#and I know we will look back in 10 years to cringe at this bc even now I am cringing at it

[thursdayg1rl]

didn't realise that the summer I turned pretty season 2 was still going lmaoo. I finished episode 6 and was like well damn I guess this is it. here we go again ig

[peachhcs]

clouded in memories

hughes!sister x will smith au (samy + will)

samy & will try soaking up all the time they have left together in the last few weeks of summer before leaving for college.

wc: 2k

i think i’m coming out of the writers slump(yay!) i know this isn’t any of the requests, but i needed to write something that wasn’t requests to get out of the slump and i actually kind of like it :) i feel like i never write the really early moments of samy + will’s relationship, so enjoy! (i promise requests are coming) (p.s. the bedroom pic is what i imagine samy’s room in michigan to look like)

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there was one thing will couldn't stop thinking about all practice and that was getting to lay in samy's bed for the rest of the day. he'd been up since 7 for morning practice and by the time 10:30 rolled around, the boy was ready to do nothing for the whole day and luckily, since it was summer, he could do exactly that. the blonde rushed himself out of the rink once he was showered and in clean clothes, not even caring to say goodbye to the other guys because of how eager he was to leave. 

he sent a quick text to his mom so she knew where he was going before pulling up samy's contact. he knew she'd say yes, but he just wanted to make sure it was okay that he came over before he just invited himself. the ringtone rang through his car speakers while will eagerly waited for the girl to pick up so he could pull out of the lot. 

"hi, will. what's up?" her soft voice filled his car. 

"hi, are you busy right now?" the hockey player asked, already sliding into drive and navigating himself out of the lot. 

"no, just packing up some of my room. why?" 

"i'm coming over," will said it more as a statement than a question because he wasn't really planning on asking, he was just making her aware he would be there in less than 29 minutes. 

a little giggle left her lips, "is everything okay?" 

"everything's fine. just wanna see you. lay in your bed. i've been thinking about those two things all morning," he unashamedly admitted because at this point, after endless teasing from the guys, will wasn't afraid to admit when he wanted to see samy and say how much he missed her. 

"oh really?" he could hear the amusement in her tone. 

"mhm. i'm trying to soak up the last few weeks we have together and i also didn't sleep that well last night. i think i sleep better in your bed anyway," will explained a bit and he could hear the smile in samy's voice even though they weren't on facetime. 

"wow, glad my bed can be of service then. hope you don't mind the mess that my room is right now," he could picture her meticulously separating each item into it's own labeled box and it brought a grin to the blonde's lips. 

"how much do you have to go?" 

"like all of my clothes," she cringed. 

"don't worry, we haven't even finished packing the house yet. it looks like a mess too," will chuckled thinking about the disaster his house was right now too. now that dev program was over and there wasn't a need to constantly be in michigan, the smiths were moving back to boston so they'd be closer to will and grace at bc. 

"i'm actually feeling emo that all of you are leaving michigan in a few weeks," the brunette admitted now that her and will were just talking as he got on the highway to ann arbor. 

"don't remind me. i've been choosing not to think about that," anytime the blonde thought about how he wouldn't be in michigan anymore, it made him incredibly sad, so he decided pushing all thoughts of moving out of his head until he couldn't anymore. 

it wasn't even that he was leaving the guys, they were all coming with him to boston. it was the fact that he was leaving samy. she'd been his rock these past two years and will couldn't even fathom the idea of not getting to see her everyday. 

so that's why he wanted to soak up these last few weeks as much as he could. 

"well, my bed will be all ready when you get here. text me when you pull up and i'll come let you in," samy's voice snapped him out of his thoughts again. 

will smiled, "sounds good. i can't wait. see you soon." 

the two hung up and will spent the next 28 minutes on auto pilot driving on the interstate. it happened quite frequently whenever he made the trip down because he's done it so many times that he didn't really need to pay attention. he basically blinked and he was pulling into the hughes's driveway. will grabbed his phone again to tell samy he was there before climbing out and making his way to the front porch. 

the girl was opening the door before he even made it onto the step. will quickly mirrored her excitement as his arms flew around her shoulders into a tight hug. "my bed's all ready for you," the brunette giggled, leading the boy inside. 

"thank god," he kicked his shoes off and didn't waste another second following her upstairs. 

upon entering, will was a bit taken aback with how bare all the walls looked. samy wasn't kidding about packing her room up.  he had to stop in the doorway for a second just taking it in making the girl glance back at him. "you okay?" 

"wow, yeah, sorry. it looks so different in here," the blonde mumbled while his gaze slowly flicked across the room trying to remember what was there before the empty wall. 

"oh yeah, i was taking everyday down today besides the photo wall," the brunette explained and then will's glance went to the corner where two walls met that's been decorated with photos since he knew her. 

he trailed over to it. even though the hockey player has been in samy's room countless of times, he's never fully looked at the wall in detail. there were so many photos lining the space from the floor to the ceiling—will had to crane his neck up to see the ones at the very stop and crouch for the ones at the very bottom. 

"how long have you had this again?" the boy wondered. 

"about a year after we moved here, so like 7 years or something?" samy came up beside him, her arm sliding up his back until it was on his shoulder and she found a place to perch her chin there too. 

"wow. that's a long time. i can't believe some of these were 7 years ago," one of them near the bottom caught will's eye because he was in it. 

him and samy looked awfully young in it, maybe 11 or 12? "this one looks ancient," he laughed and pointed it out to the girl. 

"oh yeah, we were like 12 in that or something. one of the many pictures our moms forced us to take," samy giggled. 

"i kind of miss being that young. we didn't have to care about anything just when practice was, if there was a game, and what was for dinner," will laughed again, turning to press a gentle kiss to samy's forehead. 

"yeah, tell me about it. i miss it. especially after spending the last like three days packing," she drifted away from him and will finally pulled his eyes away from the photo wall to the rest of the room. like he suspected, the younger hughes had piles in different corners with different things to be packed away. in the middle of the room was all of her posters that were once on the wall now waiting to be rolled up. 

"at least you won't be far away from home if you ever needed something," the blonde crawled into samy's bed that's been calling his name since he arrived. she giggled watching her boyfriend curl himself up into the blankets. 

"yeah, that's a plus at least. i'm still sad though because i probably won't ever like really live here ever again, you know?" she went to her posters again, wanting to have them all rolled up before she joined will in her bed. 

"summer?" 

"i mean, yeah, but we'll probably be at the lake house or wherever. i mean i won't be in this room for a long time ever again," the girl elaborated and will understood. 

"i get it. i'm never gonna see that michigan house ever again probably," it was all so bittersweet because on the one hand, they were all getting to pursue their dreams at their dreams schools, but on the other hand, they'd never be in this exact moment or place ever again. 

"did you at least have fun here?" samy changed the subject because if they kept talking about leaving, she'd start crying. 

"obviously i did. best two years of my life honestly," will quickly said and he wasn't lying. the last two years in plymouth was the best time he's ever had because he had everything he could've ever wanted: his girl and his best friends. 

"i can't believe i'm saying this, but i think meeting your friends was the best thing that's happened to me too. they're my rocks," samy chuckled thinking about those 6. she's met a lot of hockey boys between all of her brothers, but she could confidently say that will's class were her favorites. not saying she didn't get along with quinn, jack, and luke's friends, but something about ryan, gabe, vote, fowler, drew, and aram really had her wishing they didn't have to leave for college. 

"i think we can all say the same about you. i don't think i've ever seen them so sad to leave before," the couple shared a laugh. 

"marcie's gonna miss you all too. she said we have to reunite next summer," the other brunette was heading to west coast for college which meant she probably wouldn't be back home until next summer. 

"for sure," a comfortable silence spread across the room while samy finished rolling her last two posters and will just stared at her. it was clear both of them had a lot running through their minds and they could tell how much they just needed a day to slow down and take it all in. 

will reached out to gently tug his girlfriend's arm. she met his little pleading gaze to get into bed with him, a small laugh escaping her lips. "i'm coming, i'm coming." 

he opened his arms for her. as soon as samy got in beside him, it felt like all of the weight that's been weighing will down lifted off his chest. his racing thoughts finally eased and the tension in his muscles quickly dissipated when samy's touch littered his torso. they pretty much melted into one another in the comfort and warmth of the girl's bed. 

"what am i gonna do without you?" the hockey player mumbled into her hair. 

"honestly, i don't know. so much has happened in the last two years that i never thought twice about not seeing you for months on end when we were younger and now i can't imagine not seeing you every day," the brunette admitted softly. her breath tickled the boy's neck, but her words just made him pull her even closer. 

"me neither. you're my rock. how am i supposed to live without my rock?" will hummed sadly. the girl pulled back a bit so she could catch his glance and mustered her best smile for both of their sakes. 

"i guess that means a lot of facetime calls then. be prepared to get sick of me," they chuckled. 

"i could never get sick of you, but gabe might every time he hears your voice," the blonde leaned down again to place another gentle kiss on the bridge of samy's nose. his soft gesture earned a bright blush on her cheeks before burying her head back into his chest so he didn't see. 

the two stayed like that until they both drifted to sleep much like will was intending. ellen came up the stairs a few hours later wondering how her daughter was doing with packing. she knocked, but grew curious when no one responded from the other side. 

"samy?" she knocked again. still no answer. 

the older woman finally pushed the door open. a look of surprise crossed her features when she saw her daughter and will tangled together fast asleep. a small smile replaced the surprise though as she figured will was here when she spotted his car in the driveway. she carefully retreated back down the stairs not wanting to disturb them while also digging her phone out to tell colleen they totally predicted the relationship and their husbands owed them $20.

[youremyheaven]

U GUYYYSSS storytime:

So I got talking to a guy a little while ago and we vibed realllyyy well. He's lowkey the textbook definition of everything I'm looking for in a guy. He's 6'2, well to do (not rich but does veryyyy well for himself), BULKY BROAD SHOULDERED, Venusian etc

The synastry of our charts is insane 🥵 He had Mercury atmakaraka (remember my Mercury DK?? 😌)

He has a Venus Moon and stellium and he's the most Venusian guy I've ever met,,, he LOVES beauty, art, the female form etc and appreciates it. The way he spoke about it was so hot to me ngl,,, mf was so poetic,, he really knew how to speak sensually without ever being creepy or vulgar

His Mercury AK was in Purvabhadrapada and he had a puppy like softie Jupiter guy personality. I loved the fact that he looked like a WWE boxer (bulky af 🥵) but had the personality of a golden retriever. LITERALLY ALL MY DREAMS seemed to be coming true.

I knew his birthday but not his rising sign. Yk what they say about "if something's too good to be true, then it is" ??? yeah, i just couldn't brush off the feeling that something wasn't right. But I couldn't straightaway ask for his birth time, esp since he's Hindu and will know what's up 🤭😂 ANYWAAAYYYS we're talking and everything and this man is love bombing me HARD and I know it because:

a) I'm a retired love bomber myself

b) This is not my first rodeo

and anyways this 🧔🏻 is talking marriage and babies, he's calling me wifey 😭 (kinda cringe bc he's known me for dayyys but good lord handsome men can get away with anything 😤) and he refers to himself as "husband" 😭😭😭 like "husband's proud of you" and "your husband doesn't want you to apologise" 😭 (ew but he's hot 👉🏻👈🏻) and I let myself have my delulu moment and try to give him the benefit of the doubt bc literally he checks every box 🥹and he's soooo completely fond of me. We used to run in the same circles like 10yrs ago, even though I had no idea who he was and never interacted with him then, he told me that he remembered me from back then and thought I was cute 🥺 and later I took a looooong break from social media and he told me he'd wondered where I was all those years 🥹🥹and then I apparently showed up in his "suggested for you" on IG a few months ago and he instantly recognised me and followed me etc 🥺🥹 he's been tryna hmu for monthsssss now but I was with my ex 🤡and then I was recovering from my ex 🤧 so I didn't pay much attention to it. When he told me all this, it kinda made me melt 🫠 how he kept trying to talk to me even though I repeatedly ignored him etc

And he did everything right. I could text him rn and he'd reply in 5 seconds. He always asked me how I was, remembered things, always sent me like 20 different messages until I replied, showered me in compliments (Venusian men love to pour you with their attention, it can even be annoying lmfao) etc like there was nothing in his behaviour, his tone or his words that was giving me 🚩 he genuinely seemed sweet, caring etc and he loved babies 😩 and sent me videos with his nieces and nephews (man's was manipulator pro max) but YK ME 🤪 when I have a gut feeling ☝🏻 I can't ignore it 🤓 so I was very much waiting for the ball to drop and watch him fuck up somehow 💀 initially I felt sooo overwhelmed by all his love (bombing) that I felt like the bad guy for not reciprocating it or feeling that kind of "love at first sight" thing 🤡 BUT

one day he said "I can't believe I found you after 10 years, that means no matter where you are after another 10 yrs, I'll find you then as well" and I was like 🤨 I thought you wanted to marry me and make me your trophy wife 🧐 huh 👀 and he was all 😂😍haha yes ofc I'm just joking bbg 😍😂 but I knew there was more to it

Finally I got his birth time AND GUESS WHAT???

He's Hasta Rising 💀💀💀💀

Idk if you know already but I don't like Lunar men 🤡 and the minute I found out, I was SCREAMING bc 😭 why would God play me like that???? Put the most perfect guy, astrologically and otherwise, in front of me, I literally have him wrapped around my pinky and HE'S A LUNAR??? why God why 😭

But him & I had come too far for me to dump his ass for no reason 😬 (can't tell him it's bc the sus vibes I got from him was further bolstered by him being Lunar 🤭) so I was praying to God to give me an opportunity where he fucks up so that I can walk away 🚶🏻‍♀️from this situation before things get out of hand

AND GOD DELIVERED 😩

I was texting him the other day and he spoke about how he wants to spend as much time with me as he can before we go out to chase our dreams (move away from this city basically) and I was like 🤨so you're looking for a short term relationship?? And he was like 🥺 no never and I was like why tf would you say you want to marry me and have babies (1 boy and twin daughters 😭🤡💀) if you already know you cannot commit???? And he was like "because we could meet again in a few years and it would be nice to have this plan ready" 💀💀💀💀 HE ACTUALLY SAID THAT AKSKKSJSJDIID brother thinks my IQ is in the negatives bc WTF sort of explanation is that 😭 and i told him "this manipulation might work elsewhere but not on me, good luck tho, bye, I'm done here 💅🏻" and he went 180 and said "I'm so sorry, I was just trying to be funny, please give me another chance, all I meant is that we never know how things go so we can try to work things out but there's no guarantee, please I'm so sorry" 😂😂 and he called me like 3 times and finally said "Can we atleast still be friends? i can't lose you like this" AJSJJSJSJ THE AUDACITY 🤡💀🤡💀

but I just want to say thank you God for showing me his true colours and for giving me the opportunity to exit with grace and dignity and making him feel like a fool 😌✨

[1lovesickfangirl1]

I just finished playing Glass Heart: Retold and OMG IT IS SO GOOD. Was super interested in how a bunch of the love interests had connections. The music is beautiful. I looove the sprites. The game is fully voice acted and the love interests voice actors did an incredible job. Some parts are a bit cheesy but it's fun :) It's absolutely CRIMINAL that I haven't been able to find a fandom for this game. I've only found 8 fics on AO3 and ONE OF THEM IS IN FRENCH.

In Glass Heart you play as Meira, a 21 year old woman with a rare heart condition that has kept her in the hospital for most of her life. She got a heart donor right as her heart started failing. Her transplant surgery is a month away with a 20% chance of success. Meira wants to experience life outside the hospital before her high-stakes surgery, and each of the 6 love interests will help her do that.

Glass Heart: Retold is a remake. I haven't played the original, the main difference I know of are the 2 short stories after each route in the original. I was looking at the game files and found the CGs and sprites for those stories!! also saw a file with diary entries about each guy at different affection levels. maybe they'll be added in the future?

Under the cut I'll include content warnings for the game and my thoughts on each route in the order I played them. Spoilers ahead!!

Content Warning: Certain routes include gang violence, sexual assault, drugged MC, attempted suicide, and prostitution.

Tamaki

my assassin husband <3

somehow got the darkest route on the first playthrough

thought i was going to date sweet florist man who grew fond of Meira

ends up being in charge of an assassination guild

finds out a gang called the Zhulong Syndicate is after Meira's new heart, does his best to stop them

Charlotte is so pretty, wish she was a love interest

Lily is such a cute nickname

literally went feral when Tamaki called her a good girl

looove a man in a suit

unfortunately this is the route where Meira gets sexually assaulted

PAPI CAN GO FUCK HIMSELF

the way Tamaki reacted when Meira told him about the assault was 10/10 chef's kiss, the good stuff

he's such a sweet sweet man

the good ending is peak bc yes i would love to run a small flower shop with my lover!!

a very good starting point, one of my favorite routes!!

Will

needed something more lighthearted after Tamaki so I chose Will

going to college w/ childhood bff and his besties, very chill

friendzoning a girl you like and continuing to give her mixed signals after, not so chill

Nerd Squad is so goofy, I love them

Brayson was so flirty and silly like bro i can't get distracted ill do your route later

Krystol (her roommate) was a tad cringe but she's sweet

omg Tiffanie get out of here Will doesn't want you back

aaaand the Zhulong Syndicate is still after Meira's new heart GIVE MY GIRL A BREAK

at least we get to see Tamaki again WELCOME BACK HUSBAND

Meira got drugged at a party, TOLD HER FRIENDS NOT TO BRING HER TO THE HOSPITAL AND THEY LISTENED TO HER

YES IM STILL PISSED ABOUT THAT

HER HEART IS SUPER WEAK AND WE DON'T KNOW HOW THAT DRUG WILL INTERACT WITH HER OTHER MEDICATION

BAD FRIENDS

in the bad ending Will puts himself in front of Meira as a gang member tries to stab her in the hospital and he dies

kinda ironic since his older brother died doing the same thing for Will when he was a kid

and that unlocks Bray's route

Will's route is pretty short but it's a much needed route

Meira needed that slice of life moment and this route delivered!

Brayson

my hacker boyfriend <3

WHY DOES WILL HAVE TO DIE FOR BRAY'S ROUTE

okay diva diving into the dark web to find out more about who killed Will without any way to protect your data

THEY BOTH MISS WILL SO MUCH THEY'RE THE ONLY ONES WHO UNDERSTAND EACH OTHERS PAIN

Bray i love you but chibi is probably the worst nickname you could've given her

good on you Bray for trying to not get Meira involved

in order to infiltrate the gang and get more info Meira needs to pretend to be a prostitute 💀

oh yeah that plan definitely goes well and the bad guys never see it coming (sarcasm)

Bray looked pretty cute in his suit

these guys move quiiick in the good ending, right after graduation they're engaged, bought a house, AND Meira is pregnant

the bad end takes place 10 YEARS LATER

MEIRA HAS BEEN IN A COMA FOR 10 YEARS AND BRAY VISITS HER EVERYDAY

Nathan

NO GANG STUFF THIS TIME

heck yeah queen get on that adult Make A Wish program and go to Hawaii with a rich man

love using a rich man’s money

this route has a pretty basic dating rich man plot line

Nathan falls in love w Meira as the trip goes, breaks off his arranged engagement, pursues photography instead on inheriting his father’s business, and lives his life with Meira

Also Meira’s doctor travels with them to look after her heart

And he loves her and is pretty jealous of Nathan

Philip is a character that exists

Nathan's friend, super flamboyant cosmetologist, usually comes around when Meira needs to dress up and love advice

when I first saw Nathan’s fiancée I convinced myself it his sister for a second?

They just look very similar

the bad ending was Meira's funeral

TAMAKI BROUGHT HER A BOUQUET OF LILIES

Eli

fun fact: we have the same birthday! (November 2)

we love a tsundere whose idol persona is a detective and recently got diagnosed with cancer

also hell yeah dude call out Will's mixed signals

THE SINGING WAS SO GOOD

Meira was giving MAIN CHARACTER ENERGY in this route

helps idol she doesn't know write a new love song with her dad's melody

idol falls in love w her

idol begs her to be part of the song

invites her to the studio

only Eli's manager knows he has cancer so his other colleagues are expecting him to work at full capacity while he has stage 3 stomach cancer💀

producer receives the demo and is like WE NEED HER TO PERFORM YOUR NEW SONG ON TOUR

Meira can't be on stage, too much stress on her body

but Eli is like hey lets make her into a hologram so all she needs to do is sing during concerts

SO THEY PLAN TO MAKE HER LIKE MIKU IN A VOCALOID CONCERT

they sing the final recording and a music video for the song

SHE GOES INTO A COMA AND WAKES UP A DAY BEFORE THE CONCERT

after performance she goes right into heart surgery and goes into another coma

(can't believe all of this happened in a month, she really is the main character)

In good ending she lives and they become idols together <3

In bad ending Meira dies before the concert and Eli dies after the concert

Jay

it's the doctor/patient dynamic

tbh was a tiny bit concerned when Jay said his little sister died from a heart condition and Meira would've been the same age as her if she was still alive

i was like does he see Meira as a sister 'cause that kinda weiiiird

he doesn't see her as a sister and the age gap isn't awful (21 and 27)

but still why would you date someone with that many similarities w your sister??

im gonna let myself live in peace and not think about it

we spend most of his route in his house and we don't see him in comfy clothes??

absolute criminal behavior devs i'll see you in court

The Zhulong clan is back to steal Meira's heart!

we get to more of Moran (another doctor) and i love that for us

AND MORE YOLO LOVE HER

ALSO THIS ROUTE FINALLY BRINGS UP SOMETHING IVE THOUGHT ABOUT THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE GAME

Jay probably shouldn't be the one doing Meira’s surgery since he's so attached to her

He's the most skilled surgeon in the hospital, but he might not be able to keep his composure if something goes wrong in surgery

Meira i know you're trying to spare your potential partner by guarding your heart BUT GET UP GIRL! THAT MAN IS CLEARLY IN LOVE WITH YOU!!

THE GOOD ENDING IS SO SWEET

I WAS SO SCARED TO SEE THE BAD ENDING

and i was right to be scared BECAUSE JAY'S VA PERFORMED LIKE THE RENT WAS DUE YESTERDAY

HE WENT SO HARD AND IT HURT MY HEART SO BAAAAD

[reverseblackholeofwords]

Hi, just wanted to remind you that I still love all the ego stuff you wrote. I was a big lurker during the time you actively wrote it but dude it was so fucking good.

When I think about the egos, I mostly think about your stuff bc it made the characters come to life. It was so good. I can’t say it enough.

The stuff I’m pulling from memory rn is Anti’s time in The Forgotten. Like my bro, my dude, my homie. That shit pulled at my heart. The fact that he was only gone for like a day or smt in our dimension but he had actually been gone for like 10 years in that dimension experiencing horrors unknown. AND NOBEDY KNEW???? Good shit.

The relationship between the Host and dr. Iplier. Still one of my fav bromances. Like the trust between them and how it was made through hardships. It came to a point where Host even trusted Doc with his name??? Which gave him power over Host, something he was so afraid of. Doc made him a better man. Stopped him from being too cruel. But than he had to forget it bc he went insane. BUT BECAUSE HOST IS AN ASS, HE MADE DOC AND ANTI FORGET EVERYTHING. My guy, that’s your platonic husband and adopted son. Yes I was screaming about that. That still gets me going.

There is so much other stuff too though. Like Anti and Doc becoming family. The egos all getting closer. Phantom being an absolute menace every time he appeared. The Googles becoming more and more human over time.

You introduced me to Wiggles. Didn’t know anything about PJ before I started reading your works.

What it all boils down to, is me wanting to thank you. I don’t know how you look back on those ego stories but it got me through some dark times. You updating it always made my day better. I still carry a piece of it with me everywhere I go and has also inspired me a lot. So thank you!

Oh man, thank you so much for taking time to send this! It's honestly insanely encouraging to hear those stories stuck with you. I still love them a lot myself, cringe or no, because they're such a fun time capsule of that period in my life, and this blog and all the people who followed it (lurkers and all) also helped me get through college in one piece.

Gosh I did put Anti through so much, but in my defense, it was for character development! He and Ollie were always one of my favorite dynamics to write, personally. I mean, the computer glitch demon and the sentient android with a heart of gold? I still haven't made up something that good since. Also the Mare and Phantom dynamic, which they were always managing to screw up somehow. Unhealthy sibling dynamics are the best.

It's also insane that so much of the Host stuck with you because he was always my favorite to write and the one that felt the most like mine at the end of the day. The fact that Mark announced he'd retired him as a character and we all collectively agreed to kidnap him and give him a story is still one of this fandom's shining moments in my mind. In fact, I've kinda snagged Host for different original stories I'm writing now just because I miss writing him so much. I've also kept The Forgotten as a concept, which is definitely getting used in a setting I'm working on now because the angst potential is indeed too good to deny.

Also, while we're strolling down memory lane, what one writer gets to wipe their entire canon midway through and start over again in an alternate timeline whilst using references to the previous timeline to terrorize their readers? Ending one timeline of the blog to begin another was a wild but fascinating experiment on my part to see how I could use it to play with foreshadowing and all that jazz. Plus nothing will ever quite beat letting the audience reach into the narrative and start making their own waves from time to time.

But even though I do mostly original stories now, I'm still loving writing found families and platonic soulmates and maybe the redeeming of one or two villains, so I appreciate all the practice and the feedback I got from these stories! I'll probably keep sneaking Ego references into my stories forever. I'd also be curious to know which story arcs stuck with other people??

[bi-lullaby]

So I really loved the PJO show. I wish we get a second season, and a fourth and so on all the way through heroes of olympus because it’s just so good. If you feel like reading my (NOT spoiler free) rambles:

- Percy’s loyalty and dedication to his mom is just so integral to his character and they RESPECT THAT.

- I really like what I’ve seen mentioned about how both casting wise and storyline changes wise there have been some adaptations that were less “lol lets change it” and more to connect better with today’s audience and cultural paradigm. Like Annabeth being blonde because of the stereotype of “the dumb blonde” that was so prevalent in the era the books were released versus her being Black showcasing the extreme undermining Black women go through instead, or Luke being less 00s/10s boyband boy looking and more tiktok softboy looking now, but also Sally being less 100% perfect and more active in the story and upbringing of Percy as both a hero and a demigod and Luke being less cool and detached and more… Sweet? Emotional?

- I did feel pretty meh about a few changes: Zeus immediately accepting that Kronos is scheming and is a threat (Ik they couldn’t know if they’ll get that far but it cuts the stakes of the third book by a lot if there’s no pressing time limit to get Artemis back to Olympus to convince the Gods into action if they’ve been Doing Stuff for two years now, and even the second book loses a little in regards to the behind-the-scenes political climate that leas to it being what it was). Luke going to every length not to kill Percy is such a 180° from the books it was a little jarring and I feel it cuts out how much of a Menace he was and how bitter/jealous he was of Percy. Like we could have seen their bonding and even Luke trying to recruit him but I’d still have liked to see the scorpion scene so the betrayal and anger and wariness Percy feels is that much deeper and bitter and personal like in the books.

- I’m of two minds about the entire Gabe arch. Like on one hand I do understand toning him down (including his demise) for the public’s intended audience, I even think it kinda goes along the adapting to new times by showing that the useless, insensitive, disrespectful aspect of a bad husband is harmful just as the “darker”, more explicitly abusive/exploitative and mean drunk book version, but on the other I feel like he had such an impact on Percy in the books (he’s literally the Oracle’s “mirage” for his prophecy, he thinks of his smell in tartarus), and I really had loved the line “you’ll fail to save what matters most in the end” coming true because Sally saves herself - although the post I’ve seen about his fate showcasing how his lack of respect was his doom did make me appreciate it a little more.

- The only castings (or maybe it was the directing and styling of them more so) that I can’t really get behind are Hades and Hephaestus. Hades felt like they were going for the Disney’s Hercules comedic relief one in a slightly toned down costume. None of the gravitas and intimidation, he didn’t feel like a god at any point. And Hephaestus was just… So different. He’s supposed to be a deeply secluded, antisocial, gruffy mechanic who’s self sequestered by his inventions and forges. The show version looked like an eccentric professor more than anything imo. Which I feel could be one modern retelling of Hephaestus in another series, but isn’t the one we had and, imo, doesn’t go as well with the rest of the vibe. Which is a shame bc I do feel like Timothy could have been used in a way that would work fantastically for those vibes.

- Lin Manuel Miranda’s, acting actually shocked me. I never really had a Hamilton phase but I am on tumblr so I was expecting something cringe and honestly, I thought it was good (and to bring it back to Hades: Hermes in sweats and a hoodie actually gave me the feeling of “this is merely a cover to a deep well of power” than Hades in his suit and dark colors ever did)

- Meanwhile, perfect Ares casting. Yes this man is beefing with (and losing to) 12yos but he’s also an ancient force that revels in bloodshed and carnage.

- Annabeth from the show encapsulates the character so well while also bringing her own notes to it. Like as time went on back in my peak pjo days I felt she got “Hermionified” by the fandom too much? And I lost sight of how fond I was of her but the show (and having reread the books) really rekindled that and made me remember why she is a force to be reckoned with and also someone that must be protected at all costs. I cannot express enough how much my fondness was reignited.

- Like I feel this could be a whole post but basically I feel the books showcase the “ideal” characteristics the gods and their kids could have versus how they wind up twisted into something else (Percy’s sea-like indomitable spirit vs several of his brethren’s ruthlessness and disregard for what’s good) and Annabeth feels like, beyond amassing knowledge for it’s sake… She wants to actually Learn, and in the show maybe even to a deeper degree than in the books and it is endearing and very enthralling.

- On that note, Leah, Walker… This is supposed to be a SLOWburn goddamit. Like in the books you can see where it’s headed but in the show they have such silly crushes I can barelyy stand it. My children.

- Speaking of Walker that kid IS Percy like you cannot convince me otherwise. Disney farmed him for this role.

- I actually really loved Poseidon having a british accent? Idk, something about england and nautical exploration and it feeling older and more… Powerful? Like the ocean

- And Zeus had all the “I’m the god amongst kings and king amongst gods” that I’d have expected from him. He was crackling with power and that was beautiful to see. What a tragic loss.

- Grover is my precious child (although I do wish we had gotten the silly, goat like details of him like eating cans and making the bleating noises). And since the last book I finished rereading was the Battle of the Labyrinth (where I cried like a baby at Pan’s death) watching this sweetheart getting all excited with his literal flower searches license? Made me wanna weep.

- Overall most of my criticisms that came to mind besides the alterations I cited came from being hushed because of too few eps and those being too short. Really really hope the next season (fingers crossed) we’ll get like, 15+ eps (and/or at least longer eps) so we can really sink into the meat and potatoes of it all.

[sacredheart-stigmata]

My second confession is that what cleared the bitterness from my eyes that clouded my love for Jesus was genuinely the webcomic Homestuck.

For context if you are unaware: within the webcomic of Homestuck there is a planet called Alternia where grey skinned people with candycorn-esc horns called Trolls live, and we have 12 main characters from this planet. One of them is a boy named Karkat who is of a mutant blood color (Trolls live on a blood color based caste system of 12 11 colors. The warmer colored you are the lower you are on the caste system, but if you don't have a color on the caste system at all you are culled.)

Later in the webcomic we get to see the ancestors of these trolls, and Karkat's ancestor is known as The Signless or The Sufferer and he is quite literally Troll Jesus. The Signless was also a mutant blood and fought for equal treatment of all trolls. He was raised by essentially the troll version of the Mother Mary, he fell in love in a way that transcended definition with the troll version of Mary Magdalene. Eventually he was caught and hung in chains and executed, but his revolution never truly died.

A fan wrote what they believe The Signless' final sermon would sound like and it goes as such:

https://youtu.be/0qlfeXnIxn4?si=eCc4AhlID0UY6SqM

https://www.deviantart.com/angelfrombellow/art/The-Sufferer-s-Final-Sermon-290057407 (here is a transcript)

And I suppose some other visualizations of his life that had a severe impact on me:

https://youtu.be/kGuzNwdRVO4?si=uwYZQFI205Y8G14f

https://youtu.be/POIyGamReZ8?si=cx0jxFJWs6wrDXSN

And I guess I know it's really stupid and mega-blasphemous for my love of our Lord Jesus Christ to have been resparked by a webcomic that a lot of the internet considers deeply cringe or whatever but. I guess. It was the reframing I needed.

It was the reframing that made me look at what Jesus did through the lens of not the Lord of Our God but as a person who approached the world with Kindness and Love and Compassion. I could not love Him as an entity disconnected from humanity, some perfect being meant to die. But I can love Him as a human who loved his family and his friends and every disabled, disenfranchised, and suffering person he ever met.

Thank you for listening to my confessions I apologize for coming into your inbox as a stranger to give you confessions but I appreciate the kindness you have to let me speak.

(Disclaimer that i know quite a bit abt homestuck and have not the... nicest... view on it, due to the attitude of a few people i unfortunately knew in high school. but the actions of a handful of people from almost seven (JESUS CHRIST) years ago =/= the actions of everyone who partakes in the work or the fandom, and i will try my damnest to keep my bias out of this!)

first: not blasphemous at all to find Jesus in something other than the church-- if it was/is, then fuck me bc i only got back to the church through agreeing with my ex best friend on how awful Jesus and Christianity are where i actively lied growing up Christian and let him mock my parents' faith so he would like me. if something brings us to Jesus, then i say it's good in my book 9/10 times. If it was the re-framing you needed, im GLAD you found it!!

i also find it funny (in a good way!!!) that this brought you to my favorite part of completely real and valid church doctrine: jesus as human/divine. he's 100% BOTH, and the same time. which means he's not half-human, half-god, he IS human. completely. fully. in his totality. he's just god, too, and i love love love talking about that human side, and how it interacts with that god side. The Jesus you love is human. Jesus of Nazareth is human, is flesh, and just also is Jesus Son of God. And that human Jesus is also God the Creator that you feel disconnected from. it's so beautiful to me. It's a giant theological mess and i LOVE IT

thank you for feeling safe enough to come to me. i hope it helped in some way. god bless <3

[teethpaste]

mmm I think it may be time to dry out again. My bf met my mom/sister/sisters bf last night but the whole time I felt so off. I just kept thinking about how much I missed my dad. It didn’t really hit me till right before I was about to leave and then the reality set in that oh, this time “meeting the parents” only means meeting one. I can’t believe it’s coming up on 2 years since he died. The time around it doesn’t feel real. He died 10~ days after getting into the hospital. It all happened so suddenly. There was no lead up. I still think about that. How the doctor told me it was okay to leave and go home (4 hour drive) and then the next morning he died. Anyways. I haven’t had a scenario yet where I’ve had to face it head on in that way, it just made it so real that my dad isn’t here. He won’t be again. There are a million moments in the future that are going to feel bad like this and there’s nothing I can do to change that.

I ordered straight up scotch and my mom looked at me like ? Following the dinner I stood in the bathroom for no less than 8 minutes just staring at myself in the mirror being like DONT CRY. Our friends were going to our neighborhood bar so I decided to rally.

What followed was the consumption of 14 shots in total and 3 beers. I just kept drinking to make myself not sad. And that’s so fucking dumb. That’s not how that works. And I KNOW that’s not how it works. But I did it anyway. Then I said some embarassing cringe stuff to his friends which I regret but oh well. I’m worried one of his roomates hates me. But what else am I supposed to say outside of “woof there are so many people I don’t want to see here” and his roommate looks at me like I’m a dick. But what do you say when from one booth you can see your ex’s work wife, her younger brother that tried to slide into your DMs last month, a man you had a one night stand with, a man you dated briefly for 2 months , and a girl who you had a huge falling out with in college !

We had a bunch of people back to my apartment and I stepped outside to smoke a cigon my stoop. My neighbor, who I have yet to meet since moving in a few months back, threw open the front door and yelled at me for smoking, saying his living room smelled like cigarettes and I needed to get off the stairs. So I did move. But now I feel bad. My first instinct this morning was do I write a note? Leave a treat? I wouldn’t eat a treat from a stranger? Oh well

After everyone left I couldnt stop the bad feelings and I just started sobbing and my bf was like ?? Omg? He hasn’t seen me sad in the ~5 months we’ve dated, bc I usually do this in private, on my own terms, but he was surprisingly wildly comforting.

But he left for work at 8 am and I’m still saying in bed awake, dreading my friends birthday brunch. My head is throbbing - but not from the alcohol, from crying until 4 am. And that’s why I know I need a break bc my tolerance is way up and I should be feeling much worse.

Also love having anxiety that now I showed him too much of me and he’ll want to leave. Probably not. But that’s how it usually goes

It’s weird dating someone who is so normal and well adjusted. There isn’t the toxicity .. or mental health highs and lows I’m used to. I’m used to having a partner who is more fucked io than me. Or depressed . Or an addict. Where my behavior doesn’t compare. But now I feel like the fucked up one and I don’t like it. He deserves someone literally so nice and normal.

[polysucks]

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If you read those words and instantly began thinking of reasons why you don’t qualify as a definition of any of them, please block me immediately. more general information below the cut

i use a phrase "keep it in the smoking section" to refer to things I personally find distasteful, unappealing, or just fucking whack--it's a spectrum-- but I'm not gonna think less of you for enjoying those things. I make fun of furries, but i also draw furry art for money and I have friends who are loud and proud obnoxious fuckin furries. i still tell them im gonna beat them up for the cringe tho. nuance is alive and well in my world and everything is subjective.

cringe is dead, but we can still bully our friends over their cringe for enrichment.

I am a shitposter first, artist second, and sometimes if the moon is aligned, both simultaneously.

I write essays in the tags. peep the tags on posts if u want a little treat from me.

I keep a strict working hours schedule for my stupid mental health so if I don't answer DMs within a certain time frame, don't be alarmed.

this is not a dead dove blog, but I don't believe in censorship so you're on your own. You can find my list of consistent tags here if you're looking for what to blacklist

i'm loud and opinionated. you'll learn that I keep nothing to myself, and if i have something to say, i'll fuckin say it. no need to speculate if i like you or not, you'll know.

much like the vast majority of tumblr bloggers, my interests ebb and flow. sometimes the wind changes direction and I dust off a hyperfixation that's been sitting in the back of my mind for 10 or more years without being touched.

My current hyperfixation is A Song of Ice and Fire. Primarily the books, but also the show. you're probably here bc of my fan art. that's what I'm known most for

this is my blog and I will post whatever the fuck I want. Sometimes I post personal things on here. You can block my personal tag if you're not interested. I don't trauma dump, but I do be bitching into the void. sometimes the void answers back. as a rule of thumb, I don't vague post. like I said, if I have a problem, I'll just fuckin say it.

I don't appreciate "block and move on," I appreciate "she's bothering me. I should say something because my personal boundaries are just as important as her safe posting space." be an adult. learn to communicate. we're in this together.

[tsaritsa]

Congratulations on winning Nano!!! Any hot takes or unconventional tips on how to achieve a huuuge milestone like that in so little time?

Also, if you'd like to share, I'd love to hear more about the piece(s) you worked on during this year's event! Big yay if you want to tease us with a sneak peek as well. 🙂

Congratsss again!!!

ty!!!! i am afraid my tips might seem kind of obvious and not that much of a hot take but here's what worked for me:

writing sprints. do 10 min. do 17 min. do 30 min. whatever it is, just get words down on the page. after each sprint was finished i'd look at what i wrote, fix up the most glaring mistakes (espe if the words looked terrible. i've learned to live with a lot of spelling errors bc otherwise u waste too much time. during nano each day i'd prolly manage between 2-3 sprints -- usually enough to net me between 1000-1500 words each day. i wouldn't stop if i hit the daily total, i'd stop when i could feel the motivation waning. my lowest day was under 300 words, my biggest was just over 4000.

get a community. writing sucks alone. i feel very grateful that i've made some friends on here who were also trying to write regularly, so now there's 5 of us in a little discord i've made. we do sprints with each other and share lots of snippets, memes, pretty pictures etc. it keeps us excited about our own projects, but also allows us to cheerlead each other on.

get used to placeholders. i use TK. anytime there's a word i need but it's not on the tip of my tongue? TK my beloved. sometimes i'd write like she sighed in a TK kind of way, or like harry opens his mouth to argue about TK TK some work thing he's doing TK TK. it just keeps u in the pace of writing ur in, but allows for a few words to be spent writing down a piece that needs further expansion.

establish habits and goals. for me, it's stuff like trying to write the bulk of my writing with a nice candle lit, but also the silly stuff like putting on lippy so I feel like. Ready to do shit. have a few drinks avail. one to hydrate (ice cold) one to caffeinate (also ice cold). play music or sounds that will help u get into the zone without overly distracting. now that i've won it i'm gonna treat myself to some silly purchases as well bc i should reward myself for such hard work and dedication. i'm thinking a v comfy hoodie.

overall if i didn't have the community i had this month i think my external motivation would've been lost quickly, so find friends to yell at about ur project. watch yt videos about ppl doing writing! make posts and don't give a flying fuck about being cringe or not suiting ut 'aesthetic'. this is u. do it for U.

in terms of this project: the short version is hermione goes back to hogwarts post book 7 and has to slowly begin to recover from/learn to live with the PTSD she's gained. alas, draco is also back and she's gotta learn to make peace with the fact that he's allowed to want to change and that he's making small steps to become a better person than who he was. they're gonna kiss and be disgusting with each other. ultimately this is a story about hermione's journey, as the whole thing is written from her perspective, so although the dhr aspect is there, there are also other important relationships i want to focus on -- especially her and harry.

i'm ignoring/expanding on a lot of canon, and using some details from the movies i prefer over the books (namely her mudblood scar bc mmmmm parallels). i don't really know if anybody is in character but i don't care! this is my story and i'll do it how i see fit haha.

the following excerpt comes from late sept in the current draft. at this point dhr has been forced together a few times already. draco has surreptitiously managed to drug slughorn with a potion of his (slughorn's) own making during their potions class bc the potions professor was spending an entire lesson just showing off instead of. u know. teaching.

[rodolfoparras]

Take care of yourself first, writing can wait! I am just happy to send you my silly little drabbles and ideas because sharing them over anon is much easier.

Also I saw you mention long haired Price and as someone who absolutely adores men with long hair and falls for them always I feel uniquely qualified to offer my insight. Also long haired old metalhead dilfs are my type to the t.

I think we mentioned before on your blog how Price was definitely alternative when he was younger and I can definitely see him being your typical long haired metalhead, and I stand by the fact that he was pierced and he has old tattoos. He obviously had to cut his hair when he enlisted and although he still has same music taste, he isn't really into same style anymore.

He thinks he's too old for that (I know he's supposed to be around 37 canonically but in my head he's like mid to late 40s in main timeline) and he can't see himself growing his hair out again. Cue his boyfriend finding photos of him when John was younger and begging him to grow his hair out again. He's on the fence about it until he realises just how much his boyfriend would be into the idea.

He slowly starts growing his hair out (let's ignore military aspect for this) and maybe to make it even more interesting, either he or his boyfriend have to go on a mission and when they finally reunite, John's hair has grown and while it's not as long as it used to was, it's still kind of long and his boyfriend can't keep his hands off John.

This is also where John realized that he likes having his hair pulled because his boyfriend will just do it whenever they have sex and John melts instantly. But also the intimacy of hair washing and hair braiding??

-🔮

I appreciate you sugar thank you sm for understanding 🥹 also I wanted to say in regards to the idea u sent you should’ve posted it on ur own blog bc it’s genuinely 10/10 if you one day feel comfortable with posting ur fics and you post a price focused fic pls feel free to tag me id genuinely eat it up

*cracks knuckles* price had to cut his hair bc of the army but he also thought he just grew a tad bit old for the look but then there’ a period of time where he’s stationed somewhere for months maybe a whole year and his hair grows long enough to be tied in a bun he hasn’t had the time to cut it because where would you get your hands on scissors in the middle of nowhere and truth be told he missed his long hair he ties it up opts out of wearing buckets hats and let’s it down before bed however once he’s back home and he actually gets a proper look at himself he’s like ….. and immediately wants to cut it off but you don’t let him u beg and plead almost wrestle the scissors from him however the two of you comprise and you settle for a look where his hair is long enough to be tied into a ponytail but short enough to not have him cringing at himself and the next time he looks at himself in the mirror he actually likes what he sees even smiles at himself and you creep up behind him chin resting atop of his head saying “told you that you’re handsome” and he’s just like oh stop it

But imagine him down on his knees his hair wrapped around your wrist while he sucks your cock and he looks absolutely beautiful drool dribbling down his lips tears trickling down his cheeks and with small curls framing his face

And when it’s time to go back to base and cut his hair he discovers that having your blunt nails scratch at his scalp feels just as good as when you pull on his long hair

[fagbearentertainment]

Fnaf or undertale:

1, 9, 10, 25

1. the character everyone gets wrong

Undertale:

Chara. See the last ask I answered.

Also sans. Everyone likes to make him be all like “I know EVERYTHING and remember ALL PREVIOUS RESETS” when that just isn’t canon lol. He actually remembers the least of any main characters, he only knows the timelines are being reset bc of his lab equipment and bc he’s really good at reading facial expressions

Fnaf:

Elizabeth. At least back in the day everyone made her some entitled spoiled brat who deserved to die (she’s a child calm down) when that just isn’t what we see of her in canon. She wants to see Circus Baby despite William saying no yes but she’s also like 8 years old and William literally told her he made Baby for her, Baby looks like her for crying out loud! If I was Elizabeth I would wanna see Baby too!

9. worst part of canon

Undertale:

Oof that’s a hard one. Maybe Alphys character? She’s still good and interesting don’t get me wrong but like. Idk it’s hard to explain

Fnaf:

The lore being so convoluted. I mean I like the mystery around it but come on, at some point it stops being mysterious and just becomes Scott being a bad writer

10. worst part of fanon

Undertale:

I have multiple so buckle up

sans and chara being mortal enemies who are both somehow aware of each others existance, sans would realistically not know chara unless you think he worked with gaster (assuming gaster was around when chara was and not after or more realistically way before), but also hunt each other down in every au to try to kill each other. Chara doesn’t even canonically have the power to reset like Flowey does sans does not care about that random dead child any more than the 6 other ones that were killed

Papyrus being boiled down to “uwu pure bean must protecc.” It’s literally just infantilization of an autistic coded character. I remember a thang back in the day was him not understand sex jokes bc he was “too pure to understand” even tho Frisk, the literal child, would be shown understanding them and it still makes me mad despite being way less popular now

Same as the papyrus one but with Swap Sans. He got the same treatment bc he had the same personality as Papyrus 😔

Fnaf:

25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

Undertale:

people being weird about sans x sans shipping. Like yeah we get it, you think it’s cringe, well guess what your in the cringe selfcest fandom block the tags and get over it

Fnaf:

people being weird about shipping. Like I don’t ship anything except security breach fronnie bc it has canonical evidence but I don’t understand why everyone’s all like “EW CRINGE!!!!! KILL IT WITH FIRE!!!! WHERES THE EYE BLEACH?!?!?!” over the most tame ship art/fic I’ve ever seen

[beghar]

ok but I have a crazy story... one of his brothers... is in a relationship with this malaysian woman for an year btw and they live together who doesn't speak much english or french and they have no way of properly communicating with each other... and like idk I knew before that hus brother was dating her and this was kinda the situation before today too and when my bf had told me ab it my brain was ģoing hmmm he started telling me he loved way too soon too we met by accident and his brother and that girl did too... they also rich as fuck... so I was like... is this like a... plot? is this like a white predator family taking a poc woman 1 by 1 and gonna do some get out shit...??? I technically knew no bc like I trust my bf but also what if??? It was what if to the extent that when i saw him carrying his car tool towards me i thought he was gonna murder me and i oit loud reacted with a flnch.... anyways but before I kinda thought she must speak some english and his brother didn't come across as bad at english at first so ig they making it work?? but then today when i went to their place and tried talking to them I realised they can't actually communicate... like in that moment a couple things i was finding strange just came together... i looked once again at all the shit i had taken a note of before, saw the brother putting insane amounts of weed in giant boxes, the plushies, the expensive looking living room stuff, the pretentious cringe home sweet home shit and carpets the cat but most of all the giant fucking glass box with 6 sections filled with at least 10 turtles and i just went... she is a pinked hair asian woman who can barely communicate and he is literally the whitest richest straightest skinniest man and I was like... this is a kink relationship... I just knew it.... and the moment I realised this I was just like... this is just... kinda surreal... but even more idk like unstabalizing than a get out situation bc if that happened that's just crazy out of the world but this... this is weirdly familiar... god knows I wanted it for the longest time but... i never thought i would get so... near it in this way idk??? and then when we were going back I was like... trying to ask my bf... but I didnt even say anything and he automatically spilled it all and said he knew... apparently it was obvious that it was a "sex money thing"... but m like??? how often do u see this that it's obvious what the fuck this is some underground movie shit...???? wtf m it tripping????

[roscvcins]

get to know the mun ! repost, don’t reblog.

——— BASICS ! ♡

NICKNAME : Ro <3

PRONOUNS : She/Her

ZODIAC SIGN : Libra sun and Virgo moon, never figured out what my ascending is hhh

TAKEN OR SINGLE : single pringle not rly lookin to mingle but open to the possibilities XD

ANYTHING ELSE? : Fluent in mandarin, read mostly in mandarin, and would write in mandarin if that's easier for someone!

——— THREE SERIOUS FACTS ! ♡

I can be slow to warm up sometimes. It's not that I don't like you or I don't want to get to know you, but sometimes I get caught up in my own head regarding other people's boundaries and then I'm overly careful and come across reserved or distant. If you give me permission and assure me of that permission, I will be in your dms yapping NONSTOP.

I love pitching you aus at 2 am. Sometimes things just pop into my brain, and the later I pop into your dms the wilder the au, honestly. I've pitched people everything from slight canon alterations to straight up cyberpunk. Related to this, I also really love long-winded plotting. I like developing extended universe things and fleshing out our characters within the au or setting we have decided on.

I'm very much about matching energy and balancing what we plot. I am so very happy to fulfill your wishlist items and I hope you'd be willing to look over mine! After all, rp is all about what we want to do with our muses, both of us. It's only fun if everybody is having fun!

——— THREE RANDOM FACTS ! ♡

I have been drawing for 10 years! Well, 10 plus if you really want to count the earliest attempts, but seriously and digitally, 10 years.

I play (WILDLY HOMEBREW) dungeons and dragons and dm a (also probably wildly homebrew) call of cthulu campaign for my musical theatre groupchat. We're looking to start a (ABSOLUTELY GOING TO BE WILDLY HOEMBREW) vampire the masquerade game too but honestly we've been stuck halfway through the last dnd session for two months bc somebody had to go and now none of us have coinciding free time and at this rate we're never going to finish any of the campaigns XD

When I'm gone from dash for long periods of time, I'm most likely sewing. Hobby I picked up from the cosplay (Tm) days, which is really not surprising.

——— EXPERIENCE ! ♡

It'll be a decade officially in Jan. 2025 that I've been doing tumblr rp!

My first tumblr rp blog was in L.es M.is playing E.njolras. Historically I've written for a lot of broadway fandoms (some of which branched into classic lit and some nostalgic lit), and this particular blog that I am currently on first started as a kdrama blog, became a cdrama blog, and then took a turn straight into "obscure cnovels only Ro reads because they aren't really fully translated" land.

I was doing deviantart notes rp long before all that though. I'm from the 1v1 OCxCanon you write someone I want to write against I'll write someone you want to write against era. Not my proudest moments / best writing but...I remember having fun as a 13 year old, so really, that's all that matters, probably. If I cringe about it now maybe it's cause I'm now a killjoy adult , etc. etc.

It's really cool to me that I've got rp friendships coming up on like...8 years now. When I think about it it's crazy that it's been so long, but also it feels like time has hardly passed. If we make rp friends we'll probably be rp friends forever. People come out of the woodwork from years ago and I'll welcome them back like no time has passed. I'll probably even still remember all our plotting because I'm NOSTALGIC and I mourn my inactive comrades by rereading our old stuff.

——— MUSE PREFERENCE ! ♡

My own muse type is fragile but vicious and beautiful and venomous and overall morally gray bois who would sell you to the devil through sending you to hell by their own blades for complicated and painful likely circumstantial reasons, after much internal conflict. Conversely though, it is also genuinely Good-Hearted, understanding, sunshine (if sometimes overly mischievous) ladies who are ultimately unafraid to chase the fate they want and remain true to themselves and their values despite sometimes questioning if they're asking for too much when they stand up for themselves, putting up with a lot and having a tinge of abandonment issues.

The muse type I'm generally a sucker for across my own muses and other people's muses is tragically unhinged. I love me a tiny bit of unhinged in a character. There's so much meat to an unhinged character and a lot of juicy dimension to get into. Plenty of potential too, for basically any genre of plotting.

I find myself writing a lot of female ocs recently! Don't know if that's just how the way the plotting falls or if I'm just like...hanging on like that.

——— FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT ! ♡

FLUFF : Fluff is soul food! I love a good soft thread (especially after some heavy angst hhhh). I personally enjoy the idea of acceptance and care when it comes to fluff. There's something quietly intimate about fluff that I enjoy picking out of my threads, and I enjoy letting my muses be cared for and caring for others! There's also development to be had here tbh, and I enjoy the contrast of quieter emotions and expression.

ANGST : Angst is my bread and butter. I think I enjoy angst more than I enjoy any other genre of writing, and I have a sneaking suspicion it's about emotional intensity. I think both the hurt and the comfort come from and are big emotions, and I think development most frequently comes from big emotions. So, in general I think I tend to be able to wrangle the most development out of angst threads and therefore the most satisfaction. I'm generally not here for hurt no comfort! Though I do also sometimes enjoy killing a random character off and just...seeing how the pieces grow back together.

SMUT : I feel like I've gotten laxer/how I feel about it has changed a bit as time has passed. Reassessing, I think I'm not entirely opposed to writing smut, actually? Maybe not on tumblr though. I overthink what I post on tumblr a lot, so if I'm actually going to write smut I think it has to be somewhere I feel like it's less likely to accidentally shove it in someone's face. Also, I'd need a ridiculous amount of rapport with the other mun to feel comfortable and not super embarrassed. So! That's how that goes.

PLOT / MEMES : I'd love for it to be both, actually. I think memes can create plot hooks, and on the other hand, plotting can inspire memes. The caveat is that you have to be willing to talk about it in the end, I guess! I think having context for an idea, a verse, or something between our muses, and then sending a meme about it is like the flexibility and spontaneity we need to keep a plot fresh sometimes. Like if you've hammered out all the details, throwing a meme into it makes it a little less rigid, you know? And on the other hand, if we have no real concrete ideas for a muse relationship or plot, throwing a meme into it could spark the correct questions to ask so that we can arrive at some kind of plot, and give us some inspiration to jumpstart where we want to take a dynamic. So bottom line is: please do both! If we can talk about it and spin it out more in the end, that's all that really matters.

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[sociallyawkward--fics]

HEY BACK AGAIN. idk how long its been cuz mobile is trash but me n my friend were talking abt how we were in a lot of the same fandom spaces as kids. Sanders sides being one of them. n i was like..... Long shot but do u know sociallyawkward--fics.. n at first they were like no i dont think so.. but then they looked u up n went OH MY GOD YEA??? ill send u a screenshot off anon but i told them we were friends n they said it was like finding out i knew a celebrity LMAO -H (ironic considering theyre prob more popular on ao3 than u😭 they briefly turned back into a 12yo fanboy)

its still so crazy to me ive known u for so long n met him like 3-4 years ago worlds collide ..... Also u can post this though im off anon if u want idc -H

ALSO. since im here. idk if i ever told u my age but when i sent my first ask to u i was probably 11. maybe 10 even. im turning 18 in a couple months now. its hard to bring myself to read some of the asks (ok most of the asks) i sent u over the years bc i was an incredibly anxious and awkward autistic kid. But u always treated me with so much love hahakjs at the time i was rly struggling n had very few friends n AS MUCH AS IT MAKES ME CRINGE TO LOOK BACK ON u were honestly the only older person i could talk to n it rly meant a lot lol. im so much more confident n comfortable in myself than i was all those years ago n ik i dont send u asks nearly as frequently anymore but tbh even if eventually its only once every few years ill always think back on u so fondly n gratefully. Neway i literally hate being sappy so ill shut up here but yeah. Thanks n such -H

ALSO IDK IF UR ACTIVE ON AMY SOCIAL MEDIA RLY?? BUT IF U R I CAN GIVE U SOME OF MY SOCIALS mostly i just tweet abt my day occasionally on twitter but i also have a sideblog where i post art. just thinking that maybe then i wouldnt have to be like 'and heres a quick summary of the past 8 months' n u could check up on me whenever instead of only seeing me when i send asks😭 -H (its also so less formal cuz when i send in asks u Gotta respond whereas if i post 'just ate a kickass burger' u can just. Like it. idk idc either way but lmk ^__^)

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I'VE BEEN MEANING TO ANSWER THESE FOR MONTHS SINCE I'VE BEEN USING TUMBLR AGAIN AND MY LACK OF OBJECT PERMANENCE HAD ME KEEP FORGETTING I AM SO SORRY 😭😭😭😭

dkjfhkdhf omg that is so wild that you have a friend who also knows about me dkjfhdsf Sanders Sides (back when it was waaaaay smaller of a fandom lol) was the first (and tbh only, really) fandom where i had any real level of "popularity" as a fic writer, and i fed off that high for SO LONG lol -- hearing that people were obsessed with my work, both then and now after the fact, is genuinely so surreal dfkjhdjkfh like. i am just Here, i am just Some Dude who wrote some words that got them weirdly popular at 17-18 dkjsfhdkjfh (also cuz i try to gather all your asks into one post, you continue to remain anonymous just cuz i copy-pasted them into the post in the same order they were received lol)

Dude it is CRAZY that you are almost 18 (or, by the time i am finally managing to answer this with my Bad Brain Powers procrastinating it so long, already 18) -- I looked back and I was 18 when you sent your first ever ask to me dkjfhdf that's so wild. I am so honored that you saw me as an older person you could come and talk to, even if it was just through anonymous tumblr asks for the past 6+ years lol. I always think of you fondly too, and I am so proud of you for the way you've grown up and grown into your confidence

ALSO YOU CAN TOTALLY SEND ME YOUR SOCIAL MEDIA djfdjdsjkf you can absolutely send me any of your socials!!! I know your main blog because you've sent some asks without it (have I ever remembered to follow it??? I meant to but I can't remember, this is also a Brain Forget-y Accidental Procrastination thing), but I would LOVE to see your art sideblog and def feel free to send me your twitter!! I have not opened my twitter in like. 3 months, because i was having Unhealthy Habits so i tucked the app into a pocket out of site and stopped using it for a while, but I am doing better now and would definitely open it back up more often again to see what you were up to

Also!!! You can always feel free to DM me on any of my blogs/sideblogs here on tumblr, too! You don't have to wait to send an ask (though I love receiving asks from you, don't ever feel like you have to stop even if we connect elsewhere!), you can always DM me on any of my blogs (or on any other socials we may exchange, too!)

[namjoohyuk]

I need people on twt to be for fucking real… saying shit like bada and vata ate kai up in his own video… when no one outside of the little bubble they live in even knows who these people are 😭 nobody noticed them when they shared kai’s stage bc nobody looks past kai when he’s dancing, it’s just that simple.

Vata is just a copycat who plagiarized ateez and tried to get away with it bc they’re from a small company, and bada did that reality show and has lots of friends in the industry, but she’s def not even on the top 20 best dancers in kpop. So WHY IS THIS A TOPIC OF DISCUSSION?!

OMGGGGG TY TY TYYYY!!! I know exactly which post you’re talking about!!! it’s one where op is “SHOCKED” that kai is dancing better than the other two…

first of all uhhhh nothing to be shocked about considering kai is THEEEE dancer & forever will be the better dancer from those 3.

second, people saying they’re eating kai up are LIARS. pls no one was paying attention to these 2 backup dancers when the vid first came out 😭 if they ate, then we would have been talking about them back in 2020. i didn’t know who lee bada was back then.

idk vata but that’s nasty of him to plagiarize. & everytime i see bada dance i get so annoyed like why is she soo stiff and hunched all the time 😭 i say this as someone who watched so you think you can dance for 10 years 🤓 but fr i feel like i understand basic dancing and that’s not. she’s on my shitlist for creating the smoke challenge, never cringed as hard as i did. and she def won that comp bc she had better industry ties