#among other stuff too

[ramblinscramblin]

Omg the fanfic authors curse is so fucking real. In other words things got really insane in my life and I’m so sorry I haven’t been posting!! I’m going to get back on my grindset after a day or two, I am determined to finish the last few requests remaining and then hopefully opening my request box back up again soon.

Again really sorry for the wait! I hope you all can understand ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

[ozzgin]

I've been thinking about it but hesitated a fair amount because I'm a fat introvert otherwise: would anyone be remotely interested in a discord server for writers/artists/readers/beings in the yandere & monster genre? Basically, if:

you are an artist/writer and want to connect with other yandere/monster blogs

you are a yandere/monster fan and want to talk to other people about it

you frequent this blog and would like to make more friends

you're really just curious (lurkers are welcome)

Then feel free to join us. You get to share/see cool art or stories from other people, or just casually chat with a bunch of nice people. You can also observe from the shadows. Either way, I can vouch for everyone so far: certified friendly.

Here’s a link to it (or click on the image above)

[galoogamelady]

Reused an old sketch for a quick Drakka design. It's on Teepublic!

[puppyeared]

auggie!!

[juniperhillpatient]

hate it when there’s already enough characters & they bring in a new one to take up all the attention from the already interesting characters. like ok. no one asked

[concord-and-cliches]

to shreds, you say... [from (x), id in alt!]

DON'T LOOK AT THE HAND look at the lil stickers instead <3

+ blood-free version

[cyellolemon]

Mithrun redraw of a panel that made me feel things

[xxplastic-cubexx]

now one of my dreams is you drawing that post https://www.tumblr.com/xxplastic-cubexx/766473599734497280/cherik-are-the-missionary-so-we-can-keep-arguing?source=share

do not think tumblr is ready for raw cherik missionary/doggy style on the dashboard and for that we live in a dark timeline

[i-cast-zone-of-truth]

So something I really like is how Thich Nhat Hanh defines love in Teachings On Love (I mean, it’s Buddhism, but that comes in a lot of varieties, many of which center concepts differently than this one, etc).

Any way. Pretty much the first thing he does in the book is explain The Four Immeasurable Minds: love, compassion, joy, and equanimity. None of those are defined exactly the way i’d have thought, from a culturally Christian perspective. And in more than one of them he stresses the importance of understanding the beloved. In fact, to the point that understanding is a PREREQUISITE to being able to love someone at all well. And seeking that understanding as a skill that can be cultivated.

What I’m getting at is: the more Zhuo Yichen understood Zhao Yuanzhou, the more he loved him. Even more so, the more Li Lun understood Zhao Yuanzhou, the better he was able to love him. Zhao Yuanzhou, although he came at his new friends with a lot of benevolence, hurt them by assuming about them instead of trying to understand. And that’s really real. (Wen Xiao was miles ahead of everyone with this skill).

I’ve tended to think, ok if I love someone I’ll want to understand them. But it’s really turning out to be that understanding is necessary for love that feels like love to the other person to be possible in the first place.

[theswedishpajas]

The man truly can’t take a genuine compliment 🙄

[thegalleonsnest]

Guys, I drew Triffany after 1 billion years of not drawing Bugsnax stuff and it so happens to be during the period of where people are fighting over a tik-tok/instagram post from a social media manager having fun and playing with their toys, and ya'll are arguing about whether or not Triffany x Floofty is canon because of a silly video or if it's even acceptable. Just cool it. We've already had this kind of drama before with other canon couples being shipped w/other characters, we don't need to be drowning ourselves in this stuff again.

Don't make me tap the sign

Also Orb already made a pretty good post regarding this issue, we really do not need to be heated over this, relax.

[xgoldenlatiasx]

moral ocd is one of the worst mental disorders imo because it tricks you into thinking you don’t actually care about a cause or topic you DO really care about and can control literally Every Aspect Imaginable Of Your Life (that’s not even an exaggeration. trust me) and then people on Tumblr have the audacity be like “reblog this or you don’t care about x”

[junkboxcorner]

NOW AVAILABLE - Sha Burger Stickers and Pins (+ other things)

(New art coming soon)

[My Carrd]

[boxwinebaddie]

uncle neen!!! welcome back omg i was so sad to see u disappear </3 hyh !!! i had a question i asked last time but i was wondering since ur rewriting ur fics, are u planning on posting them on tumblr? or on ao3? pls be kind to urself too<33

good MORNING, lovie!!!!~ <3 c':

( or whatever time it is, where you are at the moment! )

i'm very excited to announce that you are my very FIRST new ask message on my brand new blog!

( teri is my first follower; ly ter. <33 o//3//o )

***long overdue UN ramble-bramble under the cut. xx

i /do/ miss my six hundred bajillion ask memes and am mourning the loss of all my online creations and great joys as a deranged southpark fanfiction author and the legacy i built with my tiny, gay weird hands

( i will go into it another time, but i had a very, very frightening bipolar episode surrounding my blog and my role on here as a writer, friend and mentor to you all, deleted all my things in a horrible panic, was able to recover them...but in the -- what i hope is the *very last* -- after shock of my episode...i got very scared, very sad and deleted both my dearly treasured and beloved, beautifully cult followed by many of you and other ghosts of sp style fanatics past ao3 account**

**( with peppermint on it at 13k likes which...oh my god, please be gentle with me, that was a very, very hard blow and rough realization for me and i am sorry to everyone who loved that fanfiction and wanted to go back and read it for posperity and personal comfort...i miss her too; rest in peace, pep, my first born. my sweet girl. </3 )

...and most tragically of all, i deleted my tumblr blog, with over one hundred pages of carefully curated content surrounding my sp aus, your lovely, insightful and thoughtful questions and inquiries, also typed with your tiny, weird gay hands answered, in turn, with mine, torched the ev. of those memories in the final blast and lost my window into your world through that medium...

...which is literally heartbreaking to me, because more than even my silly fanfictions or my blog, what i loved to do, was talk to all of you and read your wonderful messages each day and remind myself of why i should be here and continue to do what i do. </333 :'''c

BUT! my darlings, as ravenstan would say, 'it's always darkest before crimson dawn', for the very first time in several weeks ( which, i fear, and i was, full of fear and horrible self loathing/dread every waking and nightmarish moment ), last night, i cried for a very, very, very, long time, held myself together in the broken places -- told myself and the girl i was that i loved her and i was going to take care of us and be brave -- and broke the fever ( a little off key like jersey kyle, but very lovely nonetheless; love you tone deaf king. x my sboyf. )

today, i woke up this morning and slept...PEACEFULLY and woke up PERFECTLY HAPPY AND RESTED...

AND SMILED. QUITE. WIDE!!!!~ :D

and that is a baby step, but it is a step in the right direction and also almost wanted to make me weep like a baby again because i literally have not felt happy or like i do not hate myself for like, i shit you not, over like 15-20 days...it was frightening and fucking horrible! SLAY!

nevertheless ( or the most, finally ) i am excited to welcome in a new era/year of change on my blog and within myself; which is an era of peppermint flavored 'hope i'm healing' in a delicious rem(ember) font.

unfortunately, because i nuked my ao3 account, i do not currently one atm, but am in the process of recovering it.

( i'm not condoning any kind of rude/uncivilized behavior bc people are allowed to do anything they want -- but i'd really like to get my user back and would appreciate it a lot if no one used it to create another ao3 account just because it would be confusing for my readers and disheartening to me to not be boxwinebaddie anymore. )

until then, i will be writing/drafting rem(ember) in my messy google docs, am storyboarding everything to the best of my ability ( which is not perfect, but nothing is -- except stan and kyle to each other -- but god loves a trier, which is why he hates me: i prefer hell where it's drier -- that way my girlfail guylinea will not run. xx )

KALE SEITAN! ;)

posting little snippets of it on here for all of you, probably put it here on my tumblr and post it up to ao3 if i can regain my account/one in general ( i am a little worried that because of how long it's been, the loss of all my followers and, what i assume, is a decreased public or tiktok generated interest in sp, it will do poorly; rip </3 )

-- but the point is...that i want to start doing stuff for myself now. and not because i think i should or create unnecessary stress/sadness surrounding my strength or weakness as a writer or person ( or like, beat the living shit out of myself every single day anymore )...

...so i am writing it slowly, carefully, synthesizing all the info i gathered from over a year of answering your questions ( which helped me develop my sp au styles and their worlds into the lovely, seemingly breathing paper machslayed things they are now ), am going to write the fanfiction i always/wanted/ to write ( i’ve always wanted to rewrite RM, but was so busy and overwhelmed with my blog/my irl stuff that i couldn't )

and i'm calling it...

<3

p.s. ( i love you ): i am going to give my grandmother a copy of the first chapter of peppermint for christmas because i wanted to do something special/sentimental for her and secretly push the gay middle school style agenda ( she is actually very woke and thought my uncle might be gay for a while when he was younger, haha xx ), but i want to give them different names, so that on the off chance it gets passed off to my mom, my dad or manages to travel by world of mouth ( my grandma has a tendency to gab, but i love her a lot ) that it can't specifically be traced back to my dead ao3 or my blog.

so if any one has any ideas for silly interesting names i could give my sons, names for other characters or south park in gen. hit me up! <33

thank you for your interest in my work -- and in me, in general. i love you all dearly, i hope you heal ( i know you will ) and smile, pendejos because got a lot coming up on that crimson dawn and a lot of crazy shit coming down on that *jersey i won't say i'm in luh megara vc*

~SCHARLET sLUt~

cheers! mazel! ;) xx

-uncle nina, in her healing era <3

[crescentmoonrider]

for the valentine's event. may we see a bit of homestuck johnrezi? 👉👈 (also you're so cool for doing this event o7)

"ew"

i love they !!! thank you for giving me the opportunity of drawing some homestucks again for the first time in forever~

no way in hell terezi knows how to human kiss, but that just makes it funnier <3<

[blossoms-phan]

i will mullet post bc dan looks good and i love him and i love his hair and it’s just hair that looks really good on him and i hope he is happy and confident