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Blue Crown â JJ Maybank
**Season 4 part 2 spoiler alert! read at your own risks â ď¸
Summary : In which the only way to help JJ is by getting that blue crown back from Chandler Groff.
JJ Maybank x Fem!Reader
Warnings : usage of knife, heavy language, violence, blood, gun, english is not my first language
A/N : im afraid this is my coping mechanism, oh btw rafe's not in this story i just dont know what i would do with him
The midday sun blazed high, unbroken and blinding, but the sandstorm approached like a golden wave, shimmering in the light. The air grew hot and dry, buzzing with an electric anticipation as gusts began to whip up the ground. In moments, the bright world transformed, the desert around cloaked in a chaotic dance of light and sand.
Grains swirled furiously, each one catching the sunlight, creating a blinding haze of gold and white. Visibility shrank to a few feet, the sandstorm casting the world in a strange, glowing fog. It was harsh, relentless, every breath filled with the sting of earth and sun, an unstoppable force of nature bearing down with brilliant fury.
JJâs feet finally hit the dusty ground, the force of his landing sending a cloud of sand and dirt rising into the air. The narrow alleyway of Essaouira echoed with the sound of his boots hitting the cobblestones as he steadied himself. He clutched the wrapped blue crown in his hands, his knuckles white. âYou good?â I asked, my voice full of concern as I stepped closer to him, eyes scanning his face for any signs of strain.
âIâm good, Iâm good. Iâm better, actually. Iâm great!â JJ said with a grin that seemed to spread across his face like wildfire. He rushed over to me, pulling the scarf from the crown with quick, excited movements. âCause look!â he exclaimed, his voice full of energy.
He held up the crown, now revealed, but it was covered in dust, the rich blue stones clouded by the grime of their journey. Despite the dirt, the crownâs intricate design was unmistakable, its value evident even beneath the layers of dust. My breath caught in my throat as I saw it, this relic, this symbol of everything we had lost. âNo way, oh my god,â I whispered, my eyes wide with disbelief. My grin mirrored JJâs as we both stood there for a moment, taking in the weight of the moment.
JJâs loud cheer broke the silence, ringing out into the alleyway and bouncing off the high walls of the medina. âI... I did it!â he shouted, the sheer joy and relief in his voice undeniable.
I couldnât help but laugh, my heart swelling with pride. âDo you know what this means?â I asked, my voice barely above a whisper, as if I didnât want to jinx it.
âOh yeah, I do,â JJ said, his grin widening. His eyes shone with an intensity that made everything feel possible again. âWeâre getting it back. Weâre getting back our home.â
His words hung in the air between us, full of hope and the promise of a new beginning. I couldnât help but smile as I wrapped my arms around him tightly. âYou did it, baby. You did it!â I whispered in his ear, my heart hammering in my chest.
For a moment, everything felt right, as if the weight of the world had been lifted from our shoulders. But then, a cold chill ran down my spine, and I sensed something shift in the air. JJâs expression changed in an instant, his eyes narrowing as he looked behind me, his body tensing. Without a word, he grabbed my arm and pulled me back, hard. âWait, wait, hey! Go, go, go!â he shouted, his voice urgent, his grip tight on my wrist.
Before I could react, a sharp crack echoed through the air. The sound of a gunshot. The bullet whizzed past us, a split second away from tearing through the space where we had just been standing. My heart skipped a beat, and my body went into full panic mode.
âRun, run, run!â JJ yelled, pushing me forward, his hand at the small of my back, guiding me with the force of his desperation. The narrow streets of Essaouira stretched out ahead of us, winding and twisting like a maze, but we had no time to think, only to move. The sound of the gunshot still reverberated in my ears as we sprinted through the bustling medina, the faded buildings on either side almost closing in on us, the warm air heavy with the scent of saltwater from the distant ocean.
I could hear the sound of heavy boots behind us, pounding against the stones. The mercenaries were closing in. I could feel my lungs burning as I pushed my legs harder, adrenaline fueling every step.
âCâmon, Y/N, we gotta find the others!â JJ shouted from ahead, his voice sharp but full of focus. He had a plan. I could tell by the way he moved, the urgency in his every step. He was determined, but so was I. We had come this far, and we werenât about to lose everything now.
We reached a narrow staircase that led downward into the heart of the maze of Essaouiraâs old city. The steps were uneven, some worn smooth by centuries of footsteps, others jagged and crumbling. We had to be careful as we descended, not just from the chase, but from the danger of slipping on the worn stones. My pulse raced as we moved, the sound of our feet pounding against the stone seeming deafening in the otherwise still air.
JJ called out to me, âHey, Y/N! This way!â His voice came from behind, but I didnât look back. I had a feeling this was our only chance to lose the mercenaries. I kept my head down and pushed forward, following the winding path through the narrow streets and alleys.
Finally, we reached a small open space near the bottom of the staircase, a brief moment of cover amidst the tightly packed buildings. The view of the city below was dizzying, the sea stretched out in the distance, and the maze of whitewashed houses. But I couldnât afford to enjoy the view, or at least not yet. I turned to take a breath, my body trembling with exhaustion, âJ!â I called out and just as I did, I felt a sharp pressure against my neck. A strong arm wrapped around me from behind, dragging me backward with frightening speed.
I gasped, my breath choking in my throat, as I struggled against the iron grip around my neck. My heart hammered in fear. âShh!â The man behind me grunted, his grip tightening, cutting off any chance of air. My mind racedâhow had they gotten so close? Where was JJ?
âQuiet, quiet. Shutââ His voice was low, guttural, as he squeezed harder.
âJ!â I managed to croak out, each word a desperate gasp for air.
âY/N,â I heard JJâs voice, strained but strong, coming from the shadows. My heart leapt as I caught sight of him, standing firm, one arm shielding his face from the dust swirling in the air. âJJ!â I cried, relief flooding my chest, though fear still gripped me.
âLet her go,â JJ commanded, his voice cold but unwavering.
The man behind me stiffened, and I heard him growl, âStop right there.â And that was when the weight of the situation hit me. The voice was unmistakable, Chandler Groff. JJ's biological father.
I swallowed hard, every muscle in my body tense, ready to fight back, but I couldnât move. My body was locked in place, held captive by his suffocating grip. All I could do was let out weak grunts, trying to free myself from the hold, my hands instinctively pressing against his arm in a futile attempt to loosen it.
âDonât move,â Groff ordered, his voice venomous as he squeezed harder. My lungs burned, and I gasped for air. His grip was like iron, and I could feel my vision beginning to blur. I tapped at his arm in a silent plea, trying to signal that I couldnât breathe, but he didnât seem to care.
âYou know what I want,â Groff said, his voice laced with a twisted calm as he extended his hand toward JJ. âGive it to me.â
JJâs voice was barely above a whisper, but it was full of resolve. âJust let her go.â
Groff chuckled bitterly, his breath hot against my ear. âYou couldâve stuck with me, JJ,â he sneered, his words dripping with regret. âThink of what you couldâve had."
I felt the cold edge of a knife press against my cheek, and my breath caught in fear. âBut now,â Groff continued, his voice growing darker, âyouâre going to get nothing.â
I felt his grip tighten again as he hissed, âNothing.â
JJ seemed distant, as if lost in his own thoughts. His eyes, focused but distant, flickered between Groff and the crown in his hand. Then, in a quiet but firm voice, he spoke. âNo.â The word was resolute, cutting through the tension like a blade. He muttered to himself, barely audible, âI already have everything.â
I looked at him, confusion and worry swirling in my chest, but JJ didnât seem to notice. His gaze grew distant, a bittersweet smile tugging at the corner of his lips. âAnd I already have everything Iâve wanted,â he continued, his voice almost hollow, as if he was saying the words to convince himself. âThings that youâll never have,â he added, his smile somehow broken.
Suddenly, without warning, JJ held out the crown, the weight of it now settling between us like a silent challenge. His voice was steady, but there was an edge to it. âYou want the crown?â
Groffâs eyes locked onto the crown, and for a moment, his expression softened, as if the object was the only thing that mattered. âSure, take it,â JJ said, his words cold, almost dismissive. âTake it. I donât want it,â he reassured, his eyes never leaving Groffâs.
âJust⌠let her go,â JJâs voice was low, but there was a sharpness to it now, a finality. Groffâs hand shot out greedily, reaching for the crown. âPerfect,â he said with a grin, his voice dripping with satisfaction. âHold it out.â
âTake it,â JJ repeated, his voice unwavering, no trace of doubt in it. His eyes were locked on Groffâs, his stance firm. âEasy,â JJ added, the words low, but there was something steady about them. He was ready for this. He was ready for this moment to be over.
I could barely breathe, my chest tight as I watched them, my heart racing. My body was still trembling from the fear, but I could sense the shift in JJâs demeanor. His resolve was unwavering now.
âHold it out. Come on,â Groff urged, his hand outstretched, fingers grasping for the prize.
In that instant, JJ pulled me into his embrace, and I gasped as his arms wrapped around me, pulling me close to his chest. I buried my head in his neck, gasping for air, the pressure lifting from my lungs as I felt the safety of his hold. My hands instinctively wrapped around him, holding him tight, as if making sure this wasnât a dream.
âI got you,â JJ murmured, his voice thick with relief. I felt his heartbeat against my cheek, steady and strong. His arms tightened around me as if afraid to let go. âItâs okay,â he whispered again, the words soothing, though his voice still trembled with the remnants of fear.
I pulled back slightly, looking into his eyes, and my heart swelled. âThank you,â I whispered, my voice barely audible, the words heavy with all the gratitude and emotion I couldnât fully express.
JJâs grip tightened, and for the first time in what felt like forever, I felt like everything would be okay.
âJJ.â Groffâs voice sliced through the tense silence like a blade, and JJ stiffened, his body reluctant but yielding. Slowly, he pulled away from me, his movements slow, almost pained, as if every inch away from me felt like a sacrifice. He turned to face Groff, his expression hardening, the relief of the moment slipping away as he steeled himself for whatever was coming.
Groff stood there, his posture relaxed but his eyes sharp, like a predator toying with its prey. âItâs a shame,â he said, his tone low and almost mournful, though there was no sincerity behind it. His voice carried the weight of a long-forgotten history, one that neither JJ nor I could escape from. âYou and me,â Groff continued, his words heavy with regret or perhaps mockery, there was no telling. I stood silently behind JJ, my hands still gripping his shirt, my pulse racing.
Suddenly, I heard the sickening squelch of flesh, and JJ jerked forward, his body lurching as if the world had been ripped out from beneath him. My breath caught in my throat, and I let out a shaky, disbelieving gasp. No, no, no, this canât be happening. My mind was scrambling to process what I was seeing, but everything seemed to slow, as if the world itself was holding its breath.
I heard JJâs groan, a deep, painful sound that tore through the air. My stomach dropped, my heart racing. The knife had sunk deeper. âNo,â I whispered, my voice trembling as my hands shook, my body frozen in place. And then, as if to mark the moment, I heard Groffâs voice, dark and cold as it slid through the air. âYou could have given me the rope,â he murmured, his voice heavy with cruel satisfaction. His tone was like poison, dripping with malice.
Before I could even react, Groff pulled the knife out with a sickening, deliberate slowness. The sound of it tearing through JJâs flesh was unbearable, sending a shudder through me. I watched as the dark blood poured from his side, staining his shirt, his skin. Groff didnât even seem to care, his eyes devoid of any emotion as he took one last, final look at his son.
And then, with an almost casual air, he turned away, walking off as if nothing had happened, as if the pain he caused was nothing more than a fleeting moment in his day.
I couldnât breathe. I couldnât think. My body moved without thinking, rushing forward, reaching for him just in time to catch him before he hit the ground. JJ crumpled in my arms, his body too heavy, too weak to stay upright. His hand instinctively clutched his wound, pressing desperately against the blood that poured from him. His face was pale, his eyes glazed, but still, he tried to hold himself together.
âJJ! No!â I cried out, my voice breaking. I lowered him gently to the ground, my hands shaking violently as I tried to arrange him, to make him comfortable, but nothing felt right. âNo, no, no,â I whispered, over and over, as if saying it could somehow make the horror stop.
JJâs breathing was shallow, ragged, every exhale more painful than the last. His lips parted, his voice barely a whisper, and the words that came from him shattered my heart into a million pieces. "I never told you my wish," he groaned, his hand trembling as he reached up to grab mine. His eyes searched mine with a kind of desperate pleading, but there was nothing I could do to stop the blood that poured from him, nothing I could do to undo the damage.
âJJâ,â I whispered, my voice cracking as tears began to well in my eyes. But his eyes were growing heavier. His body trembled, and I felt him sag against me, his hand slipping from mine. The breath he took was so weak, so labored. It was as if the world was slipping away from him, and I was powerless to stop it.
His lips parted again, and this time, the words that left him were barely a breath. "I already got it" The words were soft, too soft, as if he didnât have the strength to say them. But in that moment, they crushed me more than anything else could.
âNo, no, no, JJ.â I clung to him, my voice barely a whisper, but it trembled with all the fear and desperation I felt. I tried to hold him together, my arms shaking as I cradled his fragile body, willing him to stay with me. âYou canât leave, please donât leave me.â My words cracked under the weight of the pain.
His breath was ragged, barely audible as he managed to speak, his voice strained and faint. "I love you, Y/N." The words came out in a broken gasp, as though they were the last thing he could say.
âI love you too, JJ. So much," I whispered through my tears, my heart shattering with every second. "Please, please don't go. I can't lose you, not now, not like this. You canât leave me." My sobs wracked my body, the reality of the moment crashing down on me, but I refused to let go, even if I knew I was losing him.
And still, there was no response. His body became heavier in my arms, his head lolling to the side, and my chest tightened painfully as I realized how much I was losing. I pressed my hand to his wound, but I knew it was futile. His blood was everywhere, soaking through my fingers, and I could do nothing but hold him as he closed his eyes. I could feel the warmth of his fading life slipping through my grasp.
I felt the tears burning in my eyes as I whispered again, âJJâ
And all I could do was hold him, wishing for a miracle that would never come. The weight of his body in my arms felt like a thousand pounds, each breath he took growing more shallow, more labored. The world around me was nothing but a blur of pain, fear, and hopelessness. My hands were shaking, covered in his blood, and I could do nothing to stop it. "John B!" I screamed again, my voice cracking as I looked desperately around, hoping they would somehow hear me. "Pope!" I yelled, but the words felt hollow, lost in the chaos of my thoughts.
It was like time slowed as I held him, the seconds stretching painfully long. My heart was tearing apart with every breath he struggled to take. Suddenly, I heard footsteps, familiar voices calling out to me. I looked up through my blurry vision, and there they were.
John B and Sarah appeared first, their faces stricken with shock and confusion, but it was the moment they exchanged a glance that I knew they understood the gravity of what was happening. The look between them spoke volumes, a shared recognition that this was life or death.
Then, Pope, Kiara, and Cleo rushed in, their faces mirroring the same horror. Kiaraâs eyes filled with tears, but she bit her lip, fighting them back, while Cleoâs hand trembled as she kneeled down beside me. Everyone was in shock, but the urgency in the air made it clear: something had to be done, and fast.
I couldnât hold back any longer. My body shook with sobs, my chest tightening as I buried my face in JJâs hair, whispering over and over, âPlease... donât leave me.â
Suddenly, amidst the haze of grief, it hit me, the crown. The crown! I gasped, my eyes wide with realization, my voice trembling as I turned to John B. âJohn B, the crown!â I nearly choked on the words. âPlease get the crown back... It could save his life.â I reached for him desperately, my hands gripping his arm. âPlease, it could save him. Groff took it. He has the crown!â
John B and Sarah exchanged a quick look, their minds already working, already on the move. John B nodded grimly. âWeâre getting it back,â he said firmly, turning to Pope, who was already on his feet, determined.
Pope wiped the sweat from his brow, eyes steely with resolve. âWhere is he? Where did Groff go?â he asked, voice low and steady, though I could see the urgency in his eyes.
âSomewhere nearby,â I whispered, choking on my breath. âHe canât be far. You have to find him... the crown can grant a wish... Itâs our only chance to save him.â
They both nodded to each other and immediately sprinted off, their eyes scanning the surroundings, their minds racing to figure out where Groff would have gone.
Meanwhile, Kiara, Sarah and Cleo stayed with me, doing their best to comfort me. But nothing could bring me peace. I was too afraid, too consumed by the image of JJ growing weaker and weaker in my arms. Every second felt like an eternity.
John B and Pope moved through the winding streets of Essaouira with a precision born of desperation. They didnât need words to communicate anymore, their shared focus on getting the crown back drove them forward. They knew the stakes were higher than ever.
After what felt like hours, John B finally spotted Groffâs silhouette in the distance. He motioned for Pope to follow him, and they carefully closed the distance. Groff was standing alone in the alley, the crown glinting in his hands, tucked safely within his grasp. His back was turned, unaware of the approaching threat.
Without a word, John B and Pope charged forward. âGroff!â John B shouted, voice cutting through the air. Groff turned, his face twisted into an amused smirk, as if heâd been expecting this.
âRoutledge, you really are like your father, huh?â Groff sneered, his grip tightening around the crown. âYou had your chance, kid, but now itâs mine.â
John B didn't hesitate. He lunged forward, throwing a punch that Groff barely dodged, but it was enough to send him stumbling backward. Pope followed, using the momentum to land a hard blow to Groff's side. Groff grunted but recovered quickly, his eyes narrowing with fury.
"Youâll never win, you know that?" Groff hissed, drawing a knife from his belt, the blade flashing in the dim light. "Iâve always been one step ahead of you."
John B and Pope exchanged a quick glance, knowing they had to act fast. John B charged again, dodging Groffâs swipe and knocking the knife from his hand. They were both quick, relentless, using every ounce of energy to fight him off.
Groff snarled in frustration as he tried to backpedal, but Pope tackled him from behind, sending them both tumbling to the ground. In the struggle, the crown fell from Groffâs grip, bouncing across the stone street. Without thinking, John B scrambled for it, grabbing the crown and standing up with it in his hand.
âI told you,â John B said breathlessly, looking down at Groff, âweâre gonna take back what's ours.â
Groff, seething with rage, scrambled to his feet, but he knew the battle was lost. He glared at John B and Pope with a venomous look, but he didnât make another move. âThis isnât over,â he spat, before turning and disappearing into the shadows, leaving them standing victorious, but at a great cost.
John B and Pope rushed back to where I was, their eyes scanning the crowd. When they saw me still holding JJ, they didnât need to ask. They knew. John B thrust the crown into my hands, his face filled with determination.
âWe got it,â he said, panting from the exertion.
Tears welled up in my eyes as I stared at the crown, the only thing that could save him. I placed it gently onto JJâs chest, my hands trembling. They all watched carefully as I closed my eyes, whispering a prayer to the universe. "Please, please let this work. I canât lose you, JJ.â
And just like that, I felt a shift, a flicker of hope, a warm light growing from within the crown. The energy seemed to pulse, as if it was answering the wish I had silently made.
The moment the crown touched JJâs chest, a strange warmth radiated from it, spreading through his body. I held my breath, my hands still trembling as I hovered over him, watching, praying for a sign. At first, nothing happened, just the faint rise and fall of his chest, the quiet whisper of his breaths filling the silence around us. But then, a soft glow began to emanate from the crown. It wasnât bright or blinding, but it was enough to make the air feel charged, alive.
A shaky breath escaped my lips as I watched, my heart racing in my chest. I whispered again, my voice barely audible. "Please, JJ."
Suddenly, a jolt of warmth shot through my hands, and I felt the familiar weight of his body beneath me shift. His eyelids fluttered, then slowly opened, a faint groan escaping his lips.
"Y/N..." His voice was hoarse, barely a whisper, but it was there. He was still here. I felt a wave of relief crash over me, overwhelming and dizzying. His eyes met mine, and I saw the faintest hint of recognition.
"J" I gasped, my voice cracking as I leaned down, pressing my forehead to his. I couldn't stop the tears that drop from my eyes "Oh my god, I thought I lost you,"
He blinked a few times, as if trying to make sense of the world around him. His hand trembled as it reached up to touch my face, his fingers brushing against my skin as though confirming that I was real. His voice was still weak, but there was a clarity in his eyes now, a spark of life that hadn't been there moments before. "You're not getting rid of me that easy."
I let out a chuckle as tears streamed down my face, and I couldnât stop them. "J.." I couldnât finish the sentence, my throat too tight, my emotions threatening to overwhelm me.
JJ tried to sit up, but the movement caused him to wince, his hand pressing against his side where the wound still lingered. I gently placed my hand on his chest, stopping him. "Don't" I said sternly.
He gave me a small, weak smile, though it didnât quite reach his eyes. "Iâm not going anywhere, Y/N. I promise."
I couldnât help the laugh that escaped me, a sound of pure relief. I leaned down again, pressing a soft kiss to his forehead. "You can't kill a pogue" He mumbled as he looked around at his friends, his voice thick with emotion.
JJ reached up, his hand cupping the back of my head, his thumb gently brushing against my hair.
I closed my eyes, holding him close, savoring the warmth of his body against mine. The crown still rested on his chest, glowing faintly, as though it had worked its magic. I didnât know how, or why, or what kind of power it had, but in that moment, I didnât care. All that mattered was that JJ was alive. He was here. And he wasnât going anywhere.
I looked around at all of them, my heart swelling with gratitude for the people who had fought so hard to get him back. We had all been through so much, but in that moment, we were together. And no matter what came next, we had each other.
For the first time in what felt like forever, I allowed myself to believe that maybe, just maybe, everything would be okay.
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Everything is Alright Pt 51
IDW Starscream x Reader, Soundwave x Reader
⢠Thundercracker is quiet long enough that he lunges, panic clawing at him as he shoves the other Seeker back his wings flared out and trembling. âHow short?â Snarling in his brotherâs face, hating the sympathy there and knowing deep down that this isnât a trick or a lie even as he needs it to be.
⢠Moving slowly, Thundercracker grips his wrists and he lets the other Seeker pull his hands free. âIt varies. Somewhere between eighty and a hundred of their worldâs years.â Short? Thatâs not short itâs a blip, itâs nothing at all, and his hands are shaking now as his back hits the wall because he canât trust his legs to hold himself up. âYou actually do care, donât you?â
⢠Too much. More than he can ever admit and this feels like claws digging into his spark, eviscerating him. Because of course this is how it is. Heâd let himself believe that he deserved this, deserved to be happy just once and the universe had laughed in his face again. Youâre still waiting for him, still here, but thereâs so little time. Not nearly enough and itâs slipping right through his servos. Wanting to destroy something, to scream and knowing it wonât help or change anything.
⢠Letting himself into Starscreamâs quarters, Soundwave feels his tension ease when he finds you sprawled on your belly, legs kicking lazily in the air as you sketch on the data pad Starscream has given you. Trying to not think about the stolen sensation of how youâd felt under Starscream, the memory so visceral it might as well have been him. Wanting it to have been. You look over your shoulder at him, smiling for him even as your face reddens and he can scent the SIC on you and what youâd done with him, jealousy twisting about his spark. âLittle one,â he rumbles in greeting, running the tip of a servo over the back of your shoulder as you sit up.
⢠Leaving his big hand outstretched, servos flexing slightly like he wants to pick you up, but isnât sure, Soundwave just stares down at you. So you go to him, feeling absurdly self conscious even though youâre dressed as you press yourself into his waiting palm and his servos curl around you to lift you and cradle you to his warmth. Thereâs a feeling of anticipation, like a word about to be spoken, but not. âEverything okay?â
⢠No, because he wants something he shouldnât demand from you. Wants everything Starscream has and hardly deserves. Jealousy a living thing inside him as he holds you and tries to get the impulse under control. Because surely youâd understand that heâs the better choice? The better protector. Heâd suggested sharing, but thatâs not what he wants. He wants to be selfish. Wants you to smile for only him, look to only him for safety and to give him comfort in return in your arms, your body. Knows he shouldnât, but finds himself sitting on the edge of the Seekerâs berth. Feeling your warmth in his hand as he mass shifts, your emotions sparking through him. Affection for him, unease at his silence.
⢠Sucking in a sharp breath, you curl forward eyes closed at that horrible, falling sensation. Then there are servos on your cheek, one under your chin to tip your head up. And Soundwave is staring down at you as your heart races, so close you can see the hint of his optics behind the visor. So close you catch a glimpse of his scarred face when the mask retracts before he presses his face against your neck and his arms tighten around you. Heâs about the size of Star mass displaced as you sit sideways across his lap, feeling him vent against your skin as awareness tingles through you at the way heâs holding you. Clinging to you like youâre holding him together, his grip tightening when you cautiously wrap your arms around him, trying to not think about how Starscream would react if he walked in right then. Because thereâs something so wrong with you that you want them both, want to hang on and never let go. To protect this feeling of home thatâs just them.
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Late Night Chaos â Daisuke x gn! reader
summery: you become the first of many tragic deaths...
tw: murder, graphic descriptions of injuries, suicide, descriptions of a corpse, spoilers for all of the game basically
a/n: LAST PART! gosh I had such an evil smile writing the beginning of this. sorry that the end is literally just the game, I wasn't sure how to make commentary on it that the game doesn't do beautifully already :(
wc: 2.9k
Master List
Part One | Part Two | Part Three | Part Four | Part Five | Part Six | Part Seven | Part Eight | Part Nine
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âThey came at me like they went mad.â
You couldnât be gone, you wouldnât leave him like that.
âI had no choice!â
Daisuke felt like he was going to puke, your unfocused eyes staring at the ceiling, lips slightly parted and the darkening skin around your neck.Â
âIt was either me or them.âÂ
Daisuke felt his hands shake. He couldnât accept this, there was no way you were dead. You would get up any second and say this was a prank. Please. He doesnât think he can handle this. You had been the only one keeping him sane, the only one he found comfort in, the only one to stand up for him if he felt uncomfortable doing something. You both were supposed to get off this rock together. You were supposed to meet his parents and have dinner andâŚandâŚand
Daisuke felt himself let out a sob, rushing towards your body and falling to his knees. Shaky hands reached out towards your face. You felt cold. You werenât supposed to be this cold. You needed a blanket, orâŚor something. His hand went from caressing your cheek to holding your hand, bringing it up to his face. Your knuckles were bloody, but Daisuke didnât care, he just wished you could cup his cheek again, reassure him that everything would be okay and you would always be there for him.Â
Swansea scoffed at Jimmy, glaring daggers at the man, âRight, like they were much of a threat.â
âYou think Iâd lie about this?â Jimmy seethed. âYou think I enjoyed doing that?â
Anya felt like herself plunging even farther down her spiral of madness. Why the hell did she tell you? Every time she tries to speak up, to get comfort, to find help for whatâs happened to her she finds another tragedy left in her wake. First it was the crash and Curly, now youâre deadâŚwho else will get hurt because of her? She couldnât even look at your body or face Daisuke. Your cloudy eyes seemed to be taunting her, blaming her, and Daisukeâs sobs were like a stab to the heart.Â
âMaybe you did,â Swansea glowered, bumping harshly into Jimmyâs shoulder as he walked past towards Daisuke. âCâmon kid, you shouldnât see âem like this.â
âN-no!â Daisuke protested, trying to free himself from Swanseaâs grip on his shoulder, clinging onto you desperately. âI-I canât leave them. I just canâtâŚâ
âŚ
Your death made the tension on the ship worse. It caused the crew to be more distrustful of Jimmy, something he hated. Who did they think they were to judge him? You were like a wild animal, your assault had no end in sight? Was he supposed to let you beat him to a pulp? Itâs not like there were enough medical supplies for that, and for all he knew you werenât going to stop.Â
Daisukeâs cheerful demeanor had darkened, but he still tried to keep a smile on his face, even if it was wobbly and didnât reach his eyes. He would try to joke, to say something silly to lighten the atmosphere, but it started to come out forced, and he couldnât help but imagine howâd you react. Would you laugh? Smile? Roll your eyes and shake your head? And just like that heâd feel his mood drop all over again.Â
It had been a month since your death and he still couldnât move on. He had got to know you over eight months, and for five of them you both were dating. Gosh, you really made the trip go by so quickly (even though it felt like you had been in space forever). And after the crash, you made it just a bit more bearable to be sitting like a waiting duck in the middle of nowhere. But now youâre gone, and the crash happened five months ago, and he could feel the despair start to consume him slowly but surely.Â
Anya had kept to herself more than usual as well, tending to Curly as best she could. They ran out of clean bandages ages ago, so she couldnât tend to his wounds as well. They had no more disinfectant, so the best she could do was try and keep him as comfortable as possible. Just focus on doing her job so she couldnât think too much, so she wouldnât think of how Curly's silent stare reminded her of your blank gaze. Try to keep her cries to herself when she was alone in the medical bay with Curly.Â
Swansea was vehemently trying to protect the last working cryopod. He thought you and Daisuke were the most worthy of it, but fell under the dilemma of who it would go to between you both. It was clear neither of you would leave the other, and Swansea knew better than most what it was like to be completely infatuated with someone. When you believe youâd do anything for them, that youâd rather die than see them hurt. Seems like Jimmy solved that little problem for him. Swansea couldnât help but internally seethe when he saw your body. If you were angry enough to throw a punch, then whoever it was you were punching deserved it, âcus you were one of the most level headed ones of them here.Â
Jimmy? Oh, he was spirling further and further. The judgemental looks Swansea sent his way, or how Daisuke seemed to avoid him like the plagueâŚhe felt his control slipping, and he needed a way to feel in power again. To feel like he was in charge. So he took it out on Anya, the first person heâd go to when he needed to be in control. Whispering harsh words without an ounce of guilt, venom seeping past his lips and poisoning those around him.
Anya couldnât take it anymore, the entire situation was too much. Jimmy terrified her, and the guilt was eating her from the inside out. She couldnât handle it, rushing to the medical bay and locking the door. Curlyâs stare pierced through her as Daisuke called out to her, asking if she was stuck. Anya didnât have the heart to tell Daisuke how terrified she was, how the medical bay was her only safe place. So she told him she couldnât leave, hoping everyone would leave her alone.
She was scared. Scared of what Jimmy would do in response to her pregnancy, her refusal to follow what he wanted. He had proven her fears right. That he was willing to kill. She thought hiding the gun or the fact that Swansea kept the axe would be enough protection, but he had killed you with his bare handsâŚ
But sweet, sweet Daisuke was worried for Anya. Asking Jimmy for help, not wanting to see another crew member dead. Especially not Anya, you cared for her so much, he couldnât imagine the despair youâd go through if she were to pass.Â
âAnya!â Daisuke called through the thick metal door. âI brought Jimmy! Weâre here to rescue you! Donât worry! Donât panic!â It was meant to be reassuring, but it seems like Daisuke was trying to comfort himself as well.Â
âHey,â Jimmy called out nonchalantly. âHeard the lockâs broken.â
Anya felt her heart drop, hands shaky as she refused to respond.Â
âHey. Anya!â Jimmy spoke louder, feeling irritated now. âCan you hear me?â
â...yeah, I can hear you, Jimmy,â Anya replied. Looking at the last of the paracetamol and grabbing it, sitting down beside Curlyâs cot.Â
âThere rest of our medicine stash is in there too. Damn, this could be bad,â Jimmy grumbled, clearly not caring about Anyaâs safety. âDid you really put your back into it?â âAny wrenches laying around?â Daisuke asked, the pit in his stomach only growing. âHow heavy is the med kit?!â
With no response, Daisuke tried jiggling the handle again, his efforts being fruitless.Â
â...Anya,â Jimmy called out coldly. âIs the door really stuck?â
â...âÂ
The silence caused bile rise in Daisukeâs throat. No, no no no
âNo,â Anya replied strongly.Â
No no no no. Not again. Daisuke tried more desperately to jiggle the handle.Â
âH-huh?â Daisuke called out, trying to see any way that this wasnât as bad as it looked. âWhat do you mean?!â
âLook, weâre all stressed,â Jimmy scolded, brushing off her emotions. âBut you canât go breaking down at every little hardship. Open the damn door.â
â...you were right,â Anya spoke out, hands failing to open the cap a few times. âYou were right all along. I should have done this from the beginning. I always believed that our worst moments didnât define us. Didnât make us beyond repair.â
A strange sense of calm fell over the practicing nurse as the safety lid finally opened. It was going to be over, finally.Â
âYou think I wanted this either?â She laughed humorlessly, a grim smile on her lips. âMake no mistake, this isnât my worst moment. Far from it. Itâs the best one Iâll ever make.âÂ
âOpen the door,â Jimmy ordered, clenching his fists tightly. Daisuke placed his hand on the door, that dreadful sense of hopelessness tearing his heart apart. This wasnât happening, no way.Â
âIâll take care of it,â Were her last words before she downed the rest of the pain medication.Â
âAnya?!â Daisuke called out, banging on the door. âWhat does that mean?!â
âŚ
This wasnât right. Daisuke wearily eyed the vent that held sparking cables.Â
âSwansea said itâs not safe,â Daisuke tried to argue against Jimmyâs demands to enter. âI know he forgot to tell us about the pod, but he knows, like, everything about this kind of stuff. Maybe we should just wait for him to wake back upâŚâ
âYou said you could handle it,â Jimmy glared. Everything was slipping out of his control, first you, then Anya, then SwanseaâŚheâd be damned if he let Daisuke rebel too. âSwansea taught you well, right? Time to prove it. Heâll be impressed when he wakes up. Proud. Heâll understand why we had to do this, then he can explain himself.â
âYou think so?â Daisuke asks, alarm bells ringing. Glancing back at the vent, Daisuke couldnât help but think about how youâd react. Probably fight against this, yell about how dangerous this was and if Jimmy wanted someone to crawl through that hazard then he should do it himselfâŚbut you werenât here anymore, and Swansea was passed out from a drink he made with JimmyâŚand AnyaâŚ
âDaisuke,â Jimmy spoke sternly. âEveryoneâs counting on youâŚCaptainâs orders.â
And in that moment, it really felt like this all fell onto his shoulders. Jimmyâs arguments made senseâŚif he could save Anya and Curly, maybe he could make both you and Swansea proud.
âY-yeah,â Daisuke nodded, trying to hype himself up. âI got this!â
âOkayâŚâ He made his first step towards the vent. âH-here we goâŚâ
Grabbing the ladder, he climbed his way into the vent. A sense of claustrophobia hit him right away, trying to avoid any curling livewire or sharp metal, but it was clear this was the wrong choice. Daisuke let out a sharp gasp, feeling his body get zapped by an unseen electrical current, letting out a groan when he felt something cut his skin. He couldnât stop now though, no matter how much it hurt, no matter how much it stung, how he started to feel sluggish. No, he pushed through, he needed to get to Anya, needed to make sure everything was okay. Ignoring the way tears pricked at his eyes, or how it took all his strength and energy to pull himself up into the medical bay, he needed to keepâŚ
âAnyaâŚ?â Daisuke gasped out in horror, the pain both physical and emotional becoming too much. â...what d-did you do?â
âŚ
Daisuke couldnât stop squirming, he could still feel the stings of electricity, like his muscles had become a livewire themselves. The burns and cuts wouldnât stop bleeding, and Daisuke felt worthless. This was all for nothing, and the two adults were arguing over him.Â
âDonât do anything,â Jimmy huffed, not sure if he was talking to Swansea or Daisuke. âStop, stop, stop. I can fix this!â
Maybe it wonât all be badâŚmaybe youâre waiting for him. He just hopes his mom wonât blame herself, that his parents will be able to continue to live a happy lifeâŚ
âWhy do you keep fuckinâ saying that?â Swansea shouted. âAre you hearing yourself?!â
âI-Iâm s-sorryâŚâ Daisuke muttered out. This is all his fault, he shouldâve never entered that stupid vent. It was too late for Anya anyways, and now Swansea was angryâŚhe doesnât even wanna think about how youâd reactâŚ
âWe still have disinfectant, right?â Swansea asked, trying to think of a way to keep Daisuke alive. âThe one from the extra medical stash? Get it! Now!â
Jimmy avoided Swanseaâs gaze, looking down to a struggling Daisuke, grinding his teeth, âThe cocktail, weâŚyouâŚâ
âThe cocktail?!â Swansea roared, rightfully pissed. âWhat are you blabbering about?â
âThat was your fault!â Jimmy deflected, pointing at the older man. âYou would never have-â
âI-I had no choice.â
âYouâŚâ Swansea sneered, banging his fist against the wall. âUseless! You goddamn fucking idiot! There has to be something else!â
Daisuke wasnât sure how long they left him alone, but he found himself coming to terms with his fate, feeling guilty. He had always been a useless mess up, a last minute intern who didnât even want to be here. It seems like even his final moments were because he fucked up.Â
âIâm soâŚrry,â Daisuke struggled to speak as Jimmy crouched next to him. âI messedâŚupâŚmgh.â He wasnât sure how much longer he could handle the way his muscles continued to tense and relax, like he was being continuously electrocuted. He could feel his wounds pulse with every contraction, blood trickling out like a steady stream.Â
âDonât try to talk,â Jimmy ordered, uncapping the bottle of mouthwash, pouring it on his wounds.Â
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â...the bleeding wonât stop,â Jimmy mumbled. âJust try to stay still, Daisuke. I-I need a second to think. We can fix this.â
âHey, kid?â Swansea called out softly. âYou hear me?â Daisuke could only make a strangled groan in response, everything felt like it was on fire and he could feel his body cry out for sleep, but the pain wouldnât let him rest. Even breathing became a task he had to focus on.
âDaisuke?â Swansea called out again, feeling his heart break further at the sight as Daisuke jolted up in pain. âHey!â Jimmy shouted, watching in horror as Swansea picked up the axe. âStop, stop, stop! Donât move!â
âItâs alright Daisuke,â Swansea comforted his young intern. âCalm down. This line of workâŚyou could have never become like miserable olâ Swansea. What a tragedy. Decades of hauling ass for Pony Express, big mighty bruiser with all his shiny tools. This is where it got me. The good life, huh?â
âI thought you were dumber than a can of paint, always just chewing my ear off about nothing,â Swansea continued. âUseless ray of goddamn sunshine. Not an ace student, workhorse or force of ambition. Just a damn good kid trying his best. You coulda taught an old fool like me a lot.â
â...â
âClose your eyes, Daisuke.â
âŚ
no.
no no no no no no
This wasnât how it was supposed to go! Everything was fine! He had it all under control! Swansea had gone crazy, thatâs why he killed Daisuke, thatâs why Jimmy was forced to tie him up before he was another victim to the crazy madman. This wasnât his fault. No one was letting him fix a goddamn thing! This was all because everyone stepped out of line. First you attacked him, then Anya decided to be selfish, then Swansea murdered Daisuke, now he is being attacked again. None of this was his fault, not a goddamn thing.
âI have something to say,â Swansea spoke up calmly, not batting an eye as Jimmy stood before him holding the gun. âSo shut the fuck up and listen.â
But Jimmy wasnât having it. No. He couldnât listen, because if he listened, then heâd have to take responsibility. Heâd have to admit that he failed, that they died because of his selfish actions. Clutching the gun just a bit tighter, Jimmy spoke resolutely.
âSwanseaâŚIâm going to fix everything. Weâre going to make it.â
âFuck you.â
âŚ
This would all be over now. Itâll all be fixed. He knew exactly what he needed to do. Curlyâs stare burned through him as he carried his former Captain. This was the only way now, the only thing he could do to make this better. Swansea was right, a captain goes down with his ship, so that left only one person to take the cryopod.Â
âItâs okay, Curly,â Jimmy consoled through the glass panel. âYouâre going to be okay. You always had my back. I ended up hurting you even though I was trying to save us. But now youâll survive. Itâs like you said, together we can fix anything. Iâm just proud I got to be your friend and co-pilot, Captain.â
âNo one can hurt you now. We fixed it.â
âIâŚfixed itâŚâ
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hi <3 this is super self-indulgent hahaâŚbut would you be willing to write a poly!wolfstar with a reader who still has their like raggedy lovey stuffed animal from when they were a baby that maybe they were hiding from the boys and how they react to finding out? xx
Hello hello~! This is absolutely adorable! Iâm definitely guilty of holding onto childhood plushies too, so this is a bit self-indulgent for me as well. I really hope you enjoy!!!Â
Poly!Wolfstar x Fem!Reader WC: 1.1k
You flop down onto the fresh, unfamiliar bed, surrounded by boxes and bags, the remnants of your old flat strewn across the floor. Today was all about hauling practically everything from your last place into your boyfriend's houseâyour new home.
Youâre grateful for this room of your own. Itâs small, but that was your one non-negotiable condition. You love them both fiercely, but thereâs something about having a sanctuary to retreat to, a space thatâs just yours.
Their bed may be huge, but you know yourself: the thought of sharing it every night feels a bit too close for comfort, especially with everyone's mismatched schedules.
Plus, youâve learned the hard way about Siriusâs habit of kicking in his sleep. Heâd boot you clear off the bed at four in the morning if you gave him the chance. And Remus? Heâs a snugglerâa heavy, unyielding snuggler. When he wraps an arm around you, itâs like being pinned by a warm, affectionate weight. Charming, absolutely, but not so convenient when you really have to pee in the morning.
So here you are, content but completely drained, with the three of you spending most of the day heaving boxes into the car and scrubbing down your old flat.
âOh, it feels good to just lie down,â you groan, the ache of a long day catching up with you.
âI told you to wear comfortable shoes, dove,â Remus says softly, leaning against the doorframe and watching you with a fond smile.
You turn your head, flashing him a tired grin. âIn my defense, I thought these were comfortable.â
âAnd is our princess now resting in her royal quarters?â Sirius quips, appearing just behind Remus, fresh from hauling a load of flattened boxes down to the bin.
âAbsolutely,â you tease, shaking your head at his playful tone. âThanks for helping me out. Iâm sorry Marls had to back out last minute.â You sigh, thinking of how your best friend had called that morning with the news: her girlfriend had been in a minor accident at work and had to be rushed to the hospital. You could hardly blame her for canceling; if either of your boys were in the hospital, youâd drop everything to be there, too.
âAnytime, darling,â Sirius murmurs as he strolls into the room. With a dramatic flop, he lands on his back on the far side of the bed, letting out a soft âoof.â Itâs an endearing sound that makes you laugh, even as you feel the dayâs exhaustion settling in.
âWell?â You turn to Remus, a mischievous glint in your eye. âPlanning to join us?â The question comes out with a flirtatious smile, hinting at just how much youâd love him to join you and Sirius.
Remus rolls his eyes, but thereâs a softness there, too, as he lets out a gentle sigh. Shaking his head with a small, amused smile, he pads over to the foot of the bed and settles down, reaching for both of you. His hands find their way into your hair and Siriusâs, brushing through in a familiar, calming rhythm, almost like heâs petting two contented cats.
Sirius stretches his arms, accidentally knocking one of the many decorative pillows off the bed. With a groan, he slides down to his knees to retrieve it, grabbing the plush white pillow and tossing it haphazardly back onto the bed. But as he does, something else catches his eyeâa faded mint-green fabric peeking out from an open duffel bag beside the bed.
âSiri?â Remus calls out, noticing that Sirius hasnât returned to join them.
Curious, you sit up, wondering why heâs so distracted. Army-crawling to the edge of the bed, you spot his gaze fixed on the bag, and your heart skips a beat as you realize what heâs staring at.
Panicking, you scramble off the bed and slide down beside him, nearly losing your balance in the rush. Remusâs concerned voice cuts in as he leans over, âDove, you alright?â But youâre already reaching for the item that has Siriusâs full attention, fumbling slightly in an attempt to tuck it out of sight.
Siriusâs brows lift with curiosity. âWhat are you hiding?â he asks, a mischievous grin playing on his lips as he tries to gently wrestle the object from you.
âNothing!â you whine, feeling the heat rise in your cheeks.
Remus raises an eyebrow, clearly amused. âThat doesnât look like ânothing,ââ he says with a smirk. âEspecially if youâre going to all this trouble to hide it.â
You squeal, feeling a mix of embarrassment and nervousness as you pull the plush tightly to your chest.
Siriusâs hands stop their playful struggle, but he keeps them on your back, rubbing soothing circles as he softens his tone. âBaby?â
You groan, sitting up and holding the well-loved, slightly worn mint-colored bunny in your arms. The little plush flops over as you look down at it, feeling a bit sheepish.
"My mom got her for me when I was a baby," you explain, your voice quiet but steady. "I know it's childish to still sleep with plushies at my age, but... she's just always been there for me. Through everythingâmoving around, tough nights, even all the times I was scared or stressed. Itâs like⌠having a little piece of home with me."
Sirius's expression softens, a warm smile tugging at his lips. "Thatâs not childish at all, Love," he says, rubbing a gentle hand over your back. "Everyone needs something that makes them feel safe."
Remus nods in agreement, reaching out to touch the bunny's worn little ear. "And besides," he says with a grin, "if anyone gives you trouble about it, just remember who theyâre talking to. Youâve got two knights here whoâd defend a bunnyâs honor, no questions asked."
You laugh, feeling a rush of relief. Hugging the bunny a bit tighter, you feel their arms wrap around you, holding you just as close.
"I love you both so muchâ" your voice comes out soft, but the warmth in it is unmistakable. You donât even get a chance to finish before Sirius practically pulls you into his lap, wrapping his arms tighter around you with a grin that practically lights up the room.
"Good," he says, squeezing you reassuringly. "Because we're not going anywhere."
Remus leans in on your other side, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear with that gentle smile of his. "We love you too," he murmurs. "And that bunny? Sheâs part of the family now."
You canât help but laugh, your heart feeling lighter than it has in ages as you sit there, held in the arms of the two people who mean everything to you, with your cherished bunny nestled close. In that moment, you know for certain that home isnât just a placeâitâs right here, with them.
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secret- Jude bellingham
"I can't stand this situation anymore... it drives me crazy being away from you for so long."
He whispered in your ear, his hands gently caressing your back. Your heart was beating fast, your breath becoming more shallow, but you had to be careful. Jobe could never find out.
"Jude... we have to be careful, we can't do this here. If Jobe finds out, it's over."
"I don't care. It drives me crazy seeing how he keeps you all to himself, while I... I can't stay away from you."
His words shook you inside, and you felt every fiber of your body react to him. But you knew you had to be careful, you couldn't continue like this for much longer.
"It's not just that, Jude. It's Jobe, it's your brother. What would happen if he found out?"
"I know, I know. But I can't stop, I can't stay away from you. Every time I look at you, every time I hear you laugh, I just want to never let you go."
He placed a hand on your face, turning you to face him. His eyes, full of desire and confusion, locked onto yours with overwhelming tenderness.
"Jude, we can't. It's not right."
"Is it not right for you, or for me? Do we really have to pretend everything is fine when in reality... we're killing each other trying to ignore this?"
His tone had become deeper, his voice a whisper that sent shivers down your spine. You had never heard Jude so vulnerable, and you could feel that this secret relationship, even if risky, was growing stronger between you two.
"What if Jobe finds out? I couldn't forgive myself for betraying him."
Jude didn't answer immediately, but he hugged you tightly, as if he needed to feel your closeness just as much as you needed his.
"I can't promise you everything will be okay, but I want you to know I want you. And I will never stop desiring you."
He lifted your face, gently caressing your cheek. There was no more room for doubts, no more room for reason. It was as if the universe had decided that you couldn't escape this connection, even if you tried.
"Jude... I..."
But the words never came, because he kissed you. A kiss that spoke of everything you hadn't had the courage to say, a kiss that filled every corner of your heart, but also made you afraid.
When he pulled away, his gaze was full of determination.
"It doesn't matter how long it takes, but I want you. I want you for myself."
And you, unable to do anything else, looked at him, knowing that your life was changing in that moment. But there was no turning back.
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Do you think there's ever been a day close to Nibelheim to where Sephiroth just...snaps. Full breakdown in front of his friends over whatever. How would they deal with that?
Not exactly like Nibelheim, because that was the result of a gradual, slow burn until it exploded. However there was another moment, one that anyone who had been in Sephiroth's immediate vicinity would regard as the pinnacle of his furyâa moment that had nothing to do with his mother, or the events that would ultimately lead to his undoing.
Sephiroth was not a man who held onto many things. Besides his sword and the locket with his mother's photo, he didn't become attached to objects. What mattered to him were peopleâpeople were his lifeline, the seem ripper that tore the constraints of the detachment he had been raised in.
Genesis and Angeal had somehow crept into his heart after he had sworn off wearing it on his sleeve, and even though it made him vulnerable, he couldn't let them go. He clung to them fiercely as they became the singular reason he had to keep going.
Hojo had noticed. As always, his interest was piqued by Sephiroth's emotional connections. He began to study these emotional reactions, wondering how Sephiroth would behave if those people, the ones he "cared about", were taken away from him. How would Sephiroth react if they were killed? What would it do to his brain, his mind? Hojo intended to find out. If the experiment led to the loss of Sephiroth's emotional stability, so be it. Perhaps this would finally harden his mind, making him less vulnerable, less inclined to lay his head upon the lap of whoever offered him the comfort of a simple pat.
The opportunity came when Angeal and Genesis were deployed to Wutai. It was a routine mission, a two-month absence that left Sephiroth back at Headquarters, alone. And despite his stoicism, Sephiroth missed them terribly. He couldn't wait to fight alongside them again, to hear their voices and feel their presence beside him. He kept up with reports, stayed updated on their mission, but the silence was eating him alive.
Then Sephiroth was summoned to Hojo's lab for a routine check-up and exam. He expected the usual procedure, the impersonal interaction, but this time something was different. Hojo's words slipped out casually, as if by accident.
"Such a shame that Hewley and Rhapsodos were killed in Wutai,' Hojo said. "A tragic loss, don't you think?"
Sephiroth looked up. "Wh...what?"
Hojo was unapologetically giddy. "It was a mistake to deploy them so deep into enemy territory, but we're sure it was their time." He went on, casually, as if discussing the weather. "Their deaths were a necessary part of the plan to bring about Shinra's glory."
Sephiroth's heart didn't stopâno, that would've been merciful compared to the feeling of the organ threatening to tear from his chest.
Hojo handed him the mission report.
He took it with trembling hands.
It was real. The words were there, clear and damning. Genesis and Angeal, dead. Killed in action. His vision blurred. His chest tightened. Hojo's words were distant, but unyielding.
"Don't act so surprised, Sephiroth." Hojo clasped his hands behind his back and regarded him with calculating eyes. "You couldn't possibly have believed that they were your equals, that they were as invincible as you are."
Sephiroth slammed his fist onto the table, the force enough to completely break through the metal surface beneath him. Angeal's smile, Genesis' laughâeverything was consumed by the raw, unquenchable rage.
Hojo didn't flinch. He simply observed, clinically, watching a subject in an experiment, even when the anger was directed at him through the tip of Masamune's blade.
The fire spread as quickly as Sephiroth's mind shattered. He was no longer calm, no longer rational, no longer human years before the idea of being a monster would cause him to lash out. He was a beast, enraged, out of control. His anger was destructive and the flames were uncontrollable.
Hojo escaped, barely, as the fire churned in the air, licking the walls, consuming everything in its path. People screamed, people ran, and they all tried to escape the inferno that was Sephiroth's grief.
Hojo had no regrets, not after witnessing firsthand what Sephiroth could truly become when pushed to his limits.
The restraints came quickly after that. Sephiroth fought them, thrashing, trying to break free, but the sedatives took hold. His body went limp, the rage retreating only to be replaced by an overwhelming sense of emptiness. He was locked away and sedated.
When Sephiroth finally came to, hoursâor was it days?âlater, he was told that the reports had been a "mistake". That Genesis and Angeal were alive. But the damage was done, people were hurt, Hojo had gotten what he wanted, and Sephiroth felt disgusting.
And Genesis and Angeal would never know. They would never know how close he had come to losing himself, how his grip on reality had slipped through his fingers. They would never understand the depth of what they meant to him, because they hadn't seen it. When they returned, they were confused. His hugs were too tight, too desperate. He clung to them, everywhere they went, but even as they did their best to accommodate his spontaneously volatile emotions the weeks after, they didn't understand. They didnât know the depths of what he had gone through, the devastation he had felt.
This event numbed him. When Angeal died and Genesis was later believed dead, Sephiroth felt the grief, but it was muted. He cried in private. The dread overtook the grief and squashed his appetite.
The emotions he had once felt so intensely had been used up in that explosion of rage. Even as he mourned their loss, he wanted so desperately for it all to be a mistake. A mistake, just like before. That somehow, just like with the lie, they would come back to him. But no, this time he truly was all alone.
#ff7#ffvii#final fantasy 7#sephiroth#final fantasy vii#genesis rhapsodos#ffvii crisis core#angeal hewley#headcanons
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well they sure text like fathers.
#full punctuation like some preppy mfs#who are they#âhahahahahhahaâ#and everything is hearted or laugh reacted#this is literally how my dad texts#BUT LOOK HOW FUCKIN EXCITED TUCKER IS#RAHHH I LOVE HIM#HIS BOIS ARE TOGETHER AT LAST#HES STARTIN A BAND#ls dunes#frank iero#tucker rule#anthony green#tim payne#travis stever#FatherDads#thank fuck they didnât go with that name in the end#i donât think iâd be a die hard FatherDads fan as i am a die hard LS Dunes fan
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very messy word dump below the cut + in tags :^) heh
okay itâs officially been a full day since reading this and iâm going to write down everything i remember feeling from day 1! and then in the tags im going to reread this (for the third time within 24 hours) and add thoughts that i didnât put down here. SORRY FOR THE MESS & NO PRESSURE TO READ ALL THIS SJKDMF IT IS JUST A LOT OF WORD VOMIT BC IM INSANE OVER THIS FIC
okay i should start from the beginning. Wait Iâll use caps so itâs easier to read if youâre reading it bahahhaa OKAY. The way you write alpha / omega!!! Itâs different from what Iâm used to readingâ and I mean it has a lot of a depth. The way you wrote reader being an alpha = being so protective over Aventurine fucked me up so bad /pos. Reader just wants him safe and theyâre so real for that.
Going off on that, I LOVE HOW U WROTE THE READER. Understands Aventurine so well. Will literally do anything to keep him safe. Understands what sets him off and what heâs comfortable with. The part where Aventurine was talking about the next mission & reader seeing right through him ): are you serious /pos. WAIT I SKIPPED TOO FAR AHEAD. When Aventurine was trying to get reader to join the IPC? Dead. Evie DEAD. Reader saw right through him omg. Being able to notice the little changes in his scent, the way he tries to mask it etc etc. I love that so bad.
WHEN READER FOUND HIM IN HEAT FUUUCK. ARE YOU SERIOUS /pos. Fighting the urge to help him vs waiting to just make it better because reader has the power to ): I loved that so much. The struggle was so real. Literally bringing a doctor just to hear that he needs an alpha to help anyways omg. Lowkey when the doctor said that I was like PLEASE LET US HELP YOU PLEASEEEEEEE. But also. I didnât want him to be scared either you know ):
I skipped over another scene sighs. THE part where reader said âI like your eyes because theyâre yoursâ and then the end. Him saying he likes our scent because itâs ours. Are you serious /pos. Be so serious /pos.
Okay the scent gland scenes actually fucked me up so bad (I unfortunately did not dream about anything but maybe that is for the best because Iâm still recovering from this scene). The part where he asks for just the wrist. Reader struggling when they FEEL HIS TEETH GRAZE THE WRIST IM GONNA EXPLODE OMFG. The immediate pulling away because we donât want to scare him please. + the scent gland scene at the end. HE DIDNâT FEEL LIKE HE HAD TO BE ON TOP. We could lay side by side ): I was so happy that he was okay with that omg. Literally all giddy like aaaaa!!!!!! IM NOT A THREAT!! Actually thatâs a lie I wasnât giddy. I was literally in tears jejdkckckckk Aventurine đđ ughhhhhhh /pos
I wonât comment on the actual scene (I am commenting on it right now actually) because I was literally so sad and my heart hurt so badly for him. I wanted him to see himself from our POV for just one moment so he can understand that we genuinely love him and treasure him & want to keep him safe. ):
ABOUT YOUR WRITING ITSELF : insanity. I will just say insanity. How should I put it in wordsâŚ.. just thinking about this fic again is taking all the words out of my mouth shejdjfjj (I say this as I type a 27738 page essay about it). I love how you write. I really do. Your writing style is so beautiful. I havenât read the other tags under your fic but Iâm sure many others have said the same thing!!! They word it better than me Iâm sure bsjsjsjsjsk
I just love everything about it. How you add in little details (oh! Speaking of detailsâ Aventurineâs reaction to reader cozying up to her husband in the other fic) HEJDJJDJDJ omg. But in this fic, the little signs of him being scared. Scared 24/7 actually ): I love how you conveyed his fear so much. And the way he tries so hard to hide it. HIM CRUMBLING DOWN TO HIS RAW SELF WHEN HES IN HEAT. AND THE FEAR THERE TOO. INSANE.
^^ How you wrote him so adamant about not needing help at first âŚ. To him asking for the scent gland âŚ.. to him agreeing to use reader. It was all so real. He didnât just change his mind like oh okay! It took him a while to be okay with it and I love how real it all felt. You write dialogue & little details so wellâ it actually drives me nuts (/compliment /pos)
Oh this just reminded me. Your description of how Aventurine smells killed me /pos. And how you describe his scent as sweet. Iâm really not okay /pos. It fits him so well. And ⌠for readerâŚ. the scent after rain ? Oh my god ???? I love that smell so much. Itâs so comfortingâŚ. OMG. COMFORTING????????? BECAUSE. Oh wow. Iâm really not okay now. I JUST LOVE ALL THE DETAILS LIKE THAT )))): itâs so clear you put so much thought into all these things because your fic has so much depth. I lowkey yanked out Notibility for your other Aventurine fic to highlight the parts I wanted to comment on ehdjdkkck I was annotating it like a book (Iâm so sorry if this is creepy I promise I donât do this on a regular basis. I donât annotate fics normally. Actually please disregard this because Iâm a bit red admitting this) (I just have the memory of a goldfish and can only remember feelings and not actual content) (Thatâs a lie because here I am remembering a lot of this fic MOST LIKELY BECAUSE I READ IT WITH MY EYES AN INCH FROM THE SCREEN PROBABLY I WAS LIKE O_O) /pos
NIGHT FLOWER: part i
Your place in the world was one of a tool. This was true of every slave: you were all things to be used. Kakavasha understood this about you, and he understood this about himself. It was how he survived all those years ago, and itâs how he survives now. And so, when Aventurine goes into his first heat in years and decides to suffer it alone, you can only think of one way to get him to accept your help: You offer to let him use you.
written for @/lorelune's spring fever collab & @ficsforgaza
13.5k words of omegaverse, mutual pining, hurt/comfort, angst with an eventual happy ending. gn alpha reader + omega aventurine (they each have both amab and afab genitalia). explicit piv sex, reader bottoms, the sex is consensual but emotionally complicated and deeply sad. cw slavery, racism, gendered violence, including very brief and non-graphic (but direct) references to sexual abuse during slavery. the sa and slavery are not eroticized. dead dove do not eat, mdni.
thank you to @acerathia, @minnaci, @owlespresso for all your help with beta reading and to @kosmiccarma for brainstorming omega aventurine hcs!
âIâve alwâââ lâved âââ, Kaââvâsââââ
You knew it from the moment you met him.
Gaunt, pallid, weighed down by heavy chains. Irises that glowed like the auroras back in your world. Delicate features that made every passerby in the market stop to read the description on the placard. (Sigonian, it said, although you couldnât read at the time. Avgin. Male. Omega. Sixteen years old. Sixty Tanba, no tax.) He had an all-consuming scent that was impossible to ignoreâone that possessed you, made your heels dig into the dirt, every atom in your body resisting the impatient jerk of the chains at your wrist. Even through your muzzle, through the perpetual stench of carbon-steel and blood, you could smell it: honey and wildflowers. A fragrance that settled deep within you, flooded you with a warmth that felt like home.
Aventurine is not a spiritual person. He once told you this, his smile cold in the glow of an artificial moon. He'd been deeply religious as a child, but hasnât since cared for fairy tales about fortune and fate, three-eyed goddesses or merciful rainfalls. Hasn't thought about anything like a destined love. He thinks the idea of a true mate is laughable, that no such bond could ever be forged between an omega and an alpha. That nothing so unconditional could ever exist.
You know differently, of course. You've known it from the moment you met him, from the second you laid eyes on him and thought, I need to help you, and I need to protect you, and I need you to be safe, and youâd never once heard the word âloveâ in your lifeâslaves are never loved by their masters, after all, and you'd always been nothing but a slaveâbut every atom of your being knew that you loved him, that you'd always love him.
And when your master cradled your face that night and crooned that he owned you, that you'd always be his obedient, alpha petâfor the first time in your life, you knew that he was wrong.
You didn't belong to your slaver.
You belonged to him.
To Kakavasha.
These days, Aventurine does not smell like honey, and your jaw is not restrained.
Your muzzle was one of the first things that Aventurine threw away when he bought your freedom. According to the Amber Era system, it had been several months since the murder of your shared master. Ninety-five Star Calendar days after the Interastral Peace Corps had arrested Kakavasha. An entire rotation around the black hole at the centre of your wretched galaxy, all of which had been spent in the captivity of some new mistress. She picked you out because she liked your calming scent and the look of your face, but mostly she used you for the fighting pits just like your old master.
Aventurine had been sitting in the audience of your final match, then bought you out right after you won. âIâm in need of a fighter,â heâd said, smiling in his thick furs and jewels. He played the part of a slavemaster perfectly, his gloved hands wandering the span of your aching shoulders, touching the bloodied maw of your mask. âAnd Iâd be willing to pay top credit for yours.â
She protested. You were her most prized possession, one of her greatest investments. Slaves from your planet were hard enough to come byâalphas capable of reproduction, nearly impossible. And you were so well-behaved, so poised, so endearing in a way that was rare for alphas. She was fond of you. Her omega slaves were fond of you too. They would be distraught if you left, and that would complicate her household affairsâand surely Aventurine, as a respectable owner of human capital like herself, could understand how inconvenient that would be?
Aventurine bared his teeth in a gracious smile. (Youâd never seen Kakavasha make such an expression beforeâso disarming, so cunning, a crescent moon beneath snake eyes. Heâd never smelt like this either, like an expensive cologne layered with bleach, and it left you feeling nauseous, wondering if he was ill.) He flirted his way into her good graces, made her an offer she couldnât refuse, and then he brought you into the first-class ship on which heâd arrived. You were so stunned by its luxuryâthe handwoven carpets, the crushed velvet seats, the imported tea from several galaxies away and the custom-ordered outfit he had bought for youâthat you nearly missed the tremble in his hands as he punched numbers into the remote control lock for your chains.
He had regained his composure by the time he pulled away your muzzle, though. He threw it carelessly to the groundâyour titanium chains, too. Then kicked both away with his shined leather shoes.
âThere,â Aventurine said, smiling cheerfully. âMuch better, donât you think?â
âVashaââ you started, voice thick with wasted grief, and all you wanted to was reach for him, to double check that he was real, but he placed a finger to your lips and stopped you. You stiffened at the satin touch, but he seemed unbothered.
ââAventurineâ,â he corrected.
You stared blankly. âWhat?â
ââAventurineâ. Like the gemstone. Thatâs my name now.â
âYouââ Your voice caught in your throat. You realized that youâd been holding your breath. You always had the habit of holding your breath in the luxurious, private rooms of very rich men, because you never liked what happened in them. Forcing yourself to breathe, you asked, âYou gave yourself a new name?â
âNo. The IPC gave me a new name. They gave me a job, too.â
âA job?â you asked, voice faint. Now that you were breathing again, you were noticing once more just how bizarre he smelled. Sterile and expensive and completely foreign. âYouâre free now?â
âWell, Iâm a freedman, but I donât know if Iâd call myself free. Iâm a bit⌠indebted to the IPC, letâs say. But thatâs fine. I canât complain. I meanâlook around. This beats the fighting pits, doesnât it?â He gestured lazily at your surroundings, and you nodded.
âItâs nice here,â you replied, feeling absurd but not knowing what else to say. Once Kakavasha got talking, it was impossible to get a word in edgewise.
âYou like it here? Good. This roomâs yours. Mine is the next one over. Youâll live and work here, with me. Iâll make sure youâre paid well. Full benefits, vacation, salary, and overtime. The standard pay for your role is seventy-thousand credits per month, but Iâll see if I can get you more. HR is pretty strict about their hiring policies, butââ
âYouâre hiring me?â
Aventurine went very still, his smile tightly controlled. His eyes remained fixed on you, but they seemed less snake-like, now. They looked more familiar. More afraid.
âIâm offering, yes,â he said neatly. âYouâll be part of my personal security detail. I donât have the contract for you to review yet, unfortunately. I didnât arrange one ahead of time because, wellââhe laughed, as if this were polite conversation and he were making a joke about the weatherââI didnât know if Iâd find you alive. But things worked out in my favour. They always work out in my favour. Iâll make sure theyâll work out in your favour too, so long as youâre with me. So youâll consider it, wonât you? Staying withâworking for me, I mean.â
Your eyes went soft. Beneath the artificial fragrance, you finally caught a hint of his familiar scentâmore wildflower than honey at that moment, the way it always is when heâs scared.
âKakavashaââ
âName your price,â he said loudly, âand Iâll match it.â
You sighed. âVasha,â you said more gently, and his shoulders relaxed at the subvocal shift in your timbre, at the famed alpha Voice that necessitated your muzzle, âI donât care about the money. Of course Iâll stay here. Butâwhat happened? Why did you kill him yourself? Why didn't you let me do it? That was the plan. It was always supposed to be me.â
It was my job, you thought then, just as you had thought to yourself every night, curled up in your bed and trying to recall the scent of fresh honey, to keep you safe.
He shrugged and said, âIt would have been too risky to involve you.â
âYou were caught and sentenced to death. The risk was already too high.â
âBut the stakes werenât,â he replied simply, and before you could ask what he meant by that, he continued, âand it worked out, didnât it? I work for the IPC. You work for me. Weâre freedmen now. Whatever I've lost, it doesn't matter. Our gains far outweigh it.â
âAnd what have you lost, Vasha?â
He smiled at you, charming and distracting. A crescent moon beneath snake eyes. âNothing of value,â he reassured you, and even though you could feel the calm of an omegaâs voice washing over you, even though it released all the tension in your body, all you could smell was cologne and wildflowers, and you knew that he was lying.
Vasha once told you, curled up and quiet on the basement floor, that he despised his eyes. They were supposed to be a sign of blessing from Gaiathra Triclops, but they'd never brought him anything but trouble. They were the first thing that the slavers always noticed about him, the feature that made him such an alluring commodity. Their aurora glow, their strange beauty, their promise of a rare opportunity: a chance at owning a specimen of an exotic, endangered species, possibly the last of its kind. These are all things that you've heard in the parlour of your masterâs house as he entertained rich company, the crowd of them gawking at his human curios.
Avgin are said to make the most beautiful slaves, he'd often say. And Avgin omegas are said to be the most beautiful among them. What do you all think? They'd all hum, peering closely at Kakavashaâs features, and inevitably someone would joke, I think I'd like to borrow him sometime, and then they would all laugh while your pulse ticked up and you imagined tearing at their throats. Vasha would search for your gaze in these moments, giving you a long, pointed look: Don't do anything stupid.
Heâd always been so blasĂŠ about it, the way people fixated on his Avgin blood. You'll never understand how. He didn't react to any of the comments, the groping, the innuendos. He was, however, distinctly unimpressed at the way that your master liked to play him up as a rare and expensive acquisition, as a sign of his own status. It's embarrassing to watch, Kakavasha had remarked. Everyone knows that Sigonian slaves are uncommon but cheapâpeople always think weâll bring them more trouble than our worth. This was how Kakavasha had ended up in the market in the first place: because his last master had been robbed, and he'd been wrongly blamed for it.
The blame, to this day, has never stopped. Peopleâpowerful people, politicians, businessmen, socialitesâlook at Aventurineâs eyes and immediately reach for their pockets. You've seen it for yourself, these spineless despots and scammers feeling for their wallets. Sigonian, you know they're thinking. Liar, cheat, thief, whore, worthless, worthless, worthless. Your hands tighten around your blade each time, a loaded gun with a finger on the trigger.
Alphas are said to be violent by nature. Aventurine has often called you the one exception to this rule: the most docile, good-hearted alpha he's ever met. But this is a lie. You do have a predator instinct, and it comes out in full-force whenever youâre around these particular types of men. These types who notice Aventurineâs eyes and see a thief; these monsters who see his irises and imagine what it would be like to bed him. Youâd kill them if you could. It would be so easy, especially now that you are an IPC dog. The Company is already such a violent force; what would be one more murder?
But Aventurine has never ordered you to punish anyone. (Don't do anything stupid, he always tells you with a glance, smiling through every humiliation.) Nor has he ever seemed bothered enough by these meetings to try concealing his heritage.
A fellow Asset Liquidation Specialist once asked why he didn't just hide his eye colourâit would likely be better for fostering relationships, negotiating dealsâbut Aventurine had shrugged it off. I'm a gambler working with the IPC, he'd said. Do you really think a pair of coloured contacts would make anyone trust me? He'd laughed, and his voice had carried a threatening edge, and his coworker had shifted visibly at it. Being an Avgin is the least threatening thing about me, wouldn't you say?
You think that Aventurine likes being seen as a threat. Sometimes you wonder if this is why he doesn't mind wearing his eyes so much, but abhors keeping his scent. He washes his clothes until they're free of his disarming sweetness and then masks himself with an unsettling blend of ambergris, jasmine, and wood. And he is on suppressants all the timeâhasnât had a single heat since the day he killed his master. Hasn't smelled like himself, either.
At the end of the day, itâs manageable being an Avgin in this business, he often comments, spraying half a bottle of masking cologne on himself, but you can't be an Avgin and an omega. Wouldnât you agree?
You'd know better than me, you reply, noncommittallyâand truthfully.
But you're an alpha, he observes. Don't you have an opinion?
You don't pay me to have opinions, you always remind him, stone-faced. You pay me to stand here and look scary. And Aventurine always laughs at this, and he always wires you money and calls it a bonus as he pesters you for an answer, and he always gets distracted and starts scrolling through all his shopping wishlists instead. I saw this thing the other day and thought of you. And this too. Would you like either of them? Would you like them both? Iâm a very generous manager, you know. I'll buy you anything you like.
But even though he always gets distracted, Aventurine never forgets. Sooner or later, he inevitably circles back to these questionsâthese anxieties about his scent, about his eyes, about his blood. He never cares for anyone elseâs opinions, but he's always been curious about yours. Even when he was Vasha, he wanted to know what you thought.
Heâd been sixteen years old and delirious with heat the first time he asked you, face wrinkling with pain as he spilled his thoughts. It was so incoherent, so sad, you thought it must have been about a fever dream. Mama Fenge, he kept saying. Mama Fenge blessed me, She blessed me, I'm blessed, it rained when I was bornâdid you know that? My luck, I was lucky. The Katicans, they never caught me. They got everyone else, but not me. I was blessed by Her. I'm going to save my people. I will. I'll save my sister. My eyes are proof. My mistress liked them. Said they're beautiful. Worth sixty whole coppers. A blessing. He pulled you close, pressed his scalding face to your scent gland, and his whole body shuddered with relief. This was the first and only time he'd allowed you to hold him, and it was only out of desperation, out of his mind. Do you like them, alpha? Do you like my eyes? Why? Is it because they're beautiful? Because they're from Gaiathra?
âI like them because they're yours,â you'd replied, and Kakavasha had laughed deliriously.
This is when he told you he hated them: I'd close them forever, if I could.
When you were youngerâdumberâyou had a habit of squirrelling away every spare coin you came across. You collected them in a little purse that one of the omega slaves had sewn for youâa thank-you for always keeping the other alphas away from herâand you hid it underneath a loose floorboard. By the time that Kakavasha was arrested, you'd saved up twenty-nine Tanba. Youâd wanted enough to buy Kakavashaâs freedom and then to set him up for a comfortable life.
It had been a stupid plan. An embarrassing one. If you ever confessed it to Aventurine, he'd laugh at you. Slaves can't buy other slaves, he'd say. Leave the schemes to me next time. Youâre too good-hearted for it.
Youâd already known that, of course. You knew that you didn't have the status to buy him or mate him or even just provide for him, but you wanted to. God, did you want toâyou spent every waking moment thinking about it, every sleeping moment dreaming of it. It wasn't even that you desired him, though he was beautiful and fragrant and more delicate than anything that had ever touched you in your life, which was only your masterâs hands and your muzzle and your chains. Aventurine would feel so soft in comparison, youâd always figured. It made your heart ache, thinking about getting to hold something so lovely.
But reallyâthat desire came second. What came first was how mated omegas feel safe around their alphas, and you so desperately wanted him to be safe. Kakavasha had looked so frail, so grim, as your master took his chains and led him home from the market, and you could smell the fear coming off him in waves. And you could do nothing to stop it. You had nothing you could use to stop itânothing other than your hands that could kill for him and your pheromones that could soothe him and your useless heart that wanted to collect sixty Tanba for him. That was all you had.
So you failed in the end. Of course you did. You didn't have the status to buy him or mate him or even just provide for him. You couldn't even do for him the one thing you could have doneâwhich was to kill. And Kakavasha suffered for your incompetence. He had to dirty his hands with blood and gamble his way into wealth and then suddenly he was freeing you, not the other way around.
And now you are comfortable. You'll lead an easy life from now, Aventurine reassured you when he brought you onto his ship all those years ago, and he's kept that promise. What about you? you'd asked him then. Will you lead an easy life with me, if you're working for the IPC? And he had smiled and lied to you: Yes.
It had been a painfully obvious lie. If you were a smarter person, you'd have never believed it in the first place. Aventurine has no interest in leading an easy life, because an easy life would be less profitable, and less profit would mean less safety. And he is always, always worried about being unsafe. It is indiscernible to everyone but youâan alpha (his alpha, always his, even if he doesn't want you) who has watched over him for so long that you can detect every shift in his scent. No matter how much cologne he drowns himself in and no matter how strong his suppressants are, you know when he is afraid.
And here is the bitter truth, the ultimate proof of your shortcomings:
Aventurine is always afraid.
It is a beautiful day on Agnisahr, and you can tell that Aventurine is about to throw up from worry.
You're sitting in the middle of stunning wealthâAventurine in his feathers and jewellery, you in your tailored jacketâin a lobby made from marble and pale sandstone, with a view of palm trees and rolling, scarlet sand dunes beyond the window. The waitstaff addresses him as Honoured Guest and they keep his crystal chalice filled constantly with waterâone of the most expensive commodities on the planet. Aventurine has been drinking from it religiously, which is strange as he typically has the habit of forgetting to hydrate. A faint wildflower scent is drifting from his slender form. These are the only giveaway to his mood: he's otherwise as pokerfaced as ever, smiling calmly as he discusses his plans to sabotage the local government and acquire the planet for the IPC.
âThis is a very dangerous mission,â you state flatly.
âAll my missions are dangerous.â He takes a sip, one pinky up. âThe IPC pays me well for a reason. As they sayââ
ââHigh risk, high reward.â I know.â You try not to sound bitter, though you allow yourself to sound tired. âI still do not think the risk is worth the reward in this case.â
âI think over 5.6 million in credits is a great reward, actually. We could do a lot with that kind of money.â
You raise a brow. âWhat could an extra 5.6 million get you that you can't already buy?â It isâas Topaz would sayââchump changeâ in comparison to his current wealth, which sums to a number so vast that you can't wrap your head around it.
Aventurine pretends to miss the point. âTons! We could buy a new spacecraft. Get another mansion. Orâwe could take a vacation to Penacony. I hear it's quite nice there.â A playful smile. âI could get us a penthouse unit. With a featherbed.â
You frown. Sometimes Aventurine likes to flirt when you're being stubbornânot out of interest, but as a ploy to distract you. Heâd developed the habit after he joined the IPC. It used to fluster you, but now it only makes you cross your arms.
âYou could die,â you point out.
âYou'll protect me.â
âNo, I won't. You always find a way to get rid of me when things are most dangerous.â You give him an accusatory stare. âYou never let me do my job.â
He's too shameless to deny it. âAnd it's worked out fine, hasn't it? I haven't died so far.â
âYes. Just by dumb luck.â
âI beg to differ. My luck is quite reliable.â He sets down his glass. Glances back outside. A microexpression, brows knotting for the briefest second as he studies the sky. âI'm not worried.â
âYou're a shit liar.â
That gets him to look at you, letting a small frown pass over his face. âNo, I'm actually a great liar. You're just too good at reading me. It's very inconvenient, you know.â
âI can't help it.â You lean toward him, making a show of it as you sniff. An orchid-like scentâfaint but unmistakableâhas seeped into artificial ambergris and wood. âIt's hard to ignore.â
He hums. He isn't frowning anymoreâbut doesn't look happy, either. âI should change suppressants.â He taps the side of his empty glass, fidgeting. Aventurine never fidgets: it's an amateur giveaway. âThese ones clearly don't work well enough.â
âThat won't help. I know you too well.â Your eyes soften. He's looking outside again, the blues of his irises distant. âYou're worried, Aventurine. More than usual. Letâs back out of thisâlet Jade handle it.â
âThe mission isn't what's bothering me,â he says patiently. âI just don't like this planet.â
âBecause you can tell it's dangerous.â
âNo. Wellâit is, but nothing I can't handle.â He leans back. âI just dislike the weather here.â
You arch a brow. â...the weather?â
âYes,â he says neatly, âit's too dry here. I'll break out.â
You open your mouth. Close it. It is possibly the most absurd thing you've ever heard, and certainly the worst lie that's ever come from him. For as long as you've known him, Aventurine has had flawless skin, marble-smooth, and ever since being freed, heâs never really cared much for looking handsome so much as looking rich. But he maintains his serious expression: all-in on the farce. âDid you know that outside the capital, this planet hasn't had any natural rain in a quarter of an Amber Era? And the stellar winds are terrible. I don't know how people live on a planet like this.â His eyes narrow at the cloudless sky. âThe IPC is going to need to do a lot of terraforming if they want to make this into a merchant hub.â
âAventurine.â
âIt'll be a pain crossing the desertâthe elements will ruin my clothes, you know,â he continues. âIt won't be so bad while we're on the ships, but weâve got to go outside from time to time. Can't make any friends otherwise.â
âAventurine.â
âAnd there's nothing to do for fun when weâre not working.â He sighs dramatically. âI can't wait to get our 5.6 billion and leave for someplace else. I'm being serious about Penacony, by the wayââ
âAventurine.â
ââthough not about the featherbed. I'll get you your own room, obviously. And I'll buy whatever dream experience youâd like. What kind would you want?â
Finally allowed a chance to speak, you say, âOne where you retire.â
âRetire? Why would I ever do that?â
âI don't know. Maybe you decide you've made enough money.â
âNo such thing.â
âThen you can settle down with someone.â
That makes him smile. It feels mocking. âMe? Settling down? With who?â
âWho knows. Someone who will treat you better than the IPC, I hope.â
âAnyone that nice would run in the other direction. But never mind me. This would be your dream experience. What happens to you in it?â
âI stop chasing after you and get to live out the rest of my days in peace,â you say dryly, and Aventurine blinks. âPlease stop deflecting. The IPC gave you a suicide mission. We will both die if we stay here.â
He looks serious now. âI wouldn't let you die.â
âYou can't know that.â
âWell, I do. And I've got decent chances at surviving tooâat least one in ten.â
You feel like sighingâa deep, aggravated noise is heavy in your throatâbut Aventurine doesn't enjoy it when you show anger around him. It's the one omega instinct that he can't ignore, you suppose: unease around an aggressive alpha. Voice tightly controlled, you say, âYouâre going to bet your life on one in ten?â
 âSure. My chances were worse on the last planet, and things worked out great. It'll be the same on Agnisahr.â Aventurine raises a hand, calls for the bill. The conversation is over. You lean back in your seat, watching sourly as he pays tens of thousands of credits just for water.
âYou know, they say the royal family is backed by an Aeon,â you can't help but point out, once the waiter is gone. A last-ditch effort. Aventurine smiles at it, amused. Like you're a child.
âSo what?â He glances outside, at the desolate landscape beyond the oasisânothing but red sand, a blue, rainless sky, and two radiant suns shining above it all. âThe protection of a god is nothing compared to the schemes of human beings. And gods abandon their people all the time, anyway.â
During your tenth day on Agnisahr, you realise that something is deeply wrong.
It takes you some time to understand whatâs happening. At first you think that whatever political danger youâve intuited is much worse than you thought, and thatâs why Aventurine has been so pale, so discomforted, so exhausted. Then his scent starts changingâhe switches clothes two, three times a day (because of all this heat during Agnisahran days, he tells his new business associates) and spritzes his nape with his cologne almost religiouslyâand you wonder if he is sick with something. If the food in this planet has something that disagrees with his Sigonian biology, or if he has picked up one of the local filoviruses, or if someoneâs poisoned one of his meals because theyâve correctly identified him as a threat. Aventurine dismisses every single one of these theories when you bring it up, andâas if in denialâonly attributes it to the weather. (Iâve never done well in deserts, he tells you, his eyes on his phone screen. I'm not used to them. It is above 300 Kelvin, and you do not see a single bead of sweat on his neck, and his cheeks are not even a little flushed.)
You only figure it out when he is too ill to get out of bed one morning and forbids all the IPC staff from coming near his hotel room. It sets off alarms immediatelyâAventurine, no matter how sick, will work and see through meetings as long as he is mentally capable of itâand so you naturally ignore his orders and check on him, using the spare key to his sleeping quarters that you're given as a policy. And as soon as the door cracks openâas soon as you step inside only to be hit with a violent, cloying sweetnessâyou realise whatâs happening and slam the door shut behind you.
âYouâre in heat,â you blurt out, and Aventurineâa shivering, panting mess on the bedâgroans in response.
âWhy are you here?â He turns toward you, still lucid enough to glare at you through the tangled mess of his hair. His voice is weak, but no less self-possessed: âI was very clearâno company today.â
âI am your personal bodyguard,â you remind him mildly. Your voice is calmâboth non-threatening and non-condescending. âThose orders donât apply to me. If things feel suspicious, I look into it. And they felt very suspicious.â Your brow knits as you study his clothes. Mulberry silk clings to his form, soaked through with sweat. Thin, eucalyptus sheets are tangled up around him. There are only two pillows. No water bottles. No knotting toys.
Nothing.
âYou didn't know you'd be in heat,â you realise. âWhat happened to your suppressants?â
âI don't know.â Thereâs a quiet, frustrated edge to his voice. Vulnerable too. It makes you think of when you were both still slaves, and Aventurine was confined to the basement of the manorâthe one that all omega slaves were made to ride out their heats in. Either they would do it alone or were ordered to spend it with some alpha, usually either a friend of the master or an alpha slave he wished to reward. That's when they're most pliable, he'd tell his guests, or sometimes even you. They get so desperate they'll present themselves to anyone. Then amused laughter from the other partyâHow obscene!âas you looked away, blood hammering in your ears.
You had been your masterâs favourite. His most obedient, most profitable petâstriking enough for his guests to admire, deadly enough for his audiences to bet on, docile enough for him to enjoy. Good enough for him to reward, and he often rewarded you with his most beautiful slave: his Avgin omega. Just don't mark him, heâd said, fastening the muzzle around your mouth. It'll ruin his market value. Who knows if someday he'd sell Kakavasha off to some alpha master who wished to claim him, he said. Though I don't think there's anyone in this star system who'd want a Sigonian for a mate, let alone a Sigonian slave. Then heâd paused, eyes scanning over you. As if contemplating. But maybe they'd try to get Avgin whelps out of him, he added, and you felt like throwing up.
You'd never mate him in those moments, your muzzle always prevented you from saying. You didn't even want to think about touching him, and he didn't want to think about it either. Even in the cruel grip of his heats, with nothing but the thin mat beneath him and his slaveâs rags around him, Kakavasha hadn't wanted any kind of contact from you, rejecting any chance of solace. Don't, don'tânot again, not again, he'd begged. Then as the nights marched on and his mind grew hazier, heâd start whimpering too: It hurts, alpha. It hurts. Help me. It hurts. Don't touch me. Not again. It hurts. It hurts. Stop it, please stop it.
It gutted you.
It went against every instinct, not to touch him. To let him lie there, in scorching, lonely pain, when all you wanted to do was to dispel it. It would be so easy to press yourself against him and let his skin cool against yours, do the one thing that your body was good at other than killing. But not again, not again, I can't anymore, I don't want it, I never wanted it, and all you could do was sit there, unmoving. Watch as the most delicate, precious thing you had in your life shatter.
And standing here now, watching Aventurine shatter before you once moreâit is unbearable. He needs a nest, you keep thinking. He needs a nest and some water and some kind of touch, some kind of relief, but not again, not again, and youâre still a slave, still a worthless and stupid slave, and Kakavasha is still crying on a basement floor and you can't do anything for him.
âYou need help, Aventurine,â you say, voice soft, and his whole body tenses. His scent dips, and the scent of florals overwhelms you.
âNo,â he breathes, âI don't.â
âYou do. You're sick.â You bite your lip. Your heart splits as you suggest it, but you say, âI can call a professional.â
âNo,â he spits. The facade is gone. The poker face has cracked. The anger and the pain and the fear are all on full display, and his voice sharpens: âNo strangers.â
No foreign scents, you realise he's demanding. A new scent would probably make him feel unsafe.
Then let me help you, you think of pleading, but not again, not again, and you're filled with so much shame at the thought that all you can do is look away.
âThenâcan I do anything?â He goes still. âNotânot that, but something to make you more comfortable. I can build you a nest, at leastââ
âNo.â He takes a deep, shaking breath. âNo nests. I don't need oneââ
âYes, you do.â
âNo, I don't,â he says. His voice is wavering now, on the verge of crumbling with fever and pain. âI've neverâIâve never needed a nest, I don'tâI don't want toââ He presses his face into his pillow. âI needâI need to be alone, fuckââ
He doesn't mean to whine. The cry for distress is instinct, something that all omegas are programmed to do in heat. Youâve heard that theyâve evolved to make this noise as a way of appealing to nearby alphas for help, but you think this must be a lie as you never once saw your alpha master giving mercy to any of his omega slaves. Still, whether it is your biology or notâthe noise that Aventurine makes has your heart aching so much you can't help but step forward. But he shakes his head and inches away, shuddering violently, and then his voice echoes again in that cold basementânot again, not again, and don't touch it anymore, don't use it anymore, don't use me anymore, not again, and it's all you can do to back away until your spine is pressed against the door.
âI'm sorry, Vasha,â you say, strained. âIâm sorry. I'll leave you now.â
As the door shuts behind you, you catch a final glimpse himâface pressed into the pillows, shivering.
If you didn't know better, you'd think he was crying.
When you were both slaves, Aventurine hated seeing you during his heats.
Kakavasha was normally calm around you. Most of the time, he was even friendly (he was friendly to everyone whom he thought could be useful), but he was different during his heats. Sometimes he was vicious; mostly he was withdrawn. Nearly always, he wanted to be left alone. In those moments, all he could register was your alpha scent and his memories of what other people had done to him during his heats. And while you'd have hated to leave him, despised the idea of him being offered to another alphaâeven more than that, you hated violating this boundary of his. Hated that you were allowed to do whatever you wanted to him. Hated being the reason he felt so unsafe.
Hated being an alpha.
Now that you no longer have the orders of your slavemaster hanging over you, it is the least you can do to respect Aventurineâs wish of being left alone. He has every right to privacy, and you have every obligation to give it to him. But instead you have been standing here, outside his door, for a full system-hour.
Every time you try to leave, your body is wracked with anxiety. The thought of other peopleâother alphasâcoming near him in this state makes you seethe, your hands flexing at your side. The predator instinct comes out, and the people around you notice it. Every person unlucky enough to walk down this hall scurries away under your glare, even the other IPC staff wandering about to look for Aventurine: Must be their mate on the other side, they remark to one another, and then they're gone.
It is a hard thing to hear. You are not his mate. You are not even a heat partner. If you were, then he wouldn't be in so much pain. Not now, and not back then.
Aventurine has never had easy heats. You keep replaying your memories of all his past ones, each one a wound in your heart: the aching sweetness of nectar and honey; his withering body as he clutched his abdomen and curled up; the tears and sweat staining the mat beneath him. And above all: the fear. The scent of it, the sight of it, the sound of it in his voice. Stronger today than any other day.
By instinct, you know that he cannot persist like this. That this time is somehow worse than all those other times, and that he will become seriously ill if left alone.
After nearly an hour and a half, you finally open the door, fearing the worst.
âAventurine?â you say quietly, but there's no response, and your stomach drops as you see him.
His body is pale, listless. If it weren't for the fragrance washing over you or the sweat on his temple, you'd worry that he was dead.
Tentatively, you reach out. Rest a hand on his forehead, and it scorches you. He stirs at the touch, doesn't open his eyesâbut the quiet sigh of relief is unmistakable. His fingers twitch, as if wanting to reach for you.
âAventurine,â you say gently. âAventurine, I'm going to take care of you. Is that alright?â
He doesn't respond. You grimace, pulling away to fetch things for him: several spare pillows from the closet, an extra blanket too. From his suitcase, you grab a few of his sweaters, all thick cotton and fleece. Heâd had a sense that Agnisahr would be cold at night. Deserts always get cold after sundown, since sand doesnât retain heat, he'd told you while he was packing. Or I think so, anyway. Don't know why. Must have read it somewhere. Then heâd given you a long, unreadable look before saying, Make sure to bring a jacket. The warmest one you have. The elements on a planet like Agnisahr can kill a personâeven a person like you.
Iâm sure Iâll be fine, youâd dismissed him. I can survive anything. Any kind of weather, any kind of illness, any kind of pain: these are all things your species is known for being able to endure, the trait that made you such a prized slave in your masterâs eyes, such a useful agent at the IPC. You hadnât given Aventurineâs warning any thought and hardly paid attention to what youâd thrown into your own suitcase.
It surprises you, then, that you find one of your sweaters in his luggage. Made from Sedanian cashmere and heat tech designed by the Intelligentsia Guild. Cloud-soft and warm to the touch. Aventurine had bought it for you before you were deployed to Jarilo-IV to collect intelligence for Topaz. Warmest thing in the known universe, heâd commented. One of a kind, too. Remember to wear it, alright? Don't let my money go to waste, now.
You stare at it, kneading the fleece between your fingers. You hadnât mentioned wanting to bring this sweater. Youâd lost it in your closet some months ago and forgot about it. Aventurine must have remembered and gone looking for it, becauseâwhy? You aren't sure. Probably because itâs warmer and softer than anything he owns, you guess. Of course heâd want to wear it.
You throw it into the pile of things youâve collected for him.
You take it all to his bed, the mattress dipping as you sit next to Aventurine. One by one, you scent each item with your wrist, watching him carefully the whole time. Youâre quiet as you lay them out around him, leaving him undisturbed as you build a nest. You order water and electrolyte drinks too, and youâre quick about going to the door when you hear room service knockingâwith how feverish he is, he probably badly needs it.
Aventurine is awake when you come back. His breathing is still laboured, painedâbut calm.
âI said I didnât need a nest,â Aventurine says, though he doesnât sound angry. You wonder if heâs too weak to be. His voice is faint, and his eyes are barely openâfocused on the pile of blankets and clothing around him.
âYouâre welcome.â You open a bottle of water, hold it out to him. âDrink.â
Aventurine pauses, stares at the offering like it's some kind of foreign object. But he accepts it eventually, sitting up and taking it from you. He winces with the movement, which he tries to hide. He ignores your frown as he drinks, and he doesn't stop until the bottle is empty.
âThere are more,â you say, pointing at the several additional bottles on the nightstand. âAnd some food and some painkillers. I don't know how well theyâll work. This isn't a normal heat. If you're alright with it, I'll call a doctor andââ
âEverything smells like you,â he says quietly, and you stop.
â...yes. Unless theyâre mated, nests usually feel most comforting to an omega when they smell like an alpha.â You swallow, looking away. â...you don't have a mate, and you didn't want a professional, so this was the only option I could think of. I'm sorry.â
âItâs fine,â he says. He picks out one of the sweaters that have made its way into the nest, the Sedanian one. âI don't mind it.â
âOh.â You let out a breath. âThenâcan I call a doctor?â
His grip on the sweater tightens. âNo.â
You frown. âAventurineââ
âIâve never needed a doctor before,â he says. He sounds unbothered, but he's fidgeting with the sweater now. âI don't need one now.â
A lie. He almost certainly needed a doctor in some of his prior heats, but you don't push the matter. âMaybe you don't need one,â you say instead, âbut it would help.â
âI don't need help,â he says, and you look at him in disbelief. He catches your expression, and the corner of his mouth lifts. âNot more than you've already done, I mean.â
âIâve barelyââ
âContact Topaz. Tell her I'm incapacitated. Tell herâŚâ He hums. âTell her I have food poisoning. The personnel too. It's not time-sensitive, our business on Agnisahr, so it shouldn't matter if I need a few days off.â
âYou really needââ
âGive my regrets to our Agnisahran friends. Deliver it in person. They see you as my right hand, so theyâll most appreciate it coming from you. Topaz can help you with the verbiage. Andâtry to socialise with them a little, won't you? I think that little omega princess of theirs likes you. Some of the courtesans too, and they have surprising influence.â
âI do not want to be around any omega other than you right now,â you say before you can stop yourself, and Aventurine stops, blinking. His expression is blank, if perhaps a little curiousâbut his scent shifts. You can't identify how. You add quickly, âIâm not leaving you alone when youâre this sick.â
âAh. Right.â Aventurine looks away. His voice sounds strange, and his heat must be getting to him again, because it carries a hint of pain. âBut you have to. The IPCâs goals take priority.â
You frown. âYour life is more important than the IPC,â you say, and he laughs. Loudly.
âWhat? This is just a heat. Iâm not going to die.â
âYou donât know that without seeing a doctor.â
âI do. Iâm willing to bet money that I wonât die.â He cuts you off before you can reply: yes, you're always willing to bet on your life. âAnd even if I do, that would still be less important than Agnisahr. Do you know how many resources are on this lifeless rock?â His mouth slants. âIf we mess up here, Iâm dead anyway.â
âI wouldnât let them touch you.â
âYes, you wouldâbecause they would kill you too.â Aventurine sighs. His eyes close, and his brow creasesâa sign that whatever reprieve he was lucky enough to get is about to end. âGo do what I asked. Donât do anything stupid. Iâll⌠see a doctor if you do.â
You stand immediately. âAlright. Iâll be back to check on you.â
âI know.â
You stop at the door, giving him a long look. Seeing him like thisâlying on a proper bed, cradled in a warm nest, with water and food and medicine nearbyâyou feel a little better. This is leagues beyond what heâd been afforded in his days as a slave, at the very least. Even if he isnât free, at least he isnât trapped.
But it still doesnât feel good, having to step away. The last thing you want to do is talk to other people, pretend to have interest in other omegas. There are an astonishing number of them who are interested in you on this planetâthat princess, and some baronâs son, and one of the princeâs favourite paramoursâbut you canât bring yourself to care even for business purposes when Aventurine is like this. You can't act as if you are enjoying yourself when you know he is in pain.
You wonder about telling Topaz the truth. You wonder if sheâd be worried enough about Aventurine to let you neglect this mission and cover for you instead, without letting Jade or Diamond or anyone else dangerous know. Not that you think that anyone at the Company particularly cares about Kakavashaâitâs only that heâs valuable. Aventurine of Stratagems is valuable. How many worlds have fallen because of him?
But he seemed unwilling to bet on his worth to them. Which is startling, given how often he's bet on it in the past.
âWhatâs so important about this planet,â you canât help but ask, âthat the IPC would rather you die than lose it?â
Heâs silent for a long moment. His eyes are closedâhiddenâbut you can see his knuckles whiten as he clutches the Sedanian sweater.
âCopper,â he says. âThey want it for the copper.â
When Kakavasha first suggested a friendship to you, it had felt like something in between a proposition and a threat:
Go ahead, he'd said. Use me as you wish. You can even stab me in the back if you want. Just be mindful of this: I don't make deals that don't pay off.
It might have been a strange way of making friends in any other circumstance, but in a house of slaves, it was a natural one. You had not been a clever personâstill aren'tâbut you understood that your place in the world was one of a tool. This was the place of all slaves: you were all things to be used. Your body was a thing to be used. It was valuable for its strength, for its hardiness, for its threat in the arena and for its convenience in your masterâs bed (or in a dark basement, or within a heat house, or inside whichever omega your mistress ordered you to calm down). It did not surprise you that Kakavasha wanted to use it as well. It did not surprise you that Kakavasha expected you to use him in return.
You never would have, of course. Kakavasha was not a thing to be usedâhe had always been a mate. Though you were happy to let him use you, because all you were was a tool anyway, so it was really all you could offer him: to be used.
None of this has changed for you. You don't think any of this has changed for Aventurine, either. With each new friendship he makes, he repeats those familiar words: Use me as you wish. And with each person who accepts, this is exactly what they do: they use him, and they use him, and they use him until suddenly they notice he's tricked them and they've got the losing hand.
You damned gambler, they always spit. You Sigonian wretch. All you know is how to manipulate people. Thief, liar, cheat, whore. Despite all these insults, Aventurine always smiles at them. Cry as they might, heâs won his bet and has their world in his palms.
Winner takes all, he sometimes gloats.
Winning and losing. Using and being used. Exploitation and treachery. This is all Aventurine knows; these are his great guiding principles in life. (He's told you this point blank, stacking up chips in his favourite gambling dens with a self-satisfied grin.) You often find yourself coming back to these conversations, particularly when you need to convince him of something.
And right now, you very badly need to convince him of something.
Aventurine is ignoring his doctorâs advice. His suppressants are unstable in extreme temperatures, he's been told. During travel on Agnisahr, they'd degraded, and now heâs experiencing his first heat in several years. Of course it's going to be painful, his doctor had said. I can prescribe you some medication to ease the symptoms, but reallyânothing will work better than a heat partner. It doesn't need to be a mate. Any alpha will do.
The doctor had been an alpha. You had asked for a beta or omega, but alphas tend to dominate in Interastral Medical Schools, so they're in short supply. Aventurine had been still the whole time, face unreadable, but you could tell he wanted to throw up at the stench of an unfamiliar alpha. You had stepped between the two of them, not bothering to hide the animosity in your voice. Weâll take the medication, you had said, and the doctor had sniffed the air and nodded at you in approval.
Probably won't need it. An alpha like you could sort him out with just a few rounds, he told you, and both of you stayed quiet as he left.
You still aren't talking, or even looking at each other. Aventurine has lay down in his nest again, closing his eyes, while you stand as far away as physically possibleâat the door where you'd just shown the doctor out. With the room shut off again, windows closed and door locked, Aventurineâs scent is starting to flood your senses once more. Out of the corner of your eye, you catch him shivering.
âWhat do you want to do?â you ask.
âNothing.â He swallows. âI'll be fine.â
He's afraid. You can tell he's afraid. And you can tell heâll be more afraid if you take even a single step closer to him, so you nod and say, âI'll go pick up your medication, then,â and Aventurine doesn't stop you. You can see him curling up in his nest, face pressed into the cashmere sweater.
But he still doesn't stop you.
After a few more days, Aventurine finally breaks.
There is a rare sag to his shoulders when he calls you to the room, along with a taste of dread in the air. You haven't seen him so vulnerable in years. Aventurine is not an open person, so cunning and self-possessed in his wealthâbut Kakavasha was more brittle, more powerless, flayed raw and open even though he didn't often get the whip. (It would ruin his value if he ever scarredâhis looks were his greatest selling point, your master said.) He was especially defeated when forced to spend his heats with an alpha he didn't want. You wonder, a vice grip of pain around your heart, whether this entire situation is simply an extension of that. Whether he is calling you here against his will, this time compelled by his pain, rather than his master. Whether this luxury suite feels like that wretched basement to him.
He doesn't look at you when he talks, nor does he sit up. He remains curled in his nest, nearly clinging onto the blankets and clothes.
âThat stupid medication,â he pants out, sharp even in his heat, âisn't working.â
âI can tell.â Your brow knots. Heâs in so much pain, it is palpable. âIââyou hesitate, voice dropping. âCan I help you?â
He goes quiet. As both Aventurine and Kakavasha, he has always been disinclined to accept help from other people. There is no such thing as unconditional help in his mindâonly leverage and weakness. He hates it when people have leverage over him, and he hates being weak. Both are things that can be exploited, and Aventurine always needs to be the one doing the exploiting. He always needs to be in control.
Even like this, the last threads of his sanity about to snap, with every circuit of his omega biology trying to drag him into insensible lust, he fights viciously to be in control.
Winning and losing. Using and being used. Exploitation and treachery. Control and being controlled. This is how he's always lived. This is how he's always survived.
This is the only way to let him maintain control when he is most afraid of losing it.
âI don't mind,â you say quietly, âif you use me.â
Even through the haze of heat, Aventurineâs eyes sharpen. âWhat?â
âI don't mind if you use me,â you repeat, voice neutral. Unfeeling. The proposal might sound cruel to someone else, but not you. After allâyour place in the world is one of a tool, and this is what you've always done as an alpha and a slave: sleeping with people to take care of their needs, or sometimes just their desires. It did always make you feel strangely hollow, but you think it will feel just fine with Aventurine. All you've ever wanted to do is keep him safe, and surely, this will do that, butâ
âI'll only help if you want. I don't want to force it.â You lower your eyes. âBut if you do want it, I'll be careful with you. You can lead. I promise.â
â...I know.â Aventurineâs voice is weak, cracks with pain, but you can tell he's speaking with clarity. âI know you will be.â
You look up. âThen you'll let me help?â
Aventurine looks awayâa sign that he cannot adopt his usual smile. Heâs clutching that sweater again, pressed close to his chest.
âJust your wrist,â he says quietly.
You listen carefully. âWhat?â
âI justâI just want your wrist.â He looks away. âYourâyour scent gland. Only that.â
âOkay.â
You get up, then falter. When it was your job to comfort your mistressâ omega slaves, you were told to enter their nestsâno permission needed from them, no permission needed from you, because only her permission ever mattered for anything. The omegas were usually too delirious to care, often had even begged for it with the state of mind that they were in. But Aventurine is different. He's not like you, and he's not like them. He's never bent to any of his mastersâ wills. And even if he did, you wouldn't want to have him bend to yours.
Instead of climbing into his nest, you ask, âCan I sit on the bed?â He doesn't answer. âJust the edge of it,â you add, and you hear him exhale.
âFine,â he says, breathing measured.
âThank you,â you say, and he gives you a confused look. But then you're reaching out with a hand, offering it, and he is quickly distracted.
Aventurine drops the sweater, grabs your hand almost immediately. He turns over your palms, fingers tracing your heartlinesâas if testing you, as if mapping out territory. He runs his thumbs along the veins of your wrists, too, right over your scent gland, and you have to force yourself not to shudder at the feeling. You only stay still, letting him explore the contours of your hands, letting him acclimate to the feeling of your skin. He laces his fingers with your own, a latticework trap, and he finally drags his wrist along yours.
Both of you inhale sharply.
You can't react. You know it'll scare him if you do, but it's hard to keep still. The way his scent blossoms, the way it mingles with yours, the way it all washes over youâwhat you're doing can hardly be called touching, but you feel like you're going mad. Especially when he flushes like that, his vibrant eyes fluttering shut. Especially when the sweetness of honey overtakes your senses. Especially when you can smell the way his body is reacting, all that wetness and heat and slick dripping between his legs. You don't miss the way his thighs rub together, nor the hard outline of his cock straining against his pants.
Aventurine shudders. He brings your hand up to his face, rests his cheek in your palm. His skin is flushed and burning with fever, and it's no wonder that he's sighing with relief at your touch. You try not to stare at the way his mouth falls open. He looks at you for a moment, his gaze a hazy violet and blueâbefore he closes his eyes again and presses his lips into your wrist.
Fuck.
âAventurineââ You have to stop, voice strangled, when you feel the full softness of his lips working against your skin. Heâs panting now, laboured breaths sweeping over your veins. Then you feel his teeth catch, a gentle nip on your flesh, and when he groans into your racing pulseâdeep, relieved, desperate, a noise that makes your gut flare with heatâyou realise you can't do this.
You pull back your hand, and Aventurine startles.
âAventurine,â you say, voice strained. Maybe we should stop, you want to say, but he cuts you off.
âI needââa shaky breathââI need more.â
You watch Aventurine carefully. His pupils are dilated, blue irises nearly eclipsed. His cheeks are rosy, and he can't stop panting. You can fully smell his arousal now, even through his silk clothes. He's desperate, needing to be filled.
But he also looks torn. His brows are knotted, and you can taste a faint hint of fear in the air now. His knuckles clutch at the sheets, almost white, and he stares at them. He can't look up. He can't look at you. His whole body is tense, like he wants to boltâand if he weren't so weak, you think he might actually.
âAre you sure?â you ask.
He doesn't nod. He also doesn't shake his head. His arms clutch at his midsection as he winces. He doesn't look like Aventurine. He looks like Kakavasha. It makes your heart ache as you watch him give into his bodyâs demands, wearing the same expression he did on the day your master bought him.
â...don't use your Voice on me,â AventurineâKakavashaâsays quietly.
It takes you a moment to realise what he's asking. âI won't.â
âAndââhis eyes somehow grow even more evasive, hidden by his long lashesâ âdonât touch my commodity code.â
His commodity code. His commodity code that is seared into his scent gland. His code that, if you kiss, will ease his agony instantly. His code that, if you biteâwill chain him to you irreversibly.
âOf course I won't,â you say instantly.
He closes his eyes. Takes a deep breath.
âAndââ Aventurine looks away, jaw tight. His voice is quiet but wrought with tension: ââI don't like when people put things inside me.â
Something claws the walls of your heart.
âThat's fine too,â you reply. âI don't mind doing it the other way.â
Aventurineâs sigh is nearly inaudible, but unmistakable. His scent shifts a little bit, the wildflower fragrance fading ever so slightly. But he doesn't come to you. He merely sits thereâwaiting. Expecting. Maybe dreading. Even in the senseless daze of heat, heâs too anxious to move.
You approach slowly. Though you're overwhelmed by the bouquet of his scent, though you feel a curl of heat in your belly in response to itâyou are slow. Alphas are supposedly victims of insatiable lust whenever around an omega in heat, absolved of every action they take, but you are convinced this is a lie. You have never once wanted to handle Aventurine with such cruelty. You think that inflicting violence on him, more than anything else, would go against your biology. Every molecule in your body would reject putting him in such pain or inciting such fear. So you are careful when you approach him, slow as you inch up to himâbut you do not think it helps.
Aventurine lies down, his face turned away from yours. His eyes squeeze shut, like he's expecting this to hurt. Uncertainty gnaws at your gut as you lean over him, draping your body over hisâthe only position you've ever taken an omega in, other than mounting them from behind.
(You do not want to mount Aventurine. You never have. It is an impersonal position, a position that omega biology supposedly would force him to enjoy, a position that alphas have likely dictated him to enjoy. You think there is nothing you would hate more. In your weakest, most selfish moments, in your worst ruts, when youâve allowed yourself to fantasise about mating Kakavashaâyou are always facing each other, and he is always looking at you with his eyes you've always loved, and it always feels intimate. Never impersonal. Never dictated. Never forced.)
Aventurine is so honeysweet beneath you. More fragrant than any omega youâve ever been with. You glance at his commodity code, trying to ignore the scent of his branded skin, then lean down to press your face against the other side of his neck, where a faint scar mars the otherwise flawless slope of his nape. Like every other omega slave you've ever slept with, the scent gland there has been excised: a precautionary measure to reduce the risk of an unwanted mating bite.
(Not unwanted by themâthe wants of a slave never matterâbut unwanted by their owners. A mating bite would ruin the code seared into their neck, claim an omega more deeply and permanently than any titanium collar or carbon steel chain. It would hurt their resale value. Only owners are allowed to claim slaves in such a permanent wayâand the wants of a slave have no relevance there, either.)
It's a funny thing, this surgical scar. Even with their gland missing, you've noticed that most omegas like having their neck scented by you anyway, probably from some vestigial instinct. You guess that Aventurine won't be any different, that maybe it will comfort him. But when your lips skim the scar left on him by his owner, his entire body stiffens beneath you. His fragrance cuts into your lungs, sharp.
You recoil, as if burned by the touch of him.
âSorry,â Aventurine is quick to say. He tries to glance at you, but his diamond pupils quickly avoid you again. âDonât worry about me. Just do whatever you need to do.â
âBut you're scared,â you point out, and you see his brow twitch. âYouâre scared when I touch you.â
âNot scared,â he lies. âJustâŚâ
When his eyes finally look at youâland on your lipsâyou understand.
A bite would claim an omega more deeply and permanently than any titanium collar or carbon steel chain. If you lost your mindâgive into the insatiable lust of an alpha whenever around an omega in heatâyou might bite him, and then you would own Aventurine.
And Aventurine would rather die than be owned by anyone again.
He doesn't need to finish his sentence. You already know what you need to do.
âIt's okay,â you say gently, and his brow knots. âI have an idea.â
Aventurine is always afraid.
This is a fact that has haunted you since the day you met him. You've wondered about how to fix itâthe bare minimum as his mate (always his, even if he doesn't want you)âand youâve never quite pinned down how. Because when someone has spent their life in perpetual fear, how do you make them feel safe? When their life is constantly at risk, how do you ever make them feel calm?
You still aren't sure of the answer. But after seeing Kakavasha become Aventurine, you now have a good guess.
It is clear from his scent that Aventurine does not feel remotely safe right now. Not when you leave to fetch something from your own room, and not when you return. The anxiety thickens when he sees, in your hands, a very familiar muzzle.
Aventurine stares. He is not smiling, but he also does not reveal his discomfort on his face, even as beads of sweat line his temple. But his voice is too controlled, too calm, when he asks, âYou kept the mask.â
You nod.
âI told you to throw it out,â he points out, âwhen I freed you.â
âI know. Sorry. I don't know why I kept it.â You remember how tightly you clutched it before the incinerator, thinking about how strange it would feel, discarding something that you'd worn everyday since you presentedâbut you don't tell him this. Instead, you say, âBut itâs convenient.â
Before Aventurine can say anything, you toss him the remote.
âYouâre afraid of my bite and my Voice, but you don't have to be with this,â you explain. Your tone is gentle, soothing. Probably disarming coming from an alpha, with how he is in heat. Perhaps that's why heâs studying the remote rather than chucking it away. âYou'll be in full control if I wear this.â
Control. Mere seconds after you say it, you can smell his fragrance change again, mellowing. It's only a brief moment of calm that fades when you latch the mask onto your face, but he doesn't smell as nearly as stressed before.
Aventurine watches you carefully as the carbon steel swallows your maw, its old and familiar edges biting into you. For the first time in years, you cannot tell what he is thinkingâtruly poker-faced even to you.
âYou aren't bothered by wearing that thing while we do this,â he saysâasks?âand you shake your head. The muzzle was part of you for years. You were wearing it when you killed someone for the first time. You were wearing it when you went into rut for the first time. You were wearing it when your master had sex with you for the first time. It doesn't bother you that youâll wear it when you have sex with Aventurine.
If you could speak, you would ask him, Why do you think it would bother me? But all you do is gesture for him to sit up. To switch places with you. You lie downâsomething you've never done with an omegaâand wait for him to get on top.
Aventurine stares at you for a long, quiet moment. It's followed by a sigh of relief. Disarmed, heâfor the first time in any heat you've witnessedâfinally relaxes. His scent wafts over you as he climbs between your legs, and you can feel the heat radiating from his hands as he parts your thighs, almost scalding.
He doesn't bother getting you ready, too needy to think rationally, but he doesn't have to anyway. You've been wet ever since you felt his mouth touch your wrist, hard ever since you heard him groan into it. You're equally desperate to get some relief as you feel his cockhead sliding against your opening, leaking all over your entrance as his slick drips onto your thighs. His breath shakes as he enters you, and he can't hear it with how you're muzzledâbut you groan just as deeply as him at the tight stretch.
You hear him swear when you clench around him, watch him lean over you. His arms shake as he supports himself, refusing to succumb to his heat even as he chases his relief. You seek out his gaze (just as in your dreams, facing each other, intimate), and his neon eyes catch on your eyes for a brief, breathtaking secondâ
âbefore he looks away.
There's a flash ofâyou don't know what, maybe pain? Or fear?âin his irises as he does. A twitch of the brow, a tell he'd normally rather die than let slip. You have the realisation, as Aventurine moves inside you, that even while you're muzzled, even while he has complete control over youâhe still can't stand having sex with you. Probably because he can't stand being in heat in general, you tell yourself. Don't touch me, don't touch me, don't use it anymore, don't use me anymore. He'd have this reaction to anyone.
Stillâyou didn't expect him to have this reaction to you.
Your hands twitch, possessed by an old instinct to cover your eyes. But you'd probably scare Aventurine if you moved your arms, so all you do is dig your fingers into the sheets and squeeze them shut. You tell yourself again and again that he'd hate having sex with anyone in these circumstancesânot just you. And then you tell yourself, as a desperate, broken moan leaves his branded throat, that he would also come inside anyone in these circumstances, caught within the cruel grip of his heat.
Aventurine stills inside you as he finishes. He pants, sweat dripping down his temple as he shudders in his ecstasy, his spend hot and thick inside you. You can feel his fever break as he comes down from his high, the heat coming off his body easing into a manageable warmth.
Do you feel better, you try to say, but you can't move your mouth while your mask is on. So you wait patiently for Aventurine to come back to himself, watching him carefully as he pulls out and rolls onto the mattress beside you. He finally glances at you then. His eyes narrow once they land on you, confusion flicking through them. Then displeasure. He reaches for the remote.
To your surprise, he immediately punches in the code to unlock your muzzle. Aventurine has apparently remembered the numbers after all these years, as if the moment he freed you has been since seared into his memory.
âAre you okay?â is the first thing you say, and Aventurine gives you a confused look. Heâs still panting, dazed, so you ask, âCan I check your temperature?â And when he nods, you confirm your suspicion: he's still much too warm.
There is an ache between your legs and a strange hollow in your gut (because you aren't very experienced with receiving, you thinkâyour body likely just isn't used to the feeling of it), but you quickly forget them. All you can think of is Aventurine, and how heâs still unwell, and how you need to comfort him. The instinct is so strong that you don't even say anything as you get up, straightening out your clothes.
âAre you leaving?â Aventurine asks. His voice is neutral, completely unbothered, but the thought is so horrific to you that you turn back to him with wide eyes.
âOf course not. I'm going to get you water and medicine.â A beat. You stare at Aventurineâs eyes, then think about how he hid them from you during sex. The hollow feeling comes back, but it's mostly eclipsed by your anxiety at the next thought: â...do you want me to leave?â
âDo you want to?â
âIââ I'd rather die, you think. Being forced to leave him right now would feel like tearing out a piece of yourself. You don't know if there's an alpha in this world who could leave their mate in the middle of a heat. And even if he is unmarked, unattached to youâyou still think of yourself as his mate. (His, always his, even if he doesn't want you.) âI would prefer not to. I am your heat partner. I'm supposed to take care of you.â
You hear a quiet breath. âRight. Of course. You're always so conscientious.â Aventurine nods, as if convincing himself of something. âTry not to take too long.â
âIâll come back soon,â you promise, and the air sweetens. Encouraged, you add, voice gentle: âIâll bring that medication, and then we can have sex as many times as you need after I come back. I'll make sure you're not in any pain anymore.â You pause, studying him. âIs there anything else you need to feel better?â
His fragrance changes once more, this time in a way you don't totally recognize. âNo.â His voice sounds strange. His scent is still foreign, fluctuating, possibly hinting at some kind of pain. The heat must be getting to him againâand of course it wasn't enough, what you just did, what you can provide. He likely needs to be filled to get any kind of lasting relief, but you left him empty. âNo, that's all I want.â
You nod, forcing yourself to look calm. Ignoring the emptiness in your gut. It didn't feel bad, but you hope it'll feel better next time you have sex. You think it will. Alphas are supposed to be filled with an insatiable lust near omegas in heat, after all. And even though youâve never felt that beforeânever felt anything sleeping with all those omegas in your mistressâ houseâyou are sure you'll eventually feel it around Aventurine.
But the feeling never comes. Even though you can tell that his heat has returned by the time you're backâsweat beading his temples, laboured breaths at his lips, his bottoms now discarded, with full evidence of arousal between his legsâyou don't feel much of anything as you reach for your mask again.
âDon't,â Aventurine says, before it can clasp around your face. You give him a curious look. He explains, âDon't. I don't want to have sex again. Not yet.â
You stare at him, shifting. Uncomfortable. Uncertain. Not knowing how he wants to use you. âWhat can I do?â
He gives you a long look. âCome here. I⌠I want your scent gland.â
It's a sensible request. If there's a way to seek relief without fucking someoneâwithout fucking you, which he clearly hated doingâyou're sure Aventurine would prefer it. So you climb into his nest, holding your wrist out for him, andâ
âNo.â His voice is quiet. âI want the one on your neck.â
â...oh.â
You stand there, not sure where to move. If he wants you in his nest again, or if heâd rather do this standing. Youâre relieved when he demands, âLie down.â
You expect him to get on top of you when you do. Assume that he wants complete controlâbut he instead lies down beside you. Presses his body into yours, and then his face into your neck. His nose and lips brush against your scent gland, a full-body shudder running through him, andâ
âand now you know for a fact that it is a lie that alphas want nothing other than to fuck an omega when they're in heat. Because even like this, with his lips sweet on your neck, with the sheets soaked with his slick, with his spend leaking out of youâyou do not want to have sex with Aventurine. You only want to hold him. You only want him to keep scenting you. You only want to scent him back.
You only want him to feel safe.
You breathe in deeply, lungs flooded by honey. You think of what it felt like to hold him in that cold basement, when he was delirious with fever and pain, and you think about how different his scent is now. How much sweeter it is. How much calmer he feels.
âDo you feel better?â you ask, and he doesn't respond, but you know the answer. His hands come up to dig into your shirt, and he presses into you like you're a sweater in his nest. Silence blankets over you both, calm and warm. His laboured breath starts to improve.
He does eventually speak.
âHas anyone ever told you,â he says, âwhat you smell like?â
You stare at him. Your master used to say that you smelled good, but he'd never elaborated, and you hadn't wanted him to. âNo.â
Aventurine breathes in.
âYou smell likeââ A little sigh, shaking and feverish, leaves him. âYou smell like rain.â
Your eyebrows tick up. âRain?â
âYes. Or not just rain, butââhe pauses, next words quietââmore Iike after it rains. You smell like the desert after a rainfall.â
âOh.â You don't know what to say to that. Feeling distinctly like it's a silly question, you ask, âIs that a good scent?â
âSome would think so. Especially to people from the desert. You probably smell like a blessing to them. AlthoughâŚâ
Aventurine goes quiet again. You stare at the chandelier above you, all crystal and white gold, and wait.
âAlthough?â you prompt.
â...although I wouldn't really know,â he says. âItâs just a hunch. I bet it's why so many omegas on this planet like you.â
You couldn't care less about those other omegas. All you care about is Aventurine. âAnd?â you say. âDo you like my scent?â
His reply never comes. He just breathes deeply again, seeking relief from your neckânot intimacy. Any alphaâs scent would work; that doctor told you so. Any alphaâs touch would work, too. There are no special feelings involved here. Your place in the world is one of a tool, and tools are never especially liked nor disliked. Their value exists only in how they can be used.
You don't know why you even bothered to ask the question.
But then something strange happens: Aventurine curls against you, pressing even further into you. His lashes flutter against your pulse again; it ticks up in response, beating fast against his lips.
âI do,â he says quietly. âI do like it.â
You swallow. âBut I guess that's because you're in heat. Any alpha would smell good to you, wouldnât they?â
âNo.â His fingers dig into the fabric of your shirt. âNo, I like it because it's yours.â
You know better than to read too much into his response. Aventurine had already said it earlier: No foreign scents. He's only tolerating this whole arrangement because you don't smell unfamiliar to him. Only able to use you because you are the least threatening option.
But the words break something in youâbreak the thing that made you unable to throw out that little pouch of copper coins that you were saving up for Kakavashaâs freedom, the part of you that made you wear that carbon-steel mask for him. It is this part of you that has your eyes squeezing shut and your arms wrapping around him. You know heâll recoil, reject you, but just this onceâyou need to try.
Aventurine doesn't push you away.
He melts into you instead, inhaling deeply. Your scent gland tingles with the warmth of his breath, the feeling of his lips. He seemsâcomfortable.
You can't fathom why heâs staying in your arms. Perhaps he's simply desperate for some kind of relief from his heat, just like when you held him in the basement while he was delirious from pain. But Aventurine had spoken to you with clarity just now, and his skin doesn't feel scalding so much as warm, and his scent is so different than from that moment. So sweet and so gentle, without a trace of fear. It makes your heart squeeze. As much as you've always wanted Aventurine to feel safe, you'd never imagined that his scent would be so beautiful when he is.
It makes your heart ache. You've never held anything so lovely before, and youâve never felt so warm before, and it all makes up for how badly it hurt to let Aventurine inside you. How hollow it made you feel to let him use you. How none of that matters as long as you can keep him safe like this, because you belong to Kakavasha. You'll always belong to Kakavasha, in a fate that was chosen for you on the day you met him.
You're his, always hisâeven if heâll never want you.
end part i
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#彥 favorites.#cw slavery#cw racism#cw violence#cw sa mention#the first sentence with the block letters ): it says Iâve always love you ??? gonna go cry now (I already did last night)#âyour eyes went soft. beneath the artificial fragrance / you finally caught a hint of his family scentâ âthe way it always is when heâs#scared.â THIS LINE BROKE MY HEART. his facade is not facading . WE KNOW. WE WILL ALWAYS KNOW#ânothing of valueâ god dammit aventurine i want to shake his shoulders so bad. this is killing me#OMG THE COIN PURSE PART. THE READER IS SO SWEET )))))): OMG. I remember the face I made at that part /pos and I did tear up quite a bit#âyou never let me do my jobâ YEAH. whatâs up with that ????????? aventurine u turd. I WANT HIM TO LET US LOVE HIM SOOOO BAD HGGGRRRRRRRRRRR#âno im actually a great liar. youâre just too good at reading me. itâs very inconvenient you know.â okay i donât know how to explain how i#feel. but can I say I heard this perfectly in his voice ? and it made me react some way. like jaw fell open kind of way. your characteriza#UGH I HATE THE TAG LIMIT characterization** IS SO GOOD I CAN HEAR EVERYTHING IN MY HEAD itâs like a movie is playing in my brain mhm mhm!!!#also the part where we keep repeating aventurine over and over and he keeps talking about what he could buy ): LISTEN TO MMMMMEMEEEEEEEHHRH#âit went against every instinct not to touch himâ THIS IS WHAT I MEANT in my word dump )): trying so hard but so conflicted because#as an alpha you can make it better for him. but he doesnât want that so u respect it. but heâs in so much pain ): UGHHHHHHHHHH#the sweater part . are you serious /pos. this is such a cute little detail ): Iâm gonna start sobbing again can we give him the world#âeverything smells like youâ im sorry đ we donât have much to work with mr aventurine BUT HE SAID âI donât mind itâ SOđĽşđĽşđĽş#âcopperâ âthey want it for the copperâ the way I started laughing because r u serious . Iâm actually a little . brow twitched. BROW TWITCHE#oh okay the copper! right. the copper. (the table flips over) be so fr rn /pos#the entire wrist scene I read with one hand over an eye and also hidden under my blankets because I was so tense HEJDKCKJCKD#âaventurine would rather die than be owned againâ my heart shattered into pieces at this btw#him still remembering the pass to the muzzle ): and the âare you leavingâ im literally gonna cry all over again /pos#the neck scent gland fucked me up so bad. and the rain scent. and he likes it because itâs ours . x _ x / T_T#i have thoughts about your other fic but I will probably write them tomorrow because now I would like to re-re-re-read this one đ
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KINGDOM OF ASH (by SJM)
Chapter 48
THE FAMILY REUINIONđĽšđđđŤś& MY SOULLL
But when they reached Princess Hasar's battle tent, when they had all gathered around a map of Anielle, they had only a few minutes of discussion before they were interrupted. By the person Chaol least expected to walk through the flaps.
A moment later, Chaol was glad he was sitting down.
Nesryn breathed, "Holy gods."
Chaol was inclined to agree as Aelin Galathynius, Rowan Whitethorn, and several others entered the tent.
They were mud-splattered, the Queen of Terrasen's braided hair far longer than Chaol had last seen. And her eyes ... Not the soft, yet fiery gaze. But something older. Wearier.
Chaol shot to his feet. "I thought you were in Terrasen," he blurted. All the reports had confirmed it. Yet here she stood, no army in sight.
Three Fae males-towering warriors as broad and muscled as Rowanâhad entered, along with a delicate, dark-haired human woman.
But Aelin was only staring at him. Staring and staring at him.
No one spoke as tears began sliding down her face. Not at his being here, Chaol realized as he took up his cane and limped toward Aelin.
But at him. Standing. Walking.
The young queen let out a broken laugh of joy and flung her arms around his neck. Pain lanced down his spine at the impact, but Chaol held her right back, every question fading from his tongue.
Aelin was shaking as she pulled away. "I knew you would," she breathed, gazing down his body, to his feet, then up again. "I knew you'd do it."
"Not alone," he said thickly. Chaol swallowed, releasing Aelin to extend an arm behind him. To the woman he knew stood there, a hand over the locket at her neck.
Perhaps Aelin would not remember, perhaps their encounter years ago had meant nothing to her at all, but Chaol drew Yrene forward. "Aelin, allow me to introduce"
"Yrene Towers," the queen breathed as his wife stepped to his side.
The two women stared at each other.
Yrene's mouth quivered as she opened the silver locket and pulled out a piece of paper. Hands trembling, she extended it to the queen. Aelin's own hands shook as she accepted the scrap.
"Thank you," Yrene whispered.
Chaol supposed it was all that really needed to be said.
Aelin unfolded the paper, reading the note she'd written, seeing the lines from the hundreds of foldings and rereadings these past few years.
"I went to the Torre," Yrene said, her voice cracking. "I took the money you gave me, and went to the Torre. And I became the heir apparent to the Healer on High. And now I have come back, to do what I can. I taught every healer I could the lessons you showed me that night, about self-defense. I didn't waste it-not a coin you gave me, or a moment of the time, the life you bought me." Tears were rolling and rolling down Yrene's face. "I didn't waste any of it."
Aelin closed her eyes, smiling through her own tears, and when she opened them, she took Yrene's shaking hands. "Now it is my turn to thank you." But Aelin's gaze fell upon the wedding band on Yrene's finger, and when she glanced to Chaol, he grinned.
"No longer Yrene Towers," Chaol said softly, "but Yrene Westfall."
Aelin let out one of those choked, joyous laughs, and Rowan stepped up to her side.
Yrene's head tilted back to take in the warrior's full height, her eyes widening-not only at Rowan's size, but at the pointed ears, the slightly elongated canines and tattoo. Aelin said, "Then let me introduce you, Lady Westfall, to my own husband, Prince Rowan Whitethorn Galathynius."
For that was indeed a wedding band on the queen's finger, the emerald mud-splattered but bright. On Rowan's own hand, a gold-and-ruby ring gleamed.
"My mate," Aelin added, fluttering her lashes at the Fae male. Rowan rolled his eyes, yet couldn't entirely contain his smile as he inclined his head to Yrene.
Yrene bowed, but Aelin snorted. "None of that, please. It'll go right to his immortal head." Her grin softened as Yrene blushed, and Aelin held up the scrap of paper. "May I keep this?" She eyed Yrene's locket. "Or does it go in there?"
Yrene folded the queen's fingers around the paper. "It is yours, as it always was. A piece of your bravery that helped me find my own."
Aelin shook her head, as if to dismiss the claim.
But Yrene squeezed Aelin's closed hand. "It gave me courage, the words you wrote. Every mile I traveled, every long hour I studied and worked, it gave me courage. I thank you for that, too."
Aelin swallowed hard, and Chaol took that as excuse enough to sit again, his back giving a grateful tinge. He said to the queen, "There is another person responsible for this army being here." He gestured to Nesryn, the woman already smiling at the queen. "The rukhin you see, the army gathered, is as much because of Nesryn as it is because of me."
A spark lit Aelin's eyes, and both women met halfway in a tight embrace. "I want to hear the entire story," Aelin said. "Every word of it." Nesryn's subdued smile widened. "So you shall. But later." Aelin clapped her on the shoulder and turned to the two royals still by the desk. Tall and regal, but as mud-splattered as the queen.
Chaol blurted, "Dorian?"
Rowan answered, "Not with us." He glanced to the royals.
"They know everything," Nesryn said
"He's with Manon," Aelin said simply.
Chaol wasn't entirely sure whether to be relieved. "Hunting for something important."
The keys. Holy gods.
Aelin nodded. Later. He'd think on where Dorian might now be later. Aelin nodded again. The full story would come then too.
Nesryn said, "May I present Princess Hasar and Prince Sartaq."
Aelin bowedâlow. "You have my eternal gratitude," Aelin said, and the voice that came out of her was indeed that of a queen. Any shock Sartaq and Hasar had shown upon the queen bowing so low was hidden as they bowed back, the portrait of courtly grace.
"My father," Sartaq said, "remained in the khaganate to oversee our lands, along with our siblings Duva and Arghun. But my brother Kashin sails with the rest of the army. He was not two weeks behind us when we left."
Aelin glanced to Chaol, and he nodded.
Something glittered in her eyes at the confirmation, but the queen jerked her chin at Hasar. "Did you get my letter?"
The letter that Aelin had sent months ago, begging for aid and promising only a better world in return. Hasar picked at her nails. "Perhaps. I get far too many letters from fellow princesses these days to possibly remember or answer all of them."
Aelin smirked, as if the two of them spoke a language no one else could understand, a special code between two equally arrogant and proud women. But she motioned to her companions, who stepped forward. "Allow me to introduce my friends. Lord Gavriel, of Doranelle." A nod toward the tawny-eyed and golden-haired warrior who bowed.
Tattoos covered his neck, his hands, but his every motion was graceful. "My uncle, of sorts," Aelin added with a smirk at Gavriel. At Chaol's narrowed brows, she explained, "He's Aedion's father."
"Well, that explains a few things," Nesryn muttered.
The hair, the broad-planed face ... yes, it was the same. But where Aedion was fire, Gavriel seemed to be stone. Indeed, his eyes were solemn as he said, "Aedion is my pride." Emotion rippled over Aelin's face, but she gestured to the dark-haired male. Not someone Chaol ever wanted to tangle with, he decided as he surveyed the granite-hewn features, the black eyes and unsmiling mouth.
"Lorcan Salvaterre, formerly of Doranelle, and now a blood-sworn member of my court." As if that weren't a shock enough, Aelin winked at the imposing male. Lorcan scowled. "We're still in the adjustment period," she loudly whispered, and Yrene chuckled.
Lorcan Salvaterre. Chaol hadn't met the male this spring in Rifthold, but he'd heard all about him. That he'd been Maeve's most trusted commander, her most loyal and fierce warrior.
That he'd wanted to kill Aelin, hated Aelin.
How this had come about, why she was not in Terrasen with her army ... "You, too, have a tale to tell," Chaol said.
"Indeed I do." Aelin's eyes guttered, and Rowan put a hand on her lower back. Badâ something terrible had occurred. Chaol scanned Aelin for any hint of it. He stopped when he noticed the smoothness of the skin at her neck. The lack of scars. The missing scars on her hands, her palms. "Later," Aelin said softly. She straightened her shoulders, and another golden-haired male came forward. Beautiful. That was the only way to describe him. "Fenrys ... You know, I don't actually know your family name."
Fenrys threw a roguish wink at the queen.
"Moonbeam."
"It is not," Aelin hissed, choking on a laugh.
Fenrys laid a hand on his heart. "I am blood-sworn to you. Would I lie?"
Another blood-sworn Fae male in her court.
Across the tent, Sartaq cursed in his own tongue. As if he'd heard of Lorcan, and Gavriel, and Fenrys.
Aelin gave Fenrys a vulgar gesture that set Hasar chuckling, and faced the royals. "They're barely housebroken. Hardly fit for your fine company." Even Sartaq smiled at that. But it was to the small, delicate woman that Aelin now gestured. "And the only civilized member of my court, Lady Elide Lochan of Perranth." Perranth. Chaol had combed through the family trees of Terrasen just this winter, had seen the lists of so many royal households crossed out, victim to the conquest ten years ago.
Elide's name had been among them.
Another Terrasen royal who had managed to evade Adarlan's butchers.
The pretty young woman took a limping step forward, and bobbed a curtsy to the royals. Her boots concealed any sign of the source of the injury, but Yrene's attention shot right to her leg. Her ankle. "It's an honor to meet all of you," Elide said, her voice low and steady. Her dark eyes swept over them, cunning and clear. Like she could see beneath their skin and bones, to the souls beneath.
Aelin wiped her hands. "Well, that's over and done with," she announced, and strode to the desk and map. "Shall we discuss where you all plan to march once we beat the living shit out of this army?"
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How to Write a Confession of Love
Build the Emotional Tension Before the big confession, let the tension simmer between the characters. Maybe they share little glances across the room, or their hands brush accidentally but neither pulls away. Every shared laugh or lingering look should leave the reader wondering âIs this it?â When the confession finally happens, itâll feel like the natural next step, as if both characters have been teetering on the edge of admitting their feelings for a while.
Inner Turmoil Leading Up to the Moment No oneâs ever totally confident before saying, âI like you,â or âI love you.â Show the characterâs inner freak-out. Maybe theyâre wondering if theyâre about to ruin everything, or if the other person feels the same. Let them overthink every detail, what if they mess it up? What if they say the wrong thing? This nervousness is super relatable and makes the confession way more intense and vulnerable.
Choose the Right Setting Where the confession happens can completely change the vibe. If itâs somewhere quiet and personal, like on the roof under the stars or sitting close on a couch, it adds a sense of intimacy. But maybe itâs in the middle of a party or a chaotic situation, where emotions are running high and everythingâs on the line. The setting should fit the emotionsâare they scared? Excited? Confused? Let the environment match their energy.
Donât Make It Perfect Real life is messy, and confessions of love are no different. Maybe the character fumbles their words, says something awkward, or has to start over. Maybe they get interrupted, or they laugh nervously halfway through. These imperfections make the moment feel real. Itâs not about saying the perfect words, itâs about whatâs in their heart. Let the raw, unpolished feelings shine through.
Balance Between Show and Tell Obviously, theyâre going to say something like âI love youâ or âI canât stop thinking about you,â but actions and body language speak just as loudly. Maybe their voice cracks, they shift closer without realizing it, or they canât seem to meet the other personâs eyes. Maybe their hands are shaking, or their heart is pounding so loud they canât hear anything else. Let those little details paint the full picture of how much this confession means.
The Other Personâs Reaction Itâs not just about the person confessing, the other personâs reaction is a huge part of the scene. Are they completely shocked? Do they hesitate, or respond right away? Do they get teary-eyed or try to play it cool? The way they react adds layers to the moment. Even a pause before answering can make the scene ten times more intense. Their response shows how much theyâve been waiting for or dreading this confession too.
In short, make it messy, emotional, and real. Readers want to feel the build-up, the fear, the excitement, and the vulnerability of both characters. Donât be afraid to make things a little awkward or imperfect, thatâs what makes a confession unforgettable.
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Baby gojo and daddy gojo not wanting to share mama gojođâi-
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aww this is so cute of course this is the first i worked on after getting back from my weekend break <3 and actually i have this one similar ask too so i combined yours with theirs! here's some cute blinking gojo in phantom parade and okay now let us have some crack and make gojo suffer
a part of gojo's love entries
general masterlist
âbwah!â a nudge.
âmyah!â a shove.
and thenâ
âwaaa!â a⌠slap (?) on the cheek.
âhuh?â satoru winced, touching where the babyâs palm just connected with his face, blinking rapidly. so he wasnât imagining things. this really was happening in front of his eyes.
and it was the babyâhis baby.
your giggles filled the air in response.
âhey, you,â satoru took on a very stern look and an exaggerated frown, glaring at his own son. the baby merely babbled at him innocently, blinking his wide crystal blue eyes that mirrored his. âbad, bad minion. this is a very serious issue. you shouldnât do that, you hear?â
the serious issue being each time he tried to lean closer to steal a kiss from you, your son always found a way to repel him away with his tiny hands.
you snorted at his righteous tone. âheâs just protecting me. even your kid knows youâre a danger.â
a gasp left your husbandâs shiny lips, mockingly in disbelief. âme? a danger? i make your life a heaven on earth!â
âheavâpfftââ
âi give you love, food, my bodyââ he emphasized, pointing at himself for a dramatic effect, and you threw your head back, dissolving into a fit of laughter even more, ââheck, i even give you this naughty baby!â
âwhaâno! thatâs team effort!â
âstill! and now he is staging an uprising against me?â satoru cheekily eyed his child, who was now clutching the fabric of your blouse, tiny fingers playing with the shiny diamonds of your necklaceâa gift from satoru too, actually.
âlook at him go,â he grumbled, his eyes following each little movement his son made, then dramatically yelped when the boy pawed at your breasts. âhey! no touching! those are mine!â
âplease.â you almost choked on your laugh. your silly husband always had a way to make things sound funnier than they actually were, and that was what made you fall in love with him more each day, really. âthe milk is his!â
âhe can have the cowâs! and more importantly, itâs thanks to me that youâre so milkyââ
âsatoru! youâre so uncouth i canâtâ!â
âsee? youâre laughing so much! this proves enough that i make you happy every day!â
later that night, after you put your baby to sleep in his crib, satoru gently poked his cheek, his expression tender despite his pursed lips. âhe is out like a lightâŚâ
satoru might whine a lot, but ultimately, you couldnât miss the look of adoration and fondness that made him the father of your child. even without saying it out loud, you knew that he would willingly put everything aside and sacrifice anythingâfirst of all, himselfâif it was meant for his dearest, most precious treasure.
knowing he'd do the same for you only served to melt your heart even more. and you felt fullâso full, in fact, with warmth and love and anything that was soft.
you really do love him, donât you?
âlook at him, heâs like a shrimp,â your husband pointed out, still gazing at his baby in wonder as he kept poking and prodding at the chonky rolls of his little arms, and you thought, nothing could have been more precious than this.
âsatoru.â
âyeah?â he turned instantly at the sound of his name, but before he could react furtherâ
you stood on your tiptoes and planted a swift smooch on his cheek, putting the overflowing love you held for him in it. âmwah!â
ââŚ?!â
for the next three seconds, satoru malfunctioned. the brush of your sweet lips on his cheek was so innocent that he was rendered speechless. heat steadily gathered on his face, turning him pink despite himself.
âyouâŚâ he groaned, collecting himself, a dopey smile was quickly plastered on his face to cover up his setback as you burst into hearty laughter. ânow youâve started itâŚâ and then he latched on you with a glint of a joker, launching a full-blown tickle attack.
âaâah! why?! satoru! ahahahaha!â
. . .
safe to say, your wheezes effectively awoke your son from his slumber, and as a bit of payback, you left satoru in the dust to deal with the crying baby, both of them whimpering in unison since he had absolutely no clue how to comfort the little one.
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Husband?
About: How does he react when you accidentally call him your 'husband'? Pairing: Reader x Xavier, Zayne, Rafayel, Sylus (Seperate) Note: Reader and the men are in a relationship. My inbox is open for prompts and requests :)
RAFAYEL
The evening was going smoother than expected, considering Rafayel had dragged you along to one of his many gallery showings. He had made a big deal about how you should be the one showing off his work to the public, claiming he didnât want to deal with the âart-snobs." Yet, the second you both arrived, he quickly preoccupied himself on his phone, leaving you to handle most of the small talk.
One of the visitors, a curious older woman, was admiring a painting of his, a chaotic burst of color with soft hints of golden light. You were discussing Rafayelâs "creative process" (whatever that wasâhe hadn't told you much before retreating to his phone), when she asked how long youâd been working with him.
âOh, itâs been a while now. Itâs honestly amazing seeing him grow like thisâmy husbââ You froze mid-sentence, realizing the slip just as it left your mouth.
"Husband?"
The word hung in the air for barely a second before you felt Rafayelâs presence shift. His head shot up like a bolt of lightning, his playful, cunning eyes locking onto yours. You could practically feel his grin before you even dared to glance over. You didnât even need to turn around to feel his gaze burning into you, practically shouting, Oh? Husband, you say?
âHusband, huh?â Rafayel drawled, pocketing his phone and sauntering toward you with that signature smirk of his. âI didnât realize we were making things official tonight. If Iâd known, Iâd have worn something even more dazzling.â
You flushed, attempting to stammer out a correction, but he was far too pleased to let you off the hook that easily. He leaned casually against the gallery wall, one arm crossing his chest as he dramatically placed a hand over his heart.
He gently took your hand in his, his dramatic flair dialed up to maximum as he pressed an exaggerated kiss to your knuckles, clearly relishing the moment. "I mean, I canât say Iâm surprised. Who wouldnât want to marry someone as charming as me?"
The visitor chuckled awkwardly, clearly not sure whether to stay or go, but Rafayel was already having way too much fun. âOf course, as your loving husband,â he continued, drawing out the word in a singsong voice, âitâs only fitting that Iâm showered with even more attention now, isnât it? I expect lots of praise, darling. I mean, just look at me." He struck a faux thought-provoking pose, tilting his head and flipping a lock of his perfectly tousled hair.
You felt your cheeks burn with embarrassment, but at the same time, his antics made you laugh. âI didnât mean toâ"
"Oh no, no,â he interrupted, wagging his finger playfully. âYou canât take it back now. The wordâs out, Miss Bodyguard. Youâve called me your husband. That means youâre stuck with me. Forever.â There was a mischievous glint in his eyes as he leaned in closer, his voice dropping to a teasing whisper. âDoes this mean I get to cheat at board games forever too?â
You groaned, rolling your eyes as you playfully swatted at his shoulder. âAs if you needed a reason to cheat more!â
Rafayel laughed, that familiar bratty grin plastered across his face. âWell, if Iâm your husband now, I think itâs only fair I get first dibs on everything. Cards, claw machinesâoh, and donât forget, I demand the comfiest seat when we binge-watch our shows.â
Despite his teasing, the warmth in his eyes made your heart skip a beat. You could see the genuine delight he took in your slip-up, how pleased he was at the thought, even if heâd never admit it outright.
âFine, fine,â you sighed dramatically, playing along. âBut donât expect me to let you win at everything, âhusband.ââ
Rafayel beamed, and for a moment, that bratty, carefree mask of his slipped, just a little. He tugged you closer, his voice softening as he murmured, âDeal.â Then, just as quickly, he switched back to his usual, cheeky self. âNow, letâs go, wife. Youâre required to be by my side while I survive this boring night. â
Shaking your head, you laughed, unable to hide the smile creeping onto your lips. âYouâre impossible.â
The woman, watching the scene unfold with a warm smile, laughed. âYou two make quite the pair.â
âOh, we do, donât we?â Rafayel quipped before lowering his voice just enough for only you to hear, leaning in ever so slightly. âYouâve really outdone yourself, calling me that in front of witnesses. Now theyâll all expect a wedding invitation.â
Your face burned as you tried to shush him, but he was loving every second of it. He tilted his head, his hair catching the light as his smile softened into something more genuine, the bratty exterior fading just a bit. âStill⌠I canât say I hate the sound of it,â he murmured, brushing a finger lightly under your chin before pulling back with a playful wink. âI might just get used to hearing it.â
You could only manage a huff of exasperation, but deep down, you couldnât help but feel a flutter at the way his teasing had just a hint of sincerity behind it.
Rafayel, always dramatic, and yet somehow, just when you least expected it, a little bit sweet.
ZAYNE
You and Zayne were in the middle of your usual weekly grocery run, efficiently dividing and conquering your list to save time. Heâd taken off towards the produce section while you headed for the rice aisle. As you browsed the different varieties, a middle-aged man beside you struggled with lifting a heavy bag of rice.
"Need a hand?" you asked, stepping in to help. The man smiled gratefully as you hoisted the bag into his cart with ease.
"Thank you, young lady," he said, rubbing his wrist. "My arthritis is flaring up today. Getting oldâs no fun."
You offered him a sympathetic smile. âNo problem at all. My husbandâs a doctor, actually. Iâm sure heâd tell you to take it easy on that wrist."
The man nodded in agreement, offering you one last thanks before heading off. You turned back to your cart, completely unaware of the word you had just let slipâhusbandâor the fact that Zayne had returned in time to hear it.
You felt him step up behind you, his presence calm yet undeniably magnetic. When you finally glanced over, he was standing there, hands in his pockets, a small, amused smile playing at the corner of his lips.
"Husband, hmm?" he said softly, his tone more curious than teasing. "That's... new."
You froze for a second, eyes widening as you realized what youâd said. Â You opened your mouth, the words tripping over each other in a rush. âI didnâtâ I mean, it justâslipped out. Weâre not actuallyâI mean, obviously, weâre notââ You could feel the heat creeping up your neck, and no amount of backpedaling was helping.
Zayne didnât seem in a rush to let you off the hook. His hand found yours, fingers intertwining with an ease that made your heart stutter. âYou know,â he said, voice as calm as ever, âif this is your way of bringing it up, there are smoother ways to do it.â His teasing was subtle, barely perceptible if you didnât know him well, but it was there in the gentle tug of his smile.
You groaned, pressing a hand to your forehead. âZayne, I didnât mean toââ
But Zayne, ever level-headed, merely took your hand in his, his thumb gently brushing against your knuckles. âRelax,â he said, his voice low and soothing. âItâs not like I mind the idea.â
Your heart skipped a beat at that, and you looked up at him in surprise. There was a softness in his usually stoic gaze, the kind that made your stomach flip. He continued, his voice measured but affectionate, âSeems like the next logical step, doesnât it? My parents have been asking me when Iâm going to take that step with you for a while now.â
His calm tone made the statement feel both casual and monumental at the same time. âWait, your parentsâŚ?â you started, blinking as your brain processed this new information.
âMhm,â Zayne replied, still holding your hand as though it was the most natural thing in the world. âTheyâve been pretty vocal about it, actually. But Iâve been waiting for the right moment.â
The right moment. Those words hung in the air, and you could feel the weight of what he was saying. He was seriousâcalm and casual, as always, but serious. Your breath caught, and for a moment, the world around you seemed to fade into the background. It was just you and Zayne in that grocery aisle, hands linked, talking about a future you hadnât even realized you both wanted.
âOnly if you wanted to, of course,â he added, his thumb still tracing soft circles on your hand. âI wouldnât do anything unless we both agreed.â
You stared at him, a smile slowly spreading across your face despite the initial shock. âYouâre really suggesting this now? In the middle of a grocery store?â
Zayne smirked, his usual pragmatic self. âWell, weâre already talking about it. Might as well make use of the time.â He glanced down at your joined hands, his tone softening again. âBesides, I think itâs worth discussing what our future looks like, donât you?â
Your heart swelled at his words, and the warmth of his hand in yours was enough to make you feel grounded, no matter how your emotions were spinning. âYeah,â you said, smiling as you squeezed his hand gently. âI think itâs definitely worth talking about.â
Zayne leaned in closer, his lips brushing your temple in a rare public display of affection. âGood,â he murmured, his voice filled with a quiet kind of affection that made your chest tighten. âWeâll talk more later.â
He pulled away just as smoothly, picking up the cart with a practiced ease, as though he hadnât just suggested the two of you start planning your future together. His eyes twinkled, a subtle tease hiding behind that usual calm exterior of his.
âAnd for the record,â he added, as the two of you moved on to the next aisle, âI wouldnât mind hearing you call me âhusbandâ again.â
Your cheeks heated again, but this time, you didnât bother trying to hide your smile. âGuess youâll have to earn it first, doctor.â
Zayne chuckled softly, that familiar, grounded confidence in his voice. âIâll be sure to work on that.â
SYLUS
The desert sun was relentless, and you could feel its heat pressing down on you as you stood beside Sylus, waiting to be seated inside the restaurant. He had dragged you out of Linkon on one of his mysterious venturesâno explanation, no warning, just the two of you thrust into the desert with little more than his cryptic directions. And while Sylus might have thrived in the N109 Zone's shadowy world, he was decidedly out of place here in the glaring sunlight,already starting to show hints of discomfort.
You glanced over at him, squinting slightly under the bright light. His expression was carefully controlled as always, but you noticed how his hand twitched subtly as if annoyed by the heat. The two of you had been waiting to be seated inside for a while now, and you decided it was time to speed things up.
Catching the attention of a passing waitress, you waved her over, putting on your best expression of concern. âExcuse me, my husband and I were hoping to be seated inside. Iâm feeling a little faint under the harsh sun,â you said smoothly, the lie of you feeling faint rolling off your tongue with ease.
The word husband had slipped out so naturally, you didnât even realize your mistake until the waitress nodded sympathetically and promised to get you a table indoors right away. As she walked off, you felt a cold gaze slide over you, and you turned to see Sylus staring down at you, one brow raised, a slow, dangerous smile creeping across his face.
âHusband?â His voice was smooth, but there was a teasing lilt beneath it. âDid I miss a wedding, wife?â
Your breath caught in your throat. "Waitâno, I didn't meanâ" You started to stammer, heat rising to your cheeks, but before you could backtrack any further, Sylusâ arm slid around your waist, pulling you closer to his side. His grip was firm, possessive, and you could feel the smug amusement radiating off of him.
âI like the sound of that,â he murmured, leaning in just close enough for you to catch the scent of the desert air still clinging to his clothes. His lips ghosted near your ear, his voice dropping to a near-whisper. âMaybe this is a sign I should make it official.â
You swallowed hard, heart racing as you tried to keep your composure. âOfficial?â you echoed, your voice coming out a little more breathless than you intended. âWhatâwhat are you talking about?â
Sylusâ smirk widened, his amber eyes gleaming in the sun. âOh? Cat got your tongue, Sweetie?â he teased, his tone dripping with amusement as he let his fingers trace a light circle on your hip. âYou seemed so sure a moment ago, wife. But now? Speechless.â
You blinked, trying to gather your wits, but the sheer cockiness in his tone was making it hard to think straight. âIâŚI was justâŚhelping us get a table,â you protested weakly, trying to pull away from his grip, but his hold only tightened.
âOh, Iâm sure you were,â he drawled, clearly reveling in your flustered state. âBut now that youâve set the bar so high, donât tell me youâre going to back out on me. After all, you made quite the declaration back there.â
âI wasnâtââ You huffed, narrowing your eyes at him as you regained a sliver of your usual confidence. âYou know it was a slip-up, Sylus. Donât start getting ideas.â
He chuckled darkly, the sound sending a shiver down your spine. âIdeas? Sweetie, I live for ideas.â His grip loosened just enough to let you step back, but the way he looked at you made it clear he wasnât about to let you wriggle out of this one easily. âBut letâs be honest, you didnât hate it. Calling me your husband.â
Your face flushed again, but this time, you managed to meet his gaze without faltering. âI didnât hate it,â you admitted, folding your arms, âbut donât go thinking youâve won. Iâm not about to sign any papers just because you liked hearing it.â
Sylus tilted his head, the playful smile never leaving his lips. âWeâll see about that, kittenâ he said, the threatâor promiseâhanging in the air between you as the waitress returned to guide you inside.
You rolled your eyes, trying to ignore the butterflies in your stomach. âPlease, Sylus. You couldnât handle being married to me.â
He raised an eyebrow, leaning in with that infuriating smirk. âOh, I think I could handle you just fine, sweetheart. Youâre the one who might need to keep up.â
You shot back, âKeep up? Iâd be carrying you the whole way.â
âCareful, Sweetie. That sounds an awful lot like a challenge.â He chuckled, his hand brushing against yours again. âNow thatâs a tempting thought.â
âTempting? Try exhausting,â you quipped.
As you walked beside him, you felt his arm brush against yours, and the sensation lingered far longer than it should have. Sylus, of course, said nothing, though the smug expression never quite left his face.
This was clearly far from over. And judging by the glint in his eye, Sylus was going to make sure you never forgot your little slip-up.
XAVIER
The cafĂŠ was quiet, filled with the soft murmur of patrons and the comforting smell of fresh pastries. You and Xavier had settled in for a peaceful afternoon, your table already adorned with a delightful array of treats. He had requested a simple drinkâno whipped cream. The barista returned, placing his drink in front of him with an impressive mountain of whipped cream on top. Xavier, as calm and indifferent as ever, simply blinked at it, showing no signs of complaint. He wasnât going to say a word about it, but that didnât mean you were going to let it slide.
Excusing yourself, you raised a hand and called over a passing staff member. âExcuse me,â you began, with a polite smile. âMy husband asked for no whipped cream on his drink, but it looks like thereâs some here by mistake. Would it be alright for us to get it changed?â
The words tumbled out so smoothly that you didnât even realize your slip-up until the staff member nodded apologetically and hurried back to fix the order. It was only when you turned back around that you saw Xavier sitting there, looking unusually... stunned.
He was blinking slowly at you, his expression softened by a hint of confusion andâwas that amusement? âHusband?â he repeated, his soft voice barely more than a murmur.
Your face flushed as you fumbled for an explanation. âOh, no, waitâ! I didnât meanââ You stammered, desperately trying to backtrack. âThat just slipped out! I meant to sayâŚuh my boyfriend? Partner? Date? Notâwell, not husband, obviouslyâŚâ
Xavier continued to blink, his face now showing just a little more expression than usual. The faintest curl of a smile played on his lips, and he tilted his head, considering your words. âI mustâve missed that chapter in the 'Guide to a Healthy Relationship,'â he said in that calm, unruffled way of his. âI didnât know weâd moved on to the husband-and-wife stage.â
You groaned inwardly, burying your face in your hands. âI swear, it was an accident. Just ignore what I said.â
But Xavier was clearly in no mood to let it go. âSo, dear wife,â he continued, completely unfazed by your protests, âdo you think weâll have matching mugs in our future? Maybe get a nice house, with a small garden and a picket fence?â
You shot him a playful glare, but the way he was looking at you made it impossible to stay annoyed. âVery funny,â you muttered, though your lips were twitching at the corners, betraying your amusement.
âI think it has a nice ring to it,â Xavier said, leaning back in his chair, clearly enjoying this far more than you expected. âI wonder how long it would take for people in the association to start sending us wedding gifts. Or perhaps they'd just send weapons... you know, as a gesture of goodwill.â
You couldnât help but laugh. âI donât think wedding gifts are really their style, Xavier.â
âHmm, youâre probably right,â he said thoughtfully, then leaned in slightly, lowering his voice conspiratorially. âBut you did call me your husband in public. Shouldnât we at least play the part now?â
Your cheeks were burning, but you couldnât resist playing along with his ridiculousness. âFine,â you said, crossing your arms and raising an eyebrow. âBut just so you know, dear husband, youâll be the one doing the dishes.â
Xavier chuckled softly, the sound rare and surprisingly warm. âAs long as you take care of meals. A fair trade.â
You were about to retort when the waitress returned with Xavierâs newly corrected drinkâthis time, free of whipped cream. She set it down with a smile, glancing between the two of you as if sheâd picked up on the playful atmosphere. âHere you go,â she said. âNo whipped cream this time, sir.â
Xavierâs eyes glinted as he thanked her with a nod, and after she left, he looked back at you with a satisfied expression. âSee? Husband perks,â he teased, taking a sip of his drink.
You rolled your eyes, but you couldnât hide the smile spreading across your face. âYouâre an idiot.â
âAnd youâre adorable when youâre flustered,â he said, the teasing lilt in his voice gentler now. He took your hand under the table, his thumb brushing over your knuckles. âBut... thank you,â he added after a beat, his voice softer and more sincere. âFor speaking up for me.â
You blinked at him, momentarily thrown off by the gratitude in his tone. âOf course,â you said, squeezing his hand in return. âThatâs what wives do, right?â
Xavier let out a soft laugh. âI suppose so,â he murmured, his lips quirking into a rare, genuine smile that made your heart skip a beat.
In that moment, with his hand in yours and the gentle teasing in the air, it was easy to forget the world outside the cafĂŠ. Just the two of you, playing pretendâbut maybe, just maybe, something more.
AN: reblogs, feedback and opinions are appreciated!
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I have been binging your work!
I don't know if this breaks your trauma rule or not, but (with the guys of your choosing as long as Ratio is there) how would the guys react to losing reader (they haven't confessed feelings yet) during a mission and thinking they died. Then, the reader reappears a week later bandaged up, but alive. Maybe spouts their confession first? ËÍáľËÍ
I adore your writing. Thank you!
This is way too fucking long, so be warned. Itâs like I rammed 4 mini stories in one but got lost at some point cuz I left this ask to collect dust. Also thanks for enjoying my writing itâs much appreciated. :) đŚŚđżď¸
Sunday:
The moment he got news that youâve been assumed dead in the aftermath of a dangerous mission, he looses composure really quickly.
Loosing Robin was one thing but loosing you on top of that was the straw that broke the camels back.
He originally doesnât believe that you were gone, he refuses to as he practically tears his office to shreds in a fit of anger and grief before forcing himself to regain composure and clean up after his outburst. He needed to in order to keep up the illusion that he was the levelheaded leader The Family needed in these moments of chaos and mistrust.
Even if he himself was breaking down internally alongside everyone else, hellbent on finding the culprit for your death and punishing them so severely that theyâd beg for death. Heâd avenge you in anyway he could, even if it meant sending out the bloodhound family on a wild goose chase that only ends in dead ends, he would get you justice no matter how it may come.
His heart had died alongside you that day.
So when a week passes and he finally has you back in his arms, all the while being carful with your wounds as his eyes searched you over in a way you werenât use to.
âYouâre alive.â He breathes out in relief as he then begins to laugh and rest his head against yours, breathing you in deeply as he relishes in this long awaited moment. âOf course youâre alive.â He mutters.
âSunday,â you began but Sunday was quite to cut you off.
âDo you know how I felt thinking you were dead? Driving myself insane to prove that you were still alive anyway I could as not to bear the idea of walking through this life without the one person I love so dearly.â Sunday takes a brief pauses in his monologue, feeling out of breath after having put everything out into the open before continuing. âI thought my heart had stopped beating that day and now I have you bad in my arms.â Sunday then chuckles darkly as he gripped you tighter. âIâll ensure that Iâd never have to revisit that part of my life ever again.â
âSunday-â
âShhh.â Sunday cuts you off once more, pressing a kiss to your forehead as he holds you close to his chest, rubbing your back soothingly. âJust know that what I do after this, I do out of my love for you.â He says against your forehead before pressing another kiss there for good measure.
Jing yuan:
Loss wasnât new to Jing Yuan.
He has experienced it in multiple forms throughout his life, but that didnât made the news of your death any less painful for the General.
While his mind mightâve made peace with the fact that you were gone, his heart however did not as he would find himself in the places that you often vacated to in moments of stress, or to just be left alone for a while with your thoughts. So to no longer see you in any of those hidden spots -waiting for him to find you like you usually did- only worsened the grief he felt in his heart as he sat himself down and allowed the memories to pass over him in waves.
You were both so happy together and felt a sense of fulfilment that could only be achieved when you were within the otherâs presence; A feeling that was uniquely yours and yours alone that could never be replicated, ever. For no one could ever come close to replacing you, nor the companionship you and he had for each other that many assumed would blossom into something more; Jing Yuan also shared the same sentiments as they did, but just as he built the courage to push that boundary between the two of you, you were taken from him before he could utter a single word.
So when a week passes and Jing Yuan found your battered and beaten form in one of your secret spots, back resting against a tree with your eyes closed.
âY/n?â He called out and your eyes opened upon hearing his voice and looking at him with a weak smile. âHey General, miss me?â You said as you struggled to get up to your feet, only to stumble forward and into Jing Yuanâs chest as his strong yet gentle hands hold you in place.
âMore than you could ever hope to know.â Jing yuan said as he focused on how you felt beneath his hands, warm and alive.
âIâm sorry I kept you waiting.â You muttered against his chest as his warmth made you realised just how tired you were from everything youâve experienced this last week alone. âI never meant to keep you waiting in fear that youâd forget about me if I donât stay in your life long enough.â You admit and Jing Yuan instinctively presses a soft kiss to the top of your head, holding you protectively.
âI could never forget about you my beloved.â Jing Yuan reassured you as he looked you deep into your eyes. âYouâve managed to carve your place within my heart and soul, so much that there isnât a day where you arenât all I think about, regardless of whether or not your by my side or far away.â He finished by pressing a gentle kiss to the gauze on your cheek, chuckling upon seeing your cute attempts of burrowing your face into his chest.
âHow long have youâve been waiting to say this.â You asked, thankful that he was the one to admit his feelings first, as you wouldâve had a hard time articulating your words as fluidly as he could.
âFor a very long time.â Jing Yuan replied with a small smile as he then proceeded to lift you into his arms, cuasing you to squeal in surprise, as he made sure to be carful of your wounds and began walking to the nearest medics to make sure your wounds werenât going to be trouble later on.
Aventurine:
He didnât know what to think when you were pronounced dead, all Aventurine could feel in that moment was an overwhelming numbness that encased him entirely.
The only light left in his life had been snuffed out, plummeting him into utter and total darkness he had once been well acquainted with until you came along, giving him a reason to keep looking forward despite everything.
You were no longer here to hold onto his left hand before he could even think of hiding it behind his back out of habit, you were no longer here to be his reason, his comfort, his safe place. You were taken away from him unfairly and once again Aventurine found himself asking the same question he has been asking himself for a long time; why everyone was born into this life just to die.
So when a week passes and Aventurine finds himself sat on a bench somewhere, still not dealing well then than he was the week of your assumed passing, lost in his own thoughts when someone took a seat next to him. Aventurine was just about ready to tell them to go away, when he saw just who was sitting next to him; you.
âI know, I look like shit but you donât have to look at me like that.â You spoke upon feeling his eyes gaze upon the gauze on your cheek, then towards the array of bandages that littered the rest of your body.
âI thought you died.â He hissed, emotion was heavy in his voice as his eyes became bleary with unshed tears as he felt his breathing become heavy with the reality that you were alive. He didnât know what was real and what wasnât in that moment as his mind raced. And it wasnât until you reached out to grasp his left hand and intertwine your fingers together, squeezing, did everything finally became clear to him.
âI thought I was too at one point but there was something that kept me from journeying over to the afterlife.â You admit, looking over at him and smiling sweetly, wanting nothing then to calm his thoughts and reassure him that this wasnât a dream.
âAnd what was that?â He laughs humourlessly as he stares back at you, wanting to hear what excuses you could come up with for faking being dead for a week. âWillpower? Determination?â
âYou Kakavasha.â You replied straightforwardly and his breath hitched in his throat. You rarely used his actual name unless it was absolutely serious. âYou were all I thought about as I pushed through my injuries.â You told him as you continued. âKakavasha is waiting for me was just about all I could think about for a week straight.â You finished as though you didnât just confess that he was your soul motivator in staying alive.
âReally?â Aventurine said softly, finding it impossible that he could possibly be your reason for anything. âWhy?â
âYes really.â You chuckled, pressing a kiss to his cheek as you rested your head against his shoulder. âAs for why, itâs because I like you more then did let myself admit, but i just wanted you to know incase anything truly bad were to ever happen to me-â
âNo.â Aventurine cut you off suddenly, squeezing your hand as though he were afraid. âNothing is going to happen to you, not now. not ever. I just got you back.â He adds resting his head against your own in a desperate attempt of feeling more of your against him. âJust stay with meâŚplease.â He begs you in a whisper as he nuzzled further into you. âand donât go anywhere I canât follow. I donât think I can bear the thought of loosing you again.â
You smiled softly as you just whispered back against the skin of his neck. âAs long as you donât go anywhere I canât follow. I like my crush to be alive and close by even if he can be a pain in my ass sometimes.â
Aventurine chuckles, his heart becoming whole again as he made you cuddle into his side, kissing your head once more as you took this moment to familiarise yourselves with each other. âAt least Iâm a pleasurable pain in the ass.â He teased and you pinch his side, causing him to flinch, but his smile remained and this time his smile was genuine.
His light has came home.
Ratio:
Fully believed that heâd see you when the mission ended, knowing just how talented and dedicated to the craft you were, and having faith that this would be a measly walk in a park for you.
Only to receive word that you were one of the many who were assumed dead when you werenât found amongst the living nor the dead.
Veritas tries to remain as levelheaded and logical as possible during this time and continue life as normal. However found himself retracting from everyone else and going none contact, more so specifically with the people you were once associated with, and instead focused heavily on his studies and academics to an unhealthy extent.
A week passes and Veritas feels as though heâs seen a ghost the moment he saw you in his peripheral vision, bandaged and dressed in ripped clothing but still somehow finding it in you to smile.
âYou idiotic Buffon!â He exclaims as he walks towards you.
âWell thatâs a nice way to greet someone you care about.â You replied as you readied yourself for a massive rant about how stupid you were and so on, but instead you were held against his chest as he burrows his head into your neck.
âI thought you died.â He says in a whisper as he breathed you in. This went against all logic but in that rare moment Veritas didnât care, you were alive but he still couldnât let go of the fact that you didnât tell anyone you were still alive. âWhy didnât you tell anyone that you were alive, send a signal, anything.â
You shrugged as you made yourself comfortable in his strong arms. âAll communications were badly damaged or completely cut off.â You told him. âI was on my own for a long while before finding my way back to you.â
âMe?â Veritas asked, pulling away from you. âWhy not a medial facility for a proper treatment of your wounds? Have you hit your head so hard that common sense had been left on the back burner when making that decision?â
âI wanted to see you first you dickhead!â You exclaimed, shutting Veritas up rather quickly with your confession but you didnât care. âis it so wrong of me to let the man I love know that Iâm okay? So go ahead and call me an idiot all you like but that wonât change the fact that I felt more fear about not telling you how I truly feel then dying on some stupid mission.â You finished your rant.
âYouâre insufferable.â Veritas said after a moment of silence and you couldnât help but feel a little annoyed at this that you didnât notice that Veritas has began to close in the distance between the two of you.
You scoffed. âOh sure call me insufferable as if you-â Veritas cuts you off by cupping your cheeks and planting a sweet short lived kiss against your lips before pulling away with a smirk.
âGlad to know that the feelings are reciprocated.â He says, taking enjoyment of rendering you speechless as he gently guided you to medical, and remaining by your side for the remainder of the day.
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Charles Leclerc x Arthurâs best friend!Reader
Summary: Charles isnât a violent man at heart, but when he saves you from being harassed while celebrating his Monaco win, he quickly realizes that thereâs not a single line he wouldnât cross if it means keeping you safe
Warnings: attempted sexual assault, violence, and injury
Note: a break from your regularly scheduled October programming because Charles just won the United States GP and that calls for a celebration
The music pulses through the club, a steady, hypnotic beat that thrums in Charlesâ chest. Heâs never felt like this â untouchable, invincible â as if tonight could stretch on forever, an endless loop of victory and laughter.
Heâs just won Monaco.
Monaco. His Monaco.
The thought alone makes him smile, a small, private thing that he hides behind the rim of his champagne flute.
Around him, the crowd swirls in a blur of lights and shadows, everyone shouting their congratulations over the music, pulling him into hugs and clapping him on the back. Arthur is here somewhere, of course, dragging you along because where else would you be? The two of you are like shadows, inseparable since childhood.
Charles can still see you, just barely, out of the corner of his eye, chatting with a couple of Arthurâs friends near the bar. Youâre laughing, a sound that somehow cuts through the noise and settles in the back of his mind. Itâs a good sound, one that feels familiar, like home.
âCharles, mate!â A voice shouts, pulling him back. Max is there, leaning in with a grin thatâs all teeth, like heâs just as buzzed on adrenaline as Charles is. âI swear, youâre going to be insufferable after this. Monaco, finally!â
Charles laughs, shaking his head, though the truth is he probably will be insufferable. But can anyone blame him? Heâs worked so damn hard for this, pushing through every setback, every disappointment. And now, here he is, celebrating the win of his career in the only place that really matters.
Heâs about to respond when someone else pulls him into a hug, a flurry of excitement and congratulations that Charles barely processes. He doesnât mind, though. Tonight, it feels like nothing can touch him, like nothing could ever bring him down from this high.
But then, something shifts. Itâs subtle at first, just an itch at the back of his mind, a sense that something isnât right. He glances over to where you and Arthur were standing, but Arthur is gone, nowhere to be seen. And you ⌠youâre not laughing anymore.
Charlesâ stomach twists. Youâre cornered against the bar now, a man leaning in too close, too aggressive. Charles canât see your face clearly through the throng of people, but the way youâre holding yourself, tense and small, tells him everything he needs to know.
His blood turns to ice, freezing the euphoria in his veins. He canât hear what the man is saying, but it doesnât matter. The way the manâs hand snakes around your waist, the way you try to push him off with trembling hands â Charlesâ vision goes red.
Heâs moving before he can think, pushing through the crowd with a single-minded focus. The people congratulating him moments ago scatter as he brushes past them, their laughter and cheers fading into the background noise.
âHey!â Charlesâ voice cuts through the music, sharp and commanding. The man doesnât even turn at first, but you do, your eyes wide and glistening with unshed tears. Charles feels something break inside him at the sight, but he channels it into a fury that propels him forward.
When the man finally notices Charles, itâs too late. Charles is on him, grabbing the manâs shoulder and yanking him away from you with a force that sends the man stumbling backward. âGet the fuck away from her,â Charles snarls, every syllable dripping with venom.
The man barely has time to react before Charles slams him against the wall, the impact rattling the bottles on the shelves behind the bar. Charlesâ forearm presses against the manâs throat, cutting off whatever protest he might have had.
âCharles, stop!â You gasp, your voice choked with a mix of fear and something else, something that twists the knife already lodged in Charlesâ chest. He doesnât stop, though. Canât stop. The image of the manâs hands on you is burned into his mind, and all he can think about is making him pay, making him hurt.
The man struggles, clawing at Charlesâ arm, but itâs useless. Charles is stronger, fueled by a rage thatâs been simmering just beneath the surface for too long. The manâs face turns red, then purple, and still, Charles doesnât let up. His grip tightens, and he leans in closer, his voice a low, dangerous whisper.
âIf you ever so much as look at her again, Iâll fucking kill you.â
The words hang in the air, heavy and deadly serious. The manâs eyes widen, a flash of genuine fear crossing his face, but Charles doesnât care. He wants him to be scared. Wants him to know that thereâs no escaping this, no escaping the consequences of what heâs done.
âCharles, please!â Your voice breaks through the haze of anger, and itâs only then that Charles realizes how close youâve gotten. Youâre right there, your hand on his arm, tugging gently, desperately trying to pull him away.
He looks at you then, really looks at you, and sees the tears streaming down your face, the fear etched into your features. Itâs like a bucket of cold water dumped over his head, shocking him back to reality. The club, the music, the people â all of it comes rushing back in a disorienting wave.
Charles blinks, his grip on the man loosening just enough for the man to gasp for air. Heâs still furious, the anger simmering beneath the surface, but heâs no longer blind with it. He takes a breath, then another, trying to regain some semblance of control.
âYouâre lucky sheâs here,â Charles says quietly, his voice barely more than a growl. He shoves the man away from him, watching with cold satisfaction as he stumbles and nearly falls to the floor.
The man doesnât stick around. He scrambles to his feet and disappears into the crowd, no doubt eager to get as far away from Charles as possible. Good. Charles hopes he never sees the man again, because heâs not sure heâll be able to stop himself if he does.
For a moment, Charles just stands there, his chest heaving with the effort of reining in his emotions. The crowd has started to notice the commotion, a few curious onlookers craning their necks to see whatâs going on. But none of that matters. None of them matter.
All that matters is you.
Charles turns to you, his expression softening as he takes in your tear-streaked face. âAre you okay?â His voice is gentler now, full of concern that wasnât there a moment ago.
You nod, but itâs a shaky, uncertain thing. âI-Iâm fine,â you manage, though itâs clear youâre anything but. You look like youâre about to collapse, your legs barely holding you up.
Without thinking, Charles steps closer and wraps his arms around you, pulling you into his chest. You donât resist, you just sink into him, your fingers clutching at the fabric of his shirt as if heâs the only thing keeping you upright. And maybe he is.
âItâs okay,â Charles murmurs, his voice low and soothing. âYouâre safe now. Iâm here.â He holds you tighter, as if he can shield you from the world, from everything that just happened. And for a moment, it feels like he can. Like nothing bad can touch you as long as youâre in his arms.
You donât say anything, just press your face into his chest, your breath hitching with the remnants of your tears. Charles presses his lips to the top of your head, a gesture that feels both instinctive and impossibly intimate. Heâs never held you like this before, never been this close, but it feels right.
The music still pounds in the background, the lights still flash in a dizzying array of colors, but itâs all distant now, muted. The only thing that matters is you, and making sure youâre okay.
Charles pulls back just enough to look down at you, his hands resting on your shoulders. âWhereâs Arthur?â He asks, his voice still soft but edged with a protective concern.
âI-I donât know,â you admit, your voice small. âHe was here a minute ago, and then âŚâ Your words trail off, and Charles doesnât need you to finish the sentence to know what happened next.
He clenches his jaw, trying to keep his anger in check. Arthur should have been here, should have been looking out for you, but he isnât. Charles isnât sure where his brother is right now, but heâll deal with that later. For now, he needs to focus on you.
âItâs okay,â he says again, though the words feel inadequate. âYouâre with me now. No oneâs going to hurt you.â
You nod again, but this time itâs a little steadier, a little more certain. âThank you,â you whisper, the words barely audible over the music.
Charles shakes his head. âYou donât need to thank me,â he says, his voice rougher than he intends. âIâll always protect you. Always.â
The weight of those words hangs between you, a promise that feels more real than anything else in this moment. Charles knows, without a doubt, that he means it. Heâll protect you, no matter what. Even if it means facing down every threat, every danger, with the same ferocity he showed tonight.
He takes a deep breath, trying to let go of the lingering anger. The night isnât over yet, but heâs not sure how much longer he can stand to be here, in this place that suddenly feels too crowded, too loud, too full of people who didnât notice, didnât care. Charlesâ grip tightens on your shoulders as he scans the room, trying to spot Arthur in the sea of faces. But itâs a lost cause â the club is packed, and he knows Arthur could be anywhere.
âCome on,â Charles says, his voice a bit steadier now. âLetâs get out of here.â
You donât argue, just nod and let him guide you through the crowd. The bodies pressing in around you both feel suffocating, the music that once electrified the night now grating on Charlesâ nerves. He keeps a firm hold on your hand, as if letting go might mean losing you to the chaos.
As you near the exit, the cool night air becomes a welcome relief, a sharp contrast to the oppressive heat inside. The streets of Monaco are quieter now, the party shifting indoors as the night grows late. Charles doesnât stop moving until youâre both far enough from the club that the noise fades into a dull hum, barely audible over the sound of the waves crashing against the rocks.
He finally releases your hand, only to immediately wrap his arm around your shoulders, pulling you close. Youâre shivering, whether from the cold or the shock, Charles isnât sure. Either way, he holds you tighter, wishing he could do more, say more.
But the words donât come easily. They never have. So instead, he just walks with you, slowly, allowing the night air to calm the both of you. You lean into him, and he can feel the tension gradually leaving your body, though you still seem a little too fragile, too breakable.
Charles isnât sure how long you walk like that, side by side in the near silence, before you finally speak.
âCharles, I âŚâ Your voice is hesitant, unsure. âI donât know what I wouldâve done if you hadnât been there.â
He stops walking, turning to face you, his expression serious. âYou donât have to think about that,â he says, his voice firm. âI was there. And I always will be.â
You look up at him, your eyes searching his face for something â reassurance, perhaps, or maybe just understanding. âBut what if next time-â
âThere wonât be a next time.â Charles cuts you off, his voice harder than he intends. He takes a breath, softening his tone. âI wonât let there be a next time.â
He can see the worry still etched on your face, the remnants of fear that havenât quite faded. He wishes he could take it all away, erase the memory of that man and the way he made you feel. But he knows he canât. All he can do is be there, to protect you, to make sure you know that youâre not alone.
âYouâre safe,â he repeats, quieter now, but with no less conviction. âAs long as Iâm here, youâre safe.â
You hold his gaze for a long moment, and he wonders what youâre thinking, whatâs going on behind those eyes that have always been so easy for him to read. Eventually, you nod, and some of the tension in your posture seems to melt away.
âOkay,â you say, your voice barely above a whisper. âOkay.â
Charles nods too, though a part of him still feels on edge, like the danger hasnât completely passed. But he pushes that feeling down, focusing instead on you, on the fact that youâre here with him, and thatâs all that matters right now.
âLetâs go,â he says again, but this time, his voice is softer, more gentle. He takes your hand again, lacing his fingers with yours, and starts walking, leading you away from the club, from the noise and the memories that he hopes youâll never have to revisit.
As you walk, the tension between you both begins to ease. The night air is crisp, carrying the scent of the sea, and for the first time in what feels like hours, Charles allows himself to breathe.
He glances over at you, your profile illuminated by the soft glow of the streetlights. You look calmer now, more like yourself, though thereâs still a shadow of what happened lingering in your eyes. Charlesâ heart aches at the sight, at the knowledge that he couldnât protect you from that, even if he was there to stop it from getting worse.
But he doesnât say any of that. Instead, he just keeps walking, his thumb brushing absentmindedly over your knuckles, a silent reassurance that heâs here, and heâs not going anywhere.
Eventually, you reach the familiar streets that lead back to your apartment. The night is quiet now, the revelry of earlier giving way to the peaceful stillness of a city thatâs finally starting to sleep.
When you reach your building, you both stop, lingering on the sidewalk as if neither of you wants the night to end just yet. Charles knows he should say something, anything, but the words are stuck in his throat, too heavy and too complicated to untangle.
Youâre the one who breaks the silence, your voice soft but clear. âThank you. For everything.â
He shakes his head. âYou donât need to thank me,â he says, echoing his earlier words. âI meant what I said â Iâll always protect you.â
Thereâs a pause, a beat of silence that stretches on just long enough to make Charles wonder if youâre going to say something more. But you donât. Instead, you step closer and, without warning, wrap your arms around him in a tight hug.
Charles is momentarily stunned, his breath catching in his throat as he processes the warmth of your embrace, the way you cling to him like heâs your anchor in a storm. He hesitates for only a second before his arms come up around you, holding you just as tightly, if not more.
The hug lasts longer than it probably should, but neither of you seems to want to let go. When you finally do, you pull back just enough to look up at him, your eyes searching his with a softness that makes his chest tighten.
âGoodnight, Charlie,â you say, your voice barely more than a whisper.
âGoodnight,â he replies, his voice equally soft, as if speaking any louder would shatter the fragile moment between you.
You give him one last, lingering look before turning and heading into your building, the door closing softly behind you. Charles stands there for a moment, staring at the door, as if willing it to open again, as if hoping you might come back out and say something more.
But you donât, and eventually, Charles turns and starts walking back the way you came, his thoughts a tangled mess of emotions heâs not sure how to deal with.
The night is still, the only sound the distant crash of the waves against the rocks. Charles lets the quiet seep into him, trying to find some semblance of calm, but itâs difficult. The image of you, scared and vulnerable, keeps flashing through his mind, a constant reminder of how close you came to being hurt.
He knows he should feel relief â that youâre safe, that the night ended without further incident. But instead, all he feels is a gnawing sense of guilt, of not having been there sooner, of not being able to protect you from everything.
Charles clenches his fists, his nails digging into his palms as he walks. He doesnât want to think about what could have happened if he hadnât been there, doesnât want to imagine the fear and pain you might have endured.
But he canât stop the thoughts from coming, canât shake the anger that simmers just beneath the surface, threatening to boil over at any moment.
As he rounds the corner to his own street, Charles makes a silent vow to himself. Heâll be more vigilant, more careful. He wonât let anyone hurt you ever again. Heâll be there, always, to protect you, no matter what.
And if anyone tries to come between you and your safety again, well ⌠Charles isnât sure heâll be able to hold back next time.
He reaches his apartment, but he doesnât go inside right away. Instead, he stands outside, staring up at the stars barely visible above the city lights, his mind still racing with thoughts of you.
Eventually, he takes a deep breath and turns to unlock his door, stepping inside and letting the door close behind him with a quiet click. The apartment is dark and silent, but it doesnât feel like home tonight. It feels empty, hollow, as if something is missing.
And Charles knows exactly what that something is.
As he heads to bed, his thoughts are still on you â on the way you looked at him tonight, on the way you clung to him like he was the only thing keeping you grounded. And somewhere, deep down, Charles knows that youâre more than just Arthurâs best friend to him.
But heâs not ready to confront that just yet. Not tonight.
So he pushes the thoughts aside, focusing instead on the promise he made to himself: to always be there for you, to protect you, no matter what.
Itâs a promise he intends to keep.
***
The morning sun stretches over Monaco, its golden rays catching on the waves that lap against the harbor. The city is just beginning to stir, and for a moment, everything feels like it should: calm, peaceful, normal. But as Charles hits his stride on his morning run, his mind is anything but calm.
The events of last night replay in his head on a loop, the image of you â shaken, scared, fighting back tears â burned into his memory. Every step he takes feels heavier, weighted down by the anger simmering just beneath the surface.
Heâs tried to push it down, to focus on the steady rhythm of his breathing, the sound of his shoes hitting the pavement, but itâs no use. The rage is still there, as fresh and raw as it was the moment he saw you in that club.
Charles turns a corner, heading down toward the harbor where the yachts bob gently in the water. The morning air is crisp, a stark contrast to the heat that still lingers in his chest. He needs to clear his head, to shake off the lingering sense of helplessness that clings to him like a shadow.
But then he sees him.
The man is walking casually along the harbor, hands in his pockets, his face a picture of smug indifference. He looks like any other tourist enjoying a morning stroll, not like someone who was grabbing you, hurting you, just hours ago.
Charles stops dead in his tracks, his breath catching in his throat. For a split second, he thinks heâs imagining it, that his mind is playing tricks on him. But no, itâs him. The same face, the same sneer that Charles wanted to wipe off with his fist last night.
Something snaps inside Charles. The anger heâs been trying to control, trying to bury, erupts like a dam breaking, flooding his veins with adrenaline. His vision narrows, locking onto the man who dared to touch you, who thought he could get away with it.
Without thinking, Charles changes direction, his strides long and purposeful as he closes the distance between them. The man doesnât notice him at first, too absorbed in whatever thoughts a man like him could have. But then, as Charles gets closer, something makes the man glance over his shoulder.
His reaction is immediate. The smug look falters, replaced by a flicker of recognition, then quickly by a lazy grin that only fuels Charlesâ rage.
âWell, well,â the man drawls, stopping to face Charles, clearly not sensing the danger. âIf it isnât the big hero himself. Whatâs the matter, Leclerc? Didnât get enough attention last night?â
Charles doesnât answer, his jaw clenched so tightly he can feel his teeth grind together. Heâs close enough now to smell the lingering stench of alcohol on the manâs breath, the same breath that spewed vile words at you.
The man chuckles, a sound that grates on Charlesâ nerves like nails on a chalkboard. âYou know, she had it coming,â he says, his tone almost conversational. âThe way she was dressed, the way she looked at me â what did she expect?â
Thatâs all it takes. The words cut through Charles like a knife, sharp and searing, and before he knows what heâs doing, heâs grabbed the man by the front of his shirt, shoving him back against the railing of the harbor.
âWhat did you say?â Charlesâ voice is low, dangerous, barely more than a growl. His knuckles are white where they grip the manâs shirt, every muscle in his body coiled like a spring ready to snap.
The manâs grin only widens, unfazed by the fury in Charlesâ eyes. âYou heard me,â he sneers. âAnd you know what? Thereâs nothing you can do about it. Weâre in public, Leclerc. Youâre a famous guy â canât have your precious image tarnished, can you?â
Charlesâ lips curl into a smile, but itâs not the kind that reaches his eyes. Itâs cold, calculated, the kind of smile that sends a chill down the spine. âYou think I care about that?â He asks, his voice dangerously calm.
The manâs bravado falters just a bit, uncertainty flickering in his eyes, but he doesnât back down. âYeah, I do. Youâre not gonna do anything. Not here, not in front of all these people.â
Charles laughs, but thereâs no humor in it, just a bitter edge that makes the man shift uncomfortably. âYou really donât get it, do you?â Charles says, his voice softening into something almost pitying. âThis is Monaco. And Iâm Charles Leclerc.â
The manâs face pales slightly, but he still tries to hold his ground. âSo what? You think being a driver gives you a free pass to do whatever you want?â
Charlesâ smile widens, though thereâs nothing friendly about it. âExactly.â
Before the man can react, Charles yanks him away from the railing, dragging him along the harbor. The man stumbles, trying to pull away, but Charlesâ grip is ironclad, unyielding. The few people who are out this early watch with interest, some even clapping or calling out congratulations as they recognize Charles.
âHey, what the hell?â The man protests, his voice rising in panic as he struggles against Charlesâ hold. âLet go of me!â
Charles doesnât respond, his eyes focused straight ahead as he forces the man to walk, his grip tightening whenever he feels him start to resist. The manâs attempts to free himself are pathetic, laughable even, compared to the strength Charles has built up over years of training, of pushing his body to the limits.
As they pass by a group of people, one of them cheers, âThatâs the way, Charles! Show him whoâs boss!â
The man tries to appeal to the onlookers, his voice frantic. âSomeone stop him! Heâs crazy!â
But no one moves to help. They just watch, some amused, others indifferent, as Charles continues to drag the man through the streets of Monaco like heâs nothing more than a piece of trash that needs to be disposed of.
âWhere are you taking me?â The man demands, his voice trembling now as fear starts to seep in. âYou canât do this! Iâll-Iâll call the police!â
Charlesâ laugh is cold and devoid of any warmth. âGo ahead,â he says, not slowing down for a second. âTell them Charles Leclerc is dealing with a problem. See how far that gets you.â
The manâs protests grow weaker, his struggles more desperate, but itâs clear he knows thereâs no escaping this. Charles is too strong, too determined, and the reality of his situation is starting to sink in.
The two of them reach a more secluded part of the harbor, where the buildings are fewer and the noise of the city fades into the background. Thereâs no one around to witness whatâs about to happen, no one to hear the manâs cries for help.
Charles comes to a stop in a narrow alleyway, shoving the man against the wall with enough force to knock the breath out of him. He leans in close, his face inches from the manâs, his voice a low, dangerous whisper.
âYou made a mistake last night,â Charles says, his tone icy. âYou thought you could get away with it because you were in a crowded club, because she was alone. You thought no one would stop you.â
The manâs eyes are wide with fear now, all traces of his earlier arrogance gone. âI-I didnât mean-â
âBut you did,â Charles cuts him off, his voice like steel. âYou meant every word, every touch, every threat. And now, youâre going to pay for it.â
The man tries to push Charles away, his movements frantic, but Charles is relentless. He grabs the man by the throat, pinning him against the wall, his grip just tight enough to make him understand how serious this is.
âYou think I canât do anything to you because weâre in public?â Charles hisses, his breath hot against the manâs ear. âYouâre wrong. In Monaco, I can do whatever I want. And no one will stop me.â
The manâs hands claw at Charlesâ arm, trying to pry his fingers away from his throat, but itâs useless. Charles is too strong, too focused, his anger giving him a surge of power that the man canât hope to match.
Charles leans in closer, his voice dropping to a whisper. âYou hurt someone I care about. Someone Iâve known my whole life. And for that, Iâm going to make sure you never forget what happens when you cross me.â
The manâs breath comes in short, panicked gasps as he realizes the gravity of his situation. He tries to speak, to beg for mercy, but Charles isnât interested in hearing his excuses.
âPlease âŚâ the man finally manages to choke out, his voice barely a whisper. âI-Iâm sorry âŚâ
Charlesâ eyes narrow, his grip tightening for a moment before he abruptly lets go, letting the man collapse to the ground in a heap. The man gasps for air, his hands trembling as he scrambles to his feet, his eyes wide with fear.
But Charles isnât done. He grabs the man by the collar, dragging him deeper into the alley, where the shadows swallow them both. The manâs struggles are weak now, more out of instinct than any real hope of escape.
âPeople like you,â Charles says, his voice low and menacing, âthink you can do whatever you want. But hereâs the truth: youâre nothing. Just another coward who preys on the vulnerable. And cowards like you donât get to walk away.â
The alley is cold and dark, the early morning light barely reaching the grimy corners where Charles drags the man like a lifeless doll. The sounds of Monaco are distant now, just a low hum that fades into the background. The only noise that matters is the ragged breathing of the man at Charlesâ mercy, and the echo of their footsteps on the uneven pavement.
Charles stops abruptly, his grip still tight on the manâs collar. He looks around, taking in the silence, the isolation. This place, this forgotten corner of the city, is perfect. No one will find them here. No one will hear what happens next.
He shoves the man against the wall again, harder this time, the force of it knocking the breath out of him. The man lets out a choked gasp, his eyes wide with fear, the bravado from earlier completely gone.
âPlease,â he stammers, his voice trembling. âIâm sorry, okay? I didnât mean-â
Charles cuts him off with a sharp punch to the gut, and the man doubles over, wheezing. âDonât bother,â Charles says coldly. âYouâre not sorry. Youâre just scared. Thereâs a difference.â
The man tries to straighten up, but Charles doesnât give him the chance. He lands another punch, this time to the manâs jaw, the crack of bone echoing in the alley. The manâs head snaps to the side, blood already beginning to trickle from his split lip.
âYou like hurting people, donât you?â Charles asks, his voice calm, almost conversational as he paces in front of the man. âThatâs what you were doing last night, right? You saw her and you thought you could do whatever you wanted.â
The man groans, trying to push himself up from the ground where heâs fallen, but Charles is on him in an instant, his knee pressing into the manâs chest, pinning him down.
âYou thought she was alone,â Charles continues, his voice still eerily calm as he looks down at the man struggling beneath him. âYou thought no one would stop you.â
He leans in closer, his knee digging into the manâs ribs, making it harder for him to breathe. âBut she wasnât alone. And now, youâre going to pay for what you did.â
The man tries to shake his head, his breath coming in short, panicked bursts. âIâm sorry,â he gasps out, his voice barely above a whisper. âI didnât know-â
Another punch, this one to the side of the manâs face, silences him. Charles doesnât care about his excuses, his lies. All he cares about is making sure this man understands the pain, the fear that you felt last night.
He grabs the man by the hair, forcing his head up so their eyes meet. The manâs face is already swelling, bruises blossoming under his skin like dark flowers. âYou think this is bad?â Charles asks, his voice low, dangerous. âThis is nothing compared to what you deserve.â
The man whimpers, his hands weakly trying to push Charles away, but itâs no use. Charles is relentless, his grip like iron as he drags the man up and slams him back against the wall.
âYou like to take what you want, donât you?â Charles says, his breath hot against the manâs ear. âWell, letâs see how you like it when someone takes something from you.â
Without waiting for a response, Charles delivers a brutal kick to the manâs knee, and the sickening sound of bone cracking echoes in the alley. The man screams, a high, desperate sound that only fuels Charlesâ anger.
He watches dispassionately as the man crumples to the ground, clutching his leg, his face contorted in agony. âHurts, doesnât it?â Charles asks, his voice devoid of any sympathy. âNow imagine how she felt. Imagine how scared she was, how helpless.â
The man tries to crawl away, his movements sluggish, hindered by the pain, but Charles isnât done. He grabs the man by the ankle, dragging him back, his face set in grim determination.
âYouâre not going anywhere,â Charles says, his voice flat, emotionless. âNot until Iâm finished.â
He pulls the man up, slamming him into the wall again, his grip never loosening. The manâs head lolls to the side, blood dripping from his nose, his mouth, but Charles doesnât care. He wonât stop until the man feels every bit of the fear and pain he inflicted on you.
âYou think you can just walk away from this?â Charles asks, his voice soft, almost a whisper, but thereâs a dangerous edge to it that makes the manâs eyes widen in fear. âYou think you can just go back to your life, like nothing happened?â
The man shakes his head weakly, but Charles doesnât believe him. He knows men like this, cowards who prey on the vulnerable, who think theyâre invincible because theyâve never had to face the consequences of their actions.
âWrong,â Charles says, his voice hard, unyielding. âYouâre not walking away from this. Not ever.â
He lands another punch, this one to the manâs ribs, and the man gasps, the air knocked out of him. Charles steps back for a moment, watching as the man collapses to the ground, coughing, wheezing, barely conscious.
âLook at you,â Charles says, his voice filled with contempt as he circles the man like a predator. âPathetic. All that confidence, all that arrogance â gone. Now youâre just a scared little boy, begging for mercy.â
The manâs eyes flutter open, bloodshot and filled with pain. He tries to speak, but all that comes out is a low, pitiful moan. Charles crouches down beside him, his eyes cold, calculating.
âDid you really think you could get away with it?â Charles asks, his voice soft, almost gentle, but thereâs a cruel undertone that makes the man flinch. âDid you think no one would care? That no one would come for you?â
The man doesnât answer, his body trembling, his breath coming in short, ragged gasps. Charles watches him for a moment, his anger still simmering, but thereâs a part of him â a small part â that feels a twisted sense of satisfaction. This man, this coward, is finally paying for what he did.
But itâs not enough. Not yet.
Charles reaches down, grabbing the man by the throat, his fingers digging into the bruised flesh. The manâs eyes go wide, panic setting in as he struggles to breathe, his hands weakly clawing at Charlesâ arm.
âYouâre not going to forget this,â Charles says, his voice low, dangerous. âEvery time you look in the mirror, every time you see those scars, youâre going to remember what happens when you cross me. When you hurt someone I care about.â
The man gurgles, his eyes rolling back in his head, his body going limp in Charlesâ grasp. For a moment, Charles considers finishing it, squeezing the life out of the man until thereâs nothing left. But then he releases his grip, letting the man collapse to the ground, gasping for air.
The man barely has the strength to lift his head, his eyes filled with a mixture of fear and desperation. âYou ⌠you canât ⌠do this,â he wheezes, his voice weak, barely audible. âIâll ⌠have you arrested ⌠for attempted murder âŚâ
Charles stares down at him, a cold, humorless smile tugging at the corners of his lips. He chuckles, a low, dark sound that sends a shiver down the manâs spine. âGo ahead,â he says, his voice dripping with contempt. âTry it. See how far you get.â
The manâs eyes flutter closed, his body trembling uncontrollably as the reality of his situation sets in. Heâs helpless, broken, barely clinging to consciousness. And Charles knows that the manâs threats are empty, born out of desperation, a final attempt to grasp at some semblance of control.
âYouâre nothing,â Charles says, his voice cold, final. âNo one is going to believe you. Not after what you did. Not after what Iâve done to you.â
The manâs breath comes in short, shallow gasps, his body shuddering with pain and exhaustion. Charles watches him for a moment longer, his expression unreadable, before he finally stands up, looking down at the broken, bloodied man at his feet.
âConsider this a warning,â Charles says, his voice low, menacing. âStay away from her. Stay away from Monaco. If I ever see you again, I wonât stop next time. I wonât show mercy.â
The man doesnât respond, barely clinging to consciousness, his body slumped against the wall like a discarded puppet. Charles takes one last look at him, his eyes cold, before he turns and walks away, his footsteps echoing in the silent alley.
As he steps out into the morning light, the anger that had consumed him begins to fade, replaced by a cold, detached calm. He knows what heâs done, knows that heâs crossed a line that most people wouldnât dare to. But he doesnât care. He did what he had to do, what you needed him to do.
And heâd do it again in a heartbeat.
***
The atmosphere in the police station is tense, a quiet hum of activity threading through the open space. Officers move about, their conversations muted, eyes occasionally flicking toward the door where Charles Leclerc is expected to enter any moment. Thereâs a palpable discomfort in the air, a mix of respect and unease. No one wants to be the one to arrest Charles Leclerc. And yet, protocol demands his presence.
When Charles finally walks in, the room seems to still. Heads turn, eyes widen slightly. Heâs dressed casually â sweatpants, a loose-fitting t-shirt, and a pair of sneakers. Despite the nonchalance of his appearance, thereâs an unmistakable tension in his shoulders, a hardness in his eyes that wasnât there before.
The desk sergeant, a middle-aged man with graying hair and a lined face, stands up hastily. âMonsieur Leclerc,â he begins, his tone overly formal, almost reverent. âThank you for coming in on such short notice. Weâre, uh ⌠weâre very sorry about this.â
Charles offers a curt nod, his expression unreadable. âWhatâs this about?â He asks, even though he already knows.
The sergeant hesitates, glancing around nervously. âWe, uh, received a complaint this morning,â he explains, his voice wavering slightly. âFrom a ⌠an individual who claims that you assaulted him.â
Charlesâ lips twitch into something resembling a smile, though thereâs no warmth in it. âHeâs not wrong,â he says, his voice low, almost a growl. âI did.â
The sergeantâs eyes widen slightly, and thereâs a nervous shifting among the other officers in the room. This isnât how these things usually go. âMonsieur Leclerc,â the sergeant begins again, more carefully this time, âwe understand that this man may have ⌠done something to provoke you. But we have to follow protocol. We need to ask you some questions.â
Charles crosses his arms over his chest, leaning back slightly as he regards the sergeant with a cold, detached stare. âProtocol,â he repeats, his voice dripping with disdain. âFine. Ask your questions.â
The sergeant shifts uncomfortably, clearing his throat. âDid you, uh, did you physically assault the complainant?â He asks, his voice barely above a whisper.
âYes.â
Thereâs a collective intake of breath from the officers around them, as if they canât quite believe what theyâre hearing. The sergeant blinks, clearly taken aback by Charlesâ bluntness. âAnd ⌠do you regret it?â
Charles laughs then, a dark, humorless sound that sends a shiver down the spines of everyone in the room. âRegret?â He echoes, shaking his head. âNo, I donât regret it. In fact, Iâd do it again.â
The sergeantâs face pales, and he looks around as if searching for some way out of this conversation. âMonsieur Leclerc,â he begins again, his voice trembling slightly, âI donât think you understand the situation. Youâve just admitted to a serious crime. We ⌠we canât just let you go.â
Charlesâ expression hardens, his jaw clenching. âYes, you can,â he says, his voice cold, unyielding. âAnd you will.â
The sergeant opens his mouth to protest, but before he can get a word out, the door to the station bursts open, and the man from the alley stumbles in. His face is still bruised, his movements stiff and pained. But thereâs a look of triumph in his eyes as he spots Charles standing there.
âThere he is!â The man shouts, pointing a shaky finger at Charles. âThatâs him! Thatâs the bastard who tried to kill me!â
Charles turns slowly to face the man, his expression unreadable. Thereâs a moment of silence, the air thick with tension. The man, emboldened by the presence of the police, takes a step closer, his voice rising with every word. âYou think you can just walk away from this, Leclerc? You think youâre untouchable? Iâm going to see you rot in prison for what you did!â
Charles doesnât respond immediately. Instead, he reaches into his pocket, pulling out his phone. The man falters slightly, confused by the lack of reaction. Charles taps the screen a few times, then puts it on speaker.
âWhat are you doing?â The man sneers, though thereâs a hint of uncertainty in his voice. âCalling your lawyer? Thatâs not going to save you.â
Charles doesnât bother to reply. The phone rings once, twice, before a familiar voice answers on the other end.
âCharles,â comes the smooth, authoritative voice of Prince Albert of Monaco. âTo what do I owe the pleasure?â
Charles doesnât take his eyes off the man as he responds. âYour Highness, Iâm at the police station. Thereâs a man here trying to press charges against me for something I did last night.â
Thereâs a brief pause on the other end of the line, and then Prince Albertâs voice, calm and steady, fills the room through the speakerphone. âI see. And what exactly did you do, Charles?â
Charlesâ eyes narrow as he stares down the man, who is now looking increasingly nervous. âI made sure he understands that there are consequences for hurting people I care about,â Charles says, his voice low, menacing. âI made sure he knows that no one lays a hand on her without answering to me.â
The silence in the station is deafening. Every officer in the room is holding their breath, waiting to see what happens next. The manâs face drains of color as he realizes whatâs happening, who Charles is talking to.
Prince Albertâs voice is measured, careful. âAnd you believe this was necessary?â
âYes,â Charles replies without hesitation. âIt was necessary.â
Thereâs another pause, and then Prince Albert speaks again, his tone decisive. âThen I trust your judgment. You did what you had to do. Consider this a royal pardon. Iâll have an official document delivered to the station within the hour.â
The manâs mouth falls open in shock, his eyes wide with disbelief. âYou ⌠you canât do this!â He sputters, his voice rising in desperation. âHe assaulted me! He nearly killed me!â
Charles finally lowers the phone, ending the call. He slips it back into his pocket, his expression as cold and unyielding as ever. âYou heard him,â Charles says quietly, his eyes locked on the manâs. âYouâre done here.â
The man looks around wildly, as if searching for someone to back him up, but all he finds are the wary, sympathetic gazes of the officers. No one is going to help him. No one is going to defy Prince Albert.
The desk sergeant clears his throat, stepping forward. âMonsieur Leclerc,â he says, his voice carefully controlled, âit appears that youâre free to go.â
Charles doesnât smile. He simply nods, his gaze never leaving the man who stands trembling before him. âGood,â he says softly. âBecause I have more important things to do than waste my time here.â
The man opens his mouth to protest again, but the words die on his lips as Charles steps forward, his presence overwhelming, almost suffocating. âYou should leave Monaco,â Charles says, his voice low and dangerous. âBefore I change my mind about letting you live.â
The man stumbles back, his bravado crumbling as fear takes hold. He casts one last desperate glance at the officers, but they all turn away, unwilling to meet his eyes. Heâs alone in this, and he knows it.
With a final, defeated whimper, the man turns and flees from the station, his steps hurried, unsteady. Charles watches him go, his expression unreadable, his heart pounding with a mixture of adrenaline and satisfaction.
The desk sergeant shifts awkwardly, unsure of what to say. âUh, I ⌠weâre sorry for the inconvenience,â he stammers. âItâs just ⌠we had to follow procedure âŚâ
Charles waves a hand dismissively, already heading for the door. âItâs fine,â he says, though thereâs a hardness in his voice that suggests otherwise. âJust make sure this doesnât happen again.â
The sergeant nods quickly, grateful for the reprieve. âOf course, Monsieur Leclerc. It wonât happen again.â
Charles doesnât respond. He steps out into the sunlight, the tension slowly draining from his body as the warmth of the day washes over him. The streets of Monaco are as busy as ever, people going about their lives, oblivious to what just transpired inside the police station.
He takes a deep breath, letting the air fill his lungs, grounding himself. The day is far from over, and there are still things he needs to do, but for now, the threat has been neutralized. The man who hurt you is gone, and Charles made sure heâll never come back.
As he walks away from the station, Charles canât help but think of you, your face, your voice, the way you smiled at him when you were just a little girl. He knows heâs crossed a line today, done things that most people wouldnât understand, wouldnât condone. But he doesnât care. He did it for you.
And heâd do it all over again if he had to.
***
Charles stands outside your apartment, a paper bag of takeout in one hand, his other raised to knock on the door. He hesitates for a moment, nerves he didnât expect twisting in his stomach. Itâs strange, feeling nervous about seeing you. Heâs known you for years â watched you grow up, shared countless family dinners with you, laughed at your jokes, teased you about your school crushes.
But this ⌠this feels different. Everything feels different now.
He finally knocks, a light tap that he knows youâll hear. A few seconds pass, and then the door swings open, revealing you standing there in a casual outfit, your hair pulled back, a soft smile on your face.
âCharles,â you greet him, your voice warm, familiar. âCome in.â
He steps inside, glancing around the cozy space. Itâs a small apartment, but itâs yours, filled with little touches that scream your personality â bookshelves overflowing with novels, a blanket draped over the back of the couch, a half-finished puzzle on the coffee table. Itâs homey, comfortable, and it smells like the vanilla candle you always seem to have burning.
âI brought lunch,â Charles says, holding up the bag. âFigured you might be hungry.â
You smile, your eyes brightening at the sight of the food. âYou know me too well. What did you get?â
âYour favorite,â he replies, setting the bag down on the table and beginning to unpack it. âPasta from that little place near the harbor.â
âPerfect,â you say, moving to grab plates from the cupboard. âYou always know how to spoil me.â
Charles chuckles, though his mind is far from the light-hearted conversation. Thereâs something heavy sitting on his chest, something he knows he needs to tell you, but the words stick in his throat. Instead, he focuses on the food, dishing out generous portions onto each plate.
You both sit down at the small dining table, and for a few minutes, thereâs nothing but the sound of forks scraping against plates and the occasional hum of satisfaction as you enjoy the meal. Itâs comfortable, easy â just like itâs always been between you.
But then, as if sensing his unease, you break the silence. âSo, I heard the craziest thing this morning,â you say, your tone light, almost teasing. âOne of my friends told me that you were almost arrested yesterday. Can you believe that?â
Charlesâ fork pauses midway to his mouth, his heart skipping a beat. He hadnât expected you to bring it up so casually, hadnât prepared himself for this moment. He forces a smile, though it doesnât quite reach his eyes. âOh? What did she say?â
You laugh, shaking your head. âShe said she heard you were involved in some kind of fight and that the police were called. I told her she was crazy. I mean, you wouldnât hurt a fly, right?â
Thereâs a playful glint in your eyes, but Charles canât bring himself to join in. Instead, he sets his fork down, the sound of metal against porcelain unnaturally loud in the quiet room. He looks at you, his expression serious, all traces of his earlier smile gone.
âActually,â he begins, his voice low, steady, âitâs true.â
Your smile falters, confusion flickering across your face. âWhat do you mean?â
Charles leans back in his chair, crossing his arms over his chest as he meets your gaze head-on. âI was at the police station yesterday,â he says, the words heavy, deliberate. âThey called me in because that guy â the one who ⌠hurt you â he tried to press charges against me.â
You stare at him, the shock evident in your wide eyes. âWait, youâre serious? This isnât some joke?â
âIâm serious,â Charles replies, his voice calm, almost too calm. âIâm not proud of what I did, but Iâm not ashamed of it either. He deserved what he got.â
For a moment, you just sit there, trying to process what heâs telling you. You set your fork down, your appetite suddenly gone. âBut ⌠Charles, what did you do?â
Charles takes a deep breath, his eyes never leaving yours. âI made sure he understood that there are consequences for his actions. That he canât just walk away after what he did to you.â
Your hands tremble slightly as you reach for your glass of water, taking a sip to steady yourself. âYou ⌠you didnât âŚâ
âI didnât kill him,â Charles says quickly, sensing your fear. âBut I hurt him. Badly. And I donât regret it.â
Youâre silent for a long moment, your mind racing. The Charles you know â the Charles you grew up with, the one who used to give you piggyback rides when you were too tired to walk â wouldnât do something like this. But then again, this isnât just anyone weâre talking about. This is you. And for Charles, youâre different. Youâve always been different.
âI did it to protect you,â Charles continues, his voice softer now, almost pleading. âI couldnât just stand by and let him get away with what he did. I couldnât âŚâ
He trails off, his gaze dropping to the table, his shoulders slumping slightly. Itâs as if all the fight has drained out of him, leaving behind only the raw, honest truth of his actions.
You swallow hard, trying to make sense of everything. âBut ⌠you could have been arrested. You could have gone to jail.â
Charles laughs, a bitter sound that holds no real amusement. âNot in Monaco,â he says, shaking his head. âNot for this.â
You furrow your brow, confusion evident in your expression. âWhat do you mean?â
Charles sighs, running a hand through his hair. âI talked to Prince Albert. He gave me a royal pardon. The guy had no chance.â
You blink, stunned by the casual way he says it, as if itâs the most normal thing in the world. âA royal pardon? Charles, thatâs ⌠thatâs not normal.â
âNo, itâs not,â Charles agrees, his tone somber. âBut I donât care. Iâd do it all over again if it meant keeping you safe.â
The weight of his words hangs between you, the gravity of the situation finally sinking in. Youâve always known Charles was protective of you, but this ⌠this is something else entirely. Heâs crossed a line, and thereâs no going back.
For a moment, youâre both silent, the tension in the room thick, suffocating. Charles watches you, his heart pounding in his chest, waiting for you to say something, anything. Heâs prepared for you to be angry, to be horrified by what heâs done. But he wasnât prepared for the look of sadness that crosses your face, the way your shoulders slump as if the weight of the world has suddenly fallen on you.
âI donât know what to say,â you finally whisper, your voice shaky. âI never wanted you to do something like this for me.â
Charles leans forward, reaching across the table to take your hand in his. His touch is warm, steady, and for a moment, it grounds you, pulls you back from the edge of the panic thatâs been rising in your chest.
âI know,â he says softly. âI know this isnât what you wanted. But itâs what I needed to do. I couldnât just stand by and let him hurt you.â
You squeeze his hand, your grip tightening as if youâre afraid to let go. âBut what if you had been arrested? What if you couldnât get out of it? I couldnât bear the thought of you being locked up because of me.â
âI wouldnât let that happen,â Charles replies, his voice firm, resolute. âI told you, Iâd do anything to protect you. And I mean it.â
You look up at him then, your eyes searching his, trying to find some sign that this is all just a bad dream, that youâll wake up and everything will be back to normal. But all you see is the truth â the raw, unfiltered truth of what Charles has done, and why he did it.
âI donât know if I should be angry or grateful,â you admit, your voice trembling slightly. âYouâve always been there for me. But this ⌠this is something else.â
Charles smiles then, a small, sad smile that doesnât quite reach his eyes. âYou donât have to be anything,â he says softly. âJust know that Iâll always be here for you. No matter what.â
For a moment, you just sit there, holding his hand, the silence between you heavy with unspoken words. Thereâs so much you want to say, so much you want to ask, but you canât seem to find the right words. Instead, you focus on the warmth of his hand in yours, the steady rhythm of his breathing, the way his eyes never leave yours.
And then, before you can second-guess yourself, you lean across the table and press your lips to his. The kiss is soft, tentative at first, but it quickly deepens, the tension thatâs been building between you finally finding release.
Charlesâ hand comes up to cup the back of your head, his fingers tangling in your hair as he pulls you closer. The kiss is everything you didnât know you needed â desperate, passionate, full of all the emotions that have been bubbling beneath the surface.
When you finally pull away, youâre both breathless, your foreheads resting against each other as you try to catch your breath. Charlesâ eyes are dark, his pupils blown wide, and thereâs a look in them that youâve never seen before â something raw and vulnerable, something that makes your heart stutter in your chest.
For a moment, neither of you says anything, the silence heavy with the weight of what just happened. Charlesâ hand is still in your hair, his thumb gently stroking the back of your neck, sending shivers down your spine. You can feel his breath on your lips, warm and steady, as if heâs trying to anchor himself in this moment, to hold onto it for as long as he can.
Eventually, you pull back just enough to look into his eyes, your own heart pounding so loudly in your ears that youâre sure he can hear it too. âCharles âŚâ you begin, your voice barely above a whisper, but the words catch in your throat. Youâre not sure what you want to say, what youâre supposed to say. Everything feels too big, too overwhelming.
Charles doesnât say anything, just watches you with that same intense gaze, his eyes searching yours for something â reassurance, maybe, or understanding. Slowly, he lowers his hand from your hair, his fingers trailing down the side of your face before he lets it fall to his lap. The loss of his touch leaves you feeling cold, and you almost want to reach out and pull him back to you, to kiss him again and forget everything else. But you donât.
Instead, you take a shaky breath and try to gather your thoughts, your mind racing. âWhat ⌠what does this mean?â You finally manage to ask, your voice trembling.
He looks down at his hands, his brows furrowing in thought. âI donât know,â he admits quietly. âAll I know is that Iâve never felt like this before. Iâve known you my whole life, but ⌠this is different.â
You bite your lip, trying to make sense of it all. âIâve always cared about you. You know that. But I never thought âŚâ You trail off, unable to finish the sentence, but the implication hangs in the air between you.
Charles finally looks up at you again, his expression softening. âNeither did I,â he says, a small smile tugging at the corners of his lips. âBut now that itâs happened ⌠I donât think I can go back. I donât want to.â
Youâre silent for a moment, the weight of his words settling over you. Thereâs a part of you that wants to be cautious, to protect yourself from whatever this is, but thereâs another part â one thatâs stronger â that wants to take the leap, to see where this could go.
âI donât want to either,â you whisper, the admission almost too much to say out loud. But itâs the truth, and once itâs out there, you feel a sense of relief, as if a weight has been lifted off your shoulders.
Charlesâ eyes soften even more, his smile widening slightly. He reaches out, taking your hand in his once more, his grip warm and steady. âThen letâs see where this goes,â he says, his voice low and full of promise.
You nod, unable to keep the smile off your face. âOkay.â
For a moment, you both just sit there, hands intertwined, the food on the table long forgotten as the reality of what just happened begins to sink in. Thereâs still so much you need to talk about, so many questions that need answers, but for now, this is enough. The kiss, the confession, the promise of something more â itâs all more than you ever expected.
Charles gives your hand a gentle squeeze, his eyes never leaving yours. âWhatever happens next, I want you to know that Iâm here for you.â
You smile, your heart swelling with affection. âI know,â you say softly. âAnd Iâm here for you too.â
He nods, his expression earnest. âGood.â
The silence between you is comfortable now, the tension from earlier finally dissipating. You feel a sense of peace settle over you, a feeling that everything will be okay, no matter what comes next.
Finally, Charles glances at the table, his smile turning sheepish. âWe should probably finish our lunch,â he says, his tone light.
You laugh, the sound easing the last of your lingering nerves. âYeah, we probably should.â
You both pick up your forks, and the conversation shifts back to lighter topics, the ease between you returning as if nothing has changed. But you both know that something has. Thereâs a new understanding between you, a new connection that wasnât there before. And as you finish your meal, stealing glances at each other across the table, you canât help but feel excited about what the future might hold.
***
Monaco at night is a different kind of magic. The streets are quieter, the buzz of the day replaced by the hum of luxury cars and the distant sound of waves crashing against the harbor. The city glows with a soft, golden light, the kind that makes everything look a little more romantic, a little more surreal. And tonight, with you tucked into Charlesâ side as you walk home from dinner, it feels like the world has shrunk down to just the two of you.
Youâve been together for a few years now, and yet thereâs still a thrill in the way he holds you close, his arm draped around your shoulders as if heâs claiming you all over again. Thereâs something comforting in the familiarity of it, the way your bodies just fit together, like two puzzle pieces that were always meant to be.
The conversation between you is light, filled with teasing banter about the dessert you shared at the restaurant â how he insists you ate most of it, and you argue that heâs the one with the sweet tooth. Itâs the kind of easy back-and-forth that comes with knowing someone inside out, with having weathered storms together and come out stronger on the other side.
But as you turn down a quieter street, the atmosphere shifts. Itâs subtle at first â a flicker of movement in the corner of Charlesâ eye, the sense that youâre being watched. And then, out of nowhere, a voice cuts through the night, crude and jarring in its tone.
âHey, baby, how about a smile?â
You freeze, your muscles tensing instinctively. The voice belongs to a man leaning against a lamppost, his eyes raking over you with a leer that makes your skin crawl. You feel Charles stiffen beside you, his arm tightening around your shoulders protectively. But before you can react, the man pushes off from the lamppost and approaches, his hand reaching out to touch you.
It all happens in a blur. The manâs fingers graze your arm, and you flinch back, your heart racing. But before you can fully process the disgust that courses through you, Charles is already moving.
The look in his eyes is one you recognize â a dark, dangerous glint that youâve only seen a handful of times, but each one burned into your memory. Itâs the same look he had that night at the club, the night he became more than just your protector, the night everything between you changed.
Heâs about to lunge, his body coiled like a spring, ready to unleash all the anger simmering beneath the surface. But you place a hand on his chest, stopping him just in time.
âCharles,â you say softly, but thereâs a knowing edge to your voice, a familiarity with the situation. âShould I call Prince Albert? Let him know you might need another pardon?â
Charles pauses, his gaze flickering to yours, and for a moment, the tension eases. The corners of his mouth twitch upward, a dark, almost feral smile playing on his lips.
âYeah,â he replies, his voice low and laced with a dangerous amusement. âThis must be the fourth one this year.â
You canât help but laugh, the sound lightening the mood, if only for a second. âActually,â you correct him, your eyes sparkling with mischief, âitâs the fifth.â
His smile widens at that, a soft chuckle rumbling in his chest. But the humor doesnât last long. The reality of the situation pulls him back, and his expression hardens once more as he turns his attention to the man who dared to touch you.
âStay here,â Charles says, his tone leaving no room for argument. Itâs the voice of a man whoâs about to do something he wonât regret â something heâs done before.
You nod, trusting him, knowing that whatever happens next, itâs out of your hands. And as Charles steps away from you, you canât help but feel a strange sense of satisfaction, a sense of justice in knowing that this man is about to face the consequences of his actions.
The man, oblivious to the danger heâs in, sneers at Charles, clearly unbothered by the presence of another man. âWhat are you gonna do, pretty boy?â He taunts, his voice dripping with arrogance. âYou think you can scare me?â
Charles doesnât respond immediately. He takes his time, closing the distance between them with a measured, almost predatory grace. And when he finally speaks, his voice is as cold as ice.
âYou have no idea who youâre dealing with,â Charles says quietly, the words laced with a threat that hangs heavy in the air.
The man laughs, the sound grating and unpleasant. âOh, I know exactly who you are,â he sneers. âYouâre that driver, right? Leclerc? Big deal. Doesnât mean you can do whatever you want.â
Charles tilts his head slightly, as if considering the manâs words, and then, to your surprise, he laughs â a dark, cruel sound that sends a shiver down your spine.
âYou think being in public will protect you?â Charles asks, his voice dripping with mockery. âYou think because there are people around, I wonât make you regret ever laying a hand on her?â
The man falters, some of his bravado slipping as he realizes that Charles isnât backing down. He glances around, perhaps expecting someone to come to his aid, but the street is empty, save for a few onlookers who are too far away to hear the exchange.
Charles doesnât give him time to think. With a speed that takes the man by surprise, he grabs him by the collar, yanking him forward with a strength that belies his lean frame. The man stumbles, his cocky demeanor evaporating as he realizes heâs in over his head.
âYou should have walked away,â Charles murmurs, his voice dangerously calm. âBut now ⌠now youâre going to pay.â
The man struggles, trying to push Charles away, but itâs futile. Charles is a professional athlete, his body honed for strength and endurance, and the man is no match for him. Within seconds, Charles has him pinned against the wall of a nearby building, his forearm pressed against the manâs throat.
âGet off me, you psycho!â The man chokes out, his voice panicked as he claws at Charlesâ arm.
But Charles doesnât budge. He leans in closer, his face inches from the manâs, his eyes filled with a cold, calculated fury. âYouâre going to regret ever touching her,â he says quietly, his words laced with venom.
And then, without warning, he drags the man away from the wall, pulling him down the street with a force that makes it clear this isnât just a warning â itâs a promise. The man tries to resist, tries to fight back, but itâs no use. Charles is stronger, faster, and more determined, his grip unyielding as he hauls the man toward a darker, more secluded part of the street.
You watch from a distance, your heart pounding in your chest. Part of you wants to stop him, to tell him itâs not worth it, but another part of youâ the part that remembers the fear and helplessness you felt when that man touched you â wants Charles to follow through, to make sure this man never does this to anyone else again.
As they disappear around a corner, you take a deep breath, trying to calm the whirlwind of emotions inside you. You trust Charles, you know heâll be careful, but you canât help the worry that creeps in, the fear of what might happen next.
Minutes pass, each one feeling like an eternity, and then finally, you hear the sound of footsteps approaching. You look up, your breath catching in your throat as you see Charles emerging from the shadows, alone.
His expression is unreadable, his eyes dark and stormy as he walks back to you. For a moment, neither of you speaks, the silence heavy with unspoken words.
Then, without a word, Charles pulls you into his arms, holding you close as if heâs afraid to let go. You wrap your arms around him, burying your face in his chest, the steady beat of his heart grounding you.
âIâm sorry,â he murmurs, his voice muffled against your hair. âIâm sorry you had to see that.â
You shake your head, pulling back just enough to look up at him. âYou donât have to apologize,â you say softly, your hand cupping his cheek. âIâm just glad youâre okay.â
He smiles then, a small, tired smile that doesnât quite reach his eyes. âIâm okay,â he says, though you can hear the weariness in his voice. âBut he wonât be bothering you â or anyone else â again.â
You nod, knowing thereâs more to the story than heâs telling you, but you donât press him. Not now, not when heâs holding you so tightly, as if heâs afraid to let you go.
âLetâs go home,â you say gently, taking his hand in yours.
Charles nods, his grip on your hand firm as he leads you back down the street, away from the darkness and into the light. And as you walk together, side by side, you canât help but feel a sense of relief, a sense of safety in knowing that no matter what happens, Charles will always be there to protect you.
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Too Many Kisses
Pairing: Max Verstappen x Reader
Summary: Max showers you with kisses after a race much to your embarrassment.
Author's Note: A short and sweet dose of pure fluff before whatever this weekend has in storeâŚ
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The sun was setting over the paddock, casting a warm orange glow across the busy scene. Engineers were packing up equipment, journalists scurried from one interview to another, and the occasional roar of an engine echoed as cars were wheeled back into their garages.
You stood in the Red Bull garage, arms crossed, watching as Max wrapped up a few interviews. Heâd just finished another dominant weekend, and the smile on his face was evident even from a distance. He spotted you and his eyes lit up causing a flutter in your chest.
Before you could react, he was heading straight towards you, weaving through the small crowd with an easy confidence.
"Hey," Max greeted, sliding an arm around your waist, pulling you close as if it was the most natural thing in the world.
"Hey yourself," you smiled, glancing up at him. His hair was still slightly damp from sweat, and his face had that post-race glow, a mix of exhaustion and adrenaline.
Without any warning, he leaned down and pressed a kiss to your forehead, then another one on your temple, and another this time on your cheek. You chuckled knowing exactly where this was headed. His lips hovered near yours, but instead of kissing you properly, he peppered light kisses all over your face causing you to giggle and squirm.
"Max, stop," you half-heartedly protested, trying not to laugh too loudly.
"What?" He smirked, mischief twinkling in his eyes as he continued his relentless assault of kisses. "Too much?"
"Not in front of everyone," you chuckled, glancing around and noticing the amused glances from the nearby crew. A few of the team were doing a terrible job at hiding their grins, and you swore someone was taking a picture.
"Too many kisses?" Max pulled back just slightly, arching an eyebrow. He leaned in again, this time capturing your lips in a soft, lingering kiss.
You melted into him for a moment before pulling back with a playful shove. "Seriously, everyoneâs watching!"
Max laughed, clearly unbothered by the attention. "Let them watch. I just won the race, I deserve to kiss my girl."
"Youâre insufferable," you teased, rolling your eyes but the grin on your face betrayed your words.
Max, of course, noticed. "Oh, come on, you love it. Admit it, you want more." His voice was teasing, his lips hovering dangerously close to yours again.
You huffed, crossing your arms in mock annoyance.
"Mm-hmm." His hand gently cupped your chin, tilting your head up toward him.
You tried to hold back a smile, but it was impossible. "Maybe... one more," you conceded, your voice soft.
Maxâs smirk widened as he leaned in his lips brushing yours again, but just before he kissed you, he whispered, "I knew it."
Before you could reply, he kissed youâslow and sweet, the kind of kiss that made everything else around you fade into the background. The noise of the paddock, the murmurs of the crew it all disappeared as his hands settled on your waist pulling you even closer.
When he finally pulled away, your cheeks were flushed and he looked entirely too pleased with himself.
"Happy now?" you asked, a bit breathless.
"Very," he grinned, his thumb brushing over your cheek affectionately. "But you know⌠I could go for more."
You swatted his chest lightly. "Youâre ridiculous."
"Ridiculously in love with you," he quipped, and the sincerity in his voice made your heart skip a beat.
"Youâre lucky youâre cute," you teased, even though the warmth in your chest was undeniable.
"Very lucky," he agreed, leaning in to nuzzle your neck playfully. He grinned, pressing one final kiss to your forehead before stepping back.
You rolled your eyes, biting back a smile. "Just get ready for the press conference, Verstappen."
As he walked away you caught the smirk playing on his lips, a silent promise that he'd be back for more. And already, you found yourself looking forward to it.
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beach fight - part 1
warnings: angst, mentions of blood, cussing, topper, fighting, mentions of cheating, Ruthie
disclaimer: this is so satisfying to read â requests are open!!
pairing: rafe cameron x reader
The Pogues were lounging on the beach, enjoying the rare moment of peace. Y/N tried to relax, but the air felt tense, like something was about to go down. She couldnât help but notice the Kooks pulling up in their flashy cars, parking way too close. Rafe, Topper and the rest of their stupid crew stepped out, making sure everyone saw them.
The last thing Y/N needed was to see Rafe. After everything he didâ cheating on her with Sofia. it still stung. they had a thing going on for a while, he changed when they were togetherâ but that all went away when Sofia happened. And now, here they were, together, acting like nothing had happened
Topper and JJ had made a quick agreement not to start anything. Both knew things could get messy fast, so they decided to keep it chill for the day.
Everyone settled back into their spots, but Y/N could feel the tension in her muscles. She couldnât help glancing over at Rafe, who looked too comfortable around Sofia, his arm draped lazily over her shoulder. Her stomach twisted with a mix of anger and hurt.
Suddenly, Kiara gasped. âGuys, look!â
The Poguesâ attention snapped to the tiny turtle hatch making its way to the ocean.
Everyone gathered around, watching as the turtle moved slowly through the sand. It was a rare moment of quiet wonder, the kind that reminded them why they loved this place.
But then the loud roar of an engine shattered the peace. Ruthieâs truck tore through the sand, heading right for the turtle, swerving dangerously close to the Pogues.
âWatch out!â JJ yelled, grabbing Kiara and pulling her out of the way.
The truck barely missed them, the tires kicking up sand. Ruthie laughed from inside, clearly amused at the chaos she was causing.
âShe almost killed them!â Kiara said, horrified, looking back at the little turtles still struggling through the sand.
Y/N clenched her fists, biting her tongue. Her heart raced with anger, but she tried to hold it in. Not yet, donât explode yet.
But Ruthie wasnât done. She spun the truck around, her laughter echoing through the air. As she drove past them again, she leaned out the window, holding a drink. Without warning, she tossed it right on Kiara, drenching her in sticky liquid and ice.
Kiara stood there, frozen, dripping wet. âAre you kidding me?â
Y/N felt the last thread of control snap. âDonâtâ John B muttered, trying to keep the peace.
But Y/N couldnât take it anymore. She stormed toward Ruthie, eyes blazing with fury, not caring what anyone said.
âY/N, donât!â John B called after her, but it was too late. The anger that had been building for monthsâRafeâs betrayal, seeing Sofia here, Ruthieâs blatant disrespectâhad reached its breaking point.
Y/N marched right up to Ruthie, who was standing by her truck now, smirking at the mess sheâd caused.
âWhatâs your problem, you bitch?â Y/N spat, her voice shaking with rage.
Ruthie sneered, completely unfazed. âWhatâs yours, Pogue? Go cry about it with your dirty friends.â
That did it. Without a second thought, Y/N grabbed Ruthie by the shirt and shoved her back, hard. Ruthie stumbled, caught off guard, but before she could react, Y/N swung her fist, landing a solid punch to Ruthieâs face.
Ruthie shrieked in pain, clutching her nose as blood started to drip. âYou psycho!â
The Kooks looked on in shock, unsure of what to do. Sofiaâs eyes widened as she watched Y/N completely lose it. But she noticed something elseâRafe wasnât running to Ruthieâs defense. Instead, his eyes were glued to Y/N, a mix of anger and concern flashing across his face.
Ruthie tried to fight back, but Y/N wasnât having it. She grabbed Ruthieâs hair, yanking her down toward the sand as Ruthie let out another scream. Y/Nâs fists flew, fueled by months of pent-up rage.
âY/N!â Rafeâs voice finally broke through, but she didnât stop. He rushed over and grabbed her from behind, wrapping his arms around her waist and pulling her off Ruthie. âThatâs enough!â
Y/N struggled against his grip, still fuming. âLet go of me!â
Ruthie lay on the ground, crying and holding her bloody nose. Y/N had done enough damage, but the fire inside her wasnât out.
Rafe held her tight, his breath warm against her neck as he tried to calm her down. âWhat the hell are you doing?â
âGet your hands off me, Rafe,â Y/N snapped, finally breaking free of his grip. She spun around to face him, her chest heaving. âWhat am I doing? Iâm doing what you shouldâve doneâkeeping your bitchass friends in check.â
Rafe narrowed his eyes, but Y/N didnât give him a chance to respond. âYouâve been running around with these Kooks, pretending like nothing matters, while youâre just as bad as them. You cheated on me with her!â Y/Nâs voice cracked as she pointed at Sofia, who was standing frozen, watching the whole scene unfold.
Rafe clenched his jaw, but there was a flicker of guilt in his eyes. âThatâs notââ
âDonât even try to defend yourself,â Y/N cut him off. âYou lost that right the second you chose Sofia.â
Sofia, who had been silent this whole time, shifted uncomfortably as Rafeâs attention stayed focused on Y/N. She could see how much Y/N still affected him, how his whole demeanor changed around her. His concern, his frustrationâit was all for Y/N, and that realization stung.
Y/N turned her back on Rafe and marched back toward Ruthie, who was still sitting in the sand, clutching her bleeding nose. Before anyone could stop her, Y/N grabbed Sofiaâs drink from the hood of the truck and dumped it right over Ruthieâs head.
Ruthie gasped, soaked and defeated, blood and soda dripping down her face.
âDonât ever mess with my friends again,â Y/N hissed, her voice low and dangerous.
Rafe watched in shock, still standing frozen in place, as Y/N walked back toward the Pogues. He barely noticed Sofia next to him, her face twisted in jealousy and confusion as she realized how much control Y/N still had over him.
The Pogues erupted in cheers as Y/N rejoined them. JJ slapped her on the back, laughing. âHell yeah, Y/N! That was awesome!â
Kiara, still wiping the drink off her, grinned. âYou really know how to handle things.â
But as the Pogues celebrated, Rafe stayed behind, his eyes locked on Y/N, conflicted emotions swirling inside him. Sofia glanced between them, noticing the way Rafeâs attention was fixed on Y/N, and it was clear: no matter what had happened between him and Sofia, Y/N still had a hold on him that Sofia could never break.
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