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slytherinshua · 5 months ago

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when you want a happy song to cheer you up but you stan txt 🧍‍♀️

#﹒zanna speaks　𓈃　ⵌ #like why are we screwed #why is the entire discography just emo as hell #literally DEPRESSING #the way i once sat outside #at like 10 pm #and cried and listened to txt #trust fund baby #and quarter life crisis #and fucking ring #like if u want to be sad txt are perfect #BUT WHEN I WANT TO CHEER UP??#bro i better switch to twice #....that was a bad joke but anyway

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sharknark · 19 days ago

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⬇️rant about a really good hengren (reverse renheng) fic i read. link at the bottom give it a whirl

i've never read a fic so well-catered to my tastes before in my life and the best part is that i was so caught off guard by how good it was cuz the tags and summary had me like "right this is some omegaverse-esque, rawr XD mating shit"

but from the very first paragraph i realized it wasn't just ao3-typical possessive mating shit it was (dare i say) IN CHARACTER possessive mating shit. underappreciated dan feng lore is the two hearts shit, duty expects him to smother his own empathy and perform cruelty obediently (and that being in his dragon form literally numbs his empathy towards mortals) but then it's flipped around and he's criticized for being too heartless

there aren't a great many english fics that take advantage of the 'numbed empathy' thing, so this fic using that to explore the toxic codependency that drove dan feng to making yingxing immortal in the first place is so!

dan feng's dragon heart prioritizing it's own indulgence and power, his human heart screaming against it for empathy and restraint, but both hearts united in this possessive adoration of yingxing... dan feng is possessive to the point of harming his partner, forcing them to take his affection, inherently contradictive to the protective impulse to see the other unhurt.

dan feng makes yingxing immortal in a really sketchy operation, despite knowing that yingxing is literally defined by his pride in being a short-life. he wants yingxing to be with him so badly that he does the one thing that would hurt yingxing the most, too blinded by possession, this sickly overbearing affection, to empathetically respect yingxing's death.

yingxing lived cramming every second he could into his craft and his goals precisely because he has so much less time than all the immortal species around him, but when he's forced into immortality, his hands are scarred and ruined past the point of ever crafting again. he suddenly has so much time, all this time he would've cherished as a mortal, but is totally useless to him now that his purpose for living and passion is gone.

so there being a scene in this fic where dan feng is moping "yingxing doesn't wanna fuck because he's glued to his workshop", being followed up with a scene of dan heng fucking blade while kissing his scarred hand and crying that he's "so sorry", yeah no shit asshole, his dragon heart got what it wanted, blade has all the time in the world to fuck and nothing competing for his now limitless attention and no one's happy about it.

as arrogant about being a short-life as yingxing was, it really is compensation for the discrimination he faced for it. other immortals looked down on him, so having dan feng, THE top dog, be so deeply enamored with him stirred his own toxic codependent urges. he was so desperate to have dan feng's eternal regard that he's willing to die for him (as in the sedition), his death being the force cementing his place in dan feng's heart forever.

so the fic having yingxing ruminate on this, that he had hoped for dan feng to love him even centuries after he inevitably died, only for the fic to end with:

yeah yingxing... you left an impression... he made you immortal.... everyone's upset by this

(that's what makes dan heng forgetting blade was ever yingxing to begin with all the more painful because, you went and turned him immortal and when it backfired horrifically you went on and fucking forgot, bitch i'd be pissed to the point of centuries long bloody pursuit of vengeance too.)

here's the fic go read it and leave kudos and a comment, technically porn but i got so invested in the character study that part barely registered. also yeah if you hadn't realized already super dead-dove:

blah blah "renheng is toxic" sorry that's why i like it

#hengren #renheng #txt #fic rec #nsft #idrc about who tops but ppl who are strictly top!blade truthers... give this fic a whirl plz it's so good expand ur horizons #so many other insane ramblings i could have about this fic oh my god the way the cloudhymn magic constantly healing yingxing #parallels blade's selfhealing (a self healing he got BECAUSE dan feng made him immortal)#cementing how his current state really was created by dan feng's desire to keep him and his love eternal URHGHG #ppl have the audacity to say blade is obsessed with dan heng when it was dan feng's obsession that created blade to begin with. kms #and also dan heng's guilt the whole while is 🤌 cuz before he was like. wow. that's SO fucked up. good thing dan feng did it #surely /i'm/ not capable of that -- pan to slow realization that he's still very much dan feng #so the initial rejection of responsibility of dan feng's crimes to realizing that it's deadass just his own crimes he has to atone for #kafka being quietly and subtly comforting of blade and that making dan heng possessive . when the reason blade needs comfort to begin with #is dan heng himself. like. it's so ironic i'll die #more honorable mentions is i love dan heng calling blade 'yingxing' because it's so fucking mean #he's the bitch getting pissed everytime someone calls him dan feng or dares to insinuate he's the same person but he's the exact same bitch #totally doing a 180 on blade and treating him way more kindly after realizing he used to be yingxing #'stop treating me like the shadow of someone who's long gone' bud listen to ur own advice #the unreliable narration between the first two chapters is so fucking good like once you catch on to which dialogue is actually happening #and what was a flashback and etc etc it's SO fucking good #another honorable mention is. lmao. love it when the top cries pathetic men you'll have my heart forever and always #tons of other endless thoughts about and inspired from this fic but give that bad boy a read. so worth #also this author writes sunblade so that's how you KNOW they're enlightened

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npdlangley · 11 days ago

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i ruined my own friendships i acted out i had my own privacy invaded and in turn got called weird, had to learn how my own classmates disliked me and found me weird from a young age, got made fun of for being bisexual by this one kid, this one girl had it out for me, i was a weird kid but got i was so desperate i wanted something and then on the internet i felt as thought i was so special and mature being told and exposed to things i shouldn't have while everyone just watched and said nothing. no one did anything no one even considered to ask why a middle schooler, an 11 year old was engaging and acting in such manner.

#txt #i spoke about self harm i showed my irl friend my vent art i got my privacy invaded by some kids at school who saw my emo drawings and #collectively told me i was weird and they didnt like how depressing i was #i had to listen to a kid talk about how he wouldnt care if i was dead #i had to get outted to my brother (who yes. already knew but forgot and outted me to my mom for having a crush on a girl) and when i #cried about it everyone pitied me. then my principal came in and then no one returned back to me or gave me a second thought #no one actually cared for me #no one ever cared or saved me i don't know what the hell i did to deserve this #i don't know it hurts so bad #privacy invasion

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thelonelyfog · 6 days ago

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One of the worst parts about all of this is the things I still can't remember.

I can't remember Sasha. I mean, I know what her voice sounds like now, but I still can't remember her. I've seen the fandom's interpretation of her and it feels right? I think? But how do I know? How do I know that any feelings of "accuracy" are her, and not some last remnants of the Not Them? How do I know if what I'm remembering is right, or if it's still whatever that thing put into my head?

I want to say I don't mind not Knowing. I never really took issue with it; not the way Jon did (which makes sense, I suppose). But something about it feels... bad? I don't know if it's a need to know so much as a guilt. Do I need to know her, or do I just feel guilty that I don't? I think it's the former, but there's no way to know. Not really.

Some of this sounds like something Jon might've said, I think. I miss him. I miss all of them.

#tw vent #i guess?#it's kind of depressing i think #when i was first listening to the podcast i told my friends that it was odd #because when i cried over sasha it didnt feel like crying over a “fictional” character?#even one id grown really attached to #it felt like crying for a friend #and well. i guess i was right.#i am martin blackwood and i am not lonely anymore.#<- been trying to repeat that to myself #☁️ txt #tma kin #the magnus archives kin #fictionkin

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sunmisbf · 28 days ago

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song of the day

#miércoles #SO I’M READY TO JOURNEY AGAINNNNN😭😭😭😭😭😭#i felt this in my soul when i saw him sing it live #when the choir hits at the end. who else cried #this is my most listened to woodz song this year i think. again #happy 10 year debut anniversary the kpop industry would not be the same without him 🫶#music wouldn’t be the same without him but of course that’s my biased opinion 🙂‍↕️ te amo seungyoun #.txt #Spotify

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hythlodaes · 11 months ago

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i did not get nearly enough sleep to be emotionally strong enough for today but ! my coffee is SO good and i get to spend the day with my beloved coworkers <3 merry christmas eve!!

#girl at dunks was so rude to me that i cried tbh !#but it’s all good i’m trying to stay joyful !!#everyone’s like oh no you have to work christmas eve ;-;#but listen. it’s a nice distraction skdjdk #gg txt

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re-decorate · 2 years ago

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ten years of vessel. ten years of the album that changed my life |-/

#NOT TO BE DRAMATIC BUT #:’(#if they play hoty tomorrow…i am not ready #last time i listened to hoty i cried so hard i felt sick #anyways #txt #twenty one pilots #vessel

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cronagorgonzola · 6 months ago

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How tough am i? HOW TOUGH AM I?

I'll have you know i listened to We Are Franchouchou by the zombie idol group Franchouchou from the hit anime Zombie Land Saga and i only nearly cried 3 times

#.txt #.img #the face of a man who cries listening to franchouchou #just something about people whose lives were over getting another chance to live their dreams gets to me ok

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gorillaxyz · 7 months ago

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sorry for posting a song that trended on tiktok but its literally meeeeeeeee

#txt #i used to listen to of montreal all the time when i was #13......#anyway #i just came out of a meeting with the like... head of safeguarding pr whatever #not safeguarding but the head of something #and i cried🤧#but i didnt trll her anything that wouldnlike. help me if she knew. like how ive been wanting to kms #le sigh #music #Spotify

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guangchuans · 9 months ago

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i’m going to take an ibuprofen, listen to end of a day, and go to sleep. goodnight my loves 🫂

#txt #i cried so much today lol #the best cinematic moment of today walking through a park listening to shinee’s ‘i say’ and holding back sobs bc [trains goes by]

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