#and also i think being mean to random strangers out of nowhere makes you an asshole?

[rabbithaver]

listen i will always support the idea that being mean to complete strangers based on their appearance is bad actually.

like yeah the patriarchy sucks and should totally be dismantled! but how the fuck is being an asshole to individual people because of a trait they can't help going to like... do that? you don't know shit about kevin on the street corner. you have no idea if he's a feminist or not. all you know about kevin is that he fits your definition of what a man looks like.

frankly i think there's a lot of "leftists" out there who just want there to be a group it's okay to lash out at because they're scared

[liyawritesss]

ᖴᒪOᗯEᖇᔕ Iᑎ ᗷᒪOOᗰ - ᐯᗩᒪEᑎTIᑎEᔕ ᗪᖇᗩᗷᗷᒪEᔕ

Ｄａｙ ２２ － Ｍｕｓｉｃ

－So Anxious - 1610!Miles Morales - Spiderman; Across the Spiderverse

－ In which you're Miles' first real crush, and the only way he can communicate with you is through a playlist he made specifically for you.

－ Check out more prompts and other activities on the Flowers In Bloom Event Masterlist!

“You got this, dude!” Says Ganke from behind Miles, acting as if he were the other boy’s ringside hype man, and the task at hand was a boxing match with his dignity on the line. Though, as a teenage boy garnering the balls to go up to his crush in the middle of the school day, it might as well have been.

“I got this!” Miles repeated to himself. “I got this!”

He takes one step forward, leaving the safety of Ganke’s encouragement, and yet the second he does so, the looming threat of rejection meets his skin in a cold wind, and the next thing he knows, he’s turning back towards his best friend, shaking his head vigorously, “I don’t got it, I don’t got it!”

“No, no, yes you do!” Ganke counters in an attempt to restore some faith in his friend. “It’s the simplest thing to do; just let them scan the Spoitfy code for the playlist, and say goodbye. You can totally do this, man!”

“But what if she thinks I’m weird for doing it? You don’t just make a random playlist for anyone!” Miles whines.

“This is your chance to be sort-of friends with your crush, Miles! And they’re definitely not the type to be mean, they’ll appreciate it!” Ganke bargains. “You made one for me, and look at us! We’re best of friends!”

Ganke had a point, Miles admitted to himself, but the fact of the matter still stood that he was already embarrassed enough being talked into making this playlist; now, he let him talk him into giving it to you, and Miles didn’t know if he could handle how you’d look at him for randomly coming up to him out of nowhere.

“I know for a fact that some of the music you listen to, they also listen to. It’s a great way to start a conversation!” Ganke adds on, hopefully giving Miles the edge he needed to toughen up and act on the agreed plan. It wasn’t like you two were complete strangers; you had some classes together, and were paired for a semester project last semester! Which was when this whole crush ordeal started for Miles, subjecting Ganke to more than enough talk about how cute you were and every other song that came on being one that reminded him of you.

The brownskin boy took a deep breath, trying to calm his nerves, seeing as this was a now or never ordeal, and he’d rather get it done now than drone how he missed the perfect opportunity. So, before even thinking, Miles starts walking towards you.

You’re reading on your Kindle when Miles approaches you. You note the nervous smile - you’ve noticed he’s always relatively skittish around you, which you aren’t sure to feel about. “Hey Miles, what’s up?”

He can barely get the words out, stumbling over them like dirty clothes he’d strewn on the floor instead of tossed into the hamper, “You like music, right? You like, uh, playlists- music playlists?”

You give him a nod to confirm his question, and in a swift movement, he produces his phone in front of you. On it, you can see the Spotify app open to a code to what you presume to be a playlist like mentioned before.

“You wanna curate one together?” You question, an act very possible on the music app, one you’ve utilized yourself numerous times in the past. The boy nods, mumbling something about how you both have similar music tastes, to which you find yourself admitting to as well, having overheard some songs spill out from his headphones sometimes.

With a shrug and an indifferent ‘sure’ leaving your lips, you take out your own phone to scan the code, granting you access to the playlist that already has a couple of songs added to it to start. To you, it was simply an act to start up a friendship; yet for Miles, you’d have no idea just how much it would mean to him and the little crush he harbors for you - which has now only grown bigger.

[winderlylandchime]

It has been an INSANE few months. Don’t get me wrong, while this man is not one for wanting kids or marriage, he is a giant marshmallow that loves romance stuff (even tho from past observations dating him is like doing bunch of side quests in a video game). That being said: I really really really wish you could see this man for the past few months. He’s still a giant dumbass, who has no filter and does dumb shit (last week he “borrowed” a plate from a restaurant bc he wasnt finished eating his spaghetti when dad decided that they were leaving, please try to imagine my dads look when he looked at the passenger side and realized my brother took the plate and fork) That being said, for the past few months he has been a blushing, giggling IDIOT! And he is still this way. I told Nick I know how annoying he can be in recovery and he went "idk what you mean, he's been very good" and I wanted to fight both of them. I HAD TO CHASE THAT MAN DOWN A STREET CAUSE HE WAS MAD AT CRAIG! meanwhile my boy Nick says "babe, maybe take a nap" and he goes "good idea but tv stays on so I feel like I'm winning this argument a little bit" ugh.

He really had zero idea what was happening until that pool/bar date and even that it was only because on the way home he stopped at his friends place and he was telling them about the “cool new guy he made friends with” and during the telling of the game and how he “let him win” he realized that he had Nick do the move that usually he would do on his dates. According to one of the friends there, it was like watching the oh…oh…OH..OH FUCK, in real life except he didn’t know he had the oh moment. (I asked btw, he had it while trying to sleep and out of nowhere he realized he actually likes him in a "gay way and not in an ALLY! way") (he is also upset about no longer being able to do the ally fist)

I do have to give my man Nick some credit tho. He found out about his qaf/Brian obsession and about the fact that bunch of strangers watched him react to it and he thought it was the most hilarious thing ever and I read him some of my brothers highlights and he actually found it adorable and funnt. Insane behavior if you ask me. It did however make me feel better when he learned about his Brian crush and went “you basically had a crush on him and you still thought we were just two bros hanging out?” And that idiot went “that’s no- OH MY GOD WAS BRIAN MY AWAKENING?!?!” (The answer from dad was ‘no, cause you were clearly asleep when you met’) Also his face was priceless when he found out that my brother played pool. It really was a dummy going on dates and not realizing it and a guy thinking he’s dating the most shy guy ever. He has since learned that my brother does not know that word.

I will have you know tho that about a month into their relationship we were having lunch and he looked at me in horror and went “oh no, they have that hashtag for me as straight brother. This will totally fuck it up for them” and I had to remind him that he is just a random guy and he got upset with me and went “yeah, but you can’t tell me that they won’t be at least a tiny 2% happy to know that I of all people managed to make Bri Bri proud!”  Btw the rimming joke actually made me laugh bc I was unfortunately a witness to him saying "Oh just like in quee-" and Nick going "yeah, no..let's not take inspirations from that"

SPOILER ALERT. Those following along, go back and read these in order!

Dear sweet anon, I AM DYING AT THESE UPDATES.

I snorted at the idea of him walking out of restaurant with a plate and a fork.

Nick is having it easy because your brother is still trying to impress him. One day he will see the full beast unleashed.

He can still make the fist about being an ally... just for other letters of the LGBTQIA community.

"You had a crush on him and still thought we were still bros hanging out" is sending me. Nick is a saint and I adore him already.

You and your brother are SO important. I do need to change the tag. And we are proud that my fanfic, QAF, and a matchmaker who clearly saw your brother better than he saw himself have all led to boyfriending Nick. I think this all counts for our recruitment numbers for the year.

[matenrou-fan]

oo i thought of one other request if thats cool, how about jealousy headcanons for the dotsuitare hompo guys?:) since i feel like all three of these dorks would have quite different reactions when theyre feeling jealous ah ❤️

- 🌙

Dotsuitare Hompo being jealous to their NB! s/o

oh hiii moon! Hii sweetheart, here..! <3 Enjoy!!

NBreader, fluff, just wholesome stuff;;

-It's actually surprisingly easy to make him jealous.

-Like, yeah, he believes in your loyalty. But his childhood, when parents didn't give that much love to him and he had to fight for their attention, makes him kinda paranoid.

-So yeah, you both have hard times in jealousy. Because Sasara is also a popular comedian and it makes you kinda sad too when so many fans crowd around him, giggling and clearly flirting..

-And of course some people are trying to befriend you, knowing that you're his partner and thinking they would be able to get some profit from this..

-Most of the time Sasara just interrupts this awkward conversation and jokes this away..

-"Mm? Well, darling, how can I not be jealous when it's about you? Sometimes I get jealous even when you go grocery shopping.." - he sighs dramatically and giggles. - "..cause there’s always a cashier checking you out..!"

-So expect him to cling to you for the whole day after, as he will not leave you side even for a moment, hand tightly holding yours.

-But actually he does understand that it's kinda foolish, especially when you have much more reason to be jealous of his fans. So the longer you two are dating the more chill Sasara starts to be about this, knowing you actually love him.

-Well, but it doesn't mean you would get in a little beef with someone who's too stubborn in their tries to win you over.

-Example? Well, you always try to visit all his performances, supporting him from the crowd and giggling every time he notices you and start smiling wider.

-But today, as you were waiting for him to return from the dressing room, some strange guy approached you. It was more like he's not your boyfriend's fan but just a random stranger who decided to hit on you.

-It was so boring. You are sitting here for five minutes already, trying to tell him with all your words and actions that, no, I'm not alone here, and no, I'm not searching for some fun tonight.

-"Why are you so cold? You know, I'm not a bad guy…" - he chuckled and tried to get closer. - "I'm actually an astronaut.. Doesn't this sound prestigious..?"

-"Ah, but aren't dating an astronaut is kinda hard? You always need some space..!" - Sasara suddenly appeared out of nowhere, standing between you two. All you notice is his furrowed brows before he turns to this unwanted jerk. - "Sorry, but this star has already fallen for me!"

-Guy just scoff and walk away, leaving you two alone. You can't help but chuckle a little bit, hugging your boyfriend from behind, and he immediately relaxed.

-".. don't laugh at me.." - Sasara mumble and turns to you, hugging tightly. Soft blush appears on his cheeks as he kisses you, more passionate than usual.. - "I hate when someone starts annoying you like that.."

-"No, dear, I was laughing at your little puns.." - you nod, leaning to his chest. - "Don't you worry, I will never leave the orbit of our love, Sasara.."

-"Hehe, I hope so.." - every time you start to make your own puns he gets excited. - "Now come on, give me another kiss.. I want everyone to see that you are shining only for me, star.."

-Oh, it's so hard for him! Rosho actually can be pretty jealous and possessive sometimes, but he doesn't want to stress you with this..

-So he would try to be more chill about it.

-For him, there's nothing wrong with you hanging out with your male friends. And even if someone will try to flirt with you, he will not start a fight right in the place, knowing you will not leave him for anyone.

-"Sorry, but actually we're here together.." - Rosho always just softly interrupts weird conversations between you and random guys, when he sees you feel uneasy.

-Acting like nothing happened yet holding your shoulder more tight than usual, leaning you closer to him while you walk together. And of course if you ask him if something is wrong Rosho would try to keep being calm and not start blushing. Is he actually so easily readable?

-The only situations when he doesn't mind showing his jealousy is when someone flirts with you really heavily or if you start flirting back, even in a joking manner.

-You just decided to visit him at work and bring some sweets for his lunch break. As soon as you get closer to the school your boyfriend is working in, you send a little text that you're here.

-"Hey, cutie, what's your name?" - you shrug from the sudden sound and turn to voice, just to see a guy around your age getting closer. - "I didn't see you here before!"

-Turns out that this guy always picks his little brother after his lessons are over, and now was waiting for him. Well, he definitely was really bored as you just can't get away from him.

-"Are you also here waiting for your siblings?" - he asks, and before you even have time to answer he gets closer. - "Oh, come on! Why don't we leave youngsters in my house and then go for a little walk, mm?"

-"Sorry, but I don't think it would be proper of you to call me 'youngster'" - warm hand placed on your waist as Rosho looked over your shoulder to this man with a calm but cold gaze. - "As the only one who's my spouse waiting for is me.."

-This guy excuses himself as he quickly recognizes one of his brother's teachers, and walks away, ashamed. While you turn to Rosho with laughter.

-"Oh? So I'm your spouse now?" - you can't help but giggle more, seeing how his cheeks start to redden.

-"I just.. You send a text and then not come inside, I get worried.." - with a low sigh Rosho mumbled, embracing you tightly so you wouldn't see his red face. - "And when I walk outside I notice this guy.. He was too close, you know.."

-"He was too.. cheerful and chatty, yeah.." - you chuckle and kiss his cheek. - "But I thought you know I prefer someone calm as you.. Yes, my husband?"

-"You will tease me about this for a long time, yeah?" - it was clearly visible that Rosho was actually kinda happy with this. - "Now take my hand, today would be a parent-teacher meeting so there's many people.. I want them to know you're taken.."

-There was something amusing in the way Rosho reacted to these little jokes, so you just can't stop sometimes. -"Oh, want them to confuse us with another couple who's here to hear about their kid's behavior?~"

-The most calm one. At least in the beginning.

-Well, he's always around people and had so many lovers in his life before that he does understand it would be stupid from his side to be jealous. With passing years this cunning fox started to think there's nothing worth jealousy, the main thing is just having fun together.

-But Rei doesn't mind to use this as a presence to tease you a little and pull you into some hot messy make outs. Or hold your waist tighter in public.

-So yeah, his little "tantrums" look more like teases and jokes than actual jealousy, as he knows damn well how to make you no more jealous and possessive over him with his games.

-But as time passes and as more you start digging in his heart, the more possessive this old con man starts to be. And he is not shy about saying it out loud.

-"Mm? Yes, I'm jealous.." - Rei chuckled after scaring away some guys from you with his big height and kinda mocking tone. - "After all, birdie, you get inside my golden cage, and I don't want any dirty cats to catch you now.."

-But he still loves to spend some nights with you in clubs, spoiling you with drinks and desserts. How can he not? Rei just wants everyone to see he's having the brightest darling here, all by himself.

-And he doesn't really like it when someone interrupts his fun and tries to capture his little sun. After all, he just walks away to a bar and leaves you for a few minutes, and here's some young guy thinking he would be better at seducing you than an old charming womanizer.

-"You look absolutely stunning tonight.." - this guy was kinda bold, almost immediately sitting next to you before you even gave permission to this. Even though you keep saying that you're with a partner here, he just brushes it off with a joke and keep flirting.

-"I love your jewelry.. You have a good taste.." - this jerk suddenly gets closer trying to touch your hand.

-"Of course. After all, I'm the one who buys this and teaches my little kitten a good taste.." - a low chuckle sounded behind his back and the young guy shrugged, not expecting to see such a large man standing next to him. Despite Rei having a smirk on his face, his eyes didn't say anything good. - "What's wrong? Want to have a private lesson from me too?"

-As quickly as this jerk sits next to you, as quickly he jumps from this place, leaving you two in laughter.

-"Ahh, you get jealous?" - you giggle as your boyfriend sits next to you with two drinks he got from a bar. - "You look kinda cute when you are so possessive.."

-"Cute? Maybe you tried to say 'charming'? As I'm kinda old to words like 'cute', baby.." - Rei chuckled, his arm already on your waist, holding you closer to him. You lean to his chest, still with a wild smile on your face.

-"Okay, okay, my charming incomparable darling.." - maybe you start to spend too much time with this old man, as you also get more teasy than usual. But it looked like Rei was enjoying it and playing along.

-"Keep with these sweet words. This is what my hurted soul needs now.." - he sighs with a low sad tone, taking his shot in one hand while the other keeps caressing your waist.

-"Hurted?" - you giggle. - "Ahh, my poor old foxie got so jealous?"

-"Mm, you know, I just like when every eye follows us, we're a perfect match, after all.." - he smirks, turning to you and taking your chin, making you look up at him. - "But I'm kinda jealous that so many guys are piercing only at you, bunny.. Come on, give your 'old foxie' a little kiss so the one who would be jealous is them~"

[clumsiestgiantess]

Erica pov of chapter five! A very ominous title, but we already know who’s watching her.

all chapters linked here

[When you think you’re alone, someone’s watching]

I knew something awful was going to happen the moment that damn pile of money reappeared in my living room.  It’s always been a specialty of mine to sense that kind of thing.  Unfortunately, nine times out of ten I ignore it and continue making things worse.  I only realize this in hindsight, of course.  If I’d known the horrific punishment for using that money, I probably would’ve walked right out of my apartment the day it showed up and never looked back.  I would say going back to John is better than the torture, but it would actually be a very similar experience.  In short, I would be screwed either way.

Not that I have much of a choice these days.  Apparently my free will is the price to pay for all that mysterious money.  I'd involuntarily made a deal with some sort of devil or demon or otherworldly being, and now I couldn’t take it back.  I shouldn’t have touched that money.  Why did I take it when I knew something was wrong?  Stupid fucking logic — correcting my decisions after I already made them.  I couldn’t even make decisions for myself anymore.  It felt like I became a puppet on a string.  My movements weren’t my own, and I could feel something somewhere tugging at me — forcing me to do whatever it wanted.  The sensation always left me feeling frighteningly cold, like I was already dead.

Whatever took my body hadn’t seemed so malicious at first.  It had given me a small fortune, a mini mansion, a stable job, everything I wanted.  I thought it was a prank or strange new tv show; little did I know I would end up here, like this.  It’s all been taken from me now, except the mansion and my car.  The only reason I still have those is because I need some form of transportation, and without the mansion, I don’t have a home.  I.. god, I think I really screwed up.  I made it mad or something.  It took almost everything I’d bought.  Did I use the money in the wrong way?  But what else would they have given me a whole giant secret safe of it for?

Strangely enough, whatever was torturing me wasn’t too cruel.  I mean, having zero choice over where I went and what I did was a shit deal, but if my puppet master could really do whatever they wanted, things could be a whole lot worse.  A lot of people would do worse.  John would do worse.  He would have me right where he wanted me from square one.  I could feel goosebumps on my arms just thinking about it, even though I’m not even controlling them.  

In all the horror movies about possession and stuff, the puppet was usually hurt for fun or thrown into awful situations just to amuse whoever was controlling them.  Thankfully, that doesn’t seem to be the case for me.  All my puppet master’s done is force me to live a well-off human life.  Is it using me to live a human life for itself?  Why me?  Why not one of the thousands of other people in the city?  And if I’m being controlled like this without a single person knowing, how many other people are actually these beings in disguise?  

From sunup to sundown I was a stranger in my own body.  There were a few exceptions, though.  Once in a while I’d wake up and not be greeted by the awful sensation of being tied to some unseeable thing.  Apparently, I was given random days off.  I panicked the first time I woke without being controlled, desperate to find out what had happened, and why I could suddenly move my own limbs again.  I drove away to the middle of nowhere, trying to hide, but I’d been caught speeding down the highway in my rush to get away.  I ended up right back home because I’d forgotten my wallet in my despricity to escape.  By the time I got back, my freedom had been revoked.

My captor would also let me have freedom for social situations — when a friend or colleague started talking to me about things that whatever was controlling me probably didn’t know.  Thanks a lot, body snatching creature.  Free will, but only while I’m forced to make small talk.  Maybe it is torturing me after all.  There was one time during an event like that when I thought I finally found out what, or who, was controlling me.  The moment I was alone, in public, and uncontrolled, John showed up.  

“Had enough yet?” his sickeningly smooth voice startled me from behind as he glided over to the table where I sat.  A friend and I were at a popular cafe when he happened to saunter in at the exact moment she left.  I turned to look at him, heart dropping into my stomach.  I hadn’t seen him since the night I told him to go fuck himself.  “E- Enough of what?”  Fear seeped into my voice; I couldn’t help it.  Enough of being controlled?  I know he definitely would control me given the chance, but I thought he’d be doing so much more to me if it really is him.   “Oh come on, seriously?” he sneered.  “Surely you’ve been evicted from our apartment by now.  You bought it with my money, didn’t you?”  He chuckled menacingly, “Face it darling, you need me.”

Oh thank god; he’s not the one controlling me.  Feeling a bit more confident knowing that and the fact that I was currently in control of myself, I gave an amused sounding sneer before shooting him a steely glare.  “No, I don’t.  I’m doing just fine without you and I don’t plan on ever needing anything from you ever again.”  I loved the way his smugness immediately vanished.  Unfortunately, it was quickly replaced with rage.  I braced myself, knowing he would undoubtedly yell something stupid at me and make a big fucking scene.  He stayed silent, and that scared me more than the first option.

My eyes shot open to find him standing completely frozen and almost limp like a standing zombie.  Or a puppet.  In less than a second, I was on my knees in the booth, peering over the top at every possible person to see if anyone had anything to do with it.  I know if it’s not John then it might not even be a person, but I was desperate at that point.  Even as he wandered out the door in a daze, I followed him, excusing myself from the meal.  He looked hollow, almost — drifting into a crowded sidewalk out of sight.  Is that how I look when I’m controlled?

Suddenly, I felt almost a magnetic tug from above.  No!  No, no, no!  Shit!  It’s coming back for me!  I left the cafe, and I don’t think that’s what my puppet master wanted.  Before I could get a foot out in front of me to run, my muscles were tugged out of my control.  Thoughts that weren’t my own drifted into my head, telling me that I could stop worrying about John — he was taken care of for the foreseeable future.  That’s happened a few different times.  I think it’s some sort of message from my captor.  Usually they’re stupid, but I do agree with letting them handle John.

I tried to get away the next several times I woke up uncontrolled, but my captor found me every. Single. Time.  They must have had some way to track me down; how awful is that?  By then, I’d pretty much given up hope of escaping.  I’d just have to wait it out.  Whatever’s controlling me has to get bored of it eventually.

Months into this strange existence, I started to feel like I was being watched.  My captor certainly was not getting bored yet.  As time went on, I only became more and more aware of the thing controlling me.  Whenever I thought I was alone, someone would be watching.  They’re always here.  Don’t they have anything better to do? I thought with disdain.  What if this is a lifetime deal?  Will I have to live watching my own life play out in front of me until I die?  That- That can’t be it.  This can’t be the rest of my life, it can’t.  All I have left is looking out of my own eyes like a window, watching things happen around me like I’m seeing someone else.  Like I’m no one, like I’m nothing.  I can’t stand being like this, and I can’t even be angry or sad about it because I’m always trapped.

Eight long frustrating months passed.  Sometimes, when I woke up late at night when the thing wasn’t controlling me, I’d reminisce about my life before all this.  There wasn’t much to reminisce about, though.  My life already sucked, but at least then I could still make decisions.  I had at least a little control over what happened to me, though honestly, it wasn’t much.  Sitting on the edge of my bed in a sobbing mess is one of the best things I can have now.  I can finally have emotions besides the ones that are stuck in my head every goddamn day of my awful fucking life.  The doors to the balcony creaked open, but I barely had time to look up at them before my muscles were taken from me.  If I knew my captor was there, I would’ve been begging rather than crying.  Though, I bet I’d be crying either way.

Thoughts that weren’t mine came into my head, but this time they came with a new sensation.  A sort of.. calmness that I hadn’t felt in years washed over me like rain after a drought.  It was soothing, though I knew it was my captor doing it.  Wait.  They’re calming me down?  They saw me crying and calmed me down?  What?  Why didn’t they let me have this before?  I thought back through the other times I wasn’t controlled.  I guess I’ve never cried in front of them before.  Suddenly, I was feeling extremely tired.  I don’t know if it’s my captor doing it or just me being tired, but I was out in less than a minute.  

From then on, my captor decided to give me that sort of peace from time to time.  It helps a bit.  I don’t mind having a break from living life; I just wish I could spend the time on something besides sitting around doing nothing in my head but watch.  The calmness changed that.  It gave me weird visions of happy places and times that I’d never seen — something to do besides nothing at all.  I want to be in control more than anything when there’s free time, but while I’m at work or dealing with traffic, I decided the weird relationship between me and my captor was mutual.  They could have my body then.  Now I use the few days I have off like vacation days.  I do whatever I want until whatever’s controlling me comes back.  Then it’s back to my head and back to work.  Life again became tolerable.  I’d space out all day, letting my body be dragged from one place to another.  Until one fateful night.

I stayed at work late.  It wasn’t my choice; it was never my choice anymore.  But suddenly, it was.  Some noisy kids were making a racket down the connecting street; there was an explosive snap, and then I could feel my limbs again.  For the first time in almost a month I felt truly alive again!  I got the suspicion that this wasn’t an intentional release, and I could practically feel the presence of my captor nearby.  Taking the small chance I had, I fled down the empty street to the parking garage and my car.  If I could just reach it before I was taken over, I might be able to escape.  Despite liking the time alone to myself, I wanted it to happen on my terms, not my captor’s.

As I raced through the now eerily quiet sidewalk, I felt the thing getting closer, rapidly gaining distance on me despite running at my fastest.  I hadn’t been afraid of it in a long time, but I was starting to now.  At the last second, I dodged into an opening in the parking garage ahead, hoping to lose whoever or whatever was chasing me.  Up until that point, I could chalk up the 'feeling their otherworldly presence' thing to paranoia or delusion, but a few moments after I darted into the parking lot, a new factor made my hair stand on end.  I could hear it breathing.  Echoed breaths flooded the concrete structure, seemingly coming from everywhere at once.  Now I was more terrified of my captor than I had ever been before.

Overwhelmed, I let out a terrified scream as the breathing grew closer.  It's going to catch me, I realized in horror, and I'll never have control again!  Realizing it would take me far too long to find my car in the lot, I abandoned it and rushed out the back entrance, desperate for a busy street of some sort.  If I could slip into a crowd, whatever's rushing around invisibly probably wouldn't be able to find me.  At least they wouldn't have a clear shot at getting my body back.  Maybe if I put up a long enough chase, it'll get tired and find someone else to control instead.

Unfortunately, that plan was very short-lived.  The street in that direction was a dead end.  I scrambled into an alley, which was also a dead end, hoping that it was possible to hide from whatever's coming for me.  I stood trembling in fear as I felt and heard the thing getting closer.  It must've seen me hide down there, because it wasn't long before I could feel its presence at the entrance to the alley.  I'm trapped with no way out now.  I'll never have free will again.  Might as well put up a fight while I still can, right?  

There was a trashed glass bottle on the ground beside me, and I scooped it up in haste as I felt my captor inch closer.  With a quick swing, I shattered the back end of the bottle against the wall to my right, creating a rudimentary weapon.  "Don't fucking touch me!" I cried out with all the fury I could muster, "I know you're here!  I could hear you breathing in the parking garage."  The thing, whatever it was, stopped its advance, so I continued, voice growing a little stronger.  "What are you?!  What do you want from me?!"  I swung my shattered bottle violently through the air in hopes to deter the thing from coming any closer.

My aggression seemed to be working as far as I could tell.  My captor had backed up a ways to the alleyway entrance.  It's still hard to tell how much of an advantage I actually have, though.  I can't see the thing I'm trying to fight.  For all I know, it might have just stepped back to have a good laugh at me before taking my body again.  Maybe it realized that I'd have to go out that way eventually, and it’s just sitting there waiting to grab me once I tried to escape.  As I thought through a possible way out of there that didn't involve my immediate re-capture, I heard a chilling cracking sound.  It was like a mini earthquake.  The pavement in front of the alley split open, and soon half the parking garage crumbled to rubble before my eyes.  My heart thundered in my ears, and I was dangerously close to passing out in fright.

At that point, I was at my wits' end.  I assumed I was about to be torn apart just like the metal and concrete structure before me.  I braced myself for the worst, but was startled out of it by a very loud yelp of pain.  Looking back over at the garage, I gasped in confusion and utter horror, dropping my bottle to the ground.  A few truckloads of blood were spattered over the entire side of the parking garage.  Sitting in the middle of it was my captor, now fully visible.  It.. no wait.. she looked like a person.  Her blonde hair shone under the dim city lights, and her pale face paled even more as she slowly glanced up from her cut hands to look at me.  She looked like a person, but she was taller than almost every single building I could see.  It was too much, way too much.  This was my puppet master?  She was controlling me?  I slowly backed up to the furthest point I could, flinching as I hit the wall behind me.  Whoever, whatever she is, she could easily kill me with only a few fingers.  How can something like her even exist?

"Please, don't-" I choked on a sob before I finished my sentence.  What use was it to beg for my life?  She'd already stolen it from me.  I watched as her eyes went wide with.. fear?  It couldn't be.  She was probably just surprised that I'd spoken to her since she'd been invisible the whole time.  How did she even get this far into the city without absolutely demolishing everything in her path?  It looked like she was going to say something, but stopped as her injuries tensed with pain.  The air around her wavered like a mirage or exhaust.  One moment she was there, hunched over beside the blood-covered remains of the garage, and the next moment, she was gone.  All the gore disappeared along with her, but the destruction remained.  At first I thought she'd gone invisible again, but I realized that even the sensation of her presence was gone.  She'd simply vanished into thin air.

I stood in the alleyway for a long while after my surprisingly human-looking tormentor disappeared, still shaking with fear though she was long gone.  Finally, a car horn from somewhere in the city startled me out of my stupor.  In a daze, I trudged over to my car, which was thankfully parked near the edge of the garage and hadn't been close in the giant's crater of destruction.  Once I climbed in and let the car door slam behind me, it was as if all my emotions suddenly felt the need to re-appear at once.  I curled up in my seat, bawling in a mix of fear and anger and relief.  Why has that behemoth of a person been controlling me, and how?  I've managed to keep control of my body, but at what cost?  Will she return to take back control, or just end my life entirely?  She hurt herself in anger at me.  Surely she’ll be back for revenge.  My heart missed a beat as I realized just how helpless I really was in this situation.  I’ll die if she tries to hurt me!  Even if I don’t die, I doubt I’ll ever have control over myself as long as I live.  I’ll never feel my body ever again! By the time I stopped crying, I was dead tired.  It was two in the morning, I'd just been hunted down like a wild animal, and I was realy fucking sick of fearing for my life.  With grim determination, I started up my car and headed back home.  There's no point in delaying the inevitable.  I'm dead inside and out and I really, really just want somewhere safe to go.  But I have nowhere left.  My parents' house is a plethora of nightmares in itself.  John's place.. only in his dreams.  I guess I could sleep in my car, but I'm afraid of either getting a ticket or getting broken into.  And finally, there's the mansion I had been gifted by my captor.  There's really only one option here.  My only hope is to bet that with an almost human appearance, my captor also has almost human emotions.  She did take pity on me once before, right?  If I could just get her to sympathize with me somehow — get her to recognize how awful she's been — maybe, just maybe, I could have my own life back.

[morgulscribe]

Rings of Power Season 2, Episode 4 Thoughts

Random thoughts while watching the episode, not a review.

Spoilers below!!!

The depiction of the Gray Havens remind me a bit of Thomas Kinkade paintings.

A wide angle, dramatic shot of the elves traveling - shout out to the Eregion travel scenes from the film trilogy.

So the Axa Bridge is out… I've been in this position SO many times in LOTRO, looking down over the edge of a bridge that is broken in half, with nowhere to go and no place to cross over.

Nenya gives Galadriel visions of danger when the party considers going through the Barrow Downs. As I suspected, the writers must prefer the theory that Galadriel's magic powers come from the Ring, and not from her studying under Melian and her natural strength as the sister of Finrod Felagund. Most likely, this is the reason why Galadriel has not come across as very magical in the series so far.

The interactions between Elrond and Galadriel become amusing when you consider the fact that she is his mother-in-law in the books.

When I saw Tom Bomabdil from behind, I thought he was a woman at first, and I was already shipping him with the Stranger.

Does Tom Bombadil attract toxic trees wherever he makes his dwelling? Do the trees become toxic after being forced to listen to his singing?

I'M NOBODY --- IS THIS AN EMILY DICKINSON REFERENCE!!!!!

I like the costume/physical appearance of the Stoor matron, but I think some of the ears on the Stoors are clownishly big. Also… Nobody's hair.

I hope LOTRO puts in a hobbit village in the desert. It looks like a wonderful place to explore... and break your legs by jumping off roofs and balconies.

I'm not sure I like the concept of Tom leaving the Withywindle to go to Rhun. To me, having him explore Middle-earth and eventually settling down in the Withywindle makes more sense.

I like how Tom refers to the stars as being new.

The elves refer to the Barrow Downs as being an ancient graveyard… This would refer to the the region being used as a graveyard by the Edain in the First Age. However, the barrows would not become haunted until the Witch-king of Angmar sent evil spirits there in the middle part of the Third Age.

The Barrow wights are impervious to the elf weapons… That's because you need Westernesse damage type, not Beleriand. Now if you want to fight spiders and ancient evil, then Beleriand is what you need. (LOTRO reference)

Since Galadriel has seen the light of the Trees, I think she would technically be able to see the true forms of the wights - the spirits that are possessing the corpses. But the elves do not seem to be very magical in Rings of Power.

I am coming to the conclusion that this show likes sea creatures and things with tentacles to the same extent that LOTRO is obsessed with spiders.

Sûzat… Nice reference to the true name of the Shire.

Nice image of the two ents looking like the Two Trees.

Is Theo Lord of Pelargir???? Does that mean that his dad is nobility, and that Arondir knows who he is? I think I may have missed something.

Orcs stepping on flowers as they march… Good touch. If my memory is correct, I think Tolkien wrote a line about orcs/goblins going out of their way to stomp on flowers in either The Hobbit or LOTR.

Galadriel making a dramatic stand against the orcs would make SO much more sense if the writers had used the theory that this character is insanely powerful and magical even without Nenya. Otherwise, it seems like a very stupid action on her part.

A STAR SHINES UPON THE HOUR OF MEETING…. SCREAMING CRYING SHRIEKING LIKE A NAZGUL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[a-room-of-my-own]

this is very indiscreet but anon you sound shallow af. fucking random strangers so you can play pretend to be in love with someone you know damn well doesn't respect you isn't the win you think it is. no one is missing out by refusing casual sex with men and it is disrespectful to imply you are missing out when you stop whoring yourself out for male attention. find passions, find hobbys, make some real connections with good people ffs

Yeeeaaah I understand what you mean but there’s no need to be aggressive. I do believe men don’t know how to have a casual relationship without fundamentally disrespecting the woman. As much as I love Before Sunrise, it’s just a movie 😅

But wanting affection and connection even for a few days is not « whoring yourself out » and I don’t’ think you should even use that vocabulary, even if that’s what it felt like for you when you did it. Because you’re putting the blame on yourself in a way that is very misogynistic. There’s also no relation between wanting that and being empty to the point of having no other hobby. And if there is we’re talking about someone with serious attachment issues who would be the ideal victim for an abuser.

You can also have a casual or short relationship with someone without seeing this as « fucking » (which sounds like what a disrespectful man would say). Every relationship starts a bit casually anyway. When you start something you never know if it’s going to last and sometimes after a few days or weeks you understand it was nice but will go nowhere.

I suppose you were hurt but please, be kind to yourself and others. Looking at yourself with the eyes of a misogynistic man will only sink your self esteem deeper.

[starsarefire824]

This is going to be random, but I wanted to say something.

For some time shipping hasn't been fun for me, and it's even worse since I enjoy crack-ships and other uncommon couples. When I started watching Stranger Things I liked the idea of Madwheeler, and I also started reading your fanfiction The Pact before even having a Tumblr account.

Today I found out about you, and when I saw that you're a writer for more famous ships like Byler but also made an amazing Madwheeler piece, it really made me smile. It's just somehow refreshing seeing someone having fun with different character dynamics and stuff.

It made me think "Damn, that's a person I can admire.". It made me somehow believe I can have fun with this again. So thank you. I hope you keep writing and sharing your ideas out there. Be weel!

Hey there @abajurapagado!! You have no idea how much this means to me!! 🥹 That I could help you in any way have a better time in the fandom and enjoy it! That's amazing.

That, after all, is what fandom is for first and foremost: Enjoyment.

That being said, I have always been a person who has written for and been a fan of smaller ships, non-canon ships, unpopular ships even in very small fandoms. I just tend to gravitate towards what interests me. In the past I've been a part of the Turn fandom (I liked a gay pairing-townhull- that was very much non-canon), Star Wars (reylo, gingerrose), OFMD (izzy x lucius), The Morning Show (stella x cory). Most of those are all very much non-canon 😂.

And this is the first fandom where I've seen many people be so staunchly devoted to "canon". It's something I haven't come across in my other fandom travels.

But, in the end, it doesn't matter what the pairing is, if it makes you happy and you find the dynamic interesting than I say engage with it! Even if it makes others side eye you or not be happy with it. It doesn't matter. I'm very much a ship and let ship type of person. And in my Star Wars and Shadow and Bone days, have been in support of some very unliked pairings, but I've tried to never to let it stop me from having a good time. I'm here for the dynamics and drama and I tend to lean towards certain dynamics because of that!

Byler is the first pairing I've ever been a fan of, besides Reylo, that is "mainstream" or has a big following. Actually, as a past Reylo, I see a lot of the same thing happening with Byler....people saying that the followers are delusional, where if you watched the SW films...know how that all ended up 🙃

But also, my other biggest SW ship, gingerrose, is a random ship that was built around 3 pieces of dialogue and a finger bite deleted scene lmao....and they've ended up being a dynamic I actually like a lot better and read about more than I ever did Reylo. I think that you can ship multiple things in the same fandom and it's okay if one of them is a little different, unpopular, or people think it's weird. There is no reason for people to be offended by what other people ship. That is such a strange concept to me.

Madwheeler, to me, is interesting. I am VERY much aware it's a "crackship" or whatever. I do not expect anything from canon. That's not the point. It actually is freeing to have something be completely for fun, and I don't have those emotional ties like I do byler or I did with reylo, where I really wanted it to happen it canon. I think the actors have good chemistry, I think they are for sure very paralleled to one another, and I think that it's a ship that has a lot to unpack. I don't give a flying fuck if it's not canon or out of nowhere or if some people think it's "ick". Doesn't bother me. I am interested in the drama, I like to headcanon them both as bisexual which is fun, and I live for the tension of "hating" someone and having sexual tension. It's good shit, and it's SO EASY to do with their dynamic. It practically writes itself.

I love Byler for different reasons: the best friends to lovers trope, the sweetness of it, the angst, the coming of age. Will is my favorite character and I just love his story.

Both pairings offer SO MANY things, but they also are very different. And it allows me as a writer to explore different tropes, different facets of these fictional character's personalities, and as there is always a little bit of myself in my writing, explore some different emotions etc.

And I personally believe that exploring new dynamics in addition to my main one, has kept me more active in the ST fandom and byler community. It's kept me feeling creative, and keeps it fun as we're waiting for season 5 crumbs and filming to start etc! Fanfiction is very much meant for exploring things that don't happen in canon and exploring character dynamics that speak to you personally. Imo, it's the entire point of it. So anywho, I'm glad you're enjoying The Pact, and I am so happy that my tiny self has stoked the fire a little bit for your Stranger Things love. I hope you have tons of fun from here are on out!! ♡♡♡♡♡

[collectivecloseness]

Well that sure was depressing lol, I mean kinds obvious it's not joe running the acc but damn bro lemme live my fantasy

I mean tbf the channel has posted videos not posted anywhere else, like the 100K one way after the movie came out. So Joe at least definitely filmed that not as promo/content for the film.

And like I’m sure that wouldn’t have been something he had to do, like contractually wise. He did it for funny commitment to the bit, or just because he wanted to, or for fans, or many reasons.

And the community page posted things quite a bit, inc one post that was like new exciting video soon, and then months later was like hey no more updates sorry guys.

So like it was enjoyable to have the channel up and interactive. And we know Joe Keery was at least making new #KurtKunkleContent for the fans which is very nice.

Who knows who actually ran it. If he did own it, or just for a bit, or just occasionally for fun, or made his own things then sent them to the channel runner etc. I could definitely see those random updates being something he would do lmao.

Even his tiktok started posting things again (maybe reposts I can’t rmbr) when Spree started reaching its height of popularity like a year after it came out haha. It definitely was cool and funny and immersive to have the accounts irl out there in the world lmao.

Also the wording from ‘Finn’ was suspicious. “I’m not famous”, “I’m not important”, like okay, but who/what are you then?? If it was really an announcement of a fake person bc they felt guilty it would’ve been a little more specific saying this definitely was not real, and again, how would they have got certain posts up there like the 100k video of it was just a random person with nothing to do with the film. And if it was just someone who worked on it but not Joe, they probably would have said that. Either way it would have been more clear and less vague, especially to not have people theorise/still have hope, I think. Especially if it was a pr thing.

If it was a team who worked on the film as well, they would probably be more specific, and I’m not sure if there would have been a test stream if it was a professional farewell. And, out of nowhere live streaming, introducing a random character in a very cryptic way, then bouncing, is something that draws people in, not wraps things up, is importantly what I’m trying to say. Obviously we just can’t be sure until A) we get an update, or B) we get no updates, lol!

I mean it would be v funny if Finn Wolfhard stole Joe Keery’s phone while they’re filming Stranger Things and decided to prank all his fanbase from another piece of work lmfao, but that’s what I’m saying, no one knows what this is!!

Also because there have been pranks on this channel before. Like the ‘Spree 2’ trailer on April Fools day/Kurt’s birthday. And posts that have lead to nowhere eventually, again, the community post about an important update that never came.

But either way it was lovely to have. They’ve updated the channel description to “Peace out!” But I really hope they don’t delete the channel because it’s a nice thing to have up <3

Also s/o to any of you who were in chat because we probably read each other’s messages lmaoo. Just Kurtsworld96 bringing us all together ❤️🌏😁✌️

[astrologycharts242]

Me reading a random person's from South Korea chart

I see so many people reading charts online of random people. I can't even call these people astrologers because I end up disappointed with what they say during the reading. Maybe I'm the same so imma give this a try only this one time because I don't want people to think I do this for free. This is the chart of someone born in south Korea. I don't know if she still lives there.Hopefully the birthday is correct because it was commented with just numbers and not November ...It's easier to accidentally press the wrong number and that can waste everyone's time. Later on she confirmed it is correct. I told her to give me any house of her choice for me to read.

She chose the 7th so let's go.

She wanted to know about marriage initially and her chart definitely shows marriage. For multiple reasons the Saturn in her 7th house sidereal chart is an easy giveaway. It's even conjunct Jupiter both are dead giveaways.

Her tropical chart shows sun mercury conjunction in the 1st house aspecting the 7th house.

Saturn moon conjunction in the 7th house so again tons of planets are giving energy to the 7th house of marriage, spouse and fiance.

The moon chart has a sun mercury conjunction in the 7th house.

I read a female's chart one time and she had a similar conjunction different signs but she never got married only engaged. She was in her 50s when I read that chart. This female's from south korea chart for sure shows her at least having a fiance in her lifetime. The Jupiter Saturn conjunction will obviously make a marriage situation occur though.With so many planets influencing her marriage life. Most likely she will be married more than once especially because of Saturn. I'll explain why more so at the end. Now that her chart easily shows she will get married in this lifetime I'll focus on her sidereal, then moon, then tropical chart individually.

Oh by the way if her chart easily shows marriage in this lifetime then it's a good indication she won't die before she gets married or engaged. Very important because I see people on social media make suicidal posts. This South Korean woman will survive lots of issues with depression etc. She could use that as a way to feel optimistic in her bad moments in life. Be like hey at least I'll live long enough to see marriage.

SIDEREAL

The 7th house represents; interactions with other people particularly with strangers in public, it shows who we interact with the most, spouse/fiance, legal contracts, business partnerships etc.

First I have to breakdown the planets in her 7th house. I see a Jupiter Saturn conjunction. Saturn conjunct Jupiter in Taurus 7th house. Jupiter represents optimism, shows what gives us new opportunities in life that's why it expands the significance of the house it is in. Hence why it represents optimism. Imagine being stuck at a job you hate. You will out of nowhere get excited if you get a new job opportunity. Whereas Saturn is delays, limitations, restrictions, step relationships, it shows what makes us uncomfortable and bored. The discomfort Saturn brings is for various reasons like someone being way older than you so you both can not relate. I don't know why but wherever Saturn goes it just brings like a bad vibe or negative energy with things or people the house Saturn is in. Saturn also shows what we administer. It shows people who will be strict with us. Saturn shows what we have to become responsible for.

This conjunction basically delays the success, optimism, new opportunities that Jupiter in the 7th house brings. This conjunction in her 7th house will make her not have optimism from marriage. What I mean by that is the thought of marriage or being engaged won't excite her. This is the reason why Saturn will delay or create a fear of her getting married.When she does get married though issues with marriage will occur during her Saturn antardashas. She would end up being bored or not wanting to be around her spouse. In fact I remember Jada Smith having a similar Saturn placement in her sidereal chart. The Saturn Jupiter conjunction in the 7th house would make her limit interacting with strangers especially in public. This obviously makes someone become very introverted because why else wouldn't she want to interact with others?She will feel and it does happen too. Interactions with strangers become a let down. She won't even feel or get excited to interact with strangers. If she was to start a business. She wouldn't have that many business partners because Saturn will limit that.

This conjunction is in the Taurus sign of speech so that means she isn't even interested in speaking with strangers, or business partners. Another reason why she has a hard time getting along with them. The conversations become an issue. In her saturn antardashas conversations with the spouse become limited. I'm assuming will and Jada Smith have this same problem. Of course you may be wondering yes this conjunction will delay her from getting married. The time frame can vary though like if she gets married or engaged in her 40s 30s etc.

Really the delay frame ends age 27 onwards from my research but when exactly that's when an astrologer has to look and see. For example like even without me trying hard I wouldn't be surprised if in 2024She meets her future spouse July or August 2024. Most likely it's in south Korea, through the introduction of her mother, or the spouse surprisingly is in her home environment. The home environment as in the spouse may actually end up inside of her house for various reasons like to fix something. She might live in an apartment and the spouse suddenly moves in as a neighbor.

How I'm seeing this is because Saturn rules her 3rd house of neighbors, cousins, younger siblings.

Which means those people might also introduce her to the spouse. It might just mean her spouse is an actual neighbor only her would know and this actually a pretty good date to find out. 3rd house represents social media too and short distance traveling so what if she just meets the spouse online or whiles she is catching the train.

The most likely scenario is she meets the spouse in her home environment/neighborhood, online like through dating apps, or when she is walking or catching the train. It's gonna be in South Korea as well. Saturn also rules her 4th house of homes and mother so homes and vehicles are connected to the spouse. This means when she meets her spouse next year most likely she lives in the same household or shares vehicles with that person. It's gonna be her spouse owning those things.

For her to know who is her spouse from a career perspective. Around the time she meets this person. This future spouse will be going or at least just went through a career change a month before they meet each other. Maybe that spouse loses or gets a new job. The spouse's work environment is going to be about 1st house things like self employment, freelance work, or work being about the physical body. The work is about Saturn in Taurus so it can be work where a person has to use machines on the body particular the head. A barber or a cosmetologist comes to mind. A fashion stylist is a slight possibility but I don't think so.

Her Saturn is in krittika nakshatra so her spouse can be doing work required to managing or protecting a person's body like a security or a bodyguard. Her spouse is gonna be through a maturation phase on the head and body so her future spouse might be growing grey hair around that time.

Now when Jupiter will start bringing optimism and stop the limitations of the 7th house things is when she reaches age 27 onwards or goes into her Jupiter antardashas. This is when tons of people will want to start interacting with her. Jupiter antardashas might be the time period she starts, getting engaged or married. For sure she would be enjoying marriage and find it as a great time to be around the spouse.

These two planets rule certain houses so now I have to read the planets individually. This is the beautiful part about a Saturn Jupiter conjunction because we can read the planets individually,and just remember that Saturn delays the results Jupiter would bring.

[moonmeg]

Reading through your au pair stuff and you sound very harsh towards the girl, acusing her of gaslighting you and making your life so miserable that you need to get out immediately. Four years ago she was still losing her baby teeth. She’s a kid. Think about it from her perspective. First, she’s fourteen-which is miserable no matter what the situation. Fourteen year olds are just like that. Second, she probably feels like you’re being forced on her- you said it’s your job to befriend and look after the kids? She probably feels like that’s all entirely fake and doesn’t want friendship if it’s an obligation on your part. Your friendship feels like a lie to her, most likely. Third, are you essentially a stranger in their house? Like, did you know her before or does the family make their kids live with random ass people they host? That’s a HUGE source of stress for kids, especially young teens. I don’t doubt that she can be bitchy but also, this cannot be an easy situation for her to deal with. And she’s dealing with it using an undeveloped brain that still struggles to make the right decisions socially.

It absolutely is a stressful situation for her too, no doubt. She told me so more than once herself and I feel bad for her in this aspect. In many situations I would've reacted the same as she does right now. I know she is a kid (she's 11 btw not 14) and I know having a stranger in your house whose friendship seems forced on you is not nice.

It's not her fault her parents keep dragging strangers in.

It however doesn't excuse her being rude and mean to the people around her. She treats her other family like this too. Everyone around her keeps saying that her being rude and aggressive... it's her character. She's always been like that and only sometimes is not.

I am harsh, oh I definitely am harsh on her (on tumblr). Because this has been going on for months without change. I've been patient with her because I am fully aware she is a kid and she is in a tough age and I can understand many of the situations she got mad at me and for many of those I do listen to her and do apologize. I still treat her with kindness and respect, despite how tired and mad I am at her for other things, because I don't just want to give her up.

I draw the line at trying to convince me I am in the wrong for doing my job (which also includes telling the parents about her behavior etc.) by just making stuff up out of nowhere and at blaming me for all fights she has with her parents. I have been enduring it because I thought she is young, she is just a kid, she'll grow. But I have reached my limit. My posts here regarding my situation with her are filled with a lot of emotion and bias since I write and post them shortly after the situation happened and so they sound and are harsh. Is it right of me? Perhaps not.

I don't want to claim myself to be a good au pair - I'm far off from that by own fault of mine.

I don't want to claim I have been flawless these 5 months. I am fully aware the things that are required of me can become annoying and are sometimes even things I wouldn't do on other people. I am fully aware this girl is probably just so tired of having au pairs around and just wants to be alone.

Nothing you said in the ask is wrong and I am totally with you there. I'm not searching for trouble or a fight. Not in the host family, not with anyone else.

You can think of all this and of me as you want. At this point I am just too tired caring about what other people think or have to say. Be it family, friends or strangers on the internet.

[interdimensionalvoid]

GRABS YOU VIOLENTLY GRABS UOU VIOLENTLY GRABS YOU VIOLENTLY GRABS

Anywy

SO BASICALLY

We have our three main characters

Yuki

Oro

Lennox

Originally this was gonna be like

a multiplanet thing but then i decided thats too hard and has too much uneeded detail

but imagine the setting being similar to like raya and the last dragon or wings of fire

where theres distinct parts of the area/contienr/whatever and they’re all impossibly different from eachother from a scientific stand point

Also there’s these monsters called the shaydo and they’re kinda like over powered ghosts

hard to explain, but they’re basically the big bad and caused a bunch of cchaos and now everyone kinda got more racist (as in some races/species blamed others for the reason the shaydo came into being)

so now that i gave you a dollar store world build, let’s get on with the plot

so we have our main character Oro who’s a wood elf and a warlock who has hardcore main character syndrome and kinda just wakes up with the thought of “Man I would totally be the oerfect guy to just go out and stop these evil forces!”

because y’know

an unathletic, illiterate, spoiled brat is the perfect person to go and stop an unknown force of evil haha slay

so he decides to go to the middle of butt fuck no where. literally. with no prompt. no single clue. he just,,, goes there,,,

so in the middle of this desert place thinking highly of himself that he’s just gonna magically have the most epic showdown of all time and win

the obligatory LARGE SAND MONSTER (woooo!!! Yeahhhhh!!! Sand monster!!!!!!!!!!!) appears and now he’s running for his life from the obligatory large sand monster

anyway while he cries and screams like a pathetic baby (because he never thought to yknow. use magic. bc he’s a warlock meaning he could get his demon sugar daddy to help him out, but whatever)

a perfectly placed and conveniently timed stranger comes in and rescues him from doom

he doesnt even get to see this mystery person because he… passes out from shock��� (sigh) okay then… uhm,,,

So while he’s out the mystery person is just poking him like

(fast doodle ignore the poor anatomy)

Ofc our mc has to get up evebtually and when he does he immediately blames his savior as working against him and other random nonsensical accusations

and of course they’re kinda pissed because they simply could have not saved oro from the mega death worm fish but,,, okay,,,

eventually they calm him down and introduce themselves as Yuki (a name which they made up on the spot)

Oro (instead of being a decent guest) begins judging and questioning Yuki’s appearance (which Yuki ignores because tbh they’re kind of tired)

Yuki asks him why he’s out in but fuck nowhere and Oro goes on a whole hero monologue

After he finishes Yuki laughs at him (rightfully so) and explains his plan is stupid and “if you cant punch it or reason with it, then you’re not gonna make any progress”

yuki then offers Oro to stay for the night with them and their old guy

Oro agrees and then decides to get Yuki on board to go with him on this mindless adventure

Yuki agrees only for the reason that Oro might kill himself because of his stupidity and lack of knowledge

Together the two set out to go to slmewhere where they COULD get information about the shaydo and maybe how to defeat them

there they meet Lennox

a really big dude with long hair who i accidentally made to look like jesus in the original character sketch

Lennox is one of those silly racist people and openly states his distrust of Yuki countless times, not because of the shaydo or anything

but because he just hates shape shifters and finds them dishonest

As Yuki tries to drag oro away so that they could go find info on the shaydo, lennox inserts himself into the group because he doesnt want oro to get screwed over by Yuki

so now we have a group of people who kinda have different motives and whatever, two of them trying to make sure oro doesn’t kill himself and oro expressing that he’s going to defeat the shaydo

anyway im writing too much so im gonna kinda put bullet points to sum up what happens before the whole ending stuffs

The whole group obviously comes closer together because life or death situations hehehe

Yuki qnd Lennox get extremely close because they both have very similar traumatic experiences

Oro (while getting to know the other two more) slowly grows more spiteful because they’re making great progress in finding out how to defeat the shaydo and his demon sugar daddy is basically feeding this hate into his head about how they’re going to “steal his fame” and “take full credit”

Eventually the big cool final battle thing happens and uhh…

oro decides to get a bit silly with it and uhm

kinda screws everyone over hehe

he rlly said “if i cant have peetah no one can”

and uh yeah

this is still being torn apart and mashed together and the plot makes no sense

so please ask many questions because the more you ask the better i can make the plot make sense for my reasers 🥺🥺🥺

OOHHHHHHH THIS IS COOL

Do you have any drawings or sketches of them?

[thiefking]

(ALERT. WARNING. OPINIONS EXPRESSED IN THE FOLLOWING POST ARE NOT MEANT TO INSINUATE I THINK THAT PEOPLE WHO USE TONE TAGS ARE BAD OR HAVE BAD INTENTIONS. I AM SIMPLY POINTING OUT SOME OF MY FRUSTRATIONS WITH THEM AND HOW THEY WORK, OR RATHER DO NOT WORK, IN AN EXAGGERATEDLY ANGRY/LOUD MANNER AT A HYPOTHETICAL SITUATION, NOT A SPECIFIC PERSON OR PERSONS OR INCIDENT, AND IT WASN'T EVEN THE MAIN POINT OF THE POST I WAS ORIGINALLY WRITING WHICH WAS JUST ABOUT SOME ANNOYING OVER-COMMENTED STUFF ON MY POST. ALERT. WARNING)

i am still pleased and amazed at the amount of people on my tone indicator parantheticals post who AREN'T being weird and aggro, but i will say. while i got tired of the aggro ones the moment the first one showed up i have also grown tired of the "this is just tumblr tags/congrats you just reinvented tumblr tags" observation. it has been made many times, i can never tell if it's a teasing joke or if they're seriously like "umm dumbass this is the same thing" (because of course they are not paired with any indication of intent, such as a word encased in a pair of parentheses, because for some reason being overfamiliar with strangers on the internet has become very normalized, and they just expect that if they say things to people they have never met that the person they say that to will be able to tell whether they are kidding or trying to insult them, which is highly variable per person) and either way it's like...

i mean. yeah. on tumblr, that is the same thing as what you could use the tags for

but tumblr isn't a messaging app

even its in-built dms do not have tags

if you are using discord if you type a # it would prompt you to pick a channel you are referring to

The Primary Location You Would Use Tone Indicators Is In Conversation With Others And Tumblr Is Technically A Blogging Platform

also a bunch of people are like "ummm or you could just put it in the SENTENCE like a NORMAL PERSON" and first of all shut up. secondly nowhere in the post did i say that i specifically would rather someone use random parantheticals instead of just stating their intent in the actual sentence, i said i would prefer parantheticals over highly abbreviated tone tags. obviously i would prefer people just say properly what they mean, that is literally what i do when i have a genuine question to ask, i don't do "what do you mean (genuine) (sincere question) (confused)" i say "sorry i'm a little confused, what do you mean by xyz?". literally did not fucking say that i think parantheticals would be better than just saying what you actually mean to begin with IN the initial question. however THIRDLY sometimes you just fucking have adhd or the conversation is fast and you don't think to phrase it carefully. and in that situation you might realize after you already sent the message that it's ambiguous what you meant or if you were sincere, so you send like "(JOKE)" or "genuine question" or if you make a reference "(you know like xyz meme/show/game)" immediately afterwards so people know and can respond appropriately. and i would so much rather see people spell the fucking thing out instead of saying /j or /gen or god forbid /ref (WHAT!!! ARE YOU FUCKING REFERENCING!!! YOU CAN'T JUST SAY IT'S A REFERENCE AND LEAVE IT AT THAT THAT DOESN'T HELP!!! WHY IS THAT EVEN A TONE TAG!!! YOU HAVEN'T GIVEN ME ANY CONTEXT FOR IT, THIS IS NOT A TONE TO INDICATE, IT DOESN'T INDICATE ANYTHING, I COULD PROBABLY TELL FROM THE PHRASING TO BEGIN WITH THAT IT WAS SOME KIND OF REFERENCE ANYWAY, YOU HAVE GIVEN ME ZERO INFORMATION AAUUAUAAAAGGGGHHH the fucking autistic person who would not be able to tell that you were making a reference without the tag would probably also not be able to tell what the goddamn joke was supposed to be! i AM that autistic person sometimes!!! you cannot just /ref your way out of that if you are ACTUALLY TRYING to HELP AUTISTIC PEOPLE then make it clear you can be ASKED TO CLARIFY THINGS and then SUCK IT UP AND EXPLAIN THE JOKE EVEN IF IT MAKES IT LESS FUNNY!!! and this is entirely specific to Me who has never once wanted someone to use tone tags even when i do ask for clarification on something, but if you don't want to ruin your joke by explaining it and i already Understood that it was a joke, the /ref and or /j you put on it is actually. equivalent. to explaining the joke and ruining it...... because in this scenario i knew it was a joke already...)

ahem. anyway. i think the people who say "ummm orrr you could just bake it into the sentence :/" do not realize they are the ones being stupid while calling me stupid. because of the fact that they cannot read the post, where i don't say even once that i don't agree with them, because i am talking about something else, which is that if you gave me a choice between tone tags or tone parantheticals i would choose parantheticals

conversely i'm NOT tired of the elcor comparison, even a little bit, even though that one was also made a thousand times. i actually like that one a lot. i never played mass effect or anything i just think that's funny and cool. entire species that has autism... so beautiful ♡

[crazymadredfox]

I posted 6,347 times in 2022

That's 2,808 more posts than 2021!

40 posts created (1%)

6,307 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@megacarapa

@nullians

@your-fave-is-bi

@gonuclear

@tsunderecamour

I tagged 3,459 of my posts in 2022

Only 46% of my posts had no tags

#mp100 - 730 posts

#jjba - 522 posts

#mcr - 303 posts

#reigen - 257 posts

#sbr - 207 posts

#bsd - 205 posts

#dr stone - 165 posts

#teru - 149 posts

#kny - 133 posts

#diu - 93 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#and other is the ‘it’s objectively alright but i like it and i find enjoymentin it throught my day and my own investment in the fandom space

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

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57 notes - Posted August 6, 2022

#4

Ongoing list of mostly random, kinda insignificant things that just scream sengen:

Gen showing up on that lil tv screen in the second opening

That non essential (but appreciated) shot of them passing the telephone in ep3 that was also used in the trailer for s2

THAT ONE PANEL WHERE GEN IS THE ONLY ONE STANDING BEHIND SENKU AS HE ADDRESSES THE KINGDOM (after they merge with EoM)

Fucking senku making a Christmas tree literally knowing only gen would get it (???)

Kohaku changing clothes in front of them and saying “like these guys would care” (meaning gen and senku specifically)

Feel free to add your own

102 notes - Posted April 3, 2022

#3

me seeing posts that aren’t about my chem on dash rn

136 notes - Posted May 13, 2022

#2

out of nowhere and been said before but having such a stark parallel between senku and gen through their birthdays is so so obviously intentional and meaningful on many other levels i probably can’t think of now but:

birthdays are quite substantial, i’d say mostly because senku’s birthday was a HUGE deal, with gen calculating it and senku finally knowing he is safe, to senku’s own last name and the reveal of the village name etc etc, but also because they were quite hidden from the readers for so long. There was an ongoing speculation for all of them in the fandom, and one day they were dropped on us and all hell broke loose because they obviously weren’t random dates

Tsukasa being the strongest coinciding with 10/10 is clever and all, but the real deal is in dates around senku’s 1/4.

Chrome, who was born only a month later, the date telling us he is senku’s supposed successor, his prodigy, a brilliant mind like his own, just a bit younger.

Taiju as well, mostly in the way it’s written: 4/2 always looked to me like he’s right after senku, slightly behind, but similar enough for us to know that he is very much connected to him.

And then comes gen, born on the first of april, an inverted number to senku’s fourth of january. And from there it just keeps piling up in my mind: they are the opposites in their fields of work: senku for natural sciences and gen skilled with people and humanities; the way they talk and act, one blunt with no bullshit, other coating every word he says in honey; their early interactions when they were almost on opposite sides, before gen chose his allegiance…

And maybe the most important thing that i can’t even articulate how much it means to me: they gifted each other their birthdays. Senku revived on gen’s birthday. (That alone is SO FREAKING VALUABLE, fueling the relationship strictly in the meta sense, for us readers to interpret.) Senku meticulously kept count, and PICKED A DAY HE WOULD BREAK OUT OF STONE- not knowing of course whose birthday that is, but you can’t deny it sounds like destiny. He wakes up, and to give himself strength and the will to keep going he craves the date in a tree. And it just so happens that that date is the day gen asagiri was born. Gen gets depetrified and it’s the first thing he learns about a stranger who is the reason he got brought back: he stayed awake and counted, and he carved his birthday in a tree. It almost feels then, like gen is the one returning the favor, a bit later when he decides to surprise senku with the observatory. To be the first person to think of senku in that sense: to give him something special, even though he could tell senku doesn’t care about birthdays. To show that he is grateful that on that day millennials ago, a particular boy was born, one who would save them all.

the numbers alone are such a strict, decided and intentional correlation, something the writer decided to put in, then build upon it more and more, until these particular two dates 4/1 and 1/4 are the only ones to have so much extensive significance

Beyond even the romantic connotations I literally refuse to ignore, all this just confirms one of my favorite facts and building bricks of this series. In a story with so many moving parts and lovable, charismatic characters, it’s impossible to give them all much screen time. So, even in arcs where pilots and scientists and warriors had to slightly outshine gen, all this underlining, almost background information and storytelling just lets us know that no matter what, senku and gen share a bond that cannot be broken, replicated, or overlooked. They’re essential to each other, and whatever distance is maybe separating them truly amounts to nothing at all.

243 notes - Posted March 16, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

you guys ever think how different bsd would have to go if poe wasn’t so fiercely in love with ranpo

i swear at this point ranpo’s using his “seal someone in poe’s book” strategy as if it were his own ability

1,205 notes - Posted August 3, 2022

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[wirewitchviolet]

The older I get, the more exhausted I get with people's naivety about "callouts." Nearly everyone will unquestionably believe and pass on the most obvious, easily disproven lies about anyone, without having any clue who the subject is, who the person making the accusations is, how they came by the knowledge they are passing on, and never research anything. Not only is this true of anyone you know who "always knows what's up with things like this," it's even more true with them.

It is also absurdly common for people to just straight up make up horrible things about people. Not even people they have a particular grievance with. And of course, for whatever reason, people are extra extra prone to both make up and spread the most horrible things about trans women. Like, prior to coming out as trans, I don't recall ever having to deal with any of this, but since coming out a decade ago my life has been an absolute hell as people I have never had any form of interaction with in my life have gone around claiming, amongst other things, that I...

am a cis guy pretending to be trans for some reason, am a cis woman, am a hot and popular girl in the grand hot popular girl conspiracy, am a virulent racist, am a nazi, am the leader of my own personal terrorist organization, co-lead a terror-organization with along with some particular nazi, own several newspapers, launched the career of a certain TV writer turned full-time cartoon villain, slept with said villain to get ahead in life, slept with said villain to help him get ahead in life (I think I was supposed to have received like, free proofreading in exchange or something?), spurned the affections of said villain prompting his fall to evil, am actively conspiring with some guy's mom to have him re-committed to some involuntary in-patient psychological treatment/incarceration of some sort, have a long and storied history posting things on the Something Awful forums, have a burning hatred of a good number of random strangers, as well as several people I have only ever been on the best of terms with, am this guy, am some manner of billionaire heiress, am a cop, am a CIA operative, am specifically a Brazillian cop, am being payed by George Soros to do something or other, lie at the heart of some vast conspiracy involving both DARPA and DiGRA, live in Texas, California, Washington, Brazil, England, and Russia, am some sort of "skinny little bitch," weigh over 500 lbs., have a beard that reaches the floor, have no hair whatsoever, have blue hair, have, and I quote, "breast milk sack implants," all manner of terrible horrors in place of genitals, every fetish under the sun, and I'm sure some laundry list of violent and sexual crimes along with just generally being super mean to who even knows how many people.

And I am just... as dull and unimportant as people come. I live alone with a cat in the middle of nowhere, talk to practically no one ever, don't even have... whatever people use to message people these days, and kinda just sit here minding my own business, updating this blog, designing niche little games, working with electronics, and managing my growing list of health problems. But I'm trans, see. So people make up all this crap, and people, including self-styled anti-harassment who've known me for years, and people at least pretend to take enough of this obvious nonsense seriously enough for me to be both publicly shunned, blackballed out of multiple industries, and has necessitated me to completely lock down my whole life, never share any personal details that could be used to identify me, or even share pictures of this super photogenic cat next to me, and I've still had to move to new undisclosed little boltholes more than once thanks to in-person violence.

So I don't know, maybe when you hear someone talking about how terrible someone is, rather than just assume by default that that is legit, you instead maybe make it a policy to assume someone is arbitrarily making up nasty rumors about someone, and honestly unless the subject is running for some political office you can vote for or you're contributing money to someone directly funding hate groups or something (in which case, you should still take the time to independently verify things), just sigh at how people waste their time with stuff like this, don't acknowledge it, and move on with your life.

God, it's fucking remarkable how people claim to support predstrogen and oppose transmisogyny, while still participating in transmisogynist harassment campaigns like the one against the co-host co-founder.

Like that's literally what the scandal is about. Predstrogen was the victim of years-long harassment campaign which used mass-reporting and got her account banned. And tumblr let her harassers blogs stay up while deleting her accounts. And the ceo took criticism of tumblr's transmisogynistic moderation practices as a personal insult to his self-image as a cool dude, so he has repeatedly personally justified it. Matt Mullenweg isn't the only villain here, the hate mob driving harassment against her is too.

I remember the callout posts against predstrogen, sometimes thy were outright terfs, but others justified the harassment in the same coded ways they do for every trans woman. "She was into problematic kinks or defended them, and therefore basically a pedophile sexual predator." Or "she is a transfeminist, therefore she is a transandrophobe that hates transmascs."

Like it's the same pattern of bullshit, it doesn't explicit target her identity as a trans woman, but these callouts repeatedly happen to transfem after transfem every fucking time. And they always use the same bullshit accusations that just so happen to line up with the widespread transmisogynistic image of transfems as sexual predators who oppress real wombyn.

The reason predstrogen's story resonates is because it vividly shows what it is like to be a transfem on this platform.It didn't just happen to her as an individual, It's part of a larger systemic pattern of transmisogyny.

If you participate in these transmisogynistic callout harassment even by just reblogging the callouts, you are also a villain here. And you can't claim to support predstrogen while participating in the process that drove her off the platform.

You can't condemn Matt Mullenweg when you are a willing cog in the same transmisogynistic hate machine that he is defending. The only difference between you and Mullenweg is not that you lack his bigotry, it's that you lack his millions of dollars, and the immense individual power and influence that brings.

[causenessus]

LOVLINESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!! HELLO HELLO!! good morning evening or afternoon!! i hope you’ve eaten!! make sure you eat AND DRINK WATER!! AND REST!! I MISSED YOU VERY VERY MUCH !! dming you isn’t enough i need you to fly over here now !! (lovingly)(i will wait for you<3333333333333) or !! i’ll just fly to you !! IM VERY EXCITED TO WRITE BACK I ALWAYS LOVE LOVE LOVE WRITING THESE RESPONSES OUT!!(my keyboard is trying to tell me to stop using a lot of repetition in my paragraphs but i mean it when i say i LOVE LOVE LOVE NESS!! THEY CANT STOP ME!!) also i love sending in long asks like it’s kind of our thing now and i feel like i’ve started a little trend with the long asks and the nickname WHICH I AM VERY HAPPY ABOUT !! ness you deserve so so much love in the world so MWUAH MWUAH MWUAH and i know i already told you(so i hope you don’t mind me repeating some stuff) BUT I DID HAVE MANGO SORBET AND MANGO STICKY RICE!! i was very excited to tell you AND I TOTALLY GET WHAT YOU MEAN BY FORMS SO DONT WORRY!! and my account is like a little scavenger hunt so i think it’s really silly! but for the sake of being your mango anon i will stay anon!!

I ACTUALLY USED TO LOVEEEEE FRENCH TOAST BUT MAINLY FOR THE CINNAMON TASTE!! like i remember i would order french toast at breakfast places a lot then i tried to make it at home and it was…. so so bad…(wonder bread you failed me) my bread was definitely too soggy and the mixture was too eggy BUT when i get like actual french toast bread(?) then ill try again! ALSO THE WEATHER IS DEFINITELY RISING AND FALLING CONSTANTLY but im definitely craving hotpot now that you’ve mentioned it !! also ness you will have to fight me to the cashier because i would definitely pay for you!! (fight as in i would wrap you in bubble wrap and keep you safe in a little booth <3333) I WORK MY BUTT OFF AT THIS JOB FOR YOU !! (the job i have STILL yet to decide if i should quit)(but it is past wednesday so im not sure what’s supposed to happen now since i was supposed to tell them before wednesday)(OH WELL!)

I GET BEING USED TO CLOSING!! because when i first started working i closed all the time since i had school and closing were the only shifts i could do so they always put me closing! i was so used to it but i liked opening a lot better because we’re kind of opposite! for my job it’s a lot more busy after 6pm compared to at 9am where it’s our most dead hour! AND I GET THE CLOTHING THING TRUST ME!!! i get the biggest ick when it comes to touching people’s clothes and like the textured 100%!! i wear gloves at my workplace and i always wear long sleeve no matter the weather because i am NOT letting these peoples skin cells touch MY skin cells !! it’s definitely one of the least favourite parts of the job ESPECIALLY in the fitting room because the clothes are all warm and HHHHH IM SORRY FOR SAYING IT LIKE THAT BUT it’s terrible!! trust me!! AND DW ABOUT NOT REMEMBERING CUSTOMER INTERACTIONS BECAUSE ME TOO!! the only ones i remember are the times where a customer was REALLLLY sweet or REALLLLLLLY mean(also the mean customers typically complain about the same thing so it’s like)(alright…here we go again!) also i would always fold and hang your clothes up nicely ness <3333333 we should 100% become roommates and i’ll take care of your laundry <33333333333333333333 AND YES DONT WORRY!! OFC ITS OKAY TO SAY BECAUSE I GET IT LIKE the idea of having the hang up some strangers clothes for hours does NOT sound appealing whatsoever like i always need gloves on and HAND SANITIZER!! this is also kind of random and completely out of nowhere but my least favourite thing is when i have to explain to a customer why they can’t return underwear like why am i here explaining to some grown person why we can’t accept their returned underwear!! maybe it’s… i’m not sure… HYGIENE?? like im sorry but we are NOT gonna resell underwear that was bought and taken out of the store like IM SORRY THIS WAS SO RANDOM BUT I NEEDED TO LET IT OUT REALLY QUICKLY(that’s how much it bothers me)

also im really scared about a new store manager coming in because new managers are typically more stricter ESPECIALLY when they don’t really know how the store runs(?) IDK IF THAT MAKES SENSE but we kind of already have an environment at work and i’m just scared a new manager will come in and set like all these new rules and stuff?? (BECAUSE MY MALE MANAGER WAS LIKE THAT!!!) but once again!! we’ll see!!

ALSO I AGREE WITH YOU ON THE OIKAWA THING!! to me i feel like he’s kind of heavily mischaracterized because he’s just so so so hard to understand if that makes sense? so it’s kind of hard to nail down that solid personality because he’s such a character!! like his personality is HUGE and i’m definitely gonna go on a huge huge tangent if i dive deep into that but thorough the season we see so many different sides of oikawa it’s hard to really focus on one for writing??? if that makes sense?? LIKE HES SUCH A BIG CHARACTER AND A LOT MORE THAN JUST A PRETTY FACE!! (furudate did well with his pretty boy design!) like there’s just SOO much to oikawa SO I TOTALLY GET WHAT YOURE SAYING!! like the episode where he lost to karasuno showed so much and AHHH OIKAWA LET ME HUG YOU like his character is just… i don’t even know to describe him like he’s such a well written character and his character in itself is so so so huge and i feel like it’s definitely undermined and AHH SORRY i’m just yapping but i hope you know what i mean! i’m obviously not a writer so it’s hard to explain what’s going on in my messy head but i hope my point goes across as “i love oikawa and he deserves so so much” AND I HAD NO IDEA YOU KIN HIM!! honestly i wish i had a kin list but literally a character can do ONE thing and ill be like “omg twin me too!!” like i’m SO very bad at kins so any relatable character i’m just like “yup i love character very much id destroy the world for them” !!!

AND YES THE WORK STORY LIKE i’m pretty sure i can dig up old old old screenshots because it was SOOOO wild! like this was happening in a group chat of like 50 other people and they were just hashing it out! im not even sure why amira was upset about it? and to this day i just have no idea! and our managers were DEFINITELY not slick like at that point you might as well have @‘d her LOL

OMG I CANT BELIEVE YOUR SHOW IS STARTING SOON?? brb i need to go book my tickets rn to come fly to you!! tell the sound people NOT to worry because mango anon is here!! AND DONT WORRY I WILL LISTEN TO ALL YOUR TECH STORIES!! i love hearing about your day and everything !! ALSO NESS WHY IS THERE ALWAYS SO MANY WEIRD PEOPLE AT YOU SCHOOL…(NO OFFENCE IM SORRY) but like some of these people i hear about are so silly and weird?? AND HE PUT HIMSELF IN THE FLY SYSTEM WHAT??? i can’t even imagine how tired you must be like if i saw that i think i would just be speechless and STARE BECAUSE WHAT?? ness i’m flying over right now like i’m on the plane we im typing this rn!! like ill literally be your guardian angel and you can text me whenever you’re feeling stressed or if you just need a moment to relax!!

MY MOM HAS TATTOOED EYEBROWS TOO! i swear this is an asian mom thing because a lot of the older asian women i see at work also have the tattooed eyebrows!!

random intermission to drink water! and don’t worry ness you’re perfect and everything is okay <3333 make sure to rest well and to eat and take care of yourself!! <3333333333

YOUR MANAGER MADE YOU CRY ANOTHER TIME ACROSS THE STREET?? ness my love you don’t deserve that like i can’t wait until they finally let you leave that place BECAUSE YOU DONT DESERVE THAT!! next time just tap me in and ill take over!! i totally know how to be a hostess and i totally have worked in a restaurant before and ill totally be okay!! (the only thing id be good at is folding the fancy napkins)

ness have a kiss like im gonna kiss you right on the lips MWUAH like everytime i get an update on your life i feel so hhhhh LIKE I LOVE HEARING ABOUT YOU!! and knowing that i make your days better makes me feel so squishy happy and giggly like i’m literally kicking my feet rn!!!

AND IVE BEEN SLEEPING BETTER NOW!! that 2 hour sleep day was suchhhh a long long long day but i made it through(NEVER AGAIN THOUGH!) being sleep deprived is such an out of body experience that i will not go through again because like microsleeping is actually so scary sometimes like JOLTING awake randomly IS SO SCARY?? especially at school because im like omg omg what if someone saw?? like imagine you just seeing someone’s head rise and jolt up every few minutes LOL LIKE I CANT HAVE SOMEONE SEE ME LIKE THAT ID CRY (but i’m pretty confident that someone did see like i’m surrounded by so many people)(at least ONE person had to have seen)

NESS BRAINROT TIKTOK AUDIOS HAVE TAKEN OVER MY BRAIN IM SO SCARED like i spend TOO much time on my phone, i definitely need to start going on my walks again and enjoy the weather before winter starts like my screen time is so so bad ness i need someone to take away my phone(but i need maybe 2 hours a day so i can make sure you’re okay and write out my asks back to you <33333333333333)

ALSO THAT LIGHTS KID THAT GOT YELLED AT BY THE DIRECTOR </333 i feel for him because i’ve definitely had a bunch of mess ups throughout my tech career! and it was definitely not his fault because our lights were also super super old and rusty and dusty and i remember our lights people struggling with that too! and getting them to focus properly too can be SO hard sometimes or like when you wanna get the right brightness so i totally feel for him and hope he’s okay </3 all tech theatre kids should honestly join like a community therapy circle where we all just talk about tech LOL and i swear all directors are just so mean like i get they want the show to go perfect and it’s frustrating when they don’t BUT WE ARE JUST KIDS!! like someone needs to talk back to these toxic directors because why not add to the drama <33333 but i’m manifesting a GOOD show for you and hopefully no toxic director !! if he’s ever mean to you then LET ME KNOW AND ILL CRAWL OUT YOUR PHONE AND ATTACK HIM !!!!

ALSO i think my brain just reads yn as “your name” but then i also think of your name the anime LOL so then sometimes i just say the letters y-n like it’s so silly because when i read my name it’s like HHH noooo that doesnt sound right but yn? YEAHH Y-N!! like wdym yn isn’t an actual character?? wdym yn isn’t her name?? whaaaattt wdym wdym??

PURPLE HEART MAN WHEREVER YOU ARE I HOPE YOURE OKAY!! and i’m so sorry about your bracelet like ill literally buy you a new one OR ILL MAKE A NEW ONE FOR YOU!! but omg I TOTALLY GET YOU NOT WANTING TO PICK IT UP like idk why it’s embarrassing to like drop a bunch of things and having to pick it up?? like I DONT WANNA DO THAT!! i remember this one time i opened my wallet weirdly and my COINS ALL FELL OUT… LIKE NESS I WANTED TO CRY i was in line paying for something and suddenly all my coins fall?? and the lovely lovely cashier came to help me but i wanted to just pass away right then and there like i blur that memory in the back of my head but i hope that cashier is having a really good day right now(thank you for helping me pick up my coins dearest cashier)(i was so embarrassed and wanted to cry but she made it a little bit better by speeding up my process of getting out of there!)

MY COWORKERS LEAVING ARE ALWAYS SO SAD like it’s truly the end of an era now because all the workers i started with are now leaving like guys pls don’t leave </3333 but it’s time for me to go too im sure like i’ve been at this job for way too long!! i don’t work again until the 27 THANKFULLY!! but when i do go in i think im just gonna tell my manager that it’s not working out anymore and mango anon needs to leave and prioritize schol now(it is the end of mango anons clothing retail era)

OH also omg i had no idea where to put this but so me and my cousins went out today!! we went to this scary escape room like WE LITERALLY GOT CHASED??? AND THERE WAS BANGING ON THE DOORS LIKE ness i had to stay strong I HAD TO PRETEND TO BE NONCHALANT WHEN REALLY I WANTED TO SCREAM like somehow we escaped(but we did go over like 10 minutes of our time)(the nice guy let us extend because there wasn’t another group right after us) IT WAS SO FUN THOUGH!! it was so funny because i opened this box and i screamed and threw it when i saw a fake hand like IDK WHY I WAS SO SCARED?? it was so funny and my cousins were like “MANGO ANON WHY ARE YOU SCREAMING” like it was hilarious because i don’t even know why i started screaming? i was feeling fine before but BOOM a fake hand has me screaming and throwing stuff around all the sudden(if we ever did a scary escape room ill protect you I WILL NOT SCREAM!!) and then afterwards we went to go eat japanese food and i had this beef and rice bowl!! it was pretty good but it was SUCH a big portion i couldn’t finish it all(brought it home for leftovers!) and we got ice cream(MANGO SORBET!!) and dessert(MANGO STICKY RICE!!) then went back home where we literally just played gartic phone and volleyball LOL i was like omg haikyuu moment? i was literally thinking of you! but we were using my old flat volleyball from when i was on the team during middle school and high school(but i played in like a community volleyball team???)(like i didn’t join the high school team because idk i didn’t wanna play in front of my classmates and be all sweaty and stuff)(ALSO i was too shy to go to tryouts LOL so i just had this like cutesy little team and i <3 them so much)

BUT ANYWAYS!! make sure to eat and take care of yourself!! SENDING MY CREDIT CARD TO YOUR DMS RN FOR YOU TO GET YOURSELF SOMETHING PRETTY AND SOMETHING SWEET<333333 i love you so so so very much please take care of yourself and eat!! UNTIL NEXT TIME !!!! <3333333 XOXOXOXO

MANGO ANONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN <33 IK WE'VE BEEN DMING BUT I'VE MISSED YOU!! THESE LONGS ASKS WILL I ALWAYS HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART AND I LOVE THAT WE'RE ALWAYS HAVING LIKE 20 CONVERSATIONS AT THE SAME TIME /POS <333 I HOPE WE KEEP THESE UP BUT OBVIOUSLY NO PRESSURE!!! I HOPE YOU ARE DOING WELL AND EATING AS WELL!! GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR SHIFT TODAY <33 (also side note but i am eating MAC N CHEESE!!! AS I RESPOND TO THIS!!! THIS WAS ATTEMPT 2 WITH A DIFFERENT BRAND LIKE WE WERE TALKING ABOUT LAST NIGHT AND IT'S SO SO GOOD 😭😭 I WAS SO TRAUMATIZED FROM YESTERDAY) AND DW!! I'M ACTUALLY BUYING MY PLANE TICKET NOW!!! I'M OMW MANGO ANON <3 AND OFC I DON'T MIND YOU REPEATING THINGS!!!! AAA MANGO SORBET AND MANGO STICKY RICE BOTH SOUND SO GOOD!!!! i finished all of the mangos i bought a few days ago and i think i need to go back to buy more soon 😔😔 you've gotten me on such a big mango kick!!!

AND AA YES FRENCH TOAST!! I WILL MAKE YOU FRENCH TOAST MANGO ANON!!! I HAVEN'T MADE SOME IN A BIT BUT I THINK I'M SORT OF GOOD AT IT <33 AND IF I'M NOT I WILL GET BETTER AT IT AND MAKE SOME FOR YOU!! and i meant to message u this yesterday but i was also thinking about hot pot again 😔😔 like i need to go to u but u need to come here rq so we can get hot pot together at this place i know and then we can fly back together!!!! AND I'M PAYING FOR YOUR FOOD AND PLANE TICKETS!!!!!!!! i'll wrap u up in bubble wrap first and give you a kiss on the head and a hug before i go pay <3 mwah (AND TAKE AS MUCH TIME AS U NEED TO DECIDE ABOUT QUITTING OR NOT!!! IT SEEMS LIKE UR MALE MANAGER DESPERATELY NEEDS U ANYWAY SO HE BETTER GIVE U ALL THE TIME U NEED TO DECIDE!!)

I'M GLAD U WEAR GLOVES!! I AM 100% WITH YOU ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE'S SKIN CELLS TOUCHING YOU I'M THE SAME WAY 😭 BUT EWHUFHEJKEBRFJERFNLK THE CLOTHES BEING WARM ERHIEGBUEG I'M SO SORRY FOR YOU MANGO ANON 😭😭 THE WAY MY FACE WAS CRINGING JUST THINKING ABOUT IT I CAN'T IMAGINE WHAT IT'S LIKE TO ACTUALLY HAVE TO TOUCH THEM!!! and omg on the note of forgetting customer interactions 😭��� basically at my work yk sometimes people just come in to pick up their orders so we take their last name so i saw someone come in and i was like "oh!!!!!! i remember this person i took their order!!" and i was like "oh hi!!! your last name is [wrong last name] right??" LIKE I COMPLETELY GOT IT WRONG 😭😭 I WAS CLOSE BC IT WAS THE RIGHT STARTING LETTER BUT I GOT THEM MIXED UP WITH ANOTHER CUSTOMER I FELT SO BAD 😭😭 but omg yes!!! we can be roomates!! i will help with the laundry (although i'm def not super good at folding laundry </3) AND I'LL COOK AND CLEAN AND TAKE CARE OF U DON'T WORRY!!!

AND I'M????????? THE UNDERWEAR THING?????????????????? i need them to use their thinking brains here!! like...would they want to buy underwear knowing they've been used before?? I DIDN'T THINK SO i can't believe some customers can't understand that 😭😭 or like ACCEPT IT IF YOU TELL THEM THAT?? like idk why customers fight with workers sometime like!!! bro i want you out of my face asap i'm not purposely trying to pick a fight with u please!!!

AND NO THAT TOALLY MAKES SENSE ABOUT THE NEW MANAGER THING!! at my last job funny story but literally my FIRST DAY THERE my trainer didn't show up (apparently he had just quit and come back) and so the only other person on register that day had to do her job AND train me (luckily she was actually one of my good friends and i was only working there bc she was <3) AND that restaurant was getting a new manager SO THAT WAS HER FIRST DAY TOO 😭😭 and for my duration of time working there she was definitely lowkey the bad manager!! like i can't tell if they just kind of make the new managers do all the bad jobs since they're new and everything so the rest of the managers get to take it easy and be like the nice managers yk??? but she was mean and she always gave us random cleaning tasks like one time i had to CLEAN THE LEGS OF EVERY SINGLE CHAIR IN OUR RESTAURAUNT??? IN ONE SHIFT??? FOR MINIMUM WAGE PAY?? it was the absolute worst </3 i can't believe you're getting a new store manager so soon though!! like it makes sense obviously but i always wonder how those people just kind of pop out of nowhere yk 😭😭 but GOOD LUCK!! I HOPE THEY'RE OKAY <3

AND OMG I LOVE GOING ON BIG TANGENTS ABOUT OIKAWA <33 YOU'RE TOTALLY RIGHT!! he's such a big character with so much personality so it can be hard to nail down but i absolutely love him for it!!! LIKE YES I WANT TO HUG HIM TOO :(( seeing him be portrayed in just the light of kageyama/hinata's pov yk but then we get his backstory and how he's worked so hard and the reasoning into why he treats kageyama the way he does and then we see him win against karasuno but lose to shiratorizawa AND THEN LOSE HIS LAST CHANCE TO GO TO NATIONALS IN HIS THIRD YEAR </33 AND ALSO THE ENTIRE THING ABOUT OIKAWA STILL GIVING HIM ADVICE THAT ONE TIME WHILE TAKING CARE OF HIS NEPHEW </333333 AND ALSO TIMESKIP HIM MAKES ME CRY SOMETIMES just because like??? he left behind all of japan??? but also he's having so much fun and looks so so happy in argentina <33 him having all maxed out skills post-time skip and more gold medals than he knows what to do with makes me so happy BECAUSE HE'S FINALLY GETTING THE LOVE AND SUCCESS HE DESERVES YK <333 LIKE IT'S FINALLY PAYING OFF AND UGH I LOVE HIM SO MUCH <3 but yes i kin him so so hard like he's definitely probably the character i am closest too and i don't ever want that to change bc he deserves nothing less <333 

OKAY. I AM BACK LIKE 12 HOURS LATER 😭😭😭 IT'S 11 PM AND I'M PRETTY SURE I WAS WRITING THIS AT 11 AM ORIGINALLY BUT I AM BACK!! just telling u so that if it seems like i've been hit by a truck and then a bus and am running on pure adrenaline that's bc that's what happened /j

AND WIROFUBERKNLFDN YES MY SHOW IS STARTING SOON OH MY GOD MANGO ANON 😭😭😭😭 I AM SO UNBELIEVABLY STRESSED OUT MY HEAD IS ABOUT TO EXPLODE MAYBE THIS IS WHY I HAVE SO MANY HEADACHES

okay i'm going to try to explain this as best as i can bc i'm SO tired rn but just dm me if ur confused BUT to put it simply basically MY DUTIES IDK IG STARTED TODAY??? OR TECHNICALLY START NEXT WEDNESDAY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 but like today!!!! i came into my high school bc i wanted to see the kid i adopted <333 i actually love her so much and like her tech class is kind of a menace so i love being there for her (and i also had pre stage managing things to do PLUS i was looped into helping the current theatre kids put on like a little freshman-sophomore show OMG DON'T GET ME STARTED ON THAT IDK HOW I GET INTO THESE SITUATIONS) but anyway so i'm stressed out bc apparently NONE OF THEM FEEL PREPARED TO DO LIGHTS SO I'M GONNA HELP THEM HANG EVERYTHING BUT I HAVE TO DO THAT ALL THIS WEEK BC THEIR SHOW GOES UP IN TWO WEEKS AND I WON'T BE ABLE TO HELP THEM STARTING NEXT WEDNESDAY BUT SORRY THAT'S AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT THING BC THE BIG THING WAS THAT!! i see my directors and they suddenly bring up the fact that i'm meeting with them + a guest director for the musical after their school ends???? MANGO ANON THEY DIDN'T TELL ME THIS BEFOREHAND AND I HAD TO WORK SO I WAS LITERALLY ABOUT TO BREAKDOWN I WAS LIKE "???????????????????????? MEETING?????????????????????????????" and apparently my tech director (trying to make this easier for u to understand) 100% believes he told me about this yesterday (bestie bae. i wasn't in ur school yesterday WHEN DID YOU TELL ME) and my acting director was like "i'm so sorry i literally double checked with mr. tech director and was like 'OKAY so i DON'T need to text ness about this production meeting and make sure she doesn't work!!' AND MY TECH DIRECTOR SAID NO HE DIDN'T NEED TO TEXT ME?? OKAY SORRY ANYWAY BIG THING IT'S HARD TO EXPLAIN AND THE MEETING WASN'T BAD my guest director is super pretty and nice so i think it'll be fun!! i'm just so stressed out and not ready for this bc there's a lot of pressure and other things going on rn BUT IT'LL BE OKAY!!! I'LL HAVE YOU WITH ME <3 AND YOU'LL BE MY SOUND PERSON AND EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY!!!

AND OMG NO UR SO RIGHT FOR THAT THERE ARE SO SO MANY WEIRD PEOPLE AT THAT SCHOOL IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY 😭😭😭 i witnessed this same fly system kid just freehand a table saw with a piece of lauan (idk SHEET OF WOOD) like no measurements on pencil marks or anything UGH I DON'T EVEN WANT TO THINK ABOUT IT BUT OBVIOUSLY THE CUT WAS WONKY and being there in that class was lowk a nightmare like i come in to save my child from those horrors bc she does NOT deserve that 😭😭 (i'm trying to steal her and teach her things about lights bc i love her <3) but like obv i'm not helping these kids!! (besides my child) so i sat on the floor and cried instead BC I FOUND THIS RANDOM FIDGET TOY ON ANOTHER TABLE WITH A MITER SAW ON IT (that workshop is the EPITOME of safety /s) BUT THEN IT BROKE ON ME INTO LITTLE PIECES AND I WAS LIKE "NO 😭😭😭😭😭😭"

IT WAS ONE OF THESE THINGS IF U WERE CURIOUS!! IT WAS LITERALLY THE BLUE ONE AND IT BROKE AND I WAS SO DISTRAUGHT 😭😭😭

AND OMG WHY IS THE TATTOOED EYEBROWS A UNIVERSAL ASIAN MOM THING 😭😭 that's so crazy but tbh now that i think of it!! i think my grandma on my mom's side has them too SO IT FR JUST CONTINUES!!

YAY RANDOM INTERMISSION!! this is a good time to tell you (since i resumed writing this ask 12 hours after i first started it) that I DID BUY MORE MANGOS!! and i tried to choose like a ripe one this time but i think i accidentally just got lowkey expired ones 😭😭 IDK I STILL ATE THEM ANYWAY BC IDC BUT THE WHOLE TIME I WAS JUST LIKE "man i need mango anon here to tell me what a good mango tastes like 😔😔" SO I MISS YOU SO MUCH MANGO ANON!! WE NEED TO MEET UP ASAP FOR A HOTPOT AND THEN MANGO DATE <3333 MAKE SURE TO DRINK WATER AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF PLEASE!!

AND AAA YES THE FOLDING FANCY NAPKINS IS SO FUN!! like at my restaurant we're lowkey so like unprofessional despite being a slightly fancy restaurant 😭😭 so we have this one booth that just looks like an entire mess (and that most customers see when they first walk in and such I WISH I COULD DRAW YOU A PICTURE I'M SORRY MY BRAIN IS SO TIRED RN) bc it's stacked with boxes and napkins and chopsticks so like when we're not busy or have nothing to do all the servers and me will just sit there on our phones or folding napkins 😭😭 BUT I'LL TEACH YOU HOW AND WE CAN BE PROFESSIONAL NAPKIN FOLDERS TOGETHER BOOM!!!!

AND AAA I'M GIVING YOU A BIG KISS BACK MANGO ANON!!! MWAH MWAH <3 THERE'S TWO!!! I LOVE HEARING UPDATES ON YOUR LIFE TOO AAA YOU MUST UPDATE ME ON WHAT'S NEW FOR YOU PLEASE!!! AND OMG YES YOU ALWAYS MAKE MY DAYS BETTER <3 I ONLY GOT THROUGH TODAY BECAUSE I WAS SO EXCITED TO GO HOME AND REPLY TO YOU!!! <3

I'M GLAD YOU'RE SLEEPING BETTER NOW!! and i totally get how being sleep deprived is like an out of body experience 😭😭😭 like i kind of felt that way today ESPECIALLY WHEN THE FIDGET TOY BROKE ON ME i was so out of it i literally wrapped myself in a curtain and sobbed i was so distraught 😭😭 AND THIS IS NOT SAFE BUT I PROMISE I'M A GOOD DRIVER but i remember one time i was so sleep deprived (i think it was that day i stayed up until 5 am making that tonics spotify profile LMAOO) but i was SO tired and i was like "i should not be on the roads today omg" BUT I HAD TO DRIVE AROUND AND I ALMOST GOT TBONED lowkey i think bc another lady didn't stop when she had a stop sign!! but idk </3 BUT LIKE I'M ALWAYS SO OUT OF IT AND ALL MY AWARENESS OF SURROUNDINGS GOES DOWN AND I FALL ASLEEP PERIODICALLY AND WAKE UP NOT KNOWING WHERE I AM 😭😭

AND NO MY SCREENTIME IS SO BAD TOO i used to get notifs about like "ur screentime was 1 hr less than last week we're so proud of you even though you're still a loser!!!" BUT NOW THEY'RE JUST "here's how you can improve your screen time" NOTIFS AND IT MAKES ME SO ASHAMED 😭😭😭 BUT AAA WE CAN GO ON WALKS TOGETHER AND ENJOY THE NATURE TOGETHER!!! I'M FLYING THERE NOW MANGO ANON DON'T WORRY!! <3

AND HELP 😭😭 YES TECH PEOPLE DEFINITELY NEED A COMMUNITY CIRCLE GROUP!! in my production meeting today my acting director literally took a detour to call regina george kin man like captain crybaby or something bc during our musical last year my director made him cry 😭😭 bc he was in charge of our run and props and basically got blamed that props weren't making their way out with actors during rehearsals i felt so bad for him </33 and my director was out here using him as an example of how if this guest director we're working with feels like telling me to work on something that i'll definitely do it bc i'm a people pleaser (he woke up and chose violence today ig) while other people (like regina george kin man, who he used as an example) will just run away and cry and i was like "HELLO???? WHY ARE YOU COMING FOR OUR THROATS MIDDLE AGED BALD MAN 😭😭😭" (sorry i hope this all makes sense!! i can definitely re explain this in dms with names and everything AND I'M SURE THERE'S A THOUSAND GRAMMAR MISTAKES AND TYPOS IN MY WRITING TODAY EVEN THOUGH I DON'T SEE THIM RIGHT NOW AAAA)

AND AWW THAT CASHIER SOUND SO SWEET!! ACTUALLY THAT WAS ME <333 I WOULD HELP YOU PICK UP YOUR COINS ANY DAY MANGO ANON!! AND I'D TIE YOUR SHOES AND DRAW HEARTS ON THE SIDES OF THE THEM TOO <33 AND YES WE CAN MAKE BRACELETS TOGETHER MANGO ANON!! WE CAN DO THE CUTE EYE COOR ONES TOO AND IT'D BE SUPER CUTE <33

AND AA WHEN YOU SEE THIS DEF UPDATE ME ON WHAT YOU CHOSE TO DO FOR YOUR RETAIL JOB!! I KNOW WE'VE TALKED ABOUT IT A LITTLE BIT BUT IDK IF YOU'VE CHANGED YOUR MIND AGAIN ABOUT YOUR PLANS WHENEVER YOU READ THIS <3

AND AAA THE ESCAPE ROOM SOUNDS SO FUN!! dw i would definitely scream too ESPECIALLY IF SOMEONE WAS CHASING ME??? LIKE ATP I'D JUST GIVE UP AND LAY ON THE FLOOR AND SUCCUMB TO DEATH 😭😭 bc if i survived getting chased but then had to escape a room?? LOWK I SUCK AT PUZZLES I'D GIVE UP SO FAST 😭 but if it was to save ur life and get u out mango anon!! WELL SUDDENLY I'M SHAKESPEARE I MEAN SHERLOCK!!! I MEANT SHERLOCK ORIGINALLYY BUT I SAID SHAKESPEARE FIRST ON ACCIDENT AND I'M KEEPING IT IN THERE BC IT'S FUNNY BUT U GET WHAT I MEAN!! I WILL BE USING MY DECTECTIVE EYES AND BRAIN TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO HELP YOU ESCAPE AND BE FREE TO EAT ALL THE MANGOS YOU WANT!! <3 I'M GLAD YOU ENJOYED YOUR DINNER AND EVERYTHING ALL OF THAT SOUNDS SO GOOD!!! AND AA I'M HONORED YOU THOUGHT OF ME WHILE PLAYING VOLLEYBALL!! ughhfoiedsk i want to play volleyball with friends again soon 😔😔😔 WE'LL DO IT WHEN I GET THERE MANGO ANON IF YOU'RE OKAY WITH IT!!!

BUT AA YES GOODNIGHT/GOOD MORNING MANGO ANON!!! I HOPE YOU HAVE THE BEST SLEEP AND DAY TOMORROW EVER <3 AND THAT YOU'RE TAKING GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF TOO!! I'M BUYING YOU ALL THE MANGOS IN THE WORLD AND A HOUSE AND ANYTHING YOU'VE EVER WANTED!!!! I WORK AT MY MINIMUM WAGE JOB SO THAT I CAN PROVIDE FOR U AND BUY U THINGS MANGO ANON <33 IT'S ALWAYS BEEN FOR YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU MANGO ANON!! UNTIL NEXT TIME AND YOU ARE THE BEST EVER!!! <3 xoxoxo <333