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my mom accidentally introducing me to my newest hyperfixation is so funny to me
#she denies me being neurodivergent in any way#and then introduces me to The X Files#and gets to hear me every day go#mom i cant wait for X files#mom can we eat dinner earlier so i can watch X Foles#mom i saw this thing about the X Files#mom i read this about the X Files#hey mom#mom#mom i wanna watch X Files#like thats normal??#and she also watched me rewatch Bad Batch 15 times in 1 week#same for Hannibal#and all i talked about was Clone Wars on my rewatch of that#and i have star wars legos#and posters#and have the whole ROTS script memorized word for word#and also have most of the (older) games#and am planning a star wars cosplay#and also ONLY TALK ABOUT starwars#(as well as X Files currently)#like gurly there are signs#(+ i got 168 on the RAADS thing)#so idk man#seems like i have smth goin on#but i CANT be autistic!! i make eye contact!!#and i talk to people!!#but i also get overstimulated by stepping outside and have to regularly stim to self regulate#everyday i find more and more examples of me being autistic
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someone: are you okay
me: so in 1964 john lennon wrote one of his only love ballads, "if I fell" and called it auto biographical even though it doesn't match w any of his public relationships. the lyrics can easily be flipped to be about him pining for someone already in a relationship with a woman which would most likely be a man (as seen in "across the universe" where they did the song from a woman's pov to a man without changing the lyrics and it still worked). he wrote the full lyrics for the first time on the inside of a valentines day card and in the corner you can see his handwriting that says "to: paul with love" with an arrow pointing inside and some doodled hearts. it was auctioned off in the 2000s, but the description only says it was written on a plane on a card "given to paul" as a spare paper, not acknowledging the little dedication with the hearts. years later he referred to it as a "silly love song," referring back to paul's song that was in turn referring to his mocking comments. and that's why he's a fa-
#all of my friends the last two days having to hear me rant about this#and only get worse when I zoomed in and found that dedication and almost threw up#I'm sorry mutuals you're all suffering w me#block every mention u can think of I'm going Crazy#mclennon
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guys i promise i have other ideas i just go back to drawing domestic jegulus at every minor inconvenience
#me having 10 started wips#and my brain just goes#LISTEN... HEAR ME OUT... WHAT IF... BARE WITH ME NOW... we draw jegulus sleeping together for the 285th time#i think i keep drawing sleeping ppl bc i cant sleep myself#youve heard of living through someone else now get ready for sleeping through someone else#googling “insomnia symptoms” every 3 days just to make sure#anyways where was i going with this...#marauders era#marauders fanart#regulus black#james potter#regulus black fanart#jegulus#james potter fanart#jegulus fanart#my art
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the thing is; this world needs you exactly as you are.
#haven't posted in a while because i don't have a lot to say#the vast volume of posts in the past were often coming from the version of me that needed to hear them#lately i don't need to hear anything. i guess.#there might be something there#anyway. i hope you're doing well! i'm in the thick of my internship and working every day all day#i did decide that i HAVE to learn blender all of a sudden last weekend so that's going on#and i'm trying to get tickets to skz tomorrow... wish me so much luck#ok. love you. bye again!#positivity#mental health#the healing (starts here)#growth in the self#positive suggestions
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Making Incorrect H:SR Quotes Until I Run Out of (hopefully) Original Ideas - Pt. 4 - Nuthin' but Boothill Edition
[Pt. 1] [Pt. 2] [Pt. 3] [Pt. 5] [Pt. 6]
#boothill#honkai star rail#hsr#hsr incorrect quotes#hsr memes#honkai star rail memes#hsr meme#honkai star rail meme#hsr textpost#hsr boothill#boothill hsr#hsr spoilers#hsr 2.2 spoilers#hmmm... don't think it's worth tagging the others in the 9th image. this ain't about them#still unsure abt how to do the alt text for these kinda posts properly but hopefully i'm improving#anyways. don't think i've ever seen heard and typed "cowboy' so many times in one day as i have while making this good lord#i did a bit of digging around and haven't Seen any of these done yet so. here's hoping that's the case!#i'm only ~3/4 of the way through the 2.2 main quest but the need to make these compelled me to put these out Now#i can already tell u that there Will be more of these for Boothill tho bc i'm crazy abt him. probably enough to make another dedicated post#but i'm gonna wait until i'm fully caught up on the plot (and will probably spoil myself for more of his character lore after that as well)#speaking of. i'm gonna go eat mac n' cheese and stay up too late playing through the rest of the main quest#i'm loving it so far. many thoughts head full abt it all but in a good way. hoping for more Boothill moments as we approach the end#he's def not the main character here but he is to Me okay. he is to me. i'm scarfing down every crumb he drops#i'm also suffering from Aventurine withdrawals out here. Argenti mentioning him was Interesting but i need More. Where Is He.#also. was Argenti intentionally not voiced or was it a game issue?? the hell was that. threw me off so hard when i couldn't hear him speak#anyways i'm getting off topic and wasting precious gaming time so i'll be takin' my leave now
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Okay I'm so sleep deprived so pardon whatever this is but something that's got me FUCKED up about ai generated pictures songs writing is that it just fucking kills the ability to analyse for me because there's no fucking INTENTION behind it. Like why was this decision made why were these colours used what does that say about the work NOTHING because a bunch of programming took work that DID have intent and theme and purposeful choices and turned it into SLOP. Like I COULD analyse this but it doesn't MEAN anything it's EMPTY I want to EXPLODEEE
#Like you can. You can technically analyse ai work for theme and visual literary etc motif but it's all fucking slop to me man#It's making me so cynical about like. Art. I guess. Given the state of corporations and capitalism and the endless stream of#MAKE MONEY BY ANY MEANS. FOR EVERY SECOND THE LINE DOESN'T GO UP WE EXECUTE A HOSTAGE#Like FUCK#I saw that fucking coca cola ad on tv and I wanna get violent man. Like the ad as a representation of all of. This#I know an ad isn't the same kinda thing it's just on my mind#Like nothing means anything anymore it's all gotta be slop it's all gotta be easy corporate slop to appease the market. Every fuckin thing#Ai generated shit is just an endless meaningless hole of malicious thieving garbage and I want to commit a crime#Sorry hi I've been back on that doing art professionally (kinda) grind and I haven't slept in a solid three days it's kinda wearing on me#Gonna be real lads#Oh also that's another thing this is my fucking. Like career path. I do art. And I have to monetize my one great passion. In order to eat#And pay for the constantly exploding rent prices. And now corporations are like hmmmmm#What if we didn't even pay you for that#What if. Hear me out. We stole people's work and made a computer do it#AND THE STUFF THE COMPUTER IS DOING IS GARBAGE#MEANINGLESSNESS SHIT ON TOP OF MEANINGLESS SHIT. FOR PROFIT#Uh anyways I'm going to bed now I have to get up in 3 hours I hope everyone has a better night than this and gets some rest!!#ai mention#vent post
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moight have another mural painting gig on my hands soon yee dawgy
#its sounding like ill be painting an eagle im readdyyyyyy#its for a school and as a mf who had to go to a school with the plainest most depressing walls ever im all over this#but i need to stfu bc it very much could fall thru too rn but fr if these kids are gunna be seeing it every day for 7 hrs#boy howdy i wanna make it Something to look at#bc hearing abt how the kids in that wing i painted freak out abt it every week i just get so :'''')#on god if i could just paint shit everywhere that brightens the lives of kids even in the slightest that would b fulfilling 4 me#ANYWAY its not gunna interrupt the comic at all so back i go 🖊
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Thinks about my next series again... I drew the icon for it!
I'm planning to have it launched within a year! I'm hoping for summer 2025. I want to make a prelaunch page before Time and Time Again ends so people can subscribe if they're interested, but I'm worried the series return would be too early...
#SORRY HAHAHA REPOSTING IMMEDIATELY#i. it. IM SORRY okay the.#i had 'im not interested in the comic' as an option but it immediately made me feel bad#DONT FEEL BAD IF YOU PICKED IT i put it there#i just realized its not really a helpful metric to me at all!#im making the comic either way!#so i just want to gague interest. disinterest doesnt do much for me. you can come and go as you please!#just wanting to retain readers as much as possible but without losing them due to taking too long#ahhhh the balance of marketing. a beautiful beast she is.#anyways yeah hoping to launch like about as tta is ending#or like at LEAST a prelaunch page by then#im also not intending for the prelaunch page to be like. announced...#moreso just a link i append on art for the series!#just so when a drawing of zagan gets 500 notes#people who are interested in what hes from can. see that...#anyways. sorry i haven't been posting work is wild im going 70+ hours a week again i am so tired#not much time to draw non work stuff#im hanging on by a thread of having multiple projects i can bounce between again#and sometimes thats this one! so heres the results of some mental health work variety#we were legion#polls#sorry for the instant repost. in my defense. i am exhausted.#i can not wait until im making a different comic that i can do a fucking. normal ass schedule with#where im not every week gasping for breath in some kind of bad at swimming metaphor.#anyways if youre not interested dont tell me. it doesnt matter to me. no offense but i just dont wanna hear it.#i want to make the comic and my audience as much as i love you all is not going to have any control over what i do with my art#im gonna make this comic if i only get it done on weekends after getting home from the fuckin movie theater#i am not working for webtoon again wnd im not forcing myself into the dirt for comics again#but im also never gonna stop making them. just need to build a healthier relationship!#FUCK I MADE IT A ONE DAY POLL.
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Expecting a man to ask conversation-carrying questions is futile. It will never happen. So instead I've been acting like a podcast host interviewing a guest, and dang. Those conversations get kinda deep.
#i've had three separate men begin WILLINGLY TO TALK ABOUT RELIGION#usually they will listen to me talk about my faith and say nothing about their own aside from the obligatory 'i'm not really religious'#but as soon as i started asking interview-style questions suddenly they want to talk about all of it#'i used to be christian and now i don't really know what i believe'#'i can't reconcile what i used to believe with the reality of the world i live in every day and i feel so empty'#'i believe in something but i have no idea what this isn't all there is'#ouch#this makes me realize how little i listen to people to hear from them and more just want to get to the part i want to talk about#and i guess mocking people for not being interested in keeping a fairly boring conversation going is not the way#because letting them speak and listening has always taken the conversation to a more interesting place than if I'd said my bit
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you have my soul, you have my heart ♡
#LUCY#Band LUCY#Shin Yechan#Choi Sangyeop#Cho Wonsang#Jo Wonsang#Shin Gwangil#LUCY fanart#take 2 because i'm a distaster and posted this on the wrong blog haha#still figuring how out to tag these lol#kitkatart#i did it!! it's finally done!! on time!!!#well maybe not on time but in time lol#2022 encore concert live clip of flare my love#flare really is one of my absolute favorite songs#no matter how many times i hear it i fall in love with it every time#but this version in particular is so magical :)#i was thinking i might make a few freebies of the individual member versions for the vancouver show#do you think people would like that? i've never made freebies before so i'm not sure!#i think i'd be too shy to post about it and then hand them out but we'll see haha#okay back to chores and concert prepping again#i cannot believe i'm going to two lucy concerts and then have a work conference like two days after#i was only going to go to one concert but was convinced to go to a second at the last minute. to be fair it didn't take much convincing#this really did take forever but part of that is probably bc i haven't drawn anything real in like more than a year#also was i testing the procreate layer limit or was the procreate layer limit testing me lol#okay i'm done now i'll stop yapping :D#i hope you're all doing well!!#UPDATE: i did pass these out as freebies and also to the lucys AHHH#I will never be over seeing them live and getting to meet them oh my gosh#they were soooo amazing and so so so sweet 🥺 other walwals at the concerts were also so nice!!
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who up happying they new year rn
#1000 words takes 10 thousand years to write#ppl who write fast what are your tricks? if you tell me don't edit as you go i'll actually cry.#i know it's the answer but i don't like it#give me 100 perfect words then i lose the will to write or give me death#i'm pushing tho. im doine my best.#i wanna get up to like 6k? for this opening scene? 10 might be better#but i write like 100 words a day at best#and i don't write every day#i think that's the problem maybe#i'm so much better at stream of consciousnesss mannnn#writing is hard#anyway. talk to me if you want.#i solved one (1) problem and now i feel like i'm done writing for the day#lmao like i'm hearing myself i really am#mmmm if ur nice to me i'll post/send u an excerpt#i like sharing bc i like affirmation#even though i think it would be better to keep it to myself while i'm working on it#oh well i like praise too much#at me if you wanna feed my love and affection addictions <3
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once again it becomes increasingly obvious paul needs his alone in forest time but he really is zito's grouchy wife wdym this man was so ready to hang up the towel after being fired from multiple coaching gigs and zito just absolutely did not let him like thats just how it happened? alright man
#paul maurice#bill zito#florida panthers#2425#hearing the zito calling paul while he was in the woods story gets better every retelling#of course when paul retells it he has to reiterate how good the fishing was those days#“im good man! like im taking this to the house! its been fun! winnipeg toronto carolina hartford!”#PAUL YOU ARE SO DRAMATIC FOR NO REASON#bill absolutely not letting him rot in the woods is deeply funny to me#sweet husband to the grouchy wife who has to convince her to go on a first date#“now i dont wanna be anywhere else”#FUNNY HOW THAT WORKS OLD MAN HUH#“barkov is an unselfish superstar tkachuk is an unbelievable guy”#PAUL WHO LOVES TO PRAISE SASHA AND MAFFHEW WHENEVER HE CAN#whenever the kitty locker room gets praise my heart gets warm but the WE HAVE A GREAT LOCKER ROOM AND WE ARE WINNERS comment made :D#YEAHHHHHHHH#anyways is it ever a wonder why you cannot take vacation time away from paul#he needs his alone fishing in woods time to survive okay#“im going into the woods and never returning its over im ruined i can make peace with the fact that no one wants me” “i want you” “no”
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Do you have beef/opinions on finaglc? Asked bc of tags from a few days ago. It’s been years since I read that one…i remember it being A Lot but that’s about it.
you ever read some really wack papyrus characterization where you don't even need to check the author's other works cuz you just Know they write f0ntcest
#can't even explain it in words. it just reeks of it#it does Not get his low empathy autistic swag. and the flowey Character is really bad too from what I've seen#literally couldn't get past the first chapters because of how ooc it was#but everyone and their mom parades it around as THEE ut fic if all time#every day i am reminded of how most people in fandom genuinely can't distinguish between something being ''edgy'' & something being ''deep''#anyway papyrus would hear flowey's death story and essentially go ''UH OH. SKILL ISSUE. YOU SHOULD COME TRAIN WITH UNDYNE AND I!!''#''DID YOU TRY DODGING THEIR BULLET PATTERNS WITH YOUR SOUL? IT'S SUPER DUPER EASY LET ME SHOW YOU''#answered asks#biscia hater moment
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the suffererrrrrrrrr
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#I be rushing these drawings but IM SICK IM FUCKING SICK IM GOING TO FUCKING KMS UGHHHHGGGGG 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔#So I stuck w the idea. Fugo’s pc box is now the host of virus Nara’s organs ❤️#And he’s forced to listen to his heartbeat. Loud. Every second of the day.#And I’m making him khs bc there is NO WAY you wouldn’t go insane from that#Lowkey I was thinking ab the tell tale heart bc while the story is unrelated the heartbeat thingie inspired me ig#Ibispaint tools are saving my life I love the squiggly line setting thing#I have learnt the basics of ibispainting….. when do I get my certificate to become an ibispainter#I fucking hate this man’s hair I will probably rework it#It looks good in my other art style but not this one idk 💔#Is the text legible#Fugo my baby it’s not the floorboards#Something took over me and made me use something that isn’t a shade of red or pure white/black.#Idk feels weird to use gray#It probably sounds rlly weird of me to say that but 😭#jjba#jojo no kimyou na bouken#jojo's bizarre adventure#pannacotta fugo#Jjba au#au#alternate universe#numerical guillotine au#Digital art#ibispaintx#Listening to suki suki daisuki (ghhh animation memes…..) and I get even more inspired by the covers aesthetic#I HEAR YOUR HEART BEAT TO THE BEAT OF THE DRUMS ‼️‼️‼️ but it’s making you cry and sob and fret
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okay i'm still very awake so you're all gonna have to deal with me red-stringing about character bullshit until i fall asleep. i Know i'm making a big post about this but i don't care
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why. this is the first instance of mark being designated as the one in charge when a higher-up (fred, in this case) isn't present. but why. they were only trapped in the slipspace fuckeryzone for a few days relative to normal space-time and i don't think anything drastic happens (with these guys) in glasslands? at least according to the wiki it doesn't. why did being integrated into blue team suddenly disrupt team saber's former command structure?
did they plan to kill mark off at the very start of this? was this all a long game to give mark enough of a foothold as an Important Character to make his death have more impact? does troy denning just like him more? how much weight did his personal preferences even play in this? why do the gammas suddenly start bantering when they're in danger and alone with a woman they just met? why do mark and ash seem to switch personalities every other chapter? why is this worse than i remember it being when i first read it a few months ago?
#this is only partially shitposting#the more i flip back and forth between all these books the weirder it gets#i know i'm reading too far into what's probably trivial nonsense#but boy oh boy do i want to make it make sense#also. there's a one-braincell quota for every denning novel#and only one character is allowed to have it at a time#listen. they're not Bad to read#they're mostly fun if you overlook the fact that highly-intelligent spartans#would PROBABLY not be clueless about the basics of forensic procedure#i don't even mind that mark is the one in charge in this era of novels#i like mark#but i want the Why#and i want to see the Why on ash's side of it too#tbh the boring answer is just. everyone agreed this was an acceptable direction#for the characters to go. and that was that#i mean halo canon continuity is a mess already given everyone who's contributed#but. gestures helplessly#ash reads halo#ash goes fucking insane reading halo#that should be the tag for these#can anyone tell what kind of day i've had?#can anyone hear me#halo#halo books#gamma company#mark g313#book: last light#character analysis hell tag#essay reference tag
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been binging tf outa Avatar the last airbender bc ive been puking my EVERLOVIN guts out since yesterday and hear me out
#remy would probably get cool weapons or somethin but honey im so sorry it would be the reality#sk8 squad#ollie#ponti#oscar#abio#kari#vinny#remy#im Just Now feeling like the worst is over but holy fuck talk about misery#and i Have to go to work tomorrow anyway since i had to call bc today was supposed to be the recovery day but nOOO body said fuck u#cause this is like the 3rd time this has happened this year alone like i refuse to believe its just a bunch of food poisoning instances???#i been eating the same for years and i know my immune systems been shot ever since covid but that was 4 years ago now somethin aint right#pray for my downstairs neighbors they had to hear me fighting for my life every 30 minutes PFFFT EEUUUAAGHGG HUFF HUFF HUFF yeah#although i will say all this shit has really toned down my emetophobia now everytime i gotta puke i just let out a long disappointed sigh#but goddamn still brutal tho
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