#and getting my driving lisence ?!

[notachair]

trying to pull through for the last 2 days of bachelor writing... which.... have not gone well. And from my last 2 weeks of active working attempts... I do lowkey think I've run out of energy...

[mycological-mariner]

Reenactment is so fun. I’m going next week.

[treewithabark]

My mum met Juno for the first time yesterday and she adored her. Apparently she’d like to steal Juno, and honestly once her garden is secured and Juno’s a little easier to handle, I’d probably let her.

I’m just glad that she mostly behaved during my mums visit, she’s slowly getting better at settling in public. Juno is very good at first impressions, which makes me seem really mean when I call her a swine (affectionately)

[rosaaeles]

everything will be going fine and then i remember the sheer amount of uni work i have due in january that i haven’t started yet and i actually feel like i’m going to throw up

[caffeiiine]

so full of love tonighttttt waaaaaaaaahh

[homunculus-argument]

Sometimes in therapy I feel like I don't have trauma in some correct sort of way. Like I'll be explaining that my childhood wasn't even really traumatic, just kind of bleak and boring. The worst my parents ever made me feel was disappointed, but not surprised. it was all so very mundane. And whenever some therapist asks me what I mean, I'll tell some random story that I happen to remember off the top of my head of what my childhood was like, or one that I think illustrated what kind of people my parents were and what their relationship was like.

Like this one time I remember when I was like 10 or so, I can't remember where we were going but the whole family was getting into the car, and dad started bitching at mom about how come when their first car was in his name, it was their car, and then when they had their own cars they had his car and her car, but now that they only have one car again, it's still just her car.

And then mom bitterly pointed out that the reason why he doesn't have a company benefit car anymore is because he lost his lisence for driving drunk with the kids on board while she was on a business trip. (And while mom didn't bring it up at the time, he had also tried to cover this up and act like nothing had happened. And she wouldn't have found out if my (11/12-year-old at the time?) sister hadn't thought of calling one of mom's friends like "hey cops showed up and took dad so we're home alone now idk what we're supposed to do now" and she came to watch us and told mom.)

...And I was like 10 and sitting quietly on the back seat listening to them bickering about this because they still both bothered to be mad about it. Not mad enough to get divorced or anything, but still bitter enough to bitch at each other about each other. And a therapist will be like wow how did that make you feel, and ???

Bored of it? Disappointed, but not surprised? That was just what life was like. Quietly waiting for bitter adults to be done bickering with each other because you can't do anything to fix this and while they could, they won't do anything to improve their lives. Life was just like that.

[harryforguccy]

Its always funny seeing reactions of people from LA when I tell them I used public transportation to get to my destination. Its like a mythical creature for them

[kbwrites]

JJK On The Road!

synopsis: how the jjk sorcerers are on a road trip—feat. Gojo, Geto, Shoko, Nanami, Haibara, Utahime

⚝a/n: I had to include baby boy Haibara.

⚝tags: headcanon, Nanami is an emo boy, Gojo is a danger to society.

They all decided to take a roadtrip after graduation… it goes a little something like this

Gojo insisted that he be the one to drive. You assumed that his six eyes would give him some kind of advantage on the road.

You were SO wrong.

Mans is a DEMON on the street. Swerving in and out of traffic, the car is either at 0 or full speed no in-between.

“Huh? Where’d that guy come from?”

“Satoru you literally cut him off-”

“The speed limit is 45”

“Yeah… but that’s more of a suggestion right??”

Of course it isn’t long before you hear the sirens closing in behind you.

“Lisence and registration please.”

“Of course Officer!”

…

“This is your high school ID”

“Oh! Well about that..”

It takes at least 5 years off your life when Satoru is behind the wheel. You somehow manage to arrive to the destination in one piece. Everyone curses him out for endangering their lives (and driving with no license)

“Okay but did you die though?”

Geto is in charge of the AUX (because last time Nanami made everyone cry)

Is the type to put on some chill oldies, and one Abba song (Because Satoru loves Abba).

Loves looking out the window and pointing out cool stuff, bums a cigarette off of Shoko to deal with the stress of Satoru's driving.

“Hey. look at that huge tree.”

The car swerves.

“Wait I don’t see anything!”

“Not you Satoru…”

Is obviously shotgun so he tries his best to stay awake, probably ends up reading a book he brought or reminding Satoru to actually pay attention to the rules of the road.

Shoko is already bored when the car starts, plays “I Spy” with Suguru for all of 3 minutes before falling asleep. After her nap she wakes up and starts taking pictures. Can make even the most mundane thing like riding in car look like an aesthetic Pinterest board. Sneaks pictures of Nanami when he isn’t looking.

“Everyone smile.”

“Wait hold on I want to be in the picture too!”

“Satoru you’re DRIVING.”

Ends up vlogging the trip, texting Utahime to confirm Satoru hasn’t killed them yet.

Nanami did NOT want to go on this trip AT ALL. He was basically forced by Gojo (then coerced by Haibara). He sulks and looking out the window and sighing.

“Nanami stop being Emo”

“I am NOT Emo..”

“Will you stop sulking if I play My Chemical Romance?”

“....”

Brings his DS or something, shows Haibara his animal crossing world. Actually freaks out when Satoru takes a ‘scenic detour’ which adds 3 hours to the trip.

Haibara is in charge of the snacks. And thank god for snacks. 

Brings one cooler for everyone else and one cooler just for Satoru cause that boy can EAT.

Feeds Nanami trail mix

Talks Nanami’s ear off about how excited he is to be done with school </3. Tries to impress Suguru and Satoru by listing off fun facts about each area they drive through.

“Did you know that this is actually the longest stretch of road in the country?”

“Wow. That’s really Something.”

“Did you know that the native flower of this region is the hibiscus?”

“Uh huh.”

“Did you know that AHHH”

 Satoru swerves the car again, everyone gets thrown around the car.

Utahime  refuses to ride in a car with Gojo driving, so she meets up with you guys in her own car.

[gavisfanta]

heyyy, can you do one where pedri gives flowers to the reader?

thank you if answered 🫶🏻

LOVE LANGUAGE - PEDRI

summary: pedri gives you roses

warnings: none, just fluff

a/n: school started again so I'm a bit busy but I'll try to publish more!

"Ay Pedri" Gavi yelled over to pedri who was just walking into the locker room to get changed.

"Yeah?" Pedri turned around abruptly as he looked at one of his bestfriends standing there, looking at him.

"You wanna get something to eat?" Gavi asked as Ferran also walked up to Gavi and wrapped his arms around his shoulders from behind.

"I'd be in too." Ferran said and Pedri opened the door and walked inside, Ferran and Gavi followed him just seconds later.

"I cant, I have to go home." Pedri answered while he took off his shirt.

"Oh right, he has to go home to his girlfriend." Ferran smiled a bit as he got undressed to go into the shower.

"You still haven't interduced us to her properly." Gavi noticed while also taking off his clothes and so did Pedri.

"We can go out and eat something tonight, I'll bring her too if you insist." Pedri rolled his eyes as a small grin made its wat to his face.

"Oh I do insist, I wanna know who made my hermano fall so hard for her." Gavi laughed while walking into the shower.

The three of them stayed a bit longer to play a bit more after practice.

The others had already left that also meant that they had to clean the shower, they didnt really had to but the team did it every single time to spare the cleaners some time.

After the three of them were done showering and got dressed they cleaned the shower, and then walked to the car.

"Can you give me a ride hermano?" Gavi asked as he put a hand on Pedris shoulder.

"Of course, of course." Pedri mumbled and laughed a bit, his friend still didnt have his drivers lisence.

That was the one thing that was known about Gavis and Pedris friendship, Pedri was the driver and Gavi was the passengers princess.

Gavi could easily order Taxis but that was one of the things he hated the most.

Not because he couldn't afford it but because he gave strangers his address, especially in Barcelona it was so annoying to him that he would sit in the back with his hood up begging that nobody would notice him through the window.

It was okay when it was Pedri because he was obviously used to it, but the taxi drivers were diffrent.

So Gavi stuck with Pedri as his driver.

Pedri didn't mind because when you didnt stuck with him, he was mostly bored while driving.

So now Gavi was sitting in your seat and scrolling on his phone. "How did you even meet her?" Gavi asked, interested in his bestfriends relationship he managed to hide from his teammates and the media for two months.

Pedri had told them a week ago that you two were officially together and they still wouldn't leave him alone, he wasn't mad about that, in the end he loved talking about you.

"She was my brothers friend." Pedri said and Gavi smiled a bit.

"Damn you broke the bro rule." Gavi laughed out loud.

Pedei just responded with a nod, he loved the way you two met, he still remembers every small detail of it and so did you.

3 months ago:

Tenerife was one of the most beautiful places on earth, you were convinced by that fact.

That proved itself as Fer and you were hanging out at your usual spot, Fer was sipping on a beer while you drank the Fanta in your hand.

"I never wanna leave this place." you whispered while looking at the beach in front of you, the water was calm.

"You might want to, Barcelona is even prettier." Fer said proudly, you knew exactly how he loved to brag about his Brother living in one of the most beautiful cities in spain, not only that but he also played at Barca.

You've never actually met Pedri before, everytime Pedri came home to visit his brother and his parents you left them alone. Knowing he didn't see them that often you wanted to give them some time together.

"I've never been to Barcelona before." You noticed. Fer chuckled a bit before sitting up straight.

"You could come with me, I'm going the day after tomorrow." Fer suggested and you made a face. "I know you've never met Pedri before but I'll interduce yoy and we're gonna go and watch the game." Fer explained.

You broke the eye contact and looked back at the water. "What if he won't like me?"

"He will like you, he has to like you because you are my bestfriend." Fer patted your shoulder as you nodded your head.

"Is he really that arrogant as other people say he is?" You asked ironically.

"Oh he definitely is." Fer laughed.

So soon it was time to go to Barcelona. You worked for Fers parents at their restaurant so Fer had convinced his parents to let you leave with him.

As soon as you were sitting on the plane you couldn't help but be anxious.

Pedri was very important to a lot of people, if he was like people described him, he was a complete shithole.

Three and a half hours later Fer and you arrived in Barcelona. Sooner than you knew you were infront of a very expensive looking white house.

"I'm so happy that you two will finally meet." Fer whispered to you before the door swung open and you came face to face with Pedri who wore a huge grin on his face.

"Pedri!" Fer went into a hug immediately. Pedri hugged him back and after Fer pulled away he looked at you again.

"Pedri this is my bestfriend Y/n, and I'm sure you know that this is Pedri." Fer at first turned to his brother and then to you.

As you met Pedris eyes for the first time, you expected everything but this.

He was smiling, the sun hit his face perfecy, his face looked perfect and you immediately got lost in his eyes.

"Nice to meet you," Pedri said shyly, he brought his hand closer to you, you shook his hand and looked up with a smile on your face.

You were almost surprised that you didn't hear confidence in his voice. "Nice to meet you too, I heard a lot about you."

"Good or bad things?" pedri smiled, that shy smile sent shivers down your spine.

"You wouldn't like the answer."

"Okay, well let's go inside." Fer said suddenly and then walked past Pedri, Pedri however needed two extra seconds to part his eyes from yours.

You and Fer went to watch his game the next day, it was a success l because Pedri scored.

After that game the three of you went out to party to Raphinhas house. But you were pretty bored because you didnt know anyone from there. So Pedri and you went into a McDonald's drive in.

That night, as you two were sitting in Pedris Mini, while eating the unhealthiest food on planet earth, Pedri looked into your eyes.

That was the moment he knew he had fallen in love with you, and he obviously knew that he was screwed.

The others met you as Fer's bestfriend, they looked at you as Fer's Bestfriend. But Pedri looked at you as the only girl that made him feel the things he felt at that moment.

He knew it was a bit early to say but he could already imagine having a family with you.

After it was time for you and Fer to go home Pedri begged you to stay, you didn't know at that moment why he wanted you to stay but you did.

Especially because Pedri convinced his parents to let you stay, and his brother too. He said that he wanted to show you the city. He paid for a way too expensive hotelroom for you and also paid for your flight back.

That gave the two of you 2 more weeks together.

One week before you had to go home you realized that you had feelings for him, you weren't sure if that was the case with Pedri too.

Pedri showed you every part of Barcelona, every part he could visit without getting recognized and possibly killed.

After an el clasico win at home Pedri stormed to you, you were waiting in the tunnel for him.

Pedri didn't know what was going through his mind, he just felt the adrenaline rush through his veins.

He received a lot of weird looks as he sprinted over to the tunnel. As you saw Pedri running toward you, you also didn't know what was happening.

Pedri was breathing heavily as he put his hand on your neck, caressing your jaw with his thumb. You looked at him shocked at the sudden movement. "Y/n, I know this is so so wrong, but I love you, I've loved you ever since that damn party.And- And I want you to stay here." Pedri was looking at you, his eyes sparkling while looking at you.

"I love you too." You breathed out with a smile on your face.

As soon as you said that a smile flashed up on his face immediately. In that moment he felt the adrenaline rush again and kissed you.

His soft lips on yours felt like heaven and his hands on your body felt even more like heaven.

Too bad that there were a lot of interviewers still on the field and in the background of live tv, you were seen kissing Pedri, well the other way around.

But that didn't matter as Fer flew back to Barcelona immediately.

He was fuming with anger as to why Pedri kissed his bestfriend. He liked that you amd Pedri were getting along but not this much.

In the end Pedri and you ended up together, Fer didn't agree to it at first but after about a month he accepted it.

Luckily he did.

"Thanks for the ride Pedri, see you tonight!" gavi yelled as he got out of the car and walked towards his door.

Pedri watched him walk off, he then drove off and went to the nearest store.

Meanwhile you were just waking up.

The sun was shining through the window, as the sun rays hit your exposed back you shivered.

The warmth coming from outside was really peaceful. You opened your eyes and immediately saw an empty space next to you in the bed. Pedri has already gone to training.

Somehow you managed to grab your phone from the nightstand and saw a message from your boyfriend.

"Good Morning Amor I didn't want to wake you up you were sleeping so peacefully. I'll be back as soon as i can. Te amo"

As your eyes ran across the words you smiled. Yesterday was your two months anniversary so it was a long day and also night.

You had fun, especially when you two went out to eat and then on a walk. Pedri bought you a really expensive ring and you bought him new cleats, not like he didnt had enough.

Of course Pedri got mad at you at first when he saw the expensive cleats standing in the garage but you managed to calm him down and at the end he was pretty happy about it.

You decided to stand up from the bed and be a bit productive. Walking over to his closet you chose one of his springfield shirts and pulled it over your head.

While walking down the stairs you tied your hair together into a ponytail and then went to make some breakfast for yourself.

You decided on some fried egg with bread. May seem boring but it was one of your favorite dishes.

So after you ate you put everything away again and went to watch tv. The time flew by quickly and then soon you heard the door unlock. You smiled as you stood up and waited for Pedri to get inside.

Seconds later you saw Pedri walk inside with a huge smile and a bouquet of red roses in his hand.

"Hey baby." he smiled while he looked at you. You walked over to him and pulled him into a hug straight away.

"Hello" You smiled as you put your head on his chest.

Pedri exhaled deeply as he kissed the top of your head. After you pulled away he handed you the roses he still held in his hand.

"I brought this for you." Pedri smiled widely and then you took the roses from his hand and kissed him passionately.

"Thank you so much, but what for?" You asked, looking at the red rose bouquet in your hand before looking back up at his eyes.

Pedri chuckled as he looked down at you and wrapped an arm around your shoulders as he walked next to you.

"Just to tell you that I love you." He told you and kissed your cheek.

Pedri had planned to bring you roses every day after you two started dating. Sadly that wasn't possible because he was often too tired to go to a store after practice.

He made sure to bring you roses afterwards he went home from every away game.

You were convinced that one of Pedri's love languages was giving you things.

But you didn't mind at all, in the end. You still loved him like he was the only thing on earth.

[problematic-polls]

hello this is drunk anon from the “spiy” pole here to say i was not actually drunk it was just near 3 in the morning and i lied so people wouldnt judge me for my spelling

so anyways driving age? (assume legal driving age is 16)

-no driving age, get your lisence when you pass the test

-younger driving age

-driving age is fine

-older slightly (18+ or something)

-very older 20’s-30’s

-no legal driving (what?)

-bald

[sappymix1]

lets get it i stole this beat off reddit better call saul bitch you still ain’t getting credit forget it looking for her digits allie becky cindy yeah their names are alphabetic walk into my room and there’s nothing there mattress on the floor but she don’t seem to car i can’t drive so well split the uber fair don’t got my lisence but i’m a billionaire where am i im with your girlfriend in mcdonald’s line but i can’t drive so we’ll just eat inside you’ll try and find me but i’m in la chilling with your bae acting fishy while we’re eating fish filet in la chilling with your bae stole your chick and now we’re eating chick fi le lost my visa that’s my bad didn’t even know made me go to the bahamas didn’t wanna go i brought her with me but i swapped her for a local hoe she’s borra boring so i told her that she had to go where an i im with your girlfriend in mcdonald’s line but i can’t drive so we’ll just eat inside you’ll try and find me but i’m in la chilling with your bae acting fishy while we’re eating fish filet in la chilling with your bae stole your chick and now were eating chick fi le where am i im with your girlfriend in mcdonald’s line but i can’t drive so we’ll just eat inside

[laurathegreatest]

- Deepest desires -

-I want to be successful and go to that friend's house. Showing off in front of her judgmental mother. Not only my inteligence and new great job, but my model-like appearence.

-show off my ripped and slim body in kpop dances.

-show off my dream body to my friends and everybody, casually

-show off getting the best grades in the academy to my father and my friends

-show off my great garden and my deep cleaned house to my father

-show off being everymorning in la Caseta and having absolutely no screen time to my father

-showing off how smart I've become to my friends

-showing off how strong and athletic i've become to my friends, father, and gym

-getting into the police force and getting the recognition I deserve for my amazing character

-getting an incredible boyfriend, very handsome and who trully adores me

-showing off my great job and capability to everybody who knew me from my hometown

- Just imagine -

-In march, you reach your goal weight and show off your abs and thight body wherever you go. Your whole wardrobe feels loose, and now your spring/summer clothes look even better on you.

- Imagine going back to that friend's house. The one who's mother has always been comparing your big body to her daughter's perfect slim one. (My friend is lovely, is her mother I have a bit of a (problem?) with.)

>>> Imagine. Exactly one year after the last time she saw you. After your walk with your doggy, you get ready. You shower, and pick up black dress pants (loose, but lookinv like a suit), which now they fit completely lose in you and they close tightly up on you small waist, looking like a doll. They fall beautifully over your slim-toned legs. You love to look slim under loose clothing. You put on a tigh white jersey up to your neck that shows your slim frame, and let your hair fall down your back. Since it is recently washed, your hair looks shiny, healthy, and your natural buckles end in beautiful curves. You love your wavy hair. And your slim frame. The big muscles on your arms look amazing under your tight shirt. You look sporty and model like. Like a sucessfull woman who is put together. You even put lipstick, coloret, and mascara. And a collar. You look amazing.

You let your friend and his boyfriend now that you'll be going to pick them up now, and you take you father's car. You listen to music on your way and enjoy the ride and the heater on the cold weather of a december night.

You haven't eaten since lunch, but you're not hungry. You stopped eating snacks and having your healthy 3 meals a day, and you maintain your 52kg at 167 cm, bmi of 18.6, figure effortlessly. And with you being mostly muscle, you look even thighter and smaller than if you were only skin and bones. And it is easier to diet. You just make sure to eat clean, and enoguh.

You arrive at your friends house and park in front of her house. Now, a whole year after you got you driving lisence, it is easy for you to park even at the most difficult paralel spot. You have no problem anymore findin space for your large vehicle.

You walk up to the door and ring the bell. Her boyfriend opens the door and let's you inside the house. You both hug quicky in salutation. You notice how that he looked surprised when he opened the door and first looked at you, but he isn't saying anything. You smile satisfied.

You ask how he's doing and he starts actualizing you, when your friends finally gets down from her room. She looks more radiant now that she's finished her spanish degree.

You both hug, and she smiles big at you. "Wow, you look beautiful." She looks at my outfit in appruval, since I usually just wear sweats. She then adds. "You've gotten a lot skinnier."

Her affirmation is more like a question with a bit of concern. I smile assuringly. "Yeah, I put more effort in my training, and I lost a bit of weight. But I also gained muscle. I love my arms now, and I am stronger than ever at the climbing gym."

[bluelizze]

some of my mc, elise x rafayel headcanons

elise spends more time at rafayel's place/studio to the point someone thought elise lives with him

they actaually have to moved some of their stuff to rafayel's place due to how often they are there

so rafayel's bedroom (now technically shared with elise) has some random plushies and trinkets laying around

and one of the empty rooms is now elise's collection room (or as they call it, their safe bubble)

rafayel does help elise study and in return, elise has to be rafayel's muse (not that they mind bc they enjoy it)

if you’re wondering, they planned on majoring child development with the minor of marine biology

rafayel does help pay off some college stuff for elise despite them telling him he doesnt have to (he wants to)

rafayel 100% learns elise's class schedule so that he knows when to drop her off and pick them up

going off of that, elise can drive, it's just they get anxious when they do. and they don't have their lisence yet

there was one day where rafayel randomly gave elise one of his credit cards and said “use it :)”

however elise being elise, tries to refuses but gave up and now owns one of rafayel’s credit cards to use

however they secretly don’t use it and just use cash despite having a credit card of their own

you can definitely tell rafayel LOVES to spoil elise and giving him his credit card is just one of his ways to spoil them without being there

he created a painting that is based from elise’s eyes and called it “le souvenir oublié d'un crépuscule”

[mothbeasts]

my cat finally left and it's. 6 in the morning. head in my hands. the world so cruel to me et cetera

every time I almost fall asleep my cat wakes me up again ..... why ....

[ask-aces-future-warners]

my headcanons that carry over to this au/just things that are canon here:

Yakko can't do math (other than some basics)

Wakko is the only sib who can actually do math

Wakko is Transfem and Non-binary (they/she)

Dot actually hates being called cute as an adult, she associates it with the worst time in her life

all the Warners struggled with body image issues during filming, the studio, and their Parents wanted them to look the same age for 6 years

the Warners started the show at 14,11, and 10

once filming ended on Wakko's wish and the Siblings' contracts expired Yakko (being 20) immediately took his parents to court for custody of his siblings (he won)

Hello Nurse, Minerva Mink and Slappy are all like Mother Figures to the kids, (Slappy more like a Grandmother tho)

Yakko's world was a BIG thing on youtube, vine etc (like our real world) and all Yakko's students (not just his GEO class) try and get him to sing it

Dot and Wakko are hardly ever in the public eye for their brand, they have someone to do all the publicity,

none of the Warners are majorly in the spotlight

other than Wakko who does some comedy on the side and Dot who runs the Brand's social media

Yakko is THE favorite teacher, he is always requested for covering when another teacher is away

most of the money the warners made during filming went into W&D's brand and some support systems for Yakko and Abby

Dot can't drive. like she actively refuses to get her lisence or even learn. she is THE passenger princess, either Yakko, Wakko or her Wife drive her places.

Yakko doesn't plan on dating again for a while, Abby is his top priority and he'd rather focus on her and his career than finding a partner (though he at points wants one,)

that's all I have for now!

[katyscosmos]

5 years ago I moved into an ancient farmhouse that'd been empty for years. It was full of dead animals and live crows. Literal shit everywhere and considerable issues with daily living. But I asked to move in and was up for a challenge trying to breathe new life into this space. Many times I lost faith, I struggled to keep my dream alive and I had to leave my house more times than I can count. I'm so lucky to have had support from my family and friends to help me through. My saviours. Through love from people , creating art, renovating this house, animal and plant friends, extensive amounts of meds therapy and hospital trips, excersice, movement, mindfulness, nature and music. I'm finally on my way out. I lost the ability to share my truth and to communicate through words which was a scary place to be in. Experiencing catatonia, manic episodes and depression worse than it'd ever been, I pushed forward messily. I was embarrassed of myself and I've learned a lot about taking ownership of my actions and emotions and redirecting my episodes away from self harm. My meds weren't working. I turned to the bottle for the first time and back to non prescription drugs. These things helped me enough to be comfortably numb, a state I absolutely needed to be in whilst I stabilised myself enough to be able to deal with the cptsd and cope with my BPD.

The amount of judgement I received whilst in these states was unparalleled. I'll never forget the people who didn't gossip about or judge me. And I'll never forget the people that did. In a few days, I'll be 32 and for the first time in a decade, I'm happy, I'm content and now actually am fostering HOPE again. My little slogan has always been "keep the dream alive" (most of you know this but for those who don't) - I gave up. I couldn't keep my dream alive and I lost hope, many, many times. But I never really gave up, a part of me did, but the drive was still there somewhere, buried deep in me. I've found it, and it's taken over again as the most prominent force in me. I let people take advantage, putting them before me, always. I don't do that anymore.

So many valuable lessons I'm thankful for. So many dead mice. So many miles and miles and miles. When I arrives at my new home on my little moped, I was waiting for the fireplace to go in and was staying with my pen y land fam. During that time I crashed my moped and it landed on me, crushing my right leg. It's taken 5 years to get to this point, I'm just about ready to start using it fully again. So naturally, I've had no transport. Then I was too mentally unwell to drive anyway. The nearest shop is a 3km round trip. I learned how to use a chainsaw, how to bleed a Stanley, and had many weeks with no power at all, just like my childhood. It's not been easy. But nothing ever is. Thankfully I've more than enough to keep me busy and enough support to keep me well. Here's to the future, more stability, my driving lisence to see friends and the freedom I crave. I'm forever in debt to this beautiful place and the beautiful people that absolutely saved me. I see you, I love you and I thank you, you know who you are. It's all still a work in progress, and that's ok. I've slowed down to an absolute stop,and that's ok too.

I experienced several servere physical and sexual assaults, in my own home at the hands of the people I loved most and I myself tried to end it on many occasions. I will speak my truth without fear. I will never forget who put me in harshsip, who left me in harshsip and who helped me in hardship. I know myself and I know who my real friends are.

I found serenity, I found joy again, I hosted some epic parties. I laughed till I cried and cried until I laughed again. I got knocked down, but I got up again (and again, and again and again)... Ya never gonna keep me down x.