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I imagine Machete's really only calm when he's sleep deprived AF and Vasco would just spend long nights listening to Machete's insane ramblings because he likes seeing him happy.
That's such a cute thought! Unfortunately I'm inclined to believe it's the complete opposite, insomnia makes him progressively more restless and agitated.
You know how after a sleepless night you sometimes get this second wind in the morning? You feel even more productive and motivated than you usually do and aren't tired at all, like a brief illusion of euphoria and invincibility. I think if he skips sleep he might initially get more self-assured, talkative and less inhibited (similar to being a little tipsy). This is probably the point where you might get those insane ramblings. But eventually he'd start going downhill and the cushioning that softens the edges of his anxiety, irratibility and neuroticism when he's in good health and good mood, would wear away and he'd become harder to deal with. He'd make rash desisions and obvious mistakes and get emotional outbursts that he'd regret later. And finally he'd fall into sort of confused, irresponsive and stuporous state where he's still trying to keep going but isn't actually getting anything done anymore, it isn't fun to watch.
He's happiest, calmest and at his best when he's well rested and properly fed. He's able to keep himself running on fumes for a considerable amount of time, mostly by taking several short sneaky naps per day. Rationally he knows this is detrimental to him and that he ends up doing subpar job when he'd tired and cranky, but it's a bad habit that seems impossible to correct.
#answered#anonymous#Vaschete lore#Machete#when he's stressed he can't relax enough to sleep#and being tired makes him more stressed#sometimes he gets better periods where he has no issues going to bed and staying there all night#but then things snowball again and lying down and listening to his inner monoloque makes him want to crawl out of his skin
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Batman Annual #25
Before Talia took him in, before he was dunked in the pit to have his memories restored, even when operating purely on survival instinct, he always split a meal with the other homeless people. It may not have been essential to his survival, but caring about and helping other people when he couldn’t even help himself was just always such an intrinsic part of Jason’s core.
#so much so that it prevailed over basic self-preservation#my guy lost 90% of his cognitive function and he’s still out here helping people in any way he can#my post#new headcanon: that’s why he stole all 4 tires. because he wasn’t just feeding himself in crime alley.#or at least he was planning to expand his work now that he had more confidence in his ability to feed and care for himself#I mean he also isn’t the type to brag about his good deeds yk? we all know he was putting up a tough guy façade when Bruce found him#a mutual asked abt Jason’s white streak so I directed them to hush which ofc reminded me of this book#rather than it being exclusively a pit thing imo it makes more sense for it to be a combination of actual health related issues#like the chronic prolonged mental and physical stress he had to endure coupled with the fact that superboy’s punch kickstarted his body#in ways that are unknown to modern science#and then the pit also had a hand in it (probably??)#(imo). like Talia doesn’t have it. neither do Damian or Ra’s or anyone else who’s been in the pit.#jason todd#dc#batman annual 25#comic panels
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is it Talon likely to cheat? I'd love to know more abt how your characters see monogamy
so this one's tricky because for example I currently cannot ever see myself being poly irl and the same would go for Al but um here we are with our extra boyfriend. LOL
As for Talon the tagging on that post is more toward his beginnings (in this AU where he's safe with Smunker and Al) because I did originally make him with the intent to explore Male Manipulator character since I always end up domesticating all my #mean characters (which has kinda also happened here. LOL. Did u know Al was also meant to be an asshole when i made him 10+ yrs ago).
Anyway in this context, at the beginning: Talon is a vampire after all, and finally away from captivity where he had to be silent and agreeable in order to keep his health. As well as finally recovered enough from a massive injury, so he goes a little crazy with doing whatever he wants now that he Can do whatever he wants at the expense of others (what he considers Getting Even considering what was done at His expense).
The grief that has followed him for centuries fuels him as he doesn't want to truly form any attachments to spare himself more heartbreak.
His first encounter, with Al (pre smunker) really was Al doing all the heavy lifting in sorting Talon out. So Talon did in fact "cheat" here (though they weren't exactly Together.) Talon would still do stuff like this ("cheating") in attempts to emotionally harm people he encountered. Luckily Al didn't really gaf because again, they weren't actually Together, it was more casual. But Talon could easily be feigning a relationship with someone else and having Al be the side piece if this makes sense.
Like he couldn't just be normal about the hedonism, he craved control over his life in the form of burnt bridges, and making others not want to be around him. Anyway at the end of his experience with Al, Talon has immense respect for him and knows that Al won't put up with his nonsense. Talon leaves because this is too close to attachment.
When he returns, momentarily tired of causing dysfunction in the lives of strangers, (Smunker is now in the picture) he has to really balance his cruelty. He doesn't respect Smunker but he can't exactly do the cheating schemes under Al's roof OR in Al's hometown where everyone knows each other, so he's evil to him in other ways ➡️ Of Course He Gets Attached ➡️ Grapples daily with the thought of skipping town to avoid the pain of his beloved mortals dying AGAIN but this is all no longer related to cheating anymore...do u understand me.
Alternatively if he has just stumbled upon Skunker (no Al) he'd absolutely feign a relationship with and then cheat on Skunker bc the bond isn't there yet, and Skunker is easy to do this to/will not fight back/will not earn his respect or affection in these surface level interactions. Do u get me.
#sorry for breaking out the novel on u#anyway so yeah like he very well COULD but he respects Al‚ he's getting all his needs met#he has a home and being able to relax and not be on edge about safety makes him a little more tired from#no longer having all that stress#so like. HE COULD. he might even do so in the midst of one of his emotional breakdowns#but its not really an active desire especially since now he's thinking about how he'd rather be sandwiched between#his two organic space heaters#he is now too busy worrying and ruminating on how he'll blink and they'll be dead and he'll be alone again#or wondering when they're going to decide to abandon him because he isn't being useful enough#everyone's hands are far too full#anonymous#skunk mail#oc text
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i have so many thoughts about his gender and how he's kind of textually a woman and/or abinary (read tags if interested)
#i dont stand for cis rust cohle. that's not real. come on...#like... super dissociated from his body and his desires. and he has to keep a tenuous hold on his identity via various forms of self control#('contemplating the idea of allowing his own crucifixion'#being sexless#being able to compartmentalize his identity to fit a need)#says himself that relationships between men and women don't work and are only fit to procreate#says his daughter's death spared him from the sin of being a father#the act of being a man or being a woman are two extremes that are too harshly defined for him#edges drawn too sharply and not allowing for any flexibility which he needs#to be a man is to be the executioner and to be a woman is to be predestined to be the martyr that is what he believes#these are choices too difficult for him to make so he leaves them unmade vague up in the air for other people to stare sneer and interrogate#and it's worse yet when his body is equal parts weapon and a stress relief mechanism to others#gets his bodily autonomy stripped so often it's second nature to him. uses barbiturates like a 50's housewife#he cleans up real fuckin' pretty— hisself and the messes he's roughly shoved into#he's tired of talking to other people like a human being— he speaks another language entirely. one more visceral and raw#one that says the truth and nothing but.#if i think about the scene in episode six with maggie and what it means—#if the two of them are women#or if one of them is something that isn't exactly a man—#i think i will lose it#rust's looser swagger (or lack thereof) in contrast to marty's prevalent machismo btw... fascinating#his kind of deer-like charm. he Looks vulnerable only he's protected by an impermeable barrier#like don't fucking touch him. you can't#rambled so MUCH. sorry. but if you understand you understand#rust cohle#true detective#disasterpiece.png
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Actually I have just now decided I really like Luke (I just gave him mommy issues ☠️ and it worked)
#erm to explain he rly loves his mom and they always laugh around n hes a golden child n share (almkst) everything w each other#except shes always asking if hes gonna get a girlfriend ahy time soon and luke already knows shes pretty conservative so hes afraid of how#shell react to him dating zander so he doesnt say at first.#and hes afraid of burdening her w worries cuz she already has a lot on her back like her job all day n night and has been stressing recentl#so luke worries him being pan might “overburden” her even more#and so he takes the chore of.cooking n cleaning around the house n such and shes always super thankful#overall very loving but conservative and anxious n tired which makes him afraid of what shell see on hom. what hell lose#then one day he actually does mention how hes dating Xander. n his suspicions were correct cuz dhe gets pretty confused and mad#so he runs away to zanders home and asks if he can stay over w a smile trying yo hide his pain#and the wickhams n austins are pretty confused but they let him in#UHM do u get me#luke peterson#and from that day on he either A) grows distant from his mom and griefs losing everything they had but has to accepy that loss and learn to#be himself rather than pretend to be someoke for someone else (tying into the whole theme of the show being accepting yourself)#or B) his mom starts putting genuine effort into changing n understanding him after she sees how much hes hurt#tying into the shows message of people changing and growning and owning up to their mistakes#tmf luke#luke tmf#im cringe af#toki rambles#in the tags#tmf#the Music freaks#freakblr
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i got two replies out , woo . now i'm going to sleep .
#⚡ ⸺ ❝ moghome . [ ooc ]#just kind of. want to clarify i'll still pop in here to reply to stuff#i'm not burnt out on muse soasmuch as i am just#discouraged and uncomfortable#and unsure of what to do#i don't rly. want to steep myself further rn in theory talk anymore than i have or focus on trying to figure roche out.#i've spent too much time and energy on that and tbqh? the more i stress about whether or not square makes him an interesting chara or w/e#the less i want to write roche so i'm just. not gonna bother. lmk if you want to try out any potential avenues concerning my theories#and whatnot#i'll be operating on a strictly au basis so like. assume everything on this blog is bullshit for now#and ig if i don't like what they do w roche in part 3 i'll likely drop him as a muse#i'm not going to waste my time and energy wallowing on omg!!! they didn't give this character his due!!#i'm so tired of muses i write being done dirty man. i just expect it by this point and the less attached i get to it all the better#it just happens way too often so i just gotta. stop thinking so much and having another muse to focus on will help w that#i think i've reached the pt where i'm tired of 'fixing' characters. so i'm not gonna do it
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mommy johan on the mind again fellas.
#i SWEARRR the visions of him manifesting maternal instincts from being raised by his mother and with his sister and curiously playing#with his sister's baby doll one time are hitting me square in the face. right in the face. knock out#then he sees you and a side of him he didn't know he had surfaces.#you whos just a bit of a mess. who always wipes your mouth with your sleeve. who's a bit out of luck in finances. always tired and stressed#and he just... he can so easily take care of these for you. take care of YOU.#nevermind that you're practically the same age even. which make it more hitting to your ego because compared to you he's knows so much#and it's like he's BETTER than you in ever possible way and it just reminds you how much of a loser you almost are compared to him.#and it's further proving his point that you need this. you need him.#anyways very norman bates hehehehe. watched psycho 1960 and the ending is soooo <3 to me. love a man who emulates his mother.
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Throws this at you and then disappears again
#💭 — ⌗nervo rambles . ★#I'M ALIVE GUYS DW I'VE JUST UH BEEN LURKING#I've been rlly overwhelmed lately noise is rlly stressing me out and stuff :((#doing this all in my last hr helped me calm down a bit tho :33#any and all interaction is tiring and overwhelming tho so ermmm I'm gonna try to do all of the twst event tonight#(has not done one but of it yet)#and uhh idk when everything stops being overwhelming tiring and making me want to throw up my insides I'll be back#I'll probably yap more abt him on my oc blog when I can I didn't even write down most of his lore and it's forever changing!!!! egh
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long tag ramble below u have been warned
#ok i feel like i should say Something before i start being active again#but i dont want it to be a Statement which is why i’m putting it in the tags#(also bc i procrastinated doing this for weeks so i know this is a very stale topic by now#but i also haven’t been on tumblr literally at all so this is 100% my organic authentic opinion lmao)#so read if you gaf and ignore if you don’t#anyway: george def could’ve done more to ensure she was comfortable#and as someone who has also gotten in over my head with older men and regretted it#her hurt is valid and i’m deeply sorry she feels the way she does about that night#but with that said i see no reason to believe george Should have known how she really felt#or that he deliberately took advantage of either her youth/inexperience or her discomfort#and that’s the most important thing for me— he fucked up and misread a situation but that doesn’t make him an evil person#and i hope they can both move on and grow and heal#as for my future in the fandom: i honestly dunno how active i’ll be going forward#i was already becoming pretty disconnected so this might’ve just sped up the process? i’m tired of being put through the wringer#but i also don’t really have a fandom to replace this so i might just continue casually participating in the way i have been#either way rest assured i will never become a rabid anti. that shits embarrassing#i got HORRIBLE drolo rsd the other day when tommy’s mom needed clout and vagued him so like if nothing else. droloisms are forever#also as a last thing— this feels kinda silly and self centered to say but i will anyway#sorry for not opening up my blog as a forum for discussion again the way i did with the drituation#i know i helped a lot of people sort out their feelings and that was (and is) really really important to me#but it also tanked my mental health (mostly as a result of the fallout and not the act itself but still)#plus my life irl was pretty stressful at the time when everything was first going down#so i just didn’t feel up to putting myself through that again#but i’m sorry if anyone wanted to discuss w me but wasn’t able to#anyway. i think that’s all i have to say!#i don’t want to turn this into a capital D discussion but as always my askbox and dms are open#love you all tons! i hope you’re having a good day 🫂🫶#bella talks
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ooooh i woke up in a bad mood and it's so hard not to be a bitch about it
#i don't want to ruin the mood for my family so i'm just laying in my bed and think about everything that pisses me off#and i'm getting more and more mad about it#come to think of it it's kinda funny but also really frustrating#i probably just need to cry because i've been extremely tired and stressed for the past week#but i don't want to make myself sad on purpose so now i'm really angry over literally nothing lol#for example today i saw my colleague and turns out she knows my father#and she was like 'oh your dad really misses you!! he mentions you all the time!!' and i was like '....really?.....'#because i thought he didn't care at all (and the feeling is kinda mutual)#because call me crazy if you want but if i miss someone i just go talk to them.... problem solved........#we barely talk but apparently he's yapping abt me all the time to everyone so everyone thinks that he's oh such a loving and caring dad#which makes me look like a bitch of a daughter#which is like#on one hand i couldn't care less#but on the other#why would you talk about missing me to other people and bever bother to try and talk to me yourself??#though i probably dodged a bullet#talking to him is extremely hard because he's incredibly stuffy? boring? english doesn't have enough words for that#and i don't wanna listen to him talking about himself for 2 hours straight without having a chance to interrupt him 🤩🤩🤩#ooof#idk how to stop being mad i probably need to distract myself somehow#anyway there is probably a ton of mistakes here but i'm too lazy to fix them#idk i wish i could scream so loud that every bad thought in my head would disappear forever#i'm so tiredddddd
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I love you SoC artists and writers who don't feel the need to make Kaz "ugly" in their work
I love you SoC artists and writers who let Kaz be seen as attractive by characters other than just his close friends in their work
I love you SoC fans who don't just brush off and dismiss the idea of Kaz being considered Hot with regard to his physical appearance
I love you people who let the visibly disabled character be seen as attractive and desirable (without fetishizing or objectifying or having it be "in spite of xyz" or "attractive.... for someone who's xyz")
#and no I'm not talking about the 'terrible haircut' jokes#let disabled characters (and ya know. actual real existing disabled people)#Be considered attractive without also making their disability be a Thing(tm) in relation to that#Especially when the author herself (Who based Kaz's disability on her own In case anyone needs reminding)#Made a point of mentioning him being desired by more characters than just The One Who Loves Him#To be clear I'm not criticizing people who go#'oh he's probably malnourished and doesn't eat enough#/he never sleeps#/he's been in a permanent state of stress and Survival More since he was a little kid#and these things can have a visible physical effect'#(I meant survival mode* not survival more. in case that's not clear)#and choose to portray those physical effects when it Makes Sense#(Although if you're attributing labels like 'ugly' to them could you... maybe reconsider that? Please?#And keep in mind that there are very real people who have those traits (whether it's even remotely in their control or not)#and may very well see you talking about them that way? Etc etc)#Anyway!#I'm just tired of seeing the idea of him being physically attractive get dismissed and even#In a (disappointing but not surprising) number of cases *criticized*
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Tired of people saying “oh look at my old man😍” and the picture they attach is some buff anime dude with grey hair grow up
#I’m so fucking ill#HE AIN’T EVEN THAT OLD HE AIN’T EVEN INTERESTING IN PHYSIQUE#go back to fawning over captain fucking america you’re not welcome in this space#he has laugh lines and fat on his belly and flabby arms or its NO DEAL#AND IM SO FUCKING TIRED#the real halmark of old man fucking is the unconventional attractiveness of natural features becoming more pronounced with time#and my brother in christ you’re not even appreciating graceful aging. get a GRIP#seriously just make peace that you’re attracted to convention or embrace the skrungly. or like idk die if you can’t do either of those thin#i’m so tired#sorry I’m being such a hater lately but yk what with all my stress I’ve earned it#and even if he does have the requisite qualities one word about him being fucking daddy and I’m calling the goddamn cops#so so so sick of it
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Are you a fello bigslab shipper
late 2 answer this bc ive been so busy and i wanted to write up a whole thing abt the post bu the tl;dr is that i got invested in bigslab bc of an au with my partners that involves them with a rly fun dynamic. i just havent seen it anywehre else but now im like dang. i should rotate them more
#ask#bigb-enthusiast#the au is a renchanting/red army vampires au and etho is an old/true vampire (born of a curse instead of being bitten) who turns bigb#they spend months trapped together under rough circumstances and etho like. could leave. but he doesnt. bc bigb cant and would otherwise di#so at bigb's request etho turns him to save his life and they both make it out of there#and then its like. the enormity of what bigb agreed to under stress starts to settle in#they were in the middle of a war and then they lose the war and bigb is . still there. he;s just a vampire now#his side of this au isnt fleshed out as much bc i am a treebark guy thru and thru but i would like to rotate it more#hes out in the world finding his way through it as a vampire. and he and etho keep crossing paths.#he and etho DEFINITELY have a weird gay thing going on#most holidays he meets up again with the red army at the old castle they all died to protect#i think we could give vampire bigslab a medieval hallmark holiday romance movie. tbh. those words mean nothing together actually do they#forgive me. i am SO fucking tired forever and ever
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hermitcraft grad residence au my beloved.
#im writing a chatfic and its . this is what it is#inspired by my own residence experience#theres an engineering cohort w like iskall etho tango doc#and theyre brewing alcohol in their dorm rooms#(actual thing that happened on the engineering floor btw)#poultryman is running wild on the weekends and nobody can stop him#skizz is the floor event coordinator on one floor and keeps assigning mandated therapy sessions#x is the senior resident assistant who has a front of being tired and over everything but is also causing chaos#someone stole the door from the lounge on the 7th floor and nobody knows who the fuck did it or where it went#mumbo blew up the floor microwave trying to make a Contraption out of it#bdubs dorm room is covered in moss.#pearl is tired of cleaning up the lounges after everyone but shes the omly one who will do it#gem has started an underground fighting ring with grads and undergrads alike#on weekends scar goes to every tower and every floor and tries to scam drunk people out of their money#it works TOO WELL#stress has started a ‘roll around in the dirt after class’ event and its surprisingly popular#she tracks it everywhere and nobody has the heart to tell her to stop#anyways i should be workkng#rosie talks#hermitcraft#need more ideas. talk to me. i am procrastinating my work
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rich husbands who make their whole life about taking care of you.
oh, that necklace you glanced at while at the mall? now you're there trying several other ones on because "they all look perfect on you."
the dress you looked at through that shop window? bought. plus anything else you even remotely wanted.
that snack you crave almost all the time? he almost buys the whole business for you just to have them as often as you'd like. (in moderation of course!)
rich husbands who don't understand why you want to work, and every time you tell them why they simply say:
"i can provide more than enough for the both of us, but go ahead."
rich husbands the second they see you all stressed and tired from that job, call in and quit for you.
and when you try to get up the next morning to go to said job, he ushers you back to bed, lays you down and tells you to "not worry about that pesky job again."
rich husbands who like to make it known to everyone that you're married to him.
buys you the biggest rock you've ever seen adorned on your finger to propose to you, and makes it his routine to see if you have his ring on. (which you always do.)
indirectly flaunts it to passersby's by holding your hand, occasionally picking your hand up to inspect it, and trying not to crack a smile as he hears women gasp, and whisper, "she's one lucky woman."
rich husbands who tell everyone they know about you, whether that be coworkers, family, or random people, he'll always somehow flip the conversation to being about you.
"oh that? my wife is quite fond of it, yes."
"that reminds me of my wife, she quite likes those things. often calling them "cute.""
rich husbands <33
#── ��� order up! ꒱ ౨ৎ .ᐟ#idk what was going on with me but here#genshin impact#genshin#genshin x reader#genshin fluff#genshin impact x reader#diluc x reader#diluc x you#neuvillette#neuvillette x reader#wriothesley#wriothesely x reader#zhongli#zhongli x reader#childe x reader#childe#ajax#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk satoru#gojo satoru x you#gojo satoru x reader#jjk nanami#nanami kento#nanami x reader#geto suguru#jjk geto#geto x reader#drabble
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The whole "go to sleep -> think about sh" thing is still happening. I know nobody was wondering, but it's bugging me. My blog anyways.
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Well, we've gone too far past the "don't sh" territory that i don't think i actually ate all day.
(Owing to the shortness. No brain power probably and also i'm tired.)
And still. Without fail. The thought is there.
#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ#ed tw#sh tw#i dont think i'm adjusting well actually#every stupid little thing sets me off and its not even about me !!!#it's like i keep swinging between 'able to enjoy things like hobbies again' and just ... whatever this is.#it's not like ... look i exaggerate a lot ok. this is not moodswings. thats all. i'm fairly normal all things considered.#anyways i dont know !!!!!!!!!!!! what 2 do!!!!!!!!!#it took me all of guard season before i started really feeling comfortable with guard friends#but with this it's like... i guess i feel like i should know him already. and be ok with everything#well. i dont and i am not. i still feel trapped in the space i've been given.#and i dont get the impression that i'm wanted here really. more like i constantly feel like an intruder [...in my own house]#and it is NOT helping the 'executive functioning'(?) anxiety dysregulation either. i thought i was getting better but i guess today#proved me wrong in that regard. i don't remember what to liken it to.#i don't know. i was cursed with the ability to hear and it's stressing me out.#as always it comes back to being a little *too* self aware...#i know if everything was perfect it wouldnt be life or whatever but god i just want a place where i feel like i'm *safe*#take that how you will if you want.#what i mean by it is i'm tired of getting stuck because i'm scared of making a noise.#& im goddamn tired of being forced into the closet because of 1) of my circumstances (legally i cannot say)#2) the amount of anxiety i get over trying to (re-)come out to someone i KNOW isn't going to judge me in literally any way#well. i made my kofi page anyways. so maybe if i play my cards right top surgery will happen. i hope to fucking god it does >:[
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