#and after that. saturday night :DD!!!

[p2ii]

It's actually amazing how much tumblrs "thing of the day" calender helps me get through the week

[waughymommy]

Diaper Discipline Guide

Emma & Henry

My boyfriend of 4 years has always had regressive and sub tendencies while I’ve wanted to talk more control in our relationship. We tried several bdsm activities including smacking and bondage but the occasional nature wasn’t really doing it for me.

After finding out more online about Female Led Relationships I came across DD, initially dismissing it. But the more I read, the better and better the idea appealed to me. After some planning I decided to confront my partner and say I wanted to add an element of control and domination into our relationship, by saying I hadn’t decided how to do it yet we had a long discussion without diapers being mentioned where he agreed in principle to “lifestyle dominance” as long as it could be kept between them and not impact his job, friends, etc. 

This guide was invaluable to me to plan the rest and it solidified my decision. It took me two weeks to discreetly buy the required supplies, getting them delivered to our apartment on days he was at work. I decided that I wanted a high initial level of DD where he’d be in diapers 24/7 at home.

I decided to start on a Friday night after work. He’d known that I had been preparing for something and I started the conversation by saying my proposal was weird, reassuring him that it wouldn’t be painful/harmful and nobody else would find out but you wanted him to agree to try it for at least 6 weeks.

Although nervous he also seemed excited by the prospect and agreed. We moved to the bedroom where I told him to get undressed before I diapered him for the first time. There was a lot of objections at this stage but I talked him round and the agreement to try it for 6 weeks was helpful.

To make the shock less I started with a medical diaper which wasn’t too thick and let him wear his normal pjs over it. I left him to explore it on his own while going to make dinner. After dinner it was time to tell him all the rules, the main one was that the toilet at home was now banned and he’d be in diapers whenever he’s at home. I kept the baby elements to a minimum and said he’s have to also wear out the house sometimes but I’d make sure nobody could tell and never when he’s at work or with friends/family. I’m not going to lie and say this didn’t involve an argument, especially when he realised that no toilet meant #2 as well but we got through. We ended up watching a movie which was a good way for him to calm down.

He wet his diaper for the first time after the movie which was funny to watch as he was so nervous it was going to leak everywhere. Even though it wasn’t too wet I did change him straight away and made his change extra special too. That night he slept in a diaper for the first time.

Over the first weekend he did get more used to wearing and I allowed him to use the toilet for a bm on Saturday. Sunday however I decided to fully enforce the rules and he messed himself for the first time. I didn’t change him this time and he took a shower. There was a lot of protests again but I said it was none-negotiable. The smell did seem to be the biggest thing that bothered him so I bought some Devrom tablets which had been recommended, it took a few days for them to arrive and a few more of taking them but now his messy diapers hardly smell and the protests have stopped. I’d actually recommend you use these from day 1 to make the transition easier.

The first week was tough but we got through it and I’m happy to say we’re now 7 months in to him being in DD. Over that time I’ve moved to thicker abdl diapers, he wears onesies regularly around the house and the toilet has remained unused by him with only a few exceptions.

We both work mainly from home so I’ve gotten used to checking and changing his diaper but thick diapers + devrom has meant he generally only needs a change after waking up, sometime in the early afternoon and before bed. I’ll also let him change himself if I’m busy or cba. 

The best news is after an initial rocky patch, our relationship feels stronger than ever! He proposed to me 5 months in and I can’t see his DD ending any time soon. I’ve increased elements overtime and now the toilet is banned even when out of the house together. Public wearing did take him a while to get used to but actually it’s easy. 

I’m sure DD is not for everyone and is much more involved and hard work than other lifestyle changes but for creating a caring bond between you and your partner I’ve found it to be great!

[wcbbfics]

WILDFLOWER pt 3

summary - sophia and paige had been close friends for a long time but now they both have a secret. sophia is hiding something from paige about her past. and paige is hiding her real feelings for soph.

paige bueckers x uconn student

warning- angst, car sex, fingering

an: please send me request for ideas for other fics, open to writing for emily, diana, and kate!

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saturday night (4 days after the fight)- paige’s pov

“PAIGE, get up” kk yells as she walks into my room uninvited

“leave me alone” i groan out, i’ve been cooped up in my bed all week feeling bad for myself.

“girl if you think i’m going to let you lay here all sad you best not know me” kk states with a stern face

“kk im fine i just am tired”

“you’ve been tired all week, i know sophias ignoring you has been hard but you need to find a new girl to be with”

i sit up with a displeased look on my face “i can’t find a new girl.” the days after our fight i’ve been in a constant battle with myself about what to do about our “fight”. i truly have no idea what she is so upset about. but ruining this friendship is the last thing i want.

“paige just come out with us, it will make you feel better”

I groan but give in because i know kk doesn’t ever give up. i get up and put on black baggy jeans and a vintage uconn sweatshirt.

We walk into the frat house and the smell of sweat and alcohol is making my head pound. I walk over to a group of uconn athletes and start making conversation my head is still pounding but i preserve through the pain. the conversation with the guys gets boring and i glance out the door to see nika outside by the pool talking to some girl that has her back turned to me. I abruptly stop my boring conversation with the random guys and walk over the back door. ice grabs my arm and pulls me over to the bar.

“i think we should stay inside” ice tells me

“why, i want to talk to nika” i state confused

“i’ll tell nika to find you” ice walks away leaving me more curious. I linger by the door waiting for ice to get distracted and start walking back over to nika. i now have a better view of the girl nila’s talking to. her skin is tan and her body is lean and beautiful. she’s wearing a white cropped shirt and a tiny little black skirt. maybe kk was right i do need to find someone else. so I walk up to the pair

as you start walking closer you feel like you recognize the girl nika talking to but you ignore it.

“hi paige” nika said groggily glancing at me

the girls long black hair whips as she turns to face me and our eyes connect. her big beautiful brown eyes are now locked on mine.

“paige” she breathes out.

she looks just as beautiful as the last time you saw her, now there were no tears streaming down her face.

“hey” i whisper back trying to not mess anything up.

“i’ll leave yall to talk” nika says as she looks at me knowingly and walks away

“how are you” i ask with concern

“fine”

“soph, i don’t want to do this small talk. can we please talk about what happened last weekend?”

“i don’t want to talk about it here”

“i’ll get us a uber. we can talk at my place” i almost beg i need to know how to fix this, fix us.

“fine”

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sophia’s pov

there was no available ubers so we get in a mini van with abunch of the guys basketball team. they promised there dd hasn’t drank anything so we got in. paige goes into the van first her tall frame hobbling to the back of the van

“what the fuck, yall said there were 2 empty seats” paige yells to whoever the driver is. he yells something back at her but i can’t hear.

“it’s fine paige we can just share i wanna to go home”

paige sits down and i walk over to her. we’re in the very back of the van, the row has two seats but one of them is filled with crap. as i sit down on her thighs i feel her muscles flex as her arms wrap come up and wrap around my torso. the action immediately makes me feel safe. being tangled up on top of each other feels so natural and right.

“you good” paige whispered concerningly in my ear. her hot breath tickles my skin as she breathes out.

“ya” i feel so shaky. like any movement could ruin this moment.

one of her hands snakes out to rest on the inside of my thigh. i turn my head to look her. she is peering out the window her eyes flashing back and forth. we are so close and i don’t know how long i can stay like this. the guys in the front are all drunkenly laughing and i don’t think they even remember we’re here.

paige’s hand is absentmindedly rubbing up and down my inner thigh. i can feel my mind screaming at me to tell her to stop because the rush of heat going to my core is unnerving.

my breath halts as she goes even high this time “paige” i whine. almost telling her to stop.

“what” she whispers back unknowing of the amount of pressure building

“your hand” i say and she stops moving it. “dont stop” i plead. i can feel her smirk as she inches her hand closer to my panties. i gasp at the warmth. she keeps going, looking at me for approval. i nod.

“you want me to fuck you in the back of this car” she asks surprised.

i nod my head again

“use your words ma”

“yes, please paigey”

paige takes a long deep breath. her mind racing with the though of what she might do to you. her mouth starts peppering kisses up and down my neck. one hand coming up to tilt your neck to the side. she connects her mouth with demand as she starts sucking on my sweet spot. i groan at the sudden aggression she has.

she continues kiss my neck as slides her hand under your panties. the wetness coating my pussy is dripping out soaking my entire underwear.

“this wet for me” she moans out. her fingers gather the wetness and she starts circling my clit.

my moans are breathy and quiet as she continues to rub her long fingers along my clit. she inserts her finger in and i can’t be quiet anymore. i yelp in response at her filling me. as soon as the sounds leaves your mouth her other hand come up and covers my mouth.

“paige” i moan into her. i feel my core tighten as i lean back into her. she gets a better angle and i close my eyes focusing on every single movement she makes.

“open your eyes” she mumbles. i listen opening them to look at her. she’s biting her lip, focused on what she’s doing.

“i’m almost there” i moan out. her eyes lock with mine. my breath stops as i release all over her fingers. her hand that was on my mouth is now digging into my hips rocking me back and fourth. she takes her hand out of my folds and bring it up to my face. she leans her head on to my ear. i can feel her lips brush my ear as she demands “suck”. i oblige as she puts her fingers into my mouth. i lick and suck all my juices off her fingers. i turn around so im straddling her waist. our eyes meet. she’s looking at me with such heat in her eyes that i might melt.

“you did so good for me” she whispers. and i lay my head on her shoulder as her hands and wrap around her waist. sleep is creeping up on me so i close my eyes and rest

—————-

paige’s pov

we get to my dorm after 30 minutes of the driver getting lost. i carefully pick up sophia and walk into my room. i wish i could just stay with her wrapped around me. but i need to shower the smell of frat off me so i lay her down on my bed. my body goes cold with the loss of her body heat.

“paigey” she whines when i put her down.

“i’ll be right back” i assure her

i showered as fast as i could. when i opened the door she was still fast asleep. she looked like a angel laying there with her hair spread around her like a halo. i walked over to the bed gently laying my purple blanket on her and get under the covers. she immediately scoots towards me so i wrap my arms around her and hold her there.

i wake up to sophia still sleeping on top of me. her head is in the crook of my neck and i can feel every breath she takes. i just sit there and look at her. I am so down bad for this girl. i would do anything she asked me too. then my mind is racing with the thoughts of her being mad at me and not talking to me for a week. we need to have a serious conversation when she wakes up.

[goldenpinof]

one timer down, one to go.

(today i got a reply from irlmerch’s customer service saying “Even after the timer ends, we will continue to collect orders for a couple of hours.” take it as you will, ‘cause the red timer is more than “a couple of hours”, idk if they meant specifically that one)

wat? when did this get added?

[crissiebaby]

Itty-Bitty Crissie

Heyyo everyone! CrissieBaby has captions now! 💕💜💕💜💕💜

This has definitely been a long time coming and I'm so excited to move forward with this new format. We will begin alternating between story/art commissions and captions with sketches by CodiBaby on Fridays, which will be freely available. Additionally, captions will replace Interactive Story Saturdays as weekly premium content on the CrissieBaby SubscribeStar and FANBOX. Both Codi's Coloring Club and Crissie's Bookworm Club, along with all higher tiers will have access to these weekly captions.

That's all for now! 🥰🥰

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Itty-Bitty Crissie

“Pancake!” screamed Crissie with glee, throwing her arms around her favorite stuffed animal. Resting at the size of a football, the pink manta ray with glossy, turquoise dots was far from her largest plushie but that didn’t stop her from folding her arms over him every single night. Never would she have dreamed that the tables of tallness would be turned when it came to her and her fuzzy friend.

Enter the latest and greatest invention from the CrissBaby Diaper Company: a formula that temporarily shrinks its user based on the amount consumed. Was it odd for a diaper company to be dabbling in genetic manipulation? Perhaps but the marketing upside and potential tie-ins were too good to pass up on. After all, what self-respecting Little didn’t dream of fun-sizing themself?

Unsurprisingly, Crissie's hand was held firmly in the air the moment she learned about it despite the vast number of side effects that came up in trials. Filling a bottle with as much as the maximum single dose would allow, she plunged herself down to a mere six inches short, where a miniature CrissBaby diaper was waiting for her. Needless to say, she was beyond ecstatic and incredibly blushy when it came to her altitude reduction. Whether it was being made to have a tea party with her dollies by Codi or getting cradled like an actual baby by Miss Snorington, she was a flustered mess every teensy-tiny step of the way.

However, nothing would stand as monumental as the moment she was laid to bed in her crib, only to come face-to-face with her now massive manta stuffy. The pupils of her eyes turned heart-shaped as she hoisted Pancake up on one end like a mattress. Her body sunk into the mound of polyester-encased stuffing like a fluffy cloud.

Allowing herself to tumble to the bed with Pancake resting atop her, Crissie was asleep within minutes. The last thing on her mind as she nodded off was that she hoped to wake up no bigger than she was now. Funny enough, based on the shrinking formula’s test results, her wish might very well come true…for the foreseeable future…

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[hischierdevils]

Hi can you please do 72 “You’re so fucking cute.” And 56 “Just marry me already.” with Quinny please? Maybe reader is drunk and he takes care of her?

Oh do I love me some Quinn <33 Thanks for requesting!

You started getting ready much earlier than you needed to for your girls night out. You couldn't help but be excited to see your girls and spend the night dancing.

Being halfway through the Canucks season, most of your nights were spent watching your boyfriend play hockey. When you had a very rare saturday night free, your best friend immediately deemed it girls night.

Quinn kept quietly walking in and out of the bedroom, lingering in the doorway long enough to see the cute faces you made as you focused on doing your makeup. He was happy you were doing something for yourself, even if it meant not spending one of his rare nights off with you. He knew you'd come home to him at the end of the night.

Once your hair and makeup were done and you settled on your outfit for the night, you went out to the living room in search of your boyfriend. He was on the couch playing a video game but paused it when he saw you, a cute little smirk forming on his face as you did a twirl for him.

"You're so fucking cute." He says as he pulls you into his lap kissing you over and over until you giggle. You sit comfortably in his lap as he plays his game until you get a text from your best friend.

"The girls are here." You tell him as you stand up.

"Okay, have fun, babe." He walks you to the door and gives you a lingering kiss. "I love you."

"I love you too."

"Call me if you need a ride home." He adds as you open the door and wave to your friends.

"y/f/n, is DD but i'll call you if we need you." You kiss him on the cheek before running out to your friends car.

You text him periodically throughout the night, telling him how good the dj is, how much fun you're having, and how much you miss him. As the night goes on, the less sense your texts make. He's happy that even after everything he puts you through with his job, he's still the one you want.

He dozes off on the couch waiting for you so he misses the text you sent (on my way home to huggy) at two am. He wakes up when he hears your friend's car pull into the driveway.

When he opens the door he's greeted by your drunk smile and your friend holding tightly to your arm to keep you upright.

"Quinny!" Your face lights up when you see him and you turn to look at your friend. "Isn't he so hot? I can't believe he's mine."

Your friend looks at Quinn. "I hope you know that everyone in the bar is extremely aware of how hot you are. She did not shut up about you."

Quinn laughs and wraps an arm around your waist, pulling you into him. You nuzzle into his chest holding on to him like a life preserver. "Thanks for bringing her home."

"Of course. Have a good night you two." Your friend winks at Quinn before walking back to her car. Quinn waves goodbye to her but you're so happy to be back with your boyfriend that you don't even realize she's gone.

"Let's get you to bed, baby." Quinn murmurs in your ear so you'll walk with him inside.

"Ooo what are we going to do in bed?" You're trying to be seductive but your eyes are barely open and Quinn is fully holding you up.

He chuckles and kisses the top of your head. “We’re going to go to sleep.”

“You don’t want to have sex with me?” You pout as he leads you into the bathroom so he can help you take your makeup off.

He looks into your hazy eyes as he begins to wipe your face for you. “I’m tired, y/n. Let’s just cuddle tonight, yeah?” You’re way to drunk to do anything else but he doesn’t want to tell you that and upset you.

“I love you so much, Quinn.” You whisper as he finishes taking off your makeup for you.

“I love you too, y/n.” He smiles and kisses you before helping you into the bedroom.

“You’re the best boyfriend ever.” You mumble as he helps you out of your dress and into your soft pajamas. “Just marry me already.”

Quinn, who’s got your shirt half on you, pauses and searches your face. Did you find the ring hidden in the old hockey bag in the back of the closet? He was planning to wait until the season was over but do you already know?

“I love coming home to you.” You smile at him and he realizes that it’s just your drunk babble.

He leans down and gives you a kiss before pulling back the blankets on your bed. “C’mon, Mrs. Hughes, climb into bed.”

Your eyes go wide at his words. “Did I miss our wedding?”

[quodekash]

its friday night/saturday morning, you know the drill

im sorry 

pls gimme more threezo today

i love him and his fluffy curly hair so so so much

MY BOYS

pls tell me what happened to zo 

HIM AND HIS WORRIED BOYFRIEND FACE GHRBGHJR

he just wants him to be okay 🥺😭

HE SAID IT 

im crying

why do these two have to make me FEEL things? 

somehow in my head i read “hes mad as a hatter” in the voice of a little british lad and its very amusing to me and now you know

specifically a little british lad from an old movie where the audio is all crackly and too loud 

LOOK AT THE MAN’S HAIR

no i will not shut up about his hair 

bro you are not subtle

bro you are not subtle 

MY BOY

i know i just watched 1000stars like three days ago, but it always makes me so happy whenever his incredibly but beautifully thick eyebrows appear on my screen. 

im just realising how weird that sound 

i meant his eyebrows along with the rest of his face 

the existence of drake sattabut laedeke makes me happy 

thats what i was trying to say 

ooo yes i was hoping for more detail on jack’s depression. he really intrigues me as a character 

me every day

hell yeah, consent is key, folks 

the mattress is on an angle 

thats really bugging me 

can someone fix that please 

surely thats some kind of safety hazard 

why doesnt the mattress fit the bed frame 

why isnt there some way to keep the mattress in place 

what if youre a restless sleeper and you toss and turn and you fall off the bed and you knock your head on it? 

if you knock it hard enough you could get a concussion 

concussions arent good 

they can lead to a lot of bad consequences 

people should think more about concussions and concussion consequences when they design beds 

concussion consequences is fun to say 

concussion consequences concussion consequences concussion consequences, say it 5 times fast 

oh yeah that’s right, theyre kissing 

i got distracted by the mattress 

the group is together!! :DD 

i love their group dynamics 

but most importantly

THREEZO

i am no longer enjoying the group dynamics

why do they have to fightttt

(i lied, im still enjoying the group dynamics. in fights, people are hurtful but truthful, so fights give a huge insight into the characters which is wonderful for analysis and picking the character apart) 

this is the second episode in a row that three has lost his temper on the others a little bit and left the room at the end and zo has said ‘ill check on him’ and followed after him 

anyway i love zo for it 

he is good boyfriend

he is good friend

he is... hungry i think

^D^

i freaking love this man

bro their relationship is so freaking healthy 

zo asks for permission to enter the room

he ignores the response, but only to keep him company. and i suspect that he knows him really well and knows that three should have someone with him, just to be there with him and help him relax 

and he tries to bring three’s attention from the thoughts swirling around his mind and onto his physical presence, and three gets a little angry 

but he communicates with zo, he tells him that he will answer questions, just not at that moment. he’s telling him that he’s willing to talk and communicate, but he needs time to understand so that he can explain his thoughts and feelings coherently. and he doesnt push zo away, either physically or verbally, so he tells him without words that he appreciates his presence, and he’s glad to have him there. he just cant really verbally communicate what’s going on right now, and that’s okay! 

and then zo speaks to him. he gives him words of comfort, affirmation, support. he also provides the perspective of the others, a snippet of an insight into life outside of his own mind. “we all really did our best.” 

“just because we lost once doesnt mean we will lose forever” ITS SO COMFORTING AND PERFECT how does he always seem to know the right thing to say 

PLEASE THEYRE TOO CUTE 

...

you know what im thinking 

the msp brainrot is too strong 

YIM SE YIM SE YIM SE 

NGOW NGOW

anyway 

VRJHDF HE SAID IT AGAINNNNN

i couldve gone more in depth about why theyre perfect but it’s 1am and im tired so i wont 

“your hug can actually kill me. but im willing to die in your arms, zo” YOURE KIDDING. IT’S TOO CUTE. THEYRE TOO CUTE. THEYRE DESTROYING ME. AAAAAAAAAA VJRENJKR

I KNEW SHE KNEW 

SOMEONE HAD TO KNOW AND THAT SOMEONE HAD TO BE AOI 

reminding me of tinn’s little head scratch and “what just happened” in episode 4 after he accidentally made sound join the music club via hatred of him 

oh hell yes, obligatory beach episode next week 

the obligatory beach episode almost always ends up as my favourite episode 

OMG THREEZO AT THE BEACH 

I CANT WAIT 

FINAL THOUGHTS: 

im really glad cher and gun have finally figured out their relationship 

i need to go to sleep 

threezo are the greatest 

[ananke-xiii]

robbie thompson writing meg and megatron interacting with cas and sort of scolding him because he doesn't understand their quotes:

"Would it kill you to watch a movie, read a book?/Would it have killed you to pick up a book, watch a movie?"

meanwhile one of the first things Cas does when he shows up in that barn is paging through Bobby's book AND we know he's probably skimmed through some of "The Winchester Gospels":

"It's an honor to meet you, Chuck. I… admire your work."

and we also know he likes "looking at" The Saturday Evening Post:

"Yeah. It's like we're stepping into a Saturday Evening Post. I look at them sometimes after you fall asleep at night. They're very soothing".

the angel-man has a peculiar taste in books/readings, okay? Leave him alone! :DD

[yankstrash]

https://www.tumblr.com/yankstrash/723155942253953024/one-time-gabe-cant-make-it-to-a-hockey-party-so

Blurb please!!

it was saturday night and the hockey team was throwing a party, but gabe had been sick all week and was in no shape to go to a party.

amelia on the other hand had been looking forward to it all week, so gabe had no problem assuring her she could go and made sure to tell the guys to look after her.

he made them promise to keep a sharp eye on her and to call him if anything happened. they all promised to look after meels and make sure nothing would happen.

amelia was hesitant to go without gabe, but she trusted his teammates and knew she would be fine without him.

after only an hour, the party was packed. amelia had been hanging out with the girlfriends all night. normally she split her time between the girlfriends and gabe, with a bit more of it going to gabe, but tonight all she had were her girls (and she was completely fine with that).

everything was fine for a while, until it wasn't.

amelia was standing in the kitchen chatting with drew, when some drunk guy stumbled by her and spilled his drink

all. over. amelia.

and with her luck, she was wearing a white top tonight.

amelia gasped as the cold liquid hit her tank top and bare skin, and drew immediately pushed the guy who spilled it.

"you dick! you just got beer all over her!"

the guy put his hands up in defense, saying "my bad man! total accident. here, i'll fix it."

the guy reached over and grabbed some paper towels before wrapping an arm around amelias waist and pulling her into him, trying to wipe the beer off of her.

"uh uh, no way. get away from her." drew said, prying the guy, who now had a huge smirk plastered on his face, off of amelia.

"chilll, you made a big deal out of me messing up her top. now i'm just trying to be a gentleman and clean the pretty lady up, and you're bitchin about that too!" the guy slurred.

drew was 2 second away from punching this guy in his face, when will came up behind them. "what's going on?"

drew turned to will and was about to say something when amelia spoke up. "i want gabe." she said, and when will and drew looked over at her, she looked like she was on the brink of tears.

drew looks back at will and says, "call gabe, now. i'm going to get her cleaned up and then i'm taking her to our place." (gabe, drew and will are roommates)

will agreed and drew gave the drunk guy one final shove out of the kitchen before he helped amelia clean more beer off of her.

"what a disaster." she said as drew threw paper towels away.

"yeah. i'm sorry meely, i don't think we're gonna be able to save your top." drew said with a frown.

amelia gave him a tight lipped smile and said, "it's alright. it's replaceable." she looked down before speaking again. "i just wanna be with gabe." she whispered the last part.

drew nodded before putting an arm around her shoulder and saying, "i know. let's go find will."

when the two found will he was just hanging up the phone.

"get ahold of gabe?" drew asked.

will nodded and said, "yeah, he said he wants meely home right now."

drew nodded and said, "okay, i'm taking her now. i'll see you later at home."

drew was dd tonight, so he and amelia got into his car and he drove her to he and gabes apartment.

as soon as he pulled up, gabe was out the front door and walking to the passenger side of the car.

he opened amelias door for her and scooped her out. she immediately clung to him, wrapping her arms around his neck and legs around his waist.

"thanks man, i really appreciate it" gabe said as he looked over at drew, giving him a head nod.

"we'll talk in the morning." drew responded, to which gabe nodded his head and took amelia inside.

once they were in his room, he gently placed her on his bed and kissed her head.

"i'll get you a clean shirt baby." gabe said, going over to his dresser and pulling out a shirt for amelia to wear.

she mumbled a thanks before pulling her damp top over her head, tossing it aside and pulling gabes t shirt on. she also discarded her jeans and opted to just sleep in her underwear and gabes shirt.

she looked up at gabe, who was still standing, with sad eyes and a quivering lip before holding her arms out to him.

he scooped her back up before laying down on his back and keeping amelia on top of him.

he rubbed her back up and down as he said, "i'm so sorry i wasn't there tonight."

amelia kisses his chest and responded, "it's okay. drew took care of me and you're here now. it's all okay."

they laid in silence for a few minutes before gabe broke it.

"the one time i can't attend a party you get a shirt full of beer and some creep trying to clean you up."

amelia lightly laughs at his comment.

"next time, i'll opt to just stay home and take care of your sickness."

[nardonotes]

20 oct '24

10:30pm

when was the last time i wrote an entry... (* °ヮ° *)....... like 4 days ago? let's recap.: ദ്ദി(ᵔᗜᵔ)

17th, thursday: WAS A CRAZYYYYYY NIGHT..... like i literally did not even meant to get that drunk. i was supposed to have a quiet night with three of my good friends out in the city, yk just a few drinks here and there... THEN BOOM. im drunk as fuck, i am everywhere... trauma was dumped and a lot was said! (ᵕ—ᴗ—) but it's ok because i genuinely did have a good time before things escalated...... we got the bus back home and i was in bits... like i was in so much pain i just wanted to die!!!!!!

18th, friday: i was hungover as shit yall.... (╥﹏╥) i was struggling so bad but half way throughout the day i was fine. im so glad i took placement off cause holy shit i would have DIED. and i drank some electrolytes after i ate and cleaned my room and took a shower and i felt soooooo much better :D

19th, saturday: WAS SOOOOOOOOOOSOSOSOSOSOOOO FUN!!!!!! i haven't had a good time like that in so long. it was my friend's birthday party with their other friend (joint) and i made them a mix and got their friend a little vintage expresso set thing. (｡>﹏<) i was so worried they wouldn't like it but they were so happy about it and im so glad. i met so many cool new people and even an old friend,, so im really happy things went the way they went. it was just literally pure vibes- i had no problem with anyone, we watched LPS POPULAR (i got hooked.) like i could say so much more about last night but im genuinely burnt out T-T just know it was so fucking fun !! and i am so happy !!! i felt so comfortable in that setting too :DD those people are super fucking chill and just hilarious,,,, like all of them had my sense of humour it was GR8. ◝(ᵔᗜᵔ)◜ i didn't even end up sleeping.,,

TODAY!: my dad picked me up then and we dropped three others by the bus stop :33 i fell asleep on the ride home and the second i woke up WE WERE IN FRONT OF MY HOUSE!! i knocked OUT!!!!! ｡-ᆺ-｡ .. was so tired from allat..... oh i forgot to mention, i didn't drink much like literally took a few sips of some 4loko and drank sooo much water and ate sooooo much food and there were shrooms around but i had enough self control to not- BUT i did smoke a lil weed because god bless some of that fr ‎꜀( ꜆-ࡇ-)꜆

anyways,, i had a really good time. a hectic week but still managed to get outta this week alive! i woke up at like 6pm, ate some food and took a longggggg long longgggggggg shower. also cleaned my room bc it was sooo needed. i do need to change my sheets tho grr... ( •̀ - •́ )

i'm about to have another really busy week ( ꩜ ᯅ ꩜;)  and then i have midterms.. i also have that date on the 27th..... no idea how that's gna go now that we've barely stopped talking. not sure if she's even into me as much i am towards her but that's fine cause im not attached like that, more like butthurt "( – ⌓ – )

ok my back hurts and i have class in the morning,, so ill get some rest (•̀ - •́ ) goodnight!!! this was probably a BOOK to read.

song of the day: Sweet Delusion by Bella Poarch .. so good idgaf.¯_(ツ)_/¯

[kinetic-elaboration]

August 3: Productive Saturday

I went to sleep early last night because the power went out at 8 and stayed out until some early hour in the morning, I guess, sometime no later than 2am. So many storms here. Stormed again today.

I need to start going to bed that early on Fridays regularly; it is really nice. I actually got up at a kind of decent hour, went out, walked through the farmer's market, got a coffee and then went all the way out and ran errands. It was hot as balls by the time I was getting back, which wasn't so great. But other than that a successful outing.

The whole day I'd been planning this phone conversation that finally happened around 4 and lasted for 2 hours. And it was good! It was really good. I already feel like a lot of it has slipped through my fingers but that's okay. It's al very... interesting. I do feel like a part of me wants to re-evaluate things from the far-past in light of new information but that's probably, first, beside the point/a little too self-centered, and, second, unhelpful to everyone including me. Like this feels very much like the thing I do when I search for trouble and anxiety and I know that no good comes of it.

Anyway on the upside I was able to say helpful things. There were times when I wanted to just say, I wish you had what I have because what I have is so good, and maybe these things that are good for me, in the broad sense, would be good for you.

Also in this conversation my ex was compared to the Tasmanian devil: hilarious and accurate!

After the conversation, I even dd some cleaning/organizing. Not the most important stuff, but a couple of hours' worth of stuff and now my bathroom sink and its nonexistent storage space is so much cleaner. My living room is way worse because I stopped a project halfway through because of the Fatigue, but that's okay. I still have a whole half the weekend left.

[noodlyappendages03]

My anxious attachment is rearing its ugly head. Dude texts me throughout the week only to leave me hanging. So I got up and asked him about the weekend. Now he's going tubing with a group of friends and will be back that evening. But he was looking at me and grinning from ear to ear. I think the man is shy around me. Explains a lot. Will I wait by the phone? No. I won't sit around and wait on a man because I have my own life. If I'm around, I'll pop by.

ETA: Oh, it's on. ☺️ 🔥 Called me his girl again. ❤️ Screw my inner frenemy! Saturday he's with his little girl. She's his main lady. Sunday? Turns out it's a group of 30 people and it's a club, and they're all going tubing. It's a way for him to experience Texas and make new friends. Love that for him. Out of nowhere, I get a text that asks me to wear a short skirt and sexy thong that day. Naughty schoolgirl? I say. Fuck yes, he says. Then he texts me very dirty sentiments. I cooked up a sexy outfit and some edibles. It's going to be a night that'll blow his mind...among other things.

My trust issues are a hurdle, but he's so patient with me. DD has a very sweet nature. I'm so used to toxic masculinity and abuse that I've never experienced someone with sweet, you'd say "golden retriever" energy. He had his walls up too, and kinda came across as an asshole at first. But all that has changed. Deep down, he's a romantic, but also playful. I love the playful side of him. He said he never wanted to get married again at first when it was new and we were both guarded, and now he says he doesn't want to get married for a long time. I was like, honey...slow your roll! I just want to be with you. We don't have to get married anytime soon! He was visibly relieved. But the conversation made me realize where his head is at. By the way...I also heard him tell my meddling coworker (after she caught him in a lie that he didn't call the girl she was trying to set him up with) that he has a girlfriend! 😱 (Soft launched at the office. Holy shit!) He's falling in love and he's so scared after his first marriage ended. So am I. I won't pressure him into anything, which I know is his fear from past experience. I'm open to whatever happens next. Having agendas and pushing toward commitment when not ready or because you're "supposed" to ruins relationships, IMO. Keep it organic.

He's open to new experiences like I am, and we have so much fun together. I've never had a boyfriend with that playful side (but I've always wanted one 😉). I love his snaggletooth smile and his dimples. I love his shiny, smooth bald head and the tiny patches of white hair in his goatee. I love his pouty, kissable lips. I love the way he whispers my name and touches me. Our song? Benson Boone's "Beautiful Things" (with "Slow It Down" a close second). It played on the speaker during our very first date. The time apart only made us miss each other more. ❤️❤️ I still replay our first kiss in my head, nearly 5 months later. He caught me by surprise...and it surprised him too when I gave in to my feelings. I think I'm falling in love with him, inner frenemy be damned.

[theorist-influencer-untitled]

6.22.24 Saturday

2:56 am

Still,have windblow...

They said your pet will still survive if the owner has a good heart. But then I'm a bit disappointed on Sherpa's owner coz I thought they love their pets so much, like Daddy O...But they didn't brush their teeth for so long...

I really brush his teeth but it became yellowish just like the human teeth, but look on his gums... The gums is very healthy....

Now,John is on his baking soda and mint and coconut oil treatment...

John is really my son for having a small sharp teeth...

3:07 am

Still,have windblow...

I'm just wondering if this is a "double meaning or there is a hidden meaning" something happened in the cottage and our family is growing?

It sounds like an accidental thing that was happened in the cottage? This is a piece of art and I'm just wondering if it is a creative film or an indirectly letting it out the real story behind???

3:13 am

Still,have windblow...

I still feel frustrated and my 17 years were all in vain and some force made me nothing...

Are some of my friends are guilty? They got my 17 years??? They are happy doing nasty things behind my back? Planning weird things for me since 2007? Judging me for not knowing my heart's content? That my heart's content is genuine from the beginning and until now...

3:21 am

Still,have windblow...

This song will be the one for the one that I'm waiting supposed to be... It is supposed to be perhaps my cousin white...

The most I love in this world these days, is my cousin white... That I somehow showed my fangs on him but I'm late...

6:31 am

Still,have windblow...

I put a hydrocortisone on my nape and back yesterday afternoon it was ohkay the itchiness and redness subside. After showering last night I put it again but I pressed my nape and back on the pillow and it seem due to moist or sweat or heat it became a bit inflame and itchy this morning... I should sleep that my position shouldn't touch or there is no pressure of anything on my nape or back part.

6:59 am

Plus, I need a cooler place like snow or ac 24/7... This will be forever angels.... This kind of skin is called a skin of royalty meaning wealthy or an artist skin coz this type of skin is sensitive.

7:22 am

Still, have windblow...

I really wanna leave Cavite but I know I can't this is trap,an unfair trap ... My 17 years are gone just for nothing. I really wanna leave Cavite if I can...

My old friends are gone, it is strange! These people in the mystery probably are bad people angels that they can still keep it until today...

They are all dying to see me fat and ugly.... My feet need a foot spa every now and then... I don't have any budget for that now... I need money and job for me to survive and be able to buy stuff and to pay my loans but they removed me in "work force" which I don't know why.... Or they put me on a block listed but I have to find the reason why and who did it???

8:37 am

Still,have windblow...

It is good to be americanize... Nice... Still bitterish here...

There is still one bottle left for the fluffy mixture of pancake...

I love to eat and I wanna go back to gym and eat healthy food... I want some calculations on my body... My future is over-lapping.

9:01 am

Uncle DD's gang is here already at 9:02 am... The spaceship is now entering the garage...

9:13 am

I have abs but not yet well-trimmed my waist line and my tummy part coz I'm poorish now...

I need some protein and gym angels... I just wanna have a one child and my nose perfection.

9:35 am

I want this simple and nice kitchen....We need to fix our kitchen here...

10:45 am

No malice angels....Still,aching the muscle there or nerve entrapment or any slight bones dislocation on my lower back... I still have muscle ache on my butt part...

That's why I loaned this massage.... I have serious pain on my body....

10:53 am

My baby John is eating again his heart fluffy pancake....

2:39 pm

I received the efan clip that I loaned coz I'm on a tight budgeting.... Then, one of the blade holders is broken.... So, will return this,this will be collected again by Holden. Holden became my friend and I told him to shoulder me if ever I can't pay on my loan and I need 10k worth to sing...

I have tension headache coz we need an extra 2 fan here or at least 1 efan so that I can clean coz I have a sweat rash skin and I badly need the steamer...

Uncle DD's gang is really heaven there with their spaceship...Are we the poorish twin here???

Aunt Teresa has a weak analyzation angels...That something is wrong... I supposed to say weak mind but with respect with her I will use "weak analyzation"...

Weak mind Vs Weak Analyzation are 2 words that have totally different meanings angels.

Weak Analyzation means you just got the situation twisted or on a wrong way.

Weak Mind means you can't really comprehend the deeper meaning of the situation.

Not my ideal to be flatten this way here in Cavite Philippines...

Some people in this island having weak mind or weak analyzation but still getting success like Uncle DD...

3:47 pm

Whoah! Inidian or India are in Japan....Scary people... I love Arab over India...

3:51 pm

This is a challenging dance step for me to learn...

It's somehow weird and hard...

3:52 pm

I'm having tension headache coz awhile ago around 1 pm, I was sleeping and someone called me an another loan app but I declined.

Then,Moca2x Miel I thought it is Yhel but I misheard it. She reminded me of my payment and over-dues that still I can't settle...

10:06 pm

Still,have windblow...

Crazy this "Maya" I don't Maya anymore coz I couldn't access it...I guess it was hacked and the mail that they were sending something like an issue that I loaned for 35000 wasn' true.. I didn't get any money from Maya and I couldn't access it anymore and I did uninstall it 3 months ago.... Maya is scam I guess coz the mail that they were sending is not my mail address...

[twobillionseconds]

May 24th - May 27th 2024

May 24th:

Friday woo hoo. I can't remember much. I did some work. I went to the gym for sure. For dinner I met up with a buddy of mine. He had a grad school buddy visiting. We decided to show him around San Diego. We hung out at a bar that had a virtual golf studio. Learned how to swing. After we went to another bar. Since my buddy is getting divorced he is unleashing the beast so to speak. After that bar we went downtown and hit up couple places. The night ended up meeting some random people.

May 25th:

Woke up relatively early but I went back to sleep. Had a late start to the day as expected. I did some errands around the house. Took the dog for a long walk. Made myself some lunch at home. Since it was a Saturday night they wanted to go out again. So we started out at a bar with some pool tables to get the night rolling. After we hit up more places down in other parts of the city. It was one hell of a night. It was a tamer night for me because I was the DD. For my buddies, they definitely had their fill of liquor for sure. One of my buddies threw up a couple times. Made sure they got home safe and I chilled at home.

May 26th:

Woke up late as expected. Did the usual things, like walking the dog and what not. I went for a run in the afternoon. I just needed a good cardio session. After I cleaned up and met up at another buddies' place. A few of the guys got together to hear my buddy's story from Vegas. We chilled in the hot tub for a while. After a few of us got dinner and hung out for a bit. A lot tamer night.

May 27th:

Woke up later. Not as late as the nights before. Going out on the weekends is a young man's game. Anyway did the usual things. Today is a holiday so no work. Thank god. I needed today to just recover. I just hung around the house. Took the dog to the beach and the park. Sort of a reward for putting up with my weird schedule this weekend. In the evening the damn YouTube algorithm put this fitness instructor's video and I have been binge watching that. I gotta get ready for my trip. Headed to the bay and then to Japan.

I'm just thinking right now. It's almost 11:30 and I am listening to some pensive music. Worse time to listen to this stuff because your mind leads you down into some rabbit holes. One of the videos that had the music on had this picture of what appeared to be 4 teenagers walking around dusk along a coast some where. It brought back memories of when I was in high school and college where I did that stuff with friends.

Nostalgia. Powerful emotion. In some ways those were some of the best times of my life. There was a level of innocence and naivety that in some ways I really miss. I remember in high school we would sneak out and take our parents cars and just drive around town and to the beach. The summers were the best because at night the temperature would be just right. We would park somewhere by the beach and hang out til 3 or 4 in the morning so that we can sneak back in. I still have to say that the summer after high school graduation was one of the best summers I've experienced. I wish I could go back to that. I wish I took pictures of it. I just have to dig through my mind and draw the pictures mentally.

College was pretty good too. Made friends that I still talk to today. Actually all the people that I am thinking about right now I still maintain contact. We try to get together when we can, but you know life happens.

I guess I am pretty blessed to have met the people that I consider close friends. The fact that we still talk to each other even though it's periodical. Life's short. You just gotta enjoy it to the best you can. I am of the belief that at the end of your life your success should be measured by how many people will be at your funeral. Whether it be children, grandchildren, other relatives, friends or whoever it maybe, I think the saddest part is to have nothing to show for. Then again in a 100 years everyone who attended your funeral will be long gone too and no one will even remember who you were. Well, I guess it doesn't matter how you go.

Anyway. I know I was very stupid in my younger days, but I wish I could relive it too. For the most part I actually like my life right now, but I know that this too will not last. The only thing that I wish I had were a couple kids. The wife and I have been struggling for the past 4 or 5 years with this. I know that there is a good chance that we will never experience the joys and sorrows of parenthood, but we are still fighting the best we can. The odds aren't favorable.

Because of this I feel like just saying fuck it and let me just experience all the pleasures of life. We've been doing the whole fertility thing for a long time. It's frustrating as hell. I fucked up a lot. I'm trying to be better. I'll keep on fighting. I tend to get nihilistic, but you know, in the face of completely meaningless void, I rather go out fighting for things that I want than to just lie still and have the universe happen to me. It's a stupid position because if it doesn't matter then why bother? But something in me keeps wanting to fight. You gotta fight. If you can move and do something about it, you have to fight. That's at least my philosophy.

[bigbandzombeaverscreditroll]

angel numbers seen today in the order in which i remember them

242

333

333

2022- found on penny while i wondered if i should trust coin flips to guide me to my path of highest good

5055

3033

22 - three times

saturday 05/04/24

63666 - when thinking about what to do about rm and whether or not i should talk to them

222 - walking to work at io with cc

4044- talking about 2wiy dd set last night

444 - the views on my last ig post saw when thinking about whether or not the talk p wants to have is just an opportunity to talk shit to my face

777- talking about how 2nd city is more sketch comedy and io is improv and cc is talking about speaking things into w distance and opportunities being handed to you

sunday 5/5/24

444 the likes on a screenshot of a tweet on my dash the screenshot reads “nice spotify lik. did you know the sun has shone brighter and the moon has looked more beautiful everyday since i’ve known you.” and i wondered if i would ever get to feel like that about someon who felt like that about me before i saw the 444 it had 2.2 M views

111- on the same thread as above the tweet said “hey! i went ahead and searched through all of time! there is only you.” and i thought clouded in even more doubt “will i get to love like trhis? could i be loved like this?” before i saw it had 111 likes and 22 reposts

5/6/24

60666 - seen while moving on license plate while grappling w the reality that i could be a better friend

888- seem on license plate right after the 60666 made me feel dread nervous

711 177 - licsense plate seen while taking the train to bs with t wondering about how to be the best me

7676, 4444, 3131 - license plates seen in shredder bs car

7777 - seen when thinking about how i want to become a writer and i wanna watch and read and write in the car with b and t to beach license plate

60606- seem thinking about how actors want to pretend what they do is hard because it is being technically good at acting is excruciating but also plenty of people have the ability to be good enough as long as they’re charming with confidence and personality license plate otw the the beach w b and t

5555 - singing best american girl thinking about how it doesn’t apply to me and wasn’t written for my experience but i can still enjoy it street address of an apartment

5555 - license plate b and t otw to the beach thinking about if i’m hallucinating the amount of angel numbers i’m seeing day to day or if there’s an outside reason trying to find th logical explanation for why i’ve seen so many angel numbers on the daily since i moved to chicago

888 - phone number in window of a nail salon in car w b and t to get milkshakes thinking about how i could work on my voice for hours a day then smoke if i was a pop star but i’m not a pop star but i can still work on my voice everyday cause i wanna sound like the pop star version of myself

1111- thinking about if 7 is too early to get back to the bash street address in car w b and t on way to get milkshakes

5/7/24

*below seen in carried back to the city from bs house driven by b in shredder*

1111 - street address b driving me and t back to the bash thinking about how i want to be who i am in chicago with t and b back home too

999 - street cleaning company seen in car ^ wondering if i’ll ever have a love like b and ts

0888 - last four numbers in the phone number for a pizza place seen while thinking about how i have to practice my head voice and also wondering if i’ll ever have a love like b and t have for each other

6222 - adresss for unique furniture thinking about how i need to get to know myself

1111 - seen while talking to t about seeing angel numbers and them telling me there was a 7777 bus on our way to bs from the station yesterday.

555-5 - phone number for laundromat right as i was about to tell t and b a nice story about my hs friend

777 - license plate seen talking about how to better adapt heathers the musical to be more like the movie

222 - seen on license plate thinking abt how much i enjoy tris and beccas friendship and how i’m never nervous about them hating me when we’re hanging out

444 - seen on license plate correcting myself on something i had gotten wrong

333, 111, 333 - seen in license plates thinking about how i don’t want b and t to forget about me and i want us to stay friends

999 - phone number taxi cab

333 - license plate seen talking about how i already know what i want but i don’t i’ve been trained to pretend i want something i don’t because i don’t get what i want and i’m learning to believe myself when i want something

in the car with mom and dad on the way to ks

5055,999 - two license plates seen when i was talking about sometime you work well with people you don’t like personally or you respect people you don’t respect because they’re good at what you’re good at which is an antiquated way of thinking for me like maybe i should decide who i work with based on if i respect them personally maybe i can’t respect the work without respect of the human being

[1st-dreamerely]

The Last Piece, @parkjiseonge of Dreamerely.

Jaden Emilio, he is a shooting star, destined to leave a trail of brilliance across the galaxy, illuminating hearts along the way. The definition of BABY IN GROUP. THE BABIEST AMONG ALL. Park Jisung indeed, baby inside–out. The next member of always update after Chenle this lately, well you done kid.

To Jaden, HEYY CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR NEW GIRLFRIEND PLEASE BE HAPPY DD KECIL. And please betah sama kita ya? We gonna love you like a little baby. TETEP GEMES YAAA. HAPPY SATURDAY NIGHT.