#and as much as i physically can not shut the fuck up about it it's ultimately mine for me. it don't have to be realistic <3< /div>
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Marked
Summary - speculations of you and Rheas relationship finally come to an end as now everyone knows it's true, due to you walking out to your match with black lipstick prints on your body.
RheaRipley X Fem!Reader
Warnings - Pure Smut, Fingering, Oral (Reader receiving.) Strong Language and all that stuffs yk. 😉
Hope you enjoy! <3
“I think you’re gonna love thisss!” My makeup artist, Amanda, says to me. I told her to try something new, anything she wanted that would match my new gear I was debuting tonight.
As Amanda finishes up, I hear footsteps creeping behind me and then two hands on my shoulders, meaning it could only be…
“Guess who.” I hear from behind me.
“Hmm…I don’t know..Samantha? Liv? Rhea? I mean, I have so many girlfriends it’s hard to guess!” I say in a joking manner, suddenly feeling a hard thump on the back of my neck and the sound of a slight giggle.
“Alright! Finished!” Amanda says.
She spins my chair around, facing me towards the mirror. “Oh my god! Mandy, I love it! Thank you!” I say, standing up out of my chair and hugging her tightly. “Okay, Loosen the grip up, Azmina!” Amanda says, slightly breathless due to my grip.
I let out a small laugh and mumble a sorry.
As I turn around, I’m met face to face with my girlfriend, Rhea.
“Damn.” Is all she says.
“What? You don’t like it?” I ask.
“I more than like it. Makes me wanna fuck it off you.” She says..loudly. My response ends with me slapping her arm and my face turning completely red.
“You look good too I guess…” I say to her with a smirk on my face.
Amanda comes up behind us. “Personally, I’d rather see this than LivDom.”
That sending Rhea and I into a laughing spiral.
Amanda is one of the select few who know about Rhea and I being together.
Everyone knows me and her are super close, but they don’t know the full extent.
Rhea and I have tagged together numerous times, which is where the rumors started at to begin with.
Oh, but that’s not just all!
Rhea is very…touchy. She physically can’t keep her hands off me when we’re near one another, so during our matches, when rhea was helping me up, she’d slide her hand across me someway, or she’d hold onto me, pick me up or carry me out, whilst keeping a certain grip on my…lower half.
Always making sure to touch me.
I’ve always had this attraction to her, I mean…just look at her. How could you not?
“Hey. Come on.” Rhea whispers to me, reaching a hand out for me to grab.
“I need to put my gear on anyways.” I take her hand as she leads me to the locker room. Shutting the door behind her after she lets me go in first.
She turns around, walking slowly towards me.
Slowly inching me closer and closer against the far wall.
As she slowly made her way over to me, her eyes not leaving me, she gently pushed me against the wall.
She placed her hands right beside my head, trapping me against the wall, as she leaned in even closer.
Her breath, hitting my neck. Sending chills down my whole body.
I shut my eyes for a moment before opening them back up, my eyes meeting hers as she hovers over me looking down at me.
“Please” I murmur out, barely even understandable.
“See how I make you feel? See how I’m not even touching you, and you’re just begging me to fuck you?” Rhea says in a low tone.
She gently runs her index finger along my jaw as she whispers in my ear.
"See how you shiver when I touch you lightly?"
She then gently touches a sensitive spot on my neck.
“See how your body is telling me just how much you need me? You just can’t help yourself can you? I mean, all I’m doing is standing over you and you just can’t contain yourself. What’s to be done about that, huh?”
My mouth begins to open, but nothing comes out. I look down at the ground in slight embarrassment. I can only think of one thing right now, and that’s how badly I need to feel her.
“Oh come on…use your words baby. Tell me what you want.” She says as she moves her finger and traces under my chin.
“M-my match. I need t..to put my gear on.” I finally get out, slightly jerking to try to get out from under her.
Rhea's smile widens as she notices my attempts to get away from her.
“Oh, is that what you're worried about at the moment? Your little match? Trust me, that's the last thing you need to worry about right now.”
She grabs my chin, forcing me to look up at her. Her eyes, now intense and full of desire.
“You're not going anywhere until I'm finished with you.”
She moves her hand from my chin to my throat, applying just enough pressure to make sure I stay right where I am.
“And I'm still just getting started.”
My eyes, tearing up from the pressure she’s putting on my neck.
She finally crashes her like into mine. Kissing me with the most passion I’ve ever felt. Her lipstick, still slightly wet, as I can feel it imprinted on my skin. She removes her hand from my neck and snakes it down into my shorts.
I feel her smirk against my lips as she feels how wet I am, her fingers slowly teasing my folds.
She lets out a soft chuckle and breaks the kiss. Starting to leave a trail of hickeys down my neck and shoulder, all while her fingers still work at a painfully slow pace.
I let out a soft whimper, signaling I need her to move faster.
“Be patient darling.” She whispers before biting down gently on my shoulder, her fingers now moving only slightly faster than before.
She pulls back to look at me, watching my reactions while her fingers still rub against my clit at a painfully slow pace.
“Look at you, covered in my marks.”
She leans in, and whispers into my ear again, her voice low and sultry.
“Everyone will know who you belong to.”
She moves her other hand to grip my hip, helping hold me against the wall as she continues to move her fingers, now going at a steady fast pace.
“Shit! Rhea- Fuck! Oh my god- I’m..I’m gonna cu..” I’m cut off by her smashing her lips back into mine. Biting my lip hard and pulling on it with her teeth.
Moans begin to slip out, one after another like a broken record player.
She swallows the moans that slips from my lips, biting down on my lip again as she keeps pushing me closer and closer to the edge.
But then she stops.
She pulls away from my lips and looks at me, a smirk on her face.
“Ah ah ah, not yet…”
Rhea looks down at my legs, wobbly and shaking, barely being able to hold myself up.
She gets down on her knees then looks back up at me, a smirk still on her face as she pulls my shorts and underwear all the way down and hooks my leg over her shoulder.
She presses a kiss to the inside of my lower thigh, slowly making her way closer and closer to my core.
She finally reaches my core and runs her tongue up my folds, teasing me slowly as she keeps my leg over her shoulder.
She repeats this action a couple more times, licking and teasing me with her tongue, purposely avoiding my clit.
She finally gives my clit some attention, flicking her tongue over it quickly before sucking it into her mouth.
I feel her insert her 2 fingers deep inside me. Curling them at a slow but harsh pace.
I let out a loud moan, which almost could be mistaken as a scream.
My body begins to tremble. Knees beginning to give out again.
“You’re such a good girl for me. taking my tongue so well.” She says between licks, her voice muffled against me.
“You’re gonna cum for me, aren’t you baby? I want you to scream my name. She gives my clit one last hard suck before pulling away slightly, her fingers still moving inside me, but she fastens the pace.
“Come on, Az, be a good girl and cum for me, yeah?”
And that’s what sent me over the edge.
My eyes stay shut but I can feel her smirk as I cum, she watches as my body trembles in pleasure. I open my eyes and watch her beneath me as she slowly licks up all of my cum, savoring the taste.
She finally completely pulls away from me, picking me and my shorts up and carrying me to a locker, sitting me down on the seat of it.
My body still hot, panting and out of breath.
And I still hadn’t gotten my gear on.
“Rhea…please. I need my gear.” I managed to pull out.
She stepz away from me, reaching into the locker and pulling out my gear.
“You better get dressed fast, baby. You have a match to win.”
I grab my underwear from right next to me, as I struggle to put them on, rhea snatches them from me and decides to take matter into her own hands.
She moves her hands down to your waist, slowly pulling my underwear up my legs, her fingers brushing against my still sensitive skin.
I decide to just push through, I stand up, obviously tired, and put my gear on. Which takes me a whopping almost 10 minutes.
I pull my phone out of my bag to check the time.
“Shit!” I yelled.
As i continue putting it on, I notice the marks all over my body.
Her marks.
Black lipstick imprinted all on my thighs, neck, and arms.
She looks at me and sort of giggles.
“Oops?”
I take of my shirt and bra, putting on my top to my gear aswell.
When I finish with that, I grab the mirror from my bag, looking at my messed up lipstick.
“Really, Rhea?”
“You’re just so hot I couldn’t help myself.” She says, shrugging her shoulders and rolling her eyes.
I hurry up and finish up putting my boots on and then I turn to Rhea again and kiss her.
“I love you. I’ll see you after my match!” I say quickly as I run out of the room as I then go to find Amanda.
I find Amanda and ask her to give me a touch up on my makeup.
She sits me down and begins to touch it up. Wiping the marks on my arms and neck off, but clearly unable to remove the permanent ones that Rhea left.
“I don’t even wanna know.” Amanda says.
I just give her an awkward smile and laugh.
After we finish up, I have about 10 minutes before I go out.
I stand in the back behind the entrance curtain, talking with some other superstars just to pass time by.
Then, it’s time for me to go out.
My entrance music hits and I go out like I normally do.
Rhea and I are currently in a feud with Damage Control, so my opponent for tonight is Iyo Sky.
As I’m doing my entrance, I catch a glance at my legs.
Shit.
I forgot the marks on my legs, and if it didn’t help, I forgot my fishnets that go underneath my gear.
I just continue on with my entrance, making my way to the ring, pretending like nothing is different.
After I finish it, RAW goes on commercial.
Leaving me to stand in the ring for a couple of minutes to prepare.
Of course people in the crowd are going to take pictures, but little did I know that I was in for a rude awakening when I got to the back.
Backstage, Rheas phone was blowing up. Messages from many different people, noticing the black marks left on her “tag partners” legs.
I stand in the ring, awaiting the ad break to go off, but I do notice all the phones in the crowd pointed at me, taking videos and pictures.
See, I wouldn’t think nothing of it unless I didn’t have these marks on my legs.
It’s truly not a bad thing for people to find out we are dating. We have to come out with it soon enough, but i didn’t really take this being the way the fans found out.
The lights come back on and it cuts to Iyo Sky coming out.
After Iyo finishes her entrance, we both stand in our corners and then the bell rings.
Iyo looks at me for a second, not moving, but looking me up and down and then slightly laughing whilst rolling her eyes.
I think I know what she was laughing at.
We put on a hell of a match for the crowd, but, during the match, Iyo puts me in a compromising position…really showing the marks on me as she bends and twists my leg in this hold she has me in.
I’m sure the camera had a direct view of the marks now, but I’m almost 99% positive there hasn’t been a point where there wasn’t already a direct view of the marks.
At the last couple seconds of the match, I hit Iyo with a missile dropkick, the impact knocking her across the ring and me falling ti the floor in exhaustion.
We both get up at the same time, having an intense stare down with one another. She runs the ropes but I end up catching her with a punch of my own.
I decide to do something interesting.
I pick her up, preforming the Riptide on her.
Pinning her, with Rheas famous pin.
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The bell rings, and I stand up.
Referee, holding one of my arms up as I lick some of the blood from my lip off with my tongue.
The match goes off air and I make my way to the back, stopping to take pictures with people and signing posters, etc.
And when I reach the back, I’m met with a grinning Rhea Ripley.
“How bad is it…” I ask her.
“Let’s just say we’re trending now, and everyone knows about us.”
She runs her hand down my body until she reaches my thigh, her fingers tracing the red marks from the match and the black lipstick marks she left. She brings her mouth up to my ear, whispering to me and making sure her breath tickles my ear.
“Don’t forget the fishnets next time.”
A/N - HIIII! This is probably my favorite fic I’ve written so far. I hope you guys enjoy it! I had so much fun writing it! All feedback is appreciated lovely’s! 🫶🏻🩷
#smut#rhea ripley#wwe#wwe raw#wwe smackdown#fanfic#judgment day#liv morgan#wwe fanfiction#fluff#rhea ripley wwe#wwe smut#mami rhea#liv morgan wwe#wlw smut#lesbian#rhea ripley smut#pro wrestling#wwewomen
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sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:
thing that I already do
thing I have tried 10 times
thing I already do
thing that I don't have the money to do
thing I already do
thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail
thing that is impossible given my situation
thing that doesn't apply to me
thing that I already do
thing I have already tried
hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently
thing I have already done
#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things#out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever#all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever#or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc.#especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple#and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already#done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and#all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you.#who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3#my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster#talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo#I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache#or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop#e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all#sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef#t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of#way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I#think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i#gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!'#like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant#mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain#or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right#now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like#most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once#that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY#Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth
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i think what a lot of people misunderstand about the oz Fantasy(TM) is that it's not about denying that he's done anything wrong -- we fully know that he's made some awful, selfish decisions. the fantasy's more like;; what if my affection was powerful enough to make him into something good (whatever that means)? what if my love could change the trajectory of his life? this is not how it works in real life (and I think we all know that) which is what makes it a really satisfying fantasy <3
#silver jelly#idk i've gotten into a lot of relationships -- platonic and otherwise -- where i thought i could fix someone#you simply cannot. you can try so hard you can do all the things you think are right and you can Help but at best#it's not the same and at worst it turns into a very unhealthy situation and i think that's what draws me to oz#what if we lived in a world where it worked and what if i am so special and sexy and cool that it makes him want to be a better person#like yes the bangin is part of it i do want to wreck that middle aged man#but the backbone of the fantasy is somehow even less realistic lmao#and as much as i physically can not shut the fuck up about it it's ultimately mine for me. it don't have to be realistic <3#he loves me because of course he does. it matters because of course it does. it's just not that complicated idk!
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I wanna make a Conky ref and lore sheet/bio, I'm really growing attached to that goober
#I'm giving him exaggerated versions of my own percieved flaws and yet he remains lovable#which feels good tbh like if this guy with cranked-up versions of my physical mental and social flaws is lovable then#there's nothing wrong with me! Putting my “worst” traits (most of which are morally neutral) into a homunculus and saying “ily”#he's hairier and has a fluctuating belly-heavy weight and is cartoonishly gullible and naiive and forgetful#he trusts people he probably shouldn't and comes across as clingy/overly-enthusiastic and smells weird and neglects his hygeine at times#he's fruity and doesn't really know it#he's annoying and has poorly-kempt facial and head hair and his room is a mess and he has weird eating habits that concern onlookers#he struggles with social cues and never shuts up and lays around too much and dresses in baggy tattered t-shirts and pants#he cries easy from emotional causes yet has a pain tolerance too high for his own good and takes abuse with a smile because he's so naiive#regardless of his current ever-fluctuating weight his belly always sticks out at least a little and he lacks muscle so looks like a...#...hairy marshmallow even when technically “thin” (I believe the term for being “light” yet having almost all “mass” be fat is “skinnyfat”)#AAAAAND he's probably wretched with diverse and gross-looking scars under that shirt (I struggle w that real bad)#BUT I LOVE HIM!! He's everything I dislike about myself distilled and yet I LOVE HIM!!#I now understand why people say being a career clown is great for self-esteem lol#when you can be your “worst self” and be loved then... well that must mean your normal self is lovable as fuck!#conky lore#conky#my sona#sona#sonas#conkycore
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I just learned something so incredibly fucked up
#i am trembling#i cannot let this enable my issues with paranoia further! haha! oh my fucking god#im not joking btw im literally physically trembling. how did this happen oh god oh GOD nononono dont let it get to you#i just need to know. was someone like. double dealing? was someone telling him about it#i wouldnt give a shit if they were stalking me online occasionally (well id care a little bit but honestly itd just be kinda fucked)#but if someone was telling him about me and my personal stuff?#stop. i dont want to think about it. i dont want to think it happened. i have to get this out of my head#but still. absolutely fucking deranged.#ESPECIALLY bc apparently he's been saying i “made him think he was abusive'' and that doing that was shitty of me bc he actually#just has bpd??????#sol if you're reading this listen closely: one of my best friends has bpd. diagnosed and everything. so shut the fuck up#much like you've been saying i blamed my adhd for being neglectful (read: not meeting your sky-high standards for Truly Loving You 24/7)#you cannot blame your bpd for what a shit person you've been#repeatedly asking you to work on a flaw that's been hurting me is not telling you you're abusive you fucking prick#get a life‚ learn to care about other people away from what they can do for YOU‚#and LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.#p.s. imagine being mad that people who were friends with both you and your partner didnt suddenly cut the other one off after you broke up#like actually angry at these people. what the actual fuck. you're like a divorced parent upset that their child still talks to their ex-wife#my posts
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i get that sui zhou has ptsd but if he continues treating a literal child like this im abt to lose whatever remaining respect i had for him 😑
#the fact that she literally has to grow up so fast trying to take care of HIM instead of the other way arnd etc...#idk i dont like how either sz or tf are treating/using dong'er without even caring abt her mental n physical well being#national security etc is at stake but they could easily get someone else to help out instead of a CHILD#and like. let's be frank. they do not actually care that much about the state as they do about their personal connections#which is why i can forgive wang zhi for employing street urchins but draw the line at whatever sui zhou and tang fan are doing atm#also wang zhi is a kid himself. an older teen but still a kid. i cant say the same for the guys who are in their 20s.#idk. very frustrating few eps compounded by the fact that i rly like wang xian too n the way they treat him is uhm. god shut the fuck up#CLEARLY hes upset why are u making it worse just to ''advance the case'' u dont even have any other things in there to communicate w him#while it's been clear (For A While) that he doesnt/rarely talks... give him a brush and some paper at the v least???#again. v frustrating few eps ajckckxkdc#ling.txt
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Nezuko centric au where Tanjiro's killed during the Mugen Train mission- Giyuu becomes her caretaker and trains her Inosuke & Zenitsu instead of letting them fumble along
#this is one of my older aus but i never did anything w it lmao#enmu wasnt killed as early as he was so when akaza showed up he didnt have enough time to kill kyojuro#tanjiro probably dies trying to kill enmu. nezuko focuses on him and didnt pay attention to the upper moon showing up. just#reliving the moment she lost almost everything- now its really all gone. nothing left but shut off memories of the good and the tainted#memories of the *worst*#giyus fucked up losing yet another person he cares about and finally stops being passive-#it hurts all the same. so why not go in head first?#he trains nezuko how to use breath of water (that she adapts with her demon blood art & afterlife tanjiro/tanjuro/yoriichi guide her)#he also trains zenitsu & inosuke since they wont leave her or tanjiro's memory behind#canon events slow down at this point because kagaya's on guard about tanjiro's loss and they arent down a pillar#kyojuro also vouches for nezuko bc he saw her first hand defending people before she got... sidetracked...#maybe something about losing tanjiro finally makes the cage around her mind snap to reality and she regains her senses a bit faster#i imagine she'd have moments where she sleeps for long periods of time & sometimes is super spacy and unaware/childlike#she doesnt go on normal slayer missions all the time like she did with tanjiro though#so she has a lot more time to physically & mentally fortify#im roping genya into this somehow hes babey and im NOT leaving him out.#inosuke drags him kicking and screaming because hes also got demon-like abilities and thats good to know about right??#giyuu keeps him because 1 more the merrier 2 he can hone his demonic abilities safely w nezkuo 3 it pisses sanemi off#genyas still mostly with gyomei because hes got the physical strength and alternate weapon style which is always good but giyuu actually#keeps in touch about genya- well. tries to as much as he can with kanzaburo mixing up his letters.#maybe matsuemon takes over as nezuko's crow instead & kinda steps in for stuff relating to nezuko- ie news abt demon boy#loserboy giyuu posting#kamado nezuko#kny au#nezukos revenge au#i mention it now bc i wanna draw the little scene i have of her and giyuu chilling in their grief
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im going to scream i just want to play like a farming or life sim where i can have my little guy be in a wheelchair. i cant find any anywhere i hate this i hate this i hate this
#video games#games#disabled#wheelchair#physically disabled#farm sim#life sim#i was looking for recs on reddit#and i stumbled onto a post about wanting pokemon to let your charachter be disabled and stuff#people in the replies were like#um well i dont know any disabled people but i dont think theyd want to be disabled in the game#and uh it would actually limit pokemon so much#like#shut up#shut up shut up shut up#you dumb fuck#anger#im so pissed#about so many things#there are so few games with disabled charachters#even fewer where you can play as one#and there are like. 3? where you can customize your charachter to be disabled#representation#disabled representation#anyway#if anyone knows any farm/life sims where your guy can be disabled#hit me up
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fuck man it's so fucking frustrating how I'd probably love to clean and organize if i were ablebodied (or even just didn't have my specific conditions but still the nd traits)
I just can't be moving my head around like crazy. walking while moving my arms, reaching my arms down and immediately up, lowering my head to the ground to reach something and then standing back up, having no momentary neck support at any time, those are the worst for me. I would do any task, honestly. I just feel so fucking trash every time I do these kinds of things. standing is excruciating, moving my arms while doing it literally affects my consciousness to the point where I lose track of what I'm doing (and not in the typical adhd way).
as long as I can stay stationary, particularly partially lounging, I am capable of rational, logical thought. I can think through long term consequences, remember the basic physics of the universe, generally function like I am not an alien to this dimension.
#i literally drop things bc i forget im holdinf them#or i think that idk it wont drop ljke im a fuxking astronaut#i slam into things bc i forget i have a physical form#literally being up and movinf around makes my brain SO dissociated and im SO dizzy and my vision is wonky and i can barely focus on staying#up right#but i can do things like go for walks#its all about how much i move my arms and get up and down#so badically i seem like im faking it🫥#i can do 'fun' things but not work#not paying attention to the faxt that i dont much like the activities im doint#i do them to stay alive and make others happy#and genuinely i am incapable of what would make me happy#WHICH IS WORK#GENUINELY#my life is miserable BECAUSE i cant clean or move around#i hate feeling like i contribute nothing to the ppl i love#i hate not being organized#and i HATE not working so so so so so much#the sad fact is that i just really cant work#i have to somehow get better#even though no one knows whats wrong w me or believes im genion3ly experiencing it#i dont have seizures apparently its normal to collapse and go into spasms w ur eyes rolled back in your head.#apparently thats normal#apparently its fine to hallucinate my whole life and have fainting spells and confusion and disorientation and feel sensations as other thin#gs#thats kusy notmal and not indicitive of ANY neurological priblem#so i should shut up and go away and get some CBT about it#i jusy dont fucking know whatcyh3 fuck i am supposed to do#what am i supposed to do to be able to work
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the world will not be truly free and equal until modes of art like manga and musicals are completely accessible and I Am Not Joking
#shut up az#on average a shounen/seinin manga will be about $150 to own the ebook series#and like yeah you can pirate but then there's other ethical issues#and thats only available if you have a phone/laptop/tablet#physical its going to be even more#manga is such an expensive hobby compared to anime#and then Broadway shows can be equally expensive to see unless you already live in New York#like its insane to me that we have entire mediums of art that you have to either be rich or commit crimes to experience#like on one hand I really respect stage actors especially those who reject hollywood for celeb culture#on the other hand how much of that rejection is because poor people can be involved#also there is literally a fucking hierarchy of anime fans where ppl who have read the manga lord it over everyone else like#do I look like I have 300 dollars.... bruh#and it sucks bc they're right those things are usually better#manga is usually better paced#and stage shows will always be more fun to me than movies#but like.......... is it better enough to be like 100x the cost
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#myevilposts#sighing so loud.#g-d i'm so pissed off. i hate misandrists soooo much i especially hate when they deny that that's what they are.#or act like they are somehow valid bc one (1) man was abusive towards them.#like honey my mom was both physically and mentally abusive to me and i don't hate women. it's very easy to not be a dick actually.#once again. what they should actually be angry about is the systemic issue of the patriarchy or their single abusive man.#not men as a whole. like it's so easy.#it's actually so easy to just hate shitty men and not men as a whole. btw.#also i can't believe people think my struggles to be included in discussions about pregnancy due to uninclusive language#(which is very very much a trans issue.) isn't real just because i'm a man.#honey. i have a womb. i can in theory get pregnant. i don't want to be misgendered and excluded from a conversation#that literally fucking applies to me and is important to my physical and mental health and well being. just because i'm a man.#i am being oppressed in this situation. that is what transandrophobia is.#like is the fact that people are calling pregnancy and abortion 'women's issues' and i'm like 'hey. those things apply to me#and i'm a trans man. please use inclusive language that doesn't misgender and/or exclude me.' and people are#like 'ugh shut up you're literally a man. you should deal with being excluded from this conversation.#that literally fucking applies to you and being misgendered by our language.' actually like progressive?#like do you think it's progressive to say that me getting misgendered and excluded from a conversation due to#cisnormativity is fine. because oh i'm a man. men aren't ever treated like shit ever.#when i am quite literally being shat on for being a man in this situation. despite it literally including me.#transphobia tw#like don't you all literally see that what you're saying is that misgendering is ok just because i'm a man?#and that my having to deal with pregnancy and abortion is invalid? just because i'm a man. and acting like that's a progressive thing#to say??? like literally stoppp. you are literally telling me. who is trans. and being oppressed bc i am trans.#that the transphobia that is specifically targeting me. bc i am trans. isn't real. bc i am a trans MAN specifically.#and like yes. i experience transandrophobia in real life. it is not just an 'online' issue bc no form of transphobia is.
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sorry for being back on my aftg shit andrew is hanging around and i have brain rot
#.txt#my brain is just going ‘yknow? i get it’ on repeat#you know i get it. being raised as a superstar#must be really really difficult for you#always a commodity never a human being#not a single person in your family thinking youre worth a damn off the court#yeah sounds rough#kevin and i talk about your intricate and endless daddy issues all the time#i know its not entirely your fault that you are mentally unbalanced#and infected with these delusions of grandeur#and I know you’re physically incapable of holding a decent conversation with anyone like every other normal human being can#but I don’t think any of us should have to put up with this much of your bullshit#pity only gets you so many concessions#and you used yours up about six insults ago#so please#please#just shut the fuck up and leave us alone#AND HE SAID ALL OF IT WITHOUT A BREAK#was going to apologize for putting the whole quote in the tags but actually look at my favorite quote boy#hes so 2013 tumblrina clap back
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i hate my mother so fuckign much </3
#like. she is losing her hearing which would be FINE if she acknowledged it#but any time me or my sister tries to raise concern abt it she yells at us#which whatever#usually we just forget abt it and speak louder#but i have been sick as all hell for the last 2½ weeks#like i had an anaphylactic shock thingy my throat closed up i had a very sore throat bc of that then my mother got me sick and ive been#coughing plus my asthma flared back up bc my body has Been Through It so More Coughing#so i physically Cannot speak loyder#louder*#and she keeps fucking yelling at me!! for 'mumbling'#to be very clear im speaking as loud as i physically can#which is pretty much the standard loudness of a speaking voice#but like!!#i am struggling!! it is painful!!!! i dont have enough air to breathe when i do that!!!!#and on top of that shes making me repeat everything at least 5 times to hear it#then she just keeps yelling at me about it????#like bitch shut the fuck up this is not even my fault#and then shes like 'you could just come closer to me' bitch i am trying to take my meds and shit and u are scrolling through facebook.#why am i the one who has to move.#i am in Pain.#but noo if i say anything about anything im like the most evil and horrible person slash daughter to ever exist#afqgshwgqhshsgwhsh i hate her so fucking much#fae.txt
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“Did you know—”
“I don’t care,” Sukuna interrupts, wholly disinterested. It’s half past three—(which is, of course, his fault, but that doesn’t mean he’s any less tired).
But you, wholly uncaring, promptly ignore him. “—That some female spiders eat the male ones after mating?”
“What do you want me to do with this information?” He looks at you irritably, glaring at you from the corner of his eyes. You flash him a grin—it’s a mischievous little thing, your lips curled in a cheeky, flirty way that warns him silently that he’s about to risk popping another vein. He seems to do that around you quite often, and it certainly feels like it’s underway once more.
(And, as it always is, his intuition would be right).
“It’s a warning,” you hum.
He snorts, raising a clearly disbelieving brow as he hums, “oh yeah? For what? Are you gonna—wha-hey!”
Not a lot catches Sukuna off guard. You giggle as he barks out a surprised yelp of your name, harshly shoving you away from his chest. There’s a nice, fresh, very crystal and very clear outline of your teeth marked right on the flesh surrounding his nipple.
He looks at you like you’ve lost your mind.
“What the fuck is wrong with you?” He asks incredulously.
You let out a soft, amused little giggle that sounds through the room before he feels your weight shift and fall onto him, making him grunt as his arms steady you and his eyes stare up at your hovering face with an agitated purse of his lips.
“I’m eating you,” you say cheekily, “see?” For emphasis, you leave an equally as shocking bite to his bicep, your head leaning down to get a mouthful of his bare arm. He lets out a low, startled grunt before one large and very firm hand grabs the back of your neck and yanks you off.
“Have you completely lost it?” He hisses.
“We just mated—”
“Who on Earth talks about sex like that? We are not animals who—”
“—And now I’m going to eat you after mating. Like a female spider.”
“If you’re going to be weird, just go the fuck to sleep,” he grumbles lowly.
Sukuna is tired.
(And yes, the reason is partly because he’s a bit inexhaustible once he’s felt the velvet heat of your walls, and yes, it’s technically his own greediness that’s worn him out so physically for the night. But that’s all been the cost for something of greater benefit to him. Something he doesn’t exactly mind draining his energy for.
Bur your odd, unsettling, abnormal and very plainly weird schemes are not a part of the list of things he’s willing to sacrifice his energy for. There isn’t much pleasure in entertaining your nonsense most of the time.
If anything, there’s pain—the stinging bite marks on his skin can attest to that.)
“I’m not tired,” you hum.
“Then let me make you tired,” he offers smugly, lips tugging into a cocky grin as he looks up at you.
“If you didn’t manage that the first time, what makes you think that’ll work the second?” You tease.
He doesn’t seem to like that very much, because with a growl, he pushes the back of your neck until your face falls into the crook of his neck, a strong, bulky arm wrapping around your waist and keeping you in place against his body.
It’d be awfully intimate, and awfully sweet if he didn’t mumble, “I love when you sleep because it’s the only few hours of the day I get to hear you shut the fuck up.”
“Maybe if you’d just appreciated my fun fact—”
“You bit my fucking nipple.”
“I could bite the other one, too, if you want,” you pipe up with an excited grin. He can feel it pressed against his skin as your face buries deeper into the space between his neck and shoulder.
Sukuna is tired. Most of the time, it’s because of you. All of the time, he chooses to allow it because he likes having you around for a good fuck.
(And, of course, there’s all that bullshit about love and affection, too. But that’s just that odd stuff you like to babble about—that odd, unsettling, abnormal and very plainly weird emotional part of you that somehow ropes him into being the same way every once in a while.
He doesn’t like it.)
“You need a lobotomy,” he mutters, wincing when you bite the skin of his neck in response. Not in a manner he likes, either—very much in a manner that makes sure he feels the sharpness of your incisors.
“Don’t be rude,” you scold, “I’m biologically meant to be your predator.”
“You biologically give me fuckin’ migraines.”
You grin—it’s a smile that’s easy. Smooth. Maybe a little giddy, too. It comes out only around Sukuna. Him and his gruff, rugged way of accepting your affection, and his double as rough and crude way of giving it back. His callused hands and toughened knuckles that brush along your cheeks carefully. His crass and undignified words that are carefully thought out enough to never cross the line. His downturned lips and narrowed eyes that only ever soften at the sharp corners around you.
“Next time, I’ll eat you for sure,” you murmur, settling against his chest and getting comfortable. He wraps both arms around you, warm and tight enough that you almost think you can forgo the blanket altogether. “Assert my dominance.”
“You can’t even open the pickle jar.”
“That’s different.”
“It’s only a matter of time until natural selection gets you,” he snickers quietly. You huff, biting back a smile as he yawns.
Gently, with a kiss over the bite mark you left against his neck, you say softly, “goodnight. Love you.”
“Night.”
“I love you.”
“For the love of—love you too, holy fuck. Go to sleep.”
#writing tag#sukuna x reader#sukuna x you#sukuna fluff#jjk x reader#jjk x you#jjk fluff#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen x you#jujutsu kaisen fluff#sukuna ryomen x reader#sukuna ryomen x you#sukuna ryomen fluff
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traumatized by involuntary psychiatric treatment. oh she's just like me fr
amy pond + involuntary / coercive treatment
( the eleventh hour / the girl who tore through the universe by nikita gill / dead of winter by james goss / the big bang / the girl who tore through the universe by nikita gill / the girl who waited / apollo 23 by justin richards / the big bang )
#i'm sorry btw i never shut up about it but#FOUR YEARS. MY BODY MY LIFE MY WHOLE WORLD WAS DESTROYED BY PSYCHIATRY#AND IT RAVAGED MY LIFE FOR FOUR YEARS UNTIL MY PARENTS STOPPED#DID THEY STOP BECAUSE MY BODY AND ORGANS HAD BEEN IRREPARABLY DAMAGED BY ANTIPSYCOTICS THAT I DIDN'T NEED???#DID THEY STOP BECAUSE I WAS GETTING RELENTLESSLY BULLIED AND LITERALLY PHYSICALLY BEATEN UP BY OTHER PATIENTS PRETTY MUCH CONSTANTLY???#DID THEY STOP BECAUSE I WAS A LITTLE KID AND I WAS SCARED AND I WANTED MY LIFE BACK AND I WANTED TO GO HOME???#NO. THEY STOPPED BECAUSE THEY REALIZED THEY'D BEEN SCAMMED OUT OF NEARLY A MILLION DOLLARS OVER THOSE FOUR YEARS#BY A DOZEN DIFFERENT PLACES THAT PROMISED THEY COULD FIX ME IF ONLY THEY COULD KEEP ME LONGER IF ONLY THEY COULD BE MORE STRICT#AND NOTHING EVER HAPPENED AND I NEVER CHANGED BECAUSE ALL I'VE EVER NEEDED IS PEOPLE TO FUCKING CARE ABOUT ME#AND THERE MAY NOT BE A LOT OF THOSE AT HOME BUT THERE SURE AS HELL AREN'T ANY IN SOME STUPID FUCKING FACILITY#THOUSANDS OF MILES AWAY FROM HOME#WHERE I'M INDEFINITELY BEHOLDEN TO THE WHIMS OF SOME TWENTY YEAR OLD PSYCHOLOGY STUDENT#WHO HAS COMPLETE CONTROL OF MY LIFE FOR THE DURATION OF THEIR SHIFT.#i was twelve years old. a child.#do you know what a supine restraint is? i had to learn. it's when a grown man sits on a little kid#and twists their arms behind their back#cause they stepped out of their room to check the TIME.#ok rant over i am so sorry#amelia pond if we could only talk together about wasted childhoods and stolen dreams#if we could only talk about the birthdays and christmases we spent in a windowless room or a house full of strangers or a stale white offic#if we could only talk about doctors in lab coats who promise they can help us and don't tell us the side effects until they're irreversible#i'd like the other doctor better too. if i was her#doctor who#vent post kinda#amy pond#antipsychiatry#fav#4 years.
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