#and I've never once gotten why that is
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
I've said it before, but genuinely there has never been a normal c!tommy critical discussion in the entire world. people Cannot frame tommy in any sort of negative light without saying the most out of pocket, victim blaming, abuse apologizing, or ableist shit you've ever seen for absolutely no reason.
it was true in 2020 and it's Still true today ! it's so Bizarre, because it's not even like you Can't frame any of tommy's actions as harmful (or at least in a negative light) without being weird about it. you can even Like Him and do it ! lots of dsmp characters get that treatment in the right spaces
but something about tomathy innit makes that just Impossible. you just can't criticize him without saying the worst thing that's ever been said.
as a wise tumblr user once said, tommy neg? why don't you tommy ne-get some bitches
#dsmp#dream smp#tommyinnit#it's Always perplexed me#even people who Usually have very good takes#somehow end up saying something totally out of pocket when they decided to criticize him#and I've never once gotten why that is#it's just easier to say he's never done anything wrong ever#to keep the evil spirits out
234 notes
·
View notes
Text
Blood Blossom Au: Baby's First Commissioner Meeting :)
TL:DR This Post: Danny (orphan) gets poisoned with blood blossom extract by Vlad. He runs away from him and ends up under the care of one Pre-Robin Battinson Batman! Starry is loudly pushing her batdad agenda.
(Also known as "Late At Night, When The Nightingale Sings" on my ao3!)
This was a fun rough idea I've been sitting on for weeks, thinking about how Commissioner Gordon and Nightingale's first meeting might go.
---------------
Commissioner Gordon likes to think that he's adjusting to the new normal of Gotham very well, -- the new normal being grown men running around dressed like bats, in military-grade strength body armor, committing acts of vigilantism, -- and slowly, little by little, he was no longer being surprised when this new normal pops up out of the shadows like the world's most terrifying daisy. His shaving lifespan thanks him for it.
....
The kid is a surprise though.
Granted, he seemed to be a surprise to the Bat too.
There's been a string of murders lately, -- which, in Gotham, is kind of like saying there's been another storm during monsoon season. And there's just been another; in some dilapidated building down in south Gotham, with the broken, boarded-up windows and mildew-crawling walls to match. The victim is a man in his thirties, multiple gunshot wounds to the chest, left in the center of the room for the blood to pool out around him.
The place is already secured when he arrives, the building swarmed with officers and the forensic detectives. The Bat emerges shortly after he does -- or, he might've been here the whole time, hiding someplace dark and shadowy. For his own sanity, Gordon doesn't think about it too hard.
The kid is a surprise, and he appears like a bolt of lightning.
He shows up in the middle of a conversation Gordon is having with the Bat.
A whistle, sharp and loud, slicing through the air, meant for open air rather than a confined space. Gordon's ears pierce and protest the sound, and the solemn, murmured chatter floating through the room abruptly cuts off like the swing of a gavel. As he turns towards the sound -- as they all do -- he swears, up and down, that he sees Batman's shoulders jump, just slightly.
At the source, perched on the window, is a boy. A boy in a gray-blue scarf and an oversized black hoodie, one that hangs off his frame and has ace bandages wrapped around the wrists in some attempt to cinch the sleeves. The hood is up, big like the rest of it, and threatens to swallow the upper half of the boy's face whole in the fabric. What upper half Gordon can see, is smeared with some kind of opaque, black face paint. He's holding onto the side of the frame with one hand, on his hip is a grappling hook. A familiar grappling hook.
Gordon has multiple questions, and his officers tense up.
Martinez puffs up, brows furrowing as his face shapes into a frown. Shoulders rolling back. "You can't be here, kid--"
The reaction is immediate, like a spark to gunpowder, the boy yanks his fingers from his mouth and his mouth twists into a scowl. Head snapping over to Officer Martinez, his hood manages to stay on but Gordon swears that as he bares his teeth, the glint makes them look sharper than they should be. His voice is rasp and quiet and harsh; snappish in its hissing; "Put a fuckin sock in it, Martinez. I'm not stayin."
Martinez reels back, and the boy immediately veers his attention off him. Like a switch, his demeanor drops. Despite half his face being covered, his mouth twists into a cringing, apologetic smile. Slanted and off-beat, embarrassed. It'd be disarming if this wasn't Gotham, and if he didn't just hiss at Martinez like he was about to bite his head off.
"Sorry." He whispers, voice deceptively polite and softer now. Gordon has to strain his ears to hear him. "I was looking for him."
He points his finger towards-- Gordon? No, Gordon follows the direction, and finds himself looking at -- the Bat.
The Bat, who always looks stiff as a pole, now looks even stiffer. Somehow. Well, the explains the grappling hook attached to the boy's waist.
"What are you doing here?" The Bat says, gruff and unable to completely smother the stumble of surprise in his tone.
The boy still holds a sheepish smile, and slips off the window ledge. His feet hit the creaky boards with a near-silent thud, the Batman finds his feet and rapidly begins crossing the room.
Gordon notes the slight tremble in the boy's legs as he straightens. He adjusts his scarf, which droops close to his knees now that he's standing, and slings a backpack -- how long has had that? -- off his shoulders. When the Bat reaches his side, he does as he always does, and looms over the boy like a spectre. A threatening mass of shadows cloaked in all-consuming black. Standing next to him, the boy looks teeny in comparison.
The Bat is a man who terrifies even the most hardened criminals, Gordon has seen grown men shiver in fear at the mention of his name. And yet when the boy looks up at him, he doesn't even flinch.
Instead, his sheepish smile melts away like ice under the sun, holding only traces of his previous embarrassment. It remains as a shadow on his face, a small upturn at the corners of his mouth. The boy pushes his hood back just enough to reveal glinting, ice-flint eyes surrounded in tar-black face paint. He holds the backpack up with one arm. "You forgot this."
#I have never seen Batman (2022) so really I'm just using battinson and crew as templates for my fic. but hey what else is new lol#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc fic#dpxdc au#dp x dc au#dpxdc fanfic#i dont know shit about detective work or true crime so forgive me for any bad terminology or incorrect procedure for how these things work#just a fun rough idea for how i imagined gordon's first meeting with nightingale goes LMAO. im sticking to the idea that danny doesn't#officially join the field for a *while* due to more than just health reasons. so his first appearances are brief and usually to give B smth#danny: im only here as express delivery for vader's little brother over there. yall stay safe tho.#bruce: *kill bill sirens bass-boosted* ohmygodwhatishedoinghere#batman: how did you get here... | danny: you have so many spare grappling hooks it was pr easy to just grab one and go#also danny is whispering on purpose because he doesn't have his ghost form to fall back on as a secret identity. so he *is* actually taking#extra steps to keep his identity safe. and people usually sound different when they're whispering. he also has personal beef with#office martinez despite the fact that they've never met. Danny's HEARD of his ass. he hATES his ass.#Martinez: *to batman* freak | danny: im going to Bite Him. | batman (reluctantly): hmr. please don't. | danny: im going for his shins#Martinez and Nightingale have this whole thing going on between the two of them. danny WILL slap a sticky note on Martinez's back that says#'asshole' on it and its the one spot square on his spine that martinez can't reach.#someone: why are you beefing with like. an actual 12 year old | martinez: HE'S A LITTLE RAT. THAT'S WHY. he's here to torment me#battinson: *did you grapple the whole way here* | danny: yah. it was kinda fun. i would've gotten here faster but i kept having to stop#battinson: *hnnn* im driving you back | danny:.. are you sure? | battinson already pulling him out of the room: y e s#i've been thinking about this for literally WEEKS. what did bruce forget? good question! i'll figure that out if or when i get to this#danny has Issues behind the word freak so its like a mini beserker button for him regardless of who the word is aimed at lol. lmao#martinez calls batman a freak once while nightingale is within range and its just the doom ost as danny simply Disappears from sight#like oops. you are now. In Danger. rip couldn't be me.#blood blossom au
434 notes
·
View notes
Text
"their relationship is romantic" "their relationship is familial" "their relationship is platonic" you're thinking too narrow. their relationship goes beyond labels. the family is inherently queer. their platonic love is romantic. the erotic is familial. each one is the other and the other is them
#.txt#i've gotten to the point of relationship anarchy where i no longer understand the obsession with labeling relationships#there's a post floating around like 'it doesn't matter if you view them as romantic or platonic the point is that they love each other'#and i get the message. however may i propose that distinctions such as that don't even have to matter. consider#bold claim probably. but whatever i didn't have the choice to think about love in a normative way and as a consequence i have thoughts#of course i am thinking about wincest but it applies everywhere. jopzier even#jopson views crozier as a surrogate parent but in an inherently queer way. does that mean he want to fuck his mom? probably not#but the fixation and need for redemption turns the traditionally familial relationship into something far more#do you understand#once you leave the normative behind labels become useless#do sam and dean love each other romantically or platonically or familially? consider: it doesn't matter. there are no words to describe it#their love is queer in the sense that it extends beyond normativity. society holds no sway over them. they are ungovernable#i find it ultimately unhelpful to discuss fiction in normative terms when the characters themselves exist outside of normative society#shows like supernatural and the terror are perfect examples. sam and dean were never normal and franklin crew left normal behind#the arctic doesn't care if you fuck your mom. the impala doesn't care if you kiss your brother#this isn't really about anything i just saw that post the other day and i was like. why doesn't this Hit for me. well this is why#however it IS helpful to discuss fiction set within normative society in relation to normativity. it's relevant!#most stories are not however set within the bounds of normativity. that's kinda the whole point of a lot of fiction#baby i explore relationship anarchy in ways that you couldn't even imagine#<-tldr#i have a tendency to write essays in the notes every time i post something. sorry about that. it feels safer here and i am skittish
69 notes
·
View notes
Text
hey guys who wants another round of tmi
#ive been#this entire day has been a lot and i have no idea how to feel about it#i've never cried this much in an entire day and i can't stop myself from tearing up but it's not because of something sad or traumatic i'm#not used to being loved. or appreciated. or meant to feel like i belong anywhere. i've struggled with being excluded and ostracized and it#has been an uphill battle for a long time and deep down despite my many attempts to heal and get better i've always felt like something was#fundamentally wrong with me. it has been wrong with me from the start and whatever evidence to the contrary ive gotten was rationalised awa#by fluke or maybe people like me because of what i can provide and what i can do for them and not because of who i am and who i am will#always be tolerated or ignored at best and i genuinely was not expecting anyone but a few close friends to care about this and just. andjus#i think something in me is healing and it's still hard to accept but i can conceptualize it and any negative thought in my brain is being#countered by “hey why would you think that when people care about you” and i know it is obvious right. its something i should know but it#has always been so hard to believe that anyone would and the fact that it's hitting right now? i cant fucking stop crying#its almost fucking embarrassing im like this. im a grown ass adult. why the fuck am i still crying like this. i fucking hate trauma man#keeps making me feel like im that kid who was never loved in the ways that mattered. sorry im just#thankful. grateful. i feel like some parts of that gaping wound is stitching itself together and i cant stop crying and for once im not#crying because i'm being hurt. i'm just grateful to be here. genuinely fucking grateful that i'm alive#funny isnt it. how much love can save you if you let it#tmi#rant#embarrassed myself enough i think#sorry about that we'll go to our regularly scheduled ghoap program soon enough#i'll be okay
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
One thing I really wish the FF Community would Stop doing is Removing All Nuance from the Parents in Those Stories in order to Make Them Abusive Supervillains who Never Loved their Kid.
Like... In the Four Years I've been here, and for how Small the Community really is, you'd be surprised how many Times I've seen it-
#The Most Prominent (and Worst) Example I can Give is with Alec’s Mother#Like... Yeah- She listens to Fucking Books and is a Karen basically- She's not a Good Mother#But making her into an Abusive Mother who Never Loved Alec and just wants to Control Him?? I think we read the Wrong Book Guys-#That Removes alot of the Tragedy in Lonely Freddy- The Fact that Things could've Gotten Better if they just Talked#But they can't anymore since Alec is Trapped in a Dumpster...#There's also plenty of More Examples I can Give#Devon's Mother isn’t Abusive or Homophobic- She’s a Struggling Woman who was Abused herself (Devon’s Father threw things at her)#Which in turn from that Struggle- Has made her Neglectful of Him#I can't really say much for Pete's Mom since I forgot alot of Step Closer- but making her a Comical Abusive Mother probably isn’t accurate.#I even once saw Oswald's Dad get Villainized and Like... We definitely must've read the wrong story cause the worst thing I remember him#doing is getting upset at Oswald for going Into the Pit#It's usually always the Mothers who get Villainized tho- Like... If we're going to look at their Kids with Nuance and-#- believe they could get better if their stories didn't end with Tragedy#Why can't we do the same for their Parents??#Also if you REALLY want like... an Abusive Parent to Hate- Greg's Dad is right There.#Angel's Step Dad is Pretty Abusive too from what I heard (I never read the Story)#I'm just saying- There’s no need to villainize the Parents with Actual Nuance to Comical Degrees#fazbear frights#<- Tagging it because it's something I've really grown tired of...#Oh Yeah in Case I wasn't Clear#I don't think the Ones I mentioned above are good Parents necessarily (Besides maybe Oswald's Dad)#I just Don't like when people make every single one of them Super Mega Abusive cause that like... Kinda removes the fact that you can be a-#- Bad Parent WITHOUT being Abusive or Hating their Kids?? Like... You're kinda removing alot of Gray and making things very Black and White#Ok sorry for Writing an Essay in the Tags- I just had alot to Explain
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
fuck it, coyote time
#he's still in the early stages as you can see but ours wasn't super detailed so actually a very suitable style for ts4 polycount#I'm gonna make some other weird random items I have seen in houses#once I was with my parents visiting their friends' house#and in the entryway there was just a taxidermy deer head in one of those big white buckets#because they'd never gotten around to putting it on the wall#I'm not even sure why they had it it was not their style at all#but nonetheless they had a taxidermy deer head in a bucket#I've been wanting to make some mounted animal heads for my skyrim dude to put in his house anyway so like#might as well#I am going to make every house so un-instagrammable
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
I KNOW there is a pipeline from teen wolf to doctor who (or the other way around) but I haven't figured it out. I just. I see you. I see stiles stilinski pop up far too often for there not to be one.
and I don't even like most of you bc it's the same fuckin sterek hating scott mccall lovers (me) vs scott mccall hating sterek lovers (you), but in a completely different fandom. it's absolutely tragic.
#going through it rn as I try and piece this together#I'm just so curious. it's such a little group but it's big enough that I notice it nonetheless#and never the scotty lovers either mind you#it's JUST the stiles kids. the sterek girlies#I'm trapped as a scott mccall defender-till-I-die with the scott mccall hating stereks. hell. hell on earth#I swear to the high heavens I've seen “bad friend scott mccall” pop up once in the dw tag on ao3 and I about lost my shit#WHAT IS IT DOING THERE!!!#Idk if I've just gotten completely and utterly unlucky but I don't want to be any of your guys friend even with our common interests#I kinda hope I've just gotten unlucky honestly but I don't think I have#like what's the appeal of dw to sterek lovers. I want to know#why is it MOSTLY attracting you lot?#anti sterek#putting that there so you can ignore me I'd feel bad if you saw this#but it irritates me LOL I wanted to rant and rave about this#teen wolf#doctor who
18 notes
·
View notes
Text
Would I be proving my therapist (who has been voicing some concerns about my depression maybe getting worse but like I feel like it's fine) right by cancelling my appointment tomorrow cause I just don't wanna. Like all I have to report is that I'm tired and I wanna rest and I just don't really feel like it y'know
#unrelated to the flu shot but i'm certain i'll feel it tomorrow#idk i've been in a weird state lately where i get really excited about my art and i get super talkative in general#i feel peppy and enthusiastic and excited and then i just crash. HARD.#it feels like all the years of being a shut-in finally catch up to me all at once and it's like apocalyptic hellfire all consuming agony#and nobody is ever gonna love me again bc i refuse to allow it and the lights are too bright in public spaces.#i feel like i'm not really a person outside of my interests and my artwork. i forget that i'm like. a being.#i think i'm also just annoyed bc i'm gonna be Doing Things. already so soon it's gonna be halloween#and i have plans w my sisters and their friends and later i'll be spending the night at my sister's#and i do want to do all that. but it pisses me off that i had waste time today and will have to tomorrow#when i could be drawing. i should have been drawing. i cannot emphasize enough actually#how artwork is just. the one and only thing that makes me feel connected to people.#that brings me joy and purpose like nothing else. so i just get extra upset if i'm gonna be doing too many things LMFAO#and as i say all this like damn milo some people have jobs. i used to. a lifetime ago.#but to be so real i've gotten so much worse. at. everything.#man sometimes i can't even tolerate being at one of my sisters' place bc she doesn't have lamps.#so i just have to chill in the dark in an adjacent room and it's like Fine.#but why can't everyone live by MY rules.#if i skip out on therapy tomorrow i should cancel tonight. i guess i'm just split about it.#like. it's clear i have things to talk about. but man i just don't fucking WANT to. i'm SICK OF IT#it's more of the same and then some. my circumstances will never change bc i'm in hell. okay.#who CARES .......#who GIVES a shit..........#ect.
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
Looks like I just lost another close friend to guy who isn't worth a pile of dog shit. 😊
#my best friend no less#i cried about this shit practically all afternoon but i'm all out of tears and now i'm just pissed off.#this shit has been going on for a long ass time but i've finally reached my breaking point with it#i love her#but she is delusional#and it kills me to say that#but that whole “relationship” (if you even want to call it that) is fake. all he cares about is money not her#the worst part is that she knows it too#oh but she “loves him” and “wants to give him one last chance” girl what the fuck?#oh but better yet he dumped her once 2 years ago already and i've hated his punk ass since#never should've gotten back tother after that and i told her as much even back then#all he does is make her cry#not do anything arount their town house#and sit on his ass and watch tv or sleep when he's not working#that's the tame stuff too i could say sooo much worse but i'm actually not trying to air her dirty laundry out her#i'm just pissed off#but suddenly IM the bad guy when tell her i won't support her or this “relationship” when she told me they were getting back together today#this is after i helped her and her parents ans brother move all her stuff out of the town house last Monday and back to her parents place#after she told me they were done for good#but IM the bad guy for bringing up all of fhe reasons listed above and all of the REALLY bad things about the relationship#when i tell her i won't be supporting her any longer and that i'll be walking away if she goes back to him#best part is her family agrees with me and they tell her all the things i say about him and then some#but when i go out on the line and put my heart down on the table for her and all i get back is a text saying:#“i don't really like how you're texting right now so we'll talk about this later.”#girl#i don't know whether or not i want to cry harder or strangle her#i think it's both#so yeah i think i just lost my best friend to a guy who doesn't remotly deserve her and everything kicks rocks rn#it's just like my other friend all over again#why do my friend have such dog shit taste in men
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
i think my tolerance for moe (ie the anime stuff) is in freefall rn
#(very long tags just a warning)#once you start realising how ingrained the idea is of youth as the ultimate ideal is you see it everywhere and it gets annoying#the way most popular media is about teenagers doing stuff. the way all the popular art is conventionally attractive people#people calling porcelain doll-faced anime girls in gachas ''milfs'' and ''grandmas''#and in the same way the moe ideal is of youthful characters you can find ''cute'' or you're meant to feel you want to protect#something that's more about what they make you feel rather than anything seen as an actual person#and ''moe voice'' anime girl samples/vocals are everywhere in some the genres of music i listen to#so of course this shit is everywhere online. you go to discuss a certain game and nobody gives a fuck about the female mc as a person#they just want to share sanitised art where she's cute or in a maid outfit or whatever#they never have to think about the female characters in a story when they can just call her cute and share said art#they don't want a person they want something cute#age lines and anger and low periods and certain body types and other facts of life considered ''undesirable'' have no place in moe#people don't want that stuff. and that's what gets me. it's internalised and ingrained EVERYWHERE#and that's transformed into something very ugly in that it's being taken as an ideal rather than a character type#and it means a lot of the things i think are part of the experience of living are cut out and ignored and treated as unwanted#as well as manifesting as ageism and racism and xenophobia at worst when taken as an actual ideal#why do you think there are so many far right wingers who love all that moe stuff and have anime pfps?#anyway back to my main point of irritation with youth as an ideal: that's just an extreme case#i consider moe a form of crystallisation of youth as an ideal as well as what Certain People want from women#and that's why i find myself. tolerating it less.#i don't want a small anime girl to find cute and ''protect'' and otherwise not think about i want a PERSON#anyway ik nobody's gonna read this i just. i tried to listen to a mashup album from 2011 today#i got annoyed with the constant high pitched moe voice samples and had to turn it off bc i was thinking about all of this#i've never really gotten annoyed w it like this til now tbh
3 notes
·
View notes
Note
Survey Program, go to...the First Meeting,
There is a shift. Things move faster yet faster on the screen. A house is made. A tree is explored. It all moves by in a blur. By the time it finishes slowing down. It's somewhere you haven't seen in a while. That School. The Camera locks on a far younger Suzy than you last saw. Following her as she steals Ham Sandwiches. Stuffing them away in her arms when no body looks. She seems to get redirected to the field. Trying to make her way to hide out somewhere to have her food. She overhears a fight. Investigating it she spots a ring of spiked vines trapping others in over a confrontation. She stands by as a dodgeball rolls to her. She picks it up. Clutching it close as she witnesses the fight from an outsider's perspective. Across the field the human and monster principles approach the commotion. Following along is the Other Frisk. She throws the ball up in the air with a surprised kick reaction at the sound of a whistle.
INTERFERENCE ENABLED
The ball freezes. Redirecting itself back down to the Other Flowey. Hitting right where it was meant to. ... At the principal's office. The trio each are brought to talk about their perspective of what happened.
HOST RECALIBRATION
The perspective moves to focus on the Other Flowey. Briefly showing their side as it snaps back.
Suzy seems to brush off whatever that was. Holding her head for a minute.
As Suzy is the last to talk. She passes by the Other Frisk holding the Other Flowey. She looks neither of them in the eye.
FOLLOWER SENT
That Clam Girl you hadn't seen since Waterfall bursts in the room. Talking to Suzy. Asking if she was ok. As she talks the Program runs off some previously made choice.
INTERFERENCE ENABLED "You did not. Perhaps it was nobody at all." "Does a punishment for him seem that fitting in the grand scheme of things?"
The principles seem... unsure of themselves as they talk. Letting Suzy and Clam Girl go as they are left to ponder on that push of direction.
Flowey: "As much as I'd like to go on and on about how funny and cathartic it is to see my younger self getting smacked in the head by a dodgeball, I have something else more important to talk about,"
Flowey: "Like, for instance, what did Clam Girl mean when she said that? Does that mean the other me didn't get expelled from school??"
Frisk: "I'm not sure why you're making it sound like a bad thing-,"
Flowey: "That's because it IS a bad thing! EXPEL HIM FROM THAT HELL SCHOOL! SET HIM FREEEEEE!!!"
Frisk: "At least the other me got to spend more time with the other you at school....they also got to spend more time with you acting like a cranky baby,"
Flowey: "YOU'RE ONLY ADDING TO MY POINT! Six or seven hours of space between us for five days in a row is healthy and for the best!"
Frisk: "Mhm, I know you're just saying that,"
Flowey: "I SAY A LOT OF THINGS, FRISK!"
Flowey then calms down: "Ahem...anyways, this confirms it, the Doctor is responsible for changing and manipulating that timeline, however, it looks like Clam Girl is one of their followers and is Suzy's caretaker, I'm not sure how I feel about it, but at least she seems harmless,"
Frisk: "Yeah, hopefully Suzy is happy with the change,"
Flowey: "Mm...she was stealing sandwiches and looked miserable, but eh, maybe after making friends with you, things will turn around for her,"
Frisk: "I'm sure you have the potential to make her happy too, you're a lovely friend when you get comfortable with a person,"
Flowey: "Eh, you're biased,"
#undertale ask blog#flowey ask blog#flowey#frisk#flowey the flower#teen!flowey#teen!frisk#Survey_Program#Mun: I was confused about why Suzy was given a dodgeball and not a basketball because those were certainly flying everywhere#but then I realized that a basketball would have knocked Flowey OUT (can flowers get concussions?)#it would have made Suzy look really bad#Flowey truly hated his time at public school#he had to be carried from class to class by Frisk... he really felt like he stuck out like a sore thumb and it was embarrassing#and I think other kids would have to carry him because he and Frisk would eventually not have the same classes anymore#BUT I think that once he got his 1st and 2nd potbots that things would get better for him#He probably would have gotten comfortable enough to make few friends#I know I'm rambling but I've never really touched on this subject much before#I am now imagining Flowey escaping his flower pot and hiding in the school vents or school attic and skipping classes#what a deliquent
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
NO FUCKING WAY I HAVE TO SEE HP ON MY FOR YOU PAGE. ..
#this is the hater in me but idont think hp and hh should be on tumblr anymore. get rid of it. go back to forums#before you ask why i don't have the tag blacklisted: it's cause i gen never once have gotten a single thing for it EVER#so i've honestly forgotten to put it in there. no more though
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
i'm honestly considering remaking because i seriously think something about having the same account for so many years is scary. like i don't want to delete this account but i sort of really do?
#op#BEWARE these tags are A LOT#i don't like having a very strong presence in places anymore. i like making an impact but#the second i feel too insecure in the situation i'm OUT#i prefer being able to move on at will yk? i like being able to vanish it feels so freeing#before this i've had like 3-4 blogs on completely different accounts and once i left the fandom i just deleted my blog#like no warning no anything just deleting it#and those people literally never heard from me again and that's really comforting idk how to describe it#i get super restless after using the same account for a long time#and someone linking two accounts i've previously had not only annoys me it really really scares me#i've gotten pretty paranoid over the years that if anyone knew who i really was they'd hate me lmao#which is why i really like moving on from groups#i guess it means something that i'm sticking around for this one. sootpologist is my oldest blog ever and i wanna keep it that way#but i don't know if i should just leave the account for a while and go to a new one for a bit? make this more of a home base and make a#secondary blog? fuck man who knows#idk lots of nonsense today. also hi again
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
I was just about to make a post that said something like 'Eliza Scarlet and Inspector Wellington wish they had what Bobby Jones and Lady Frances Derwent have,' but the truth is they still have a looooonnnggg ways to go before they're actually to the point of actively desiring to work as an effective a team, instead of turning very single one of their interactions into either a competition or an opportunity to pointlessly take offense at the other (and most often, both at once).
#miss scarlet and the duke#why didn't they ask evans?#i've finally figured out my biggest problem with this show--#I genuinely want to see Eliza and William reach this level of teamwork and character development#bc on the rare instances where they put their differences and respective agendas and opposing worldviews aside#and actually //work together// as a //team//#they are AMAZING at it#and I WANT them to fall into this naturally!! I WANT to see them grow to respect each other and learn to work together even when they don't#always agree with one another!!#they're both so fixated on always being RIGHT and always WINNING that it's like they have absolutely no idea how to selflessly put their#own agendas aside just for //once// to accept a show of concern for the other's well-being#(Eliza snarking back at William every time he asks if she's ok in this episode)#or a clumsy attempt at showing how much they actually //do// care for and value the other person's place in their life#(William accusing Eliza of trying to humiliate him when she suggested he work for her instead of transferring last season)#but the truth is--I simply do not trust these writers enough to believe that they will give us that sort of development and growth#because this is the 3rd season and we've gotten... pretty much nowhere :')#sure they're closer than they were. if I didn't know better I'd almost say something significant has happened between them#in the gap between seasons#bc they're a lot more touchy and prone to invade one another's personal space this season than they have been before#there's a new level of chemistry between them I've never noticed in the previous two seasons#and yeah I think they're both unspokenly aware of both their own feelings and each other's#but... they still have SO much growing to do before they'll be the kind of team they COULD be#and sadly I'm not sure if that will ever happen :P#gurt says stuff#rambling
18 notes
·
View notes
Text
trying to get better at backgrounds which means i need to get better with 3d space but i'm really really bad at estimating distances and length fhvsdh
#just me hi#'use a ruler' i lose track of things so fast#and once it gets to a certain point i just. can't imagine anything going further than like 30 feet#after that everything gets sorta [so-so]#so you can imagine how terribly this works for when i'm drawing backgrounds :)#i've gotten away with some stuff because the things'll be closer to the characters but again: once it gets like 30 feet away i do Not know#how big that thing should be or what the angle should even look like#/'use guidelines' i've Tried and they kinda stress me out idk why fvhsh#i'll have them down and then realize 'oh No. this has 𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘱𝘴' and then never return to the page hhh#/don't even ask about character heights i don't Know how tall anyone is#i estimate according to my own height and i don't even know how tall I am. it's bad man hfvhs#/i'm bad with numbers cuz i lose track fast. that's what i'm saying lol#gotta get better at it Gonna get better at it#it's inevitable#mostly because i need it for Projects and that's the only reason i improve at most things hfhvs#'i Need this thing to look neat' and Boom two weeks later you got it#/but anyway yea. i hate 3d space lolll
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
i feel like i borked my entire playthrough somehow? everything feels rough all of a sudden and im on normal casual. i really don't want to start over but i genuinely might
#yall i love a.wakening so much until i hate a.wakening with every fiber of my being#something about it clashes with my brain#it took me like 5 tries to play through it once#this is my second playthrough Ever#i think that's why im all :/ about this current run#im on chapter 18 i've only recruited 3 of the next gen (four if you count l.ucina) and l.aurent's folks still aren't together#like on top of me getting my ass handed to me in every battle now it just? feels Bad feels mismanaged somehow#like my last run not only did i get all of the next gen recruited and thus did 12 s supports#i got the next gen married off to each other#maybe i just need to manage my expectations better bc i've never gotten the next gen of f.ates paired off but like#idk feels off and i hate it#christina.txt#christina plays
0 notes