#am i crazy? does any of this make sense?
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I want to fall in love. But not like you’re thinking; I want the kind of love that the Young Man feels for the Rockies in the song “Rocky Mountain High.” I want someone to see the divinity in me, and for our souls to know each other and recognize home in each other. I don’t think I want to kiss, but I want to cuddle and share the same level of emotional intimacy you might share with a lover. I want to be their most important person and for them to be my most important person too. I want to be the first person they think to text when something happens to them, from the silly to the serious. I want to love them like home, like I love the forest around my grandmother’s house. I want to be able to feel so comfortable and at home with them that both of us feel safe to be completely ourselves with each other. I want to fall in love with someone like you fall in love with a place. Where you feel like you’re finally home.
#I guess I’m looking for a queerplatonic relationship but I only know one other aspec person and I’m scared that i won't be able to find#anyone with the same interests as me and stuff that i could organically fall in queerplatonic love with that would feel the same way as me#like to the point that i'm scared my desire for this is so niche as to be unrealistic and i'm just going to be stuck falling in aroace love#with my best friends over and over forever and being forever unfulfilled#my therapist has assured me that it IS possible so not all hope is lost#but y'know...#feeling like i need to either settle for something that doesn't fit right or resign myself to solitude#personal#aroace#queerplatonic#am i crazy? does any of this make sense?#i seem to best be able to define what i want by comparing it to songs#maybe i should make a playlist
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Was looking at refs and since Viktor has two different leg braces I was wondering, do we think he wears them simultaneously?? The refs don't perfectly line up perspective-wise so it's hard to tell but parts of the one he wears during the Hexcore scenes look like they could maybe line up with the brace that he wears over his clothes, but also some parts really don't and look like they'd be super uncomfy. Also HOW does he take these on and off. Experts weigh in
#viktor#arcane#ig my assumption would be that he wears both simultaneously cause in the scene where he injects the shimmer#it seems implied that he just threw off his clothes and kept experimenting#so one might assume he was already wearing the smaller one underneath#tho it is a funny image to think of him just being like 'one sec i gotta go all the way home and grab my other brace to do this'#he can take off the back brace too cause hes not wearing it in the scene where he's in the hospital bed and you can see his shoulder#where the strap would be#but that one seems to make even less sense functionality wise#everything looks like its screwed together#or screwed INTO him#but only the top bolts on his spine are i think#in the close ups of his back brace model it looks like theres cushioning underneath the parts of it that cover the rest of his spine#so he can take it off. but HOW#what parts of it unscrew/detatch to pull open and off#does it not do that at all and he just has to shimmy it off his shoulder and all the way down his legs to get it off like a romper#the shape language of the designs are cool but like. tell me how it wooorrkkksss#forgive me if im just dumb and dont know at all how braces work and theres a very simple practical explanation for all this#any king who wants to infodump about mobility aids at me....the floor is yours#something to be said i suppose about the fact that zaunites have crazy prosthetics with wild augmentations that work flawlessly#and piltover's like. idk heres some fucking uncomfortable ass metal. salo gets wheelchair in non ada compliant place#they havent ever needed to adapt to accommodate disabilities etc etc#or maybe artists were just like 'heres a design' and everybody clapped and didnt give it a second thought#and then they just turned off the visibility on the mesh when they didnt need it knowing thered not be a scene where its taken off#dont even wanna THINK about what that rig would look like#like 40 different controllers#soft body and rigid hard surfaces needing to move together....#a cold chill just shot up my spine#<- guy who is only an animator and doesnt know how to rig#forgive the magic wand tool with zero cleanup. i am lazy
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Hear me out. The destruction of Gallifrey is a fixed point. Because a lot of stuff could be explained by Weirdness Caused by Things Surviving Past Their Time (cough, charley, cough divergent universe) and also maybe the constant attempts to destroy Gallifrey are just the universe trying to keep to the timeline (i.e. the doctor is Water of Mars-ing Gallifrey repeatedly), and this is all because the destruction of Gallifrey changes/influences the Doctor so much that all he's done, all the people he's saved during NuWho happened directly because of it.
So. Because the NuWho Doctor's had such a great impact on the universe, because so much of this impact can be traced back to the destruction of Gallifrey, thus Gallifrey's destruction is a fixed point à la Adelaide Brooke, and its three(?) destructions are just the universe trying to preserve the timeline.
TLDR: the universe keeps killing gallifrey to maintain the doctor's character development.
#doctor who#does this make any sense anyone????#or am i going slightly crazy from dehydration#eleventh doctor#eighth doctor#war doctor#thirteenth doctor#:)#im pretty new to this fandom please tell me if i misunderstood anything
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Ok it's horse time
Rossetians have very nimble human-like hands, and are good at precise control of their drawing utensils. They tend to focus more on anatomy and get closer to realism, but they also like simplification and exaggeration from time to time, especially in logos (or if they dont spend their time practicing drawing people)
Speaking of that I should probably say that the drawings featured in the other posts and this one are mostly just a general view of their style, what any old guy could draw for you, not really a representation of their artists/people who dedicate all their time to art. Also just some species prefer to stay abstract, exaggerated, and simplified since that’s their culture. Anyway
Rossetians have family structures very similar to humans, composed of one/two adults and their kids (blood or adopted). Individual living spaces are occupied by only this direct circle, called a faction, with no extended family because , like humans, the kids leave home to live somewhere else. However, these factions are still considered part of the greater ‘house’ which is made up of all the kids (scions) of the parents/heads of house and their families. For a normal family, the most skilled provider is the one who has the say over what their kids do. However, there is actually a more esteemed legal title of “head of house” that is given through an important scientific or societal contribution they’ve made. The appointment happens in two parts, the proposal and the actual vote on whether to make them a head (this vote comes from within their own house and from the other houses at large,) so, there’s families with no head title and families with it, but the only difference is the ones with the title have more influence outside of their one job/house and more say in the government.
. (Ideally, this means the smartest have the most power, but popularity also has influence on whether they get voted for and some people’s needs aren’t always seen…) This also means that an original head of house can be usurped by their children or someone else if they are outdone. New inventions and advancements in infrastructure or medicine are fair game to make you a head, but no matter what your contribution is your influence depends on where the members of your house are (so your son or daughter can tell you no on getting a new building to live in if they invented a better X-ray machine than you. )
Heads of house have say over many of the actions of their scions (such as approval of job appointment, marriage, and property buying/building) because they are considered the most skilled and knowledgeable. It’s basically like of even as an adult you had to ask your grandparents and your parents if you wanted to move somewhere or get something. Through this, Heads are the equivalent of government officials and lead society through the reaches of their house. They can also appoint proxies from their own house to do their work and work with other houses.).
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idk how to explain this but every third trans person looks like this

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peak dick&tim dynamics to me is always dick being the boomer/millennial to tim’s gen x/z
#does this make any sense or am i crazy#like 80s yuppie NTT dick and gen x grunge robin tim#my beloveds#dick grayson#tim drake#dc
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I think I finally understand why Bloodweave hits me so hard and why I love it so much… them being sort of narratively paired together, aside.
Gale is just a relatively normal looking dude. Astarion is like a fantasy poster child. I love their banters, like Astarion saying he enjoys their walks together, and Gale saying “count me in! I’m enjoying chaos now!” when Astarion says he wants to get up to some good ol’ DEBAUCHERY. It’s like. The perfect balance of Astarion’s influence on Gale with Gale being the most just like. Loving kind guy that Astarion needs.
#idk if any of this makes sense to you people but it does in my head#bloodweave is like a certified brand of yaoi designed specifically to make ME fucking crazy. I’m obsessed.#there’s so much about them you could get into#But this is all I have the brainpower for at 3 am as I write this#bloodweave#bg3#baldurs gate 3#bg3 astarion#astarion ancunin#bg3 gale#gale dekarios#astarion x gale#trin talks
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Actually if we want to talk about the lilienne/joyce ship I would like to bring up that it plays into the bourgeois woman’s fantasy of class dynamics in a relationship (à la lady chatterley), as well as the upper/middle class idea that their identity as women supersedes said class dynamics (and therefore they believe themselves to be in no position to oppress women of the working class) in a way that lends itself to reactionary movements like TERF ideology. As someone who lives in the uk and has been heavily affected by said ideology, joyce actually put me on high alert just by her voice and appearance.
I think it’s a mistake not to acknowledge that joyce is heavily thatcherite coded (the hair, the posh accent etc) especially when compared to lilienne who plays into the working class british woman archetype: she sounds welsh (considered a ‘lower’ accent), has young children, is a widower etc. It is fairly common to see the ‘confident mum who has to single-handedly support her young family’ in soap operas and other media, and she definitely plays into that stereotype.
Anyway, the ship is on the surface level a fun one, but let’s not overlook the framing as a one-sided and rather sinister set-up.
#does this make any sense I always write these very late at night for some reason. might revise my wording later lol.#disco elysium#lilienne the net picker#joyce messier#also want to clarify: when I say that welsh is a lower accent I am of course talking about the perspective of the upper class who tend to#lean towards queen’s english or a sort of high scottish if they have old clan status#accents in this country are considered indicative of upbringing and financial status that tends to get overlooked by usamericans#when they talk about people here lol#ALSO because I see people adding this in the tags: I do think the ship is fun when explored from a darker angle#I do love toxic relationship stuff I’m not morality policing lol. go crazy.
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No hate at all, but just as someone who’s worked on smaller film production crews in a less expensive city than LA I want to tell you that 29 people on staff is NOTHING for a production company of their size. There’s so much work from project planning and plan development to animation and SFX and graphic design to actual camera operators, audio techs, and lighting crews, to social media marketing teams and then administrative staff to handle all the paperwork involved in getting permission to film in all these locations and organizing flights, hotels, and car rentals for every place they travel to. 29 people is honestly a pretty low number for a company of this caliber.
i know. i just directed a short film with a production crew of 37 and post crew of 11. i am aware of the possibility that productions can be that size. my point was more that they did not need to be “a company of [that] caliber.” they very much could have left buzzfeed, hired a camera op & sound mixer or two, or shit, learned how to do it themselves since it’s youtube and that’s the norm, and more gradually expanded into a professional operation at a sustainable rate. being a "production company of their size" was not a command performance, it was a choice, and it was a bad one.
they did not need to leave buzzfeed and maintain their status as solely talent. the show they were leaving with was not all that complicated! they do not NEED to hire a fucking social media marketing team. a location manager, sure. camera ops and audio for when they're out exploring? sure! but a crew of that size isn't really necessary, is my point.
but they (and the try guys) were used to a quality of life at buzzfeed as talent that they didn't want to let go, and even when the try guys left, i was a little disappointed that they tried to maintain the same level of almost corporate professionalism about their videos instead of like, figuring out how to use a camera or an NLE themselves. i'll admit it's a super petty gripe; like, fine, whatever, shoot for the moon! but it's also meant that they keep feeling the need to Expand and, evidently, legitimize themselves as "more" than just youtubers. they make a LOT of money--but for every one person they hire, that's another person they're obligated to pay a living wage for their skills, and so if they want to be a bigger company, they necessarily must always have Line Go Up. which then compels them to do stupid shit like they did this week
#does this make any sense at all#idfk#watcher#the try guys#buzzfeed#cricket answers#i am AWARE the logistics of shit like this is crazy but that can also be the fun part!
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ohhhh i just watched the ‘secret ending’ (still not quite sure what i missed to not get it in my playthrough). i hate it 👍
#veilguard critical#dragon age#bartrand im not so mad about but how does it make any sense for loghain to hve been secretly manipulated into initiating the plot of dao#mayhaps i will gather my thoughts on this at a later date#you can throw your crazy ass retcons around all you like but when it starts to cheapen dao’s story by proxy then i am upset
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i genuinely don't mean this in a like. condescending way. but reading people talk about how Confusing and Nonsensical and Overpacked boy and the heron is make me feel insane. every single plot point is clearly spelled out; frankly, one of my only critiques of the movie is that i wish they'd left some of it LESS clear. yes, the second half is rich in dreamlike fantasy, but the story never breaks its own rules, and before every major reveal in the fantasy world theres an extremely obvious explanation — almost too on the nose to even call it foreshadowing — from somebody. like i just don't understand how anybody finds it impossibly confusing and weird and bad to engage with
#rain speaking!#ive seen ppl be like 'anything not spoonfed to the audience will confuse ppl' but it DOES spoonfeed a lot of itself to the audience!#mahito outright calls out that kiriko in the fantasy world is the same one as in the real world just at a different time#himi and mahito outright have a conversation about what their relationship is#the grannies tell mahitos dad exactly whats going on with himi in the fantasy world#and that scene was the only moment i sat in the audience and felt a little twinge of unhappiness#i was like 'oh man theyre just explaining the magic rules thats no fun' only to then come out and see ppl be like#IT DOESNT MAKE ANY SENSE THEY DONT EXPLAIN ANYTHING!!!!!#boy and the heron spoilers /#i dont mean this in some I Am Better At Media Than Everyone Else i just genuinely feel crazy#it feels like we watched different movies#this is how i felt after nope too seeing ppl be like The Chimp Thing Didnt Make Any Sense
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i saw so many of those "qfit and qpac kiss for the first time once fit returns from his mission" fics and hcs, but now i think that whenever fit leans in, he gets overwhelmed by the taste of flesh again
#qsmp#tw cannibalism#my bad#qsmp fitpac#fitpac#qsmp fitmc#qsmp pac#he's not overwhelmed by the cannibalism part persay bc it's lowkey A Thing for him#but of making pac taste it#and making pac too grossed out to want to kiss him again#and making pac scared of the guy that was supposed to protect him from a certain other cannibal#does this make any sense at all or am i going crazy
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i keep this picture in my wallet to show people when they ask who carmy is bc to me this is Carmy....no sexy arms. no slutty little t-shirts and waist defining aprons. no chain with which to dangle. absolutely no swag. big sad eyes. about to expirence the worst year of his life
#this image just makes me crazy i cant explain it i wanna fix him so bad#feminine urge to save him from the horrors joel mchale urge to add to them#in nyc chef's defense this man really does look vulnerable and easy to verbally abuse. not to victim blame he just looks helpless ngl#this doesnt make any sense i just. sometimes i htink abt this picture it's so important to me#he just looks soo vulnerable so childlike :(#i kno i sound crazy sorry guys#its bc i am crazy
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I don't know how I got here, but I've got teen titans on the brain and I'm curious to see if anyone's got behavioral headcanons regarding Raven that stem from her being part demon
On another note, to everyone who redesigns her to make her more demonic: I kiss you 💋💋💋
#teen titans#raven#this started cause of a oneshot series I was reading#and I know Raven does her best to push any aspects of trigons influence from affecting her#but also#shes half demon#there's gotta be moments where instincts kick in unintentionally#not as a result of trigon#but just from being part demon as a whole#like her “clinging” to the other titans and giving the stink eye to a villain or whoevers harmed them#not unlike a grumpy cat that refuses to share their favorite human with someone#does this make any sense#or am I crazy#I say knowing damn well I am crazy#aster talks
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Regarding my gender; I love women who love women, and that I hope women who love women love me. The only sense in which I identify as anything close to “woman” is inherent to my identity as lesbian. All of my gender presentation is femme lesbian. I don’t think I have any gender beyond my sexuality
#does this make ANY sense or am I totally crazy#like I don’t really even think about my gender beyond the context of loving women#jamie.personal#starts hitting the quan
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oh! i can't believe i forgot to mention this! i actually haven't seen it brought up before so i wonder if it's explained by something i missed in game... so... justice's presence in a room literally temporarily brings back a tranquil mage's old personality... and yet when you ask anders if tranquility can be fixed he insists that it's entirely impossible because there's nothing of their old personality left... but doesn't the fact that his old personality WAS back even for just a little bit objectively prove that that isn't the case? why in the world wouldn't anders be interested in exploring this further? especially considering no one seemed to know that was possible... so clearly there's things about tranquility that aren't known. like... is this just a dropped plot line or something?? i don't get it.
#it... it doesn't make any sense right???#am i crazy or does this make no sense?? lol#da2#dragon age
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