#always putting themselves at the bottom of the hierarchy & they dont even know what they want.

[castingcomets]

Middle-aged man who is socially awkward and very polite who has another middle-aged socially awkward polite man visiting his house for a good conventional reason (lending tools, helping him fix the plumbing in his house, dropping off something that was borrowed, etc) and the guy whose house it is offers refreshments to be polite and the other guy accepts it to be polite and now theyre drinking beer together and since theyre both so awkward and polite they constantly put out attempts to be polite and the other reciprocates immediately in order to be polite and neither see how it’s awkward in the other because they're both awkward so they don’t know how it’s supposed to go anyway (they each use politeness as a guiding rhetoric in social situations and defer on impulse) and they end up having gay sex as a polite gesture because one thing led to another and it was the polite thing to do at every turn and the first guy doesnt want to kick the other guy out becasue thats rude so he offers to let him stay the night and the second guy doesnt want to be a burden and so he politely declines at first but he doesnt want to make it seem like he’s in a hurry to leave becasue that’s rude but the first guy doesnt want it to seem like the second guy is unwanted so he offers again but tries not to be pushy and so the second guy accepts becasue the first guy has a lovely home and has been so courteous thus far. And they embrace each other through the night to be polite

[missmentelle]

No, I Don’t Want to be Your Unicorn

If you’re a bisexual or pansexual woman on a dating site, and you’re open about your sexuality, you’re almost inevitably going to be flooded with messages from heterosexual couples asking if you’ll be their third partner for a threesome or an ongoing, non-committal sexual arrangement. Couples that do this are called “unicorn hunters” - because what they are looking for is about as rare as a unicorn - and they are the bane of bisexual and pansexual women everywhere. This is especially, especially true for women who mention that they are open to non-monogamy. 

But when bisexual women complain about being unicorn-hunted, or attempt to discourage people from doing this, we are often met with bewilderment. Most of us have even encountered people who are downright offended that we don’t enjoy this practice. After all, there is absolutely nothing wrong with polyamory, sexual experimentation or casual sex between consenting adults. So why do bisexual women have a problem with unicorn hunting? Because:

It ruins dating apps for us. Unicorn hunters generally conduct their search by creating a dating profile for the woman in the couple, and putting her settings to “woman looking for woman”. Every bisexual or pansexual woman knows how frustrating it is to match with a cute girl on a dating app and get excited about the possibility of dating her, only to get the dreaded “Hi, we’re actually a couple looking for a third...” message. It happens over and over again. The dating pool for bisexual women who are seriously interested in dating other women is already shallow - having to weed through a sea of straight couples just makes it more frustrating than it needs to be.

It’s incredibly objectifying. Unicorn hunters usually talk about looking for a “third” the way they would talk about shopping for a pet - they’re looking for a “female” who is cute and will play with both of them. There’s generally little regard for who the bisexual woman is as a person, what she’s looking for, or whether she will get any kind of benefit out of this arrangement. The straight couple only care that she meets their extremely basic specifications, which often have the bisexual woman fulfilling the role of a living sex toy. Assuming that a bisexual woman might want to have sex with you and your partner because she likes women and men and you happen to be a woman and man is like insisting that the only two gay men you know should date each other - you are reducing a human being to their sexuality alone. 

It plays into stereotypes. Bisexual women - especially polyamorous bisexual women - already have to contend with the stereotype that they are promiscuous, “easy”, sexually available and have high libidos. Being constantly chased after by people wanting casual threesomes does a lot to reinforce these damaging stereotypes. Bi/pan/poly women are just as likely as anyone else to be looking for a long-term love connection with someone they feel genuinely compatible with, and many of these women may want romantic relationships that are minimally or entirely non-sexual, or relationships that only become sexual after a very long period of getting to know one another. Getting constantly hit up for casual threesomes with straight couples can make bi women feel like no one will ever see them as a serious romantic option. 

If we wanted this kind of arrangement, we would look for it. Every bisexual woman knows that this kind of arrangement is available. Every single one of us. If we were interested in pursuing this kind of arrangement, we would make it very clear. There are websites entirely dedicated to people who specifically want “unicorn” arrangements. Unicorn hunters, however, tend to disregard whatever bisexual women write on their profiles, and constantly approach bisexual women even if they’ve made it perfectly clear that they are looking for a long-term and serious romantic connection. 

We’re not here to fix your relationship. Unicorn hunting is usually a straight couple’s very first attempt to experiment with non-monogamy, and they all tend to pursue it for similar reasons. There is usually some kind of issue in the relationship - boredom, restlessness, one partner’s libido not matching the other’s, unexplored bicuriosity, a desire to feel more ‘adventurous’ - and they think that having threesomes or “dating” a third partner as a couple will fix this. When a couple chooses unicorn hunting instead of swinging or opening the relationship, it’s generally a signal that there is some insecurity in the relationship; the couple might be too jealous to allow hookups if the other isn’t present, or the man might be too insecure to agree to any arrangement that involves his partner being with another man. Being the bisexual “unicorn” in these situations involves getting thrown headfirst into months or years of simmering issues that you won’t be aware of until everyone’s pants are already off, and then having a high-stakes sexual encounter with two people who care about the health of their own relationship much more than they care about you. Not great. 

Long-term “unicorn” arrangements usually suck for us. "We’re looking to have a long-term girlfriend as a couple” is still unicorn hunting, and it still has all the same problems associated with casual threesome hunting, plus some extra ones. Being the “girlfriend” of a straight couple means being on the bottom rung of a relationship hierarchy - the “primary” couple’s relationship with each other will always take precedent over the bisexual woman’s relationship with either one of them. The couple may set very strict rules for themselves about when they are allowed to have sex with the "unicorn” and under what circumstances, but they will typically be free to have sex with each other whenever and however they want. Moreover, the first time that one of the couple have an issue with the "unicorn” - the first time someone feels jealous, or left out, or threatened, or they don’t think that the arrangement is appropriate after marriage/kids - the relationship with the "unicorn” will be terminated in order to save the original couple’s relationship. The unicorn’s feelings and desires will always come second. Polyamorous women are typically looking for situations where they are free to pursue as many love connections as they want, in a non-hierarchical arrangement; being locked into a relationship with just two people who consider their own bond to be the “primary” one is not an appealing option for the majority of bi/pan poly women. 

[jooheongif]

it's theory anon,hi!!how are YOU?i'm really good rn thanks:)) thank you for your kindness again,i'm really happy i could somehow help to help you feel even a tiny bit better and hope you're doing well now,too(and it's ok to not rest on your day off but it's also ok to do so if that's what you feel is right for you atm!).about the mf(ilm), i thought the same thing, it felt like a parallel universe type of story!i also really love plotlines about friendship, (again cont.i'll try to be briefer!)

(i’m so sorry i wrote a rly long reply so i’m gonna put this under read more !!)

2. friendship is beautiful and i feel oftentimes underappreciated(but not mx!there they go again being amazing) so i love the concept. personally i like not knowing what exactly the producers were thinking because having my own interpretation of something and seeing other ppl have their own fills me with wonder,like,that's art!so many people think so many different things and no one's wrong i love it!!your thoughts about them appreciating everything they've done so far,you're absolutely right(cont) 3. i hope they are able to bc everything's so hectic for the.i get lost just looking at their official schedule,i don't know how they do it but i also hope they are aware of all these things bc those are all mindblowingly huge accomplishments in my opinion and i just want them to feel like their hard work is worth it,yknow?(is this comprehensible?)and i know they feel pressure because as you said the business is nasty but yea i hope at the end of the day they can feel like (cont.???again 4. everything they've put so much of themselves into is worth it,i love their energy and fierce determination and i just don't want them to lose it but maybe as you said feel less pressured..but then the only way would realistically be to make sure they get awarded in the Real World so we're all doing our best in the system&hating it as you said:/ they just mean so much to so many people i want them to feel that too!i try to contain myself but here i go again! sorry it's so long AND i have more(con 5. also!thank you for your big reply and sharing your thoughts i mostly just agreed with (but you're right so what else can i do),i don't have mbb friends to vent to and fanperson(is there a gender neutral term for fanboy/fangirl?) over mx with and this is really nice and fulfilling(again,if i'm boring you,you can just delete the messages and not reply!) so THANKS!it's great to strive to be a better person but i feel like one(you) should also acknowledge the good things they're already doing(cont?) 6. you showed such pure kindness and really melted someone's(my) heart and that's a Big Deal!djkghddgwe can agree that we both inspired each other :') also please i feel like you're such a wonderful soul and you really deserve every bit of gratitude and appreciation i managed to express(i feel a lot moreprobably) so!yeah!reminder that you're lovely and deserve to be appreciated and i'm also very,very happy you're here!you made my day brighter for the 2nd time now wow!thanks! i hope you and(cont.:() 7. your gorgeous heart are taking good care and enjoying your day/night! and this cb!i really like it i haven't had time to listen to the entire album but jealousy!is a bop honestly it's my type of jam and the choreo is stunning and so are their voices!iwas so skeptical about the lyrics(they could've been like hero or stuck and those made me a bit >:/ honestly) but i really should've known they wouldn't fail me in any way ever!i can't wait to hear the rest of the songs i hope you enjoy them too!bye

hi theory anon, it's nice to hear from u again ! firstly, i am so sorry for the slow reply to this ! but im rly glad to know that u are doing good :-) i'm doing ok too thank u !! how are u ? kfjjfdsjfdf sorry that u had to read my tags but thank u for saying that !! i just feel so guilty when i do nothing bc im absolutely terrified of time passing too quickly ? just the thought of letting a few minutes go to waste is overwhelming ? even though i know it's not rational to think like this but ??? theres just this constant feeling that im running out of time so i try to get rid of it by always doing smth ?? and feel bad when i dont ? idk ?? but anyway im working on it and ill be ok ! sorry..not to be dramatic and tmi and all that kjdfdj istg this blog gives me too much freedom to say...too much :( (hope the internet folks that collect metadata never read the garbage i write bc..yikes they aren't gonna hav the best time) anyway..yea. what a paragraph to start off this reply :( sorry for the honesty and saying so much all the time btw :( not that being honest is necessarily a bad thing but ! idk every time i write smth i suddenly feel extra self conscious and feel like deleting it bc im rly embarrassed and always end up having big regret later when i reread anything ive typed up !! but i just keep writing them anyway bc...idk ?? i'd rly hate it if someone got discouraged from sharing their thoughts/worries/feelings which i think is a rly important human thing :( so  yea im rly embarrassed w anything i write but i'll keep doing it anyway bc i'm all for that kind of stuff and sometimes i know its not easy and it takes someone a lot to share that and its a good thing and i dont ever want anyone to feel discouraged from doing that ! anyway i just felt like i rly needed to say all of this..but pls dont feel obliged to reply to this mess !! anyway back to mx ! you are right :( i also hope mx feel like what they've done is worth smth w/e their definition or standard of that is :( like.. all of the hard work they've put into being mx it certainly means so much to fans but i hope all the hard work they've put into being mx also means smth to them at the end of the day and they are happy w what they're doing and what they've achieved so far :( and yes we'd love mx to always be rewarded in the real world :( though we love them and we want to get them a win, i know that everyone has their commitments, means and different circumstances and we can only do so much :( but even if u think its just a small contribution, everything adds up and counts and i know that all mbb hav contributed in some way in helping them get another win for this cb ! there are some mbb who can't buy albums or streaming passes and things and i hope they don't feel bad for this :( even if all you can do is watch the mv once or twice, even if you could only vote, i hope you know that it all counts and matters !! abt mx's schedule, i get tired just by looking at their weekly one idk how they can even put up w it all ?? after this they'll hav their japanese album and things and then they'll have their concerts and on top of all that apparently [some of them are also studying] ????? they are so hardworking :( HOW do they do it !! just..thinking abt their schedule is overwhelming !!! also pls dont think that you're boring me or anything like that :( im so thankful for any msg i receive and the fact that u actually took the time to type out smth to send to me ?? im so grateful ?? u are never boring !! honestly even if u sent me a stainless steel dishwasher manual w the page length of like..23 bibles, i'd still love u for it and i'd prob read all of it :( btw thank u sm for saying all those kind things !!! receiving kindness for the 3rd time is rly !!!!!!! and once again i've done nothing to deserve it :( i dont even know what i can say to you that will ever be enough to thank u again or to top what u hav already said ! if there was like a...maslows hierarchy of kindness of smth, ur at the very top of that triangle and anything i say will never be as kind as what you have said !! for you, i can agree that we both inspired each other :-) but really thank u so much from the bottom of my heart :( i hope you know how kind and lovely u are too ! if nobody told u this today, i wanted to say that im rly grateful to know u and i'm happy that you're here !! thank u again for being so kind and thoughtful and for making me smile !! :( same, i havent properly listened to the whole album either bc ive just been letting it stream in the background (but i dont count that as a proper listen unless i listen w headphones tbh) ill give it a good listen one day ! also im a repeat 1 kind of garbage person until i feel the need to listen to a new song ?? and rn jealousy to me is a song that gets better w every listen ??? shes too powerful atm :( one day ill listen to another song but today is not that day ! Actually.....I think jealousy is my fav mx song ???? before this cb i didnt hav a fav bc i couldnt pick the song i liked most out of blue moon/blind/fighter/incomparable. i was just gonna base it off the one w the most play count out of those 4 but now i know its jealousy ! what are ur fav mx songs ?? btw i know im always saying that anything mx releases is always a masterpiece no matter what, but in all seriousness its ok if u didn't like smth they released. i don't think it makes u any less of a mbb if u didn't enjoy a certain release or if u only liked one aspect of a thing but not so much the rest of the thing. anyway not to sound so...stale and commonplace but for lack of a better word/sentence, at the end of the day your own reactions and feelings to a piece of art like music...it's all just subjective isnt it ?? not liking that thing doesnt mean that its not a masterpiece or its any less of a masterpiece to someone else either so !! it's ok !! anyway this is rly....ive written a lot and its all over the place and incoherent probably :( i'm sorry !! feel free to reply whenever u feel like it, or no pressure on never replying at all btw ! also feel free to disagree w anything i say ! thank u sm for talking to me abt mx bc ive also got no mbb friends so !!! thank you :( theres so many times where i rly want to start a conversation w someone but im too scared and also i've got no clue abt how to initiate conversation ! and the times when i do manage to...i get stuck on how to keep the conversation going ? but when i figure smth out then im coming for u @ friendship !! i hope u had a good weekend and that you got some rest and that ur doing ok wherever u are !! until next time, take care ❤️❤️❤️

[missyrants]

Rant #5: Racism

Shit got real today. I thought I am not going to be attacked with racism ever but guess again. Incident happened in the afternoon when I was on my way home from the asian store a block away. I had to pass by the reserve which is like a park where kids hang out. I passed by this two kids and heard..

“Asian food on the table tonight!” smirking and laughing.

so i responded with..

“Ah yeah. I’m cooking karate chop. Ha Ya!. Ya want some?”

So they back away.

You see, it is so funny that kids these days are complete idiots. They have all this “smart” phones in their hands but they are ignorant as fuck! So why did I get this racist comment? Here’s the sitch in NZ. In the country there’s no black-white discrimination. There’s only ASIANS vs. KIWIS. Asians are the immigrants, Kiwis are the New Zealanders. And by golly there’s a lot more in betweens on that but i won’t put much stress on it. 

So in New Zealand Asians get blamed for rising cost of properties from rent to actual property cost. Basically, Asians get blamed for having money and migrating to New Zealand, buy a property and live comfortably. By the looks of it I don’t see anything wrong. But for most Kiwis, this is their dream too, so for them we took that dream away from them. Immigrants, which are mostly Asians, get blamed for “stealing” jobs meant for Kiwis. First and foremost, HOW CAN YOU STEAL SOMETHING THAT NOBODY OWNS?. The job was not yours in the first place. How could you even tell that it was meant for you? Are you fucking psychic men? is there some weird Kiwi shit going on here that we didn’t know? We go through the employment process same as you do. But the difference is you dont get the chance to have it because of a fucking poor decision, DRUGS. So yeah, bottom line Asians just gets blamed for everything. Blame the Asians too for Winston Peters hogging all the attention from the media just coz he wants all immigrants outta here. 

Unfortunate people fucking blame us for the way they live their lives as well. They gratify themselves by being racist. Yeah yeah you can do all you want to gratify yourselves people but the asians always will get the last laugh. Asians laughing at your backs saying “we own your country.” Which I personally would say that deserves a mic drop with a round of applause. I would also say, 

“TRY LOOKING AT THE MIRROR if you can see an Asian responsible for your own life.”

This is what happens to a country not focusing much on education. They breed ignorant moffas. Where they think the television is enough for them to learn about the world. That the news is legit information enough for them to go around and be racist. Who’s suicidal rates go higher each year because they did not focus on PROPER education. Who doesn”t really CARE about the people below the societal hierarchy. Who dislikes communism just because they don’t want to share their hard earned money. To be honest, first time I came here Auckland City Central was alive. A lot of people busking. Giving entertainment in exchange for some change. But now, NONE. ZERO. 

So NZ please don’t breed ignorance.