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He realized then that you only took things that were yours before him, things that had nothing to do with him.
OUCH ?? this hurts so bad like <\3 imagine spending almost a third of your life with someone and it ends just like that ?? it shows how hurt y/n must have been
“I can’t promise that I won’t do anything that will hurt. If I could, I would do it right now. I know I will make mistakes and some of those will hurt you. But I will do everything in my power to not hurt you, to love you like you deserve to be loved”
❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹 i NEED someone to say this to me ?? like i KNOW you're gonna make mistakes. i'm okay with that! but if u acknowledge it and promise to make up.... i need u in my life fr
strange love | csc/kmg
pairing: seungcheol x fem!reader x mingyu genre: angst, fluff word count: 3.1k summary: years after your divorce, you meet your ex and he wants to pick up where you left off warnings: cheating, cursing
requested by @thepoopdokyeomtouched
“You regret it?”
Out of all the things you could have heard, of all the people you thought that you could see, the man standing in front of you was the last of them.
It had been years since you last Seungcheol, talked with him, or even heard his voice. You had managed to eliminate him from your mind completely as if he were some kind of plague. You really thought that you’d never see him again, especially after everything that happened. But most of all, not after you moved away to a city that hated more than life and promised to never, ever, set foot again.
“You don’t know how much” he took a step towards you, hands stretched trying to hold yours “I don’t know why I did that… My mom, she …”
Looking anywhere was better than looking at Seungcheol, at him trying to shift the blame to someone else. The truth was that your marriage had never been easy — your entire relationship for that matter.
Seungcheol’s mother never liked you. Hate was, probably, the most accurate word for how she felt about you. You were together for eight years, almost nine, and during those years she made sure that you were aware of her distaste for you. She would mention how improper you were on every possible occasion. From the way you dressed to the way you talked, to your major, to your job. Nothing you ever did was good enough for her.
In the early years of your relationship, she kept most of her comments to herself. And when she did say anything, Seungcheol was quick to apologize on her behalf and shut her down. Then, when she realized that your relationship didn’t end once you graduated from college, her words became harsher.
Even then, you pushed through. Seungcheol seemed to be just as bothered as you and you were with him, not her.
Despite her attempts against your relationship, there was no denial of the fact that you were in love and until that moment you never thought that anyone would ever understand you quite like Seungcheol did. It was like you complimented each other. Of course, like any other couple, you fought. But most of those fights were never about his mom and you’d make up quickly
Life was easy and good. You had the job you wanted, shared your life with the man you loved.
So, when Seungcheol proposed, you said yes. It was the easiest answer you had ever given. His mother was no longer a concern to you and innocently you thought that she would finally see that you were serious about Seuncheol. You hoped that she would see your love for her son. Because to you, that was what every mother wanted, for their kid to be in a good relationship, with someone they loved and who loved them. That was what your mother wanted for you.
And, sure, maybe that was something Seungcheol’s mother wanted too, she just didn’t want you in his life.
Even so, you got married. Moved in together. The first year had been great, the kind of stuff dreams are made of. Paradise. Then your first anniversary rolled around and that perfect little bubble burst. Just like that. What was once perfect became none existent.
Seungcheol started to get home later and later, his replies to your texts were monosyllabic at best — most days he didn’t even reply. You gave up on phone calls because he’d either ignore them or he’d turn off his phone. It didn’t take long for you to notice that he started to reject your kisses, your touch.
Fights became intense, almost a screaming contest. You’d scream because he was never around anymore and he would scream because you were too demanding.
“I'm just fucking busy, okay? Work is driving me insane. And now I have you hoovering around me like I’m sort of child. I thought my mom was the only crazy bitch around. I guess I was wrong.”
Nothing anyone had ever said to you hurt so much. His mother’s words? Nothing, not even a scratch compared to his. But having the man you loved, the one you promised to love through sickness and health, till death did you part, say those things? Call you a crazy bitch and because of what? Because you were worried about him? Someone should punish you for wanting to spend time with your husband.
“Fuck you, Choi Seungcheol,” was all you had managed to get out.
There was nothing else you could say. You heart dropped to your feet, the space where your stomach was supposed to be felt hollow. The entire world was spinning. So you did the only thing you could think of, locking yourself in the bathroom and crying under the shower. After some time, you didn’t know what was just water and what were your tears.
By the time you got out, Seungcheol was nowhere to be seen.
That was the moment you knew your marriage was over, there was nothing to save anymore.
Seungcheol didn’t come home for days after that. You didn’t know where he was, if he was okay. So you did the one thing you feared the most, you called your mother-in-law. Much to your surprise, she invited you for lunch. Truthfully, you didn't want to go but it was the only way to know anything about your husband. She had refused to give you any information at all unless you met her.
Everything inside of you, every cell in your body told you not to go. There’s no way the lunch wouldn’t end in your heart breaking even more. The million pieces of your heart would shatter yet again.
Maybe you had known the entire time and just forced yourself to pretend that it didn't exist. Seeing Seungcheol walk into the restaurant, hand in hand with a woman who wasn't you, the brightest smile on his lips, made the entire world suddenly fall into silence.
You felt stuck in place, your eyes refused to look at anything else that wasn't him. Not in the way it did when you first started to date, when you were so enamored by him that other men just paled in comparison, but out of poor morbid curiosity. You needed to see just how far he'd take it.
The buzzing in your ears started when he sat by her side, his whole attention focused on her. She talked excitedly about something and Seungcheol looked at her like he was in love. Like he used to look at you. He pushed her hair back from her shoulder and you noticed that his wedding ring was nowhere to be seen.
The woman seemed to be the perfect representation of what his mother wanted. And her smile, watching you crumble, was all the confirmation you needed.
"Thank you for bringing me here today," you told her. Her smile faltered a little when you got up and left. She probably expected a scene, maybe she hoped to see you screaming at them. That would imply a fight and you just didn't have it in you anymore.
You were the only one fighting for that marriage for almost a year. Seungcheol didn't care, of course, especially considering how he had taken that woman to your favorite restaurant on your second anniversary.
By 9 pm, on that day, you were out of the apartment. You took almost nothing with you, just enough clothes, documents you would need, and memories of your childhood. You didn't want to keep anything that could be a reminder of Seungcheol. If it was so easy for him to throw away a nine-year relationship down the drain, then it would be for you too.
I'll send you the divorce papers soon, was what you wrote for him on a note. The only thing you had left for him, alongside your wedding ring.
"Don't blame your mother for your actions, Seungcheol. No one made you go to that restaurant, no one made you cheat on me. That was all you. Your mother, believe it or not, was kind enough to show me the truth"
Seungcheol thought that he'd never see you again. You had managed to completely leave his life, not a trace of you to be found.
The house was still filled with you, your clothes, the decorations you bought over the years — things you had shown him excitedly and he had never paid much attention to — the dishes from breakfast, your wedding pictures still on display — the only one missing was of you, as a kid with your parents. He realized then that you only took things that were yours before him, things that had nothing to do with him.
No one wanted to tell him where you were, your note didn't say anything about where you went. The hospital you worked at simply told him that you resigned and refused to tell him anything else.
The divorce papers were handed to him, by your lawyer, precisely three weeks after your anniversary, after you left. Your friend stood in front of him, Joshua's face the most professional and serious he'd ever seen. The man who usually had kind eyes and a bright smile, looked at him as if he was just any other stranger.
"Joshua, I'm not singing these" he dropped the small stack of papers onto his desk "I want to speak with my wife and I'm sure you talk to her daily. So if you could just tell me where she is, I'd be really thankful. We also need to discuss how we will divide our possessions"
Joshua took a deep breath, finally looking at him for more than three seconds.
"Mr. Choi, my client doesn't want to see you or talk with you. There's nothing to divide as she doesn't want anything, as it is written in the divorce agreement. If you wish to take this to court you will just be spending money needlessly and wasting our time, as, like I said before, my client doesn't want anything. She just wants to be free of your relationship"
It was the first time in five years Seungcheol was seeing you. He tried to look for you everywhere he could possibly think about. He went to all the other hospitals in town, every single one of them, looking for you. He always gave different names to make sure that you wouldn’t refuse to see him. All of them were a dead end.
No matter how much he tried, he couldn’t forget your last words to him fuck you, Choi Seungcheol, the look in your eyes of complete hurt. How he knew his words would make you cry and that’s why he said them. But you refused to let your tears fall in front of him. He had heard you in the shower. The sound had been too much, too annoying, so he left.
At that point, he had already cheated on you more than once. He had let his mother get too much into his head. The stress of work mixed with his mother's constant nagging made him do things that he wouldn’t normally do. It was only much later that he realized that his stress didn’t come from you. If anything, you were the one who always helped feel normal, more like himself.
After years of no contact, even social media updates from your friends or family didn’t include you, he finally saw you again. In a different town, a phone was pressed to your ear as you talked with someone. And you were even more beautiful than remembered. Your hair was shorter than before, something you always said you wanted to do but never went through with because Seungcheol liked your hair long. You were wearing jeans and a t-shirt, also something you never wore after college because of this mother, women don’t dress like teenagers, she used to say. Your smile was also beautiful, and free. Seungcheol couldn’t remember the last time you smiled at him.
“I know, it was all me. But I was wrong, yn, so terribly wrong” he tried to hold your hands again but you took another step back, away from him “I want to try again. I love you so much, so much. I can make you happy again, I know I can”
You laughed. Because what else were you supposed to do? Five years later nothing at all had changed with Seungcheol. He still thought that he could just come around and you’d be waiting for him.
Waiting for him to choose you.
He never did though. You came to realize that, after you moved away, and really started to think about your relationship, from the day you started to date to the day your marriage ended you were never his priority. For many years you thought that Seungcheol had your back, that it was you and him against the world. But, in all honesty, it was just you against his world and the rules he lived by. He never told his mother to just stop the harassment, he would just appease her for a while and stay quiet when she tried to change you. He never said anything when you changed your entire being to try to fit into what she wanted.
You were to blame too but in your mind those changes were just something you had to do to with the the man you loved.
“Hi, baby” you felt lips press against your hair and the bags you were carrying being taken away from your hands “Did you wait for a long time?”
Finally, you pulled your eyes away from Seungcheol and looked up, to Mingyu. Up until that moment, your heart was beating like crazy inside your chest but at the sight of Mingyu, everything seemed to calm down.
A year after moving, you met Mingyu. He was the owner of a small restaurant close to the hospital you worked at. Joshua was the one to find the place when he went to visit you You were one of his first clients and then probably the most assiduous one. You went there almost every friday for lunch, ordering something different every time because if the steak was that good, everything else has to be good too.
After a few months, he was the one who brought out the food for you. You were yet to order but he placed a plate in front of you, the most delicious smell intoxicating all of your senses.
“I haven’t ordered anything yet,” you said, confused, looking up at him.
Mingyu was probably the most handsome man you had ever encountered in your life and that was saying a lot. His eyes were spectant as he talked with you, he hid his hand inside the pocket of his apron.
“I know but you come here every week and you seem to enjoy the food. Since I’m trying a new dish, I thought that you would like to try it”
Your lips formed a smile, the biggest one you had given someone in a very long time.
“Thank you. I’m sure it’s fantastic, especially if it tastes as amazing as it smells”
A few weeks after that, after a lot of flirting, Mingyu asked you on a date. A dinner after hours at the restaurant. You’re a busy woman, so I’ll take whichever moments you're willing to give me.
Saying yes had been hard. Though you were no longer in love with Seungcheol, a part of you was still hurt by the end of your marriage. You were thirty, divorced, only one relationship in your entire life. You felt like you didn’t have anything to give. And then Mingyu happened.
He made you forget everything about your past, about your lack of experience. When you told him that you were divorced, you sort of expected a change in the way he saw you. But that didn’t happen. He simply asked how it ended, and you gave him a very brief explanation — he cheated — and the conversation moved forward as if he had asked you what you did the day before.
The first date led to a second one, then a third, and soon you were dating. There was no official question or big gesture. Both of you just fell into this sort of routine. Some of your clothes were on his place, some of his on yours. A year and a half into the relationship you moved in together. You figured, since the two of you always spent the night together, either at his place or yours, living together would just be easier.
You were happy.
After you told him everything that had happened in your relationship with Seungcheol, from his mother to the cheating, Mingyu held your face in his hands. All of his emotions were in his eyes, the anger he felt for what had happened to you, for the hurt he heard in your voice whenever you spoke of your marriage, to the love he felt for you.
“I can’t promise that I won’t do anything that will hurt. If I could, I would do it right now. I know I will make mistakes and some of those will hurt you. But I will do everything in my power to not hurt you, to love you like you deserve to be loved”
His thumb wiped your tears away, and a second later you felt his lips over each of your eyes. His touch was ever so tender. Despite his hands being only on your face, you felt Mingyu everywhere.
“Where did you come from?” you had asked in a whisper.
“I was right here, just waiting for you”
Life with Mingyu, you came to understand, was very simple. Late-night talks, walks on the beach on sunny afternoons, meals you ate together, and undying laughter. Just a life completely filled with love.
“Who’s this?” Mingyu asked.
He didn’t like the way your back was stiff, how tense you looked. He had never seen a picture of your ex-husband, you didn’t have one and although he was curious about the man who was stupid enough to let you go, he didn’t care enough to look for his face online. Based on your reaction alone, Mingyu already knew who he was before you even said his name.
“Seungcheol”
Mingyu looked at the man who broke your heart. There wasn’t anything special to see. The only thing Mingyu did to acknowledge him was a short nod and a distaste hum.
“Come one, let’s go home” he tugged on your hand, walking past Seungcheol.
Mingyu wrapped his arm around your shoulder, pulling your body against his and kissing your hair once again. You wrapped your arm around his waist and squeezed him, a silent thank you, but also a silent i love you. He kissed your hair a third time.
Not once did you look back, to see if Seungcheol was still standing there.
Seungcheol was your past. But Mingyu was your present and your future.
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#i love that seungcheol didnt end up with reader btw#at first i thought it was gonna be like “oh he wasn't cheating! it was a misunderstanding”#which i HATE btw#if u wanna make the mc a bad guy might as well go all the way lmao#and he deserved what he got tbh#manipulative people suck ass#and mingyu...#like i just really want to have a relationship like that ☹️☹️#like gentle non showy ways of affection#friends to lovers embodied#and it's just :(( so soft and domestic#which is my fav dynamic for lovers#scoups#mingyu#svt#📚 — reading list
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#mobius#loki#lokius#mcuedit#lokiedit#marveledit#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#something something mobius helping loki take some time only for the two of them to lose it even faster 🙃🙃#new year new techniques to properly convey the most tragically beautiful ship in existence my roman empire my everything#this has been ringing in my mind for them so loudly it's almost driven me insane lmao and yes expect equally angsty mobius sets to follow#requests first though which i'm starting now!#shoutout to getting the don funko today which tbh gave a serotonin boost to finish this in between my hellish work schedule 😅#he inexplicably got shipped in a package marked 'high priority' FOUR times doubled boxed and wrapped in three different paddings#aka what he deserves <33#marvel#owenwilsonedit#dianagifs#flashing cw
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when i tell you i was gagged about that reveal
#hoffman got what he deserved tbh#not that i don’t love hoffman as a character but ya know#lawrence gordon#dr lawrence gordon#dr gordon#saw 2004#saw memes#cary elwes#my memes#sawtism#sawtistic#saw franchise#saw#sawposting#saw movies#saw 7#saw 3D#saw the final chapter
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Nooooo Bestie, don't go to mad at me island
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#nie huaisang#Bestie (nhs) attempts to dodge responsibility for his meddling. Fails miserably. Gets soggy and wet as a defense.#I think there should be an ace attorney au for mdzs just so nhs can be an girlfail definitelydidit witness#NHS with the wettest eyelashes: “my whole lineage is based on killing and vengeance and swinging massive swords around”#He was so smart for breaking the cycle tbh. What if you just didn't engage with the tradition that eventually drives you mad?#Other notes from this scene (because I'm skipping over the man-eating castle explanation)#Shout out to NHS again for hearing that Jin Ling almost died in the walls and going 'maybe he got what he deserved'. Unhinged.
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i keep thinking im gonna like actually finish these but that ain't happening so have some gay people
#cookie run#shadow milk cookie#pure vanilla cookie#espresso cookie#madeleine cookie#shadowvanilla#vanilla milkshake#espresseleine#creme university au#shoutout to the little rp snippet being one of the first things i actually drew for this au#i just never thought to post it oops#happened right after espresso learned madeleine liked him and they started... dating?#they aren't dating cause espresso is complicated and i'm gonna throw him down a flight of stairs about it#espresso you idiot you are head over heals for this stupid blonde jock just tell him you love him already aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#and then there is shadowvanilla who confessed and got married in the same interaction its what they deserve#these doodles of them are from before that#when pv still thought sm wasn't in love with him despite all the evidence against that#pv you wanted to kiss sm so bad it made you look stupid#sm just looked cringe cause he was NOT SUBTLE about it#also shoutout to shadowvanilla not being the main ship of the au AND YET HERE I AM DRAWING THEM THE MOST#shadow milk is just way too much fun to draw tbh#once i draw the others more its game over for my silly ass
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It's completely baffling that Gortash is the only one of the chosen three with whom we don't get to have any dialogue regarding the information we uncover about him.??
Spoiler warning maybe lol
Like with Orin, we can mention her upbringing or the fact that she's a child of incest. Try to convince her that she's just been abused her whole life? Like obviously this changes nothing in the end. But it still matters that its mentioned.
Ketheric, we also can try and convince him to change his ways. Mention his wife, his religion, Isabelle. Literally mention everything we find out to try and convince him to turn a new leaf. Which also doesn't change any outcome. But I appreciate that its there.
But GORTASH??? We get absolutely NOTHING, it's absurd! It's baffling that we can't even touch on his backstory—like finding his parents,(possibly killing them depending on what you do) being sold to Raphael as a child, or the fact that he was scammed at one point. All the intriguing details we uncover about him lead to nowhere, and it's so annoying 😩
Like this isn't even just because I enjoy him as a character. It just seems like such a missed opportunity to find out more about him currently as a person!
The dialogue we encounter while trying to convince Ketheric and Orin reveals a profound insight into their true characters. Their reactions are telling and provide a unique perspective on who they are as individuals!
Ketheric fully recognizes the person he has become. He understands that he is a lost cause, fully acknowledging the wrongs he has committed and the irreparable damage he has caused. He accepts his fate without hesitation. Despite your words.
Orin lashes out in denial, and becomes completely manic (more so than her usual self). Completely baffled and distraught.
I want to know how Gortash would react if you brought up his parents or his childhood! It's a possibility he wouldn't be grateful if you slayed his parents; in fact, he would likely view any sympathy as a weakness and respond with anger or dismissiveness. Plus, we’ll never find out his true response to Durge after you say, “I always liked you.”
“Is that what you-”
I don't understand these missed opportunities with him?? Like I get keeping some ambiguity to an extent. Its why we will never get a clear answer into him and durges relationship…..BUT I WOULD LIKE A CRUMB OF HIM PLEASE!! I DONT EVEN NEED A KISSY SCENE! I JUST WANT ANY INSIGHT INTO HIS OWN OPINION ON HIS PAST IF ITS MENTIONED!
If you read all of this rambling…..please tell me what YOU think his possible response would be to any of these scenarios lmao please
#enver gortash#baldurs gate 3#bg3#bg3 gortash#gortash#sorry for the long pointless post#I just have a lot of feelings#I know for a fact Gortash is one of those people that's like#I got hit as a child and I came out fine?? abuse builds character#but I just really want to know why he's the only one we can't even mention things to??#I don't think you could convince him to be better#and I don't think he deserves it tbh#BUT JUST THE CHANCE TO EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE WHAT WE UNCOVER ABOUT HIM#PLEASE#GIVE ME MY CRUMBS#orin the red#ketheric thorm#professional yapper
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Y'know I kind of feel like when Megatron killed Tarn and said 'I want you to spend your final moments thinking of this: that everything you've done has been for nothing' he was kind of self-projecting onto Tarn? Mainly because at Megatron's statue, M and T had a conversation where Tarn explicitly asked if all the Decepticons in service to Megatron died for nothing, if HE did everything he did for nothing. (And I think M even gave an answer along the lines of 'idk I think we basically did'). And then after Megatron killed the DJD and Rodimus teleported in to rescue him, there was that silent moment where Megatron just stared at Rodimus not moving at all before he finally took his hand at the last moment.
It honestly feels to me like for a while, Megatron fully intended to murder-suicide himself. Murder the DJD, his monsters and his creation, and then take himself out alongside them, because he is also a monster. Because he also feels that everything he's ever done has been for nothing.
Goddamn it's no wonder I liked that scene so much LMAO, as someone who thinks villain Megatron > Autobot Megatron, literally one of his key traits is that Megatron basically took his pain/trauma/worldview and used it to lash out at the universe and try to subjugate it to his vision. So the fact that he took his own pain and brutally murdered the DJD while telling them the very same thing that puts him through so much agony is so very deliciously ironic. And a return, however brief, to the Megatron characterization that I know and love.
#squiggposting#i also feel like it turns his asshole behavior towards tarn into something more understandable#like... he is not just condemning tarn and co for being evil useless bastards#as if he has the moral high ground. no. megatron also thinks his whole life was wasted#for a moment he fully intended to kill all of the DJD and then himself. a circle of monsters#who all exist for no good reason and did horrible things for no good reason#only rodimus coming in is what saved megatron both literally and in a spiritual sense#from believing he deserved to just die in the same hellish pit he killed his creations in#THIS IS LIKE SOME FUCKING METAL ASS BIBLICAL SHIT I'M TELLING YOU#tbh if megatron had actually died in there with tarn and the djd i wouldve considered that#a more satisfying end to his story than what we got#particularly bc i think the functionist universe is stupid and LL 25 felt like. contrived#in how it dealt with Megatron's fate#anyways the TLDR is that megatron was an asshole to tarn as if he didnt make him how he was#but like during that one moment i think he was in a pit of self loathing#and he wanted to drag the djd. tarn in particular. along with him for ruining his happiness#i'm sorry but that's who megatron is#if your megatron isn't an intensely angry/damaged person who drags ppl down with him#bc of his own projection and self loathing then like. who is he#enough soft grandpa mtmte megatron i love violent unresolvable self hatred and lashing out megs
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me whenever i think about kyle
#he deserved so much better than what he got#like his story genuinely makes me so sad#when him and zoe left they shouldve stayed GONE#they were so happy together#im so glad he was able to find love#i love him so so so much#one of my faves tbh#fuck madison & his mom too btw#ahs#american horror story#ahs fandom#ahs coven#madison montgomery#zoe benson#kyle spencer#evan peters#evan peters fandom#taissa farmiga#girlblogging#girlhood#im just a girl#this is what makes us girls#tiffysdeath
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2024 Hungarian GP | x (edited)
#daniel ricciardo#autumn posts#the (edited) is quite unnecessary as it is most readily apparent lol but!!#I tried to rotate it 45 degrees ish and my lack of photo editing skills leaves much to be desired#anyways arm 😵💫❤️✨#I fear I'll be in a perpetual state of missing him#but I'll be savoring memories of him like light from a star still reaching earth years after its gone out 🌠#also that's overly dramatic hehe a new journey awaits!!! and I will be excited if he wants to share it with us!!!#until then I'll be blogging like its 2017 at times hehe#omg I was looking up top 2017 tracks and man there were some bangers that year 👏😎#okay nostalgia trip over I've been meaning to write but tbh I got myself all needlessly stressed!!#2025 is the year of not adding so much undue stress on myself - it's keeping me from flying!!!#also 2025 goals include drinking more water and less coffee 😒 sigh hehe#hope everyone has a very wonderful last day of the year!!!!#enjoying time with friends or fam or favorite hobbies ❤️#off to another chapter!! I hope good things are in store!!! 🎁🎉✨❤️#also if you read this far then hello and also my silliest yearning is Dan comes in to replace Liam in the summer#even tho RBR does Not deserve him and the stress of the sport with travel and media scrutiny are so much#retiring at 35? a dream!! but I do wonder what the vibe will be like after DTS drops#it feels like a proper goodbye had yet to come...idk#I'm still excited for Carlos and Max and Lewis and new faves too but#ahh I'm not saying anything that hasn't been said before#and he himself said he's done!!! so! c'est la vie#not goodbye but see ya later (in supercars or as a globetrotting dashing sponsor or just kickin it on the farm)#I'm at peace with all for the most part!!! but I'll be missing what could've been all the same#anyways I should go touch some grass! I'll be back soon!!#thank you everyone for all the kind tags my heart is like 💖💞💓💗💕!!!!#I appreciate this space and y'all so much ❤️❤️❤️ onto another year together!!#many more memories to make!!!
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Potentially unpopular opinion, but I love that Miguel was an asshole again in the second part of this season! It’s a reminder that he’s a character and not just Johnny’s main support. I mean Robby didn’t deserve it at all, but it makes sense that Miguel couldn’t help taking his anger out on him. And I love that Johnny was on the receiving end of it, because it feels like the tension between them just went away for no reason.
Sorry if I’m bothering you!
You’re never bothering me, and I completely agree! They so rarely give Miguel any narrative agency these days, and like Johnny all it does is reduce him as a character. Miguel is a whole, complicated, messy teenager. He isn’t a saint. He isn’t perfect. He makes mistakes and has ugly unfair feelings sometimes, like every single teenager does. And I love when this show actually lets him be like this, lets him be wrong, lets him be a little bit of a dick to the people he cares about who don’t deserve it. Lets him be a real person with actual human feelings. And then also lets him take accountability for what he does wrong, apologize, show how much he’s grown, that he is a good person and a good friend. I love it truly, and it feels like it’s something that in a lot of ways hasn’t really been granted to Miguel since he fell off that balcony.
#miguel is one of mt favorite characters but since season 4 at least he has just been. boring#he is rarely allowed to feel a lasting negative emotion#and when he makes a mistake or does something wrong he is rarely allowed for the narrative to even consider it one. to#face (proportionate) consequences and have those consequences acknowledged for what they are#i dont want this to be misconstrued as me saying miguel deserved to be kicked off the balcony or to absolve robby of his responsibility in#that. but i do think the biggest disservice this show did to miguel was ignore and remove his own culpability in that fight#and again that is not to take blame away from robby for his own actions#but the way that the show in a lot of ways has reframed miguel as this almost saint like victim of the karate war is just boring to me#rather than a character with actual agency in the story#if that makes sense#anyway thats all to say yes i agree lmao#asks#i just wish we got more of it tbh. not him being a bit of an asshole necessarily lol but just like. him heing a real Character#we know he wants to go to Stanford and i dan think of a bunch of reasons off the top of my head WHY that would be#but ultimately those are just my ideas jot snything that is actually explored in the show#i guess i just miss when this show was an exploration of character
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Miscellaneous notebook doodles
#art#tropical's art#collinlock16#minecraft arg but the protagonist is tired#You can barely see my aggravated notes towards Robert Moses (disciple of Le Corbusier and father of U.S. highways and various NYC parkways#(He disliked the idea of buses being on highways and public transport in general so I think that's why the U.S. is so automobile focused)#(But I digress)#(Actually no I don't what was Le Corbusier thinking with his vision of the Radisnt City which was tall skyscrapers with underground highway#(Where said skyscrapers are 60 stories tall surrounded by a park and are interconnected)#(TBH killing the street and removing the pedestrian from it so there would be no car accidents is kinda okay as an idea but whatever)#(Fun fact! Most NYC Housing Projects follow his vision which I can clearly see in my neighborhood but I finally digress)#Idk how I got attached to the doomed kid AKA AwesomeG#They didn't deserve any of that :[ I hope we get more content about them (they've already served their narrative purpose)
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Novel quotes: wei wuxian having feelings/thoughts about jiang cheng
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However, Jiang Cheng was gone. Holding steamed buns, flatbreads, and fruits in his hands, Wei WuXian felt his heart skip a beat. He forced himself to calm down. Even after he searched through the neighboring streets, he still didn’t see Jiang Cheng. He finally began to panic. Grabbing a cobbler on the side, he asked, “Mister, there was a young master about the same age as me sitting here. Did you see where he went?” The cobbler licked the thick end of a thread, “The one that was with you?” Wei WuXian, “Yeah!”
The cobbler, “I was in the middle of doing something so I didn’t really see. But he kept on spacing out, staring at the people on the street. And then when I looked up at where he was again, he suddenly disappeared. Maybe he left.”
Wei WuXian murmured, “... He left... He left...”
He probably left for Lotus Pier to steal the bodies!
As though he had gone mad, Wei WuXian sprinted immediately toward the direction that they had come from.
[...]
He gave himself a harsh scolding in silence—he was stupid, useless, ridiculous, it was bizarre, unimaginable. Yet, he was alone, without a sword or any tools, and on the other side of the wall there were thousands of Wen Sect’s cultivators, perhaps Wen ZhuLie as well.
He wasn’t scared of death. He was only scared that after he died, he wouldn’t be able to save Jiang Cheng and betray the trust that Jiang FengMian and Madam Yu left him. In such circumstances, the only one he could place his hope on was a person of the Wen Sect whom he had met only three times in total!
[...]
Wei WuXian’s gaze turned from Wen Ning toward Jiang Cheng, whose body was covered in blood and eyes were tightly shut. His fingers couldn’t help but clenched into fists.
Chapter 59 Poisons—Part Four
Jiang Cheng’s expression was rather strange. It was calm, almost too calm. He stared at the ceiling, as though he wasn’t at all interested in the situation that he was in, as though he didn’t care about where he was either. Wei WuXian didn’t expect him to react in such a way. Sadness, happiness, anger, shock—he had none of these. His heart skipped a beat, “Jiang Cheng, can you see me? Can you hear me? Do you know who I am?” Jiang Cheng glanced at him. He didn’t say anything. Wei WuXian asked him a few more questions. Arm supporting himself, he finally sat upright. He looked down at the mark of the discipline whip on his chest before laughing bitterly. If the discipline whip struck, it’d be impossible to wipe away the mark of shame. Wei WuXian comforted him despite this, “Stop looking at it. There has to be a way to get it off.” Jiang Cheng slapped him. His strike was so weak, so powerless that Wei WuXian didn’t even flinch, “Hit me. As long as you’ll feel better.”
[...]
If Wei WuXian were the one injured or if somebody else had saved them, he’d immediately say farewell and leave at once, full of determination. However, right now, Jiang Cheng was the one who had been injured. Not only was he injured, he had lost his core as well. He wasn’t in his right mind. No matter what, Wei WuXian couldn’t find any determination.
Chapter 60 Poisons—Part five
Out of the blue, Jiang Cheng spoke up, “Not to do what?” Wei WuXian paused in surprise, turning to him along with Lan WangJi. Jiang Cheng covered his wound with one hand, his voice chilly, “Wei WuXian, you’re such a great, selfless person. You did the best things possible, and you swallowed all the suffering and didn’t let anyone know. What a touching story. I should kneel down and cry in gratitude, shouldn’t I?” Hearing the mocking tone that lacked any courtesy, Lan WangJi’s face grew cold. Jin Ling saw the displeased expression and immediately stood in front of Jiang Cheng, scared that Lan WangJi would kill him with one strike, “Uncle!” Wei WuXian’s expression worsened as well. He never expected Jiang Cheng to make up with him after he found out the truth, but he didn’t think his tone would be as unkind as ever, either. With a moment of silence, he replied, voice muffled, “I never asked you to thank me.”
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In the beginning, it was precisely because he didn’t want to see such a Jiang Cheng that he decided not to tell him.
He remembered every single thing he promised Jiang FengMian and Madam Yu—to help and take care of Jiang Cheng. If someone as unhealthily competitive as him found out about this, he’d be dispirited his whole life, too tortured to face himself. There’d always be something he could never overcome, reminding him that he could only reach where he was because of another’s sacrifice. It wasn’t at all his cultivation and his achievement. No matter if he won or lost, he’d long since lost the right to compete.
Afterwards, it was because Jin ZiXuan and Jiang YanLi died for him that he had no face to let others know. To tell Jiang Cheng after what happened then would be like shirking responsibility, hurrying to demonstrate that he’d contributed as well. It’d be like telling Jiang Cheng, don’t hate me, look I’ve contributed to the YunmengJiang Sect too.
Chapter 102- Hatred - Part Five
At this point, somebody on the side suddenly called, “Wei WuXian!”
Wei WuXian answered immediately, “What?”
Only after he answered did he realize that the one who called him was Jiang Cheng. Wei WuXian felt somewhat surprised. Jiang Cheng didn’t respond directly. Instead, he took something out from his sleeve and tossed. Wei WuXian caught it by instinct and looked, only to find a black, gleaming flute along with a crimson tassel.
It was the ghoul flute, Chen Qing!
As he felt the flute that he was more than familiar with, Wei WuXian didn’t even have the spare time to feel surprised.
Chapter 108: Concealment - Part Two
After a pause, he asked again, “How have Sect Leader Jiang and Jin Ling been?”
Lan JingYi pouted, “They seem pretty fine. Sect Leader Jiang is the same as before, always lashing out at people with his whip. Young Mistress’s temper has been getting better. In the past he could talk back thrice to his uncle after he scolds him once. Now he can do ten times.”
[...]
Hearing Lan JingYi say so, Wei WuXian relaxed slightly. In truth, he knew that these weren’t what he really wanted to ask. But as it sounded like Jiang Cheng and Jin Ling had been doing quite well, there was nothing left to say.
Chapter 116: Extra—Banquet - Part Three
#There are like other quotes but I got tired lol#Anyway. What really gets me is :'don't hate me jiang cheng'#what wwx really wanted was forgiveness! Something he didn't think he deserves! Arghhhh#Where is the post: mdzs is about wwx not being normal about his shidi. And lwj is there too#because imo is what really happens lol#wwx's thoughts about jc are tbh very mean. And imo it's because he's repressing resentment/fear of rejection#I think this because wwx starts to have uncharitable interpretations of jc only in his second life#wwx: I don't want a thank you.#also wwx: why is jc being so mean to me :-(#The fact that in the present wwx feels always surprised when jc speaks to him. It's like... Arghh#Chengxian#Kinda. Neither platonic neither romantic. But a secret third thing#mar!reading mdzs#I still can't decide what wwx wanted to ask in the end. (last quote). What do you want wwx? Say it to us!
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happy birthday to my beloved one and only a-yao!!!! light of my life who deserves all the love and appreciation on his birthday <333
#important to note this was drawn from lxc pov originally as part of the xiyao animatic until i got carried away and had to turn it into its#own full drawing#turns out it is easy to draw from lxc pov because we both see jgy through eyes filled of love towards him 😌#he deserves the best birthday with all the love and celebrations (which he doesnt have to organise for once!!!)#to make up for all the horrible horrible birthdays he has in canon :(((#a-yao i love you so much i cannot put into words arghhhhhhhh#yeah maybe i will be baking him cake later so should you tbh#if anyone is mean to him in his tag on his birthday i will bite you <3#magestic xiandu in the sunset......what i wouldnt give to be in lxcs place to see this irl#jin guangyao#meng yao#mdzs#the grandmaster of demonic cultivation#mo dao zu shi#the untamed#pasc's art tag
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Happy birthday to the stinky idiot !!
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#tokyo ghoul#tg#kaneki ken#ken kaneki#uh yeah bad news#exam week + the wifi at my house is down this week out of nowhere?? so i can't really post#but i managed to bust this out at least since i didn't wanna miss the silly day :))#i'm not sure what really happened tbh?? originally the plan was happy kuroneki just smiling and being happy it was his birthday :)#and then uh. then it turned into shironeki. and now he looks a little more Unhinged (wow it's just like canon)#but that's okay he deserves it i think. as a Treat#also don't ask me how i managed to color like that i think i got possessed mid-drawing and it made me pop off???#i am Never going to be able to recreate this orz#anyway happy birthday neki !!! you are a little bastard /affectionate
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No one’s asking for your help. I’m only trying to save her, Clark.
— SMALLVILLE, “Apocalypse” (7.18)
#literally lex's third-to-last episode and he's still offering up his help and resources to clark's ungrateful ass lol#a scene like this was long overdue at this point tbh because lana's been in a coma for like 4 episodes but WHATEVER I'll take what I can get#I'll probably end up giffing their whole conversation but idk I just felt like this particular moment deserved the Bigger Gifs™#I've still got two eps to go but I'm assuming this is the last clex loft scene... and the last time lex is at the kent farm...#yeah I'm emo about it SO WHAT 🥺#smallville#smallvilleedit#svedit#clark kent#lex luthor#clex#also some lingering#lexana#vibes... but *whistles innocently* you didn't hear that from me#dcmultiverse#sv 7x18#my gifs
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Finally finished listening to newest episodes, and this is all I could think of tbh
seriously though, really cool episodes
#malevolent fanart#malevolent spoilers#yellow malevolent#mr larson too i guess#hate that guy tbh#like what the hell larson#he got what he finally deserved#enough rants from me enjoy the rest of your larson-free day
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