wear Stone Monkey down enough to have him almost lunging for Marshal Ma's face. Ginseng Fruit got there in about two sentences. Even Six Ears was pretty alarmed about it. (Six Ears trying to comfort an angry and distressed Stone Monkey by cautiously reaching out to touch his shoulder from an entire arm's length away is very monkey of him. I just had to note that.)

Also that thing again of Stone Monkey's genuine anger being pretty violent. And how much quicker he is to lose it if the ones you're jabbing sticks at are his friends and not him.

I can't even really blame Ginseng Fruit for being upset they were spending so much time and energy checking on Jade Rabbit, since from Ginseng Fruit's perspective she was actively trying to hurt/kill the two of them nearly since Ginseng Fruit met her. They have reason to not like her and not want Stone Monkey around her. Still not the time or place, but their concern and frustration was understandable!

From Stone Monkey's perspective, what's a little attempted murder between friends, I guess? They had a Bash Brothers bonding moment against the Demon King's army before Jade Rabbit's headwrap was knocked off and she panicked, so clearly it's all square now. She was just upset! She didn't even manage to actually hurt them! It's fine! It's also possible he blames Ginseng Fruit for Jade Rabbit being angry at all, since if Ginseng Fruit had just stayed away from him like Stone Monkey had wanted them to, and hadn't tagged along, they never would have had a chance to run their mouth and set her off. Which isn't really fair, but. Stone Monkey barely seems to tolerate Ginseng Fruit at this stage of their relationship and that was true even before all this went down. I'm not sure he would be fair. Especially not when they're shouting insults his already hurting friend might be able to hear.

Six Ears got them to work it out, of course, but I definitely noticed that Ginseng Fruit's tears weren't even enough to rock that look of utter disdain until Six Ears scolded Stone Monkey about it.

(Ginseng Fruit: *sobbing*

Stone Monkey: Suffer.

Six Ears: Hey. Hey, isn't it funny how all your friends keep getting sad around you?

Stone Monkey: 😟*🎶SHOT THROUGH THE HEART🎶*)

Six Ears really did go for the throat, though. Jade Rabbit wasn't even Stone Monkey's fault! Don't imply it is! He'll believe it if it comes from you!

I thought it was pretty funny and cute though, that Six Ears apparently just took it upon himself to carry Ginseng Fruit around while they were accompanying Stone Monkey. Looking at all of this though, it might also have been him just trying to keep Ginseng Fruit alive. He put Ginseng Fruit down for FIVE SECONDS and in the next scene they're picking a fight with an already upset Stone Monkey and almost getting their skull crushed in. They were right back on Six Ears's hip in the next shot lol. Can't take these guys anywhere.

But in reality it was probably just Six Ears's self-appointed Monkey Kinda-Maybe-Prince Boy Scout babysitting reflexes kicking in. He accompanied an upset Stone Monkey to go find this other friend of his, saw this little guy with tiny little legs trying to keep up with them (and especially Stone Monkey who was probably not in the mood to slow down or have Ginseng Fruit on him), and just scooped without a second thought. And Ginseng Fruit likes him! At least if their comment about Six Ears being cute later is anything to go by. You have a stalwart fan now, Six Ears. You carried them, spoke up for them a bit, and now they will die for you. Ginseng Fruit does nothing by halves.

This episode had so much character relationship building in it. I loved it a lot. The actual editing of the episode was a bit more like a fever dream or like the guy storyboarding it hadn't slept in a week, so I hope they're all right, but the writing was hitting all the beats. It was so good. Easily my favorite.

#mhw09 personal #this was 'stone monkey loves his friends so much' the episode #jade rabbit!#speedrunning enemies-to-friends #their entire back-to-back fight!#starting from the three-way fight between stone monkey the demon army and jade rabbit #from stone monkey LOOKING RIGHT AT HER before 'accidentally' letting her get caught by the rope and then going #'oh whoops didn't see you there!'#(I don't think he actually knew who EXACTLY was behind him but he wasn't too torn up about the fact he got jade rabbit caught lol)#(he knows she's out for his blood)#then letting her loose as soon as he dealt with the demon army soldiers only for jade rabbit to go straight to trying to kill him again #right up until a soldier gets a shot at jade rabbit's back and stone monkey TAKES A BLOW FROM HER to protect her #(his pained grimace-smile and mild trepidation knowing he's left himself vulnerable to her. ahhhh.)#then THAT TROPE of her looking like she was going to take advantage and strike him before taking out the OTHER guy coming up behind HIM #AHHHH #the truce!#stone monkey putting himself at jade rabbit's back 'IF YOU WANT TO MAKE ME INTO MEDICINE YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO KILL ALL THESE MONSTERS FIRST #with that absolutely infuriating smug grin #jade rabbit being immediately on board: 'Okay. And when I do I won't have mercy on you!'#a true bash siblings moment #lol

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ghostly-whiskey · 7 months ago

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simon riley who you "meet" through a program where you can send care packages to soldiers. you don't think much of it at first, just a simple package with a few necessities and treats. and along with that, a short, but genuine and handwritten letter thanking the unknown soldier to you for their service.

and when you go to retrieve your mail a few weeks later after getting home from work, brows furrowing together as you shuffle through the stack of envelopes.

bill. another bill. advertisement. paycheck. handwritten addressed envelope from 'ghost'.

your brain doesn't even connect the dots until you are inside, fingers gently picking at the envelope until your able to drag a finger through the seal to open it. a simple piece of what looks like notebook paper is pulled from inside. unfolding it, eyes quickly scan the letter to get an idea what it's about.

you've done plenty of care packages before. never did you get a personalized thank you letter back, so, this was a first. the letter starting off by thank you for the package and that he enjoyed the items, especially the "sweet treats". the two words put in quotations as he referred to what you referred to them as in your own letter. your own brain cringing slightly as you remember what you wrote.

again, thank you for all that you do and enjoy the sweet treats!

and while you expected the letter to end after thanking you, it didn't. additional lines asking about you. the sets of questions ranging from asking how long have you been doing the care packages to general questions about yourself. then, at the very end, after signing off as 'ghost', you couldn't help but notice the chicken scratch of handwriting that added:

p.s. you don't need to respond back if you don't want to, just figured it be nice to get something back in return. thanks again.

#simon riley x reader #simon ghost riley #simon riley x you #simon riley #simon ghost x reader #simon riley fluff #simon riley cod #simon riley x reader fluff #simon ghost riley x reader fluff #simon ghost riley fluff #ghost cod #call of duty #୨୧˚whiskey writes˚୨୧ #୨୧˚whiskey writes ghost˚୨୧

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dumbbitchgalore · 2 months ago

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Easing Old Man!Price into sex after dealing with erectile dysfunction 💓 (🌽 link)

As Price gets old with every passing day, a subtle yet gnawing voice at the of his head was telling him that he wasn't able to keep his birdie happy and satisfied despite all his efforts and it didn't help that physically he was not able to perform satisfactorily. He mentally curses himself for all the years of nicotine and alcohol use, mentally chiding himself for not listening to you earlier.

His little birdie would eventually leave him for his flaws.

But you saw it in a different light, you tried to keep John happy and fulfilled and besides there is more than one way to achieve the orgasmic bliss that John always seemed to coax out of you with either his hands or mouth or maybe both, one of his many talents. Your love for him never dwindled but you could see the sadness and unfound guilt in his eyes.

One day, he tells you that he wants to use Viagra to make sex as pleasurable as it used to be. Despite your attempts to voice that you have no complaints about the two of your sex life, John shut them down. He needed to do this, not just for you but for him, to make him feel like a man again. You start to understand that maybe reassurance may not be enough to help John find his self-esteem again so you cave and tell him it's fine.

Tonight, you both find yourselves sitting on the bed after John had taken the pill. Sweaty and flushed til the tips of his ears, John felt like a schoolboy seeing a woman naked for the first time. He didn’t know what to do with his hands, what to say or how to react after seeing his chubby cock stand tall and proud after such a long time. He looks away when you sit next to him, wearing nothing causing you to chuckle chuckle at his nervousness.

“Come on, babe. It’s not like this is the first time you’ve seen my tits. Hell, you even drank my-”

John places a hand over your mouth stopping you from finishing your sentence. You give the palm of his hand a attentive kiss before pulling away and placing a fleeting kiss oh his cheek.

You hand makes its way to his cock, giving it a few trial pumps. Seeing John’s eyes glaze over gave you all the permission you needed to continue your ministrations.

“That’s it, soldier boy. Let your birdie help you.”

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