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đ - What does a perfect day look like for your oc? What do they do? Who do they see? âââ ââ
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Well you would actually guess hes the type to sleep in but hes not. He would get up at 5 a.m to go for a damn jog (cause he barely sleeps anyway bc of his nightmares) comes back, get breakfast with Daiki. Then it depends where Daiki would drag him. He also doesnt mind watching Daiki draw his paintings or learn for school ... even if hes looking more him than anything elseđ If it comes to him he would actually go play basketball with the boys before getting to training either dancing or taekwondo. At evening he can settle down if he got enough exercise and is satisfied if he can cuddle and watching a movie with him c: If hes tired he can get a real cutie đ
đ¸ - Whatâs your characterâs music taste like? Do they have one or two artists they play on repeat or do they have a varied and eclectic collection of music? Do they like mainstream artists or prefer underground musicians? What genres do they enjoy? âââ ââ
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Pretty mixed he mostly listen to rock but is also into rap and RnB He always acts like the tough guy but pretty deep thinking. So he often listens to music which resembles his insides.
â¤ď¸ - Who is the most important person to your character? To what lengths would they go to protect this person? âââ ââ
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Thats pretty obvious. Its Daiki for sure. He would go to hell and back to keep him safe. and he would be able to manage this easy and kick asses. đ
𼊠- Does your oc have any coping mechanisms? Healthy or unhealthy?
Oh yea - mostly drugs any kind of. He smokes a lot and drinks too much if hes stressed.
âď¸ - What was the scariest moment of your characterâs life? Does it still affect them?
Oh yea there were a lot scarie moments of his life. But hes not the type to get scared from something. There was just one moment which is also part of their story where he nearly lost Ashina and this feeling shattered his whole world to the core.
đš - What does your oc find attractive in other people? Are these traits found in their friends and/or romantic partners? Are they found in themselves?
Ashina loves a challenge and she can't do anything with shy, submissive guys. That bores her pretty quick. She more the "I ruin bad boys" type of girl. The only who can mess with her temper is actually Aidan because he calms her down - and thats a trait she needs to find in someone which she actually dont know of that she need badly. Somewhere she can find peace. She need someone who can deal with her moods and personalities, is the same type of crazy without giving into her too quick. Someone who also take her on a leash if shes overdoing it. And yea all of this is Aidan.
đ - Who has your character hurt most? Physically or emotionally? How did it feel? Do they regret it?
Uh yea, she hurted a lot of people in the past but the most? humm probably Aidan as she lied about that she slept with Kiyoshi in Dare to Love me as they broke up because all Aidan wanted was to protect her. She knew it would hit him hard because they are like brothers. She just got overboard there. And also ruined their friendship so they dont speak to eachother anymore. upsi ~
đ - What does your character do at parties? Are they a wallflower or a party animal? Do they go with friends or alone?
hmm depents if shes drinking or na :D but if yea - dancing on tables, getting wasted, she wouldnt mind going alone dont worry. But Aidan wont let her đ trust me he never would. He just knows her too good.
Thanks for the ask âĽ
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Are you hungry? i could eat.
What color is the chair youâre sitting on? grey and black, mostly grey.
What did you buy last time you went to the store? hmm, i think kyle called it a snack run but we actually got a lot of groceries too!
Do you like salsa that has fruit in it? ive had mango salsa before, its good! isnt tomato technically a fruit tho? XP
Have you ever opened up your computer to clean the fan on the inside? many times.
Can you count in binary? nope.
Do you think stained glass windows are pretty? very!
Are you a chocoholic? i fucking love chocolate. i require it. a few days without it and i feel weird.
Are you scared of snakes? i think im more afraid of being bitten than the snake itself. if someone told me the snake didnt bite, id hold it and not be afraid.
Have you had your wisdom teeth removed? yes, 4.
Do you like hard or soft pretzels better? soft! yum.
What was the last magazine or catalog you looked through? beats me lol, its 2024, i read shit online.
When was the last time you wore a raincoat? i dont know. i dont own one. maybe i should lol.
Have you ever been carded when buying something? yes.
Do you eat meat? yes.
Corn and mashed potatoes, or beans and rice? corn and mash.
Can you sleep with the light on? i can fall asleep if im tired enough period, but at night all night, no lights.
Whatâs your operating system of choice? windows.
Have you ever broken a bone? nope. fingers crossed lol.
Do you have a favorite highlighter color? pink.
Do you have a flashlight? my cell phone lol. i think i have an actual flashlight in the house in case of emergencies tho.
Do you like watermelon? its aight.
âŚHoneydew? also aight.
Can you shoot a gun? idk, ive never tried before.
Do you like salad? sure.
When was the last time you smashed your finger? pft lol probably not that long ago.
What color is your computer? black. the work laptop im using rn is silver tho.
Have you ever made ice cream in chemistry class? nope, not that i can recall. chemistry was junior year in high school, which was almost 20 years ago lol.
Has anyone ever walked in on you while you were on the toilet? yep.
What color hair do you have? brown with some natty white.
Do you use the microwave often? often enough. it gets used probably at least once a day by someone in the house.
Are you good at spelling? i try to be, but i am human.
Have you ever petted a donkey? probably.
When was the last time you went to the doctorâs for a physical? pft lol, i have no idea.
Do you like a lot of ice in your drinks? um, i wouldnt say a lot⌠but i do like ice.
Have you ever painted a room? yes.
Are you strong enough for this survey? sure lol.
Whose bed were you on last? my own.
When was the last time you laughed so hard you couldnât breathe? a day or two ago im sure. i laugh daily. :)
Have you ever taken a picture of yourself kissing someone? of course.
Are you someone whoâs an asshole because youâre so honest? honesty doesnt make someone an asshole, being an asshole makes someone an asshole.
Have you ever cleaned up someone elseâs vomit? yes.
Do you drink more apple or orange juice? apple.
When was the last time you cried? Why? im not sure. i think i was angry probably?
Whoâs the last person you talked to in person? technically some coworkers in passing, im at the office.
Are you in a good mood? im okay. i could be way better.
Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your gf/bf? no way.
Would you ever donate blood? i would if i could.
Would you rather drink coffee or tea? coffee.
Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot? right now.
Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night? nope.
Do you think someone is thinking about you? maybe.
Do you think itâs disgusting for a girl to drink alcohol and get drunk? no LOL.
Whatâs on your mind? thinking about going home and getting away from people.
What are you doing tomorrow? idk, its wednesday so nothing special. my landlord is supposed to come by and fix our garage but we'll see lol.
What are you doing tonight? taking the kid to his winter workouts then hanging out with the hubs.
Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? no.
Has someone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you? yes.
Do you get distracted easily? kinda, mostly.
Is there someone you wish you were still close with? i guess, but not actually. like the moments that made me not talk to people i no longer talk to, they are valid reasons to not talk to that person anymore, but the memories before those moments, i miss those.
Do you always care what you look like? no.
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? idk man lol. "worth it" is a weird term.
Do you regret anything youâve done this year? nope.
Do you get easily embarrassed? no.
Do you know what itâs like to be truly happy? yes.
Have you ever cried your heart out? yes.
Do you believe in love? yeah.
Do you go tanning? nope.
Do you hate the last person you kissed? no.
Would you be able to date someone who doesnât make you laugh? no way lol been there done that, boring as fuck and theres no chemistry for me.
Is there someone you really like to hang out with and just talk about stuff? yes.
Did you climb trees when you were younger? i loved to climb trees.
Have you ever started a sentence with âno offense, butâ? yeah lol, when i was younger. they are one of my least favorite statements now.
Youâre single, why? i am married.
Itâs 2 in the morning and you get a call, who is it? idk, my phone is on silent lol, probably spam.
Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months? yes, i will still be married.
Do you always answer your phone? no.
Do you think youâll have the same best friends a year from now? idk lol.
Do you think life has been good so far? sure.
How many people have you had STRONG feelings for this year? just kyle.
If you could would you take back your last kiss? nope.
Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? nope.
Last time you were really happy? right now.
Is there a specific moment you can replay in your mind perfectly? so many.
Is the last person you kissed, going to be the next person you kiss. yes.
Have you ever regretted letting someone go? no, i dont regret. i lament then it passes and im grateful.
How long was your longest make out? LOL idk.
Do you want to dance? not rn but i do like dancing.
Do you like someone? yes.
Why arenât you with the last person you kissed? he is my husband.
Is life unfair? duh.
How has the week been? its still early, its been fine.
Are you mad at anyone right now? haha not really.
Are you happy? sure.
When was the last time you talked to the last person you kissed? before being dropped off at work.
Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you? i guess.
Who made you laugh last? kyle.
Ever liked someone who treated you like crap? yeah.
Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? three hours.
If the person who hurt you most said theyâre sorry would you believe them? no. they have said theyre sorry. they all say theyre sorry. theyve all been sorry. sorry theyre assholes and something happened to them that hurt, finally.
When was the last time you hugged someone? earlier today.
Do you think love lasts forever? sure.
If the last person you kissed, was kissing someone else, what would you do? beat both of them up.
Whatâs something that made you smile today? kyle.
Has a boy/girl put their arm around you the past five days? yes.
Which is harder, walking away from somebody you love or coming back to somebody who has hurt you? walking away.
Have you kissed someone in the past 3 days? yes.
Do you think its cute when someone kisses your forehead? love it.
Where are you? my desk, at work.
Have you ever told anyone you were okay when you really werenât? sure.
Was your last kiss drunk or sober? sober.
I bet youâre going to kiss someone tomorrow, right? duh.
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big long rant abt how happy i am rn but its LONG ^_^
holy shit . its a sunday evening and im somehow SO FUCKING HAPPY. like. nnothing even HAPPENED today i just had A GOOD DAY IN GENERAL this is incredible. like. i watched a nice tv episode and saw a funny video and played some minecraft and hollow knight and watched a fuckin crazy jrwi episode and woke up before the sun and felt the wind and watched the sun and heard the birds and. man. and tomorrow i know i have school and thats not even ruining my mood at all. because i have history. and my history teacher is nice. and he wont mind that i havent done any of the work because he gets it. and he explains things in interesting ways and hes kind and he never shouts and its the only class i not only feel comfortable asking questions, but where i WANT to ask questions because hes NICE about questions and i usually probably wouldnt care abt the shit were learning abt but he tells it like its actually REAL and not just a sheet of information. and im just happy. and whilst i didnt finish my codeflippa drawing like i hoped i would, i think ive come to terms w the fact i dont think i wanna ever Finish it, bc my creativity for it died down. i think ill just surround it in a few more flippa doodles n then post it bc ITSF FINE !!!! man. and like. i think ive remembered how it felt to be 5 again. when everything was SO EXCITING and i had no worries about the future because the only thing that EXISTED was here and now. and the world WAS big and scary but it was also incredible and interesting and full of light and colour and. like right now i can smell dinner cooking and for once im taking a moment to feel excited about that. because YES dinner happens everyday but !!! isnt it great that theres gonna be food soon !!!!!! and ill be able to eat it and i hope its smth i like. my sense of smell DID get fucked up 2 years ago BUT THAT ONLY MEANS DINNERS EVEN MORE OF A SURPRISE !!! it smells vaguely of HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT IT SMELLS LIKE THAT ONE CHICKEN DISH I HAD A LOT LIKE 5 YEARS AGO it most likely isnt that but ica nt belive i remember what that smells like . and like !!!! right now im listening tot he celeste soundtrack AND ITS SO GOOD !!!!!!! and MUSIC SOUNDS SO GOOD !!!!! and i played minecraft today and i tamed a dog called. smth. i havent named it yet. and a cat named smth toast related bc i was rlly hungry 4 toast and then i saw it. and i found out there r 3 seperate villages all really close to my base and i built a farm with potatoes and carrots and wheat and i mined for ages and realised my sense of direction in minecraft maybe isnt as bad as i thought it was because i spent like 2 hours in a cave and got utterly lost, but still knew which way west was. and i played a little hollow knight and didnt do too much but got across greenpath because i started a new save yesterday where i did all of crossroads. and if i play more hk later im gonna complete greenpath (or atleast what u can do b4 any other areas). and i saw my cat this morning !!!! and he was so friendly and he went meow meow meow and i went meow meow meow. and i just watched the new DW episode and !!!!! it was rlly good !!!!! ofCOURSEit had its moments of :/ BUT THAT DW FOR U IT ALWAYS HAS ITS :/ MOMENTS but it was SO good !!!!!!! and i love life sm rn and i can hum along to celeste music and my room is a good temperature and. my face ghurts bc ive been smilng so much. but im happy ^_^ and who knows how ill feel later tonight but what matters is that RIGHT NOW i m so in love witht he world :3
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20 questions for fic writers
1. How many works do you have on A03?
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i started posting fanfic Sep 30 2023. 87 works since then whoopsies (but theres a few wips in there)
2. What's your total A03 word count? 473,304...woof. i posted ~150k in november alone. i didnt actively participate in nano this year but figured i get an honorary win for that lmao
3. What fandoms do you write for?
Linked Universe! In high school I wrote Rise of the Guardians and Danny Phantom fic. These days its strictly Linked Universe cuz it scratches my brain just right
4. What are your top five fics by kudos?
The Traveler's Landing - this was going to be part of a quick series of one off Wolfie reveals. It's just a silly goofy time ft Twilight stealing Hyrule's shoes and Legend going "it's on sight".
Puppysitting - which is funny bc i almost never posted this one. I am v careful when it comes to deage fics bc i think they can go very wrong very fast. it started as a silly thing and then ended up having some of my fav character bits!
Sacred Shadows - Twilight meets the chain. More like the chain meets Wolfie. Short fic left open ended. hc for wolfie being seen as a forest spirit.
Riverside R&R - one of those fluff wips lmao fluff is not my strong suit so i have to be in a mood to work on these longer fluff pieces. this is probably the goofiest thing ive written.
The Truth Hangs - based on a lovely piece of canine poetry. This one was super fun to write. everyone except wind and wild are horrible to twi for 40k words bc dink is a bastard.
5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
Yes!!!!!! i love comments. theyre my drug of choice. i love waking up to new comments, i love when people engage with my work, i love making fandom friends <3 i feel so humbled when i get comments and it gives me warm fuzzies. i write for myself but it makes me so unbelievably happy that others enjoy my dumb ramblings
6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
what a question! uuuuh....probably The Purple Door bc its a permanent injury fic and the emotional hurt is left open ended. i do try to give my works satisfying endings which usually ends on a slightly more positive note than the rest of the story. purple door is one that leaves what-ifs abound.
7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
this is a toughie. I think it's between Warriors' Last Straw which is just Sibling Rivalry the Fic or Ordonian Rams bc it ends with normal chain activities. a lot of my stuff is bittersweet so even my happy endings have a bit of melancholy.
8. Do you get hate on fics?
nope! everyone has been lovely so far. its so fun being able to debate hc's and discuss different interps and be able to respect each other. and a lot of the comments i get are so thoughtful and amazing and i feel like such a little punk when i get compliments and engagement like that.
9. Do you write smut?
yes actually! though i dont post it on my mains for obvs reasons XD im actually ace (i think???) so the smut i do write is usually on request or commission.
10. Do you write crossovers?
nope! i am already so nervous about fucking up the current property i write for that i wont even attempt that lmao
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
i have not! even if i did idk that i'd be that mad about it. annoyed sure but imitation is flattery or smth. besides if there are younger (by younger i mean new) writers out there that take bits and pieces for their own stories, i dont take issue with that. god knows i was more than derivative when i first started writing
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
Nope! idk how big the LU fandom is and even then, if i wanted to i could translate my own work into (probably very formal) spanish or french. its the formatting that would get me and i would have to do some homework for a lot of the language i use. english has a lot of non translatable words at the end of the day. i wouldnt call myself fluent in either spanish or french so i would not have the wordcraft for it.
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
no but when i was 12 my friend and i co wrote a pretty terrible story about a monster hunter named Nova. it got dramatic by ch 3 as all tween angst writings do XD i still have a copy of it!
14. What's your all-time favourite ship?
hard question hard question but its probably gotta be Wei Wuxian and Lan Zhan from The Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation. so sweet, so precious. screaming crying as i read those books and watched the adaptations.
fandom specific, im a dedicate ilia/link shipper. i used to be anti midlink bc i think them having a platonic ship is so rich and interesting, but ive come around on the idea. twilight princess wise i am not a zelink person at all and i dont like that ship personally but i dont yuck yums
15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
fanfic wise, its gotta be Honeydew. i like this idea a lot but i do not plot and ive gotten a little lost with it. it started as a silly concept and i just dont know where to go with it next. plus fluff is something i struggle with.
oc wise that would be Cieran Murphy's Arm which is a horror murder mystery about a vampire and a burgeoning psychic trying to hunt it.
16. What are your writing strengths?
character work. dialogue, i like to think, and disagreements. i like to think im super good at making characters motivated even if their actions are disagreeable.
i also like to think im okay at action/horror writing since thats mostly what i cut my teeth on. my writing style has changed a lot since i first started writing and i think how it is now is really conducive to sharp, quick punches.
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
prose :( really its description and being flowery. im a bit of a minimalist. form follows function and all that. im pretty terrible at setting scenery in a way that feels like anything more than just set dressing
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?
i love it! i have a few different methods for it bc i love fucking with the meta of my work. so a lot of times i will straight up just write it in the other language without anything other than context clues for the reader to figure out what was said unless they know the language themselves.
other times, i use dialogue tags to indicate it was said in another language.
<i write sign language like this>
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And text messages like this
and when i have to make up a language i just write the words backwards XD
19. First fandom you wrote for?
Rise of the Guardians lmao i was so into jack frost angst. i think i was 14 or 15 when this movie came out. i had an oc and everything.
20. Favourite fic you've ever written?
Hiding in Plain Sight - bc wars & twi brother fics are my favoritest thing ever and i love angst. i like the character stuff i did here and i got the hc gush with wars' backstory :D plus its short! i feel like my longer fics get a little obnoxious but thats probably bc i see how the sausage gets made with them
@hotcheetohatredwastaken @labyrinthdancer @rosehipandroots @sappytrees
do the thing!!!! im so curious!!!
20 questions for fic writers
Tagged by @the-real-azalea-scroggs! Had to wait until I was of my phone because doing these is a nightmare on mobile lmao
1. How many works do you have on A03?
18 as of a few days ago!
2. What's your total A03 word count?
60,763! Which is. Only a fraction of the word count in my Docs folder. Be prepared.
3. What fandoms do you write for?
I mainly write for The Legend of Zelda; specifically Linked Universe! In fact, that's all that's posted on my Ao3 currently, since my fall into that fandom began with me uploading there! Pre-Ao3 I wrote for Black Cat (Anime/Manga), Megaman NT Warrior, various PokĂŠmon things, Assassin's Creed, Yugioh, Final Fantasy XIV and Octopath Traveler! Some of these I still write privately, but I haven't gotten around to re-posting any.
4. What are your top five fics by kudos?
Whistling on Deaf Ears - My longest fic on Ao3, focusing on Wild and Twilight's friendship and how good intentions can lead to disaster.
Iconoclasm - Warriors deals with the room full of portraits in Cia's palace. The Chain also deals with it, but with a bit more fire.
Deserving - Twilight finally tells Rusl that he was the wolf in the village during TP, but that also means dealing with some heavier topics. Colin half overhears them and forms his own conclusions.
Something Greater - The start of the "Hyrule can see magical auras" series! In this one we deal with Legend and his many rings.
Ocean Magic - Mermaid Legend and Zora Time have a race and then fight one of the Big Octos from WW! Fun times.
5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
Every single one!! I love comments, they give me an excuse to ramble about my fic more!! I am always down to ramble about every single insignificant detail of any line and/or section. If you ever want more background info about one of my fics, look to the comments! So please, I adore comments, I treat them like treasures, not responding to them would be a CRIME.
6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
There's no contest; Inevitable, my (so far) only MCD fic.
7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
Hmmm, that's hard to quantify. I usually try to end fics on a hopeful note regardless. I'd say possibly either Deserving, where Twilight reconnects with his family, or Shimmering Blue, Striking White, where Time meets the Fierce Deity settled down on Satori Mountain and they both get closure.
8. Do you get hate on fics?
Thankfully, no! I've been blessed with mostly amazing and patient readers, even when my upload schedule isn't the best.
9. Do you write smut?
No, not really. I've attempted it, but I'm too asexual for it lol
10. Do you write crossovers?
Very, very rarely. Mostly privately, and only very specific ones. Only a single one has had an actual plot, so far (more on that one in question 15!).
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Nope!
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
Also a nope! I tend to write for smaller fandoms, where these things don't tend to happen a lot!
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
I have! But it's been a while. Over a decade, in fact! I tried to find the fic to link it here, but it was on the German fanfic website fanfiktion.de, and my friend who posted it back then must have deactivated her account, because it's nowhere to be seen (I still have the Word file though!). It was a Multi-Crossover that started as an RP in a forum, and we took turns turning the RP into prose one chapter each. "If a Hero Turns to Dark" was its title. We were edgy teenagers.
14. What's your all-time favourite ship?
Hissssss. Bad question. Shoo. They are all equally important!! But it's probably TenRose from Doctor Who.
15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
One of the very few crossovers I've ever worked on; a crossover fic between Assassin's Creed and Doctor Who, that I have mapped out in both chronological and timeline order, and yes, those are different. I only ever wrote about a quarter of it, since my primary audience of it disappeared when we graduated. I doubt I'll ever pick it back up properly, and if I do it'll probably go through heavy rewrites first since it's so old. Finishing it is a nice thought, but realistically, after 9 years it'll never be high priority enough for it to actually happen.
16. What are your writing strengths?
Dialogue, especially arguments, and emotional impact. I've been told I do really well making characters feel alive and believable! Also I like to believe I'm decent at setting a scene and giving it the vibe I want it to have!
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
I struggle with dialogue tags when nothing much is happening besides the talking. I always feel it's too bland, and fall back on the same phrases. My scene transitions could use some work too.
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?
I've done this with Japanese phrases, because I was a massive weeb. Usually I followed them up with their own translations, though; I'm not the biggest fan of footnote translations, unless they are properly linked to. Simple dialogue tags are my favourite way of indicating a language switch.
19. First fandom you wrote for?
Black Cat the Manga/Anime! It's a series about an assassin turned bounty hunter trying to live a life separate from his murdery past, but getting dragged back into things by still wanting to avenge his best friend's death. The series has a special place in my heart and my bookshelf, it left an imprint on 13-year-old me that will never leave.
20. Favourite fic you've ever written?
Probably Jailbreak, uncharacteristically enough! It's one of the only fics I never got stuck in once. Writing it was a great feeling from start to finish. I love writing all of my fics, but that was a special few days.
Tagging @ahrva @nowhere-to-go-but-down @silvercaptain24 and @aeghina! And anyone who wants to do it, really, go wild
#somer writes#fanfiction#i feel like such a jerk when i praise myself#but i do think im a decent writer#im a hell of a lot better than i used to be#sometimes i reread stuff from even 2017 and go ick
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the femasculine urge to be a good fucking whore for my partner NOW. IMMEDIATELY.
#vix.txt#he's not around </3#and has a lot of school so probably wouldnt be in the mood which is okay!!#im just darcy. fine. i will sit here consumed with lust for the rest of the evening.#gidkhdkhdkhd sorry i can hear him in my head#'you want to be good? go to bed.'#which. perhaps i will.#đ
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Travis-centered plots because I Like fix itâs⌠(I just finished typing them all, Iâm ashamed for my sinful brain oml)
- Larry and Travis having once been friends but being torn apart by Travisâ father. Larry keeping an eye on Travis for years but then turning his attention to Sal, whom in turn receives the sudden disdain of Travis.
Sal confronts Travis in the bathrooms one day and Larry listens from the door. Eventually Sal talks Travis into tears. He confesses to being jealous of Sal and not wanting Larry to stop focusing on him, even if Larry ends up hating him. How his dad would beat him if Travis and Larry ever got close again. Larry barges in and holds Travis close. They reconcile (Sal opting to let the boys talk, clearly not in the mood to see Enemies to Lovers tonguing den in the school bathroom.
They uproot and destroy the cult, blah blah blah, Happily ever after and Travis gets help for his trauma induced depression and anxiety.
- Travis has been off for a few days. He doesnât antagonize anyone. Philip does more talking and ginger touching that Travis violently jerks away from. During class he barely responds and teachers donât try to force him. Sal didnât expect to find Travis sleeping on a bench one day. His worn shoes now tattered with holes at the bottom. His black eye prominent but accompanied by a busted lip and what looked to be severe damage to his legs.
Not sure how he did it, but Sal managed to convince Travis to come home with him. Introduces Travis to Henry and leads him to the bathroom where he washed off and got treated. His damage was severe and Sal really wanted to call the police but just seeing a fearful Travis weened him off the idea.
Larry was not too pleased to find Travis at Sals. He almost yelled until he noted Travis look at his raised hand and cower from him. Larry pausing and pulls Sal to the side to understand. Of course they donât know the full story but itâs enough to have Larry texting the group for help. Most were curious about what could lead them to wanting to help Travis. Ash, however, seemed to know a lot.
They find out about Travisâ abuse, the cult. Travis helps a little. He is still terrified of them but they start to grow on him with time. He even allows contact with Sal rarely, who shows him his face during a bonding moment at the dead of night. Larry makes playlists and CDs to help Travis get accustomed to loud noises (many of which are songs Larry personally thinks Travis would enjoy.
After the gang destroys and puts the cult behind bars. No demons, no murders, and no dead friends. Sal manages to convince Travis to report his father, thankfully they kept his clothes to give to the state police, Todd refused to trust the local police after further investigating the cult and their connections.
Healing and coping, cuddling and coddling. Travis getting the love and attention he deserves! Could end with him dating someone or him just being under their care for a while.
âSalvis but Sal is a bit more aggressive with Travis. Fuck it ABO, Travis is a very spicy omega that pretends to be a Beta. Sal is a strong scented alpha, like itâs a musky and domineering scent compared to his appearance. Larry is an alpha, though his scent is murky and smoky, and he doesnât act like the stereotypical alpha. Travis nitpicks them like usual, though sometimes they are too distracted by the nice smell seeping off of him. Larry sneers and asks if Travis mom scented him before school. Travis is upset at this. Much more emotional than usual. Sal notes the spike in scent and jabs Larry.
Uh oh, Travis is presenting in the bathroom, and beta Philip isnât able to fight off the alphas coming to investigate the scent, thankfully Sal is here to soothe and calm the terrified Travis while his friends help fend off the other students.
Mr. Phelps is pissed about an omega son. Travis is constantly scented with distress. He isnât allowed to talk about it but everyone can smell it. They are well aware of Travisâ fluctuating weight, fatigue and his tan skin turning pale and bruised worse than before. Larry is annoyed by this but canât tell whether itâs the scent affecting him or his stern belief in protecting omegas from abusive alphas.
Sal hates it, he knows he felt the mate bond but Travis doesnât seem to notice. Travisâ suffering eats away at Sal until he all but corners Travis and propositions him to save him from his father and give him sanctuary. It takes a lot to convince Travis. Heck, he has to promise Larry wouldnt hurt him (Larry later seeks Travis to reconcile their bad blood).
They get to know eachother. Sal is head over heels and watching Travis grow and blossom into his omega blood. Travis starts falling for someone else and Sal tries to be supportive (until he canât even look at Travis without feeling heartache). But Travis notes he doesnât love ____ And follows his heart to Sal. They bond, they love and boom, happy little family. (With three cute babies because Travis and Sal deserve happy families)
Larvis: roughly the same as the salvos ABO but Larry straight up picks up Travis and carries him home. Travis tries to fight but is swaddled and pampered until heâs fast asleep and purring in Larryâs arms.
Mr. Phelps doesnât have much ground to stand on when he tries to take Travis back. Larry confirming that Travis is his mate and based off of Phelpsâ beliefs he should reside with his mate.
Travis is surprised his father backs off so easily (because how could the pastor refute what he preaches?? Such blasphemy would be heard by the church blah blah blah). Larry and Travis talk and Larry admits that they are indeed mates, he never brought it up for Travisâ health. He was already struggling to care for himself, a mating bond would send his already feeble body and fragile mind spiraling. Larry also admits he knew they were mates ever since he presented, which wasnât that long after entering highschool. But, Travis was so proud to be ânormalâ and not some horny mess like the others. He also didnât like seeing Travis harass and bully others, which probably aided in his aggressive rejection of the omega and prolonged Travisâ presentation.
Life goes on and Larry and Travis are happily married with four kids (two more in the oven, because Larry is a very affectionate husband). Cult was handled and Sal is NOT dead and very much the worlds best uncle.
-Travis having a hot girl summer.
Thatâs it. Thatâs the plot.
Thotty church twink marching about in short shorts and tank tops (sinful!) showing off his goodies to the masses. Larry shamelessly offers to partake, and gets thrown for a whirlwind when Travisâ phat ass is delightfully uncontrollable. Sal jokingly shoots his shot and winds up slumped in the back of the church from immaculate head.
Mr. Phelps is away so the thot is out to play. (Courtesy of Mama Phelps aiding and abetting her sons growth as a person. He may be throwing it back to the boys he once sneered at but at least heâs nicer to people)
-Travis being rescued from the Phelps home after a concerned report to the state police. The church closed and his father put behind bars for many accounts of child abuse and neglect and the disappearance of Travisâ mother.
Sal and gang are curious about what the new home will do to Travis after months of rehabilitation, and all damn near faint when they see Travis with long pink hair and a cute sun dress marching into the school. Directly towards them and apologizing for his horrible treatment of them, specifically Sal. They canât believe his change at first but after weeks of watching him, he seems genuinely happier.
This new happiness starts to get unsettling to Larry, who watches Travis and Philip be closer than before. He shouldnât care he hates Travis! But god he wished the boy would wrap his arms around his and march down the halls. He would kill to get surprise back hugs or do the hugging. He wanted to share lunch with Travis. Be hand fed meals and have his mouth cleaned whilst being scolded.
Fuck, heâs in love! He thought he nipped that in the bud when Sal started getting bullied by Travis. But no, Travis being rescued from his awful father and being a genuinely good person from then on was astounding. Hell, he even brought Sal treats as an apology for walking in on him with his mask off once. Sal said it was fine but Travis babbled ok about feeling bad because Sal looked terrified even though Travis didnât think Sal was any less cool. (Yes, Sal cried in his room about how much it meant for someone to say that).
For fucks sake, Travis had pictures upon pictures of his new family and their pets. PETS. He had dooogs, god Larry lost his mind seeing Travis jogging around town with dogs in shorts and a sweaty, almost see through tank top!! Heâs too gay for this.
He finally confesses, maybe tries to play it off as a joke, but Travis just smiles sweetly and pecks his cheek. Heâs sorry but heâs already dating someone. Larry tries not to let his disappointment show, but he just canât feel the need to go to school for a couple of days. Hides out in his tree house and just smokes. Cause, cmon.. whoâd wanna date him?? All he does is smoke and play around! He hasnât had a stable relationship in years and most heâs known for is sleeping with whoever he deems the hottest.
Sal notices his behavior and tries to comfort him, not sure why Larry is like this, by offering to introduce him to his partner. Maybe they have a friend Larry is interested in. Larry wants to be supportive but he really doesnât care to see Sals new beau(ty). He really just wanted to camp out in the tree house and smoke away the pain. Or, he did until he sees Travis and Sal holding hands and nuzzling on the couch one day. Sals legs on Travisâ and Travis combing Sals hair. Larry felt like his world came crashing down, his best friend?? And his first and worst crush?? The crush that sent him spiraling for what could have been weeks? Sal is innocent, he didnât know that Larry was madly in love with Travis. Didnât know that Travis so politely rejected him and offered to cease contact if Larry felt he couldnât be around him.
Larry wasnât much of a romantic after that. He played around with whoever he felt needed love. His partying spiraling out of control in adult hood. Travis tried to contact him and help him find a good person, but any attempts to help Larry ended with Larry crying to him drunkenly. Asking why he wasnât good enough, why he couldnât have been Sal. Travis wasnât allowed near Larry after Larry drunkenly made advances at him, he doesnât blame Larry heâs extremely emotional, but Sal felt Larry would only get worse the more they stayed in contact, so they were kept apart.
Larry never loved anyone as much as he loved Travis Fisher.
-Last one was a sadder Onesided Larvis, this one is Larry teasing and cornering Travis so much that Travis tries to shock him by kissing him. He came home with some hickies and a very prominent limp.
Theyâre not saying, yet, but Wingman Sal is politely judging Travis into Larryâs arms. They are constantly alone together. Larry blowing Travisâ back out in an abandoned amusement park when the others split up to explore. âHe sprained his ankle running from a shadowâ Hmph, Travis smelt like axe. He HATES the smell of axe⌠but okay lovebirds.
Sal has 100% walked in on the secret lovers getting frisky when moms out. Later helps Travis shop for more pretty clothes, because who wouldnât want a shopping body??? Thatâs almost illegal to not take the opportunity.
Larry eats ass. A lot. Travis can literally be on FaceTime shopping with Sal and Larry just slips under the covers and enjoys his fill of boyfriend cheekies~ yum!
Travis, as revenge, will give the gawk gawk 9000. Larry is NOT safe if he thinks Travis has forgotten the embarrassment of Sal chuckling and telling him he has to go walk his homework. He could be on the phone with his boss or Lisa and Travis will give the sloppiest top heâs ever had. (Praise the son for horni bratty bottoms)
#travis phelps#laravis#Larry x Travis#salvis#sal x travis#larvis#sal fisher#sally face au#sally face#larry johnson#Iâm but a hole#so Travis will be too#I have more but I so tired ;u; donât wanna think#but yeah Travis either getting help or being adopted and rehabilitated#god I love the idea of Travis with long luscious hair in the prettiest gowns#prancing around the school and bringing hand made treats to his peers#special treats to the one he likes#long post
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a very bleak christmas
wolfstar fic /// one shot
word count ( 6.2k ITS LONG SORRY)
fluff, not much smut
this turned out awfully long IM SORRYđ having that said i hope you enjoy <33 ily mwahh
"you ready wormy?" james said, shutting his trunk and looking at his bed and around the dormitory to make sure hasnt forgotten anything. he looked over at the shorter boy with sandy coloured hair who was bending down apparently trying to get something he dropped from under the bed, but struggling a great deal. he nervously shot his head up giving james a weak smile and said "yes, im ready, i just dropped something here im not sure what-"
"just tell moony to fetch it for you while we're away" james said and peter just agreed and left the dormitory trailing after james with his trunk, shutting the door on his way. the gryffindor common room was emptier than usual, but the fireplace was lit with a couple of people huddling around it to shield themselves from the ruthless cold of december. despite this however, peoples spirits were as light as ever as almost everyone was departing for two weeks to spend christmas with their families, even lily evans stopped rolling her eyes every time james breathed, and started spending more time with him and ( to james' great delight) enjoying his company. speaking of lily, she was standing by the fireplace with her hair up in a ponytail with a furry winter cap on her head. james noticed her at once and made his way down the flight of stairs and tapped her shoulder softly, she turned around and gave him a warm smile, a short hug followed.
"happy holidays james!" she smiled so widely it watered james' eye. she called him james, not potter.
"happy holidays" he managed to respond, taken aback by the sudden affection she just showed him. she looked around furrowing her brows slightly then spoke, "wheres your trunk? have you not packed?"
"oh no i have! i left my trunk with peter to um, you know, come and say hi" he said the second part of the sentence quietly, she let out a soft laugh, god he just wanted to kiss her so bad. "wheres yours?" he asked quickly. she turned around slightly to show him her trunk which was standing behind her, tapping it twice.
"alright then, lets go down to breakfast, minnie wouldnt want us to be late" he told her, taking her hand and leading her out of the common room with him. he looked back at peter who was struggling with his own trunk and james' but peter just shot him a thumbs up as if he got everything under control.
"alright wormy, dont be late" he muttered. the pair of them walked down from the gryffindor tower to the entrance hall and right to the great hall where elaborate christmas decorations were encapsulating the place, giving the entire castle a more homey vibe. the four house tables were emptier than usual, james and lily made their way to the gryffindor table where they were met by a handsome boy with long hair that he managed to scruff in a very messy pony tail, and a taller boy sitting across him who seemed to find his buttering his toast to be a very intriguing activity. lily and james took seats next to them.
"morning" sirius spoke, looking at lily then at james.
"morning sirius, how are you" lily replied, who also began buttering her toast. sirius didnt respond right away, instead he eyed her then finally spoke, "oh im, im very good" it didnt really seem like it, sirius didnt seem to be in his loud, arrogant and flirtatious mood today, instead a rather dull and quiet one. lily looked at james silently trying to understand what had caused the sudden change in sirius behavior, she was met a mere shrug from james. the four of them sat in silence for the next ten minutes, no one breaking silence that seemed to have swallowed them. remus then looked up for the first time and sighed loudly, which made sirius look very attentively at him, waiting for him to say anything.
"im gonna go, im in the dorm if you want me pads. enjoy your holidays james, you too lily" he said lowly, also clearly in a dull mood in contrast to everyones mood right now. he got up and left, shooting them a weak smile before disappearing out of the great hall.
sirius watched him so closely even when he had gotten out of sight. it was common knowledge that the pair are in love and clearly fancied each other, almost everyone in school knew that. maybe its because of sirius' shameless attitude, cuddling with remus in the common room, sitting on his lap in the middle of the great hall, or pushing remus against a wall and just stand in front of him doing god knows what. the only problem was... neither sirius nor remus knew they liked each other. they obviously knew they had a different relationship than anyone else but they were so oblivious to the fact that theyre in love that it sometimes made james just want to scream it in their face.
"you okay pads?" james said mockingly, sirius had been staring at where remus left for at least ten minutes completely transfixed, he came back to his senses at once and looking abruptly between james and lily then back at his doughnut, fiddling with it slightly. he then shot james an alarmed look and said, "dont call me that james". he spoke so firmly, he knew james knew this is what remus calls him. no one was really allowed to use that nickname with him, even he and james who had a light hearted friendship that was basically based on jokes and pranks, sirius pronounced the words looking into james' eyes, which made james know he was being one hundred percent serious. james didnt respond, feeling a rush of guilt in his stomach, he just took a bite of his oatmeal.
"how are things with you two" james asked. sirius once again didnt respond right away but instead took time to ponder his answer.
"what do you mean how are things"
"you know, have you guys had a row or anything?" james asked, stuffing more oatmeal in his mouth.
"oh- um yea no. not really no" sirius hesitated a bit. the truth is that remus and him didnt have a row, but today was one of these occasions where sirius woke up finding himself on remus' bed not knowing how or why. it had happened a couple of times before and when it did, remus would immediately smile warmly at sirius and pamper him with kisses here and there on his cheek and his jaw. however, today, remus woke up a bit more shaky to the fact that he was in the same bed as sirius. he straightened his pyjamas quickly giving sirius an awkward smile and leaving without a word.
james dropped his oatmeal and looked at sirius looking serious for the first time, giving him a smile that carried something between sympathy and support.
"are you ever going to tell him?"
"tell him what" sirius said bluntly
james smirked. even lily suppressed a knowing look. sirius rolled his eyes.
"you guys are not onto that bullshit the whole school talks about right?" he asked cringing slightly.
"if the bullshit includes you and remus being blindly in love then yes" james gave a small laugh.
"literally blindly" lily mumbled, but sirius heard her and gave her a look.
"guys- hes my best mate"
"doing a lot of canoodling with your 'best mate' ?" james smirked rolling his eyes.
"first of all, what the fuck is canoodling james, this isnt the eighteenth century" he ppinted out the weird choice of wording.
"whatever, point is, people dont sleep on their 'best mates' chests every day padfoot" sirius opened his mouth to protest but james cut him again "just save your breath will you. im trying to help"
sirius sighed heavily burying his head in his hands and shaking it.
"i dont fucking know what to do prongs. fuck ugh i hate this so much why cant it be simpler" sirius' voice got weaker.
"mate just talk to him, remus cant read your mind. and its pretty obvious the feelings mutual" james tried to convince him.
"i dont know if hes into- you know, into me" sirius tried to explain. sirius had come out to the entire school three years ago so it was common knowledge that was gay.
"oh he is" lily said
sirius blinked.
"i mean, i spend a lot of time with him in our prefects meetings and in the library and stuff" she explained. sirius blinked again.
"i mean" she began again, "he talks about you an awful lot and seems to be quite fond of you" she smiled.
"look, you'll never know if you dont ask" james said again. "look at me, i had to ask lily out at least fifteen times-"
"james what the fuck this isnt the same, why are you even comparing it" sirius interrupted
"oh of course its not the same, but communication is key, no matter what the relationship is"
"yea and when i ask him out and he just says i misunderstood all his soft affectionate gestures, then stops hanging out with me because im gay and he would know i have feelings for him, that clearly arent mutual. i'll just ruin everything, and i'll lose probably the only person that likes me in this lousy world" sirius spilled, laughing bitterly.
"sirius! you know remus would never stop hanging out with you because of that, you know it!" james said, his voice getting a bit louder.
"yea but it'd be a sticky situation when your gay friend has feelings for you" sirius said, his eyes filled with tears that he wiped right away hoping james and lily didnt see that.
"sirius.." lily said lowly
"lily can you please check up on peter and help him if needs any assistance" james told her firmly, she didnt need telling twice, knowing he wanted to be left alone with sirius. she made her way out of the great hall until she was out of sight, then james look at sirius again who had his head buried in his hands once again.
"sirius i dont know whats gotten into you today, but you know damn well that neither moony or i would ever think of you any differently because you're gay. stop saying that as if its something that hinders you" this was one of the rare occasions where james was serious and firm. he wanted sirius to know meant every word that left his mouth. at this moment he heard a sniff followed by a weak sob.
"james, i sometimes wish i wanst- wasnt, you know, gay" he managed to say between sobs. james' face fell suddenly.
"no dont say that. please dont say that, you know we love you the way you are and we dont give two damns if you're gay or not" james got up and made his way across the table to sit next to sirius rather than in front of him.
"you're me best mate, i dont like seeing you like this. i love you a lot sirius and nothing your little overthinking brain comes up with could change that" he said, pulling sirius into a hug, so hard that he mightve broken a few ribs. he wasnt gonna let go before sirius does, he could stay here all day until sirius was ready to let go. he heard strong sniffs and felt his chest going up and down. sirius broke the hug after a few minutes, looking a lot more content than he had a few minutes before. james gave him his usual cheeky smile.
"your fucking snout sirius" james laughed, picking up a handkerchief trying to clean his shoulder.
"fuck off" sirius managed to laugh, sniffing again.
"thank you" sirius said quietly
"come off it, dont thank me" james smiled at him. he watched him grab a cigarette and right when he was about to light it with the tip of his wand james stopped him hesitantly. james never really liked to mother him about smoking or give him lectures about the effects smoking had, but he noticed sirius was eating less and smoking more the past couple of days. sirius shot a "what-do-you-want" look to which james responded, "um, can you please just eat something before you smoke" james said. he knew this was a touchy subject, he never liked to mention it but they were alone and he knows he's the only one sirius would listen to. sirius gave him a hesitant look, before stuffing the cigarette back in his pocket.
"just for you prongs" he rolled his eyes, taking a bite of his doughnut. james however was filled with so much joy seeing his best friend do that just for him.
"what are you smiling so much at you prat" sirius said between bites. james shook his head softly before saying, "im very proud of you sirius, i hope you know that" sirius smiled and laughed dismissively at that statement, james knew it touched him but sirius never really knew how to respond to affectionate words.
"you're very sappy you know that" sirius laughed slightly.
"whatever" james felt his cheeks go red. "anyway i have to get going before i get minnie mad on christmas" he said, getting up, swinging his backpack on his back leaving the hall.
"tell moony i say merry christmas" james called, leaving the great hall also disappearing out of sight.
~
later that night, james and lily departed home to spend the upcoming weeks with their families to celebrate christmas, so did most of the school. as homey and welcoming as the school felt, everyone loved going back to their family, everyone except sirius. sirius was never fond of his family, he never had a good relationship with them and all they did was make him more miserable, he would take any chance to be away from them. sirius was sat in the library that was emptier than usual (but the ceiling was enchanted to fake snow) he was sitting with two giant books opened in front of him, yellowed by age. he looked over at the books, he hadnt read a single word despite being here for nearly an hour. he came here in an attempt to distract himself from the intensifying amount of nerves and stress, however, he was so lost in his thoughts that not even that gigantic book can save him from his exhausting overthinking. he sighed heavily, feeling the weight of the world on his shoulder, shutting the books that made a loud thud and put them back in their place. sirius swung his backpack on his back and left the library making his way to the gryffindor tower. he just wanted to sleep. yes, sleep, thats what he needed. he went through the fat lady's portrait and climbed up the stairs to his dormitory, finding remus sitting on his four poster bed completely engulfed by a book. remus shot his eyes up the second he heard sirius walking in and gave him a wordless smile, going back to his book. sirius' stomach did a funny lurch.
"i was starting to think youve forgotten your way around the castle" remus said, flipping the page of his book, still reading it. sirius looked at him nervously, not sure what he meant by that.
"what?" sirius asked, he was going to take his shirt off and get in his pyjamas but stopped abruptly. he didnt wanna make remus uncomfortable around him, especially after what happened this morning. they always had a very intimate relationship though, changing in front of each other was never a problem. remus suppressed a chuckle which made sirius look at him, unsure what he found comical in this very intense atmosphere.
"you can take your shirt off if you want sirius" remus said, still poured into his book.
"how can you even see me?" sirius couldnt stop himself. remus looked up from his book and gave him a is-that-even-a-question look. sirius slipped his undone tie, unbuttoning his buttons his fingers shaking horribly for a reason he didn't understand. he knew remus was looking in his book (not that he didnt want remus looking) but he still felt like all the worlds eyes are on him. a couple of awfully long minutes passed and sirius finally was in his pyjama and got into his bed under his blanket and stared absentmindedly into the wall. remus flipped the page once again, he hadnt read a word on the previous page. how could he? he was so preoccupied by sirius changing in front of him. remus did freak out when he found himself on the same bed as sirius this morning. he doesnt know why he freaked out the way he did, its not like its the first time. he knew that this had made sirius extremely self conscious the whole day, he was wearing a very dull look. he had to make up for his unexplainable actions, he cant stand seeing sirius this upset, especially if he was the reason hes feeling like that. he couldnt stand seeing him in such a bad mood on breakfast this morning that he had to dismiss himself early. but sirius' loss of his loud flirtatious attitude was what stirred the pot for remus. he didnt walk in the dorm and try to slip in bed with remus, or get a kiss from him, or remotely try draw any attention to hismelf from remus rather than that book in his hand, which was as un-sirius as one can get.
"why were you late?" remus asked sirius, knowing hes not asleep. sirius mumbled something inaudible from his bed that remus didnt catch onto. remus furrowed his brows slightly. he shut his book and put it on the bed side table, the sound he made when he shut his book made sirius shift in his bed to face remus who was staring back at him.
"where were you?" remus asked
"in the library" sirius said simply, avoiding any sarcasm or any joking around. remus face wore a surprised expression.
"oh- by your own will?" he said with a breathy laugh.
"yea" sirius replied
"what were you reading?" said remus, sounding excited. sirius didnt exactly know why he wad being interrogated by remus about his absence.
"um, i was just doing homework"
"oh, thats actually nice pads" remus smiled. sirius' stomach did another flip at the nickname. god this was so awkward and tense, sirius thought.
"sirius are you mad at me?" remus said, going straight to the point. every muscle in sirius' body went tense and completely still.
"no" sirius said bluntly.
"sure?"
"yea"
"okay. great then. um do you wanna come lay here with me?" remus offered, this was quiet foreign for remus as it was never him who initiated anything sexual or intimate. but he was willing to go out of his comfort zone for sirius. just for sirius.
"uh- sorry moony im really tired" it pained sirius to say these words, if he was being honest, he wanted nothing more than to lay in remus' chest right now and give him soft pecks and kiss his stupid plump lips.
"oh, okay" remus said lowly. "okay then" sirius wasnt sure what he meant by that tone, and before sirius has any other second to think about it, he felt his bed dip slightly and remus climbing on him, placing himself on top of sirius with his legs wide opened around his waist. sirius felt like all the oxygen in the world had escaped his lungs.
"tired, you said you are pads? want a little massage?" remus cooed softly. he leaned down on sirius' chest undoing his pyjama buttons revealing his tattooed chest.
"remus-" sirius tried to stop him. sirius promised himself he wasnt going to do anything like that with remus because he doesnt want to make him uncomfortable or possibly hate him more, however, this is different. its remus thats initiating it. it remus that did it.
"what pads?" remus continued cooing softly, completely stripping sirius of his shirt and attaching his lips on sirius' neck. at this exact moment, sirius moaned louder than he intended. he shifted slightly in his bed and put his hand through remus' hair. remus continued nibbling sirius' neck. he bit and licked at all the right spots, leaving a soft trail of kisses all over his neck and made his way up to his chin and on his lips, where he left a soft peck. sirius however pulled remus' head back towards him to kiss him properly, remus licked sirius' bottom lip which made sirius moan approvingly into the kiss. remus slipped his tongue in sirius' mouth and deepened the kiss, he felt sirius' hand wandering around his shoulder and slipped in his shirt to touch his bare skin.
"god this is so" remus moaned breaking the kiss only to attach his lips on his once again.
"remus-" sirius stopped him abruptly. remus looked down on sirius, his eyes mobing fast between his godly features, furrowing his brows slightly not understanding why sirius stopped him. did he make him uncomfortable? was sirius really not in the mood and remus overstepped a boundry? remus felt a horrible tingling feeling in his stomach as his brain raced between all the possibilities.
"remus im sorry- i cant do this" sirius said, as soon as the words left his mouth he felt horrible, reading the shocked and bewildered expression on remus face, he looked very hurt and unsure of himself.
"oh- fuck okay im sorry" remus said quickly, getting off sirius and leaving his bed, but sirius held his arm to immobilize him and not make him leave. they stared at each other for a few seconds that felt painfully long. both of them felt confused, upset with themselves and unsure of what to do or say next.
"can you please stay" sirius said quietly avoiding remus' eye. remus didnt respond which made sirius feel a horrible pit of nerves in his stomach.
"i- i don't understand. you just asked me to stop and told me you cant do this" remus spoke lowly with a soft rasp in his voice. sirius buried his head in his hand, he was on the brink of tears, he honestly didnt know what or how to explain his confusion to remus. how could he explain it or put it in cohesive words when he himself didn't understand.
"sirius please talk to me" remus said softly, holding sirius' hand
"rem i dont know how-"
"do you trust me?" remus cut him off.
"what- yes of course" sirius said sternly.
"then please tell me how you feel"
"how i feel about what?" sirius asked
"about doing this" remus tried to explain, sirius knew at once he was referring to all the sexual stuff they do.
"remus i love it. i enjoy it a lot, i sometimes just want the day to end only to get in bed with you. i- i dont know how to word my feelings because it's honestly just all a mess inside me" sirius spilled. this was the most he'd spoken all day. remus smiled at the last sentence. "what about you?" sirius asked, feeling the same horrible pit of nerves in his stomach increase. remus however smiled.
"i do things for you pads that id never do to anyone" he said, smiling more. he leaned closer to sirius' face and brushing a few strands of his hair out of his face. "but, if you feel unsure about this, we can stop and just be friends. i'd completely understand"
"no what the fuck moony" sirius said before he could stop himself, remus looked in his eyes. "no im unsure about your feelings to me, not about my feelings to you" he tried to explain.
"you think i dont like you?" remus asked quickly.
"well not exactly but im not sure how you feel towards me". at this, remus leaned down to kiss sirius lips a soft and tender kiss. he took his time to savor every bit of his mouth he could.
"maybe this would give you a good idea about how i feel about you" he smiled at him. "we're both exhausted, its best if we just go to sleep"
"right okay. can you sleep with me?" sirius asked, remus gave a breathy laugh at his sweet request.
"yes darling i can" he said with his usual rasp apparent, getting under the blanket and spooning sirius playing with his hair for the the next foreseeable hours until both of them were sleeping.
soft sun rays illuminated through the window of the gryffindor tower and on the entire hogwarts grounds. the translucent curtains that were in the dormitory were not doing any shielding from the sun rays whatsoever. it fell gently on the two boys that were sleeping together, tangled together, their bodies almost intertwining so perfectly with each other as if they were jigsaw pieces. sirius' head was on remus' chest, remus hugging sirius' body towards him and their legs just tangled. they looked so peaceful, their chests raising and going down every couple of seconds, it was all so perfect that one could confidently bet that even their heartbeats were in sync.
an owl came knocking its beak on the window above the bed theyre on, breaking the gentle yet majestically peaceful the state they were in. sirius shifted slightly in his sleep, opening his eyes to find uninvited sunlight penetrating right through his eyeballs. the owl made another knock on the window trying to grab their attention.
"fine okay" sirius said rasply, he got up sitting upright opening the window for that stupid owl that interrupted his sleep. the owl had two parcels tied on its leg. sirius untied them and the owl flew out at once.
"whos that from?" a raspy voice spoke he immediately knew it was remus.
"um, i think its" he turned the parcel around to see if there was any name, he smiled when he saw the senders name.
"yep, its from prongs" he said looking at remus who also smiled warmly.
"well, we'll open it later, lets just get up quickly now before we miss breakfast" he said, sitting up right and sliding his legs out of the bed. the two boys changed into their normal clothes. remus got into a hand knitted sweater and pants, sirius also got into a baggy sweatshirt and sloppily tied his hair up.
"pads is that mine?" remus smiled looking at the sweater sirius was wearing.
"maybe" sirius replied with a cheeky tone.
"course it is" remus rolled his eyes. "you literally have the biggest closet out of all of us, yet youre never wearing your shit" sirius gave him a weird look.
"not that i mind it darling" remus said softly, playing with sirius' hair slightly. they both left the dormitory and walked down to the common room with the intention to leave to the great hall, however they were met by a small table that was put in front of the fireplace with breakfast food laying on it. they looked at each other exchanging weird looks.
"there was no point of making you leave the common room only to go down and eat when its only you too in the whole school" professor mcgonagall's voice spoke. she was sitting on an armchair wearing her usual green dressing gown. "well anyway, im going down to have breakfast with the rest of the teachers. you two have a merry christmas" she smiled slightly and left the common room.
remus and sirius were just left there standing stupidly in front of the food table.
"well, i guess we're not leaving. sit down lets eat im starving" sirius said sitting himself down and starting to eat toast. they both ate until they were full and just laid on their armchairs to take their breath.
"wanna open the parcel prongs sent?" remus asked after ten minutes of silence.
"uhh sure" sirius said, getting the parcels, handing remus one box and he opened the other one. he tore the wrapping and opened it, a smile breaking on his face.
"he got me a wand polishing set. oh and look, he got me some hair bands" remus laughed a little. sirius put the hair bands in his wrist.
"what are you laughing at, i love it" sirius smiled "what did he get you?"
"he got me part six of 'crows or crowns'. its my favorite book and he knows i couldn't find that volume anywhere" remus' face wore a very big smile from that present. "oh and look! he got me a vest, it's beautiful"
"i'll be wearing that" sirius said at once
"of course darling you can wear it whenever"
"remus open my gift!" sirius said with so much excitement, remus held the huge box wondering what he has inside. he stared at sirius before opening it, unsure of what will meet him when he opens it. his suspicion grew larger when he was met by a cheeky smiling sirius.
"its not gonna blow up in my face right?" remus laughed a little
"only one way to find out" sirius shrugged
"oh god" remus joked. he opened the box and the first thing he saw was a big box inside labeled 'book polishing kit' remus' face fell with shock.
"sirius! sirius is this a book polishing kit? oh my god" he was gasping. sirius felt his cheeks burn by the fond expression on remus' face.
"holy shit pads where did you get this, these are so rare and expensive" he held it close to his face examining it with so much excitement.
"shhh its a gift" sirius was kind of embarrassed fora reason he doesnt know. "theres more stuff"
remus looked inside the box and laughed out loudly when he saw at least a doesnt bars of chocolate.
"what are you laughing at! this is the muggle chocolate you told me you like" sirius said flustered a little.
"yes yes i love it" remus smiled. "thank you"
sirius shrugged, not knowing what to say in situations like this.
"um, right open my gift" remus said looking nervous. remus' gift was something a little different and not very expected, he spent a lot of time thinking whether its a good idea or not. hes so nervous for sirius to see it, he felt his stomach lurch so badly he might vomit. he handed sirius an a4 piece of parchment that was folded into quarters. sirius gave him a confused yet excited look.
"are you giving me your transfiguration homework as a christmas gift moony" he joked.
"oh shut up and open it" every fibre in remus' body was screaming in anticipation and nerves. sirius unfolded the paper and read:
"dear sirius,
i am writing this in the dormitory for the fifteenth time at least. i thought so much about this and decided that its perfect. six years ago when i laid eyes on you for the first time, you had this aura that carried so much charm, something about your stupid gorgeous personality was so seductive and made me in complete lust for you. there aren't enough words in the english language to explain how you make me feel, nothing will come close to describing how i feel when you slip in bed with me every night, when i play with your hair, when i hear your heartbeats, when i hold your hand and stroke it with my thumb, when you kiss my scars, when you sit next to me in class sit there looking pretty doing nothing. i came to the conclusion that every little thing you do has me in utter awe. no one has ever made me feel like that, for a long time i was so confused as to why and how you could do that so effortlessly. i was confused about how i felt about you for so long, i was so confused about myself, and you helped me come to terms with who i am, by being so unapologetically you. at the end of a hard day you're always there to cheer me up, even in my darkest days, when nothing felt like it'll be okay ever again, you're always fucking here to change that. the number of times you've saved my life sirius, i couldnt tell you, by just merely being here. i figured that no matter what happens and no matter where life takes me, i want to always be with you. i never want to see that day i have to depart you, i dont ever see it coming because not even the strongest force from the gods above will make me leave you. im in love with you. im so fucking in love you idiot. im in love with the way you talk, the way you tie your hair, the way you dress, the way your eyes crease when you smile, your bark like laugh, your stupid jokes that i find funny unironically, your chirped nail polish... just in love with you. so sirius, this is me asking, do you want to be my boyfriend?"
sirius read the letters at least three times to make sure he wasnt missing anything, to make sure he was reading it correctly. was remus asking him out? was remus actually in love with him? none of this felt real. sirius felt like he's seeing stars in his vision, like he was going to pass out any second right now. he looked up at remus who was staring attentively on him and watching his every reaction. he met eyes with him and felt like all the worlds oxygen was being drained.
"so?" remus asked, his voice quivering.
"so?" he repeated as if this was a incredulous thing so say, " fuck yes i wanna be your boyfriend" sirius threw himself on remus on his armchair and splattered him with kissed everywhere he could reach.
"i never thought id be the lucky person to actually end up dating you" sirius breathed
"please, im the lucky one here" remus rolled his eyes.
"i mean hell yeah you are" sirius said sarcastically.
the pair of them spent the rest of the day sitting on the armchair cuddled up with the heat of each other, sharing soft intimate touches every now and then. they spent the whole day in peace and delicacy and made the most out of each otherâs company. soon enough before they knew it, the holidays were over and students were returning to hogwarts for their second term.
âhi remus! hey sirius, good holiday? how are you two?â james showered them with questions enthusiastically when they saw him come in the gryffindor common room, he seemed to be in a cheerful mood.
âyea, great holidayâ remus mumbled finding himself an armchair and sitting in it. the rest followed and sat on armchairs around him but sirius sat on his lap which remus scooted over a little to make space for him. james and lily looked at each other rolling their eyes playfully but happy that theyre on good terms, unlike the last time they saw them.
âwhat about you two? and you wormy? how was ur holidayâ remus asked calmly, playing with siriusâ hair absentmindedly.
âgreat we had a great a time, i invited lily and wormy over, wormy couldnt make it though. but lily and i had fun, my parents liked her a lotâ james smirked looking at her. âobviously they knew her because i always talked about her to them, but theyâve never really- woah WOAHâ jamesâ speach was cut abruptly when he saw sirius attach his lips to remusâ and remus kissed him back fondly. they all exchanged shocked looks but they werent too shocked, they knew something was happening between the pair of them.
âwoah guysâ james laughed as they broke the kiss apart and giggled at their reaction.
âyea um, remus and i are datingâ sirius said, lookinh flustered slightly. remus was still playing with his hair softly.
âdoes that mea we can go on double dates?â james said at once
âjames potter i am not going on double dates with you and sirius thank you very muchâ lily said sarcastically.
âsuit yourself, james and i are going on datesâ sirius shrugged
âjames and you are what-â lily looked confused but cant help a laugh.
âthats right evansâ sirius said in a dignified tone.
âdont you talk to my girlfriend like that black!â remus said at once. they all laughed at the sitiuation but lily said with a serious voice, âguys im so happy for you, youre finally togetherâ she smiled wamrly. remus and sirius scooted closer next to each other smiling back at her.
âreally proud of my matesâ james said, trying to keep a serious tone but smirking at the same time.
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j!!!!!! T picked me up from class yesterday 𼺠bc it was gross out. and he came over for a bit. we did our homework. then he was going to go home to make dinner and he told me to come with and hed make dinner for both of us 𼺠he grabbed my school bag and i was like watcha need that for. and he said âso you can stay and i can drop you off at class tomorrowâ đđđ so we went to his and we made dinner together. we just laughed a lot and tried to catch food in our mouths that we threw at each other lol. it was funny. i giggled a lot. we ate dinner and then we went to Tâs room. cuddled. there were some kisses. but it didnât get super steamy. it was nice though.
and then T goes âyoure coming to the game right?â and i said âi dont know. do you want me to?â and j!!!!!! he said âyes babe, i want you thereâ đđđ i blushed. he said he wouldnt have asked if he didnt want me there. that was a good answer. it earned him a kiss đđ or two. or for a few minutes. and then he said âso youre going?â and i said âhmmm. i have one conditionâ and he said âoh yeah? whats that?â so i said as long as i got to pick a new sweatshirt. he let me. i told him not to look so it could be a surprise. he laughed but agreed. even though im sure he will be able to tell which ones gone. its one with his number on it đđ and then when i picked i went back over and hugged him from behind. he turned around and picked me up and carried me to his bed đđ but then it was just more soft kisses and cuddles đ and we just talked. and slept. nothing super spicy
IM SCREAMING OVER ALL OF THIS!! He is literally the sweetest boy ever and Iâm so glad you went for it with him!! Iâm so happy for you! He made you dinner this time 𼺠and wanted you to stay over đĽşđĽş oh my gosh this boosted my mood so much! HE WANTS YOU AT THE GAME!!!! You played that whole thing so smooth and Iâm so proud of you lol. Heâs going to be such a sucker when he sees you wearing that. Heâll probably have the best look on his face when he realizes it has his number on it. I still have one day for my bet so I need him to pull through đ girl get all the kisses and cuddles for those of us that donât hahah! Ugh Iâm so excited for you for this weekend!!
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hehe glad i could make you laugh, oooh that sounds awesome! yeah id love to be tagged it sounds great :)
YES the differences are so fucking weird. like, they do know they're the same age right? i feel like its just an exagguration of how much the persons role in the group matters, like we see chan being held up as such a mature, old leader while jungkook who is literally the same age, is still babied etc. like enha hyung line is basically the same age (if a bit younger) as chenle and jisung but somehow the rules are different?? as you point out, still legal but still bizarre. hehe yeah, i mean where else are we going to rant? quora lol. mmm, hopefully more people can just write less smut abt people who are barely adults
ah, no prob it didnt take long. yeah i think thats right (i keep forgetting you know my url lol) mmhmm :( i think if that happened irl there would be some major trauma going on. knock wood it never happens to you or me lol (/hj)
hehe same! oooh glad Redemption For Cheese was realised! yess we cant rllycomplain that theyve written/produced too much good music lol. yeah, ive dragged him into being a stay so *dusts hands off* mission accomplished. mmm yeah, they tend to have a certain vibe but tbh it couldve worked if they were any other group but ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ ahh ur one step ahead of me on the stages of listening to ssick i think, still not convinced but thats okay! hehe, it had to be said. yesss the itch in the back of my brain is very satisfied by sorry i love you, felixs vocals deserve to be appreciated! (side note i feel like hes trying to sing more like his speaking voice, sorta husky, but tbh i wouldnt be mad if he sang like in glow, his sweet honey vocals made my life lol. but i think ive heard him say he doesnt like singing like that cos it makes his normal voice less husky, so what can you do)
> YES SOMEONE SAID IT. seungmin rap KING, he sped thru that rap like it was nothing, he deserves more rap lines. i do like how they gave minho some melodic rap lines this comeback, my guy deserved to show off those skills that made him not be eliminated (flashbacks to stay collectively wanting to murder jyp) and we already know changbin can sing, my man murdered masked singer. hyunjin can obviously sing as can jisung and felix, and i want to hear chan rap more! i feel like he started as part of 3racha (as a rap unit not producing) and then just became a vocalist (which im fine with, but it could be nice to hear him flex his rapping skills) and was partially replaced by hyunjin. anywayyy
back to album talk. lmaooo sad music to twerk to PERFECTLY describes silent cry. yes secret secret is and will always be, a masterpiece. hehe glad i could make you laugh :) i just felt like they have similar vibes. putting off skz stuff bc of not having time to cry IS the kpop stan life summarised. oh my beloved track, red lights. ahh thats okay, we can have different opinions, but by god the lyrics are *chefs kiss*. *banging on table* TWISTED AU TWISTED AU TWISTED AU. yess id love to see ur take on it! sdfghjkl it would have been glorious
no no! not stupid, just able to predict my brainwaves. ooooh thats so cool! makes me want to go there (wherever there is lol) yeah the waves are pretty good here, but none of my familys a surfer, so we dont rlly enjoy the full potential lol. YES moving on to gone away, it is indeed a heartwrenching track, but the vocals and the bloody key change? makes me want to brave being sad just to listen to it. mmm yeah, good point :( i feel like ive just gotten used to overthinking so much so that it doesnt matter what mood im in, ill do it anyway, so might as well just do what i feel like doing anyway.
yeah i think ur right! it is quite comforting knowing that all the tracks will get the love they deserve. i feel like also people assume kpop is just one genre which is utter bs. there are so many different vibes and feels and songs, i couldnt get into kpop (of which i thought only the bright cheerful present day bts stuff existed smh) until i heard gods menu so... idk where i was going with this but yeah. :)
YES FUCK YG, theyre literally on the brink of being kicked out of the big three and they are holding their salvation hostage without letting them do ANYTHING. idek what thought process goes thru their minds but arghhh its so infuriating. yess lisa's cb will be awesome but ot4 is the gold standard here.
hehe, glad u could get to this point. no no! u dont sound like a cult member at all lol yeah, i loooove some of their songs but the whole 23 members thing is getting to me. thats prob a common problem with nctzens but what can i say? im a simple girl with a limit to how many korean boys i can give my money to. atm im just trying to get into ateez and finish memorising enhypen's faces. also kard is kinda sucking me into their fandom atm, as well as eric name lol. ah what can you do? ooh thats good!
hehe i love it too! its exactly like online penpals, that was rlly well put. aww ty! hmm im okay, recovering from a bad case of rsv so thats fun. im doing okay mentally, starting therapy soon (after having to convince my mother that its not just smth i can brush off). physically i wont go into, basically i should be doing stretches to help but they dont completely fix it so my lazy ass doesnt do them, plus i got told recently im going to be stuck with this condition for the rest of my life so thats fun! ah, before you type smth dw abt me ill be fine. the weather atm is cloudy but warm, its been raining on and off today which is good for the garden. uhh i just finished reading sunburnt veils and im in the middle of prom theory which is rlly good. ummm ive got a concert tonight? that i may or may not be able to sing in (bc of the whole rsv thingo) and uhhhh idk. my dog is cute? im drinking tea rn? ive got a school dance coming up?
wbu? hows ur day going, how are you? whats the weather like on ur end? done anything interesting lately? found smth that makes you rlly happy? just any random thing youve been dying to tell someone?
no no! dont apologise, i love these exchanges. i think im happy to continue them for a long time :) on the other hand, if you get tired of them, feel free to just not answer at any time. goodness gracious this was a long ask haha hope it isnt too annoying
<3 w.a. đş
sorry it took me a bit to reply, i was fixing my theme ;n;
yeah, i figured it was because of the roles too. my friends and i still get taken aback when 3rd gen idols are the same age as 4th gen ones. in my head it doesn't add up sometimes. PLS THE RANT AT QUORA SKJDK tbh tho it's just going to be normalized as the years pass? esp that the boys are growing older and the amount of explicit fics will just increase. i might have to start blocking tags.
i had to look up the previous ask to remember what we were talking about xd i hope the events in champagne problems never happens to anyone. realistically, it probably happens a lot. damn i really won't wish that pain on anyone. dragging your brother into being a stay i whEEZED JFKSA additional noeasy music enthusiast o.o and ALL I CAN SAY WITH YOU GUSHING ABT FELIX IS AHA WHIPPEEEED OML can't blame you tho, i also want to hear felix sing more in other shades (if that makes sense HAHA) i really hope they'll do the role exchange in the next comeback :( or like in the near future bc i know they can do it :( the day i hear seungmin rapping it i will respectfully pass away. minho was given more lines this comeback thank fUCK i could rmb my irl being vocal abt her frustration. i don't get why minho barely has center time/lines in title tracks??? like the line distribution in the past eras just made me ???? if seventeen can balance lines with 13 members why cant a group of 8 do the same? moving on. i haven't watched the stray kids show simply bc i don't want to cry HAJS but i've seen clips. imagine if skz debuted without minho and felix?!?!? i rmb another irl catching bias feels towards changbin bc of the masked singer only to find out that the man's a rapper. i love how skz's vocals were highlighted this comeback :c there were a lot of mellow tracks! i find it cute when chan sings/raps bc it gets kinda obvious that he's a foreigner? the accent (im not even sure if it's the accent) it just shows. "putting off skz stuff bc of not having time to cry IS the kpop stan life summarised." CORRECT.
abt the twisted au o.O i'll inquire my irl if she wants to write it or not. if she doesn't want to, i'll do it. i miss writing twisted aus <3___<3 and i also miss going to the beach with my friends :' ) but it's starting to get cold here and i don't think i'll be able to enjoy the beach as much as i would if i went beaching in the summer. so maybe next summer? gone away really has an sm-ballad vibe. the thing about skz being a self-producing group, their songs don't sound like typical jype songs? and i just appreciate that bc in all honesty im not a fan of jyp groups at all. PLS the overthinking. i wish i could mute overthinking.
anyone who assumes kpop is just one genre obv hasn't listened to a single track. if kpop was just one genre why do i like some tracks more than the others??? oh you've only recently become a kpop stan? tbh im not a fan of the bright songs of bts either. i liked their older ones *chefs kiss* really matched high school vibes. yg has good artists and they're just wasting the talent ~.~ that strategy they have will get tiring eventually. people will stop waiting on blackpink and move on to newer more active groups ://
HAHAHAH yeah the 23 members is pretty overwhelming! it was the reason i didn't bother stanning before quarantine started. i don't regret stanning tho, met my ult bias in that group <3___<3 i don't really purchase albums unless i like the tracks xd ohhh getting into ateez just in time for the comeback! let me know what you think about them! i was fond of them at some point but grew out of it. good luck with memorizing enhypen! it took me a while to distinguish to people there XD i haven't checked out kard yet but chan plays their songs during lives and they're sexc hype music me likey *u*
i had to look up rsv im sorry. i'm glad you're recovering! please rest more and don't stress yourself out. bro i wish i could go to therapy too bc i have weird issues i can't justify and i need a professional to tell me what's the reason behind it. stuck with what condition btw? what happened? i'm sorry in case i just forgot. yesterday was a bit rainy for me too :(( it's not the type of rainy that makes me anxious so B) oh concert! good luck and i hope you'll be able to sing but i also don't think it's best for you rn :c what's your dog's breed? and yes i just finished drinking tea too. AAAAA i miss school dances :(( the last one i was supposed to have was cancelled bc of covid.
i was less productive today and i'm teetering between being mentally stable and becoming a hermit again. i'm anxious with a lot of things atm so like : D not the best state. today it was a bit sunny but not hot hot which was nice. i changed my theme today bc i couldn't wait for sept. 1st. and no i haven't found anything that makes me happy HAHAHA shit like that's hard to identify. don't have anything to say too, i'm just thinking about why i'm procrastinating too much atm T_T and i'm listening to this rap song atm and one of the rappers sounded like han.
it isn't annoying! i enjoy the long exchanges but i do admit it takes me awhile to type down a reply. so if i get more busy, it'll prolly take a bit longer for me to reply.
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Ok, so, nobody asked for this, but I wanna write it anyway. I feel like this is super underrated but in important part of the book, and Iâve always wondered how Ginny reacted to it. So here goes nothing.
She grabbed her stuff and started shoving it into her bag. Nothing exciting has happened in particular during this class, just a lot of confusion. Lately, sheâd been feeling quite conflicted.ďżź She was with Dean, and thereâs nothing wrong about him, but something felt weird, not right. She thought she had gotten over Harry ages ago but apparently not because he starting to pop up at her thoughts and dreams more often then sheâd like to admit. Sheâd gotten over her fan girl crush on him, but now she developed a different kind of crush. A crush on to the person that he actually was. The sweet, dorky, awkward Harry.
Of course, heâs been more on edge in the last two years because of everything that was going on but it didnât change the way she felt toward himďżź. Every time someone brought him up it angered her. They didnât know, obviously, but it just ticked her off because she was annoyed at herself. This wasnât fair to Dean but she didnât know how to break it to him and she didnât want to break up with him because she didnât think Harry would ever like her back and Dean, most of the time, made her feel loved and appreciated. He made her feel like someone you would actually want to date and not someone you could just continue to ignore and only think of them as your best friend sisterďżź
As she walked out of class she was surprised to see Luna standing out there with one of the biggest smiles sheâd ever seen. She assumed it was because some kind of creature that she found, but Luna was rarely ever this excited about anything. It wasnât that she wasnât a happy person, she was, but never THIS happyďżźďżź.
âGinny! Oh Ginny! Youâre never going to believe what happened!â said Luna more excited than she had ever seen her
âWhat is it Luna?â She said ignoring all of the stares she was getting for talking to her, she had never minded it. Luna was a great person even though most people couldnât see it. Ginny enjoyed having her around and would Bat Bogey Hex anyone that insulted herďżź.
âI was invited to a party! As a friend, of course, but Iâve never been invited to one as a friend! Iâm so excited!â
Ginny couldnât help but smile. Sheâd never seen Luna quite so happy, she had no idea who would ask her to a party but she was so excited that somebody did. She assumed it mustâve been Slughornâs party, because she couldnât think of any other ones that were going on. She started to think of who would be inviting her, who wouldnât have a date, and who would like her enough to bring her along and not go alone. Then, it hit herďżź. Although she was pretty sure who had asked Luna she still decided to ask, hoping that it wasnât him.
Putting on her best excited voice trying to hide really bothered her she said âWho invited you?â ďżź
ďżźâHarry. Although I donât know why, Iâve always liked him though. Heâs a nice person, and Iâm glad Iâm going with him.â
Of course it was him, stupid, noble, kindest person sheâd ever met, Harry Potter.ďżź She wouldnât have expected less of himďżź. It was one of the reasons that she liked him so much. He probably couldâve asked anybody in the school and they wouldâve gone with him but no, he asked Luna. Someone that no one would take to go to the party with. She couldnât help but smile at her thoughts of how kind he was to ask her instead of anybody else.ďżź But still, as happy as she wants for her best friend, there was a small part of her that was jealous.
She got a little bit of dĂŠjĂ vu from back in her third year when Ron had suggested that Harry take Ginny to the Yule Ball and he never openly objected the idea. Unfortunately, Ginny already had plans at that point. Yet another missed opportunity was occurring before her.ďżź She tried really hard to be happy for her best friend a part of her really wanted to be Luna in that moment.ďżź
â Youâre being stupidâďżź she thought to herself. âYouâre dating Dean. Youâre going with him. You shouldnât even be considering going with anyone else. What is wrong with you?ďżźďżźâ All is these were valid points. She has had internal battle going on for the past couple of months when she realize she liked Harry still. How could you not? He was an amazing person. But, she didnât think he would ever notice her so she gave up. But now that she thought about it, she wasnât sure if she ever did. He was always there, in the back of her thoughts, no matter what she did to try to stop it, she didnât think she would ever get over himďżź. And now she felt guilty about dating Dean when she still kind of liked a different guy. She didnât hate Dean, she kind of liked him, at least she thought. She quickly ecsaped her thoughts after realizing that Luna needed a responseďżź
âWell that was nice of him, Iâm glad your excitedâ she smiled at Luna, hiding her true feelings
âYes I am so excited. But you donât seem to be, is something troubling you?â Luna said concernedly. Sheâd always been good at reading peopleâs emotions but Ginny wasnât sure she was ready to reveal that particular secret yet.
âOh nothing, just tiredâ she smiled at Luna even though she knew that Luna knew she was lying. Luna didnât take the point further, clearly getting the hint that Ginny didnât want to talk about it anymore. They walked down the corridor together to dinner while Luna explained in detail how Harry had asked her. It wasnât exactly romantic, but it was better than Ginny had ever gotten. Dean and her just knew they were going together so he didnât even bother saying anything about it.ďżźďżź
The more she listened to Luna, the more she thought it was sweet that he had done it. She didnât even think her own brother wouldâve asked Luna even if she was the last girl on earth. Most people wouldnât, but Harry wasnât like most people.ďżź Despite all the horrible things that happened to him in his life he was still super kind, and never criticize Luna for anything. He treated her just like anybody else which was amazing because he was one of the few people that did it. Nobody asked him to, nobody even expected him to, he just did it, he just treated her like anybody elseďżź, if anything he treated her better than just anybody else. She had even heard from Luna about him telling off group of girls on the train because he wanted to sit with her and Nevilleďżź.
As they enter the Great Hall Ginny immediately tuned Luna out and stared down at the boy with the messy black hair sitting next to her brother. He didnât notice that she would come in and was in a deep conversation with Ron who looked flabbergasted at something that Harry had said. She assumed that he had probably told Ron that he was going with Luna. It hurt slightly to see that Hermione wasnât with the two of them because of the whole thing going on between her and Ron. She never did get to ask Harry about how he felt about that but she was sure that it wasnât great.ďżźďżź She couldnât help but feel sorry for the poor dude. He was going through enough right now without having to worry about his two best friends hating each other. And from what she heard from Luna, they had another row today. Leaving Harry most likely another bad mood. As she passed she heard part of the conversationďżź.
âYou couldâve taken anyone! Anyone! And you chose Loony Lovegoodďżźâ Ron shouted in disbelief at Harry. She wasnât sure how he found out, either Harry had told him or he had heard it since it seems like the whole school had heard the hot gossip of Harry and Luna and was also in disbelief.
Ginny looked to her side I see that Luna had left and joined the Ravenclaw table. She paused behind Harry leaned over and snapped âDonât call her that Ron! Im really glad youâre taking her, Harry, sheâs so excitedâ
And with that she went off down the table to go sit with Dean and the rest of her friends. It was all she could say to him, she couldnât bear to think more about the fact that Harry was going with her friend instead of her.
She knew she had no reason to be mad, and she wasnât mad at Luna, she was genuinely happy that he had asked her because she knew how happy it made herďżźďżźďżź. She just couldnât help the twinge of jealousy hidden deep within her about the fact that she wouldnt be going with him to the party.
She sat on the table and began to eat stealing glanced at Harry whenever she dared. Harrys relief when she had defended him and his silent thankfulness had not gone unnoticed. If thereâs anything positive she could take from this besides Lunas happiness it was that Harry seems to be quite appreciative of what she had said and maybe, just maybe, she wasnât just Ronâs little sister anymoreďżź.
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//Eremika Fanfic : Remember Me!?//
Chapter- 1 click here
Chapter: 2
Pouring some water over the flower pot.....Mikasa finishes off her gardening in the small court yard behind her house....
As she was about to enter....inside the house....she notices someone standing far away....probably waiting for her...
Glancing over the person, Mikasaâs eyes brighten with surprise...
Mikasa looking at the person- Armin! What a pleasent surprise!
Armin foolishly grins- Ahhh....Hi! Errmm...Mikasa!
Mikasa smiles slightly- So what brings you....here? In such an early morning? I suppose you should be with your scouts at the moment ...Captain Armin Arlert!
Armins nervously Chuckles â Well ya....I do have a meeting with commander Hanjee today! So....well....but I came here to talk something important with you!
Mikasa stares at Armin blankly as she says- Go On!
Armin nervously- Wont you ask me to come inside? I guess....too much heat today...Outside!
Mikasa with a blank nod- Oh yes....Sorry for keeping you standing outside! Come in...
Saying this Mikasa goes in while Armin follows her as he whispers silently- Its Okay!
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That silhouette.....some one is right behind him!
Eli eyes widen as he stares at that silhouette....who is that? Who must be standing behind him?
Oh my god is he in danger? His mom has always told him to be careful about child kidnappers which roam in corner of every silent place....
Oh god the place is so silent....Eli thinks suddenly...he has started to feel nervous already!
Should he look back or should he....Run!
The silhouette was still there....
Gaining lots of courage...Eli swiftly looks behind his back...
To his shock he absolutely finds no one there...
Eli looks back to the wall where the silhouette was present....to his surprise, there wasnt any presence of silhouette either...
Eli was confused....Was he dreaming or something?
He tries to glance behind to notice if someone is still there or not!
Wind starts blowing around the area as Eli hears the wheezing sound of it....making him kind of shake in fear as he realised he is sitting all alone in this whole destructed area with no sight of any single person.
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Mikasa glances back at Armin from kitchen who was sitting around the small round table with a nervous look.
"Whats wrong with him? Why does he look tense? "
Thinks Mikasa....
With two cups of tea in a tray...Mikasa sits opposite Armin face to face.
Armin looks up at her and smiles...
Mikasa sipping the tea as she says boringly- So Armin? Whats the matter? You wanted to say somthing...What is it?
Armin hesitantly stares at Mikasa- Yeah....err....Its...Its about Eli!
Mikasa's eyes widen as she stops drinking the tea and stares at Armin while he continues- Your Son!
Before he could say a word more , Mikasa interrupted as she looked desperate- What about Eli? Is he alright? Did he do anything in school again?
Armin trying to calm Mikasa- Hey calm down! There isnt anything like that but....
Mikasa calming down a bit- But What?
Armin taking deep breath- Mikasa listen! Whatever I am gonna tell you...dont take it other wise! You know very well....Right from his birth I have always looked at him as my own Son!
Mikasa keeps on staring at Armin with no expression as he continues- I have never seen him different even when Alina was born...the thing is actually....I think you need to deal with him carefully Mikasa!
Mikasa frowns as she at Armin- What do you mean by that?
Armin taking deep breath- Today I saw him walking in tense mood....more like he was upset on something! As my meeting was in the afternoon...I decided to follow him to check on him if he was actually fine! He seemed okay after sometime from his expression though I decided to bid him a Hi! He was quite happy seeing me until I mentioned about you telling me to check on him whenever I can last week! He was furious....he almost reminded me of Eren! Well I dont blame his rudeness after all its all about genes...
Armin chuckles a bit then suddenly turning serious he looks at Mikasa- I think you are being too harsh on Him Mikasa!
Mikasa kept looking at Armin blankly when she said coldly- What do you mean by being harsh? Are you gonna tell me he is being rude due to me? Or his feisty behaviour is due to me? I know what I am doing & What is good for him! I am his mother!
Armin sternly- that's not the point Mikasa! You know it! More Over didnt you two had an argument before he left for school? Dont lie to me!
Mikasa coldly- it wasnt an argument! I was simply trying to put some sense in his head! I cant let him be like Eren! I cant let that anger thing control him! He needs to understand the world is cruel but beautiful too which his father never understood! (Whispers Mikasa)
Armin sighing- You know what is the main problem! You are taking his freedom away! Making him sit in the home all day wont solve anything....people wont stop saying crap about him! You both need to live freely! You need to let him open to people! By trying to make him home sick....you cant anyway control his anger! You are simply worsening it!
Mikasa glares- Let him open to people? Yeah right! So that he could kick their butts everytime they open their filthy mouth! Armin....just incase let me remind you! The people around here dont really like our presence! And I dont want my baby to suffer their hatred! Anyways he is indeed going to school....he is learning things there! What he isnt understanding is....loosing his cool wont help him! Its better to ignore people rather than pushing ourselves into hell! Let people say whatever they want....We are happy in our own small world!
Armin raising his voice- Really Mikasa? That what you think? Hiding yourself into this small house....letting Eli be bored all alone in this home! Doing such! What difference are you making? As You Said People Will Speak Shit! Why do you care? What are you afraid off? Its better to live a life the way you want rather than crawling into darkness!
Mikasa sharply- I DONT CARE! I KNOW WHERE ARE YOU HEADING TO?! YOU WANT ME TO JOIN SCOUTS BACK! DONT YOU? 100TH TIMES I HAVE TOLD YOU....IT AINT HAPPENING! TILL HE COMES BACK....I Need Answers! Answer for running away from me once again!
Armin freaks out- Stop it Mikasa! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU? IT HAS BEEN 6 DAMN YEARS! EREN IS DEAD! And Humanity Needs Back Their Strongest Soilder!
Mikasa glares as she raises her voice coldly- No he isnt....my heart doesnt believe it! I am sure he is alive...somewhere...
Tears welled up in her eyes- He is just running from us again & again! And I dont understand Why! He promised me for the final time....He will come back to me! If he was here....Eli & me wouldnt have been this much miserable!
Armin shocked- Can you stop it Mikasa? I know you miss him....We miss him too....But he is gone! Accept the reality! Move forward Mikasa! You are only ruining Eli âs life! Lastly....You do know how the people acknowledges Eren Now! He is known as Humanity's Biggest Threat in History! Doesnt matter what result has brought from that rumbling! Killing thousands of lives! A murderer is always a murderer!
Mikasa stares at Armin coldly but says nothing as he continues- Eli is still a kid....he doesnt know about his father even! While the people suspects him of Eren's kid! Though they only suspect but have no confirmation! I suggest you....
Mikasa retorts back- I dont need your suggestion Armin! And What proof do you have that Eren is dead? Did you see his body? Or his titanic form again? What makes you so sure of it! Well I dont take any of it....He was your best freind....And you only speak of him being dead! WHY!
Mikasa suddenly holds Armins collar freaking the hell out of him as she shouts- Why? Did you kill him by your own hands? To save humnaity....you were the one who suggested his death!
Armin shocked trying to get rid of her clutch around his collar- Hell No! Whats wrong with you?
Mikasa leaves him with a jerk- I dont care what anyone says....I believe he is alive! Only if he returns to us one day....
Armin sharply as he says hesitantly- Will you be able to forgive him even if he returns from his grave?
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Eli is walking hurriedly all alone towards his home....he has gone bit far today....
Moreover he just bunked his school today, he honestly prays.....none of the teachers notices him all of sudden from no where....
The Sun was just on top of him shining brightly....it was quite hot due to the sun rays...
Eli keeps on looking behind at times for some wierd reason....
From a time being, he felt he was being followed by someone! But he couldn't notice anyone keeping an eye on him...
Eli was taking his steps faster....a creepy feeling was eating him out. He was feeling nervous...
Someone is definitely following him....or was it just his intution!
Eli was walking hurriedly without looking infront when suddenly he bumped into someone and fell on the ground....
Eli while rubbing his nose looks upwards and finds two men with hat staring at him angrily.
One man says- Heyyy you little brat! Whats up with you? Are you blind or something!
Suddenly the other man eyes shone brightly as he grinned wickedly- Oh look who is here! The child of the devil.....! ELI....ACKREMAN! THE LITTLE BASTARD....SON OF THAT FREAK!
While other man whispers â Wait....Ackerman? I dont think or remember that monster name as of some Ackraman....it was Yeager!
Eli was scowling at them while still being sitting on ground but not understanding a single thing about what they were talking about but it was definitely something about his name!
Eli angrily- Hey! Whom are you talking to?
The two guys glared at him as one of them pulled him up holding his collar freaking the hell out of him- Hey You Shut Your Filthy Mouth Up! Who even gave you permission to wander in these streets! If the rumours are true of you being the son of that BASTARD! You & your filthy mom should be extint!
Saying this he threw Eli away letting him fall again....
After that both of the men left while laughing loudly making Eli angry more....at that moment he felt like punching the faces of those two old creeps.
He was about to stand and run after them when suddenly a young lad came infront of him....his hair was quite long and the long bangs he had were covering his one eye....he had a stretcher in his one hand which was supporting him to stand still....
Eli notices closely and realises....the guy has a bandage too around his head....
As Eli was lost in noticing, the stranger brings a water bottle infront of him....making him snap out of his senses...
The stranger with deep voice as he stares deeply into Eli eyes while bending a bit- Hey You! You left it there in the bench! I had been following you with my broken leg till here....Kid You Run So Fast! What's the hurry? Here Put it back in your Bag!
Eli blinks his eyes nervously as suddenly it clicked him....Was it this guy following him all the way till here! But back then....there was no one in that barren land!
Eli with shaking hands takes the bottle away from the stranger's hand...
The guy then stands straight from his bending position as he glances back at Eli....
The Sunrays fell on his body as his face shone bright....while Eli eyes widen as he still kept on staring at him while still being on the ground!
While Eli was all numb, the guy asks coldly- Do you think you can stand....Kid?
Eli was scared....he didn't know Why! But he was....all he could do was nod his head swiftly in positive way..
The stranger with blank look replies- Great Then!
Saying so he started limping away slowly while Eli kept on staring at him....
There was something about this person which was bothering little Eli so much....
While at a distance the man halts and glances back at Eli as THEIR GREEN EYES STARED BACK AT EACH OTHER!
Chapter - 3
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ask dump pt. 2
1. Cinderella is bound to the source of craftsmanship, covering glass and metal found along the french Italian border. Pythia, the major fairy of prophecy is bound to the prophecy source, covering time and divination magics. Mulan is the major fairy of war who was training Nebula to take over before the wizards trapped Tir Nan Og, she has the same source as Nebula in Norway. Vasilisa is the major fairy of transformation, her source deals with change and a little bit of time magic, and can be found deep in a Russian forest. Scheherazade is bound to the source that deals with narratives, connection, and some night related magic, in the desert on the Saudi Arabian Peninsula. Maria âLa Muerteâsâ is the major fairy of life and death, a uniquely dual source in central America, while this source contains incredible healing powers, it also deals with a magic concerning the soul and for a long time people who encountered it were either spontaneously healed or randomly died if they didnât have the proper magical protections in place.  @drops-of-moonlights 2. nah, itâs just lynphea. I guess the sun they orbit could be called Marigold? but its def a planet not a moon. 3. about 10 years. 4. Yeah I can do a chart for Male magic users and witches! it wouldnât look the same as the fairies one lol. Yeah no anybody that tried for sirenix while Daphne was tied to it basically died. Iâm still thinking on the religion one.... cus like the great dragon is kind of real??? so is it a faith or a reality or both??? Red fountain is a boys only school and they donât have any satellite schools. There are lady paladins for sure tho!! The alfea staff are either non-human (paladium and wizgiz) or they are a magic wielding paladin (avalon), or they use fairy transformations(faragonda is actually a nymph and griselda uses enchantix primarily). You can only use one transformation at a time, and the enitial act of transforming uses a lot of power that is sustable only because of the looping connection between the core and the wings(like a car battery) so while a fairy COULD switch between transformations at will, they would be absolutely drained and is they push too far could die. 5. most pick their title based on what spells they like to use. Bloom is tied to the dragon flame so that is predetermined, but she could call herself something else if she wanted to hide it. Stella is also tied to the second sun of solaria through her bloodline, but since sheâs half luna she calls herself the fairy of the sun and moon. @nondescriptfrenchfry 6. that is the exact mood i was going for, og pythia is NOT sunshiney lmao 7. It was actually just based on which hand would show the bracelet better lol! @x-i-l-verify 8. Thank you! and youre welcome lol i enjoy drawing the girls @greetings-fiends 9. its possible but not advisable because it messes with the magic users head. Most of the transformations are highly specialized and cannot be used at the same time as another so no the bars would be still be separate. 10. I might try to include the magic of joy just based on the pretty outfits, and food is at least....... a real concept....... but sports and paintix are all kinda boring and donât seem to serve a purpose. I might try to make greenix a full fledged nature transformation since my version of sophix is just a boosted version of believix lol 11. hmmmm.... iâll probably end up drawing their nymphix forms but idk if they woudl really need it.... i could see bloom earning it because daphne did, and weirdly maybe flora? idk why tho 12. Yaaasss helia --Heliaâs dadsâ would let him paint little doodles on their arms and stuff but Helia used to secretly mix paint into his dadsâ food because he âwanted the pretty colors to be inside tooâ and accidentally gave them food poisoning several times before they figured out what was going on lol @jackiewinters 13. nah. there isnât really a âstandardâ wedding, usually it depends on where they live (like if a Lynphean and Zenithian are getting married but theyâre living on Lynphea they would do a Lynphean wedding) but if its on magix or in a big mixed races city people pick and choose what ceremonies they want. 14. Yes i will! 15. I FEEL THE POWER OF THE OOOoooOOOOCEAN, CONNECTING WITH THE DEEPEST PART OF MEEeh sirenix is a boring af transformation but the song is an EARWORM @simplychillcakes 16. oh wow, so im not super good with stuff like this but iâll try my best. Lynpheans have rich soothing voices, usually deeper toned with long pauses. Zenithians are snappy, not because theyâre mad, but because they are quick and efficient and taking time to breath isnât really a concept for them. Melodians vary a lot, but all have a very clear, crisp, almost ringing way of speaking. Solarians are loud and quick, usually mid to high range tones. Dominians speak a lot with their throat (think scotish/israli) and have mid range tones. Andros has a lilting (think japanese....weirdly enough) pattern of speech, and their talking speed varies HEAVILY based on their mood @its-all-about-that-fan 17. so Bloom has the great dragon which might be a natural source or might be more etheral but idk. But she would probably use a flame or lava related source. Stella is almost basically able to use danix because of her familyâs reliance on the second sun of solaria, so she would probably use that. Aisha would be a major fairy wind and water, so like a cliffside source. Flora would probably use nature in general(like diana) or specifically a source of trees and forests. Musa would probably use the caves under the golden auditorium, and be the major fairy of sound. Tecna could connect to the core of zenith and be the major fairy of electricity and mechanism. 18. mostly good? like every family has its issues. musa is close to her dad, and heâs come around to supporting her music career but theres still some unspoken hurt there for both of them. Aisha isnât super close with her parents, as sheâs grown up shes tried to get to know them as people, but she still holds bitterness over them isolating her for most of her childhood. tecna is, by zenithian standards, outrageously close with her parents, which by other standards is decently close. They can go pretty long with out speaking tho it wouldnt be weird to them. flora is closer to her mom than her dad, not that she doesnât love him or anything its just she has more in common with her mom. Stella loves both her mom and dad, and if its just the two of them with out the other parent she has a great relationship, as soon as radius and luna interact tho Stella ends up feeling torn and hurt and guilty. Sheâs trying to stop blaming herself but that would release her deep seated anger towards both her parents for putting her through that. Bloom still feels a little awkward with her bio parents, but tries to spend every other week on domino when sheâs not on a mission or at alfea. She spends the other week on earth. Mike and Vanessa are always pretty flexible with Bloomâs magical oddities, and they encourage her to spend time on domino. Bloom will always have a place with them, but now that sheâs essentially moved out, theyâre thinking about adopting another kid.Â
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can you write one for elu where lucas sees some series of suspicious texts in eliott's phone and seriously thinks eliott is cheating on him (bc the texts are kinda obvious) which turns to him being kind of paranoid for a while (not long) and finding more "proofs" so finally he confronts eliott. crying and ofc eliott finds it ridiculous cause lucas is his everything.but it was actually idk just a classmate of eliott's texting their bf/gf from eliotts phone bc of some reason
can you write something april fools related? like prank goes wrong kinda thing? i mean i dont think any of them would make a break up prank but maybe they thought the other wouldnt take it seriously since its ridiculous for them to break up but then it gets a bit serious and sad but they're happy at the end ofc.Â
Could you write something with maybe Lucas overhearing some girls saying how hot Eliott is and him getting all jealous and territorial
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Lucas loves Mika, but he doesnât trust him completely. Sometimes he doesnât think about consequences or doesnât take things seriously.Â
He needed some company to go out tonight. Apparently he had a bad couple of dates and needed to forget about it tonight, but everyone already had plans and Lucas and Eliott were his last hope. Lucas agreed to it last night when Mika texted him, but now heâs not in the mood, too tired after a long day.Â
Eliott is excited to go out, so Lucas tells him to go with Mika and he will stay home, go to bed early if he can.Â
Eliott checks with him a few times while getting ready to see if Lucas havenât changed his mind. He gives Eliott a long, passionate kiss before he lets him go meet Mika. He smiles to Lucas and says heâll be home soon.Â
Lucas is relieved to be alone tonight. He woke up in a bad mood and had a stressful day at school, thatâs probably why he and eliott were also in a weird funk, so itâs nice to he at the comfort of his house in complete silence. He takes a long shower, puts his and Eliottâs clothes to wash, etc.
While cooking something later, he puts some classical rock to listen to, looks around when heâs back to the bedroom, looking at their beautiful, comfortable, tiny oasis. Since he got his room back, he and Eliott redecorated (with Manonâs help)Â everything, bought some plants to hang on the ceiling next to the window, changed the beddings, donated some clothes so both their closets could fit into one.Â
It feels cozy, warm, safe, a little bit like a jungle.Â
Lucas already chose a movie to watch, crawling underneath the covers. Before he can press play, he decides to check his messages. Nothing yet.Â
Donât be a babysitter. He knows how to handle himself.
He presses play, adjusting his pillow. Itâs not the best movie, but itâs not a waste of time either. He puts another one right after, an action movie to keep him awake. 4 a.m and the second one is over. Lucas had to fight to not fall asleep during this one, so he turns his notebook off, putting it on the table.Â
Ok, his time alone could be over already if it was his choice, he misses Eliott and having his big, warm body to cuddle before falling asleep. But Lucas is happy that heâs out, having fun. He turns off his lamp, checking his phone and thereâs some messages, all from Mika.
Mika sent him a bunch of photos. Theyâre apparently in a photo booth with a bunch of other guys and two girls. Eliott has his arm around some guyâs shoulders, seeming to fit it perfectly with the group, heâs really out going when he wants to so itâs not a surprise to Lucas how well he fits with Mikaâs friends. The jealous side of Lucas doesnât like how close the guy is to Eliott, but thereâs nothing going on, itâs just him being possessive. And the other guy seems very young, younger than Lucas.Â
The last picture ruins his entire night in a second, making him jolt on his bed, sitting and opening the picture, zooming in. His boyfriend with his wet, flat tongue out and the guy is really close, nearly sucking his boyfriendâs tongue.Â
Mika posted something on instagram, tagging Lucas in it. He opens the notification and it takes him to the post. Itâs a close up of that photo, only showing Eliott and that kid that he has his arm around, tagging Lucas and Eliott on Eliottâs tongue.Â
As he freezes, looking at the photo again, he can see comments coming it, a bunch of guys and some girls asking who the guy in the picture is, someone already answering with Eliottâs instagram. Lucasâ vision is blurred, heâs trying hard not to cry or to freak out.Â
This is what Lucille was talking about.Â
He tries to racionalize but somedays it feels too much and he just needs to shove some sense into Eliott. Lucas types and sends his answer to all the thirsty people.Â
Heâs taken.Â
A minute later Mika deletes the photo. Lucas suddenly feels sleepless. getting up from his bed and leaving his phone behind, rubbing his eyes with the palm of his hands, cleaning his face with his shirt afterwards.Â
Lucas was naive to think he would be enough for Eliott and that things would be different from what they were with Lucille. Maybe he got it all wrong and Eliott is happier when single or when heâs able to have whoever he wants, whenever he wants to.Â
And Lucas canât do that, heâs too jealous and too insecure to be in an open relationship. He canât seem to stop crying, a blue light enlightens his room, Eliott is calling but Lucas doesnât answer, too riled up, he would probably say things he would regret.Â
He doesnât know what to do, would much rather not have to see Eliott or Mika again any time soon, but itâs the middle of the night, he canât just leave. Where he would go? Manon is not home, Yann is probably sleeping and he wouldnât have the courage to bother anyone else with his relationship drama.Â
So he lets his feelings take over again, sitting on the floor, hiding his face on his hands. He can feel his heart shattering and once he cried everything he could, his walls start to build around him again.
Lucas feels tired, his body aching from crying for way too long. Itâs just a stupid picture! He gets up from the floor, hoping to throw himself in bed and fall asleep for days, lock himself from the outside world.Â
But before he can reach his bed, he hears loud voices. Eliott and Mika are back. Mika is screaming his name and Lucas feels like punching him, not looking at his face ever again. They both barge in to the bedroom, Mika calling for Lucas again, almost running into him, standing in the middle of his room.Â
âLucas!! Hi, baby!â He tries to hug him, but Lucas steps back. Eliott looks wasted and full of guilt and Lucas feels like punching him too.Â
âCan you leave me alone?â He has to gather all his strength to form a single question, Eliott takes a step forward, in front of Mika.Â
âLucas...â
âCan you leave me alone?â He raises his voice, stepping forward too, ready to throw both of them out of his bedroom.Â
âIt was a joke!! Nothing happened!â Mika explains loudly, laughing but heâs the only one.Â
âI DON`T GIVE A SHIT, MIKA!âÂ
Eliott takes another step forward, putting a hand on Lucasâ chest, kind of trying to calm him down, kind of trying to stop him from getting closer to Mika.Â
âNothing happened, Lucas. I swear...âÂ
âIt was more than fucking enough, Eliott!â He nearly screams again, looking at the boy in front of him, trying not to cry again. âYouâre such a fucking idiot!âÂ
Lucas can feel Eliottâs hand shaking on his chest but he canât bring himself to care now.Â
âWe are done, Eliott. I canât do this.â
âNo, no, no, weâre not done, Lucas.â
âYes, we fucking are.â He means it, says every word looking into Eliottâs perfect eyes.Â
âBaby, we were just kidding, trying to make my friendsâ boyfriend jealous.â Mika doesnât seem to realize the seriousness of the situation, Eliott ignores him completely, freaking out inside, thinking that heâll loose the man of his life because of a stupid joke.Â
âYeah, it worked out perfectly, didnât it?â Lucas looks at him and Eliott canât have this anymore, he needs to talk to Lucas, so he turns around, trying to walk Mika out of the room.Â
âGet out, Mika, now. We need to talk.âÂ
âWe donât have anything to talk about, Eliott.â Lucas answers, but he ignores, closing the door as soon as Mika is out, locking the door.Â
âWe do, I wonât let you break up with me over some shit like that.âÂ
âItâs not âsome shitâ. You kissed someone else, posted all over the fucking internet and expect me to be fine with it?âÂ
âI didnât kiss him, Lucas!!! I swear! Nothing happened. It was a stupid photo and as soon as I saw it I asked Mika to delete it.âÂ
âSo if Mika hadnât posted it, I would have never known, even better.âÂ
âNo, thatâs not it! He sent all the pictures to you!âÂ
Lucas canât hold back the tears, heâs so angry he canât even think straight.
âI hate you so much right now, Eliott!âÂ
Eliott is holding back his tears, desperate, holding Lucasâ face and trying to kiss him, put some sense back into his head, show him what they have and how Lucas doesnât hate him but he pushes Eliottâs hands off of his face.Â
âPlease, Lucas, Iâm sorry. I didnât know you would get this upset.â
âI donât care right now. Iâm going to bed.âÂ
âOk...â Eliott doesnât seem to understand, going around the bed to his side.Â
âNo, youâre not sleeping here. Go cuddle Mika for all I care, I donât want you here.âÂ
Lucas is a lot shorter, but he doesnât act like it, pushing Eliott out of his room. The other one is still in shock (and too drunk) to fight back, when Lucas finally stops pushing him, he tries to turn around and stop him, but itâs too late, Lucas slammed the door on his face and he can hear him locking it from inside.Â
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okay kids strap in this is gonna be long probably. im gonna add a read more so hopefully that works, otherwise i am,,so sorry,,
w that lets begin
so. lets start w the basics
season 1: didnt like him. really didnt like him. i have Issues w suicide as a topic in general so when he baited midoriya he lost any fondness i couldve had towards him. then his actions durnig the battle training? hes a fcukin maniac. but i enjoyed learning more abt him as a character so whatever. i thought his confrontation w midoriya in the aftermath of that was,,interesting
season 2: still dont like him, but his eventual coming arnd during the final exam made me more open to him. also sports festival was,,,interesting, ig. i thought it was interesting how he wouldnt accept the win; if he was the same character he was in season 1, he wouldve taken it, i feel like. but he didnt. so hey, growth smwh
season 3: i thought i didnt like him, but then he got kidnapped and i got a case of the shakes(tm) until he was rescued. i rlly vibed w midoriya screaming and crying while he was kidnapped. cut to the provis license exam:
(excuse my crying abt aoyama lmao)(and also the fact that i used to call bakugou âbakugonâ yes i know thats not his name yes i did that bc i didnt like him and i think im funny as shit). then,,,the scene. kacchan v. deku 2. uhh i was vibing w him honestly. hes a mood,,,regrettably,,,until he beat midoriya at least
season 4 (so far): pls stop yelling, regrettably relatable gremlin
now lets dive into what all that means huh
i dislike bakugou for the following reasons.
- suicide-baited midoriya. not only that, but he tormented him for years simply because he couldnât get over his own private feelings; midoriya did nothing to deserve his scorn. literally nothing.
- beyond even that, is still a prick to most everyone he meets; heâs short and irritated and wonât give anyone the benefit of the doubt (at least not as first).Â
- even now, he still has issues giving respect or even just being decent to both people he knows and people he doesnât.
- speaking of, he has never ever apologized for his previous actions. not even after he finds out heâs wrong (like when midoriya tells him he never, ever, looked down on him). he hasnt even really apologized via action rather than words if you wanna try that route with me. he might be better than he was, but he refuses to acknowledge that he was ever wrong in the first place and thats not functional
- hes so focused on âwinningâ as a concept. it doesnt matter if youre supposed to be an ally to him; if he perceives you as being in his way, heâll do his damnedest to fucking destroy you. he has few genuinely heroic qualities (not to say he has few good qualities, just few heroic ones); hes just strong and determined, but heâs a case study of how those qualities can be twisted as all fucking hell
- hes so proud. he is s o fucking proud. he has such an issue with pride that i cant fucking handle it sometimes man
i like bakugou for the following reasons.
- he has grown. he might not have said anything to anyone about it, but he has grown as a person since the series started
- he does have morals and he sticks to them. they might be basic things such as âdont be a villainâ but theyre. something and he stands by them. hes not a slimy snake is what im saying
- hes funny. when he isnt actively bringing others down, i actually enjoy the screentime he has, bc its really funny, esp when heâs interacting w his friends and theyre having visible fun messing arnd w him
- this particular reason is hard to phrase so let me just. try and word vomit it correctly. i didnt expect him to be capable of blaming himself for smth like all mightâs retirement. but he was and i,,,it adds layers to his character that i appreciate a lot. so its not that i like that he feels guilty abt it, but what it means for his character
- his interactions with kirishima. its proof that heâs learning how to be better, slowly but surely, and how to care about others properly. its sweet, genuinely and wholeheartedly
- hes not always rewarded by the narrative, and that makes him much more human to me, which i really appreciate. the biggest example i can think of is that he didnât pass his provisional license exam on the first try. i think heâs gonna have a low point eventually, but hopefully, from there, he tries to build his way out into a better life as a better person
yeah
its just...very complex. he reminds me of myself, or at least a person i used to be. he actually reminds me of a couple combinations of ppl i used to be; just like bakugou, ive had smth similar to both a superiority and an inferiority complex in the past so its djkfjkdjnk,,,regrettably relateable,,,,,,not at the same time like he does but yknow the feeligns and how they clash are still there
but yeah. its bc he reminds me of myself i both hate him and like him.
like he reminds me of aspects abt myself i h a t e. i have issues w pride, i used to be a huge jerk (not to the degree he was, thank god, but i have a conscious now so when im reminded of how i used to be in like elementary school, i feel ashamed and since bakugou hasnt fucking,,,acknowledged,,the abuse he put midoriya through yet,,i get angry with him)
and the one guilt episode we saw him have reminded me of a very dark time in my life (2016) and its just. oh no. so thats where the anger fizzles out because i cant hate that more than i just feel pity abt it
in contrast, its bc he reminds me of things i hate abt myself that i have high hopes for him. i crawled out of the hole i was in; i made it through the stages of being a prick and then being thrust into a guilt-induced depression. im certainly not a good person, but im much better than i was
so just,,im already proof that ppl can change, but,,,,if i had a character to cling to when doubt came creeping in, i think that wouldve be great. i know im not the only one that feels like this. if bakugou can make the right turnaround, i think he could mean a lot to a bunch of people, me included
obviously the turnaround would have to be done right (and he better fucking beg for midoriyaâs forgiveness) but i have hope that it can be
he has a long way to go, both in action and in word. but i am hopeful for his development. he reminds me of many things i hate about myself, but also to push on despite those things. my feelings about him are complicated due to that
yea. heres my book report sir djknkjnsknfjkn
#idk if this is very coherent but oh well#i love him i hate him i have such high hopes for him-#jkdjkd#c makes a word#textpost#bakugo katsuki
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what are your headcanons for andy and panchos relationships with the other characters in the kingdom? â¤â¤â¤ I love your blog!!
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it ended up being rlly long so hereâs the cut ;)
Pancho
â˘Julien; Julien is like a brother or cousin to Pancho! He trusts the king more than anything after Julien basically saved .. well himself, but also him. any scheme Julien comes up with that he knows Maurice wouldnt approve of, heâll go to pancho
â˘Maurice; maurice has a kind of wary vibe around Pancho ever since Pancho suggested eating him on the sub in exiled. heâs suspicious of him mainly because he wants to protect Julien tho, & he cant shake that Pancho is (or was) a sleeper agent programmed with the sole purpose of killing his best friend so
â˘Clover: Pancho is kinda cautious around clover since sheâs always round the corner ready to bust him & Andyâs schemes. when it comes down to it they DO work together as they aknowledge each others skillsets. literally pancho is the only lemur (from the kingdom) whoâs beaten Clover in combat. just once though.
â˘Mort; Pancho just......aknowlegdes his existance. heâs there i guess. doesnât find mort as terrifying & creepy as the average citizen but Panch has probably seen worse. or he just doesnât care. mort also does crimes so theyre just aware of each other.
â˘Becca & Abner; heâs kinda friends with them cus Andyâs friends with them. he goes round to deliver them stuff sometimes like moonshine or weapons from Andy. He probably shouldnât pay too much attention to their government conspiracy theories though, they tend to really freak his paranoid ass out
â˘Timo; Timo is scared of Pancho or at least wary. He admittadly would like to study him tho & Panch is often a great help to him doing manual labour for any of Timoâs big projects
â˘Masikura; she mindmelded with him once & swore never again. she just doesnât wanna know.
â˘Ted; Ted has a lil crush on Pancho (heâs one of Tedâs many crushes) & Panch will lightly flirt with him sometimes when heâs in the mood to. Pancho will bicker & grouch with him but they are really tight friends especially after their time together during exiled.
â˘Dorothy; at first she saw Pancho as this ideal bad boy type, but then realised how bad he smells cus he hates bathing. Sheâll offer him tea like she does with everyone & (begrudingly often) lets him crash with her & Ted when they all stumble back drunk after a night out. Literally her & Ted both just have a mutual crush on Pancho is that not canon though
â˘Willie; despite being mean to Willie like EVERYONE ELSE IS Pancho and Willie are quite good friends. Heâll go stay with him whenever heâs worried about something cus he knows Willie will understand. sometimeâs heâs too panicky for Pancho to be around though cus it sets him off
â˘Hector; I WANT THEM TO BOND OVER MILITARY HARDSHIPS & EXPERIENCE I THINK IT WOULD BE HELPFUL & HEALING FOR THE BOTH OF THEM! I should write about this sometime..........
â˘Horst; the DJ friend who he can always have a crazy sesh with; they actually get along pretty good. except when Panchoâs out here stealing his bolos. Like with everyone, Horst just rambles to Pancho when heâs drunk.
â˘Tammy, Butterfish & Todd; no real connection to them besides that him & Butterfish will often do the same jobs. They usually just make casual work chat. Tammy thinks Pancho is posessed by demons but he doesnât let that phase him.
â˘Karl: heâs not rlly a âkingdom citizenâ but heâs about there enough so. anyway Pancho just doesnât treat Karl like the evil genius villain he portrays at all, since Panchoâs own morality is in the grey area, which kinda infuriates Karl that Pancho just talks to him like hes a normal person. he wants Julienâs people to FEAR HIM!!
â˘Dr. S; Absolutely not. they donât even really have a friendship of any kind & Pancho is terrified of going to see the doctor as Dr. S literally experiments on lemurs...heâs not about that after what happened with the previous king.......Andy often has to drag him to the hospital kicking & biting to get him to go to checkups
â˘Nurse Phantom; u know what theyâve never interacted in canon but I think Nurse Phantom senses how troubled & anxious he is & takes a lot of time to talk to Pancho like if ever Andy or anyone else manages to drag him to the hospital, Rob will hold his hand if it comes to it; he goes into major helpful mode like offering him fruit & telling him heâs gonna be alright. Heâll also scold him for getting into so many dangerous scrapes & tells him heâs gotta look after himself!
Andy
â˘Julien; for some reason Julien just refuses to exile him even after all the bad shit heâs done BUT i think thatâs because Andy is overall helpful to him like he ignores all the weirdness for example when they walked in on him & that rat holding a body wrapped in leaves because hey! we need tropheys Andy fast! thats the issue here!! perhaps its Julienâs awful adhd memory though & he just genuinely forgets. Julien is close with Pancho of course so Andyâs been round to the plane for parties & dinner as Panchoâs +1 of sortsâ heck even he can be âpoliteâ when he has to be.
â˘Maurice; Momo hates him. hates him hates him theres no turning back. i mean its hard not to when most of the citizens suffer from rediculous lemur stupidity & ur the only one who can see through this bat when heâs just standing there chatting shit. Very suspicious of Andyâ plus he just thinks heâs creepy
â˘clover; LMAO bUT .....like obviously she hates him for good reason. but i do have this hc thatâs way too long to write out that after Julien, Maurice & Mort literally fucked off to go with the zoosters in madagascar 2 Clover was literally responsible for two kingdoms cus she couldnt just leave them with a gecko in charge. I just want some situation where theres a proper twist & Andy ends up mellowing the hell out & actually being useful to her & the kingdom...he has skills but he uses them for nefarious reasons. Sheâd probably save his life somehow in the post-Julien chaos & heâd b like....âwhy would YOU of all people save ME?â n sheâd b like... âwell you are technically a citizen of this kingdom and ....iâve gotta make sure youâre ALL safe for when ..... if King Julien ever gets back.....â
â˘mort; ??? sometimes theyre legit business partners. Mort can get in on a good scam. that second rubâs gonna cost ya. theyve probably been in the same prison before at one point. Mortâs so old.
â˘Becca & Abner; his fellow anti-establishment pals!! he doesnât fully believe all of their ideas & theories but he loves em cus theyâll always buy self defence scorps off him. They get along & they drink a lot together by the stagnant watering hole. theyâve seen Andy in horrible states; all 3 of them are an idiot squad when theyre together. Becca & Andy argue a lot cus even she thinks some of the things he says are wack sometimes
â˘Timo; i have this hc that Timo, Andy & Karl knew each other when they were kids they kinda bonded together during school cus they were three non-lemur losers who got bullied for their eccentricity & varying levels of intelligence. Timo will sometimes go to Andy for stuff but he is his last resort really
â˘Masikura; probably mindmelded with him once & just saw a vision of him daydreaming about being kissed by Pancho & since then she was like. âIm not scared of the bird demon heâs just a big softie. where is my shipment of âectâ for my tea, that bird demonâs late againââ
â˘Ted; Ted is such an easy mark he can sell almost anything to him if heâs cheery enough. Helps that Ted thinks heâs really cute so Andy can just easily sweet talk him into buying whatever dodgy product heâs got at the moment. he knows & interacts with Ted mainly through Pancho being his friend!
â˘Dorothy; rlly wild hc actually that Dorothy used to be a propper crime don before she settled down with Tedâ or when Ted was shifting into Snake more frequently back in the day for whatever reasonâso Andy knows her from the criminal underworld. Cus of this heâs very respectful towards her... heâs seen what sheâs capable of
â˘Willie; Andy could walk round the corner with his wings outstretched & say âbooâ & Willie would pass out from shock. Heâs also very easy for Andy to sell to- his fearmongering really works on Willie heâs very suseptable to it
â˘Hector; Hector doesnât take any of Andyâs crap heâd probably just hit him with a broom if he came round his hut to sell him dodgy hand cream honestly
â˘Horst; Andy keeps him topped up with a steady supply of beverages...........Horst will actually sometimes ask him & Pancho for help with importing various new vinyl records
â˘Tammy, Butterfish & Todd; that family buys a LOT of product off him since theyâre just typical americans basically he finds it rlly easy & reliable to sell stuff like drinks & toys to them. Tammy kinda hates Andy though & like Pancho, thinks heâs a demon. Doesnât help that Mort nicknamed him âbird demonâ.
â˘Karl; like with Timo i hc he knew him when they were in highschoolâ! Karl found Andy infuriating & so annoying though & didnât consider him a friend at all. a lot of his early lazer guns were born from Karlâs growing need to shoot Andy out of the sky cus heâd fly up to get out of reach of his claws when heâd annoyed him.
â˘Dr. S; i hc that Andy and Dr.S are business or trading partners of sorts but they keep it very lowkey. Andy probably handles hits and the crazy snake doctor requires bodies and âtest subjectsâ for his manic experiments. Andy is the perfect guy for the job! When Nurse Phantom is unable, Andy will hide the evidence of Dr.Sâ malpractice for a reasonable fee, of course. He dislikes going to checkups himself thoughâ he doesnât like people knowing too much about him! Plus Dr.S always âââjokesâââ about âââstudyingâââ him because he finds the fact Andy is a flying mammal facinating & talks about using Andyâs wings to create a frankenstein flying lemur.
â˘Nurse Phantom; Rob just lectures him about being reckless & getting into fights everytime he sees him. Kinda the same as Dr. S really, but he does tell him like.. Hey I used to be pretty mean & put people in danger too. And that thereâs always time to turn another leaf. Andy usually just scoffs, collects his paycheck, & leaves.
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Sanders sides spoilers!
A rant about The Duke and my intrusive thoughts:Â
Remus´ outfit is so freaking hilarious to me, i thought Roman was such a drama prince, over flamboyant and such. But The Duke?? He over did! Not only does his outfit has so many shiny dots and over the top shoulders, have you seen the googly eyes? I NOTICE THEM IMMEDIATELY! He´s a googly moogly!Â
He is pretty demented, crazy, over the cucco´s nest, over the top maniac, looney tuney. I like it that way because Intrusive thoughts are always like that.Â
I loved the episode and the character because I saw myself in Remus, i wouldnt act on anything the thoughts say, what i meant was that sometimes, mostly when i was young, i´d have weird episodes (which i would called them manic but i dont think its correct) where I acted like him, spewing weird things and actually doing... weird things.Â
This is my background: i am an anxious, depressive and melancholic person, i´ve been since i have memory even though i didnt know the words for it. Not only that, I always had a problem focusing on things, it didnt show like that because i could pass my classes with no problem. (When i was in wonderland imagination, i would not pay attention to class so when i didnt understand anything i usually tried to read the papers i had instead of asking for help. That worked a lot up until university, still havent been diagnose CAUSE MONEY!)
When I was distracted I´d have a lot of thoughts, specially when i was a kid. I´d imagine bad thingsTM and i usually had nightmares bout those things. I couldnt sleep nor i could do anything to avoid them. A lot of traumatic events happened some years later and i develop a very very very very twisted thought process, imagining on hurting animals or my parents or my siblings or simply making up ways i could kill myself. Or how fun it would be to do bad things: for example, i always imagine how it would be fun to throw rocks at cars or how to asfixiate a cat (i never did any of that, not because i thought it was wrong, I feared my parents, ´cause when they got angry, they would hit and with a belt)Â
ALL SOUNDS PRETTY MUCH THAT I HAD OR STILL HAVE SOMETHING VERY VERY VERY WRONG!! and I probably do. BUT I KNOW ITS WRONG. This days when i have those thoughts they make me icky and anxious, some other times Im not bother by them because i know i wouldnt do so, and other times i have manic episodes or something that makes me laugh about those thoughts. (I dont know, I think its nervous laugh but i sometimes separate myself, its weird)
All the things the Duke said, the way he acts, its just a part of everyone. there isnt a perfect way to take care of those thoughts and it can be tiring. i never got a common way to do so, never exactly had someone to talk bout it. One thing those thoughts can make you feel is also anger, so MUCH FREAKING ANGER.
Imagine a 10 year old, with some anxiety, depression, feeling like shit because of some.... traumatic events, with this thoughts bout suffocating her little sibling with a pillow or throwing her brother into the traffic and more without being able to turn them off? Anger, sadness, fear would pop up as the standard mood, and with no one to talk to because you dont trust your brother (never again), your parents are always fighting and at school you are the lonely, weird, disturb girl that is the shadow of the cool girls, it will seriously fuck you mind. If i had someone to talk it would probably be different.Â
Looking how chaotic the intrusive thoughts can be and how they represented like that makes me feel Safe in a sense. Safe because im not the only one who has those, i feel better knowing everyone can have those. A bit scared that I dont find them as bad as i used to but at least i know they are wrong and i wouldnt do those.Â
I have some standards of morality, i have friends (even if they are a few, and some have... very very weird morality) that kind of keep me sane. I talk to my classmates at school, and they are very honest people.
And i have youtube, and probably shouldnt have it in such regard, but let me tell ya. If i didnt had this, I would have killed myself so looooong ago. Distracting me with stupid cartoons, watching other people play videogames, hearing voices. human voices. Someone that talks to you. I respect youtube, it isnt as important to me anymore cause i grown and im in a better place, but i still respect it and use it for music and well videos of people i like.
It took me a long time to not believe i was a piece of shit because of my thoughts, it took me a long time to fight back the things my head wanted me to do, it took me a long time to be a little better. And watching this crazy bitch of a character makes me feel listened in a weird way. I have like.. a physical form of how to explain this thoughts, and i appreciate Thomas Sanders for doing so.Â
NOTE: a year ago i wanted to do a parody of his content by doing an intrusive thought video, it involve me going into my daily basis having very bad thoughts represented by a person wearing a hoodie and a face mask with a note stick in the chest saying ¨Mental illness¨ or something like that. I wouldnt have been able to do so as amazingly as Thomas and his crew, besides depression, anxiety and school are a bitch so i decide not to do so..Â
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