#and also to those who don't know me yes I am a narcissist yes I know what I'm talking abt blah blah blah

[goldsbitch]

Right? p3

summary: Y/N is a photographer for McLaren F1 team. Hard working, goal oriented professional who would never put her career in jeopardy for some stupid crush, right?

That is until a photoshoot gets out of hand and there is no way to go but forward.

part 1, part 2

"Y/n!"

You slowly turned. The plan was to leave with the rest of the team, not staying behind with Lando - alone.

"I just have few ideas for the next phoshoot, if you'd like to talk about it," he said, loud enough for everyone to hear.

Professional. "Of course!" And with that, the last person left the room and closed the door.

The media meeting room was one of the few rooms without glass doors or windows. The only light present was from the projecting screen, still showing a big photo of Lando fucking Norris.

He was leaning on the table, light reflecting in his face while he was observing the picture.

"Narcissist much?" you teased and also leaned next to him. It's like his body was sending magnetic signals to yours.

"Always. " He paused for a moment. "If I recall correctly, these were all shot in the forest." You chose not to react. He gave you a questioning look. "Where is the rest?"

You should have expected this. Wishful thinking was not working in your favor. Or was it?

"I'm missing the car pictures, the ones where you stood above me and perhaps even those where you sat on me. Am I right?"

You turned and looked him straight to the eye. If tension was a fog in the room, you'd be able to see at arms-lenght only.

"I guess the battery gave out sooner than I noticed," you replied nonchalantly.

Lando stepped into the projector light. "Yes, that must be it...Or, there is a reason why you don't want to show them."

He was standing way too close. You had no defense for his charm. The damn scent again. The only thing you had on mind was burying your face in his neck and leaving your own mark on him. Would he be the one to moan? How would that sound?

"You know, I also like to take photos."

"Is that so?"

He was facing you directly. With a noticable hasitation, he put his finger on your chin, tracing the lines of your jaw. He ended up with him finger and his eyes on your lips.

"I would love to be on the other side of the lens. Take photo of you for once."

We are sorry to inform you, that all traces of professionality have left the room.

He slowly traced your lips with his finger and while remaining direct eye contact, you opened your mouth and licked it. It was slow, with a little pause and then suddenly the mouth that kissed yours, like he had once in real life and several times in your dreams. .

Almost as if he had read your mind, he proceeded to kiss your neck, softly not to leave a mark, but enough for him to find out you in fact do moan. His hand, wrapped around your hips, squeezed you as a direct response to the soft sounds coming out of your mouth.

"Lando," you whispered.

"Yes, baby?" his voice was shivering as well. This should not make you proud. You should stop now, anyone could walk in. You managed to break out of your paralysis, even if it was the last thing you wanted to do.

"Lando, stop."

He stopped kissing you promptly. Your foreheads pressed together.

"I'm sorry," he said softly. You almost laughed. The only thing he should feel sorry for was the fact his mouth was not exploring your body anymore.

With heavy heart, you pulled away. This was probably a silly game for him, one with potentially horrible consequences.

"I can't risk my job like this."

He nodded. "I understand. I guess. I mean, I think the times are changing a bit."

"Like having an affair with essentially your boss is not bad anymore?"

"I'm not your boss."

Oh maybe he should be.

"You know what I mean. For me it's not just a job."

He took a moment to think. "That's probably the hottest thing about you. The passion. I can understand that."

Your stomach spun. Lando called you hot?

"It's impossible for me to keep passing you around as if it's nothing. Been too long." You remained calm, knowing well enough you'll have many night to think about this sentence.

"Do you say this to all the female staff?" you joked, but tiny part of you had a legitimate worry. You were not going to be one of many, too proud for that.

"I'd have to quit if there were even only two like you, one is enough to handle."

This time you approached him and kissed him first. A little bit slower than you kissed before. It was quick, as you heard some steps on the hallway.

"Let's go on a date. Privately. So we can think clearly," he insisted.

"I don't think other people are the reason why I'm not thinking clearly."

"Come on, say yes."

"Yes, let's."

Lando stepped away, becoming more of his work self again. You went to turn on the lights again. "We can either go and take photos of you for this time, or you can show me the ones you hid from others."

The door opened and you were relieved it didn't happened a minute ago.

"Yes, let's do another photoshoot," you smirked at Lando.

part 4

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@i-wish-this-was-me

[thecluelessdoctor]

a review of Gravity falls from someone who had never seen it before.

Alright so I've meant to make this post for a while but then I got... sidetracked *glances at my fucking au* ANYWAY

I'm basically unbias to the show, due to the fact I have no nostalgia for it. Ill only be talking about the show it's self for the main review.

Anyway, now that that's out of the way, let's talk about Gravity Falls.

Oh yeah, and spoilers for gravity falls. Im sure most of you have seen it but- yk just in case.

I watched the show 2 times in a row. One time mostly just for me, and the other time with my little sisters. Somehow both times made me cry it's fine.

Let's get my praises out of the way first before I begin to criticize the show (yes, I do have things to say)

Number one, the actual mystery. Genuinely so fucking good. Like going in I already knew Ford existed, and I knew Bill existed, but that was it. And I thought the mystery wouldn't be a mystery to me due to this but I was WRONG. BRO WHEN STAN FUCKING PULLED UP WITH THE PORTAL I WAS F L A B B E R G A S T E D. I WAS BAFFLED. OR OR- FIDDLEFORD NOT JUST BEING A CRAZY OLD GUY BUT INFACT A ONCE GREAT SCIENCIST THAT TRIED TO DESTROY HIS MIND- it was insane.. I only had the parts, but I didn't know how they fell into place, and it was BEAUTIFUL. Hell the mystery even had my little sister theorizing.

Stan, Dipper, and Mabel's arcs. Say what you will but I think they were done perfectly. Especially Stan's. You don't even realize how he has grown as a character until the end and it's AMAZING. Dippers arc of learning how to not grow up so fast (relatable ...) and Mabel's arc of accepting that she will grow up (ALSO RELATABLE?)

The character designs. We all know, I eat up a good design. And these guys are no exception. I love how Mabel has a different sweater at least every episode, very fun. Dippers design screams nerdy kid I would bully or be friends with in 6th grade, and Stan is.. yeah I really like Stan okay. He's perfect. His design reflects his eccentric nature really well. Also Shriner fez. We need more characters with a Shriner fez. (Fun fact: I didn't know what those hats were called until watching this show.) bill is a very simple design but I love it.

Also, I love alot of the foreshadowing the show does, even if at times unintentionally. Such as with Stan and how he sadly goes out. Every representation ends up being destroyed in some way.

I also really like Ford as a character. Idk if it was intentional, but he portrays a lot of narcissists rather accurately. I live in a family of narcissist, and a lot of them act directly like Ford (especially my dad and my ex-step- grandpa) but Ford I feel like is a good representation of how a lot of people, especially narcissists, actually change. Yes, shockingly, they can. Usually being the one to pull the trigger on something they love tends to do something. Not all the time but it happens. Idk.

Also I feel like I need to talk about Mabel and Dipper more. Starting with Mabel. Mabel is fun. She reminds me of my sister, both good and bad. Though I don't understand the amount of Mabel hate there is. Like seriously she's just a 12 year old kid. I was the same way when I was 12. I was a trashy kid. Hell, I'm a trashy teen!!! And Dipper? Yeah he's dipper. Shockingly I don't have much to say about him other than the fact he reminds me way to much of the guy friends I've had since 3rd grade lmfao.

Next is the animation. The animation is pretty consistently good, I like it. Especially in some of the more dramatic scenes. All of not what he seems, a tale of two Stan's, and weirdmeddon (I can't spell) are especially well animated.

There's a lot more i wanna say, but those are the major things.

From now until when I say, it's gonna me my personal criticisms of the show. Course I am no professional, I'm literally [AGE REDACTED] minor. So yeah.

Number one: the timeline. Oh my god the timeline. As a fun thing to do on the side, I tried to sort out the timeline- IT TURNED INTO 2 HOURS OF ME SITTING THERE, PIECING THIS SHIT TOGETHER. it's not as back as some fandoms (looking at your FNaF) but STILL

The lack of Ford. I wish Ford has been introduced earlier in season two, or they had a few more filler episodes involving him as a center (similar to the episode D, D, and more D.)

The ignoring of the fact that Pacifica is borderline abused??? She's AFRAID of her parents??? She flinches at the bell??? Like what the fuck-

The lack of in show development between Bill and ford. I kinda wish it showed a bit more of their relationship in show.

Those are all my major criticisms. I don't have anything other than those that aren't more personal tastes than anything.

But ultimately, I fell in love with this show from the get go. It was the weirdest thing I'd watched in a while, and I loved it, hated it, and cried because of it. Truly on of my favorite shows I've ever watched, and I really wish I knew what it was when it was in its hay day, because truly that would have been great. However in 2012 I was only like- 3-6 so- yeah

Very much a ten outta ten show, and if you somehow haven't watched it, please do.

[dvilsdesire]

Raphael's Sexuality:

Okay, I'm finally putting this down on paper (or whatever lol), because it's been sitting in my head for months and I've just been too anxious to post it. Just remember, that this is my personal headcanon for Raphael, and no one has to agree with me <3 I love your smutty fanfics and art of juicy Raph, but this is just how I personally feel about him.

I headcanon Raphael as autosexual. Autosexuality is a sexual attraction to ones self, but it's also something a lot more than JUST that. Whilst this could potentially overlap with the ace spectrum, I don't consider him asexual, because he still experiences sexual attraction, it's just to himself. If he were asexual, then he likely would not experience sexual attraction at all (but do remember it's a spectrum and sexuality can be fluid).

This is a handy article on what Autosexuality can involve, and for me, feels right for Raphael.

I personally believe that Raphael enjoys sex, the feel of it and the idea of it--Haarlep, to me, is the proof that I go off. Even though I am absolutely under the "he couldn't deny his father's gift due to disrespect", I do believe that Mephisto gave him Haarlep for the soul purpose of him to LAY with the incubus, trust them, and allow Haarlep to infiltrate Raphael's personal life to distract him and be a spy. Raphael is a cambion, and thus still experiences mortal and human feelings to some degree (even if he attempts to quash them as much as possible). Sex and intimacy, I believe, is one of those emotions.

Autosexuality can often be misunderstood as people simply being narcissistic. Whilst for Raphael, that is absolutely part of the case, please don't assume that every autosexual is a narcissist (or that I am painting it that way). Feeling attracted to ones self is just as normal as feeling attraction for someone else (and personally, I love the idea of this being represented in media--even if it's been done with the unfortunate narcissistic flavour).

If we go off what Haarlep says in game, the multiple suggestions of Raphael looking at his portraits "almost as much as me", and how "Raphael only loves Raphael", this simply just makes sense to me, and I feel supports my headcanon. Maybe I'm just taking it too literally to heart, but it just makes sense. Either way, he's sexually active enough to be "adventurous" in wanting to know what it's like with a woman (the Archduchess). Now, I won't go on a tangent with this, but I do also hc that Raphael is far more gay coded (many of his mannerisms are very much like the old queer coded Disney villains--Scar, Jafar, etc). I know that the Archduchess exists, but I do feel like she was an option simply so the player could choose NOT to sleep with a man. That's another rabbit hole tho, so I won't go there.

There's multiple little snippets around the House of Hope that indicate Raphael is somewhat sexual in nature. Haarlep is the obvious one, then we have the little book on erotica and emotional fulfilment that can be found, Nubaldin comments about the boudoir being a place of pleasure and pain (which Haarlep obviously), and then we have the voyeur debtor who is stationed outside of the boudoir that gets to watch but never join. Nubaldin, the voyeur debtor AND the Archivist all indicate that there are pleasures within Raphael's room. Then there is Korrilla within Sharess' Caress where the lady behind the bar comments on Raphael's sex life--to which Korrilla sort of just "you don't wanna know" brushes it off. She clearly is aware of what goes on within his sex life, at least to some extent (likely a "yes... he's got a person incubus that LOOKS like him").

The restoration fountain, even though placed conveniently for the party during the HoH questline, is also an indication that some rough housing goes on within Raphael's room. I think I once saw someone say that the boudoir wasn't actually Raphael's bedroom, but in game, if you hover over the bed within the boudoir... it literally is called "Raphael's bed". I'm pretty convinced that this is legitimately Raphael's bedroom (it not only contains his bed and Haarlep, but his personal safe).

Now, I also consider Haarlep to be the MAIN person within the bedroom, despite Raphael's need for sleep being a cambion. I believe Haarlep is used as a means of punishment and pleasure for guests. Nubaldin and the Archivist pretty much offer Tav to go inside and get their prize (Haarlep). I imagine Haarlep sees many clients of Raphael's who want a taste of pleasure. I also consider Raphael to greatly prefer watching Haarlep sleep with others in his form. This is a sort of outer body experience for Raphael, who gets to watch himself sleep with others because he personally doesn't WANT to. I feel like Raphael is very much "no one is worthy of touching me", and Haarlep is far more skilled in the bedroom anyway (though he'd never admit that). So to watch, he gains great pleasure. It's like a fantasy come true, and would likely include masturbation. Much like mirror sex, which I'm 100% behind when it comes to Raphael as well.

Which brings me to the inevitable of Raphael's bed performance. While I don't think Raphael is EXCEPTIONAL in bed, I also don't think we can take what Haarlep says to heart too much. As an incubus, Haarlep would be ten thousand times more experienced than Raphael is in the bedroom. Not lasting long? Perhaps that's because Raphael feels everything tenfold whilst with Haarlep in his glamour. Imagine that kind of pleasure and how intense it would be, not to mention Raphael's sexual attraction to himself (also Tav didn't last long either, it's a brief little conversation between the two of you in bed as Haarlep takes the player's character). I honestly don't think ANYONE lasts long with Haarlep, because Haarlep is an incubus, and likely no one can please them outside of getting a soul to eat or a glamour, or if they bedded another of their kind with similar skills.

But let's take a moment to consider Raphael and Haarlep bedding one another and how heartless it might feel for LepLep. As a creature of intimacy, I imagine Haarlep is a lot more 'compassionate' (or as compassionate as a fiend can be). Raphael, I feel, is a lot LESS compassionate. Not because he refuses to be, but simply because Raphael likely doesn't KNOW HOW to be intimate. As the son of Mephistopheles, and clearly one with a strained relationship with his father, and no mother (since all mothers die at birth), he likely has no real understanding of something like intimacy when it comes to the bedroom. Perhaps he is merely detached from such "mortal" emotions and refused to acknowledge them, or maybe he just doesn't really care.

The erotic book in the boudoir, I feel like this could be a bit of a tell that Raphael is TRYING to learn? Attempting to understand and be better at intimacy and sex, because no doubt Haarlep harasses him and teases him about it. Which likely would make him feel inadequate (and how DARE anyone make him feel that way! He is Raphael!). Raphael has a super high opinion of himself and a superiority complex to boot, but that is falling down the path of narcissism which is so painfully obvious within his character (and I'm not going to delve into here lol). Narcissism often stems from a place of negligence and "if no one loves me then I will love myself wholly even if I have deep rooted insecurities". He would REFUSE to allow others to ever see him as vulnerable. Unfortunately for him... Haarlep is an exceptionally perceptive creature that Raphael can't seem to refuse.

Moving on.

Aftercare? Probably not. I feel Raphael would be done with his own orgasm and want to move on. He doesn't really care to please poor LepLep (so no wonder Haarlep insults him, especially being a creature of lust and pleasure--how unsatisfying!). This can, again, come down to the fact that Raphael is autosexual in the sense that it's more of a chore to please someone OTHER than himself. And while it's also probably an entirely selfish thing on Raphael's side (because he IS a self loving and self serving narcissist), this is also something that those on the autosexual spectrum can feel is a tedious part of sex.

It's not that those who are autosexual are inherently selfish (they aren't!), it's just that the attraction and need to please someone isn't always there, and Raphael would rather focus on his own pleasure than his bed partner's. He doesn't gain much satisfaction when it comes to the work and effort that is required to please someone other than himself.

Sex with someone else can feel like a chore. I tend to see Raphael more interested in his own sexual pleasure than anyone else's. But things I feel Raphael enjoys when it does come to sex, is masturbation. Often those that are autosexual are far more inclined to masturbate and enjoy their own body, along with fantasies that involve only themselves. Bringing someone else into that fantasy can outright feel uncomfortable and lose its pleasure. Raphael has Haarlep who LOOKS like him, but let's be honest... they aren't the same person. Haarlep can look like Raphael, but he's still someone else--a mischievous little shit too lol. It's no wonder Raphael still looks at the portraits and likely the statues all over the HoH (less backchat and less effort).

So, do I consider Raphael a pillow princess? Yes. To a degree. I do consider Raphael to be a bottom (especially since Haarlep pretty much states that Raphael has never topped them). I think this also comes back down to it being EFFORT in the bedroom. Raphael can be considered a "lazy lover" because, once more, he's not interested in doing the hard work. It's not about THEM. It's about HIM. He's interested in his end goal. His pleasure.

Does that mean he's incapable of putting the hard work in? Absolutely not. He can if he really wanted to, but I just feel like he doesn't, because... again... effort, end goal, not interested in pleasuring someone other than himself, etc. Him and Haarlep no doubt get up to some interesting rounds in the bed (re: restoration fountain), but I feel like most of the time, Raphael likely allows Haarlep to pamper him and do all of the work, because there's not that ultimate connection of sexual attraction that would MAKE Raphael want to be more of a lover (Haarlep could also be seen as a glorified sex toy and nothing more depending on how you view their relationship).

Sexuality is something that can be exceptionally fluid, though. Some on the autosexual spectrum still find attraction in others, it's just rare and they prefer themselves. That's not to say that those who are autosexual can't fall in love either. They absolutely can (tho that's a whole different topic when it comes to Raphael). Love and sexual attraction don't always go hand in hand.

I've sat on this headcanon for a while because I've been worried I'd step on toes, but please remember that this is just MY personal view of Raphael's sexuality, and I think it's really neat that we have a canon character who could potentially identify as autosexual when it's not something we often get (even if the narcissistic tones are still there).

Anyway, that's just my thoughts. :) The way I see Raphael is autosexual, and it brings me joy. <3 But I also love seeing all of your lovely smutty fics/art of Raph because let's be honest, any Raph is a good Raph! <3

[livingbrother]

LO and it's portrayal of S/A

A rant by someone who just finished EP. 98 and is incredibly furious

Cw: Mentions of S/A, it's effects, too much swearing, ED mention, personal stuff that happened to yours truly, lots of other stuff too, just no idea what to tag it as

Don't read this if you're not mentally doing well, I don't want you getting hurt because of my post, I love you, feel better soon

Boy. Oh fucking boy. I just got through episode 98 of this shit show and, I'll just say, I am beyond furious. Livid, in fact.

For context, I am a survivor or sexual abuse and mental abuse, I have dealt with those who act sort of like Apollo, I was never raped, but I was molested as a child. I, as a survivor, feel nothing but rage at how Rachel portrayed Apollo being a rapist. The way he acts is incredibly unrealistic for an abuser, as somebody who dealt with two abusers with Narcissistic Personality Disorder (I'm not saying everyone who has NPD are villains, I'm just saying what I went through), I see what Rachel was trying, but oh so tragically failed, to do. He tried to control, manipulate, and gaslight Persephone. Only for none of it to work, that's not how ANY of it fucking works!

Where is the fucking control, other than just fucking raping her? I get he wants to take the power away from her and be the one to control her, but I've seen none of that! I get she has PTSD over it (I'LL GET TO THIS POINT AGAIN). I NEVER GOT THE SENSE THAT SHE WAS POWERLESS EXCEPT FOR THAT ONE SCENE. I HAVE NEVER SEEN HER QUESTION IF THAT WAS HIS INFLUENCE PICKING HER DRESSES, OR FUCKING EVEN HER FOOD! WHEN I WAS LIVING WITH ONE OF MY ABUSERS, SHE'D PICK OUT MY OUTFITS, ONE'S I HATED, AND I STILL CHOOSE SOME OF THOSE OUTFITS, TO THIS DAY! WHERE WAS HER LOSS OF CONTROL? SHE NEVER FELT ISOLATED, SHE NEVER FELT LIKE SHE WAS TRAPPED. YES. SHE WAS TRAPPED IN THAT ONE ROOM WITH HIM, BUT EVEN THEN! SHE HAD LEVERAGE OVER HIM WITH THE FUCKING LYRE. Ugh.

About her realizing she was raped, um. Excuse me? A lot of victims don't realize they were raped or abused until like, months or years later. I'm glad for the ones who instantly realized it, good for them. Given Persephone's personality and experience with the world, she wouldn't have known it was rape because she's not accustomed to dating and sexual culture. On top of that, she isn't really seen actually distressed when she remembers, oh, and lets not forget that she WAS FUCKING FINE WITH TOUCH AND PHYSICAL FLIRTING DAYS AFTER HER ASSAULT. Let me remind you that I have been through this thing myself, you do not just omg I was just assaulted! time to go let someone touch me! Nonono, you spend years jumping when people touch you, years of moving when someone tries to grab your shoulder, years of pushing someone's hand off your arm, years screaming when you get a hug. And then, maybe from flashbacks, maybe from googling things, you discover you were molested! And then it alllllll makes sense. I understand if she became hypersexual, cause same, but that usually doesn't set in until a good long while.

I also hate how Apollo is written, he should have stayed as a shitty ex boyfriend or whatever the fuck Rachel was gonna make him, he just comes across as a cartoonish villain than an abuser. The man just fucking rubs his hands together and fucking goes I'll get you next time my pretty! I fucking HATE his writing so goddamn much. I understand wanting to make him pushy, egotistical, and insecure, they're some of the hallmarks of the pushy nice guy she was going for. But when it comes to him being abusive, it's like watching a bad joke. Rapists don't usually, you know, CATCH FEELINGS FOR THEIR VICTIM (correct me if I'm wrong), unless it's to lure them back in to hurt them again. She made him so obviously evil it hurts, abusers don't usually act that way, they put on a pretty smile, act kind, and behind closed doors, act shitty. I respect 97-98 for getting that part right, but too many times, too many fucking times Rachel has gotten that wrong. I have dealt with this myself, my mother did this exact thing, she even put on the pretty smile for me so even I, somebody who knew he was being tormented, questioned whether or not I was being abused! We never see this with Persephone! We never see her getting gaslit with this, she never questions her reality! She knows everything that's going on for sure! I know what Rachel was aiming for, and she failed miserably!

God, on top of this, we never really get to see Persephone's PTSD unless the story fuckin says Apollo's here! She's never really fucking affected by her rape, we don't see her jump from touches, refuse sexual advanced from Hades, yeah, sure, we see her afraid of camera flashes, but that's about it!!!!!!!! She never really experiences the effects of s/a! I developed an ED and agoraphobia from my abuse! Where the fuck is that?! That would have been a lot more fucking interesting than the slop we fucking got!

I know I've missed some things, but I need to calm down before I pop a blood vessel. I might revisit this post when I'm less angry, I just needed to rant.

[the-desilittle-bird]

Author's Note- I don't know where it came from. Also a bit slow phased and a bit lengthy. But I hope you all like it. Also, my first time writing for T'Challa. Also for those who are not aware, I also write on requests so you can send me requests for anything.

Thank you and Enjoy your reading!

Something New

T'Challa Udaku x Stark!Reader

Summary- Things go better than (Y/N) expected when she meets the royals of Wakanda...

Warnings- Obscene words 😅 nothing else

GIF Credits to @nicolyyyyy

The stress levels were peaking for the Avengers in the recent times. With an inner fallout and an external takeover of their authority was making every single one anxious.

(Y/N) Stark, the adopted daughter of Howard and Maria Stark and sister of Tony Stark, was allotted the work of being the diplomat on the Avengers' behalf and receive the King of Wakanda and his group.

Perhaps it was because of the accident in Lagos, Nigeria where Wanda had unintentionally killed their citizens, that she was chosen to do the job, instead of the UN workers. (Y/N) knew how it felt to lose control of their powers. The helplessness and the anxiety were the worst. And having similar powers like Wanda, she could clearly understand the girl.

As she stood in the airport, waiting for the royalty to show up, she reflected on her life in the last few months. For her, personally, it had been difficult after Ultron.

She was in a serious relationship with Steve Rogers, much to Tony's dismay. But the keyword was: was. After she found out about his "closeness" with Sharon Carter, (Y/N) just couldn't continue. For Steve, it was always Peggy or Sharon, never her.

Their strained relationship's thread finally broke when the Sokovia Accords came, dividing the entire team into two. While (Y/N) had decided that it was for the best to sign them, Steve had disagreed.

"They are here, Ms. Stark," one of her assigned assistants said meekly, making her look up to find a group of well dressed people walking towards them. A silent power and authority mixed with comfort and gentleness surrounding them.

A dangerous aura, (Y/N) had come to notice in her times and experiences as both, a SHIELD agent and an Avenger.

She greeted them with a bow of her head, "King T'Chaka." The older man smiled, a polite and a genuine smile unlike the fabricated one most people wear. "Our deepest condolences for what happened in Lagos. Our teammate is new and not proficient yet. She never intended to do so," (Y/N) spoke as she had practiced.

The King of Wakanda only smiled, nodding his head politely. "What happened is behind us, Ms. Stark. But the future lies ahead of us," T'Chaka said with a wisdom very few possessed. "Indeed, Your Majesty."

Perhaps her work won't be so hard, especially since the King was humble, unlike most of the men in power she has ever handled.

"I am sure this must feel like you are back in your days in business," T'Chaka said, making (Y/N) nod. "Yes," she replied, feeling the nostalgia surround her. Though (Y/N) of the present times hated how she behaved when she was younger. She was extremely arrogant and a narcissist woman who cared only for the dollars paid to her family business after a deal.

"Meet my son, T'Challa, Ms. Stark. He is the future of Wakanda, just as you and your brother are of Stark Industries," T'Chaka said proudly, placing a hand on his son's shoulder. (Y/N) glanced to the man beside the king, feeling her heart skip a beat as she noticed the handsome prince by the King's side.

"Your Majesty," she greeted, respectfully, as she was taught in the mannerism classes she had to take before this day. "Ms. Stark, it is a pleasure to meet you at last," T'Challa said, extending his hand. (Y/N) placed her significantly smaller hand in his, shaking it politely.

"Please, we can continue the formalities in our way," (Y/N) said, gesturing to the cars lined up for the party. (Y/N) eyed the women lined behind the king and his son, feeling a tad bit intimidated by the way they seem to access her.

T'Chaka noticed the way (Y/N) was looking at the Dora Milaje, chuckling, he spoke, "They are the Dora Milaje. An all women's elite group of warriors, bodyguards to the crown." (Y/N) nodded understandingly, smiling a bit.

"Must be interesting," she commented, making T'Chaka laugh. "I have heard that you yourself are proficient in combats," he said, as they walked towards the black cars. "Not much, Your Majesty. Only much to fit in as a SHIELD agent," (Y/N) said, feeling shy out of a sudden as she felt a pair of eyes on her back.

At last, with a bit of small argument, three Dora Milaje warriors, whose name (Y/N) was yet to know, settled in the first car; while (Y/N), her trusted driver, the King and T'Challa sat in the second Range Rover. The rest settled into the third car.

The atmosphere in the car remained between awkward and comfortable. (Y/N) was constantly keeping an eye on the outside world, watching for any security breach in the plan.

Suddenly, her phone vibrated in her coat, making her sigh, knowing way too well who it was. Accepting the call, she placed one earbud in her ear, keeping her voice below whisper, "What do you need?"

"Cool up, dear sister," she heard her brother's voice from the Bluetooth device, making her scoff rather loudly. She watched as all the pair of eyes in the car was on her. "Hang up, if you have no work, Tony," she hissed under her breath.

Tony was having the moment of his life as (Y/N) was getting frustrated rather too quickly. "Why are you getting riled up so quickly, sister. Is your company too hot?" (Y/N) could hear the smirk in his voice. "Shut up, Tony freaking Stark," she hissed.

Tony left out a heartfelt laugh, making (Y/N) even more irritated. "Oh come on, (Y/N). You can tell me," he said. "Shut the fucking up and hang up!" She exclaimed loudly.

(Y/N)'s eyes widened as she met the driver's eyes, suddenly feeling embarrassed as she felt T'Chaka and T'Challa's eyes on her. "Get lost, you bastard," (Y/N) hissed, hanging up before letting her head fall in defeat. "I am extremely sorry for my obscene words, Your Majesties," she apologized, biting down on her lip.

T'Chaka laughed while T'Challa's serious mask of expression changed into a beautiful smile. "These are normal in siblings, Ms. Stark. I hear them all the time from my youngest," T'Chaka assured, making (Y/N) smile.

Her advanced phone vibrated again, making her groan. Accepting the call without glancing at the caller ID, she threatened, "If you called me again, I am going to cut your precious jewel off you." "Someone sounds angry," Rhodey said sarcastically, ending with a chuckle.

"Rhodes? I am sorry," (Y/N) sighed, rubbing her face. "I am informed to tell you to take T'Chaka and T'Challa to the UN Headquarters directly," Rhodey said. "Directly? The meeting is supposed to be tomorrow, right?"

"Yes, but I guess, they have some work and tonight, there's a formal party. Inform them and find yourself a presentable dress," Rhodey hung up, making her sigh. "Is anything the issue?" T'Challa asked.

"I am supposed to escort you to the UN Headquarters and there is a formal party tonight," (Y/N) said, also letting the drivers of the other two cars know of the change in the plan.

Even before (Y/N) could process, it was already the time for the formal UN party. The entire day had been a whirlwind for her; tackling both the royals of Wakanda and her always bickering brother was a tough work.

She stood in front of the full mirror in her penthouse, looking at her reflection. The purple dress with plunging neckline with thin straps fitted her in the perfect places, bringing out the best in her. The dress was accompanied by her hair pulled back in a sleek ponytail; and a light makeup with no jewelry except the pearl earrings which once belonged to her mother.

"Are you ready?" Tony yelled from the living room, making (Y/N) smile as she grabbed her purse and walked out of her room. "Yes, Tones," she smiled as Tony looked her up and down. A smirk broke on his face, "So, the royalty is actually hot." (Y/N) rolled her eyes, walking to the entrance. "Shut up and let's go."

After a short drive of not more than 15 minutes, the Stark siblings were entering the hotel which held the party. The room was beautifully decorated in a subtle and formal way. The room buzzed of conversations and laughter.

While Tony left (Y/N) to go and speak to someone, it was T'Challa who approached her. "A beautiful lady such as yourself shouldn't be standing here, alone," he said, making her turn around with a smile. "My brother just went off to speak to some... I don't know," she replied with a nervous chuckle.

A silence fell between them as they side-glanced each other from time to time. To them, it felt like playing a game of hide and seek; trying to hide something (Y/N) was trying not to name.

The orchestral music filled the room as (Y/N) watched a few representatives join the dance floor. She wished that the man beside her ask her for a dance as well, but the chances to that were a few.

"Perhaps, a dance?" T'Challa asked, extending his hand and bowing a bit, smiling at the younger Stark. "I am not a good dancer, Your Majesty," (Y/N) said shyly as she placed her hand in his.

"Just follow the lead, Ms. Stark," he whispered into her ear as he led her to the dance floor. (Y/N)'s breath hitched as she bit into her lip. "(Y/N) would suffice, Your Majesty," she said, following his lead and let him move her as he wished. "T'Challa it is, (Y/N)."

(Y/N) felt like she would burn in the fire of his touch and words. Something strong bubbling in her chest for him, stronger feelings than she had for Steve or any of her previous ones.

Perhaps, it was something new. Something permanent.

[andreal831]

Just read your recent post about Katherine and I have a genuine question: Why is it that whenever you’re talking about the bad actions of a character you like (Elijah, Hayley, Rebekah, etc) you brush it off as “just bad writing” yet whenever it’s the actions of a character you dislike (Katherine, Klaus, Damon, etc) you jump straight to “They’re horrible and irredeemable!” Why not just accept that none of the characters in the TVDU are good people no matter if they’re presented as being more moral?

I've said it numerous times, all of the characters in TVDU are bad. They have all done bad things, even the most virtuous seeming characters. That being said, I've also said that we can still discuss morality in the show. I get some people just want to enjoy their favs and not have these discussions, but that's not how I prefer to enjoy my shows. I like to have these deeper discussions where we analyze more than just "they are all bad."

Even the most monstrous people can still have standards and lines they won't cross. A line that I will not accept for characters is rape/SA. Again, I'm not saying that everyone has to have the same standard, but that's my standard. It's why I can differentiate characters like Damon and Katherine from the rest of the characters.

To your point, I have brushed off some behaviors in the past as bad writing because it directly contradicts already established characterizations/lore. Now, I did mention that there is some bad writing in relation to Katherine, however, one of the very first things we learn about her is that she raped Stefan. We learn this about her before we even meet her in real time. We also never learn anything later that directly contradicts these actions. In fact, most of what we learn reinforces it.

Katherine is a selfish, narcissistic character who craves power. Yes, we can look at her past and understand why she became that way and we can blame the Mikaelsons, but at the end of the day it is an explanation for her character, not an excuse. We also never see her feel guilt or even acknowledge the harm she did to Stefan, rather she attempts to gaslight him. Same for Damon, he even becomes somewhat friends/family with Caroline, yet he never acknowledges or apologizes for what he did. We also see a pattern of both Damon and Katherine reveling in their power over mortals or even their loved ones. Katherine has a million chances to make it right and never does.

Sure we can chalk it all up to bad writing because the writers were so problematic in their view of SA/rape. But we can even compare it to Tyler. Tyler in the pilot episode SAs Vicki. This is one of the first things we learn about him as well. The difference is, we see character growth. I don't think he ever gets the chance to apologize to Vicki, but we him grow as a character to the point that I couldn't imagine him behaving that way again. Again, I just don't see that same growth in Katherine and Damon. I could still see them doing that all the way into the last episode.

In my post, I did set aside the SA and focused on her character as a whole and still don't particularly enjoy her. Much like Damon, she has some iconic lines and comedic relief, but both characters lacked depth to me. I know a lot of people like to create headcannons for them and flesh them out, and that's great, I just don't for those characters. To me, there were just so many other characters I connected with more so I didn't need to try and excuse their actions away. Again, I am saying this from my perspective.

I do tend to discuss the Mikaelsons/TO more and talk about the bad writing there a lot. But I've also talked about bad writing when it comes to Klaus. TVDU is full of inconsistencies and bad writing. The writers are problematic and I think that is important to take into consideration when consuming media. However, I've never claimed it changes canon and I will never tell someone they have to have my headcanons. I analyze the show in a way that makes sense for me, like we all do. It's important to acknowledge we all consume media through a biased lens. I've never claimed to be above this, but I do try to keep my analysis based on the facts and my understanding.

Thanks for the ask and keeping it respectful!

[ask--eggman]

Doctor, the others are correct, the closet is glass. But they are also blind, for you are not the boy kisser, but the boy kissed! You're also a girl kissed! That's right, I'm alleging that you are gay or even bisexual, but that you are a narcissistic autosexual. For those who don't know, being autosexual means you are attracted to oneself. I think that you're only attracted to the affection people give you, and that you swing either way just for the positive attention.

Ugh! Believe what you want. Like I said, I don't do labels, so you won't be hearing any announcements from me. But yes, it's no secret that I'm as attracted to myself just as much as you all are too, obviously. It's a given! It'd be concerning if I didn't recognise how brilliant, and smart, and incredibly handsome I am~ You're not the first that has suggested to label of "autosexual" but I don't know why that needs specific term!

As for the rest of what you said... Huh, I don't know. I love all the attention I can get but it kind of does depend on the form in recieving it. Because that's not to say I want just anyone and everyone all up in my personal space, kissing and touching me like that. I have tastes and standards! And nobody is deserving of it really, so it's rare that I'll let anyone at all have the honor in that form! And whether that does happen to be with err... men... or women is nobody's business.

[marimayscarlett]

Honestly, I think that Rzk's haters forget that there's so much more to each and every person that not even the closest to them can fully see/reach. As someone with a set of narcissistic parents, I feel for him deeply, regarding his childhood. I think that Richard is a perfectionist, and he needs maybe more reassurance than others. Which would be easy to understand, at least in my opinion. The thing that strikes me the most, is the care he seems to have for his kids. Not the superficial kind. I've got admiration for how he's managed to survive and navigate his life, without losing his drive and affection towards others. Thank you, love you, may LOTR keep us sane in those trying times 💌💕-elf anon

Hi elf anon 👋🏻

Experience, environment, family and character shape a person, and early life experiences can be particularly important. I don't want to take the liberty of analysing Richard in any way, yet enough is known about his background to form a tentative picture. While, by his own admission, the first 12 years of his life were probably quite happy, his youth was probably quite gruelling.

And before the not-so-enthusiastic-about-Richard-people are trying to cry about this in my inbox again and denouncing Richard (because I know some of them love doing this 😊), I have already answered two asks about this certain topic. You can find it here.

It may well be that Richard needs recognition/appreciation/proof of affection (maybe also through heartfelt hugs) from time to time to be sure of himself, but I think his self-confidence has also stabilised to a healthy degree with age - but maybe not fully. He also really seems to be quite perfectionistic, working for hours on end to get something right/how he imagine it.

I also notice his attention to his children (although I think all the members of Ramstein, at least from what we see, are very caring parents). According to his own statements, as well as his daughter Khira Li's, he can certainly be a strict father who shows his children limits, but with good intentions (as to give them a sense of discipline and support them to reach their goals). I am also sure that he wants to give his children as much love and stability in life as he can give (which sure wasn't easy for him while he lived abroad) - and maybe more that he himself experienced.

I don't think Richard needs to be defended by us as fans, and he, like all people, is certainly not perfect. And yet, or precisely because of this, you should always take into account the life experiences of a person that make them who they are. And yes, he had a lot to navigate and survive in his life.

So overall: judging never helps. Basically, it just shows that the person passing judgement often has no understanding for people or is suffering themselves.

[superluigiglitchy]

8!Desti talking about Avatar!Meggy: I'm proud to identify as morosexual. I'm attracted to dumbasses and dumbasses exclusively. A girl asked me what the Spanish word for tortilla was once and now I dream of kissing her under the moonlight

Avatar!Meggy: what kind of animal is the pink panther

8!Desti, already taking off her clothes: Meggy you're so fucking stupid

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Acht/DJ Dedf1sh: seriously, what do ya see in that woman?

8!Desti: she makes me laugh

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Mario: Meggy, I am nothing if not a man of principle.

Mario: Now let’s break into this apartment.

-

*Michigan and Tari are on an adventure and a plan to take back and artifact that was taken from the duo went horribly wrong and now they're running*

Tari: Why would you think any of this was a good idea?!?

Michigan: Probably because I'm a dangerous narcissist with a long history of violence.

Tari:

Tari: oh-

Michigan: I don't understand why you keep forgetting that.

-

(nintendo!mario/og!mario is the canon mario with in the franchise and who smg4!mario was before being dumbed down by the gaurdian pod, just to clear smth up)

Nintendo!Mario: Damn, the power went out.

Avatar!Meggy: Don’t worry, I got this.

Avatar!Meggy: *cracks neck despite not having bones*

Nintendo!Mario: What-?

Avatar!Meggy: *starts to glow like those luminescent squids* I drank glowstick juice :3

Nintendo!Mario: *on the verge of tears* WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT-

-

Triple Dose!Meggy: I hate when people ask me, 'What did you do today?' Buddy listen, I woke up at noon and then it was five p.m., okay? I don't KNOW!

-

Michigan: Do I sound smart, or am I smart?

Saiko: You sound unbearable, to be perfectly honest.

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Triple Dose!Meggy: There are some things beyond our understanding. We must accept them and learn from them. Because these moments of crisis are also potential moments of faith. A time, when we either come together or fall apart. Nature always has a way of balancing itself. The only question is, what part will we play?

Paige: *concerned* Did you just make that up?

Triple Dose!Meggy: No. I read it in a fortune cookie once.

Paige:

Triple Dose!Meggy: A really long fortune cookie.

-

Michigan: Sometimes I like to call people by the wrong name to show them I don’t care about them.

Bob: That’s brilliant.

Michigan: Thank you, Jeff.

-

Michigan: You’re alive.

Bob: No need to sound so disappointed.

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Avatar!Meggy: Thanks for opening my message and not responding.

OG!Mario: *smug as hell* All good bro, any time.

Avatar!Meggy: Fuck you

-

8!Desti: As top in this relationship, I think we should-

Avatar!Meggy: I can't believe you're pulling rank on me.

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Avatar!Meggy: Bro-

8!Desti: No, no, hold up, rewind.

8!Desti: My tongue was down in your throat just a second ago and now you're calling me bro??

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Avatar!Meggy: We have a problem.

8!Desti: No, YOU have a problem. I have an idiot who keeps making them.

-

Avatar!Meggy: *Laughs* Babe, you had a crush on me? That’s embarrassing—

8!Desti: We’re married.

Avatar!Meggy: Still

-

8!Desti: Know why I called you in here?

Avatar!Meggy: Because I accidentally sent you a dick pic.

8!Desti: *Stops pouring two glasses of wine.* Accidentally?

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Avatar!Meggy: Cause your pretty and your smart, and your ignoring me so your obviously my type.

8!Desti, who was distracted: I'm sorry- what were you saying?

Avatar!Meggy: Perfect.

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Avatar!Meggy: I think I just figured something out. I got to go.

8!Desti: Aren't you forgetting something?

Avatar!Meggy: Uuh...*hesitantly kisses Desti's forehead before running out.*

8!Desti: No, pay your bill! Damn, who raised you?

-

Avatar!Meggy, an hkur after she and Desti got together: Wait, what's going on? Are we all talking about how hot Desti is? Because Desti is a straight up sexual fox riding a red-hot nuclear bombshell right toward the yowza plaza in the heart of Babe City, Assachusetts, U S A. The last A just stands for more ass.

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Avatar!Meggy: That's ridiculous, Desti doesn't have a crush on me.

Og!Mario: Yes they do.

Og!Luigi: Yes they do.

8!Desti: Yes I do.

-

8!Desti: Look, last night was a mistake.

Avatar!Meggy: A sexy mistake.

8!Desti: No, just a regular mistake.

-

8!Desti: Meggy, you do remember when we agreed we were better off as friends, right?

Avatar!Meggy, naked in 8!Desti's bed: No, I absolutely do not.

8!Desti, already taking off their clothes: Fuck... Me neither.

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Avatar!Meggy: Hey, wanna take a shower with me?

8!Desti: I have a gun in that nightstand beside the bed. If I ever say no to that question, I want you to take it out and shot me because I’ve obviously gone crazy.

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Avatar!Meggy: Crushes are the worst. Whenever I’m near mine, I start acting stupid.

8!Desti: You always act stupid.

8!Desti:

8!Desti: Wait...

[aspd-thoughts]

Hey so I know this might be a little random but I have some thoughts. I have aspd btw just so you know

Basically I never really thought about the whole narcissistic abuse thing before my friend with aspd accused a parent of it. Which I found a little odd, because it was definitely abuse but I think it might have been generational trauma

Anyways to clarify I don't believe in the whole npd abuse thing

But when I broke up with my ex (a trans woman) people said it seemed a lot like narcissistic abuse, and I thought "no? She's just an insecure idiot with anger issues over her greatly lacking social skills and she takes it out on people especially those close to her", but everyone just boiled it down to npd abuse, and I don't like that, because blaming your actions on your "brain going wrong" is an excuse for you not to be blamed for your actions, I am absolutely capable of being an asshole who doesn't care about anyone other than what I can use them for. And yes I have cruel thoughts, but I don't act that way, because it is not logical for me to be cruel to anyone. I won't claim to be a good person inside my head, but damn if I'm ever showing that. I don't abuse people, because that is not something I want to experience more of so therefore I should not do it to anyone either.

But she tried to blame everyone else for her problems and she was emotionally and physically abusive, and she clung to me because I showed her interest and kindness, and I could take the mild abuse she dished out in the start.

Anyway that was a rant, but it really made me realise how much I hate that npd abuse thing, you can't put one person's idiocy on something people actually struggle with just because it's easier and you don't want to deal with the fact that not everyone with the same diagnosis is the same.

Also fun fact, i remember the post about Autistic people being able to sniff out aspd, and I agree with you that it's bullshit because my brother is autistic and I'm his person because I've always protected him with everything I have. Also people really can't sniff you out if you mask, they are completely shit at it

My apologies for the long ask, have a nice day

this was a very interesting read. (positive) Thanks for sending it in, I feel like you did a good job boiling down a lot of stuff.

[theravenflies]

My Takes

Consider these

People with personality disorders are not inherently abusive. Yeah, even people with NPD and ASPD (why do I have to say that?) There is no such thing a narcissistic abuse. People with ASPD are not serial killers. They are people, stop putting them down for no reason. People with personality disorders are welcome here. All of them.

Armchair diagnosing is bad. I don't care how shit someone is, if you call them a narcissist, a psychopath, a sociopath, a compulsive/pathological liar, or literally any other disorder that they haven't been professionally diagnosed with, you're a dick. You can't know what's going on in their head. You are not their doctor and are not qualified to diagnose them. And it's just a dick move to diagnose Casey Anthony as someone with a heavily-stigmatized symptom THAT I ALSO HAVE HAD

Stop. Tagging. Your. Writing. With. Disability. Tags. The PTSD tag is nearly unusable because everyone tags their fics as PTSD. Stop it. That space is not for you. It's for us.

People with intellectual, developmental, cognitive, whatever disability deserve to be heard.

As do semispeaking and nonspeaking autistics.

Yes, we do need to listen to caretakers, they're how some people communicate. No one is invalid because they're a caretaker, they're invalid when they're an ableist caretaker.

If the autism "cure" were to exist right now, it would mean eugenics. I don't give a shit if you want it, it would mean eugenics. Society is way too anti-autism for us to trust non-autistics with a cure. I won't get into my rant about the concept of a cure unless asked, it doesn't matter. What does matter is that if that cure is created, it will be forced on people, even those who vehemently oppose it, so it can't exist yet without putting people in danger.

Autism Speaks is shit. So is National Autistic Society. So is the Autism Society. ASAN is on thin fucking ice.

Stop tagging political posts with NPD, ASPD, compulsive liar, or no empathy. You're being ableist and armchair diagnosing. And putting that shit on our feeds.

ABA is bad. Yes, always. All of it. I lost a friend to ABA and I will not budge on this. All pro-ABA people will be blocked, I do not give a shit.

I do not care about syscourse. I am not a system and am not qualified to have an opinion on it.

If you point out typos, grammar mistakes, or whatever when the other person hasn't explicitly said it's okay, stop. You're being ableist.

Stop using TBI as an insult. Yes, I was dropped on my head (okay, I fell, but still,) as a baby. Fuck you too.

This is a safe place for systems and I'm firmly anti-Split.

Autistic and intellectually disabled people are allowed to transition, be queer, get tattoos, drink, have sex, whatever, should they so want.

Mental age is bullshit. He doesn't have the mind of a two-year-old, he has the mind of an adult with IDD.

The posts of disabled people are not an excuse for you to trauma-dump. I don't care what your ex did, that person with NPD wasn't talking about them and it's a dick move to bring that up on their unrelated post.

People should not have to work to live. No one. Ever. Period.

Healthcare should be free

Caretakers need to stop killing their disabled charges

Autism Mommies (TM) are shitty people.

Don't even get me started on Fathering Autism (bitch, you aren't fathering autism, you're fathering ABBY)

Disabled people deserve dignity and privacy. All of them. Yes, even those ones. We're still people. You don't need to know how we go to the toilet.

Fiction does not determine morality and sending people anon hate telling them to kill themselves is a shitty thing.

Telling people to kill themselves in general is a shitty thing. What are you gonna do if they actually do it and you get arrested for manslaughter?

Trans kids deserve to transition, intersex kids deserve to not be mutilated and forced onto HRT when they can't or don't consent, children can and will be queer

Actual sex education needs to be standard

Label policing LGBT+ identities is bad

Devotees and "transableds" are not allowed here

Children and disabled people deserve to exist in public, even if you don't like us

Stop. Saying. Retard. Stop using autistic as an insult. Stop it and go to hell.

I'm pro-choice and I know you don't actually care about fetuses with Down Syndrome, you're just trying to guilt me.

I will reblog with more takes as they occur to me

And, most importantly, listen to ALL disabled voices. All of them. Every single one. We stand together or we don't stand a chance.

[lovemyromance]

So someone saw a post where they were not mentioned, tagged, or even alluded to and made it about themselves in the reblogs/comments.

They continue to make posts about how people are coming for them specfically because of said post, which they inserted themself into to play victim (I personally had never seen this person's account before so I had no idea who they were and why they thought the post was about them when it seemed like a pretty general post about a thing I have seen happen in this fandom pretty frequently lately).

They say that people are calling them a narcissist for mentioning their degree when we're actually calling them that because they made a post all about them. The only reason her fellow shippers are coming to her defense is because she made it about herself. I doubt they would have even thought it was about her or anyone in particular if she'd never said anything in the first place.

They made a post about how mad Elriels get when people mention having a degree, despite many of us saying we also have the same or a similar degree.

They're saying Elriels are the Kim Ks to their TSwift 🤣

They still don't get that the issue isn't the degree itself, it's the way people wield it against those who disagree with them (usually condescending).

Imagine having all those credentials and still missing the point.

You pretty much nailed it. I made my original post after I saw a fair amount of discourse about degrees being thrown around ON BOTH SIDES of the fandom. I purposefully kept things general and didn't call any one person out. At all. Ever. At any point, even when the discussion turned towards a personal attack against ME.

I don't even know where the whole narcissist comment came from? Like the receipts are all up there - I certainly never called anyone a narcissist.

Did I think it was insanely self-absorbed to come onto a properly tagged post, assume it's about yourself, and then proceed to argue and fight and twist my words - yes, quite frankly. The entire interaction left a bad taste in my mouth.

Especially when it could've easily gone down like this:

Me: <makes post>

Other User: <if this is about me...blah blah>

Me: it's not about you.

Other User: Okay. Sorry for misunderstanding. I will remove myself from your properly tagged post.

Instead we went in circles when I kept saying "this post is not about you" and "I'm not saying it's wrong to analyze or have a degree. I'm saying it's a little condescending to say that your degree gives you more authority and credibility than others on a piece of literature that is not complex enough to warrant a masters in English to understand."

And they kept responding with "You hate women" "you hate education" "You are dissing my accomplishments" "I AM more credible than the average reader" "You are a bully and are obsessed with harassing us" even tho they came into my post

If someone can point to my original post and show me just where I said ANY of that, be my guest. I'm not in the business of fighting antis, and their delusional assumptions.

Like I was really, really biting my tongue about the whole thing. I really wanted to suggest they get their money back for their degree, if they can't even understand a tumblr post, let alone ACOTAR.

[nymph-ette111]

I’m happy to know you enjoy our interactions too and that you liked my little tangent there. I’m glad that you searched for accounts from actual people who have the disorder rather than pseudo-psychologists, because they are often the harshest without a shred of accuracy (just the way they talk about the narcissist’s eyes turning a demonic black is enough to make me exit the article).

To be fair, Quora is one of the worst places when it comes to accepting people with npd. So I’m glad you managed to find something that didn’t conclude in a pro-eugenics rant lead by a divorced dad who is certain his ex wife is a narcissist because she took the kids. And since I chose my first paper this school year to be about npd and gender (we could write about anything, it was to test our abilities in general), I had to go through a ton of those. They ranged from absolutely hilarious to restraining order worthy. Thankfully Google Scholar saved me from that (though I would never suggest reading studies upon studies on a topic for x reader headcanons, I’m only saying this to sort of validate where my understanding of it came from). Since, yk, it’s a relatively fresh thing (recognised since the 80s I believe) and the fact that I had a therapist who diagnosed me correctly and knew how to approach it is pure luck

Also just any dog metaphor is delightful but it fits so well with Toby too?? Like, it just feels so right when people do that. And I can genuinely see Jeff having some npd traits, good call^^

Ben is just so!!! He’s awful in the best way. I want to kiss him and also put him in a blender for fun :3 i want to drive him insane. And also hold hands maybe. Like, yeah, realistically I would lose my sanity if he liked me but he’s so fun

Also yeah, that’s why I like your blog so much. You don’t shy away from making them hard to be around, hurt, mean. All kinds of messed up but also fun to read about. That’s why I also said that they would probably have an easy time with hurting me mentally, bc if they were aware of just how paranoid I am they would absolutely do what I did in that friend example, only 10 times worse (like, specifically saying stuff they know gets a reaction out of me to force me to stay or do whatever). In all honesty, this might be just why I like creepypasta characters (especially this specific portrayal of them). I mean, it does fit into that type of ‚pleople may be nice but they are out to get you at all times so you need to act to survive’. It’s kind of a safe way to experience something that is both natural to me and also absolutely unsafe irl. Like, yeah, I would have to walk on eggshells to be with Toby but also that is the way I see any sort of relationship either way. Sometimes, I’m more uncomfortable with the pure fluff bc that feels fake and unnatural. On that note, Toby to me is so untreated-bpd coded

-⭐︎

Agreed Ben is so fucking stupid I want to gnaw on him and push him down the stairs, what a silly fella. You don't know how happy it made me when you said you liked my blog :') when I shared my first post I thought it wouldn't get any attention, and I would just end up deleting the blog all together so hearing someone actually enjoys these little headcanons I make about fictional serial killers is so nice <3

you said everything so perfectly I have nothing to add, and yes toby is fucking miserable any disorder he has is 100% untreated and yes I love him and yes I want him and—

[popponn]

popon my loveliest "grandma", here is my submission for ur event—which is as cute as u 😽:

one. my chosen fandom is blue lock, and my favourite is ofc, mikage reo <33

two. yes to au, and i choose high school au !

three. my chosen tropes are childhood friends to lovers and mutual pining

four. my name is saki, and i am a cancer and infj ! i'd like to add emphasis to my mbti bc i am super introverted irl, and i come off as a rly shy individual at first. but once i've gotten comfortable w u, i am rly talkative, and quite loud too ! i'm also super honest, but at the same time, i can filter the things i say in order to "people please". i'm also pretty sensitive when it comes to the things others say—for example, if someone accidentally insults me, i do think ab it for the rest of the day and do feel pretty hurt. i'm also an overthinker, and i tend to overanalyse certain situations. i think i am pretty caring, since i act like the "therapist" and "mother" of my friendship group, and i'm a realist.

i like and love hanging out w my friends, and i also love shopping (for my own things lol). i also like dressing up for special events (like a fancy dinner party or smth), and i like reading/writing. drawing and painting is also a fun activity for me, but i don't do it as much anymore bc i don't have the time to do so 😞 other things i like are letters written to me by my friends, cute stationery (motivates me to study hehe), pretty hair accessories, rice (i am a true asian), dark chocolate and iced lattes <3

things i don't like include onions (MAJOR EW), some fish, narcissists, selfish people, pick-me people🧍🏻‍♀️, wet humid weather, school-assigned texts (legit hating the one i have to read rn), insects, cramped spaces, people who like to show off (like bro actually stfu 💀)

i don't rly have favourite movies so i'll list my favourite k-dramas and anime hehe: 18 again, twenty-five twenty-one, twinkling watermelon, shooting stars, fruits basket, kimi ni todoke, attack on titan (☹️) and your lie in april <33

my love languages are words of affirmation and physical touch !! i tend to be v affectionate w those i'm close to, and i would wanna receive love in the same ways plus acts of service hehe

five. yes yes !! any language is fine, as long as if u can also incorporate some english songs too 🤍

six. GIRL THIS IS LWKY A HARD CHOICE but i choose fluff <3 unless u can do a combo of both but if not i choose full fluff (thanks !!)

optional question. i love reo's looks. literally i love his hair and ik u don't like it 😭 BUT I LOVE IT and i also love how reo is so charismatic and affectionate hehe <3 he's also so ambitious and hard-working and that is smth that i admire,, AND HE'S SMART ?!?!! smart men are so hot omfg !!!! his wealth is a good bonus but idrc ab these things <3 😸

i hope that's everything u need popon <33 lmk if i need to add more details !! I LOVE U SO SO MUCH and good luck w the event 🫂 MWAH MWAH thank u saur saur much 😽😽

a tune, an image, and a story of... ⋆｡˚

“so?” seeing his friend raising an eyebrow in challenge, or in question, reo uncharacteristically rubs the back of his neck. this topic has always been an odd one for him—it’s one that brings everything into a halt and makes it feel heavy to breathe, yet perhaps because it has to do with you, reo could never think of it as unpleasant. “you know i can’t just…” reo glances towards your direction, talking happily with your friends on the other side of the classroom, “…you know. it’s kind of complicated.” chigiri makes a face that would get him the role of a disappointed mother in a tv drama. “it’s not. you do realize the two of you got more matching things than my sister and her boyfriend, right? and those two are shameless. what the hell are you afraid of?” reo honestly could give chigiri a list there and then. but, with a part of his brain focusing solely on your smile, he merely leans against the window frame and sighs, “…yeah. i wonder.” it’s so simple that it has become the furthest thing from one—reo, unreasonably and consciously, tries to reason.

you peer toward reo discreetly. sitting across him just like this for the nth time, even after so so many years, you still find your heart skipping a beat and three each time you see him. it’s not hard to like reo. he has good looks, smart, talented, friendly, bright, and is still very much a hard worker despite his family upbringing. it truly makes so much sense why he is so well-liked and popular. you could give your own testament to that, after all.  from the very first day when he offered his hand and name to you, you have known that reo has a brilliance that only few could rival–and even then you would confidently say that no one could ever truly outshine reo in your eyes. you have shared many years with him, growing up with him almost like a confidant to a prince. you have seen many parts of reo and–at moments where he laughs victoriously and at moments where frustration gnaws at him–to every single piece of those, your eyes could only gaze at them fondly. and you are more than aware that being so close to reo, being able to see all of those, is not a privilege given to anyone. it’s because you stand behind the line called ‘a childhood friend’, never stepping on them even out of your selfish feelings, that you could have that privilege. and if, by any means, you could stay beside reo for a long, long time, by keeping those feelings silenced then– “hey,” a pen taps your book lightly, reo’s voice following along with a question, “did you find a question you’re stuck on?”

“i know you don't want to see me,” reo says to the phone—to you, still panting heavily as he leans against your door, “but at least—please listen to me.” you sit quietly on the other side of the door. your eyes still sting and you know you still don’t really want to see his face. you know you should just hang up. “okay, so,” reo begins, pausing for a moment, taking a deep breath. loudly and confidently he says, “i like you too.” you blink at that. not knowing how to react as your eyes widened. “what—” “i know you probably think i am a pathetic piece of turd right now but at least, i want to say this before everything else,” he continues on, fully relying on his heart and his teammates’ advice—going against every principle of calm businessman hammered into his brain. “i like it whenever we do something together, since long ago. i like it when we talk, i like listening to you, i like being listened to by you, i like it when we walk to school together—actually, can we keep all those even after this? i might actually go bald if we don’t. you still like my hair right—” “reo—” “i…” as if just realizing that he can no longer turn back, reo takes in a deep and sharp breath. after a loud embarrassed gulp, he repeats “…i like you. really like you. as a lover. please go out with me.” for someone who has been on the receiving end of many confessions, reo feels like a newborn baby fish. after all these years, it surely takes a lot of guts and courage—also a fucking stupid fight with you that he should immediately apologize for after this—just for him to spit all those words.

notes: @yoisami sakiii!! i hope u like this. i tried to potray it in a familiar, soft way that is kind of shoujo esque, i hope i succeeded. also purple and yellow because it's the color of the dawn, and hey reo's hair is purple which contrasts nicely with yellow haha .if it's just a bit entertaining for you it will be more than enough! :> i hope the angst is enough darling even tho it's only implied lolol thank you so much for joining my lil event babe, also happy new year! i wish u many many happiness ahead ₊˚⊹♡

[picothea]

Call me a "narc abuse truther" but yes, I do think there is a specific pattern of abuse which is well-recognized by victims under this term, and being able to identify it is a genuine help to those who suffer from it.

It's not actually alien to coin a term like "narcissistic abuse," and trying to argue grammatical semantics is not helping anyone. We do in fact use the same logic to title other forms of abuse but I feel my main example would be in poor taste if anyone were to mistake it for equating the two.

I also believe in recovery and don't think any person with a disorder is inherently bound to act on their unwanted thoughts, however we still use these terms to accurately identify the abuse as it happens.

But speaking of abuse, do you know what I keep seeing on tumblr? Calls for violence against "narc abuse truthers" for speaking out. Gleeful tags insisting they should be mauled, thrown out of planes, beaten by their parents, or that they should outright commit suicide.

Even as a victim of narcissistic abuse, I would never say such a thing to another person, not even my abusers. Some might even argue it would be "fair" if I did, seeing as I was a target of suicidebait first, yet I don't! I don't find this type of abuse excusable!

Do you not see the harm that is being perpetuated on this site? Victims of abuse are being labeled as ableists and become "acceptable" targets for violent remarks. This is gross and it is wrong. Even tags used by survivors are being purposefully misused by malicious narcissistic apologists, who will gladly follow it up with "I am using these tags for attention," and sometimes "I want to get hate on purpose." You know this is not healthy behavior, right?

And one more thing- some of these abusers who proudly call themselves narcissists are really forgetting their posts are public. When they openly admit to abusing others and tearing down their own friendships for narcissistic supply, or when they admit to writing long, hateful rants about innocents, we can see that! If that is not narcissistic abuse, then what is?

I don't know where I am going with this, but I wanted to get this off my chest. I use the term "narcissistic abuse" and I do not believe it is ableist to do so, as someone with my own mental disorders trying to make my way in the world. It is a descriptive term for a pattern of abuse, and it helps victims to find support when they can identify their experiences.

[halucynator]

Hellllooo,

Omg I really needed more swiftie mutuals <3

Please rant about all things you like, i love rants, gosh we seem to have so many close interests, I am not a writer tho, but I do read, effectively making me a reader which doesn't sound as cool, now that I think about it.

My fav Taylor song at the moment is "Slut!". I cannot get that out of my head. I mean "got lovesick all over my bed", I die a little everytime I hear that.

Fav Olivia song at the moment is logical (kinda like you username aah). I still CANNOT get over "can't take a joke, can't get you off". Like please kill me already.

Fav Sabrina song at the moment is probably "because i liked a boy". (damn who hurt me?)

And fav conan song at the moment, "Lookalike"

Tell me yours?

Nyc.

xx

hiiii

omg thank you thank you thank youuuu <33

okay so i love a lot of things some of them are pretty questionable but I'm questionable literally ask anyone on the discord server so its fine. anywhoo, i love taylor, maisie, gracie, phoebe, alix page, lucy (dacus not myself I'm not THAT narcissistic), olivia hardy (from wasia project) julien, conan, liv, sab (and @loserdiaz but that's a known fact) and so many other people to the point that even i cant keep track. oh and i love laufey, mitski and lyn lapid just bc.

my current fav by wasia project is petals on the moon but ur so pretty especially live from the studio is so gooddd

anywayss, reading is really cool thats how i got into writing (which is the best thing ever ik /hj) i also really really like reading bc it makes me smart and it's super fun

which is your favourite book series?? mine is lockwood and co as if you couldn't already tell by the amount of times I've mentioned it i also really love agggtm series bc why wouldn't it its so good. I'm sure i love so many more book series but my memory sucks (it does not but I'm lazy so I'll use that as an excuse)

anywhooo, i love scream which is weird bc i watched the first one when i was 10 (i know, who let me do that???) and i... liked it? (I'm very questionable i know) but i also tend to rant about it as if its real life (like WHY DID THEY KILL OF *insert name of dead character* IM SO MAD) and not a movie so I'm a bit annoying sometimes but pls don't tell me that otherwise I'll start crying /j

hmm my favourite taylor song atm would be "is it over now?" or "now that we don't talk" bc at the moment i resonate so well with those songs (ikr my life sounds like a nightmare: it is but it isn't really? idk) at yes i totally agree with the "got lovesick all over my bed statement but" also "love thorns all over this rose" and omg "you're not saying you're in love with me, BUT !! YOURE !! GONNA !! DO !!" like who gave taylor the right to be such a mastermind (funny, right? no? okay.) like the entire song, heck the entire album is so GOOD. HER ENTIRE DISCOGRAPHY IS SO GOOD. (this is totally normal fan behaviour btw)

favourite liv song atm is probably lacy but i love all of the songs all the album (and yes logical is soooo good i mean i have to love it otherwise my url is meaningless) but my favourite lyric from the entire album is probably "we both drew blood but man THOSE CUTS were NEVER EQUAL!!" from the grudge (also one of my top 3) bc that hits DEEP. (bc the cuts were deep, i know I'm so funny /j)

favourite sab song atm is prolly cindy lou who / opposite (been there) / a nonsense christmas. i cheated but i simply cant choose one shes too good. also super funny bc cindy lou who and opposite are like sad vibes and then a nonsense christmas i want you to [redacted] and [redacted] me on the couch while we [redacted] presents (sorry i just think I'm so funny when I'm not but dont tell me that i wanna be a stand up comedian no I'm just kidding I'm not a failure. IM JOKING) (also regarding bc i liked a boy, I agree. who hurt you???)

anyways, my favourite conan song atm is prolly the best known option "heather" BUT i also like "the cut that always bleeds" the entire of kid krow tbh

okay i wrote a lot asdxcasdcvafd sorry

alsooo, you didnt ask this but my favourite gracie abrams song atm is "where do we go now?" and "cedar" (you arent mine) bc its such a heartbreaking song especially when you can relate to it. ooh and i also love camden, painkillers, rockland and long sleeves but they're all pretty depressing so if you don't like sad songs they're prolly not for you.

and THANK YOU for this ask this was so fun send me more sometimes <333