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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 2 months ago

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None of our hands are clean

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jin guangshan #mianmian #The secret meaning behind one of the jin members scuttling off is:#I couldn't make three people work out in the remaining panels and per my rule of '3 attempts and take a different approach' he had to go.#Sometimes there are meaningful reasons why something happens in the background. And sometimes it is like this.#Let's just say he saw what was about to happen and got out of there before mianmian started throwing hands.#Okay no more delay. The sheer boldness to call WWX a killer in a room full of people who wear their war body count as a badge...#It's about hypocrisy yes - but it is also about how the narrative shifts on the same action depending on the frame.#Because at the end of the day...the blood on our hands is still blood on our hands.#Both the deaths on the battlefield and the deaths of the Jin's abusing the Wen remnants are still deaths caused by another.#They are also deaths that - depending who holds the frame - are noble acts to protect others.#But it isn't supposed to be about who was right and who was wrong.#It is about the need to be seen as the victim to avoid culpability.#Because if you aren't responsible you don't have to be held accountable. You don't have to grow or change.#If someone takes all the blame then there is no need to reflect on your own faults.#We have to protect our fragile ego from the mirror lest it shatter and we have to remake it anew.#Horrifically enough...even if WWX spared the Jin guards or even never ran into Wen Qing #He wouldn't have been able to escape being the scapegoat. He downfall was set into motion a long time ago.#My goodness...What a deliciously tragic story Wei Wuxian's first life was.

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thereisabearonmyceiling · 2 months ago

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shaded citadel

#guess what game i've been playing way too much lately!#rain world #rain world fanart #rw monk #lumi's swag art #it would be so funny if it turns out this actually isn't shaded citadel #cause i did Not check i just drew a random screenshot i had lying around #anyway. rain world fun. even if it took like 10 years off my life expectancy to beat it the first time #and it will probably keep taking more

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monicaeidolith · 5 months ago

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it's been 8 years and she's still down bad for her neighbor (who wouldn't)

and so there she is: Step 3 Athena! 🌙✨

Step 1 & Step 2 here

(Infos about Athena in every steps except 4 below if you're interested)

(watch out it's long.)

Step 1 -

At 10, Athena is a very curious girl, somewhat nosey and a bit clumsy (main reason why she often has bandages). She likes puzzles, creepy stuff and drawing (but nothing that serious about that hobby yet). While she isn't very shy, she's still uneasy around people she doesn't know and moving to a new town isn't helping. She has trouble accepting changes, and this whole situation is a way too big change.

Athena is very close to her mom during step 1. Unfortunately for her, she doesn't really look like her that much and she's kind of bothered by that, especially because the person she obviously looks like, her "dad", isn't there. Not having a dad isn't really a huge problem for her, but Athena fears a little bit people's opinion on that subject: "Is it weird that I don't have a dad...?".

She's feeling sad and scared about moving out, as she has to get used to a completely different world (in her eyes). "At least I have my mom", she thinks. But if moving in Golden Grove was scary at first, meeting Qiu and Tamarack was a huge help for Athena to feel included.

She thinks Qiu, aka "Autumn", is funny but also a huge show-off, haha. She LOVES to tease Qiu. But Athena's also genuinely worried about Qiu sometimes, because that kid is a huge people-pleaser.

When it comes to Tamarack, man... Athena totally puts this girl on a pedestal. She thinks Tamarack is amazing and pretty. And should Tamarack say anything positive about Athena, you can be certain the latter will go crazy internally. At 10, Athena doesn't realize she actually has a huge crush on Tamarack yet, though.

Step 2 -

At 14, Athena became a sort of troublemaker, she barely cares about rules. She's not mean but she grew to be more blunt and direct than she was as a 10-year-old, this and her current appearance make her seem unapproachable. However she kept her soft side, a side that she ironically doesn't even keep that much hidden but that you still have to deserve. If at 10 she would often have bandages because of her clumsiness, at 14, it's mostly because she's reckless. Some things that remained are her love for puzzles, creepy stuff and drawing, in fact, she started to get interested in visual arts.

In fact, the tough side of her personality grew when her first group friends with Qiu and Tamarack slowly fell apart. She couldn't do anything to prevent that from happening, so she felt like she had to toughen up. But to be honest, she's becoming tired of being the sole link between them, she's barely trying to now. Maybe Qiu and Tamarack won't become friends again. She has to accept it... but maybe Athena still has troubles accepting changes, no matter how old she is, after all.

Despite all that, Athena still treats both of them nicely. She still teases Qiu whenever she can (watch out Athena, the teasing could backfire on you). Her worries about them are still present too, but for different reasons than in step 1. Even 4 years later, Athena still retrieve Qiu's lost papers because they would NOT do it themselves. No matter what, Autumn remains her dear friend and the feeling is mutual.

Tamarack, aka "Tam", is her best friend! ... and the girl she has a crush on, Athena realized it now. Athena doesn't know if Tam feels the same way or not, though. Athena still thinks Tamarack is the most amazing and most talented person out there, she wishes Tam could see it too. She's highly worried about Tamarack potentially leaving Golden Grove at any moment but she tries to hide it from Tamarack. "Tam probably has enough of people walking on eggshells with her", she thinks. Athena dislikes Tamarack's parents for not only never being there for their daughter but also for making her situation so uncertain, only for their own interests (in her eyes).

Another feeling started to grow: jealousy. Athena will feel jealous of anyone who seems a bit too close to Tamarack. Does she think she's no match for Tamarack? Yes. Does that stop her from being jealous? No. She knows she has no right to be, Tamarack is a wonderful girl, it's impossible not to like her, but she can't help it.

Athena grew to be even more bothered by her lack of resemblance with her mother. Some times before turning 14, she started to dye her hair cranberry, just like her mom's hair color (let's say Opal didn't really like to see that her daughter started dyeing her hair at her young age, reaction Athena didn't appreciate, all she wanted was to look like her mom, what's the problem?). Ironically, while Athena wishes so hard to look like her mom, her relationship with her became somewhat strained. As if resembling a completely unknown guy wasn't enough. Living his best life nowhere to be found, uh? Resentment is the word here. Never towards her mom, even if their relationship is not that good at this point, but towards this guy who gave her his physical traits she never wanted and started to despise.

At least she became used to live in Golden Grove.

Step 3 -

At 18, Athena is not the rough troublemaker that she was at 14 anymore. Now she's more like a silly prankster, seemingly always up to something more stupid than before, although she remains reckless and blunt (but less on purpose and more out of habit). Of course, her interest in visual arts remained intact. Her liking for creepy stuff turned into a huge love for horror and its aesthetic.

Her relationship with her mom is getting better than it was 4 years ago. Athena grew out of the resentment she had for her "dad" during step 2 and learned to accept she may not look that much like her mom, but that it doesn't cancel the fact she's Opal's daughter no matter how she looks. Plus "some bits of [Opal] did end up in [her]" after all, right?

Athena's relationship with Autumn is what you could describe as "siblings by hearts", Athena does consider them as the sibling she never had.

Athena and Tamarack are still officially "besties for life", but little do they know that they both ended up falling in love with each other, plain and simple.

Her jealousy and resentment did tone down, but when she thinks back to her 14-year-old self, she feels bad, so bad. For being jealous of Tamarack's friends, for being resentful of a random donor and basically making many things about herself. "Man, I was such a prick. And for what?".

If when she was 14, Athena felt like she was no match for Tamarack because she put Tam on a pedestal, at 18, she now thinks she's simply not good enough as a person for Tamarack. She kind of "accepted" that if Tamarack only wants to be friends, then it's fine, she cannot force Tam to love her back. It's silly to think someone like her could be extra-special in Tam's heart anyway (girl if you knew.), it's nice enough to be her best friend.

Between step 2 and 3, Athena managed to put a label on herself: she's lesbian.

#I hope her story isn't too wacky or simply poorly written aha #also I hope there isnt any typo I havent seen #some parts sound like I was writing a fic from Athena's POV lmao #english is not my first language can you tell #tbh with y'all I didn't really want to add the jealousy option in my story at first #but it grew on me when I remembered the *MC* could be jealous too and realized it could add depth to Athena's character #she can and will be a cringe and petty teenager #I'm not even sure all my little story about Athena feeling like the worst piece of shit ever for her behavior during step 2 #could be even mentionned in the final game but I'll keep it as is until further notice #I admit I want to stick to canon as much as possible but I'll treat myself on this one #“siblings by hearts” really feels like I'm taking the “family” status too literally but I swear I'm not #about Tam and Athena I like when the slowburn is slowing hard #and when they're too stupid for this world #our life now and forever #olnf #tamarack baumann #qiu lin #olnf mc #athena suzuki #my drawing

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ministarfruit · 9 months ago

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straya outfit swap

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cozylittleartblog · 6 months ago

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chat imma be honest that project diva PC release has had lasting consequences ,

#vocaloid #hatsune miku #art #doodles #dat me #comic #ms paint #life is paint #i should get in on that animation meme. for my obligatory july animation that i always get possessed to do.#i sourced these sonas from my actual old art on my deviantart and here on tumblr. weeps #this blog is too ooooooold #10 years old ..................#technically the ipod isn't dead but the battery is shot so it only holds charge for maybe a half hour if you use it #i still have it. it lives in my desk. i just charged it for the first time in 7 years a few months ago so i could rebuilt my #authentic middle school vocaloid playlist as a youtube playlist. AND add to it #268 songs and counting! there could be even more on here but i had to delete some in middle school cuz my ipod could only hold 8 gb #My ipod was literally filled to the brim with vocaloid. I had to delete some 50 songs over time so if i didn't i would be over 300 now #do you guys remember the chunky rubber wrist bands of the late 2000s and early 2010s. miss those

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mbirnsings-71 · 10 days ago

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Struggled with today's art but I have to draw Scar Daily or I implode basically- also Ren for @pup-pee because I have to practice drawing him and Martyn after all-

Also I think Non-dog hybrid Ren is cursed but like it's what we're working with here we're balling-

#WAaDW AU :>#fanart #scarian #desert duo #hermitshipping #trafficshipping #rendog #renthedog #<- I don't even feel like I should be using this tag cause he isn't a dog at this point LIKE SKVNDFd #also implied Treebark but you wouldn't know unless I explicitly said it from the images alone so yeah #something something Ren's Red Glasses are actually prescription because I refuse to draw that man without them #trafficblr #traffic smp #traffic series #traffic life #life series #life smp #life series smp #Madi's art :>#I have so much info on this AU guys it's not even funny but I won't start writing it til next year CAUSE I HAVE SOMETHING I NEED TO EDIT AN #POST BEFORE I START TRYING TO WRITE A MULTI-CHAPTER STORY THANKS #I'm shaking my AU so fast and the only people that know shit about it are Ru and Jay and I'm soooooo I wanna spill everything BUT CAN'T AAA #my curse as an artist is to draw the scenes in my head that I have planned for my story and just DIE IG #Maybe if I actually like write the chapter the first two doodles is from I'll clean up that drawing okay okay okay #OKAY I'M GONNA STOP RAMBLING NOW BECAUSE AT THIS POINT I'LL JUST SPILL ALL MY SECRETS AAAAAAAAAAAAA #AH SHIT I FORGOT THE OTHER TAGS #goodtimeswithscar #grian #gtws fanart #grian fanart

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shannonsketches · 9 months ago

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Why is the anime so weird, it's not even the same series dude?? It's like,

Anime:

GOKU: I have a great idea to bring peace to the universe, and my leadership and compassion alone will unite us all. I have No Flaws and am A True Relatable Everyman :)

VEGETA: NO! I AM THE BEST AND I WILL CAUSE PROBLEMS UNTIL I AM RECOGNIZED AS SUCH!!!!

Manga:

GOKU: Vegeta what's cornmeal made of? I know it's what the corn eats, but what's it made of? VEGETA: Hey Kakarot let's play the quiet game until one of us dies.

#dbtag #I do not understand this writing it's so bad aklsdlkasjd #Toei wants Goku to be Clark Kent SO bad and he SO isn't lmao #they're so good and dumb and rounded and complex in the manga what is the anime so afraid of #Toriyama said 'no no this man is a detached faux-immortal who has a dear pure heart but he's childlike and selfish even though he's kind'#and toei went 'got it goku's never done anything wrong ever in his life'#toriyama said 'Vegeta's gone through a lot and he's finally settling into his more mature leadership role with the confidence he's earned'#and toei said 'got it vegeta has the confidence of a high school bully except now he can interact with his family as a comedy bit'#girl hWHAT #Toei trying to group Goku and Vegeta as two people who would rather train than be with their families and Toriyama said NO Vegeta wants #to be HOME this is the first time in years that he's HAD ONE and it makes him HAPPY to be with his wife and children!!#Vegeta trains so that he can protect the things he doesn't want to lose again and Goku trains because it's the thing that makes him happies #They are NOT the same lmao And yeah Vegeta still wants to beat Goku but he also knows that Gohan could dogwalk both of them if he wanted #He also knows Trunks and Goten are going to surpass them it's not about being the best anymore he's past that he just wants to Not Need Gok #He just doesn't want to have to rely on Goku to save the day he wants to be Enough on his own he just wants to know he can be #because every time it's mattered he WASN'T and people he loved were lost to his inability to protect them and he carries that #Like Whis diagnosed him with anxiety and cptsd out in the open and Beerus said he was self-centered for feeling guilt #+ he lowkey enjoys the rivalry it keeps him goal-oriented so he can't get complacent and lazy which is what triggered his Buu Saga breakdow #realized how Fucked Up it was that having a home and loving family made him feel like he was failing and went 'wait no I won actually??'#now he's chill as fuck in the manga. cool confident leader.#and sometimes he is childish and dumb with Goku as a treat #you know what rocks about his rivalry with Goku in Super though is that it's Playful. Vegeta is learning how to Play.#You ever seen a shelter dog get introduced to a really playful dog and it takes a minute for the shelter dog to understand it's safe here #And then they're both running around the backyard playing hot potato with one braincell?? That's Goku and Vegeta's relationship #and the way the anime sleeps on that dynamic is so fucking criminal especially when it's literally canon it's in print it's out there #you had the playbook how'd you fumble it this bad #anyway that's my 25+ year blorbo thoughts I love Geets a lot okay #And I love Goku in the manga a lot I'd forgotten that he's actually a great character when Toei's not fucking up his whole vibe

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catboyaramaki · 1 year ago

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Quick drawing for Ky's birthday. I hope he explodes

#ky kiske #sin kiske #dizzy guilty gear #Sol badguy #guilty gear #art #if it isn't obvious I draw strive ky with long hair(first time I ever even drew ky in my life)#says the ky kiske icon

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kawaii-kushami · 10 days ago

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having one of those mid-20s moments where you're like well damn. im really not a teenager anymore i dont hate myself anymore actually. like its insane

sorry i gotta ramble but this feels too silly to post anywhere else

#kk.txt #not snz #like for a while even the thought of like admitting i didn't hate myself felt like.. like i was being full of myself #idk what clicked in my brain a few years ago but it felt like i started to see myself more and like understand myself as a person #like i would a friend. and i just didn't think like that before i guess lmao #but like idk i dont talk about my personal life much but ive been recovering from post-pandemic agoraphobia #and i just went on my first big trip alone and im like. god its barely there anymore its just a little shadow in the corner of my mind #that only spreads occasionally now instead of overwhelming me #like im still terrible at a lot a lot a lot of social interaction type stuff but im like.. doing better than i thought id be able to #a few years ago. like idk im not good at.. change and especially conceptualizing myself as someone who can change and be fluid #like i really do think a majority of my person like my core morals and demeanor havent changed that much. and i like that #it makes me feel more secure to be that way #but at the same time its like my mental image isn't nearly as self hating as it used to be #like i used to picture myself as coming off basically the same way as that girl from watamote lmao like #ugly greasy awkward offputting weird #but now im like.. im just some guy... like yeah i have less experience putting effort into my appearance and i slouch and i have acne #but i am also capable of looking good occasionally. i dont need to do it all the time #ok i got off the bus and my train of thought died goodbye

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envolvenuances · 2 days ago

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mentioned Ibe in the previous post so in case anyone doesn't know him he is a doctor who makes medical illustrations showing black people.

and my personal favourite:

#dengue one is personal yeah I got comments on how at least it doesn't look so bad on my skin #because lighskin as I am rash still looks more brown than bright pink on me. but we associate it with the bright pink spots #even if it's mainly pardas and black women catching it so yeah it changed something in me seeing a black man in the drawing #it's not by him I think the illustrator is a woman doctor even but his association does have a drawing of a black woman bit by a mosquito #which isn't something I expected myself to be so excited and emotional about but. yeah #my first contact with him was in one of my classes in college about publishing school materials #and fuck if it didn't solidify a lot of reflection about the images that go on textbooks #which yes. includes women only appearing if the condition is exclusively of the female sex in this #but fuck if his work didn't make me cry. I'm an educator and the daughter of a black healthcare professional. and I never thought about it #how every single anatomical drawing I had seen in my life and even photographs of medical conditions. had been of white people #I come from a predominantly black family with a history of skin cancer dammit. I had never questioned it. part of me was embarrassed of me

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deadrlngers · 19 days ago

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no t to be all dramatic and shit but this year brought me only shit and pain in 500 different sauces and i also really thought at this point i was a worthless stupid idiot that couldnt do shit and would never get to work in a museum bc i'm a fraud and I didn't deserve my degree so like haha 👍 big hit for my mental health but in positive for once

#rena.txt #NOW i won't be this big important asset in the big picture of the musuem BUT U GUYS CANT EVEN IMAGINE HOW FUCKING SHIT IT IS TO GET A JOB IN #A MUSEUM HERE ANDDDD GET PAID FOR IT??????? plus this will be the first step to get experience in the field which will help me later on #and the money will help me move out to do my master degree and the project will give me points when in future i will join public shit to #get inside musuems and do bigger more important stuff and i just. oh my god #my life isn't fucked over forever at only 25 :D #ok sorry i will shut up u guys dont even know how much this mean to me i coule really really cry rn bc we aren't over. WE AREN'T!!!!!!!!!

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guardian-angle22 · 1 year ago

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