#and do have a lot of character songs just chilling in my docs for characters who are never getting profiles if I’m being honest

[pkmnomegaverse]

Been listing to my playlist for the canon characters while working on background pages for this blog (once again, highly recommend making playlists for your AUs. Works great as a motivation thing to just turn it on and get in the vibe) and figured I should throw some songs out I haven’t posted yet. So just some random characters songs from the list.

Morty

November Corrosion by Ashbury Heights - This is very much me channeling how Morty has more in common with Lonan than I tend to talk about. Lonan’s visions and sleep issues aren’t from being a Faller after all, he gets it from his dad. To me, this song is about Morty’s visions and also how, in some sense, Morty has a curse that follows him around. Not in a literal sense but there’s a lingering something there. I’ve alluded to this before, that it’s something about Morty that brings misfortune to the family, but it’s related to his affinity for ghosts combined with his clairvoyance. Attracts things. But I also like the “embrace the break of day” line that repeats in this song despite the dour lyrics throughout the rest of it. Cause that’s how I see Morty approaching things. Tries to move forward and not let hardships drag him down. Again, Lonan and Morty are fairly similar in how they deal with situations (something something even without memories of his parents, Lonan still carries parts of them around with him).

Cilan

Masque by Ashbury Heights - Very much related to him being part of the Shadow Triad and raised by Ghetsis. And all the baggage that brings him. My take on Cilan is while Chili is probably the most well adjusted of the brothers and Cress is the least well adjusted (but just kinda embraces and runs with it), Cilan is about as ill-adjusted as Cress but hides it much better. Comes across as a normal dude but if he ever flipped…he’s still got that Shadow Triad edge in him.

Settle For Satin by Alkaline Trio - Another Shadow Triad themed song. Really just this and the previous song are a good tell on how I tend to characterize Cilan. My unconventional take on his true personality.

Tierno

Coco Jamboo by Mr. President - Ending with something light hearted! Really just this song is a vibe for Tierno to me, vs the lyrics fitting super well. The main chorus as least fits him I feel.

[hellheld]

I KEEP A RECORD OF THE WRECKAGE OF MY LIFE / I GOTTA RECOGNIZE THE WEAPON IN MY MIND / THEY TALK SHIT BUT I LOVE IT EVERY TIME! AND I REALIZE I'M NO SWEET DREAM, BUT I'M A HELL OF A NIGHT!

au/rework of charlie "harlot" morningstar of hazbin hotel. based on my version of hell and with an original timeline that differs from canon. a study in the consequences of biting off more than you can chew, what's left after giving your body and mind for those you want to protect and failing, only to be forget who you used to be. also: head trauma, supernatural brain damage, body horror, rock and roll, helping people in the strangest way possible, being a hell - wide popular rock star, the fucking antichrist, and all it entails. WAS riotchrist but i got shadow banned and impatient so i remade ❤ READ RULES AND CHARACTER SHEET BEFORE INTERACTING.

( broke down and put myself back together again )

i decided that having strict rules was boring, and i want to branch out into the helluva rpc, so i’ve gotten rid of my “won’t follow if” that aren’t related to my accessibility ( being unable to read your blog, your carrd, or google docs ). that said, i will still be very selective with who i follow, and will simply block those who do make me uncomfortable and blacklist urls. i want this blog to be fun and chill!

tl:dr: hell is sentient and loves charlie. it speaks to charlie in their mind, and only to charlie. while searching for a way to stop the exterminations, after being ignored by heaven, they attempt to combine their power with hell’s. it goes bad! the power is too much for their body to handle, and they must either stop the attempt or give up their body to combine their consciousness with hell’s if they want to be powerful enough to take on all of heaven. charlie decides it’s worth it. hell decides it is not. their body is damaged and changed by the experience, so much so that charlie no longer feels like charlie. they change their name to harlot, and start writing songs to get out their feelings. they feel more like the antichrist than ever before, meant to destroy heaven and set the rise of hell. so they sing about it, drink about it, and be wild about it. their reputation turns from the naive, too kind for their own good prince to the ANTICHRIST, a performer rivaling lilith’s influence that parties nightly and overdoses often enough to end up in the hospital. the latter is just an excuse to visit the hospitals they run often.  eventually (second verse) they set up a hotel for those that need it, curious if redemption is even possible, or if anyone would even want to try and be redeemed. most of the occupants are simply demons who need a place to stay.

even if you've read the tldr, i still HIGHLY encourage you to read the full doc about harlot's backstory before interacting with me. i have a lot of hcs mixed into my lore, and this is not charlie.

if you have gotten this far, thanks! let's fucking party!

[madrone33]

Just found this in my docs! Apparently I wrote down my reaction when I first listened to Ulysses Dies At Dawn last november, soooo :D

Started listening to Ulysses Dies at Dawn by The Mechanists. First song is The City, let's gooo (19:44).

Just finished listening to Ulysses Dies at Dawn. Oh, shit, I just realised why the album is called that, fuck. My heart. His death was simultaneously heartbreaking, peaceful, and triumphant. I had no idea it was going to end like that. Amazing (22:24).

Ok, some rambling about it before I re-listen with lyrics:

The whole idea of trials, and each character's backstory getting introduced with them is cool. It lets the mystery soak for a bit, giving breadcrumbs out, and letting each character have time to breathe.

I like how the blind guy is almost exclusively referred to as "that motherfucker" XD. Ironic.

Ok, but the sphinx disease is legitimately horrifying. Wow, the Olympians are just straight up villains in this huh.

I think Daedalus has the coolest vibes (apart from Ulysses) 'cause he's just so smooth all the time. Calm and collected and unconcerned... until the end when Ulysses switches it up on him lol.

The line "Currently beaten, battered, bloody... Unbowed. Spits out a mouthful of teeth and disdain" perfectly encapsulates Ulysses' character. I love it.

Ulysses being this super smart inventor tactician dude is awesome. I was stunned by the Trojan Horse twist. Broken Horses was amazing, I had literal chills. Interestingly, it almost reminds me of Hell’s Comin’ with Me by Poor Man’s Poison? Also, the signal Ulysses designed for the Trojan Horse sounds a lot like the V-Day signal in Kingsman. Brutal.

The beat to My Name is No-One sounds like an alarm, like how False Peace by Precious Jewel Amor utilises the prison alarm as percussion, which is very cool. And the song is hilarious. Just waltz in, it'll be fine :D Love the way it fades out after he gives his name away, ending on an unresolved note a lot like in Remember Them from EpicTM. Yo, speaking of Epic, I kinda love how the electric guitar in this song unintentionally mirrors the way Odysseus in Epic has the electric guitar as his instrument when he’s doing badass shit.

And then Ulysses going from idealistic to traumatised, and you don't even see the extent of his hope for the world until right at the end, when it's already gone. Like, shit bro.

Love how even though he spends like- almost the whole thing being drunk and getting beaten up, he still always seems in control somehow. The only time he isn't is in Underworld Blues when he's begging to Hades. I'll have to relisten to that to figure out what he wanted, actually. It was a bit unclear. Did he just... want Hades to kill him or smth? Make sure his brain wasn't on the network? Yeah, I'll need the lyrics.

The twists on all the lore are honestly so great. From mythical and magical, to futuristic and mechanical. You can clearly see the real world myths all their backstories come from.

That simple, blunt "No" from Ariadne was great.

I love how in Torn Suits all of the mercs are singing about why they can't die, and how they're going to use the money to escape the City's hold on them. By running, or paying off debts, or taking a loved one back, or ruling it. But then Ulysses kills them and willingly dies himself, giving his body to the earth and escaping the City more fully than they ever could. Hell yeah, fuck them.

As soon as I heard the password was 'Elysian', I knew it was something about death. His death. And something about it will be peaceful. I was right.

And ARGOS!! The doggo reunites with his human, and yeah he still dies, but Ulysses practically goes with him! Also, are dogs extinct in this world, like horses? Did Ulysses manage to find the last tree and the last dog?? Damn, dude. Mad skillz.

Bro, I was wondering where Penelope was going to fit into all this, 'cause in The Odyssey, practically his entire life purpose is to get back to her, but here there was... nothing stopping him I thought? I thought either he was in huge debt to someone and was stuck in a completely different sector than Penelope, or he was staying away out of guilt and shame over his actions in the war. But then it's revealed that he is trying to get back to her... in death. Like, fuck bro, that's really fucking sad. Dude's been passively or actively suicidal for the past few decades, and then he finally gets to rest with her... Fuck, man. Hits hard.

Ulysses sounds a lot like Joel from The Last of Us games when he sings softly. It helps that Elysian Fields is literally just Wayfaring Stranger lol. Also gives the same feeling as the endish part of AC: Valhalla, after he talks to the king and rides away and Twilight of the Gods starts playing.

The cover art is so cool, as well. And the last ones? The plain wooden table, bare of any media or research or advertisement. So good. No more secrets. No more lies. The truth, laid out in the open, plain as can be. Nothing more, nothing less. And then the vault, blood splattered enemies dying, grasping for artificial life in the cold grey, while Ulysses lies under the living tree, surrounded by sunlight and green with his loved ones, at peace with his death. Amazing imagery.

The drums at the end of Elysian Fields are like a funeral march or the drums that play on Anzac Day. So good.

Okay, I think I've written all I wanted to say, so imma go read the lyrics now (22:56).

Finished listening with the lyrics! Love it even more now (01:44).

[queercoded-disney-villain]

AUGHHhghhgh I literally wanna ask like. the whole list for the Fanfic Writer Asks buttt I'll just pick a few I guess

😈✍🛒

🎶❌🎯

🎨🦅✅

(plot twist: all of these are things I want someone to ask me ehehehe)

So sorry I let this rot in my inbox here we go.

😈 Have you ever done something playfully mean to your readers?

Implied that Belos goes chompity chomp on Lilith’s palisman in Starlight Captives. Made Lilith’s palisman a named and present character just for the Chompity Chomp.

✍️ Do you have a beta reader?

No. My drafts are between me, God, and the google docs autocorrect that I have a one-sided rivalry with.

🛒 What are some common things you incorporate in your fics?

Every character is just like me fr. They are all the Brain Weird mostly because I have no idea how neurotypical people work.

🎶 Do you listen to music when you write?

Typically no. If I do, it’s lofi or Zelda soundtracks. I like listening to a playlist called Blast Your Tits Off when doing my final proofreading for dramatic scenes, and another called Maidenless Behavior for more chill moments. Sometimes I’ll get more specific with songs to match The Vibes.

❌ What’s a trope you will never write?

Anything smutty. Most things romantic. And though I enjoy some “Let’s watch our show!” fics, I do not have NEARLY enough dedication to write one.

🎯 Have any of your readers accurately guessed major plot points?

Sadly, no. I haven’t written enough multichapter for that.

🎨 How do you feel about fan art for your stories?

I feel 🥹🥹💗💗💖❤️❤️🤍🥹🥲😭 /pos

🦅 How often do you outline?

With oneshots, I go in with the vibe, make it up as I go, and polish it into coherency with my revisions. With longer fics, I make an overarching outline first, normally just vomiting my plot ideas and vibes into a blank doc. A lot of the time, the path changes along the way and I end up ditching the outline altogether.

✅ What’s something that unintentionally reoccurs in your fics?

THE SAME THREE PHRASES THAT I THOUGHT WERE NORMAL THINGS TO SAY

Thanks so much for the ask! This was a lot of fun!

[aranarumei]

actually im curious. for people who make playlists what is their preferred method and also like. what they're making playlists for. i think my playlists r divided into abt 5 categories:

1: playlists that compile work of an artist or smthing like it. ofc u can simply go to an artist you follow and click liked songs but 1) this includes all liked albums even if not all of the individual songs in that album is liked iirc, and 2) sometimes bands have like. members that do solo work and so the song isnt listed under the band name but i personally wanna compile it in the playlist. there's also people like gigaP who i have a playlist for, because he's not listed as an artist for a lot of songs he does production on, and i wanna compile that. and then also theres stuff like. compiling all of the sonic music i like.

2: organizer playlists. stuff like. i like to separate my songs by language just because. and for japanese-language music i break that down into 1) these are openings 2) this is music from a gacha game 3) this is vocaloid music 4) all the stuff that is none of the above. if i want everything i shuffle the folder (tho spotify mobile doesnt seem to have that ability...) or things like, here is a playlist with all of the classical music i listen to. one with all the video game ost. one with all the anime ost. etc. 3: themed playlists. this feels pretty standard, its just like. this playlist has songs that represent a season, this one has gender fuckery, this one is sorta vibey and chill, etc.

4: fandom / story playlists: this is the one i'm interested in!! i think this has a variety of how it works--saw a poll about whether character playlists are made thinking about what music the character would canonically be into, and that blew my mind bc i'd absolutely never thought about that. but i've also never made a character playlist (yet) bc my fandom playlists are like... "story" playlists? so some are just like. fic playlists that compile songs i think fit with the story lyrically and/or vibe-wise, and some are like, here's a playlist abt a relationship i like, and the songs are ordered to show like the chronology of the actual media and each couple of songs represent a different arc / time period etc. i'm not always that detailed, so I've got some that don't necessarily follow a chronology, but with these I tend to build them by writing a google doc with the songs + one quote of a lyric that i think fits, and then I tend to add extra notes on the rest of the song and how it fits with my ideas. why i do it i couldn't tell you because the documents are mostly for me lol. anyways that's all

5. cannot believe I have to tack this on in post bc I said 5 and then straight up forgot. the 5th category is recommendation playlists for others

[wellhalesbells]

5, 10, 17 & 20 for the ask 😁

5. have you ever made a playlist about something you were writing as an elaborate means to procrastinate when you could have been actually writing and if yes drop a link, son

I sure have not, mainly because if I did it would be, how you say, very short. I tend to listen to... one song, over and over and over and over and over again. It usually lasts me through an entire week, sometimes longer, before I have to switch to something new. If I ever do.

10. at what point in the process do you come up with titles, and how easy or hard is that for you?

The latter kind of dictates the former. Sometimes it is so obvious, and it's been obvious since I started, and sometimes I am left sitting there going: I could post this if I could just think of what to friggin' call it. For stories that I have to keep coming back to, it usually happens very organically. I edit. A lot. Coming back to a doc repeatedly and having it be called something truly psychotic and horribly mis-identifying (as it always starts), I'll usually realize what it should be called well before I'm finished. But like with the last fic I posted, I wrote it quickly and I was left with a fic that didn't have a name hours after it was done and I ended up snagging it from an episode of the show I was watching because I dON'T KNOW AND I GIVE UP.

17. what is your favorite line you’ve ever written?

Oof. I have no idea. Do people remember specific lines they've written? I really tend to just remember vibes, atmosphere that I've crafted well enough that when I think of that story that's what fills my mind about it or colors that pop when I think of it. I don't know, it's hard to describe, but when I think of it, it has a unique footprint in my brain. Its own shape and feeling and taste associated with it. Oh! But I can tell you that this line about Boyd from AAYbtDoM makes me laugh out loud literally every damn time I read it:

"He was still trying to breathe normally when Scott noticed Boyd sitting down on the grass, legs spread out and pressing the sole of his boot up against a dead hunter’s to see if they had comparable shoe sizes."

Every. Damn. Time. For context: absolutely the most dramatic crap is happening in the foreground, Stiles and Derek nearly just died, Scott's barely holding onto his panic about that, they've just defeated the Monster of the Week but in the background, Boyd is just all chill, sprawled out on this grass with the level of gravitas that a five-year-old would have on it, that same 'I'm gonna tear out grass and rain it down between my outstretched legs, toes of his boots lazily rocking back and forth' energy, looking for new--well, admittedly ~slightly used shoes from people who no longer need their shoes. The juxtaposition kills me.

20. what is your favorite trope to write?

Honestly, whichever character is the stoic, emotionally constipated beefcake in my ships, I'll muss 'im up with some jealousy. Just a 'here are complicated emotions, go forth and conquer.... or stand there in a corner with an eye twitch and insides squirming while telling yourself you don't care about this at all' moment. It is always glorious.

[sommerregenjuniluft]

hi darling angel<3

11, 12, 19, 21, 27-29, 31, 44, 60

(sorry i know it's a lot but I'm greedy for knowledge when it comes to you)

hi sheva baby<3

no worries im gonna have so much fun with these!

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

bread rolls (german Brötchen) or toast with some cream cheese, gouda and vegan meat slices, tomatoes cucumber paprika whatever i’ve got at home and (separately) with jam and banana

12. name of your favorite playlist?

already did that here

19. sleeping position?

on my stomach, one leg up, hugging a pillow

21. obsession from childhood?

avatar the last airbender and taekwondo, i also drew a lot back then

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?

stay inside, drink tea, read a book but i do love me a good finger freezing walk in the woods from time to time (i’d also really like to go skiing sometime again, i only every did one time with school when i was 13? and i fuckin lovveeed it (i was in the best beginners group>:) hehe))

28. five songs to describe you?

29. best way to bond with you?

no fucking clue, i guess just spend time with me? bully me out of my girlcavern where i girlrot and force me to do something with you where we can chill and talk, maybe do something creative idk, make a blood pact and fight our mortal enemies together alternatively idk???

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?

baby tee (who would have thought), mid-rise flared jeans, my chunky Docs like shoes, rinnnggss

44. favorite scent for soap?

umm like hand soap just something clean smelling, maybe milk and honey but no funny flowery business and for body wash i really like citrusy smells

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

FIGHTING ANIME !! idc what kind gimme super powers or a fucking bat and boots and i’ll kick every assholes heads in!!!!!!!!!!

[lemonlurkrr]

@aureateart​ ok. My favourite parts of twilight princess  (and some other random thoughts about TP sprinkled in there) taken from my monster TP word vomit google doc :

Link lmao

Ok but for real, I like this incarnation of Link :)

I love Ordon (it just seems like such a chill and cozy village)

ALSO love how easy it is to interpret Link as being a sort of older brother figure to the Ordon kiddos. It’s just,, super cute? AND GHHH nice nice good thanks nintendo for giving me characters to care about/characters that I can imagine Link caring about

He didn’t sign up for any of this (tbh, none of the Links really signed up for this jshdjsd). But I mean like, dude was just going to take a trip to castle town, drop a gift off for the royal family, and come back. But haHA oopsies he did get to castle town eventually but definitely not the way he expected hsjdhsd

He’s just a little dude?

AND FUCK. HE REALLY HAD NEVER BEEN OUTSIDE OF ORDON UNTIL ALL OF THAT

everything is new for the player AND Link

Midna

She’s cool :)

she really just

*teleports into your jail cell* hello whore.

I am no master at writing but AYYYY she do got a character arc!!!

She was actually pretty helpful sometimes, I ALWAYS checked in with her before turning to a game guide

Other NPCs

NICE

Love all of the TP character designs (ASHEI’S ARMOUR??? AOWOAOAOOAO)

Saving Zelda and all of Hyrule was important yea but thinking back maybe it was more like, the Ordonians and the kids were what was pushing Link to keep on going

I like the Resistance members :) Very video gamey of them to have one NPC assigned to each dungeon but hey!!! Kinda cool getting to see a little glimpse of each of em

Idk, it’s just fun to imagine Link popping into Telma’s bar after each dungeon and taking a little rest :) (or to celebrate? maybe just chat, idk, give this man some downtime!!)

Honestly it was just kind of nice that Link wasn’t entirely alone. I mean, I know Midna was there the whole time, but I am always for giving Link a big group of friends (see my love for hyrule warriors, age of calamity, and LU LMAO)

Hero’s shade, very very cool, kinda sad he died with regrets but HEY. He got to pass on his knowledge eventually

AND the connection to OoT?? AND assumed to be related by blood too????? GOOD SHIT

Ilia, I REALLY really wanted to like her (er, it’s not like I dislike her, she’s just,,, kinda there for me).

It definitely seems like Nintendo was pushing to make her the romantic interest, but GHHHHH they really threw that out of the window for me by having her lose her memories

I saw a text post a while ago that said it would have been interesting if Ilia was Link’s sister instead and YES!! That would have been cool too :0

Wish we got to know Zelda a little more

I feel like we barely know anything about her

Idk man, like I said earlier, I never really had any sort of drive to save Zelda during my playthroughs

She obviously knows Midna, so maybe if they gave us just a little bit more of that relationship I’d be more interested in her?

TP WORLD BUILDINGGGG

Botw has good world building too, but each race felt kinda,,, isolated? I absolutely love the different architecture and vibe each town has (and all the the weapons too) but ghhh yea everyone felt so separated. As far as I can remember, we don’t see tooo much of the races interacting with each other? Now that I’m typing that out maybe that’s to be expected because of the calamity but KLSJDKJFD ANYWAYS THIS IS ABOUT TP

The world feels nice and alive, love how populated everything is

Castle town I like castle town a lot, it feels dense and busy and I really like how you can’t talk to every NPC you see

Very cool very fun that we got to see the Gorons hanging out in multiple spots

kinda wish we got to see the Zoras a little more (I guess they are a bit limited since they need water but GHHHH the tp zoras are so prebby,,)

BUT HEY, I do remember seeing a zora or two hanging out in the hot springs around death mountain after beating the lakebed temple (I think, might have been a different dungeon) 

but aaaa would have been nice to see them in at least a couple of other places. I think it would have really added to the “congrats Link!! You’re restoring peace to Hyrule” feeling you get from seeing the Gorons hanging out in Kakariko and Castle Town

ORDON

Love how chill it is and how it’s kind of separate from Hyrule proper

They really do seem to be doing their own thing apart from the rest of Hyrule

Just kinda adds onto the “he’s just a regular dude minding his own business” kind of vibes I get from TP Link

Also I like Ordona :)

THE LIGHT SPIRITS,,

Love their design

And love how they’re not exactly like a pure white?

Different spirit representing each aspect of the triforce my beloved

But yes hi I think Ordona is very cool

Who are you, how did you get here, which goddess do you represent? Do you even represent one of the three golden goddesses? Do the Ordonians know about you? Have any of them ever SEEN you??? Do they worship you? Does anybody even know about the existence of the light spirits?? FUCK so many questions but ghhh I like how they broke the status quo a bit by throwing in a fourth spirit :)

I feel like this one is kinda weird but I like that voice sample they used in the light spirit music. It’s spooky and pretty at the same time :)  

cutscenes mmmmm

Ok ok, the spooky lanayru cutscene is very good

BUT THE “Link, Chosen Hero! Lend us the last of your power!” CUTSCENE MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM LOVE IT SO MUCH

IT just

Idk man

It just hit different

I like the music

And seeing the light spirits swimming around in the light juice water whatever it is

Summoning the light arrows?

AND HHHHH “Lend us the last of your power!” THIS IS IT. This is the final battle.

Seeing Zelda bow down, and then Link putting his hand out 👌👌👌

Link: ok bud, let’s do this together :)

Connection to OoT (did I already mention this? Maybe., Whatever)

Very cool nintendo :)

I love seeing connections between all the diff zelda games.

Because like, on one hand, they’re all separate from each other because of yknow, individual hero stuff. BUT ALSO, they’re all connected because of the reincarnation stuff

Grrrr walking through the sacred grove and going “The Hero of Time walked around here a long time ago” FUCK THATS SO COOL

Is the Hero’s Shade watching me? What does he think of me? DIsappointed? Proud? The Hero of Time went through HELL so this timeline didn’t have to deal with any of the shit Ganon was gonna pull with the triforce, better not fuck this UP Link!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Midlink is cute

Kinda hurts that she smashed the mirror but that was probably so Nintendo didn’t have to worry about people going “but what about the twili??????” for any of the other games LMAO

BUT ALSO LIKE SKJDKLJFJ There are some pretty massive plot holes in TP anyway so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ whatever it’s fine we’ll just use this for angst because GOD do y’all like angst

So is Shadlink

Honestly don’t know where this ship came from but it’s cute so whatever

THE MUSIC??

Love Midna’s theme and how they referenced the dark world theme from ALttP (I remember trying to learn the dark world theme on the piano and doing the Leonardo DiCaprio point meme at the little jingle I recognized from Midna’s theme)

Hyrule field theme SLAPS.

Apparently references a couple of the other over-world themes from the previous zelda games (I got this from 8-bit Music theory’s video on the over-world zelda themes, he talks about TP at around 11:40 but def recommend watching the whole video if you’re into music analysis stuff)

So there’s this bit of the Hyrule Field theme, I don’t know the official name for it but I remember seeing somewhere it being called the “at an advantage theme” since yeah, you hear it during the boss music whenever you expose their weak points. FUCKINGGG LOVE THAT. Didn’t notice it during my first playthrough, but hearing it during my second was like a little easter egg for my ears every time :)

Midna’s lament is very pretty (and fun to play on the piano)

COURAGE THEME.

I didn’t care for it too much when I started playing the game but hearing it in ZREO’s arrangement of the Hyrule Field theme literally makes me turn into a puddle of emotions. Also hearing it around and of the Ordon kids (I think it plays after Link saves Colin) AAAAAAAAAAAAA

Orchestra piece #1 and #2 HOLY SHIT???????????????? 

Literally, the first time I listened to those I just,,,, plugged in my headphones, volume 100, layed on the floor/against my desk and silently vibed. I don’t know what the hell it is, but those two just fit so well with TP?? I still avoid listening to them nowadays cause if I DO I definitely will get overwhelmed with the “god I love this game so FUCKING MUCH” kind of feels.

Wolf link sucks at singing

the first time I heard him howling Zelda’s Lullaby I lost my shit because LKSJLDKSGLKJFSKG god that was.,, Bad. Anyways, hearing him howl some of the songs from OoT was cute :)

TP STAFF ROLL??? 

VERY GOOD. IT’s like 10 minutes long and GOD do I love every single second of it. It doesn’t have the same energy as the skyward sword staff roll or the orchestra pieces but GOD does it hit good??

Nice and calm after that big exciting adventure. Maybe it would have been more fun or emotional to have a higher energy piece but it was really nice getting to sit back and watch the camera fly around Hyrule. Seeing like, the Gorons and the Zoras having a good time, the kids returning to Ordon? GOOD SHIT.

and AAAAA that end, when you hear the main Zelda theme and see Link riding off out of Faron woods on Epona… good shit. It gets you thinking, where the hell is he going? What is he doing? Off ot do more adventuring? Going to help out the resistance or something? Going to help Zelda? Or maybe he’s trying to figure out a way to restore the mirror of twilight? Whoooo knows.

hhHHHHhhh it’s just that final reminder that YES!!! YOU JUST PLAYED A ZELDA GAME. JUST ANOTHER STORY APART OF THE WHOLE EPIC OF THE ZELDA SERIES AS A WHOLE

I also want to acknowledge the instrument/samples they used for all the twili stuff.

They’re all just so unique and contrast SO well with the rest of the TP OST. LIKE FUCK!! Anytime I hear the screech from the Twilit Kargarok? Sends a shiver down my spine. I associate those sounds SO strongly with the twili realm. (Like, the same way you associate the BSHEWW VVWWMMM sounds with light sabers)

I love it so god damn much

literally any time there’s a certain sound or motif associated with something I lose my shit

Sacred grove sacred grove sacred gro-

lovely lovely lovely so much fun playing that on the piano. AND again, I did the Leonardo DiCaprio pointing meme when I heard the theme from the lost woods come in GHHHHHHHH

shoutout to TP Faron Woods for helping me study and get through all of my schoolwork

BLEGUUHHH can you tell that I really love music?

and also yea I guess TP is kinda cool too :\

IF YOU READ ALL OF THAT THANKS I GUESS

[vinnival]

Hello, I'm sorry that there are many requests again, there is still a request for a Russian reader. But I would really like to see main 3 + 2bdamned + Phobos x a very seriously ill reader. The fact is that I have heart problems and will soon have an operation, where I might end up, I would like to see the reactions and actions of my favorite characters in Madness. Thanks.

HELLO AGAIN ROSTYY I SEE UR OTHER REQUEST AND I WILL GET TO IT SOON I HAVE TO GET THRU THIS ONE AND THE OTHER ONES I ALREADY HAVE FIRST

Get Well Soon <3

HANK

Honestly wants to never leave you alone because they're worried you'll die while they're away

So he just stops going on missions and stays planted by your side

2B, being the doctor-ish man he is, also checks up on you to keep you healthy totally because he's not being threatened by hank to do so

Sometimes he'll try and hum you a song, though it's rather scratchy and very quiet, since when Hank tries to use his voice, it usually sounds like that

But he'll push through the pain to make you happy

They know they can't lay in bed with you but the temptation.... the temptation.........

If there's anything you need, he's off to get it as soon as you mention it, and is already back as quickly as he came

When you go through pain and intense bouts of struggle to stay alive, I really do believe this is when Hank would truly feel fear- for the first time? Who knows...

Once you manage to get through your condition, he's ALLLL over you

Won't let go of you unless you have to go to the bathroom harhejfjfk

He will always stay as close as possible to you when you're recovering

Even then, he still feels a teensy tiny bit of fear; you're so frail, and very prone to dying at any moment

So yes, he's very overprotective of you

Even towards his own allies

SANFORD

Would probably chill in your room and talk with you to unwind

If you were able to talk back, that was nice, if you weren't? Well, he can find a way to continue conversation. He's just like that

Polishes his many hooks while with you

He worries about you, yes, but 2B always stays at home during missions when someone is injured so he can go comfortably without worrying about you

But of course as soon as he returns home he's back in your room, ready to tell you about the poor grunt that got thrown at Hank by a MAG, plus other stories from the day

And man this man has a lot of stories.... it's kinda surprising

But you're not complaining really

He loves making you laugh, seeing your smile on your tired face made him feel better, that he was helping you through the pain in some way

Unfortunately when you were in your more worse for wear moments, he had to force himself to leave the room as 2B went hard at work to keep you alive

It scares him to hell and back but he won't admit it

While you recover, he'll volunteer to stay home for the next few missions to help you get around the place for yourself again

He's such a softie, I swear 😩😩😩

love this man.... the sand fort

DEIMOS

"Can't get in the bed?" He says, and immediately ignores that rule

He's all over you with the most gentle demeanor he's ever had

Head on your rattling chest, arm draped over your stomach that constantly growls for food other than applesauce and mashed potatoes ("to avoid the chunks of other foods to get in my way while working" 2B says)

Speaking of 2B...

Deimos is always peeking over his shoulder at you, disgusted but slightly fascinated at when the doc works on your organs

He'll leave you for missions, albeit with lots of hesitancy

He knows you're in good hands but... he overthinks sometimes

When he notices you're nearly on death's bed from time to time, he'll frantically leave the room and shout for 2B

And again, he's right over 2B's shoulder as he works on your struggling body

And let's be honest he probably started crying

Poor boy :(

He sticks to your hip when you're ready to start recovering

Never leaves you alone, gotta go to the restroom? He'll turn away! Too uncomfortable with that? Alright, he's standing right outside the door! <3

Will make you a little robot friend-- roomba? robodog? you name it, he makes it in record time

Just wants the best for you 😌

2BDAMNED

Ah yes this man is terrified of taking care of you

He knows he's the only man capable for the job, and he knows what he's doing, at that- he's put together and taken care of many people now, sometimes multiple times over, too (a heem heem.... hank....)

But... what if he screws up? What if he makes an incision in the wrong place? What if he suddenly moves his hand too much and damages a vital organ?

These factors scare him to no end when working on you, and yet... again... he's the only man possibly cut out for the job in the base

He doesn't even care that he's ordering around the most dangerous man in Nevada, he WILL tell Hank to be your bodyguard when he has to make a supply run

He sits in your room and keeps a close eye on you from a chair across from you

Sometimes he forces himself to stay awake to make sure you're okay, always gotta be on the clock for a sick patient yknow?

When you start struggling he's already all over it, ready to take down the hindrance in your body

He may or may not have an anxiety attack while doing it, though... poor man keeps worrying that he'll screw up hhh

Luckily, his mind doesn't muddle his hands and he's usually as calm as can be

It takes a lot out of him though

You'll gesture for him to lean down to you, and you'll sit up the best you can to place a kiss on his cheek with a gentle "thank you" when he's done with these situations

It always makes him determined to beat back this disease

While you recover, 2B knows exactly what you'd need and when you'd need it! He's been taking care of you for so long, its like the back of his hand by now

And he's always willing to do it ofc, with lots of reassuring kisses on the cheek to show his affection :)

PHOBOS

Knowing him he'd probably try and avoid you as much as possible

Phobos? Worrying about another person? How.... below him

But of course he loves you so... there's no way around it

Visits you when no one else can see him do so

And even then, he locks the room

The first time he did this, you raised an eyebrow quizzically at him

He immediately noticed the look and got offended, "What is that look for?! I can come into any room without question, if you didn't know."

"Then... why are you coming in when no one is around to see you do so?"

He sputters and ultimately doesn't respond

Will never admit he's worried about you, even while sat directly beside you and talking to you about stupid stuff

Otherwise, he has the best doctors in the facility working on you when you need it

No matter how much he denies it, though, it's clear to everyone that Phobos definitely has... favorites

That favorite being you

He spoils you with all the guilty pleasures of DESSERTS

"Mmmm! I haben'fhhad ish cream in sho long!!" Your mouth is full of ice cream as you say that

Phobos had to turn around to hide his excited expression and blush

"Ahem- hm. Just hurry up and heal. I need you back in my forces."

When you have those near-death moments, he's literally STRICKEN with fear at the sight of you writhing in pain as your IV speeds up at alarming rates

Like, he's frozen in place

It took you desperately pointing to the emergency call button for him to snap out of it and make a mad dash for it, nearly tripping over nothing in his haste

While the doctors worked on you, he was pacing in his quarters for so SO long

Well I mean-- it FELT long... for him...

After you were saved, he rushes back to your room, doesn't even care that people can see him entering now, he just does it

"Are you okay?" He coolly asks

You cough weakly and nod your head, "For now," you rasp out

He sighs with relief, but the nagging feeling of him being frozen while you suffered earlier plagued him

Eventually you recovered from your disease, and Phobos moved you to his quarters to keep a close eye on you and to make sure you have a speedy recovery with walking again and stuff !

I don't know if you got the surgery yet but, I wish you luck rostyy! Here you go <3

[louwhose]

All the Fic Writer Answers

😅 What's a story or scene you've created that you're a smidge embarrassed exists?

It's only been a few months since I've gotten back into writing, so I don't think I'm removed from any of it to consider it embarrassing. However, from a previous excursion into fic writing three years ago and any of the many things I wrote when I was thirteen... 😅 is accurate.

🥺 Is there a certain type of moment or common interaction between your characters that never fails to put you in your feels?

It may sound a little cheesy, but things like hope in the darkest situations and love and friendship inspiring people to be better. It's more than that but it's those vibes and all I can say is that I love it.

🤡 What's a line, scene, or exchange you've written that made you laugh?

"By the Goddess, Robbie!" Impa said. "You can’t just ask someone you just met to strip!" "Why not?" Purah retorted. "I wanna see it, too." Why did they all want to see him naked? Link was very uncomfortable with this. "Enough!" Zelda finally inserted herself back into the conversation. "No one will be stripping anyone. Understood?"

From Turn of the Century.

😈 Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

Maybe the end of chapter 5 of that fic I did for TwiYor week? Otherwise maybe if I ever actually get far enough along in any of my planned long fics...

✍ Do you have a beta reader?

I wish, but I've never gotten the confidence to try to get one.

🛒 What are some common things you incorporate in your fics? Themes, feels, scenes, imagery, etc.

Characters being very introspective, and usually an overall hopeful feel to it, maybe? It's really hard to analyze my own work on this one.

🎢 Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride?

Turn of the Century? Or at least it probably will be eventually?

✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉

It's getting better on the action and not being quite so dialogue heavy? Also, the emotions are written well?

💋 First kiss fics. Love em or hate em?

LOVE LOVE LOVE! I cannot get over two idiots falling in love and coming to accept their feelings and admit them to each other and kiss. Or even if the order is messed up a little, it's always a delight!

🎶 Do you listen to music while you write? What song have you been playing on loop lately?

I've started doing it more. Lately, I've found that looking up specific music correlating to a scene gets me really into it and I enjoy it. Like listening to the Lost Woods music while writing about how chilling the place could really be was... intense.

🛠What tools/programs/apps do you use to write?

Basically just Google Docs. Mostly because I love the convenience of switching to my phone when I'm out and about. Even have a few things I wrote nearly entirely on my phone while on vacation.

⛔ Do you have a fic you started, but scrapped?

I've talked about it a lot, but my BOTW2 speculation fic that was ruined by the Tears of the Kingdom trailer coming out.

🙋‍♀️ Do any irl people know you write fanfic?

My family, because I cannot shut up about it when I have an idea I like or want to bounce an idea off of someone and they're right there. In fact, I'm not shy about sharing it, so basically anyone I spend time with and have gotten moderately comfortable with is told.

🍦 What's the sweetest fic you've created so far?

Probably I Choose You.

🍷 Do you drink and write?

No. Nothing about alcohol appeals to me.

🍆 Do you write the spicy stuffs? If so, what's your most popular nsfw fic?

no

🌞 Do you have a preferred time of day to write?

Anytime, really, but a little more in the mornings since I'm a morning person and that's when I have more energy to do things rather than consume them.

💖 What made you start writing?

I've always had story ideas, but when I consider it to be actual "writing" was when I was twelve, had finished eating my lunch and I guess I must've finished my book already because I wasn't reading, and I decided to actually start writing down, on pencil and paper, my story, and had actually finished the first chapter by the end of the day.

💌 How do you feel about comments and feedback?

I love it!!!! I'm admittedly not the best at responding, but it just delights me to see people enjoying something I've written.

❌ What's a trope you will never write?

anything really very nsfw. it's just not for me

💲 Would you ever open commissions?

No, not for fics. I have way too many ideas of my own, and even if that weren't the case, I would ask for requests rather than anything.

🧐 Do you spend much time researching for your stories?

Entirely too much or entirely too little. Depends on how much I care about a detail and how easily I can figure out the answer.

🏆 What's your most popular fic?

Blind Spots. I think it's mostly because of how large the SPY x FAMILY fandom is now.

🎃 Do you write fics for certain holidays? Which is your favorite holiday inspired fic?

None yet, but I think I'd like to do some for the holiday season this year...

🎯 Have any of your readers accurately guessed major plot points? Care to share which?

I don't think there's really been that much guessing plot points because I haven't really done much multi-chapter stuff. Yet. But I'm trying to figure out a way to getting those actually worked on seriously.

🎨 How do you feel about fan art of your stories?

I would LOVE

📈 How many fics do you have?

24

🦅 Do you outline fics or fly by the seat of your pants?

Fly by the seat of my pants because outlining typically makes me lose motivation on a fic.

👀 Tell me about an up and coming wip please!

Witches! (hehehe)

🤗 What advice would you give to new fanfic writers that are just getting started?

Just write. It may not be masterfully done, but we all need to start somewhere. And no one else will have your idea, or at least do it exactly the way you do it, so don't be afraid to share your stories!

💞 Who's your comfort character?

I am honestly torn between Link and Zelda because I project onto both of them a LOT.

🤩 Who is your favorite character to write?

Probably Purah. There are some other characters that are pretty great, but throwing her into the mix always makes things fun.

🤲 Would you please share a snippet of a wip?

Link had forgone the challenge, and sportsmanship, to kill an unconscious, half-dead foe in cold blood. Maybe he didn’t quite want to be the Hero. But he didn’t want to be that, either.

😬 Which of your fics would you be most horrified for friends, family, or coworkers to stumble upon?

x I... may have self-projected a little too much and a few of them might know exactly what I am referring to and I don't want to admit that this was my poor way of coping with it.

🎉 What leads you to consider a fic a success?

I like it when at least someone likes it. Because that's what I need, is for someone to like it, because otherwise I'm content with a story in my head for myself, despite enjoying the process of getting things to actually work in an actual story. So I like it when someone likes it, especially if they give actual feedback, which is part of the reason I try to comment on fics I read pretty often.

✅ What's something that appears in your fics over and over and over again, even if you don't mean to?

Zelink. I love them, don't get me wrong, but... not every fic is trying to be about them, or at least not their romantic relationship.

📚 Would you ever want to turn writing into a career?

Well, an author is what I've wanted to be since I was twelve, so... yes.

⌛ How long does it take you to write a fic, or a chapter?

Honestly honestly honestly depends on a combination of length, motivation, and how much time I actually spend working on that particular one. Longest one so far is HERO x FAMILY taking a couple of months, though that was admittedly time concentrated more towards the first couple and last couple of weeks.

🤯 What's a genre you struggle with as a writer (ex. romance, action, etc.)?

Action. I mean, describing people doing things as opposed to talking or freaking out internally? Especially if they're doing a lot of things like in a fight? It's a struggle, because it's not really what I think of it and I am slow getting it written.

💔 Is there a fic of yours that broke your heart?

Tough choice because I love angst but A Lifetime Ago just is a heartbreaking premise and I think it takes the cake on this one.

💥 How do you feel about criticism?

Give it but please be nice about it?

🤭 Do you have a favorite tag to use when posting your works?

I have been trying to use #lou writes

🥰 How do you feel about reader interaction? Are you open to receiving questions about your fics?

um yes please. These stories live in my head and I love to talk about them, and usually my siblings aren't that receptive, so if someone would like to talk to me about it and ask about it to know more, I would be delighted!

[random-mha-thoughts]

Out to Sea | MHA Pirate!AU

Characters: Midoriya Izuku, Todoroki Shouto, Bakugou Katsuki, Kirishima Eijirou, Kaminari Denki, Sero Hanta, Ashido Mina, Jirou Kyouka 

Genre: Adventure, Pirate!AU 

Inspiration: Wellerman Song by Nathan Evans 

Word count: 1,682 

Tags: @rintomoj​ @yuki-osaki​ @yamichxn​​ @lonelyfangirl453​ @cyanide9602​ @liviitehe​ @bigkoalafications​ 

A/n: Sooo long time no see... I'm not quite back to a regular posting schedule at the moment. PA school was making me very stressed and depressed™ for the past year and my first rotation was ROUGH, but I'm less S&D™ where I am now and that got the good ol' writing wheels turning again. I wanted to write this bc that Wellerman song has been stuck in my head and I figured it's October, everyone's writing fun stuff for kinktober Halloween so I hope this is something fun that you all enjoy.  It's a bit different than what I'm used to and there aren't any ships (wait a second lol I mean like relationships), but it was fun to write.

Life on the high seas has its perks. The fresh smell of sea water, the welcoming chilled breeze of the ocean, the calm rocking that lulls you to sleep, all bound together with a simple, mundane life spent with a group of good friends.

"BLARGHHHHHHH"

"Damnit, Kaminari, what happened to you?"

The new honey-blond recruit's face is a lot paler than usual when he raises it above the bow rail, small bits of discolored acid stuck to the corner of his lip. "Bro," he moans sickly, "You know I get easily seasick..."

At least, those things were perks to some people.

"Hey, you signed up for this," his red-headed companion shrugs nonchalantly, handing him the rag hanging from the waistband of his loose-fitting red pants. The cloth would've fallen off his hips if it wasn't for the black belt so graciously given by his employer. The gold buckle matches the single golden hoop hanging off his earlobe. "You knew what you were getting yourself into."

Kaminari ignores the rag, his shaky arm reaching up to wipe his mouth with the hem of his white and yellow striped shirt. "I thought I coulda controlled it. I was doing well, I don't know what happened. Maybe I ate something."

Living on a ship with limited supplies and even more limited room to breathe has its drawbacks. Being restricted to rationing non perishable foodstuff, most of which is some kind of canned or dried. There's not much in the way of privacy with sharing living quarters among the entire crew. Not to mention certain smells that become too overwhelming after a while, forcing you to stumble on deck for fresh air. Some would even argue that having nothing to stare at but the open sea can get boring. Or maddening. Or just plain sickening.

"Weren't you the one who was helping Mina cook dinner last night?" Sero chimes in, carrying a bucket of water and a mop towards the nauseous boy. "None of us got sick but you, dude."

"It all probably became a little too much for him." Midoriya stands up from sitting on a crate nearby. "Probably nervous about his first trip out to sea. It's been a little more than a week that we've been out here, it's understandable that Kaminari isn't used to this lifestyle yet. Try chewing some ginger, it should help a little!"

"Just ginger?" Sero chuckles. "I woulda thought you'd have some miracle drug for him, Doc."

The boy blushes sheepishly at the nickname. Being the most educated gains you some informal titles. "I do, but I think he should toughen up as much as he can first." It was the first time the new recruit's vomited the whole trip, even after all the nightly drinking. That means he's doing well.

Jirou slides down from the top deck to join the rest, shaking her head. "Captain Bakugo says we should turn back home, we've been at sea for too long without any luck and we need to restock." She eyes Denki, who's knees have buckled and is now leaning his back on the wall. "What's up with him?"

"Tossed his cookies overboard," Sero quips.

She clicks her tongue once in sympathy. "Poor kid."

"Come on, we'll bring home the biggest whale and we'll make a huge fortune!" Kirishima pounds his fists together in hype. "Bakugou knows what he's doing!"

"Ah yes, Captain Bakugou's biggest fanboy." Ashido shows up out of nowhere to slap Kirishima on the back.

Todoroki trails behind her with a tray, probably returning from checking over supplies. Him and Midoriya hold the next highest positions under Bakugou's company, handling the logistics and planning of the trip. They're welcome - but still slightly awkward - additions to the team of loud misfits.

"I brought drinks! Figured everyone's spirits needed lifting!" the pink-clad cook announces excitedly. She passes out wooden mugs full of beer mixed with whatever rainwater they managed to collect from the storm a few days ago. Kaminari declines with a pained groan.

Once everyone has their drinks, Ashido holds hers high. "Here's to the best crew! I wouldn't wanna ride out in the middle of nowhere with anyone else!"

"Here's to hoping Kaminari's stomach toughens up for the rest of the trip," Sero mockingly raises his mug to the newcomer, who’s still gathering his bearings.

"Here's to hoping we bring another bounty on our way home!" Jirou toasts.

"I doubt we'll find anything soon," Todoroki mumbles to himself.

"Don't say that," Midoriya responds sheepishly.

"Here here!" the rest of the crew cheers.

CLINK

~

"What was that Todoroki said?!" Sero screams from the other side of the deck, steering the sails.

"He just had to jinx us!" Kaminari whines before cutting himself off to avoid seawater getting in his mouth. Jirou has to grab the back of his shirt to steady him, her other hand grasping the agonizingly taut rope.

"Where is she?!"

Bakugou finally steps out onto the deck above us. His red unofficial captain's jacket that's tied around his waist lashes in the wind, his arms folded across his chest and head held high in a powerful and stubborn posture.

"Captain! The whale thrashed its tail and crashed into the ship!" Midoriya reports with a salute from out deck. "We've captured her, but she's so stubborn we can't lead her back to shore!"

As the freckled boy gives his brief, Bakugo slides down from the upper deck and peers over the edge where Kaminari and Jirou are holding onto the weighted rope for dear life. "Stupid hair! Where're the harpoons, damnit!"

"Right here, Captain!" Kirishima kicks the door open, wielding a set of steel, dangerously spiked arrows.

"About freaking time!" The honey-blond boy adjusts his grip on the rope as it slips out of his hands, wincing against the nasty burn it's leaving on his bare palms. "Hurry up already!"

"Bakugou! You can't-" Midoriya starts to protest.

Todoroki appears and dares to whirl Bakugou around by the shoulder. "This is a bad idea. You know towing a deadweight whale is going to put more strain on the ship, not to mention it'll be stale by the time it reaches shore."

Bakugou growls, shoving the hand off him and glaring into Todoroki's singular eye that's uncovered by his eye patch. "Who'scaptain of this ship, Pretty Boy? Besides, I'm not gonna kill her, just wound her enough so she's not thrashing all over the place! Hand me one of those things!"

Kirishima throws one of the harpoons to the Captain, both of them eying over the bow.

"You're just going to anger it even more!" Todoroki screams.

"You gotta show'er who's boss!" Kirishima whoops excitedly.

"Aim for the flanks, don't get her tail," Bakugou guides, raising the weapon behind his shoulder as he readies his throw.

"Aye, sir!" Kirishima positions himself the same way, both of their eyes trained on the large creature.

The whale had sensed the impeding danger and sank under the sea to hide, shrieking as it descends into the watery depths.

"Fire!"

The harpoons fly with incredible speed, glinting under the clear sky like missiles towards their target. As they submerge under, another pained shriek tears through the blustering wind. Suddenly, the rope slips away from Kaminari and Jirou, Kirishima and Midoriya run to grab the section in front of them, the boat rocking side to side as the whale knocks into us as it thrashes.

"Hold on tight, extras!" Bakugou barks, "Don't let her get away! We're taking this whale home with us if it's the last thing we do!"

"Yes, Captain!"

"Another fortune awaits us when we get her back home!"

"Yes, Captain!" everyone choruses again, a certain cabin boy a little more hysterical in the face of all the excitement.

Under the guidance of Bakugou, the whale eventually calms down enough to cruise through the sea. The crew ties ropes through the metal oar holes at the side to stabilize them enough to let go. Jirou and Sero make sure they're still on track to get home as the whale half-pulls the ship towards the shore.

Later under the clear starry night, the crew lights up the deck with torches and drunken songs and toasts of victory.

"Here's to more rum!" Ashido grins cheekily.

"More money!" Sero whoops.

"More tea..." Todoroki mumbles quietly to himself in the corner with Midoriya.

"I just wanna go home," Kaminari whines, drowning himself in more beer as the rest of the crew laughs at him and continues their song.

*~*

"As far as I've heard, the fight's still on/The line's not cut, and the whale's not gone/The Wellerman makes his regular call/To encourage the captain, crew and all," Eijirou sings, rhythmically banging on his chair arm.

The rest of his friends follow his lead in the chorus, tapping out the same beat, "Soon may the Wellerman come/To bring us sugar and tea and rum/One day, when the tonguing is done/We'll take our leave and go!"

Everyone ceases their percussion, the night now still. "Soon may the Wellerman come/To bring us sugar and tea and rum/One day, when the tonguing is done/We'll take our leave and go!"

Cheers and drunken whoops erupt from everyone's lips, glasses clinking from around the fire pit.

"That's a pretty catchy song, Kiri," Mina gulps her drinks down.

"Where'd you learn that from?" Kyouka continues tapping her finger lightly to the beat.

The sharp-toothed boy beams and shrugs. "My grandpa used to sing it all the time when I was younger, something about this sailor crew who used to hunt whales for a living. I think it's much better to sing with a bunch of drunken friends though!"

"I 100% agree, bro!" Denki messily clinks his beer bottle with Hanta's.

Katsuki growls, "You guys just love every excuse to make noise, don't you?"

Izuku walks up to him with his signature shy smile. "Ah, they're just having fun, Kacchan."

"It was pretty cool how they all sang the chorus so well together," Shouto chimes in.

"We should sing it again!" Hanta shoots up and stomps the rhythm out again.

"I WILL DESTROY ALL OF YOU!"

[fbfh]

dave strider dating headcanons

1k words, spoiler free

warnings: some swearing, mentions of brief fears (spiders, heights, loud noises), some swearing

pairing: dave strider x gn reader, optional brief skirt wearing

a/n: I am still in act 4 of homestuck so pls !! no spoilers !! take my interpretation of the characters with a grain of salt !! 

also  why is there no homestuck x reader fics?????? Am I looking in the wrong place????? Why are there barely 80 dave x reader fics on ao3 and almost none on tumblr??????? Did homestuck’s popularity just miss the x reader fic train???????? if so I fully intend to fix that (this is the first two or so pages of my dave dating hcs doc, I’m on page five and show no signs of stopping)

also since I’m still in act 4 right now I’m only writing for Dave, probably Jade, John, and Rose (maybe some of the trolls but it’ll be on a case by case basis until I feel like I know them well enough to write for them)

aged up to 18+ for moderate sex jokes lol

=>

Someone told me once that they think Dave is the only character they know of who can match my feral chaotic energy

And honestly I have to agree

Dave is a very strategically feral, chaotic person

You know that thing where 

Wait I’ll see if I can link it here

I can’t find the post but 

I forget what it said verbatim

But basically that if you want to take the piss out of someone who has an Intellectual Superiority Complex you just need to act brazenly confident and sure about something you know is incorrect and as long as you don’t let on that you’re joking they’ll argue with you endlessly and it’s fucking hysterical

Dave does that

All the time

He will deadass argue with the Smart Kid in his class that the moon is fake for hours

He’ll argue endlessly that Terry Crews, Kevin Hart, and Kevin James are the same person shifting forms with randos online

He does that thing where he one ups conspiracies with more outlandish conspiracies

“The moon landing is fake”

“Uh, bro, you still believe in the moon?”

You got a truly delightful video once of him arguing with a smart kid in class about one of those ridiculous topics

Like glinda being a princess

He leans forward, tilts his glasses, and says in the most confident self assured voice

“Okay- riddle me this, bro,” 

He points to the guy

“If pee isn’t stored in the balls, where do you hold it? In your hands?”

The entire class erupts into screaming laughs

The teacher enters to the guy getting up in Dave’s face screaming about sperm and piss

Both of them got a detention

If you can match his irony and sense of humor beat for beat

His brain goes into in love overdrive

You basically never “break character” and it’s fucking immaculate

He didn’t know you could vibe so well with someone

Every bad joke you make

Every meme reference

Every act of idiocy for the sake of the joke

He falls harder

It’s kind of scary for him at first

Having these raw genuine feelings so close to him

He covers with humor as usual

But part of him is freaking out a little

It’s sort of like finding a possum in your house

And then you realize there’s more possums hidden around

Then you run into the bathroom, look in your closet, check the pantry

There are possums everywhere

They don’t seem mean

They’re actually kind of cute

But what the fuck

Aren’t possums usually supposed to stay outside?????

So yeah when he falls he falls hard

I might do Dave crushing on you hcs too

One of his favorite ways to spend time with you is just chilling together doing separate activities and periodically updating each other

He’ll be working on some sick beats 

You’ll be sitting on his bed doing something you love

Drawing, bullet journaling, blogging, editing videos

Whatever your thing is

It genuinely makes him feel so close to you to just

Be near you

He has this sort of deep quiet admiration for you

For a while he genuinely has no idea how to connect the two aspects of his feelings for you and how he’s used to expressing himself 

He feels like he can’t tell you how much he likes you cause like

That’s not swaggy bro

So a lot of his affection is in little ways

He knows all of your favorite snacks and drinks

Favorite candies and gum 

He will protect you from anything you’re afraid of

Spiders? Gets rid of them so fast you literally didn’t know it was there

Loud noises? Has you listen to his latest mixtape when you’re going through somewhere noisy

If you have any mental health problems or we you bet your ass he will do so much research on how to support a friend with [insert thing]

Picks up on a lot of your cues and mannerisms quickly

Knows exactly when to give you his jacket, when to show you the perfect meme, when to take a study break

When to just pull you into a random dance party

He really likes dancing badly with you

Just failing around and spinning you around

If you like to wear skirts he likes the way your skirt flows when he twirls you

It looks so flowy

Like water or something

His favorite part is after you’ve been dancing for a while

When the song ends or when you get tired

How you’ll both kind of slow down and laugh and catch your breath

You’re still holding his hand

And you’re standing really close to him

He thinks you’ve never looked more beautiful

He never wears his sunglasses when you dance

He claims it’s because he doesn’t want them to fly off

But it’s really bc he doesn’t want anything getting in the way of watching you laugh and smile so much

Oof he’s got it bad for you

[scone-lover]

Happy Birthday to Holding Out For a Hero!!! ❤️

art by @subparselkie

I published the first chapter of my longest and most popular fic just about a year ago! And I bet you always wanted to see some shitty outlines. Right? Just giving the people what they want. My brain is chaos and now you all have to be subject to it. Strap in, boys. 😂 Everything’s below the cut!

Read Holding Out for a Hero on AO3

This fic was born because I saw a tumblr post about a hero and villain who are roommates and I just had to Snowbazzify it. I had so many random ideas in my brain, and I’d been engaging with fan content for the CO fandom for a few months now.

So I started off by opening a blank document and writing the Prologue, featuring Shep. I had a few basic facts in mind: Shepard’s a reporter, Simon’s a hero, Baz is a villain, Mage is an evil mayor. And that’s. Literally it. I made it up as I went along. I actually still do that with fics, even though I do try to outline in more detail now—I have to write a scene or two that’s been bouncing around in my head to get a feel for the story, then I can give it a direction.

The document is 337 pages on google docs, LOL. 

Here’s the first ever set of notes I had. I wrote this on March 29, 2020, directly after typing out the Prologue! 

Like I said, absolute chaos. The third Simon bullet point originally said something like “also I’m a superhero and only Penny knows,” then the following day I changed it to “but he’s so handsome? what do???” 

I didn’t publish the prologue until writing 5-6 additional chapters, but I think the only major change was going from Baz being “The Vampire” to just “Vampire.”

Chapter 1 was originally called “not a bloody avenger” before I decided to do the rhyming thing. I actually decided that because I wrote “counter spray and earl grey” down for chapter 2, unintentionally rhyming it, and then @ashspren-writes was like, “you should make them all rhyme”... so I did. 😂 For 25 more chapters.

I have a section labeled “quickie backgrounds” in which I finally sat down halfway through writing Chapter 2 (the blade/vamp fight) and said to myself, okay, maybe they should have backstories or something. Or like, reasons for being the hero and villain. Right, yeah, those would be good to make this into a coherent story. In the first version of that, Simon was a sports coach on the side, not a baker, and Baz was an English teacher. LOL. 

Once I had all that, I literally just wrote for four days. There’s a weird kind of magic to your first-ever fic for a fandom. All your ideas and thoughts and wishes for these characters comes to a head as you suddenly have an outlet for the first time. It’s why I think people’s first works are often their best or most creative or most profound. The first couple chapters took some time and a couple 1am epiphanies, but once I got into a rhythm it was quick going. I wrote a lot of it in a linear manner, but after writing the first Simon/Baz scene (watching the news together in the flat), I doubled back and added Simon going to Penny’s house after meeting the Mage so that I could work her in as a character earlier.

Fast forward to April 5, I had 5-ish chapters written? I thought this fic would have like... 10 total. And be less than 20k. Haha. Ha. I asked @ashspren-writes to beta read for me - I’d been bouncing ideas off her since the beginning - and then I started brainstorming titles. 

The list actually started with that second one. It took a whole 24 hours to decide on the final title. 😂 I thought it might be too cheesy. But hey, it worked out -- now I can’t open AO3 without the damn song getting stuck in my head. 

I worked a LOT with my friend @ashspren-writes on this fic - we were friends long before fandom, and she was the only person I knew at the time who had read CO and was involved in the fandom. I didn’t even have a tumblr at this point, I interacted mostly through Instagram and AO3!

On April 6, right before I posted, I realized that if I was going to actually put this on AO3 I should probably know where the story was going. So I made sure Chapters 1-6 were complete, then I wrote one bullet point per chapter up until 12 or so -- you can read those below.

Then I texted ashspren THIS mess:

Some silly notes:

Then I have a section that says “Why do they even have roommates?” because it was a few chapters in and I hadn’t justified richboy Baz and superhero Simon... living together. Cool cool cool

I also did this cool little writing experiment I want to share. Remember that line in Fangirl that’s like—“Once Cath wrote what she thought was a swordfight, and Wren turned it into a love scene.” (Or maybe it was the other way around? LOL.) Anyway, there’s swordfights in this, AND love scenes, so I wanted to do a play on that for two alternate ways Simon might figure it out.

I have a huge Deleted Section in which I wrote an alternate version of Simon and Baz finding out about their secret identities. I have one version where Baz figures it out first—it’s a very tropey yet angsty scene where Simon comes home totally wrecked from a fight, and Baz realizes as he’s helping with the wounds that he caused them. I actually like it a lot, but it ended up not quite fitting with the vibe of the fic (and I rather like them finding out through kissing better). :) I also had an idea where Simon figures it out because Vampire smells like cedar and bergamot, but it really just wasn’t interesting enough. 😂

Now onto... Outlines. 

I say that hesitantly because I think these are literally a disgrace to outlines everywhere. These are the baby ones I wrote on April 6 right before posting. Some are more detailed than others, clearly...

Gotta live up to my username somehow. 

We do love to see it. ​

I love this next one: 😂 CHAOS, SCONEY.

THEN, I wrote this as a very long text to ashspren, when I realized no sconey, this is not going to be under 20k words. LOL. 

And then I did A Dumb Thing and I put it on AO3, having absolutely NO CLUE WHERE THE STORY WAS GOING. 😂 

This is my favorite heading on the document.

Another one of my favorite notes in there.

This next part wasn’t even divided into chapters yet, it’s just a word vomit. I’m so sorry you have to read this mess.

Hahaha, once upon a time there was angst in this story. 😂 

And then I realized my true calling: bakery fluff.

Then and only then, I actually decided to divide into those things called Chapters. This is the point where I made the admission to mr scone (boyfriend, not husband lol, we just call him that) that I write gay fanfiction, whoops, and can he please help me because he’s a HUGE DC comics fan and knows everything. And of course, he was super chill about it, and he did. He really did. He’s the genius behind Egghead!!! And also the entire Mage-Humdrum-Supercomputer/Politics plot. I’m serious. I did none of that.

I can’t even say I’m trying anymore. “Flort”??? I AM LITERALLY NOT TRYING.

Why yes sconey, so very specific. 😂 

This is what qualifies as a “good” outline for me, that heading was just for my betas. Isn’t it fabulous to see that some of this actually made it in and I’m capable of planning in advance? 😂 

Get ready for the shock of your life, though -- I actually have a SUUUUPER detailed outline for the two finale chapters. Because, well, it’s the finale. Wrapping up loose ends does actually require planning, WHO KNEW. Also I’d been writing and posting for a couple months at this point and it had been several more weeks in quarantine so maybe I’d regained some sense of reality? It’s like two pages but still shittily written, so I’ll just share a couple tidibits.

That bullet point is extraordinarily cracky BUT actually, Baz shooting up from the cloud like an awesome fucking hot dramatic person was one of the very first scenes I envisioned for this fic :D 

I hope you enjoyed this glimpse into my writing brain! It’s a terrifying place. I love all of you that say Holding Out For a Hero is a well-crafted masterpiece, but respectfully, no ❤️ 

(Though I swear I AM super, super happy with how it turned out - it’s still my favorite thing I’ve ever written. Read it here!!!)

[agentsofmarvel]

my random kingdom keepers hc’s

⚠️ maybe spoilers & some may not be cannon ⚠️

finn

* his mom taught him to cook, so now he makes full course meals for the group.

* wanted to do the matching group outfits at disney but everyone else (except for willa) said no. he managed to convince amanda to do matching couples outfits for a date once.

* sits in his room and blasts music rlly loud when he’s upset. the music is one direction or taylor swift.

* is going to university of central floridia with a major in hospitality management or business.

* the embarrassing boyfriend (and friend) that will go to any event and scream and yell. like amanda could be presenting something and here comes finn: “THAT’S MY GIRLFRIEND!!” and tbh willa would join him.

* usually just wears a t-shirt and jeans, but when he needs to dress up, he will 110%. he’s the one the girls call when they need outfit advice.

amanda

* she was the one who chose eli’s name (kingdom kids!). she also let finn try to choose his middle name but he got stuck between wayne or dillard for weeks.

* kind of a beachy outfit/vibe. i feel like she wears a lot of hoodies with shorts and flip flops.

* likes to wear her hair in all different styles. one day it would be normal, then braids, then space buns, then it’s suddenly curly??

* usually tries to keep her emotions pretty chill, but if you try and bully her friends, she will loose it. try flirting with finn and see what happens.

* tried getting a tattoo of one of jess’ drawings once, but the thought of the needle made her turn right around.

* if she doesn’t want to be bothered, she just flips you off. deep into a book? middle finger. concentrating on schoolwork? there it is.

jess

* has a gc with maybeck called “art hoes” where they talk about drawing, sculpting, etc.

* the type of aunt that gets her nieces/nephews/other really weird and kind of dangerous gifts. like: “where did you get that?!” “oh, from aunt jess.” “of course you did.”

* got a pair of doc martens as a gift and wore them to disney for an entire day for “the aesthetic” even though she complained about her feet hurting the entire time.

* also the type to wear long-sleeves and turtlenecks under shirts in 100° weather.

* probably did the kool-aid hair dye trend in middle school and kinda regretted it.

* every time she would walk into a room someone would blast the “that’s so raven” theme song on repeat.

charlene

* tries to volunteer every weekend either at crazy glaze to spend time with maybeck or coaching a little kid’s cheer squad.

* has an amazingly good memory for really random things. like, “you can’t wear that, you wore it to disney springs last time we went.” “that was three months ago how???”

* i feel like she’s a really good baker. brownies, cakes, you name it. she leaves the cookie baking to mrs. whitman though.

* also a really good listener. would 10/10 be the group’s therapist. whatever time of day (and night) you need to talk or vent, she will pick up the phone immediately.

* maybeck sculpted her a vase with cinderella castle and fireworks on it years ago and she adores it to this day. it sits on her nightstand and is slightly faded but she doesn’t care.

* buys her friends cute things that remind her of them. she’s bought willa, jess, amanda, and herself matching necklaces and bought the boys disney pins with mickey, donald, and goofy on them.

maybeck

* had professional headshots done just because. “maybeck where are you we have an OT problem!” and he’s like, “one sec, getting my headshots done and i’ll meet you there” and they’re all “????”

* you have to drag him to go clothes shopping but then he never wants to leave and does a fashion show with each and every item he bought.

* somehow looks good in every picture? it could be blurry, from a terrible angle, and everyone else looks rlly bad, but then there’s maybeck.

* loves meeting characters. he will flip if he sees a character he really loves. “IS THAT REMY THE ***** RAT! CHARLENE WE NEED TO TAKE A PICTURE!”

* one of those people that says “me” in deep voice to everything. sees a kid trip and fall onto the ground “ME” “maybeck stop”.

* has picked up a few gymnastics tricks from charlene and will do them randomly. like, *backflips away from OT* “when did he learn that???”

willa

* 90% of her clothes are button down shirts with college pull overs and converse. she doesn’t care how warm it is.

* somehow always has a book on her. they could be in line at a park and she just pulls a book out of thin air and starts reading.

* had a harry potter phase growing up that everyone joked about. “willa you can’t that’s UNIVERSAL! you dare betray walt disney like this?!”

* for one of their anniversaries, philby buys her a new bear, this time a duffy bear, to replace mr. totems and she almost cries. every anniversary one of his gifts is a new outfit for duffy.

* goes to university of florida with philby. she’s an english language and literature major and loves going on study dates.

philby

* studying computer science at the university of florida.

* wears flannels, hoodies, or t-shirts that have really bad science-themed puns on them everyone loathes (which is mostly why he wears it).

* wants to adopt or foster tons of cats when he’s older. he was so upset he couldn’t take elvis to college.

* either listens to disney music or 80s/90s hits. there is no in-between.

* the designated bag holder while in the parks. he always has everything you could possibly need. sunscreen, bandaids, mints, hairbrushes, pencil and paper (if jess has a dream), snacks of all sizes, he’s got it all.

* super bad dancer and loves to embarrass willa. prom was just philby dancing in the middle of the dance floor terribly while willa watched shaking her head.

[kocrecs]

we all know this post is long overdue, but I’ve finally finished it ! if you would like a preview of the finished product, here is the doc & spotify playlist.

I put the post under a read more since it got a little longer than I thought it would be.

I put a lot of planning into my albums so I can make sure they sound somewhat believable. I usually start with a theme for the entire album and leave the concepts to be by song unless I want everything to sound more similar. for today I will be following the theme of love and the different types/stages ! I also like to think of songs that will fit the time period of release, some songs released in 2021 may not be as popular in 2015 or songs released in 2015 may be loved in 2021, if that makes sense. I like to use rollin’ by brave girls as a relevant example of this !

as for naming the album, it usually comes to me as I’m working on finding songs or it comes from the character’s story, or I’ll just use the title track.

when it comes to the formatting of the tracks, I usually look at pre-existing albums to get a feel for track numbers & track layouts. not all albums are structured the same and you should take advantage of that !

a few of the structures I use a lot are the standard mini-album (5-6 songs, no intro or outro) like bambi by baekhyun, the blackpink mini-album (4 songs + a remix, maybe) like kill this love by blackpink, the single album (1-2 songs) like -r- by rosie, the standard album (7-10 tracks, may have an interlude or intro) like neo zone from nct 127, and the “I’m going to release all of my songs for the year at once” album (10-20+ songs) like querencia by chungha.

I’m going to be following chungha’s querencia album with the 4-part 21-track structure, but I’ve added 3 more tracks to even out the parts.

since I’m following querencia’s structure, I’ve decided to pick 4 strong title tracks with b-sides to fit under their individual sounds rather than forcing the album to fit one sound.

first off I’m going to decide what my “sides” will be so I can better fit the theme.

side a : self

the “self” side of free me is all about empowering oneself and expressing self-love in your own ways.

the title track for this side will be bicycle since I think of it as a very empowering song that boost anyone’s confident with one listen. the song has such a unique sound with the bell and vocals that I found it a little difficult to find similar sounding songs.

our b-sides consist of no (clc), breakdown (clc), cry for me (twice), and shut up & groove (heize ft. dean).

I chose no because of the strong message behind it and the layout of certain parts reminded me of the vocal layout in bicycle. breakdown is from the same album as no, which helps with the transition between vibes of tracks. I love the story of breakdown since some times the best form of self-love is removing yourself from relationships that are dragging you down.

I thought cry for me followed the sound of breakdown really well and the key helped with the transition to shut up & groove a lot. you may be wondering about what I’ll do with the featuring artist: I usually pick someone that means a lot to the characters’ stories and if the voice could fit well with the face (of the person used in place of the og featured artist).

side b : savage

I may have taken this side directly from chungha’s album, but I thought it fit well with the “hard to get”/ kinda tsundere vibe ?? if that makes any sense.

the title track for this side will be good girl since hyuna’s message of refusing to fit in with social norms fits very well with the message I’m working to create with this side.

our b-sides are dream of you, uh-oh, hip, and room shaker. I usually try to avoid giving group songs to a soloist, but I really thought hip fit with the theme of good girl. uh-oh seemed to fit well with the overarching theme of playing hard to get, I decided to make this song a collaboration so I wouldn’t feel as bad about it. I also added room shaker because the song has that loud in-your-face kind of sound with a lot of confidence behind the vocals. if you haven’t heard it, I highly recommend it !

side c : love

I wanted this side to have a slower, more chilled out vibe than the previous two, but with room to keep the energy when it’s appropriate.

the title track for this side will be naughty since the song is very energetic, but also carries a nice message that fits the theme. irene & seulgi’s album is full of bangers, I think everyone should listen to them.

our b-sides are x, and july, hell in heaven, and flying on faith. all of these songs were chosen based on their energy and take on love. I don’t want to accidentally repeat myself a lot between these sections, so I’ll just keep my explanations shorter for this and the last one. I think hell in heaven is one of the best songs for this side since it goes so well with naughty’s energy.

side d : hate

for hate, I focused less on that hatred for another person and more on what the hatred of oneself from the outside creates.

the title track for this side will be devil. the song deals a lot with being pushed to the edge and having no more patience for the trash from another person.

our b-sides are noir, don’t know you, liar, and you never know. each of these songs either deal with trying to stop the hate by fitting in with everyone (noir), regretting the way you have treated someone because you’re facing karma (don’t know you), what hate can do to a person if pushed too far (liar), or a cry for it to stop (you never know).

I usually struggle with how to order the songs for a little bit, but I found out that listening to them one after another helps me find good places with transitions between certain songs. the also works with releases as well ! seasons help a lot with determining when an album should be released. I tend to go off when the song was originally released or what kind of vibe it gives me.

this is the order I decided on for this album

side a : love

bicycle

no

breakdown

cry for me

shut up & groove (ft. chanyeol of exo)

side b : savage

dream of you

uh-oh (ft. seulgi of red velvet)

good girl

hip

room shaker

side c : love

x

and july (ft. kai of exo)

naughty (ft. karina of aespa)

hell in heaven

flying on faith

side d : hate

devil

noir

don’t know you

liar

you never know

[citowon]

4, 13, and 14 for the end of the year ask meme (*´ω｀*)

thanks for the ask ♡ a lot has happened lately but i hope i can get back on the request grind again! fair warning, my answers get lengthy under the cut. i’m chatty and sentimental.

4: total number of words you wrote this year citowon words: 35,221 total words (approx): 96,971 the fun thing about this is that i wrote a LOT of fic this year. i always do, but 2021 was probably my best writing year ever, and at the beginning of 2021 i didn’t expect this much success at all! not all of it is published on citowon nor ao3, but there’s a bunch of little scenes i’m very happy about and want to continue into 2022.

13: favorite writing song/artist/album of the year i’m a HUGE music lover and i’ll listen to any genre, so i switch it up all the time based on whatever my vibe is, not the text. i made some playlists for a few characters and fics, but i have to give the reward to limbo by royal blood, but for a pretty unexpected reason. see, sometimes i’ll loop a song if i really like it, but i usually can’t go more than 45 minutes before i have to skip. i’ve listened to limbo for over 2 hours at a time. my record was 4 hours and 40-something minutes one all-nighter over my us history exam! the album it’s off of, typhoons, is one of my top 5 releases this year and also has gotten me through so many writing slogs. none of the songs have gotten old, and trust me, if they could be, i’d know by now considering how many times i set the full album stream on loop. despite that, it feels wrong not to mention the tower (theme from the work) by rivers of nihil. i haven’t made a list, but i feel confident that the work is my no. 1 favorite 2021 release, and this song is one that inspired so much content i’d like to get out soon. it’s beautiful and harrowing, and i think a lot about some character dynamics by running them through the song, you know?

14: a fic you didn’t expect to write this one is strange and also really fun to answer, because there’s so much i didn’t imagine myself doing! i made a #fic-ideas channel in my private discord server, which includes so many stupid jokes, sleepy text, and just straight-up wild concepts. in november 2020, i wrote a very simple scene-or-two-plus-a-bad-summary chikaita doc about chikage’s past catching up with him, and itaru getting kidnapped because of it. the original was... really garbage. i reopened it in august, tried to figure out what the fuck was going on for about thirty minutes before the concept came back to me, and then wrote another few paragraphs, and forgot about it again. october, i made some ocs, and it light a fire under my ass to keep getting the words out. it’s now one of the docs i’m most passionate about continuing, and- i’m usually a fluff writer, but i feel like this one specifically is very grounding since i apply a lot of real-world logic to it (be honest: if you just got kidnapped because your boyfriend kept his espionage double life a secret from you and you had the self-preservation itaru does, would you stay with him?) and it’s a very welcome return to angst, which is what i did before i joined the a3 fandom.

in a more sobering example than that i also impulsively wrote a vent fic, kazunari opens like four cabinets, a few days after a pretty rough patch with some loved ones (content warning for suicide attempts/idealization and underage drinking), and out of respect i’m not elaborating any more than what the fic itself says. i remember the night i wrote that fic, it was the one day where i had a super chill online class and that was it, so once that ended i was just alone with my thoughts, and barely keeping myself together, so i just had to write something and get the thoughts out of the way. i felt just disgusted with my everything afterwards- you know, writing fanfiction, what i was going through, how nasty my thoughts were, just depressed things- but then the next day i reread it, and then again, and then again, and it was so cathartic that i couldn’t help but love it. didn’t even edit it properly before i posted it. it’s strange in a way, because it’s one of my favorite pieces all year now. i like to think of it as a character study, just as much as it is a vent piece. you see, i’m a theatre kid, and when i’m writing, i envision everything like it’s being acted out. the number-one rule with every single theatre teacher i had is to never just cry on stage. you have to do something with it. you can’t wallow, or else the scene withers, melts together and becomes a slogfest. my last high-school production was a very real, very harrowing drama, but it was so easy to forget because the playwright did such a good job balancing out the weight of the plot with so many jokes. that’s what i tried to do with this fic. after all, even in the worst of times i try to be as witty as i can be! i’ve read this fic over and over so many times, and i could tell you exactly how taichi and kazunari speak every line in it. they never really get caught up in just sadness, there’s always something that they push in front of it so it has substance, like they’re not allowed to be just sad. and there's a lot of little things in the fic, too, that represent something going on there. i won't go so far to say it was all fully planned, but there's so many eensy things i love about it. the blueberries, the way kazu responds to taichi telling his story, how they trade the bottle and the glass, "the worst part”, the unwritten actions made, the pacing. kazu has so many lines here that i love, but "they get the best of me sometimes but i’m better than i was in high school” has to be one of my favorite lines ever.

i feel like it’s such a cop-out not even to reference a citowon fic. there’s so many things i love that y’all’ve requested! i’ll never shut up about how thankful i am for y’all. my last pick is one that’s a contender for my favorite citowon of the year, masumi and a reader that’s siblings with izumi. i’m super proud of how i wrote him here! obviously, i get his whole obsessive almost-yandere thing is his charm, but i’ve always taken it as him being that one arrested development clip like masumi: i have feelings for you narrator: the feeling was friendship, but he had never felt it before so writing him actually falling in love with someone- and then having that family resemblance to compare his feelings with- was an opportunity i ate up, and i really couldn’t have expected if it weren’t for someone requesting it, since i wasn’t too interested in masumi before i got this request. i feel like this fic was just as much of a character study as it was an x reader, and a really interesting dive into how his brain works. writing this fic actually shot masumi up a few places in my book, and ever since i’ve been having so many thoughts about him, which is one of the reasons why i’m so impressed with this fic. on another note, i’m really fond of how tsuzuru and citron advise masumi. i grew up learning that every story has a moral if you squint, and i’m a believer that you believe the things you consume. tsuzuru’s little scene about how what will be will be especially hits imo, it’s something i take very seriously, while i think of citron’s bit about not rushing as something i wish i knew in the past. masumi’s a chaser, but only that fervently when it comes to izumi. so when he has this moment of reconsideration now that he might not be so into izumi, i think of tsuzuru and citron being a really needed reality check, and really puts his (real and deep!) feelings for reader into perspective compared to his izumi obsession. even with my requests, i only write things that i want to write, and this fic is one that i pick up all the time as a bedtime story of sorts. i’m super thankful for the ask on this one, on a meta level it’s not only a fic that i love, but also one that really helped me realize where my writing skills stand and what i’m capable of 🌟