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If you ever wondered how NOT to write a song, allow me to walk you through my latest process.
First, I wrote a list of cool ideas. Cardboard instrument props, animated effects, fake blood, end of the world theming.
Then I developed on the last two ideas with some extra stuff. Change the theming up, decide on genre, come up with the vibe and certain shots, overall style.
(Now if you've been paying attention so far, you've noticed that I'm developing a music video but NOT THE ACTUAL SONG.)
Next I change the theme AGAIN, this time being the last. I finalize some ideas, but really this is just developing on everything I came up with before. So basically this is a fully-idealized music video. In here I also toss in some potential lyrics for vibes and whatnot. There is actually way way more than it sounds, I'm just being purposefully vague.
And now, FINALLY, after all that... I'm onto lyrics and tune.
Hey at least the MV's gonna go so hard. If it ever sees the light of day, that is.
#music nerds i am so sorry#and i am so sorry me#and dont expect this to be a soon thing im still learning the instruments#music#punk music#punk culture#punk rock#music video#music artists#if anyone from now is still around in like 10 years when this actually happens you get to tell everyone about this because i sure wont#youll know it when you see the black and white pollution video#bad advice#step by step#ugh and i still need to actually finally release a YT video after what 3 years of being on there#that will definitely come way way sooner#at the LATEST you can expect a vid in a year or two#which is insane i know but hey im not thrilled either. just dont be eager ig. keep your expectations low and hey youll see something#i just cant do it in the foreseeable future due to my housing situation and the fact that i have literally no computer to speak of#but hey once i start making videos AT ALL you can expect to see some AT LEAST twice a year#i really do want to i have scripts and all that i just cant
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ahh well, Iâll definitely let you know once I get around to reading it!! omg, never let me go is so bleak, so yah, youâll love it if you love a good cry, like me hehe!
spirited away is literally like no other movie Iâve ever seen, and I was on the fence on whether to give it 4 or 5 stars, I think really itâs a 4.5 but thereâs no half a star emoji haha. Iâve had family over so only half way through howlâs moving castle but I love it so far, so think itâll be highly rated!
eeeek a fellow marvel fan!!!! I frickin love anything fantasy, LOTR, HP âĄïž so, I donât have favourites of anything, Iâm so so indecisive, but a few of my favourites are cappie winter soldier, (probably the first marvel movie I really loved), thor ragnarok, GOTG, infinity war, civil war, black panther, spiderman. also the disney+ show wandavision is so good! I love scarlet witch đ§ââïž also, I know itâs not marvel, but frickin love into the spider-verse!!! whatâs your favourite marvel movie?? and what are your favourite movies in general?
hmm, good question⊠my favourite lego set is probably my new york set, itâs the first one I made during lockdown and it brought me joy during a bad time!
ah I was so waiting for a good time when I heard the title for the song, and when I listened to it, I was like, I should have known it was gonna be a sad girl summer. I havenât, Iâll definitely check it out. I love hot ones interviews, did you see olivia rodrigoâs one, it was so funny! I love billie eilishâs new song, happier than ever, but I still need to listen to her new album!
Iâve always wanted to play piano, do you still play? yeah, I really hope she does!! but even if she doesnât, fans always come through and do amazing versions themselves on youtube, but it would be awesome if she did official versions !!
speak soon, đŠ.
hello love !!
i definitely love a good cry, so im looking forward to getting it !! be ready for me to rant a bunch to you when i finish it!! and yes oh my god spirited away has a special place in my heart đ i watched that film during different stages of my life, and ive just grown such an appreciation for it! and im glad youre enjoying howl's moving castle! i really love that film too,,, in general im just in love with every ghibli film asdfsa also! i hope you had a great time with your family !!
ahhhh i see your a fantasy lover!! im not gonna lie, im not much of a fantasy fan and also havent actually finished the harry potter books/films but im always amazed by the people that are! i just know i wont be able to remember all of the lore đ€§ marvel lore is already enough for me sadfas and ahhh your taste is just âšâš im happy to hear that youre enjoying wandervision !! i dont have disney+ so i havent actually watched it yet,,, but im glad you like it! and oh my god i still gotta watch the spider-verse too asdf ive been so lazy with watching things these days lmao and even tho i agree with you that its impossible to choose any favourites, i do think that the first GOTG film is my favourite! its pretty much the first marvel film i ever saw and i just fell in love đđ and aside from the marvel films, i really love romcoms !! my favourites are probably 500 days of summer and about time! both have a very special place in my heart because theyre just so goddamn great đ i also absolutely love the ocean's films !!! i think ive rewatched these films about a dozen of times now,, like whenever i dont know what to watch ill put it on! and obviously also spirited away âš
ohh i see !! i just googled it and the set is so pretty! im glad to hear that it brought you joy during a bad time!!
and yeah stoned at the nail salon could have either been a really happy or sad song,,, and honestly with lorde i was expecting the latter LMAO and yes please do check it out!! it was a lot of fun!! and yeah ive seen olivia's hot ones interview !! now that lorde and olivia have done it im just waiting for a certain miss taylor swift to do it too to finish off the trio đ and right! i gotta listen to billie's new album too!! i really enjoyed her first album, so hopefully ill get around to listening to it soon! have you listened to it now? if so, what are your thoughts?
no, i quit around two years ago,, to be honest, i never wanted to learn in the first place asfds i was kinda forced into it by my parents rip and never really developed much of a passion for it đ€§ but if you wanna play piano, im sure you can teach yourself !! i feel like piano is a rather easy to learn, at least compared to other instruments! have you looked into that maybe? and if you dont wanna teach yourself, taking a couple lessons and learning the basics should be enough for most people !! i hope you get to around learning the piano one day !! im sure youll enjoy it because it really is a beautiful instrument đ
anyway, please have a nice day love!! love you lots đ
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For your mermaids- 1,2,14, &26
i think this was for the emoji ask meme but if you meant this for another meme, feel free to send it again djvkas
đč How does you OC act around different people and how does their personality change to match the environment theyâre in? How do they act with: friends, family, strangers, children or their lover(s)? - BELLUS: Theyre all a lil mean to strangers tbh but out of all of them bellus is probably the nicest to strangers? Heâs just v curious and willing to help out people long enough to satisfy his own curiosity or if it has something to do with romance. Friends & family are pretty much treated the same where he wants their attention the Most and since hes pretty extroverted, he ends up following them around and dragging them into whatever he wants to do because Friendship is involving your friends!! Hes also a v physically affectionate person that gives out compliments as soon as he thinks of them. And all thats just turned up more if he manages to get a lover. As for children, he doesnt really treat them any different than he does a stranger. Maybe a bit more condensing - MERI: So its already established he has fun pranking and bothering people. Those pranks dont stop with friends & family, its just that hes more willing to hear out people hes close to when they dont like the most recent prank he pulled on them. It still takes him a bit to understand Why they wouldnt like the prank but hes still more open to hearing them out and thats a start! With a lover, im not fully sure how heâd act? he doesnt really have romance on the same level as importance as bellus does (really none of the others do-) so heâd be caught v off guard having a crush in the first place and probably be v tsundere about having Feelings. and then if they actually get together, heâd be v protective and a lot more willing to listen to them no matter what because he Knows heâs a little shit. as for kids, hes more likely to play pranks on them because theyre more likely to fall for tricks that grown ups have already learned to avoid. and the lost boys at least are also more likely to get over it compared to adults in neverland- - CASPIAN: tbh with strangers hes just vibing. watching. listening. he tends to know a lot about people he never even talks to because he spends so much time people watching and listening on nearby conversations. and hes unlikely to start conversations with people he isnt close to if he doesnt need something from them. with friends & family he does participate in conversations more, especially if theyre the type of people who need participation from him to feel comfortable, he just still likes listening more. and he likes listening to them talk about whatever theyre thinking about which is the reason he listens to bellus talk about his current crush all the time. he also takes a lot of mental notes about things they mention so that he can do things like choose decent birthday gifts and make sure if theres a surprise planned for them its something theyâll actually like. with lovers, he starts to initiate conversations more often because he likes their voice the most so he wants to try to keep them talking to listen to them go on. he also probably asks them to listen to him play songs on all his different instruments and writes songs specifically for them. he doesnt really like kids tbh so heâd avoid them as much as he can get away with- - KENN: hes wary and a lil defensive towards strangers but that doesnt stop him from trying to keep bellus and meri from being too chaotic and upsetting people they dont know. heâll be polite if someone he doesnt know talks to him, though that doesnt mean heâll keep being nice if he thinks theyre being rude. hes used to being the one expected to take care of others so with friends, theyll be added to his little group of people he watches over. sometimes he slips into that same habit with family but hes also more willing to let himself be the one whos taken care of for once. if he had a lover, heâd end up falling into his habit of taking care of them but heâd also want them to take care of him too.... to see how it feels to be on the receiving end more often....... despite being assigned the mom friend position, he isnt really that nurturing naturally?? so heâd be V Awkward around an actual child, especially if they arent like the lost boys because even if theyre kids, he can just trust that theyâll survive taking care of themselves. but actual kids who need supervision will just have an awkward uncle figure now
đ„ Does your OC prefer to take the lead or follow orders? With everyone or just with certain people? Is there a reason for this? - BELLUS: hes more comfortable following orders, though maybe with a little rebellion to cause whoeverâs giving him the orders a lil grief. he thinks its funny. if the person giving the orders is someone he trusts, then he tends to not really think about the why behind anything they tell him to do unless its something v specific and strange. so he ends up being a bit of a blind follower since he doesnt think people he trusts would try to hurt him on purpose. and no matter whos giving him orders, if hes upset with them then heâll chose the malicious obedience route where he follows orders very passive aggressively - MERI: he wants to be the leader A Lot!! but he also isnt really good at being a leader. he gets caught off guard whenever someone willing hands him the leading position in any kind of situation since hes used to trying to fight kenn for that role - CASPIAN: he doesnt enjoy being the one in charge of people tbh. like if he was forced into the position heâd actually do a pretty good job with it but he doesnt like the responsibility that comes with having to be in charge. caspian prefers to instead follow orders and make sure theyre being carried out when people (meri) start being unnecessarily rebellious in his opinion. that being said, he doesnt blindly follow orders and wont really listen to someone that he (or kenn-) doesnât respect - KENN: hes been the one expected to be in charge so long that now it feels wrong not taking the lead in some capacity. he gets more uncomfortable with that role the more people hes expected to tell what to do and expected to be responsible for the mistakes they make. thats why he prefers to just lead a small group and maybe take orders from someone like conrad whos in charge of the whole his lil group is a part of
đ What was your OC like as a baby? What were they like as a child? A teenager? An adult? How do you think theyâll develop ten years into their future? Twenty years? Will they live to old age? - BELLUS: was probably a v innocent child tbh?? he just kinda went along with a lot of the things the others did since heâs the baby of the group and as they all got older, meri was the one who taught him the most about Crimes - MERI: 100% even more destructive as a child, he just didnt really know then the full consequences of his actions. he still doesnt really think about them nowadays too but hes still more Aware in the first place - CASPIAN: he was always quiet, even as a kid though he was also more shy back then. now heâd say hes more confident and that not talking much doesnt mean hes still the shy kid he used to be - KENN: a lot more outgoing and mischievous as a kid! he was still trying to figure out how to be in charge of a lil group like his friends and he doubts he wouldâve really gotten far if caspian wasnt always there to help out - im torn between them all aging normally now that theyâre vibing on the mainland or mermaids having a lil piece of neverland inside them no matter where they go and only really physically aging when they mentally age as well. like the mental growth they have and more concepts they learn that are associated with adulthood like grief, they more they turn physically into an adult. i think either way, none of them really understand the concept of dying from old age though
đ Are you writing anything with this OC or planning on writing anything for them? Do you rp with them or are they just for fun to mess around with? -Â I do have a lot of fun developing them and drawing them all, I just dont know what Iâd write for them dsbafbv. I didnt make them with the intention of rping them but mayhaps thatâll change one day?
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Artist Spotlights!
đ€ Delight đ„ DoomSweater đ· Empoh
đș Emsi Art đžÂ f.loramy đ» Fairythearthog
Interview below the cut!
Introduce yourself
đ„ Hi my name is Doomsweater or Aki and i'm a cartoony artist who loves Danganronpa and plenty of other things! Im a mostly digital artist but its honestly hard to find any of my recent art cause i'm dead on most of my social medias. But you can find my older art on my DeviantArt (Doomsweater89) and my twitter @Aki_Rainbowgays đș I am a digital artist, also learnt how to animate so I consider myself an animator (despite not animating as much since finishing uni), I also like manga and anime, books and movies and I play a lot of games, the two I play almost exclusively everyday is league of legends and final fantasy 14!! I'm also into history and You can find my art on my tumblr art blog and my twitter here: https://twitter.com/art_emsi and https://emsi-art.tumblr.com/ đžÂ Heyo I'm flor, a digital artist and I have a lot of love to give. All my links are here: https://campsite.bio/floramy đ» I'm known as Fairy in most Internet circles. I've been known to do both traditional and digital art, and absolutely love magical creatures! Dragons are my favorite but I like most others as well. Beyond drawing I love playing video games, sewing cosplays, and cats. You can find me at various places, and check out all the links to them here: https://linktr.ee/fairythearthog
Do you do commissions post? Where can we find the info?
đ„ Well I dont have a post but https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/652005504759103513/652005627648016424/Quick_Commisshie_sheet.png here's the link to the sheet đžÂ https://lordfloramy.wixsite.com/portfolio/commissions đ»Â https://fairythearthog.wordpress.com/art-commissions/
Do you listen to music (or tv shows/films/anything else) when drawing?
đ„ All the time! If i'm not listening to music I have YouTube videos on in the background and it helps keep my ADD Brain interested in things đș I do listen to music, I also sometimes put on youtube videos, and rarely but sometimes but on a show to listen to in the background. đžÂ Yep ! I listen to youtube video essays about movies, shows and stuff, my taste changes pretty often. Also, podcasts, my favorite is The Adventure Zone. đ»Â Not always, but I do! I cycle between TV shows, Youtube, Podcasts, and Music.
Whatâs your favorite music artist/band? If you could ask your favorite band/music artist one question, what would it be?
đ„ Oh gosh that's a hard question but I guess my current favorite artist is Cavetown and I would ask what inspired the songs Home or Talk To Me. đș One of my favourites its actually Babymetal, and I would like ask them if I could what did they think of metal and rock in general when they started and what they think of it now? đžÂ "Hm, that's always been a hard question for me. My taste changes pretty often and I find myself having kind of a frankenstein playlist of a bunch of artists and genres, so choosing one is hard. I guess OneRepublic and Mika have always been somewhere near the top tho so I'm gonna go with them. I don't really have any questions? I guess I'd thank them for sharing their stuff and say I'm glad we're alive at the same time :]" đ»Â I listen to various types of bands and music so this question is always hard! I guess one band I like is Skillet. I'm not quite sure what I would ask since I would be so anxious and starstruck!
Do you play an instrument? If not would you like to play one? Which one?
đ„ I played the Viola for about 3 years in middle school but haven't done it since đș I don't but I would like to properly learn how to play the guitar and also the violin, which I did start learning as a kid but I gave up too soon on it and even now I still regret it a little. đžÂ I do play the acoustic guitar for fun, I don't know many things, but when i hear a song I like in a video game or show I learn it and play it for my enjoyment. đ»Â I used to play the flute, and occasionally play the Ocarina for fun.
Which song(s) are you going to draw?
đ„ I'm drawing No More by Versache and Borderline by Thomas Sanders đș I am doing Nine in the Afternoon by Panic! at the Disco đžÂ Marchin On by OneRepublic, which is my long time favorite and x by x which i currently love very much. đ»Â "Stardust" by T&Sugah and "I'm Not Afraid" by Tom Profitt
What do you expect from this zine?
đ„ I'm not sure honestly, this is my first Zine so I have no idea what to expect but i'm excited!! đș I expect to see a good arrange of different art styles and also maybe even find new music to listen to from the selection that people have chosen, as well as helping me with doing more art and getting out there more in the art community. đžÂ Honestly, to try out some new things in my art style and to see everyone's finished work, that's always fun. đ»Â Lots of cool artists being shown off.
Anything else you want to add?
đ„ Hope you all like what I do! đžÂ Nothing special, hope we all have fun and looking forward to seeing the finished thing ⥠đ»Â All these artists are creative and deserve all the attention!
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god !! i hate that i had to rush this but i promise i am so beyond excited to write with all of you ! stormy , thanks kylie jenner for the name idea hehe , is a brand new muse and i am so excited to explore her and see where she goes !! i love plotting, like i find it so fun and am a hoe for angst and drama and friendships ! god if i dont get a cute bff plot you will see me pouting until the end of my days !! asdfg . basically though my point was if you want to plot please just like this ?? message me ? i have to switch to mobile but ill still be here !! also i still have to figure out my tags and finish my plot so i repeat do not desktop my good sisâs blog . anyway please let me shut up !!Â
*  lawless paparazzi  flashed  photos  of  a  2019  ,  zenvo st1  pulling  into  the  sparkling  gates  of  quincy  park  ,  indicating  that  stormy  of  the  prosperous  villeneuve  lineage  has  returned  home  .  college  ended  for  the female  in  2018 ,  but  theyâre  already  flourishing  in  their  field  , proclaiming  that  their  bachelor's  degree  in  music production  is  being  put  to  prolific  use  .  the  general  public  may  be  unworldly  enough  to  believe  that  her accomplishments  were  earned  honestly  ,  but  the  people  of  new  york  city  are  painstakingly  aware  that  it's  impossible  to  snag  a  top  paying  position  as  a  music artist  right  out  of  university  .  the  familyâs  been  tormented  with  a  well  -  known  rumor  that  they buy out every record company to eliminate their competition and when that goes south they have a tendency of releasing career damaging scandals to the public to ruin the companyâs reputation and their talents careerâs  for  years  ,  so  it  was  news  to  no  one  when  the  villeneuveâs made  local  headlines  claiming  the  only  reason  their  obstreperous  progenyâs  career  is  what  it  is  is  because  her father paid spotify, billboard, and apple million of dollars to make sure that her first album went number one and stayed number one .  tempest has  done  a  splendid  job  of  keeping  the  bloodlineâs  furtive  truths  confidential  ,  but  their  reputation  of  being  effervescent  &  gaining  a  postgrad  inheritance  of  724.8m  hasnât  been  enough  to  cease  the  counter  blast  from  new  yorkâs  angry  civilians  .  if  theyâre  not  heedful  ,  not  even  quincy  parkâs  sturdy  golden  gates  will  be  capable  of  keeping  out  the  cityâs  vengeance  .  (  madison beer  ,  twenty one ,  the skookum  /  )
 ⧠ *  i.  â±Â  stats  .
name : stormy avania genevieve villeneuve
nickname(s) : storm , storm - storm, little villeneuve, honeybee.Â
age : twenty one .
birthday : november sixteenth .
zodiac : scorpio .
gender Ⱡpronouns : cisfemale , she and her.
sexual orientation : heterosexualÂ
romantic orientation : heteroromanticÂ
languages : english, french, italian.
occupation : music artistÂ
 voiceclaim : madison beer.
 ⧠ *  i.  Ⱡ summary   .
hazel hues dipped in virescent , locks of chocolate that sits on honeyed skin . the  tempest . boisterous . captivating . a  goddess true to the name that carved itself into her flesh , stormy . her arrival itself being chaotic winds and whispers of a mistress who had set themselves out to tear apart a home .  a concept twisted and concealed by the hands of the villeneuveâs . sob stories and apologizes along with the preaching of  â iâm becoming a better man everyday, â clinging to the ears of the media , and soon the world . expected . andres  villeneuve could do not wrong . a powerful man within the world of music . respected and adored . someone whom  inherited the  ability  to  make  the  world  drop  to  their  knees  and  worship  mediocre  musicians . why would they stone him for one single mistake ? or at least , why would they stone him for one single mistake for the rest of his life . they forgive him in the name of everyone . and soon , the villeneuve became a family of seven . Â
she was privileged . her tiny feet walked on thousand dollar carpets , the fabric that clung to her body should have been carved from the hands of an angel at what they were cost . private school . tutors . cheerleading and then volleyball and then soccer and then back to cheerleading . the piano . the saxophone . the drums . the guitar . her childhood consisted of experiencing everything there was to experience . sports . music . art . learning at  two languages by the time she reached ten . she was raised to be intelligent . athletic . talented . she had to be talented . within the arts , if she was not picking up an instrument or holding a note her dad grew bored and annoyed . something that the small brunette learned quick . and so like most children , she impressed . she really impressed . she was polite and respectful . well mannered . the strictness of her father and step mother weighing on her shoulders .  they wanted perfection .Â
being with her father and his wife and kids was almost as if she stepped into a dream . flashing lights , luxuriousness . and while her mom had a status of her own , her dad was shaped and formed different . the fame . the respect . it was everything to him . bouncing back and forth , stormy felt like two different people . with her father , she was all work no play . and her mother ? she was play and whatever she wanted to do . her mom taught her the importance in life was not the cars and the houses and the clothes ( âalthough they are nice.. reallly fucking nice ) but the character behind the objects . and she refused to let the vibrant child of hers be locked into a box of running to fame like it was the only thing that would make her life and her impact important . her mother ? she was all laughs and giggles . jokes and shopping days . sky diving in greece and pretend music videos in  italy . the one that mostly shaped stormy into who she is now .Â
for the last twenty one years is one person that reflects a childhood split into two . the ambitious sometimes selfish sometimes ruthless â ill pretend im stone cold if that what it  takes â and the vibrant boisterous life of the party  and the light of your life . the twenty one year old girl who has heard be yourself and be better from two different voices and is still trying to decide who she even is underneath the  all the expectations .Â
⧠ *  ii.  Ⱡ personality  .
she is an animated laugh escaping parted lips , affectionate hands reaching out to pull you into her embrace . sheâs the sound of her own heart beating  in her ears as her foot is on the gas or her hues pear out at the sky of blue sheâs about to jump in . she is tired eyes in result of not sleeping and instead writing song after song . she is one am studio sessions and three am shots . she is the small girl who pears up at her daddy and just wants to feel like she is  more then just another way to benefit him . she is the desire to be wanted . to be loved . sheâs spontaneous trips to tropical islands and dramatic scenes .  she is harmless teasing and a goofy smile . day dreaming about falling in love . sheâs the whisper in your ear that she loves you but the coldness in your bed as you reach out and realize that sheâs no longer there . sheâs not thinking about consequences . the honeyed dipped voice that tells you to do it . sheâs gentle kisses against your skin . sheâs feeling everything all the time and feeling it deeply . sheâs the girl you just cannot take your eyes off of . she talks to you and suddenly you feel as though the world revolves around you . sheâs scattered thoughts and rosy lips that never stop moving . a broken heart that never knows if it wants to grow cold or have someone come and fix it .Â
⧠ *  iii.  Ⱡ headcanons ??  .
asdj sheâs a mess? basically thatâs all i got for her.
sheâs the second youngest out of five.Â
is an artist under her dadâs label, and while she loves making music she does not love him having a say in her creative process.
sheâs such a light !!Â
affectionate, playful, ambitious, careless, boisterous, hard to control, talkative, an adrenaline junkie! jealous and petty, vehement.Â
is such a different person around her dad? basically blocks him from seeing her true personality.
truth is she still fears his rejection.Â
she has a journal that she carries everywhere.Â
craves feeling important to people? if she doesnt feel like her bond with you is meaningful she gets all weird and annoying!
is hot and cold in romantic relations.
but so god damn affectionate! with everyone! let her hold your hand or lay her head against your shoulder or run her fingers up and down your arm !!!
is the ultimate adventure buddy .
needs excitement twenty four seven sorry.Â
will give you a nickname, she doesnt care if your name is cat. its not just c ! asdfg.
i have so much more but ill add later, im kind of rushing asdfg !!Â
⧠ *  iii.  Ⱡ connections   .
best friend, platonic soulmate, ex best friends, group of friends preferably all girls, family friends, childhood friends, other clients who are signed to her father, first love, ex lovers, toxic relationship, toxic friendship, on and off relationship, confidants, partner in crime, the mom friend who always moms her, rivals, friends who drifted apart, friends with benefits, ex friends with benefits, one sided friendship, one sided relationship, unlikely friends, cousins, hardly related cousins, love hate relationship, forbidden romance or friendship???Â
#york.intro#this is so ugly#forgive me pls#and love stormy anyway#i hope this is small and sup because thats what its saying but#its showing up on my dash all big and annoying#my loudest sigh ever
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Hope youâre doing okay, I know thereâs been a lot going on the past couple weeks. đđđđ
FOOF YOU CAN SAY THAT AGAIN
thank you for the good vibes anon, i love you and it means a lot to me. however unfortunately now im gonna use this to vent dump exactly how much has been going on the past couple weeks off the top of my head. this is actually pretty far from Everything thats happen but im so tired and dont want to think about any of it anymore
my grandma passed away last week. we were prepared for it and we know sheâs at peace in a better place et cetera et cetera, her body was all full of restraints & impediments that she doesnt have to deal with anymore and the next time sheâs in a body itâll be all New And Improved and awesome. i missed so much work in anticipation of this that now i canât get work off on the day of the funeral, so i can still go to it but iâll have to go immediately to work right from it and have to pretend everythings fine and dandy and nothings going on.
everyone at work Does know thereâs something going on however and the two coworkers i have who are actually like i consider them friends mostly theyâre all like Hey Im Here For You Talk About Your Feelings Honestly with me and i. dont. want. to talk about my feelings at work. thats not what work is for and i dont like talking about my feelings anyway and i dont want them to ask anymore
the changes to the handbook and the honor code have completely sunk my heart. i had so much hope up until those hideous ridiculous unfathomably transphobic things they wrote and now i donât feel like i can trust or have hope in ANYTHING the institution does anymore. ive been up all night going back and forth over whether i want to go to church today. or ever again. itâs not bringing me joy. itâs making me feel anxious and depressed and frustrated and alone. i keep seeing people just on the street or on facebook who are so happy and content with the church and whatever it does and i justâŠi get struck every single time with this thought of âthey donât care about me. they donât care about any of these problems. theyâre not affected personally by it and so they donât care.â
and then that makes me feel like such a hypocrite because!!! ive been them too for so long!! what makes this moment so different!!!!! why is this the straw that breaks the camelâs back when the camel should have thrown off the whole burden and run to join its friends at the first strike of the ownerâs whip!!!!!!
plus itâs making me feel gross about my mormon memes blogs. idk if i can keep running those anymore.
im failing this semester anyway and i keep getting emails about it. i was planning to take a break from school After this semester but ive missed so much class that i just really canât go back to any of them so i guess im just dropping out right now. as much as iâd love to participate in all the incredible amazing protests going on right now i really really cant be on campus at all without feeling literally physically ill. and my Hope was to do really well this last semester and then submit mission papers and that way iâd know exactly what next to do with my life until i decide what After, and id be able to Get Out somewhere and travel someplace while still feeling like my life has some semblance of structure and direction. however! HOWEVER!!!!!!!!
iâve been feeling so, so horrible and so worn down and i dont even know where or what my testimony is anymore. but thatâs probably a lot lower on the list of Why I Canât Serve A Mission, because a. i still donât trust my Local Bishop enough to talk to him about things The Handbook says to b. i am finding it harder and harder and harder to be perceived as female. i never really have dysphoria about my body or my presentation or anything but like, when people say Sister and Maâam and Miss and Daughter and Hey Pretty Lady Itâs Me Your Relief Society President itâs likeâŠthatâs not me. that feels gross. and i wear suits and ties to church, have done so for a while and never get any flak for it, and im gradually working up the nerve to maybe start introducing myself as lev or levi instead of lillie buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut. socially transitioning apparently is not allowed.
not to mention my temple recommend expired ages ago anyway. anxiety about bishops prevented me from ever going in for an interview to renew it. i havenât visited the temple once since before graduating high school. but every time i see it or think about it i long for it so badly and it hurts so much.
and also like, i get that same kinda horrible regretful longing feeling whenever i hear violin music? because i played violin for a few years and then stopped but i still have the instrument because it was given to me by my grandmother. who played it herself until sickness wouldnât let her anymore and she entrusted it to me and i Stopped Playing but then i hoped to pick it up enough to at least learn how to play her favorite song and aw wouldnât that be so nice to play that for her on her violin except i never actually got around to printing out the sheet music or practicing At All. and now sheâs gone.
and one of the last things she said to me was that she would love to hear my book since her eyesight was too gone to read it so i said iâd record it as soon as i got the right software/hardware to do that and then i never did that either. also i promised alla yalls that book would be Published Published coming up on four months ago now and i still havenât done that
i took a pair of safety scissors to my forearms as mentioned in a previous post and surprise surprise, the lines have not healed still, itâs getting warmer outside and thus harder to wear long sleeves, and guess what! a while ago on a separate occasion i complained that i kinda wished my self harm scars looked more like the classic cutter lines and Now They Do!! And I Hate It!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and a couple nights ago my little sister saw them and so i told her i got attacked by a spider-pawed bear and fortunately my brother Understands and backed me up like âdang what do they teach in schools these days i cant believe youve never heard of the spider-pawed bears that live in the mountains and are totally normal and realâ
and steven universe is ending. thatâs a thing.
and likeâŠ.okay. not everything in my emotions right now is bad. some of it is just complicated. one coworker friend i have recently confessed that sheâs had a crush on me for several months now. fortunately when she said this i was able to be honest and say that im not super eager for a relationship right now, im not ready in the slightest to settle down or anything, im still hung up on my high school crush and also dealing with issues from my last relationship, and she replied thatâs all perfectly fine and she doesnât have any expectations and sheâs great being friends and we can take things at whatever pace is good
except i also now have a date with said high school crush loosely planned for tomorrow and i told this coworker friend about it and she admitted itâs making her a little jealous and then she said jealous is an ugly word and amended it to Insecure and i feel bad about that
but i also like. am really excited for this date. like itâs not really a for sure romantic capital-d Date and thatâs fine, but i havenât seen this friend irl for so long and ive been missing her so much over this past little while that weâve been internet chatting and that ive been i guess officially falling back in love with her but i also like, i dont know what her deal is romantically right now i donât want to presume anything but i really really really am itching to see her
work is stressful. itâs only gonna get more so as weather gets warmer. but weâre getting two new managers with loads of experience and glowing reviews next week. i have hope that theyâll makes things a little lighter.
and thereâs also. good things. peridot took off her visor for the first time ever in canon and i saved like 50 different gifs of it to my computer cus it rocked my world. sonic has she-ra toys for the kids meals and i managed to snag a tiny inflatable version of the sword. iâm making cosplays of the tres horny boys from the adventure zone and theyâre all very exciting and making things makes me very very happy. iâm finding joy in all the fanfictions iâm writing right now and in talking about dungeons & dragons with my brothers and friends. ducknerva is a very beautiful Good Ending version of marahope which makes me happy and taako is a super effective projection outlet. i bought cupcakes today and they were delicious. and when i think about those good things, when i think about any good thing no matter how small, everything else disappears.
whatever happens happens i guess.
she who lives will see.
#talkyllama#hey if anyone needs tags on posts like these please please let me know asap#i always forget that actual people see the things i post#i dont usually trigger tag cus i dont usually think i need to but if i do i will
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Goth Rainbowcy Challenge!
Iâm sorry guys, I couldnât resist. So this is my Goth Rainbowcy challenge. I came up with it for shits and giggles but I think itâll be fun! Itâs a 7 gen challenge that plays with different game features and goth subcultures at the same time. You donât have to be goth to do it (Iâm not) and you can play with vanilla, berry, or any sims in between. Hit the read-more to see it! Tag âGothRainbowcyâ with your pictures. Iâd love to see them!! <333Â
Goth Rainbowcy rules:
No money cheats
No trait, skill, or gameplay cheats
Occasional motives cheating allowed
Appearance cheats free game
Choose the heir however you want.
Aging should be on.
 You can play this berry, banilla, or however you want!! I have a mix in my game so who knows where mine will go! While matching hair/eyes/clothes are encouraged like in most rainbowcy challenges they arenât mandatory at all!
Gen 1 â Fledgling Goth
If no one wants to try and understand you, youâll strike out on your own! Build a life for yourself and start a successful dark legacy of awesomeness.
 Start as a monochrome black white and grey themed goth teen. Choose any aspiration or traits and any style of gothiness that you want. Start on an empty lot. Choose any 3 of the following items to place on the lot:
Tent
3 small planters
Cheapest BBQ grill
Potty Bush
Easel
Ice chest
woodworking table
Instrument
Cheapest sink
camera
Achieve:
Donât purchase anything else until youâve made 500 simoleons.Â
Have 1 pet. Have the following on the lot:
Cat: Cheapest litter box, Cheapest bowl
Dog: Cheapest bowl, One cheap toy
Donât get another pet when this one dies
Get a job you slacker! Any job will do. When youâve made 500 simoleons (in any way) go ahead and choose one extra item from the list to give yourself as a reward. Make sure you have at least 100 simoleons left!
Maintain a B or higher grade in school.Â
Have at least 1 best friend who isnât goth.
Have at least 1 other friend who is goth.
Have at least 1 enemy
Have at least 1 friend who is a senior citizen
Attempt (but fail) to get to know Death until youâre a senior yourself, then become friends with Death.
Upon aging into adult get a job in any industry you like and advance to the furthest level.
Upon aging into adult complete your aspiration.
Upon aging into an adult marry and have at least one child with another goth.
Build a house on your lot bit by bit for you and your family to live in. It can be themed gothy or not, up to you.Â
Gen 2: Red â Gothabilly
Your parents taught you a love of goth culture and fashionâŠbut they never expected that youâd hear the swinging sounds of the 50âs in your heart. Itâs time to make your way into the world and show it what you can do!
This sim should have the Serial Romantic aspiration and the following traits: Music Lover, Self Assured, and ONE other trait of your choosing. Upon reaching adulthood they should enter the entertainer career and eventually choose the musician branch.
This generation starts when your sim is a teen. This sim should have a red and black aesthetic with a 50âs twist similar to rockabilly but more goth. Red hair and eyes recommended. To finish out this generation you should do as much of the following as possible before the next generation starts:
Own at least 2 guitars and one microphone.
Have checkered floors in your kitchen.
Win a Karaoke contest at least twice
Have 3 non-goth best friends who introduce them to music as a kid or teen.
Have 1 goth best friend
Win a dance off against someone.
Reach level 10 of the guitar skill and singing skill.
 Reach the highest level of the musician career.
Marry a non Gothabilly goth.
Have one child with them.
Eventually break up and marry a non goth.
Have one child with them
Break up and marry another goth. If you donât have a boy and a girl yet have kids with them until you have at least one boy and one girl. Stay with them or break up as you want.
Have a dog and a cat.
Max relationship with your children and pets. Be friends again with both exes before death.
Finish the aspiration.
 Gen 3: Orange â Steampunk
Music never interested you the way it did your parents. You werenât social or loud, you didnât care much for the 50âs aestheticâŠin fact you worried you werenât evenâŠgothâŠuntil you saw a steam engine in a movie. You were enamored quickly and suddenly it made sense, the cogs and steam of the world. Brass goggles, corsets, clockwork and elegance. This is your scene. Your parents may not understand but they love you anyway.
This generation starts when your founder has died. The sim should have an orange, brown, black, and brass aesthetic or however you wanna do steampunk. Orange hair and eyes recommended. Skin too if ya wanna berrify it.
This sim should have the Nerd Brain aspiration and the following traits: Genius, Loner, and one other trait of your choosing. Upon reaching adulthood you should join the Scientist career.
To finish out this generation you should do as much of the following as possible before the next generation starts:
Reach the top level of the scientist career
Have 2 cats
Reach level 10 of the handiness skill
Reach level 10 of the fishing skill
Own a woodworking table and create at least one of every option.
Catch at least 12 different kinds of fish
Have only one child with a one night stand
Never marry, youâre too busy!
Have a strained relationship with your child
Max relationship with your cats
Have only 1 best friend who is goth but be on good terms with as many of your coworkers as possible.
Earn the marketable trait
Own at least 4 high tier electronics
Fully upgrade at least 5 things in the family home.
Complete the aspiration
Retire after reaching the highest scientist level and concentrate on inventing at home.
Finally fall in love as a senior but donât marry before death.
Generation 4 â Yellow: Pastel Goth
You never got along with your parent and felt cheated by not having a two parent home. Their aesthetic wasnât as dark as your grandparents but you still try to distance yourself from it as much as possible. The cute but creepy aesthetic of pastel goth appeals to you in a lot of ways and thatâs where youâre going with your life.
This generation starts when the sim is a teen. This sim should have the Super Parent aspiration and the following traits: Childish, Family oriented, And one other trait of your choice! This sim should join the social media career as a trend setter.
To finish out this generation you should do as much of the following as possible before the next gen starts:
Completely re-decorate the family home (except your parentâs room) replacing all black with white and the colours to pastels with some black accents.
Reach the top level of the trend setter career.
Own at least 2 rats in your lifetime.
Max the Parenting, gardening, and floral arranging skills.
Grow a cowplant
Earn a money tree.
Earn the green thumb trait.
Leave the house at night as little as possible.
Have 2 goth best friends
Have 1 pastel goth friend
Have at least 1 non goth friend
Marry your goth high school sweetheart
Have at least 2 kids
Finally get a friendly relationship with your parent after your first child is born.
Max your relationship with your kids but not your spouse.
Make at least 5000 simoleons with things you grow.
Generation 5 â Green: Cybergoth
You were always close with your parents but man that pastel aesthetic bothered you. Looking into old family albums you found pictures of your great grandparents and started learning about the darker sides of goth. Nothing could keep up with the electronic beats in your ears until you found cybergoth. With shiny blacks and neon colours you were home. Gas masks and hoses forever! Just donât trip over them.
 Generation 2 should be dead before this generation starts. This generation starts when your sim reaches teenhood. This sim should have the Computer whiz aspiration and the following traits: Hot headed, Dance Machine, One other trait of your choice. Green hair and eyes are recommended.
 To finish out this generation you should do as much of the following as possible before the next generation starts:
 Join the programmer career but quit when you get to the career split and join the secret agent career in the oracle branch.
Max the DJ skill
Max the Dancing skill
Get rid of the pastel in at least half of the house
Reach at least level 5 in the programming and Video game skills
Win at least 3 dance offs
Have 1 goth best friend
Meet at least 2 aliens and become friends
Max your relationship with your spouse and kids
Have no pets
Earn the Mentor trait
Die before reaching senior age
Generation 6 â Blue: Victorian Goth
The death of your parent struck you hardâŠbut not just with sadness. You discovered a beauty in the calm darkness of the graveyard. Poetry and art call to you and invite you to feel and experience that sadness until it leaves you feeling refreshed.
Generation 3 and 4 should be dead before this generation starts along with the parent from gen 5. This generation starts as soon as gen 5 parent dies. This sim should have the Renaissance Sim aspiration and the following traits: Gloomy, Art Lover, and one trait of your choice. Blue hair and eyes recommended.
To finish out this generation you should do as much of the following as possible before the next generation starts:
Finish redecorating the house back to its dark roots with a classical flair
Join the artist career and advance to the highest level in the branch of your choice.
Max the art skill
Max the violin skill
Max the logic skill
Max the gardening skill
Grow Roses, Dahlias, Orchids, and wolfsbane..
Graft to create a deathflower, then plant it and grow them.
Grow Roses, Dahlias, Orchids, and wolfsbane as well.
Paint at least 2 masterpieces in every art category.
Donât go out during the day if possible.
Work from home as much as possible.
Have no close friends
Have a black cat. Keep owning one cat at a time of their family line.
Meet a marry a vampire.
Have one child with them.
Allow them to turn you the day before you become a senior.
Grow a plasma fruit tree
Max your relationship with your child but not your spouse.
Your spouse dies of âmysterious circumstancesâ.
Final generation â Purple: Modern Vamp GothÂ
People talk about your family a lot. Theyâve always been dark, your parents never came out in the day, and one parent disappeared under mysterious circumstances. They whisper that your other parent did it but you donât care. You know itâs not true. You love the darkness but youâre a cheerful soul at heart. You grew up knowing something was different about your parents but itâs not until you reach teendom that you learn about your vampiric heritage and what that means. Itâs time to embrace eternity.
This is the final gen! Thanks for playing!! This sim should have any of the vampire aspirations and the following traits: Cheerful Good/Evil (your choice) and one other trait of your choice. They should join the writer career and max out the author branch writing the story of their family. Purple hair and eyes recommended. Try to do the following:
Write at least 1 book of each genre
Finish all of the vampire lore books and max the vampire lore skill
Become a master vampire
Turn at least 3 sims and move them in with you
Own a coffin
Have 1 non goth best friend, turn them as well.
Max at least 7 skills
Earn at least 500,000 simoleons
Max the pipe organ skill
Destroy and rebuild the house completely or move to another world.
Thanks for playing!!
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ALL MY EGG (and for the four names: jae, killer kang, minhyuk (whichever one), and santa
deadass i did the 100 questions ask meme for this ask and almost posted it rip
đ° what is one secret that youâve never told anyone?
theres literally nothing i dont even know what to say ????Â
đ if you could hug anyone, who would it be?
not 2 be delusional but i would give up my world to hug changkyun
đč what are some of your favourite PokĂ©mon and why?
glaceon is UP THERE idk why honestly but the sinnoh games were my first and i just??? i was really into ice and snow and shit u know so glaceon... thakn u
another pkmn ill always have is lucario ????? its just so cool?????
đ if you were in charge of the world, what would the world look like?
hopefully forgiveness and like???? acknowledging mistakes and learning from those u know jst positive stuff and like?? water. god i love water
đ what was the most recent vivid dream that you had?
hm okay i think this one was from last night or the night b4??? and like???? idk???? i dont even know how 2 start tbh?
so im like hanging over at this two kidâs im a kid 2 i think place and idk we just talk and shit??? idk whomst the boys were tho
and then we get to a scene where its like??? at a train station???? and i go to the washroom to shit or smth idk thankfully i didnt shit myself irl
then i have to get onto the train which isnt even a train its like a carousel with seats??? and its like on a train track boys this is 2 much and i forgot to get ready my train card thing so the guy (who i was p sure was evil) waited for me to remove it so i got onto the transportation device lmao
and then once im seated i remember i forgot my jacket so i make like hand movements 2 the creep and hes runnig 2 me with my jakcet but the rideâs way too fast so i yell and say ill come back for it even tho im p sure i wasnt going 2
after that i wke up wild
âïž what do you like the most about your best friend?
i dont have a best friend and all of my friends have their own unique qualities if i went into a rant abt them rn this will b so long
đ talk about your crush or partner
[minhyuk voice] theres none
đ if someone was rude to you, would you be rude back?
ya bc im petty but it really depends on the person
đ what do you like about yourself? (must choose at least 3 things!)
my personality (the good parts)
my values
my taste in friends (my Big Friends are either geminis or scorpios good)
đŸ what are you scared of most? how will you overcome it?
the dark and bitch isnt gonna turn off her night light any time soon
đ what never fails to make you happy?
seeing my favourite happy, listening to the music i likeÂ
đ what annoys you about some people?
i jjust went into a full out rant abt this on the other reply so ill be quiet now
đ€ do you get angry easily?
yeahhhhhÂ
đ what do you always daydream about?
my faves tbh
đ» if you could change 3 things about the world what would you change?
bad people , gone.
everybody only sends love and happy things on anon
i just want everyone 2 b nice & friendly wars of any sort dont exist and no one wants anybody dead
đ send me 4 names: kiss, befriend, kill or marry?
if u sent jaeâs name earlier id have trouble so im glad
kiss: tihis is so fucking embarrassing wtf minhyku (mx) but only on the cheek basically everywhere except the lips or anyplace weird
befriend: brian :-0
kill: jae goodbye loser
marry: sanha we can yell every time we gotta turn the lights off
âïž what is your dream city and why?
tokyo bc its NICE
âïž talk about your ideal day
cant read
đž are you an introvert, ambivert or extrovert?
i suddenly thought of the word ambivore which made me think of the word vore i wanna delete im a both? mayb idk
đ§ when was the last time you cried?
nov 3 bc my heart hurts whenever i see ppl being a bad friend
đ” name 5 songs you love at the moment
oh worm
all alone - day6
with you - astro
dramarama - mx (even though it isnt out yet lmao)
run - bts (the superior bts song)
hellevator - / (i was rly gonna make this mixed languages but rip)
âĄïž if you had any superpower, what would it be and why?
to fly bc im basic
đ if you could talk to your younger self, what would you say?
dont do that
đ who are you jealous of and why?
nobody in general?????????Â
đ which one would you rather have more of: intelligence, beauty, kindness, wealth or bravery? why?
intelligence i have 2 live somehow what if my money gets stolen
đ what are you ashamed of?
my humor
đș which languages do you know? which do you want to learn?
i (barely) know chinese despite having 2 take it all my life legends only
i know english but im bad at that 2 and its my first language once again legends only
i wanna learn japanese and koreanÂ
đ if you could be any fictional characterâs best friend/lover, which fictional character would you be?
the cow from voltronÂ
âïž talk about your dream universe.
weve already discussed this
đ which acts of kindness are you going to do today?
oh w-0rm ok so im a regular anon on this persons blog and i wanted to send an ask but never got arnd doing it so im gonna send her one. soon/
đŹ if you could transform into any animal/magical creature, what would you be and why?
let me live my life as a furry and cat
đ talk about someone/something you really dislike
are u ready 4 me to b the meanest person yet bc i sure am lets fucking go
so theres this girl. and i know her (unfortunately) and ive known her since like 4 years ago and back then she was already pretty shit tbh
she cried bc she had to sit in between the âweirdâ and âdirtyâ girls in our class and she headass cried in front of them and everyone just bc she didnt like the arrangement?? shes called the âdirtyâ girl disgusting before and has made fun of her in front of everybody its just bad :-/
now. fast forward 3 years and in addition to still being disrespectful and rude, she now vocalizes her weird fantasies for her âoppasâ??? some examples:Â
âwhen i go watch __ perform im gonna climb onto stage and then my mother and my future husband will fight for meâ and she calls those kpop idols weird shit and basically sexualizes them/???? she says the weirdest fucking shit on her ig story and tags them???????Â
another thing. she went to korea nd took a picture of a complete stranger and posted it on her public ig and called him her âoppaâ and said that they had a âfun day togetherâ despite the guy not knowing her at all???? she posted the pic of him??? i still dont get it tbhÂ
she wasnt even being ironic at all??? she calls herself & classmates âautisticâ whenever she/others do smth dumb or mess up and its just sososososo fucking wrong
being one of the people to see how shes basically grown from bad to worse is something i dont fucking enjoy and i jsut want to leave my class already lmaoÂ
ok but there are times where i do appreciate her because sometimes the class will be rly quiet and the teacher is basically talking 2 themselves but sheâll always respond w/o fail so thats great but its only bc she talks so damn muchÂ
i just got a flashback to when she âjokinglyâ said she wanted to be a trainee for the rest of her life how do i just. god
đŁ talk about some things that have been making you depressed/angry/anxious lately
weâve once again already discussed this
đȘ what did you want to be as a kid, and what do you want to be now?
i wanted to be various things honestly?? ranging from an astronaut to a vet to an editor to an animator to other stuff i get influenced pretty easily so if i watch smth and i think its cool ill want 2 be that i guess?? ive been trying 2 get rid of that habit so now i have no clue what i wanna be
đ° what are some of your favourite sugary foods?
sweets and chocolate cake
đ what are you obsessed with?
drinking water and staying hydrated
making my friends laugh is great 2
đ what happens to you when youâre stressed?
acne LMAOÂ
đȘ what are you sick of?
the usual
đ are you an adrenaline seeker?
i love scouting on sif and bandori so yeahÂ
đ„ what are some unpopular opinions that you have?
lets notÂ
âïž would you consider yourself a good person?
to a certain extent
đ what do you like to do as hobbies?
use my phone???? send nice anons and comment on art/ficsÂ
đ€ whatâs the last song you hummed or sang by yourself?
none
đ whatâs your worst trait? how are you planning to improve it?
my tolerance for pplâs shit is so low
đš what do you always doodle when youâre bored?
my ocs
đ» whatâs stopping you from chasing your dreams?
i dont have a dream hence myself
đ· whatâs your mbti personality and why do you think it suits you?
infpt i dont rmb shit but yeah
đ¶ send me 3 fictional people and Iâll choose my favourite!
falen i dont rmb what u sent
đ who are your favourite celebrities and why?
i dont follow any :-o zendaya has had my heart ever since shake it off tho
đŽ opinion on day6?
ur rly gonna do this 2m e?
all alone just started playng this is terrible lets get it
so day6. a band i only found out about in late june (thank u boxy) and before this i only ever listened to bts and mx bc my friends stan them so i thought i was gonna expect boys dancing, the usual.Â
i clicked i smile and i lost my fucking shit as soon as i saw the instruments because prior to day6 i was a big 5sos fan so this was rly resonating to me tbh and i was just !!! so fukcng excited??? i never intended to even get into day6 honestly??? but after witnessing how good they are and watching about all of the available mvs at that point i was completely in awe so i caved a created a stan twitter for them.
now, this isnt even the most of it. after becoming a fan i realized how much more these 5 boys are. they compose (if im not wrong) and brian writes lyrics for the songs each month because of their everyday6 project and again, im wow-ed because??? the amount of dedication???? they went from releasing 2 title tracks in 2 years to releasing 12 title tracks and 12 bside tracks in a single year. they havent released the december song yet but haviing to work on 2 or more songs in 4 weeks is fucking amazing if you ask me.Â
theyre really talented and theyre just so versatile (am i using that word correctly) and each month their songs sound different. this project has given them the opportunity to try new things and you can hear the steady improvement in each of their vocals (dowoonie not so much since he barely gets lines, but we all know hes working hard) and if you listen to their debut song - kongchu and compare it to the version they released along with sunrise it just???? the drumming has even changed from the original version nd its so noticeable that whenever i hear kongchu from 2015 i know its the old ver
to add to those, they do vlives every week and although those vlives are always scheduled it still makes my day seeing them and watching them do the usual.Â
one thing im upset about is that how they barely promote themselves, they rarely get on variety shows (the most is individual schedules) and we, as mydays never really get to know the boys so its harder to fall for them as a whole. i dont know if its jyp or day6âČs decision but if this is how they want to be known for - their music only, then so be it. we still have jaeâs presence on youtube, music access and asc. thats the most we can get and it makes it difficult for us to learn about the rest but thats okay.
another thing. their concerts are something i always look forward to (even though my interest has died down a bit;) their concerts are just so fun to listen to?? thereâll always be mydays who stream the concert so everyone else can listen to them play and they sound so good live it drives me crazy. mydays are always so hyped and whenever mydays sing along it just gives me goosebumps??? bc theyre so???? good?????Â
tldr; day6 deserve more, following wise and promotions wise because they work so hard and once this project ends i hope theyâll manage to rest but still remain as a presence that will be known instead of returning to jypâs dungeon.
đ do you consider yourself an emotional person?
there are days where i am more emotional than usualÂ
đ share 3 books that you love and your favourite quote from them.
this is tiring
đ what do you always do when you feel sad? does it help?
i sleep and boy it really helps
đ what thoughts keep you going when youâre sad?
rest
đ which country do you live in?
singapore
đ§ describe yourself in 3 words
lame funny swag
đ” which quotes changed you?
ârocky swagâ - park minhyuk, 2017
đ do you keep a diary?
nope
đ« who inspires you?
brian kangÂ
đ» do you believe in ghosts and why?
yes bc i love losing sleep
đ whatâs your fashion sense like?
terrible
đŹ what are some of your favourite films?
i watched spiderman homecoming and i have no idea why i didnt see the plot twist coming but its GOOD watch it
đŠ what is one treasured childhood memory?
theres none lads
đŒ if you could meet anyone, who would it be and why?
all my internet buddies but sometimes i dont want to bc im kinda....gross
#softshouyous#asks#if anybody actually read all through all of this.... thank u.#FALEN THAKNK U FOR ASKING I LOVE U
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Chapter 11: If i fits, i sits and it isnt where i want it to be.
â Adrian  â
âTell me about you. What else are you into besides photography?â Val spoke eruptly like i spooked him out of a thought.
Eyeing him quickly, I leaned back and crossed my ankles together under the table. âMusic and drugs.â I said while crossing my arms over my chest.
âThat it?â Val raised his eyebrows at me.
âHonestly thats about it.â I rolled my head to the side, cracking my neck a bit. âMusic is something I was shown when i was young. I can play the guitar and piano. My mom wanted me and my siblings to be talented in different things but never pushed us to much except music. Sis can play the violin and harp, bro can do flute and violin as well.â
âWhy both violin?â val asked, leaning on the table.
Shrugging a bit, âDunno, they both just really like it. I never liked those things, guitar was the only string i could do, Piano was something i tried really hard to learn because mom really likes it and knows a bit. I wanted to share something with her.â I felt my lips twitch into a smile because of talking about my mom.
âYou close to your mother?â He asked with a small smile on his lips.
âYeaaaaaaah.â I scratched the back of my head. âIm my momâs kid. My siblings are just like my dad, look just like him, act like him a bit, talk like he does. Mostly my bro, hes a literal clone of my dad. Sis is a mix of dad with a feminine touch. Me, im a male version of my mom. Look just like her with my hair and eyes.â Val continued to just sit and stare at me with a stupid smile. âI pursued music as a major minor kinda deal cuz i wanna perform for her, and show the world i can sing and play instruments because she taught me, pushed me to it and is my biggest fan. Ill sing for her all time and what not.â
âThats really sweet of you.â Val had a big smile on his face.
âYeah.â I chuckled a bit. âThe drugs were cuzâŠ..â i slumped my shoulders down and stared at the table. âI did em just cuz i could.â I looked back up at val, âdidnt wanna be that perfect kid like my siblings. Pissed me off that my father wanted to mold me to a perfect child.â I twirled my hair on my finger, âSoooo i did drugs, got in trouble a lot,....had dad save me from going to jail.â I started mumbling.
Marcus came back with our drinks with a smile and set them down on the table. âAre you both ready to order?â he looked between us, Val looked at me with a raised brow.
âYes, please.â I answered and waited for him to pull out his notepad. âCan i get the Royal red robin. No tomato, egg hardset, and medium well please.â
âCan do sir!â Marcus wrote and turned to val with a smile.
âCan i please have the Whiskey river Burger with fries.â Val said with a smile and very sweetly.
âAlright! Iâll get that out as soon as i can.â Marcus smiled and left to place the order.
I stared at val with a confused smile. âYou can eat all of that?â
âOf course!â He smiled happily.
âDamn i wonder what else you can fit in that mouth.â I mumbled into my glass before i took a drink from it.
âExcuse me?â Val leaned in, âi didnt hear that.â
âTell me what you seemed upset about earlier.â  I set the glass back down on the table and stared at Val who then just put his mouth around his straw and stared at his glass. âCmon, weâre roommatesâŠ.and friends, you can tell me things and i wont judge.â
Val sat silently for a while longer after he let go of his straw. He leaned back and looked up at me. âSo, um...who was the guy you were with earlier?â
âWho...guy i wasâŠ..â I stared at him confused for a second then it clicked. Demyan. He means demyan. Did he go out with Karim earlier today? I Looked down at the table for a second then back to him. âThat was a friend of mine, i dont get to see him often, so when i ran into him today we just had lunch together and talked.â
âFriend from high school?â He asked, little upset in his voice.
âYeah, he goes to a different school and busy with work and school.â I started twirling my hair a bit. Val looked a bit upset by it. âYo.â I extended my hand to poke at his arm, âwhats wrong, you seem upset.â
âIt justâŠ.â he sighed heavily, not looking at me or even my hand.
âI know, i come off as an asshole kinda.â I poked his arm again to make him look at me, and he did. âI dont hang out often, i dont hang out with my band members much either. Kinda a loner guy. The dude you saw me with was just a random meet up and hanging with him was something i dont do a lot.â I paused to see he was a bit hurt still, âand i know i dont hang out with you much and i come home late...a lot.â Â I put my hand on his wrist gently, âBut i do like hanginâ with you, and iâm gonna try and not be a shitty roommate anymore.â Â
âYou mean that?â Val asked quietly.
âYeah man, i try not to break promises.â I smiled at him. Val finally smiled back at me and nodded. Slapping my hand on his neck lightly and pushing on his cheek a bit, âthats the cupcake i know.â I chuckled and took my hand off his face, âit does hurt to see you sad, youâre like a sad puppy and it breaks my heart.â
âIm not a sad puppy, im a fierce kitten!â Â Val sat up straight and looked very proud of himself.
Staring at him for just a moment, i started laughing and put my forehead on my forearms which were on the table. âThe fact that you said kitten makes it better. Doesnt matter what you are, youâre the cute baby version of said animal.â I spoke through giggles then started laughing even more that I covered my head with my arms.
I looked back up to see him have a very displeased look on his face. His brows were together and his cheeks were puffed as he stared at me with displeasure. I started laughing again and this time accidentally snorting, which made me start laughing even harder and Val started laughing too at the fact that i snorted. I sat back up and put my elbow on the table and put my forehead in my hand, âShut up you didnt hear that.â
Val made a long squeal like giggle and put his head on the table, âbut it was funny! You snorted!â I sat back up and leaned back into his seat. âI didnt think a snort would come out of you when laughing.â he ran his hand under his eyes as he finished up laughing.
âIm only human after all, I can snort and make weird noises if i wanna.â Â I flipped my hair back over my shoulder. âSo, tell me about yourself. Its only fair.â
âOkay, wellâŠâ He paused and straightened himself out, âyou know Iâm going for fashion and that I do yoga. I mean, clearly Iâm not straight with how I dress. But, iâm not really very interesting, sorry.â
âHm i just kinda thought you didnt care about gendered clothing.â I twirled my straw around in the glass.
âIf itâs going to be hard being in the same room as me I can move into the spare room. I donât want you to feel uncomfortable.â Val spoke softly, I looked up to see him fidgeting with something in his lap and a blush on his cheeks.
âDude.â I said low, Val looking up at me with wide eyes. âI dont care what your sexuality is, I support all of it. You dont make me uncomfortable. One of my band members, sheâs a lesbian. Joce as you can see is straight, my drummer is straight and my bass guitar is pansexual.â I smiled at him, âI dont hate on people for gender and sexuality. I only hate if i meet a person and they are a douchpickle or are acting like a fucking buttplug. Then imma kick their ass cuz i can.â
Val started giggling because of the insults i just used. He smiled happily at me, âthanks,Adri.â
âNo problem cupcake.â I smiled back at him.
Marcus came back with two plates in his hand. âWhiskey river burger.â and set the plate down in front of Val, âaaand the Royal red robin for you.â he set my plate down in front of me. âEverything look good? Can i get you anything?â he asked with a smile.
âIm good, thanks.â I looked up at him.
âNo, im good too,Thank you!â Val asid with a smile.
âAwesome! Iâll check back in a bit!â he smiled and walked off to check on other people.
âHe seems like a nice guy.â I turned to see Val with his burger shoved in his mouth. He still had his mouth around the burger in his hands. Staring at me like a curious cat and his cheeks puffed out a bit, blinking slowly at me. Turning my head away, closing my eyes and covering my mouth and nose i started laughing again, my free hand pounded the table as i laughed. âCupcake, hermegawd, youâre a chipmunk!â
Val took his bite and held his hand up to me so he could chew and not talk with his mouth full of food. âI was hungry, and didnt expect you to talk!â Â He blushed red and looked at me with a serious look. âAnd yes he seems like a nice guy and is good as a waiter.â
âI feel like ive seen him before.â I tossed a fry into my mouth, âLike he was at one of my concerts.â
âWhere do you usually perform at anyways?â Val took a sip of his drink.
âAnything we can get really.â I tossed another fry in my mouth before speaking again. âWe perform at bars, clubs, music fests sometimes if we can. We all do a bit of solo stuff sometimes. Well Harvey not so much, he sings yeah but hes our drummer so he doesnt solo drum places. Joce will dance or sing on her own sometimes, Desi will play guitar and sing as well. Asher i dunno if he does solo things. And i naturally perform alone sometimes because ill either just sing for who hires me, play guitar and sing, Play piano only or sing sometimes.â
âSo you all arent an official band?â Val raised a brow at me as he munches on a fry.
âWe are, and arentâŠ.â I stared at him with a questioning look. âWe all love to perform together as a group, but sometimes we cant always meet up and do it cuz someone will have something going on. So we just do our own solo stuff sometimes.â I finally picked up my burger and took a huge ass bite out of it, kinda realizing too late that I took too much to chew.
âWhat all can you sing?â Val took another bite and swallowed after he chewed, âLike genre what can you sing.â
Holding up a fingering and swallowing hard,then taking a quick drink. âLemme tell you what I cant do, cuz thats easier.â holding up one finger, âI cant do a song in a foreign language, so ill do it in english if i can.â Holding up two finger, âI dont do opera.â I continued to hold up a finger for what i listed, âDont do metal or screamo.â I paused to think, âI dont do gospel type music. Aaaaaaaaaaaand i cant Rap...well enough to say i can do it.â I looked at my hand âSo thats the five things i cant do.â
âYou can do country?â Val asked with a raised brow.
âAaaaaaaah, does it count if i can perform the song in a country style but not singing it in country format?â I asked holding my straw in my mouth.
Val giggled a bit, âno, it doesnt count.â before taking a bite of his burger.
âDamn, then six thingsâŠ..No. Five point five, i think half kinda doing country counts.â I smirked at him and got a âreally, seriously?â look from Val. âyes im serious, i can sing a country song just not country-ish likeâŠ.Dont judge me.â I pointed a finger at him before taking a bite of my burger.
Our dinner went really well and we had a lot of fun, or at least i had fun. Im guessing that all the giggles Val made means he had fun too. When Marcus came back with boxes, he asked if we wanted something for deserte. Both of us said yes. I got the Nana-nana moo-moo classic, and god i hate saying that name but its worth it, to go. Val ordered a classic chocolate to go as well. Marcus took the order and then went to go get those.
âWe doing back to the dorm for the night after?â Val asked raising a brow at me.
âNo, imma take you somewhere.â I smirked at him. Val looked at me with wide eyes and a slightly blush on his face,
We got our milkshakes a few minutes after. We paid, fighting back and forth who was gonna pay and ended up splitting it and both paying. When we got up, we passed by Joce and Gabe. I leaned down to give Joce a small pat on the back and waved her off with a peace sign. We saw Kane and his buddy Yori standing outside as well.
âYou can get in the truck if you want, ill just take a quick smoke.â Kane had his hands up by his mouth.
âIts alright, Iâll wait.â Yori smiled at him, then turned to see us. âOh hi again.â he still had a smile on his face.
âWahzzup.â Kane said with his cigarette in his mouth then took an Inhale and looked away from all of us to blow it out. âFun date?â He asked with a smile, keeping the smoke away from the three of us.
âWasnât a date.â I said.
âIt was fun.â Val said just right after me with a smile. âYouâre polite about your smoking habit.â
âThanks buttercup! I try to be courteous to people who dont like my nasty habit. Yori here doesnt like it, and imma assume you dont like it either. Half shave here i know smokes so he doesnt mind.â
I saw Yori lean towards Val and mumble, âI donât like it because i get asthma attacks from too heavy of a smoke cloud.â
Val smiled softly at him before patting his back, âiâm sorry.â
âHalf shave?â I looked at Kane with an offended look, âthe fuck you wanna fight ya blondie?â I shoved him a bit with my hand.
âNaaah, its all good.â He laughed lightly. Kane took another quick swig off his and offered me his hand before blowing it out away from us.
âNah im good thanks, i dunno whats been in your mouth.â I held up my hand and leaned away a bit. âNot a germ freak, but i really dont know whats been in yuor mouth dude.â I chuckled lightly.
âThankfully today, nothing that comes out of a vehicle!â he laughed proudly. âBut we should let you two have fun on your Not-a-date date.â He smiled before putting his smoke in the asht ray outside, hooking his arm around Yori. âlets go finish our date too!â
âIts not a date!â Yori complained and looked back at us, âit was nice meeting you!â
âYou too!â Val waved back at them.
âHey! Come to one of my shows coming up!â I yelled back at Kane.
âText me when and where the fuck it is, ill try to come and ill bring Yori!â He held up a peace sign and went to the other side of the parking lot.
âYou come with me.â I grabbed Val by the arm and walked to my truck.
Val hopped in and got his seatbelt on, âwhere are we going?â he asked turning to look at me.
âYouâll see.â I smirked at him and turned the truck on, backing out of the spot and going to turn out of the lot. âIts my favorite place to be.â
âI thought that was your bed?â He snickered to himself.
âThats my Second favorite place!â I held up my finger.
Our trip was all but quiet. Val and i, mostly me, would sing along to whatever played on the radio. Val would occasionally randomly change the station to see if i could sing the song which I fucking good. He even found the fucking country station and i sang along to that. Getting so into the song, i made us swerv on accident. Val looked like a scared cat as he held onto the Oh-shit-handle. I laughed at his reactions, and tried to stay perfectly calm when driving. We got on a backroad and Val was looking out the windows at the open fields and the trees.
âWhere are we?â he asked.
âAlmost there!â I smiled at him and patted his thigh. Turning onto a graveled path literally in the middle of know where. âGet out and follow me.â I patted his thigh again and got out. I waited of him on his side, holding my hand to him, âits dark and i dont want you to leave me. Gimme your hand.â Val looked at my hand and hesitantly took my hand in his. Holding his hand and dragging him behind me we walked through the dark woods. We didnât talk at, the only noise around us was crunching leaves and the sounds of active night animals.I walked us out to a clearing when we got out of the trees and shrubbery, I looked back at him and Val was staring up at the clear sky filled with stars.
âOh my god.â he said softly, âits beautiful here.â
âYeah. Its also kinda in the mountains too.â I let go of his hand and walked further out. âThis is a place i like to go to clear my head, singing and no one hear me, or break down if i need to.â
âIs that why its your favorite place?â Val asked, standing beside me.
âYeah.â I leaned down and sat on the grass, pulling Val down with me. âI came here for the first time when i ran from my home. Dad was pissed at me, mom was crying, and i wanted out. Found here, and ive been coming here ever since.â
âWhat did you do?â He turned to face me.
âFirst time i was ever stoned out of my fucking mind.â I leaned forward, pressing my elbows to my knees. âDidnt wanna see my mom crying, didnt wanna know what dad would do, so ever since then, its just a place i find comfort in.â
âSo why did you bring me?â Val asked, holding his feet in butterfly position.
âThought it would be a good bonding moment.â I sighed, âthought youâd wanna see it, and it makes me feel calm for what im about to tell you.â
âHuh?â Val raised a brow and touched my arm, âsomething wrong?â
âNo no, its just.â I sighed and laughed a bit. âI just think its kinda mean of me to keep something from you, when youâve been so open with me.â I turned to look at Val, and he had the most confused worry look on his face. âBack at the restaurant, you came out to me.â
âYeah.â he said low.
âWell, i tiptoed around it like an ass and didnt tell you, but Im gay too.â I smiled softly at him, âand it was eating at me that i didnt tell you when you told me, but i was scared to for some reason, like youâd think i was lying.â
Val was just staring at me like a cat. Fucking hate when he does that cuz i feel like heâs thinking im crazy or lying and it freaks me out with that stare. Val shifted onto his knees and leaned into me, wrapping his arms around my neck and pressing his chest to mine. Â âThank you for telling me, it means a lot.â he said softly and sweetly. I felt my hands twitch lightly, do i hug him back? I dont know, how to hug him without it seeming weird, hes on his knees hugging me and his back is arched and i can see his ass. Val pulled away from me slightly and i think caught onto that i was a little nervous about this situation, Â âYouâve been touching my thighs one way or another, would it make you feel better if we sat here and you had a hand on my thigh?"
âAaaah...uuuuh.â I started mumbling and blushing a bit. âi-i-iâŠ..Yeah.â I mumbled lowl. GOD im a fucking weirdo! Why the fuck do i have this weird need to touch his damn thighs? This kid probably thinks im a freak. Val shifted back onto his butt and sat beside me, letting me place my hand on his thigh. I put my face into the palm of my hand and squeezed his thigh a bit, âIm really fucking sorry.â
âFor?â He asked and i could feel him shift to lean forward and stare at me.
âThis!â I squeezed his thigh and shook my hand a bit. âIve never done this to anyone else, anditsmakingmefeellikeacreep but idonthateit.â I started to mumble and feel my face heat up more, so i tried to cover my face more with my hand.
Valâs whole body started shaking with erupted laughter. He leaned back to lay in the grass and covered his face with his laughing. I shifted to sit on my hip closest to him, shiting my hand further up his thigh a bit too high up actually and he started laughing even more, putting his hands up on my chest. âThe fuck is so funny?â I asked leaning in closer to him and prop myself on my elbow.
âYouâre tickling me!â he giggled, fidgeting beside me.
âHow?!â I asked, âwhere am i tickling you?!â
âMy thighs are ticklish!â He giggled louder. I looked down at my hand and slid my hand back down to where it was, sliding back up his thigh slowly and letting my nails drag across his skin, getting to close to his nether region yet again. âStaaaAAAAAHHHHPâ he started laughing harder now, trying to roll away from me.
âHow do you have ticklish thighs?! In one fucking spot cupcake?!â I asked, doing it yet again cuz it was kinda funny to see him squirm.
âI dont know!â He laughed and tears started to roll down his cheeks as he laughed.
I put my hands under his arms and started wiggling my fingers on his sides and up to under his arms. He erupted with more crazy laughter and started to roll around more. âYouâre going to roll down a hill, cupcake!â
âThen stop tickling me!â He yelled at me through laughs.
âNaaaaah.â I swung my leg over his body and turned around to barely sit on his stomach and tickle his other thigh now. He started kicking at the air in front of me, yelling behind me and grabbing the back of my shirt. I wrapped my hands around to tickle the back of his knee and the back of his thigh. He sounded like he was crying and laughing at the same time now. Switching to his other leg i did the same thing.
âAdrian, ADRI STOOOOOAAAAAAHP PLEASE!â He cried as he laughed and was wiggling underneath me pulling at my shirt.
I looked back at him and dropped his thigh onto the grass. âIll stop, kinda dont wanna be accused of murder.â I sat up a bit for Val to pull his legs out from under me and sit behind me.
He had his legs touching his chest and had his hands wrapped around his knees. âI feel violated and my stomach hurts now.â he puffed his cheeks at me.
âThats what you get for being ticklish.â I smirked at him and he stuck his tongue out at me.
âKeep that tongue in your mouth, boy.â i reached to grab at his tongue but Val leaned back and avoided my hand.
He launched himself forward at me, knocking my onto my back and sitting on top of my stomach. âIm going to return what you did to me!â
âGo for it, im not ticklish.â I chuckled with a cocky smirk on my face.
âPssh, weâll see if thats true!â He ran his hands along my sides and under my arms and pouted when i didnt even giggle. He tried to tickle my stomach and more so was embarrassed that he touched my abs then trying to tickle me.He spun around to have his back to me and tried to get a response out of me that way. He grumbled very angerly and placed his hands on my thighs. âYou aren't tickle-ish.â
âDunno you didnt try my feet.â I chuckled from behind him.
âIm not touching your feet!â He looked back at me with puffed out cheeks.
Shifting under him and pulling my thighs out from under him enough, i sat up and partially had val sitting in my lap. Leaning into his back, i put my cheek on the back of his head. I could feel Val was kinda tense under me. Keeping my hands behind him, I leaned forward, pushing him forward a bit as well. âThanks.â
âFor?â he asked, and lightened up his body a bit.
âFor hearing me out.â I played with the rim of his shirt. âMeans a lot.â
âOf course.â he looked back at me and smiled.
âNow, care to get off me?â I leaned off of him.
âNope, if i fits i sits.â He chuckled wickedly to himself and made himself comfortable.
âOh my god, you fucking cat.â I sighed and threw my head back.
âMeow heheheheheâ He continued his evil chuckles.
âI will kick your ass down this hill and to the car.â I groaned, leaning back onto my hands.
âNo you wont.â He looked back at me with a cocky smile.
âOff my lap, or youâre rolling down this hill.â I said flatly.
âNope, or im taking you with me!â I felt Val grab onto my jeans with a tight grip.
Grumbling, i took the clip out of his hair, watching his shiny red hair fall down and lay flat on his back. He looked so nice with his hair down and it looked so soft and silky too. âOff the lap or this clip gets thrown!â
âNo!â He whined, âgive it back!â he turned to look back at me, whipping his hair around over his shoulder at the process. When he saw i was holding the clip behind my back, he spun around and scooted up my lap and leaned into my chest trying to reach for it behind me.
Tensing up a bit and a small twitch of a smile on my lips, âOff my lap and i give it back, or if you stay on my lap start grinding and weâll call it even.â I looked at Val who was practically laying on me tense up and watch his face go from white to bright red.
âYouâre a wicked manâŠ.â he mumbled and stared at me with a slightly pissed look but mostly embarrassed.
âHey, if you fit you sits.â I smirked and chuckled, âsaid it yourself. So either fits on the grass or fits on my dick and we have a outside quickie.â I growled playfully at him, watching his face get as bright red as his hair. Val pouted and swung his leg off my body and plopped down on the grass, looking away from me. Chuckling lightly, I took his hair and tried my best to have it the way he does his hair and clip it back up for him. âSorry that was kinda mean.â
âNo this is kinda mean.â Val leaned into me again, his face close to mine like he was going to kiss me. My body tensed up but started to lean back when Val shoved his hands into my chest, Yelling loudly I grabbed onto his leg and pulled him down with me. We tumbled down the hill together, me yelling the whole way down and Val was laughing.
I hit the bottom of the hill first and Val landed ontop of my chest. His thigh hit my crotch with some force that i grunted loudly, and in minor pain but mostly a little turned on from how close he was and his thigh touching my fucking dick.
âtold ya I fits I sits, or in this case I lay on top ofâ He chuckled and sat up, his hair falling slightly out of his clip, and his hands on each side of my face.
âAnd i told ya. Ass on the grass, or ass grinding my my dick that your so kindly shoving your knee into.â I looked up at him with a slightly displeased face and i could feel my face heat up.
âOh god i am so sorry!â he looked down between us and moved his thigh.
âNo you arent.â I groaned, fuck i just wanna a quickie, i need sex now.
âYouâre right, Im not.â He laughed and got up standing on his feet and fixing his hair. âWe should head backâ he started dusting off the grass and dirt on his body.
Groaning loudly, i got up and cleaned off my ass. âWe good?â I turned around to show him my back.
âMmmmmm?â Val purred a bit.
âAss, check? Dirt gone?â I looked back at him.
âYeah, oh yeah weâre good.â He smirked at me.
âYour ass in the car noooow.â I snapped and pointed, pulling out my keys from my pocket.
Val giggled and jogged to the direction we came from towards the car. He stood patiently at the door for me and waiting until i unlocked it for him to hop in. I hopped into the truck soon after and clicked my seatbelt.
âYou do know showing me this place means you cant run from me now.â He smiled softly.
âMaybe i want you to find me.â I said softly and put the car in reverse. Val never said anything again the whole drive until we got back to the dorm.
âWanna watch something before bed?â Val asked as he took his shoes off and set his things down.
âSure.â I closed the door behind me, kicking my own shoes off. âI could do something else before bed too.â I mumbled low.
âHuh?â he looked back at me.
âNothin!â I smiled.
âWell, you set something up, im changing my clothes, these have grass stains now.â he pulled at his shirt and walked to the bedroom.
âAight, porno it is.â I cackled and sat on the sofa.
âNO SIR IT IS NOT!â He yelled back.
Laughing lightly to myself i plopped down on the sofa and flipped through on netflix for something good to watch. âLilo and stitch good?!â I shouted back at him as he was changing.
âYes!â He yelled back.
Selecting that and hitting Pause i waited for Val to emerge from the bedroom. His hair was now neatly clipped up in his usual style as he wore a loose crop top and the famous shorty shorts he usually paraded around in. âhow about you go get changed.â
âAight.â I walked around him and went to the bedroom to get a change of clothes. I grabbed a pair of worn out soft sweatpants to put on after i took my jeans off and a loose tshirt that hung low on my body. Changing quickly i walked out of the bedroom to see Val coming back with two drinks in his hands. âWhats in the cups?â
âVodka.â He said flatly. I looked down at the cups and picked one up to sniff it. Val instantly started laughing and plopped his ass on the sofa. âIm not going to get us in trouble by having vodka on campus, and being underage. I didnât think youâd believe me.â he giggled.
âShut up before i pour this fake vodka down your short shorts.â I groaned and sat back down on the sofa.
Val took the remote and hit play. Curling up into himself, his feet tucked up under him as he leaned on the arm of the sofa he was on. Â I leaned back and put my hand behind my head and my other hand made lines up and down Valâs thighs.We didnt talk at all during the movie until i looked over and saw Val sleeping. He had slumped down in his spot and had his head resting on the arm as his knees were up at his chest. Sighing softly to myself, i turned the netflix off and got up. Picking Val up and taking him to the bedroom. I brought my foot up and pushed his covers back so i could put them over him as he slept. Setting him down on the mattress, i reached around and took his hair clip out of his hair and set it down on the nightstand by his bed. I grabbed the covers to pull them over him and let him sleep. But i looked at his very exposed thighs and had a wicked thought. Leaning down over the leg closest to me, i put my mouth on his inner thigh. Kissing softly to see if he would wake up, kid is a deep sleeper, so i dont think heâd wake up to this. Opening my mouth more, i bit some of the flesh on his thigh, sucking on it to leave a nice hickey for him to wake up to. Letting go with a slightly pop,i looked back up to see if val had woken up. Nope, kid was still sleeping soundly. Chuckling softly, i brought the covers over him to his shoulders and got off of his bed and walked out to turn all the lights off.
When i got to the living space, i turned off the lights and turned to see Aero sitting in the bedroom doorway staring at me. She just sat there with her tail swishing slowly and her head tilted. Walking up to her, i squatted down and held my hand out for her to sniff. She instantly put her face in my hand and leaned heavily into the palm of my hand. âYouâre an odd kitty.â I whispered softly, and she instantly stopped rubbing her head in my hand and turned around and got onto Valâs bed with him like i just offended her. Getting off the floor i took my shirt off and tossed it on the floor beside my bed and flopped down onto my mattress.
My body still ached from my fight with Aj, and knowing tomorrow Demyan is going to make me practice with Pendragon or Takeshi. Groaning, i rolled onto my side facing away from Val. It also didnt help that i really wanted to masturbate, but being in a room with someone else kinda put me off from the idea of it, but god that Cupcake really made me wanna have sex. Itâs been awhile since i had a FwB or a relationship after my last ex. Sighing heavily, i grabbed my pillow and brought it up over my head, pressing the pillow onto the side of my head. Should maybe go and try to find a fuck buddy...or ask the cupcake.
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Ok so YES I love the long distance internet friends au but consider! Long distance wrong number au
honestly anon, thank you so much for this tonight.Â
i took long distance and made it loooooong distance to the point where it probably doesnât make sense, but ~~suspension of disbelief~~
texts between adrien and the mystery person (wow i wonder who) are in italics because theyre in french. also i didnt want to bother anyone so ânumĂ©ro inconnuâ is from google translate so im sorry forâŠ.that
finally i tried to streamline how i do texts for this just because the way i do texts is usually a lot clunkier? so it looks more like wanna chat but isnt in likeâŠ.the contact names are still what the other person would see? like when it says pretty boy thats ninos contact name for adrien andïżœïżœïżœ
frick just tell me if its too confusing and tell me how to fix it im really tired
[on ao3 in case the read more is a butt and wont open]
2:51 PM unknown number: Did this work????? unknown number: a;slkdfjadj its me btw unknown number: I mean duh its me who else would it be unknown number: If you screenshot this conversation al I swear to go d Ill kill you
Adrien squints at his phone. Not only does he not know this number, but the text are in French. ThatâsâŠunusual. He thinks that itâs a lucky coincidence that his father is from France and insisted he learned the language before replying.
2:52 PM numĂ©ro inconnu: I think you might have the wrong number. numĂ©ro inconnu: Sorry if my French is bad I donât speak it often and I write it even less
unknown number: Ohmogd unknown number: IM SOSO RRY Â IDNT MEAN OT unknown number: AHHHHH I MUSTCE TYPED IT IN WRONG???????? unknown number: Im sorry IM osrry Im sorry Im s orry Im sorry!!!!!!!!!! ; ^ ;
It takes Adrien a minute to translate the texts with the typos. Heâs not nearly as fluent as he thought he was. His dad will be thrilled about that. Maybe he needs to mention to Nathalie that starting Chinese has left him a little rusty with his FrenchâŠ
Not that this is going to be a thing. Because itâs not. Heâs not going to keep texting some random stranger fromâ Wait a minute.
2:54 PM numĂ©ro inconnu: On the off chance of sounding really stalkery numĂ©ro inconnu: (Iâm not sure if thatâs the right word, I had to use Google Translate) numĂ©ro inconnu: Do you live in France?
Yup. That question is just as creepy as it sounded in his head. Adrien spins slowly in his chair as he waits for a response, completely disregarding the homework he needs to have done before he leaves for fencing.
2:57 PM unknown number: Ummm unknown number: I dont know if i should be telling you this random stranger I texted by accident unknown number: But seeing that its a big country unknown number: ANd idk how youd find me to like murder me or something unknown number: Yes. Im from France unknown number: Why??
3:01 PM numĂ©ro inconnu: Itâs just that numĂ©ro inconnu: I live in the United States so⊠numĂ©ro inconnu: Iâm trying to figure out how you got a wrong number thatâŠwrong numĂ©ro inconnu: That sounded mean Iâm sorry!!!!!!!
Adrien puts down his phone and groans. Scaring people off from literally an ocean away. Heâs always known heâs not the greatest at socializing but this is some next level shit. He stares at his darkened phone screen for a minute before deciding that whoever heâs been texting is probably extremely weirded out and wonât be replying.
Heâs strangely disappointed by that.
And while he could go back to doing physics work, heâs not going to. Because now heâs distracted and he doesnât really want to be thinking about sound waves right now. Maybe in like fifteen minute, because sound waves are cool and add a whole new layer to music that he kind of loves, but not right this second.
The next time his chair spins past the desk, he grabs his phone and pulls up his conversation with Nino.
3:09 PM pretty boy: Have you ever been texted by someone who has the wrong number before?
duuuude: yup duuuude: it was weird af duuuude: didnt turn into a full convo cause they never responded
pretty boy: What did they send?
duuuude: a rad horse painting and the message âjen painted another horseâ
pretty boy: Ok wow yeah that is kind of weird
duuuude: yeah i didnt respond duuuude: but then the next day they asked about florida?? and flooding??? and were like yo have you seen or called anyone and i was like oh shit i should probably respond because this seems important incase theyre looking for someone
pretty boy: Yeah that sounds like a smart move pretty boy: Did you ever hear back from them
duuuude: nah duuuude: unfortunate too i wouldve loved to see more horse drawings duuuude: anyway that was kinda a random question any reason why you ask?
pretty boy: I got a text from a wrong number pretty boy: From France
duuuude: what the fuck duuuude: bruh international texting fees duuuude: good thing youre rich my dude
pretty boy: Nah itâs ok it was all iMessage
duuuude: bless duuuude: so was it like duuuude: in french
pretty boy: Yup
duuuude: aw man you lucked out duuuude: is it like a full conversaiton??
pretty boy: Idk they havenât responded in like 15 minutes pretty boy: It was nice while it lasted
duuuude: :/ rip
Adrien blinks in surprise when a notification from the unknown number pops up at the top of the screen. He clicks it immediately, not even reading any of the text before he does.
3:27 PM unknown number: I dont?????? KNow???????????? unknown number: My friend got a new phone and wrote her number on my arm but her writing is always kinda a mess and also I smudged the numbers because IM a mess and I unknown number: Somehow???? unknown number: PLUS I managed to add the us country code????
numĂ©ro inconnu: Well Iâm pretty sure thatâs just a 1 so thatâs understandable
unknown number: And any other numbers I needed??? Hwo did I?? unknown number: I don t know how I did it D: unknown number: Ohmy god and I just realized you probably dont want a million texts from a total stranger in a language you barely speak?? unknown number: IM SO SORRY ILL STOP NOW unknown number: YOU SEEM REALLY NICE SORRY FOR WASTING YORU TIME unknown number: OK BYE
3:36 PM numĂ©ro inconnu: Itâs fine! numĂ©ro inconnu: My dad is actually from Paris so I do know French numĂ©ro inconnu: I canât really say Iâm totally fluent in it but I spoke it a lot when I was little numĂ©ro inconnu: This is good practice! numĂ©ro inconnu: And youâre werenât wasting my time at all, I promise
Good going, Agreste, he thinks to himself. Over enthusiastic and weird. He tries not to think about it too much and goes back to physics. Physics with its constant equations and complex numbers and waves and waves and waves and waves. It gets a little easier when heâs able to connect it to something he knows. He can hear frequency in his music and beats when he tries to tune instruments. He finds his fingers itching to spread across the black and white piano keys and lose themselves in the music.
By the time Nathalie is calling him for fencing, heâs mostly forgotten about the conversation he had with the stranger across the sea. Not entirely, itâs still in the back of his mind, but heâs moved past the disappointment of likely never speaking to them again. While heâs fencing, his mind has no room for those thoughts and he throws them away. He wonât be needing them again.
When Adrien checks his phone after practice for schedule updates from Nathalie or texts about the weekend from Nino, he finds a single text in French at the bottom of his pile of notifications.
He canât stop himself from smiling as he opens it. Heâs not exactly sure what time it is in France right now, he assumes itâs fairly late and doesnât expect a response anytime soon, but he replies quickly anyway. His reply is short and simple, but he doesnât know what else to say, so itâll have to be enough for now.
Maybe this is a one time thing. Maybe it isnât. Heâd like it to be the latter, but right now, heâs just winging it.
4:02 PM unknown number: Well if youre really really sure⊠I mean I wouldnt be talking to you often obviously!!! But it might be cool to know more about America? Ive always wanted to visit and wow this probably is super weird and Im so sorry for that like this conversation hasnt been weird enough already ahahahhhhhhhhh but um. I just mean to say that if you wanted to maybe keep talking I wouldnt mind?
5:19 PM numĂ©ro inconnu: Iâd love to keep talking if you want to! :)
#Anonymous#Thanks from the Argo!#adrien agreste#marinette dupain cheng#nino lahiffe#my fics#i shouldve gone to bed an hour ago i feel like total garbage
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Hi, Iâm hoping you could help me. Itâs very long but Iâm not sure how to shorten it up. Iâm 27 and began being curious around 17~18 but only identified as bi about 23 after i graduated from University. Iâve never had a relationship, I barely have proper friends even. Nothing ever really lasts and everyone is always so busy so these days basically I only communicate online, even with family and people I know through school, work, offline community groups. Iâm a strange person, do weird things, and apparently quite selfish and want to do things I like only. I get so bored and annoyed if Iâm with people in person and I donât truly enjoy our activities and prefer to be alone. Sometimes I do find those that share my interests, but then they have little time or are far away so we canât meet up often either. Even though our interests sre shared, we like different parts (ie. both fans of a tv show but for different reasons or we ship different characters. or we both love music but different genre/artist.) or different degrees of like. (ie. we both love a tv series which was originally a game and they love the game more. While they love the tv series too they critisise some changes from original so dont invest in it as much. Or we are both a fan of the same artist but while they go to all the concerts and love every song, but iâve only been to a few concerts but dislike some songs and havent heard them all. Therefore there is a disconnect in our friendship because canât truly share things and is dissatisfying.) I only had two steady friends in high school, a male and female. I connected with the boy because my mom lived in his country when she was young for a few years and partially learned its culture and language so Iâd learn more from him, and he was quite interested in learning my culture and language as well. However there was plenty things we disagreed on and didnât get along otherwise. But he was a handsome boy I wanted to ask him out but felt the disconnect would be trouble, especially his family. Not sure why but we didnât communicate after high school. I connected with the girl because we both play the same instrument and we sort of practied together sometimes and she taught me as she was more advanced. But she moved away and we could only talk online and now we rarely talk and I stopped playing the instrument for unrelated reasons. I had various other short lived âfriendsâ throughout my whole life we could chat about something here and there but otherwise it was disconnect due to reasons Iâve stated much earlier. There was only one person in my life who actually had pretty much an equal like in something-that is learning about myths. We shared many worldwide myths with each other and were interested in everything each other had to say. I met her when I was 20 and she was my classmate (I studied abroad). I came out to her as being curious just a month after we met although she says sheâs straight. I sort of crushed on her, perhaps because it is so hard to find someone who really shared interests with me so much and I was so happy. I never talked more with anyone else, we would spend so much time together, both online and off. But when we graduated she immediately got a job and I moved back home. She doesnât have time much more, we chat online occassionally and still talk about myths (has always been about 80% of our conversations) but I havenât seen her in person since graduating. But those were the best years of my life, being together with my best friend. I think she is the reason why I really thought I liked girls too and she was very supportive when I was curious. Now Iâm back to âfriendsâ who are there sometimes and can sometimes connect through some shared interests but otherwise itâs just disconnect and we donât really get along. To be honest, Iâm not sure if Iâm lonely. I enjoy my interests and Iâm happy when I can share things with someone even if a little bit. Im truly myself while alone and donât have to compromise for someone else. But Iâm getting older and my family keeps asking whether Iâm going to settle down with anyone, in their minds 30 is the latest ideal age to marry so I have 3 years. Honestly itâs a silly deadline but I know they wonât force me. They are fine with me being bi although they donât really inderstand, so thatâs a great thing. I would love to settle down, whether itâs within this time or not. But my life experiences and personality seem to make it so hard to find and keep friends, much less a husband/wife. Thereâs only been one divorce in the history of my relatives due to a cheating partner otherwise itâs fully happy lifelong marriages. But with the way I connect with just friends, and nothing ever really lastsâŠhow in the world am I going to find a lifelong partner that wont end in divorce because I donât even have friends that really last. To be honest, I do have friends I first met 10+ years ago but we talk occassionally, usually only online and our topics are very narrow or just basic life updates otherwise itâs disconnect. True, these friendships do last but we arent very close at all so itâs not truly good friendship. 40% of such friends are those I met online and never in person-most being not in the same country even, 20% are those I met online but mostly seen in person as part of a organized group, the rest we met in person. I canât be in this kind of not close but lasting relationship with a husband/wife, we need to be there daily and our lives would be intertwined. So, Iâm not sure what to do or how to go about looking for someone. Or should I just continue living as I have, ignoring my familyâs nag. Maybe I do better as my own single person? I would love to settle down but I do love being single too but sometimes wish I had friends who better match interests. Please advise me. Thank you very much.
Answer: Ok, hereâs the thing, most people are selfish. Thomas Hobbes believes that human nature is actually very selfish. You arenât the only selfish person, Iâm extremely selfish. Yes, itâs much easier to be alone and not have to compromise, trust me, Iâm terrified of committing and compromising. But I promise you that one day, you may meet a person and you wonât want to be selfish, you want to give to make them happy because their happiness makes you happy. Donât expect that to happen right when you meet, it wonât happen until you give them a chance. So donât worry about being selfish, everyone is.
You seem to be looking for someone who has the exact same interests as you in all areas. Youâll never find that, thereâs no two people that are the same. Besides, that would get really boring when sharing a lifetime together. If you agree on everything, then what can you possibly talk about? Youâll never have make up sex either. The girl Iâm with now and I have nothing in common. She loves chemistry, I barely passed chemistry. She likes big trucks, I like small fast cars. She enjoys stories that are full of emotion and detail while I prefer the stories that are very subtle. We donât like the same books or movies. I think we only have one show in common. Seriously, we are complete opposites. But thatâs what makes it fun. I donât care that we have different interests, we are combining our interests. She reads my favorite books, I watch her favorite show. The person and their values matter, not what show they watch and what character they like. So no, we donât have anything in common. But sheâs brilliant, kind, and funny. Sheâs supportive and she truly wants to make me happy. And me, a very very selfish person who is terrified of commitment, I want to make her happy too. I want to watch her favorite show and I even want to hear about her day even though I donât have a clue what she does at work. Thatâs what matters. The goodness you find in someone and the goodness they bring out in you. Yeah, youâll argue and fight but then youâll make up and have awesome make up sex. Youâll actually have something to talk about and debate if you are opposites. You need to balance each other out. You like to stay home. Find someone who is outgoing and likes to go out. Balance each other, you go out more, they go out less.
Find someone you can meet in the middle. It might not be anytime soon. It might take a few years. But if you are hoping to settle down and fall in love then youâll need to step way out of your comfort zone. And donât look for someone thatâs exactly like you, look for someone to be everything you arenât, the other half of you. Forget the three year timeline. Itâll happen when itâs meant to. Start with fixing you first.
Unless you really donât want to get married then donât change. It didnât seem that way to me though. It sounded like you really want to meet someone, youâre just afraid of compromise, commitment and change. I get it, itâs extremely scary, but itâs really really worth it. By the way, this isnât just about relationships. If you look outside your comfort zone and interests then you can make friends that will last longer. My friends and I have nothing in common except our values. We are loyal and kind people, thatâs what matters.
- Nicole
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Things in my life arenât bad. But i just come to this blog whenever i need to vent about something. Where I last left off, I was feeling very lackluster in my relationship. Such feelings have once again passed. Weâve been helping kait and saulo move recently into their new apartment, and its gotten me and chris thinking about how things will be when we finally move out together (as well as being married). Things arenât exactly as hopeless as they seem. It wouldnât be easy to make the payments while living a comfortable life, but i think if we ever made the jump, we could find ways to make it work. On some level i think anyway... But this is the year I hope we both really get to sort out our current issues (mainly his money debt) and prepare ourselves for moving out. Hopefully we can find a place sometime next year. As far as getting engaged, i think the main issue has been not being able to find or decide on a ring. Especially since my ring size is so small and i can be very particular about what I want. I dont want something super cheap that wont last most my life, but at the same time i know he cant afford an expensive ring and we are both eager to just get engaged and married in the years soon to come. I wish life could be like a fairytale where all of this stuff wouldnt be a problem. I would be in a relationship with like the perfect guy and then he would surprise me with a beautiful ring in a beautiful setting and money wouldnt be an issue. Also, thinking of a wedding in realistic terms is also kinda disappointing. I always imagined a church wedding like my parents did. But now I donât even think we will be able to afford that. Honestly, it will probably turn out to be some backyard or park wedding with a small amount of people. Cheap. And...lacking that magical romance. Iâm just getting so tired of waiting to move ahead in our relationship with each other. Putting our relationship on hold for things that cost so much but yet mean so much in our heads and hearts. Iâm 24 fucking years old but yet i still feel like a child. But when i see or think about my age, its like âbitch you should be running the world already like all adults do.â You should be knowing what youâre doing. Being responsible. Hard worker. Smart. Making that money and dealing with life. But itâs all so hard. Especially with my anxiety that not even I have much control of with medication. Iâm scared of really moving up and allowing more hours cause that means more responsibility and expectations that i cant handle. Especially right now. Iâve been having so many conflicting and depressing thoughts about what Iâm even aiming for in my life. I wish I had this one thing that I loved to do so much that I could create things without having too stress much about it and just be naturally amazing or so driven and interested that learning and practicing was just fun. Being an idol? Like a jpop idol? Am I dumb? How silly is that? Oh cute you dance around all cutely while singing in japanese in front of a small crowd that doesnt even really care about you. You really think you can become anything here in america? You really think that this group your in is going to amount to anything? Seeing other people make music and have music videos who didnt even appear to originally want that for themselves and suddenly being able to do it cause they have the money to do so and the talents its just so. fucking. frustrating. I want that so bad. I want someone to help make me a song. A song i can write and sing and they can make an instrumental for it to make my song and lyrics come to life and i can be like the star ive always dreamed of being. Iâve always wanted fame and recognition. But was my need for these things ever because i loved to entertain people? NO. I wanted to do it because I wanted to express myself. I wanted to express how i was feeling. But I canât even write much anymore. The words i can choose from are so few and i dont even know how to express myself now. If all those piano tracks i wrote over WERE my actual talents and original songs, nothing would have changed. Im still a nobody. I still canât support myself with any of this. Iâm just trying to have fun and do something that brings me life. but everything ends up being a chore for me. It ends up tearing me up inside. And then over and over again i want to give up and im in this vicious cycle of going no where. And im just going through my life, trying to remain blissfully unaware of all the thoughts that are saying im wasting time. oh yeah im gonna sing stuff. and do dance things on youtube. and then suddenly what? suddenly ill get a big following? What do i expect? what do i want? What is the end goal? AND THATS JUST IT I DONT HAVE ONE. I dont have any longterm goals or real dreams cause to this day i dont know if anything im doing or desiring is anything i actually want. And so...im just fucking around in life. Im just fucking around. Trying to find meaning. Trying to find a place. something. anything. whatever it is to feel something. worth something. useful and adding something to life. im without passions and drive. without dreams. im just blind.
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almost 2018
hello, i know i havenât been here in a while but itâs because i have been busy.Â
school, work, and life in general kind of just took over me and i never thought twice about documenting any of it since i did not think any of it was worth documenting.Â
its almost 2018
its almost a new year, a chance for new opportunities, new feelings, new mistakes, new new new.
2017 was honestly the best year of your life. i know thatâs a crazy thing to say but i positive that nothing horrible happened to you.. maybe im speaking too soon.. no but seriously, nothing bad happened except for small things here and there but not big enough to take up space in your mindÂ
January was bliss because you were in love
February was confusion because you had feelings you never felt before
March was nice because it felt like a new startÂ
April felt like you had to chance to really focus on yourself (but to be honest i think you just worked a lot) i think this was when you joined EYA?
May was warm, it was summer at an early startÂ
June you were hot and worked loads saving up for the PH
July was the month you went to the Philippines! so many things to see, so many things to learn, so many things you to do. you did it all and took so much in, that resonates with you and made you the person you are. youâve connected all the pieces together and things start to make sense. you gained a better understanding of the people around you, the place where you came from and yourself; specially.Â
August mainly worked, tried to loose the wait you gained from the PH, and lots adventures!
September was back to school yikes :$ you enjoyed it though. you soaked it all in like a sponge and felt like thriving with knowledgeÂ
October was stress and coffee driven
November was stress and coffee driven and wet, very wetÂ
December - now stress but also nice that its the break. you have laughed loads. also i think that this was a great christmas (present wise) because you got all the things you wanted. you had more freedom
this year was amazing. my relationship with my parents grew, my knowledge about the world grew, ive made new friends and drifted apart from old ones and im ok with it, i learned an instrument, i was apart of an art show and really called myself an artist for the first time, ive also had my lowest points this year with bad decisions ive made (this part still confuses me.. i dont really like how it made me feel with certain expectations for things anymore because of two dumb experiences), this year ive never been more proud of beig a filipino, i dont think ive ever been more passionate about my home, i dont ever think ive ever called it my home, i really cant imagine what the new year has in store. im ready to glow the fuck up and come in fresh with an open mind of what it has in store.Â
dont think too much about the future and focus on whats going on in the present.Â
do things for YOU, do the thing YOU want to do, dont sell YOURSELF short, this year is all about you and making you feel at your peakÂ
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