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[loreandorder]

Puppy's First Garden Party ❀˖°

Femdom x gn puppy sub

cw: voyeurism, exhibitionism, petplay, pussy eating, D/s dynamics

a/n: Hey there you adorable little critters and fellow D-types, I hope you enjoy this spicy lil' story!

Subbies are legally required to tell me if this got their puppy parts all tingly 'n wet ♡

~ Miss Lore xo

Daydreaming about going to a garden party with you, my cute little pup, collared and leashed by my side. When we arrive fashionably late (('sorry everyone, I got a bit carried away playing dress up with my pup, but aren't they just adorable in this outfit?')) there are already plenty of other pets playing together on the lawn while their owners socialize over iced drinks and decadent treats.

I lead you on all fours to the edge of the lawn in front of the beautiful maze of a garden. I point to the other pets, "Look pup, there are so many new friends to make. Would you like to go play with them?"

Your wide-eyed gaze travels over the other pets. A group of rambunctious puppies play wrestling in the grass, a brave bunny in their midst; sleepy kitties sunbathing in golden pools of sun; three needy bunnies in a pile, their hips grinding frantically against eachother; piggies rolling adorably in a puddle of mud; and even two ponies racing eachother around the lawn!

It must all be so overwhelming for my little pup though, because soon you're nuzzling into the back of my plush thighs, hidden from the view of the others by the skirt of my long floral dress.

I stroke your head soothingly, "Don't worry, my little one, you can come sit at Alpha's feet until you're ready to go play with the others. Come along, sweetheart."

Despite your nervousness, you remember your leash training well, and you follow along two steps behind me on my right side. You're such an obedient little pup for me, and I can't help but smile proudly as your good behavior earns you approving looks from some other Doms as we pass them by. Not that you notice them, the devoted little thing that you are, you only have eyes for me. Your Alpha.

As we approach our table, I snag a cushion off an empty lounger. My good pup deserves a comfy seat at my feet. When we arrive, I greet our friends and giggle over the flustered look on your face as they coo over how adorable you look today. I take my seat and place the cushion between my feet. Normally, you sit to the right of me, but I can see just how shy and anxious you're feeling. I know that you'll feel much safer between my legs. Your comfort in these situations far outweighs any protocol we may have established.

When you kneel prettily between my legs, I cup your cheeks, leaning in and nuzzle the top of your head. "How is my little one doing?" I whisper softly as I pull away to look you in the eye so I can evaluate you as you answer.

"I-I'm okay Alpha..." you reply, your fingers fidgeting with the hem of my skirt.

I hum softly, "There's lots of people here today, isn't there? That can be pretty overwhelming, huh pup?" You give a small nod.

"Do you want to leave? You just say the word, and Alpha will take you home and smother you in cuddles," I smooch your nose, earning a little giggle from you. It's one of my most favorite sounds in the whole world. Right up there with the sound of you chanting my name like a prayer as you fall apart in my arms.

"No Alpha," your gaze travels back to the lawn where the other pets are, and a small embarrassed squeak escapes you. You bury your face in my skirt as I look over my shoulder to find that two puppies have joined the slutty little bunnies. A few Owners have taken lawn chairs over, lounging and chatting casually as they keep an eye on the little group. One laughs as he watches a pup trying to mount a pretty little bunny, but the silly pup is too frantic, too dumb with need, that it only succeeds in rutting it's cock between the thighs of the bunny.

I run my fingers through your hair, trailing my nails across your scalp as I watch with interest. The man — who I guess to be the pup's Owner — eventually shows the dumb little pup mercy, getting up from his chair to kneel beside the pair. The pup gets a few rough smacks on the ass before the man helps guide its cock into the bunny. As soon as the pups cock slides home, it's off to the races as he rutts ruthlessly into the poor bunny's little hole.

I feel you quiver beneath my hands and turn my attention back to you. You're peeking shyly over my knee at the scene unfolding on the lawn. I smirk teasingly down at you as I watch you nibbling your lip. I know the look on your face. My shy little pup is getting excited.

When you notice you've been spotted you yelp, and rather than just burying your face in my skirt, this time you duck beneath it completely. I stroke your fabric coverd head soothingly as our friends around the table break out in adoring laughter. Your shy antics never fail to amuse everyone lucky enough to witness them.

Beneath my skirt, you snuggle in between my thighs. I widen my legs to give you more space and wait patiently with a knowing smirk as you surge forward into the space. The thin fabric of my dress does little to mask the needy whimper that escapes you a second later.

"Oh? That was a delicious little sound," one of our friends says, tilting her head curiously.

"Someone just realized I'm not wearing any panties," I giggle.

"Have fun, pup!" One of them calls to you as the others grin.

I pat your head again, "You do what you're comfortable with, little one. You have open permission."

You yip softly and nuzzle your face in close to the apex of my thighs, but you don't touch. I feel the warm puffs of your breath against my already slickening cunt as you contentedly breath in my scent.

Continuing to absentmindedly pet your head, I settle into conversation with the other Dommes at the table. I enjoy spending time with them, chatting about our lives, catching up with each other, and of course, telling tales of the kinky adventures we've been on since we last met up. The lewd sounds from lawn increase as time goes on, and occasionally conversation dwindles as we watch the scene play out.

My arousal flares, and by the way you fidget and how your breathing picks up against my pussy I know you can tell. I also know you must be feeling the same way when you lean in and nose lightly against my pussy with a whine.

"Good puppy," I praise, assuring you that you have permission to use that pretty little mouth of yours on me. It seems the extra encouragement is exactly what you need because in the next instant I'm letting out a satisfied sigh as you begin gently lapping at my slit.

My body melts into my chair, and my legs instinctively widen for you. Your nose bumps my clit as you nuzzle into my wet folds, sending a shock of pleasure through me. The ladies around the table throw me knowing looks, smiling as a new show begins to unfold in front of them.

I try to stay focused, following the path of the conversation, but it doesn't take long for me to lose it. Just like it doesn't take you long to surrender yourself fully to that safe puppy place in your mind, embarrassment forgotten as you begin eating me out with fervor. Soon, all I can focus on is the way you've buried your cute little face into my cunt, desperatley licking and suckling like your life depends on it.

You've always been a messy pup when you feast on me, and this time is no different. I can hear and feel just how sloppy you've made me, your drool mixing with my juices. I moan softly as you burry your tongue inside me while grinding your nose against my clit. Gripping your head through my skirt I can't help but rock my hips onto your face, imagining the familiar dazed, pleasure filled look that's surely taken over your features by now.

"You're doing so good pup, you should see your Alpha's face," a Domme coos.

I feel more than hear your moan at the knowledge of the pleasure you're bringing me. You become more frantic after that. The wet squelching sounds emanating from beneath my skirt become even more obscene as you frantically push me higher and higher towards release.

I'm gasping and moaning, none to quietly at this point, and the table has turned their full attention to us. When I'm able to pry my eyes open I even catch some playing with themselves.

"Mmh, yes puppy, so good!" I cry out. Managing to grip a fistful of your hair through the fabric I begin humping against your face, chasing my peak.

"Perfect little fuckpup! Good pup, good pup, good pup," I chant breathlessly as my hips stutter and my orgasm hits, drenching your face even further. You don't stop your frantic ministrations though, and I have to force you off my sopping cunt with a breathless command of "Enough!"

Dying to see your glistening, cum covered face, I pull you out from under my skirt. Sure enough my little pup is dazed and pussydrunk, eyes glazed over and tongue hanging out of your mouth as you try to catch your breath. The sight of you alone has my pussy clenching around thin air with need.

"Up," I command, pushing you back so I have room to stand on quivering legs. Picking up your leash, I give you a gentle tug and begin leading you across the lawn towards the garden of tall flowering plants and hedges. I know you're not ready to do anything else with an audience, but I won't be waiting until we get home to use my darling pup to their fullest extent.

Wolf whistles and laughs ring out behind us, but I pay them no mind.

The only thing I care about in that moment is taking my sweet little pup for a tumble in the gardens ♡

[eldritchcreatureofwords]

Helluvaboss? Never seen it? Oh cool, cool, I gotchu boss. It's a silly, goofy cartoon adult show about silly Imps who go down to earth and murder people they're hired to murder! Lots of sex jokes, swearing, and absurd situations. The best part is one is fucking a literal prince and they're into BDSM and bondage so LOTS of fun sexy jokes and moments there! Here, I'll introduce you:

This one? Oh yeah, this one's the main character. He adores ponies and makes dozens of horse OC's for a pony show he likes, pairing them up and making whole little relationship charts for them. He also has several horse plushies and hand makes his own horsie branded things; but he can't really spell so he does his best. He has a stuffed horse his boyfriend gave him called Spirit Jr . because Spirit is his favorite movie, and he's a deeply loving man who cares intensely for the people he considers family and is protective of them to the point of risking himself. He desperately craves love and affection despite hating himself so much that he genuinely believes he's not and has never been worth anyone's!

This one? Oh, this one's the main character's best friend-turned-enemy-turned-best friend. It's a long story. He's a fully disabled sweetheart who adores his boyfriend with all his heart and would quite literally run himself ragged to make people smile. He's a soft, gentle, kind-hearted babydoll who doesn't believe he's good enough to have the fame that he's earned through struggle, pain, and hard work or the love of his boyfriend, and wants nothing more then to be a happy little lap kitty with happy friends and the open affection of his partner!

These two? Oh, this is Moxxie and Millie. They work for the Main Character and they're a happily married, emotionally stable, well adjusted and healthy couple! They have their problems like anyone else, of course, but they ultimately get through their issues with communication, patience, and understanding, and they love each other deeply and dearly- they'll do anything for the other.

Millie is an emotionally intelligent, loving, motherly rough and tumble type who loves a good scuffle but is nothing but gentle towards her friends and loved ones, unless they need a kick to the butt. She's overly competitive and sometimes her anger gets the better of her, but she's ultimately about the most well adjusted person in the cast! Moxxie is a shy, anxious, socially awkward love bug who really just wants to listen to his musicals and cuddle his wife in peace! He adores art in almost any form, in 110% whipped and both knows and loves it, and he's terrified of rejection and desperate for the approval of those around him!

He's a little crack shot and arguably the most lethal person in the cast, but legitimately can't bring himself to fire a shot in the first episode because he might be ruining an innocent family, and that thought destroys him! Give him a gun and a bullet and your ass is finished, but he'd really rather not!

This is Stolas! He's the main character's boyfriend- er, sort of. It's a whole thing. He's been in a fridge! He's a depressed, socially anxious mess who loves romance novels, singing, telenovas and romcoms! He wants to be swept up in a whirlwind romance, and is desperate to find happiness and love after being forced into an abusive arranged marriage to a woman who he's as gay as a unicorn's fart! He has and adores a daughter with his whole heart and she may be among the only things keeping him alive and kicking! He's a genuinely kind, sweet, and deeply loving man who cares quite a bit for our Main Character and, despite his flaws, wants the best for the people around him!

This one? Oh, this one. This one's Loona. She's our Main Character's adopted daughter. Loona regularly physically assaults her father, wounding him both mentally and physically! She's a mean, bad tempered ball of attitude and rejection issues, who picks on Moxxie, antagonizes everyone else, and can't have even one drink because you 'won't like her' even after one. She drops the ball on her responsibilities most of the time, and when she does do her job she does it badly and with attitude. She's angry, antisocial, and aggressive, and she won't hesitate to get in anyone's face about anything. (She's also quite loyal, surprisingly kind, shy, and very sweet...but she wouldn't want you to know that. And we're not covering anything they wouldn't want you to know!!)

[comfort-clubhouse]

My Kin List

SpongeBob SquarePants (SpongeBob) - Really kind to everyone, autistic

Luigi (Mario) - Really kind to his friends

Snork (Moomin) - Autism

ENA (ENA) - Sometimes gets emotional

Snorkmaiden (Moomin) - Has creativity

Sketchbook (DHMIS) - Creativity

Soft Boyfriend (Friday Night Funkin - Soft) - Sensitive to loud sounds

Soft Mouse (Friday Night Funkin - Soft) - Really quiet

Wall-E (Wall-E) - Likes discovering new things

Numbuh 3 (Kids Next Door) - Fantasizes plushies, gentle, kind

Skid (Spooky Month) - Loves Halloween

Pump (Spooky Month) - Loves Halloween

Ms Chalice (Cuphead Show) - Loves music, musician

Curse (VS Sonic.EXE) - Friendly

Charlie Morningstar (Hazbin Hotel) - Cares about her friends, looks up to her family, bilingual

Slushi (Chikn Nuggit) - Loves anime & Japanese culture

Tails (Sonic) - Likes hanging out with his friends

Tiana (Princess and The Frog) - Likes catering

Marcy Wu (Amphibia) - Is autistic

Pomni (The Amazing Digital Circus) - introverted, anxiety

Matt (Eddsworld) - has autism

Lucifer Morningstar (Hazbin Hotel) - Special interests

Ellie Rose (Henry Stickmin) - Friendly to ones she cares about

Ruby (Battle For Dream Island) - Has a Pokémon phase, loves going shopping for clothes, can be sensitive

Bubble (Battle For Dream Island) - Likes baking, over apologizes

X (Battle For BFB) - They get nervous under pressure

Sir Pentious (Hazbin Hotel) - Enthusiastic about being in activities

Angel Dust (Hazbin Hotel) - Bilingual, skilled in cooking

Moxxie (Helluva Boss) - Likes cooking, bisexual

Tari (SMG4) - likes cats, video games and anime

Melony (SMG4) - likes sleeping, likes anime

Fluttershy (My Little Pony) - Attracted to villains, forgives people too easily

Luz Noceda (Owl House) - Loves cute things, in multiple fandoms, crushes on fictional characters

Rarity (My Little Pony) - Artistic

Mabel Pines (Gravity Falls) - Scared of being alone, funny, deep down very clever

Gus Porter (Owl House) - Enthusiastic about special interests

Vee (Owl House) - Innocent, anxious, comfortable around certain people

Dipper Pines (Gravity Falls) - Curious, anxiety, loves puzzles

Nifty (Hazbin Hotel) - Bilingual, likes fanfiction, likes cooking

Gangle (The Amazing Digital Circus) - Loves drawing, hates loud noises

Hooty (Owl House) - Dislikes being left out, likes Lilith

Lilith Clawthorne (Owl House) - Aroace

N (Murder Drones) - Kind, socially awkward, loves dogs

Pinkie Pie (My Little Pony) - Extreme mood swings, sweet tooth

Raine Whispers (Owl House) - Creative, hates when people I care about in danger, easily flustered

Sprig Plantar (Amphibia) - Loves his family

Tom Lucitor (Star Vs The Forces of Evil) - Kind to others, funny, needs something to calm down

Pearl (Steven Universe) - Can be easily flustered

Marceline (Adventure Time) - Emotional, keeps a teddy, bisexual

Entrapta (She-Ra - Princess of Power) - Autistic, sensitive, would never directly harm anyone

Sayori (Doki Doki Literature Club) - Loves hugs, patient, loves cute things, gets distracted eaaily

Cinnamoroll (Sanrio) - Likes baking, shy, likes eating, sleepy, likes to take naps, loves making new friends

Mugman (Cuphead Show) - cautious against the dangers during trips

Octavia (Helluva Boss) - Scared of someone leaving her, has separated parents

[gen1-hc]

Love Melody

Job: Advice forum author

Element: Kindness

Location: Manehattan & Ponyville

Bio:

Love Melody grew up in the city. Her father is a reporter and her mother is a photographer. Together they're paparazzi for celebrities and princesses. Love always felt like the city was full of greed, selfish, and mean attitudes. From a young age she did her best to combat this by being as kind as she could.

As an adult she formed an advice forum in the paper under the name "Secret Song". She gave advice and attended community events.

She suddenly started having problems where she was too kind, and her advice was causing problems where the solution was to set boundaries and to be assertive.

One day, as she sat at her desk all frustrated, she sees a yellow light in the sky. She opened her window to get a better look and gets hit by a flying beam. Her cutie mark explodes its design all over her body. She panics and shuts herself in her room, not releasing any forums. Her regular readers and parents worry.

Fluttershy arrives in Manehatten, anxious and lost, wearing her dulled element necklace. She tries to find her quest from the map, but ends up hiding in a small cafe. There, she overhears a couple talking about the missing advice writer. She rushes over and asks for details before getting shy for her outburst. The couple point her in the direction of a reporter that might have more information - Love Melody's father.

He gladly tells her about Love shutting herself away, and they go together to Love's small apartment. Love finally lets them in and shows Fluttershy her strange cutie mark. Fluttershy tries to use her element again, and the cutie mark glows but the crystal necklace remains dull.

After many failed attempts, including trying to wash the cutie mark off, Love talks about the problems she's been having. Fluttershy gets excited - because even though her element wasn't working she knew a bit about kindness and being assertive when it counts. She helps Love write some forums and teaches her what she knows. After successfully publishing the forums, the element necklace glows and Fluttershy's cutie mark blinks.

Fluttershy happily explains to Love that Twilight told her to bring her back to Ponyville. Love agrees, packs up, and leaves with her. Along the way, Fluttershy explains that the elements weren't working but the map sent all the Mane 6 to different places at the same time. Twilight had told them to bring the ponies or creatures that they helped back to ponyville to try to figure out why this happened.

Upon arriving to the Crystal Tree Castle, they find that everyone else had already arrived. All the Mane 6 and the Twice As Fancy Ponies were gathered by the table.

They meet each other, have their meeting, and conclude that the elements wanted these ponies in Ponyville to help the Mane 6 - who have been very busy with the school, their personal duties, and element quests. The Fancy Ponies decide to settle in ponyville, start new jobs and work part time as substitutes for the 6 at the school.

[petalblossomstower]

your name is BOW TIE. you love PRETTY FASHION AND ACCESSORIES, and you delight in helping other ponies LOOK AND FEEL THEIR BEST. you’re very patient, some might even say you are FAR TOO PATIENT, but you always try to see the best in everyone and it’s hard for you to not sympathize with other ponies.

this attitude can sometimes make you a REAL PUSHOVER, but it also makes you a GREAT TEAM PLAYER, which is a worthwhile tradeoff in your opinion. that said, sometimes there are DEMONS IN YOUR BRAIN that tell you how YOU’RE SCUM AND EVERYONE HATES YOU.

but you have REALLY GOOD FRIENDS that love you and care about you and do their best to make sure you know it, even if you don’t always KNOW it, y’know?

you work at a little BEAUTY SPA in ponyville, but you don’t have very much responsibility, which is probably for the best. you just do your best to STAY OUT OF OTHER PONIES’ WAY, and if you succeed at that, you consider it a good day.

you have often heard legends of the ELEMENTS OF HARMONY, but never expected for one to awaken within YOU. unfortunately for you, you have been saddled with the rather ominous ELEMENT OF DOOM. while you never took yourself as much of an adventurer, you feel it’s your responsibility to care for this element and make the most of it. and if that means going on a MAGICAL ADVENTURE WITH YOUR FRIENDS, well that’s actually pretty exciting!

one of your best friends is the noble unicorn SUNBEAM. she’s so graceful and majestic, and everyone loves her. you try to match her elegance and beauty, but you aren’t nearly that cool.

your other best friend is the pegasus MEDLEY, and the unicorn GLORY is also a good friend who takes up alot of your brain space. medley is a REAL SWEETHEART, the two of you are both really shy and awkward, so you get each other, and she makes you feel brave. glory is ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS and you have the biggest crush on her ever, though you aren’t really sure if you want to date her or be her.

[purplesugarbabe]

Far Cry has always been my favorite game. I grew up watching my grandfather playing it and now, after all this time I finished playing the last one. Since I felt nostalgic, I decided to write some headcanons. Enjoy! ✨

Dani Rojas:

Dani is a person that can actually see through people, she understands how they feel.

For most of her life she has to be on the run, especially after Lita's tragic death. She felt useless when she realized she was unable to help her best friend, when she saw her dying on that beach.

But Clara made her feel like home. I believe Dani saw more in Clara than just a skilled leader, a smart woman full of strength. She saw the mother she never had.

Dani loves kids and your can't prove wrong. She was willing to kill and die for Diego. She would do anything to keep him safe, to raise him as one of her own.

She is a dog person. Dani has a soft spot for animals. She enjoys talking to them and petting them whenever she has a chance.

She and Paz (Bicho) are best friends. Paz truly appreciates and loves her. She inspires him and makes him feel important.

Although she gets annoyed at times by Juan's behavior, she really cares about him and actually admires him. He makes her laugh, share stories with her and always reminds her who she is.

Even though most of them say Dani is bad with words, I believe she isn't. She always know what to say to make the everyone feel better, even if it's for a moment.

Clara Garcia:

She is the mom of Libertad and you know it.

The fact that Clara knew she wouldn't make it to see Yara being free makes me understand that she strong instincts. She could feel it deep down and that didn't scare her at all, she never gave up.

I think Clara cared way more than she showed. She gave Dani the boat even knowing she could help them free Yara. She let people decide on their own and that says a lot about her.

I loved that fact that every time we saw her she was with Juan. I actually found that really adorable. Dani once called them "mama and papa". It was probably because they were strict and absolute about some things.

Also Clara left everything behind in order to free her country. If she isn't one of the strongest and influential women, I don't know what she is.

Juan Cortez:

This man, I don't think words can describe him.

The way he behaves is probably a coping mechanism. He tells stories and jokes about things. Also he drinks hella lot and take all sorts of "candies" as he has said himself. He has seen more than a lot in this world and tries to forget them.

All those supremos he makes, he is more than a genius. Also that proves he has a major knowledge and is very creative at the same time.

The fact that he has Guapo makes my heart melt. The little croc wears a freakin shirt! He has trained them and loves him a lot and for those who say Juan isn't a caring person, they're wrong.

He and Dani are my favorite duo. Juan makes all that crazy sh!t and Dani has to save the day once more. I feel like when no one is watching they tell each other cringy jokes to have fun.

Diego Castillo:

My sweet baby boy is definitely a little rebel. Even though he is trying his best to follow his dad's rules and make him proud, he wishes he could be like every other teenager.

Very shy, especially when meeting new people. He starts staring at his feet when he doesn't know what to say. Can't really make eye contact.

Hoodies, he loves hoodies. They are comfortable and make his feel nice. He can't really stand the uniform his father makes him wear.

I feel like he is one of those teenagers that don't want to brush their hair and just wears them in a pony tail. Maria doesn't approve that.

Can't cope with pressure and feels anxious most of the time. I feel like when he's alone he cries in order to feel better.

Anton Castillo:

His behavior is a reaction of what he went through when he was a teenager.

Although his parents made him a well mannered person, his life after his father death made him who he was.

Loves his son, okay? The ending of the game is probably the biggest proof. Anton knew that Dani couldn't keep Diego safe from the guerrillas. They would kill them both and Anton couldn't stand the idea of his son being tortured and killed in the hands of those people he tried to him away from.

He doesn't chose women by their appearance. Even though Maria was a beautiful woman, he chose her because she had a way with words. That proves he's interested in how a woman thinks.

I hope you liked them! 🌿✨

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

yknow while this hellsite continues on the whole religion discussion thing, i’d like to jump in on it with my experience particularly with leaving catholic school.

like aside from my angsty pop-punk/emo etc teen phase (which’ll obvs be weaved into story later on) that led me to have different views from the church and aside from the whole sexism thing that i endured over my year 10 formal/junior prom in 2010 and 2011 from staff there….. i found it within myself incredibly hard to leave there… mostly because i’d known literally 1/3 of my year group at catholic school since kindy/kindergarten or some other point in primary school.

this affected my choice to leave and it was quite tumultuous inwardly. knowing the safety and predictably of the people i was with for all those years was a comfort to me. i knew their parents due to parent mixer bbqs that we’d have after mother’s day and father’s day liturgies- although i hated the mother’s day ones mostly, due to personal reasons. but to leave that comfortable place for overly loyal, kinda sorta shy (although everyone who knew me at that school wouldn’t’ve described me as shy bc i was a very loud show off because of drama class 😅) and by year 10, very lonely, highly socially anxious and depressed, teen me was terrifying. it meant losing her friends and stability and she obvs hated that thought. it meant leaving the one one place she ever felt good at something, drama class.

obviously, after she did leave for public school, she visited the catholic school on a few separate occasions, to try and keep the connection “alive” or whatever the fuck she wrote in a fake deep status on her fb (that i now get in my fb memories every year lmao). but it all ended pretty badly, when everyone from that school stopped talking to her once high school finished. no one invited her out. or if people did try to invite her out, like a couple of people did, it always fell through…. and it made her feel like she was just a bad luck charm or whatever other low self esteem talk she was telling herself. there was quite a few moody statuses around that too lmao.

but yeah. leaving catholic school was a massive thing for me back then, because even though i hadn’t gone to church on sunday for literal Y E A R S at that point; i still had a strong pull to that school because i’d known SO MANY kids at that school from primary/elementary/grade etc school, regardless of their year group level. because if there’s one thing catholic school was good at, it was networking 😂. you knew everyone, and everyone knew you. it was safe, it was sound, so i didn’t want to leave.

but once you leave, you lose your friends and what almost felt like an extended family (although they obvs weren’t). but at the same time, i’d grown to hate the safety and almost insularity of the school, because as i mentioned earlier, you felt like you could predict how people would react or behave in class/events etc.

i felt the above distinctly, because as i’ve mentioned plenty on here, from years 7-10 i was a very emotionally demonstrative kid. in some classes (mostly religion and PE when i was bothered to participate) i’d end up in shouting matches with the teacher or other students…. or y’know just have a casual meltdown in the middle of class, which many people saw as “attention seeking” behaviour. i felt watched, i felt ready to snap, and to quote the ever present All Time Low i felt like the bridge lyrics from “therapy” (which was/is quite obviously somewhat partially about the price of fame and hollywood imo- but that went over teen me’s head at the time lmao):

“arrogant boy, love yourself so no one has to, they’re better off without you (better off without you). arrogant boy, cause a scene like you’re supposed to, they’ll fall asleep without you; you’re lucky if your memory remains”

like yes. i’ll admit those bridge lyrics being applied to this time is rather overdramatic, in hindsight, but hey. that was teen me for ya lmao. and don’t even get me started on applying ATL’s song “sick little games” to this at the time as well 😂😅. anyway. from all the “lms and i’ll tell you what i like about you” trend statuses that people were doing back then on fb, i’d gained the tag of “cool/chill girl”, my crush rich boy, once called me “outrageous” because of how loud i was and how willing in years 7-9 to scream out stupid song lyrics like “i want to fuck dog in the ass” by blink 182, fight song by marilyn manson and then idek probably my humps by black eyed peas at the top my lungs through the very few halls that that school had 😂😅. i was being purposely and annoyingly offensive most of the time.

but eventually, once it came to things like one of the girls in my group wanting to run for vice school captain and the other girls in my group A L W A Y S being given leadership positions (LPs)….. while i always had to apparently “repent” my behaviour by being made (in theory from my teachers) to sit alone at lunch because of my “embarrassing” and “unseemly” behaviour at the so-called “training”/ “retreat” days we had for things like being peer support leaders for the new cohort of year 7s etc etc. i felt like everyone was just waiting for me to leave…. and that they couldn’t stand my “embarrassing” presence and that i’d ruin my friends chances of being selected as co-captain or whatever other bullshit LPs they wanted to run for. but still. i felt like i couldn’t leave. just. how do you leave a bunch of people that you’ve known for so long???

and even when my teachers were nice enough to give me a chance in a leadership position once; in that dastardly bullshit internet safety workshop thing that they should’ve literally just hired a professional workshop co. to do….. but to save money they used students in my year group instead. so, instead of being marked by my teachers on this program; i was marked by the catholic education office. they had a lady come in from the ceo to judge/mark us while presenting…… and this lady went off at teen me for “not being professional, responsible and respectful” or whatever the fuck the woman told 15/16yo me…. which teen me then fired back with “i don’t have to be fucking professional and responsible!!!! IM FUCKING 15!!!!”.. so from then on i was never given an LP or any other type of “peer support” role against my friends who were littered with offers for them. mind you, i did call a whole room of 14 year olds “a bunch of cunts” or the like and then stormed out thinking that i’d made a solid point, so the CEO woman had a good reason 😂😅….. again in hindsight.

of course there was also the bitterness of teen me being angry at the english dept for not giving her a spot in the top class of english in her half of the year. but as i’ve said previously on other posts, i’ve forgiven this because i did essentially fail one shakespeare in class assessment in year 8 or year 9 😂. but i strongly felt this during my time at catholic school bc my friends believed that i should’ve been in the top english class too lmao.

but aside from those troubles and foibles, i still found it incredibly hard to leave. to leave the perceived closeness of that group of girls, who would sometimes walk me down to the office and sit with me in “purple room” while i waited for the teacher that had to act as my therapist almost lmao. even though i always told my friends to leave me be and go back to class bc i felt bad about dragging them out of class for so long.

but yeah. with all the above behaviour, the song lyrics to me at the time made sense bc teen me just felt so pressured to fit into the whole “funny, cool, outrageous girl” bs box that people had put her in…. but at the same time she wanted to escape it bc she was just *flyleaf voice* SO SICK of being laughed at instead of laughed with (atl weightless reference here kids) just because… like she DESERVED to be taken seriously for fucks sake, and not a be a “monkey do funny dance” person… she obvs felt this the most in drama class. where in the shakespeare unit, she picked a medley of romeo and juliet and taming of the shrew monologues to do for her monologue. although she nearly did lady macbeth throwing herself off the tower, to be hella edgy…. but she opted not to do that in the end. but she picked serious pieces bc she was sick and tired of being classed as the one trick pony go-to funny person.

okay. this really went off topic. but y’all get the point??? the decision of leaving catholic school was a hell of a ride for little 14-16yo me. it was confusing, terrifying and tied up in years of being overly judged and feeling like people wanted me to leave bc they were sick of me. it was tied up in years of mid-class meltdowns that had become kind of routine for me to have, and that people were just brushing me off as “attention seeking”…. but also ironically waiting for me to snap at any second for another wild shouting match or walkout; which would then make me look like i was “unruly” or “untameable/unmanageable” or whatever the fuck….. but i couldn’t take that anymore, for the final senior years. i HAD to leave it.

again it was hard to leave for loyal little teen me, despite how lonely and isolated she felt. why leave your friends when you’re comfortable??? but also: why stay in this toxic environment where people are just waiting for you to either shut the fuck up and put up with it or just blow up and absolutely lose your shit??? that’s just unhealthy asf. and the only unruly thing that’s happening here is the complete lack of mental health help or management in the aussie education system; but most especially in religious schools.

[lionmom-svenomverse]

Concept art for my ShiningDance family! More info/HCs on each below the cut!

💙 Captain/Queen Consort Shining Armor - Husband of Queen Mi Amore Cadenza “Cadance”. Ruler of the Crystal Empire. Captain of the Royal Guard. Older brother of Princess Twilight Sparkle and King Consort Spike Sparkle. Trans Bi Polyamorous Stallion (He/him). Unicorn (more specifically, a lunacorn). Descendant of Clover the Clever and Starswirl the Bearded.

💙 Queen Mi Amore Cadenza “Cadance” - Wife of Captain/Queen Consort Shining Armor. Ruler of the Crystal Empire. Princess of Love. Trans Pan Polyamorous Mare (She/her). Royal Alicorn. Descendant of Princess Amore and (possibly) G3 Star Catcher.

💙 Princess Flurry Heart - Eldest child of Shining Armor and Cadance. Crown Princess of the Crystal Empire. Genderfluid Pan Mare (Any pronouns). Royal Alicorn (with lunacorn attributes). Likes hanging out with her cousins and being a good older sister. Has winter-aligned magic, can conjure blizzards at will. A member of the Royal Guard. Special talent probably has something to do with her winter magic idk just yet. Playful but serious when she needs to be.

💙 Prince Sweet Brier Rose Quartz - 2nd child. Agender Aro/Ace Stallion (Any pronouns). 31 y/o. Pegasus. Likes flowers, calligraphy, playing the violin and nature documentaries. Special talent is fencing. Named after a type of rose, as well as the iconic gemstone. Based the green in their hair on Clover the Clever. Looks very intimidating but is a sweetheart and a gentle giant. Wanted to make him Aro/Ace because I think having one of Cadance’s kids be Aro/Ace is a cute concept, and also because MiyaTheGoldenFlower making Flurry Aro/Ace in her verse gave me the idea :]

💙 Prince Concord Beaunoir - 3rd child. Trans Aro/Pan Stallion (He/him). 29 y/o. Unicorn (with lunacorn attributes). Likes alcohol, attention, playing the guitar, wooing anyone he comes across and needle felting. Special talent is wine making. Named after a type of grape as well as a type of wine. Likes attention but doesn’t desire a romantic partner. A cocky bastard but genuinely kind at heart.

💙 Princex Apollo L’Amour Sparkle - 4th child. Nonbinary Demi/Poly Pony (They/them). 26 y/o. Pegasus (with lunacorn attributes). Likes comic books, tabletop roleplaying, coffee, shounen anime and sci-fi literature. Special talent not yet decided. Named after the Greek god of the sun as well as 2 different cultivars of strawberries. Also named after their resemblance to their aunt, Princess Twilight Sparkle. Fairly shy and knowledgeable just like Twi, yet nowhere near as anxious. They’re just chillin!

💙 Princess Ruby Raspberry Chocolate - 5th child, twin sister of Eros. Trans Lesbian Mare (She/her). 22 y/o. Earth pony (with lunacorn attributes). Likes sweets, botany, stained glass art, cartoons and chick flicks. Special talent not yet decided (maybe something along the lines of food?). Partially named after the newest type of chocolate, and shares part of her name with Ruby Roman Rainier, son of Mica (Marble) Pie and Cherry Jubilee. Very excitable; loves everyone and everything. Surprisingly not as self-conscious about being the only Earth Pony in the family as you might think. Has a lot of love in her heart. The brains to Eros’ brawn.

💙 Prince Eros Eversweet Pomegranate - 5th child, twin brother of Ruby. Cis Gay Stallion (He/him). 22 y/o. Common Alicorn (with lunacorn attributes). Likes helping others find love, fairy tales, pie, crocheting and birdwatching. Special talent is matchmaking. Named after the Greek god of love/a cultivar of strawberry and a cultivar of pomegranate. Very calm and relaxed, but quick to anger if you hurt his loved ones. Regardless, he’s a sweet guy and is friends with pretty much everyone. I had a lot of fun designing everyone!! I took a lot of inspiration from other MLP/MLP NG artists but also came up with some ideas myself. I first saw the heart-shaped horn concept from @/fastserve, the Royal Alicorn HC from @/lieutenantcactus, and the concept of lunacorns (or moonicorns) from @/Lopoddity. Ngl I was a bit intimidated when it came to designing the other 5 ShiningDance kids because I wanted to make them look good, but I'm really happy with how they came out! I personally don’t mind straying into more common NG design tropes because at the end of the day we’re all just making kids for candy-colored horses, so it’s supposed to be a lil self-indulgent, but I did try to make something different. Can’t say I’ve seen a lot of ShiningDance kids with green hair! But yeah. Just a reminder that their designs could change whenever I get to making their actual refs (and I’m still only on S4, so I still have 5 seasons worth of lore/character stuff to eventually take into account), but for now I’m having fun doing these headshots. The next design choice to tackle will be their cutiemarks, which I know I’m gonna struggle with, but we'll get there when we get there

[angeloncewas]

(sorry in advance if this turns into a ramble)

I only recently got back into it, but MLP was definitely one of my favorite things as a kid. Like my poor dog is literally named after two of my favorite characters from it at the time.

But yeah it’s obviously very intent on the whole “friendship is magic and solves everything” but it manages to address a lot more stuff than I picked up on as a kid. Like Fluttershy (as her name suggests) is super shy and anxious, but none of the others treat her differently for it and even accommodate to what works best for her a lot. Like how often do you see stuff like that that isn’t only used as a setup for a joke; let alone given so much character on top of it? Plus there’s a lot of physical disabilities (smaller wings, prosthetic legs, etc) that are just there and it’s really cool to see.

Then like just topic wise they literally go everywhere from toxic friendship to accepting others as they are to even not worrying to much about where you will be in the future. It covers almost anything you could think of and they manage to do it in really meaning ways for a kids show.

Also lore wise, there’s so much??? And it’s all really cool??? Like obviously there’s plot holes and terrible writing at some parts because it is a kids show, but they do so much cool stuff. Like the first villain is the mentor’s sister that felt neglected so she trapped her in the moon?

Then there’s Discord who is absolutely one of the coolest villains ever. Like he’s literally a chaos god that makes cotton candy clouds that rain chocolate milk, makes things come alive for fun, and he has a giant soft spot for ONLY Fluttershy. He’s wonderful.

Then there’s a whole changeling race that feeds off love and can change into anything. Like idk you’ve probably heard “This Day Aria” if you’ve been anywhere on the internet, but they made a whole wedding episode where the changeling queen kicks out the bride and tries to get married so her species can feed off of everyone.

There’s a whole lot more but I’ll just end my essay here. Sorry for the long post |_・)

It's always nice when the messages a show instills in people are more than just "be nice!" - instead showing that kind of difference in people (or ponies !) and having other characters react to it in a way that normalizes it. Physical disabilities especially; they're so underrepresented in media and with "kids shows" (I use that term loosely) they're'd oftentimes be a one-off episode with a character in a wheelchair and that's it.

Discord sounds cool :( I have a soft spot for characters with singular soft spots lol

Don't be sorry !! I don't have a lot to add because like I said I never got into it, but I absolutely loved reading your ask (both bc you seem passionate, and bc it actually sounds really interesting)

[appelssiini]

I got tagged by @violasmirabiles thank youu! This was fun

1. what do you prefer to be called name-wise? just plain old Noora is just fine

2. when is your birthday? January 16th! I’m one of the lucky people born very early in the year

3. where do you live? Tampere, Finland

4. three things you are doing right now? avoiding doing Adult Things, stressing about uni applications, listening to birds sing outside

5. four fandoms that have piqued your interest? Ehhh I really don’t have any interesting fandoms that I’m not already in lol sooo here’s four I am or have been in: Hanoi Rocks obvs, Marvel (I know I know it’s trash), Pirates of the Caribbean (when I was a kid. still love them an absurd amount), 24..... couple friends of mine try to get me into Hannibal, let’s see how that goes :D

6. how has the pandemic been treating you? hooo boi. Lost my job. Lost all my hobbies (except knitting and all that shit. I’ve never knit this much in my life lol). Pretty much drank all the money I had saved for moving out. So, uh, not well. It’s been nice doing nothing tho

7. a song you can’t stop listening to right now? Silver - Wham Bam Shang-a-Lang!

8. recommend a movie. Hmmm I will not say any of the marvel movies. I finally watched The Greatest Showman and liked it! Perfect if you wanna feel good and watch something pretty, nothing too serious. I have a lil soft spot for cheesy musicals just like that

9. how old are you? 23

10. school, university, occupation, other? Loser blob. As I said I lost my job thanks to covid and now I really need to get into uni but I have no idea how, the whole thing just scares me a lot

11. do you prefer heat or cold? fuck both. It gets too hot I suffer, it gets too cold I suffer. Give me permanent 10-15c and i’d be happy

12. name one fact others may not know about you. uhhhh I already did multi-camera live streams at the youth center when I was 14, both behind and in front of the camera. We did some interviews with politicians and musicians for a winter-holiday-youth-festival thingy

13. are you shy? depends. Shy not so much, anxious a lot. I like my own space

14. pronouns? She/her but I’m not too picky so maybe leaning a tiny bit towards she/they. I dont really care

15. biggest pet peeves? When some people try to ”compete” in trauma / bad experiences. Humble-bragging about trauma (i’ve heard it more than you’d think and i hate it with passion). Also, caps 🧢 for some reason

16. what is your favorite “-dere” type? I have no idea what this means :D

17. rate your life from 1 to 10, 1 being crappy and 10 being the best it could be. I dont know, 6?

18. what’s your main blog? This one :)

19. list your side blogs and what they’re used for. I only have the brilliantly stupidly named @stony-pony for all the marvel stuff that I dont want to make you all see

20. is there something people need to know about you before becoming friend? I’m shitty at holding conversation most of the time. I need a lot of alone time but i’m clingy too. At first it can seem like i dont want to be friends but it’s only really that i warm up reeaally slowly lol

So if i’d for once actually tag some people. No pressure to do this thoo but @teenangeloutsider @imwaitingforthatfeeling @ollaanhiljaa @all-razzle-no-dazzle @thespacecowboyyy and everyone else bored and procrastinating

[smile-files]

melon’s comprehensive kinlist!

including name of character, source, image, short personality description, mbti, and then why i kin them! take your time to read, or don’t. i get it if you don’t want to scroll through an entire page just to psychoanalyze me lmao, have a good time

1. wirt (over the garden wall)

an angsty, socially awkward dweebus who nerds out over interior design and plays the clarinet. fears death. infp.

my first kin! for a month after rewatching otgw i desperately wanted to be him. to be like him. anything!! it eventually wore away but i still feel that urge sometimes - the urge to write r/im14andthisisdeep poetry and to distance one’s self from their siblings... and heck - his tape for sara is indeed just as awkward as he is but let me assure you that his poetry and clarinet are actually pretty cool. 9/10 i need to see him more. give me more otgw comics. ok thanks.

2. snufkin (moomins)

a philosophical vagabond of vague age. acts stoic all the time but can and will leave every social situation whether or not it’s humanly possible. infp.

after watching some 90s moomin (and later on moominvalley) i realized how much i liked him and how much i was like him; i soon daydreamed of myself, as snufkin, venting to someone. it made me very happy. i vibe with his general demeanor and ideals (minus his gripes about rules, i follow those by the book) and i love psychoanalyzing him. so fun. so fun.

3. arnold perlstein (the magic school bus)

overly-anxious jewish kid and certified expert on rocks and panicking. owns a pair of fire-proof pyjamas in a lovely shade of green. isfj.

you all saw this one coming. my early childhood lives in my mind rent free and such i can’t help but revisit arn and his character. i’ve always loved him (even in, and quite possibly especially in, the reboot) and i’ve always loved psychoanalyzing every single little thing he does (remember that one time he said he was traumatized? me too). i soon realized a lot of it was me projecting! so sue me. actually, sue miss frizzle. either one of them. i mean, if arnold really didn’t like the field trips he could’ve just filed a restraining order! ...just saying.

4. fluttershy (my little pony)

anxious pastel butterfly baby child. probably loves animals more than she loves herself. cries upon impact. isfj.

the pony i’d mentally point to and think “me”. i had like 10 fluttershy-related things growing up, like plushies or funko pops or that sdcc guardians of harmony thing. while not shy in the same manner, it was nice having a character i could relate to about so much! i cosplayed as her equestria girls form for my first comic con as well, so that’s pretty cool. in addition, me being a little lepidopterist means i was bound to love her. it was destiny~

5. lammy lamb (um jammer lammy)

socially anxious and generally anxious rock star who thinks literally everything is a guitar. has an emotional support girlfriend. infp.

man!! she embodies the feeling when you have to go to the eye doctor by yourself to get your glasses fixed or when you have to call someone over the phone... that sheer tension. the panic. the feeling of ‘i want to throw my entire being into the trash can’. but lammy has a bunch of friends to support her, so she’s cool. died by slipping on a banana peel! same, sister. and man would i like to shred on my ukulele now...

6. loser (bfb)

humble (screw bfb 21), supportive, well-loved cube dude who’s voice is like that of an angel. has an entire fanclub in his honor. enfj.

okay, no, i was never a cool kid or ‘popular’, really, but in school i was never bullied for whatever reason and was generally well-liked; i hung out with a squad of weirdos and yet the cool kids would often talk to me? and try to engage me?? despite my very apparent self-deprecation and awkwardness??? either way i feel like it’s such a blessing to me, that i have so many friends! i often feel like i don’t deserve it, but hey. it’s nice! and heck, back when i was on scratch i had a little fanclub myself :0

7. fan (inanimate insanity)

nerdy, friendly aspie boyo who subliminally vents via blogging. longs for stability in his life; was best friends with an egg. entp.

ever since i noted his aspergers-like behavior i became super attached to him - whether or not it was intentional, i found it nice having a character i can relate those feelings with. he’s really sweet and dorky and i love how he gets along with test tube, paintbrush, and lightbulb! it makes me really happy to see him whenever i do. it made me really sad when he was eliminated. what the heck. yeah i dunno i don’t kin him super strongly but i love him to bits.

8. spinel (steven universe the movie)

emotionally unstable clown girl who stood in a garden for thousands of years. patience of a saint. edge like an 11-year-old me. esfp.

uhh um uh totally wasn’t completely disturbed by how much i related to spinel after watching steven universe the movie... totally wasn’t reminded about how and why i hated middle school... totally didn’t rethink my life that day... that’s it. this is all i’m saying.

9. molly blyndeff (epithet erased)

innocent child who has a terrible father and a wonderful demeanor. teddy bear who needs a hug and a criminal as her new dad. infp.

epithet erased is adorable okay?? i knew molly was infp in the first few minutes... more precisely, i knew she was me. man!! i don’t relate directly to her angst but i still feel it. i can replicate her voice so accurately it’s scary. also, i coined a new thing -  ‘molly cake’! you have a chocolate cake, preferably with chocolate chips inside. use chocolate frosting and add little pastel star sprinkles! on top! my mom would make this cake for us anyway but then i realized it was literally just molly in cake form. and it’s just as sweet!

10. tommy coolatta (hlvrai)

a 30-something-year-old child who rocks a propeller hat. chose his last name off of a dunkin donuts menu despite the fact that he has a father. infp.

everyone loves tommy. he’s so sweet? and funny and loveable?? often times when i say something funny but bizarre, i just remember that tommy has said ‘soda helps you see faster’ and it makes me happy. if i’m going to be a weirdo i want to be the wholesome weirdo who loves soda and has a .png for a dog! also i legally have to kin tommy. i took a test for it (and i’m not complaining! i find it quite flattering).

11. twyla (monster high)

the daughter of the boogeyman; would very much like to boogey out of here, if you know what i mean. avoids people like the plague. infj.

seeing her role in the show and in the movies, i really love twyla? first of all, her voice is my new favorite thing. it’s like... gravelly? and soft? she’s the type of person who would very much like to disappear when in a crowd; thankfully, she literally can. i am drawn to any sarcastic, self-deprecating introvert who takes care of their bonkers extrovert friend (in this case howleen), as i often act as such myself. also the phrase ‘boogey sand’ will never leave my mind now :)

12. lapis lazuli (steven universe)

water gem who wants you to leave. cynical as all heck, sensitive as all hell. is there such thing as a gem therapist? just asking. infp.

in a similar way to twyla, i vibe with lapis’ sarcasm and wit as well as her emotional side. it can be kind of addicting, isolating one’s self. anywho, me and my sister used to do this routine of yelling up to each other this certain dialogue between lapis and peridot when peri was leaving for something (in which lapis replied to everything she said with dry ‘yeah’s); i would always do lapis’ part. i do reply a lot with ‘okay’ or ‘yeah’ or ‘cool’ to things people tell me, as i never really know what to say.

13. brad meltzer (xavier riddle and the secret museum)

shy jewish butterfly kid who absolutely hates time travel. attracted to people who know how to socialize like a normal human being. infp(?).

okay okay so... combine everything from arnold and everything from fluttershy and that’s basically what brad is to me. a jewish socially anxious nerd who loves butterflies and drawing. badabing badaboom, there i am. that’s it.

and boom! all of the kins i can think of, of course not including comfort characters like will byers from stranger things or isabelle from animal crossing. if you have any kins to suggest to me, i would love it! thank you for taking your time to read this, friend! have a fantastic day :)

[mascaratearsnlipsticksmears]

1..Who was the last person you held hands with? Probably My son

2. Are you outgoing or shy? Shy until I’m

Comfortable

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? My surgeon

4. Are you easy to get along with? I try to Be. Don’t give me a reason to not Like you 😉

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? Never had someone take care of me from drinking .....I’m usually taking care of everyone else

6. What kind of people are you attracted to? Loyal. Chill. Down to earth .

7. Are you married? No.

8. Do you want to get married? Eventually . I do , but I need it to be for the right reason.

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Makes me feel Lonely lately believe it or not.... 😔

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Steve

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? “Oh cool 😎”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

lil peep- star shopper

Brand new-Jesus Christ

Bebe rexha- I’m a mess

Anything Billie eillish

Doja cat -rules

Ashnikko-daisy

That’s more than 5, Idc

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? Only certain people

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? I don’t know anymore

15. What good thing happened this summer? Got a tan and not covid 👌🏼👌🏼

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? My little guy? I will kiss him when ever I can cause one day he’s not gonna want me to and I’ll be sad

17. Do you think there is life on other planets? Absolutely

18. Do you still talk to your first crush? Yes

19. Do you like bubble baths? 110%

20. Do you like your neighbors? Yea

21. What are you bad habits? Overthinking, caring to much.

22. Where would you like to travel? Anywhere

23. Do you have trust issues? No, people that scumbag me Normally get cut off so I only keep ppl around I trust.

24. Favorite part of your daily routine? Coffee & a bowl

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? Uhhh everything from the chin down 😔

26. What do you do when you wake up? Set gage up for class in the living room

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?darker

28. Who are you most comfortable around? Lauren Rayza

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? They don’t get the chance, yes a few tried to contact me but my mentality is fuck them.... one even tried emailing my friends to reach me 🙄🙄🖕🏼

30. Do you ever want to get married? I do, one day. Didn’t I just answer this

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? Yes

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? Idk I’d have to think about it

33. Spell your name with your chin. The fuck?

34. Do you play sports? What sports? Bought a bike yesterday Lol. I used to be on the swim team and I played soccer~ also took dance for 7 years.

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? Depends on my mood

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? Absolutely.

37. What do you say during awkward silences? Try to avoid them at all Costs

38. Describe your dream girl/guy? No.

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? Sephora Ulta Victoria secret

40. What do you want to do after high school? Lol I think that bridge has been crosses already

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? Not everyone , no.

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? Normally bad anxiety and hurting , or extremely chill

43. Do you smile at strangers?

Yea I do.... but now I forget I have a mask on and look like a retard

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? Can I just going fishing ?

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? My son.

46. What are you paranoid about? Money

47. Have you ever been high? There’s a joint in my hand.

48. Have you ever been drunk? Who writes these things??

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? No.

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? Navy

51. Ever wished you were someone else? Eh wish I was still me with more $$$

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? I don’t have to wish, I’m doing it.

53. Favourite makeup brand? Tarte, morphs, fenty

54. Favourite store? Didn’t I answer this?

55. Favourite blog? My own💚

56. Favourite colour? Black, Periwinkle , light lavender ,pink

57. Favourite food? Japanese

58. Last thing you ate? 8 hours slow cooked ribs

59. First thing you ate this morning? Coffee

60. Ever won a competition? For what? Probably & Idr

61. Been suspended/expelled? Started a food fight in the science lab and they suspended the wrong Angela ~Womp womp...I did get detention a lot cause my shirt was too low in the front tho.

62. Been arrested? No

63. Ever been in love? Yea I think so

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? No. ☺️

65. Are you hungry right now? I could eat.

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? Meh

67. Facebook or Twitter? Fb

68. Twitter or Tumblr? Tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now?yes

70. Names of your bestfriends? Stephanie Lauren Rayza Kat Christina

71. Craving something? A simple hand hold...😔.... compliment here or there . To not have to do everything myself... I crave the help I constantly ask for and never get. I crave dick, I just don’t understand this shit anymore.... damnit tumblr u struck a nerve .

72. What colour are your towels? Mixed

72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 1

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? No

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?idk

75. Favourite animal? So many..... tigers maybe? & Lynx. Sharks.

76. What colour is your underwear? Not wearing any 😬

77. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate

78. Favourite ice cream flavour? Mint chocolate chip

79. What colour shirt are you wearing? Olive green

80. What colour pants? None on.

81. Favourite tv show? In the dark

82. Favourite movie? All 50 shades.

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? First one

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? How do these compare

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? The Lebanese chick

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Turtles

87. First person you talked to today? Gage

88. Last person you talked to today? Myself

89. Name a person you hate? Hate is a strong word.

90. Name a person you love? Gage

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? Lol Geoff

92. In a fight with someone? No

93. How many sweatpants do you have? No idea

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?Too many

95. Last movie you watched? “What if”

96. Favourite actress? Perry Mattfeld

97. Favourite actor? Hmmmm

98. Do you tan a lot?yassss

99. Have any pets? A zoo

100. How are you feeling? Confused, tired burning out ..

101. Do you type fast? I try

102. Do you regret anything from your past? Yes

103. Can you spell well? Eh

104. Do you miss anyone from your past? Yes

105. Ever been to a bonfire party? Yes

106. Ever broken someone’s heart? Yes

107. Have you ever been on a horse? Yes

108. What should you be doing? Listing stuff on Etsy

109. Is something irritating you right now? No

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? Absolutely

111. Do you have trust issues? No, just don’t give me a reason too.

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? Ohhhh I don’t cry in front of ppl,cause then there’s a witness... did cry today tho, but you couldn’t see me.

113. What was your childhood nickname? Angiefur

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? Yes

115. Do you play the Wii?not really

116. Are you listening to music right now? No

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? Yes

118. Do you like Chinese food? Yes

119. Favourite book? Crank

120. Are you afraid of the dark?some times

121. Are you mean? Don’t cross me 😘

122. Do you believe in “the one that got away”? Yes.

123. Can you keep white shoes clean? I try

124. Do you believe in love at first sight? Idk

125. Do you believe in true love? Yes

126. Are you currently bored? Yes

127. What makes you happy? Attention lol romance? I think romance is dead tho...

128. Would you change your name? My last name? If I were getting married, yes

129. What your zodiac sign? Leo

130. Do you like subway? Food yes, smelly train no....

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? All my besties have vaginas, nothing to worry about.

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? Steve

133. Favourite lyrics right now? Brand new : Jesus Christ

134. Can you count to one million? Yea but why

135. Dumbest lie you ever told? I don’t lie so I don’t have that problem

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? Closed Cause only 1 Of my 4 asshole cats I allowed in my room

137. How tall are you? Oh how short am I? 5’1

138. Curly or Straight hair? Straight

139. Brunette or Blonde? Right now black

140. Summer or Winter?summer

141. Night or Day? Summer nights

142. Favourite month? August

143. Are you a vegetarian? Keto

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? Dark

145. Tea or Coffee? Coffee

146. Was today a good day? I think so

147. Mars or Snickers? Dark chocolate Milky Way

148. What’s your favourite quote? I’d have to think about it

149. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

“His thumb brushes my lower lip, and his breath hitches. He’s staring into my eyes, and I hold his anxious, burning gaze for a moment, or maybe it’s forever…but eventually, my attention is drawn to his beautiful mouth. And for the first time in twenty-one years, I want to be kissed.”

Excerpt From

Fifty Shades Trilogy Bundle: Fifty Shades of Grey; Fifty Shades Darker; Fifty Shades Freed

E L James

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[toocool2btrue]

Distance 1/2

This story is specially dedicated to @4evertiredpigeon. A very late birthday present. thank you for waiting so much, also special thanks to @artemisarya for making that much needed drawing for inspiration.

So I’ll make sure to keep my distance. Say “I love you” when you are not listening.

Lance stared at his reflection in the bathroom mirror, his skin had considerably darkened over his few years worth of farming experience, his features had matured over the following time period as well and that famous look of the teenage boy which once graced the heroic posters and countless magazines had long disappeared.

Instead there stood a man in his twenties, a man who had lost himself to his past while the rest of his comrades had decided to move forward. He lightly touched one of the bright blue Altean marks which scarred either side of his cheeks, there was a time when he considered them the greatest honor the universe could ever bestow on him.

After all he was the reminder of the universe’s savior, people would look at him and be reminded of Princess Allura and the epic sacrifices she had made for them. Eventually that was all he was worth and known for Allura’s shadow and nothing more unless being an Human Altean hybrid counted as something.

His glare narrowed from his tired face to the blue marks. He immediately looks away from his own reflection, he couldn’t even recognize himself anymore. It felt like looking at a completely different person and now he understands why his friends hesitated to meet his eyes.

His heart races at the prospect of finally moving forward, it felt terrifying yet exciting. Nervousness override him at the thought of working back in the Garrison, In his early years of self isolation the Garrison had offered him the post of pilot many times but despite the constant encouragement by his friends and family he refused to accept it.

Eventually everyone gave up on him, some people even choose to leave and he couldn’t blame them. Lance had no one but himself to blame for this current state…

A sharp knock on the bathroom door broke his train of thoughts. “Lance come down when you are done. Breakfast is ready” called out the familiar yet stiff voice.

He froze hearing her voice which was pretty stupid considering that he was living in her house. Accepting the Holt’s generous offer had not been a easy task for Lance. After all the person who connected him to this family, had long dissolved what remained of their frayed relationship. Ironically, that person was the same reason he had decided to accept the offer because if Lance was ready to turn his life around, mending his friendship with that specific person was a part of it.

“Uh..coming!” he yelled back, splashing his face with cold water and quickly grabbing his toothbrush.

It would be the utmost lie to say that he wasn’t disappointed, when he finally reached the kitchen to see the owner of the voice not present. Instead Colleen Holt gave him a sympathetic smile and gestured to the plate of pancakes on the table.

“Katie told me you have a big appetite. Feel free to ask for more” she kindly offered and Lance in turn only mumbled a shy thank you before taking the seat opposite to Colleen.

He quietly chewed on his pancake, which were delicious by the way trying to douse his unhappiness with breakfast. He could feel Colleen’s eyes on him and it took another moment before she finally spoke again.

“I am sorry that you haven’t got the chance to meet Katie yet. She’s just been very busy with work” she apologized. Lance gave her a small smile in return.

“It’s alright. I understand” he mumbled, truth was that he did understand. He couldn’t count the times his mother made similar excuses for him to sometimes turn down his friends. Lance inhaled softly, it was all his self created mess and he prayed that he gets a chance to fix it.

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Katie sighed in exhaustion as she opened the front door. The house was filled with a peaceful quietness and Katie wanted to do nothing more than collapse in her comfy bed and never wake up.

Unfortunately fate or more specifically her mother had different ideas. Colleen Holt slowly walked into the living room with a stern look in her eyes and her arms crossed against her chest.

“Katrina Holt, look at the time!” She demanded. “Mom I messaged you I would be late today but I still manage to have dinner” she added, hoping it would ease her case.

Unfortunately it didn’t and it was clear that her fate was sealed for the night, her mother momentarily flashed her concerned look before reverting back to the stern one.

“Katie, Lance has been here since last night and yet you haven’t spend even five minutes with the boy. What has gotten into you?”

“Mom the Garrison-” she started to protest.

“Can live without you for a few days. Katie, work is important but there is nothing more important than family and friends. Especially if your friend needs you” she mumbled the last part.

Katie’s eyes mildly widened in concern as Colleen continued, “I talked to his Sara (Lance’s mom) earlier. She told me that he has been very anxious for the exam. He really needs your support right now”

Guilt clawed at Katie’s heart, she admits that over the years due to her own personal reasons she had decided to keep her distance from Lance but at the end of the day they were all the soldiers of the same war. When one solider falls the other helps him up.

“Where is he right now?” Katie asked, feeling the rise of nervous butterflies in her stomach. Colleen motioned to the stairway, “In his room, he told me that he was going to be studying”

Katie nodded, slowly climbing the stairs to her brother’s old room which was now occupied by the ex-red paladin. Light spilled out from the partly opened door into the dark hallway.

Although it was awfully quiet, “Lance?” she whispered opening the door a little wider to see a figure slumped on the desk in the corner of the room. She tiptoed into the room to see her friend fast asleep, the desk was piled with open books and scribbled notes.

Lance was out cold snoring softly, his head resting on the table using one of the books as a makeshift pillow. It had been a longtime, since she had seen him that close, his past flawless skin looked beaten and tired. There were dark bags under his eyes and just as she was about to look away, there they were the Altean marks.

You would think that one would after all these years grow accustomed to them but still they always managed to uncomfortably twist her stomach with dread. Ever since Lance had gotten them, he was no longer Lance….

Katie shook her head, shaking away all the thoughts of the past that she preferred to stay away from. Instead she decided to focus back on her friend, it was obvious that he was exhausted and Katie didn’t want to disturb his slumber.

Instead she gently lifted his head to remove the book underneath it and replaced it with a pillow and covered the sleeping figure with a blanket. All these actions hardly stirred him, she adjusted the blanket properly where it slid from one of his shoulders and then closed the lights.

In the darkness she glanced one last time at silhouette before finally leaving.

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Next morning Lance slowly made his way downstairs, rubbing his head. He had slept in later than he usually would and as he made his way to the kitchen. The lack of noise made him suspect whether anyone was even at home

To his utter surprise, it was Katie who he ran into. In his sleepy haze it took him a minute to actually realize that it in fact his ‘Pidge’ standing in front of him. Katie was a no stranger to change herself, she had miraculously actually grown taller, her hair was now longer and tied back into a pony. Even the childhood chubbiness from her cheeks had disappeared and instead her face held more of a mature charm.

“You’re here. I was about to go wake you up” she greeted, setting down two coffee mugs on the table and he simply nodded taking a seat. Lance felt partly relieved knowing they were still up for casual conversations.

“How come you’re home at this time?” He questioned curiously trying to continue the conversation. Katie took a grateful sip of her coffee before replying.

“I was working late yesterday, couldn’t wake up on time. How is your studying going?” she asked in return, placing a pile of toast on the table.

Lance rubbed his eyes, "I feel like 17 again but not in a good way. I had forgotten how anxious exam time used to make me, couldn’t sleep properly for the past few days and now when I finally got the peace and tranquility that I needed to concentrate I passed out”

Katie giggled handing him the jar of strawberry jam, Lance gratefully took it and started spreading it his toast as he continued talking, bringing back old frankness in the conversation.

“I love my big family and all but Katie, I gotta say your house feels like a haven to me. I swear, I don’t know how I ever managed to study there. There are always like five people shouting in the background”. Katie snorted, taking a bite of her peanut butter sandwich. “Probably that’s why our moms considered it would be a better idea if you came here a week earlier to the pilot exams”

“I am really grateful for all of this” Lance offered sincerely.

Katie shook her head,”I can’t take any credit for this.This is all our moms planning after all”

 It was really ironic that overtime their mothers had become better friends than them due to the fact Colleen provided Lance’s family with various fertilizers which improved their crops and they in turn supported some of her experiments that needed more of a natural environment though as time went by Sara and Colleens conversations turned from plants to their children and they bonded to become close friends after all hardly a handful of people understood what these mothers had gone through. 

“I didn’t even know that you were coming prior to two days” she replied honestly.  “What?” Lance questioned in disbelief.

“Well Mom has a tendency to forget things and it’s not like you and I..” Katie froze, realizing they were treading to dangerous territory.

“Anyway..” she cleared her throat, “Dad is finally coming home this evening from his international seminar and I am sure he can give you some useful pointers for the exam”

“That would be great, if its not to much trouble for him” he mumbled shyly in response. “Don’t be silly. Dad would love to help you out, he would have become a teacher if he didn’t love building rockets so much” she assured, getting up and grabbing her garrison jacket.

“Well I am off to work” she announced, pausing to grimace at her phone which had been constantly beeping with messages. “There is already a problem waiting for me.”

Lance nodded understandingly, “Good luck” 

“Good luck to you too. I’ll see you at dinner” she waved off and disappeared out of the door. It took him another minute to actually register the last sentence. Warmth bloomed in his heart and Lance tried to bite back his smile as he took another sip of his coffee. It such small thing but he knew Katie well enough to know it was a step towards progress. 

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“Then I got up from the coma and shot Sendak’s arm!” Lance narrated to the amused Colleen as they prepared dinner together. “Keith also said that we had bonding moment but I don’t remember anything like that” he claimed to which Colleen giggled.

“Hunk once told me that you tried to attack Ezor and Zethrid when they singled out Katie even though your own hands were tied as well. That was very brave of you” she complimented to which Lance smiled bashfully. “Of course I would. i can’t count the times, she has done the same for me”

“Wait! I didn't tell you about the time we went to an alternate universe. We got into a fight and my head was probably about to be cut off if Kat-” his story was cut short as his phone suddenly started ringing. He immediately smiled seeing it was his mother.

Colleen smiled knowingly, “Go talk to her, I’ll take care of the rest. We are almost done anyway” 

Lance nodded gratefully and headed out to the front porch, “Hello Mami, I hope you haven't been missing me too much?” he teased . “My dear son, of course i miss you but the people who miss you the most, are Nadia and Slyvio .They were very upset that you left again but when I told them you are to become a pilot-”

The rest of his mother’s words zoned out as Lance saw unfamiliar car park itself near the Holt’s house. Katie came out of the car and Lance was about to wave to her when he realized her attention was already occupied. She was talking to the person in the driving seat and soon enough the mystery figure also came out of the car.

He was a man of tall build and had light colored hair, the two figures unknown to their spectator stood too close for it to be considered platonic. The man dipped his head towards her but was playfully pushed away till Katie finally complied for a quick kiss on the cheek.

Although it was a simple act of affection, one he had witnessed a hundred times there was something to it that made his face grow hot and his heart skipped uncomfortably.

“Lance?!” his mother called out to him from the other line and it was enough to bring him back to reality. “Yes Mom?” he nervously laughed, letting his eyes fall to the ground.

“Where did you disappear?” She questioned, quizzically and Lance cleared his throat trying to ignore the weird twist in his stomach meanwhile maintaining his eye contact with the ground.

“There must be some problem with the reception” he mumbled half heartily, “Mami, It’s time for dinner. I will call you later, Goodbye” he hastily ended the call. He gave a quick glance to the still occupied couple and then headed inside.

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Later that night, they sat in Katie’s room flight manuals, textbooks and notebooks sprawled on her bed. Lance felt ready to drop dead in any minute but for the sake of his friend who was also sacrificing her night to help him, he kept his eyes pried open.

“So did the conversation with Dad help you?” she asked, taking a sip of her late night coffee. Lance felt rise of guilt, Katie must be mentally cursing him with every passing minute.

“Yeah.. yeah it did” he mumbled half asleep, rubbing his eyes. Sam Holt truly had made his life easier by providing him with all the necessary tips but unfortunately there was still the part of actually implementing on those tips.

The quiet night, his comfortable pajamas and the warm soft bed were doing a successful job in luring him to sleep. He glanced at Bae Bae who was sound asleep, her head resting on Katie’s lap, in his sleepy haze he started considering how much easier life would have been if he was a dog.

Katie on the other hand looked focused as always, her eyes had a glassy look of exhaustion he was familiar with but they still determinedly scanned from one paragraph to another. After while Lance couldn’t take it anymore, as much as he appreciated his friend’s help knowing she was a certified genius but the truth was he would much prefer to just have a normal conversation with her.

“Katie. Can we please stop? You are exhausted” he requested, reaching out to pry the manual from her hands. Katie momentarily looked at him as if she wanted to protest but then silently nodded letting Lance collect the rest of his clutter.

She leaned against the headboard, closing her eyes for a second. She was surprised to see Lance still sitting at the edge of her bed, he had cleared the books to one side and instead looked at her expectantly. She hated it when people looked at her expectantly at 11:30 pm but this wasn’t just anybody. He was Lance afterall. Brown eyes, Blue eyes and of course those Altean marks but they weren’t there when she had fallen for him all those years back.

That still didn’t stop her from feeling guilty, even without those Altean marks. It was always that clear Lance’s heart belonged to Allura and she had certified herself an idiot for ever thinking otherwise.

“Katie can we just..you know talk?” Lance mumbled hopefully, her eyes widened. Although it seemed like a simple request, the two people in question knew better. They hadn’t just talked in a longtime, todays breakfast didn’t count. It was something she had more or else rehearsed over last night.

She had this plan constructed and this was most definitely not part of the plan. In their paladin days, Lance and her had shared many late night talks while playing video games and her younger self had always been thrilled to share those intimate moments with him but now…things were different.

She glanced at the man, who still hopefully looked for her response. “Lance, I had a long day…” she mumbled, trying to kindly reject the offer.

She could practically see the light in his eyes dim and his face fell. Katie looked away, reconsidering her decision. Despite the fact she wasn’t in love with him anymore, she still had that damn soft spot for the ex-red paladin.

“But I am really curious on what happened with Keith on the planet of Gustav. I heard some major trouble arised when he visited it for a mission?” she questioned with a mischievous smile.

Lance nodded enthusiastically, leaning a bit more forward to tell the tale. “Three princesses of different countries of Gustav, fell in love with him and then they started fighting on who actually gets to marry Keith. Which almost led to a World War in the planet. Keith had to go into hiding because there was a high chance he was going to get kidnapped by one of the countries”

“What?!” Katie snorted, she knew it was plain evil to laugh on her friends misfortune but it couldn’t be helped.

Lance joined in laughter at the same time trying to catch his breath to tell the rest of the story. Thus it was the beginning for a very long night.

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A few days later, Lance found himself in the Garrison to submit his application and get his physical examination. Although the need for more pilots had increased over the recent years there were still a high competition for the post.

Most of the applicants already knew each other well enough and chatted among themselves excitedly. Lance on the other hand, wanted to throw up. He was having second thoughts about giving the exam, doubts and insecurities plagued him, what if he fails? His family and friends would be so disappointed in him.

His attention however got slightly diverted as one of the candidates mentioned the Red lion.

“Dude I am telling you. That’s the pilot of Red lion” One of the applicants furiously whispered to his friend.

The friend not so discreetly glanced at Lance and then muttered , “You’re right but what is he doing here? Doesn’t he live on the farm or something”

Lance sighed taking a deep breath to calm his nerves, it wasn’t the first time he heard it. On his way he had been met with a lot of surprised and even some judgmental stares, that is the downside of being a public figure your decisions aren’t yours anymore. Thankfully Katie had already sensed his nervousness and insisted on walking with him the entire way.

The first one shrugged, “I don’t know but it would be pretty cool to have him around” he grinned and his friend nodded enthusiastically.

“I heard that he was the first person chosen by the Blue lion even though Takashi Shirogane was also present” the second candidate informed.

“He must be an amazing pilot then. It’s a good thing he decided to come back” he awed and his friend nodded.

The indirect praise slightly subsided his nervousness, Lance nodded determinedly. He could do this, they quiznacking saved the universe. Of course he can pass the pilot exam, he had people who believed in him and he couldn’t let them down.

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As Lance got out of his physical exam, he was pleasantly surprised to find Katie waiting for him, She gave him a small smile which he responded with a bright grin.

“I can’t believe infamous Katie Holt is waiting for me?” he questioned teasingly to which Katie rolled her eyes, “Veronica wanted to check up on you but she was pulled into this last minute meeting so she send me instead”

“I am hurt, Pidge. I thought you actually came here to see me” he sighed dramatically. Katie tried her best to fight back the smile at her friend’s theatrics but failed miserably.

“Lance, you goof. I already see you everyday, few hours of not seeing each other won’t kill us” she stated, with a hint of fondness in her tone.

It brought back the warm fuzzy feeling in his chest. Although their current situation was temporary, he liked the idea of seeing Katie everyday and his friends more often. Despite the anxiety and feeling out of place, Lance felt sure he was making the right decision.

Lance grinned as the perfect response came into his mind, “Well technically speaking-”

“Katie!!” a man’s voice called out from across the hallway. Startling the two friends, Lance immediately recognized the tall blond from the few days back.

The blond finally reached the pair, he had a excited grin on his face as he thrust out his right hand for Lance to shake.

“You must be Lance McClain. It’s nice to finally meet you” he greeted enthusiastically, Lance returned the handshake while unsurely glancing back at his friend.

“Lance, this is Eric” she finally introduced.

“Nice to meet you as well, Eric” he replied with a small smile.

“Katie told me you are trying out to be the pilot. Best of luck” Eric encouraged and Lance nodded gratefully. “Although if you want..” he added cheekily “My father is onthe board. I could give a good name for you”

“Don’t be ridiculous, Lance is a great pilot. He doesn’t need anything like that” Katie immediately intervened much to Lance’s relief.

“And you” she stated, lightly smacking Eric’s shoulder. “Shouldn���t be offering such things”

Eric chuckled, rubbing his shoulder. “Relax. I was just joking”

Lance chuckled weakly to support Eric’s remark, the conversation was yet again interrupted when Katie received a phone call and she stepped a bit aside to talk.

Lance and Eric meanwhile awkwardly stood with one another, not knowing how to continue the conversation. Till Lance noticed that Eric was still rubbing her arm. Maybe that wasn’t a light smack as it looked.

“Still hurts huh?” he questioned, gesturing to his arm and Eric nodded, “I think sometimes Katie underestimates her own strength ” he affectionately laughed.

“I should have gotten used to it by now. You see, that’s just how she shows affection” Eric informed, the lighthearted comment unfortunately struck the wrong cord with Lance.

“I know” he replied in a humorless manner, of course he knew that’s how Pidge showed her affection. Heck he had been in the receiving end of those affections long before this dude even existed in her life.

The look of surprise on Eric’s face gave Lance a nice reality check that he might be getting too flustered over nothing. As much as he hoped, he didn’t think adding Lool to the conversation was going to be very helpful. Thankfully his savior arrived yet again.

“Eric, I have to go now. I’ll see you at lunch” she informed her boyfriend. Who nodded and lightly squeezed her hand in response, she then turned to Lance “You are coming with me. Veronica said she will pick you up from my lab for lunch”

“Let’s get going” she ushered, grabbing Lance’s wrist and gently tugging him to start moving while she furiously typed on her phone with her other hand. Lance made a mental note, to never cross paths with Pidge during work hours.

“Why am I under constant surveillance by you two?” he mumbled, feeling slightly annoyed as he followed Pidge to her lab.

“Well considering the fact you looked like you were ready to bolt any minute this morning. We considered this would be much more safer option” she replied snarkily, still occupied with her phone.

“By the way. Try to come back home till dinner, I wasn’t supposed to tell you this but Mom is making garlic knots for you” she informed with a small smile, finally looking him in the eyes.

Lance felt a rush of gratitude, a part of him felt as if he didn’t deserve the love and support his friends and especially Katie and her family was giving him but another part him advised that he should try to cherish it and in given time return it if he could.

“And before you start thinking again that we are doing too much. You should know, that Mom and Dad really like having you around and that’s why mom interrogated me to know what was your favorite food. You don’t how scary that was” Katie laughed and Lance joined in.

It took him a moment to realize that Katie hadn’t mentioned that she was glad to have him too. He regretted, that after so much effort he had done in their earlier years of friendship for her to open up. He let those walls grow back for him. It was bound to happen for he had never taken in account other people’s feelings during his period of self isolation and this was his price to pay.

They finally reached the lab to see Veronica already waiting for them at the door. She immediately engulfed Lance into a hug throwing her strict professionalism to the side.

“Sorry I couldn’t meet up with you earlier” she apologized, pulling away to which Lance simply nodded, accepting the apology. Lance from the corner of his eye spotted Katie looked a bit teary eyed witnessing the scene, most likely she was thinking about her own brother who was currently galaxies away.

Seeing a sudden vulnerable side to her, made his heart ache and Lance really wanted to hug and comfort her. Although they had shared a lot of half hearted group hugs after the war, Lance felt like it had been centuries since he had held Katie.

Katie was a master of concealing her emotions, a moment later the teary look was gone and instead a big smile radiated on her. “I have to get going now. Have fun you guys” she waved off before disappearing behind the closed doors of her lab.

Lance didn’t know he had been holding his breath till Veronica lightly shook him to get back his attention. “I have found this great place with the best milkshakes” she informed and Lance nodded excitedly trying to keep up with his sister. He gently touching his chest, inside of which his heart beat wildly. He didn’t know the exact reason but most likely just of the exciting day he just had…..

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Later that night at the Holt’s home, Colleen looked up from her book as her daughter entered the kitchen.

“Sam must be telling stories of his youth again?” she questioned her daughter, who just had come back from the living room. Sam Holt aside from being a researcher loved to tell stories in his free time and now after a long search he had found his perfect audience in Lance who in turn loved to listen to tales.

Katie grinned mischievously, taking a seat next to her mother. “He is telling the story of how you two met”

“He’s probably told it a hundred times by now.” Colleen replied, pretending to be annoyed but there was this obvious glow of happiness radiating from her demeanor. Katie had no one but her own parents to blame for her high expectation for love.

“I talked to Sara earlier today. She was really hoping after he settles down that he would give love another chance. Start dating again” Colleen informed, casually flipping through her book.

Katie stared at her mother in bewilderment, “But Mom what about the whole Allura-”

“Don’t be ridiculous, Katie. I know Allura meant a lot to all of you but don’t forget he was just a boy of 17 when he lost her. He is only 23 now and has his whole life ahead of him, the only logical thing for him would be to move on” her mother stated sternly.

Colleen’s expression slightly softened and she lowered her voice, “Honey, you kids need to realize that life isn’t meant to be lived for someone else much less someone who isn’t there anymore. As his friend, you shouldn’t support this decision instead try encourage him to move forward. It’s the best for him” she whispered encouragingly and Katie nodded thoughtfully.

For a split second an old thought entered her mind, the very thought she had buried deep years ago. She shook her head, letting it disappear again and instead decided to ponder on her mother’s words.

“And now here we are with two kids and almost three decades of marriage between us. Time does fly fast” Sam chuckled, ending the story but Lance wasn’t done, there was a question that was bothering and he wanted to know the answer.

“How did you know Colleen was the one instead of other girl. Were you in love with her since middle school?” Lance questioned.

Sam looked surprised by the interest, his children had always been too busy pretending to gag to actually hear the story.

Sam ran his hand through his graying hair and then mumbled thoughtfully, “No I don’t think I was in love with her since middle school. We really didn’t get along back then, she used to tease me a lot especially about me being shorter than her and I vowed to get revenge with her one day” he smiled fondly.

“Still even as a kid. I never really imagined my life without her and it really bugged me back then but then she changed schools and we didn’t meet for a longtime”

“When we met again as adults, you know Colleen was already engaged to her then boyfriend and I was dating as well so I didn’t really ever consider it then too but slowly as time went by and we worked together. I had these moments, where I would imagine us together many years in the future doing the most mundane things and it made my heart race” Sam whispered wistfully.

“From my experience, love isn’t always a obvious feeling. Sometimes it’s slowly growing inside of you without you ever noticing it but then there will come a moment when you look at that person and you’d realize that nothing makes sense without them anymore. That’s when you know” Sam advised, the words gave Lance goosebumps. He slowly reached to touch his Altean marks, they hadn’t glowed, they had never glown after the Lions left.

For some reason he felt relieved that they didn’t, was it some kind of sign from Allura?Truth to be told, Katie’s parents story made him wistful. It reminded him of something he had yearned for since his youth but given up a longtime ago.

“I still can’t believe Colleen followed you all the way to America” Lance chuckled. “Well she found me and then she punched me, saying things like how dare you confess your love and then leave me in Italy. Rest is all fuzzy, she punched me pretty hard after all” Sam recalled.

“Well you deserved it” Colleen intervened, as the mother daughter duo entered the room.

Katie shot Lance a stern look that made him want to dig his own grave, “Lance you said you would start studying again half an hour ago” she reminded.

Colleen rubbed her temples in a exhausted manner, “Sam, Honey you have a early meeting tomorrow. You should go to bed now”

“But-” they tried to protest in unison but one more look from the Holt women had the two of them on their feet.

Sam and Lance shared one last defeated look before heading to their respective rooms.

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Later that night, Lance nervously stood outside Pidge’s door. He didn’t know if Pidge had fallen asleep or not but really needed help with this question.

His ears pricked when he heard a mumbled shout from the other side of the door, slightly worried Lance immediately knocked. Five seconds later, a confused Katie opened the door. Her hair was piled into a messy bun and she was wearing a white tank with green pajama pants.

“Lance?” she questioned. Lance blinked back in response, he had no idea why he had become suddenly transfixed instead he just simply raised his notebook to show Katie the question.

“Oh” she simply whispered, inviting him inside. The first thing he noticed that the room was pitch black till Pidge opened her lights again, the second thing he noticed was the game system set up. He had noticed the game system earlier, tucked cosily in the corner of her room but never had the courage to ask her to play with him. He had lost the right to that after all.

Pidge hummed to herself as she read the question again, “Sorry Lance but can we do this tomorrow? I don’t have the brain power for this question” she mumbled apologetically.

Lance nodded taking back his notebook, “That’s alright. Goodnight ” he wished and started heading out again.

“Wait! Do you want to play?” Katie asked, suddenly without thinking. She mentally scolded herself, apparently her brain had also lost the power to make logical decisions.

Lance stood unsurely stood next to the door, “Really?” he asked in a excited yet somewhat cautious tone. Katie considered her decision yet again, she knew she wouldn’t be going to bed unless she passed this level. She had been stuck on it for two days now, Lance on the other hand was the only capable player she knew other than her brother and herself.

She nodded beckoning him over to the floor where cushions were already spread out. Without another moment of hesitation, Lance joined in and Pidge explained her problem to him.

It took them another half an hour to pass the level, Lance claimed he could have done it faster if he wasn’t so rusty. Pidge simply chose to ignore the comment with an eye roll. Another 30 minutes passed as the pair got invested to pass the next level as well but their quest didn’t last long because by then their fingers were sore.

They sat on the floor in amiable silence, till Lance finally asked the question that had been pestering him the whole day. “So how did your lunch date go?” he wondered.

Katie looked at him in a bemused manner, “I was waiting for you to crack. You passed my expectations. Also, the Date went well”

“Katie, why didn’t you tell me about your boyfriend. I felt so clueless meeting him today. I understand why you didn’t tell me before but I have been literally living in your house for a whole week now. A little heads-up would have been nice” he stated, sternly.

“Fine” Katie mumbled. She took a deep breath before finally continuing, “Lance, I am seeing someone” she uttered trying her best to keep a straight face.

The look of incredulity on his face was enough to set her in a fit of giggles. “Katie!” Lance called out annoyed, causing the laughter to increase.

It her another minute for her to compose herself, “Fine, the reason I didn’t want to tell you is because I knew you would pester me with a thousand questions” Katie supplied.

“I don’t do that” he tried to defend himself, Katie eyed him in an unimpressed manner “Fine. Then I don’t think you will mind if we end this conversation right here” she teased.

“Well I wouldn’t mind but if you really want to tell. I suppose that I can listen” He in turn replied smugly.

“Goodnight Lance” she replied, not budging either so then he finally admitted his defeat. “Fine you win. Now will you please tell me” he begged.

Katie smirked in satisfaction, “Well there isn’t much to say. You already know his name, he is one of the engineers for the Defenders Project. I have known him for a year but we only been seeing each other for a few months-”

“Are you in love with him?” he questioned suddenly, Katie momentarily looked at him surprised before shaking her head, “What? no. I am not in love with him”

Lance studied her face, her response looked genuine enough. He felt somewhat relieved but didn’t ponder too much on it in the favor of asking another question. “Wait you are telling me that you guys have been dating for a few months and you aren’t in love with him. Then why are you still dating?”

“Because news for you. Not everyone is looking for commitments, I may not be in love with him but I still find him attractive and we have good time together” Katie reasoned.

“He does know that right?” Lance questioned and Katie nodded. “I told him from the beginning that I wasn’t looking for a serious relationship and he said he wasn’t either”

Lance begged to differ for Eric, from what he had noticed earlier. Eric was clearly smitten for Katie. He also felt surprised seeing the new side to his friend, Katie had never looked interested at the idea of romance during Voltron days and clearly he missed a lot from that point on.

“Lance? Why are you creepily staring at me like that?” Pidge wondered breaking his chain of thoughts.

“Sorry” he mumbled, “It’s just that I always thought you would want a relationship. Only if you were very serious about someone” Lance shared and Katie smiled sadly, hugging herself.

She was convinced that the universe held a personal grudge against her when Lance uttered those lines, “I thought I was like that too” she mumbled.

As she looked up to meet his ocean gaze, for a second it felt like her past feelings had resurfaced “But I guess things change…”

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“Katie, did I ever tell you how amazing you are?” Lance breathed in joy as the familiar building came into view. “Well you have a few times but it never gets old so you can say it again” she cheekily smiled.

Lance took a hesitant towards her, he was dying to engulf her in a tight bear hug. One of the things, he learned about his friend in the last few days was how much Katie cared in the name of not caring. He never realized how well she knew him, sometimes better than even himself.

As much he wanted to, Lance let his arms fall to his sides and instead gazed at the building that made his stomach turn with nostalgia. “Lance are you gonna stare at it all day or actually intend to go inside?” she remarked sarcastically.

“Sorry. I can’t just believe it’s still here” he marveled. “I didn’t believe it either at first but I have known about it for a while now. Just didn’t want to come alone” she mumbled the last part.

Lance smiled softly at her, “To think there was a time we actually had to drag you here”

Katie glanced back at the brightly colored ice-cream shop. It was an old tradition for Lance, Hunk and a reluctant Pidge to come here after a stressful week of exams or whenever one of them got a good grade. Basically any good news was an excuse for them to visit Mr Willows old ice-cream shop.

“I am glad you did” she finally admitted, “I just really wish Hunk and Keith were here too. It’s not everyday when Lancey Lance does well at the stimulator exam” she teased.

“Oh like you are the one to talk. You were with me everytime we failed. We failed together” Lance reminded, despite the playful remark. Lance’s smile fell as he realized, how true the statement was. They had been together, through all of it. From worrying about their next exam to worrying about the Galra to now this…

Yes they had almost two years of estrangement between them but that time made him realize something important. He needed her. He needed Pidge. He needed Katie. More than he ever tried to realize before and this time he will try to be better person, the friend she actually deserved.

“Katie. Veronica is taking me tonight to celebrate the end of exams, can you please come too?” Lance asked hopefully.

Katie’s face fell, “I would love to but I already have a date with Eric tonight. Sorry” she apologized. Lance shook his head, “Hey no need to apologize. He asked you first”

Katie nodded gratefully and headed first into the shop, he watched her go inside with a distant look in his eyes. Maybe Katie didn’t need him anymore…

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“Uh.. Mom why are there two suitcases in the hallway?” Katie questioned, as a frantic Colleen appeared.

“Katie. I forgot about the wedding!!” Colleen exclaimed, Katie’s nose scrunched up trying to remember what wedding was her mother talking about.

“Your Aunt called me today asking about at what time should she come to pick us up from the airport and then I remembered it was Isabel’s wedding in two days” Colleen explained before disappearing upstairs again.

Oh that wedding, Katie was really hoping that they had forgotten about that one. She really wasn’t in the mood to be bridesmaid for her cousin’s wedding, one of the few things she and her cousin actually might agree on.

“So all of us are going?” she asked, glancing back at a very confused Lance. Colleen appeared again, holding a smaller bag this time.

“It’s just your Father and I. Someone needs to be here with Lance. I will tell your Aunt that you have gone for a intergalactic meeting” she replied, Katie immediately grinned this might be the best news her mother ever told her.

Lance on the other hand, looked guilty. “You shouldn’t ruin your plans because of me. Katie should go to her cousin’s wedding, I can crash on Veronica’s couc-OW!” he yelped as Katie pinched his side.

“Shut up” she mouthed furiously to the Cuban boy, thankfully Colleen was yet again distracted with her suitcases to notice the silent exchange.

Sam was next to appear, he didn’t look particularly excited for the wedding either. Katie felt sorry for her father but currently it was every man for himself. “I finally got our tickets booked. Our flight is in three hours” he informed.

“Good good” she muttered, absentmindedly taking a seat on the couch. “I just can’t believe that I forgot. I am the worst sister ever” she whispered tiredly. Sam shared a startled look with Katie and Lance, before going over to his wife.

“Honey. It’s not your fault, she will understand” he comforted hugging his wife. Katie nudged Lance to follow her into the kitchen to give her parents a moment.

“Katie, your parents are the ultimate couple goals” Lance stated to which she laughed.

“Believe me I know. They were separated so many times but still manage to find each other no matter whether the distance is countries or galaxies” she added.

“I would love to have something like that” Katie whispered wistfully, surprising Lance by the sudden confession. “I have all these examples of true love around me and sometimes I just wish there was someone like that for me too”

The look in Katie’s eyes gave him goosebumps, it was a completely unguarded look. Suddenly she seized him with a more determined look, “You have experienced true love, right?” she asked suddenly.

“I guess?” he blurted out despite being the one asking the question she didn’t much heed to his response for she already looked she looked long lost in her own world. “Eric is a great boyfriend” she sighed. “We always have a good time together but I never feel this rush of electricity when he holds me” she explained, frustratedly.

As to emphasize her point, she gripped Lance’s right hand between her two pale ones. “You have surely felt it right? That spark? She questioned. Her intense gaze held him hostage and demanded an answer but for the first time, the talkative boy truly found what it meant to be tongue tied as goosebumps ran down his spine.

He prayed that his mind was playing tricks on him for he felt not just a jolt of electricity but as he if had been electrocuted again but it made him crave it more at the same time for it felt nerve wrecking yet addicting at the same time.

His gaze hadn’t broken hers and he watched as Katie’s expression slowly relaxed to a more softer look and her face slightly inched closer to his. His heart started beating wildly, feeling her softer hands around his calloused one, a crazy idea formed in his mind. He wondered what it would feel like to actually kiss her.

BAM!!

"Stupid suitcase!” Sam Holt’s distant cry made them snap out of their trance.

Katie was first one to pull away, her cheeks were lightly dusted with red and Lance was sure that his cheeks didn’t look much different. The two of them spared each other the embarrassment by not making eye contact with one another and made their way back to the living room where Lance started helping Sam with the suitcases while Katie listened to her mother’s last minute instructions.

Not long after Katie waved off her parents as they got into the taxi, Lance stood at the doorway watching the scene. He had a peaceful look on his face but the truth was that his mind was buzzing with crazy possibilities and questions.

As Katie made her way back to the house. Their eyes met and they were forced to finally acknowledged each other again. Her eyes looked guarded behind a thousand walls and she hugged herself before saying. “Uh..sorry for you know earlier. I got a bit carried away with my rambles, didn’t I?” she laughed weakly and Lance could only manage a small smile in response.

“Anyway I better go. Start getting ready. Eric will be here soon after all” She mumbled tiredly and Lance nodded, ignoring the deep seated disappointment in his heart.

Katie sighed sharply observing her friend, “You should probably take shower too before Veronica arrives” she suggested and then slowly walked away.

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“So that’s why I didn’t want to go to the wedding. I am so glad I managed to get out of it. Dad didn’t want to go either but Mom really wasn’t ready to go alone” Katie informed. “I see” Eric replied, absentmindedly.

“You aren’t listening” Katie pouted, Eric chuckled in response as he wrapped one arm around her frame. “I was listening. Your Mom and Dad are gone to your cousin’s wedding and since you two never got along you are glad that you didn’t have to go because Lance is staying with you” He summarised easily to which Katie nodded proudly.

“But wait..” he suddenly stopped walking and faced her again. “Does that mean it’s just you two in the house?” He questioned seriously. “No we have Bae Bae too” she joked but Eric didn’t laugh.

“What is it?” she questioned yet again not understanding the implication. After a moment Eric’s face relaxed and he brushed off the earlier conversation, “Nothing.. although I gotta ask you. Is there a chance you might be forgetting something too?”

“The Garrison formal ball is this weekend!” She remembered. “How could I forget about this. I sure I am turning into my mother as well, I haven’t even decided what would I wear…” Katie rambled.

“Katie I am sure whatever you wear. You’ll look beautiful” He assured, lifting her chin and pulling her in a deep kiss.

It surely looked like one of the most romantic sight ever as pale moonlight fell on them and faint scent of roses from the park filled the air.

But as they pulled apart, Katie only weakly smiled at him before tucking herself underneath his arm like before. Disappointed was a small word for what she felt, she had really hoped that this one would be different. Things would be so much easier, if she truly was in love with him. Eric was everything she could ever ask for, it would have been so perfect if she had actually fallen for him.

It’s not like she didn’t try to during the last few months but despite how great he was and how many times he showed that he genuinely cared for. Katie felt like she was only settling and that wasn’t fair to either of them. Katie glanced at him, his dark brown radiated with happiness as he narrated an old childhood story.

He deserved better, someone who mutually adores him. She breathed in his familiar cologne and felt the arm that protectively rested on her. It wasn’t easy to let go of someone who adores you and dotes on you. Someone who gave you what you wanted for a longtime but it was the right thing to do.

After earlier today, the bitter truth was that her heart was still set on the Cuban. She couldn’t even deny it if she tried and although she was well aware that she didn’t have any chance with him. Staying with Eric would still be unfair, due to her selfishness he might miss a chance to meet his true love.

“Katie, do you wanna try the new ice-cream shop?” Eric asked innocently, unknown to her inner turmoil. She simply nodded in reply, as they started walking to his car.

Soon, she decided. She will end things soon. A part of her knew she might regret it but she simply couldn’t make him expect more from her. Her heart raced remembering those ocean eyes. Damn you Lance. You never gave me back my heart.

The second part is out as well! I hope you enjoyed the first part. Please reblog and tell me about your favorite part 

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More Time - Chpt.13

Summary: Bucky, Emma, and Steve have a night at the guy’s apartment where Emma learns a little bit more about Bucky.  Master list can be found HERE.

Warnings / Content: A moment of slight angst featuring a sweet slightly insecure Bucky.

Word Count: 2.4k

Author’s Note: Hello lovelies! As promised, a new day and a new chapter! I don’t if anyone saw, I have a new stand alone fic I posted earlier (Love, In Any Form). I wanted to get that out there despite having this series going. It’s night and day different from this, but if anyone needs some nonbinary!Bucky in their life, check it out! I’m going to be popping up a one shot related to this fic in a little while too. Three new posts in one day... ya’ll are gonna get spoiled ;) The one shot is going to dive into the origin of Bucky’s rainbow pants and I think ya’ll will enjoy the little head cannon as much as I do. XOXO - Ash

Chapter Thirteen

It was ten days before their schedules synced up again and the guys made good on their promise of pizza and Netflix. They had both visited Emma at work since Bucky’s birthday but it was a poor excuse for quality time and they were all anxious to see each other outside of the bar again. Emma brought along her bottle of Two Buck Chuck, mostly as a joke but also so as not to show up empty handed. Bucky answered the door dressed in a pair of low hanging grey sweatpants that made Emma’s mouth go dry. He was still towel drying his hair and hadn’t gotten around to putting on a shirt yet.

“Sorry, I was running late.” Bucky told her, moving aside so she could come in. He gave her a quick peck on the cheek and the woodsy, slight spicy scent of him made her toes want to curl. “I’ll be right back.” he assured her before going back to the bathroom to finish drying off. 

Steve called out a hello from the kitchen where he was getting out plates and Emma headed over to him. He was in blue sweatpants and a baggy white tee shirt she suspected he had stolen from Bucky. Everything about him screamed soft, and comfortable, and home. Emma greeted him with a lingering kiss, finding it easier to be a little bold with him. She helped him gather up everything and take it out to the living room while Bucky finished up. He joined them just as she was setting the second box of pizza on the coffee table. 

“Thank you, god, for leggings.” Bucky whistled from the doorway. 

Emma snapped upright and pulled down the hem of her shirt, realizing he must have had quite a view of her backside. “Be nice, dirty old man.” she teased. 

“Guilty as charged, ma’am.”  Bucky nodded. He’d put on a black a-line tank and his hair damp hair fell around his shoulders. Emma thought it was unfair how attractive he looked standing there leering at her. The man was walking talking sex appeal and he damn well knew it.

“I was just wearing what I would at home. That’s what you said tonight was for. Lazy day clothes, movies, and pizza.”

“And it is. Your lazy day clothes just happen to be what dreams are made of.” 

Emma huffed, unable to come up with a witty response. She didn’t have to though as Steve joined them with the opened bottle of wine. “If it makes you feel any better, Bucky is cheating.” he informed her.

“Am not” Bucky sputtered at the same time Emma asked “What do you mean?” 

Steve’s smile was cheshire. “Those are not Bucky’s around the house clothes. Those are his gym clothes.” 

“Steve…” Bucky’s voice was a low warning sound.

“And what does the illustrious James Buchanan Barnes wear around the house?” Emma had a feeling this game was going to get good. 

“Steve, no.” Bucky growled. 

Steve tried to slyly motion to the bedroom room door and Emma caught his intention. “Alpaca pants!” Steve cried and bolted to the bedroom with Emma quick on his heels giggling. “What the heck are alpaca pants?!” she asked between giggles. 

Bucky was diving after them and caught Emma around the waist barely inside the bedroom door. Steve was already rooting through a dresser drawer when Bucky tossed Emma onto the bed and went after him. He held up the pajama pants in question and threw them to Emma before being tackled by Bucky who tickled him mercilessly on the floor. 

“Oh my god, what even are these?” Emma howled as she looked at the fleecy materials print. 

Bucky left Steve panting on the floor to pounce on the bed and wrestle the pants from Emma. 

“I hate you both.” he grumbled petulantly, holding the pants close to his chest protectively. Emma noticed his eyes were actually wary as he clung to the pants, his cheeks pink from more than just exertion.

Steve joined them on the bed, still flushed from being tickled. “Oh come on, Buck. She’d have seen them eventually.” 

Emma gave Bucky shrug, “They’re actually pretty fantastic.” she admitted. 

“I know they’re… colorful.” Bucky agreed, his tone still hesitant.

“Why wouldn’t you wear these tonight?” Emma asked, “They seem so cozy.”

“I don’t know. They’re kinda private. I love my ‘paca pants but... they’re a little feminine... and over the top.” 

“Bucky, hey, no.” Emma moved so she was right up against him, both of them laying on their sides. She wasn’t used to seeing this shy side of him. “I don’t care what you wear. You could have on a leather jacket or a My Little Pony sweater, you’re still you.” 

Bucky nodded, knowing she was right but still unsure. He tested the waters a little more, “I have rainbow pants too. And a matching fluffy robe.” 

“They sound cute too.” she assured him. 

“I know it’s silly but those kinds of things remind me I’m safe, ya know?” Emma nodded encouragingly and Bucky took a breath and continued, “When I got away, it was hard sometimes to remember where I was. I’d wake up in the middle of the night and it was… yeah. It wasn’t great. There was this fuzzy kids blanket that someone left in the apartment I rented and it was so cold that I started sleeping with it. After that I didn’t have trouble waking up at night, I could feel the blanket on me and I knew I was safe. No way HYDRA would ever give me something so nice and soft.” Bucky paused to look at Emma and the understanding in her eyes made him push on. “I’m better about that now, but I still like having things like that around. Shuri gave me the rainbow pants when I was living in Wakanda and it just became a thing. Steve’s gotten me a few things and I have a pretty nice collection now.” Bucky let out a heavy breath. He hated sharing things that he struggled with but he cared for Emma and wanted to start trusting her with more pieces of himself.

Emma gave him a small smile and a kiss. “You’re allowed to like having nice things. It doesn’t make me think any less of you. But I will take a little offense if you don’t think you can be yourself around me. This is supposed to be a relationship, right?” 

Bucky nodded, “Yeah, it is.”

“Then you gotta trust me. I’m not just here for a hot threesome, I really like you guys.” 

Bucky huffed a laugh. “We like you too, doll. It’s just going to take a little time.”

“Everyone has baggage, Buck.” 

“We have a cargo plane full of baggage at this point.” 

“Oh come on,” Steve protested, “It’s not that bad. I mean you have an ex brainwashed assassin, who’s only missing one limb, and is down to screaming in his sleep once every few months now. And a retired American icon who shrank and got a little chubby, lived two full lifetimes already, and has a list of medical issues a mile long.” 

“Well when you say it like that…” Bucky rolled his eyes dramatically. Leave it to Steve and his oversharing tendencies. 

“I think I’ll keep you.” Emma laughed, “Both of you.” She stretched so she could drag Steve closer to them and rolled on to her back so she was lying with them on either side of her. 

“I don’t know what we did to deserve you, doll.” Bucky said with adoration in his eyes.

“I don’t know either, but you better keep doing it ‘cause I’m not going anywhere.” 

Steve draped himself halfway over Emma, snuggling into her warmth and reaching out to Bucky to hold onto him as well. They lay for a minute, basking in the warm, tender moment, before Bucky hopped up and dropped his sweatpants to the floor with one quick motion. Steve and Emma both made surprised sounds but he waved them off, “I might as well get comfy.” he told them pulling on his pajama pants. 

Emma pulled herself up and hugged him tightly, “They look perfect.”

Steve got up too then, kissing Bucky lightly as he passed by. “Come on, you two. Pizza’s getting cold.” 

Bucky smiled gratefully at Emma and they followed Steve, hands linked together.

Bucky got the middle seat while Steve brought up the movie they’d queued earlier and Emma flopped large pizza slices on plates for everyone. His nerves were still a little raw from all the sharing and both Steve and Emma seemed to pick up on him needing a little more affection than usual. They made their way through a pizza and a half while the movie played, a SciFi drama with just a little romance thrown in. It was engrossing and they were all a little surprised when it ended and they realized how entangled they had become during the movie. Bucky had sprawled out in his seat, his back leaning on Emma’s chest, one of her arms wrapped around his middle being hugged by his arm, and her other hand playing idly in his hair. His feet were tucked in on Steve’s lap and Steve had been rubbing them lightly, stroking up along his calves too. Steve’s feet were tucked under Bucky’s thighs for warmth despite the blanket on his lap. 

“I never want to move.” Emma groaned as Steve turned off the movie which was just scrolling credits at that point. 

“I don’t think. I can move at this point.” Bucky said hugging Emma’s arm just a little tighter. 

Steve yawned and stretched as much as he could without disrupting Bucky’s feet, “It’s late.” 

Emma looked over at him in disbelief, “It’s barely after ten.”

“I know,” Steve half shrugged, “But we both have work in the morning.” 

“Ah yes, you who keep to relatively normal work hours. I get to sleep in as much as I want to.” 

“Braggart.” Bucky teased, and then more seriously, “Don’t leave, doll. Stay the night?”

Emma looked down at Bucky’s face, searching his expression, “What are you asking me, Bucky?”

“We don’t have to do anything but sleep, but we’re all tired and the bed is big enough to share.” 

“Tempting, so tempting. But I don’t have anything with me and I don’t want to be in the way tomorrow while you’re both trying to get to work. I definitely can’t sleep with my contact lenses in either.” 

Steve squeezed Bucky’s foot and gave him a look, he was disappointed too but it was just bad timing, not a rejection of them. “It’s okay, another night maybe?” Steve tried.

Emma nodded emphatically, “Yes, definitely. Maybe on a day that none of us have work in the morning. We can sleep in and get breakfast at the diner over on 5th.” 

“I’m gonna hold you to that.” Bucky told her with a slow grin.

“I’ll look at the calendar tomorrow and figure it out.” Steve agreed.

“Kiss for the road?” Emma asked, looking from one to the other.

Bucky turned over so he was hovering above her and leaned down for a long, reverent kiss. Emma couldn't even breathe as his tongue danced along the seam of her lips, asking tenderly for permission. She opened her lips for him and shuddered when his tongue darted in. His hand stayed in PG-rated territory but the firm caresses of her shoulders and the back of her neck made it clear he was struggling to keep things from progressing further. Bucky was lost, barely reigning himself in after he got a taste of her mouth; all wine-sweet and perfectly her. Steve had moved so he could watch, rubbing a hand in small circles on Bucky’s lower back. It was with great reluctance that Bucky finally pulled back, “I’ll miss you.” He murmured against her mouth before moving away. 

Steve didn’t have to be told to slide over as Bucky moved away. He was painfully hard from watching Bucky and Emma kiss but he knew it wasn’t the time for that. He would take his goodbye kisses and be more than happy enough with them. Emma practically melted against Steve as his lips brushed across hers. Where Bucky was bright flame, Steve was glowing embers; patient and steady. Emma let him lead, enjoying the careful way his fingers combed through her hair. A soft sigh escaped her lips when he trailed a few feather light kisses along her neck. They were so soft but they absolutely ignited her body. Steve moved away and pulled himself up, extending a hand to help her up too. “You gotta get going before we start something we can’t finish.” He told her. 

“Well, you and I can’t finish. But you two could.” Emma motioned between the guys. 

“Uh, yeah… I mean we could but…” Steve stuttered, flustered.

Emma chuckled, “It’s okay, Steve. I know you two weren’t living like monks before you met me. I adore the way you guys are together and I wouldn’t dream of infringing on that. We’re all a little worked up; I don’t expect you two to go without a little fun once I leave.” 

“You’re perfect, you know that?” Bucky cooed, wrapping his arms around her. “We just don’t want you feeling left out.” 

“I’m far from it. And I don’t feel left out, I’m coming in new here and that’s okay.” 

 Emma was traded between her guys for a few more goodnight kisses until she was finally able to get her coat and head home. 

Bucky shut the door behind her and looked at Steve, his love-struck expression mirrored on Steve’s face. “We are in so deep here, Stevie.” 

Steve let Bucky envelop him in his arms, his head resting right under Bucky’s chin as he hugged him close. “We are.” He agreed, “But, god, we are lucky.”

“You feelin’ lucky, punk?” Bucky asked, quoting loosely from a movie Sam had made him watch.

Steve laughed lightly, “Yeah, jerk, I think I am.” 

Bucky grinned before dropping down to wrap his arms around the back of Steve’s thighs, picking him up with ease and carrying him off to show him just how lucky he was feeling.

The one shot is up now! The Origin of the Rainbow Pants

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Evak Fics - Dom/Sub

This list is for subby Isak. You may want to skip this if you don't like that characterization. I have included non smut and smut fics and I tried to put them into categories:

NO SMUT - Needy/Clingy, Soft/Shy, Stressed/Comfort, Protective/Possessive, Daddy Kink

SMUT - Stressed, Possessive/Protective, Daddy Kink, Gentle Dom, Dom/Sub, Bottom Isak, Others, Sugar Daddy, Long Fics

Here's a gifset of season 1 & 2 Isak by @jesyblack just for the heck of it.

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********* NO SMUT **********

NEEDY/CLINGY

The Traffic Jam Conversation by dear_ida (1k words) - Isak and Even are stuck in traffic. Isak is a tad dramatic. Even is in love.

(Drunk) In Love by verlore_poplap (orphan_account) (1.5k words) - Isak falls in love at first sight. Too bad he's drunk off his ass when it happens.

take my hand (take my whole life too) by Anonymous (1.7k words) - Isak loves holding Even's hand. Light smut

I'll take care of you even if you're a brat by syubsyubsuga (1.8k words) - Isak is sick,Even takes care of him. He didn't know Isak could be a brat

Sweet by Lisforlove (1.9k words) - Isak is drunk and needy. Jonas pov

smoke in the air, binge drinking by boxesofflowers, Eeyoreneedsahug (2.3k words) - Isak accidentally gets wasted at a house party and Even is there for his boyfriend.

Sunshine in the Shade by MrsFredWeasley1996 (2.6k words) - sleepy Isak being all in love with Even

the kids are alright by Skamtrash (2.7k words) - Anxious Isak loses his friends at a music festival and starts panicking and crying. It's then that he meets Even.

too busy being yours to fall for somebody new by aestheticzjm (4.3k words) - light smut. the one in which 3rd year even sees 1st year isak at a party and is immediately transfixed.

Build Me Up Buttercup by sundaymournin (6.7k words) - isak turns nineteen and some stuff goes down with a familiar, blue eyed blonde

i have everything i need. here. with you by Skamtrash (6.9k words) - Isak and Even rely on each other for everything, they're dependent and clingy and very much meant to be. Everyone realizes it but them.

SOFT/SHY

The Bartender Series by evak1isak (SERIES, 2 fics) - Isak is a bartender who wears crop tops

secrets i have held in my heart by aestheticzjm (SERIES, 3 fics) - Penetrator Even, cocky Even, soft boys

Hoodies Laced With Love by givemepizza (378 words) - Even's hoodies

My Ideal by givemepizza (1.4k words) - Isak considers his boyfriend Even to be the epitome of perfection, and He feels quite insecure and lacking because of that.

Waking Up with Your Enemy by evak1isak (1.6k words) - Isak can't remember what he did last night, but he's woken up with a hangover, in his underwear and in the bed of the boy he loathes the most

Neon Party: Redux by givemesumaurgravy (1.7k words) - Noora didn’t come home and interrupt Isak and Even

Covered In Gold by wyoheartsmusic (1.7k words) - In this universe, Isak is a little younger and a little less jaded when he meets Even.

Love in a Color by alijan (2k words) - One of Even's favorite activities is making Isak blush.

After Midnight by dear_ida (2.1k words) - Even's bitter about having to work New Year's Eve. Seeing his boy makes it better.

the only heaven i'll be sent to is when i'm alone with you by aestheticzjm (2.8k words) - isak and even ride the same bus home and isak develops a crush.

chanel by ohsusie (3k words) - isak likes skirts and pretty underwear. he's not sure even would be so happy about it.

Sharing beds by evak1isak (4.6k words) - Isak shares a bed with Jonas' flat mate, Even. And from that moment on he develops a crush

Safest With You (Green Curtains) by eavk (5.3k words) - Isak keeps staying up too late studying at the library, but luckily there's an escort service that gives students a buddy to walk with to keep safe at night.

closer to free by Skamtrash (7.7k words) - Even works at a coffee shop that Isak always studies in and Even has been crushing on him from afar for way too long so Elias makes them happen. Isak has a past. Light smut

STRESSED/COMFORT

I'll be there by Wolle19 (SERIES, 2 fics) - Mpreg. In the first fic, Even had to be away from Isak and their baby for a while

holding onto you for dear life by boxesofflowers, Eeyoreneedsahug (527 words) - Isak has a nightmare. Even cuddles him.

the sweetest thing by BeingAPartOfSomethingSpecial (555 words) - Isak hasn't been sleeping again. Even is in full soft-boyfriend mode.

bloom later by neptunebaby (1.2k words) - After a stressful day of work at the hospital, Isak comes home to unravel with Even

Now let me take care of you by Treehouse (1.4k words) - Isak is exhausted. Even gets to take care of him.

until we fall asleep by strangetowns (2.2k words) - Even and Isak stay up past midnight.

Well, What Did You Expect When You Told Me To Get My Shit? by LavenderWater (3.5k words) - Isak is stressed and exhausted from all of his school work and during a fight tells Even to get his shit and leave.

PROTECTIVE/POSSESSIVE

i'll defend your every breath by wolfsbanex (806 words) - a game of truth and dare escalates and Even defends his boyfriend.

citizen erased by theyellowcurtains (865 words) - What happened after Isak got punched

that boy is mine by orphan_account (1k words) - someone tries to touch Isak while he's drunk at a party. Angry, dangerous Even

spill yourself in fearing to be spilt by withoutwords (1k words) - someone flirts with Isak and Even gets jealous/possessive

Don't You Let Me Go Tonight by isakbeanie (1.1k words) - Isak gets tipsy at a party and Even gets jealous about some things that go down.

We are by ReadingDreams07 (1.4k words) - Isak starts to do more PDA because the first years wouldn’t stop looking at this boyfriend.

Don't touch Isak by radiantsilver (1.8k words) - Ex stripper Isak. Dangerous Even. Even is soft for Isak but he's not so soft when someone messes with Isak

The one with the narcos by radiantsilver (2.7k words) - Even is a narco lord. He's making a deal with a not so convincing man who's trying to bribe him with hookers, but he doesn't know about his husband Isak.

i can’t handle no liquor by boxesofflowers, Eeyoreneedsahug (3.1k words) - Isak trying to stay sober with Even goes wrong.

sixteen going on seventeen by sundaymournin (5.5k words) - “I don’t know why you always go after weird, older guys. You’re a baby.” “I’m sixteen. I’m not a baby.”

I'll Wait For You by photographer_of_thoughts (8.2k words) - The AU in which Isak and Even didn't get a chance to save each other at Nissen. But time is a funny thing.

DADDY KINK

Spank Me Patriarchy by nyicris (773 words) - What happens when the Feminist and Woke™ Noora finds –a blindfolded and tied up – Isak calling Even ‘daddy’?

Daddy's Tattoo by evak1isak (959 words) - Isak wants to get two tattoos, one of them designed by Even to mark him.

yayo by neptunebaby (1k words) - Isak wears panties and puts on a little show for Even. Lapdance

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********** SMUT **********

Stressed

soft by isaksforelsket (1.4k words) - Isak just wants Even to help him relax

Watching Over You by lavishsqualor (2k words) - In which Even knows exactly how to loosen his boy up. Daddy kink

i fill the tub up halfway then ride it with my surfboard by orphan_account (3.4k words) - “Take care of me,” Isak whispers

ivory by ohsusie (6k words) - Gentle Daddy, Isak has an oral fixation

POSSESSIVE/PROTECTIVE

ride it, my pony by LouisCutie (1.8k words) - Isak gets turned on by Even's protectiveness and gives him a strip tease

come again, get me excited by ourheartsintertwined (1.8k words) - Isak flirts with another guy and Even punishes him

i may be bad but i'm perfectly good at it by orphan_account (2.2k words) - Isak knows Even is mad. And he has the right to, Isak can’t deny that he would be mad too, if the roles were reversed. Isak dances with some other guy. Daddy kink, spanking

ride on you baby by LouisCutie (2.7k words) - Isak gets jealous and rides Even for the first time

taking care by orphan_account (4.9k words) - There's a new man in Isak's life. Even doesn't notice the signs until it's too late

give me gold by orphan_account (5k words) - Isak doesn’t realize how much Even actually does for him until he meets his friends from Bakka. It doesn't go as well as he'd hoped. Sugar Daddy. Even comforts Isak. Coming untouched

DADDY KINK

Baby boy by Violetsroses (1k words) - Isak is a lazy whore that needs to be fucked a lot (gotta love that summary). Subspace

Teddy Bear by evak1isak (1.3k words) - Even comes home to find Isak playing dirty games with the plus sized teddy bear he had gifted him

Cotton Candy Pink by riyku (1.4k words) - It's the kinda place where a seventeen year old boy in knee highs and a short schoolgirl skirt can belly up to the bar and order a beer for himself and another for his boyfriend, and the bartender won't say a word. Semi-public. Plug

can't keep my hands off by theyellowcurtains (1.7k words) - Riding. Spanking

Baby come light me up, and baby I'll let you on it by vildehellerad (1.8k words) - Even finds a pair of panties in Isak's laundry.

Hit it Like You Want it by Smallcandy (1.8k words) - Isak looked at Even over his shoulder and took two of his painted fingers to his mouth and started licking and sucking them.

you can be the boss by neptunebaby (2k words) - Isak likes for Even to take control in bed, and Even likes to take control for Isak. Pet names

baby kiss me thru the phone by LouisCutie (2.5k words) - Isak's horny and misses his boyfriend. He calls him. Dirty talk. Spanking

Starry Nights by sensualstalker (3.6k words) - Even and Isak go to the cabin to look at the stars and they have a bangin time that ends in cuddles. Hand and finger kink

you so bad boy, drive me mad boy by voidskam (3.9k words) - "You're so immature, and shameless," Isak says, rolling his eyes again and continuing to look through the fridge. "Is that all?" Even asks after blowing out smoke, "Or is there more?" Bad boy Even

slid the panties right to the side, ain't got the time to take draws off by orphan_account (4k words) - panties, pet names

Wanna be with you all alone, take me home, take me home by SkamLS (skamLS) (4.7k words) - Isak is horny. Even takes care of it

Gymslip by DiscoNight (6.5k words) - Isak wakes up grumpy and Even decides to teach him a lesson, which goes a little further than he expected. Exhibitionism, D/S, punishment, possessive Even, brief sexual harassment (by other people)

I’m Not That Innocent by orphan_account (6.9k words) - Halloween. Britney costume. Rimming

i won't deny it, i'm not trying to hide it by orphan_account (10k words) - Even buys Isak a choker. Featuring panties, choking

do you want me (dead)? by theyellowcurtains (13k words) - Isak broke Even’s number one rule and he needs to be punished for it. Featuring plugs, rimming, Jonas in chapter 3

GENTLE DOM

you look pretty good down here by LouisCutie (2.2k words) - Isak is sick and Even is the most wonderful, caring boyfriend. Rimming

floating upon the surface by Misscaitlin_g (2.3k words) - Isak in subspace.

i need a man that makes it right by orphan_account (5.7k words) - Isak is just about to come, but then Even’s pulling out and kissing along his jaw, murmuring, “Don’t come yet, baby.” Edging, allusions to subspace, holding hands

melt me down (i'm like wax to your jokes) by empty_venom (6.1k words) - Part 2 of the cheerleader costume fic. Pet names, praising  

DOM/SUB

santa, baby by empty_venom (SERIES, 14 fics) - There's a lot in this series involving advent calendar. Spooning, panties, choker, remote-controlled butt plug, bratty Isak, sex tape, pet names, spanking, bath tub, dildo, boy squad

just a touch of your love by orphan_account (SERIES, 3/4 fics have smut) - 1st year Isak. 3rd year Even. Even calls Isak little one. belly bulging, car sex, public sex

Glorious We Transcend by verlore_poplap (orphan_account) (680 words) - Isak likes punishing himself for silly things. He likes it more when Even does it. Overstimulation. Subspace. After care

bodies on fire by neptunebaby (1.4k words) -  isak wants fast, but even teaches him slow  

Grumpy Isak (one shot) by allthespices (1.5k words) - Isak had been playing video games all day, but Even wants to have some fun.

when i'm alone with you by shadeandadidas (1.6k words) - Isak Valtersen was shy. Which is why it didn’t surprise Even at all when the shyness and softness and sweetness carried over into their bedroom activities. 

Playing video games by evak1isak (1.8k words) - Isak comes home horny to find Even playing video games with his friends. Needy Isak. Exhibitionism

Frisky by evaksskam (1.8k words) - “Officer, I know you’re frisking me and all, but what the fuck? Your hand is on my dick?” Isak asked, trying to keep calm.

Venus by Skamtrash (2k words) - Even buys Isak a buttplug and tells him to wear it all day in school. Isak's desperate, he's horny and Even fucks him into oblivion.

What up, glitter dick by Wrappedbubble (2k words) - Consensual non-con, light bondage, coming untouched, toys, role play

spoiled by orphan_account (2.3k words) - Sometimes, Isak can be a brat. Even knows just how to take care of him. Praise kink

recovery by Skamtrash (2.3k words) - After Isaks heated conversation with his dad and lashing out on Even, Even knows exactly what he needs to do. Spanking, fingering

I'm all yours by Skamtrash (2.7k words) - bad boy even + rough sex. bondage. controlling

Pour Some Sugar On Me by staylucky (2.7k words) - Isak's put on some Halloween weight and feels self-conscious about it until Even shows him just how much he loves Isak's body, whatever size. Rough sex, dirty talk, spanking

Small Death by Laika_the_husband (3.2k words) - Anonymous sex, unsafe sex, choking, rough sex. Isak wants the danger and Even obliges

Bad Boy Even by Skamtrash (3.5k words) -  Even is a scary bad boy who hates everyone and everything but Isak is cute and smol and he can't help but love him. Fruits, ice. Light dom

i will wrap you in my arms and you will know that you are saved by staylucky (3.5k words) - During a lazy morning in bed, Isak becomes transfixed by Even's teeth. Biting. Spanking. Dirty talk

fuck me & feed me by orphan_account (4.2k words) - Light d/s. Weight gain, body worship, praise kink, rimming

the furry fic by chokingonroses (4.2k words) - Kitten costume. Plug. Rimming

Silk Ties by TheFilthWithin (Flatfootmonster) (4.3k words) - Sensory play, blindfold, ice

on the verge, now submerge, i'm your church by orphan_account (4.5k words) - Even has a huge dick. They fuck in his parents' house. Light d/s. Belly bulging, overstimulation

Command by cami_soul (4.5k words) -  Even gets Isak alone and stripped down to his pink panties. Praise kink, rimming

the morning on the your skin and loved up light by staylucky (5k words) - Isak tries to take a creeper shot of the hot stranger on the tram, when his flash goes off. Barebacking, bratty Isak, rough sex

don't want you to get it on with nobody else but me (i'm selfish, i'm obscene) by empty_venom (5.4k words) - The thing is, Even really likes getting his dick wet. Deepthroating. Coming untouched. Snowballing. Dirty talk

we're lost in the heat of the moment (and i'm moving in you) by empty_venom (6.3k words) - Even fingers Isak in front of people. Isak in a cheerleader outfit

Jailbait by starlesspappillon (8.1k words) - make sure to read the warnings. one of the chapters have dubcon. different kinks

Beat that Record by Dutten (81k words) - First chapter is all smut (chapters 2 and 3 are plot heavy). Subspace, overstimulation, multiple orgasm, coming untouched

BOTTOM ISAK

oh baby don't you know i suffer, oh baby can you hear me moan by theyellowcurtains (550 words) - Isak loves sucking Even off, Even loves doing filthy things to Isak after. Even also loves that Isak is crazy about being overstimulated.

from belly rubs to something else by vodkabunny (837 words) - Isak's new belly button piercing turns Even on.

Gag Order by riyku (1.4k words) - Dirty talk

someone who knows how to ride, without even falling off by orphan_account (1.5k words) - Isak rides Even in a hammock.

wreck me by Skamtrash (1.5k words) - Isak gets dicked down at 2am in his boyfriend's parents house. Belly bulging

after, definitely after. by yourelectriclove (1.6k words) - Pet names, riding, cum eating

I'm Gon' Ride on You Baby All Night by Dutten (2.3k words) - their friends walk in on them

poolside convo by ohsusie (2.4k words) - even fucks isak's thighs in a pool

stolt by isaksforelsket (2.5k words) - Birthday and pride month. Pet names

Back to the Backseat by sherllycolmpels (2.7k words) - Isak and Even are doing it in the backseat of their car

ride it, cowboy by orphan_account (2.7k words) - Even sees Isak ride a mechanical bull and then gets him to ride Even

just a little bit out of my limit by theyellowcurtains (3k words) - Isak is pissed about where he got placed for work experience, that is until he meets his fine ass supervisor. Belly bulging, overstimulation, multiple orgasms

that soft perfect spot by reasoniwantyoutostay (3.1k words) - Even is obsessed with a certain soft perfect spot that always makes Isak tremble.

can't take my eyes of you by orphan_account (3.1k words) - cute boyfriends in the morning who simply cant keep their hands of each other

i had the sexiest dream by reasoniwantyoutostay (3.2k words) - Even discovers Isak having a wet dream. Rimming, comeplay, pretty hole is said a lot

aren't you something to admire by orphan_account (3.4k words) - Even fucks Isak in front of a mirror. "Kitten", coming untouched, praising

You Think You Can Be Quiet, Baby? by Victory4 (3.8k words) - Isak think's he'll win a little sexual competition between him and Even, and discovers how truly wrong he is. Hand on mouth kink

show me with your body baby by yourelectriclove (4k words) - Balcony. That's all I'm saying

red by evak1isak (4k words) - Isak is obsessed with Even's red russ uniform. Featuring exhibitionism, riding, praise kink, no lube

baby won't you let me get it wet by orphan_account (5k words) - Isak gets eaten out for the first time.

mark me up (say I'm yours) by orphan_account (5.1k words) - Isak has never thought about getting choked and spanked until really its all he can think about. Pain kink

sweet dreams turns into fucking in the morning by orphan_account (5.3k words) - Even wakes up to a surprise on the morning of his graduation. crop top, riding

I Feel Your Skin (Smooth As Silk) by CouldBeBlue (5.6k words) - Isak shaves his legs. Praising

Yours Always by Skamtrash (6.3k words) - AU where deaf Isak loves everything about the universe and Even loves everything about Isak. Shy Isak

i tried to be strong but i lost it (i knew it was wrong, i’m beyond it) by orphan_account (6.3k words) - Even has a thing for his intern, Isak has a thing for his boss. Age difference

for him. by Skamtrash (7.4k  words) - Isak finds out the online relationship he's been having is with Oslo's biggest movie director, Even Bech Næsheim

Winter Cabin by alijan (7.5 words) - Isak and Even go to the winter cabin with the boys. Shy Isak. Cabin smut

When I See You, I Keep Getting Chills by plumclouds (8.8k words) - Isak is asked to be Even's tutor by his teachers. It doesn't go like anyone's expecting it to. Bad boy Even

RoadHead by Skamtrash (15k words) - Even and Isak are on a roadtrip to Even's cousins house to ring in the summer. roadhead, car sex, overstimulation, public sex

Rock Hard Paper Scissors by skamsnake (16k words) - second chapter has bottom Even. oral fixation, christmas

OTHERS

The Air Near My Fingers by riyku (1.1k words) - Spanking

Versatile by anaisanais (1.2k words) - Even is versatile

all he wants to do is party with his pretty baby by orphan_account (1.3k words) - Even and Isak attend Even's very first movie's premiere and Isak gets so needy. Rimming, fingering, blowjob

wanna feel your heart and soul inside of me by orphan_account (1.5k words) - Fisting

Heaven by Skamtrash (1.9k words) - Isak wants Even to finger him again

Lørdag 09:21 by unfancyandy (2k words) - Isak wakes up before Even one Saturday morning. Pet names

come undone by Skamtrash (2.2k words) - Four times Isak gets embarrassed in front of Even. Premature ejaculation

hot thoughts melting my mind by orphan_account (2.6k words) - Isak can't stop thinking about Even choking him. Even can't stop thinking about choking Isak.

let me work it by yourelectriclove (2.9k words) - even has stubble and isak loves it a little too much. stubble burn

Peep Show by riyku (3.5k words) - This might be the kinkiest thing Isak's ever done, the only kinky thing he's ever done, but he's committed to it by now, and screw it, he's gonna give this guy something worth watching. Voyeurism. Comeplay

Summer by DickAnderton (5.8k words) - Isak and Even have been crushing on each other for a whole year when their paths finally cross at a hipster music festival during summer break and they spend the night together.

The First day of Autumn by sherllycolmpels (8k words) - Isak and Even try to bake some apple and cinnamon muffins together, and let's say they're more making out and being soft boyfriends than baking. light smut

House Edge by panshambles, skamsnake (15k words) - Isak wants to try edging just because Even did it before. It's a competition. Light d/s.

SUGAR DADDY

life support by Skamtrash (12k words) - Isak is behind on rent, Eskild jokingly suggests a sugar daddy. He knows its a crazy idea but he's desperate and seeks one out but fate has other plans

Didn't See This Coming by givemesumaurgravy (26k words) - Isak is behind on his rent again and Eskild has the bright idea to sign him up for a Sugar Daddy dating website.

Club Avfall by RobronSugdenDingle (44k words) - Illegal drugs and strip clubs are Isak's life. Money from his boyfriend, the owner of Club Avfall who is also his sugar daddy can definitely complicate things.

I Don't Need Saving by Skamtrash (47k words) - Isak has a traumatic past. He's a stripper to pay for med school. When he meets Even after he pays for a private session for a night, they continue to see each other and Isak learns to fall in love. Lowkey sugar daddy

Old Money by twentyonetwentyone (100k words) - Pretty Woman au

LONG FICS

Neko verse by Laika_the_husband (SERIES, 4 one shots, 1 long fic) - Tomcat!Even meets a scared Kitten!Isak and brings him home for hot sex.

Skamløs by Skamtrash (18k words) - Even is Isak's professor and they have a thing going on

Hard Knocks by DiscoNight (25k words) - Even's depressive episodes are difficult for both him and Isak to cope with. When a frightening experience leaves Isak unable to talk to his friends, and not wishing to impact further on Even's current state of mind, things go from bad to worse. Lot's of angst

We Found the Stars by Sabeley (39k words) - Call Me by Your Name AU

Red roses & cotton candy by dantetrieswriting (56k words) - A rose. He gave Isak a fucking red rose. Doesn't matter, Isak was still not interested. Or at least that's what he kept telling himself. Bad boy Even

Drowning in your love by depressed_mermaid_53 (62k words) - Even is captain of the swim team. Isak and the boy squad join the team. First year Isak

my sweet prince (you are the one) by isaksforelsket (67k words) - After meeting Isak, the younger brother of his friend Lea, Even becomes infatuated with the boy and no matter how hard he tries, he can't seem to stay away.

The Oceans Shall Freeze by DiscoNight, realityiwanted (121k words) - The viking au. Even the berserker sees Isak and immediately  wants him.

Smutty Tumblr Prompts and Drabbles by isaksforelsket (WIP) - A collection of fics 

let me be yours by isaksforelsket (WIP) - Penetrator Even, snarky Isak

"You don't know it yet, Isak Valtersen, but you're mine" // Secret Admirer AU by Jules_poupard (WIP) - Isak has a secret admirer. Possessive Even. Daddy kink

[nightunite]

I'm the soft sibling but... A-all of them??

I’ve been waiting, my sibster...

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

Probably @safetyfirstbiatch

 2. Are you outgoing or shy? 

Shy in the beginning, outgoing afterwards!

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? 

@safetyfirstbiatch @tricksandmagix

4. Are you easy to get along with? 

Sometimes

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? 

Probably not

6. What kind of people are you attracted to? 

Loyal, funny, can tease me like I tease them, won’t mock my anxiety, etc.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? 

Nope

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? 

Gonna say Bucky Barnes

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? 

Nah

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? 

@binkysteebnpewter @breadgenie892 @fuzzy-cloud-head-queen @andyl394

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? 

“I might post this on tumblr”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? 

Blink-182: Black rain

Halsey&Marina Mashup: Gasoline and Savages

Saweetie: My type

Dermot Kennedy: Power Over You

chillpill: Fuck the Club

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? 

Nope

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? 

Yep

15. What good thing happened this summer? 

SHAVED ICE AND THE FAM

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? 

Nah

17. Do you think there is life on other planets? 

Yes

18. Do you still talk to your first crush? 

Nah

19. Do you like bubble baths? 

Yes

20. Do you like your neighbors? 

Nah

21. What are you bad habits? 

Impulsive, loud, awkward, dont like vacuuming

22. Where would you like to travel? 

Yes

23. Do you have trust issues? 

Yes

24. Favorite part of your daily routine? 

Nap time

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? 

Thighs

26. What do you do when you wake up? 

Play Animal Crossing

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? 

No but I wish it was healthy

28. Who are you most comfortable around? 

@safetyfirstbiatch

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? 

Yup

30. Do you ever want to get married? 

Sure

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? 

It’s always up so yeah

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

None?

 33. Spell your name with your chin. 

(Cant attempt this tbh I have a big ol hormone zit about ready to pop)

34. Do you play sports? What sports? 

Nope

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? 

Without TV

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? 

Of course!

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

Some stupid joke or story

 38. Describe your dream girl/guy? 

I’ve answered this in previous asks but see #6

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? 

Lush, Barnes&Noble, Candy Stores

40. What do you want to do after high school? 

I’m already a college graduate, but lab work

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? 

No

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? 

I’m either busy, sleeping, or anxious

43. Do you smile at strangers? 

Sometimes

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Outer space

 45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? 

Animal Crossing and food

46. What are you paranoid about?

Everything tbh anxiety sucks 

47. Have you ever been high? 

No

48. Have you ever been drunk? 

No

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? 

No but I’ve been hella simping

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? 

Grey and yellow, my hufflepuff hoodie

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

Nah

 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? 

Have healthier skin aka no genetic issues

53. Favourite makeup brand?

Dont wear any

 54. Favourite store? 

Barnes&Noble

55. Favourite blog? 

@bunjywunjy

56. Favourite colour? 

Periwinkle

57. Favourite food? 

I’m a slut for pretzel bites right now

58. Last thing you ate? 

Cheese ravioli

59. First thing you ate this morning?

Sour cream&onion chips

 60. Ever won a competition? For what? 

Won a ribbon for a literary contest

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? 

Nah

62. Been arrested? For what? 

Nah

63. Ever been in love? 

Don’t know tbh

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? 

Already answered this on previous asks, but it was after a movie in his car

65. Are you hungry right now? 

Nah

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? 

Nah, they’re equal

67. Facebook or Twitter? 

Twitter

68. Twitter or Tumblr? 

Tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now? 

Nah

70. Names of your bestfriends? 

@safetyfirstbiatch @tricksandmagix

71. Craving something? What? 

Shaved ice, blue raspberry and lime flavor

72. What colour are your towels? 

Salmon pink and mold green, got em real ugly

72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 

2, one under my head and one against my side

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? 

Yup a Totodile

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? 

Like 80+

75. Favourite animal? 

Frogs

76. What colour is your underwear? 

Black

77. Chocolate or Vanilla? 

Chocolate

78. Favourite ice cream flavour? 

Chocolate

79. What colour shirt are you wearing? 

Black

80. What colour pants? 

Black

81. Favourite tv show? 

Masterchef

82. Favourite movie? 

James and the Giant Peach

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? 

Mean Girls

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? 

Mean Girls

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? 

Janis

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? 

Dory

87. First person you talked to today? 

The fam

88. Last person you talked to today? 

The fam

89. Name a person you hate? 

Trump

90. Name a person you love? 

@safetyfirstbiatch

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? 

Anti-vaxxers

92. In a fight with someone? 

Nah

93. How many sweatpants do you have? 

2 pairs

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? 

like 6

95. Last movie you watched? 

Sky High (I regret nothing)

96. Favourite actress? 

Zendaya

97. Favourite actor? 

Sebastian Stan

98. Do you tan a lot? 

Nope

99. Have any pets? 

A cat and a corgi

100. How are you feeling? 

Pretty alright

101. Do you type fast? 

Yup!

102. Do you regret anything from your past? 

A couple things, time I wish I had listened better

103. Can you spell well? 

Decently

104. Do you miss anyone from your past? 

Not really

105. Ever been to a bonfire party? 

Nope!

106. Ever broken someone’s heart? 

Probably but I was never told

107. Have you ever been on a horse? 

Nope

108. What should you be doing? 

Sleeping

109. Is something irritating you right now? 

My back

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? 

Yup!

111. Do you have trust issues?

Of course

 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? 

@safetyfirstbiatch while laughing I’m pretty sure

113. What was your childhood nickname? 

‘Hey you’

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? 

Yes, been to several other states and the Bahamas

115. Do you play the Wii? 

I used, played so much Harvest Moon Animal Parade

116. Are you listening to music right now? 

Yup, mothra’s theme

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? 

Nope

118. Do you like Chinese food? 

Nope

119. Favourite book? 

The Serpent King is one of my favorites

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

Nah

 121. Are you mean? 

Sometimes

122. Is cheating ever okay? 

In extreme extenuating circumstances like ‘You refuse to let me out of this marriage despite knowing we don’t even like each other’

123. Can you keep white shoes clean? 

Somewhat yeah

124. Do you believe in love at first sight? 

Yeah

125. Do you believe in true love?

Yeah

 126. Are you currently bored? 

Nah

127. What makes you happy? 

Little things; rain, smell of a new book, soft sheets.

128. Would you change your name? 

Nah

129. What your zodiac sign? 

Leo

130. Do you like subway? 

Nah

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 

Either let em down easy or see if it works

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 

The fam

133. Favourite lyrics right now? 

Dont have any honestly

134. Can you count to one million? 

Sure but it takes a while

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

‘Can’t go, Mom needs me to watch the dog’ -Dog is in fact being taken to daycare in plain view of person

 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? 

Open a crack

137. How tall are you?

5′6

 138. Curly or Straight hair? 

Wavy

139. Brunette or Blonde? 

Brunette

140. Summer or Winter? 

Fuck both, Fall

141. Night or Day? 

Night

142. Favourite month? 

July

143. Are you a vegetarian?

Nope

 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

Milk

 145. Tea or Coffee? 

Neither, soda

146. Was today a good day?

Yeah it was pretty great

147. Mars or Snickers?

Snickers even though I have a peanut sensitivity

 148. What’s your favourite quote?

Don’t have one, sorry

 149. Do you believe in ghosts? 

Yup! 

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? 

“This is madness” - Sorcery of Thorns