#and I'm going for the HIGH notes too
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
I've decided that if the neighbors are going to let their child shriek for ages and run stomping up and down their apartment, then I'm going to take advantage of the good acoustics in the hallway and sing. They can listen to me practice Protomen songs.
#and I'm going for the HIGH notes too#Hope Rides Alone#i was not built for apartment living#the Protomen
23 notes
·
View notes
Text
Everyone Introduced in Dimension 20's Fantasy High: Junior Year episode 20 (finale)
#dimension 20#dimension 20 spoilers#d20 introductions#fhjy#fantasy high junior year#d20 fhjy#WOW dang. what a season#i'm glad the episode didn't end on like. as bleak of a note as it could have for the ratgrinders#being literal teens that were taken advantage of by adults that groomed them and all#was honestly REALLY obsessed by the implications of like how kipperlily's shatterstar was willing and the rest of her friends' weren't.#like there are so many fucking ways that could be interpreted#was she the last to go? was she the first? did she KNOW? was she complicit in it? did she do it by her own hand? what HAPPENED there?#i'm so obsessed. like holy fuck#also this is something vague i was hoping for but like- in the combat when ally said they wanted to go for oisin after he died at first#i was thinking of something like. that they might revive the ratgrinders whose shatter stars already left to have them rejoin the fight#on THEIR side for the purposes of saving the others? but that didn't happen and went on otherwise#i can't. fucking believe. that we got fucking blimey'd AGAIN. fucking insane#and now K2 canonically exists in the real world#fig has an army of inevitable automatons hunting her. fabian has a literal unborn nemesis. adaine has a wizard mom to kill.#senior year problems..... honestly i feel like the high level play this season was really fun to watch#and i think i'd really enjoy seeing a senior year too#what a season. i was IMMENSELY enjoying it for the majority of it that like Starkly dropped around eps 18 and 19 that left a bad taste#but i don't know. i feel like the finale managed to salvage some of that good that i'd really enjoyed over the course of the season#what a ride though‚ I did enjoy it a lot#see y'all next season!!
60 notes
·
View notes
Text
HOW THE HELL do I have 4 awakened cards (including an R3 and R1), another R1 level 80, and a level 75 equipped WITH ALL 6 STELLACTRUM MATCHED AND STILL
CANT
BEAT
THIS FKING LEVEL 🤬🤬🤬
#love and deepspace#lads zayne#SERIOUSLY these freaking 'berzerk wanderer' levels can just LEAVE#dont even get me started on open 88... same shit different stage except I only have 3 acceptable matching cards. MORE VIOLET ZAYNE CARDS PL#im not wasting my materials on upgrading a bunch of 3 and 4 star violet cards that surely wont do shit at this high of a level requirement.#I'm just going to keep brute forcing Open Orbit 88 with a bunch of unmatched 80s until i finally beat it because there is NO other way#(except to start giving a shit about Rafs 50 million violet cards... but that's WAY too much effort lol)#on that note.... hi. I hope you're all having a magical day : )#ash battle cries#deepspace trials#open orbit 88#ice trial 108
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
What if the Sacred Orb survived and was the most doomed girl to ever live... long-ish OC lore under the cut
In my AU, the Battle of the Burning is pushed back a little bit, so Kludd gets to be an alive dad to both the Sacred Orb and Coryn for a while. Don't worry he still dies
I've named my Sacred Orb OC Guinevere as a nod to Kludd and Nyra's Lancelot/Guinevere-ness (bonus points because the root for "Guin" means "white"). She goes by Gwen in daily life, though Nyra likes to use her full name.
Gwen is Kludd's mini-me, right down to her appearance. When Gwen is still very young, she's closer to her mother, but as she gets older and her parents tell her about their plans and her role as heir, her father becomes her entire world.
(As far as Kludd's parenting goes, I can't imagine he likes babies at all so he's in distant father mode until Gwen starts actually having a personality, at which point he's like "Wait. This thing (my child) worships me and I get to tell it what to do and mold it into whatever I want? Sick this rules")
Gwen's worldview and sense of self are entirely built upon the idea that she is not only superior to all non-Tyto owls but also superior to everyone--she hatched from the Sacred Orb, she is the most Pure, she is the perfect heir who will inherit her father's kingdom.
The first crack in this view is the birth of Coryn (who's still Nyroc at this point). Nyra starts paying more attention to Coryn because he's born on the eclipse, which irks Gwen. She's the one who hatched from the Sacred Orb; who cares about some moon magic?
Gwen develops a complex about not being an eclipse baby and takes it out on her little brother, but otherwise ignores him. She thinks he's weird in classic mean big sister fashion. They are not close.
Before Kludd dies, Gwen is unshakably confident; she is, after all, the perfect heir, a great fighter, a Tyto Most Pure, just like her invincible, infallible father, right? The world will be hers one day. She is perfect, her family is perfect, and nothing will ever go wrong.
(Also, there's no way Kludd and Nyra are letting their precious heirs kill each other, so Gwen's TUPSI is her friend Cinder, a Lesser Sooty. Cinder was born into the Pure Ones, completely buys into their ideology, and is perfectly honored to be a sacrifice.)
("I'm honored that my death will make you purer," Cinder whispers. "I'm so happy to die for you." Gwen can't afford to hesitate. Her father is watching.)
Kludd dies in the AU equivalent of the Battle of the Burning, which completely shatters Gwen's worldview. After his death, she takes on the title of High Tyto, dons his mask and his battle claws, but they don't quite fit. She tries to be strong just like her father, but she slowly starts to crack.
Coryn still has firesight, so he still leaves for the Great Tree after seeing visions in the flames of Kludd's final ceremony. Nyra is deeply upset by this. Gwen is glad her mother belongs only to her again, but also plagued by the idea that maybe her mother would prefer for Coryn to have become the High Tyto instead.
In the wake of her father's death, sometimes Gwen wishes her mother would hug her and hold her like she's a chick again, but she knows that can never happen. She's the High Tyto now. She can't afford to show weakness.
Gwen is a good soldier but not as talented of a commander as her father was (or at least, she believes he was). The Pure Ones lose battle after battle after battle under her command, which only makes her spiral even further. (She puts on a facade of confidence to mask this. It mostly works.)
Nyra and Gwen argue constantly after Gwen becomes the High Tyto. Nyra wishes her daughter would obey her. Gwen wishes her mother would trust her abilities. They're all the other has left and yet they make each other miserable.
("I'm the High Tyto," Gwen says. "I'm the one in charge." Nyra counters by pointing out that she is the one born on the eclipse, the one with the great enchantment. Gwen resents her mother more and more, but she has no one else to rely on.)
She wonders if maybe Nyroc would've been better. Maybe it should've been him after all? Maybe this is all because she wasn't born on the eclipse. Maybe she was the wrong choice, except she can't be wrong because that would mean Cinder died for nothing. She can't be wrong because that would mean her father (who taught her and raised her and believed in her) would be wrong too, and that just isn't possible.
Coryn obtains the Ember of Hoole and becomes king of the Great Tree. Gwen wishes she'd been allowed to kill him in her TUPSI after all.
During their final confrontation, Gwen corners Coryn and tries to kill him--tries to avenge her father, defend the legacy he left her, justify her entire existence--but can't go through with it. (It's all too much. She wishes she was still a hatchling. She wishes her father was still alive. She wishes none of this had ever happened at all.)
Gwen surrenders, but, seized by the need to not disappoint her father even after his death, tries to kill Coryn one more time in an act of betrayal. She almost succeeds, but is stabbed through the back by Twilight.
Gwen dies a bloody death, just like her father. As the world grows dark, she wonders if he's proud of her.
#what if coryn had a sister and she was the false king to his true savior#what if ur parents put you in The Cycle and you could never escape because doing so would invalidate your entire existence :)#can't draw so i hope you enjoy my notes. i hope you can see my vision#i toyed around with the idea of redeeming gwen and letting her live but i think for thematic purposes she has to die#gwen is too deeply entrenched in the pure ones' ideology for her to be redeemable. but i think in a better world she could be a good kid#gwen's not a good person (owl) but it's largely due to the circumstances of her birth + her parents#she still must die but she never had a chance to be good. that's the vibe i'm going for with her. if that makes sense!!!#my ocs#high tyto guinevere#my posts#guardians of ga'hoole
19 notes
·
View notes
Text
BRO
Im crying
#juno shot at the sun with a fuckin squiffer#i went to go hit the fresh button back at them & i saw their locker changed#10/10 i love to see it#if you see this you have gr8 locker artist skills#also that I'm sorry i was so bad tonight PFFT#This morning i was doin clam blitz & had like a baseline of like 10-15 kills#& tonight i was struggling to get like THREE#they were very kind tho & had the most encouraging booyahs. nice to have even when im getting sniped in the back of the head :}#however ended on a high note being back to 10 kills & we won the match#ALSO I S RANKED TODAY very happy with myself#moving up in the world#okay okay ill shut up now. im tired so i rant a lot aight let me have this#chonny jash#moss post#KJ rants too much again
63 notes
·
View notes
Text
x
#just needed to vent for a sec but oh god am i tired of people#'friends' both irl and online got me fucked up lately#mental healths been in the shitter almost nonstop this year#familys always got me up the wall#i just feel like I'm constantly treading water and i am *tired*. like so fucking TIRED#it's never enough; it's too much; no not like that; but not that either; it's all wrong wRoNg WrOnG#ik im sleep deprived and possibly pms-y and that is most certainly not helping things rn but...#gods i see less and less of a reason to get out of bed and bother with anything ever again#wtf is the purpose#i can't keep friends to save my life bc im apparently a fuckin doormat and interesting as unflavored rice or smth#how hard is it to feel like you maybe sorta kinda matter and aren't an unlovable worthless piece of shit#years of therapy; trying meds; everything under the sun.... and nothing. lows and highs and dips of every kind and yet ..nothing#and maybe im just very much in my feelings rn and just yelling into the void.. but it hurts and im tired of pretending it doesn't.#i hate how hard it is to make friends as an adult especially irl. and how gossipy and cliquey and gross and mean ppl can be#of getting called childish and naive and boring for wanting to be a decent person and having interests outside of partying#(not attacking those traits but tired of getting attacked for *not* being 'fun' enough or 'social' enuf or 'sensitive' for having feelings)#enough*#i just want to go eat drywall and stand in the rain and let it help me pretend im not crying blood rn.#like every cell in my body isn't trying to spontaneously combust.#'it gets better' ..yeah? when. when i was 14? when i was 23? when im 37? when im 55? 82? WHEN.. bc im so sick and tired#and no this isn't me writing a final note or whatever it sounds like; i just wanted to word vomit bc ive never been good w sadness#and ive got such an overwhelming amount of it rn i can't even turn it into anger & spite & use that for productivity... i just want to rot#to lie down and be covered by plants as i sleep and just slowly fade into a cloud or smth like it's a ghibli movie or wtv.#im like shaking from how stupidly emotional i feel rn. the lack of empathy these days is fuckin astounding#common sense & empathy are lacking in absolutely droves these days. some days i hate the internet & tech for its irreparable damages sm#but here we are and here it shall remain. long after us; and *long* after us ..... *sigh*#anyway ima go try to take a nap or smth. I'll see ya when i see ya. take care my lovelies#if u read all this i prob owe you a cookie lol
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
I am liking Jujutsu Kaisen, way more than I imagined I would, but I foresee it will let me down and it's keeping me from enjoying this as much as I could haha
I think the characters and dynamics are well set, and I think many of them have an incredibly good and deep potential, but I would be willing to bet they'll not get a proper development, enough for them to really hit. A well assembled set of gears is not enough to make the movement go, you have to wind the clockwork.
I think Gojo and Megumi have a fascinating and very complex dynamic, but I doubt it will be given the time and care that imo it needs to actually work. And it is going well enough for now! One could see the intimacy between them was deeper than the one Gojo had with, say, Yuji and Nobara ever since the very first few episodes despite the fact Fushiguro too was a first year. But the pieces forming what they have are extremely complex, and it just wouldn't be realistic if it doesn't show, even if in a not showing way, or if it doesn't have consequences or implications.
It's one of those dynamics that shape one's life, the way one regards the world, the way one establishes or not relationships with other people. It's one of those dynamics that could be full of fondness, gratitude, resentment, admiration, trust, and that imply intimacy, the good kind or the bad, even if in just the knowledge of someone who's been a constant through your life. It could, and would, imply a myriad of feelings, and probably in such a mix it could imply contradictory feelings too. Even the nothingness would weight, even the nothingness would be significant and meaningful.
Gojo took Megumi and his sister under his wing, the son of a man who murdered him, because of both selfish and selfless reasons. Megumi looks like Toji. What does Gojo feel about this? How does Gojo deal with this? How does Gojo go about taking care of Megumi? Would he walk him to school? Make him breakfast? Celebrate his birthdays making him blow candles? Did he take him to the zoo? Does the relationship between them feel professional or is it something more? Gojo appreciates his students, but is Megumi to him just another student? When Gojo faces Sukuna in Megumi's body, did he see the kid he raised, or does he just see Sukuna in one of his students' body? Did he have one faint wavering instant? And how does Megumi feel about this? Is he resentful of him? Resentful of the situation? Of the selfishness behind his actions? Does he feel like a pawn? Is he grateful? Does he resent feeling grateful? Would he rather not? Does he love Gojo? Does he feel nothing about him other than what he could feel about a teacher that sort of annoys him but knows he's reliable in his strength? Does he think it unfair, cruel or unfeeling that Gojo is close, closer perhaps, with Yuuji or Yuta, considering their story? When Sukuna slices Gojo in two, does the remnants of Megumi's soul tremble?
And not just Megumi and Gojo. Yuuji and Nanami, Gojo and Nanami, Yuuji and Fushiguro, Nobara and the boys, or Nobara and Maki, Todo and Yuuji or Yuta, Gojo and Yuta, Megumi and his sister. Gojo and Geto, even! If the pieces are well set, the dynamics are intriguing, interesting, and have potential to be deep, but then the characters have like two plot relevant scenes that punch you hard, but little more, it's not nearly enough. Especially not nearly enough for the enormity that is shonen dynamics and situations. And the potential existing at all, and then not delivering, makes it all the more frustrating when you're left with something mediocre that could have been so good.
The development of dynamics through not only a few plot relevant gut wrenching moving scenes, but also the smallness of life, is important. The friend who recommended this to me said that those things were just unnecessary filler, but I disagree. I think there's a big difference between a large amount of anime-only filler episodes whose existence is based on the fact they had run out of manga chapters to animate, and moments of quietness. The low stakes character-driven moments of quietness can be so telling and so insightful, and they are so satisfactory when brought back later in higher stakes situations. My friend teased me there was no scene of Gojo making breakfast to Megumi, that it would be an idiotic idea, but it would be so telling. How he makes breakfast, what they eat, if he tries hard or if it's all mechanised, if they have personal bowls or if they use whatever, if he just buys them some pastry on the way to school, if the way they have breakfast changes through the years, or if he doesn't make them breakfast at all! All that would be very insightful on their dynamic and its evolution. All that would give a glimpse on how they regard each other and why, even in the present. All that could become meaningful in tense situations and high stakes scenes.
These moments also let the plot breath; if a lot is happening all the time, if every character is always experiencing trauma after trauma, the entire story is so emotionally draining that at some point you don't even care all that much. Besides, these nothing moments or low stakes plot arcs, besides deepening and developing dynamics, also let some in-world time pass, which would make the intimacy and bond between characters more believable imo; between Yuuji eating Sukuna's finger and their last confrontation in December how much time has passed? A few months? Am I truly to believe these characters are so everything to each other in only a few months?
Without some smallness, some repetition, some daily life, some low stakes not plot-centric development, the dynamics don't hit, they don't truly feel fleshed out, and dynamics as complex as the ones Megumi and Gojo have, or as supposedly meaningful as the one Megumi has with Yuuji or his sister, should be fleshed out if they're going to exist at all. Otherwise they'd risk making the writing feel awkward and fake. Besides, if the dynamics felt well fleshed out and realistic, they would shape the way the characters interact and act, and how they deal with situations, thus being plot relevant.
The shonen genre has so much happening all the time, the stakes are so high, the dynamics are so rooted in big events and the relationships carry enormous weight and implications. Yet they barely get developed, and it feels so stupid, so plain, the absence of something so important noticeable like a constant void, a shapeless nothingness present in every scene. It makes the characters feel like cardboard figures. Jujutsu Kaisen is already getting a better job than many, but I doubt it will do enough for what I've heard, and I fear I am bound to feel let down, and bound to feel unmoved.
After all, if not enough time and care has been given to develop a dynamic, I am not going to feel pressured by the high stakes; if not enough time and care has been given to develop the dynamic between Megumi and Yuuji, as good potential as it has I am bound to feel little for this last confrontation between Sukuna and Itadori, and his effort in getting Megumi back.
#It's not that I think everything has to be character driven or take a lot of care about dynamics#Death Note for instance works well without it. There's juice in the dynamic between Light and his father and the role of Matsuda there#and it works well with Light's views and their evolution and the whole Kira situation. It isn't much. It doesn't need more#But Death Note doesn't truly drop something as big as Gojo and Megumi to then do barely nothing about it#('But L and Watari' not the same at all. That was deepened in the anime and besides Watari is not one of the main characters)#Or Megumi and his sister. If we see barely nothing of Megumi and his sister other than shiny flashbacks of her#how am I to feel moved by it all beyond superficial emotions? I don't know. It just feels so like cardboard to me#And it annoys me! It annoys me a lot! Because Jujutsu Kaisen has amazing potential! The dynamics and characters could be amazing!#But I don't trust they'll live to their full potential and the potential existing for nothing is ruining this for me xD#Jujutsu Kaisen#Sorry this time I'm tagging it. I want to find this and see if I was right when I'm finished. I think I'll read the manga too#The condescending filler breakfast comment by my friend was ironic considering the Kramer vs. Kramer breakfast scenes exist#Breakfast can be so telling. And besides he loves the Chainsaw Man coffee scene so I don't get why not breakfast#But truly some small daily life moments can tell us a lot about a character that we could recognise later on in high stakes scenes#such as how they deal in tense situations‚ what makes them snap#how they go about dealing with a problem.#Sometimes it could be smaller moments or conversations what makes characters reconsider things‚ not just having Sukuna rip their heart out#In Pandora Hearts the conversation between Elliot and Oz about the book series they love and their favourite characters becomes key#Oz's development and how he regards things‚ his own person‚ and how he deals with situations will be shaped later on by this conversation#till the very end. The entire main character's development is shaped by a 'filler' conversation.It's not filler. It's just not a fight scen#Shonen manga readers find everything filler except for fights which is ironic considering that many fights in shonen feel unnecessary#Breakfast is unnecessary. Just filler. Fighting thirty seven secondary monsters or chapter after chapter of physical training is not. Okay#Things can be small but plot relevant. If it shapes and fleshes out and deepens a character or a relationship it is not filler#And mainly MAINLY for the love of everything good if you're going to make a fucked up or Meaningful Beyond Everything dynamic#give it time and care. Actually write it. Don't give me two panels and one conversation after some life and death situation. It's not enoug#Especially if I'm to believe they are important. Make me believe they actually are#I don't know... This issue with not trusting the development of very well set potential in Jujutsu Kaisen#has not only been keeping me from thoroughly enjoying the series‚ but actively keeping me from watching for weeks#It makes me doubt if I want to spend my time in this at all since after all time is limited and we can but spend it in a handful of things#A pity. I really love some things and I really think Megumi and Gojo could be everything to me haha the Heathcliff/Hareton vibe gets me
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
Me: wow I’m looking forward to getting back to the main timeline and getting answers to some questions, including but not limited to whether Indeera recovers and her reunion with Bell, something that is explicitly discussed as something he hopes for and looks forward to in Fallen Star…
Phase III: who?
Like did I get that that wrong? Did I read Fallen Star that wrong? I don’t get it, I feel like I’m going a little crazy with this someone tell me I’m not insane
Like I am not insane right? I did hallucinate this? You are all reading the same thing in the highlights? Did something happen between writing phase I and phase III? I vaguely know the comics sort of answers the recovery question but like what happened with the book authors? Why is the only mention of her name drops as if they’re strangers? This is a genuine question I am really puzzled (and kind of disappointed)
#star wars#the high republic#tales of light and life#this is by Charles Soule unlike George Mann I know he knows who Indeera is#why just drop her like that? did Claudia like go rogue or something was she never supposed to be a real character?? send help#and like I know why I get side character-itis this is something more#this is a new level of 'pretending a character doesn't exist all of a sudden for inexplicable reasons'#i'm sort of wondering if claudia was SUPPOSED to kill her off and decided not to? but no one else was prepared to do anything with her#i've wondered that about dez too after into the dark and why he decided to go off and hasn't ever come up again#but i do feel like i'm going a little crazy#like george mann i thought maybe either hadn't read fallen star or hadn't read it in a long time and was going off notes#charles soule....you introduced this character what happened#ok i looked up the comic on reddit and i am not reading all that#i know i normally have a pretty low tolerance for comic character design but oof that one is particularly rough honestly
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
"winston quant billions: like anyone else, an entire universe" or "the good news is it's just that everyone's been terrible to you, the bad news is it's just that everyone's been terrible to you"
#one thing you can do now that billions has an overall conclusion: fight it to the death w/your bare hands & anything within reach#go ''anyway.'' look at taylor mason being in there and out here like wrow....#come get your thee most special little fella on earth created by this series by nonzero layers of happenstance babeyyy#and people will have been terrible to them in general / more than not / perhaps always#meanwhile i'm turnt on album recording amphibian that high note oh my gott#and have been snapping metal in half thinking about orvphil material like hhrrhgh#and in this case have been like ''sure making this coloring Busier and Noisier...'' then been like ''yep'' and continued apace#can't be too much in his cosmos. and also: yolo#winston billions#corned beef#also spent many words for many minutes Just Today going on & on abt [christ the winston material + billions more broadly] in the dms lol#typical sunday....it's truly not Not. the verbosity will simply manifest thusly now and then. s/o to my fellow connoisseur#and now. need nappuccino#oh and also the way the whole universe that is oneself? needs no external acknowledgment abt this; is not deficient or insufficient; etc...#winston deserved to flip tf out & not in a way everyone liked & respected#&/or every day on a simmer just be more of a bitch; cause problems on purpose; etc#meanwhile they just handled his material like ''well you can only ultimately throw him in the trash'' but like welp#he in turn can only be better off removed from [all other characters on this show] lol like team ben / tuk exception maybey....#he already so Arrogantly has any sense of self worth/confidence. and he needs more. More!
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
ok hear me out. neuvillette in hydro dragon form but he's a small seahorse/seadragon like hatori from fruits basket
#this came to me in a vision ok#i kinda want to draw it but idk if i have the motivation so i'm putting it out there just in case#both of them have relations to a symbolic dragon#both of them are stoic on the outside but extremely gentle on the inside#both of them are considered the right hand man of the person in power (technically it's k.ureno in f.uruba but shh h.atori is p high up too#do you see the parallels#also i just think it'd be funny to go from imposing hydro dragon impression -> seahorse#even though it's been done#thank you for coming to my ted talk#note#genshinposting
15 notes
·
View notes
Text
Jancy + Academic Rivals to Lovers AU
#I'm imagining a New England private school vibe#Picture it Ambitious Nancy who begged her parents to let her go here Lives for being top of the class#and jonathan is a scholarship student so of course he's going to try his hardest#It's giving Anne & Gilbert but make it dark academia#And like Gilbert Jonathan has had a crush on Nancy since his first day but she got mad because he had a better literary analysis than her#and then at some point they had essentially the s1 fight in the woods and Nancy decided they were rivals#and Jonathan went along with it because he's a simp and at least he gets to talk to her#Also bc that man lives for teasing her tell me I'm wrong (see the s2 hallway scene)#but then the tension gets to be Too Much and their Professor (Murray) assigns them to be project partners and they end up making out#this was a note in my notes app from when I was high#love that from me#stranger things#jancy#jonathan x nancy#nancy x jonathan#jonathan byers#nancy wheeler#st moodboard#alternate universe#dark acamedia
71 notes
·
View notes
Note
a word to the wise sometimes the only true rest is looking beyond what you thought was success
so true! adamandi is full of wise advice such as this, including: "and you'll never feel better if you - fucking die- you stupid ass!"
#these are all very good reminders. especially during exam season (i am suffering. but at least i'm working on art coursework so it's#suffering i love.) guys i have maybe a bit too many thoughts on ambrose. sculpture. and ceramics. and studio. in my art student 3d era rn#tmr it's black and white 2d so it's vincent vibes instead... anyways. in my breaks i ended up brainstorming more doodles again so..#anywaysndhfnfjfhf sorry to detract! but like these two quotes are holding my sanity intact i think.#at this point even without listening to the live soundtrack it sounds in my head so. lasting impressions i guess. every time i get anxious#' you'll never get better if you fucking die'' sounds in my head and i go ''ah yes there's a whole life outside''#continuing this ramble you ever think how vincent went from you'll never get better if you fucking die to '' first i chose my friend#ambrose for my debut :DD'' realll quick. or also how this principle worked for when he was talking to ambrose about it and then. for himself#he didn't want to get better. he wanted quincy to get better and so '' you'll never get better if you die'' held through to the end#it just wasn't a mentality that saved him... god that screws me up. so many thoughts.#anyways anon!!!! thank you for sending this :3 made my day <33 very vibes#going to put the soundtrack on and power through studio again.. :3 adamandi asks are welcomed ngl teehee#ask me stuff???#on another note sometimes it's so surreal that actors are real people... i guess the magic of theatre is that it makes the characters come#to life.. like i believe actors are real. and deserve to be treated like people. for the record. but also when consuming media and it's the#suspension of disbelief? these are Real Characters i can't believe that someone who isn't them is making these sounds and doing these things#it's so insane. incredible. idk i just have very high admiration for the cast and idk how i got here even... akshdjdhdf#<blinks> they did such a good job akdhdnfhfbgfhff ok bye#first time i swear in the actual post on this blog and not in the tags... of course
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
FINALLY got around to watching ep 4. To ep 5 now
#Hhhhhh I really have not much to say.#I love love Mushitarou.#I dislike Ranpo (or at least‚ I can't stand how unapologetically rude and disrespectful he is all the time)#The animation is SPECTACULAR. Not only the animation itself and drawings are always consistently in high quality#The direction was really exceptional as well. So many cool dynamic shots that aren't really the norm in bsd#The op / ed are FABULOUS and esily my favourite out of all seasons!!! I really love them fr the ending makes me so soft#Truly 10/10 no notes. I just wish s5ep3 had gotten this kind of budget too#And if the next big ss/kk fight doesn't I'm going to throw hands#Although there's still a possibility the current manga arc could be a movie depending on how long it is so there's that#(movies are always in good quality (pretty much) (looking at you p/p movies))#random rambles#Karl is an always highlight
5 notes
·
View notes
Note
fun fact: trans homicide rates are lower than the population average. men: 6.6 women: 1.8 transgender: 1.4.
Nonnie, why did you send me this? I'm not even any sort of popular feminist blogger or anything. I just had one post blow up on me. You're gesturing at the idea that trans people aren't oppressed because of an allegedly lower rate of being murdered, yes? You come into my inbox, cite sourceless statistics, and think that'll make me kowtow to this ridiculous talking point. Well it won't because that's fucking stupid.
The sillier answer is that trannies don't go out.
The more serious answer is that even if the statistic is real and reputable, it's only as accurate as its collection methods, whatever they may be. They're probably police homicide reports, let's be honest.
Here are a few things to keep in mind:
Bio families of trans people will often lie and claim they were cis. It's a common fear of many trans people that they'll be buried under the wrong name. Families will often deny any knowledge of any gender nonconformity.
A neutrally-dressed trans person who doesn't pass that well may not even register as trans to investigators, but instead as a cis person of their birth gender. Even when a trans person is more obviously trans to an oblivious cissexual, they will often be written off as crossdressers. Trans people are consistently recorded as their birth genders in official documents, especially dead trans people who can't speak up for themselves.
How often are the murders of trans people even recorded as murders of trans people specifically? Whether a murder victim is M or F is recorded universally in just about every jurisdiction, but neither Canada nor the States nor any other country I can think of consistently records whether every murder victim was trans or not. This, of course, makes collating data that much harder.
Are the murders of trans people even recorded as murders? Police regularly write off murders of trans people, sex workers, people who use drugs, and other "undesirables" as No Human Involved. Aside from the refusal to investigate, the deaths may be written off as accidents and illness, not murder.
All other questions and caveats that apply to any population-based statistic apply here, especially questions for truth claims in general. Who reported it? Who published it? For what purpose? Did the people who collected the data have an agenda? Biases? What populations were analyzed specifically, and how big were the sample sizes, and how were numbers calculated? Was there statistical fuckery? How applicable are the results to all populations? How large even is the trans population? Is it controlled for age, race, and class? You gotta answer all these questions before it can be considered in any sort of useful way.
People will often not investigate truth-claims that support their beliefs, and I think nonnie here is a prime example of that. The failure of not thinking about how often trans people are misgendered in death is the most egregious, though everything else I've listed here applies.
#catgirltxt#i should note that i'm high so sorry if the tone of this wanders all over the place#also it's a true fact that people who go out less are at less risk of being murdered!#it's just that people on the internet are biased towards thinking that all trans people are homebodies#because those are the most common types of trans people on the internet#this applies to me too i also forget that trans people go out and to parties because my trans friends stay in
18 notes
·
View notes
Text
what is it about this season... and having to redo the same tasks twice because they weren't done properly the first time zzzzz
#the one was my bad because i didnt realize our new poinsettia support cages fit differently so had to go back through and#snap ones falling off...#but now i am realising my coworker who had finished staking in the lower houses has been staking them too loose and high#rip so i have to go back through#and i'm not sure whether to just redo them myself or leave a note because i wont be here to explain but zzzz zzzz zzzz
17 notes
·
View notes
Note
are you going to make gifsets of each semifinal's entries? or have you already posted something similiar?
I'm planning on making a few gifsets/edits for the semi finals but I'll probably only post them near the contest date
#I am not very ahead for the countdown series because I was away for a few days for a little vacation#so if I can do those faster I can also start on other things#the good news is that I'm gonna have more time to do them and to enjoy eurovision in general#the bad news is that my free time is because I'll be unemployed after next week yay#that was fun to find out after coming from vacation!#to be fair it would be equally or more fun (lol) to find out before so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#and ''it's gonna be fine'' because in theory I have ''potential to do better''#very annoying to be told that tbh my potential has led me nowhere of note#why do I even have to fulfill my potential anyway would that even make me happy#the science world doesn't need me!#I really don't need a high skilled job to be happy#(I wasn't let go because they weren't satisfied with my work my position will just cease to exist)#(which isn't totally surprising because they've been trying to phase it out for over a year now)#and now I have to find a new job?? in this economy??#what if the people are Bad#what if there isn't a cool middle-aged single woman for me to desperately want to befriend#and now I'm supposed to stay at home with my mom all day?? doing chores?? cooking lunch every day for my dad and brothers?? 🤢#I'm sorry rasmusiscute this is not the information you asked for#I will be making gifsets for the semifinals at some point#I'm not sure of anyone else has done already but I'm sure others will too
4 notes
·
View notes