#and even with bts she was weird about them when i started listening to them in 2018 but then her other friends got her into them after

[blueside-hobi]

I would have reacted that way too if my friend did that to me like I would feel like such an afterthought :( U better still go on your own and have fun don’t even think about them!!!! ❤️❤️

I would feel awful if I went on my own though because Yoongi is her bias and I would just be thinking about wanting her to be there. But it's probably a better idea than going with them because I'll just be a third wheel. I guess I have a couple weeks to figure out what I'm doing, assuming that either of us get presale.

[stormblessed95]

Hello💜

Just doing this quick and fast for anyone who doesn't know me, is new here, or just forgot who I was when I disappeared for a while.

Hi! My name is Storm (obviously not really but it's what everyone calls me here, or variations of it). My pronouns are she/her. I'm bi, married and have kids. I work in the mass communication and education fields, for now. I LOVE to read, write, and listen to music.

I've been ARMY since the beginning of 2020. I found BTS basically by accident. My music and dance loving baby was losing it and my husband said oh wait "there is this group out there who does amazing choreo to their songs" and put on the fire dance practice. And I, too, LOVED it. MOTS7 was my first comeback so it holds a very special place in my heart. And boy did BTS and learning about them save my sanity during the pandemic.

I am Yoongi and Jimin biased. Jungkook is my main bias wrecker, Hobi a very close second. You may call me a yoonminkooker if you want. I am not a shipper, but I do exist and operate this blog in shipper spaces. I do think there is a high chance that Jimin and JK have *something* going on that's more than just friendship. I don't care if I'm wrong though. I do know for a fact that they are the bestest of friends and nothing will ever change that. I also believe that yoonminkook are all very likely queer in some sense of the word. That has nothing to do with their relationship status and is just how I see things.

On this blog, I stress facts and original content first. Anything that isn't straight from original content though is solely my opinion. Nothing more, nothing less. Everyone is always free to agree or disagree with me as they please. I am not here for followers, the numbers don't matter to me. I started this blog for me and because a friend and a few others were encouraging me to share my thoughts over larger topics and I write essays. If you follow me or not is totally your choice, but my content will be whatever it is going to be. That's never going to change. I'm always happy to talk with people though, even through disagreements on opinions. As long as there is respect, I'm always more than happy to agree to disagree.

I love and adore all BTS members. I am OT7 through and that will never change. I love all 7 members, and I love them in every single duo/trio/grouping combination. And I will never tolerate any hate or slander towards any of them on my blog.

And finally, my post masterlist is here, if you haven't seen it yet, please check it out. Thank you!

Hopefully that's a sufficient introduction 😂 felt weird to have to do. I am not this important lol. If you guys have any questions or have anything you want to share, feel free to ask 💜

[btsficsandsuch]

Hello! Can I pls request headcanons for BTS members falling in love with a female reader, they are not close friends but have mutual friend (like, she is a friend of a friend of theirs, and because they are not close, the members are insecure about confessing their feelings) And when they introduced her to their band mates, one of them also starts crushing on her and they get jealous? Thank you ❤️

Hope you like it!!

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Jin:

- [ ] It takes a few times of meeting for him to start crushing on you.

- [ ] Wants to be respectful and not make you uncomfortable by confessing when you’re just a friend of a friend.

- [ ] Decides to invite you over for dinner and to get know you better.

- [ ] After he introduces you to everyone he heads back into the kitchen to finish up the dinner while you sit and talk to Namjoon.

- [ ] He hears someone entering the kitchen assuming it was you, he’s surprised when he sees Jimin standing there.

- [ ] “Hyung, you didn’t tell us that Y/N was so pretty. I think I’m going to ask for her number.”

- [ ] Jin immediately turns off the stove and walks into the living room grabbing your had and dragging you outside.

- [ ] “Y/N, I don’t want this to come off as weird but I really like you. It’s okay if you don’t feel the same but I want you to know that.”

- [ ] You couldn’t hide your smile, “I’m glad you said something Jin. I didn’t want to make things weird.”

Yoongi:

- [ ] It takes a while for his crush on you to start. He doesn’t want to get hurt so he doesn’t always allow feelings to form.

- [ ] He doesn’t even realize it at first. Then one day you complimented his new hair color and he felt a tingly sensation in his chest. At first he thought it was just heartburn from the spicy ramen he had at lunch.

- [ ] But then he couldn’t stop thinking about you. He even found himself asking your mutual friend if you were invited to different events he was attending.

- [ ] He wouldn’t even think of confessing though. He doesn’t want it to be weird since he’s just a friend of a friend.

- [ ] So he decides to invite you to his studio to listen to some new music he’s working on. Hoping the two of you could get closer over time. Hoseok walks in and Yoongi introduces the two of you.

- [ ] Your phone starts ringing and not wanting to be rude you excuse yourself and step into the hallway.

- [ ] “Wow Hyung, she’s pretty. Is she single?”, Hoseok asks.

- [ ] Yoongi is instantly filled with jealousy. A feeling he’s not used to. No way is he going to let Hoseok ask you out minutes after meeting when he hasn’t been able to do it in months.

- [ ] He walks past Hoseok ignoring his question to go find you leaning up against the wall outside his studio.

- [ ] “Listen Y/N, I know we don’t know each other that well but I really like you and I’d love to get to know you on a deeper level. Maybe we could go get dinner sometime. Just the two of us.”

- [ ] His heart feels like it’s going to explode as he watches you smile, “I thought you’d never ask.”

Hoseok:

- [ ] Slowly develops a crush over time.

- [ ] Too shy to say anything since the two of you are barely acquaintances at this point.

- [ ] When he hears you talking about wanting to improve your dance skills he immediately volunteers his time.

- [ ] One evening he had you in the practice room going over a routine when Taehyung walks in.

- [ ] He introduces the two of you to each other before giving Taehyung the answer he’s looking for, hoping that it will end this little meeting.

- [ ] What he doesn’t expect is to hear Taehyung straight out ask you for your phone number and panic sets in.

- [ ] “Y/N, we really need to get back to this routine. I just thought of a new move we could add in.”

- [ ] He watches Taehyung bid you goodbye and walk out the door.

- [ ] “Are you going to call him?”, he asks. “I don’t really know. He seems nice.”, you respond.

- [ ] “Okay listen Y/N, I really like you. Like a lot. And I don’t want to loose the opportunity to Taehyung. I understand if you’d rather go out with him but I’d really like the chance to take you out instead.”

- [ ] “Hobi you’re rambling. If you’d give me the chance I’d tell you that I like you too.”

- [ ] He lets out a breath he didn’t know he was holding and turns to shy giggle.

Namjoon:

- [ ] It takes time of him to realize his feelings for you.

- [ ] Once he does he becomes a clumsy mess which only makes it worse.

- [ ] He doesn’t want to weird you out by confessing since you’re just a friend of a friend.

- [ ] Invites you to go to a museum with him.

- [ ] Afterwords he takes you to his favorite cafe.

- [ ] While there you run into Jin. Namjoon introduces the two of you. He doesn’t like how long Jin stares at you but decides to ignore it.

- [ ] After Jin leaves he returns his attention to you. Then he feels his phone going off and sees a text from Jin.

- [ ] “Hey Namjoon, how do you know Y/N? Is she single by chance? Maybe pass along my number ;)”

- [ ] Namjoon scoffs and puts his phone back in his pocket. He looks up at you and notices just how beautiful your eyes are and knows he’s in deep and is worried that Jin’s new interest in you will derail everything.

- [ ] He takes a deep breath before reaching out to take your hand, “Y/N, I really like you and I hope it’s not weird but I’d like to take you on an official date. That is if you’d like to go with me.”

- [ ] Even biting your lip doesn’t stop the smile from forming on your lips as you nod your head yes.

- [ ] Namjoon is full dimples on display and doesn’t feel bad at all for ignoring Jin’s text, okay maybe a little bit but it was worth it.

Jimin:

- [ ] Immediately crushing on you. No questions about it.

- [ ] Is nervous to say anything since you’re just a friend of a friend and not even that close.

- [ ] One night at a party he sees you dancing and can’t take his eyes off of how beautiful you look.

- [ ] You make your way over to him and grab his hand to twirl yourself around making him shyly giggle at your cuteness.

- [ ] He completely forgot about Jungkook standing next to him until he hears him speak, “Introduce me to your friend Hyung.”

- [ ] Jimin rolls his eyes, “Jungkook this is Y/N, Y/N, this is Jungkook.

- [ ] “Would you like a drink? Let me go get you a drink.”, Jungkook speaks.

- [ ] Jimin feels rage as he watches Jungkook eye you up and down before walking towards the bar.

- [ ] Jimin grabs your hand and pulls you onto the balcony to get some privacy.

- [ ] “Y/N I know we’ve only met each other a few times but I can’t deny there’s something between us. I really like you and I’d love to take you out some time.”

- [ ] He smirks when you lean in and kiss his lips.

Taehyung:

- [ ] Another member of the instant crush club.

- [ ] Also doesn’t care if you think it’s weird or not but is still shy about telling you.

- [ ] You’re backstage at their concert with your mutual friends when he introduces you to the rest of the group.

- [ ] He notices the way Namjoon eyes you. He tries to ignore it but then he sees Namjoon walk over to you and asks you if you’ll wait for him after the show. What makes it worse is the blush that forms on your cheeks and he looses it.

- [ ] Confidently he walks over to you and steps in front of Namjoon. “Y/N can I talk to you? In private please.”

- [ ] He has no idea where this confidence is coming from but he knows he has to put it to good use.

- [ ] Once in a private room he shuts the door behind him.

- [ ] “Y/N, I know we hardly know each other but I really like you. I liked you since the minute I met you. Will you go out with me?”

- [ ] You’re taken back by his bluntness but you also appreciate it. “I’d love to Tae.”

- [ ] Feeling relieved he opens the door and walks you back out. “You’ll be waiting for me after the show right?”, he asks. “Of course!”, you respond not noticing Namjoon standing off to the side taking this all in.

Jungkook:

- [ ] Crushes right away but it takes a while for him to realize that it is a crush.

- [ ] Is too afraid to say anything. Doesn’t want to scare you away by making it seem like he was stalking you.

- [ ] Invites you over to play video games hoping to get closer to you by doing something he’s comfortable with.

- [ ] The two of you just finished another round of Mario Kart when Yoongi walks in. “Jungkook, please don’t leave your sweatshirts all over. I’m not your maid.”, he says before throwing a black sweatshirt on the bed.

- [ ] He turns to leave but you catch his attention. “Hi, nice to meet you. I’m Yoongi.”, he says taking a seat next to you “Y/N”, you say shaking his hand.

- [ ] Jungkook knows that look in his Hyung’s eye. It’s clear that Yoongi is interested in you.

- [ ] He sits there and listens to Yoongi flirt with you until he just can’t take it any more and storms out of the room.

- [ ] A few minutes later you find Jungkook sulking in the kitchen with a glass of water.

- [ ] “Hey why did you leave? I thought we were playing best two out of three?”, you asked.

- [ ] He scoffs, “Why don’t you play with Yoongi? The two of you really seemed to hit it off.

- [ ] You rolled your eyes, “You’re right. He did mention something about a game we could play in his bedroom but something tells me we won’t be playing video games.”

- [ ] You turned to leave but Jungkook immediately ran in front of you preventing you from going any further.

- [ ] “Please don’t Y/N. I’m sorry I ran away but I didn’t like seeing him flirt with you. The truth is I like you a lot and I’d like to see if there could be something between us.”

- [ ] Getting the reaction you expected you smiled and grabbed his hand, “Of course there’s something between us. I feel it too. Now let’s get back to the game. Next winner buys dinner!”

[mintchocolove]

°▪︎☆First-time meeting

You met them all in a unique way,like destiny had everything ready for you.

Pairing: OT7 x f!reader

Instead of yn I'm going to use Eunjin as the readers name, sorry if it's uncomfortable. I'll take recommendations. English is not my first language so please be kind.

♡ Lee Heeseung - Practice room

Before I-Land, new trainee, 2019

To be fair, Heeseung didn't even want to be there. He had been dancing earlier and still had some things to do, but he just couldn't think straight. He was upset; earlier, he listened to other trainees talk about him and laugh at him. He didn't get it—they all acted like he was some kind of genius, yet still joked about him not being able to debut.

So there he was, walking into the building to practice. Maybe that way he could stop thinking about other things and eventually start his homework, he couldn't let his grades fall. He walked to his favorite practice room, A-16. No one ever went there knowing he’d probably be there, so it was definitely a surprise when he heard music coming from the room. He opened the door, and the music became clearer. "Danger" by BTS was playing as someone danced in front of the mirror with perfect movements. Someone Heeseung had never seen before was there, wearing a blue shirt and bright orange pants. Huh, funny choice of clothes he thought to himself as he got a little closer to the center of the room.

Then the person in front of him had suddenly stopped while walking to the music player, cutting off the music letting out an exasperated grunt.

"AHHHHH, I will never get this fucking part!"

He wouldn't lie; he laughed a little. It was interesting to see someone that looked as frustrated as himself. That was when the new trainee finally looked at him, eyes widening while quickly picking up the things on the floor just to out of the room like he was the plague, mumbling something that sounded like a sorry.

"Wait!..." But you were already gone, that made Heeseung smiled to himself; at least his mind had been distracted a little.

♤ Park Jonseong - Family party

Before I-Land, cousin's best friend, 2018

Jay yawned while looking around; the wedding party hadn't started yet, the newlyweds were not even in the venue at the moment, and he wasn't sure why his parents had decided to arrive early. The place was cute though, it was a big house that the couple had reserved especially for the day, it had a beautiful entrance, a big garden, and a beautiful lake to take photos in. All his family was there too, after all, the first grandkid was getting married, it was a big deal indeed.

He looked over to the garden, full of flowers he couldn't get too close to, but the view was pretty enough.

"Spring is a good season to get married" the words came out in a whisper, but his mother had smiled at him while she nodded. One of her hands flew towards his shirt to fix it a little before answering with a calm tone, "It is indeed"

Then he saw something that caught his attention, his cousin Soyeon -only two years younger- was dragging another girl towards the table while she had a big smile on her face. "Mom! Eunjin is there" his aunt had gotten up, saying hi to the girl that seemed a little nervous with all the eyes on her.

"Thanks for inviting me, Mrs. Park" Her voice was sweet, and could've sworn he had heard it before, he just couldn't remember when. Then they both of them locked eyes, staring at each other only for a brief moment before Soyeon spoke again, still bubbly while she held the other girl's hand in her own. "Ah! Eunjin, this is my cousin Jay, he also goes to your school"

The girl had just nodded before turning to Soyeon to continue talking as if nothing had happened. Weird, but he soon got distracted, and without even noticing, he forgot they even saw each other.

◇ Sim Jaeyun - Airplane to Korea

Before I-Land, next to me, 2019

Jake had to be honest with himself at the moment, he was fucking scared of all this. This will be the first time he took a flight alone, even if it wasn't that long. And it probably decided his future so yeah, blame him for being scared all you want.

As he texted a quick message to his mom telling her that he was going to turn off his phone he saw someone sitting next to him. The person had a big black hoodie on but he could see they weren't tall, probably someone his age.

"Hi, if you need me to move just tell me" He felt his voice crack at the last part and he thought that maybe throwing himself off the plane wasn't a bad idea. However he wasn't prepared for the little laugh while the person next to him nodded. He finally could see it was a girl.

"thanks, not everyone is that kind" The girl smiled at him and then her eyes looked down to her hands before offering him one "I'm Eunjin" He took the hand and smiled.

"I'm Jake" They talked for a little while, happy to be sitting next to someone their age, that's how they ended up knowing they were both flying to Korea for an audition. At the end, even if they talked for a while, both fell asleep after eating some snacks.

When the airplane finally arrived in Korea both of them continued talking as they walked out. It wasn't until they had already walked for some minutes that they realized that they'll have to say goodbye. "Um, so I have to go that way" He nodded while smiling "I'm going the other way, see you Eunjin"

The girl smiled at him one last time before they parted ways, it had been just a few minutes when he realized he could've asked for your number. Well, I hope we meet again sometime

♧ Park Sunghoon - Ice rink

Before I-Land, Gold medal, 2015

Finally his turn was over, he could feel the adrenaline dripping out of him, he was tired, his feet screaming for a rest as he slowly made his way towards the entrance of the rink. His mother was standing there, with a big smile on her lips while she offered him a bottle of water.

"you did good Sunghoon" he nodded while walking towards his seat and drinking water "the next presentation is Sam Eunjin, she's your age" To be honest he didn't remember anyone with that name so he just looked to the rink.

The figure in the center was wearing red and gold clothes, a tense posture as someone said her name, age and song. Then the song began, a calm yet strong melody that went well with the choreography that was being performed before his eyes.

"wow, she's good right?" The voice of his coach pulled him out of his dazed state, the air he didn't know he was containing coming out of his mouth "yeah, it's good"

"I heard her mother say that she'll probably retire next year" He looked at his mom with wide eyes, not believing what she just said "She wants to be an actress"

If his curiosity wasn't big before, now it was. His eyes darted back to the girl dancing, perfect movements until the end of her routine. Then just as she started skating towards the entrance he felt his chest tightening, he wasn't good with girls so this was his cue to run away. "I'll go to the bathroom"

He vaguely remembers listening to his mom congratulate the girl as he walked away. He remembers watching as she received her gold medal with a smile on her face.

☆ Kim Sunoo - Ice cream shop

Before I-Land, Mint Choco, 2020

Sunoo was tired, school had been awful today and to be honest he really needed an ice cream. It didn't matter that it was January and he was freezing, he really needed something cold to calm his nervousness. He walked for a few minutes before he reached his favorite ice cream shop.

It was a small place that an old couple had and to be honest he liked that it was alone most of the time. He walked inside while looking at his phone and biting his lips, mentally telling himself to stop doing that.

"Ah Eunjin, you're lucky" He looked up from his phone watching a girl in a school uniform paying for an ice cream. The yellow backpack at her feet too big to be real. "That was the last mint chocolate ice cream"

His eyes open wide while he walks fast to reach the counter, receiving a curious look from the girl next to him. "Is that really the last one?" He doesn't even know who he is asking at this point, his voice dripping hope

"Yeah, it was the last one" The voice of the girl sounds surprised while she talks, probably because he approached out of nowhere "Oh" His voice sounds disappointed so he smiles a little while looking at the other flavors, none of them catching his attention

He's about to leave when a hand on his sleeve stops him "You can have it, the ice cream I mean" the girl gives him a smile while holding out the little cone towards him "I'll pick another flavor"

The words can't even leave his lips as the girl makes him hold the ice cream as she orders something new. When she has her new ice cream she smiles at him and walks towards the door of the store "Eat it, you seem to like it more than I do"

♡ Yang Jungwon - Park

Before I-Land, Sorry, 2019

Jungwon can feel himself falling to the floor before his brain even registers what just happened, he lets his hand fly towards his head as he looks around. It's just then that he notices the skateboard at his feet, the one that made him fall.

"Sorry!!" A small voice screams while a little kid approaches him, he looks scared as he stares at Jungwon probably not knowing what to do "It's fine, I'm not hurt" He smiles but the kid looks even more distressed than before, frantically looking around

"My sister should be around here, please follow me" He probably should tell him that it doesn't matter, he didn't get hurt and he was distracted after all but the kid looks one minute away to start crying so he follows with a smile

They reach one of the benches at the park when the kid starts talking again, his voice concerned as he drags Jungwon "Eunjin, I made someone fall, please take a look" The girl in front of them looks up from her book with her eyebrows knit together before letting out a sigh "Minhyuk, I told you to be careful"

Then she stands up and looks at him with a smile that looks a lot like the ones his mom makes when she doesn't know what else to say "Sorry, my brother is learning and is a bit clumsy" The kid next to them nods while the girl extends her hand with her phone held out "Please put your number here, if you feel bad call me and we'll pay for the doctor"

"It's fine, I'm not injured" Even if he says that he does put his number and smiles before giving it back to the girl, he then turns to the kid and smiles a little "Be more careful kid, bye"

♤ Nishimura Riki - Convenience store

Before I-Land, I'll help, 2020

The convenience store is not as busy as he thought it would be, probably because it's already late and the part of the city where he's staying is not that busy.

He knows the manager that they send with him is somewhere in the store, so he could probably go and ask him to read and explain the things that he doesn't understand but he's just too shy to ask something like Hey which one is the least spicy?

Probably he looks funny staring at the different packages of noodles in front of him, like trying to understand out of nowhere, he feels someone stand a few feet away from him, in the Japanese section of the store. He looks trying not to seem suspicious, a girl is holding two packages of candy while chewing on her lips. "What does this even mean?"

He knows he shouldn't listen to other people, it's disrespectful but to be honest he also needs help with this. "I uh, I speak Japanese" The girl practically jumps in her place while looking at him and then at the candy in her hands before extending it towards him "Do these have almonds? I'm allergic" He takes a quick glance before shaking his head "They don't"

" Thanks! You saved me" She smiles while turning around before she stops and looks at him "I'll help you too stranger, you seem lost" He laughs looking at the noodles in front of him "I don't want something spicy"

She nodded before looking at the packages, picking one after some seconds, offering it to him before smiling "This should be good, I'm Eunjin by the way" He also smiles "Ni-ki" A phone rings and the girl takes it out and turns around "See you around Ni-ki, thanks again!"

[notyouraryang0dd3ss]

That time period where Taylor was on tumblr "lurking" and following only the most dedicated fans was super weird. That and the invites to her house for listening parties definitely fueled the parasocial shit show. I do hope that it was some intern behind all the tumblr stuff, though. If it wasn't', that means an ego maniac was scrolling through her own tag giving out gold stars for loving her enough. Everything about that is creepy as hell.

honestly even though kpop groups (this is who i credit, if you know any other celebs who did it earlier please lmk!!!!!!!) started the trend of parasocial relationships (see BTS and their vlogs and how their fans feel like they know them + RPF) taylor swift really perfected it and made it into an art.

i think it was her ability to make her fans feel like they were her friends and having her invite them over to her house (very personal thing to do especially as a celebrity) that encouraged them to latch onto her. also genius move because she had fans that could testify to her being a good person if a swiftie showed skepticism or legit critical thinking skills when it came to her behavior.

it was definitely an intern tho because i doubt she’s actually a millennial and talks like *that* in her social media posts (its very gen z or someone just very well versed in the internet). have you seen a millennial online? they type like they’re HR 24/7.

BUT if she was a crazy enough weirdo to actually be the one to scroll through her tag…well…someone is deeply self obsessed and insecure

[chiskz]

▶️ [슈취타] EP.5 SUGA with CHICHI

♡ 일본의 위대한 사랑의 함정에 빠졌다! / 게으른 고양이 vs 작은 호랑이 ! ♡ caught in the trap of Japan's great love! / lazy cat vs small tiger!

-> Suchwita (슈취타) is a variety web series starring SUGA (BTS). The series features him chatting with guests while enjoying alcohol.

《♡》 Chichi's SUCHWITA Profile:

Name: CHICHI

choreographer, main dancer and oldest member of Stray Kids

"Who wouldn't take the opportunity to get drunk for free in good company?"

♡ A charming choreographer straight from Japan. ♡ Don't be fooled by her deep voice and muscles!

《♡》 [ xxxx ] - editors' note

Chichi enters the room bowing to the staff. She stops in front of Yoongi.

"Ah, should I bow? Or shall we shake hands?"

"Ah, no, no, I should... I should... should I?" They both laugh and bow their heads briefly.

"Of course, I didn't come empty-handed!" She bows with her head a second time, handing Yoongi the pink box.

"Pink, I could have expected that!" He laughs and opens it carefully to reveal the contents - a bottle of Hibiki (name is censored) Whiskey. "You really want to get drunk tonight!"

"I rarely get the chance!" She laughs loudly and they finally sit down. "And it's actually a collector's edition, you can't drink it!" [ whiskey, not for consumption! don't touch, just look! ]

"We've met before, so you seem relaxed!" [ big meeting of two introverts! ]

"Yes, that's true. But we shouldn't talk about the circumstances of our first meeting."

"That's right... we really should take this to the grave." [ great mystery shrouded in an even greater mystery??? ]

"Should we get rid of the honorifics on this occasion?"

"Did we ever use them at all?"

Yoongi looks straight at the camera as Chichi laughs in the background. [ SUGA's thoughts: she keeps exposing us ]

"This is my second tiger visitor in such a short time." [ first was HOSHI! ]

"Yeah, but Hoshi and I are different tigers. He's... a real tiger and I'm just... a big cat?"

"No, I wouldn't say that. I've watched a lot of your shows, a few before you came here. You're both wild on stage, but you seem really dangerous. You are a tiger."

Chichi covers her mouth with her hands, editors draw her blushes. [ is that the dangerous tiger??? ]

"I also listened to your solo digital album, Member Branding. Your voice is as impressive as they say."

"Aren't you praising me too much?" Chichi laughs, trying to hide her embarrassment. "But wow, you really did some research."

"Of course, who do you think I am?"

"A lazy cat?" [ CHICHI, straight to the point! ]

"So quests bring the drinks?"

Yoongi blinks in surprise.

"She really wants to drink now!"

Chichi laughs and pulls out the second bottle of whiskey today, Hibiki Whiskey - "regular" edition.

"For you, so you're not sorry you can't drink the one I bought you as a gift!"

"Wow, now I can not touch it at peace!"

"This is my favorite whiskey. I got it as a gift from a good friend in Japan once. It's a light whiskey, with mild dried fruit, a bit spicy, but everything is in balance. I brought a flavor with toffee in it. It's good when you want to relax and not necessarily get drunk, so I thought it would be a good start."

"If this was an advertisement for this product, I would definitely buy it!"

"Oh, thank you! I don't have many opportunities to drink alcohol for fun, so sometimes I just drink something light, mostly with Minho."

"With Lee Know... with Minho. Yes, we know each other!" [ Lee Know, one of BTS' past dancers! ]

"Of course you know him. He was a good dancer, wasn't he?"

"That's right, I remember that. He was really good."

Chichi leans her elbow on the back of the chair.

"So he's even better now!" [ tiger mom attacks! ]

"You're studying."

"Yeah, law. I'll probably be graduating by the time this episode airs."

"Then Chichi from the future, congratulations!" [ lawyer and choreographer! ] "What made you do this? I'm not saying it's bad or super weird, but most idols like to live in the moment. College takes a lot of time, and you didn't seem to have much time with your activities."

"I understand, I had fears too. I didn't think I could do it, but I thought to myself... The future is very fragile and uncertain. I want to be an idol as long as possible and enjoy it as much as possible, but the time will come when I will leave the stage. I want then to know that I still have something to do. It required a lot of self-denial and a lot of sacrifice from me. But I wasn't alone, I had my members."

"Yes, BTS members are also my strength. I understand that perfectly." [ two cats deeply in love with their members ]

"It's often forgotten, but you're the oldest in the group, right?"

"Yeah! I forget that a lot too. I don't feel it at all unless Seungmin painfully reminds me."

"You've lived your whole life in Japan. I also know that you're really popular there."

"Thank you! You're really praising me a lot today, I'll think you want something from me!"

"It's not like that, really! I was just wondering why you didn't decide to pursue a career there."

"Ah, a career in Japan? I don't know, now you've made me think about it... J-pop is a good genre of music, but I feel like it's still more entertainment-oriented, which of course is great! But still, I was more intrigued by the k-pop groups' system. There's a lot more place to display here, more opportunities to create something like a little spectacle every time."

"Speaking of the spectacle, you also have an acting career on your account!"

"I wouldn't call it that!" Chichi immediately waves her hands in embarrassment. "But yes, I'm also interested in acting and I managed to get a role in some interesting productions. I think that playing different roles has always interested me, mostly I showed it on stage. But I'm not thinking about switching to acting completely, it's more my hobby."

"I also looked up some articles on the internet to get a better point of view from ​​your fans. I can say for sure that you have become a great support for them. I don't know how to put it correctly, but according to many, you don't fit the idol stereotype. When people think of an idol, they don't have someone like you in mind."

"Ah yes, I've seen that opinion too. I'm not trying to stand out by force, although most people think that's what I do. Why a male group if I'm a woman? Why did I force myself to go somewhere I didn't belong in? But honestly, I don't care about such opinions. I fell in love with Stray Kids and their music, and music is universal for everyone, I wish everyone would think in those terms, in terms like Does this make me happy? Do I like it? Do I love these people? Do I feel good doing this? Instead of thinking Is this for women? Is this for men? What will other people think? Others will not live your life. They will judge you, give you an opinion and forget about you. You are the person who will be with you all your life, not them. Do everything to make you feel good."

"I know J-HOPE shares your view of the world."

"Yes, I think that's why we immediately understood each other and became friends. Please look forward to our collaboration with DIOR!"

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♡taglist: @g4m3girl , @smh-anon

[lover-of-mine]

This is gonna make my head hurt to defend Taylor Kelly. But here we are with this wedding nonsense or them being even close to it.. Why that is a horrible idea.

Listen Taylor was the only LI I was worried about until that awkward ILY and Lucy. But truly she was a developed character. Buck chased her down to her Dads prison. They were in fact equally to blame for the actions that broke them up. I wanted to punch Buck for the stupidity of inviting her to move in after cheating on her. But let's be real they could have course corrected if they wanted to. Look at Henren... But they didn't want to. But she was the LI that came closest to end game because we saw their angst, their mistakes, their make ups and their mess. Side confession when Eddie was with Anna I was actually happy Buck landed "his whale". I mean I hated it but I was happy for the character that if he couldn't have Eddie he had her. Because yes their chemistry was amazing. Don't get me started on that bathroom sex scene

And that's what this show is about. Messy ass people with hearts of gold.

So why exactly does it make any sense that BT would just be married when they haven't had the angst yet. The tension. TBH I really thought like you he may last till the emd of the first half. But now?? The fourth epsiode even seems to long for the investment. The fandom can not handle 4 weeks because the other side is bat shite crazy.

I'm going to make a confession, think about Buck and Taylor more than I should think about Buck and Taylor, because the thing is, if they wanted to, with where the relationship was at the end of season 4, they could have developed Taylor in a specific way to make her Buck's endame and even after most of 5a, you could still make that relationship end in a wedding (it would probably lead to a messy divorce but I could see 5a Buck riding that relationship all the way down the aisle), like they tried with Taylor in a very specific way, because considering the way she left, 5hey made a point to bring her back while humanizing her as much as they could, so that gave Taylor a different light compared to season 2. And like you said "Buck landing his whale" could work. She was this great multi-season love interest that came back to Buck's life in a moment he needed and we saw the friendship being built, we saw her with the firefam, we saw her support Buck through something that was awful, and then we saw them getting together. At the end of season 4, it made sense if we're never going to get buddie then Taylor is going to go stay and work it out. Because all they had to do to make Bucktaylor work is make Taylor as intense as she is about the job about Buck. If they opened season 5 and Taylor was head over heels in love with Buck, it would work. If she was that intense about him it would be like a decent relationship for him. But the show me the point of not letting them have a chance because they showed us they didn't know how to love each other. But they were trying and Taylor got a lot of development, she got a her own tragic backstory episode, she had beef with the LAPD, she was something, she existed in the plot. And the whole idea that they would just marry Buck on the first episode is madness, it's not like the relationship is anywhere near developed, for all we know they are still taking it slow, so why would they just suddenly get married. That's legit such a weird thing to think all of a sudden.

[dracofeathers]

Thanks for the tag @look-at-you-you-re-gorgeous ~!

Last song:

I've been listening to a lot of Forestella recently, after a friend introduced me to them. Their voices are just...ugh, so amazing. Can't stop listening. Would highly recommend. They're a Korean group but are classically trained and also sing different songs, different languages.

Favorite Color:

Purple. Love purple shades. But I think my fav one is a rich blue violet or royal violet.

Last Book:

Pride and Predjudice. Always was one of my favs, and had been meaning to reread it. Found out a friend had never read it, so I had to correct that immediately of course, and she enjoyed it too. We have a bunch of new inside jokes from it now. And the movie. So good.

Last Movie:

Last movie I saw in theaters was Wicked. Loved that one a lot. I love musicals, and it brought back my love of this one from when I'd seen it years ago on stage. But the most recent movies I've seen, cause I was on a couple long flights and couldn't sleep, were Beetlejuice Beetlejuice (was disappointed), the Dune movies (thought they were interesting and good), and Kung Fu Panda 4. This movie did not need to exist and I strongly dislike it, but won't get into a full on rant here xD

Last TV Show:

Honestly I don't think I've seen anything new since I watched Good Omens, and then Staged. I'm pretty picky about movies and series these days and very little catches my interest anymore. Have thought about going back and picking up shows/movies Michael Sheen and David Tennant star in, minus Doctor Who cause I feel I dont know enough about the show as a whole to enjoy it with all the seasons and lore I'm behind on lol.

And it's not a tv show, but a stage show...also have seen Michael Sheen's Nye play when it was streaming briefly on YT. Now that was spectacular!

Sweet/Spicy/Savory:

Depends on my mood. I love all of them. Hard to beat a sweet/savory combo. With spice though I like it, but I can only handle so much, even if it has amazing flavor. I can only take "it hurts but tastes so good" for so long xD

Last Thing I Searched Online:

Popular music in Turkey/Thailand/Cambodia/Vietnam. Been traveling the last 2 weeks and keep hearing really catchy music playing around in various places I've been so have been curious so see if there's anything I want to add to my weird collection of music. Haven't had much time to myself to actually sit and go through, but I have the tabs open to do so when able.

Current Obsession:

If you haven't already seen the title on my profile, Good Omens. It's been a bit since I've been this into a series. I love it so much. Genuinely think it saved my life after I've been steadily struggling more with what I suspect is depression, but haven't gained the courage to get it confirmed just yet. Atm I'm back in better spirits thanks to the show and fandom. Getting back into drawing and writing because of it too, which is therapy in itself for me, being able to express myself again, successfully. That drive is back.

Though I also enjoy Pokemon, it's not on the same emotional level as GO.

Looking Forward To:

Getting home LOL. Travelling has been fun but I'm ready to go home and recover from all the socializing and such. Get back to my routines and comforts. And my pets.

But also really looking forward to all the bts stuff we might get during the filming of GO's finale. I know I won't be the only one waiting to go feral over dyed hair lmao

As for tagging other people for this, I don't really know many people enough yet on here, or they've already been tagged by others, but I'll start with @captainkitty25 (but no pressure to do it of course lol)

<3

[scentofdriedflowers]

I like the start of the episode but is she gonna go all meredith grey pov thing all the episodes now? it's not bad bad tho just asking

And I knew the possibilities were low but a little hope was still there, instead they really went there and called the baby Nicky uuughh, that baby is adorable, so so cute but a big nope for the name, I feel like they went with their idea and didn't ask Kelli and Peter I fear, she wouldn't have gone there I believe, fuck DG, also who the hell call their kid their ex name?! both of them! Carisi ex was Nicole, Amanda had a fwb situationship with Nick and yeah call him ex is definitely not it lol, but still?? weird af. Carisi has also a cousin called Nikki??! something different maybe?? especially if it stands for Dominick for me, like again? a third? it's so old 'patriarchal' school I don't like it, it's 2024. For me there's no way Amanda and Sonny would have gone for that. This is why I wanted a girl, I feared they were gonna go there and look, they did. Give him is own name. Anywayyyyy baby name rant over, sorry not sorry I needed to get it off my chest. I'm cool now lol.... -ish. Anyway that baby is the cutest tho, he's so them, good choice in casting! let's see how the eyes evolve tho 😂 did they look blue? i don't remember, with both parents with blue eyes he gotta have blue eyes, 1% of mayyybe green but brown? it gotta be very very very rare.

Also tho, why did they cut half the baptism scene and there was NO SIGHT of the girls???! like why the hell do you call them to be there in both scenes, film them and then you cut them out?? also rude? 3 seconds of their back running doesn't count. but oh Noah had to go on a tangent about the baby, at least this time he didn't interrupt the scene. I wanted the girls to talk about their brother, a 'dad' line maybe, a family of 5 little scene at the party. We got more bts than product filmed ffs. At least we got a damn good Rollisi scene😍😍 I missed them soooo much it's been a year without them. To bad they had spoiled all the scene already. I miss them already. One good thing is, if they're going with Rollins-Carisi I love it?! I always prefer when they include both names especially in het relationships, and not making it all about the man, I like 'Rollins', Amanda made her name a good one she fought to be better and defy the legacy of her father name, I would hate to lose it.

Thankfully! Amanda Rollins and the Rollivia scene saved the episode, I absolutely adored LOVED their scene, Amanda first concern: How is Liv 😭😭 and Liv opens up only with her😭, this kind of talk was like their usual talks in her office, when Amanda would knock, come in, ask how she was and the talk would unravel. I missed this. And here as soon as she started talking about the case Amanda went into detective mode, -investigating thinking face activated-! adfghjkljhgfdsfghjk the OUR PERP, Liv face 😂, her 'when are you coming back' face lol. Also 'Don't make me miss you more than I already do' I'm dead! we all thought that!! This is so so telling tho bitch come back soon, Liv misses you, that team definitely misses you and your brain. Too many men, it's not acceptable! and I don't want random rotating female detectives just to fill the spot (they could have kept Churlish tho??), women are not interchangeable thank you, we need Amanda back! the scene says it all, again. Also also also, holy shit Amanda/Kelli she was soooo hot in that scene, like wow. Blouse, pants, hair everything perfect! this was filmed during the 'lil boo thang dance video' right?!😂😂

Also I love the idea that Liv didn't even bat an eye when she goes all 'Carisi told you about the dolls right?' like it's a given that Amanda knows everything about the cases anyway lol. Does Amanda grill her husband when he comes home in the evening?! 😂😂 "Tell me everything about the case, I'm listening (I'm bored I need a challenge)" so if this is what happens there's no way Carisi doesn't know she's bored and miss SVU, come on, like Liv, he knows her the best, he's just waiting for her to come clean I believe, and I get it, maybe she doesn't want to burst the bubble, also with baby number 3 challenge added, and probably the writers want us to see the moment it happens and with this strike it prolonged everything, I will accept the fact that they haven't talk already as long as they really show it tho, because it needs to happens, she wants back! and she's so needed!

watching next week promo tho, Amanda can skip this one, she had already enough danger drama thanks lol

the last but not the least, McGrath gotta go, ASAP, persona non grata, give me back Garland, hell even Dodds was way better. If a character like that doesn't evolve and doesn't learn and doesn't gets better after 3 seasons... he gotta go. Actually he's getting worse.

[beautifulpersonpeach]

another reason i'm happy for chap 2 is bts destroying all the narratives about them and women bpp. in the wild days of ✨discourse ✨ on tumblr, thank you for being the voice of reason. before i'd see people say bts avoids women because of armys, bts never works with women, bts hates women, bts has weird relationship with women, the relationships is weird because of armys. but what happened? rm worked with soyoon and now armys are listening to her music, became her fans, respecting her. jimin danced with women and nobody died. his female dancers are loved in fandom. suga has been working with women for a decade and the fandom never cared. all those bts - women theories and discourses just look so stupid now.

the same with the discourses about bts relating to other idols in hybe and general kpop. before covid bts played with txt and after covid in chap 2, bts returns playing with txt as their idol and comeback activities return to full. like normal like was always expected.

bpp my question is, where did these theories even come from?

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Hi Anon,

It's funny, isn't it? I mean, on one hand there's always a faction of the fandom that believes the members belong to them and cannot date anyone (male or female), just as there is in every other k-pop fandom. But as you said, the talking points in certain k-pop spaces about ARMY's overall response to BTS working with women, being around women, having friendships with women, especially in contrast with how BTS relates to ARMY, has zero basis in reality.

Outside of the usual fandom tone-policing and checking y/n shippers (and taekookers), the whole idea of BTS - women - ARMY as a whole having any sort of weird relationship is a very recent thing too, because this is not a talking point I saw anywhere in the fandom before 2020. Going by some forums I was in at the time, I suspect this particular 'concern' was started by fans of other k-pop groups in 2020 and I'll just leave it at that. Like I vividly recall a Taemin stan telling me without preamble to wake up to the fact BTS is "kept away" from women. With BTS's long history of working with and interacting with women whether or not ARMY was in the picture, none of those theories made any sense to me.

It's such an odd thing to even debate or discuss given everyone can see with their own eyes how that dynamic has played out for the last 10 years. There's no conspiracy or anything to even theorize about, far as I'm concerned, because many of their female friendships and work relationships are well known.

Nobody lost their shit when Ryujin was spending time with BTS, when she filmed the reel with BTS, and afterwards when she talked about working with them. And I can list off 10 other women (at least) who this is true for too.

I hear you too about BTS working with other idols especially within HYBE. It's true that while touring in 2019 BTS was very busy and appeared 'removed' from TXT who where just ramping up, and that since 2015 BTS had focused more on curating their own content/variety shows given they'd been repeatedly disrespected and blackballed by the Korean media establishment. But they still interacted with other idols and after they clarified their plans for Chapter 2, just continued as expected. But somehow, the talking point of BTS feeling 'too proud' to interact with the rest of k-pop (by k-pop stans), that too took on a life of its own, and was made to seem more nefarious than it actually was. I still find a bit amusing tbh.

I think one reason these sorts of theories about BTS and the most innocuous things get obsessed over as fact by k-pop stans, is because for a group like BTS, those people have nothing else to say. There's very little you can actually hold against a group like BTS. And I'm not saying that just because I'm a fan. The fact is with the history most k-pop groups have, very few of them could last anytime at all in BTS's position with the amount of scrutiny on the group.

A second reason is k-pop fans relying on pre-conceived notions about a group they don't like, and then applying the worst examples of issues they've seen in their own or other k-pop fandoms, to BTS and ARMY regardless of whether it applies. For example, VIXX is in the news lately because a member worked with a broker to dodge military service in Korea, but before now that group was notorious for some of the most disturbing kinds of fan-service I've ever seen in k-pop.

Exhibits:

A female fan giving Hakyeon her thong to sign

(A lot of k-pop stans back then and today think this is cute, but imagine for a second if this was a BTS member and ARMY lmao)

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The group members designing thongs and other lingerie for their female fans

(I mean, I can see how this could be a flex but imagine for one sec if this was in BTS's history)

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And there's the group including a BDSM contract for their fans in their album

(Almost 10 years later and I still don't know what to say...)

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Another example is members of Shinee saying point blank they can't talk about their dating life because their fans have told them they don't like it.

I mean, imagine if BTS did any of that today. Heck imagine if they did that years ago. K-pop stans are still making them pay dividends for War of Hormone and mixtape lyrics from 2015, even after a Women Studies professor vets their work, even after HYBE has female CEOs for their sub-labels, and even after on Blind in Korea female workers say HYBE is the best company in the entertainment sector to work for.

A lot of the talking points, criticism, or discourse around BTS sounds bonkers, especially if you know what else is going on in the industry, what other groups are doing or have done with nary a mention from the wider k-pop fandom.

It reminds me of how Jimin was getting flamed for missed insurance payments because someone stole his mail, while during the same day the news broke, Yang Hyun-suk (the guy who manages BlackPink and is debuting Baby Monster this summer) was in court after a former female trainee in his company claimed he threatened to kill her, gave her drugs, and pimped her out. If you took a look at the trending k-pop pages on Twitter or k-forums, you'd think Jimin was the one facing a sentence and not the guy that remains at the helm of YG.

Because as I keep saying, for many k-pop stans, the underlying issues are less important than who those issues are about. Apply the same thinking to the theories you see about BTS and women.

Even in the case of outright dating rumors in the past 10 years, the fandom didn't collectively lose their shit. Jennie's case being the exception because she had the double misfortune of triggering the most unhinged side of the fandom (taekookers) and belonging to a group whose fandom has some of the most extreme rivalries with ARMY, and so many from her fandom worked to disprove it as virulently as taekookers did. I consider Jennie an anomaly for that reason because there have been several examples over the years when nobody cared. For example when the dating rumors of Jimin with Seulgi from Red Velvet happened, the most people did was speculate and move on...

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I've rambled lol, but anyway, what I mean to say is that agree with you Anon.

[taegularities]

Hi lovely Rid 💕💕

I'm coming in with one of my irrelevant and possibly annoying rants™ that I haven't done in a while.

But the part in cmi blooming where Jungkook was talking about how OC isn't even meeting his standards, she's actually building them made me think of my crush and :((

I'm usually so so wary when I talk to guys because in my experience, sooner or later, they always say something that makes me feel weird or uncomfortable, like they start being misogynistic or homophobic, or they start treating me weird. And don't get me started on the toxic masculinity!!!

So when I started talking more to my crush and realising I like him, I thought that the more I got to know him, I would find out something about him that would put me off, like it usually happens. But this man is literally too perfect????

He is so intentional with all of his political and moral views, with the activism he's doing, with the way he's intentionally defying gender norms. If someone says something weird, like sexist or any other kind, he'll be the first to call the person out on it. None of it feels performative either, just really intentional because he realises his privilege and uses it for good. And he's so kind and caring too, listens so well and remembers things about his friend's interests. Like his whole films watchlist is full of his friend's favourite movies and he must have a friend who's an army too because every time we come to that topic he knows so much 🥺🥺 I was nervous about giving him my discord because it's got a jungkook profile pic and everything but he just started asking like isn't he in the military now etc. Literally the biggest green flag of a person.

He's the one currently setting the standard for me! And the problem is that I really don't think he likes me back and now I don't know who else will meet all these standards lmaoo. But when I'm not feeling pessimistic and I look at it from the bright side, he has genuinely restored a little bit of my faith in men (just like bts actually) Because if he exists then surely there are others like him, right 😔

Anyway, this is a bit of an aimless rant, just had to get that off my chest. But of course, cmi Jungkook is the ultimate standard and nobody can surpass him!!

Thank you for listening as always, Rid. Love you 💞💞💞

hi ivi, my sweetheart 🤍

reading smth so wholesome after attending meetings of 4.5h is 🥹 the way you talk about him is so incredibly endearing and made me beaaaaam!! and it fills me with hope once again that such wonderful people do exist. even if you only remain friends, i'm so happy you've found someone who helps you restore faith in humanity. he truly sounds amazing :D and isn't it freaking amazing how knowing the right person makes you realise just what you look for in people? like, having no type but finding a standard in someone amazing is such a grand and irreplaceable compliment. (you should tell him how cool he is 🥺 he'd love that, i bet 🥺)

i was already going to mention it before you said it yourself, but i think he's the ultimate proof that not everything in this world is rotten. i know love doesn't always come easy to us, and somewhere in us, the fear of being disappointed is always present. i guess that's how you know how much you value and cherish your heart and that you won't settle for hurt 🤍 but, while everyone always says this to me, i want to tell you, too, that awesome people come into our lives at just the right moment, and that if things truly do not work out with your crush, there'll be someone one day who'll make you believe in the best in people, too and who'll love you in ways you soooo deserve (although cmon, your crush is tooootally missing out!! 😁). but keep holding onto hope bc love and tenderness do exist and we'll alllll get our very own cmi jk one day for sure, and he'll worship the ground we walk on just as he does with oc 🥺🤍

none of your rants are aimless or irrelevant and least of all annoying. in fact, more!! lol i always miss them when you're away!! i actually apologise for rambling, too like odidgsududh :') love you, ivi, thank you for putting a smile on my face bc this msg was the most wholesome thing ever <3

[joonberriess]

let me tell you.... yk what I can't stand? A fake ass army. So i used to be friends with this girl and we became friends due to BTS so we became really close. A few years later she called herself growing out of them which is fine but she still claimed she loved them. But she would turn around and talk so much shit about them to me who actually was and still is STANNING them like she legit became an anti (toxic asf). it didn't sit right with me so I would distance myself from her or talk about other things and not BTS. So she started stanning other groups on purpose or she would like force herself to like kpop like, girl if you don't like it don't listen to it tf now you pmo. so the other day her GOOFY ass sister had the audacity to post on her story one those instagram sticker things where you can add your story and she had added "whats your favorite bangtan song" when i tell i was so heated. Your sister literally showed her self last year when I posted BTS on my story and she watched it went to her story started sneak dissing about me and BTS and when i called her out she got mad and blocked me and now here you go posting BTS. Ex friend family didn't even like kpop so I'm like why are you her sister who didn't like kpop in general posting BTS (ngl her dad was lowkey xenophobic) and had the nerve to call them Bangtan Boys no to you it's BTS witcho fake self. and the song was Spring Day I was like hell no take my fave song off your story. that song means so much to me and we have fake armys who talk bad about BTS posting it. It's ok to be a casual fan but I just know the bs your sister (my ex friend) has said about them and the stuff ex friend family said so no you don't deserve being an army applications are CLOSED.

that’s weird… suspicious. 🤨 lmao nah but u need to get ur lick back on the other one causeeee my anger issues would never let her slide, shit her sis can catch it too lmaooo

[penroseparticle]

Penrose Song of the Day Day 26: Body Talks by The Struts ft. Kesha

I kept my word, this is pretty upbeat compared to the past sobriquet.

I have favorites. I know I do. I grade people on a curve. If I decide you're one of mine, you're one of mine. And if you're one of mine, you can do a LOT of stuff and I'm still claiming you.

I very nearly put a Kendrick song here (Which one to pick tbh lol. Meet the Grahams was chilling, and Not like US is gonna be a sticky one that one has club potential. It's already being played in clubs actually lmao), but the Drake/Kendrick stuff is kind of heavy and as fun as it is from the sidelines (And remembering the Millie Bobbie Brown stuff makes it easy to feel comfortable picking sides here), it would be a very, VERY difficult thing to conceptualize and write. It would be cheap of me to even delve. But musically, I am in a Hiss/Euphoria/Meet the Grahams headspace.

But it kind of got me thinking about stan culture. About ride or die fans. Maybe yeah of Drake, but then I started thinking about Swifties. About the Army (BTS). etc.

And well, it really is not smart to pretend things about you aren't true. So I gotta admit- I'm ride or die for Kesha.

She could sing the phonebook at me and not only would I thank her, but I wouldn't even bat an eye. I would listen religiously.

Kesha has some... questionable song content, especially back in the Dr. Luke days. Grow A Pair comes to mind as casually, incidentally transphobic and misogynistic. And I don't even care! I mean I do care. But it doesn't stop me from eating up any and all Kesha content that comes my way.

Timber? A song that, while pulsing and driving and acting as good pop music. Is not that deep. And Kesha is best part of that song but it's not a varied performance let's be real. Dirty Love with Iggy Pop? Such a questionable green heart on my spotify. It is not a good song why do I like it?

And the real answer is just the charm that is Kesha.

So it's always a relief to me when Kesha writes an absolute banger, or features on an absolute banger, and I think the song is not just my jam for being a Kesha song, but I think it's also, you know, good.

I have the pleasure of having heard both the version of this song with The Struts only, and the version with Kesha, and I can confidently say that Kesha adds an energy and power to the vocals that helps the song not be washed out by its own instrumentation. The sound mixing is just. Better. The song is fuller, and the vocals are punched up enough that they stand against the instrument backing. And I like what I'm hearing more.

And the song is a bop. It's a banger y'all. It's a fun song about attraction, with nothing more or less behind it. The reason these two are attracted to each other (and again, the song works better as a duet for that reason- the attraction goes both ways) is left up to you, and the idea of being "what they want tonight" isn't weird or gross so much as kind of. Suggestive, flirty? Like a good pickup line. Idk. This song is a song where my "Make song instantly better? Just add Kesha" is on full display.

She's got such a good, growly rasp to her voice that works well with a rock song like this. Kesha is a vocal chameleon to me somehow- I like soulful ballad Kesha, her voice has the character for it and she got them pipes. I like Rock Feature Kesha, she sounds growly and raspy and all that. Pop princess Kesha? She's got the dialect. She grew up swimming in the pop tank with Dr. Fucking Luke looming. She can do pop music in her sleep.

And this is where I stand. I believe any and all songs can be improved by adding Kesha. That's my cross to bear. That's the sin I embody.

Other artists I believe instantly improve any song they're on: Megan Thee Stallion, Beyonce, Maluma, Betty Who, Common, Carly Rae Jepsen, Victoria Monet, and Frank Ocean. They could polish literally any turd and I would stream it.

That said, I'd hardly call this song a turd. This song is just a fun fucking rock romp. This is what flirting with someone good at flirting feels like. Like you're playing jazz via conversation and the person talking to you, not only recognizes the volley, but sends it back in a way that encourages the back and forth. The frisson of attraction makes everything feel electric, like it's purposeful. Like it's meant to be somehow.

I like when a song makes me feel something- sometimes I get really wrapped up in feeling negative. But I have to remember that I like music that makes me feel something good as well. Feeling things reminds me that I'm alive. You could be dead right now. Go listen to something you love.

[namchyoon]

I saw a post about some guy dating his army gf for about a year but he's getting insecure when she talks about bts when she gushes over him or say "shes in love with 7 men" and how much she loves them and he noted how passionately she talked about them etc and how he feels basically like there's always 7 ppl in front of him, and it made me wonder, if your partner felt this way what do you even say to them? honestly, when I say I love these men, I genuinely do, with all my heart. They hold a special place I don't think anyone else can touch. Not in a romantic sense but yeah idk how I'd explain, I never had to tell someone that lol. Curious how would u go about it? (I felt bad but I kinda laughed when he said he felt unloved when she talked about jk 😭😂) I think he needs to understand there's different types of love and it has nothing to do with their romantic relationship

okay so, funny story, i actually did break up w my bf like 5 months after i got into bts 😭 the break up was a long time in the making tbf (like before i got into bts) but he also kept making very insulting comments about them (which was even more weird bc i was very into kdramas before i even met him and he even knew that and went to watch parasite with me in theatres and enjoyed it??? so it was not even like generalized racism (which is common sadly but not w him) it was just specifically bangtan???) and i think bts' love yourself message also helped me a lot in the process but he never actually said you love them more than me or anything 😭 point being, i feel like if my s/o did say smth like that to me i would atp be like you literally knew what you were getting into when you started dating me bc i'm very clear even with all my friends when we become closer being like listen. i love bts and if that's a problem then you need to get over it. like my friends get passionate over their specific interests like sports (which is a lot more than 7 people....) or gaming (which my ex used to do for 10+ hours on weekends instead of hanging out 👍) or whatever so why can't i gush about bts i don't understand? as you said, it's different types of love and as much as i love bangtan, it's not a friendship or a relationship in the these are people i actually know personally way? but obviously i really do love them a lot even if i can't explain it? and like all of my friends have been pretty accepting about it, most of them listen to bts w me if we're just hanging out (some send me album reviews for each new bts album/song that drops that i link them to djfkdkf), one of them even watched the ptd concert w me bc it was while i was in class so i had one earphone in and i've watched vlives with them bc it started while we were eating or smth 😭 i can also tell them in advance that i'm busy on certain dates bc there's a concert/cb and they're like yeah, makes sense so i wouldn't expect any less from a s/o if my friends are so adjusting and don't feel unloved by it? 😭 it's not a daily occurrence and when they DO need me to be there, i will be there regardless of anything else so at the end of the day, i think that's what matters like, as long as she's with him when it's important it shouldn't be a problem i think 😭

[weirdbabe]

Way back, i was one of those who judged kpop and their fans. it was during my elementary years. honestly, i tried to join my friends but i just couldn't understand their 'weirdness', the term i used to label kpop fans.

I remember when i was in fifth grade it was the year EXO rose to popularity. every girl i knew in school were talking about them and fighting over their ultimate bias. i heard Luhan and Baekhyun's name over and over at that time. I even chose Luhan as my bias even if i didn't have any idea abt him including his face. i just wanted to join the trend but then I realized kpop was not for me.

Then, came seventh grade and blackpink rose to popularity. girls in my class were dancing to their music and i just found myself enjoying their music as well. still, i saw the rest of kpop and their fans as 'weirdos'... i just appreciated blackpink and lisa and rosé and jennie and jisoo and Kdramas. That was it.

2017, i watched scarlet heart. loved it but didn't recognize exo's baekhyun. i thought he was just an actor who is cute and funny.

2018, my bff introduced me to exo's kai. she said he was the hottest idol so far in her eyes. i just nodded and agreed with her because that was so true of her.

2019, heard about another exo comeback but didn't mind. i had other things to worry.

2020, the pandemic happened. my aunt watched this drama entitled Memories of Alhambra. EXO's Chanyeol was Shin hye's brother. I honestly went through with the drama because I found chanyeol interstingg. But here is the thing, i had no idea he was an idol and that he was chanyeol. i didn't know he was an exo member—the group that was really famous during my elementary and highschool years. I didn't know. i didn't know that was the day i'd start my exo-l journey.

so, chanyeol. I wanted to see his full face. I was curious because he looked really cute and handsome with glasses and bangs. I just thought he must be really handsome without those bangs and glasses covering his face. as a sucker for handsome men, i did what i do best.

i clicked the google app. searched for 'Memories of Alhambra cast'. Saw CHANYEOL and clicked his profile. I was taken back. literally, taken a back. i clicked on the images. no way, he is indeed good looking for pete's sake. i clicked on his wikipedia photo and it led me to his detailed profile. WAIT? AN EXO MEMBER? ok, interesting... i didn't know they can act.

i don't know why but i just got myself watching videos of chanyeol on youtube. i even followed his instagram account and exo's ig acct as well. i stalked the guy and exo's feed. handsome. they are all handsome. but, chanyeol? he was the apple of my eye.

so, youtube fed me with chanyeol videos. he is a funny and talented guy. but what made me like him the most was the fact that he can play instruments. i appreciated the piano because of him and up until now i still do (literally made me a yiruma fan and made me bought a piano).

so from chanyeol videos, i don't know but i eventually found myself watching exo videos. yn the yt algorithm.

now, exo. i loved their dynamics. there is something abt their relationship that is very true and pure. something unexplainable. something that is only between them. and i liked that.

i just slowly learned to love the boys. they helped me laugh when the pandemic made me sad. they made things bearable for me. so bearable that if it weren't for them i guess i would have never made it through my bad days. really bad ones.

however, i was still the same fifth grader who judged kpop music unless it was blackpinks music and bts' dynamite and butter. i never dared to listen to exo's music aside from their love shot song, the hottest ever.

but things happen. the stars connected me to their music. i was watching exo videos on yt while washing the dishes. the video was over and it played exo's love shot stage on music bank(?). i couldn't stop it from playing because my hands were full. i was glad that happened... dude?!! that stage was crazy. kai was crazy. everyone was. their vocals?? oh god. chen's high note? i was hooked.

that stage was what i replayed for days. then i decided to listen to tempo with my earphones. GUESS WHAT? I FELL INLOVE. harmonization. vocals. god what did i just hear?? they can sing SING.

and that was it. i got hooked to their music (title tracks atm). i watched reaction videos and saw that i was really right abt their great vocals.

then this guy. there is this guy. i kept on noticing him. not only bcoz of his looks but because of his voice. he was doh kyungsoo. there was something abt him that is attractive that he does not force and that was how chanyeol bid goodbye as my ultimate bias. 😭🫶

i became a kyungsoo fan thru yt videos. from his song covers up to his films. in fact, 100 days my prince was the least expected drama i thought i would watch. it was crazy good and funny. he was just built different. a really great one indeed.

july 2021, i discovered stan twtr. i had always been a youtube-l. i regretted being late because i never had the chance to join kyungsoo's vlive after his discharge from the military. but still i was ok since july was the month the exo's decided to drop dftf. I JOINED THE HYPE AND I WAS SO EXCITED. i became their fan evenmore but i didn't label myself as an exo-l yet because i didn't know we were called that HAHAHAHA

since then, i was there. from dftf to kyungsoo's first album, kai's peaches, suho's grey suit, xiumin's brand new, kai's rover, to all the activities of the members. my day was not complete if i missed a single update.

i was there when the members started to come back from the military. i was there during their sm concert. i was there during their group performances. i was there but only online HAHAHAHA

and now, issues... i was trained by senior-ls already and so it is not surprising. I JUST WANT TO END THIS ALREADY KAY GRABE ONE BOOK SIGURO IF MAGPADAYON PAKO AHHAHAHAHA BASTA I LOVE EXO SO MUCH, NO ONE CAN BEAT THEM

yes, i have been a fan of exo for 3 years now and i have never been this invested to a kpop group. they were not the ones who introduced me to kpop but they are the reason why i stayed.

i treat them as my soulmates... i met them at the right time... i cannot imagine leaving... i will always stand by their side no matter what happens eyyyyy

[your-local-whisp]

Ok I know I broke my little resolution already but I don’t care.

Anyways straight into the news. My brother is a very typical 13 year old i feel. He acts a lot younger than his age which is a bit worrying but I’m told that normal. For a while after I came out to him about being Gay and Nonbinary he started having these little moments of wanting to do things like painting his nails or getting his ears pierced or expanding his fashion taste and wardrobe. I’ve been encouraging that by letting him shop for earrings he might like or nail polish in colors that he likes. He’s told me many times that boys at his school also paint their nails and pierce their ears so he doesn’t think it’s that weird. However every time I encourage things like that my mother pulls me aside and tells me not to push my ideas on him. It’s been a thing she does ever since I came out. In fact when I did come out to her the first time about my sexuality she yelled at me saying I’m only like this because of the music I listen to and the shows I watch(I was 13 and listening to BTS)and about a year later when I came out as Nonbinary she told me not to tell my little brother about anything regarding the LGBTQ+ community because she doesn’t want him to think about things like that or get confused with himself.

Honestly every time I try to encourage him to express himself she’s always right there breathing down his neck talking about how “Oh no that’s for girls not boys” or something stupid like that. Just recently we went shopping for nail polish, because I wanted to get a green one to pair with my black nail polish, and while I’m looking my brother tells me he wants to get one as well. He looks through the brand my grandmother recommended and picked out a baby blue and orange polish. When we told our mother we were ready to go she looked at him and told him he can’t get nail polish because it’s for girls. I try to get the colors for him but she tells me I could only get two. So me being the nice older sibling I am drop a hair brush I needed, -well wanted, so I could get the three nail polishes. And today we were gonna paint his nails in the colors HE chose and before the pinky finger could even dry my mother got up and told him he needed to finish his homework. But the way she looked at me as if I was doing something wrong just hurt. My brother ended up removing the nail polish and going inside to finish his work.

I feel like my brother despite wanting to do these things still feels kind of embarrassed or unsure about them. he always dips his toe in but never fully submerges himself. And my mother isn’t much help at all. She always says she’ll support me in everything I do but I feel she only says that because she thinks it’s “too late” for me to become straight again and so she tries her best to keep my brother the way he is. Or maybe I’m just tired and need to drink some water.’

Anyways that was a lot. I don’t really have anything else to say other than my brother still isn’t done with his homework and now my mother is even more upset. Which me luck cause she’s about to go deal with the terrible doctors at this clinic, so she may be even more upset when she gets back.

Bye Bye!