#and I hate that I'm being so unrealistic with everything right now
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
the worst part of having a crush is that it makes me feel inutterably stupid at all times
#like not only bc I'm such a dumb schoolgirl about it#but also bc I SHOULD be realistic and I'm NOT being that right now#like there's VERY little chance that he even likes me back. we're only tentatively even friends#and he's going to college out of state so like#there's actually honestly no way#and YET#and I feel SO stupid anytime I think about it#like I'm not ALLOWED to say that I'm in love even though that's honestly kinda what it is#I feel SO stupid for saying that#and I hate that I'm being so unrealistic with everything right now#it makes me kind of hate myself#and actually I probably only feel like this because some stuff's come up this afternoon that has me HORRIFICALLY stressed#and frustrated just in a generalized kind of way#and I actually kind of hate everyone right now. kinda just want to be like... ANYWHERE else#idk why my day can go SO well and then as soon as my parents come home everything sucks#like I'm freaking trying to have a freaking conversation with my mom!! I just want to tell her about my day and hear about hers!!!#but my dad won't stop interrupting because he can't find stuff and he won't tell us what he's trying to find#like I keep starting a sentence and I never freaking get to finish it#I'm trying to tell my mom all about church and the sweet 12 year old who's training on the sound board!!#I'm LIKE DAD JUST EFFING TELL ME WHAT YOU'RE LOOKING FOR I PROBABLY KNOW WHERE IT IS#but he WON'T#but he still keeps interrupting to talk to mom even though he SEES me standing there trying to talk to her#I just want to cry and shout at someone but I can't#I have to do a ton of stuff before I can get away and go be alone#I'm locked in the bathroom right now bc I just blew up at one of the dogs and my sister got angry at me for it#but the dog nearly ran away and wouldn't FREAKING come when I called her and I'm just so frustrated#and I talked to my sister in law on the phone today and now I want to cry bc I miss her#anyway. I hate life rn. I'm sure in 10 minutes I'll have calmed down from my stress and will not hate it any longer#Lu rambles
17 notes
·
View notes
Text
Guilty Pleasures àŒ jjk, kth (m) | chapter iv
â Summary: Three years of being Seoul's power couple earns you nothing but a big fat divorce settlement and your face plaster on every gossip column around town. You're angry, hurt, and desperately want to move on, but worst of all? You're still in love with the man who started the whole mess, even though the most he can ever see you as is a friend. The renowned actor you've hired to be your company's new endorser seems to have a soft spot for you though. He's easy on the eyes, you'll admit, but who actually wants a divorcee like yourself? It's unrealistic really.
pairing: ex-husband ceo!jungkook x ceo!reader, actor!taehyung x ceo!reader (not poly)
genre/AU: angst, smut, fluff, loverstoexesto ?, coworkers2?, unrequited love
Word count: 11.3k
Warnings: oc and jk are both 30, Taehyung is 32, swearing, tornado of emotions (you might laugh, you might cry, and you might just wanna punch something after this chapter), morally grey characters, mentions of toxic relationships, mentions of broken home/families, mentions of therapy, struggles of self-blame, regret, guilt, denial, self-deprecation in some aspect, etc., mentions of alcohol consumption, mentions of sexism in the media and business world
playlist: Unkiss Me, Apologize, Hate That I Love You, etc.
a/n: So, elephant in the room....how did this get past 11k when other chapters are significantly shorter? Well...I had ideas? I'm sorry!! đ« ANYWAY more angst in this chapter. Sorry not sorry for what you will consume here. I honestly love this chapter so much though! Okay, I won't say any more bc spoilers are cool but not in my fic! (hehe) Enjoy! đ„°
series masterlist | next >>
Numb.
Itâs the only word you can rummage up to describe the sudden shift in your demeanor. Youâd think oneâs typical response to their ex-husbandâs drunken confession would be one of confusion, anger, hurt, or the like.
But youâve gone stone cold instead, barely able to feel the steaming hot water that kisses your skin from within the tub. The room seems to have become a bit of a haze too, your vision blurring as you grip your cell phone in your hand.
The absurdity of it allâthe man who handed you divorce papers now professing his loveâfeels like a cruel joke. The sheer impossibility of the situation is almost laughable, yet you can't even bring yourself to do that at this point. You've exhausted all of your emotional resources.
Youâre unsure how many seconds pass before his voice calls your name again.
â__? Are you still there?â His voice is a muffled echo in your mind. It sounds so far away, though you know heâs right here on the other end of the line.
"Honestly JungkookâŠI donât know what you expect me to say.â The words come out slow, measured, and almost emotionless.
There's a pause, and when he speaks again, his voice is hoarse, cracking under the weight of his confession. "I guessâI'm not sure either. But I just needed you to know. I needed to tell you everything."
âYou're drunk. You realize that, right?"
âI had a few beers, yeah," he admits. "Maybe I'm a little tipsy. But it doesnât change the fact that I havenât been able to stop thinking about you lately. I miss you, __, a lot."
The words hang in the air, and for a moment, youâre back in the past, back when those words would have meant the world to you. But now, they feel hollow, devoid of the warmth they once carried. And how can they not? You tethered yourself to your ex-husband for three years, learned his patterns, became acquainted with his needs, and danced with his indifference. In the end, the result is always the same, and this time is no different. By morning, he'll likely forget everything he's ever said to you and return to his normal habits.
You take a deep breath, your head resting on the cool porcelain tub, and close your eyes. "I canât do this," you say quietly. "Not now."
"It's late. I understand-"
"No," you interrupt, voice firmer, "you don't understand, Jungkook. You don't understand me and you never have. I'm hanging up now."
"Please don't. I know I've hurt-"
"Stop. Do you know how patronizing that sounds to me? Please don't call this number again."
"But... I love you, __," his voice is barely a whisper. "Do you not love me anymore?"
"Goodbye, Jungkook." You end the call before another word can drop from his lips, or yours for that matter. It's time you accept that you are never more than an impulsive decision, a temporary solution, and an item on his agenda. Tonight's conversation solidifies that for you.
Despite being sleep-deprived the next morning, you refuse to let fatigue keep you from fulfilling your promise to visit Taehyung at the hospital. You've been anxious about him all night, tossing and turning without respite. The weight of your ex-husband's drunken confession added to your restlessness as well. Nevertheless, you push it out of your mind as you bound out the front door.
Upon arrival, you are greeted by an abundance of flowers, cards, and thoughtful gifts scattered around Taehyungâs hospital room. One bouquet on the windowsill catches your attention in particularâits familiar scent of lavender is instantly recognizable.
âBeautiful, isnât it?â a voice says from behind you. You turn to see Dr. Min entering the room, Taehyungâs chart in hand. He seems more lively than last night, his expression noticeably brighter with a faint smile on his lips.
âYes, theyâre lovely,â you reply. âIâm guessing these are from Taehyungâs fans and colleagues?â
He nods. âIndeed. Lavender is a calming scent. Itâs no wonder people chose it for him.â The corners of his mouth lift slightly before he continues, âMy girlfriend loves it too. She says it helps her relax after a long day.â
The comment is unexpected yet sweet. You notice the suppressed grin and the warmth in his eyes easily, signaling his deep affection for her. You wonder how it must feel to love someone so purely and without restraint. Before the thought lingers, your gaze shifts involuntarily to the man on the hospital bed, still asleep. Though the bandages are gone and his breathing is stable, your concern deepens as you take in his nearly still form.
âHowâs he doing?â you ask, moving closer to his bed. Your heart tightens with each step as the cuts and burns on his face become more visible.
âHeâs lucky,â Dr. Min says, walking to the opposite side of the bed, his tone growing serious. âHe has multiple rib fractures, a mild concussion, and a few burns, but it could have been worse. Taehyung is stable now, and weâre monitoring his progress closely.â
âHow long will it take for him to heal?â
âHis face burns are only second-degree, so they should heal in a couple of weeks. The concussion should also resolve with ample rest and by avoiding strenuous activityâboth physical and mental.â
âWhich means he wonât be able to act for a while?â you ask, reading between the lines.
âAfraid not,â Dr. Min dismisses the idea. âHopefully, his projects can accommodate his absence.â
âWhat about his rib fractures? I imagine those will require the most attention.â You feel like you might be asking too many questions, knowing Dr. Min will likely need to repeat everything to Taehyung later, but you can't hold back. After all, you made a promise to yourself last night that you'd ensure he'd be alright.
âYes," Dr. Min answers carefully, "they could take up to three months to fully heal. We recommend applying ice for 20 minutes at a time, several times a day. As long as he remains stable over the next few days, he can be discharged to continue his recovery at home." He pauses, allowing you to process the information before continuing. "It's crucial that he rests. Even if he feels bursts of energy, he needs to let his body heal. Light activities like breathing exercises and short walks are fine, but he should avoid intense exercises until we give the all-clear.â
You nod thoughtfully, absorbing Dr. Minâs detailed prognosis. Taehyungâs condition sounds serious but manageable. After such a traumatic accident, it's clear he'll need months to heal. Getting him to adhere to the doctor's orders will be challenging, given his profession and active social calendar. However, if you need to be the one to remind him, you will.
âIâll make sure he follows your recommendations,â you assure Dr. Min, your voice tinged with concern.
âI have no doubt,â Dr. Min replies with a reassuring smile. âYou know, you're the first person whoâs shown up for him both last night and today. Aside from that young man who came in briefly. Namjoon, right?â
âYeah,â you respond slowly, the revelation catching you off guard. âHe works as my secretary but he's also a good friend of Taehyung's. His family really hasnât come in yet?â You circle back to Dr. Min's first point with a sense of urgency.
You wouldn't normally be this insistent on the matter; however, past conversations with Taehyung have revealed how much he cherishes his family, often sharing stories about their reunions with warmth and enthusiasm. With such a loving family, youâre taken aback that they havenât shown up yet. Then again, his accident was sudden, and there could be various reasons for their delay. Do they even know about his accident, for that matter?
âThey called, of course, but youâre the first to actually come in,â Dr. Min clarifies, his gaze thoughtful as he responds to your concern. "You must be quite an attentive boss to show this level of care for your colleague."
There's an underlying suggestiveness laced in his tone, but you're quick to brush it off, redirecting the focus to Taehyungâs condition. âItâs the least I can do, given what heâs going through,â you say, trying to sound matter-of-fact. âHeâs a valuable member of our team, and I want to make sure he gets back on his feet as soon as possible.â
Dr. Min's eyes twinkle, as if holding back further commentary. âEven from a professional standpoint, not everyone would go to such lengths for a coworker. Heâs fortunate to have you.â
You feel a slight flush as his subtle implications continue. âWell, I justâŠcare about his well-being. Besides,â you glance back at Taehyung, your expression softening more than you intend, âI know he'd do the same for me.â
For a few short breaths, Dr. Min remains silent as your attention remains fixed on your colleague. âI need to check on a few other patients so Iâll leave you two alone for now," he finally says, breaking the silence. âI'll be back to check in on him again later, but if you have any questions or need anything in the meantime, the nurse is nearby."
With a nod and a soft "thank you," you watch Dr. Min exit the room, leaving you alone with Taehyung once more. After settling into a chair beside his bed, you silently observe the steady rise and fall of his chest. The rhythmic sound of his breathing is a small comfort amidst his vulnerable state. Despite everything, you're glad he's going to be okay.
As each minute passes, nurses come and go, and the hum of activity outside the room gradually fades into a background murmur. You had only planned to stay for an hour this morning, but time seems to slip away as the clock now nears 1 p.m. You had hoped Taehyung would be awake by now, but he remains still.
After a brief sigh, the thought occurs to you that you don't have to spend so many hours here, waiting for Taehyung to wake up. It's the weekend, and there are plenty of other things you could be doing instead. Dr. Min could easily call you the moment Taehyung wakes up. But something in your conscience urges you not to leave. Just give it another hour, you think. If he isnât awake by then, you can come back tomorrow.
Suddenly, a slight movement catches your eye. Taehyung's fingers twitch, and his eyelids flutter. You nearly missed it with how lost you were in your thoughts.
Leaning forward with nervous relief, you softly call his name. It takes him a few seconds, but slowly, his eyes blink open. He turns his head slightly, gaze eventually finding yours, and you feel momentarily transfixed. It's unlike you to respond this way, but you had forgotten how piercing and comforting his eyes could be. A genuine smile immediately spreads across his face once your eyes meet, though not as boxy as usual due to his condition. Nevertheless, it's encouraging to see him awake and responsive.
âHi," his voice is strained but recognizable. "It's...nice to see you."
âThe feeling's mutual,â you respond gently. âHow are you feeling?â
He shifts slightly, wincing a bit. âLike I got hit by a truck,â he mutters. âIâm sore all over.â
âYou had a close call, but youâre in good hands now. Your doctor, Dr. Min, says you'll be okay, as long as you take it easy for a while. He was here earlier this morning, but he'll check in with you again soon.â
"You..." He hesitates, surprise flickering in his eyes. "You've been here since morning? What time is it now?"
"Oh, uh, it's around 1 in the afternoon," you say, gradually realizing the weight of your words. You consider whether or not to tell him the full extent of your stay. âI got here a few hours ago. Donât worry.â
Taehyung nods slightly, a mix of gratitude and concern evident in his expression. âThank you for being here,â he murmurs. âI wasn't sure if I'd be alone.â
A sinking feeling settles in your chest at his words, your throat tightening. Before you can ask what he means, he continues, âI must have taken a lot of your weekend from you.â His tone is apologetic, and your heart aches. Here he is, lying on a hospital bed, in pain and vulnerable, and heâs worried about inconveniencing you.
âI'm glad to be here,â you reassure gently. âI promise, youâre not alone. A lot of people care about you.â
Taehyung glances around, taking in the gifts and flowers scattered throughout the room. âFrom my fans, Iâm guessing?â he asks, attempting to keep his tone light.
âAnd your colleagues too,â you reply. âWe all want to see you get better." Taehyung returns his gaze to you, a faint smile lingering on his lips. Neither of you says anything, which unsettles you.
âDid you sleep okay?â you ask, the question coming out more hurriedly than intended.
âI drifted in and out for most of the night. Itâs hard to get comfortable,â he admits, "I think I could still hear a lot around me. It felt like someone was holding my hand for a few minutes too, but Iâm not sure how much of it was real or just dreams, though.â
Oh shit. You weren't expecting that answer.
The possibility that Taehyung might have heard you talking to him last night shouldn't be that embarrassing, yet your mind races with thoughts of what he might have heard or understood in his semi-conscious state. Not only did you share more than you probably should have, but you also touched his hand to feel his pulse, and he felt it.
âWell, um, I'm sorry to hear you had a rough night. You should rest more,â you suggest, trying to compose yourself. "I should get going anyway and let you sleep.â You begin standing from your seat but don't get far before the gentlest of touches brush against your wrist. When you look at Taehyung, he quickly retracts his fingers, concerned he overstepped.
"Shit, I'm sorry, __. I didn't mean to grab at you like that," he says softly. "It's just...would you mind staying with me a little longer, please? I'd really appreciate the company."
You can hear the yearning in his request. It's clear that he doesn't want to be alone, and you don't blame him, especially after the accident he's endured. Settling back into the chair, you agree to stay a bit longer, perhaps another half hour, before heading home; you realize you haven't eaten lunch yet.
"So, how are you doing?" he asks. "We haven't talked in bit."
His question triggers a flood of thoughts, the most recent interaction with your ex-husband being one of them. Up until now, you've managed to push his drunken call out of your mind, preferring to focus on Taehyung instead. However, Jungkook's unexpected confession still throws you for a loop. It's not that you're riddled with the need for clarity on its validity, especially since you don't believe him anyway. How could he claim to love you when he also admits he doesn't understand his own feelings? On top of that, being drunk while doing soâit doesn't make sense.
No, the real question now is what happens next. How do you proceed? Will he try to reach out again? The way he asked if you still loved him before you ended the call weighs on your mind even now.
You know you'll need to discuss this with Melody during your next therapy session.
Before you spiral further, you decide to steer the conversation away from personal matters and opt for a safer topic.
"The company is doing well," you reply with a smile. "The new campaigns we've put out recently have been pretty successful. Although," you add, a hint of curiosity in your tone, "the team has missed your frequent drop-ins, especially Namjoon." If you're honest with yourself, you've missed them too.
"How is he? Namjoon?"
"He's okay, but he's been concerned for you," you answer carefully. "When we heard the news, we came to see you together, but he was quite affected. He promised to visit once you woke up."
"So," Taehyung takes a moment to process. "That was this morning, right?"
"No, actually, it was yesterday."
There's a brief, awkward silence as you sense Taehyung might be thinking the same thing you areâabout your presence last night. Surprisingly, he doesn't bring it up. Instead, he eyes you curiously, biting down on his lip slightly.
"I meant to stop by last week," he admits. "But we were wrapping up the final scenes of my film shoots. The producers were eager to finish them. I'm just thankful we got them done. I wanted to spend a day riding my bike along a scenic route until... well, until all of this happened. I don't remember much, but I'm just grateful Tan wasn't with me."
"Tan?" you ask, curious now.
"Yeontan, my pomeranian," Taehyung explains with a soft smile. "He means the world to me. My parents take care of him when I'm busy with filming. I was actually planning to drive up and visit them this weekend. And, of course, bring Tan back home with me. They live pretty far from here, so it's better that I go up to them if I can."
Well, that answers the question about his parents not being here yet, you think to yourself.
As Taehyung speaks, you can see a flicker of fondness and relief in his eyes when he mentions his dog. It must have been months since he last saw him.
"I bet you miss him a lot," you comment softly, "Tan."
"I do," he admits with a slight smile, "but I know he's being well taken care of. Hopefully, I can see him soon. And my parents too."
"I understand that feeling," you reply, nodding thoughtfully. "Pets have a way of becoming family, don't they? I had a cat named Evie when I was growing up. She was a feisty little thing with green eyes, always getting into mischief. We got her from the streets and she was so slim, but it didn't take her long to beef up with all the treats we gave her. Whenever I was feeling down, she would curl up next to me, as if she knew. It's funny how they have that kind of intuition, isn't it?"
Taehyung listens intently, a small smile playing on his lips. You feel a slight flush of embarrassment at your tangent. It's one of the few times you've shared something personal about yourself that wasn't work-related. Feeling like you might have overshared, you decide to stop, assuming Taehyung isn't interested in knowing that much.
You chuckle inwardly at yourself.
Jungkook was your husband for three years, and he never seemed to care about such personal details.
Iâ" you start, intending to apologize, but Taehyung interrupts.
"Did you have any other pets?" he asks, curiosity piqued.
You chuckle softly, reminiscing. "Yeah, we had... uh, god, you don't want to know how many pets we had."
"Try me," his eyes become playful, yet there's a seriousness behind them, like he really wants to know. It's unfamiliar.
"Alright," you chuckle, "aside from Evie, there were three other cats. Calvin and Misha were the adventurous ones, always climbing trees, while Pip was the cuddly lap cat. Then there were two dogs: Toby, our sneaky Chihuahua, and Bella, a terrier who growled at everyone. Oh, and we had three rabbits too. Cute, but also feisty."
Taehyung laughs, "I sense a theme going on."
"What theme?"
"Well," he grins, "It seems like your household was filled with some strong main characters."
You chuckle at his joke. "Yeah, our house was never quiet, that's for sure. Each one had their own personality and quirks."
"You don't have any now though? Pets, I mean," Taehyung asks.
"Sadly, I don't," you reply with a hint of regret. "The company takes up a lot of my time, and I don't think it would be right to leave a pet alone for extended periods. I might consider getting another cat, but right now, focusing on running the company leaves me with little spare time. I miss having them around though."
Taehyung mulls over your word carefully. âIf I ever get out of this hospital...maybe Iââ
Before he has the chance to finish, the hospital room door opens, and Dr. Min enters, his expression serious yet composed. His eyes widen slightly in surprise, not expecting to see you still here and Taehyung awake. âIâm sorry to interrupt,â he begins, glancing between you and his patient. âItâs good to see you up and looking a bit better."
Dr. Min approaches Taehyung's side, opposite to you. âHow are you feeling?â he asks.
Taehyung's demeanor shifts instantly, his playful expression fading as he turns to answer. âPretty sore, honestly,â he replies.
Dr. Min nods. âLetâs run a few checks to see how youâre doing.â
Sensing this is your cue to leave, you rise from your chair and reach out to touch Taehyung's hand. But you stop yourself short. Something about performing the physical action while heâs fully conscious instills a flutter of nerves within you. Instead, you gently tap his shoulder, causing him to meet your eyes. âI think I'll be going now, but it was nice talking to you,â you say softly. "Was there something you wanted to say earlier, though?"
He pauses for a moment before replying, his expression reminiscent of the time a few weeks ago when you declined his dinner invitation. You still donât understand why he seemed somewhat disappointed; it's not like it was a date. He had made it clear he wanted to go out as colleagues. The only reason you declined was because you didnât want him feeling pity for you, or the struggles that came with the divorce.
"It's okay, we'll have to save that conversation for another time," Taehyung's voice brings you back to the present. "Enjoy the rest of your day, __. Thanks again for staying with me."
"Of course," you reply, then turn to Dr. Min. "If you wouldn't mind letting me know when and if he can be discharged, I'd appreciate it. And Kim Namjoon too, since we're both nearby." Dr. Min nods in agreement. With that, you sling your bag over your shoulder and exit the room.
âHe said what?!â Your best friend Jimin almost shouts through the video call, eyes wide with disbelief. Youâve just finished recounting your ex-husband's unexpected, drunken confession from the previous night. Jimin, who already holds a deep-seated grudge against Jungkook, looks livid.
âHe had the nerve to say that to you? While he was drunk?â Jimin continues, his hands clenching into fists.
You nod, feeling a mixture of frustration and exhaustion. âYeah, I told him not to call my number again and he hasn't contacted me since.â As expected, he likely forgot all about it.
âGood,â Jimin declares with a fierce protectiveness, his tone leaving no room for doubt. âYou donât need that kind of drama in your life, especially not from him. And if he even thinks about calling you again, just say the word, and I'll come down there and handle it personally.â He emphasizes 'personally' with such intensity that it makes you giggle for the first time tonight.
âThanks, Jimin,â you say, a warm feeling spreading through you at his unwavering support. âIâm just trying to move on, focus on work, and other things.â
Jiminâs expression softens, and he nods firmly. âYou're incredibly strong, __. Are you really okay though? It was a huge blow for him to make a confession like that and even though I dislike him, I know you still have some lingering feelings for him. I'm not a fool to believe you're unaffected.â
You take a deep breath, appreciating your best friend's perceptiveness. âItâs complicated. Iâm trying so hard to move past everything, especially with Melody's help, and then he justâŠthrows that at me. Itâs like heâs trying to pull me back into his mess.â
Jiminâs eyes are filled with concern. âYou donât owe him anything. Remember that. He made his choices, and you have every right to move on without his baggage.â
âI know,â you sigh, rubbing your temples. âItâs justâŠeasier said than done. But Iâm working on it.â
âYouâre doing great,â Jimin reassures, his voice gentle. âAnd you have every right to focus on yourself now. Donât let him mess with your head.â
You nod, feeling a bit lighter with the support. âThanks, I needed to hear that.â
âI'm always here for you love,â he says, his protective demeanor softening into a warm smile. âNow, enough about that idiot. Howâs everything else? Work? Taehyung? Everyone at the office is talking about his unfortunate accident, poor sucker.â
At the mention of your colleague, you feel a sudden heat rise to your cheeks. Did the heaters in your apartment just turn up or something?
âHeâs slowly recovering," you answer. "I saw him this morning and we talked for a bit. Heâs... heâs been through a lot.â
Jimin raises an eyebrow, âYou saw him yesterday too, right? And if my memory serves, you were at the hospital with him until the afternoon. I remember I texted you to see if you were free to call earlier than planned. Something you'd like to tell me?â A teasing grin suddenly spreads across his face, and you shake your head, knowing exactly what he's insinuating. It's like talking to Dr. Min all over again.
âSeriously, Chim, no, it's not like that," you deny instantly, heart racing a little. "He's been my company endorser for a little over six months now, and heâs been nothing but kind to me. With everything heâs been through, I just want to make sure he'll be okay. I feel somewhat responsible for him. Maybe I'm crazy.â
âResponsibility, huh?â Jimin smirks, unconvinced of your denial. âSure. Because âresponsibilityâ usually makes people blush.â
You wave off his suspicions, a nervous chuckle escaping you. âIâm not, so if you wouldn't mind ceasing your teasing, that'd be great."
âOkay, okay,â Jimin chuckles, raising his hands in mock surrender. âBut if you ask me, it sounds like more than just responsibility. Taehyung seems like a sweet guy, and you care about him. And I sense he feels the same way about you. Don't think I forgot about his little dinner request weeks back.â
You chuckle, brushing off his suspicions. âOh, come on, enough. Believing that Kim Taehyung has any kind of interest in me is like believing that Jungkook loves me. Itâs unfathomable. Taehyung's a colleague, thatâs all.â
âOkay, excuse me? Unfathomable?â he scoffs, shaking his head. âSomeone help! My best friend is selling themselves short, again. __, youâre amazing, and anyone, including Taehyung, would be lucky to have you. That ex-husband of yours was an idiot, but just because he couldn't see what he had doesnât mean others canât.â
You roll your eyes playfully, but Jiminâs words hit a soft spot. âChim, you're sweet, but I'm just saying that Taehyung is on a completely different level. Iâm just me... a 30-year-old divorcee with a half-decent startup.â Those alone are enough to have any man steer clear of you.
âStop this, __. You're much more than that, and it's pretty damn incredible,â Jimin insists, his voice firm. âYouâve been through so much, and youâre still standing. Thatâs not something to brush off. Taehyung sees that. Anyone with half a brain can see that.â
You sigh, feeling a mixture of gratitude and skepticism. âI appreciate it, Chim. But letâs just drop it, please?â
âAlright, I won't push it," he concedes gently, "just know Iâm here whenever you need.â
âThanks, Jimin,â you reply, feeling a warmth in your heart. âI donât know what Iâd do without you.â
âProbably explode from all that bottled-up stress,â he jokes, making you laugh again. âBut seriously, youâre doing great. Just keep taking it one step at a time, and call me if you need anything!â
As the call ends, youâre left with a lot to think about. Jiminâs words echo in your mind, and for a brief second, you find yourself wondering if maybe your best friend is rightâthat perhaps you do care about your colleague more than youâre willing to admit.
Well, either way, it doesn't matter; you've got enough on your plate as it is.
Starting with the stack of papers laid out on the coffee table, work you brought home that's awaiting your attention. It's a critical deal for your startup, one that could secure much-needed funding and propel your business to the next level.
Sighing softly, you reach for your laptop and open the latest project proposal.
You start your Sunday as you always do, with a book in hand, heading to your favorite cafĂ©. Itâs a ritual thatâs been with you since your teenage years, and today, you feel a desperate need for its familiar comfort. After wrapping up the project proposal late into the night, your brain craved a break.
Entering the quaint cafĂ©, youâre greeted by the comforting aroma of freshly brewed coffee and the soft murmur of conversation. Finding a cozy spot by the large window, you settle in for a day of reading, occasionally looking up to observe people passing by outside.
Hours slip away unnoticed in the serene atmosphere, lost in the pages of your book. Somewhere along the way, mid-sentence, your thoughts subconsciously drift to a conversation with Taehyung weeks before his accidentâthe day of your six-month anniversary.
You remember how he mentioned his interest in books that day, leaving you curious about what he enjoys reading. You imagine he might be into classic authors like Charles Dickens or Oscar Wilde. Then again, you might be mistaken.
Refocusing on your book, you manage to read another paragraph before thoughts of Taehyung intrude again. Did he have any company today? You quietly hope Namjoon paid him a visit. "Okay, __, calm down," you tell yourself, "Taehyung will be fine, and Namjoon definitely would have visited him now that he's awake." With a determined effort, you return to your book.
It isn't until the sun begins its descent that you decide it's time to pack up your things and head home. Passing by the hospital on your way, a sense of restlessness tugs at you once more. Should you stop and see Taehyung, even if only for a few minutes? The thought lingers, but then you recall Dr. Min's pending update on his discharge status. Maybe it's best to wait for his confirmation.
You continue driving, but the concern refuses to leave your mind. Eventually, you make a decisive turn, heading back towards the hospital. It wouldn't be as lengthy as last timeâjust a quick visit to check on how he's doing.
When you arrive at the hospital, you hesitate for a moment outside the entrance. It's Sunday evening, and visiting hours are likely limited. You check your phone quickly to see if Dr. Min has sent any updates, but there's nothing new.
Taking a deep breath, you decide to go in anyway.
Taehyung is awake when the nurse leads you to his room, casually flipping through a magazine. He looks up, his expression softening into a smile upon seeing you.
"Hey," you say softly, stepping inside. "I was in the neighborhood and thought I'd stop by. I hope it's okay."
"It's more than okay," he replies warmly, setting the magazine aside. "I'm happy to see you."
You nod, feeling relieved that he isn't disturbed by your presence.
"Though, in all honesty," he continues, "I didn't expect you back today."
"I just wanted to check on you and make sure you're okay," you admit quietly, taking a seat nearby. "How are you feeling?"
"I'm better, just a bit sore still," he says sincerely, his gaze meeting yours. "What about you? How's your Sunday been?"
"Quiet," you respond with a small smile. "Spent most of it reading at a café, and then decided to stop by here."
"Really?" His interest piqued, he asks, "Which one? Sometimes I do the same thing when I have some free time. Or, I'll read at the beach too. It's relaxing."
"Well, have you tried the one on Willow Street? I've been a regular there since I was 16."
"No... I'm not familiar with that one," he admits, "I usually go to the one on 5th."
"5th? You know, I don't recall a café on 5th, unless..." you pause, realization dawning, "oh no," you blurt out unintentionally.
"What?" Taehyung's eyes twinkle with amusement at your spontaneous reaction. "Have you been?"
You hesitate to answer, not wanting to risk offending him.
"Yes..."
"And?" Crap, you were hoping he wouldn't ask for details.
"Um... it's okay," you reply simply.
"What? Just okay?" Taehyung exclaims, feigning offense. "Their coffee and tea are decent, and they have those comfy armchairs by the window."
"I know, but there's just something about it," you reply with a playful shrug. "Maybe it's the lighting, or maybe I'm just picky."
"Fair enough," he chuckles. "Maybe I'll check out this Willow Street café sometime. You've been going there for years, so it must be good."
"Well, I highly recommend it." You can't help but feel a bit smug, though you try to keep a straight face. It's just nice to have someone take your suggestion seriously. "You'll have to tell me your review of the place if you go."
Taehyung nods thoughtfully in reply, his gaze lingering on you with a hint of admiration. You look away, pretending to straighten your jacket. Why is he staring like that? You're not used to being looked at without some sense of hostility.
Just as you begin to feel a bit awkward, the door swings open, and a nurse peeks inside.
"Sorry to interrupt," she says kindly, "but visiting hours are over for the evening."
You glance at your watch, surprised at how quickly time has flown. "Oh, okay," you reply, a touch disappointed. "I'll be heading out then, thank you."
Once the nurse leaves, you direct your focus back to Taehyung. He smiles understandingly, sitting up a bit straighter. "Thanks for stopping by," he says warmly.
"Yeah, of course," you reply, gathering your things. "Did Dr. Min mention having you discharged any time soon?"
He shakes his head. "Nothing yet. Might be here for a couple more days."
You nod, feeling sympathy for his extended stay. "Well, take care of yourself, okay? Let me know if you need anything."
"I will," Taehyung assures you with a grateful smile. He watches as you make your way to the door, but just before you can twist the metal knob, he speaks up agian. "Uhm...if you have time tomorrow, I wouldn't mind if you came in again. It was nice to...chat."
For the first time, Taehyung seems to stumble over his words. As someone who's naturally charismatic, not to mention a skilled actor, there's a hint of nervousness in his voice.
When you turn your head to glance back at him, his smile has faded, replaced by a hopeful look, hands gently clutching the blankets.
"Sure," you agree to his innocent request, somehow unable to resist. "I'll try to stop in tomorrow if I can."
His boxy smile returns instantly as he bids you one final goodnight.
As you walk out of the room, that same smile lingers in your mindâyou're glad you decided to come by.
In the days that follow, you find yourself at Taehyung's hospital bed every evening after work. Initially fulfilling his wishes, you gradually realize you've grown fond of his company. Taehyung turns out to be easy to talk to, a good listener who encourages questions you wouldn't normally ask within office walls. Here you are again, immersed in yet another spontaneous conversation that neither of you minds.
"So, what's it really like?" you inquire, curiosity lacing your voice. "Being an actor? And what about kissing strangers? I've heard some co-stars end up together after playing an onscreen couple for so long."
Taehyung chuckles softly, his eyes crinkling with amusement. "Being an actor is both exhilarating and challenging," he begins, reflecting on his experiences. "Kissing scenes... well, they're not as glamorous as they seem on screen. There are a lot of technical aspects to consider, like camera angles and timing. As for getting involved with co-stars outside of filming, I wouldn't be familiar with that. I prefer to keep those lines pretty separate."
You listen intently, fascinated by his insights into a world so different from your own. But one thing sticks out to youâhow does he handle kissing scenes if he were to be in a relationship? Wouldn't that get complicated?
"I often wonder what I'd do if I had a partner," Taehyung muses suddenly, his voice thoughtful, as if sensing your unspoken question. "About the kiss scenes, I mean. I haven't actually dated for a while." Really? You think, he cant be serious...
"I'd imagine they'd be understanding since it's part of the job," you offer, trying to match his contemplative tone.
"Is that how you'd respond?" Taehyung's question catches you off guard.
"Me?" you ask, feeling slightly dumbfounded.
"Yeah, I'm just curious. Would you be okay with that?"
"Uhm... well, honestly, probably not," you admit, feeling a bit awkward. "I think I'd have a hard time wrapping my mind around it. I'd kind of feel like I was sharing my partner. I don't want to share like that."
Shut up, shut up, shut up, you mentally chastise yourself. You definitely said too much.
To your surprise, Taehyung merely gives a small smile in response. "I think I'd feel the same," he says softly.
The subject ends there, as the conversation soon shifts to his latest project insteadâa romantic comedy series titled with a playful nod to a four-leaf clover.
"You know, I've never seen a four-leaf clover in my life," you admit with a slight chuckle.
Taehyung laughs softly, his eyes brightening. "Really? They're supposed to bring good luck, you know."
"Good luck, huh? I guess I've never had the pleasure," you replied with a grin.
"Well, then it's settled," he declared with a playful glint in his eyes. "I'll find one for you once I'm out of here," he promises warmly.
You smile, exchanging a silent moment before hitting him with your next question. "Do you watch your own shows or movies?" you ask, genuinely curious.
Taehyung's expression shifts subtly, his gaze momentarily distant. "Honestly, I don't," he admits, his tone tinged with a hint of embarrassment. "I guess I've always felt a bit awkward seeing myself on screen. It's strange, right?"
You reassure him with a smile. "It's not so far-fetched, but I don't think there's anything to be embarrassed about. You're talented, Taehyung. I'm sure your performances are amazing."
Taehyung nods thoughtfully but then quirks an eyebrow at you. "But have you actually seen any of my work? It's a little cheesy."
You hesitate, feeling a touch sheepish. "Honestly, no," you confess. "I've never watched any of your shows or movies. But I will!"
A flicker of déjà vu crosses Taehyung's face, his expression turning thoughtful. "That's funny," he murmurs. "I feel like I've heard those exact words before, recently."
You chuckle nervously, trying to lighten the mood. He can't be referring to that night you spoke to him while he was asleep, right? "Maybe it's just a sign that I need to catch up on all the great acting I've been missing out on," you quip, hoping to diffuse any awkwardness.
Taehyung grins, his playful demeanor returning. "Well, I'll hold you to that. You'll have to give me your honest review."
"Deal," you agree with a nod. "So, as much as I hate to cut this short, I think I'm going to have to get going now."
"I understand, it's past 6:30 pm. See you tomorrow?"
"Sure thing," you reply warmly. "Get some rest."
By Thursday afternoon, you finally receive the long-awaited call from Dr. Min, informing you that Taehyung will be discharged the next morning. You're relieved that Taehyung is healthy enough to continue his recovery at home. Seeing him yesterday, he looked the best he's been since his accident. However, a small part of you feels annoyed that Dr. Min didn't call youâhe called Namjoon instead.
It was an ordinary afternoon when your secretary's phone rang. Namjoon was crouched over at his desk, concentrating on a number of spreadsheets just moments before. You remember leaping over to him as soon as you heard the words, "he's ready for discharge tomorrow," leave his lips.
It's now Friday morning, and you're standing in front of your secretary's desk.
"So, you're off to pick up Taehyung now?" you ask, as casually as you can. You do your best to ignore the lingering irritation growing inside you.
"Yeah," your secretary finally replies, glancing up from his screen. "I'll drive over to the hospital in about half an hour."
"Okay." You nod, biting your tongue. So what if Namjoon gets to pick him up instead of you? It's fine, you should get over it.
It's just a little odd that Dr. Min chose to call Namjoon instead of you though. You know for a fact you've been much more involved with Taehyung's well-being than he has.
Of course, Taehyung and Namjoon are good friends, but your secretary has only gone to see him twice over the past week his buddy's been in the hospital. You've been there every day, so wouldn't it make sense that you be called first?
Evidently not.
Namjoon will be taking Taehyung home, and you likely won't be seeing him at all today. In fact, you're not even sure when you'll see him next. Technically, you have his address stored away in an HR file, but you're no creep. And you most certainly are not about to show up at his place unannounced.
It's not like Taehyung has texted you today either. Not even a quick update on his condition.
"Um..." Namjoon starts, shifting awkwardly in his chair. "Is there something else you wanted to say? I feel like you're kinda hovering over me now, to be quite honest."
"Oh, sorry," you respond, stepping back a bit. You didn't realize you were staring at him, wordless, for longer than normal. "Nothing else. Drive safe."
As if seeing right through you, Namjoon's expression softens. "If you want to see how Taehyung is, you can just text him. I'm sure he'll respond to you."
"No, it's okay," you quickly dismiss the suggestion. You don't want to bombard a man who's just getting out of the hospital with your texts. You'll leave him alone to rest.
Namjoon gives you a knowing look, eyeing your slightly hesitant state. "I'm serious, boss. Text him. You've been at his side this entire week, so if there's anyone who'd be more deserving of knowing what's up, itâd be you."
Deserving? That's a bit far, is it not? Yes, you've been visiting him, but it's not like you saved his life or anything. It's not that big of a deal. You just wanted to...make sure he was okay.
"IâWhen did you decide to call me boss again?" you switch subjects, but Namjoon remains unaffected.
"Text him," Namjoon says for the final time before reaching for his keys in his desk drawer. "I gotta get going, but I'll be back after I drop Tae off."
"Tae?" You haven't heard him called that before.
"Yeah, it's kinda a pet name. Sorry, I started calling him that once we became friends, so it slips out here and there. It's like second nature now."
"Got it," you nod, a bit disappointed. Maybe you weren't as close to Taehyung as you thought. "Make sure he gets home okay," you finish.
"I will." Namjoon gets up from his desk and heads out of the office. You turn around and return to your own office once he's out of sight.
While Namjoon is out, his phone rings incessantly. You find yourself getting up from your desk multiple times to take calls. By the afternoon, you're exhausted from the constant interruptions.
Maybe you should consider giving the poor man a raise.
Before the thought fully develops, his phone rings again. You don't even bother checking the caller ID anymore; you simply pick up the phone and answer in your sweetest voice.
"__? I thought Iâd be hearing Namjoon first... hey," his voice is hesitant. "I hope Iâm not interrupting anything."
"Jungkook," you reply cautiously, instantly recognizing his voice. "Why are you calling my work phone?"
"I... I didn't know how else to reach you. Can I come in or can you come into the parking lot? I have something to give you."
You pause, feeling a rush of unease. You havenât spoken to Jungkook since last Friday when he called you out of the blue. Honestly, you hoped you wouldnât hear from him, especially after telling him not to call again. It's strange that he keeps finding ways to show up unexpectedly.
"What is it you need to give me, Jungkook?" you ask bluntly, "I'm very busy."
Thereâs a brief silence on the other end before he answers, "Itâs... Itâs something personal. Iâd rather not discuss it over the phone. Please, can you just come down for a moment?"
You weigh your options, torn between curiosity and apprehension. His unpredictability lately has left you unsure of what to expect. "Jungkook, I really donât thinkâ"
"Please," he interrupts, his voice sounding more urgent. "I promise it wonât take long."
Taking a deep breath, you decide to handle this with as much grace as you can muster. "Fine. Iâll be down in a minute."
You end the call and sit back, trying to steady your thoughts. His sudden request feels odd, and part of you worries about what he might say or do next. As you make your way to the parking lot, you mentally prepare yourself for another potentially difficult encounter.
When you arrive, Jungkook stands near his car, nervously shifting his weight from one foot to the other. His usual confident demeanor seems replaced by a sense of unease.
"Hey," he starts, his voice tentative, "thanks for agreeing to meet."
You give a brief nod, keeping your tone neutral. "Yeah, sure. What's up?"
Jungkook shifts awkwardly, his gaze dropping momentarily before meeting yours. "I wanted to apologize," he continues, his voice tinged with regret. "I'm sorry for calling you up drunk."
You feel a flicker of irritation. This is what he wanted to give you? An apology that's seven days late? You figured he would have just forgone the apology by now.
"Why now?" you ask, crossing your arms over your chest, a defense mechanism you've developed. "It's been a week. Iâm not sure if you realize that or not though."
"I know," he says quickly, his eyes earnest. "I wanted to come sooner, but I wasn't sure if you'd want to see me or just never hear from me again."
You scoff slightly, "Well, for the first time, you are completely right. I don't want to see you, Jungkook." You try to keep your voice steady, but the raw edges of your emotions bleed through. Thereâs no point sugarcoating it at this stage; heâll just keep pushing your boundaries if you donât become firm with him.
He winces at your words, nodding slowly. "You have every right to feel that way. I messed up, big time. I just wanted you to know that I'm truly sorry. You deserve someone who isn't as screwed up as I am. But I still mean everything I said that night. I do love you. It took me until now to realize that, apparently."
You sigh, the weight of his words pressing down on you. Love? Now? After everything? Somehow, it feels more like a burden than anything.
"Jungkook, love isn't a get-out-of-jail-free card," you say slowly, your voice somewhat shaky. "It's not something you can just throw out there to fix things. Not only did you divorce me, but you also led me to believe we could actually be something. All those weeks of you being attentive and showing up for me after I shared my feelings made me believe that you were honestly trying to make our marriage work, that you were committed. You lied to me, discarded me, and now that I'm not around, you suddenly miss me? No, I'm sorry. You broke my trust, and that's not something you can just apologize away."
You pause, feeling the weight of your words settle in the tense air between you and Jungkook.
He looks down, nodding again. "I get it. I really do. And I don't expect you to forgive me or anything. I just wanted you to know that I understand how much I hurt you, and I'm sorry. I understand if you hate me."
You take a moment to collect your thoughts, trying to keep your voice steady despite the emotions threatening to stir inside. "Jungkook," you begin carefully, meeting his eyes. "What happened between us was painful. You calling me drunk last week was also painful. I'm sorry about the challenges you had with your parents, but it's no excuse to put that on others. If you need someone to discuss personal matters with, I suggest you see a professional."
You pause, taking a deep breath before continuing.
"I don't hate you, okay? I'm not that cold-hearted. There's still part of me that I think might always hold space for you, but I can't just forget everything. I need to move on, and that means you can't keep calling me at random times. Itâs not fair to either of us. I appreciate the apology, but I don't think we can go much further."
He nods solemnly, understanding your stance. "Okay," Jungkook replies softly, his voice filled with a sadness you hadnât expected. "I understand. I'll respect your wishes and leave you alone. Take care of yourself, okay? I...I want you to be happy, even if itâs not with me," he says, his eyes earnest. "And... I'm really sorry for everything."
He begins to back away toward his car, and as he does, it hits youâitâs over.
"Take care, Jungkook," you say gently. "Don't overwork yourself, alright? Stay healthy."
He looks at you, forcing a smile. "You know I can't do that. It isn't in my blood." He sings the last part, referencing a song you both used to joke about, and you let out a small chuckle despite yourself.
"God, Jeon, I thought you'd stop with that song by now." you say, shaking your head.
"Nah," he replies, shaking his head with a faint grin as he opens his car door. "I'm taking it to my grave. I'll see you later, __."
You know the last part is a lie, an empty promise to soften the blow. Still, you respond, "Yeah, see you."
With that, you part ways in the parking lot, each going your separate ways. As you walk back to your office, the weight of the finality settles in. It's all over, you think, feeling the sting of a single tear trailing down your cheek. Unbeknownst to you, a similar tear streams down Jungkook's face as he drives away, each tear falling for completely different reasons.
Two weeks pass, and Jungkook keeps his word. He hasnât called, texted, or shown up at your work. Itâs as if heâs become a stranger, someone you once knew but is now part of a distant past.
Your days begin to regain a sense of normalcy. The emotional weight of the past few months slowly starts to lift, allowing you to refocus on your work and personal well-being. The company demands your attention, and you dive into projects, meetings, and strategies with a renewed energy.
Yet, despite the return to routine, there's a persistent sense of something missing. You havenât talked to Taehyung at all since he got discharged from the hospital. You havenât seen him either, and the silence pulls at you more each day.
Every time you try to get information about him from Namjoon, he gives you the same response: "Just text him. Donât overthink it; heâll be glad to hear from you." Once, you sensed that Namjoon wanted to say more but stopped himself short, making the excuse that it wasnât for him to say. Whatever that meant.
Youâre on your way home from running errands when the thought enters your mind for the umpteenth time: should you text Taehyung?
Youâre torn between respecting his privacy and wanting to check in on him. He hasnât reached out, so maybe heâs trying to distance himself or just needs time to recover alone, now that heâs in the comfort of his own home. On the other hand, you canât shake the feeling that checking in would be the right thing to do.
As you approach your apartment building, you pull over into a quiet parking spot, letting your car idle. Gripping your phone, you take a deep breath and finally decide to text him.
You: Hey, Taehyung. I hope youâre doing well. Just wanted to check in and see how youâre feeling. Let me know if you need anything. We still miss you at the office!
You stare at the message for a moment before hitting send. The butterflies in your stomach flutter as you wait. What if he doesnât respond? What if he doesn't want to hear from you?
You end up deleting the message entirely.
Forget it, you think, if he wanted to hear from you he would have texted by now, right? Just leave it alone. You said you'd support him while he was in the hospital and you did. Now he needs his space to finish healing. He'll reach out when he's ready.
Your phone buzzes the next minute, snapping you out of your thoughts. You glance at it, half hoping that Taehyung was secretly telepathic. But it isnât from him. Instead, itâs a notification from a friend inviting you to a small get-together this coming weekend.
Smiling, you accept the invitation.
Turns out your friend's get-together was a singles mixer. Unsurprisingly, you weren't approached much, if at all. It seemed the men were either too nervous, still associating you with your ex-husband, or not quite into accomplished women. That didn't stop them from ogling you, though, as your friend insisted that you dress for the affair. You didn't choose anything flashy, but it was certainly flattering.
Leaving without a phone number didn't bother you, though. At thirty years old, most of the people were younger than you, including your friend who was a couple of years younger. Plus, you found your mind often wandering to the one man you hadn't heard from in nearly three weeksâKim Taehyung. Should you stop overthinking and finally listen to Namjoon's suggestion? Maybe it's time to contact him.
Lost in thought on your drive home, you snap back to reality when you slam on the brakes at a sudden red light. Damn, you hadn't noticed it change so quickly. Shaking off any lingering daze, you refocus and spot a man crossing the street ahead, a little dog trotting beside him on a leash.
"Taehyung," you whisper to yourself. "What is he doing out here, especially on this slipperâshit!"
Your heart skips a beat as Taehyung stumbles on the ice, struggling to keep his balance. Concerned, you pull up to the side of the road as soon as the light turns green, parking quickly and jumping out of your car to rush over to him. He leans against a brick building, his dog, Tan, yelping at your approach. Cute little guy, but you're focus is on Taehyung.
"Damn," he mutters, trying to steady himself. His eyes widen when he catches sight of you. "__, Iâ" he begins.
"What are you doing, Kim Taehyung?" you scold gently. "Are you trying to hurt yourself again?"
Taehyung meets your gaze, his Gucci scarf wrapped snugly around his neck. "No," he replies earnestly. "I just needed some fresh air. It's been nearly three weeks since I was discharged, and Dr. Min said short walks with Tan are okay now. My parents were here for a while, but they left this weekend."
His explanation sinks in as you take in his appearance. Despite the chill in the air, he looks better than the last time you saw him. His cheeks are slightly flushed from the cold, and there's a determination in his eyes that wasn't there before.
"You should be more careful," you reply softly, stepping closer to him. Tan, sensing the shift in attention, continues to bark happily, tail wagging. "Are you okay? My car is right here, if you need me to take you home or anything."
Taehyung nods, a small smile playing on his lips. "I know, I know. Sorry for worrying you." He gestures to Tan, who is now circling around your legs in excitement. "Tan here doesn't seem to mind the ice at all, and surprisingly, he doesn't mind you either."
You chuckle softly, crouching down to pet the little dog. "Is he usually this friendly?"
"Not at first, no," Taehyung replies, his tone lighter now. He glances down at you, his eyes softening. "I'm glad I ran into you, though. It's been...a while."
You nod, standing to your feet. "It has. I'm glad to see you're doing better."
"I am," he affirms, his gaze steady on yours. "Thanks to you, mostly. You were there for me when I needed it the most."
"Oh, come on," you say, waving off the comment. "I didn't do that much."
Taehyung's smile widens, a hint of amusement in his eyes. "You did more than you realize."
You feel a slight blush creeping up your cheeks at his words, but you maintain eye contact, appreciating the warmth in his gaze. The longer you stand there, staring at each other, the uneasier you feel. Perhaps you shouldn't ask the question that's been on your mind, but it slips out before you can stop it.
"Why didn't you call?" you ask, surprising both yourself and Taehyung as he simultaneously voices the exact same question.
Taken aback by the simultaneous question, you both chuckle nervously, breaking the tension. Taehyung scratches the back of his neck, sheepish.
"I thought about it every day," he admits, his voice quiet but sincere. "But I wasn't sure if you wanted to hear from me. I already took so much of your time, and I didn't want to ask more from you. So, I asked Namjoon to pick me up from the hospital. I thought maybe it would be better for me to wait for you to reach out and focus on recovering."
You nod, understanding flooding your expression. "I felt quite similar. I thought maybe you asked Namjoon because he's your friend. I didn't want to hound you when you just got released from the hospital, so I decided to let you recover in peace. I guess in the end, I was also waiting for you to reach out with an update of some kind."
Taehyung takes a few seconds to fully absorb your words before replying. "I'm sorry," he says softly, his eyes reflecting genuine remorse. "I didn't mean to make you feel like I was avoiding you. I would have been more than happy with you picking me up instead of Namjoon. I realize that I should have at least reached out to update you instead of going silent. I'd like to think of you as my friend too. But I wasnât sure if you felt the same, and I just didn't want to burden you." His gaze becomes downcast as he stares at the ground beneath him.
You're unsure where you find the courage, but you bring your hands up to cup his cheeks, gently lifting his face so he meets your eyes. You have to stand on your tiptoes a bit, which he finds endearing.
"Iâd like to consider you my friend too, and that means you shouldn't worry about burdening me anymore, Tae," you say softly, your touch lingering momentarily on his face, caught up in the moment. When you realize what you've done, you pull back slightly, flustered. "Um⊠sorry, I didn't mean to call you that."
"It's okay," he responds, his voice gentle. "I don't mind. You can call me Tae from now on if you'd like. Also, you're not a burden either, you never were to me."
You're speechless for a second before replying. "So, friends then?" you ask. "No more mixed signals and reaching out when we want?"
"I mean, Iâd like that as long as you do too," he confirms with a warm smile, though his eyes say there's more that he's left unsaid. You don't notice, however.
"Text me whenever you have something on your mind," he continues.
"I will," you promise. âYou too.â
"Definitely.â Taehyung pauses, glancing down at Tan who's decided to lay down by his feet. "So, I was going to take a walk with Tan at the park nearby. Any chance you'd like to join me?" His gaze shifts back to you, hopeful yet uncertain.
"I'd like that," you reply genuinely. "But we're taking my car over, so you don't break a hip on this ice, old man."
Taehyung's mouth gapes open as he shakes his head. "How many times do I need to tell you? I'm only two years older than you. Two!"
It's surreal.
How much you and Taehyung have started becoming friends, that is.
Almost two months have already passed, and it feels like just yesterday you were merely colleagues, you his boss.
Saturdays have become your day with Taehyung now. While part of you insists it's to prevent him from slipping on the ice again, deep down, you both know there's more to it now that he's almost fully recovered from his injuries.
Each weekend, you find yourselves exploring different parks and streets, swapping childhood stories, and sharing laughter over the dumbest things. Today, however, would be different. With rain threatening to drench the city, Taehyung suggested a change of plansâa cozy movie day indoors. Little did he know, you had a surprise in store for him.
You dash up to the front door, a bag of homemade food in one hand and an umbrella in the other.
Taehyung opens the door with a grin, holding his own umbrella. "Hey! Perfect timing," he chuckles, taking the umbrella from you and gesturing inside. "Come in. It's freezing out there today."
You step inside, shaking off the raindrops and removing your shoes. The warmth of his home envelopes you, a comforting contrast to the chilly rain outside.
"I brought something," you announce, holding up the bag. "Guess what it is?"
Taehyung looks at you curiously, his eyebrows raised in anticipation. "Hmm," he muses, pretending to ponder. "Knowing you, it's probably my favorite spicy chicken wings from that place near your office."
"Very close, Tae. Except these chicken wings were made by your favorite person in the whole world," you tease, handing him the bag with a grin.
Taehyung's eyes lit up as he takes the bag from you. "No way," he says, a mix of disbelief and excitement in his voice. "You made them yourself? You're the best, __. Seriously."
"It's the least I could do," you reply with a smile, following him into the living room where the TV flickers. "Besides, it's pouring out there. Movie day with good food seems like the perfect plan."
"Absolutely," he agrees, setting the food down on the coffee table. "I was thinking we could start with that new action flick I heard about."
"Aww, but I thought you said we could watch one of your movies instead?" you argue playfully, sinking into the couch. Tan bounds over, wagging his tail in excitement at the prospect of company. You scratch behind his ears while Taehyung sets up the movie.
"What? I don't remember saying that. Was I drunk that day?" he jokes.
"Well... maybe?" you tease back.
"I told you, __, I don't like watching my own films. It's weird, and half the time it's me kissing the female lead. You're going to need to watch those on your own time," he quips, his tone more serious than intended. The truth is, he really would rather not be there when you watch him kiss his co-stars.
"Alright, alright, getting aggressive over there," you chuckle, not seeing the faint rosy tint that's crept up on his cheeks. "We'll watch the action movie."
As the opening scenes roll, you can't help but steal glances at Taehyung. Despite the seriousness of his recent health issues, he seems more at ease today, a genuine smile gracing his face as he takes a seat beside you. It feels good to see him like this, relaxed and feeling more like himself.
Halfway through the movie, he nudges you gently. "Thanks for coming over today," he says softly, his gaze warm as it meets yours. "And for the food, of course."
"You don't have to thank me," you reply sincerely, nudging him back with a smile. "I'm happy to do it."
Unexpectedly, Taehyung reaches for the TV remote, pausing the scene playing in front of you. "Hey, __," he says, turning to face you, a hint of nervousness in his eyes as they shift from side to side.
"What is it, Tae?" You feel a slight unease, sensing tension. He's once again just staring into your eyes, wordless.
"Do you..." he starts but stops short, his voice trailing off.
"Yes?" You search his face for clues as to what he's trying to say.
"Would you want to go to a party with my family?" he finally asks, his words coming out in a rush. "My parents are hosting to celebrate my recovery, but really it's just an excuse to get the family together."
"So, a family reunion?" Your voice drops slightly, a mix of surprise and...disappointment? Why had you been expecting something different?
"I mean, yes, sort of. You don't have to if you don't want to," he adds quickly, almost anxiously. "I know it might be uncomfortable for you, but you've been here for me during so much of my recovery. It would mean a lot to have you there. My parents want to meet you too."
"Um... well, I've never been to a family function before," you admit hesitantly.
"You haven't?" Taehyung looks genuinely surprised.
You shake your head. "My family's never been one to do those types of things."
"Well, consider yourself part of my family then. Come with me, __. They'll love you."
"I-I don't know about that," you say softly, a flicker of uncertainty crossing your face. "How can you be so sure that they'll like me?"
"Because I do," he urges gently, "and if I like you, so will they."
You're taken aback by his words, unsure how to respond. Surely he means this in a platonic way. Despite growing closer, you and Taehyung are just friends, setting aside any previous suspicions of romantic interest. Maybe if circumstances were differentâif you weren't divorcedâthen maybe you could entertain the idea.
For now, you'll leave that side of him alone and simply be his friend. You feel a bitter aftertaste in your mouth.
"Okay," you finally say, nodding your head. "I'll come. When is it?"
"They want to do it next weekend, weather permitting. We can carpool if you'd like, or you can take your own car," he offers.
"I'll think about it," you reply, trying to process the unexpected turn of events.
"Great." Taehyung flashes a boxy grin. "Thank you, I was so nervous to ask."
"Of course," you say, offering a tight-lipped smile. Taehyung unpauses the movie, and you return your attention to the TV screen. Minutes following your phone buzzes and a text message from Jimin appears on your screen.
Chim đ„: __! Hate to be bringing this up, but have you seen the news about Jungkook? Looks like he's preparing to step down as CEO. Did you know about this?"
What? You had no clue.
a/n: If you are mad at me, well....I'm sorry but pls blame jk instead. But I am hoping you enjoyed! đ„° vote jjk or kth
Masterlist | Requests: closed | Taglist | Fic Recs
Tags:
@jksjx @lovingkoalaface @junecat18 @babystarcandyjk97 @wobblewobble822 @a-gayish-unicorn @neverthefirstchoice @whipwhoops @hubbytaehyung @jalexad @cassies-cookies @llallaaa @marshieeeemallow @baechugff @lovemazespluto @eegyo @iwanttobecalledaurora @harmonyflora @francheskarm34 @sftlrmin @saba-ya @11thenightwemet11 @yoursnixni @zafirowwa2909 @btsffreader92 @junniesoleilkth @iamcamlb @bangctans @lilliankoo @talyaaas-blog @blackswan18 @appleh4ad @hoseokteardrop @613tannies @whoa-jo @borahaeb1ch @getougf @chimmisbae @kookcobain @miniekookiegucci @purplelanterns @eegyo @inthemiddleofsomething22-blog @darkuni63 @bibimboppin19 @phanniefoo @chieftoadturkeynickel @existenciosa @dasommwa @minayas1998 @sumzysworld @pwd54gr54 @jellycake2109 @sigxx123 @00frenchfries00 @importantperfectionmiracle @stigma93 @lpgirl2324 @youremyjinearth @moonups-stuff @bubblyyz @hvnnibvni @ttanniett @secfir @urlovelily @iknowhistouch3 @nadzzzblog @itsmina29 @mochibites00 @syazzzlisa @ash07128 @kawennote09 @merrygo14 @butterymin @cybercheesygurl @juju-227592 @lesiacapouille
side note: I tried tagging readers in comments but most of them didn't go through, so i'm sorry about the clutter here...đŹ
no reposting, copying, or translating my workâ © kookslastbutton
#jungkook angst#jungkook smut#jungkook x reader#jungkook fanfic#jungkook x you#jungkook imagines#taehyung smut#taehyung angst#bts smut#bts angst#bts au#bts imagines#bts fanfics#bts x reader#fic:guiltypleasures#kookslastbutton
583 notes
·
View notes
Note
hi again! so I've been meaning to send a request, but before i go about it I wish to say it's completely okay if you're not inspired by this, or if you simply don't want to write it, i would hate myself if I made you overwhelmed or smth. love you anyways đ so for the request: reader who's autistic. she's not very talkative nor socially active, never had a boyfriend, has one or two friends, yet somehow rafe notices her and finds her endearing. she's okay being herself with her friends, like she's funny, kind and passionate about her interests (like geek stuff, fantasy books, animals and such). she has zero flirting experience and is always dismissive towards rafe bc she doesn't think someone could like her romantically, and she's always suspicious of people bc they've wronged her in the past (in my experience as an autistic person i tend to believe everything ppl say and am kinda naive, so ppl played me or said unrealistic things and I believed them, which then is a reason for laughter, now I'm always suspicious to ppl's intentions). I'm giving you creative freedom with this, just wanted an autistic reader for once :) if you feel like writing it but need to know more abt autism, you can just post question and I'll answer in your asks, if that's okay. Just a reminder again before I go: feel free to decline this request, I know it might not be something cool to write and that's okay âșïž love you lots, thank you for your time!
i tried my best, hope you like it đ«¶đŒ and if you don't lmk so i can do better!! this was really fun since it's a compeltely new topic of inspiration. kinda left an "open" ending bc i couldn't make my mind up lmao. thank you for the resquest and sorry it took me a while to finally do it đ«
got dreams but i can't make myself believe them - r.c
paring: rafe x autistic!reader word count: 6.9k
The party was a mistake. You knew it the moment you walked in, the thumping music and crush of people making your skin crawl. Your friends had been relentless, insisting that you needed to âget out moreâ and âlive a little,â despite your repeated attempts to explain that âgetting outâ meant something different to you.
But somehow, youâd caved, and now you were standing awkwardly in the corner of a strangerâs living room, clutching your book like it was a life vest. You needed to stop letting them drag you everywhere.
It was the typical college party scene, at least the one's you'd heard or read about before. Red solo cups everywhere, groups of people huddled on couches or pressed together on the so called dance floor, and a few already-drunk guys yelling loudly in the kitchen.
This was supposed to be fun?
âJust stay for an hour,â they said. âIf itâs really that bad, you can leave.â
Right. Except an hour felt like an eternity when you were trapped in a sensory nightmare. You took a deep breath, scanning the crowded room. There were people everywhereâlaughing, dancing, chattering loudly in clumpsâand the noise was a constant, overwhelming buzz in your ears.
This was definitely a mistake.
So, you did what you always did in these situations: you found a place to hide. After walking through the drunk college students, you eventually ended up on quiet nook near the back of the house. It was a small room, probably some sort of den or study. Blessedly, it was empty. With a sigh of relief, you settled into an oversized armchair, opened your book, and let the world outside your pages melt away.
Time slipped by as you read, the noise of the party changing into a distant hum. You were so engrossed that you didnât even notice when someone stumbled into the room until a loud crash jolted you out of your fictional word. He nearly tripped over his own feet, catching himself at the last second with a slurred, âShit.â
You looked up to find a guy standing unsteadily in the doorway, blinking blearily at you. He was tall, with tousled hair and a loose, easy grin that spoke of far too many drinks. His eyes were a striking blue even in the low light, and it took you a second to place him.
Rafe Cameron.
Oh, God. You knew himâwell, of him, at least. He was in your sociology class, always sitting a few rows behind you with his gaggle of equally charming friends. Heâd never spoken to you before, though, and youâd never had a reason to pay him much attention.
Until now.
Then his face split into a lazy grin, and he swaggeredâno, stumbledâinto the room, somehow managing to make even that look effortless.
âHeyyy,â he drawled, leaning heavily against the arm of the chair across from you. âItâs⊠itâs you.â
You blinked at him. âMe?â
âYeah,â he slurred, squinting like he was trying to see you clearly. âT-The girl from my class. The quiet one.â
Your stomach did a weird flip, part confusion, part disbelief. âOkay?â
âYeah.â He nodded sagely, as if youâd just confirmed some great truth. âYouâre the uh, the smart one. With the books.â He gestured vaguely at the one in your hands. âAlways sittinâ up front, all⊠all cute n'shit.â
Your cheeks burned. Was he seriously calling you cute? No. He was drunkâreally drunk. He probably didnât even know what he was saying.
âDo you need help?â you asked cautiously. âYou lookââ
âIâm fine,â he cut you off, straightening up as if to prove it, though the effect was somewhat ruined by the way he swayed on his feet. âNeeded to get away from those idiots out there. Too many people.â
You almost laughed. Rafe Cameron, overwhelmed by people? The guy who was always surrounded by friends, girls practically draped over him like accessories? But he looked sincereâwell, as sincere as a drunk person could look.
âWhy donât you sit down?â you suggested, gesturing to the empty chair. âYou, um, might fall over if you donât.â
âPfft, Iâm not gonnaââ He paused mid-sentence, wobbling precariously. Then, as if heâd just made the smartest decision of his life, he plopped down in the chair, sprawling out like he owned the place.
âSee? Told ya m'fine,â he said, flashing you a lopsided grin.
You couldnât help but snort. âRight.â
He looked at you then, really looked at you, his gaze roaming over your face âWhatâre you doinâ here?â he asked abruptly.
You glanced at your book, then back at him. "Reading?â
âNo, I mean⊠here,â he insisted, gesturing vaguely around the room. âAt this shitty party.â
You shrugged, feeling awkward. âMy friends dragged me. I didnât really want to come.â
Rafeâs eyes narrowed thoughtfully, and for a moment, he looked almost sober. âYeah, same.â
You raised an eyebrow. âReally?â
He smirked, a flash of the cocky, arrogant guy youâd seen in class. âYeah, well⊠theyâre fucking assholes, but theyâre my assholes, y'know?â
You didnât, but you nodded anyway. âSure.â
âSo, whatâs that book about?â
You hesitated. âUm⊠itâs a fantasy novel.â
âFantasy, huh?â He tilted his head, eyeing the cover. âLike wizards and dragons n'shit?â
âSort of,â you admitted. âItâs about a girl who finds out she has magic and goes on a quest toââ
âSave the world?â he finished with a mock-solemn expression.
â...Yeah,â you said, narrowing your eyes. âBut itâs more complicated than that.â
âBet it is,â he murmured, his gaze still fixed on you. âYouâre really into that stuff, huh?â
You shifted uncomfortably. âYeah. Why?â
He shrugged, his smirk softening into something that almost looked like genuine interest. âYou looked happy, talkinâ about it.â
Your heart did another weird little flip, and you frowned, pushing the feeling down. He was drunk. This didnât mean anything. He probably wouldnât even remember it in the morning.
But then, his eyes drifted shut, his head lolling back against the chair. Within seconds, he was snoring. You sat there, stunned.
What the hell had just happened?
Three days later, you were sitting in your usual spot in the lecture hall, flipping through your notes. Class was about to start, and the room was filling up with the usual pre-lecture chatter. You were just getting settled when someone slid into the seat beside you.
You glanced up, expecting one of your friends. But it wasnât.
It was Rafe.
âHey, friend,â he said casually, like you hadnât left him passed out at a party a few nights ago.
You stared at him, completely disoriented. âHi?â
He grinned, leaning back in his chair like this was completely normal. âDidnât think Iâd forget about you, huh?â
Your eyes narrowed. âI⊠yeah, actually.â
Rafeâs grin widened, and he leaned in closer, âSee, thatâs where youâre wrong, princess,â he murmured. âI remember everything.â
Did he just give you a nickname?
Your stomach dropped. âWhat?â
âYeah.â He crossed his arms, looking entirely too smug. âYou, sitting there all cute with your book, talking about magic and shit. Thought I was too drunk to remember, huh?â
âIââ You stared at him, completely off balance. âWhy are you here?â
âBecause I want to be,â he said simply. âGot a problem with that?â
You blinked, caught off guard. âNo?â
âGood.â He flashed you a grin, all cocky charm. âSo, you gonna tell me more about that book, or what?â
You gaped at him. âYou actually want to hear about it?â
âWhy not?â he shot back, raising an eyebrow. âIt made you smile.â
And for some reason, that simple statement knocked the breath out of you.
âOkay,â you said, still unsure if this was some kind of elaborate prank.
But Rafe just leaned back in his seat, eyes fixed on you like you were the most fascinating thing in the world.
âYeah,â he murmured. âI think Iâll stick around.â
The next few classes wereâŠweird, to say the least. Ever since Rafe decided you were his new "friend," heâd taken to sitting beside you every lecture, plopping down in the empty seat as if heâd been there all along. It was confusing. Most of the time, heâd breeze in at the last possible minute, sauntering up to your row without so much as a greeting and settling into the chair with that infuriatingly self-assured smirk.
You were already seated, your notebook open and your pen poised to start taking notes when he dropped into the seat beside you with his usual nonchalance. He stretched his long legs out in front of him, casting you a sidelong look as if daring you to acknowledge him first.
âHi,â you said quietly, eyes flicking back to the front of the room.
âHey, princess,â he replied, voice low and teasing.
You kept your gaze firmly on your notebook. Youâd quickly learned that the best way to deal with him was to pretend his presence didnât affect youâno matter how much his proximity messed with you.
Heâd spent the last three classes nudging your foot under the desk, passing snide comments under his breath, or leaning over just close enough to murmur sarcastic observations about whatever the professor was droning on about. And today was no different.
The lecture started, Professor Callahan launching into her usual detailed overview of sociological theory. You tried to focus, pen flying across your notebook as you jotted down her points.
âIs she always this boring?â he whispered, leaning in slightly so his arm brushed against yours.
You stiffened, eyes fixed on your notes. âIf you listened, it wouldnât be so boring.â
He snorted. âYeah, right. Like Iâm gonna waste my time listening to her go on about⊠what is it today? Class structure?â
âYes,â you hissed, refusing to look at him. âAnd if you donât stop talking, Iâm going toââ
âYouâre going to what?â he challenged, his grin audible in his voice.
You snapped your mouth shut, trying to ignore the way his leg brushed against yours under the desk. He was doing it on purposeânudging your knee every so often, shifting just a little closer until the faint scent of his cologne surrounded you. It was infuriating. And yet, when you glanced sideways at him, he was looking at you with that maddening, lazy grin that made your heart stutter.
âJust pay attention,â you mumbled, cheeks warm.
âWhy would I do that when I have such a pretty view right here?â
Your head whipped around, eyes wide. âWhat?â
But Rafe just smirked, his gaze drifting lazily up and down your face before flicking back to the front of the room as if he hadnât just made your brain short-circuit.Â
âRelax, princess. Just messin' with you.â
You swallowed, trying to refocus on the lecture. His attention was like a physical thingâintense and all-consuming. It made you uneasy.Â
Determined not to give him the satisfaction, you forced yourself to look at the professor, tuning out the heat of Rafeâs gaze. Professor Callahan was in the middle of explaining something about social hierarchies when she suddenly stopped mid-sentence.
âMr. Cameron.â
The entire class fell silent.
You looked up, eyes widening in surprise as Professor Callahan fixed Rafe with a stern look. âIâm aware that Iâm not as pretty as your classmate,â she said dryly, gesturing toward you, âbut I would appreciate it if you could pay attention for at least ten minutes.â
A ripple of snickers spread through the room, and your cheeks flamed scarlet. Rafe, however, didnât even blink, he was completely unruffled and offered the professor a lazy, arrogant smile. âSorry, Professor. Just got a little distracted.â
Your stomach dropped. He was staring at you, unabashedly.
The professor raised an eyebrow. âIâm sure.â Her tone was dry, unimpressed. âWould you mind keeping your distractions to yourself until after class?â
Another murmur of laughter swept through the room, and you shrank in your seat, mortified. His smirk widened, but he leaned back in his chair, raising his hands in mock surrender.
âOf course, maâam,â he drawled. âNo more distractions.â
Professor Callahan gave him a pointed look, then turned back to the board, resuming her lecture. You sat there, face burning, refusing to look anywhere near Rafe, but you could feel his eyes on you.
âGuess I got you in trouble, huh?â he whispered, leaning closer.
You grit your teeth, still staring resolutely at the front of the room. âStop talking.â
âCanât help it,â he murmured, his voice teasing. âYouâre way more interesting than this shit.â
âRafe, I swearââ
âOkay, okay, Iâll behave,â he said lightly, sitting back. But he didnât take his eyes off you. You could feel him lingering, warm and intent, and you wanted to scream. How was he so calm? So unaffected, like getting called out by the professor was just a minor inconvenience?
You hated every second of it.
âRafe,â you hissed under your breath, finally daring to glance at him. âWill you justââ
âWhat?â He leaned in again, eyes bright with mischief. âYou want me to go back to ignoring you?â
âStop staring.â
He hummed thoughtfully. âCanât promise that, princess.â
Your heart hammered, and you squeezed your pen so tightly it nearly snapped. âWhy are you even here?â
He shrugged, his expression turning oddly serious. âI like sitting next to you.â
Rafe Cameronâthe arrogant, cocky asshole youâd written off as nothing more than a nuisanceâhad just chosen to stay by your side.
As soon as class ended, you gathered your things in record time, heart still thumping wildly. The room buzzed with students shuffling out, but you kept your head down, hoping to slip away unnoticed.
Maybe if you were quick enough, you could escape before he decided to make good on his new, annoying habit of sticking to you like glue. But, of course, he was nothing if not persistent.
Youâd barely slung your bag over your shoulder when he appeared at your side, his tall frame looming over you as he fell into step like it was the most natural thing in the world.
âHeading to lunch?â he asked, all casual charm, as if he hadnât just spent the entire class making you the center of unwanted attention.
âYes?â You tried not to sound as thrown as you felt, but the way he looked at youâwith that infuriatingly lazy grinâtold you he could see right through you.
âCool. Iâm starving.â He said it like it was an invitation, like he was entitled to follow you, and before you could muster up a half-hearted protest, he was already steering you through the crowded hallway.
âWait, what are you doing?â you demanded, glancing around in panic. People were staring, eyes widening as they took in the sight of Rafe Cameron, of all people, trailing after you. Whispers flitted through the air, curious and disbelieving, and you shrank under the scrutiny, feeling painfully exposed.
âUh, going to lunch with you?â He made it sound so obvious, his voice lilting with amusement.
âI didnât invite you!â You glanced at him, trying to tamp down the fluttery, nervous feeling his presence always seemed to stir up. âWhat if Iâm eating with someone else?â
He shrugged. âThen Iâll eat with them too.â
You gawked at him. âWhat?â
But Rafe just flashed you that cocky, confident grin. âRelax. Itâs just lunch.â
Just lunch, he said, like this wasnât completely absurd.
You narrowed your eyes, debating whether to make a break for it, but he was already steering you toward the main quad, his hand ghosting the small of your back in a way that made your skin tingle.Â
Your heart hammered as the familiar outdoor seating area came into view. Your friends were already there, sitting at your usual tableâa small group of two girls and a guy, all talking animatedly. You hadnât even sat down yet, and they still managed to look up as one, their expressions morphing from curious to shocked when they caught sight of youâand Rafeâheading straight toward them.
âUh, hey,â you greeted awkwardly as you approached. They just stared, mouths agape.
Emily was the first to recover. âWhat theâsince when do you two know each other?â she asked, eyes darting between you and Rafe like she was seeing some kind of glitch in the matrix.
âYeah, whatâs going on here?â Max, the guy in your small circle, chimed in, his gaze flicking to Rafe warily. âIs this, like⊠a project thing?â
âNo, itâs notââ you started, but Rafe cut you off with a breezy smile.
âCanât believe yâall kept her to yourselves this whole time,â he drawled, pulling out the chair beside yours and plopping down like heâd done it a thousand times before. âThought youâd have the decency to introduce me to the most interesting girl on campus.â
Your friends gaped, eyes wide with shock. You could practically see their brains short-circuiting. Meanwhile, you were fighting the urge to smack him upside the head.
âPlease shut up,â you muttered under your breath, cheeks burning.
But he just smirked, his gaze sliding over your stunned friends with lazy amusement. âWhat?â he said innocently. âItâs true.â
âWhat the hell is happening right now?â Emily demanded, still staring at you like youâd grown a second head. âYouâyou and Rafe Cameron?â
You sighed, already regretting every life choice that had led you to this moment. âThere is no âme and Rafe Cameron.â He justâheâs being annoying.â
âAnnoying?â he repeated, feigning offense. âCâmon. I thought we were past that.â
âWe are not past anything,â you snapped, shooting him a glare. But that only seemed to amuse him more.
âOkay, back up,â Max interjected, brow furrowed in confusion. âHow do you guys even know each other?â
âUh, sociology class?â you offered weakly, as if that explained anything. âHeâs been sitting next to me.â
âSitting next to you?â Emily repeated slowly, like she was trying to process a particularly difficult equation. âAnd now youâre⊠eating lunch together?â
âItâs notââ You looked helplessly at Rafe, who was watching the exchange with that insufferable smirk. âI didnât ask him to.â
He looked completely unfazed by the mess heâd caused. âWhat can I say? I like the company.â
âSince when?â Emily shot back, clearly unconvinced.
Rafe shrugged, âSince she started talking to me.â
Your friends fell silent, eyes wide and suspicious as they turned to you, searching for answers. But you just sat there, feeling utterly, hopelessly lost. What were you supposed to say? That Rafe Cameron had decided, out of nowhere, to insert himself into your life? That he was following you to lunch like this was some sort of normal occurrence?
âLook,â you sighed, pinching the bridge of your nose. âItâs really not a big deal. Heâs justââ
âRafe Cameron is never âjustâ anything,â Emily interrupted, folding her arms as she fixed Rafe with a suspicious look. âSo what are you up to?"
âNothing,â Rafe said easily, his smile all sharp edges. âLike I said, Iâm just getting to know her.â
âGetting to know her,â Max echoed, clearly skeptical.
âYeah.â Rafeâs eyes never left yours, his eyes gleaming with something that made your pulse flutter. âWhatâs so weird about that?â
Your friends exchanged looks. You didnât blame them. This was weird. More than weird. Youâd never been the kind of girl to attract attentionâespecially not from someone like Rafe. Popular, arrogant, and completely out of your league in every possible way. And yet, here he was, acting like sitting with you at lunch was the most natural thing in the world.
âSo,â He said suddenly, turning his attention back to the group, âAre you gonna sit here gaping all day, or are we gonna eat?â
Emily blinked, snapping out of her daze. âUh, yeah, weâre⊠weâre eating.â
âGood.â Rafe turned to you, eyebrow raised. âYou eating, princess?â
You stared at him, âIâyes?â
âCool. Want me to grab you something?â
You stared at him, incredulous. âYouâre offering to get me lunch?â
He rolled his eyes. âYeah, I am. Now, what do you want?â
âIââ You swallowed, glancing at your friends, who were watching the exchange like it was some sort of bizarre performance. âUm, a sandwich?â
âGot it.â Rafe pushed to his feet, his smile smug. âBe right back.â
And then, to your utter disbelief, he sauntered off toward the food line, leaving you and your friends staring after him.
âWhat,â Max said slowly, âthe hell just happened?â
You groaned, burying your face in your hands. âI have no idea.â
The awkward lunch with Rafe didnât end as badly as you expected.
Your friends had spent the entire time shooting you confused, bewildered looks, while he seemed to thrive under their scrutiny, lounging beside you like he belonged. He didnât flirtâthank Godâbut he didnât exactly tone down his usual cocky self either. By the end of it, heâd somehow managed to charm your friends just enough to leave them confused rather than outright hostile. Still, after that lunch, youâd expected him to lose interest, to move on to his usual crowd and forget all about his bizarre little experiment. But of course, he wasnât known for playing by the rules.
You learned that the hard way two days later.
It was late afternoon, and you were holed up in the campus library, buried under a mountain of textbooks and notes for an upcoming exam. The library was your sanctuaryâquiet, calm, and blissfully free of distractions. At least, until Rafe sauntered in. You didnât notice him at first, too absorbed in your notes. The library was busy, students murmuring as they worked, the rustle of pages and the faint clack of keyboards filling the air. You were hunched over a particularly dense passage in your sociology textbook when you felt itâ
You stiffened, glancing up cautiously, and there he was.
He leaned against the bookshelf a few feet away, his eyes fixed on you with a lazy, assessing look. He didnât move, just watched you, his lips quirking in that infuriating smirk when your eyes met.
âWhat are you doing here?â you hissed, glancing around nervously. No one seemed to be paying attention, but you still felt like the entire room was suddenly staring.
âStudying,â he said, straight-faced.
âSince when do you study in the library?â
âSince now,â he said easily, pushing off the bookshelf and strolling over to your table. He pulled out the chair across from you, dropping into it like he had every right to be there. âWhat? Canât a guy broaden his horizons?â
You stared at him, incredulous. âYouâre joking.â
âNot today, princess.â He leaned forward, resting his chin in his hand as he peered at your open book. âSo, whatâre we learning?â
âWe are not learning anything,â you muttered, eyes narrowing. âIâm studying. You are⊠I donât know what youâre doing.â
âKeeping you company,â he said simply. âYou looked lonely.â
Your mouth fell open. âLonely?â
âYeah.â He tilted his head, his gaze sweeping over your face. âAll holed up in here with your books. Thought Iâd help.â
What was he even talking about? This was insane. He didnât just hang out in the library, especially not to âkeep someone company.â He was the kind of guy who spent his free time at parties, or on the field, or wherever people like him thrived. And yet, here he was, sitting across from you in the library like this was normal.
âRafe,â you said slowly, âyou donât even know what Iâm studying.â
He shrugged. âDoesnât matter.â
âIt does if youâre trying to help,â you shot back, frustration seeping into your voice. âYouâreâwhat are you evenââ
âOkay, okay,â he interrupted, raising his hands in mock surrender. âCalm down. Just trying to see whatâs got you all riled up.â
You bit back a groan, rubbing your temples. This was absurd. You didnât needâdidnât wantâhis attention.
âFine,â you muttered, turning your textbook around so he could see the page. âIâm going over Durkheimâs theory of social integration.â
Rafe leaned in, squinting at the page. âDurkheim, huh?â
âYes,â you said, a little impatiently. âHe believed that society functions through a collective conscienceâshared beliefs and values that bind people together.â
âSounds boring as hell,â Rafe said bluntly.
âItâs not boring,â you retorted before you could stop yourself. âItâs actually really interestingâhe argued that a lack of social integration could lead to anomie, a state of normlessness that causes people to feel disconnected and isolated.â
Rafe stared at you for a long moment, his expression unreadable. At least it felt that way to you.
âWhat?â you demanded, suddenly self-conscious. âWhy are you looking at me like that?â
He shrugged, a strange, thoughtful smile tugging at his lips. âJust⊠you get really into this stuff, donât you?â
Your cheeks flushed. âItâs sociology. Itâs important.â
âYeah, butâŠâ He shook his head, âItâs kinda cute.â
You blinked, your brain short-circuiting. âCute?â
âYeah.â He leaned back, crossing his arms as he regarded you with a casual, easy confidence that made your heart flutter. âYou get all intense when you talk about it. Like, you actually care.â
âIâI do care,â you stammered, âItâs my major.â
âI know,â he murmured. âI like that about you.â
Whatâwhat was that supposed to mean? Why was he looking at you like that, like he actually meant it?
Before you could even begin to untangle your thoughts, a shadow fell over the table, and you glanced up to see another student standing thereâa tall, lanky guy with dark hair and glasses. He looked vaguely familiar, probably from one of your classes.
âUh, hey,â the guy said awkwardly, glancing between you and Rafe. âAreâare you using this seat?â
Rafeâs expression changed instantly, âYeah,â he said flatly. âWe are.â
The guy blinked, taken aback. âOh, uh, sorry, I justââ
âYou just can find another table,â Rafe cut in, âWeâre a little busy here.â
You gaped at him, mortified. âRafe, stop.â
But he didnât even glance at you. He just kept staring down the poor guy, his posture tense and unyielding until, with a muttered apology, the student backed off, scurrying away like heâd just had a close encounter with a predator.
âWhat the hell was that?â you hissed as soon as the guy was out of earshot. âHe just wanted to sit down!â
âYeah, and weâre studying,â Rafe said dismissively. âNo room for distractions.â
âWeâre not studying anything!â you shot back, resisting the urge to smack him. âYouâre just sitting here, beingâbeing weird.â
âNot weird,â he corrected, leaning in again. âProtective.â
You froze, your mouth going dry. âProtective?â
âYeah.â His eyes were dark, intense, locking onto yours. âCanât have just anyone bothering you, can I?â
After the bizarre encounter in the library, you were convinced Rafe would drop this wholeâŠÂ whatever it was. Surely, following you to lunch and then âprotectingâ you in the library was enough.
So when you found yourself at another party two nights laterâdragged along by Emily despite your vehement protestsâyou knew it was only a matter of time before he found you. Because somehow, no matter where you went, Rafe had made it his mission to seek you out.
âCome on, you need to have some fun,â Emily had insisted, half-pulling, half-dragging you through the front door of one of the fraternity houses on campus. The music was already blaring, the heavy bass vibrating through your body. People were packed in the main room, laughing, talking, drinking, the buzz of chatter filling the air.
âThis isnât my idea of fun,â you muttered, hugging your arms around yourself as you tried to avoid brushing against the partygoers. It wasnât that you disliked parties, exactlyâit was just that the noise, the sheer volume of people could get overwhelming quickly.
âJust stay for an hour,â Emily pleaded. âPlease? I swear itâll be more fun than you think. We can dance, have a few drinksââ
âI donât dance,â you cut in flatly, giving her a pointed look.
âOkay, fine, Iâll dance, and you⊠can hang out and people-watch,â she amended, undeterred. âBesides, who knows? Maybe youâll meet someone.â
You gave her a withering stare. âYeah, because Iâm such a social butterfly.â
You sighed, resigned to your fate, and began making your way through the press of bodies. After a few minutes you managed to find a relatively quiet corner in the back, near the stairs, and gratefully leaned against the wall. Maybe if you stayed out of sight long enough, Emily would give up on trying to get you to socialize and let you leave early. It was a long shot, but you could hope.
You hadnât been there long when you felt itâthe now-familiar prickling sensation of someoneâs gaze lingering on you. Sure enough, when you glanced up, there he was.
Rafe, in all his infuriating glory, leaning against the wall a few feet away, his eyes locked on you with that lazy focus that made your heart stutter. He looked unfairly good, dressed in a dark button-up that clung to his frame in all the right ways, his hair tousled just enough to look effortlessly cool. And, as usual, he was watching you like you were the only person in the room.
You narrowed your eyes at him, your stomach twisting in irritation and something else. âAre you stalking me now?â you demanded, crossing your arms as you glared at him.
Rafeâs lips curved into a slow, teasing smile. âWould it be so bad if I was?â
âYes,â you said flatly. âIt would be very bad.â
He chuckled, the sound low, sending an unwelcome shiver down your spine. âRelax, princess. I just saw you standing here all alone and thought Iâd come say hi.â
âHi,â you muttered, your voice dripping with sarcasm. âNow you can leave.â
But he didnât budge. Instead, he straightened, pushing off the wall and closing the distance between you in a few long strides until he was standing directly in front of you, his presence overwhelming.
You tried to step back, but the wall blocked your escape.
âActually, I was thinking we could, I donât know, hang out for a bit?â he suggested, tilting his head as he regarded you with a faux-innocent smile.
âWhy?â you blurted out before you could stop yourself.
Rafe blinked, seemingly taken aback by the question. âWhy?â
âYes,â you insisted, frustration bubbling up inside you. âWhy do you keepâŠÂ doing this? Showing up, sitting with me, following me to lunch, acting likeâlike weâre friends or something. What is your deal, Cameron?â
Slowly he reached up, bracing one hand on the wall beside your head, leaning in so close you could feel the warmth of his breath against your skin.
âMy deal,â he murmured, his voice low and smooth, âis that I like you.â
No. No, no, no.
That couldnât be right. People didn't just like you. They tolerated you, maybe, or found you useful sometimes, but they didn't like you. Not like that. Not in the way he was implying. You felt panic rising in your chest, like a wave that was too big to stop. You couldnât stop it.
âYouâre lying,â you said shakily, shaking your head in disbelief. âYouâre justâthis is some kind of game, isnât it? Someâsome bet, orââ
Rafeâs expression tightened, his jaw clenching. âItâs not a game,â he ground out, his eyes flashing. âI wouldnât do that to you.â
You swallowed hard, your chest aching. No, this couldnât be happening. This didnât make sense.
âI donât believe you,â you shook your head stubbornly.
His eyes narrowed, âNo?â
âNo,â you repeated, crossing your arms defiantly. âYouâre justâŠÂ you. You canât just decide you like me out of nowhere.â
âI didnât decide,â he murmured, âIt just happened.â
Your breath hitched, your heart racing. Why was he doing this to you? Why couldnât he just leave you alone?
âIââ You broke off, struggling to find words, but before you could answer, a loud voice interrupted.
âYo, Rafe! There you are, man!â
You both jerked back, startled, and you glanced over to see one of Rafeâs friendsâTopper, if you remembered correctlyâstumbling over, a wide grin plastered across his face.
âWhat are you doing back here?â Topper slurred, his gaze sliding to you. He blinked, âWhoâs this?â
Rafe stepped in front of you slightly, his posture tense and protective. âDoesnât matter,â he said curtly, âGo find someone else to bother.â
Topper blinked, taken aback. âWhoa, man, chill. I was justââ
âGo,â Rafe repeated, his tone brooking no argument.
Topper stared at him for a long moment, then slowly backed off, muttering under his breath as he disappeared into the crowd. As soon as he was gone, Rafe turned back to you, his eyes softening again.
âSorry about that,â he murmured, âDidnât mean toââ
âWhy did you do that?â you cut in, your heart still pounding.
Rafe frowned. âDo what?â
âGet rid of him,â you said, shaking your head in confusion. âHe was your friend. Why would youââ
Maybe youâd misread him. Maybe he didnât actually mean any of what he said. He was probably just bored, looking for some amusementâanother toy to play with for a little while.
âI wanted to talk to you. Not him.â
You blinked, bewildered. âBut heâs your friend.â
He gave a half-hearted shrug. âSo? Doesnât mean I want him interrupting us.â
Us. Like there was an âus.â Like there could ever be an âus.â
You shook your head, trying to clear the fog of confusion. âBut I donât understand,â you mumbled. âI donât get it. You donât even know me.â
âI know enough,â he said quietly, his eyes holding yours in a way that made it hard to breathe. âMore than you think.â
You frowned. It was impossible to shake the nagging feeling that he was just⊠playing with you. That this was all some sick joke and at any moment, the punchline would hit, and youâd be the idiot.
âYouâre just messing with me,â you muttered, taking a small step back to put some space between you. âYouâre bored or something.â
âIâm not bored,â he said firmly, stepping forward to close the gap youâd just created. âI told you, I wouldnât do that.â
âI didnât ask for any of this. Youâve been following me around, showing up where I am, saying all these things likeâlike weâre something, but weâre not.â
Rafe stepped closer, his eyes narrowing as he looked at you, as if he couldnât believe what he was hearing. âWhat are you talking about? You really think Iâm just messing around?â
âYes!â you practically shouted, throwing your hands up. âYes, I do! Why else would you be doing this? Youâre Rafe Cameron, for godâs sake. You donât even like me. This is just some twisted game to you, isnât it?â
You stared at him, trying to read his face, trying to find any hint of dishonesty, any sign that this was all an act. But all you saw was that same intensity, that same focus, like you were the only person who mattered.
Your chest tightened, panic grazing at you. This wasnât right. It couldnât be. People didnât just⊠like you. They didnât seek you out at parties or show up in libraries to talk about sociology. Guys like Rafe didnât choose people like you. There had to be some ulterior motive.
âYou show up out of nowhere, act like Iâm some project, some⊠someone who needs your protectionâwhy, Rafe? Because I donât fit into your world? Because Iâm some joke to you and your friends?â
âThatâs not it,â He growled, his voice defensive. âYou donât know what youâre talking about.â
âI donât know what Iâm talking about?â you scoffed, shaking your head. âYou havenât been honest about anything. You havenât given me a reason to believe any of this.â
âYou think Iâm lying?Â
You moved your head again, harder this time. âThat doesnât make sense. Youâreâyouâre saying things that donât make sense. I donât understand.â
He took a slow, poising breath, his eyes never leaving yours. "What doesn't make sense to you?"Â
"All of this," you replied, your voice quivering with frustration, "You, acting like youâlike you actually care. Like you see me. People donât just do that, not for someone like me. I donâtâ" You cut yourself off, not sure how to finish the sentence, your thoughts spiraling.
It wasnât just that you couldnât believe him; it was that you didnât know how to believe him. Your experiences had taught you to be wary, to always look for the catch, because there always was one.
Always.
Rafe's brows drawn together in something that almost looked like concern. "Someone like you?" he repeated, "What does that even mean?"
You swallowed, feeling your insecurities gripping down on your chest. "It means Iâm not⊠like you. I donât know how to talk to people, I donât get things right all the time. People donât notice me, and when they do, itâs usually because Iâve done something wrong, or because they want something from me. Thatâs just how it is."
He shook his head slowly. "Thatâs not how I see you."
You opened your mouth to argue, to say somethingâanythingâto dismiss what he was saying, to protect yourself from the disappointment that was sure to come. But Rafe didnât give you the chance.Â
"You think Iâm messing with you because youâre not like everyone else? Is that it? You think Iâm playing some kind of game because you donât fit into some stupid idea of whoâs supposed to matter?"Â
You wanted to pull away, to recoil into the safety of your doubts, but something in his voice, in the way he was looking at you, made you stop.
"Iâm not going to pretend like I know everything about you," Rafe continued, no less serious. "But I know enough to know that Iâm not bored. I donât care if you donât fit in with my world, or whatever you think that means. I like that youâre passionate about the things you care about. I like that you donât put up with anyoneâs shitânot even mine." A small, almost self-deprecating smile tugged at the corner of his lips. "Iâve spent enough time around fake people to know the difference."
You werenât used to thisâthis kind of sincerity. It felt too real. And part of you still wanted to push it away, to reject it before it had a chance to hurt you. But another part of youâa much smaller, quieter partâwas whispering that maybe he meant it.
"Why me?"
"Because you're you," he said simply, like it was the most obvious thing in the world.Â
For a long, breathless moment, the two of you just stood there, the noise of the party fading into the background. Your mind was still processing everything, but there was something in the way he was looking at you, something that made you feelâjust for a secondâlike maybe you could trust this.
You shook your head, "Iâm not⊠Iâm not good at this," you admitted, your voice uncertain. "At understanding what people mean, or knowing if theyâre being serious or not. I donât know how to read you."
Rafeâs eyes softened even more at your confession, and he took a deep breath, like he was trying to figure out how to make you believe him. "I get that," he said quietly. "And Iâm not always great at this either. But Iâm serious. I wouldnât lie to you, especially not about this."
You wanted to believe him. More than anything, you wanted to believe him. But there was still that tiny voice of doubt in the back of your mind, reminding you of all the times youâd been wrong before, of all the times youâd trusted someone only to be let down.
You hesitated, your throat tight. "I donât know if I can."
He didnât push, didnât demand anything from you. Instead, he just nodded slowly.
"Thatâs okay. You donât have to believe me right now. But Iâll be here when youâre ready."
And with that, he stepped back, giving you the space you so desperately needed. He didnât try to force anything, didnât press for more. Instead, he just gave you a small, almost hopeful smile and turned, disappearing back into the crowd.
And as you stood there, your heart still pummeling into your ribs, you couldnât help but wonder if youâd been wrong about him after all.
#rafe cameron#rafe#rafe cameron x you#rafe cameron x reader#rafe cameron x y/n#rafe cameron fluff#rafe cameron outer banks#rafe cameron imagine#rafe cameron imagines#rafe x y/n#rafe x you#rafe x reader#rafe imagine#rafe outer banks#rafe one shot#rafe cameron x female reader#rafe cameron fanfiction#obx x reader#rafe cameron angst#rafe obx#rafe fic#obx fic#rafe cameron au#itneverendshere worksâš#requested#rafe cameron concepts#rafe cameron one shot#outerbanks rafe#fluff#angsty
317 notes
·
View notes
Text
a toxic side of your relationship.
because every fairytale has its flaws ~
angsty short texts (<100w\character). Part 2 with more characters upcoming (you can comment for someone specific)
Isagi Yoichi, Reo Mikage, Itsohi Rin, Shidou Ryuusei, Itoshi Sae, Meguru Bachira, Otoya Eita, Michael Kaiser, Rensuke Kunigami.
[pt 2 includes: lorenzo, nagi, barou, yukimiya, karasu, ness] [pt3 includes: aiku, niko, hiori, chigiri, kurona]
Isagi coddles you too much. He feeds in your delusions, mostly by accident, because he apprehends the awkward moment where he breaks you from within. He keeps the harsh truth unbeknownst to you, he wrongfully thinks white lies are for the best. Sometimes reality hits anyways, and someone tells you with authenticity what's wrong with you. It hurts harder, because youâve always had these extraneous walls protecting you.
Reo thinks materialistic love can make up for anything. He makes mistakes, just like everyone does, but he never really apologizes. He just sends you an impersonal gift, thinking itâll make you forget.
Heâs not always as present as youâd like him to be, but he defends himself saying he provides everything you could wish for. Except sometimes love cannot be touched.Â
Rin doesnât realize he has an impact on you. Heâs so focused on himself, he forgets his harsh words or dirty looks mean something to others. Itâs like he forgets interactions go beyond time. He doesn't understand why get so caught up over something he did. âWhy does he matters to you that much ?â He wonât accept that he is now part of someone elseâs everyday life.
Shidou pushes your buttons on purpose. When you fight, he does and says exactly what he knows will make you out of your mind. He considers that the one that gets the loudest âlostâ, so he will make it happen. Thatâs also his way of taking out his anger, making you the maddest possible. He will cross lines to make you sad or angry. He doesn't know where to stop, it's kinda immature.
Sae lowers your self-esteem with how better he is than you. You know that he surpasses you at everything, itâs almost ridiculous. Looks, intellect, strength, sociability. Youâre just constantly reminded that everyone will love him better. His ego stops him from denying it or comforting you. Deep down, he likes feeling superior.
Bachira can be judgy. He has this look that makes you feel so stupid. When he doesnât approve of something, youâll just know. Because he thinks he has the singular right answer for everything. Sometimes you feel like you should not be entirely yourself, because heâll have something to object to.Â
Kunigami is not the same in group settings as he is when alone with you. When heâs with his friends, itâs like he changes from a less thoughtful, caring person, to a sneery, detached individual. He probably doesn't do it on purpose, but it makes you feel so dumb and belittled.
Otoya is not as involved as you. He cares so little for your relationship, especially compared to you. He acts detached, is passive and sometimes even has the nerve to refuse plans you offer. If you didnât do anything, your relationship would probably melt off instantly. Itâs like he doesn't value your love to its true significance.Â
Kaiser gaslights you. He hates arguments and he hates being wrong. So if you even mention the possibility of him fucking up, he will completely turn it around to make you the bad guy. And if he does apologize, you know it comes with guilt tripping and unfulfilled promises. Itâs like he cannot admit his mistakes, but on top of that, he blames it on you.Â
A\N: thought of this because i want my Isagi person who will always agree with me even when i'm wrong~ Unrealistic tho, ik
#blue lock#blue lock headcanons#blue lock x reader#bluelock#kaiser blue lock#kaiser x reader#michael kaiser#kaiser#kaiser imagine#blue lock kunigami#kunigami rensuke#blue lock yoichi isagi#isagi x y/n#blue lock angst#bllk angst#otoya eita#itoshi sae x reader#blue lock sae itoshi#itsohi rin#shidou ryusei#bachira x reader#blue lock bachira#bachira meguru#reo mikage#reo x reader#reo blue lock
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
Academic Validation - Lee Minho x Male Reader
A/N: i'm back!! heavily inspired by myself. to all the people struggling with their studies, you got this! your grades only define a part of you, a part of you that can be molded however you want.
warnings: thunderstorms, mental breakdown, mentions of dying, unrealistic expectations from parents, min's parents are horrible in this.
"You have so much potential, Minho! Where's that little boy who's always eager to learn, huh?? You got an A in maths instead of your usual A*. I can't believe this!!"
"Mom, let me-"
"No!! You're in university, for god's sake! Pull yourself together! Stop hanging out with your friends and you better study, young man-"
"I-"
"Or do you not want to achieve anything? Do you want to be stuck somewhere with part time jobs, barely making a living??"
An A is still a good grade, Mom! he wanted to say, but he didn't dare to. He wanted to scream and shout and defend himself, but he wasn't allowed to. The words were just fading echoes in his ears till the sound of the call ending snapped him back to reality.
His parents see his mistakes, but only that. It wasn't an easy exam, and only one person got an A*. But of course, his parents wouldn't understand that, because he used to get full marks for everything without even studying as a child. And even now, he's mostly relying on his memory and math skills. He doesn't know how to study. Why would you know how to study when you're "gifted"? God, he hated that term. He would beam with pride when he got called that till middle school. Things started going downhill in high school, but he picked it up somehow. Mostly to compete with Mn. And now, in one of the most prestigious universities in the world, he was doing well. Very well, actually. But his parents won't understand. Why would they, when their son is "gifted"?
Sobs wracked his body as he threw his phone onto the bed and slid down against the wall. He wished the wall had arms to hold him, since his parents never did. He wished his wall would come to life, talk to him, kiss his hair and wipe his tears away. He sat with his legs to his chest and his arms on his knees, but that wasn't comforting enough. He curled up into a fetal position on the ground as he sobbed. He didn't have friends. He was always alone growing up, and he was fine, since life wasn't so cruel back then. His comfort was being alone, but he wants to be held right now.
He pulls himself up somehow, going to the bathroom to wash his face. He had an image to maintain. The thunder seemed to rattle the windows and the lightning struck. On any other day, he would've admired thunderstorms, but the sounds and the light overwhelmed him at the moment. He opened the door to his dorm room and walked down the hallway. Mn. The only one who got an A* in the maths test. He wanted Mn. Sure, they wouldn't exactly be termed as 'friends', but he's the closest thing Minho has to one.
Mn heard the knock on his door and wondered who it was at this time of the night. It was 1:03. He went up to the door and and looked through the peephole. Minho? He opened the door, and before he could say anything, Minho threw himself into his arms.
"Min-"
The moment he felt those strong arms wrap around him, Minho lost control. He clung onto Mn like a lifeline, burying his face in the crook of his neck. His sobs echoed in the quiet room, his body shaking from the force of his emotions. And to Mn, the sound of his sobs seemed to pierce him deeper than the lightning. He buried his face into Mn's shirt, shoulders shaking with silent sobs. He's never cried like this before, but something about seeing his calm, collected expression makes the floodgates open. The last time he broke down like this wasâŠwell, he didn't remember.
"I-I'm sorry," he chokes out between hiccups, voice muffled against Mn's chest. He's too embarrassed to meet those piercing eyes, but at the same time, he craves his warmth and stability. "Just needed someoneâŠ"
He takes a deep breath, trying to regain some composure. When he finally looks up, his dark eyes are puffy and red, and filled with vulnerability rare of him. "Please don't think less of me, Mn."
Mn's expression softened, his hand went up from Minho's back to his face, wiping away his tears.
"Of course notâŠnot for this. Come inside," he says, pulling Minho inside the room once he realized they were still in the doorway. The door clicks shut behind them, loud thunder accompanying the sharp sound.
"What happened, Minho?"
The soft gaze, the gentle tone of someone who's supposed to be his rival, opened the floodgates once more. Years worth of bottled up emotions came out at once as he broke down in his rival's arms. Mn could do nothing but rub his back and hold him close. Minho didn't need anything else. He just wanted to be held. Minho's arms squeezed him tighter as his sobs grew louder. He buried his face in his chest so deep as if he wanted to be lodged in his ribcage, right next to his heart.
"They- they think I'm so smartâŠI'm notâŠI'm not smart or anything.."
More sobs.
"I can't do this anymore, Mn, I can'tâŠI'll die at this rate. I just wanna disappear and stop worrying about all this."
"Oh, Minho.." Mn felt a strange protectiveness over the boy nestled so comfortably in his arms. His heart felt warm knowing that Minho came to him out of all people, but at the same time, he felt sad, knowing that Minho didn't really have anyone else.
"What if I don't get a job? What if adulting is harder than I thought? What ifâŠwhat if I don't graduate?"
The last question was followed by hysterical sobs. If it weren't for the thunderstorm, Mn was sure he would've woken up the whole floor with his cries.
"I-I c-can't do this anymore, MnieâŠI can't..p-please.."
"Okay..okay..we'll take a break for a while, yeah?"
"C-Can'tâŠhave to..study..I have to-"
"Minho."
Minho looked up from Mn's chest, eyes teary and red.
"How long has it been since you slept?"
"I- I don't know, Mn.." He said Mn's name with such softness, suchâŠvulnerability.
Mn reached to wipe away Minho's tears and reached out to grab some tissues for him.
"Here."
Minho shakily took the tissues, mumbling a small 'thank you' as he wiped his face. He slowly got up, his feet somehow being able to carry his weight now as he went to the bathroom and washed his face. He came out of the bathroom to see Mn making tea.
"Y-You don't have to," Minho said, his voice sore and shaky from all the crying.
"Sit down, Min. Talk to me, okay?"
He obediently sat down, quite unusual for him. But right now, he just wants to hand everything to someone else. And he didn't think he'd be so open with Mn.
"I just..I got an A instead of an A*. I wasn't disappointed with it because it was a super tough exam, but my mom called and said a lot of things. Like I'm wasting my potential. I didn't hear the rest, I was so tired. Don'tâŠpity me. Please."
"I won't. I don't. And you're not wasting your potential, okay?," Mn started, handing Minho a cup of tea. "You're one of the best students here. And one slight drop in your grade doesn't make you stupid. Besides, A is such a good grade."
Minho sips his tea, the warmth of the teacup a comfort to his cold hands. He listened intently to Mn's words, as if memorising them. He felt a hand on his shoulder and looked up, a small smile finding its way to his lips.
"You're good enough. I'm proud of you."
"You're good enough." The words rang in Minho's head, louder than the thunderstorm outside. He felt safe. He felt like he could admire it again. He sets down the teacup and hugged him again, pressing a soft kiss to his shoulder.
"Thank you."
taglist:
@forever-atiny
#stray kids#stray kids x male reader#stray kids x top male reader#bottom stray kids#bottom skz x top male reader#sub!skz#sub stray kids#bottom skz#top male reader#dom male reader#hwang hyunjin x male reader#hwang hyunjin x top male reader#bang chan x male reader#bang chan x top male reader#lee know x male reader#lee minho x male reader#lee know x top male reader#lee minho x top male reader#changbin x male reader#changbin x top male reader#felix x top male reader#felix x male reader#seungmin x male reader#seungmin x top male reader#jeongin x male reader#jeongin x top male reader#han x male reader#han jisung x male reader#han jisung x top male reader#hyunjin x male reader
141 notes
·
View notes
Text
Title: Harsher Than the Bark
Pairing: Javier Peña x f!reader
Summary: Javi makes you feel things youâve never felt before, will never feel with anyone else, but he canât â or wonât â love you.Â
Tags: smoking, probably shit spanish, smut, angst, fingering, squirting, unprotected PiV, probably unrealistic amount of orgasms (like 4 idk itâs kinda vague, choking/breath play, Javi has dom vibes but itâs not like BDSM heâs just bossy, one âgood girl,â begging, religious imagery because Javi makes you see god, biting, that one position from that one scene â you fucking know the one, excessive cursing because itâs me and I refuse to change, Javi is a cuddler, emotionally unavailable!Javi, references to past arguments/past hookups because this has been an ongoing thing and I love to start in the middle of a story. Based on 505 by Arctic Monkeys, (being annoying and posting at 5:05 am) No beta we die like Oberyn WC: 1.4k
A/N: I kind of wrote this in a fever dream, I literally don't even know if it's any good. It's sort of a planned three parter, but I'm not putting pressure on myself to finish it, so each part can stand completely alone. If I write all three, it'll be called In the A.M. as in In the Morning but also because they're all based on Arctic Monkeys songs. Hope you like it <3
Series Masterlist | Javier Peña Masterlist | Main Masterlist | AO3 | Kofi
The knife twists at the thought that I should fall short of the mark Frightened by the bite, though it's no harsher than the bark
Javier Peña is probably the best fuck youâve ever had in your life. Actually, scratch that. Heâs definitely the best fuck youâve ever had in your life. He makes you feel things youâve never felt before. Coming three times in one night with him is the absolute bare minimum. He loves it when you scream for him. Does everything in his power to get you a noise complaint from your neighbors.Â
And God is he gorgeous. Long and lean with strong arms, broad shoulders, a tiny waist, a perky ass. His nose looks like it was carved off a greek statue and placed on his face. Heâs got these big sad brown eyes, full lips framed by a neatly trimmed mustache, and a jawline that could cut glass. Youâre probably in love with him.Â
You put out your cigarette when you hear the door open, lay back in the bed and stare at the ceiling. Itâs five in the morning, but you never turn him away. No matter what time.Â
âShouldnât leave the door unlocked, hermosa,â Javiâs deep drawl drifts across the room to you.Â
âKnew you were coming. Didnât wanna have to get up.âÂ
Javi drops his shirt on the floor and crawls up the bed, draping himself over you and pressing a kiss to your lips. âNo es seguro, cariño. Anyone could walk in.â (Itâs not safe, baby).
âLo que sea, Javi.â (Whatever, Javi). You roll your eyes at him. âItâs locked now, no?âÂ
Javi drags his lips along your jaw, nips at your throat, drags a finger through your folds. âWet already, baby? Were you thinking of me?âÂ
You were, but you kind of hate him for being right. âFuck you, Javââ his name drags out into a moan as he stuffs two thick fingers inside you. He pumps his fingers in and out a couple times before curling them up into the spongy spot inside you. You throw your head back in pleasure, back arching and hips thrusting so that youâre practically riding his fingers.Â
He wraps the fingers of his free hand carefully around your throat. âMĂrame.â (Look at me). You force your eyes open and heâs so close you could count the individual hairs in his mustache. You look into his eyes with so much adoration, so much love, he has to look away. He squeezes your throat tighter and you close your eyes again as your cunt tightens on his fingers.Â
He rubs circles on your clit in time with the thrust of his fingers, feeling you wind tighter and tighter around him. His hand on your throat isnât blocking air, but you still canât catch your breath. When your body is so tense it feels like youâll shatter into a million pieces, he releases the hand on your throat. You gasp in a big breath and fall apart in his hands. He works you through it with firm, slow strokes.Â
Just as you feel yourself start to come down, he picks up the pace again. He places the hand that was on your throat on your pelvis, holding you down on the mattress and rubs his thumb in quick, hard circles on your clit. He pumps his fingers into you hard and fast.Â
âCome for me, hermosa. Come all over my hand.âÂ
Your vision whites out and you let out a near agonized scream as you clench around his fingers and gush all over him. Javi pulls his fingers out of you and slips them into your mouth. You suck the taste of yourself off his fingers.Â
âGood girl,â he growls in your ear. He stands up, leaving you panting on the bed, and strips his jeans off. He strokes himself as he gets back on the bed, hand still slick with your cum. He pulls your thighs over his and you wrap your legs around him. He drags his cock through your folds and watches you shudder.Â
âYouâre soaked⊠You want me to fuck you?â The bastard is teasing you. You whine his name. âLas palabras, cariño.â (Words, baby).Â
âNeed you, Javi. Please. I need you so bad,â youâre desperate, aching for him. He taps your clit with the head of his cock one more time before lining up with your entrance and pushing in. You let out an absolutely wrecked moan, voice breaking as he bottoms out.Â
He leans forward, planting his hands on either side of your head and pulls out before plunging back down inside you. He has your hips tilted almost vertically, driving you down into the mattress with every thrust. You dig your nails into the meat of his shoulders and drag them down his back, making him groan into your neck.Â
Fucking Javi is always a religious experience. You find salvation and damnation at once in his arms and you swear you see God himself when you come on his cock.Â
Javi doesnât slow down despite the way you clench around him. He often works out his frustrations in your body, tries to bury them and himself in you.Â
He pulls out and flips you over by your hips, sheathing himself inside you the second youâre on your knees in front of him. He fists one hand in your hair and pulls your back to his chest, wrapping the other hand around your breast.Â
You lay your head on his shoulder and let the pleasure wash over you, lose yourself in it completely. You only exist in this moment, the pleasure and pain melding to form something divine inside you. He bites down on your neck and you come on his cock again, and you think you scream. You arenât quite sure.Â
Javi groans as he slams into you one, two, three more times and collapses forward onto the bed, trapping you under him. He stays inside you for a few more moments, nuzzling your neck. His lips catch your ear lobe as he pulls himself out of you and falls to the bed beside you. He wraps his arms around you, curling his body around yours, and holds you close.Â
You lie in silence for a long time, just listening to each other breathe. This has become routine. Javi has a bad day at work and takes it out on your body in this bed. He never talks about it, about why he needs such a frenzied release, but you can guess.Â
Sometimes, though, heâll talk about growing up in Laredo or about a nice dinner he had with Connie and Steve or about an op that went well. Sometimes he lets you see beneath his hardened exterior.Â
The truth is that youâre definitely in love with him. But Javi wonât ever be with you, not in the way you want. Javi wonât commit to being with you because this, what you just did, is all he thinks he deserves and all he knows how to do. He loves making you feel good, takes pride in making you come over and over and over. He loves making you moan and whine and scream for him. He loves it when you tell him how good he feels, how perfect he is, how pretty his cock is. He just doesnât love you.
He always curls up with you, snuggles you close, clings to you. But if you bring up wanting something more, something defined and committed, he fucking runs. He can give you himself physically, but he canât let you near his heart because it is rotten and caving in and no good. And you? You are good. He canât touch you with that. The dark and broken part of himself. He canât infect your good with his bad.
You know this and yetâŠÂ
A tear slips from your lashes, trailing down your cheek and falling onto the arm tucked under your cheek.Â
âCariño, Âżpor quĂ© lloras? (Baby, why are you crying?) He sounds⊠fucking anguished. âÂżTe lastimĂ©?â (Did I hurt you?)
âItâs nothing, Jav.âÂ
Javi sits up, grabs your face in his hands and makes you look at him. âItâs something. Dime.â (Tell me).Â
âIf I tell you, youâll just fucking leave again, Javi. I canât do this right now. Just hold me, please? Be here when I wake up?âÂ
Javi searches your eyes for a moment. You arenât sure what he sees there. Heartbreak? Resignation? Desperation? Whatever it is convinces him.Â
âSure, yeah. I can do that.âÂ
#Javier Peña#Javier Peña fics#Javier Peña fanfiction#Javier Peña x reader#Javier Peña x you#Javi Peña#Javi Peña fics#Javi Peña fanfiction#Javi Peña x reader#Javi Peña x you#Javi P#Javi P fics#Javi P fanfiction#Javi P x reader#Javi P x you#Narcos#Narcos fanfiction#pedro pascal#pedro pascal fanfiction#pedro fics#pedro pascal character fanfiction#pedrostories
301 notes
·
View notes
Note
i came across âi saved you a seatâ and immediately fell in love with your writing đ„čđ„č
could i request a jamie tartt x fem!reader where they both like each other but theyâre both too scared to act on it so theyâre kinda snappy to each other? and then angry love confession đ„čđ„čđ„č
only if you have the time!! love your writing so much <3
thank you my lovely, lovely anon <3 i loved the idea of this so much, but i'm not super happy with it, i think because i often struggle to write enemies to lovers in a oneshot without feeling unrealistic?? i hope you still like it and are happy to suspend some reality with me haha | 2.4k words!! tw language
"Tartt!' you bellowed across the dressing room, enjoying the way most of the team jump at your sudden commotion. The man himself just turned his head to you nonchalantly, and it only fuelled your fire, "Your fucking car is blocking me in."
"Right," he said, prolonging the sound, "And y' telling me because...?"
"Just move it, dickhead," you sighed, still in the doorway, "It's a bloody eyesore and all."
"She is a classic. And classy. Two things you wouldn't know anythin' about."
You snorted at that one, but refused to take the bait, flipping him off as you marched out of there and back the way you came towards the car park. Jamie was sure to make you wait but he would move it eventually. He wasn't a total monster.
Actually, everything would have been easier if he was a total monster, like he used to be. Now he was nice to everyone and smiled all the time and had way better hair - but he still couldn't bring himself to change his attitude towards you. Always at your throat.
You stood waiting for him, head buried in your arms that rested on your car. Eventually, you heard footsteps, but you didn't bother to raise your head.
"Where'd y' expect me to move it? No spaces, love."
"Just out of the way," you groaned into your forearms, "God, Jamie, I need to get home, would y' just do it?"
"No need to get funny 'bout it," he said and you lifted your head to glare at him to find him smirking, "What're you so desperate to be home for anyway?"
"Fuck off, Jamie," you said, staring out at the pitch behind him, "What is your problem?"
"My problem?" he said incredulously, taking a step towards you to force you to look at him, "I asked about what you were up to, Y/N, what the fuck?"
"I just don't need this right now, Jamie."
"Don't need what?"
"You!" you exclaim, pushing yourself away from your car and even closer to him, "Prancing about being a total dick to me and positively lovely to everyone else. I haven't got any fucking patience left for it, I need to get home because I just got a call that my entire kitchen is flooded, if you must know."
He just stared at you. Unflinching. You sighed, defeated, no venom left in your tone.
"Just move the car, Jamie. Please."
âYeah, fuck, okay,â he said, voice small, âIâll move it, alright?â
You went back to your previous position, arms on the car, this time with your head in your hands. It really shouldnât bother you this much, but you decided to blame it on your shitty day rather than Jamie himself or the way you found yourself looking at him sometimes. The way you wished heâd just be nice to you, even for a moment. You werenât an idiot - you knew that youâd never been nice to him, that he had no reason to change. It was just too terrifying - the idea of trying to be nice and him deciding he hated you anyway. Or that maybe he was never the prick and it had been you all along. All of it was too much.
A soft hand on your shoulder brings you out of your head, and you see Jamie standing sheepishly in front of you. You stared at his hand for a moment, but heâs quick to remove it. When you check, his car is categorically not out of your way - heâs moved it so that itâs blocking the exit instead. You felt the horrible sting of tears welling up and ducked your head to hide them.
âWhat have I done to you?â you ask miserably and his brow furrows before he realises what youâre talking about.
âNo, fuck, no,â he mutters, leaning his head back to sky in frustration, âIâm not- Look, let me drive you home. Youâll need someone else there if your kitchen is flooded.â
So that was why he hadnât moved his car properly - it was ready to go. He was ready to go, keys still in his hand, despite the fact he hadnât got his bag or anything. One of the pesky tears fell and you brushed the traitor away with harsh fingertips.
âYouâre in no state to drive, yeah? I wonât even talk the whole way, just let me-â
He trails off. Youâre tired to the bones. It would probably take more effort at this point to convince him not to come with you, so although you canât work out his angle, you nod your head and start walking over to his car, only stopping when he bounds ahead of you to open the passenger door for you. You furrow your brow at him, but climb in nonetheless and the two of you are speeding off into the setting sun before you know it.
The quiet bothers you. He said he wouldnât speak, and he was sticking to it, but you were desperate to fill the awful silence.
âWhy are you doing this?â you ask, hating the way your voice sounds with the lump still in your throat, âYou hate me.â
Jamie laughed then, but it wasnât the same sound that echoed through the corridors at Richmond from the dressing room. It was much harsher than that.
âYâ mean, you hate me,â he argued, âThatâs how we work, ainât it? You hate me so I get under yâ skin for fun and then yâ hate me more.â
You stared at the side of his face, even though his gaze didnât falter from the road ahead.
âYouâŠdonât hate me?â
âTrust me, youâre fuckinâ annoying as shit sometimes. And Iâve tried. But no. Canât seem to.â
Canât seem to? That was such a weird way to put it. You shook your head as you returned your own eyes to the road.
âYouâre such a dickhead to me, Jamie,â you murmured, hands rigid in your lap, âI know you used to be a dickhead to everyone including me, but now youâre nice to everyone except me. Itâs shitty.â
âYeah, cause youâre shitty!â he exclaimed, slapping a hand against the steering wheel in frustration, âI get that I used to be awful, fuckinâ hell, but itâs like yâ remind me everyday. Like I canât escape it with you.â
âI was willing to give you a chance when you came backâŠâ
âNo, yâ fuckinâ werenât. Nobody was. And it took ages, but I won âem all over except you.â
You stayed quiet for a few seconds. You hadnât been ready to give him a chance at first, he was right, but it had been months since Jamie came back. You wondered if it had always been a chicken and egg situation - both of you rude to the other for no other reason than the otherâs rudeness. Than the fear of trying kindness and having it rejected outright.
âI couldnât be nice to you when you came back,â you eventually speak up, picking at your nails and staring down at them intently, âWhat if I was nice and you were still a prize prick? It was fucking scary. I donât like getting hurt.â
He scoffed, and you felt some of your vulnerability coming back to bite you already.
âYâ donât like getting hurt? But you had no problem hurting me every fuckinâ day, huh?â
He was practically snarling by the end of your sentence. You felt sick. This is exactly what youâd been afraid of - show a little vulnerability at how you struggled with the new him, and have it thrown back in your face. The walls were rebuilding themselves as you spoke.
âWhy the fuck would my shitty little comments hurt you, Jamie? Thought yâ didnât give a single shit what I think of you.â
âWell, maybe I fuckinâ do!â
âDo what?â you said, volume rising along with his.
He groaned, a strangled sound, as he pulled the car over at the nearest kerb a little too quickly for your liking. You reached out to the door handle to steady yourself, glaring at him when you came to a stop and he turned the engine off.
âIâm not doinâ this now. I said Iâd take you home without talkinâ so letâs just do that, yeah?â he said, seething. There was no way that was happening now.
âNo. You tell me what you mean so we can finally settle this.â
Another strangled groan, this time accompanied by him bashing his head into the steering wheel and then leaving it there, muttering to himself. You continued to glare at him until he finally turned his head to look at you, temple still against his hands.
âFine. Fuckinâ fine,â he said angrily, leaning back in his chair and making proper eye contact with you for the first time since youâd entered his car. You could feel your heart thrumming in your chest, in your ears, âYouâve always been so fuckinâ headstrong, and you donât take shit, and youâre nice to everyone but me-â
âYeah, because -â
âJust listen for a minute, would ya?â he scowled and you shut up despite yourself, âLook, I donât need to tell ya that youâre fuckinâ fit. You just are. Always had a thing for you, back in the day, but it was jusâ physical, yeah? Cause youâd shout at me and look all hot doinâ it. Now Iâve been back for like, what, three months? Anâ itâs like a full blown fuckinâ crush or something. I hate it. I see you being all kind and shit to someone and then I come along and you say somethinâ all snarky and I just-â
You were hanging on his every word. When he hesitated, you couldnât help yourself.
âYou just what?â you said softly, leaning closer to the center console without even meaning to. He sighs, but that same frustration seems to have dissipated during his speech, and now he canât look at you again, instead fiddling with a loose thread on his shorts.
âI just go all weak. In me knees, and that. Itâs so stupid.â
You know your eyes must be comically wide right now, breath coming out in silly little pants.
âYou have a crush on me? You snap at me becauseâŠyou like me?â
âGod, donât say it like that,â he moans, dramatically banging his head against the steering wheel again to hide his face, and his blush, you can safely assume, âHow embarrassing is it to have a crush on a girl who hates my guts?â
âUgh, are you really going to be so self-deprecating that youâre going make me say it?â you whined, watching when he peeks out from the steering wheel at you with one eye, âFine. But if this is all some joke and youâre horrible after this Iâm getting out of the car.â
He nods eagerly, sitting back up again. Heâs such a puppy, you wonder how youâve ever been anything but nice to him for a second.
âI used to have an awful thing for you,â you said quickly, closing your eyes when you see his whole face light up, âWhen you were a prick. You were awful and I still wanted to jump on you any given second. That really was embarrassing. So when you came back, I swore to myself I wouldnât let myself like you because I knew then Iâd end upâŠliking you. If you get what I mean.â
âYouâre saying you snap at me because you like me too?â
âLiked, Jamie,â you corrected, wagging a stern finger, âAnd please keep in mind that I hadnât been with anyone for a while and my judgement was poor.â
âWell yeah, if you liked me when I was terrible, like. But I donât think your judgement would be that bad if yâ happened to like me now?â
It was the first time youâd ever heard his teasing, flirty tone turned on you. It was very difficult not to get flustered and though you tried, you could tell you were failing when you tucked your hair behind your ear.
âThereâs a lot of bridges to cross before we get there,â you said, but thereâs a smile hovering on your lips, âWe need to learn how to be nice to each other without being scared weâll end up ridiculed.â
He nodded again, dutifully. You get used to agreeing with him.
âHow about we start by getting back to my house? This flood thing is real, yâknow?â
âOh shit!â he exclaimed, turning the engine back on suddenly, âSorry, Iâm sorry, I genuinely forgot.â
You laugh a little as he pulls back out onto the road and continues driving, gratified when he chuckles too and its closer to the warmth you usually hear in his laugh. Itâs never been because of you before.
"You are classy by the way. And a classic. Some of the insults I've used for ya have made no fuckin' sense. And I'm sorry."
It meant more to hear that than you could possibly tell him now. Maybe some other time, when a few more things were mended, you could tell him that his apology meant everything to you.
"I'm sorry, too. Really sorry, actually. I think we've both...god we've been so unfair to each other."
"We have, yeah."
"I quite like your car really."
He just smiles at that, warmth flowing from it as he looks over at you from his spot in the driver's seat to make sure you've seen it.
Soon, you found the car enveloped in a far more comfortable silence than before for a while, only interrupted when Jamie pulls up to your house after a few directions from you to get the right one. You sit in the car for a few moments, both waiting for the other to speak, until you decided to just go for it.
âIf we can fix this stupid kitchen, maybeâŠâ you felt yourself scared to offer, still worried about being turned down or rejected or made fun of, but you pushed the anxiety down into the pit of your stomach and continued, âMaybe you can stay. For a cuppa. We could, y'know, actually talk to each other? See how long this truce lasts?â
âMhm, okay,â he said, but when you sneak a glance at him, heâs grinning like a madman, âOkay. Guess I could stay for a bit.â
âJust the one cup though, yeah?â you confirm, but youâre grinning too, and you hope heâs noticed.
âOne cup. Wouldnât dream of two.â
(but he stays for four, including one with breakfast the next morning, and somehow, the two of you are pretty damn nice to each other the whole time)
#jamie tartt x reader#jamie tartt#ted lasso x reader#ted lasso#jamie tartt fanfiction#jamie tartt x you#jamie tartt imagine#jamie tartt oneshot#jamie tartt fluff
610 notes
·
View notes
Text
Docm77 as well as MANY other have fallen face first into this media-related ragebait and I'm here to explain why you shouldn't be mad at Doc/be upset but not "wish ill things on your child" upset, which yes. I did see. Shame on you person. Shame.
Ahem.
So upon waking up in the UK/Europe, we didn't necessarily have the build up to the presidential election due to timezone conflictions, so for many people (myself include) 6am to 9am we woke up to Trumps victory speech on the trending tab. I'm not joking, that's how people going out and how I found out
There have been a mixed bag of reaction but Doc is getting hate for saying, and I quote "Lol... Really USA? This is what I wake up to?"
Alot of people say this was insensitive, and excuse my language and I don't mean to upset, it's because they're Americans and (again apologies) Americans have been socialised into to being quite emotional about politics and read into everything that happens regarding it. Which is something that the rest of the world kinda looks down on America for, because it makes you look like 'cultist' (this isn't my viewpoint however we do discuss this alot in certain class and this is how other people see you)
Doc's reaction is not trying being insensitive, because to literally anyone else it's a reaction of speechlessness and confusion. Which the majority of people saw it as.
Because we all woke up to that.
Doc isn't trying to be insensitive, but I do understand why people think he's being insensitive, his confusion and speechlessness is being written off as dismissive.
People are saying the word 'lol' is worth cursing at his family over
1. That's not tolerated here. Don't be sending threats or harassing him.
2. Lol, has cultural differences in meaning.
In the US countries, it means 'haha funny!' or it can be a dismissive reply (in text format)
But in other countries, lol, is also used as a 'your joking right?' or 'pretty funny joke'. An example being 'lol what?' (funny joke, but what does it mean)
Many people think the lol is dismissive but it's not. He, along with many other actually didn't believe Trump had won yet and learnt about it in the worst way possible
Secondily he made a comment about dealing with "another 4 years of insanity" which people also thought was rude.
But sadly, it's actually true to alot of people outside the US. We only see the "funny" or mildly annoying bits of your media (because of filters and blockers) and sadly, I'll admit we don't know the full picture other than the Americans insanity over politics
It's literally what your known for in the UK.
So the '4 years of insanity' is definitely an exaggeration but is definitely true in some way. We get the bud of all the "Americans drama" and it's mostly the insane stuff, heck that's how flordia man and ohio became memes. So it's not unrealistic for us to see the next year's as insanity because it is. Just very dramatised
Also quick point, people are saying that because of this he doesn't support the LGBTQIA+ and to that I say; Rendog + his entire fanbase respectfully
Now the big boy issue. Doc said he won't talk about politics and Palestine yet talked about politics now? Why?
Why didn't Doc talk about Palestine?
And for similar reasons as to why alot of other people didn't talk about it, including myself. Not out of fear or something. It's because of the scams.
Being "late" to new media is frustrating especially when it comes to supporting people, and genuinely by the time I heard about Palestine I saw the scams first.
Doc HAS a younger audience demographic, who are more likely to get scammed because they do look very realistic and they even have fake followers and everything.
Why not get one from a reliable source? Well what is a reliable source? Because if something goes wrong people will blame you because you endorsed them.
Why not go to charities? Sadly their are now currently many scummy charities that do take alot of the donation percentage. (including some gofundme pages)
So to address this, Doc just didn't address it. And YES he admittedly should have explained why, instead of leaving it up to people to infer because as we can see, some people took it the wrong way. And I can see how they took it the wrong way, he didn't communicate it very well.
But to me and many others, the intentions were clear and that's why their were no comments made. However I do believe he shouldn't have used the excuse about not wanting to talk about politics, because that does have consequences long-term. And that why I'm here today
And this brings me to my final point.
People are forcing opinions out of other people and when their opinions don't aline they get mad about it. So to avoid this people either refuse to comment or have their own methods of tackling it or simply blurt it out because of pressure.
A modern example of this would be Kim. K and her son (ik shocking). Her son talked about supporting Trump and she got mad about it, told him to take down the videos and allegedly made him sign a contract saying to never make a video about politics.
Kim. K is actively avoiding being pressured into speaking by not responding and keeping it in.
However, another example of this would be Vivziepop. Due to recent events regarding her shows being leaked and the recent elections that damaged the integrity of women's rights and healthcare, she broke down on twitter.
Letting some of her frustrations spill out. This was encouraged by people personal targeting her, and basically harassing her to the point of breaking down.
These same types of people are trying to do the same to people like Aismey, Doc and even Jimmy Solidaritygaming because of thier social media presence, and when they have a reaction but then change their opinion it's suddenly a "well you didn't say that before!"
So to be clear, the circumstances of Docm77 is brought upon by miscommunication and ragebaiting. Dont go and threaten his family, voice your concerns respectfully in this troubling time (even if you're frustrated, you should project that onto someone else)
IF YOU SEE ANYONE RAGEBAITING REPORT IT
And have a good night ya'll
#Me remember how I started off as a funny lil guy who made flower Husbands ideas and reacted to fanart#And now I'm putting my sociology and media studies qualifications to use. Explaining things because others don't#mcyt#hermitcraft#life series#dom77#hermitcraft docm77#hermitblr#hermitcraft smp#hermitcraft doc
38 notes
·
View notes
Text
Anduin still gets more respect and dignity than Sylvanas ever did and I'm still mad about it.
Aight, the new WoW trailer stirred up some old animosity that I have to get out lest it fester.
The problem I've had with Anduin for the past few years is something that isn't even strictly his fault, and is just symptomatic of how shitty the writing staff is. In theory, Anduin is an interesting bit of flavor for the Alliance. Someone who was raised in a very turbulent time in the Alliance's history, gone through some shit when he was too early to handle it and is plagued with self doubt because of it. All of this complimented by Velen's vision of Anduin's future going down two very different roads.
Alas, the problem is in execution. Because what we are left with in practice is a character who goes through comparatively less than other legacy characters (Thrall being raised as a slave, Jaina losing her home and loved ones regularly and Sylvanas with fucking everything) but who, by the time Shadowlands rolls around, insists that he is the one suffering the most and everyone else needs to get over themselves. And that wouldn't be so bad (hell, in Shadows Rising, it's kinda treated as a genuine character flaw) but that's not the case because WoW treats Anduin like the moral barometer of the franchise for many years now.
There are multiple examples of this throughout, but the biggest culprit is all across BFA and Shadowlands, where Anduin is made to understand the hardships that Sylvanas and the Forsaken have suffered, most of it by the Alliance's hands, and just shuts it down with "Everyone suffers, stop hiding behind your trauma and rise above it," and because BFA is framing him as the hero and Sylvanas as the villain he gets away with it. In the fucking Sylvanas book, he has the gall to say Sylvanas had a better life than him because she knew her mother and calls her selfish for committing suicide. And of course the book frames Anduin as being in the right about all of this because they decided Sylvanas holding him captive was the time they would even allow to let her reach out to someone and hope they understand her. The deck was always stacked against Sylvanas and in Anduin's favor in terms of audience sympathy.
But then, what happens in Shadowlands? He gets dominated by Zovaal, stabs the Archon (doesn't even kill her), maybe kills a bunch of unnamed npcs off screen, and fights his friends. Not a single tally to add to his body count while he was a puppet. And when he is freed from Zovaal's control, he doesn't lose his support system, he doesn't lose the respect of his loved ones or his people, and he's not put under pressure to just be okay again.
AND YET!
He still goes on this self imposed exile of his, and has been on it for over half a decade at this point, because he is just too haunted by everything he's 'seen and done'. Things that we as the audience don't really see. So in practice, the justification for all this on screen angst is so painfully weak. And yes, there's no wrong way to respond to trauma and there never will be, and Anduin's trauma responses are far from unrealistic.
But compared to Sylvanas, Anduin is giving a great deal more respect and dignity by the narrative for, comparatively, much less. Sylvanas was enslaved and forced to murder her countrymen (onscreen too, we MADE HER DO THAT in warcraft 3) and when she was finally freed, she had no support system besides her rangers and Nathanos, she was feared by her former homeland who only accepted her help out of desperation and was hated and distrusted by enemies and allies alike way before she might have done anything to deserve it. The game even leans into the idea that the Sylvanas who suffered all this trauma isn't the real Sylvanas and we just needed to restore her soul to have the pure pious ranger general back (barf). And she still has to toil away in superhell because the writers were too chickenshit to fully backpedal on the deliberate character assassination the sexual predator on staff forced upon her.
"Oh, but M'Kay! That's the writers fault, not Anduin's! You can't blame him for all that."
Maybe not but a lot of the issue here comes from the fact that so long as the people who enabled this inequity of care remains on staff (IE fucking GOLDEN) this won't stop. So what choice do I have but to loathe the byproduct of this fuckery when it's being shoved in my face like this? What other way could I possibly interpret this disparity other than as misogyny?
#wow#world of warcraft#sylvanas windrunner#anduin wrynn critical#though honestly its mostly christie golden critical#and yes I will probably remain salty about this until the day I die
221 notes
·
View notes
Text
You know what can be the dopest thing right now?
Kiyora getting an offer from Re Al.
Many of you might think that I've officially lost my mind, but hear me out, okay?
While dwelling upon the current match and plausible possibilities of the match, Kiyora seems to have slipped past my eyes or more precisely, his assist to Kaiser seems to have slipped past my eyesâhis pass was amazing.
Kaiser's goal in itself was a very amazing one, but the main force who made the goal happen was Kiyora, you know, and that's exactly the point I'm trying to makeâKaiser's goal wouldn't have been possible if it wasn't for Kiyora.
Considering the fact that Kiyora was still debating who to supportâKaiser or IsagiâI can safely say that he didn't know about Kaiser's impact magnus beforehand, and yet he was able to provide the exact kind of pass unlike Ness who knew and even practiced alongside Kaiser.
And this type of quick observation and accurate judgement is very cool, you know.
You see, curved shot isn't something Kaiser invented, it is an actual type of shot which I've majorly seen during free kicks or penalty kicks, so I was very impressed when Kiyora was able to look through thingsâthat Kaiser didn't mis-kick but rather it being an attempt for a curved shotâand being able to make a pass where the ball comes to a still end.
Now why was I so impressed?
'cause a curved shot usually happens (at least, that's what I have seen) during free kicks or penalty kicks and what is the state of the ball during those times? Yes! The ball is stationary!
You getting me, right?
Because of the Luck puzzle piece, some of you might argue that it was just Kaiser being lucky that the ball came to a stop. However, personally, I think the Luck piece just represented Kiyora siding with him and that the ball stopping was very intentional.
Why?
Well:
Kiyora has been playing soccer since the age of two, so I don't think that anyone with that much of an experience will make a mundane mistake during such a pivotal point in a very important match.
I understand that under high pressure or during the heat of a moment, whoops-a-daisy do happen even to pros, but Kiyora's demeanour throughout everything was very calm. He seemed too assured for his pass to just be a mistake.
Of course, I also understand that him receiving an offer from Re Al sounds very far-fetched. I mean, Re Al is shown as this really strong and powerful and amazing team in the BLLK Universe, so someone getting an offer from them based on a single match's performance sounds unrealistic.
Besides, if he does get one, then people will hate on him while saying that he is riding off of Kaiser's goal, and that Kaneshiro-san gave him plot-est armour in existence just to wrap him up.
On the other hand, it'll be indeed really dope if he does go to Re Al with Kaiserâhis assist to him has become my favourite assist in the whole series.
Most likely, he'll get an offer from Bastard MĂŒnchen though.
What do you guys think?
44 notes
·
View notes
Text
I didn't even watch "WISH" yet because in my country it will only be available at january, but people are saying it's a bad cliche so I probably won't watch at the cinema.
The thing is, even though I am a hopeless romantic, not everything has to have romance. There are princess who are perfectly fine without a prince, like Mirabel, Elsa, Merida, Moana and Raya(I do kinda like the idea of Raya with a girl, just not Namaari). But we were so robbed of seeing Asha and the star boy(he is literally a staR so I don't doubt Disney would call him StaN or something like that, so his name is Stan from now on, I am gonna call him like that, is easier than star boy). Asha and Stan had the potential to be the next Tianaveen and Rapunzel&Eugene (I don't know their ship name). The concept arts are the cutest thing I have ever seen. Also "At All Costs" (bop) would have been a love song between the two!!! Them singing it man. The pain I will feel when I don't see them passionately sing it, very "I see the light" coded, in the actual movie. Somehow, now is not feminist for a strong female character to have a male partner by her side. Like...This doesn't make sense! You can be a strong female character and have a man at the same time! Have y'all forgotten Mulan and Shang? Anna and Kristoff? Ariel and Eric? Jasmine and Aladdin? (There are more examples and I could go on all day, but you got what I meant already) I hate Disney for throwing good ideas at the trash and playing safe just for money(like Hobie Brown/Spider-Punk said "it's a metaphor for capitalism"). And as the guy looked blonde with blue/green eyes in the arts I have seen, and Asha is a black latina, they lost the opportunity of having a biracial couple ACTUALLY DONE RIGHT (Pocahontas and John Smith don't count, he is a collonizer with the most common name in the world, she deserves so much better). Like, if the thing is show how inclusive you are by having a black latina female protagonist for little girls to see and feel represented in a good way, you could have increased that feeling by making someone fall in love for her. Little girls would feel like they are beautiful and desired/desireable in a positive way and that they worthy of being loved and love and be with whoever they want to be with, even someone who has a different skin color.
I am also mad because we could have seen Disney's first evil villain COUPLE with King Magnifico and his wife, the queen(still don't know her name, sorry). Can't you guys imagine the HITS, THE FIRST PLACE OF BILLBOARD HOT 100 WORTHY songs, they would proportionate us? Even if only one song, it would be enough for me. But someone thought having a female villain would be anti-feminist and they discarded an original and authentic idea, which is what Disney built its empire on the first place. Come on Disney minorities don't want to be portrayed as those unrealistic superior beings, they want to be portrayed as real human beings with emotions, struggles, qualities and flaws. Having an iconic female villain like you guys always had(like Maleficent, Cruella De Vil, Ursula, Mother Gothel, Lady Tremaine, etc) and set her up with an iconic male villain(like Gaston, Doctor Facilier, Shan Yu, Jafar, Hans, etc) it would have been top notch, god tier. King Magnifico and the queen could have been like the Gomez and Morticia of evil. You could address so many topics by it. Like the kingdom being ruled by evil would have been a great social critic of some politicians out there, for example. And we could have had an iconic final boss battle between Asha and Stan VS Magnifico and the queen.
Anyway, what I mean by this is that if someone has fanarts or just ANY CONTENT, of Asha and Stan, tag me, reblog this or comment, I don't care, just warn me, because they are my new obsession. I will also write a fanfic about this movie with these ideas, but only after I have watched the movie so until them, please feed my hyperfixation in Stasha (Star boy/StanĂAsha), I'm begging y'all
#disney wish#wish 2023#princess asha#wish asha#king magnifico#asha x star#asha x star boy#asha x stan#asha x star guy
61 notes
·
View notes
Note
Did you notice how some AFO fans who used to like DFO Theory started to hate it and suddenly attack the same fans? Maybe this is due to generalizing DFO as OOC? I once saw someone saying that "to respect someone else's opinion, just remember that you have also changed your opinion several times" but these people only seem to attack what they once liked for no apparent reason, other than "nooooo my beautiful AFO is not like this đđ"
Yes, it is a trend that I did notice when I first came into the fandom that a lot of people would say they are former DFO. Then say how they realize how 'stupid' the theory was and unrealistic. As if suddenly now they are the pinnacle of rational and totally know everything about a fictional character.
I never claim my interpretation is the canon, because I know I could end up wrong. That just how it is and I'm always willing to adjust my headcanons with the source material. But honestly I think the AFO fans that liked DFO and now hate it only changed because other people started being hostile to the theory.
Like popular writers, artist, and all kinds of people begun to sneer at that interpretation beside those in the little community. Seeing it as just trying to 'soften' AFO or as something gross to do to the MC. Or worse some people like DFO but hate AFO so when the former DFO see that they change their mind to double down on disliking DFO as they LIKE AFO. As they see it as like you said 'softening' him to make him palatable. The theory itself, however, is only parentage.
Like it still be valid to assume AFO had Izuku with Inko from a One Night stand, and Hisashi Midoriya is just the guy that stepped up for single mom Inko. We have evidence of there possibly being more aware but if don't like it then that an option too.
DFO theory is simply the theory that Izuku Midoriya is RELATED to All for One. That is the bare bones minimum, I don't care if you are OH HE LOVES HIM or HE AN EXPERIMENT or whatever you want to believe. None of that really registers much to me nor should matter, like DFO can be used in many manner of ways.
The ones that seem to hate is most... Well they tend to either want Virgin All for One (for sexual reasons) or want him to be purely asshole(for sexual or just because love assholes that can go either way) or maybe fear of being the outsider. There also many who claim that every time he does a more evil act that it PROOF he never father a child.
Like tell me you never had a mentally unstable parent that does outrageous things. Anyone can have a kid, it sure doesn't take much for a guy to one and done for various reasons. We also literally been confirmed now he can change his face, DNA, and has actually done so. Also we've seen how he is with Yoichi, literal proof of his ability to love it just dark and twisted.
It why DFO is so interesting since if is the child of AFO it an avenue to explore his character. How WOULD AFO raise a child now that we knows what happened with Yoichi? Is he aware of Izuku? Does he care? We've seen him vault family and say how precious family is.
But then, none of that matters to the former DFO fans who now are DFO hates. They just don't want to be the weirdo outsiders believing in something that isn't even 'canon' and as I've said many times. I'm not exactly going to stop writing or enjoying it even if it NOT canon.
No one can dictate what I like and enjoy. And those people projecting hatred once they loved it?
I hope they know it ok to just like different things and change your mind. They should be happy with what they like instead of just wanting to be 'right'.
#izuku midoriya#all for one mha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#dad for one bnha#Dad for One#dad for one mha#yoly's talks
35 notes
·
View notes
Text
Junicrane/Starstruck Ramble
I will not be brief, all under the cut
To clear some things right off the bat:
No corpse, no proof with Juniper. Obligatory this is set in a canon where he's alive and adjacent to the agency in some way.
Reggie & Juniper are just gay to me, but I don't mind any interpretation of their sexuality
The games are set in 1967/68 to me (based on a couple bits in game) which is before it was legal to be gay in America at least (1971), which is relevant to how I interpret canon as being somewhat grounded in reality, despite unrealistic elements.
This is just an insane amount of headcanons/elements of and AU all culminated into one post. I will talk about some headcanons like they're just facts because they are established in my head, and it saves me over explaining literally everything, however I will explain some parts a little bit for clarity.
Alright. Actual beginning of the ramble:
Juniper is a character to me who had gotten so lost in his job as an actor and a social presence that in the end his whole life revolved around that 'role'. Because of this, by the time he's put into the situation where he's around the Agency, he basically knows nothing about himself, though he doesn't realise at first. Furthermore, what little identity he had has changed in so many ways. He's no longer a beloved famous actor in the prominence of public light, he's legally dead and he tarnished his career just before he was supposed to die, with the bonus of that making him lose the majority of his estate. From that, he also has horrific facial scarring from the electrical burns from literally having his face fried. I believe a friend of mine made a post about this a while ago (I also think they were the first to think it up also), but, to me, Juniper has a permanent trimmer in his right arm (aka his dominant hand) from the electrical current and it is messing with his nervous system.
All in all, he's not doing great, but he's too proud to admit that he's not doing great, because if anything, what's left of his ego is all he has as a defense since he's deep in unfamiliar water.
Before ending up around the agency (I have multiple interpretations of this, so I'm just going to bring it up generally), he'd never actually seen Reggie, and his only impression of him is a single voicemail, which was his only reference he had to later impersonate him. Juniper probably has very little feelings other than the ones he projects onto him because of Phoenix and that, at the very least, he's physically attracted to Reggie to some degree (that's like the beginning of how everything else would tumble into place in this sort of interpretation at least).
And on Crane's side? His feelings towards Juniper are probably very intense and muddled. On the one hand, he adores musical theatre, and that's his now ex-favourite actor. The thought of just casually being around him blows the bit of fanboy in him away at first because THAT'S the GUY, plus the inklings of a celebrity crush which still poke at him. And then there's the rational side of him, which knows Juniper has committed absolute atrocities on the side of Zoraxis, and hates him for that. Then there's how much Juniper comes off as an asshole at first because he refuses to cooperate with anything the Agency tried to put in place. He finds Juniper endlessly frustrating, and yet he's stuck working with him since, afterall, he's the one who knows the Agency's history with Juniper the best. I imagine him acting a lot like how he does IEYTD 1 around Juniper.
At this point, I'm just describing the pitch for a romcom.
I think the start of their relationship with one another largely started with Juniper trying to wind Crane up. It was a way of getting his attention, and I don't think Juniper knows why he's so dead set on that at first, because I don't think he realises he has a crush on 'this grump' at first. (I think that's actually the fun part about these two, because it's almost like a role reversal of the celebrity crush dynamic. This ex-big name actor has a TERRIBLE crush on an average joe and it is KILLING HIM.) But of course the Agency keeps them together because Juniper is at least conversing with Crane, so it's a start.
Through one way or another, they actually get talking casually, at least mildly at first. It takes Juniper a long time to fully deconstruct the wall he's built, and the thing is, Crane isn't the one trying to deconstruct it, at least at first, because yeah, Juniper realises if he wants Reggie to actually like him in any way, he can't keep winding him up. So they talk. Small talk at first, something rhythmic and almost easy to keep to a script. And over time that turns into actual conversations. Genuine ones in which Reggie rips out the occasional one of his jokes which Juniper is endlessly endeared about. The way he smiles just before he makes them, like he wants to chuckle at what he's about to say before he says it. That's probably when Juniper realised that he does have some vague crush on him, and that it wasn't going away.
This is what kickstarts John I can't-buy-you-things-to-impress-you-so-acts-of-service-it-is Juniper to do little things for him. It mostly starts off as him trying to make Reggie his tea how he likes it. However, the nerve damage in his arm makes that hard, as the weight of the kettle and trying to pour is hard all of a sudden. And he refuses to accept that, so he tries for a very long while. Long enough that Crane would go to investigate what was going on. And when he does see Juniper leaning over a cup with the kettle as he uneasily tries to pour it, and when Crane asks Juniper responds so matter-of-fact that his intention is nothing but genuine. And it catches Reggie off guard because Juniper hadn't done anything like that up to that point, and his very apparent vulnerability is so clearly on show.
It shifts something between them.
From that point on, conversations are longer, more familiar. Both of their attitudes soften, and Reggie makes more jokes. Juniper learns how to better use his left hand while strengthening his right back to a point where it could be used again. Slowly, they're both spending time with one another not because they have to, but just because they can. Little bits at first, not too far outside what they already were doing, but those little bits turned into long bits to a point where the other person's company was genuinely desirable.
As time passes, Juniper probably realises that he doesn't genuinely know much about himself or what hobbies he's into, because he never really had the time when he got big, and his home life in his youth wasn't bad, but it wasn't picturesque. I think Reggie would pick up on it, and absolutely try to introduce him to some things he's into. Some things stick, other things don't (corn husking very much stays Reggie's passion, and John will go with him sometimes because it's him, but it's not something he strongly cares for). Crane introduces him to a lot of music, and it's something that becomes a staple between them, with tracks they listen to more than others (tragically, I know relatively little about 60s music so I couldn't really say what). Occasionally they dance, never anything intense, think slow dancing, but the closeness is nice.
Through all of it, Juniper is battling the worst crush of his life, and he can't stand it, because I think he struggles to read people since he doesn't have anything like a script or a director to refer back to, so he has no idea if Reggie likes him back or if he's just desperate for that to be true. I think because of that any sort of confession between them would be incredibly raw, not only because of the time they live in making it hard for them to be truthful about how they love, but because it's a complete show of Juniper who's worked to be this better person. I don't exactly know how that would go, mainly because I don't have one set version of their dynamic, this post is just a generalisation of main consistent points.
Reggie does like him back, because he's gotten used to Juniper being just this guy, not a figure in the public eye, not a Zoraxis lackey, and not any sort of Agency operative (despite being under their care to some degree). He's someone he genuinely cares for, because they've given one another the time of day to learn one another, and I think because Reggie was a field agent, he was a lot better at reading Juniper than Juniper was at reading him. Eventually Juniper's company becomes something he could see around him for the rest of his life, and I think he accepts that he likes Juniper a lot more gracefully.
I think any affection directed at Juniper would at first be met with him feeling a little muddled. Reggie was a very physically affectionate person when he could be, and sure the initial flirting with one another came with the occasional little touches, but everything now was so deeply intentional. I also don't think Juniper would almost ever get over the novelty of being able to kiss him, or many other gestures, because it made the fact that they were together so very real, and it was great. I do think it comes easier to Reggie, and it's a big way of showing how much he cares, so it's important for Juniper to try and show it back because he knows how much it means to the other.
I like the idea of them eventually living with one another, too. I think Juniper would have always had a quiet little daydream of sorts where he does just live a domestic quiet life, and he can with Reggie (well, as close as they can get between the Agency and Zoraxis always being at odds), and he loves that, and he loves him, and it's immense.
I think they cook for one another a lot, it helps Juniper work on his dexterity in a controlled environment, which means a lot because it's a huge point of insecurity (that and his scars). He does improve, and Crane is proud of that and shows it and it's great. I also think they'd probably cook together too, because they can deal with being in the kitchen together and they work well with one another. It's probably a good way for them to unwind because over time they can do it in relative silence.
As I said before, I also think music is a staple in their household, and that Reggie listens to things on vinyl almost all of the time because he likes the background noise. Sometimes Juniper will catch him chuntering along to the music which he finds endlessly endearing. I wouldn't put it past his dramatic ass to also join in to fluster Reggie, but I also don't think Reggie would mind that terribly because Juniper has listened to the music enough to know the lyrics, and that's huge to him.
I don't think they are without rough patches, no relationship is, but I think the good part about them is that they're willing to talk about it (... eventually). They're used to long conversations, and while they're often less fun conversations, they're needed and they know that, and it works out.
Alright. I think I'm done for now. I haven't mentioned everything, but this definitely got the worst of it out of my system. If you ever want to hear any specific thoughts my ask box is open but other than that, behold my general dynamic for these two which has been festering in my head for years. I think they're great
#ty right-agent for explicitly telling me that this would be welcomed you a real one#i had a massive babble to my friend abt what if they all feed me to the hounds for speaking#and he said âgirl that fandom is like 12 people big they need you to speakâ and yeah that also helped#i have a hard time talking if I'm not asked/prompted to that's why i adding tags is great for me. that and i like the format#anyways.#THESE TWO.............dear lord can you tell I have been unwell abt them forever..#this is propeganda (/j) for them. btw. please you have to understand the potential here. it's so good.#it's slowburn <- my (probably) demiromantic ass cannot handle romance without a build up and this set up is perfect (it will never happen)#also i find it easier to write ANYTHING between these two from Juniper's perspective because i find it easier to get into his head#idk reggie is like the gay version of the: what is he thinking of? i could take a bear in a fight. audio ive heard.#whereas with juniper i have him trapped under a microscope#im going to tag this now so i can use the remaining tags to RANT#ieytd#john juniper#reginald crane#junicrane#starstruck#i expect you to die#<- being BRAVE!!!#when I get really excited i start getting like this internal shaking feeling and uh. yeah this rant started that#the worst part abt that is it also triggers my tourettes so like. double whammy. excited about blorbos? jail :(#but. yeah I uh. yeah. sorry this IS so long..I did warn but . AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHHAUUUUUUAHHHHHHHHHHHHH#also i did this rant in 2 parts. last night and this morning so yeah uh. yeah.#god im so messed up about these two#make me a boat by the family crest came on while wroting this and while it's mainly a roxanix song to me......AUUUUUG.....#i struggle to find music for these sillies because they have such a specific vibe to me amd I've not quite managed to find something which -#- genuinely feels correct for them and it drives me up the WALL#GOD NIGHT SHIFT JUST CAME OF SHUFFL.....all my ieytd songs are coming out to drive me up the wall.......#FINISHED I've been adding tags as I've gone alonga#thank you for reading hope you enoyed and if you didn't im sorry
26 notes
·
View notes
Note
Hiiii, I absolutely adore your art style and QPR Narilamb au! I don't think I've ever seen one before! I also love the way you characterize the well... characters!
Uhhhhh, I guess I should ask an actual question, tho right?
So now that the Lamb sees that people like the "everything he hates about himself" side through the Goat, will he loosen up a bit? Or will he double down?
Once again love love love your art and au!
Ooh another question, got any OCs?
Hello!! Thank you!! I'm glad you like how I characterize them, I've gotta admit it's all very self-indulgent so whenever someone says they like my characterizations my brain breaks for a hot second lmfao
As for the question..... I think Lambert more shuts down initially, and then eventually lightens up. Like I think Lambert kinda sees that the flock becomes fond of the Goat quite quickly and they kind of distance themself from their followers. Like they do all the stuff that they've been doing but they seem more disengaged, and they go out on crusades more and more often, stay out for longer, and more and more frequently come back having died or been seriously injured while they were gone. And Narinder probably picks this up pretty early but doesn't really know what to do to help until it gets worse. Eventually, they do snap back into being more present, which goes along with their whole arc of learning that like, being imperfect is normal, the high standards they have for themself are incredibly unrealistic, they're allowed to take breaks and be a little selfish sometimes, etc etc, and I think in part the Goat also helps them with this- when Lambert eventually warms up to them, of course- and so does Narinder. But the way I imagine this most likely going is "Lambert starts to tune out and become distant and needs support to tune back in" kinda vibes. Sidenote: I didn't think that was going to sound that heavy until I wrote it out. Uh... sorry bout that.
As for OCs... I do have OCs, but I haven't posted about them in a really long time. Most of my OCs are in some way attached to the same story, which is a longtime work in progress of mine that I do intend to turn into a large scale comic one day, but... it's a very big project. Like, unreasonably big. That said, their (not current) information is available on my artfight, which can be found here. Not all their info on their artfight profiles is accurate because I've recently done an ungodly amount of worldbuild overhauling, rewriting, and contemplating of "hmm maybe this wasn't a good idea....." and those also aren't my only OCs, but... that's the best answer I can give ya for that. They exist, but current versions of them are not anywhere on the internets and I don't intend for that to change for a while (not until the start of the comic is ready, actually)
Anyways. Thank you so much for the ask, it makes me so very happy that you enjoy my art and my AU, and I hope you have a lovely day!!
#cj the random artist says words#i guess this will eventually be in the qpr narilamb au tag that doesnt exist yet#and i do in fact have ocs theyre just. under construction x 500000000000#i do hope you enjoyed this extremely long paragraph of shenanigans
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
Mediation - Chapter 7 - TIGmas Day #9
Welcome to the continuation of the transition from "I don't know karatekels, this may be a bit farfetched" to "oh, this is obviously just crack fiction to get two TIG characters to bone the same woman".
And YES, I've accepted that and I hope you all enjoy this very convenient, likely unrealistic plot. Or maybe I'm crazy and you think it works? Let me know!
Previous Parts: Prologue | Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6
---
Mediation
Chapter 7: Reconciliation
---
Cashâs POV:
The uncomfortable silence brought on by your departure stretches on, neither man willing to be the first to break it. Terryâs body is still somewhat turned towards him, but he stubbornly refuses to look Cash in the eye.
Cash, meanwhile, is still reeling from the new information that has come to light in the past hour or so. Learning that Terryâs adamant refusal to hear him out over the years wasnât because he hated Cash himself, but because the betrayal had shaken him to his core has Cash lamenting the other manâs stubbornness. All this time, Cash thought that Terry had been angry with him, but in reality he was mainly angry with himself, at the changes that the hurt Cash had caused had drawn out of him. Knowing that the younger man had resorted to excessive force â and to the point that cases had been dismissed because of his mishandling of suspects â after years of being a compassionate cop by his side was particularly disturbing. That wasnât the Terry McCain heâd known, the one close enough to be a brother to him.
And then there was you.
Cash knows that you arenât in love with him the way you are with Terry. He isnât overly bothered by it; your relationship was still far too new for either of you to be in love with one another. But to hear from your own pretty mouth that you felt enough for him that you were unable to choose between him and Terry, that you needed them both in your lifeâŠ
Well, that has him happier than he can remember being since before he went to prison.
Sure, it may have complicated things between the three of you even more than their already twisted dynamic, but for the first time in over half a decade, someone firmly wanted him in their life. Of course, the sex had been amazing, but there were plenty of other avenues he could go down to scratch that particular itch if he had to. Being genuinely cared for, despite all the things heâs done, was far more priceless to him. And you all but insisting that Terry had to make peace with him if he wanted you to remain in his life was just icing on the cake.
âSo, is she right?â he asks, in a far better mood and more than willing to break the silence now that heâs had a moment to reflect on everything that today has given him.
âAbout what?â Terry asks stubbornly, still looking at the floor. Cashâs gaze softens as he looks at the pained expression visible in the younger manâs profile. He had been happy to show the new kid the ropes when heâd first joined the force as a rookie, but theyâd connected as friends so quickly that Cash had assumed that the mentor/mentee dynamic had disappeared shortly into their time together as partners. Apparently, the same had not held true for Terry.
âDo you actually hate me, or do you just hate what happened, and how it went against the way you used to see me?â he presses, trying to be gentle. Trying to rile the man up was a viable strategy when heâd thought that Terry was angry, but the depth of his hurt required a different, more delicate approach.
âHow many different ways can I say I donât want to have this discussion?â Terry snaps, turning his body away from Cash. He tries to ease the tension by incorporating the manâs one known weak spot: you. He privately hopes that you wonât be mad at him for it, should you ever find out the specifics of this conversation.
âLook, I could be way off base â youâve known Y/N much longer than I have â but she seems like the type to swallow that key over letting us free before weâve done what she wants.â
ââŠNo, you arenât wrong about that,â Terry reluctantly admits after a moment of silence, chuckling to himself. Cash smiles but says nothing; if the past few years had taught him anything, it was the importance and value of patience.
âSo, she knows what you want to tell me, huh?â Terry finally asks him, looking at him out of the corner of his eye. Cash stays still, not wanting to spook his friend into putting up his walls again.
âYeah, she knows,â Cash says quietly, staring at his hands, twirling his ring around his finger. âHad to prove to her that I wasnât lying about last night when she came in here guns a-blazing.â
âOh. Oh.â Terry says, and Cash assumes heâs thinking back to last night, judging by the way the manâs dark brows furrow. âSo she didnât know about this until today? Thatâs probably why sheâŠâ
âJumped into bed with you so willingly? Yeah, probably,â Cash jokes with a snort. Hoping that the other man isnât too offended by his cavalier reference to the night before, he tries to soften the blow. âI shouldnât have slept with her. It wasnât right,â he adds with a frown.
He doesnât regret the decision to have you â you both needed it, at least once â but he does wish it hadnât caused Terry so much pain, that he hadnât had to see it with his own eyes.
âWhen have you ever made a decision based on what was right?â Terry sneers, and Cash sighs, staring over at the other man until he looks him in the eye.
âDo you really discount every good decision Iâve ever made based on one mistake, Terry?â he asks, genuinely curious.
âOne mistake? Please. You lied to me for a year. We were partners, we were best friends; I trusted you with my life, Cash, and I had to watch you throw yours away.â
âDo you think I donât know that?â Cash snarls, standing and turning to look down at Terry. Much like the younger man, he didnât want anyoneâs pity either. âDo you think I donât know that I fucked up my life for good, that I didnât screw you over in the process? I know, Terry! Iâve had five years to sit with my regret; some days I canât think of anything else.â
âSo then why did you do it?!â Terry explodes, springing up off the couch and shoving Cash in the chest, nevermind that the cuffs made him follow right after as he stumbles back. âWe were good, we were solid, we did the job right! We were on the same page about everything!â
âLook at how you ended up reacting, Terry! I had to keep it from you.â
âBut why do it in the first place, Cash?â Terry presses, a clear note of vulnerability and desperation ringing in his voice.
âI needed the money,â he replies, bracing himself to tell the man the reason heâd done all this in the first place. Running his hand through his short grey hair, he idly wonders if it will be enough to make Terry reconsider his attitude towards him.
âAnd you thought going against everything youâve ever stood for was worth making a few bucks?â Terry scoffs dismissively, trying to cross his arms across his chest defensively until the cuffs jingle, reminding him of their presence.
âI didnât have much choice! I didnât have time!â
âWhy?! What wasnât there time for?!â
âMy Ma,â Cash breathes, his eyes closed.
He feels Terry still next to him. He canât even hear the sound of the manâs breathing, and presumes heâs stopped.
 âIâd forgotten when she died,â Terry murmurs apologetically after a moment. âIt was a beautiful service.â
âYeah well, glad you got to see it,â Cash hisses, his heart filled with vitriol as he recalls memories of being denied day parole, both to visit his dying mother and to attend her funeral. Devlin still had enough sway with some of the people working in the prison to ensure his misery, even after his death.
âIâm sorry, Cash.â
There is a prolonged silence as they each take a moment for their grief.
âThe doctors told me that there was a new experimental treatment for her type of lymphoma, but it was expensive. And it was taking her so fastâŠâ Cash explains through gritted teeth, trying to keep his tears at bay. He hadnât cried about his mother outside of a therapistâs office before, not once, not even when sheâd died.
âYou couldâve come to me!â
âAnd what could you have done, Ter? I wasnât gonna put that on you.â
âYou at least could have told me â I couldâve talked you out of being an idiot.â
âAnd thatâs exactly why I didnât. Look, Iâm not proud of what I did. I regret it like you wouldnât believe. It lost me my job, kept me from spending the last bit of time I had with Ma, from saying goodbye⊠it lost me you.â
Terry looks over to Cashâs face at this last confession, his eyes vulnerable and yet untrusting, and Cash forces himself to hold his gaze. Terry had to see that having to keep the truth from him, to lie and steal and go against everything that had brought them together had been torture for him as well.
âWhen everything went down the way it did⊠I assumed I had lost you long before,â Terry confesses in a broken voice, sitting down on the couch again and taking Cash with him. âI felt like I didnât know who you were anymore, and I didnât know how long that had been the case for.â
âFor what itâs worth, I was very careful about what jobs I took on â nothing that would risk innocent civilians getting hurt. I know that doesnât make it okay, but hopefully you see it as a little less evil.â
âDid⊠did you know about Devlin? How deep into it he was?â Terry asks, and Cash has no problem telling him the truth. Itâs all heâs wanted to do for years, after all.
âI didnât know much, just that he was willing to give me work in exchange for a cut. I knew he pinned some of his crimes on me to extend my sentence, but I didnât find out about how deep it went until afterwards.â
âWhy didnât you try to fight those charges? The ones you knew were Devlin?â Terry asks, still frustrated and with his sense of abandonment on full display.
âMostly because I didnât think anyone would believe me, and I didnât have the money for a good enough attorney to prove it.â
âWhy else?â Terry presses, picking up on a second reason.
âI didnât want Devlin or any of the other guys to take it out on you.â
Terry stiffens. âWhat?â
âHe visited me in prison once, in â93, a month before he was officially announced as the next Chief, to brag and gloat, mostly. Said he had to make sure his reputation stayed squeaky clean, and suggested some ways to make sure I kept my mouth shut.â
âDevlin was planning to kill me? Even before all that shit with DiMarco went down?â
âHe was at least willing to threaten me with the possibility. Knowing what I know now, he probably wouldâve done it. If you were getting a reputation as a violent cop, it wouldâve been easy for him to make it look like a mob hit.â
Terry grimaces, privately processing this new bit of information, and Cash allows him a moment or two. Heâs more grateful than ever that he hadnât pushed Devlin to see whether or not he was bluffing; if he had, Terry would most assuredly be dead â maybe taking you out too.
âI donât like who I became when you went away,â Terry admits with a frustrated sigh. âI was just so angry that youâd willingly turned against everything we stood for. I took it out on any lowlife fucker I came across, I had no mercy; I didnât care. I couldnât take it out on you, so I took it out on anyone I could before they were behind bars along with you.â
âDid you ever come close to giving me the chance to explain? I know you got my letters.â
âNo,â Terry says, spitting the word out forcefully. âI couldnât bring himself to see you behind bars, to see what you truly were, or what I thought you were at the time. Y/N was probably right â I wasnât scared of facing what youâd done, I was scared of what Iâd done.â
âWhat do you mean?â Cash asks, confused.
âI mean that you accepted that what you did was wrong and moved on. You got rehabilitated, you got therapy, you worked on yourself⊠I havenât. I got so caught up in this weird vendetta against crime in this city that I just⊠I couldnât bring myself to think about what I was doing, or why. I just got worse. Y/N helped keep me from really crossing a line, but only just.â
âAh, our little beacon of morality on the path to reconciliation,â Cash says fondly. The weight thatâs been lifted off of his shoulders â off of his soul â is immense, and he thinks he sees a similar change in Terry as well. Finally, everything was out in the open between them.
âShe jumped at the chance to help me with the scrap metal take down the second I said it might give you reason to hear me out, you know,â he adds, hoping they can perhaps bond over the well-meaning complication that you presented.
âShe was talking you up way before that,â Terry corrects him, giving an affectionate smile at the thought. Cash isnât naĂŻve enough to think that the smile is for him, but heâs hopeful that one day it might be.
âWait, what?â he asks, having just processed what Terry had said.
âSheâs been trying to get me to see reason since the day she met you, maybe even before that.â
âHow? Why?â
âItâs just who she is. She sees something hurting someone she cares about and she tries her best to fix it, regardless of what anyone else has to say about it.â They both chuckle, thinking back to their memories with you and your tenacity as you tried to force them to confront their situation.
âBefore we get off-topic⊠are we good?â Cash asks hesitantly. He tries not to get his hopes up; all he had wanted from Terry all this time was for him to listen, and now he had. Forgiveness was a separate matter altogether.
âNo.â
The word rings out clearly, and this time the rejection hits Cash full on. But he braces himself, focusing on his breathing until the tightness in his chest abates somewhat. You can lead a horse to water, but you canât make it drink.
âI mean⊠not yet.â
Cash forces his gaze over to the other man, wanting to confirm the meaning behind Terryâs addendum, and the man is giving him a soft smile.
âI â really?â he asks in disbelief, and Terry barks out a laugh.
âAlright, fine; weâre not good, and never will be,â Terry jokes, and Cash rolls his eyes dramatically.
âPiss off,â Cash snaps with a scowl that doesnât reach his eyes. Inside, his heart feels like it could be coming back to life. âYou just bounce back awfully quick for someone whoâs held a grudge for the better part of a decade.â
Terry shrugs nonchalantly in response, the movement tugging at Cashâs wrist. You werenât due to be back quite yet, but heâs looking forward to getting out of these cuffs.
âTer, I⊠thanks,â Cash says sheepishly, uncomfortable with being vulnerable for so long. The two men awkwardly clap each other on the back with their free hands, and an awkward silence resumes once more.
âY/N is probably going to take every second of the hour we agreed to,â Terry points out off-handedly, though a wicked grin is starting to steal across his face. âThatâs not for another twenty minutes. Plenty of time to give her a nice surprise to come back to â as a thank you for all of her meddling. Whaddaya say?â
âOh, absolutely,â Cash says with enthusiasm. The two immediately set to work, and a warmth blooms through his chest as they work together again for the first time in ages, even just for something as juvenile as a prank.
âSpeaking of Y/N⊠what are we going to do about her?â Terry asks as they continue setting up their prank. Cash sighs, pausing to run his hand through his hair. It wasnât the ideal solution, but he doesnât think there is one unless they can find a way to clone you.
âIâll step aside,â he offers, and he means it sincerely even though it hurts. âShe wants both of us in her life or neither of us, and the two of you have had more time to develop a relationship. She cares about you enough to push you to finally hear me out; itâs the least I can do for the two of you.â
âCashâŠâ Terry says, pausing a moment to keep his resolve. âI was an asshole. Iâve been an asshole for years. You deserve someone that gets you and is willing to fight for you, and⊠if something was meant to happen between the two of us, it probably would have by now,â he admits reluctantly.
âTer, you just started tolerating being in the same room as me again less than ten minutes ago. Iâm not doing anything that might jeopardize that.â
âIt wonât,â Terry insists, but he hesitates at the look Cash gives him. âEven if it does, maybe itâs my turn to sacrifice. Youâve been through enough.â
The two men bicker back and forth as they continue their work, an eye on the clock telling them that you were due back within a few minutes now.
âShe might not want either one of us,â Terry muses pensively as they crouch behind the kitchen counter, getting into position. âSheâs stubborn, and probably not willing to choose if sheâs scared the other one will walk away.â
âI think her killing us both because of this is a more likely option,â Cash retorts with a low chuckle that he immediately cuts off at the sound of a car door slamming shut outside. You have returned.
âSo we let her decide who she wants, and the other will accept it?â Cash confirms, whispering now as they listen for your approach.
âI donât think sheâd let it happen any other way,â Terry hisses under his breath, right before you open the front door.
âAm I about to walk into a bloodbath?â you call from down the hall.
Maniacal grins steal across both of their faces.
Readerâs POV:
âHow the fuck was I meant to react to this, you idiots?!â you snarl at both men sitting on the couch before you, and you can tell that theyâre just barely keeping up their guilty routine, their shoulders shaking as they try not to burst into laughter.
You scowl at both of them, contemplating clunking their heads together.
The house had been ominously silent upon your return, and as soon as youâd rounded the corner, the pizza boxes that you were carrying dropped to the ground (though they thankfully remained closed).
The living room was a wreck.
The sofa and chairs in the living room had been overturned, the blinds were crooked, and various objects had been knocked over. Your heart had sunk down to the aching pit in your stomach â you didnât see any blood, but there was no sight or sound coming from either man that you could detect. A surge of adrenaline accompanied the panic and dread growing inside you, and youâd screamed out for both men, frantically running deeper into the house to search for them.
Nothing else in the house had been disturbed, so you had sprinted back to the front door to throw your shoes back on to go look for them. How could you have been stupid enough to leave them alone? If either of them was seriously hurt, youâd never forgive yourself!
âGoing somewhere?â
Youâd frozen halfway through lacing up one boot at the sound of Terryâs voice, a sense of dread threatening to overwhelm you. If he was the one here and talking in Cashâs house, that meantâŠ
âT-Terry?â you had called out in a weak voice, still unable to bring yourself to turn around, afraid of what you would see.
âYeah, sweetheart?â came his answer in a soft purr, the darkly flirtatious tone startling you enough that youâd turned around to face him, seeing him leaning up against the wall in the hallway leading back to the living room and kitchen. Forcing your body to breathe somewhat regularly, you had tried to give him a closer look. He didnât seem to show any signs of a struggle on his body, but he seemed far too relaxed, except for his eyes, which were almost feverishly bright as theyâd stared over at you.
âWhere⊠whereâs Cash?â you asked in a high, squeaky pitch, uncertain if you even wanted the answer. Terryâs devious smile only confirmed your fears.
âDonât worry, doll. I took care of him.â
You had stumbled back slightly at his words, not able to do more than gasp for breath, and Terry made no move to come after you.
There was a tense silence between the two of you, and you didnât know what to do with yourself, with Terry, with any of this.
The silence was then broken by a disembodied yet oddly familiar snort.
âYou canât tell me she actually bought that.â
Terryâs shoulders sagged, the vicious expression dropping off of his face.
âWell now weâll never know,â heâd huffed with a scowl, turning to speak to someone around the corner.
âI â what?â you had babbled, your heart stopping when Cash came into view, unharmed and still cuffed to the wrist that Terry had hidden from your view.
Theyâd both given you nearly identical amused looks that were quickly wiped off their faces at your screech of absolute fury. Youâd charged at them, then, spending the next few minutes cursing them out and trying to swing at them, but they had been frustratingly agile in evading your movements, even joined together as they were.
Men were absolute monsters, youâd decided then, growling at them and shoving them back to the couch which had been returned to its proper state.
It seems that the distraught expression that had stolen across your face as you reflected on the past few minutes is too much for either man, both unable to keep their laughter under wraps any longer, going to pieces until you literally hiss at them, feeling so angry you could spit poison.
âYou two are absolutely unbelievable,â you snarl, and both men have the grace to at least look mildly sheepish. âYou almost gave me a heart attack! Why would you do something like this?!â
âWe thought it would be funny,â Terry mumbles, averting your gaze and reaching his free hand up to nervously scratch the back of his head.
âWhatâs the big deal? I wouldâve thought youâd be happy to see us working together!â Cash adds cheekily, utterly unabashed once more. You shoot him a nasty glare, but it only makes his smile grow.
âI left for one hour to give you the chance to grow the fuck up and actually listen to one another. Did you even bother to do that? Or did you just decide on this temporary truce so you could fuck with me?â
Your hands are on your hips as you sneer down at them, still absolutely furious. Youâre vaguely aware that beneath the seemingly bottomless well of anger, youâre relieved to see that neither man is hurt.
âOh please, the setup only took fifteen minutes,â Cash scoffs, and Terry visibly winces, likely anticipating an explosion from you.
âCash, shut up,â Terry suggests firmly, though his eyes are locked on yours with a pleading expression. âWe talked things out, Y/N, I swear,â he says softly. Something about him seems lighter somehow, you notice distantly, and you know that heâs telling the truth.
âSo what, Iâm supposed to believe that six years of grudges just disappeared within the span of an hour, and youâre both in cahoots again?â you ask skeptically, crossing your arms across your chest.
âOf course not,â Cash says with a roll of his eyes. âBut we came to enough of an understanding to put our differences aside and get our revenge on you for being so damn pushy.â
âExcuse me?â you hiss venomously at the older man, but he merely smiles broadly at you, so you turn your gaze over to Terry. âIs that true, Terry?â
Terry clears his throat nervously, refusing to look at either you or Cash.
âWeâre very grateful that you didnât give up on either of us, Y/N,â he says carefully, clearly wary of setting you off further. âWe just thought that this might help us breeze past the awkwardness, lighten the mood, show you that we can be in the same room without killing each other, yeah?â
You narrow your eyes at both men, still suspicious.
âSo thatâs it then? Youâve done it? Kissed and made up and all that?â you ask sarcastically, raising an eyebrow.
Before you can register the movement, both men have tugged you down so that they can plant kisses to your cheeks like theyâd rehearsed it a hundred times.
âNow we have!â Cash informs you cheerily, nimbly dodging your slaps and laughing.
âNot me, you morons!â You exclaim, your face heated as your body responds to being sandwiched between both men. If theyâre telling the truth and are trying to take steps to repair their friendship, youâre going to have to learn to not blush every time they touch you. Especially touching you together like that; it was enough to nearly make you moan.
âWell we sure as shit arenât kissing each other,â jokes Terry, helping Cash secure your wrists when you show no sign of stopping your attack. You wrench yourself out of their grip, still flustered as you look at them from across the room, throwing yourself into an armchair with a huff.
âWell Iâm glad you two are all chummy again; youâll have each other at least, because Iâm never talking to either of you again,â you snap.
âNot a chance,â Cash says dismissively, immediately calling your bluff. âThereâs no way in hell youâll stay away after putting all this work in.â
âCome back over here,â Terry adds, giving you a pleading expression.
âWhy should I?â you grumble, angry that youâre the one on the receiving end of all of this nonsense.
âTo take our cuffs off, for one.â
You donât even blink, retrieving the key from your pocket and throwing it across the room to them. âDone.â
âDonât be grumpy just because you werenât part of the plan for once,â Cash says teasingly.
âThat is not why Iâm grumpy!â you protest, regretting the words as they leave your lips, watching the predatory look spread across the older manâs face. âIâm not grumpy!â you amend, glaring at Cash.
âSweetheart ââ Terry tries to interject, but Cash cuts him off.
âGoing to miss your alone time with us?â he goads you, and Terry smacks him in the chest with his newly freed hand.
âKnock it off, Cash,â he warns the older man. âIâm not trading her out for you, so stop pissing her off.â
âYouâre no fun,â Cash huffs, looking back at you to give you a wink.
Your brain doesnât know what to make of any of this. The two of them were acting so⊠comfortable with one another, even after everything. If you could barely fathom a world in which they managed to make amends and both stay in your life, imagining a world where they were able to joke and flirt with you was an impossibility.
âI â I donât understand whatâs happening here,â you admit rather helplessly, looking from one man to the other.
âIsnât this what you wanted? For us to all be together?â Cash asks innocently, pointedly ignoring Terry giving him a look out of the corner of his eye.
âYeah, but I didnât think that youâd get over things so quickly, joking about⊠you know,â you trail off, blushing furiously.
âI never said anything to suggest I wouldnât bring this up at every opportunity,â Cash leers, and Terry chuckles, sending you for another loop.
âI believe I told you this morning I would be talking about it with you regardless of if we went anywhere,â Terry adds, and is this all part of their dumb prank too? Were they trying to drive you insane?
âYeah but⊠together? In front of each other?â you challenge. âTerry?â you press the younger man, knowing that he had the deepest feelings of the three of you. He gives you a gentle smile in response.
âYouâre stuck with both of us, Y/N,â he says simply, as though all of this could have a straightforward solution. âJust like you wanted.â
âAnd because youâre likely too stubborn or loyal or whatever you want to call it, you wonât want to choose between us,â Cash chimes in with a casual shrug. âAt least not right away, which means we both get to bug you about this whenever we want.â
âOr, I could leave right now, and hate you both!â you return cheerfully, but they immediately see through the ruse, and you scowl.
âSure, sweetheart,â Terry agrees condescendingly. âWhatever you say.â
âSo what, you expect me to endure you both being annoying just for the privilege of your presence?â
âYeah, pretty much!â Cash confirms, clapping his hands together loudly. âGlad weâve worked all that out." You huff dismissively as they both give you wide, smug smiles.
âI give it two weeks before one of us backs out or maims the others.â
---
 Epilogue
---
Master List Here
Like my writing? Support it here!
#Thomas Ian Griffith#Cash#Cash Ewing#Black Friday#Black Friday 2007#The Kidnapping#The Kidnapping 2007#Terry McCain#Excessive Force#TIGmas#12 Days of TIGmas#Smut#Romance#Suspend your disbelief please and thank you#Cash x Reader#terry mccain x reader#terry mccain x reader x cash#fluff#fluffy smut#pining
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
A Comforting Hand
Garreth Weasley x MC! Reader
Summary: After saving the Wizarding world from the danger of Ranrok, life seems to not get any better. Now, everyone has this image of her she has to maintain. Now alone because of the loss of Professor Fig and with issues she faces with her Slytherin friends, she feels broken. Well, thankfully a certain Gryffindor boy accidentally stumbled upon her broken self on a cold winter's night.
Shattered. That's how Y/n would describe herself so far. She lost so much in one year even though she helped so much. She's The Hero Of Hogwarts for Merlin's sake. Yet, she hated the title because of the pain that came with it. She didn't ask for her powers. She didn't ask to be tossed into a war between good and evil. With the struggle, she lost her father figure, Professor Fig, and her best friends, Sebastian and Ominis. It ate at her. Yet, she had to smile for the people and other students. Y/n couldn't even cry in her dorm room anymore. Since she shares it with other students, the façade had to be maintained at all times. No relaxing. That's why she usually doesn't stay there anymore. She can't sleep anyway because of the memories and nightmares that play on repeat. She usually wanders the halls or goes to the Room of Requirement and/or Professor Fig's old office. Tonight was different. Winter has finally shown itself. A gentle snow consistently came down at night now. Y/n felt numb. She tightened her scarf around her neck and covered her mouth and nose. The cold helped her feel something. She needed the grounding feeling it provided her. Y/n was sitting in the court yard for an hour or so. She just sat staring off into space. She heard the sound of crunching snow in the distance but chose to ignore it. The crunching got louder and louder until it was right next to her. She didn't look up. "Well, if it isn't The Hero of Hogwarts. Are you looking for Dittany Leaves too?" Y/n eyes just cast to the ground. She knew the familiar voice. It was Garreth Weasley. She didn't talk to him much but, he was nice from what she heard. She just shrugged and rasped out, "I guess so." Garreth looked at her with a concerned look. He brushed off the snow from the seat next to her and sat, "Hey, Y/n. You doing okay? You seem out of it." Y/n pulled down her scarf and just gave him her perfected fake smile, "All good! Need something, Garreth?" The redhead boy narrowed his green eyes at her, "Yes. I need you to be honest with me. Y/n, I'm asking friend to friend, are you doing okay?" Y/n knew he could see through her so her face dropped, "I would tell but, I don't want it circulated through every house." Garreth set a hand on her back, "Trust me, Y/n. I won't tell. I worry for your well-being. Ever since the end of our fifth year, I could tell you were off. I just could never catch you with a chance to talk. It's kind of hard to find you when you are always on the move and doing something. Everyone else might think you're okay but, I can see otherwise. Let me be here for you." The (H/c) colored girl looked up at him. Tears formed in her eyes. "I lost everything, Garreth. My Professor, my closest friends, everything. I never asked to be here and have this power. I hate being called the Hero of Hogwarts. All I associate it is with pain. I hurt, Garreth. I've been holding it in because it's expected of me. I'm tired. So very tired." The tears were unstoppable as they streaked down her cheeks. Then, she felt warm arms wrap around her and pull her closer to him, "Listen to me, Y/n. You are human. You deserve to have emotion. I'm sorry you have no one to talk to about this. I'm sorry everyone up holds this unrealistic vision of you. I'm sorry that everything was lost but, you aren't going to be alone anymore. I will be here, Okay? I want to be. Don't think I'm using you like others have. I want to help you. I ask nothing in return. Just let me be here for you." Y/n sobbed into his chest. He held her close, whispering that everything was okay and to let it all out.
"That's how you and daddy do together?!?"
A little girl looked up at her mother. Her (E/c) eyes sparkled with innocence. Y/n patted her bright red curly hair and smiled,
"That's right. We have been beside each other's side ever since."
"I hope my love rescues me like daddy saved you! Like a knight in shining armor."
Garreth chuckled from behind them. He walked behind his seated wife and hugged her. He rested his hands on her pregnant belly and kissed her. She giggled. Garreth rested his head on hers and looked down at his daughter who sat on the carpeted floor with coloring pages scattered about her,
"Yes, very much a knight in shining armor but don't be mistaken, I needed Mommy as much as she needed me. When you get as strong and independent as Mommy was, you'll understand. Sometimes the strongest people need help and that's okay. Okay, Millie?"
The girl nodded with a big smile,
"It's equal! Give and take! That's the best way. Never one-sided!"
Garreth smiled with Y/n. For a 2-year-old, they were raising her right. Garreth was thankful that she was as smart as her mother. He remembers the stories his mother told about him at that age. Yet, his little girl is already a smart cookie. He kissed his wife's cheek and sighed,
"I sure hope it's a boy. I'm feeling out numbered here."
Y/n giggled as she rested a hand on her stomach. She sighed,
"I love you, Garreth Weasley."
"I love you, Y/n Weasley."
#x reader#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy imagine#sebastian swallow#ominis gaunt#garreth weasley#hogwarts legacy garreth#garreth x mc#garreth x you#garreth x reader#garreth weasley x mc#garreth weasley x reader#garreth weasley x you
68 notes
·
View notes