#and even with bts she was weird about them when i started listening to them in 2018 but then her other friends got her into them after

[blueside-hobi]

I would have reacted that way too if my friend did that to me like I would feel like such an afterthought :( U better still go on your own and have fun don’t even think about them!!!! ❤️❤️

I would feel awful if I went on my own though because Yoongi is her bias and I would just be thinking about wanting her to be there. But it's probably a better idea than going with them because I'll just be a third wheel. I guess I have a couple weeks to figure out what I'm doing, assuming that either of us get presale.

[stormblessed95]

Hello💜

Just doing this quick and fast for anyone who doesn't know me, is new here, or just forgot who I was when I disappeared for a while.

Hi! My name is Storm (obviously not really but it's what everyone calls me here, or variations of it). My pronouns are she/her. I'm bi, married and have kids. I work in the mass communication and education fields, for now. I LOVE to read, write, and listen to music.

I've been ARMY since the beginning of 2020. I found BTS basically by accident. My music and dance loving baby was losing it and my husband said oh wait "there is this group out there who does amazing choreo to their songs" and put on the fire dance practice. And I, too, LOVED it. MOTS7 was my first comeback so it holds a very special place in my heart. And boy did BTS and learning about them save my sanity during the pandemic.

I am Yoongi and Jimin biased. Jungkook is my main bias wrecker, Hobi a very close second. You may call me a yoonminkooker if you want. I am not a shipper, but I do exist and operate this blog in shipper spaces. I do think there is a high chance that Jimin and JK have *something* going on that's more than just friendship. I don't care if I'm wrong though. I do know for a fact that they are the bestest of friends and nothing will ever change that. I also believe that yoonminkook are all very likely queer in some sense of the word. That has nothing to do with their relationship status and is just how I see things.

On this blog, I stress facts and original content first. Anything that isn't straight from original content though is solely my opinion. Nothing more, nothing less. Everyone is always free to agree or disagree with me as they please. I am not here for followers, the numbers don't matter to me. I started this blog for me and because a friend and a few others were encouraging me to share my thoughts over larger topics and I write essays. If you follow me or not is totally your choice, but my content will be whatever it is going to be. That's never going to change. I'm always happy to talk with people though, even through disagreements on opinions. As long as there is respect, I'm always more than happy to agree to disagree.

I love and adore all BTS members. I am OT7 through and that will never change. I love all 7 members, and I love them in every single duo/trio/grouping combination. And I will never tolerate any hate or slander towards any of them on my blog.

And finally, my post masterlist is here, if you haven't seen it yet, please check it out. Thank you!

Hopefully that's a sufficient introduction 😂 felt weird to have to do. I am not this important lol. If you guys have any questions or have anything you want to share, feel free to ask 💜

[btsficsandsuch]

Hello! Can I pls request headcanons for BTS members falling in love with a female reader, they are not close friends but have mutual friend (like, she is a friend of a friend of theirs, and because they are not close, the members are insecure about confessing their feelings) And when they introduced her to their band mates, one of them also starts crushing on her and they get jealous? Thank you ❤️

Hope you like it!!

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Jin:

- [ ] It takes a few times of meeting for him to start crushing on you.

- [ ] Wants to be respectful and not make you uncomfortable by confessing when you’re just a friend of a friend.

- [ ] Decides to invite you over for dinner and to get know you better.

- [ ] After he introduces you to everyone he heads back into the kitchen to finish up the dinner while you sit and talk to Namjoon.

- [ ] He hears someone entering the kitchen assuming it was you, he’s surprised when he sees Jimin standing there.

- [ ] “Hyung, you didn’t tell us that Y/N was so pretty. I think I’m going to ask for her number.”

- [ ] Jin immediately turns off the stove and walks into the living room grabbing your had and dragging you outside.

- [ ] “Y/N, I don’t want this to come off as weird but I really like you. It’s okay if you don’t feel the same but I want you to know that.”

- [ ] You couldn’t hide your smile, “I’m glad you said something Jin. I didn’t want to make things weird.”

Yoongi:

- [ ] It takes a while for his crush on you to start. He doesn’t want to get hurt so he doesn’t always allow feelings to form.

- [ ] He doesn’t even realize it at first. Then one day you complimented his new hair color and he felt a tingly sensation in his chest. At first he thought it was just heartburn from the spicy ramen he had at lunch.

- [ ] But then he couldn’t stop thinking about you. He even found himself asking your mutual friend if you were invited to different events he was attending.

- [ ] He wouldn’t even think of confessing though. He doesn’t want it to be weird since he’s just a friend of a friend.

- [ ] So he decides to invite you to his studio to listen to some new music he’s working on. Hoping the two of you could get closer over time. Hoseok walks in and Yoongi introduces the two of you.

- [ ] Your phone starts ringing and not wanting to be rude you excuse yourself and step into the hallway.

- [ ] “Wow Hyung, she’s pretty. Is she single?”, Hoseok asks.

- [ ] Yoongi is instantly filled with jealousy. A feeling he’s not used to. No way is he going to let Hoseok ask you out minutes after meeting when he hasn’t been able to do it in months.

- [ ] He walks past Hoseok ignoring his question to go find you leaning up against the wall outside his studio.

- [ ] “Listen Y/N, I know we don’t know each other that well but I really like you and I’d love to get to know you on a deeper level. Maybe we could go get dinner sometime. Just the two of us.”

- [ ] His heart feels like it’s going to explode as he watches you smile, “I thought you’d never ask.”

Hoseok:

- [ ] Slowly develops a crush over time.

- [ ] Too shy to say anything since the two of you are barely acquaintances at this point.

- [ ] When he hears you talking about wanting to improve your dance skills he immediately volunteers his time.

- [ ] One evening he had you in the practice room going over a routine when Taehyung walks in.

- [ ] He introduces the two of you to each other before giving Taehyung the answer he’s looking for, hoping that it will end this little meeting.

- [ ] What he doesn’t expect is to hear Taehyung straight out ask you for your phone number and panic sets in.

- [ ] “Y/N, we really need to get back to this routine. I just thought of a new move we could add in.”

- [ ] He watches Taehyung bid you goodbye and walk out the door.

- [ ] “Are you going to call him?”, he asks. “I don’t really know. He seems nice.”, you respond.

- [ ] “Okay listen Y/N, I really like you. Like a lot. And I don’t want to loose the opportunity to Taehyung. I understand if you’d rather go out with him but I’d really like the chance to take you out instead.”

- [ ] “Hobi you’re rambling. If you’d give me the chance I’d tell you that I like you too.”

- [ ] He lets out a breath he didn’t know he was holding and turns to shy giggle.

Namjoon:

- [ ] It takes time of him to realize his feelings for you.

- [ ] Once he does he becomes a clumsy mess which only makes it worse.

- [ ] He doesn’t want to weird you out by confessing since you’re just a friend of a friend.

- [ ] Invites you to go to a museum with him.

- [ ] Afterwords he takes you to his favorite cafe.

- [ ] While there you run into Jin. Namjoon introduces the two of you. He doesn’t like how long Jin stares at you but decides to ignore it.

- [ ] After Jin leaves he returns his attention to you. Then he feels his phone going off and sees a text from Jin.

- [ ] “Hey Namjoon, how do you know Y/N? Is she single by chance? Maybe pass along my number ;)”

- [ ] Namjoon scoffs and puts his phone back in his pocket. He looks up at you and notices just how beautiful your eyes are and knows he’s in deep and is worried that Jin’s new interest in you will derail everything.

- [ ] He takes a deep breath before reaching out to take your hand, “Y/N, I really like you and I hope it’s not weird but I’d like to take you on an official date. That is if you’d like to go with me.”

- [ ] Even biting your lip doesn’t stop the smile from forming on your lips as you nod your head yes.

- [ ] Namjoon is full dimples on display and doesn’t feel bad at all for ignoring Jin’s text, okay maybe a little bit but it was worth it.

Jimin:

- [ ] Immediately crushing on you. No questions about it.

- [ ] Is nervous to say anything since you’re just a friend of a friend and not even that close.

- [ ] One night at a party he sees you dancing and can’t take his eyes off of how beautiful you look.

- [ ] You make your way over to him and grab his hand to twirl yourself around making him shyly giggle at your cuteness.

- [ ] He completely forgot about Jungkook standing next to him until he hears him speak, “Introduce me to your friend Hyung.”

- [ ] Jimin rolls his eyes, “Jungkook this is Y/N, Y/N, this is Jungkook.

- [ ] “Would you like a drink? Let me go get you a drink.”, Jungkook speaks.

- [ ] Jimin feels rage as he watches Jungkook eye you up and down before walking towards the bar.

- [ ] Jimin grabs your hand and pulls you onto the balcony to get some privacy.

- [ ] “Y/N I know we’ve only met each other a few times but I can’t deny there’s something between us. I really like you and I’d love to take you out some time.”

- [ ] He smirks when you lean in and kiss his lips.

Taehyung:

- [ ] Another member of the instant crush club.

- [ ] Also doesn’t care if you think it’s weird or not but is still shy about telling you.

- [ ] You’re backstage at their concert with your mutual friends when he introduces you to the rest of the group.

- [ ] He notices the way Namjoon eyes you. He tries to ignore it but then he sees Namjoon walk over to you and asks you if you’ll wait for him after the show. What makes it worse is the blush that forms on your cheeks and he looses it.

- [ ] Confidently he walks over to you and steps in front of Namjoon. “Y/N can I talk to you? In private please.”

- [ ] He has no idea where this confidence is coming from but he knows he has to put it to good use.

- [ ] Once in a private room he shuts the door behind him.

- [ ] “Y/N, I know we hardly know each other but I really like you. I liked you since the minute I met you. Will you go out with me?”

- [ ] You’re taken back by his bluntness but you also appreciate it. “I’d love to Tae.”

- [ ] Feeling relieved he opens the door and walks you back out. “You’ll be waiting for me after the show right?”, he asks. “Of course!”, you respond not noticing Namjoon standing off to the side taking this all in.

Jungkook:

- [ ] Crushes right away but it takes a while for him to realize that it is a crush.

- [ ] Is too afraid to say anything. Doesn’t want to scare you away by making it seem like he was stalking you.

- [ ] Invites you over to play video games hoping to get closer to you by doing something he’s comfortable with.

- [ ] The two of you just finished another round of Mario Kart when Yoongi walks in. “Jungkook, please don’t leave your sweatshirts all over. I’m not your maid.”, he says before throwing a black sweatshirt on the bed.

- [ ] He turns to leave but you catch his attention. “Hi, nice to meet you. I’m Yoongi.”, he says taking a seat next to you “Y/N”, you say shaking his hand.

- [ ] Jungkook knows that look in his Hyung’s eye. It’s clear that Yoongi is interested in you.

- [ ] He sits there and listens to Yoongi flirt with you until he just can’t take it any more and storms out of the room.

- [ ] A few minutes later you find Jungkook sulking in the kitchen with a glass of water.

- [ ] “Hey why did you leave? I thought we were playing best two out of three?”, you asked.

- [ ] He scoffs, “Why don’t you play with Yoongi? The two of you really seemed to hit it off.

- [ ] You rolled your eyes, “You’re right. He did mention something about a game we could play in his bedroom but something tells me we won’t be playing video games.”

- [ ] You turned to leave but Jungkook immediately ran in front of you preventing you from going any further.

- [ ] “Please don’t Y/N. I’m sorry I ran away but I didn’t like seeing him flirt with you. The truth is I like you a lot and I’d like to see if there could be something between us.”

- [ ] Getting the reaction you expected you smiled and grabbed his hand, “Of course there’s something between us. I feel it too. Now let’s get back to the game. Next winner buys dinner!”

[mintchocolove]

°▪︎☆First-time meeting

You met them all in a unique way,like destiny had everything ready for you.

Pairing: OT7 x f!reader

Instead of yn I'm going to use Eunjin as the readers name, sorry if it's uncomfortable. I'll take recommendations. English is not my first language so please be kind.

♡ Lee Heeseung - Practice room

Before I-Land, new trainee, 2019

To be fair, Heeseung didn't even want to be there. He had been dancing earlier and still had some things to do, but he just couldn't think straight. He was upset; earlier, he listened to other trainees talk about him and laugh at him. He didn't get it—they all acted like he was some kind of genius, yet still joked about him not being able to debut.

So there he was, walking into the building to practice. Maybe that way he could stop thinking about other things and eventually start his homework, he couldn't let his grades fall. He walked to his favorite practice room, A-16. No one ever went there knowing he’d probably be there, so it was definitely a surprise when he heard music coming from the room. He opened the door, and the music became clearer. "Danger" by BTS was playing as someone danced in front of the mirror with perfect movements. Someone Heeseung had never seen before was there, wearing a blue shirt and bright orange pants. Huh, funny choice of clothes he thought to himself as he got a little closer to the center of the room.

Then the person in front of him had suddenly stopped while walking to the music player, cutting off the music letting out an exasperated grunt.

"AHHHHH, I will never get this fucking part!"

He wouldn't lie; he laughed a little. It was interesting to see someone that looked as frustrated as himself. That was when the new trainee finally looked at him, eyes widening while quickly picking up the things on the floor just to out of the room like he was the plague, mumbling something that sounded like a sorry.

"Wait!..." But you were already gone, that made Heeseung smiled to himself; at least his mind had been distracted a little.

♤ Park Jonseong - Family party

Before I-Land, cousin's best friend, 2018

Jay yawned while looking around; the wedding party hadn't started yet, the newlyweds were not even in the venue at the moment, and he wasn't sure why his parents had decided to arrive early. The place was cute though, it was a big house that the couple had reserved especially for the day, it had a beautiful entrance, a big garden, and a beautiful lake to take photos in. All his family was there too, after all, the first grandkid was getting married, it was a big deal indeed.

He looked over to the garden, full of flowers he couldn't get too close to, but the view was pretty enough.

"Spring is a good season to get married" the words came out in a whisper, but his mother had smiled at him while she nodded. One of her hands flew towards his shirt to fix it a little before answering with a calm tone, "It is indeed"

Then he saw something that caught his attention, his cousin Soyeon -only two years younger- was dragging another girl towards the table while she had a big smile on her face. "Mom! Eunjin is there" his aunt had gotten up, saying hi to the girl that seemed a little nervous with all the eyes on her.

"Thanks for inviting me, Mrs. Park" Her voice was sweet, and could've sworn he had heard it before, he just couldn't remember when. Then they both of them locked eyes, staring at each other only for a brief moment before Soyeon spoke again, still bubbly while she held the other girl's hand in her own. "Ah! Eunjin, this is my cousin Jay, he also goes to your school"

The girl had just nodded before turning to Soyeon to continue talking as if nothing had happened. Weird, but he soon got distracted, and without even noticing, he forgot they even saw each other.

◇ Sim Jaeyun - Airplane to Korea

Before I-Land, next to me, 2019

Jake had to be honest with himself at the moment, he was fucking scared of all this. This will be the first time he took a flight alone, even if it wasn't that long. And it probably decided his future so yeah, blame him for being scared all you want.

As he texted a quick message to his mom telling her that he was going to turn off his phone he saw someone sitting next to him. The person had a big black hoodie on but he could see they weren't tall, probably someone his age.

"Hi, if you need me to move just tell me" He felt his voice crack at the last part and he thought that maybe throwing himself off the plane wasn't a bad idea. However he wasn't prepared for the little laugh while the person next to him nodded. He finally could see it was a girl.

"thanks, not everyone is that kind" The girl smiled at him and then her eyes looked down to her hands before offering him one "I'm Eunjin" He took the hand and smiled.

"I'm Jake" They talked for a little while, happy to be sitting next to someone their age, that's how they ended up knowing they were both flying to Korea for an audition. At the end, even if they talked for a while, both fell asleep after eating some snacks.

When the airplane finally arrived in Korea both of them continued talking as they walked out. It wasn't until they had already walked for some minutes that they realized that they'll have to say goodbye. "Um, so I have to go that way" He nodded while smiling "I'm going the other way, see you Eunjin"

The girl smiled at him one last time before they parted ways, it had been just a few minutes when he realized he could've asked for your number. Well, I hope we meet again sometime

♧ Park Sunghoon - Ice rink

Before I-Land, Gold medal, 2015

Finally his turn was over, he could feel the adrenaline dripping out of him, he was tired, his feet screaming for a rest as he slowly made his way towards the entrance of the rink. His mother was standing there, with a big smile on her lips while she offered him a bottle of water.

"you did good Sunghoon" he nodded while walking towards his seat and drinking water "the next presentation is Sam Eunjin, she's your age" To be honest he didn't remember anyone with that name so he just looked to the rink.

The figure in the center was wearing red and gold clothes, a tense posture as someone said her name, age and song. Then the song began, a calm yet strong melody that went well with the choreography that was being performed before his eyes.

"wow, she's good right?" The voice of his coach pulled him out of his dazed state, the air he didn't know he was containing coming out of his mouth "yeah, it's good"

"I heard her mother say that she'll probably retire next year" He looked at his mom with wide eyes, not believing what she just said "She wants to be an actress"

If his curiosity wasn't big before, now it was. His eyes darted back to the girl dancing, perfect movements until the end of her routine. Then just as she started skating towards the entrance he felt his chest tightening, he wasn't good with girls so this was his cue to run away. "I'll go to the bathroom"

He vaguely remembers listening to his mom congratulate the girl as he walked away. He remembers watching as she received her gold medal with a smile on her face.

☆ Kim Sunoo - Ice cream shop

Before I-Land, Mint Choco, 2020

Sunoo was tired, school had been awful today and to be honest he really needed an ice cream. It didn't matter that it was January and he was freezing, he really needed something cold to calm his nervousness. He walked for a few minutes before he reached his favorite ice cream shop.

It was a small place that an old couple had and to be honest he liked that it was alone most of the time. He walked inside while looking at his phone and biting his lips, mentally telling himself to stop doing that.

"Ah Eunjin, you're lucky" He looked up from his phone watching a girl in a school uniform paying for an ice cream. The yellow backpack at her feet too big to be real. "That was the last mint chocolate ice cream"

His eyes open wide while he walks fast to reach the counter, receiving a curious look from the girl next to him. "Is that really the last one?" He doesn't even know who he is asking at this point, his voice dripping hope

"Yeah, it was the last one" The voice of the girl sounds surprised while she talks, probably because he approached out of nowhere "Oh" His voice sounds disappointed so he smiles a little while looking at the other flavors, none of them catching his attention

He's about to leave when a hand on his sleeve stops him "You can have it, the ice cream I mean" the girl gives him a smile while holding out the little cone towards him "I'll pick another flavor"

The words can't even leave his lips as the girl makes him hold the ice cream as she orders something new. When she has her new ice cream she smiles at him and walks towards the door of the store "Eat it, you seem to like it more than I do"

♡ Yang Jungwon - Park

Before I-Land, Sorry, 2019

Jungwon can feel himself falling to the floor before his brain even registers what just happened, he lets his hand fly towards his head as he looks around. It's just then that he notices the skateboard at his feet, the one that made him fall.

"Sorry!!" A small voice screams while a little kid approaches him, he looks scared as he stares at Jungwon probably not knowing what to do "It's fine, I'm not hurt" He smiles but the kid looks even more distressed than before, frantically looking around

"My sister should be around here, please follow me" He probably should tell him that it doesn't matter, he didn't get hurt and he was distracted after all but the kid looks one minute away to start crying so he follows with a smile

They reach one of the benches at the park when the kid starts talking again, his voice concerned as he drags Jungwon "Eunjin, I made someone fall, please take a look" The girl in front of them looks up from her book with her eyebrows knit together before letting out a sigh "Minhyuk, I told you to be careful"

Then she stands up and looks at him with a smile that looks a lot like the ones his mom makes when she doesn't know what else to say "Sorry, my brother is learning and is a bit clumsy" The kid next to them nods while the girl extends her hand with her phone held out "Please put your number here, if you feel bad call me and we'll pay for the doctor"

"It's fine, I'm not injured" Even if he says that he does put his number and smiles before giving it back to the girl, he then turns to the kid and smiles a little "Be more careful kid, bye"

♤ Nishimura Riki - Convenience store

Before I-Land, I'll help, 2020

The convenience store is not as busy as he thought it would be, probably because it's already late and the part of the city where he's staying is not that busy.

He knows the manager that they send with him is somewhere in the store, so he could probably go and ask him to read and explain the things that he doesn't understand but he's just too shy to ask something like Hey which one is the least spicy?

Probably he looks funny staring at the different packages of noodles in front of him, like trying to understand out of nowhere, he feels someone stand a few feet away from him, in the Japanese section of the store. He looks trying not to seem suspicious, a girl is holding two packages of candy while chewing on her lips. "What does this even mean?"

He knows he shouldn't listen to other people, it's disrespectful but to be honest he also needs help with this. "I uh, I speak Japanese" The girl practically jumps in her place while looking at him and then at the candy in her hands before extending it towards him "Do these have almonds? I'm allergic" He takes a quick glance before shaking his head "They don't"

" Thanks! You saved me" She smiles while turning around before she stops and looks at him "I'll help you too stranger, you seem lost" He laughs looking at the noodles in front of him "I don't want something spicy"

She nodded before looking at the packages, picking one after some seconds, offering it to him before smiling "This should be good, I'm Eunjin by the way" He also smiles "Ni-ki" A phone rings and the girl takes it out and turns around "See you around Ni-ki, thanks again!"

[notyouraryang0dd3ss]

That time period where Taylor was on tumblr "lurking" and following only the most dedicated fans was super weird. That and the invites to her house for listening parties definitely fueled the parasocial shit show. I do hope that it was some intern behind all the tumblr stuff, though. If it wasn't', that means an ego maniac was scrolling through her own tag giving out gold stars for loving her enough. Everything about that is creepy as hell.

honestly even though kpop groups (this is who i credit, if you know any other celebs who did it earlier please lmk!!!!!!!) started the trend of parasocial relationships (see BTS and their vlogs and how their fans feel like they know them + RPF) taylor swift really perfected it and made it into an art.

i think it was her ability to make her fans feel like they were her friends and having her invite them over to her house (very personal thing to do especially as a celebrity) that encouraged them to latch onto her. also genius move because she had fans that could testify to her being a good person if a swiftie showed skepticism or legit critical thinking skills when it came to her behavior.

it was definitely an intern tho because i doubt she’s actually a millennial and talks like *that* in her social media posts (its very gen z or someone just very well versed in the internet). have you seen a millennial online? they type like they’re HR 24/7.

BUT if she was a crazy enough weirdo to actually be the one to scroll through her tag…well…someone is deeply self obsessed and insecure

[chiskz]

▶️ [슈취타] EP.5 SUGA with CHICHI

♡ 일본의 위대한 사랑의 함정에 빠졌다! / 게으른 고양이 vs 작은 호랑이 ! ♡ caught in the trap of Japan's great love! / lazy cat vs small tiger!

-> Suchwita (슈취타) is a variety web series starring SUGA (BTS). The series features him chatting with guests while enjoying alcohol.

《♡》 Chichi's SUCHWITA Profile:

Name: CHICHI

choreographer, main dancer and oldest member of Stray Kids

"Who wouldn't take the opportunity to get drunk for free in good company?"

♡ A charming choreographer straight from Japan. ♡ Don't be fooled by her deep voice and muscles!

《♡》 [ xxxx ] - editors' note

Chichi enters the room bowing to the staff. She stops in front of Yoongi.

"Ah, should I bow? Or shall we shake hands?"

"Ah, no, no, I should... I should... should I?" They both laugh and bow their heads briefly.

"Of course, I didn't come empty-handed!" She bows with her head a second time, handing Yoongi the pink box.

"Pink, I could have expected that!" He laughs and opens it carefully to reveal the contents - a bottle of Hibiki (name is censored) Whiskey. "You really want to get drunk tonight!"

"I rarely get the chance!" She laughs loudly and they finally sit down. "And it's actually a collector's edition, you can't drink it!" [ whiskey, not for consumption! don't touch, just look! ]

"We've met before, so you seem relaxed!" [ big meeting of two introverts! ]

"Yes, that's true. But we shouldn't talk about the circumstances of our first meeting."

"That's right... we really should take this to the grave." [ great mystery shrouded in an even greater mystery??? ]

"Should we get rid of the honorifics on this occasion?"

"Did we ever use them at all?"

Yoongi looks straight at the camera as Chichi laughs in the background. [ SUGA's thoughts: she keeps exposing us ]

"This is my second tiger visitor in such a short time." [ first was HOSHI! ]

"Yeah, but Hoshi and I are different tigers. He's... a real tiger and I'm just... a big cat?"

"No, I wouldn't say that. I've watched a lot of your shows, a few before you came here. You're both wild on stage, but you seem really dangerous. You are a tiger."

Chichi covers her mouth with her hands, editors draw her blushes. [ is that the dangerous tiger??? ]

"I also listened to your solo digital album, Member Branding. Your voice is as impressive as they say."

"Aren't you praising me too much?" Chichi laughs, trying to hide her embarrassment. "But wow, you really did some research."

"Of course, who do you think I am?"

"A lazy cat?" [ CHICHI, straight to the point! ]

"So quests bring the drinks?"

Yoongi blinks in surprise.

"She really wants to drink now!"

Chichi laughs and pulls out the second bottle of whiskey today, Hibiki Whiskey - "regular" edition.

"For you, so you're not sorry you can't drink the one I bought you as a gift!"

"Wow, now I can not touch it at peace!"

"This is my favorite whiskey. I got it as a gift from a good friend in Japan once. It's a light whiskey, with mild dried fruit, a bit spicy, but everything is in balance. I brought a flavor with toffee in it. It's good when you want to relax and not necessarily get drunk, so I thought it would be a good start."

"If this was an advertisement for this product, I would definitely buy it!"

"Oh, thank you! I don't have many opportunities to drink alcohol for fun, so sometimes I just drink something light, mostly with Minho."

"With Lee Know... with Minho. Yes, we know each other!" [ Lee Know, one of BTS' past dancers! ]

"Of course you know him. He was a good dancer, wasn't he?"

"That's right, I remember that. He was really good."

Chichi leans her elbow on the back of the chair.

"So he's even better now!" [ tiger mom attacks! ]

"You're studying."

"Yeah, law. I'll probably be graduating by the time this episode airs."

"Then Chichi from the future, congratulations!" [ lawyer and choreographer! ] "What made you do this? I'm not saying it's bad or super weird, but most idols like to live in the moment. College takes a lot of time, and you didn't seem to have much time with your activities."

"I understand, I had fears too. I didn't think I could do it, but I thought to myself... The future is very fragile and uncertain. I want to be an idol as long as possible and enjoy it as much as possible, but the time will come when I will leave the stage. I want then to know that I still have something to do. It required a lot of self-denial and a lot of sacrifice from me. But I wasn't alone, I had my members."

"Yes, BTS members are also my strength. I understand that perfectly." [ two cats deeply in love with their members ]

"It's often forgotten, but you're the oldest in the group, right?"

"Yeah! I forget that a lot too. I don't feel it at all unless Seungmin painfully reminds me."

"You've lived your whole life in Japan. I also know that you're really popular there."

"Thank you! You're really praising me a lot today, I'll think you want something from me!"

"It's not like that, really! I was just wondering why you didn't decide to pursue a career there."

"Ah, a career in Japan? I don't know, now you've made me think about it... J-pop is a good genre of music, but I feel like it's still more entertainment-oriented, which of course is great! But still, I was more intrigued by the k-pop groups' system. There's a lot more place to display here, more opportunities to create something like a little spectacle every time."

"Speaking of the spectacle, you also have an acting career on your account!"

"I wouldn't call it that!" Chichi immediately waves her hands in embarrassment. "But yes, I'm also interested in acting and I managed to get a role in some interesting productions. I think that playing different roles has always interested me, mostly I showed it on stage. But I'm not thinking about switching to acting completely, it's more my hobby."

"I also looked up some articles on the internet to get a better point of view from ​​your fans. I can say for sure that you have become a great support for them. I don't know how to put it correctly, but according to many, you don't fit the idol stereotype. When people think of an idol, they don't have someone like you in mind."

"Ah yes, I've seen that opinion too. I'm not trying to stand out by force, although most people think that's what I do. Why a male group if I'm a woman? Why did I force myself to go somewhere I didn't belong in? But honestly, I don't care about such opinions. I fell in love with Stray Kids and their music, and music is universal for everyone, I wish everyone would think in those terms, in terms like Does this make me happy? Do I like it? Do I love these people? Do I feel good doing this? Instead of thinking Is this for women? Is this for men? What will other people think? Others will not live your life. They will judge you, give you an opinion and forget about you. You are the person who will be with you all your life, not them. Do everything to make you feel good."

"I know J-HOPE shares your view of the world."

"Yes, I think that's why we immediately understood each other and became friends. Please look forward to our collaboration with DIOR!"

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♡taglist: @g4m3girl , @smh-anon

[lover-of-mine]

This is gonna make my head hurt to defend Taylor Kelly. But here we are with this wedding nonsense or them being even close to it.. Why that is a horrible idea.

Listen Taylor was the only LI I was worried about until that awkward ILY and Lucy. But truly she was a developed character. Buck chased her down to her Dads prison. They were in fact equally to blame for the actions that broke them up. I wanted to punch Buck for the stupidity of inviting her to move in after cheating on her. But let's be real they could have course corrected if they wanted to. Look at Henren... But they didn't want to. But she was the LI that came closest to end game because we saw their angst, their mistakes, their make ups and their mess. Side confession when Eddie was with Anna I was actually happy Buck landed "his whale". I mean I hated it but I was happy for the character that if he couldn't have Eddie he had her. Because yes their chemistry was amazing. Don't get me started on that bathroom sex scene

And that's what this show is about. Messy ass people with hearts of gold.

So why exactly does it make any sense that BT would just be married when they haven't had the angst yet. The tension. TBH I really thought like you he may last till the emd of the first half. But now?? The fourth epsiode even seems to long for the investment. The fandom can not handle 4 weeks because the other side is bat shite crazy.

I'm going to make a confession, think about Buck and Taylor more than I should think about Buck and Taylor, because the thing is, if they wanted to, with where the relationship was at the end of season 4, they could have developed Taylor in a specific way to make her Buck's endame and even after most of 5a, you could still make that relationship end in a wedding (it would probably lead to a messy divorce but I could see 5a Buck riding that relationship all the way down the aisle), like they tried with Taylor in a very specific way, because considering the way she left, 5hey made a point to bring her back while humanizing her as much as they could, so that gave Taylor a different light compared to season 2. And like you said "Buck landing his whale" could work. She was this great multi-season love interest that came back to Buck's life in a moment he needed and we saw the friendship being built, we saw her with the firefam, we saw her support Buck through something that was awful, and then we saw them getting together. At the end of season 4, it made sense if we're never going to get buddie then Taylor is going to go stay and work it out. Because all they had to do to make Bucktaylor work is make Taylor as intense as she is about the job about Buck. If they opened season 5 and Taylor was head over heels in love with Buck, it would work. If she was that intense about him it would be like a decent relationship for him. But the show me the point of not letting them have a chance because they showed us they didn't know how to love each other. But they were trying and Taylor got a lot of development, she got a her own tragic backstory episode, she had beef with the LAPD, she was something, she existed in the plot. And the whole idea that they would just marry Buck on the first episode is madness, it's not like the relationship is anywhere near developed, for all we know they are still taking it slow, so why would they just suddenly get married. That's legit such a weird thing to think all of a sudden.

[scentofdriedflowers]

I like the start of the episode but is she gonna go all meredith grey pov thing all the episodes now? it's not bad bad tho just asking

And I knew the possibilities were low but a little hope was still there, instead they really went there and called the baby Nicky uuughh, that baby is adorable, so so cute but a big nope for the name, I feel like they went with their idea and didn't ask Kelli and Peter I fear, she wouldn't have gone there I believe, fuck DG, also who the hell call their kid their ex name?! both of them! Carisi ex was Nicole, Amanda had a fwb situationship with Nick and yeah call him ex is definitely not it lol, but still?? weird af. Carisi has also a cousin called Nikki??! something different maybe?? especially if it stands for Dominick for me, like again? a third? it's so old 'patriarchal' school I don't like it, it's 2024. For me there's no way Amanda and Sonny would have gone for that. This is why I wanted a girl, I feared they were gonna go there and look, they did. Give him is own name. Anywayyyyy baby name rant over, sorry not sorry I needed to get it off my chest. I'm cool now lol.... -ish. Anyway that baby is the cutest tho, he's so them, good choice in casting! let's see how the eyes evolve tho 😂 did they look blue? i don't remember, with both parents with blue eyes he gotta have blue eyes, 1% of mayyybe green but brown? it gotta be very very very rare.

Also tho, why did they cut half the baptism scene and there was NO SIGHT of the girls???! like why the hell do you call them to be there in both scenes, film them and then you cut them out?? also rude? 3 seconds of their back running doesn't count. but oh Noah had to go on a tangent about the baby, at least this time he didn't interrupt the scene. I wanted the girls to talk about their brother, a 'dad' line maybe, a family of 5 little scene at the party. We got more bts than product filmed ffs. At least we got a damn good Rollisi scene😍😍 I missed them soooo much it's been a year without them. To bad they had spoiled all the scene already. I miss them already. One good thing is, if they're going with Rollins-Carisi I love it?! I always prefer when they include both names especially in het relationships, and not making it all about the man, I like 'Rollins', Amanda made her name a good one she fought to be better and defy the legacy of her father name, I would hate to lose it.

Thankfully! Amanda Rollins and the Rollivia scene saved the episode, I absolutely adored LOVED their scene, Amanda first concern: How is Liv 😭😭 and Liv opens up only with her😭, this kind of talk was like their usual talks in her office, when Amanda would knock, come in, ask how she was and the talk would unravel. I missed this. And here as soon as she started talking about the case Amanda went into detective mode, -investigating thinking face activated-! adfghjkljhgfdsfghjk the OUR PERP, Liv face 😂, her 'when are you coming back' face lol. Also 'Don't make me miss you more than I already do' I'm dead! we all thought that!! This is so so telling tho bitch come back soon, Liv misses you, that team definitely misses you and your brain. Too many men, it's not acceptable! and I don't want random rotating female detectives just to fill the spot (they could have kept Churlish tho??), women are not interchangeable thank you, we need Amanda back! the scene says it all, again. Also also also, holy shit Amanda/Kelli she was soooo hot in that scene, like wow. Blouse, pants, hair everything perfect! this was filmed during the 'lil boo thang dance video' right?!😂😂

Also I love the idea that Liv didn't even bat an eye when she goes all 'Carisi told you about the dolls right?' like it's a given that Amanda knows everything about the cases anyway lol. Does Amanda grill her husband when he comes home in the evening?! 😂😂 "Tell me everything about the case, I'm listening (I'm bored I need a challenge)" so if this is what happens there's no way Carisi doesn't know she's bored and miss SVU, come on, like Liv, he knows her the best, he's just waiting for her to come clean I believe, and I get it, maybe she doesn't want to burst the bubble, also with baby number 3 challenge added, and probably the writers want us to see the moment it happens and with this strike it prolonged everything, I will accept the fact that they haven't talk already as long as they really show it tho, because it needs to happens, she wants back! and she's so needed!

watching next week promo tho, Amanda can skip this one, she had already enough danger drama thanks lol

the last but not the least, McGrath gotta go, ASAP, persona non grata, give me back Garland, hell even Dodds was way better. If a character like that doesn't evolve and doesn't learn and doesn't gets better after 3 seasons... he gotta go. Actually he's getting worse.

[beautifulpersonpeach]

another reason i'm happy for chap 2 is bts destroying all the narratives about them and women bpp. in the wild days of ✨discourse ✨ on tumblr, thank you for being the voice of reason. before i'd see people say bts avoids women because of armys, bts never works with women, bts hates women, bts has weird relationship with women, the relationships is weird because of armys. but what happened? rm worked with soyoon and now armys are listening to her music, became her fans, respecting her. jimin danced with women and nobody died. his female dancers are loved in fandom. suga has been working with women for a decade and the fandom never cared. all those bts - women theories and discourses just look so stupid now.

the same with the discourses about bts relating to other idols in hybe and general kpop. before covid bts played with txt and after covid in chap 2, bts returns playing with txt as their idol and comeback activities return to full. like normal like was always expected.

bpp my question is, where did these theories even come from?

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Hi Anon,

It's funny, isn't it? I mean, on one hand there's always a faction of the fandom that believes the members belong to them and cannot date anyone (male or female), just as there is in every other k-pop fandom. But as you said, the talking points in certain k-pop spaces about ARMY's overall response to BTS working with women, being around women, having friendships with women, especially in contrast with how BTS relates to ARMY, has zero basis in reality.

Outside of the usual fandom tone-policing and checking y/n shippers (and taekookers), the whole idea of BTS - women - ARMY as a whole having any sort of weird relationship is a very recent thing too, because this is not a talking point I saw anywhere in the fandom before 2020. Going by some forums I was in at the time, I suspect this particular 'concern' was started by fans of other k-pop groups in 2020 and I'll just leave it at that. Like I vividly recall a Taemin stan telling me without preamble to wake up to the fact BTS is "kept away" from women. With BTS's long history of working with and interacting with women whether or not ARMY was in the picture, none of those theories made any sense to me.

It's such an odd thing to even debate or discuss given everyone can see with their own eyes how that dynamic has played out for the last 10 years. There's no conspiracy or anything to even theorize about, far as I'm concerned, because many of their female friendships and work relationships are well known.

Nobody lost their shit when Ryujin was spending time with BTS, when she filmed the reel with BTS, and afterwards when she talked about working with them. And I can list off 10 other women (at least) who this is true for too.

I hear you too about BTS working with other idols especially within HYBE. It's true that while touring in 2019 BTS was very busy and appeared 'removed' from TXT who where just ramping up, and that since 2015 BTS had focused more on curating their own content/variety shows given they'd been repeatedly disrespected and blackballed by the Korean media establishment. But they still interacted with other idols and after they clarified their plans for Chapter 2, just continued as expected. But somehow, the talking point of BTS feeling 'too proud' to interact with the rest of k-pop (by k-pop stans), that too took on a life of its own, and was made to seem more nefarious than it actually was. I still find a bit amusing tbh.

I think one reason these sorts of theories about BTS and the most innocuous things get obsessed over as fact by k-pop stans, is because for a group like BTS, those people have nothing else to say. There's very little you can actually hold against a group like BTS. And I'm not saying that just because I'm a fan. The fact is with the history most k-pop groups have, very few of them could last anytime at all in BTS's position with the amount of scrutiny on the group.

A second reason is k-pop fans relying on pre-conceived notions about a group they don't like, and then applying the worst examples of issues they've seen in their own or other k-pop fandoms, to BTS and ARMY regardless of whether it applies. For example, VIXX is in the news lately because a member worked with a broker to dodge military service in Korea, but before now that group was notorious for some of the most disturbing kinds of fan-service I've ever seen in k-pop.

Exhibits:

A female fan giving Hakyeon her thong to sign

(A lot of k-pop stans back then and today think this is cute, but imagine for a second if this was a BTS member and ARMY lmao)

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The group members designing thongs and other lingerie for their female fans

(I mean, I can see how this could be a flex but imagine for one sec if this was in BTS's history)

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And there's the group including a BDSM contract for their fans in their album

(Almost 10 years later and I still don't know what to say...)

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Another example is members of Shinee saying point blank they can't talk about their dating life because their fans have told them they don't like it.

I mean, imagine if BTS did any of that today. Heck imagine if they did that years ago. K-pop stans are still making them pay dividends for War of Hormone and mixtape lyrics from 2015, even after a Women Studies professor vets their work, even after HYBE has female CEOs for their sub-labels, and even after on Blind in Korea female workers say HYBE is the best company in the entertainment sector to work for.

A lot of the talking points, criticism, or discourse around BTS sounds bonkers, especially if you know what else is going on in the industry, what other groups are doing or have done with nary a mention from the wider k-pop fandom.

It reminds me of how Jimin was getting flamed for missed insurance payments because someone stole his mail, while during the same day the news broke, Yang Hyun-suk (the guy who manages BlackPink and is debuting Baby Monster this summer) was in court after a former female trainee in his company claimed he threatened to kill her, gave her drugs, and pimped her out. If you took a look at the trending k-pop pages on Twitter or k-forums, you'd think Jimin was the one facing a sentence and not the guy that remains at the helm of YG.

Because as I keep saying, for many k-pop stans, the underlying issues are less important than who those issues are about. Apply the same thinking to the theories you see about BTS and women.

Even in the case of outright dating rumors in the past 10 years, the fandom didn't collectively lose their shit. Jennie's case being the exception because she had the double misfortune of triggering the most unhinged side of the fandom (taekookers) and belonging to a group whose fandom has some of the most extreme rivalries with ARMY, and so many from her fandom worked to disprove it as virulently as taekookers did. I consider Jennie an anomaly for that reason because there have been several examples over the years when nobody cared. For example when the dating rumors of Jimin with Seulgi from Red Velvet happened, the most people did was speculate and move on...

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I've rambled lol, but anyway, what I mean to say is that agree with you Anon.

[taegularities]

Hi lovely Rid 💕💕

I'm coming in with one of my irrelevant and possibly annoying rants™ that I haven't done in a while.

But the part in cmi blooming where Jungkook was talking about how OC isn't even meeting his standards, she's actually building them made me think of my crush and :((

I'm usually so so wary when I talk to guys because in my experience, sooner or later, they always say something that makes me feel weird or uncomfortable, like they start being misogynistic or homophobic, or they start treating me weird. And don't get me started on the toxic masculinity!!!

So when I started talking more to my crush and realising I like him, I thought that the more I got to know him, I would find out something about him that would put me off, like it usually happens. But this man is literally too perfect????

He is so intentional with all of his political and moral views, with the activism he's doing, with the way he's intentionally defying gender norms. If someone says something weird, like sexist or any other kind, he'll be the first to call the person out on it. None of it feels performative either, just really intentional because he realises his privilege and uses it for good. And he's so kind and caring too, listens so well and remembers things about his friend's interests. Like his whole films watchlist is full of his friend's favourite movies and he must have a friend who's an army too because every time we come to that topic he knows so much 🥺🥺 I was nervous about giving him my discord because it's got a jungkook profile pic and everything but he just started asking like isn't he in the military now etc. Literally the biggest green flag of a person.

He's the one currently setting the standard for me! And the problem is that I really don't think he likes me back and now I don't know who else will meet all these standards lmaoo. But when I'm not feeling pessimistic and I look at it from the bright side, he has genuinely restored a little bit of my faith in men (just like bts actually) Because if he exists then surely there are others like him, right 😔

Anyway, this is a bit of an aimless rant, just had to get that off my chest. But of course, cmi Jungkook is the ultimate standard and nobody can surpass him!!

Thank you for listening as always, Rid. Love you 💞💞💞

hi ivi, my sweetheart 🤍

reading smth so wholesome after attending meetings of 4.5h is 🥹 the way you talk about him is so incredibly endearing and made me beaaaaam!! and it fills me with hope once again that such wonderful people do exist. even if you only remain friends, i'm so happy you've found someone who helps you restore faith in humanity. he truly sounds amazing :D and isn't it freaking amazing how knowing the right person makes you realise just what you look for in people? like, having no type but finding a standard in someone amazing is such a grand and irreplaceable compliment. (you should tell him how cool he is 🥺 he'd love that, i bet 🥺)

i was already going to mention it before you said it yourself, but i think he's the ultimate proof that not everything in this world is rotten. i know love doesn't always come easy to us, and somewhere in us, the fear of being disappointed is always present. i guess that's how you know how much you value and cherish your heart and that you won't settle for hurt 🤍 but, while everyone always says this to me, i want to tell you, too, that awesome people come into our lives at just the right moment, and that if things truly do not work out with your crush, there'll be someone one day who'll make you believe in the best in people, too and who'll love you in ways you soooo deserve (although cmon, your crush is tooootally missing out!! 😁). but keep holding onto hope bc love and tenderness do exist and we'll alllll get our very own cmi jk one day for sure, and he'll worship the ground we walk on just as he does with oc 🥺🤍

none of your rants are aimless or irrelevant and least of all annoying. in fact, more!! lol i always miss them when you're away!! i actually apologise for rambling, too like odidgsududh :') love you, ivi, thank you for putting a smile on my face bc this msg was the most wholesome thing ever <3

[joonberriess]

let me tell you.... yk what I can't stand? A fake ass army. So i used to be friends with this girl and we became friends due to BTS so we became really close. A few years later she called herself growing out of them which is fine but she still claimed she loved them. But she would turn around and talk so much shit about them to me who actually was and still is STANNING them like she legit became an anti (toxic asf). it didn't sit right with me so I would distance myself from her or talk about other things and not BTS. So she started stanning other groups on purpose or she would like force herself to like kpop like, girl if you don't like it don't listen to it tf now you pmo. so the other day her GOOFY ass sister had the audacity to post on her story one those instagram sticker things where you can add your story and she had added "whats your favorite bangtan song" when i tell i was so heated. Your sister literally showed her self last year when I posted BTS on my story and she watched it went to her story started sneak dissing about me and BTS and when i called her out she got mad and blocked me and now here you go posting BTS. Ex friend family didn't even like kpop so I'm like why are you her sister who didn't like kpop in general posting BTS (ngl her dad was lowkey xenophobic) and had the nerve to call them Bangtan Boys no to you it's BTS witcho fake self. and the song was Spring Day I was like hell no take my fave song off your story. that song means so much to me and we have fake armys who talk bad about BTS posting it. It's ok to be a casual fan but I just know the bs your sister (my ex friend) has said about them and the stuff ex friend family said so no you don't deserve being an army applications are CLOSED.

that’s weird… suspicious. 🤨 lmao nah but u need to get ur lick back on the other one causeeee my anger issues would never let her slide, shit her sis can catch it too lmaooo

[penroseparticle]

Penrose Song of the Day Day 26: Body Talks by The Struts ft. Kesha

I kept my word, this is pretty upbeat compared to the past sobriquet.

I have favorites. I know I do. I grade people on a curve. If I decide you're one of mine, you're one of mine. And if you're one of mine, you can do a LOT of stuff and I'm still claiming you.

I very nearly put a Kendrick song here (Which one to pick tbh lol. Meet the Grahams was chilling, and Not like US is gonna be a sticky one that one has club potential. It's already being played in clubs actually lmao), but the Drake/Kendrick stuff is kind of heavy and as fun as it is from the sidelines (And remembering the Millie Bobbie Brown stuff makes it easy to feel comfortable picking sides here), it would be a very, VERY difficult thing to conceptualize and write. It would be cheap of me to even delve. But musically, I am in a Hiss/Euphoria/Meet the Grahams headspace.

But it kind of got me thinking about stan culture. About ride or die fans. Maybe yeah of Drake, but then I started thinking about Swifties. About the Army (BTS). etc.

And well, it really is not smart to pretend things about you aren't true. So I gotta admit- I'm ride or die for Kesha.

She could sing the phonebook at me and not only would I thank her, but I wouldn't even bat an eye. I would listen religiously.

Kesha has some... questionable song content, especially back in the Dr. Luke days. Grow A Pair comes to mind as casually, incidentally transphobic and misogynistic. And I don't even care! I mean I do care. But it doesn't stop me from eating up any and all Kesha content that comes my way.

Timber? A song that, while pulsing and driving and acting as good pop music. Is not that deep. And Kesha is best part of that song but it's not a varied performance let's be real. Dirty Love with Iggy Pop? Such a questionable green heart on my spotify. It is not a good song why do I like it?

And the real answer is just the charm that is Kesha.

So it's always a relief to me when Kesha writes an absolute banger, or features on an absolute banger, and I think the song is not just my jam for being a Kesha song, but I think it's also, you know, good.

I have the pleasure of having heard both the version of this song with The Struts only, and the version with Kesha, and I can confidently say that Kesha adds an energy and power to the vocals that helps the song not be washed out by its own instrumentation. The sound mixing is just. Better. The song is fuller, and the vocals are punched up enough that they stand against the instrument backing. And I like what I'm hearing more.

And the song is a bop. It's a banger y'all. It's a fun song about attraction, with nothing more or less behind it. The reason these two are attracted to each other (and again, the song works better as a duet for that reason- the attraction goes both ways) is left up to you, and the idea of being "what they want tonight" isn't weird or gross so much as kind of. Suggestive, flirty? Like a good pickup line. Idk. This song is a song where my "Make song instantly better? Just add Kesha" is on full display.

She's got such a good, growly rasp to her voice that works well with a rock song like this. Kesha is a vocal chameleon to me somehow- I like soulful ballad Kesha, her voice has the character for it and she got them pipes. I like Rock Feature Kesha, she sounds growly and raspy and all that. Pop princess Kesha? She's got the dialect. She grew up swimming in the pop tank with Dr. Fucking Luke looming. She can do pop music in her sleep.

And this is where I stand. I believe any and all songs can be improved by adding Kesha. That's my cross to bear. That's the sin I embody.

Other artists I believe instantly improve any song they're on: Megan Thee Stallion, Beyonce, Maluma, Betty Who, Common, Carly Rae Jepsen, Victoria Monet, and Frank Ocean. They could polish literally any turd and I would stream it.

That said, I'd hardly call this song a turd. This song is just a fun fucking rock romp. This is what flirting with someone good at flirting feels like. Like you're playing jazz via conversation and the person talking to you, not only recognizes the volley, but sends it back in a way that encourages the back and forth. The frisson of attraction makes everything feel electric, like it's purposeful. Like it's meant to be somehow.

I like when a song makes me feel something- sometimes I get really wrapped up in feeling negative. But I have to remember that I like music that makes me feel something good as well. Feeling things reminds me that I'm alive. You could be dead right now. Go listen to something you love.

[namchyoon]

I saw a post about some guy dating his army gf for about a year but he's getting insecure when she talks about bts when she gushes over him or say "shes in love with 7 men" and how much she loves them and he noted how passionately she talked about them etc and how he feels basically like there's always 7 ppl in front of him, and it made me wonder, if your partner felt this way what do you even say to them? honestly, when I say I love these men, I genuinely do, with all my heart. They hold a special place I don't think anyone else can touch. Not in a romantic sense but yeah idk how I'd explain, I never had to tell someone that lol. Curious how would u go about it? (I felt bad but I kinda laughed when he said he felt unloved when she talked about jk 😭😂) I think he needs to understand there's different types of love and it has nothing to do with their romantic relationship

okay so, funny story, i actually did break up w my bf like 5 months after i got into bts 😭 the break up was a long time in the making tbf (like before i got into bts) but he also kept making very insulting comments about them (which was even more weird bc i was very into kdramas before i even met him and he even knew that and went to watch parasite with me in theatres and enjoyed it??? so it was not even like generalized racism (which is common sadly but not w him) it was just specifically bangtan???) and i think bts' love yourself message also helped me a lot in the process but he never actually said you love them more than me or anything 😭 point being, i feel like if my s/o did say smth like that to me i would atp be like you literally knew what you were getting into when you started dating me bc i'm very clear even with all my friends when we become closer being like listen. i love bts and if that's a problem then you need to get over it. like my friends get passionate over their specific interests like sports (which is a lot more than 7 people....) or gaming (which my ex used to do for 10+ hours on weekends instead of hanging out 👍) or whatever so why can't i gush about bts i don't understand? as you said, it's different types of love and as much as i love bangtan, it's not a friendship or a relationship in the these are people i actually know personally way? but obviously i really do love them a lot even if i can't explain it? and like all of my friends have been pretty accepting about it, most of them listen to bts w me if we're just hanging out (some send me album reviews for each new bts album/song that drops that i link them to djfkdkf), one of them even watched the ptd concert w me bc it was while i was in class so i had one earphone in and i've watched vlives with them bc it started while we were eating or smth 😭 i can also tell them in advance that i'm busy on certain dates bc there's a concert/cb and they're like yeah, makes sense so i wouldn't expect any less from a s/o if my friends are so adjusting and don't feel unloved by it? 😭 it's not a daily occurrence and when they DO need me to be there, i will be there regardless of anything else so at the end of the day, i think that's what matters like, as long as she's with him when it's important it shouldn't be a problem i think 😭

[weirdbabe]

Way back, i was one of those who judged kpop and their fans. it was during my elementary years. honestly, i tried to join my friends but i just couldn't understand their 'weirdness', the term i used to label kpop fans.

I remember when i was in fifth grade it was the year EXO rose to popularity. every girl i knew in school were talking about them and fighting over their ultimate bias. i heard Luhan and Baekhyun's name over and over at that time. I even chose Luhan as my bias even if i didn't have any idea abt him including his face. i just wanted to join the trend but then I realized kpop was not for me.

Then, came seventh grade and blackpink rose to popularity. girls in my class were dancing to their music and i just found myself enjoying their music as well. still, i saw the rest of kpop and their fans as 'weirdos'... i just appreciated blackpink and lisa and rosé and jennie and jisoo and Kdramas. That was it.

2017, i watched scarlet heart. loved it but didn't recognize exo's baekhyun. i thought he was just an actor who is cute and funny.

2018, my bff introduced me to exo's kai. she said he was the hottest idol so far in her eyes. i just nodded and agreed with her because that was so true of her.

2019, heard about another exo comeback but didn't mind. i had other things to worry.

2020, the pandemic happened. my aunt watched this drama entitled Memories of Alhambra. EXO's Chanyeol was Shin hye's brother. I honestly went through with the drama because I found chanyeol interstingg. But here is the thing, i had no idea he was an idol and that he was chanyeol. i didn't know he was an exo member—the group that was really famous during my elementary and highschool years. I didn't know. i didn't know that was the day i'd start my exo-l journey.

so, chanyeol. I wanted to see his full face. I was curious because he looked really cute and handsome with glasses and bangs. I just thought he must be really handsome without those bangs and glasses covering his face. as a sucker for handsome men, i did what i do best.

i clicked the google app. searched for 'Memories of Alhambra cast'. Saw CHANYEOL and clicked his profile. I was taken back. literally, taken a back. i clicked on the images. no way, he is indeed good looking for pete's sake. i clicked on his wikipedia photo and it led me to his detailed profile. WAIT? AN EXO MEMBER? ok, interesting... i didn't know they can act.

i don't know why but i just got myself watching videos of chanyeol on youtube. i even followed his instagram account and exo's ig acct as well. i stalked the guy and exo's feed. handsome. they are all handsome. but, chanyeol? he was the apple of my eye.

so, youtube fed me with chanyeol videos. he is a funny and talented guy. but what made me like him the most was the fact that he can play instruments. i appreciated the piano because of him and up until now i still do (literally made me a yiruma fan and made me bought a piano).

so from chanyeol videos, i don't know but i eventually found myself watching exo videos. yn the yt algorithm.

now, exo. i loved their dynamics. there is something abt their relationship that is very true and pure. something unexplainable. something that is only between them. and i liked that.

i just slowly learned to love the boys. they helped me laugh when the pandemic made me sad. they made things bearable for me. so bearable that if it weren't for them i guess i would have never made it through my bad days. really bad ones.

however, i was still the same fifth grader who judged kpop music unless it was blackpinks music and bts' dynamite and butter. i never dared to listen to exo's music aside from their love shot song, the hottest ever.

but things happen. the stars connected me to their music. i was watching exo videos on yt while washing the dishes. the video was over and it played exo's love shot stage on music bank(?). i couldn't stop it from playing because my hands were full. i was glad that happened... dude?!! that stage was crazy. kai was crazy. everyone was. their vocals?? oh god. chen's high note? i was hooked.

that stage was what i replayed for days. then i decided to listen to tempo with my earphones. GUESS WHAT? I FELL INLOVE. harmonization. vocals. god what did i just hear?? they can sing SING.

and that was it. i got hooked to their music (title tracks atm). i watched reaction videos and saw that i was really right abt their great vocals.

then this guy. there is this guy. i kept on noticing him. not only bcoz of his looks but because of his voice. he was doh kyungsoo. there was something abt him that is attractive that he does not force and that was how chanyeol bid goodbye as my ultimate bias. 😭🫶

i became a kyungsoo fan thru yt videos. from his song covers up to his films. in fact, 100 days my prince was the least expected drama i thought i would watch. it was crazy good and funny. he was just built different. a really great one indeed.

july 2021, i discovered stan twtr. i had always been a youtube-l. i regretted being late because i never had the chance to join kyungsoo's vlive after his discharge from the military. but still i was ok since july was the month the exo's decided to drop dftf. I JOINED THE HYPE AND I WAS SO EXCITED. i became their fan evenmore but i didn't label myself as an exo-l yet because i didn't know we were called that HAHAHAHA

since then, i was there. from dftf to kyungsoo's first album, kai's peaches, suho's grey suit, xiumin's brand new, kai's rover, to all the activities of the members. my day was not complete if i missed a single update.

i was there when the members started to come back from the military. i was there during their sm concert. i was there during their group performances. i was there but only online HAHAHAHA

and now, issues... i was trained by senior-ls already and so it is not surprising. I JUST WANT TO END THIS ALREADY KAY GRABE ONE BOOK SIGURO IF MAGPADAYON PAKO AHHAHAHAHA BASTA I LOVE EXO SO MUCH, NO ONE CAN BEAT THEM

yes, i have been a fan of exo for 3 years now and i have never been this invested to a kpop group. they were not the ones who introduced me to kpop but they are the reason why i stayed.

i treat them as my soulmates... i met them at the right time... i cannot imagine leaving... i will always stand by their side no matter what happens eyyyyy

[trex98dreams]

Still With You

Member: Jeon Jungkook Genre: Angst / Smut 💔💋 Song Inspired: Still With You - Jungkook (BTS) Summary: He was betrayed when he found out his dream girl was dating his most trusted hyung. But why can't he see that she's just using him, while you were there to pick up the pieces of his shattered heart?

You and Jungkook were best friends.

Your friendship with him doesn't start off like those cliche movies, being best friend since childhood or meeting him at a simple college party. In fact, your friendship with him was unique.

You were one of his long-time fan, adoring him from afar when one day, he stopped by the coffee shop you worked at on the way to practice. Long story short, after he saw you solving a Rubik cube while waiting for his americano, he asked if you could teach him how solve it so he can brags about it to his hyungs.

You were speechless as first, introducing yourself with trembling fingers and told him you were his fan. Not the weird creepy ones though but just a fan who likes to watch his performance on TV or listens to his newly awaited comeback. He was super happy when he heard that, and that's where you 2 took it off.

Now it has been a few years since that day, and everyday, Jungkook never fails to mesmerize you. He was pretty good at everything. He's young, he had the looks and of course, he's popular as hell. With BTS claiming more and more award both nationally and internationally, his fame and success became the talk of everyone every single day. You were blessed and lucky, even just by being his best friend.

"Hey Y/N!" he greeted you cheerfully one day, when you were invited to his dorm where he and his band mates lives. They had just returned from an oversea tour, and it's been a few months since you last saw him. He hugged you tight and you know you can't control the beating in your heart if he kept you in his embrace longer.

"Hey Kook, hey guys! I bough coffee! And snack!" you announced and his band mates hoorayed in unison. You still remember the pout he gave you that day.

"I'm your best friend. I'm the only one who should be given the attention first," he pretend to sulk but you punch his shoulder lightly. "I basically hug you first. What else do you want?" You giggle and he smile, helping you with the coffee and snacks on your hand.

These kind of interaction was normal between you 2, as you knew Jungkook only sees you as his girl best friend and nothing more.

You knew, you knew you were nothing special compared to her.

Lee Jieun.

Jungkook's dream girl. The most popular and ethereal looking singer and actress of all time. She is so pure and timid and graceful and everything... everything that you're NOT. That's why.. staying friends with Jungkook was more than enough for you. You knew how much he adores her and even if you confesses your feelings, it might just jeopardize your friendship with him.

Of course it hurts. You had been good at controlling your feelings for him, but some day, some time when he talks about how he wish she was his, you couldn't help but cry when the day was over and he went home after venting his heart on you.

Just like any other normal girl in this world, you're in for it.

You know you had fallen dangerously in love with Jeon Jungkook.

And though his band mates likes to tease the 2 of you, Jungkook will always shush them down by saying, "We're just friends. Don't make it uncomfortable for Y/N!"

That day when he says that, was the day that was so clear to you, that you should never told your feelings about it since you knew, it will ruin your pure friendship with him.

But one day, that change.

All because of his dream girl who is dating his band mate, Min Yoongi.

...

"I'm sorry, but I don't love you Jungkook."

The moment those words came out of her mouth, Jungkook could feel his own heart cracking. He felt as if a venomous pain rise in the pit of his heart. The venom was achingly spreading through it, and he can do nothing but stop it. Jungkook stared at Jieun under his doe eyes.

"But.. noona, I don't understand.. why? You said you like me, you.. you said you like hanging out with me,"  he ask shakily, unable to hold his disappointment. Jieun bit her velvet lips that Jungkook's been dying to kiss.

She knows he had spend thousand of dollars for this night. The candle light dinner on a rooftop of an elite building. A private helicopter that brings her everywhere around Seoul. The Cartier necklace he purchased for her. She could sense that it was for his confession.

Jieun was a singer as well and she knew, for the longest time, that Jungkook had always said on every interview he had been on that she was his ideal type. But she though all that was long ago. She knew him as her fan, her junior in the music industry. Sure, a lot of other celebrity mentioned that they were her fans as well, but Jungkook, he was on another level. International level. But despite all that, despite her being close to him and his band mates, doesn't mean she feel the same way about him.

"I mean- uh, I really appreciate all this, I swear I do Kookie," she replied hesitantly making Jungkook's doe eyes continue to wait for her answer. "I love the times we spent together, doing the collaboration and all but other than that, I only see you as Yoongi's band mate and my junior in the industry..." Jieun utters the last part as soft as she can.

Jungkook's doe eyes blink rapidly when she told him that.

So all those months recording songs with her was just her being professional? Is that what she's trying to say? Then why did she caress his hair every time she left the studio? Why did she wipe his sweat with a towel when she visits them during practice? Why did she came by and praise ONLY him for his hard works?

"I.. I though you already knew.. Yoongi.. he didn't tell you?" Jieun asked, putting down the Cartier necklace that she can clearly afford by herself. Jungkook could feel his own heart trembling. He hope where this is going is not true.

"Don't noona. I don't-"

"I'm dating Yoongi, Jungkook-ah."

That 4 word was enough to make Jungkook feel betrayed. Of all the people, in all the world. Why? Why must it be his hyung? And why must he do this to him, knowing he's in love with Jieun for the longest time?

"I- I think you should know. That's why I agree to do the collaboration. We've been talking for a while, and Yoongi and I share a lot of common interest than you know. We.. we've began dating even before the collaboration. I'm so sorry Jungkook. I know you always said I'm your dream girl.. but.. he's MY dream man. I'm sorry for making things go like this. It was never my intention to be in between you and your band mate but I can't control my feelings either. We both should have told you earlier," she apologize repeatedly, knowing well that she had broken his heart beyond repair.

Jungkook stops her hand from holding him.

"I.. I need a minute. I can't.. I can't process all this, I'm sorry. I'll send someone to pick you up and send you to your apartment," Jungkook utters sadly, his eyes were full of tears by now. He avoid her gaze and turn around, leaving the rooftop with a heavy cloud on his head.

That day, Jungkook felt as if his whole world collapse.

...

A knock on your apartment wake you up. It was 3 AM. Who the hell could be knocking on your door at times like this?

You didn't answer, instead you sleepily made your way and to the door, where you found a drunk looking Jungkook lean against your door.

His heavy body weakly limp on yours. You were lucky you were strong enough in your sleepy state to not fall to the hard floor. "Hey, Kook? Are you alright? What's with the suit? Oh! You told me you're going to ask Jieun unnie out today didn't you? How'd it... go-"

"She rejects me Y/N," he utters in one breath.

His voice was so weak, as if he had been in battle but you can hear every word. You pull him to the couch and put him down, sitting beside him sadly. You cupped his cheeks with your small hand, finding how heart-breaking his state is right now.

Jungkook's face was red from the booze, his jet black hair and tie messy. Though his does eyes that you adore so much were closed, you can see the traces of wet tears on his reddish cheek, probably crying his heart out after being rejected by his dream girl.

You knew about today. He told you and planned the day with you for months. You know it's not your place to be jealous, Jungkook loved Jieun even before he was famous and even before he was friends with you. But your heart ached the day he first told you about it. He says he can date freely now, and he was finally going to ask his dream girl out. You cry to yourself that night, stupidly hoping that it was you he was planning the date for but you know, it was just a wishful dream. Though you're still with him, he only thinks about her. Only wanted her.

You cry every time you got home after pretending to be happy and spend the day with him planning the date. You cry every time you think about how lucky Jieun is to be loved by him. You cried harder when you think about how they would spend the night under the sheets with each other when she accepts his confession. It was just hard on you alone.

But this.. what is this? What happen to them? You don't understand, what had gone wrong?

"I'm so sorry Kook. Why? Did she say the reason-"

Jungkook sobs harder, "She- she said she's in a relationship with Yoongi hyung. She said she only sees me as fucking Yoongi's band mate and her junior. I though.. when she says she'll love to do a collab with me, I finally had my chance, that she too- oh," Jungkook cried on your wet shirt, clinging onto you suddenly.

You were shocked. Too shocked.

You understand why Jungkook was crying so much that time, because he was hurt and betrayed by the 2 people he loves most. It's like Arthur, Guinevere & Lancelot all over again.

Jieun.. she's in a relationship with Yoongi?

But, but didn't Yoongi knew that Jungkook had always had a crush on her?

And Jieun.. how could she date Yoongi of all people?

"Can you believe it Y/N?? Yoongi hyung! Hyung got her!" he told you. "She was fucking hyung behind me all these while! HAHAHA... and here I am.. desperately wishing she was looking my way," Jungkook babbles angrily.

He looks pathetic, but this look on him made your heart uneasy. You loved Jungkook with your whole heart. Him being betrayed like this must have hurt him beyond repair. You hug him tight, caressing his hair while altogether crying with him.

"I swear Jungkook, I swear I'll still be with you. I'll never betray you. I'm sorry, I'm sorry for what happen to you tonight, It'll get better. I promise I'll always be your friend.. I'll always be there for you, I'm sorry Jungkook.. I'm sorry," you told him, hugging his face close to your chest.

That night, Jungkook cried himself to sleep in his drunken state. Slowly, you reach for his cheek when he fell asleep on your chest, wiping his tears. Your heart aches a lot when you see him like this, and you promise, as his friend and for the love your harbored for him, you'll be there to pick up the pieces Jieun left behind.

...

Yoongi and Jungkook's friendship change after that.

What had been a brotherly love between the 2, a dongsaeng loving his hyung and adoring his work so much, turn into something salty when Yoongi talked it out with Jungkook. Everybody in the band decide not to interfere because they knew it was something personal. Even the management didn't interfere and when they ask Yoongi if he wanted to make his relationship with Jieun public, he told them not yet. He had discussed things with Jieun after spending time at her place and Jieun told them its safer for both of their career, especially with Yoongi going to America for his mixtape soon and her doing concert tours around South Korea for the next few months.

The boys were the most troubled ones regarding this news. They didn't choose sides, but they knew how much Jungkook loves Jieun and Yoongi becoming her boyfriend was out of the blue.

One day, after one of their recording session with Yoongi, Jungkook was asked to stay. He wanted to leave so much, but Namjoon was so adamant for the 2 of them to talk it out. So Jungkook have no choice but to drop his bag to the ground, and plop himself on the couch in Yoongi's studio lazily.

Yoongi turn off his mixers and put his earphone down.

"What do you want? Hurry up, I had things to do," Jungkook uttered harshly. Yoongi look at his sunken posture and sit upwards from his work chair, intertwining his fingers.

"Jungkook.. I know its been an awkward few weeks between us.." he sighs. "I know. It's my fault. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for falling for your girl. I didn't mean for it to happen. You know I can't control who I love, I do tried to avoid it, but then Jieun told me she feels the same. Please Jungkook.. it's killing me. Jieun hadn't been eating well because she was worried about our friendship, don't put the blame on her too much, it's my fault. It's my entire fault for ruining our friendship."

"Friendship?" Jungkook snorted. "I respected you. I love you like my own brother, but you go and date the one girl I told everyone I had a crush on! I know! I know you can't force love hyung! But I can't believe you of all people would do this to me! I- ah.. you know what.. just forget it.."

Jungkook's defeated sigh made Yoongi felt a lot more terrible. "Jungkook please, for the sake of Bangtan, I beg of you, forgive me. It's my fault. Don't punish Jieun because of it. She misses you. She misses talking to the old you. You were like a brother to her too. Please Jungkook, if you want, I'll break up with her if that's-"

"That's not it hyung," he hissed. Somehow, he knew it was just wrong if it end up jeopardizing his beloved girl's relationship with his hyung. Just because he can't stand them dating in front of him. Isn't that too childish? And besides, Jieun didn't eat well because she was worried about them? No, he didn't want her to get sick. He still cares for her despite what happen between them.

"Just.. please don't mention about this anymore. About noona, I can't just pretend like she didn't just rejected me. Give me some time.. I can't just act like nothing happened, tell her to eat well," he said and left, making Yoongi let out a soft sigh.

...

"Who is it?" you ask from inside.

A weak voice answered slowly, "It's me Y/N. Open up, please."

For the past few weeks, Jungkook had been crashing at your place, and told you about how his day go. He used to vent it out on Jieun when she came by the dorm, but you knew that was no longer necessary, because of how bad the condition of his heart is now. And Jungkook refuse to sleep at the dorm too, knowing Yoongi and Jieun would be there. He doesn't want their relationship to hurt him more and decided to just stay at yours.

As you open the door, once again you were met with his teary eyes. He stare at you sadly and immediately hug you, sniffing on your shoulder like an injured child.

"Yoongi hyung apologize today.. and he told me he would break up with noona if I wanted him to as not to ruin Bangtan.." he murmured, hugging you by the waist tightly. "Y/N.. am I the bad guy? It hurts so much to see them together.. to know he spends the night at hers.. but I don't want them to break up just because they're hurting me.. I hate this feeling.. why can't I just erase it?"

You patted his back. It's been like this everyday. It kills you to see this side of him. The sad, guilty and heartbroken part. He was smiling in front of the camera but behind those smile were a broken heart needed to be mend. You caress his hair and look at him from under your glasses confidently.

"I'm so sorry Kook. It's not your fault. It's not theirs either.." you said and murmured to yourself, except the part where they hide it from you and Jieun's been giving you mixed signal.

"Hey Kook listen, today's my day off," you said, wiping his tears with a tissue in your pocket. He look up and found you smiling cheerfully at him.

"Okay?" he sniffed. You laughed at his adorable reaction. "So, as your best friend, I hate seeing you like this. Even your fans starting to notice how sad you've looked the past few weeks. Come on, I'll bring you somewhere to make you forget about it temporarily. How's that?"

He stare at you for a long time and shook his head. "I don't know.. I'm not in the mood.."

"Oh stop mopping around you will ya! Jieun doesn't love you! Yoongi betray you! So what? Doesn't mean that you stopped living your life! Come on, I guarantee, I can make my old pal Jeon Jungkook become him again!" you cheered although gritted your teeth at Jieun and Yoongi's name. Jungkook blinked his eyes rapidly. He let out a huge sigh at your determined reaction.

"Okay.. I trust you. Where are we going by the way?"

...

"Why are you so competitive??" you ask him and he nods cracked into a laugh. "Can we try it again? I can't lose to a girl!" he laughed and that was the 1st time in 7 weeks you had heard him laugh sincerely like the old Jungkook. You were happy that he was enjoying his time at the Carnival. Most importantly, you were happy that it was you who made him smile.

"I'm glad you're enjoying things Kook. Hey! That's my teddy bear! I was distracted!" you giggled and he shot the cans like a pro, earning the big teddy bear all by himself. The stall keeper smile and hands him the huge teddy bear. "This is so not fair Kook. You shot him when I was distracted!"

Jungkook giggled back at you and gave you the bear. "Here, take it. You were struggling back there but I know you won't admit it. It was for you anyways," he said and you blush. "God, I don't need to be manhandled okay? So, are you feeling.. better? Does the shooting, roller coaster and bumpy ride made you at ease even just a little bit?"

Jungkook let out a sad smile, staring at the Ferris Wheel. "A bit.. but it still hurts.."

You bit your lip to the side but then he turns to you with a charming smile. "Thank you for tonight Y/N. You're such a good friend. You did all these.. just because you worry about me.. I really don't know what I'd do without you. You're really a great friend. Thank you, I love you a lot for this," he says carelessly.

Upon hearing the word love, your eyes widened. Jungkook didn't seem to notice this, as he was busy staring at the couple in the boat in front of you. Your heart beats faster and you told yourself to calm down and not freak out just because he said the L word.

"Hey, wanna try that?" He ask you. You turn to where he was pointing. A boat in the middle of the lake? You shook your head and fix your glasses.

"Oh maybe next time when it's day. I can't swim and I'm afraid of being in the waters during the night," you told him. This was new to Jungkook.

"You can't swim? Really? The smart girl who can solve a rubik cube in 10 seconds? WOW, what else are you hiding from me?" His reaction was so genuine that you forget about his situation.

Jungkool listens to you attentively. You knew, he was doing it to forget the pain but you can't push away the attention he was giving you. That night made you happy, as Jungkook is finally trying to move on from his broken heart.

Weeks and weeks after that, Jungkook spends more of his time with you. Even his members were jealous because he kept going to yours to play video games, helping you with groceries like and old married couple and ask for your advice about his singing improvements though you knew nothing of the matter. You weren't one to rush things, and you were waiting for the perfect time until Jungkook is completely over Jieun for you to tell him how you feel. You had weighed the pros and cons and even if Jungkook cut ties with you after your confession, you're glad that he is feeling better than the him before the Yoongi-Jieun betrayal.

"Yoongi hyung went to America today, for his mixtape collaboration with Snoop Dog," he told you after you guys finish watching the avengers marathon.

"Oh really? For how long?" You asked, lowering the volume of the TV. Jungkook's eyes trained on the TV, but you knew his mind was somewhere else.

"3 months? I don't know. We sent him off together, but I didn't talk much with him.. you know how we are. He told us to look after Jieun noona as well," he drink a sip of his coke.

You went quiet. Not that you were insecure, but Jieun's a big girl. She can take care of herself. Knowing what he did to Jungkook, why would Yoongi leave such an inconsiderate message?

"I know he was saying it to all of the boys. But as I'm the closest to her, I felt like he trusted me the most. But.. ah- I don't know. Not like I care about her anymore," Jungkook mutters but you know he's lying. His eyebrow furrows when he lie or hesitates. You know he still cares about her.

Being a girl whose in love with his guy best friend sucks, so you suck it up and smile at him, patting his shoulder. "Don't worry. If anything happens, I got your back and besides, I bet she won't call you first just because she's lonely."

"Yeah."

...

That's exactly what she did.

Yoongi was gone for 3 weeks when she 1st call. Jungkook was at your place, setting the table for dinner as it had been a long day for him at the practice room. You and him were laughing at the burned turkey he was trying to make when his phone rang.

Both of you look at the caller ID.

"Jieun?" You asked him, turning the stove off. Jungkook was surprised as well.

He wanted to reject the call, but you knew he was hesitating. "Just pick it up, maybe she's in trouble?" You told him, trying to be positive.

Jungkook waited for a few seconds before hastily pushing the accept button.

"What do you want noona?"

"..."

"What?"

"..."

You watch as Jungkook made his way to the living room to talk to her in private. A dull ache was appearing on your chest, but you ignored it. Just because a call doesn't mean Jungkook's going to run back to her after what she did. Besides, she rejected him? Right?

Jungkook came in your line of view after a few minutes. He gave you a contemplated look before raking his hair. "I'm sorry about that," Jungkook closes his eyes. "Y/N, Jieun noona told me the power in her building was cut off. She is scared of the dark, I knew that because she told me once. Do you think.. I should.."

Your heart was heavy after listening to what he was going to ask you so you cut him off, "Kook, she lives in an elite apartment. I'm sure the lights would come out in a few minutes, are you going to do this all over again?"

Jungkook stare at the ground.

"But she is very terrified of the dark.. and she says it might be half an hour since all the other apartments are cut off too.."

His mutters was what made you sure that no matter what you do, he still cares for her. Maybe this was just a coincidence, so you let out a huge sigh.

"Go. If you're that worried, go. I also don't want to be responsible if anything happens to our superstar Lee Jieun," you told him flatly. Jungkook stare at you, feeling guilty that he had to abandoned your dinner plans. "I'm sorry Y/N.. I promise this will be the only time-"

It wasn't.

It wasn't the only time he cancelled his plans with you. Ever since that call, he had been spending his time with her again, especially when Yoongi told him to look after Jieun in his absence.

He had cancelled your zoo date, your grocery shopping date, trying out new dessert at the local Cafe every week date and most importantly, he rarely shows up at your place anymore. Of course, with every cancellation, Jungkook will always apologize and you knew from the tone of his voice it was sincere, since you can't find any fault in the man you love.

"I'm sorry Y/N, Jieun noona ask me to fix the light bulb in her bathroom."

"I had to cancel again today, Jieun noona aren't feeling well, her throat is swelling."

"I am so sorry Y/N, Jieun noona needed me to help with her IKEA stuff."

And the list goes on. You were frustrated, upset and angry that the only thing she need to do is call him and Jungkook will come running back to her like she didn't just broke his heart a few months ago. You worked so hard to mend his heart and now what? For it to be a plaything for her until Yoongi came back from America?

You had tried to warn Jungkook. During your calls, you had told him to be careful, not to easily be swayed with her kindness and remember that she is his hyung's girlfriend no matter what but Jungkook would just laughed it off.

"You're ridiculous Y/N. I knew that okay? You don't need to rub the salt on my wound. I'm just helping her in times of need, and return the favor because she used to help me a lot too back then. Don't worry and get some sleep. I'll came by when I'm finish here and practice," he would always say.

You hated doubting him. Because you know you're no one to him to be jealous. Not his lover, not his wife, not his girlfriend, not anything. You're only a friend. A friend that is so in love with him. A friend that is scared to see him getting his heart broken again.

...

Tonight, it was pouring rain.

The rain hadn't stopped for a while and according to the weather forecast, it would probably stop tomorrow afternoon. You stared at your phone, looking at the wallpaper of you and Jungkook at the Carnival a few months back. You 2 look so happy, like a couple in love.

He had promised to sleep at yours tonight. After what it feels like a long time, Jungkook called you this morning and tell you he's going straight to yours with a chicken and beer because be misses his best friend so much. What's better is Jieun is going on her concert tour soon, so this might mark the day where Jungkook will be all yours again.

So here you are, sitting on your couch in your pajamas, waiting for the boy you love with a smile. An hour become two, and finally, unable to open your eyes anymore, you feel asleep while waiting for Jungkook.

...

"Thank you so much for sending me here Kookie. I'm sorry.. my car broke down suddenly and I have no one else to call. My manager is stuck in traffic as well," Jieun smiles charmingly to Jungkook. Jungkook nods and gave her a thin smile.

"It's okay noona. Besides, I'm familiar with this hotel. We had a concert at Gocheok Dome too once. We stayed here for a 3 whole days so it wasn't hard to find."

Jieun stare at the bunny boy for a long time. He misses Yoongi a lot, but Yoongi's absence was making her so frustrated. She didn't even know why she kept calling Jungkook in the 1st place but having him by her side made her feel safe.

"I'm sorry, you got all wet trying to cover me from the rain, would you like to take a shower first before you leave?" She asks him in n innocent tone. Jungkook's eyes widened. "Ah, no thank you. I- have somewhere to be actually noona, I-"

A thunder suddenly cracked.

Jieun immediately threw her petite body to Jungkook's bulky one. She hugs him tightly, hearing his loud drumming heartbeat in her ear. Jungkook can feel her breast on his chest and begin to feel aroused, but he shook those thoughts away and softly push her against her hotel room’s door.

"Ah- noona, I'm sorry. I gotta go! I-"

"It's pouring rain Jungkookie..." Jieun pinch his arms softly. Jungkook gulps but didn't say anything, he didn't understand what Jieun is trying to do right now.

Jungkook was still in his right mind when in a spur of a moment, Jieun closes the distance between them and reach for his lips, kissing him passionately. Jungkook try, oh he really did, pushing her away but her soft kiss made him dizzy.

This was his dream all along.

To be loved by Lee Jieun.

"Noona.. this- this wrong.." he tried although he wanted nothing more than the kiss to last but Jieun harshly grab the back of his hair, tangling her fingers while clinging onto his wet shirt.

"Just for tonight Kookie.. just tonight. I'm so needy baby. It's been so long since Yoongi touched me. Make me feel like a woman again.. please..."

Her seductive pleads made Jungkook lost his right mind and that's when he finally give in to his lust, ignoring what's right and wrong between them.

The thunder cracked harder with every minute passing by, covering the sinful sound of the smacking of their lips. Jieun jumps on his waist, circling her legs around him and Jungkook held her thighs, going in for the kiss deeper. He reach for the hem oh her dress and closes the door to the hotel room, locking it behind them.

...

Jungkook didn't call you for 3 days straight.

You were sure he had his reasons. Jungkook never cancels without telling you why. You were getting anxious, afraid something had happened to him but it made you calmed yourself as there is no bad news about him on the TV is reported. So probably, he's fine. You asked his members where he might have been but they also told you they had no idea, thinking he's staying at your place.

"What?"

Hoseok rubbed his nape at the other end of the line.

[Jungkookie texted me saying he's staying at your place for the past 3 days. UuU~ Is this something we shouldn't know Y/N? Are you 2 finally a thing??]

You were confused. What is Hoseok talking about? Did Jungkook just lie to his members?

"The thing is oppa, Jungkook's not here-"

The sound of knocking at your door surprised you. "Oppa, someone's at the door. I'll call you later, sorry for taking your time," you told Hoseok.

[It's okay! See you Y/N! Tell Jungkookie to announce you guy's relationship public soon!]

You end the call with a smile at Hoseok's silliness. No. It's not the time for that. Wait. Why would Jungkook lie to them telling them he's staying with you for the past 3 days when he's not. He's been avoiding your calls and text as well.

"Y/N? Open up, it's me!"

Speak of the devil.

You're going to give him the scolding of his life, a piece of your mind and a knocking on his head for making you worried the past few days. You stomp your way to the door, half happy and half angry that he's making you anxious.

You unlock the door and almost greet him with a hit on his head, when he engulfed you in a hug.

"Y/N! I MISS YOU SO MUCH! I HAVE A REALLY GREAT NEWS!!" Jungkook yelled, spinning you around the living room. You were baffled of course, but his strong hands on your waist made you paused to keep the feeling.

When he let go, you look into his happy face, shining eyes that had stars scattered inside it. Gosh, Jungkook's eyes are so beautiful. You can't believe you got to ever see him this happy again. "Hey- hey- woah! You're in a good mood! But first, where the hell did you go for the past 3 days huh?! Did you know how worried I am??"

Jungkook smiles and rubbed his palms together, apologizing for his MIA.

"I know, I know! But I had my reasons, I'm sorry okay? But first let me tell you-"

"Did you even eat? You look so tired.. I'll cook some ramyeon and sit down. Now what's the good news you cannot wait to tell me about? And may I ask, why did you tell Hoseok oppa you're staying with me for the past 3 days you went missing-"

"Jieun noona and I are together now Y/N!"

BOOM.

Those 8 words. Those dreadful 8 words that you though wouldn't come true. It did. And Jungkook broke it to you with the widest smile, not realizing it made your heart split open and bleeds invisibly.

You slowly retreat your step from the kitchen and turn to him confusedly.

"Jungkook.. haven't you moved on yet? Jieun unnie is with Yoongi oppa.. what are you talking about?" your eyebrow furrowed. Why is he still talking about this? You tried, SO hard to keep him away from talking and thinking about her after she rejected him. You can't bear to see him like this and had his heart broke again and again by the same girl.

Jungkook took a step further and held your shoulder. His smile was so full of love and happiness that the radiation kills the old, sad him that you've been trying to repair. "That's the thing Y/N! That's the news I'm going to tell you! She says she's breaking up with Yoongi hyung to be with me! Oh god, can you believe it Y/N? She chooses me! Finally!"

Everything becomes a blur after that. You didn't want to say anything, not until Jungkook finish his story of how did all this happen in just a matter of 3 days.

Jungkook sits down on your kitchen counter while you made him some ramyeon. You listen. Listen through it all. Listen about how he tells you about the rainy night 3 days ago where he was supposed to spend it with you watching Iron Man. You listen as he told you how Jieun calls him and ask for his help to send her to the hotel near Gocheok Dome for her concert. You listen as the night that was suppose to be your confession night turn out to be the night he endlessly make love to his beloved Jieun noona under the sheets at her hotel.

You clench your hand on the hot bowl tightly, preventing the tears from falling from your eyes as he told you how she was lonely and Yoongi didn't give her the love she wanted from him. You listens as he told you Jieun promised to break up with Yoongi so that they could date and she was wrong for choosing Yoongi instead of him who cherishes and worships her much more.

You gulp. Everything seems wrong. You didn't know why. Maybe you wanted to own Jungkook. Maybe you were jealous. Maybe you love him too much that you cannot accept the fact that Jungkook just slept with his best friend's girlfriend.

Jieun was cheating on Yoongi with Jungkook, but poor lovesick Jungkook doesn't seem to realize that. You look at his dreamy eyes and bunny smile, afraid that what you might say may upset him when he realize it.

"Y/N? Are you listening?" he asks, waving in front of you. "Hm? Oh, yeah, yeah absolutely. I just- so.. for the past 3 days.. you were at the hotel.. with Jieun?"

Your question made him smile. "Yup! Don't get me wrong! We didn't just 'do it' you know! We played games, talk like old times, and she kisses me a lot, saying I'm different from hyung because hyung doesn't like PDA. Ah- I'm so happy Y/N! I'm so happy that she finally chooses me! Poor hyung, not that I didn't feel bad, but Jieun noona can't control how she feels and neither can I, I'm not a bad guy right Y/N?"

Something made you snapped. You look at him from across the kitchen counter top and give him a glare. "Jungkook, I hate to break it to you, but no matter what you say, you're still the bad guy here."

Jungkook's smile falters. "What do you mean? I'm happy Y/N, so is Jieun noona. Do you want to see me depressed all the time because I can't erase her from my mind? FYI, I still like her."

"Kook listen," you said reaching for his palm. "1, she cheated on Yoongi oppa by sleeping with you. No matter what, her excuse is unacceptable. I myself am horrified when you reveal all this so suddenly. And you, how could you sleep with her knowing what she did to you and who she is to your hyung? She rejected you Jungkook!"

He turns his face away, not having an excuse to what they had done. "Number 2, you're a good guy Jungkook but this is just fucked up. Had she break up with Yoongi yet when she promises you all this? Had you not the slightest idea how it would turn out for you and your members when a girl came between you guys? Yoongi will be so hurt. Was she serious when she says she chooses you? Because if she wasn't, then she is just using you as her sex toy-"

"Shut up!" Jungkook burst out angrily. You look at him in shock. You were just stating the fact. You love him and you didn't want to say beat around the bush just to set himself at ease because this is just VERY wrong.

Jungkook stand up harshly, the chair behind him falls down with a loud bang. "SHE'S NOT USING ME Y/N! JIEUN NOONA LOVES ME! She didn't want to break up with hyung over some text, that's why we're waiting for him to come back! Just because I pleased her doesn't mean that I'm a sex toy! That means she loves me more than she did to hyung! And why should I care if Yoongi hyung is hurt or not?! HE STEALS MY GIRL! Serves him right!"

Jungkook's selfish word made your eyes dull, and your heart breaks. How could an innocent boy turn into this selfish, greedy man just because of love? This isn't love, this.. is toxic.

Jungkook reached for his jacket on the couch. You reach for him desperately. "Kook, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry about what I said. I didn't mean for it to come out like that. I didn't want you to get hurt Kook. Are you sure she choosing you? Please at least, stay away from her until Yoongi gets back. You guys need to talk first before you 2-"

"I lost my virginity to her Y/N. It wasn't just lust. She is the only girl I love and the only girl I will do anything for. If she said she choose me, then she is. I believe her because Jieun's not a desperate clingy person like you." He said without caring what had just come out of his mouth.

"I'm going. I'm spending my time with my girlfriend now. You don't need to check up on me and tell my hyungs anything. I'll settle this myself."

As he closes the door behind him, you slide down against it, crying your eyes out. How can love be this painful? How can Jungkook hurt you, the one who had pick up the scattered parts of his heart? This isn't going to end well, you know it.

...

Your friendship with Jungkook begins to fade as day goes by. You pretend like you didn't care, but everyone noticed and they knew you do. Your colleague at the coffee shop stare at you for a long time before asking, "Hey, don't be too sad. You're going home anyways after your graduation. Why don't you try giving him a last call and told him about it?"

You turn to her and let out a sad smile. "I tried many times but he turn off his phone. He's busy you know. With practice.. and his new girlfriend, the girl of his dreams. It's okay, I fucked up anyways. He was just a temporary distraction for me here. People come and go like water," you told your colleague, making her pat your back softly.

"But don't you love him though?"

Her question caught you off guard. You went silent for a few minutes. "I did. I even mend his heart. But it wasn't the same as how she did it. She's good at fixing it with just a kiss, while I needed weeks and months to heal it. It doesn't matter anymore. He says he'll do anything for her and believe her more, that's enough for me to know that he doesn't care."

Your colleague look at you sadly. You were a kind girl. You were just a simple, college girl with glasses who work hard and happen to fall in love with your best friend slash superstar Jeon Jungkook. What an unfortunate event in your life.

Your colleague turn the TV on and the celebrity news reported that Min Yoongi of Bangtan had just return from America this morning. Yoongi looks casual and handsome as ever, with his black outfits and white mask covering his face. He was walking tiredly at Incheon Airport into the black van that is waiting for him. You remember what Jungkook told you a few weeks ago. About Jieun's plan to break up with Yoongi once he gets here. You wish the best for all 3 of them of course. You're done getting tangled in their complicated relationship, especially after Jungkook called you clingy and desperate.

Clingy and Desperate.

Your eyes let out a small tear and quickly wipe it with your apron.

"Hana, can you change the channel please?"

...

"Hyung you're back!" Hoseok waddled and hugs Yoongi tightly. He had just finish coming up with a new dance routine and is sweating from head to toe. "Hey Hoba! Gosh, I miss you guys so much! Where are all the others? Did they skip practice because I'm not here again?" he asks.

"Nah, they boys are resting. We're on break until you get back for our next comeback. Say, you're going straight home or are you going to wait for me like the kindhearted brother you are??"

Yoongi  cracked a smile. "Do you think I don't miss my girl? I'm just stopping by to get some stuff before heading to Jieun's. It's been 3 months and the video calls are enough until this point. Did you guys look after her like I told you to?"

Hoseok rolls his eyes. "She's an adult hyung! Gosh! And why would we look after her? She had her bodyguards, managers and staff to look after! Ew- now go. Go be lovey dovey with your girlfriend."

Yoongi only smile at his remarks. He took out a mickey doll he bough for Hoseok and hand it to him. "Woah! What's this.. hyung! This is limited edition, this is why I love you best hyung! Thank you!"

Yoongi cleared out his throat. "I bought a gift for each. You guys were always on my mind while I'm doing my mixtape," he told Hoseok. Hoseok beams out a smile that shows how grateful he is for having such a thoughtful brother. That was until something made him hesitate. "Uh.. hyung?"

Yoongi look at him.

"Did you buy one for.. Jungkookie too?"

Yoongi stare at him blankly, and then smile.

"Of course I did. What happened between us doesn't mean I love him less. I hope we can patch things up slowly, truth is I miss Jungkookie. It was my fault entirely for not telling him the truth from the beginning. But I hope my relationship with Jieun can be acknowledge after this. Especially by him. He is a special little dongsaeng to me Hoba," Yoongi's words were so sincere.

"I hope so too hyung. Haven't seen him much lately. He's still saying at his friend Y/N's house ever since you left for America. Maybe you should call him or went to her house to surprise him," Hoseok advises him.

"Sure do, but I'm going to my girlfriend's first. See you later Hoba," Yoongi fist bump him and Hoseok smile, waving away.

...

Yoongi went inside the posh apartment soon after he entered the pass code which is his birthday. "Babe, I'm home! Surprise!"

Usually Jieun would be in the living room watching her performance and how to improve it, or writing lyrics for her next album. Yoongi search for her in the bedroom, thinking she was probably having a shower. To his disappointment, she's not anywhere in the house.

Yoongi took out his phone and look at his reminder that had their schedule. Jieun had already finish her tour a week ago so she's really free for the next month.

"Where could she be?" He mutters to himself. He tried calling her, but it was send straight to her voicemail. Yoongi dialed for someone and he let out a huge sigh of relief when the person pick it up.

[Oh! Yoongi ah! How are you??]

It was Jieun's manager, Kyungsang.

"Hey hyung, I'm great! It's been a while," Yoongi smile to himself. "Hyung, is Jieun with you? Did she go out and have dinner at bizarre restaurants again? Can you please tell her to pick up her phone? I've been dying to see her."

[Oh? But I haven't seen her for a while. She gave me a break ever since she started her concert tours and I'm taking care of my grandma right now,] Kyungsang told him and he heard the coughing of an old woman at the back. Yoongi bit her lip.

"Ah.. really hyung? Okay, so sorry to bother you. I'll try looking for her myself. Did you happen to know where she's staying after the tour ended? I bet she's having fun in the pool at a hotel or something." Yoongi smile stupidly as he said this, knowing Jieun's likes and dislikes were really one of his things now.

Kyungsang wonder for a while. [Last I heard, she told me she's staying at M hotel near Gocheok Dome. That's all I know, didn't know if she's still staying there though.]

Yoongi thanked the loyal manager and turn off his phone. He was about to put it in his pocket before remembering maybe he should stop by your place to give Jungkook his shoes. He contemplates for a few second before cancelling what he intend to do, putting his girlfriend first above all.

...

"Fuck, fuck, yes, faster- Yes Jungkook, you deserve me baby, ah! That's it- ah yes, that's so good baby, cum for me," Jieun encourage Jungkook's erratic thrust under the sheets. He had his mouth on one of her breast, nibbling on it hungrily.

Jungkook knew it was wrong, but Jieun's seductive ways of convincing him that he was all she wanted was too much for him.

For the past few weeks, he had never been happier. Although they only get to stay at the hotel to keep their relationship a secret, it was more than enough for Jungkook. He loves Jieun too much and if waiting for Yoongi is the only thing standing between his and Jieun's love, he was willing to do this everyday. During the times he was at the hotel, while waiting for Jieun to finish her showers or cooking, Jungkook can feel his guilt by ignoring your text. Of course, he misses you but his pride is too big to acknowledge his mistake. That is why he prefer staying with Jieun all the time like a golden retriever.

Jungkook thrust slowly, making sure he's appreciating every inch of her body.

"Harder baby, we've been doing this everyday, are you still afraid of hurting me?" Jieun whisper in his ears and kisses his lips. Jungkook eyed his dream girl underneath him lovingly.

"You're so beautiful noona, fuck I love you," Jungkook told her but Jieun just replied with a smirk. "Faster Kookie, I need to cum, fuck you're still so hard baby, give me your cum hmm? My good boy," she moans, her hair sprawled gorgeously on the pillow. Her palms grabs Jungkook's firm ass and push himself deeper in her.

Jungkook begin to thrust at an inhuman speed, his face buried in Jieun's neck.

"Ah- you're so tight noona, I'm going to- I'm going to- fuck-"

Jieun held his cheeks, breathing heavily, "Me too baby, cum, cum for me, oh, yes! Yes! "

Just before they both climaxed, the door to the bedroom burst open, stopping both of then from their sinful act. Jungkook cover Jieun with his body, thinking it was her management team or room service since he forgot to lock the door earlier but to their horror.. it was Yoongi.

His pale face was paler, he looks angry, disappointed and sad all mixed in one. His sharp eyes showed a hint of sadness of this immoral betrayal between the girl he loves and his little brother.

"Yoongs, this isn't- this isn't what it looks like.. I can explain! I- I was lonely! And- and after our fight-"

But Jieun's panic voice was cut short. Yoongi dropped the gifts in his hands and threw it on the carpet floor where Jungkook and Jieun's underwear were lying around.

"Fuck you Jungkook. Fuck you too Jieun. We're over. Congratulations Kook, you can finally have her," Yoongi hissed and stop out of the room. Jungkook was glad to hear what he said since to him Yoongi is making it easier, but Jieun panicked and quickly pick up her undergarments, putting on her clothes.

"Noona, where are you going? We're free to date now. Yoongi hyung had let you go-"

"Shut up Jungkook! Fuck, how can I miss today's date?! Fuck fuck fuck, I need to settle this matter, Yoongs baby, wait! I can explain, please!" She snapped at him. Jungkook didn't understand. Wasn't this the point after all? For them to break up because she chooses him?

"Noona, but you said you choose me-"

But Jieun was gone.

Jungkook stare at the door, hugging his knees close to his chest and hear his heart broke for the second time by her.

...

"Who is it?"

The voice didn't answer. You went to your front door and cursed yourself for not having a door with a peeling hole. You standby with a baseball bat and swiftly open the door when Jungkook's sad eyes met yours.

"Kook? What are you doing here? I-"

"I'm so sorry Y/N. I'm sorry.. You were right, I'm just a sex toy to her! Y/N, it hurts.. it hurts so much.. I'm in so much pain right now.." he cried and cried endlessly. Jungkook's hair were a mess, you notice the bite mark and lipstick stain on his neck which made your heart crack but who are you kidding? You just can't push him away. With your heart barred open once more, you reach for his face and pull him in your embrace.

"It's okay Jungkook.. I forgive you. Hey, don't cry.. it's alright.." you cradle him into your arms. Jungkook's sniff got louder and his tears broke your heart once more so you wipe it with your fingers.

Again, you bring him to your couch, picking up the shattered pieces of his heart left by Jieun. Jungkook spend the night at yours, and teary apologize for everything and told you everything that had happen. You were angry of course, and now you know what kind of person Jungkook's dream girl truly is. You told yourself it's not wrong of you to hate her before, because she is totally a bitch.

Days after the incident, you called Hoseok and told him what had happen. Hoseok told you that Yoongi's been locking up in his bedroom and not eating and Jieun kept banging at the door to let her see him. You told Hoseok that Jungkook is staying with you for a while, recovering from the empty promise Jieun made him. Hoseok understands and says it's the best for him to stay at yours, since shit's just got real.

What Jungkook did was wrong, and he had realize that. He wanted to apologize to Yoongi, but you advice him maybe its best to let things cool down for a while since cheating is just.. unforgivable and what Jungkook and Jieun did wasn't once, but for weeks since Yoongi was gone.

You begin to cook for Jungkook again, care for him and listens to his heartfelt vent. Every time he cried, you'll always hug his head close to your heart and told him it's going to be alright, he, Yoongi and Jieun just needs some time apart from each other. You were trying your best to make Jungkook happy, since you knew you won't be able to do this anymore in another few weeks. You had just graduated and is going home, but Jungkook fails to notice how clean your house are and how some stuff were missing from its original place.

One night when Jungkook fell asleep on your lap during the nights you guys watch TV together, you stare at his peaceful sleeping face. Though your own heart was broken by him before, you were still so determined to tell him how much he means to you before you left. You smile sadly and made up some plans in your head before falling asleep as well.

...

"Didn't you say you're scared of the lake during the night?" Jungkook ask softly. His voice were so melodious you had foolishly given your heart again.

"I know, but there's something important I meed to tell you tonight, and I can't delay it much longer. Come on, I rented this boat just to cheer you up despite my fear," you chuckle lightly earning a grin from him. Jungkook intertwine his fingers with yours which made you blush and you 2 made your way to the deck.

"It's so beautiful tonight," Jungkook utters, staring at the starlight surrounding you two. "Come on, get in, I'm right behind you," he adds. You smile and held onto his biceps. Gosh, you won't ask for more from god if you just got to keep him all to yourself.

"Shouldn't we wear the safety jacket though?" You ask him. Jungkook looked around. "Nobody's wearing it anyways, besides if something happens I'll save you," he said. As you sit at one end of the boat, Jungkook put one leg inside carefully.

He was about to get in when his phone rang.

You read the expression on his face and immediately knew who it is.

"Y/N.."

"It's her isn't it? Turn it off Kook, you know she's just messing with you. What does she wants now? Did Yoongi really abandoned her after what she did? Then serves her right!" You scolded him. Jungkook's bright face earlier turns dim. You knew, though you lied to yourself, you knew Jungkook wanted to pick up the call.

"Kook, you're hurting yourself. She doesn't care about your feelings.. please Kook," you tried to talk him out of it. Jungkook's doe eyes contemplates. You inhaled a heavy sigh.

"Pick up, hear what she had to say, and turn her down like she did you. Kook you deserve so much better, but I know you still can't get over her. Just.. pick up if that's what you really want to do," you gave up. No matter what you advice him, you knew Jungkook is still clinging to what could have been between him and Jieun.

"Hello, yes noona..?"

"..."

"What?"

"..."

"No! Don't do that! Stay put! Don't you dare harm yourself!"

"...!"

Then he put his phone in the back of his pocket. You wait for his explanation. Jungkook look at you who was sitting inside the boat.

This was the 1st time you begged him. If this don't work as well, you will really give up on him.

"Y/N.. Jieun noona is in trouble. She sounded drunk.. and she was saying something about taking her life, I had to- I'm so sorry Y/N, I had to check on her condition-"

You gulped heavily and stare at him under your glassy eyes. "No matter what her condition is, you run to her the moment she needs you as if someone else can't be there for her. Jeon Jungkook, I only have you. I needed you more than she did, Jungkook please.. just for tonight, stay with me," you begged him weakly.

Jungkook's heart was heavy. You had never beg before. Something about the way your voice sounded so weak and that you needed him more made him immensely guilty. But he can't ignore the phone call with Jieun as well. It would be a lie to say that he doesn't love her anymore, because he still did.

You saw the hesitant in his eyes and voice out once again, "Just for once Jungkook, please, choose me."

Jungkook clench his fist.

"But.. I'm sorry Y/N, Jieun noona- I'm sorry! I'll be right back! I promise, I-"

"Go."

That was the last word you said to him before he run as fast as he can to the parking lot, driving like a maniac to reach the girl who had been giving him nothing but pain and heartbreak. You sat still in the boat, hugging your knees close to your chest and sob out loud, mentally cursing yourself on being stupid just like he did.

While your heart breaks, the boat begin to follow the river's current.

...

When Jungkook rush into the room, Jieun was neither trying to harm herself, or drunk. She was just crying about Yoongi and saying sorry to Jungkook for she realize he was the only one who cared for her when she calls. She told him she did called Yoongi, but it has been days and still he didn't want to see her. Jungkook puts her on her bed but then she reach for his neck and kisses him passionately. Jungkook, being a hot blooded young man with still having some left over feelings for her return the favor and they ended up having sex again.

Jungkook was the first to wake up the next morning.

"Hmmmp, you're so good Kookie. Last night was amazing," Jieun moans as she gave Jungkook a kiss on his shoulder, her naked back turning the other way to check on her phone.

This time, Jungkook feels different. Her kisses were cold, her words were empty, her touch was no longer loving. He stare at the ceiling as he remembered your face, desperately telling him not to go to her again but he doesn't listen.

Maybe this time it would be different. Maybe this time-

Jieun's phone rang. 

She looked at the caller and look at Jungkook before taking the call in her bathroom. Jungkook waited patiently, though his heart felt somewhat strange. After what it feels like eternity, Jieun came out of the bathroom in her bathrobe, fidgeting with the phone in her hand. Jungkook saw the way she bit her lips and her pupil dilated.

"Jungkook, ah.. this might sound uncomfortable.. but.. can you leave? Please? I'm so sorry. Yoongi.. he decided to give me a second chance."

Jungkook smirk loudly. He push the quilt that was covering his naked body and reach for his pants and shirts. He felt like a complete idiot for still wasting his time on her. How could he blew out last night? How could he leave you for.. for this girl he though was his dream. 

She was a fucking mistake! A huge fucking mistake!

"Kookie.. I'm really sorry.. I though-"

Jungkook button his shirt, turning to her. "I fucking hate you. You used to be my dream girl noona. I believe everything you said. I even give myself to you. But you're selfish. All you knew was hurting people. Trust me, you and Yoongi hyung? He too wouldn't last with you. Good luck finding your new boy toy once you had a fight with him. Don't fucking contact me for your useless need anymore. We're done," he hissed at her. Jieun's face turned red.

"What the hell?? You think I'm some kind of slut Jungkook? Whoring around like I had nothing to do?? For fuck's sake I'm human too, grow up! You replied to my advance! Yes, it was my mistake to forgo my feelings for a while and slip into the moment, but I love Yoongi! I'm sorry I can't love you like I did him and I'm sorry I promise you a lot of things but seeing how immature you're handling this, I think I made the right decision by choosing Yoongi!" Jieun's words were like venom to his heart.

Jungkook couldn't believe it. A woman with such beautiful face had such vicious heart.

"You're no slut.. you're just the spawn of satan herself. Goodbye noona, thanks for giving me such a valuable lesson in my life," he told her, feeling disgusted with himself. Jieun screamed at him but Jungkook had already left her house and out of her life.

He took out his phone, calling for you, but you it reached your voicemail.

"I'm sorry Y/N. I’m so stupid! I love you. You're the one I wanted. I'm sorry for realizing my stupid feelings for you after a while. I'm sorry, I'm coming darling. I'm coming for you," Jungkook told himself repeatedly, driving to your house in a hurry.

When he reached for your house, it was empty. Your dirty coffee mug wasn't on the table and your house was eerily silent. Jungkook never notice, as he was so busy mopping around his life but then he realize that some of your things are missing. He called you again but each time he did, it only went to the voice mail.

"Where are you Y/N? Please pick up, I know who I'm supposed to love now," he mutters desperately, hoping you would still accept him after what he had done last night.

For 4 hours, Jungkook waited at your living room, thinking you're just out during some errands. He paced back and forth, sitting, then standing, waiting for you to just walk at that front door. Just as he was about to leave, the door to your house click open and Jungkook was about to hug you when he realize it was not you who had opened the door.

"Hana?"

Hana blinked her eyes rapidly. "YOU? What- what are you doing here?"

Jungkook let out a smile. "Oh thank god! I was about to go crazy waiting for Y/N! Is she at the coffee shop? Did she tell you to pick her stuff? I need to see her! Hana I know who I'm supposed to be with now! Y/N! I love her! Gosh! I'm an idiot right?? Gosh, how am I so blind before?"

Hana's eyes were sad and full of dark circles. She gave him a glare and didn't understand what craziness is Jungkook talking about. As your colleague, Hana knew how ignorant Jungkook is, but this is too much. His ignorance is just way past its limit. "You asshole."

Jungkook look at her, "Huh?"

Hana pushed him away. 

"You asshole. How can you say all this? How can you proudly say all this after what you did to her? Rot in hell Jungkook! You don't deserve to live. You should be the one who died, not Y/N. Get out of her house, this was only a refugee for you when she's around. She's not anymore. All thanks to you. Bastard!"

Jungkook couldn't catch up with what she's talking about. She's kidding, right?

"Hey Hana.. I know you're mad. I know I am an asshole but don't punish me like this. It's not funny okay. What are you talking about anyways? You're crazy.."

"You don't believe me? Are you looking at what I'm wearing Jeon Jungkook?? I'm here to get some of Y/N's beloved stuff so I can attend her funeral and pay my respect to her families! This is the least I can do! You know whose crazy? You! You're the one whose crazy! For leaving her like that! Fuck you! Get off of me!" Hana yelled at him and pushed him away.

Jungkook's blood runs cold. He reached for Hana's shoulder and turn her around. "STOP JOKING! WHERE IS Y/N?! YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU THINK I DON'T KNOW HER PARENT'S ADDRESS?! I'll go to her house, your stupid prank won't work on me," Jungkook stubbornly pull out his phone where he had your parent's address in his notes.

He scrolled for a while and found it.

Hana rolled her eyes at him disgustedly. "Go, go see for herself with what you've done to Y/N. She loves you Jungkook. She had a whole life ahead of her but she was always busy listening to your stupid problems and mending your broken heart. She was still with you even when you bashed her away for loving someone who keeps on fooling you day in and day out. Did you know why she did that? Because she loves you. With her whole heart. But you.. why did she even waste her time on someone like you, I would never know."

Jungkook couldn't believe his ears. He didn't wait another minute. He ran down the stairs and jump into his car, quickly driving to your parent's house.

...

Jungkook's heart patter once he turn off the engine to his car. He saw a lot of people coming into your house. All of them wearing black. Jungkook's hands trembled.

No, no, Hana can't be serious. He had just met you last night! Maybe.. yes maybe its another person. Maybe someone, a cousin or your family members. Jungkook step out of his car, heart pumping loudly. He walk pass through more and more people who were coming to your house, some of them silently crying, some of them sobbing.

"Y/N, I'm here."

He took a deep breath and step inside your house, where he saw your parents crying at the corner of the room. Your brother was bowing at everyone who came and they were offering their condolences to him and your parents. The house was filled with people wearing black. Jungkook was the only one wearing a white shirt. His bangs covered his doe eyes, his pupil shaking while looking around for any sight of you.

That's when he saw you.

He almost smiled, when he realize how pale you looked like. He almost ran to hug you when he realize how your eyes were closed, sleeping peacefully in the coffin beside your parents. Jungkook fell to the floor. The other guest look at him in surprise.

"No.. no.. Y/N.. no that.. that can't be her.." he mutter to himself, trying hard to convince that the beautiful lifeless girl in the coffin wasn't you. Your brother saw this and excuse himself from the guest, helping Jungkook up from his current state.

"Jungkook," you brother held him by the shoulder. Jungkook's big eyes didn't move from you. "You made it. Thank you, for coming all the way here. I heard that you didn't know about Y/N's passing. We were still in shock too."

Your brother's explanation was not enough. Jungkook trembles, his teeth chattering, "Ho- how hyung? She.. I just saw her last night! Hyung! What happen?! Y/N! She can't leave me like this!"

Your brother calmed him down by making him sit at the furthest corner of the room. "Y/N.. She- she drowned while canoeing. That's what the authority tell us. The boat she took, it- I'm so sorry Jungkook but she's gone, my sister's gone," your brother told him tearfully. Jungkook couldn't believe what he was hearing. Last night, when he left you at the boat.. you didn't go home?

"When they pulled her out of the water.. she looks so pale. As if she's been in there for a long time. The police told me that she wasn't wearing a life jacket, and I know my sister is not a good swimmer, she must have drowned all by herself.."

"NO.. no that can't be- you're joking right?! No- she she can't be!"

Jungkook tried so hard to deny the fact. He couldn't look at how you were lying in the coffin so lifelessly while holding a water hyacinth in your hand. He couldn't accept the fact that it was he who made you died. 

He’s a murderer. It was his fault that you've drowned. Your brother tried to calmed him down, but Jungkook ran to your coffin, holding your cold face frantically.

"Y/N? Y/N, darling wake up! You're playing with me right? Where is her glasses?? She can't see without her glasses! Please anyone! Where is her glasses?!"

Your parents cried harder at Jungkook's outburst. Your brother and a few of your cousins pulled him away from you while he screams for them to let him go. "She's gone Jungkook, she's gone-"

"NO! Y/N! NO! Y/N! PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME! I LOVE YOU Y/N! PLEASE! CALL MY NAME ONE MORE TIME Y/N! PLEASE!"

But it was all too late. You were gone, and Jungkook were in such a great shock that he didn't eat, didn't sleep, didn't talk properly after your death. Even years after your passing, Jungkook was never the same. Nobody knew what’s going on in his mind, because he talks less and thinks about you to the point of madness. He was still in trauma because he knew the last thing you have was a bad memory of him, and how you loved him and still be with him despite everything he did.

He regret that you died because of him, and you died without hearing that he wants to be with you too.

🌸

[purrbangtann]

All mine.

Fallen angel!Yandere!Jungkook x Angel oc

Warnings: mentions of blood, Dark yandere themes, non-con touching (not sexual), crying, Jungkook is a total psycho, mention of cut off body part (angel wings), this is hella short and written at 1AM by a mentally unstable writer y’all.

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Disclaimer; this is purely fiction, I do not believe that any of the Bts members engage in such activities, and Please don’t romanticize this type of behavior, it is toxic💁‍♀️.

Context: Fallen angel Jungkook falls in love with Aurora, a bpoc with ethereal looks that radiate all over.

He didn’t think he was obsessed with her, he just had this overwhelming feeling that he had to protect her from the ugly world they were in.

I mean..maybe his feelings just processed in a different way. Yeah that must be it..I mean he layed awake thinking about Aurora and her beautiful hair, he keeps reimagining different hairstyles for her.

She’d sometimes have braids, twists, faux locs and so on. (He even learned all the terms just to impress her). But the one he loved most..oh it just had to be when she dyed her hair a sweet cinnamon color. The warm autumn color really captured her essence and Jungkook’s breath.

He simply loved seeing her from afar, at the park, at the school, in her garden or at nighttime when she’d forget to close her curtains…unconsciously granting Jungkook more access to her than he should have.

Sometimes Aurora would walk with her wings out, it was the only thing she wasn’t insecure about.

Jungkook loved and hated them at the same time, He always had a bitter feeling stirring up his gut when he saw them. He’d be reminded of his rank in comparison to Aurora’s, how could a mere fallen angel, disgrace of society, ever be able to attain such a beauty? She was untouchable after all. They were too different from each other.

For a moment our fallen angel recognized his weird behavior, but did he go against it? No. Not since he saw that asshole Eunwoo hold her hand.

She betrayed him, so he warmly took his unhealthy obsession and let it devour him.

I just want her to be mine.

Safe.

Even if it meant he had to go to extreme lengths to do so.

He’d threaten her potential partners and even kidnapped some.

Mind you, Aurora doesn’t even know him💀

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Lets gerrit😝

“Aurora, my beautiful Aurora.” He said as he caressed the trembling girl’s cinnamon dyed hair.

His soft voice sent chills to her fractured spine.

His shiny doe eyes looked into Aurora’s terrified ones, she flinched as he let out a small sigh, “You see what happens when you don’t listen?”

She fell to her knees and screeched, the excruciating pain that piqued her upper back over and over continuously, seemed to suck out all her energy and force it back into her body.

Aurora whimpered quietly as her eyes couldn’t push out any more tears.

The high pitched noise that came out of her mouth made the room shake, not physically but her angelic aura was all over the place, suffocating the atmosphere and cracking the old glass cabinet in the corner of her room.

Jungkook sighed as he saw his foolish darling be an ingrate to his protectiveness, he glanced at the large gold plated dagger that layed beside her. “It’ll be okay.” He consoled.

She coughed, and started crawling towards the beautiful pair of pearl wings that once were attached to her back.

“My…” she whispered.

She softly mewled and let go.

She had let go of the life she once had,

The one that was undeservingly stripped away from her.

She gripped the bloodstained lilac carpet that contrasted her colored skin.

“No…no no…not me, please.” She whispered.

The blood pouring started to slow down, and so did her breathing.

The man smirked as her pupils started to grow bigger and bigger, signaling that they were finally becoming alike.

He crouched down to her level and cupped one of her cheeks with his bloodstained hands,

“I’m sorry for this sweetheart, but it’s the only way I could ever fix you….

By breaking you.”