#and I’m graduating next year…

[thatsapphicsoprano]

I kinda want to start a Jane Austen club at my university !! but I don’t know if I would have the time to commit to running it and I don’t know if anyone would join… but I’ve been thinking about it and I think it could be fun ??? 

[nectorbruise]

I had the sudden urge to sit down and draw Biana Vacker. Ive always wanted to draw her, but when I’d open ibis, my brain would blank. So here she is, now, in all her glory.

[spiraling-trap]

been drawing my ocs. ernest is a priest and young is the lead singer of a punk band. and they’re both vampires. and in a situationship

[orcinus-veterinarius]

Well everyone, I performed my first ever cetacean ultrasound today!

My “patient” is in excellent health, and this session was meant merely as practice both for me and for her—ensuring she remains comfortable holding still for scans. Because whales and dolphins are too big for manual palpation or x-rays, ultrasound is how veterinarians visualize their internal organs and ensure they remain healthy. Cetaceans in human care routinely receive ultrasound scans to monitor their health, even if they are not ill or pregnant.

And it’s a great example of cooperative care! Unlike dogs and cats, which have to be sedated or manually restrained by humans in order to get diagnostic ultrasound images, cetaceans in human care are trained to float in place while the veterinarian places the ultrasound probe on them. They are free to leave the session at any time. And there’s no need for ultrasound gel, because the water acts in its place!

(Photo not of me… published by Georgia Aquarium when their beluga Whisper was pregnant with her calf Shila)

All in all, a great end to my externship!

[starbuck]

In the past two years I…

Got my driver’s license 

Had top surgery 

Went on meds which got rid of my cystic acne so I’m not in constant pain anymore 

Got my first credit card and started two retirement savings accounts

Started my Bachelor’s degree and am on track to complete it by the end of June, in only two years

Found a job I legitimately enjoy and survived some really horrible shit while making a huge positive impact on my coworkers and community, recently winning the highest possible employee award in my department, which sets me up for a fantastic career 

Made some wonderful friends who have made my life so much brighter 

I have been so constantly stressed and burnt out over the past two years, that it’s hard to truly accept the good things I’ve accomplished, so I just needed to put them all in one place.

[goldensunset]

finally...

i’m… so happy………………………………………………………. really i’m so happy dude i am so. happy this is so great i don’t have anxiety about the future or when the actual release is gonna be at all……..

[moldypoff]

I went on a JaidenAnimations rabbit hole and

I WANT THAT MAGICAL BLUE PILL SO BAD.

You turn into a GOD???? YOU DON’T HAVE TO TAKE BREAKS FROM DOING WORK THAT EVERYONE ELSE CAN DO EASILY??? I CAN FOCUS??? I CAN R E M E M B E R ?

Y’all

My mental illness isn’t a hindrance

It’s a GATE, it’s a means of holding this beast BACK.

I will have you, aderall, mark my words…

[gomzdrawfr]

*rubs chin like an old man*

Might open some flash cm

[koda-cocoabear]

sometimes i forget i’m a junior and then u say it out loud and it still feels unreal like i was just a freshman, what happened 😭

[justobsessedwithvic]

just finished school I’m gonna miss my pookie bears over the summer

[unintentional-sad-wizard]

I’m feeling mildly anxious but overall very positive and excited about dropping out. I don’t think I’ve felt this good about a decision since getting my dog.

[alittleemo]

mannnnnnnnbb fuck November I’m so tired of feeling lonely in my own life.

[skhardwarevers1]

[walks in, knocks into glass object and knocks it over, stands awkwardly because of the loud noise it makes]…..wassup…..

Yes I did disappear again. no I have no other reason than living life. Clock app ban and all made me realize I fucking hate posting anything but my occasional photography and whatever I’m listening to or pictures of myself on my story so the long story short is I’m going to see if I can score myself a new tumblr account under my I guess like “legal username”? (This one is like….if you wanted to find me at some underground meeting spot yknow? legally I’m sikada_3013 yknow.) So I’ll keep yall updated….sorry for not posting I really did just get carried away in my personal life which I guess is a good thing? This account has always been a crutch but sometimes those are limiting….love y’all but I had to heal a bit. That being said I’m NOT positing my art on insta so hopefully sometimes after the ban I can make this like a top secret alt and redirect the masses to an official account….and that’s IF things go to plan. If not I’ll probably become more active here….or maybe I’ll die everywhere and dedicate my life to the bass (life update I’m doing that partially atm. Bass !!!!). I’ll keep yall in the know though

Sincerely,

Sikada

P.S I know like three people probably care about this I just needed to make a psa. Yknow.

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

[mayoiayasep]

girl who is so normal about the passage of time (<- had thespian senior night an hour ago and felt so sad i felt physically ill)

[bubbled-clouds]

there is truly nothing greater than love to me. what is more impermeable, long lasting, soft, and joyous??? yet still holds melancholy, anguish, pain, and grief???? (many things but that’s not the point-)

i am very grateful to love and be loved :) i hope whoever sees this comes across pure love as well, it’s very nice.

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