#and about loneliness and isolation

[wicktalks]

lauraryder // of age - the frights // damaged goods - the narcissist cookbook // fat funny friend - maddie zahm // black box warning - leanna firestone // cough it out - the front bottoms // mellowmash33 // the ramblings of a lunatic - bears in trees // prologue - chase petra // fiona apple // critical role - sam riegel // conversations with friends - sally rooney // on lonliness - dante émile

[wickedcriminal]

Last Unicorn quote stuck out to me so I gave it to Spider-Fox

(the only person willing to be your friend and he didn't show up until long after you already lost all trust in other people)

[fellhellion]

couldn’t stop thinking about this

[disniq]

Oh I misread that last post actually. While Jason's loneliness definitely resonates, I don't think it's self made in the slightest.

If anything he's guilty of reaching out at any cost - originally by using violence and antagonism to force interaction (UTRH and BiB, arguably the titans tower thing), and later by consistently showing up when called no matter how badly he's been treated, doing Bruce's bidding, and being 110% willing to sacrifice himself for the cause in the hopes that it'll finally be enough, even though it never is.

[lightningbig]

sorry twilight princess will always be eating holes in my brain. constantly and forever. I cannot ever be normal about it.

it's such a haunted game. you are a dead thing going through a dead world. you are something in between. you can go back but it will never be the same. you will never be the same. you are walking, constantly, through ghosts of what came before. you are exploring places long forgotten. you are the only one on this path because there is no one else that can walk it. you were just a farm boy. you were in the wrong place at the wrong time. right place at the wrong time? wrong place at the right time? you were just supposed to deliver a sword.

[rememberthelullabies]

god i'm having series 12 thoughts...

the way the fam finally decide to get the Doctor to open up, to share things about herself... the way they were so ready to support her when they realized she was going through something... the way this could have been the season where the Doctor and the others form a deeper and more personal bond. one based on them truly understanding the Doctor and being on the same level as her instead of seeing her as this mysterious hero figure - and her learning to trust them in return...

but instead, the Doctor loses her planet and immediately feels so much more alone. like no one can understand her. the way she snaps at Ryan in Fugitive of the Judoon - "i've lived for thousands of years. [...] how long have you been here? you don't know me. not even a little bit." the way she feels like they couldn't possibly understand her pain, so she pushes them away. and then The Haunting of Villa Diodati adds another layer to this estrangement by presenting her with an impossible choice. and reminding her that she's the only one who can understand all the horrible consequences. making her conclude she'll have to be the one to bear all the weight of responsibility. "sometimes this team structure isn't flat. It's mountainous, with me at the summit in the stratosphere, alone, left to choose." more loneliness, more feeling isolated from the fam and everyone else.

a lonely god. cursed to see the complexity of the universe, forced to make choices even when there's no right one. forced to face losses bigger than anyone could imagine, and live with them for an eternity. cursed never to be truly understood by the ones she loves - cursing herself, because she won't let them try.

putting herself on top of this mountain out of hurt.

[loverboy-havocboy]

there's something so bittersweet about finding out you're autistic and that autistic people have trouble maintaining friendships long term. one one hand you're like oh! maybe there isn't something uniquely horrible about me! lots of people like me struggle with this! but then you realize that if it's not you, it's not in your power to fix

[ranticore]

a common theme I like to explore is the unlikable guy - unlikable in a mundane way, he's not a serial killer and isn't trying to take over the world, you don't get that degree of separation from him, this is someone you can and probably have met irl. pushy annoying inconsiderate weak bigoted toxic etc. this is who we're reading about today. and he's not necessarily going to improve either. i find that people react to "evil" and "just kinda shitty" characters very differently, usually hating the latter more - a vampire who kills people is whatever but some guy cheating on his gf provokes a stronger disapproving response. i think it's interesting how the closer to home you hit, the smaller the bad act is on the scale of badness. anyway it's really obvious why this is and I am partially just retreading very well trodden ground but it's this sort of kneejerk negative response to mundane shittiness I like to explore more than I do "he did commit the atrocities and I love him for it" style stories

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

childhood friend!sugu vs childhood friend!toru

YOU’VE COME TO THE RIGHT PLACE .

thank you for saying this anon i’ve been thinking of it a lot actually. i’m morally and legally binded to choose childhood friend!sugu no matter what because he’s literally……. my favorite Ever. and i think the inherent devotion of the childhood friend trope blends soooo well with his natural devotion. his protective urges. etcetc. i have wayyyy too many thoughts about childhood friend!sugu 😭 but it mostly boils down to him wanting to be by your side forever. he wants to make you happy and he wants to protect you and he knows you so well that he doesn’t trust anyone else to love you like he can. he’s selfish and he wants you to lean on him more than he wants anything for himself.

childhood friend!toru though….. i feel like he would be your estranged childhood friend. that makes most sense to me :3 like, you met when you were really really young, and ended up playing together in an empty park. he was a brat, kind of quiet, and you were just sweet, y’know? you were the closest thing to a friend he had as a child. then you ended up moving away, he never got to say goodbye… and you meet again as adults. you don’t remember him — it was just so, so long ago — but he remembers you. he remembers you a little too well.

so now you just kinda have to deal with this tall, handsome, cheery man who keeps talking to you like you’re best friends even though you literally don’t remember him…. he’s sweet though. a little annoying, but sweet. he has a soft spot for you. i think having anything remotely close to a childhood friend makes him feel human in a way he can’t help but crave.

sooooo. overall!!! both are good :3 i will always be a childhood friend!sugu truther before anything else but childhood friend!toru has sm potential..

[r0semultiverse]

The whole Lila & Five season 4 situation can be summarized by this tumblr post

[thatswhatsushesaid]

Who are your top fave characters from each mxtx novel? 👀

i'm going to exclude svsss from this list because i haven't finished it yet and therefore all of my opinions are just based on hearsay. but for the other two:

mdzs

1. jin guangyao (obviously); the antagonist of circumstance who but for a trick of fate and authorial intent could have easily been the novel's protagonist

2. lan xichen; the very best of men 🥹 truly the person with the kindest heart and (in my opinion) the most tragic ending in the novel*. also i'm xiyao trash, who's surprised

3. su she; he and i are the same person honestly

4. jiang cheng; i think if i was going to go insane about any of the core cast, i'd probably go insane over jiang cheng. and i probably would have, if jin guangyao didn't exist! sorry, jiang cheng.

5. wen qing; who doesn't love a mad scientist??

tgcf

1. xie lian; no seriously, i love the protagonist of this novel the best because he is everything i love about jin guangyao and lan xichen burrito'd up into one character

2. shi wudu; the heavens' cuntiest proto-capitalist, and also arguably the elder brother that the mdzs fandom wishes nie mingjue was for nie huaisang 👀 (this opinion has gotten me into at least 4 fights on the mdzs subreddit specifically)

3. pei ming; my ethical slut general. also the other half of peishui, my main non-hualian ship for this novel

4. mu qing; he did NOTHING wrong except have a bad attitude, since when is that a crime!!! (this is not serious analysis, please don't @ me with your mu qing criticism, i'm too tired for it right now)

5. jun wu; daddy 🥺

[fei-rest]

still not over lizzie’s secret life

[viric-dreams]

Out here drawing pre-dawnburnt Ellie and it's reminding me a lot about what a complete bastard she used to be in her teenage years.

She came into the navy already not particularly popular with other kids, deciding that it doesn't matter because the only people she needed to impress were the officers, the ones in power who could actually improve her life. The aftermath of the Fall and the reorganisation of the navy only seemed to reinforce this. When one of her peers tried to get her removed from their ship in the wake of her injuries and disability, she only fought harder to stay on, seeing him as the Competition, that everyone else has it out for her because they want to take her future from her. She would sell you to Satan for one corn chip. Only her captain's opinion mattered.

She was also a bit of a late bloomer, and stayed pretty small well into her teenage years. She ended up establishing herself early on by pulling a knife and turning a conflict violent before her opponent could even process they were in a fight. She made sure to set a precedent early on, one that would follow her into her commanding style: set a swift and brutal example early on, and you won't have to do it again. They will remember.

In retrospect, ego death and actually being in a position of power with people under her umbrella of responsibility did a lot for her personal development.

[hsfavoriteworlds]

I've been sitting on my feelings about this show for a couple of days now and I can't stop thinking about how lonely Yeong is. Nothing captures his self-inflicted loneliness quite like those small moments in episode 7 when he’s with the T-aras. When they are comforting Eun Su and then head to the hotel room, you see him just hang back, silently observing and slightly confused as the T-aras walk ahead and/or barge into the room while he stays behind for a second or two. It hits you then—you can feel the weight of his solitude, this deep sense of loneliness that goes beyond his romantic life. It’s all in how he carries himself in those moments that are supposed to be chaotic and fun, how he’s not walking in step with them. It's a constant reminder of how he isolates himself even when surrounded by his closest friends, and that just.... hurts.

[transxfiles]

"the unicorn lived in a lilac wood, and she lived all alone." and what if i cried.

[thatcatangelwriter]

gwen and miles make me go crazy....like the one who shouldn't be with the one who won't be...