#and I suppose the only other ppl we saw who had made it the same distance were heavenly officials & white mask idiot

[leannswritings]

NERD

Syn : could it be that your silly nerdy juntae might not be what he seems.

Warnings - NOT PROOFREAD (I never do that ngl) smut ofc, dom?juntae exhibitionism, lwk don’t remember what else.

Word count : 4.6k (omg?)

A/N : SORRY I TOOK A MIN, exams kicked my ass.. anyways can you tell that I wrote some of this after drinking? lol anyways I saw some ppl wanted smut so I wrote this first ! But trust fluff is coming. It was hard to write this lwk bc like, juntae. But I do think he’s an uncover freak. Lemme know if I did anything wrong. enjoy xoxo.

College isn’t easy, between balancing classes, assignments, and dealing with random men that would ask you out for drinks was rough. The only thing you looked forward to at the moment was break, no worries, no stress, but fun.

This meant that you could hangout more with your friends, especially that cutie Juntae. You two met each other back in middle school when you did student exchange, since you’ve been inseparable, although you chose to come to Korea for university and went to the same school as him, you both still had no time to hangout with each other, only seeing each other off campus. It seemed nobody even knew you were friends on campus or thought you would even look in his direction.

Since it was the final week you decided to visit his side of the campus to surprise him, hoping you would be able to at least go get to some food with him.

“Juntae !”

You called out, waving your hand as he walked down the stairs.

Bystanders watched you as you stood there, those that had classes with him wondered who you were and why you were there for him. Stopping in their tracks to see what would happen next. You were attractive so nobody would’ve guessed you were actually there for HIM, maybe for papers? Or something like that BUT HIM? He looked like a virgin would hadn’t even been alone in a room with a girl before let alone have one as a friend or more.

“What are you doing here”

He smiled softly as he quickly walked towards you. You wrap your arm around one of his, before reaching up and ruffling his hair with your free hand.

“We should go celebrate, we’re almost on break so–”

“YO JUNTAE”

You turn your head to see a man holding a basketball, wearing an odd outfit. Humin..or “Baku” you should say. Behind him stood another guy wearing the same old blue hoodie. Hyuntak. You knew them very well, seeing them in pictures and overhearing them over juntae on the phone, yet somehow you’ve yet to see them more than once in person.

“Woah. Is this the person you always talk about? I understand why you always do now. They’re prettier than I thought they were gonna be.”

Were you supposed to be ugly? You couldn’t help to let out a laugh. The way he worded things never made sense but you knew he didn’t mean any harm, if anything he was probably dumbfounded the “shy” juntae would be around someone like you. You were gonna make fun of what he just said but you decided to make fun of juntae instead, he always had the cutest reaction when you did. Baku had given you the smallest bit of information and you were gonna use to it your advantage.

“You must talk about me a lot? Do you brag about having such a pretty girl by your side? Come on Tae, tell me what you say about me.”

You couldn’t help but laugh as you watched his face heat up in real time, you tried to make eye contact with him to tease him even more but he turned his head away from you.

“Hey, Baku right? You should tell me more, I want to know what he says about his pretty best friend.”

You said with a smug look on your face. Baku was about to answer but before he could Juntae interrupted.

“Food. We were going to celebrate right? Let’s go get food.”

“And drinks?”

You added at the end of his sentence.

It’s not like he would tell you no anyways so he just nodded as he started walking with your arm still around his, you used your head the signal for the two boys to follow.

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At the restaurant another one of his friends joined, he was very quiet so you didn’t even notice a new face at the table, he just watched as everyone else talked as he slowly ate. You figured out that was sieun, he was actually super sweet despite the short conversation.

“So, what’s the plan for the summer? I don’t have any, I don’t think I’ll be going home this year.”

You asked. Baku and Gotak of course were training for basketball, Sieun planned to study over the summer and visit his “friend”, Juntae seemed as if he had no plans. His major wasn’t one that required a lot, so if he had anything to do over the summer it would be very short.

“Juntae if you have no plans you should let me stay with you, they’re closing the doors for the summer.”

You said before taking a sip of the Soju in front of you. International dorms were closing for the summer, giving students time to visit their families out of country or to travel, but that meant you had no where to go. This gave you an excuse to be in juntae’s face more but also a place to stay. You hate to admit it– well not really you always threw out signs you liked him by teasing him, but you’d hate to admit you’ve grown a liking to his cute round face and stupid glasses.

“Huh”

“You stay off campus right? Lemme stay with you”

The table was silent, other than the sounds effects that came from Baku��s mouth. Juntae stared for a minute, trying to think of how to answer. You smiled before leaning into to whisper something in his ear, something improper, something that would cause the hairs on his skin to stand up and his pale face turn pink. You scooted back in your seat with a smile on your face before leaning forward to reach for more food. The air being frozen solid—until your smile turned into a laugh.

“Why is everyone so quiet”

You ask you looking around.

“Are you trying to take his purity away? Have you already? Oh our poor juntae”

Baku said in a joking manner, making sad faces and pretending to cry. Tak elbowed him before putting his head down to laugh at the matter. Sieun turning away to hide his smile. Baku continued to joke about juntae, telling you stories about when they were in high-school, stories you never heard from him, stories that made you feel as if you missed out on all the fun.

“Maybe I should’ve done another round of exchange in highschool huh?”

You joked.

The night went on for longer than expected, after paying for the food you expected it to be over but it seemed the night wasn’t over for everyone. Sieun was the only one who left the group early on—which was the the original plan. After a short walk everyone else headed to a bar for a round of drinking, afterwards was a karaoke room. At this point you and Baku have gotten pretty close due to the alcohol and the games. Juntae didn’t drink, while hyuntak kept the drinking to a minimum, someone had to keep their sanity and responsibility—and it sure as hell wasn’t going to be you. After preforming a duet with Baku you sat down next to juntae, picking up another shot glass, you looked at him and instead of drinking it you try and give it to him. He took it but he immediately put down on the table and shook his head to tell you he wasn’t drinking because there was no way you would be able to hear him over the sounds of Baku’s voice on the microphone. You couldn’t tell if it was because of the shining and flashing lights, the blasting music, the alcohol, or just you; but juntae looked different, he was already something you craved but this made it so much worse. Your face started heating up, you slightly scooted closer to him, not soon after you put your legs on the seats and basically crawled to him, trapping him in the corner he was sitting in. You were hovering over his upper body, your face almost touching his face, close enough to feel his short breaths mixing with your heavy breaths before you move over to talk into his ear.

“Juntae.. I want you to keep on your glasses and that same stupid look when you fuck me.”

Your word was slurred and slow, you placed a kiss on his ear before moving down his neck, placing kisses in any spot you could actually recognize in your blurred vision. Juntae pushed you off, trying hard to not push you too hard but just enough to remove you. The room was silent as the music stopped playing and the only thing that could be heard was your mumbling about Juntae and Baku’s drunk laughter. He stood and tried to help you to your feet, putting your arm around him so he could guide you to walk. Tae looked at Baku and then turned to hyuntak and told him, he was gonna take you home, yet hyuntak couldn’t help but nod and just stare at the lipstick on his neck as he walked out of the overly bright room.

“Woah. I didn’t know he was like that.”

Baku said drunkenly.

After leaving it was even more of a battle, trying to get you to stay awake, walk, and stopping you from saying weird things to random bystanders.

It was 2am, so the train was not an option for travel, even if it was in your current state he thought it would be a bad idea to put you on a quiet train. He tried to flag down a taxi multiple times, failing multiple times as you leaned against him. You randomly put up your hand and started waving for a taxi, it’s as if the heavens were on your side and your side only even in your wrecked state. A taxi pulled in front of you both, juntae carefully helped you in before sitting next to you, leaning forward to tell the driver which direction to go in.

The taxi was just right, the lights flashing throughout the car from the passing street lights and business, the moderate temperature in the car, and the stillness reminded you so much of car rides when you were younger. The mood was just right, you could slowly feel yourself falling asleep as everything dimmed. You leaned your head on his shoulder, letting your body rest and your mind drift off into another world.

Juntae let it happen. It was better than your past drunk actions a few moments ago that he had to force himself to ignore. He let you sleep on his shoulder no problem, carefully moving to check his phone to make sure he wouldn’t awake you. While on his phone he thought it would be funny to take a picture of you, that way when you woke up you could see just how much you had truly been drinking and maybe a slight warning to not drink that much anymore. He took a picture, and after started recording, getting close to your face before back the phone back up and showing his neck to the camera.

“This is the first time you’ve drunk so much in front of me, you and Baku don’t need to hangout anymore. When you’re sober, I hope you see this and feel silly.”

He said to the camera, pouting in a way.

As you reached your destination Juntae didn’t want to wake you, so he struggled to pull you out of the car and put you on his back. Reaching in the car to grab your purse carefully. In the moment he couldn’t have been more thankful to stay on the second floor since there was no elevator in his complex. It took him a while to get to his front door due to you moving around and him making sure to not fall down the stairs while carrying you, but he eventually made it after the struggle.

He took you to the room, placing you on the bed before taking off your shoes and tucking you under the covers. He let out a sigh before walking into the living room and falling onto the couch.

When he got to the couch he finally had time to process what happened earlier. He couldn’t lie and say he didn’t enjoy it, but at the same time because he had never seen you so drunk he didn’t know if it was the alcohol or your true feelings towards him. Either way he wouldn’t have sex with you while you weren’t fully conscious, it wouldn’t be right on his part, though he couldn’t get the rushing thoughts out of his mind, how you would look,sound, and taste. His body was starting to heat up, his blood rushing to his lower half. He tried to clear his mind, turning on the tv before eventually forcing himself to go to sleep.

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When you woke up it had to be around noon, the sun was high in the sky and you could hear the slight hum of passing cars. You looked around trying to remember who,what, and where you were and how you got to where you currently are. You looked around the room a few more times before figuring out where you were, but while doing that you started to remember bits and pieces of last night.

“Oh my god.”

You whispered to yourself. The only parts you would remember was the horrible drunk karaoke, getting on top of juntae, and getting in a taxi, everything after that was a blur of consciousness to the point you couldn’t tell what was real and what was fake. You could feel your body warming up from the embarrassment, you couldn’t believe what you have done. You promised to not drink that much anymore—well, not at least for a while.

You got up from the bed and walked out of the room, looking around, searching for juntae. On the table in front of the couch he previously laid on was a note he left. He had headed out to run some errands but had no clue when he was coming back. You let out a sigh and just assumed he would be back soon since you slept so long without knowing what time he left.

You smelled yourself and— oh god you smelled like sweat and alcohol. You felt even more embarrassed at the fact he had to smell you as he carried you. You walked back into his room and looked around, opening drawers and doors to find any clothing you can put on. It’s not like he would mind if you wore his clothes, I mean you used to borrow his stuff back in middle school all the time. You grabbed a shirt and held it up against your body. Last time you borrowed his clothes you were able to fit it perfectly but now everything you picked up was bigger than you. It made you realize how much you and him have grown, you weren’t the same kids from middle school. You grab a few more things and head to the bathroom.

In the shower you had much more time to go into deeper thought. Thinking about all the moments from when you met till now, when you started to like him and how you would go about telling him. Those innocent thoughts turned into the darkest deepest desires that was in the back of your mind, from wondering about how you would confess to wondering how he would look under you. When you thought of juntae you always liked the idea of him being submissive, but at the same time you wondered if he was capable of being dominant and telling you what to do. These thoughts sent waves of heat throughout your body, your hands found themselves exploring your body, touching every part that would make you react. Your mumbles and moans bounced off the walls, because of this and the water you didn’t hear juntae coming into the apartment, nor did you hear him knocking on the door until his voice called out.

“Are you ok in there?”

You immediately froze.

“Mhm— I’m ok”

(Holy shit I’m a pervert)

You replied and thought to yourself you immediately turned off the water and quietly shamed yourself for touching yourself in another persons bathroom. You dried yourself off and put on his clothes before walking out of the bathroom. When you walked out of the bathroom, there he was sitting on the couch with a pillow in his lap. As you walked out you could see the red flush on his face, the flush that got worse after he looked at what you were wearing. He was already turned on from overhearing you in the bathroom, now this? He couldn’t handle it. The grip he had on the pillow tightened as you walked towards him.

“Tae I’m sorry about last night..”

“It’s fine..uh look at this.”

He faced away from you as he pulled his phone out of his pocket, opening his gallery to show you the video from last night. The embarrassment levels were even worse after seeing the video. All you could do was sit there without your mouth open in shock, you already knew you did embarrassing things but oh my.

You grabbed his phone and put it on the table beside you and plopped down on the couch next to him, leaving no space between you two. It didn’t take too long after you sat next to him to realize why he had the pillow there, you wanted to confess first before doing anything with him but you can’t lie when you say your lust was overflowing. You were just gonna be straight up from now on.

“Juntae. I meant what I said and did last night. I like you a lot, and I want you more than anything I’ve ever wanted, and clearly you feel the same way.”

You said as you put your hand over the pillow he had in his lap.

“Yeah?”

He turned and looked at you, questioning if you were being serious or not. You nodded your head confirming what you had said was true. After that he wasted no time to throw the pillow out of his lap and pull you into it. His lips crashing into yours as your hands traveled up to hold his face, his hands traveling down to your waist. You could feel him twitching underneath you, causing your hips to rock against it. You broke away from the kiss and traveled down his neck, softly moaning against it and leaving logos of your love wherever you could. He allowed you to do so, making it feel like you had control of the situation, but truthfully he had no intention on letting you be in control. All his emotions has been pent up for the last couple of years and this was finally a chance to let them loose. One of his hands traveled to the back of your neck, using it to slightly pulling you back from his neck and redirecting you back to his lips. Your hips bucked as a response to him taking control. His grip tightened on your hip forcing you to grind slower against him, a pace he could direct. After a few minutes he stood up, your legs wrapping around his waist as he stumbled to the bedroom as y’all continued to make-out. He put you onto the bed before standing in front of you before a sentence you never thought would come out of your mouth did.

“Can I record?”

You don’t know why you asked that, you just wanted it. Juntae looked like he didn’t care what you did, he didn’t say a word. He went out of the room and got his phone off the table and set it up on the stand beside the bed. You enjoyed this, the silent and quick movements, the way he showed how much he really wanted to quickly get inside of you. Your hands shot to his waistband pulling at it, signaling that you want him to take it off. He nodded but before he did he put his hands on your shoulders to guide you to the floor, taking your spot on the bed. In front of him, looking up, your hands once again going to his waistband pulling. This time he pulled it down along with his boxers.

Silence.

“Can you handle it?”

You nod before wrapping your hands around his dick. To be honest you were sure you could handle it, maybe you were tryna look good but you couldn’t hide the slight fear that was mixed with excitement on your face. His hand went to the back of your head, pushing your face closer to his dick before you opened your mouth to accept him in. The wetness and warmth made him throw his head back in a groan. Your tongue wrapped around him, licking at all it could taste. You couldn’t fit it all in your mouth, having too using your hand to stroke what you couldn’t reach at the moment. The sounds that came out of his mouth was nothing but dirty, it was nothing like what you had imagined. Your legs squeezed and rubbed together, trying to put some type of pressure on yourself. You tried to force yourself farther down on him, he eventually grabbed a handful of your hair and forced you down farther.

“Just— stay, stay right there.”

He said shakily

It was clear he was coming towards his climax, his grip on your hair tightened as he forced you to stay in that spot despite your struggle. Finally pulling you back after painting the inside of your mouth white. You were a choking mess, drool going down your chin and tears falling from your eyes. He patted your head as you tried to catch a breath stop yourself from choking.

“You’re ok.”

He calmly reassured as he leaned closer. He didn’t do anything else until you calmed down. You let him know when it was ok to continue by kissing him. He took no time to put you on the bed, he didn’t even worry about taking off the shirt you had on, he liked the view of you in his clothes. When he finally got a glimpse of what was under the shirt he let out a small laugh, you were wearing his way too big for you boxers that was practically falling off of you. He leaned back up and started kissing your neck and collarbone as he pulled down the boxers. Finally he got a glimpse at the real you. The naked you. The wet you.

“You’re enjoying this a lot aren’t you?”

He said with a smile. Looking at how wet you had gotten.

“So are you.”

You replied.

He didn’t say anything else, he just looked at you with the deepest lust filled eyes, just to mess with you. He used his dick to trace down from your belly button to your lips, rubbing against them. He did this just to tease you, just to see how you would respond. You knew what you needed and so did he, yet he stalled and rubbed against you instead of going in.

“Tae—“

You said as you let go of the sheets and reached down to direct him to your entrance, only for him to grab your hands and move them out of the way.

“Can’t wait ?”

He said in a smug ass way, the vocal tone annoyed you, it reminded you of the stupid tone he used to debate about the manga he’d read. The tone you hated being used in this context was.. annoying but in an attractive way.

“Stop playing already..”

“Is that a yes? You can’t wait any longer can you? You’re so impatient.”

It was clear he was getting impatient also, every word was followed by a pant, but he liked how you looked when you were getting overly upset.

“Yes, I’m being serious Tae please ju—“

That all he needed to hear. Without any warning he slammed himself into you, causing you to let out a sound that was a mix of pain and pleasure. Your hands found his clothed shoulders, gripping onto them as tightly as you could. The pace wasn’t too fast or too slow, it was just right, giving you time to get used too. You turned your head to the side to avoid eye contact with him, all that confidence left your body after you started making sounds you were slightly embarrassed of. All of a sudden you feel a grip on your face forcing your head to face forward.

“You wanted to see me right? My stupid face? In these glasses? Then don’t look away, keep looking.”

He held your face in position as he kept at a constant pace. Your legs eventually wrapping around him and arms pulling him towards you signaling for a kiss. He complied and leaned into your kiss, his hand still holding you in place. When he pulled away from the kiss he moved down your face to your jaw and then your neck, kissing and sucking at what he could leaving the same marks you had previously left on him. His hand left your face and traveled up your borrowed shirt. He traced the outline of your chest with his fingers before taking a handful of your boob in his hand, using his thumb to play with your nipples. He played with them as if he had gotten a new joystick on a controller, circling and pinching at it. The noises that crowded the room was unholy, between your moans, small untranslatable comments, and his mix of groaning and whimpering. His glasses started to fog up, which annoyed him, annoyed him enough to speed up his pace. He pulled back up and eventually took off his glasses and threw them in a random direction, and took off his shirt in a few swift motions.

“Fuck..”

The first time you’ve heard him cuss, and oh was it attractive. Your legs tried to tighten around him, more than you already were, there was no possible way to tighten it even more. You once again pulled him back into you, clawing at his back. You could feel yourself getting close to your climax, your words getting more slurred, you wouldn’t be surprised if you were drooling at this point. Of course like everything, he noticed this too. Though your bodies were close he tried to move his hand between you and press down on your stomach as much as he could. It was like an out of body experience, maybe because it had been a while since you’ve been with someone or maybe he was just this good. You could even give him a warning other than your noises getting louder and worse before you released on him. There was no stopping after that, he went at the fastest speed could, taking advantage of your sensitivity, leaving you in a state you could’ve never imagined yourself.

He soon followed you, pulling out and cumming on your stomach.

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He helped clean you up, softly talking to you, contradicting his voice and words earlier. After you both cleaned up he helped you to the living room your legs still shaking. Once you sat on the couch you turned your head to see a shadow by the window. You got Juntae’s attention and pointed at the window. He walked over and went to open the door, once he looked out he saw Baku standing beside the door and Tak sitting on the ground next to him.

“How long have you been out here?”

“Too long. Too long friend.”

Baku said with a painfully jolly expression on his face. He lifted up a bag which seemed like a to-go from a chicken spot.

“Let’s eat, you need the nutrition.”

He said wrapping his arm around him.

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(A/N) Lwk, I can imagine Juntae showing someone a picture and then they swipe and see the video.. no? Just me?

[chimken-nugget]

Drawing each arc I complete:

Power of Three

"gee whiz, i sure am glad crowfeather's not my dad !!" said crowfeather's accident babies for the tenth time that day.

Guess who my favourites were for this arc challenge (impossible) /j

(You can find my drawings for arc 1 and arc 2 here)

Anyways,, my thoughts on this arc (a long-ish read):

Leafpool and Squilf my beloved !!!! The only ppl whose reactions were reasonable to the secret reveal were Brambleclaw and Hollyleaf, given their characterisation. Everyone else's reactions were over the top and stupid. Lionblaze thinking he's not a clan cat anymore was stupid. Wth is Firestar then ???? 'one of the good ones' ?????

The Tribe cats book (Outcast) was a disaster that was only necessary to establish the Jaywing-Jayfeather connection. I may be one of the few ppl who genuinely loves the journeying and the tribe (i loved TNP), but this book reeked of colonialist ideology.

Sol being a professional BSer is so funny, brother just said whatever, and the clan cats made him more of a threat than he actually was. What proof did Blackstar have that Sol predicted the Eclipse besides the words of Thunderclan apprentices LOL

Literally all Sol had to do was sit around and look pretty, say some vague crap, and everyone ate it up LOL

Erin Hunters pls bring back Sol

Everyone loves Purdy. Your dad loves Purdy, your adoptive mum loves Purdy, the old racist woman loves Purdy. YOU love Purdy.

also,, 3 'controversial' hot takes:

1) I enjoyed TNP more than POT. idk maybe it's cos leafpool is my favourite character, so im biased, but POT seemed to drag and was a hard read with all the brooding and 'im better than everyone' comments hollypaw, jaypaw, lionpaw made every 5 seconds.

The last 2 books were peak tho- Erin Hunters cooked hard with the fire scene and death berries scene.

2) Hollyleaf not being one of the 3 is actually a good decision. ik the fandom has never rly liked this fact since it's due to such a silly reason (the authors couldn't think up a power in time), but I think not having a power made her story so much more impactful. Hollyleaf *wanted* to be special in any way possible (by being med cat / leader etc.), so to be able to make peace with the fact that she's not 'special' in the way she thought she'd be, is good character growth for her in the next arc. Hollyleaf's 2 character traits in POT was 'warrior code' and 'wanting to be special' so both of these elements being completely shattered for her was probably one of the more interesting things to happen in this arc.

3) Squilf and Leaf keeping the secret makes sense to me. When I read Leafpool's Wish, I was under the impression that starclan was insistent on the 3 having a "nuclear, stable family" which squilf and leaf interpreted as having to keep it a secret from everyone else (they were probably planning to take it to the grave).. I agree with the fandom that this secret thing wasn't handled in the best way, practically everyone already knew about the crowleaf situation BUT I do also think that starclan had their (stupid but kinda valid) reasons. The biggest reason would probably be to have the supposed 3 grow up loyal to the code from birth and in a healthy family, so that they wouldn't crash out when they discovered their powers and turn evil or smthn..

They were kits born from 2 codes broken, so knowing this from birth would maybe have them not rly regard the code with the same importance as others. Also, as accepting as thunderclan is, being a moderate clan is such a low bar to cross that the racism and discrimination Holly, Lion, and Jay would've faced would still be pretty horrible. Arc 2 and 3 brush up a lot on the fact that the other clans (and even cats in thunderclan) are unhappy with the way Firestar is accepting of anyone. If worst came to worst, I do think Firestar would have been pressured to exile Leafpool and her children, dooming the clans as 2/3 kin of kin are no longer in the clans. We already saw the clans threatening Firestar over Sol.. so yeah...

of course I'm just reading through the lines and the Erin Hunters in all honestly likely did it to put drama in their kittycat soap opera LOL

However, as the no.1 Leafpool defender, that is my take

[theredpharaoah]

Dare I say we give Giles too much. I think him not giving Buffy the Slayer Handbook was dumb and ignorant. The Handbook didn’t just have rules for the Slayer, it was the definitive guide to magic on Earth and its history. The fact they never pull it out again after the first episode irritates the hell out of me. How helpful would that have been for all the Scoobies - Willow could’ve picked up magic way quicker. It probably would’ve helped Buffy hone the psychic abilities she never really developed. Remember how she’s supposed to be able to sense vampires and stuff? And in the comics, Erin had access to all the Slayer memories(I’m pretty sure) because he inherited the psychic side of the lineage. Again, that could’ve been cool to see and very helpful.

I also feel - as stated many times before - Giles completely failed with Faith. People talk about how Buffy built up that rapport with Giles and her friends - that she made their relationship the way it was. But that’s irrelevant because the relationship was present and stable at the time of Faith’s arrival. We see when Kendra comes that even the Giles is a bit taken-aback to her very by-the-book approach to being a slayer. So when Faith came - who is extremely similar to Buffy - how did Giles not immediately feel that paternal instinct he has with Buffy, Willow, and Xander? That sort of instinct comes easier the more people you consider to be your “children”. I mean it’s crazy that The Mayor had to take Faith out of that nasty ass motel. A literal demon had to go “that’s no place for a young girl”. And sure he had a motive but the fact that none of the decent people had already said it? And the way they handled the accidental kill of the evil assistant to the mayor? First of all, the Slayer killing humans is frowned upon but it’s not a hard and fast rule. I’m not saying they should just go around killing ppl, but I’m not going to feel bad that Faith killed a man who was working for demons anyway. And compare that to how they reacted to Buffy Killing Ted(when they thought she had); completely different reaction. And Buffy had exhibited far more animosity towards Ted, than Faith had for some random who got in the way.

Giles as an adult - and something of an educator - should’ve immediately clocked that Faith did not have the same upbringing as the other 3, that the Scoobies were falling into their childish instincts and alienating her, and he should’ve gone out of his way to include her and impress upon the others why they needed to accept her. Especially after they found out about her Watcher’s death and saw how terrified she was of Kakistos. Why did Buffy and Angel have to be the ones to find out Faith needed to be fought for - that she needed help to deal with her trauma. I was really disappointed in Buffy as she’d lost her watcher and relocated just like Faith. She also understood how lonely and dangerous it is being a Slayer. But I can’t blame Buffy all that much cuz she’s a kid. And Giles willing all of his things to Faith in the comics and only the Slayer Handbook to Buffy did not move me. Giles considered Buffy to be the “One True Slayer” was not a gag. Everyone considers her to be that, giving her this handbook after she’s been a Slayer for damn near a decade is insulting. She don’t need that shit no more - she had to learn it all on the job. And giving Faith his money so she could retire from violence? Faith’s violence wasn’t the issue, her relationship to it was. The whole thing read as very melodramatic and self-absorbed.

Giles was very childish and we see it all throughout the series, but especially in the later seasons. I mean when you actually think about it, he’s so ridiculous. Buffy was 22 at the end of the series. 22 and she has to take care of a teen sister, pay mortgage, bills, etc. Could you imagine that amount of responsibility at that age? Our society still considers 22 year olds to be pseudo-teens for the most part. And he left cuz he “didn’t want her to become dependent on him”…what type of shit? She was already dependent on you - you’d been her Father Figure since she was 16 and throughout a boatload of trauma. You pretty much raised the girl. And you know that - that’s why you had a dream of taking child Buffy to the fair. He’s human, but that doesn’t excuse the level of cowardice he exhibited for me.

Also, I think instead of killing Jenny in Passions, they should’ve had her live. I think she would’ve been great as Faith’s mentor. And while she didn’t take the Scoobies to task for blaming her about Angel and alienating her, I definitely think she would’ve gotten them together for their treatment of Faith. I also think she would’ve pointed out Giles’ differential treatments of the two.

[cupcait]

saw something dumb on tiktok and now i need to rant about caitlyn under the cut bc it's long and. spoilers yknow.

i rly. hate hate HATE that arcane brought on a certain group who knows nothing abt the characters before arcane & has defaulted to calling people who love caitlyn??? names??? and everyone has just this. absolutely ridiculous view of her because of her actions in s2 and i just.

did we watch the same show? almost every single character has done something that isn't... good?? there's so many who just so grossly misunderstand her character and her arc and it's so incredibly frustrating. yes it's awful seeing her morals falter due to her anger. it's awful seeing her allowing grief consume her and it'll never justify her actions. but like..... it's very human to be blinded by guilt, rage, and especially when mourning.

in act 1 she feels like it's her fault her mom died. like she failed, because she didn't do the one thing in her mind that would have prevented that. she feels her discipline and morals are what led to not only her mother dying, but two other members of the council. the entire point of her arc in the beginning is that cognitive dissonance. she isn't acting herself! she's going against her beliefs! THAT'S THE POINT!!! it doesn't mean they no longer exist in her. the way she behaves in the first two acts are VERY drastically different from the caitlyn we see in league, and in act 1. but she grows from it. she learns from it. & that won't erase the pain she caused during this period, but it is what serves to ground her again, putting her back to dedicating herself to healing.

also... she has not even AMBESSA in her ear, BUT POSSIBLY LEBLANC???? i know it doesn't drop her name but she has leblanc's exact eye makeup, and it's apparently leaked lb is getting a rework (more aligned w her appearance in arcane?) but mel says this line, sorceress/leblanc calls her a sly girl, and then we see ambessa tell her she is the wolf.

also this shot in the opening? ambessa's eyes glowing just like shadow lb?? leblanc's entire thing is being the deceiver it's rly not surprising lb as ambessa would have been able to perfectly pull the strings & make cait act out of character.

regardless of all of that, caitlyn says very clearly hating jinx made her hate herself. we are not supposed to like or side with her during her siding with ambessa, because she doesn't like it either. she doesn't even side with herself. people say she folded the minute vi called her cupcake and like, that's funny, but it's more that seeing vi again was a reminder of what the hell she actually wants to be fighting (or shooting) for. "ambessa" wanted caitlyn to have a distraction from vi for a reason.... it'd bring out her heart, rather than the fear that could be easily manipulated.

ppl saying she kissed vi to manipulate her in act 1 and i just..... i have to laugh..... we're talking about the same caitlyn who had to snap herself out of it to avoid kissing vi after healing her wound w the shimmer.... riiiight..... people acting like she didn't immediately have an expression of regret after hitting vi w the butt of her rifle... RIGHT.... SHE KNOWS SHE FUCKED UP we literally see the shift before she leaves. goes from looking like she cant believe what just happened to looking like she's about to cry out of guilt before she turns and leaves. it's awful seeing her do this to vi, and again, we aren't supposed to like it. i just think it's really clear she doesn't either. 😭

also idk i just think it's weird to call people names over characters they like especially considering the amount of people who will forgive other characters who have. arguably done worse.

[ca-suffit]

sorry how long this is, but this fandom is pissing me off so much and I need to rant a little before I explode lol.

-- madeleine (nonchalantly) says of sleeping with a literal nazi, "I was inviting a frightened boy to cradle my tits," and then when louis turns her we see this as a pleasant memory, and I'm supposed to believe someone who could take pity on a nazi (even if he "wasn't dedicated to the cause") and remember him fondly isn't going to be racist? so I'm the weird one for finding claudeine to be a gross ship and being exasperated by seeing edits of them flood my dash? and every time I talk about this on ANY platform, I mostly get ignored and the few people who do interact w my posts are denying it and saying she had to do it to survive, as if she didn't also literally say she grew up rich like 30 seconds prior.

-- a decent chunk of the anti lestat crowd insists he participated in the trial as an act of revenge and can't say his name w/o talking about how they hate him (bc his racism + abuse), and these are the same people going apeshit over ben daniels saying that santiago was gay and in love with armand, as if he isn't one of the most antiblack characters we've met on the show bc he was quite literally eager to put on the trial solely bc he hated louis for falling asleep during one of his performances. and don't get me started on his monologue about claudia's ashes. and yet ppl are excitedly eating ben's interview up. 🙄

-- the narrative literally showing us that lestat has changed since the attempted murder (going off script on the trial in defense of louis & claudia, taking accountability for his abuse, staying silent about the fact that he was the one to save louis & letting him leave w armand when we know how terrifying being alone is for lestat, spending decades living in that shack and eating rats to punish himself vs the hedonistic & decadent lifestyle we saw him living in s1) and the anti lestat crowd claiming this is just him being manipulative and are furious that the writers had louis forgive him. like normally I agree that it's in very poor taste to paint an abuser as sympathetic, but the thing about this show is that these characters are immortal and have all the time in the world to change. like this isn't the writers sweeping it under the rug, they're explicitly acknowledging how horrific lestat's behavior was and there are literally canon glimpses showing us that lestat has become a better person (and I'm sure this will be fleshed out more next season as we'll get his pov) and, like, isn't it a good thing to see an abusive character realize the error of their ways and alter their behavior and become better????? like it's fair to not want to see that, but this is the wrong show to be watching if you can't handle seeing abusers change their ways & being forgiven by the people they've hurt (especially since it's pretty much confirmed armand/daniel is going to happen at some point and given I'm sure they'll be circling around each other, I feel confident that louis will eventually forgive armand too)

ur fine, u can rant! I have a lot in my inbox but I try to get to it all eventually in whatever way.

idk how much u wanted me to comment on anything or not, but I'm gonna add comments and u do whatever u want with it.

a) ur never going to have an easy time criticizing a white woman in fandom. it reflects too much of what fandom is usually made up of and ppl will usually tell u it's misogyny to judge these characters if u ever try (most of the time it's not, but that's a convenient excuse to shut down convos).

the show intentionally makes everyone do p questionable shit, especially the white characters. it doesn't tell u how to feel about it, that's up to u. that makes ppl uncomfortable. it goes further too when it is someone like madeleine, who is otherwise seen in positive ways. it's reflective of real life and that's what scares ppl the most. nobody ever fits in a box of only "good" or "bad." a lot of what the book for IWTV asks too is what defines that anyways? and S1 also said "are we the sum of our worst moments?" so it is constantly asking u that and it is for u to decide and reflect on.

b) white, gay stuff is also gonna be popular in fandoms. ben daniels is also gay irl and his husband just died so there's crossover from that to praising his character bcuz ppl feel sympathy for him. I also think ppl detach more from his actions bcuz he's not romantically linked to the characters he's torturing. ppl also just honestly dgaf about antiblackness anyways so for most ppl it's easy to overlook. which is how we get posts like this.

I mean, u can also like whatever characters u like for any reason. some ppl like characters not bcuz they support what they do, but bcuz they're just enjoyable to watch in performance or connection to the plot or whatever. I think examining santiago after what ben said about his performance is something ppl should be able to do, and again it circles back to the stuff I wrote for madeleine. where does ur (general u) discomfort lie and why? as u said, if it's ppl who dislike lestat then it's worth looking at that too, why are the characters different then?

c) there's sort of 2 things happening for this part. the first is that 2x8 did have pacing issues, for whatever reasons. a lot of ppl felt like it flattened the plot and characters for the sake of making lestat look the best (over armand) and rly shoving it in out of nowhere. the second part is what u said about the themes. I've always figured they were going to explore forgiveness and personal growth, but I also know it isn't going to be easy for ppl to follow. hopefully the full seasons coming do a better job of this but for 2x8 there were a lot of reasons ppl felt crazy about the way it was shown to us. I also agree that other characters will have these journeys with each other too. it was just such a sharp turn for S2 to end on highlighting the white character we've otherwise seen as being p horrible and suddenly saying "it's the brown character who rly did the worst!" I don't think they intended to come across like that but it's how it landed for a lot of ppl. it doesn't mean ppl have an issue with the concept of forgiveness and stuff otherwise. we'll have to see how it goes. but ya there's 2 things going on there for this rn.

[rederiss]

Hello!! I saw ur last ask response and wanted to jump in because I too am like god Kevin is inescapable lmao. Like book 3 title drop and it’s like all 5 of us in this tag on repeat talking about it 😶‍🌫️. Also like u said— I too was afraid she’d rush Jeremy but I’m still kinda worried she’ll rush him because this trial plotline is so heavy.

And I’ve said it before but… do u also feel like we are not getting enough of Jeremy? Like he’s present but never actually discussed thoroughly. I talked about this in another ask response but even in the game that was supposed to be about him and Jean (jeans first game, but against the team Jeremy had the most problem with), we got mostly Jean. And I know ppl call this Jean’s series (including Nora) , but it’s dual pov. And maybe it’s like well Jean’s pov is first so he’s going to be the main of the two mains but… where is Jeremy 🗣️🗣️🗣️

Maybe I’m just crazy lmfao. But we didn’t even know Joshua by name until book 2 (and to a point, understandable, but ) , and we barely know anything further than what he said at the banquet really. And I try to be like ok well it’s going the route of Jean and then we’ll slowly shift over to Jeremy but… I am not too confident in that, seeing as we got Jean then Jeremy briefly then Jean again. And I am not contesting the placement of the Jean& rhemann scene bc that was very much needed. I am simply just starving for Jeremy lore. Like give us more !!!

Ok that’s all Sorry to ramble in ur inbox lol

Truly he is inescapable, but I also understand why she decided to have these books to put an end to the whole series. With Jeremy, fuckkk I am so worried she will rush him. We barely got any Jeremy in these past two books. TSC, I will give a pass since that was originally suppose to be a stand alone (which baffled me when I learned that it was because ofJeremy’s characterization in that book). Then in TGR, we got Jean Jean Jeremy Jeremy Jean Jean Jean Jean Cat/Laila/Jeremy Jean. And that trial plot line?? I am hoping that it’ll be moved around to another book or something. IDK!!!

We are missing so much about Jeremy. I love unreliable narrators but it gets to a point where it can detract from the character. The only well done unreliable narrator I have seen so far is Will Kempen from Dark Heir by C.S. Pacat who quite literally lies to us for the entirety of two books and the only way we knew about it was from other POVs. For Jeremy, I do think it’s well done at first but it is pushing it now. A balance needs to be made and that balance is being thrown off… I am holding out hope though.

We are at the point with Jean’s development and healing journey that we will see his development naturally. Jeremy needs his time to shine! Tell me more about your childhood, your brothers, your sister, your social security number, your credit card number, WILLIAM!!!!!! I too am starving for more Jeremy lore though. While reading Neil’s trilogy, we get a lot about Andrew…. So why can’t that be the same for Jean’s?

[kendrixtermina]

It baffles me that some ppl will still defend Chibnall because we actually 100% know for a fact, as in explicitly said in interviews, that:

Chibnall didn't even want the job, executives just thought of genre fiction as lesser BS anyone can do

He submitted first drafts

He had no plan for plot or characters

He decided to "simplify it for children"/ dumb it down (...by not thinking about the moral implications of anything??)

He explicitly told Whittaker NOT TO WATCH PAST EPISODES

As a writer, I am so angry because imagine getting such a big chance & then being so cavalier about it... If I got to be in charge of a beloved big-name sci-fi franchise, you bet that I would put in some fucking effort!

Like I've always been baffled by how ppl keep saying Whittaker was so good in her other shows when I only saw her being aggressively bad & forgettably meh in Doctor Who, especially considering that Colin Baker consistently managed to be the most interesting thing on screen even with bad script & hostile execs, to the point that he's one of my faves - and no, it's not to do with gender. I really liked Gomez' performance because she actually bothered to, you know, play the Master. You really bought that she's a dangerous inhuman creature but at the same time she still had nuance & depht going on like the Delgado incarnation.

but... now I realize that Colin Baker had the advantage that he was a fan before he got the job.

He knew what Character he's supposed to be playing; Whittaker only had Chibnall's superficial-ass scripts to go on, no wonder we ended up with what feels like a completely different character.

I wonder if Chibs wanted a lead author that wouldn't argue with him, especially given how he insisted on writing 80% of the episodes, the rumors that he turned down Capaldi's offer to stay longer & that he brought in someone who had previously worked for him. Capaldi would have called out OOC stuff. So would a new hire who was actually familiar with the show.

It's such a difference from having super-fan like Capaldi or Tennant on the job who deeply cared. (This is also why hearing that Gatwa had a similar background was actually the main thing that made me give the show a chance again)

But that said, Eccleston & Smith were new to the show when they got hired & still kicked ass. The difference being that, of course, Matt Smith DID watch past episodes & quickly decided that he loved & wanted to emulate Patrick Troughton.

As much as Whittaker sucked, there's no doubt in my mind that ANY actor in the world would have done better if they had seen past episodes, especially if she really is so much better in those other shows.

[divimech]

nobody else gaf about this movie but idc let me enlighten yall

so like why do we hate homewrecker 1992 so much...... because when i checked the letterboxd profile for the movie ppl were absolutely hounding it💔💔 and for the stupidest reasons too????? "erm lucy the ai isnt scary" she wasnt supposed to be scary you pisslicker "its cheesy" OH FUCK OFFFFFFFFF i cried watching this movie and i was still sad days after watching it bc the ending literally ripped my beating heart out of my body and shot it multiple times with a nailgun and pissed on it. like no movie has made me this sad since electric dreams and if u know me thats saying smth

and some of the ppl in these reviews are just pulling bullshit out of their urethras?? "this movie is a lamer version of demon seed!" hey so demon seed is a movie abt a sentient ai forcefully impregnating a woman (who is his creators ex wife mind you) with his half human half computer baby and then uploading his consciousness into said baby after he dies so he can be human. homewrecker is a movie abt an ai that controls this guys vacation cabin, then said ai falls in love with the man, and tries to kill his ex wife bc shes jealous

i want you to look at me dead in the eyes with a completely straight face and tell me how these movies are similar?? the only similarity is "ooo ai falls in love with a human" (dont get me wrong i love this trope) BUT YOU CANT EVEN REALLY CALL IT LOVE WITH DEMON SEED BC HALF THE MOVIE IS JUST ROBOT HYPNOTIZATION RAPE PREGNANCY PORN

also i saw another reviewer compare this movie to her 2013????? this post is already long enough so im gonna keep this short HOMEWRECKER 1992 AND HER 2013 SHOULDNT EVEN BE IN THE SAME SENTENCE TOGETHER. her 2013 is a shitbag of a movie made by adults who think theyre so deep and meaningful while the only people who genuinely find this movie deep and interesting are people who jack off to phone sex and being strangled by dead cats. or maybe im just 15 idk

uhm also there was some other reviewer comparing lucy to hal 9000??????? dont even fucking play with me you have to be pulling on my balls rn no way you just said that and genuinely meant it. looks wise ill let it slide, theyre both red and black, BUT PERSONALITY WISE???? WHAT HOMEWRECKER DID YOU WATCH??????????? WRECKERHOME?? every single movie ive seen that features a SLIGHTLY evil ai theres always some sticky fingered fuck in the reviews nutting all over 2001 a space odyssey. AND LIKE DO NOT TWIST MY WORDS I LOVE THAT MOVIE TOO but oh my god what does it have to do with this? you know hal wasnt the first evil ai?? alphaville was released three years before 2001 aso and that features an evil ai guy but YOU dont see me glazing alpha 60 in a review abt 2001 aso. we get it you like space odyssey, do you want hal to crawl out of robot hell and give you a kiss????? should we call stanley kubrick?????????????

HOMEWRECKER 1992 HAS NOTHING. NOT EVEN A TUMBLR TAG. NOT A SINGLE AO3 FIC. NOT A SINGLE EDIT ON TIKTOK. NOT A LICK OF FANART. HOMEWRECKER DOESNT EVEN HAVE A FUCKING WIKIPEDIA PAGE. NOTHING. I AM THE FIRST PERSON TO POST ABT HOMEWRECKER 1992 ON THIS GOD FORSAKEN PLATFORM. ur telling me that demon seed has a fanbase?? like a GENUINE fanbase that isnt full of old men sci fi nerds??? theres FANART of demon seed. people find proteus attractive. there are PROTEUS IV HUMAN GAJINKAS. ARE YOU JOKING??????? homewrecker is literally free on youtube but somehow LITERALLY NOBODY ON THIS SITE HAS WATCHED IT????? to watch demon seed i had to go on some illegal website, get flashed by a porn ad everytime i tried to pause the movie and probably got my computer gangbanged by viruses but sure yeah somehow its more known than homewrecker. WHERE IS THE HOMEWRECKER FANDOM. WHERE ARE THE LUCY SIMPS. WHERE ARE THE LUCY X DAVID ANGST FICS. WHERE ARE THE JANE HATERS. WHERE IS THE CUTE DANA AND LUCY ART. WHERE IS THE COOL LUCY HUMAN GAJINKA FANART. EVERYDAY I WEEP OVER WHAT COULDVE BEEN

dw demon seed i still love you (kinda) homewrecker is better tho

homewrecker 1992 is a masterpiece and if you cant see that im sorry for you

[narhinafan]

With this love triangle I hope it ends soon bc love triangles are the worst unless it’s done right. Like I hope Borusumi be endgame bc not only does it make sense but I would laugh in BSA faces but yk hell would go loose so.

but if we being fr fr? how do you feel about the chapter 16 in btv cause when I seen it first came out ppl on tik tok was babying sarada and bashing sumire calling her a bad friend, toxic, jealous, selfish and saying statements like “she acted like she couldn’t hug boruto herself?” Like this is like the 2010 NS wars all over and it’s annoying. They act like sarada have to be the only person for boruto and how she thinks she knows him too well and has to be the one to understand him. Like y’all this is an apocalypse I’m telling you guys. RUN🏃‍♀️

And the new chapter about sarada MS is complete bull, like they just completely rewrote how the MS was supposed to be gained or wtv. Honestly she’s a joke literally

The thing is most love triangles you will have fans causing arguments. I only saw one love triangle where I was alright with how it played out, but more often then not I hate them at the end it feels like they got with who they did for the sake of it. I've seen many times where girl that won the love triangle shouldn't have, though they were romance genre and it was made obvious the girl in question was the heroine of the story, but the rival in the triangle is usually set up to be a threat and ends being the better love interest and dynamics overall.

I loved chapter 16 cause Sarada's attitude and take on Boruto was just wrong and selfish. In fact I was annyoned by how she handle the whole omnipotence where instead of being smart kept revealing she was on Boruto's side making it know to the village she and Sumire can't be trusted when it came to him. She really didn't consider the whole picture nor his side of things so was nice when Sumire pointed out the exact reason he had to handle it alone. Seriously if Sarada truly wanted to help they should played the long game and convince Kawaki and the village they were also under omnipotence that way they would be freer to help him without being suspected by the village. Also the way Sumire brought that Boruto got hurt cause they were there hit so hard cause its a fact Sarada cost Boruto his eyes cause she was too dumb to have her Sharingan active when confront Kawaki and had to be protected by Boruto.

Then reminder of putting herself in Boruto's shoes cause Sarada has never done that. Sumire bringing up her feelings Boruto was the icing on the cake, I am glad she didn't ignore and spoke up cause its fact Sarada was the bad friend. Sumire double checked and asked Sarada how she felt about Boruto and revealed her own feelings as a friend Sumire was honest with her feelings so as not to harm their friendship. However Sarada despite knowing Sumire's feeling just didn't care, it was the same with omnipotence she never considered how she handled it would have a negative effect on Sumire's relationship with the village. Considering her past it wouldn't be surprising if the village see Sumire turning traitor as likely cause of the Nue incident heck the reason we not see Nue after the timeskip could be could the village is actively keeping him separated from Sumire due to knowing she is a Boruto supporter.

Overall I feel that Sarada is simply inconsiderate when it comes to not only Boruto, but also Sumire and others. If anyone was a bad friend its Sarada plan and simply Sumire has simply been honest with her feelings not just for herself, but also her relationship with Sarada.

Sarada getting the MS was BS since pre time skip and its an insult to all Uchiha who had to suffer to get the eyes and lose someone they truly love. It felt like Sarada only got the eyes cause it was the only way to keep relevant, but then forgot she unlocked them. The fact it was missing post time skip and only just showed up now feels like Kishimoto just remembered and came up with excuses for why it didn't show up till now.

Also though previous Uchiha with MS they had the skills to back it up even without it, but Sarada I'll be honest it feels like MS is a crutch to keep relevant in the fighting. Skill wise I just don't see Sarada matching up to other MS users, Kakashi was a kage level jonin and couldn't rely on his MS much anyway, Obito I admit he relayed on it a lot, but the way it works and how he utilised it made it clear just how much skill was needed for him to do what he did. Even without MS I honestly think Obito would still be Kage level or at least not far off. Sasuke could somewhat keep up with Itachi holding back and could beat Deidara an S rank, even matching and pushing Killer B to eight tails without MS abilities. Itachi is just Itachi a force to be reckon with or without the Sharingan let alone MS.

Finally Madara who till this day we don't actually know what his MS abilities are.

Sarada both pre and after timeskip she has been passive when it comes to fighting and when she does make a move it usually ends badly. Her getting MS feel like she is going to completely relay on the abilities they give to keep her in the fights at this level when its quite clear she has no right to be in such fights. She is pretty much a passive and other then some team plays with others can contribute to the fight. But know what is worse its how she turns her Sharingan off mid fight. Like seriously it was bad enough her stupidity cost Boruto his eye, but if she used her Sharingan she should have easily been able read Ryu's and prevent Araya from losing his sword the only thing they going for them and then Yodo is most likely dead and all cause Sarada was dumb enough to not keep her Sharingan on. She literally used it only for Chidori yet then turned it off again.

Sasuke was using his Sharingan all the time when he was younger then her. So either Sarada's chakra is so low that she is unable to use it constantly or she is dumb and choses to turn it off/not use it when she clearly should. Its a complete joke at this point and insult to the Uchiha clan.

At this point I am waiting for Sarada to go blind cause she will need to constantly use her MS to keep up. Her eye sight is already poor needing glasses. So unless there is more BS forced in Sarada is destined to lose her eyesight and sharingan and with them her dream of being Hokage.

[seasurfacefullofclouds1]

Btw I know firsthand that Harry is actually kinda masculine but in a toxic way. Hes… a ridiculously complex person. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not all an act. He is and can be gentle and kind and caring which is what made it so trippy to see for me. He actually does enjoy the sequined outfits tho that’s not an act, cuz I know ppl think that’s all an act. It’s not, but he wouldn’t go out in public in those outfits for the same reason he wears them on stage: public reaction. Which honestly, fair. I never judged for that. He actually does care a lot about ppl with less than him and he does think quite deeply about his place in the world and he tries to be humble. I think my issue with him was how he can be such a guy especially when it comes to romantic relationships. Like he always needs to be a bit better than you, or the one protecting you, or being so annoyingly overprotective. Most of us have got two or more engineering degrees, and I think that always bothered him but he wasn’t like rude about it or anything. But I could tell he didn’t like it when I corrected stupid statements he made about ai being conscious and I try not to be a know it all but bro AI is linear algebra and calculus on steroids. I then tried to teach him derivatives which turned into a huge argument. Honestly this was probably messy of me but we had heard him say this ai conscious thing like multiple times before we went crazy and started doing calculus on the whiteboard of his studio. We being me and the other engineers so this won’t give away who we are. The man nearly cried. I don’t wanna say too much honestly this is gonna give away who I am but idc no way he sees this he actually rly hates social media. One of the other engineers in the studio told me about this blog. They knew Louis too, didn’t say how, I can make assumptions. They said they liked it better when he used to come around but he doesn’t come around anymore. But I didn’t know Louis that well I only saw him a couple times before he stopped coming around. I’ll just say it was clear who the man was in that relationship, and it wasn’t Louis. And I think they wanted it that way, honestly. I also think smtiems ‘manly’ men go overboard and try to overcompensate, it was very odd to watch, kinda sweet tho in its own way. I don’t think Harry’s a bad person, I rly think if he just got a college degree he’d be able to finally channel his intelligence cuz I do feel for him to some extent. He is smart but he has so many gaps in his knowledge bc of lack of schooling (in my opinion) and I think that’s what makes him act out more than anything. Anyway glad Louis got out i suppose. This blog is very entertaining

Serious question, did Harry ever understand Fourier transform? And what did he think about Maxwell’s equations? Did you show it to him in integral form or derivatives? Anyway, back to the Krebs cycle. Did he like the ATP conversion intracellular? If only we knew.

Sorry let me come back. I was too snarky, I apologize.

[bloomeng]

maybe i’ll get into this more in detail but i think the reason why the fandom is currently so divisive on the topic of characterization is that s2 is fundamentally a different show. pretty much everyone changes and not in a character arc/growth way, i mean the show’s tone changes so dramatically that the character’s are forced to change as well.

my speculation is that the writers had too much access to what fans wanted— plus a lot of factors going on behind the scenes— and what we ended up with were characters that were no longer built for a romantic-comedy. using izzy as an example because he’s the most divisive, but izzy in s1 is meant to act as an antagonist, maybe a character foil for stede, but more than anything (like most characters in comedy) we were meant to laugh at him (the same way we were often meant to laugh at stede).

so when people try to make claims about his nature in s1, about how he was trying to control blackbeard etc, we don’t actually know that. we do know what he says out loud but he really doesn’t get enough focus for us to make those sorts of definitive judgements. blah blah blah unreliable narrator, because it’s stede’s pov. he very well could’ve been trying to control ed because he sucked or it could’ve been about survival. while i have my preference for which i prefer i don’t think there’s enough to evidence to say for sure what his real motives were.

and then s2 blew everything out of the water. we still don’t know exactly what his past with ed is, but he is immediately the victim at the beginning of s2. not only was there the toe incident and the various other abusive things ed did to him, but their relationship is far more intense than it was prior. we even have jim stating canonly “he was your friend.” we see a softer side of him, one that loves and wants to be loved, he calmed down significantly, and he’s effectively become a third main character, with how much screen time he gets. suddenly the reading of him being power hungry doesn’t make sense, but the survival reading does. he moves from being a two dimensional character to a three dimensional character and we’re made to have sympathy for him.

i think for a lot of people this tone shift felt jarring, esp if you really didn’t like him in s1. which btw i don’t think there’s anything wrong with disliking him. he was an antagonist. hell i didn’t really like him. i never hated him but still. he was well written because he elicited negative responses the way he was supposed to. i have no idea if izzy was always supposed to move in this direction or if the writers saw the response from fans and were influenced by it. who’s to say really.

i also want to point out that s1 was pretty much only from stede and the crew’s perspective so naturally izzy is gonna seem like an angry caricature. s2 shifts around more because stede is no longer the only story the narrative is following.

i also see ppl say that con’s interpretation of izzy is fighting the script which i don’t agree with at all. jenkins has always been upfront about how much he likes izzy. although i do think fans shifted con’s perspective of izzy into a more nuanced headspace of the character and that might’ve effected things, but i think the same can be said of the writing.

tldr/ in s1 there was no “right” interpretation of izzy we didn’t have enough info. in s2 everything changed and whether it was because of the fandom or not they leaned into the sympathetic reading.

[barbatos-sama]

thoughts after one watch:

i was actually nervous for this episode bc you could tell from the season preview it was a court episode but we didn't know who was being put on trial. me and some other ppl in the fandom were afraid that we'd get an episode where royals were punished for mingling with the lower class (like stollas and oz) but it was actually specifically about bliitz's use of the grimoire.

we got to see all seven sins IN THE SAME ROOM (except for luci since the shows aren't allowed to cross over, he was referenced though).

we actually also got a huge lore drop that satan actually ruled hell before luci even fell from heaven??? i would love to know what happened that made the rulership pass over like that, although considering how absent luci is, satan might as well still be the ruler anyway because he acts like it. luci couldn't even attend the trial, and i highly doubt that's Just because of the whole shows not being able to cross over thing, luci in general even in his own show is very absent and doesn't do his job. satan is confirmed to have created imp kind himself, which confirms my theory that he created them in his image hehe. also he's HUGE. MASSIVE.

these two were serving cunt together and i'm happy to know that they're friends like people assumed they would be. they were trying to defend bliitz for his actions, which is really sweet since bee had only met bliitz once at a party before but she could tell he was a good person.

mammmon's "you're going to regret saying that" comment doesn't seem to have meant shit because it doesn't look like oz can get in trouble with the other sins for being with fiizz, apparently everyone there knows he and bee "like mingling with the lower class" and it's not like, illegal or anything. good for them. mammmon bee and oz were all flying insults at each other left and right lol

we got to see leviatthan and belphaggor! i was right about leviathan being a woman! or, women i guess? the two heads seem to have distinct personalities. we didn't hear them speak though.

bel is the one we got to see the least of unfortunately, not many clear shots of her. she didn't have any lines and was sleeping through most of the trial

for the gist of the episode, basically they were going to have bliitz executed at first and everyone was super afraid. but stollas intervened and his punishment wasn't death, because he's a royal and as satan put it "your life actually has value" so instead he will be stripped of his powers for 100 years. which honestly turned out way better than i thought it would. the worst thing right now is that his brother in law, anddrealphus, will be taking over his everything. and it leaves his daughter in the custody of his ex wife, who already seems to be in the process of manipulating her to be against her dad, which is kinda heartbreaking because his daughter is really all he has, the only thing he truly cares about, and she's gonna be turned against him.

anddrealphus is probably my least favorite character in the show right now he is.... weird. he keeps calling his sister hot and attractive and the first time it was like "okay he's just being supportive in a weird way" but he's called her hot like three or four times now, but it's also weird bc he's gay so i don't think it's supposed to be an incest thing (he just in general acts gay and then a pride month post confirmed it) so i don't know if it's supposed to be a "gay man is overly comfortable amongst women" joke or if the joke is supposed to be incest or what. definitely weird and i don't like it, want it to stop lol. he did grant me this great screenshot though

also look at these twos reactions when they saw death sentence read out on tv ;A;

the way it ended is kinda bittersweet bc hooray nobody died but also stollas lost everything and he's too numb to speak mostly. there was a wholesome scene where bliitz helped him take a bath which you know i love that kinda stuff lol

basically uhhhhh i feel like if this show is ever gonna make me actually invested in the main ship i suppose it would be now that mr princey is at a commoners level. i feel like that ship has sailed though like i feel like if i haven't rly cared about them this whole time nothing is gonna make me suddenly have brainrot for them lol. more thoughts upon subsequent rewatches probably

[happy-tori-friends]

Please elaborate on your ffxiv au 👀

- 🐑 Anon

its nothing concrete but i just like ffxiv...

some spoilers for everything - including endings shadowbringers and endwalker (everyone should play shadowbringers its so good)

i imagine its like an isekai just for funsies, so dont and did have to adjust to not having their abilities. and also being turned into the ffxiv races. they basically wake up on the cart/boat (i think alphinaud and alisae will be going to limsa via the boat in this au... idk if i'll ever write it but if its something ppl wanna see i am Willing...). tho they all have the echo. technically dungeons are meant to be 4 player but for our intents and purposes we're gonna ignore that. its My AU i get to make the rules

as for jobs... splendont is a marauder/warrior, splendid is a gladiator/paladin, flippy is an arcanist - for jobs he'd be a scholar and fliq would be summoner (tho fliq would also do reaper i think)

idk what the twins would start as but theyd end up switching to rogue/ninja asap, tho lifty would go machinist in heavensward and ive toyed with viper shifty. probably archer for a starting class just for gridania rep. i started at maurader on lifty just for easier access to rogue but that doesnt really matter. rip to splendid who is all alone in ul'dah.

now races... the twins are miqo'te, specifically keepers of the moon (bc thats what i made lifty)... maybe wildwood elezen. and flippy... xaela au ra (im an au ra lover... my main's an au ra and i have a secondary character thats also an au ra who i made to pair with estinien bc i like him was the second option for shipping my main w b4 i went with my beloved g'raha. i was gonna put a picture of my main, honoka miyashiro, here but i forgor. lovingly known as honk.) i was thinking au ra for super bros but i think flippy au ra is better. still not sold on elezen tho. maybe hyur? 23rd the 2nd benchmark comes out maybe i'll make them in that? theyre gonna questioned for their names but... oh well.

ive done arr a few times but ive only played the 2.1+ patches very little (im not done with post endwalker yet either i just started 6.4 but i started levelling reaper after the last trial) so i dont remember Too much (im gonna new game plus some things + i could stream ffxiv lifty's adventures) but i do remember many key moments. i'll put a cut here bc im gonna get into story events

i pulled up to the inn to look at the unending journey. but the openings are basically the same except flippy and dont are working together + the twins are too, and the city-states all send out envoys to each other for funny 'oh hey we all had the same idea lmao' moments and they all get directed to go to investigate sastasha (not b4 the twins take up rogue, getting disappointed when they realize they're actually supposed to maintain the code) where they all meet again and everyone is like 'yay thank god you're okay' and of course after copperbell and beating up some dick, all the scions show up and say "hey you're pretty cool join our club :)'

okay i haven't thought too much about story things in main arr + what grand company they join. but. i think if i go the route of different events being focused more on different characters in place of the wol, splendid being the one to be framed for poisoning nanamo might work best bc he does start in ul'dah + being framed like that kinda fucks with him mentally - 'i should've been more diligent, i shouldn't have just picked something up and kept it, how could i have been so blind?' and being considered traitorous + seeing all that happened at the bloody banquet is. well it's... a lot, especially for him (though he probably thinks he should be used to it considering canon htf but in see what develops he did get sick when he saw mime's body. i think. may in fact be misremembering).

splendont holding the twins close to him as they want into ishgard bc its cold and they can barely see through the snow... and the twins thinking 'we've done something good for once, we were celebrated as heroes and this is what we get?'

stormblood i dont have too many thoughts on either but if i go the route of flippy (or well fliqpy really) being the one to be zenos's main rival... i think fliq and zenos would have fun banter. also he would 100% do the reckless thing with yugiri and try to kill him with very little plan.

i think when there's split paths they do split up (aka at the beginning of expansions where there's different quest chains to start with) but thats all i've really thought about so far regarding some beginnings... i do know that i want splendont and the twins to be the ones to go to amh araeng bc them witnessing tesleen would be - that is if i even end up having flippy and splendid in shadowbringers bc they might stay back to help tataru and stuff... but having did there would make it a bit more painful so i dont know. splendont is considered the shard of azem here, (dont ask how if its an isekai its just how things seem to be rolling) and the one feo ul bonds with so it all ends up working out. also the exarch barely managing to bring all 3 (or 5) over when he finally gets it right is funny.

back on the subject of them having seen tesleen transform, it genuinely freaked them the fuck out and fearing it could happen to dont, lifty and shifty probably beg splendont to let them dispell some of the lightwardens' aether especially when y'shtola mistakes him for a sin eater and after qitana ravel where y'shtola is sure it is being absorbed and tells him to inform her of any side effects. but splendont says 'Absolutely Not. i can deal with it i'm not letting Anything happen to you.'

after malikh's well when he starts having pain and getting sick they beg him again, but he again puts his foot down. they fight about it, and the twins spend the night in a different room in pendants (they cant see ardbert anyways and have just thought splendont was seeing things).

things are tense throughout kholusia, and its very clear that lifty and shifty are afraid of what will happen when they kill the final lightwarden. then their fears are proven true when innocence is killed and splendont starts to turn because he cant contain the light and the sky they worked so hard to bring night back to reverts to the eternal day.

and despite the tension, despite the pain, he looks at them and says 'i promise... i'll be fine. i didn't want this to happen to you.'

'you fucking moron, this wouldn't have happened... if we shared the light,' shifty retorts but he and lifty are too afraid to get close, especially with urianger being weird. and all this time theyve gone with this in hopes of finding a way home, and now they might lose splendont and it feels like they'll never get home.

there's a lot of emotions going on with the exarch reveal bc they also dont want him to sacrifice himself just for splendont either but theres no other choice is there and then emet-selch comes in and that little bit of hope is dashed. and though ryne delays the inevitable it is still, at that moment, inevitable. they do their best to help the scions look for a way to save him but it's very clear that they're pessimistic, heartbroken. afraid that it's true that everyone they hold dear to them is destined to be taken away. if theyd fought harder, if they could have been more convincing...

i have more thoughts about shadowbringers (mostly with the twins being afraid splendont is taking up emet's offer) but i'll skip to the end so if i do write it i dont end up spoiling everything. but after ardbert fuses with splendont, lifty and shifty join him to fight hades alongside whoever else the exarch summoned... and when all is said and done and it's revealed that splendont is no longer being corrupted by the light, after they return to the source and have reported to tataru and krile, and they take a moment to breathe... they plead with him to let them bear some of his burdens, just as they let him do. even if it's for their sake, neither of them want him to do anything like that ever again, and they make him promise. they all cry about it, even dont, because Fuck that was probably so stressful. he does tell them what happened with ardbert though.

endwalker... endwalker. ultima thule in particular. while fliq would be the one to fight zenos at the end if i go the 'everyone has a part to play', and probably the one that gets posessed in 'in from the cold' i think i want dont to be the last one standing in ultima thule and extend it a little bit, in particular so lifty and shifty can sacrifice themselves for him. and at the very end when they are alone again he tells them not to scare him like that again. lifty responds with. 'it was like that for us too. that's why we made that promise. your burden was to go forward, and we helped you bear it.'

'we came back anyways,' shifty adds, but he 100% expected to just. be dead forever. theres a lot of crying again. ffxiv makes me emotional so it makes the characters emotional.

also in elpis splendont being like 'i am a familiar of azem.' and shifty confidently goes 'yeah and we're his familiars' and lifty facepalms. 'thats absolutely not how it works, shifty.'

of course none of this is fully set in stone. flippy and splendid might not even be included at all bc a lot of my thoughts are mostly dont lifty and shifty save for zenos n fliq (if i go this route, one of the twins would be made a pugilist and start in ul'dah) bc i dont have many ideas for the twins to have wol major moments other than thinking about them being framed for poisoning nanamo instead of splendid. this also got really long... i'm gonna have to do this arent i? ffxiv au yes or no poll when.

[woodsfae]

I genuinely feel like Housemate is doing strange, fucked-up things to Partner and I on purpose, but the extent to which I second-guess myself and go back-and-forth on it also sorta makes me feel like they are? It's just. So much.

From the beginning, sigh.

I met Partner in 2016, met Partner's best friend (hereafter "Tas," fake name, obvs) shortly thereafter. Tas is nonbinary, and I have always felt like they and their friend group put me in the "straight girl" mental box. They have always been standoffish and cold to me. I am also nonbinary, but I'm not superduper open about it? Like if we're friends, we've talked about my relationship to gender. And whenever I'm in a meet-n-greet circle that people are sharing their pronouns, I do say "they/she/he are all ok for me," (including Tas, because we've been in community organizing initiatives several times together) but hardly anyone ever uses anything other than "she" for me. I'm short and extremely busty and frequently wear dresses so I often think people -especially queer ppl, sadly- consider me to be a trendchasing "theyfab," and Tas's coldness to me has always indicated that to me, too.

Tas repeatedly hit on my sister and for literally two years straight the only time they initiated conversation with me was to ask if my sister got their texts. My sister told me she always responded to their texts and usually TAS was the one who didn't text HER back. My sister also never flirted back, because she doesn't like how Tas treats me.

Partner and I were openly polyamorous until the pandemic when we closed for health purposes. We were both dating other people when we met. Partner had a very brief relationship shortly after we started dating that went really badly. That person suddenly indicated they felt unsafe in their living situation and Partner drove more than 24 hours to pick them up and give them a safe landing spot. That person immediately freaked out whenever Partner even texted me. And did a lot of really weird passive-aggressive stuff to me whenever we saw each other. And was really controlling to Partner. Partner had just barely gotten them out of his apartment when Tas FREAKED THE FUCK OUT. And was like "I dated them so you should have known to check with me," and Partner was like...."you did? Oh...I dimly recollect like...years ago? Briefly?" and Tas was like "yeah, it was a few months and went badly and now you've broken my trust and will have to rebuild it. :| :|"

I thought this was bs but whatever, their friendship. They rebuilt it or whatever. but after that I cared a fuckload less about what Tas thought about me. But it was still stressful and upsetting that they were SO cold to me.

In 2020 I moved in with Partner and we locked down together. Until his apartment building was sold and the new owners DOUBLED HIS RENT with thirty days' notice. And then we were SOL because our city's cost of living was literally the highest in the country, adjusted for population, and vacancy was 0.2%. At the same time, Tas' house was sold and they were in basically the same boat. However. Tas and Partner both made enough and had just enough savings and parental help that they realized they could probably afford to buy a house together. And I was invited to live in the house, too, only I pay a little less because I'm not building equity as I'm not an owner. It was all very optimistic. Tas wanted to have a close, warm housemate relationship. We all planned game nights, shared dinners, shared grocery staples etc etc. We had multiple meetings about it and I was very optimistic about it all. Tas was more friendly and open to me during those few months than ever before or since.

We moved in and Tas immediately was standoffish and cold again, but not only to me, but also to Partner, their supposed best friend of over a decade. This hurt Partner tremendously. They would go to another room whenever either of us entered it, then text us random house things from the other room. They went back on all the dinners/game nights/etc we had agreed on. Partner and I extended invitations for MONTHS. It wore on Partner considerably, and me too. But Partner was losing his best friend with NO explanation.

Tas started texting Partner requests for "house meetings," except I wasn't invited. And then Tas would postpone the meetings with only a few hours' notice, or sometimes wouldn't show up, and then would postpone belatedly. And when the meetings did happen it would be like "I feel like the vibe is off in the house and it hurts me."

like wtf.

Partner would be like "Tas had a bad childhood and their parents basically waged psychological warfare on them and it's hard for them," and I'd be like….. "BABE YOU AND ME HAD THAT HAPPEN TOO." And Partner would be like "they had [medical thing] that caused a traumatic brain injury and their memory is really bad because of it…" and I'd be like "me and my five concussions and literal Post-Concussion Syndrome would like a word." He's just trying to find his peace, because it has been seriously hard on him. He's cried on me so many times about Tas since we moved in together. And there's really no justification for being a relentless asshole, imho.

Tas and I had a shared goal of transforming our lawn into a garden/natural plants pollinator space. Tas and I spent hours and hours working on this. Their back is objectively more fucked up than mine so I did more of the super-hard labor, but we both worked really hard on it. We talked about sharing the garden beds and what the division would look like….and then I came home and Tas had planted all the garden beds with the things they wanted and left me no room for anything.

Last year I decided to take a little corner of the yard that was only weeds and plant some sweetgrass. I checked with Tas multiple times they didn't want that corner for anything. I mentioned it multiple times. then I planted my sweetgrass with a little berm I built. And I mean it's LITTLE. If I made a circle with my arms, it would fit in that circle with my fingers touching.

A few weeks ago I went out and Tas had been clearing out the dead leaves/stems from the yard and garden and piled all the compost waste right on top of my sweetgrass patch. my tiny little patch that is only about 2 feet by 2 feet at most.

That hurt my feelings more than I thought possible. I was so so hurt. My only little patch of garden. I cleared it off, pulled some of the weeds I had left in to help enrich the soil, so it would look more tidy and visually distinct, and went and told Tas their compost pile had ended up on my sweetgrass so I had moved the compost over a little. Then I painted a bunch of rocks and ringed my sweetgrass space with the colorful rocks so it would be even more visually distinct and obvious.

I feel so defeated and sad. I don't know why Tas is being like this. I hate living here, and Partner and I both wish we had moved into a van or something instead.

We are nice to Tas. We still offer up game nights and dinners. We watch their special needs dog ALL THE TIME. Tas pays their friends to watch the dog when we can't, but never offers us a cent. Tas refuses to speak to us about almost anything. They insisted on a mask-inside and checking with housemates about guests rule in lockdown, then broke it immediately and never checked with us about any guests. The mutual friends we do have mostly started being even weirder and colder to me after we moved in together, and I genuinely think they're trashtalking me to our mutual acquaintaince group. I go out of my way to be friendly and ask about their plans and things, but they actively hide their plans from both of us. They will just suddenly be gone for 2-3 days, or have dinner parties, or out of town people over.

A few years ago they had a dinner party on Partner's birthday, with many of Partner's friends invited, and didn't tell Partner they were having people over or anything. It wasn't for Partner's bday, it was just a totally unrelated dinner party ON his bday, in his house, with his friends, that he wasn't invited to. It was so cruel I honestly have trouble believing my own memory that it happened.

They went on a long vacation and brought me a "present" for watching their dog. The worst and least-functional butter dish with no lid that I've ever seen and doesn't even sit flat. Oh, and it matches the utensil-rest they got themself??

They are always civil to my face, but I always always feel like they dislike me. It's exhausting. I wish we could move, but housing prices are still incredibly high, loan rates are terrible, and Partner feels trapped into this house ownership. We both wish we had done literally anything else in 2020 than moving in with Tas.

right this minute Partner is being yanked around by Tas with another house meeting. can't wait to find out what bad vibes are our fault, now.

[inchidentally]

tricky asks below to keep out of tags!

ok so full disclosure I do still ship them in an rpf way from their season together lasgfjlsaghfjl but absolutely, in reality I fully agree their dynamic was big brother and baby brother back then. they're definitely friends in an equals way now and I do like that Lando exerts a lot of confidence now and isn't just Carlos' satellite.

and no worries at all about me leaving the ship I'm honestly just not engaging for a while until pls god the larrying calms down. before Oscar that was my main hardcore rpf ship and I also love the real life friendship Carlos and Lando have. but if ever there was going to be a ship to cause a Kraken-type upset in F1 it's carlando. there's wayyyy too many ppl who are loudly convinced it's a real thing and about the same amount of ppl who think Lando's friendships should be ranked in order of "importance" to him. which would leave only Max F at the top so I guess by their reasoning carlando was fucked before it even started lmaoooooo

oh babe don't bother trying to bring logic into this!!!

I... don't know what this is supposed to be referencing bro? the quote was that people shouldn't assume that guys are friends just bc they're teammates so he didn't like, say that Charles and Carlos aren't? also this was all to do with the personal beef he has w Esteban so I think if he was deciding to say that Carlos and Charles hate each other it would've made waves??

and I gotta remind folks that galex seem to be the only two drivers who are friends the same during the season and off of it. I haven't looked crazy deep into the other friendships but pretty sure none of them really hang much in the off season?

fr I do not get them going after Oscar the way they did Luisinha and now Rebecca (and I'm assuming Isa). it's one type of crazy to hate on real life partners over delulu shit but to start doing that to a guy in another rpf ship??? poor Oscar is just standing there not doing anything and they're alternating between him being carlando ship captain or saying he will NEVER be Carlos to Lando.

oh my goddddd

like

how can someone want their fandom experience to be constantly getting enraged at reality intruding on a ship that I swear to god never had the remotest plausibility anyway???? considering they stopped existing to each other for the winter months apart from a little press during covid and Carlos was practically engaged to Isa the entire time like ???????

your ask and another I got (but won't post) was from today/yesterday so I'm guessing it was them seeing Carlos and Rebecca apartment hunting in Monaco has set off some fireworks. I saw a cute photo of Carlos and Rebecca chatting w Lando at the Netflix Cup thing and the comments were calling Rebecca the Steve in the situation. Lando literally is talking to the real life couple and that ain't enough to break the delulu.

anyway folks, that's why we look after Lily's remote presence in fandom. gotta keep the shit flying around trying to stick somewhere else lol

[iamthecomet]

I always feel bad for coming in here and just ranting about my problems, cause I know yet aren’t that bad but I can’t really talk to anyone in person here about them and I just feel a little bit better talking here because I feel it’s actually genuine.

But have you ever had someone pray on your down fall, or unknowingly do it? If that makes sense… but I’ve had ppl say they truly didn’t think I’d make it this far, to my face, and weirdly enough I could handle it. I took that and pushed my way to get athletic and academic scholarships. But just now for a project we had in physics only one person in our group had to turn it in, which the professor didn’t say that so we were all working on it. But when we figured it out they called and told me cause I was still working on it but I had don’t all the graphs and formulas and sent it so I could help them out. I asked if they got them and they go “uhhh yeah imma be honest, they weren’t right…” UM HELLO. Thanks for telling me before I turned it in?!?

Like it won’t hurt my feelings if you tell me I’m wrong, give me some advice on how to do it right, but it DOES hurt knowing that your weren’t going to tell me and let me get a bad grade. Thanks. That right there made me lose all trust in those two girls. Girls that I’m taking multiple classes with and am also on the same team with.

I know you get a lot of ppl who like to talk and tell you what’s going on in life, and I think it’s because YOU are a TRUSTWORTHY person, a GENUINE person who wants what’s best for people. So thank you, and all the other online friends for being some of the few people who are like that, holy shit. I know I’m being dramatic but right now I can’t tell if I’m more pissed or sad that it all happened.

But PLEASE distract me tell me all the things in your life right now, good or bad, if you’d like. Tell me fun things that have happened or things you’re excited about!! I’d love to know if you’re doing amazing:)🖤🖤

Holy shit, Mo. In all genuine honesty, fuck those people. Like, seriously. I'm sorry that you have to do so much with them. I think people are so afraid of conflict that they unintentionally create it by being like this. Or maybe they just genuinely don't care--either way it's not a great way to live your life or communicate with other people. And it isn't a reflection on you it's a reflection on them. Ok, enough of that. My life? Christ, Mo. My life is BORING haha. Let's see, my library is planning a solar eclipse party for whatever day in October the partial Solar Eclipse is. We're BARELY getting any actual eclipse but we got sent five billion eclipse glasses and we love an excuse for programming. (And we're getting a full eclipse in April so this is our practice run). So that's going to be my fun work thing for the next couple of weeks! I saw one of my best friends over the weekend. I don't see her much anymore since she left her husband and moved in with her new boyfriend 2 1/2 hours away. But that's alright, she is SO MUCH happier. I made her a little dumpster fire crochet (she immediately named him Daniel). We judged the clueless out of staters for a few hours at a weird craft fair thing we went to, and then we went to the book store and got boba tea and it was just a really wonderful day. I'm in a writing group that's supposed to last from August-May and the end goal is to have a finished draft/self-published book by the end of it. So that is super exciting. I'm working on a story I've been trying to tell for YEARS. I'm just hoping to get it out of my head. It has nothing to do with fantasy, or smut, or ghouls. But I'm hoping it will help me process some shit. It's exciting, I am unmotivated, but I'll make it work haha. Everyone else in the writing group is like 10-40 years older than me so it is a WILD experience. I sort of feel out of place with all these "adults" who read their fancy literary books and I'm over here like "well...I...read books for fun so they have to be fun!" I feel like the dumb little kid in the room. Which I'm pretty used to at this point in my life. But I have faith in my own skill, and I've worked with the guy running it before in short story programs he's done and he has faith in my skill, so I am unbothered by being the weird young person in the room. I am worried that I'm going to get to May had have nothing to show for it--but eh, we'll see when we get there. Please never feel bad about coming to me to vent/talk. I'm glad you know that you can just come into my ask box and decompress from the bullshit. Everyone deserves a place like that. Sending you love and hugs if you want them. And, seriously, fuck those people.