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ok, but the question is, is Christina Chong just getting a solo or is there gonna be a Kirk/La’an duet? Can Wesley sing?
in any case, there’ll probably be a Kirk/La’an song and <3
#am i gonna get disappointed? maybe#but they're giving me una and kirk interactions and <3#snw nonsense#snw spoilers#ka'an#yeah i unfortunately won't be able to write a fic until i see this episode because my brain just works like that#(even though i had a small idea... but gotta wait)#don't crush my hopes for potential prime connection though#why did kirk/la'an have to happen to me?#or rather why did lt. kirk/la'an have to happen to me#i was happy with kirk/mccoy. that one is safe#kirk/la'an can crush my heart to little pieces
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Hi there! While I love seeing people’s OCs, I feel like some of Edith’s background can be seen as problematic. The Salem Witch Trials wasn’t about actual witches being hunted down—they were innocent people that were massacred. Maybe set her story somewhere else? It just seems a bit insensitive, in light of all the real people that suffered during that time.
Hi hello!
I really appreciate the message, though I'm not gonna lie this is probably something I would have preferred to respond to in private instead of blasting it over the blog.
There doesn't seem like a way I can really respond to this without sounding like a total asshole? Because I'm aware that the Salem Witch Trials were a real thing and actual people were killed. I'd never want to make light of that and take away from it.
But I do just want to preface this by saying that Eddie is, in fact, a fictional character. Her story, though based off true events, is fictional. A more supernatural take on real life events.
I am happy to talk about this more with you off anon, because I'd love to hear your viewpoints and obviously, if I'm in the wrong, I'm always open to changing things up a bit. I don't ever wanna come across as problematic or rude or like I'm trying to romantisice something horrible, if that makes sense.
I suppose what I'm trying to say is I like exploring darker themes, but I understand that it might not be for everyone and that I am human, sometimes I might approach things the wrong way.
If Eddie's backstory really is that much of an issue for everyone I don't mind changing it slightly or just? Removing her from the blog.
#// ooc post#Idk maybe I need to put a lil disclaimer thing on the blog saying that darker themes will be explored#Or maybe Eddie just isn't tumblr friendly??#Or quite possibly I'm in the wrong and if that's the case I'm sorry but pls!! Feel free to come and talk to me about it privately#Because how am I gonna know unless people tell me#I have some dark muses and themes on this blog I guess I'm just a little disappointed#That the second I have a female muse up here she's getting picked on#Idk I can't tell if I'm just feeling sorry for myself or if I'm legitimately in the wrong lmao
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remade this again because im angry and mindless editing lessened it
So. That new announcement. And the fact its an adaptation of the animated trilogy, not a continuation or any innovation.
Yeah. Im just gonna watch the actual httyd1 and pretend that never happened.
Dont fall for the nostalgia bait bros, let that scheme shrivel up and die.
Incoming rant below about this
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People already know the reasons why its going to be shit so I wont say it again
Considering how Dean has completely misinterpreted the major themes of the first movie, I cant trust him at all with this one nor would I want to
Powell made a perfect masterpiece with the og, idk what else he would do or add on with this one but i can only hope ig, but even then-
Seriously, what else is there to add? The story is tight. Maybe a little more of Toothless' perspective, giving him more scenes of agency and character, but does Dean even still see him as more than a baby pet?? Does he even give a rat's ass about aLL THAT???? HAHHAHAHHAHA
Just. We all know its not gonna work. I have an inkling that all "show dont tell" sequences are just going to get marred or removed of all nuance. I do not want to see Downed Dragon, Forbidden Friendship, New Tail, Test Drive, or Romantic Flight or practically any of the scenes that made me love this movie get a poor imitation.
You really think live action can mimic the body language, gestures, tHE WAY THE DRAGONS FLY in the first movie or miraciously somehow make it even better? You really think the music of the first could even be topped? YOU THINK THE CINEMATOGRAPHY, THE SHOTS AND LIGHTING WOULD BE COPIED??
Either way, at the end of the day, they already know they cant beat the original movie. All they need to do is horrendously mimic some parts to keep your interest, whether its a beloved scene or music. You're not watching the new one because you love the new, you're gonna watch it because you loved the original.
I really hope it either gets dropped, sent to development hell, or ends so bad that they cant make more. Please please please i hope it gets the ATLA movie treatment
Just when I thought Puss in Boots and Bad Guys were gonna start a Dreamworks Renaissance, this shit happens.
Stop ruining the movies i adore and love, please and thank you
#live action httyd#live action httyd my ASS#i really thought that httyd woulsnt get hit by that because its not ownwd by disney#but here we are.#yes i remade this again because it still works#disney already shows up how disappointing live action remakes are#stop falling for it#httyd#httyd movies#httyd live action#i hope this dies horribly#ill be honest? this almost killed my love for this movie#but i slapped myself because like hell am i going to stop loving something because some shit imitation shows up#even if thousands of people fall for the bait im gonna make a promise for myself to stay true for the real movie#its just another httyd 3#im not even going to be optimistic about this#im not even going to delude myself with 'maybe just maybe- itll be better than the previous times disney fucked up!'#fool me once shame on you. fool me 11 times then we are the idiots
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huh
#ok look i have so many things to say right now#i thought i would be happy to hear the news about his next project but#first of all i feel like a goddamn fool because i've been repeating for MONTHS that the warriors was just a rumour#that's literally what he said in one interview#and i was genuinely happy because i wanted him to write something original#not a fucking adaptation#honestly he can do better and we all know that#second of all a concept album doesn't sound bad but BUT#“major pop stars” my ass#what the actual fuck are you trying to tell me#i wanted a broadway show with broadway stars#i don't want pop stars#i might know what that means and i guess we're gonna get that collab with taylor but#this is#wow i have no words#i am so fucking disappointed#first the lion king which i already said i had mixed feelings about because it's just another disney project#now this#i was honestly expecting something original and spectacular#i kinda... hate this sorry#don't know gonna post this anyway#as my duty#i also want to know what everyone else thinks#am i the only one who's just deeply disappointed?#i'm so sad right now#maybe i'm just being overdramatic but#ugh#lin manuel miranda#lmm#boy you got me helpless*
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ok i totally get if like, a massive area that's too much work needs to be cut but boy it went from this to tadpole information dump speedrun which is ahahaha a choice (x)
#larian critical#you have my condolences wyll stans#don't get me wrong although big battles with armies is always a lot of fun personally i get it like ok if it was too much work it ok#but maybe they could've done a bit more to make up for it. more than tadpole infodump speedrun i mean.#bc i think with war college as a staging ground it would've been way more drawn out than it was with it being the iron throne#which is a point of no return type of decision and axes the alliance with gortash#but also now my wish fuilfilment ass can complain the war college and fighting the absolute's armies sounds metal af#HE NEEDS TO STOP TELLING US WHAT WAS CUT I AM LITERALLY SO DISAPPOINTED WITH EVERY NEW THING I LEARN#see i was gonna shut up but the war college sounded cool so now i have to complain#i love big battles and strategizing at war councils /sob#AND DRAGON I WANT THE DRAGON
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god, 9 months on t and my brain is telling me i've never looked more like a woman. love it can't get enough of it
#teeth.txt#maybe i have to shave my head again#been growing my hair out pretty long in a hashtag masc way#but hmmmmmm idk how we're feelin abt it#i know that this is like Not True but i think that i just don't have a winter wardrobe that is like uhhh gender affirming i guess#pulled out the classic tshirt over turtleneck fit for today because it was chilly and i wanted to look nicer#and then was like ah. this is not my beautiful cut off sleeves tank top. this is not my beautiful wife.#it's not even a feminine outfit lolllll#anyways whateverrrrrr i have been feeling more and more like i'll never get to a good place in my transition and i'm gonna look like#androgynous in a way that is upsetting to me personally forever#and that is also upsetting to everyone around me as well#i'm scared my family is really disappointed and sad with me for taking steps to transition#i know that it is like hard for them on some level. like to understand#also i know it had to happen this way but i wish i had come out to them as a trans guy instead of nonbinary#i am nonbinary (kind of. i don't really use that label to describe my gender but it is definitionally true)#but i think it would have been easier/truer/better if i had just said 'i am your son now'#even if that isn't like ~my true self~ it's what i want to project to the world for both dys/euphoria and personal safety reasons#whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ok that's it thanks for reading all that if u got this far i guess
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i think i finally realized why ive been feeling so damn depressed lately again
sorry for writing this here. im really hurting actually. im not good. i feel a bit helpless too. idk who to talk to bc i dont want to burden anyons and i donf feel like anything could console me right now
Like. fuck me man. thanks for saving me but. why the hell are you not here. i dont want to do this without you. i hate only being able to remember you. i was supposed to grow old with you, not without you.
And. honestly. even with all this bullshit i say here, all the endless times i spend trying to write down my feelings, abt you, about all the pain ive felt my life, it doesnt get better. not at all. and no words, no poetry takes it away and i truly feel like nobody will ever truly understand how suffocated i felt all my life.
and i want to change thanks to you but. i dont know. nothing's satisfying enough.
no matter what, i truly only feel great when im in that daydream like world you created.
and these past days ive been thinking a lot that. i really wouldnt mind dying right now. not at all. because at least i know what happiness feels like. and i want to stay in that state. probably, even in this life your music will bring me happiness, but i want to be trapped in it.
im tired of being so unseen, and even when im seen, im hurting. but i dont know whats hurting. i think im just really tired thats all.
and. ye. i feel brave tbh. i still havent posted my video to instagram, bc im not brave for that. i dont know. and i feel like a hypocrite bc everything is true that i wrote there but at the same time these are my thoughts currently
in a long while i looked up suicide methods again. i feel so hopeful, but im not really sure if really for the future. jm sorry this is probably alarming. i will probably not kill myself but. idk. im not sure actually. i dknt know what to say. i wasnt cut out for this wordly shit.i feel unlovable but even if im loved, i donf want to be. i dont want anything. just let me stsy in this quiet place snd just. disappear. i wouldnt want my family to hurt if i die but i wont know about it anyways. idk man. i feel strongly i could die calmly this time and thats nice. bc 6 years ago i was terrified, and hurt. but now im content and kind of ready idk man. its not a terrible feeling, its a "this is it, it was nice while it lasted" ig.
there are no clouds in my head actually. i truly dont feel like im thinking irrationally, i feel like this would just be like. the end goal i was looking for. to feel true love once. it was nice.
no goodbye yet bc idk how id kms even if i do. But ill tell u guys if i found something.
#you know it's funny#i still feel this way but the moment i wrote this#on tiktok one of my friends that was there for most of my times followed my secret tiktok account and#the friend that i lost last year checked my account and#i hope she fucking knows how much that means to me#because i always felt like she hstes me but i still deeply feel she cares abf me and silently looks out for me and i feel so sorry#bc in the past 4 days she has checked my account multiple times and idk man#i truly feel like she sees that im struggling i appreciate it a lot#but i could never tell her that because what if im wrong and also#i dont fit in that friendship anymore#but im still really greatful#for checking up on me even like this#*most of my life#noticed a typo#idk anyways i just really needed to scream this into the void. I didn't want to be so sad today. i just scrolled instagram to numb myself#all day. but i got off my phone it was terrible. idk. i feel im not sure i can get my shit together by monday#im sick of having to fall apart and build myself up every fucking day man. and each day i literally wake up telling myself affirmations#trying to convince myself that its oka#it will be okay at least when u are home at night. wait for that moment everyday but. im tired of waiting for night to be happy man.#i have 30 mins to either post that fuckin video and make a fool of myself bc i told myself i need to post it on the 19th. but idk man. Im#terrified it will only disappoint me. people will make fun of me. idk man. its not that funny is it. or is it? how pathetic i am for clingi#g to the only hope in my life like a fucking abandoned dog man. but what can i do. i dont want to depend on you so much. but then who shoul#i depend on? if i depend on myself im just gonna kill myself man.idk. my grief is getting worse day by day. i still practice guitar everyda#hoping that maybe you will come back or something will come back. maybe mywill to live will come back? maybe the Instrument will play a not#that I can depend on? i dont really know what im looking for thats the worst. living is uncomfortable and dark. even when im smiling with m#friends i feel lost.there's something i feel like they know and i dont. when they could name their favorite colors in kindergarten i alread#knew something was different abt me.its really isolating.not having a clue of who am i.i keep saying im finding myself more and more but tb#i still in a way like im always wearing a costume. i wonder how naked id have to be to find myself. sorry for word vomitting.it maybe helps#anyways acchan i miss you.this world feels really stale without you.i wish I could truly show how much I love you with my words or life but#i dont really think it makes a difference.my voice really doesnt matter that much in the end.maybe im too much
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ok that's it *blacklists roy x keeley tag*
say it with me and loud af: i don't want Roy and Keeley back together if Jamie isn't between them getting loved from both sides. RJK endgame or I don't want it.
#anti roy x keeley#you have NO idea how tired i am from that one particular user#would you quit whining maybe?#if that rk is gonna be endgame I'm so disappointed already#it's basically one of my fears for how the show ends#hopefully no one is getting back together bc phil said it's not straightforward#the fear is fucking real y'all#i won't even start on roy with jamie :/#ted lasso#and don't come at me that i didn't tag it#it's literally my first tag#idk why but the idea or rk now makes me so sick#i mean i know why but it's complicated#roy x jamie x keeley
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it is so hard making my ‘keep working and just look forward to this coming up’ event as silver thread or symbiosis , when at the mere thought of either I dissolve in sulphuric acid
#_puchi/spicaze alwaysss makes the best rpgs#iii love mean women protags#silver thread game coming up in the upcoming months/year and I am sooo hyped#imm never disappointed#(I’m praying we get Alicia dead lover lore. pls.)#(or Alicia backstory. at all.)#(maybe the fact beaford still technically possessed too.)#(no matter what I’m gonna absolutely love the game. though.)#(me after replaying 709 times in the first day.)
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please please please let my phone not be on its shenanigans anymore. my stupid pleading isnt gonna do shit but i don't wanna confront my parents about my phone being technically broken it stressing me out bad idk if will they'll yell at me
#ughh its making me so scared#what if they decide to not let me have a phone because “You were supposed to take care of your old one”#what if I get punished??#will they be mad?? shocked?? disappointed?? i didnt do anything to it i found it like this this afternoon idk how it happened#will they listen to me about that??#who will??#maybe my mom#idk about my dad#whats gonna happen too?? is it possible to repair??#probably#am i being dramatic rn omhyg#well this isnt pairing up with the fact report cards are gonna be next week!!! laugh track#theyre going to get mad at me for some reason#theye mad at me theyre mad at me idk why but they are#im doingsomething wrong im doing sm#closet rambles again on tumblr
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this moment was so unfair of him (his voice had no business getting so soft, and of course a girl's gonna get her hopes up if you look at her like that)
and this one too, when La'an told him that yes, he was a bit like the other him, and he smiled
#maybe just maybe the fandom will stop with jim is always 100% respectful towards women#he only thought about himself in this moment#i mean he was caught in the moment imho but he should stop it before being all am i anything like the other me?#and his voice became so soft when asking#anyway it's kinda hard watching this scene from both POVs because both of them are experiencing it differently#and la'an's heart is breaking#but it isn't easy for jim either#and anyway it's such a good scene#even though i wish the editing and the camera work was different#'why aren't you disappointed about them?' - because i want kirk to hurt and be in pain#he does feel the connection and if things were different he would want to explore it but he can't#and he needs to walk away from it. from la'an#there's a long hiatus and it ended in such a way that i can just imagine everything i wanted since the finale of s1#and more#because that's how long i've been into the potential of kirk/la'an#and if i can get a kirk romance that isn't just a one-off that will leave him heartbroken i'm gonna eat it up#even if snw might not make it that way. but i can make it that way because this episode gave a good starting ground for that#because it made it clear that kirk feels the connection and feels like he knows la'an#he wants to work with her more. he wants to spend time with her more. but he can't#and that's just what's good about it#if i write a fic i'm gonna give them a happy end but the ship itself is good because kirk will end up alone#snw nonsense#snw spoilers#ka'an#also skyshowtime needs to do something about that space in the subtitles lol#jim kirk#la’an noonien singh
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being sick as an adult sucks. wdym my mom won’t just automatically make sure I eat food instead of exclusively drinking Gatorade all day. wdym I have to ask my roommates to make me dinner. I have to Venmo a friend money to buy me more Gatorade?? I can’t focus enough to do homework??? I hate this.
#this is a silly haha humor post but in all seriousness.#COVID rly is just making me stare all the internalized ableism in the eye#yes worth isnt defined by productivity and disability and the idea of being a burden is part of being human and isn’t shameful at all#until I have to minorly inconvenience people to meet my basic needs#I really want to eat dinner but that would require asking my roommates to make me dinner which is just. 5 kinda of mortifying.#even though if someone I knew was sick I would not be upset about making them food! sick people need to eat!#my parents ordered me chipotle yesterday bc they were so concerned bc of how I sounded over the phone#and my friend went out and bought me juice and Gatorade and popsicles and took me to the doctor#the support system Exists I just feel bad about having to use it T-T#I just want to be hugged and read to and reminded to eat food but I am an adult now and not at home#lonely TT-TT#it’ll be okay I’m probably just emotional bc I’m sick and hungry#I also just am struggling so hard because I want to catch up on my classwork Right Now#but I can get through maybe one assignment before I’m too exhausted to keep sitting up#and I have to lay down and close my eyes and sleep or do a light activity like playing candy crush for the fifty bazillionth time#I’ve gotten through like. 100 levels this week.#I’m losing my dang marbles. I am gonna be so behind in ASL Susan is gonna be so disappointed in me#I feel like I have all this energy when I’m laying down bored but as soon as I sit up I feel like I’m floating and about to fall over#so. so tired. why can’t I be healthy already and do homework T-T.#I’m choosing to take this as a lesson to slow down and not overwork myself so hard. instead of being mad at myself for getting behind.#<- is trying and failing not to be mad at herself for getting behind
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The girlies over on twitter be like "my bep1er 🥰💘💕🤩🤞😘💗🤌" and there's not a single g group boy in site
#srsly yall#bffr#what are you doing#g group bring the 🤌#your lineup has no haruto? keita? ricky? jay chang? ZHANG HAO???? MATTHEW????#not one main slayer for a hundred miles#where is the flavour????#how you gonna make a bep1er lineup and not include the ACTUAL j-line????#your gonna pick thee MUTHA HANBIN and then not pick her husband OR her son????#mother is SO disappointed in you 😔#yeah I'll admit it maybe i am a little biased towards g group but who else is gonna be???? MNET?????? i don't think so#g group#boys planet#boys planet posting#bp999#ofc i still love k group don't you ever get that twisted#we're like 🤞 we're BESTIES
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love my social worker he's so sweet and i love my mentor/guide/one day i'll find a fitting english word for what her role is too. last time i met the former he said they talked abt the thing i'm starting this thursday and said "while it feels like these circumstances may be impossible for you, logically speaking you shouldn't succeed there, yet both of us are certain you will" which is very nice but also AAAAAAAAAAAAA
#they're right like these ARE p much impossible circumstances for me#but i do think they think too highly of me and i'm definitely gonna disappoint them 🥲#this was both assuring yet. like. pressuring. if that's the right word idk#ik there's the whole. 'what if i fail' 'but what if you don't' back and forth but genuinely. realistically speaking. i most likely will#i have never been able to maintain those daily structure stuff like school for example#and while i do hope that since this is only 4 short days a week (with a break in between 2 and 2) and smth i like doing -#- then i'll have an easier time. but. it's still gonna be so hard.#there's a reason i don't go out or wake up early ughhhhh it's bc i hate doing it. idk if theater would be enough to make up for that#and what if i don't like the people what if i don't get along with the directors what if i struggle with remembering lines or physicality#which will make it all so much harder and make the part i'm supposed to love unpleasant as well#what would i do then 🥲#. why am i anxious about this rn. i have a tough day ahead of me for a different reason i should probably focus on first 🫠#vent#sorryyyyyyy it's 1 am and i need to clear my brain out it seems#also maybe i want. advice. or encouragement. idek what i want. here. i don't wanna have to worry abt this but that's impossible ofc#(my mom told me today that she wants to tell me there's nothing to stress about but she knows that'll just be incorrect 😭 and she's right)#(dw she meant it nicely and gently as in she knew i'd just get mad at her for saying it lol. and i mean. again. gotta be realistic)
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#here's some of the classics on that list i have beef with btw:#i have tried to read A Confederacy of Dunces several times and it's funny but it's also so cringe and Ignatius is so obnoxious#that i find it too difficult to finish like i just feel depressed and bad for everybody around him too much#i tried reading Infinite Jest like a decade ago and i got like 200 pages in and i remember thinking it felt like#such a slog the entire time because he's just so gd wordy and also i stopped liking DFW after i heard the abuse allegations against him#frankenstein i didnt read that long ago but i just remember finding it so boring for some reason?? i feel i might need to read it again#dracula ngl i feel like im cheating a bit saying ive completely read it because i loved the beginning and then HATED so much of the rest#the characters were just so boring and melodramatic hahaha i just liked the part where jonathan was doing a travel diary#and trapped in the castle tbh and after that i skimmed quite a bit#i almost flipped my shit when i saw ender's game on there because I ALWAYS mix it up with ready player one by ernest cline#which i bought the audiobook of a while back and hated every minute of it i dont think its good at all#but it wasnt that so phew my faith in this list is somewhat restored#i read most of the first game of thrones book and was disappointed tbh maybe because id seen the show already#so i was like 'this feels almost exactly the same except worse?' because i'd been expecting it to give me more depth and insight#into the characters but instead it felt exactly the same and i still didnt love any of the characters enough to feel attached to them#also i am fully aware me not personally liking or vibing with a book doesnt mean it doesnt deserve to be considered great btw#but i think if youre gonna be like me and force yourself to go through a bunch of lists like this very seriously then you also need to just#let yourself be like 'yeah not for me' without feeling too bad about it sometimes too#often times i dont particularly love the classics or 'important books' but at the same time#i still feel like im getting more out of reading them than just grabbing the newest hyped up books that also dont do anything for me#maybe not in a 'wow i loved reading this' way but in like a#'i now have first-hand knowledge of this thing that is so influential / so frequently referenced'#or 'this challenged me and i feel like i did a mental/emotional workout or gave me some new food for thought'#or 'made me more aware of what gaps in my knowledge and reading skills and what my tastes are too'#sort of way...#it really just depends on what you're reading for and why and what you're hoping to get out of it a lot of the time maybe#it's like the homework i give myself to go through these lists that i also intersperse with the stuff i read more just for fun#p
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Are you gonna keep making content for imaginary friends?
Nope!
#Ive pretty much fallen out of omori at this point#Which isnt to say that ill never make omori content again#Theres still some fanfic fanart stuff i might finish and ofc luck swap#Plus who knows i might get back into omori at some point#But imaginary friends specifically was a big part of why i fell out of omori tbh#It got way bigger than i expected and just became way too overwhelming#plus what happened on reddit REALLY upset me =_=#Thank you everyone for the support! I really am flattered that people would be interested in my au!! But it was never meant to be that big#of a thing and im sure you can understand why i’d get burned out ^^;#Maybe ill work up the courage to make a final post about the imaginary friends ideas i never got to and some art i never finished#But im kinda scared of it blowing up again -w-; idk if thats like. A prideful thing to think or something#Plus i dont want ppl following me thinking im still gonna be posting omori and then get disappointed#Anyways. If you read all that uh thanks ig? Have a cookie 🍪#Annd if youre a fan of IF im really sorry TwT
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