#alter: brand

[the-kaleidoscope-sys]

the host, several months to a year ago: "oh god oh fuck i think we might be polyfragmented fuck fuck fuck how am i supposed to deal with this many alters how am i supposed to accept this much TRAUMA"

the host now: "hahaha it's okay actually. we needed this many people in order to survive what we survived. sure it's overwhelming sometimes, but i appreciate how much all of our parts have done for each other. also it means there are lots of folks who can help me when i need a break from fronting!"

anyway this is a positivity post and a reminder for polyfragmented systems that it DOES get easier to manage and you CAN learn to find the good in being part of a big system. some of us were so terrified when we started to realize we were polyfragmented bc we had absorbed a lot of negative messaging about polyfragmentation from the (mostly non-pf) systems around us at that time, and i wish someone had told us back then that it wasn't all the doom and gloom we feared it would be.

polyfragmented systems, u r beautiful and u r strong. and if ur a scared system just now discovering ur polyfragmentation, dw u WILL get thru this. <3

[coern-art-very-cool-and-nice]

✌octofrin

[sexynetra]

She’s the only woman ever. To me.

[bhaalswn-arch]

BHAALSWN ;; ORIGINAL "DARK URGE" CHARACTER. ALKAS. HIGH HALF-ELF. ( A LAWFUL EVIL CHARACTER TURNED CHAOTIC NEUTRAL. ) ROLLED BY EMMA. 26. GMT. ( THEY/THEM ) ( ALL SPOILERS TAGGED. ) [ study in: resentment & repression. soak in blood. suppressing dark urges. undoing what his father had designed him to be. a saviour's heart trying to overshadow the darkness. ]

[toxicxsugarxart]

[duckapus]

In the Candace-as-Spiderwoman universe Baljeet is the first ever Hulk. Hulkjeet still insists on being called Hulkjeet, no matter how much all the news outlets and SHIELD want to make him more "serious" and use "The Hulk." When he first shows up Candace fights the military because they're trying to shoot A CHILD with fucking TANKS just because he's big and scary and breaking stuff. One of them tries to pull the "you're supposed to be on our side!" card and she's just like "you know vigilantism is illegal, right?"

Anyway this is the start of Candace having a team because there ain't no rule saying Spiderwoman can't have a team! Fuck the Avengers they can have a different Main Four this time Hulkjeet's a Danville hero.

[softquietsteadylove]

Helloo, the 10 things about you Au was soo cute, i loved it. Could you do a part 2, pretty please 😁🩷.

"Princess?"

Thena bristled as soon as she heard it, as much as she tried to pretend she hadn't.

"Thena," Gilgamesh frowned, leaning over her shoulder while she tried to remain inconspicuous on the stairs. He nudged her, "Thena, what are you doing here?"

She pursed her lips, "I'm so sorry that my mere presence has interfered with your evening."

"Hey," Gil barked in protest, moving to sit with her despite the other party goers loitering around them. He crouched down one step below her, looking up at that scowl-y face of hers. "Really, Thena, I thought this wasn't really your scene, so what're you doing here?--at Ikaris'?"

She huffed, looking around them and so visibly uncomfortable she might as well have been hissing at him. "Sersi."

Gil tilted his head, awaiting further explanation. Thena squished herself even closer to the banisters as some guy came trudging down the stairs, practically kneeing her in the face.

Gil tripped him, sending him tumbling the rest of the way down.

She glared at him, "Gilgamesh!"

"Come on," he grumbled, pulling her up and out the front door by the hand.

"What are you doing?" she sniped at him, fighting him the few steps it took them to get out of the overcrowded and deafening house party.

"Getting some air," he frowned, pulling her with him until they could have some semblance of peace and quiet. "My question remains: what are you doing?"

Thena pulled herself out of his grasp, but she didn't sprint back to the house, or even down the front walkway. She leaned on the railing of the massive wrap-around deck. "Sersi wanted to come. She was hoping Dane would be here, but-"

"I mean," Gil pulled out his phone, "I'm pretty sure he was hoping for the same. At least last he texted me."

Thena looked back at the house forlornly. "I was afraid Ikaris would spot her and make his move."

"Ikaris?" Gil couldn't help but look at her with a frown. Ikaris was their age, and he couldn't imagine young Sersi even having an opportunity to get close to the infamous flirt that was Ikaris. "And Sersi?"

Thena pulled her cardigan tighter around herself as a summer breeze came along. "He tried to date me at one time."

Gil felt as if his eyebrows would rise clean off his face. For all the reasons Thena had to viscerally despise Ikaris, he wouldn't have guessed that one. Although he supposed that was just one more reason to hate the guy's guts.

Thena shrugged it off as best she could, "there was nothing serious about it, just a hunter looking for his prize. But after he figured out I wasn't interested in what he was offering...he turned his attentions to Sersi."

Gil nodded, trying to wrap his head around the tangled web encircling the sisters seemingly trying to mind their own business. He stepped closer to her, "that so?"

Thena either didn't notice him getting closer to her, or didn't mind it. His guess was the former. "I understand why she fell for his charms--the attentions of an older boy, someone everyone thinks is so cool. It's not as if I am immune to flattery. I once thought... "

Fuck this guy.

Thena shook her head, deciding she was done with that train of thought. She put her more steely expression back on, covering up the vulnerability that had started surfacing within her. "He is unfortunately proficient in seduction. And I would hate for my sister to fall victim to his false promises."

Seriously, fuck this guy. Gil agreed, pulling his hands out of his jeans pockets, "y'know, people do say that I was in juvie all of last year. If you want I'm sure I could, uh, teach him a thing or two."

Thena laughed--actually, fully laughed. But it was hard to feel laughed at when it was such a nice one. "Careful, Gilgamesh, or I'll ask you to follow through on that."

"Well," he shrugged, "maybe I would."

Thena looked at him, although it was just in time to find his arms reaching around her. "What're you-?!"

"Relax, Princess, relax," he soothed as he settled his hoodie on her bony little shoulders. "And don't even try to pretend you're not fuckin' freezing."

She looked pretty ready to do just that until another breeze passed by. She clamped her lips shut, although the slight purse to them told him that she wasn't happy about it. But she did look awfully cute, swallowed up by his massive hoodie around her lithe little frame.

Gil stayed relatively close, but also a safe distance away. Enough that she could give him a good hard shove if she wanted to. And knowing what he knew of Princess so far, he was sure she would have no problem doing so if she wanted.

"You said people 'say' you were in juvie."

He looked at her, unable to hide that he was intrigued by her striking up a conversation for herself. "Yeah?"

"So," she looked up at him, the moonlight bouncing off those stupid green eyes of hers. "Where were you really?"

He looked around, rubbing the back of his neck. He almost wished he had found some of those beers which had drawn him here in the first place. Why hadn't he?

Oh, right--so that if he ended up running into Princess here, he could prove he was sober enough to drive her home.

"I have an uncle who lives in the next state over," Gil nodded his head vaguely, tugging at the sleeves of his t-shirt. It was a lightly chilly summer night, but her bird-boned-ladyship obviously needed his sweater more than him. "He messed up his leg and needed help around the house. So I went and stayed with him all last year."

Thena looked genuinely surprised, drifting closer with her arms wrapped around herself. "Why do you let people make you out to be this terrible horror, then?"

He raised his chin up at her, "why do you let people think you're a bitter harpy?"

Thena didn't even blink, and while he didn't feel good about the remark, he had unfortunately heard much worse to describe her. "I am."

"You are not."

"And you would know?"

"I think I know you better than you want me to," Gil rose to her challenge, as well as physically stepped in closer again. He could tell that she had used some sweet smelling shampoo before coming to the party. Or maybe it was perfume? He grinned, "Princess."

She glared at him for the pet name again, but they were a lot closer than they were a second ago. Her eyes bounced around his face, "are you really going to keep calling me that?"

His eyes drifted down to her lips and stayed there, "what should I call you?"

"You..." she paused, her eyes dashing away as the front door opened behind him. "Sersi!"

Gil turned as well, although he had to admit he was more annoyed at the interruption than he was happy to see the two stumbling through the door mid-makeout. He rolled his eyes, "really, dude?"

"Th-Thena!" Sersi gasped, parting from Dane with her lip colour all over his paler skin. "I was-!"

"Coming home," Thena finished, grabbing her sister and prying her away from her lover-boy, "before Father has us both deported to a nunnery."

"Bye Dane!" Sersi at least managed to wave as Thena dragged her away, presumably in the direction of her car. "Bye Gil!"

Gil returned the friendlier sister's wave. He saw Thena's head twitch in his direction but refuse to bridge the gap to look back at him. He sighed.

Dane cleared his throat, sheepishly shuffling over to him as he swiped Sersi's evidence off his cheeks and lips. "S-Sorry, Gil, I didn't-"

"Don't worry about it," Gil chuckled, although he may have slapped the back of Dane's shoulder harder than he really needed to. "I owe you one."

"Owe me?" Dane blinked, watching Gil watch the sisters until they were completely out of sight. "For...?"

Gil slipped his hands back into his jeans pockets with a smirk, "I gotta get my sweater back somehow."

[aquickstart]

I simply must tell you that you’re doing more effective marketing for Saltburn than any ad or preview ever could I’m fully about to go see it just to understand your hype

PLSSS this is the SINGLE best thing you can say to me about any of my hyperfixations. i am so so glad. so glad so happy. i genuinely hope you enjoy this freaky beautiful genius piece of a cinematic masterpiece. i truly genuinely do

[the-kaleidoscope-sys]

saw a post that was trying to be uplifting that concluded with like "you're recovering every year you're not living under trauma <3"

and like, i get what it was trying to say but also we're broke af in a capitalist hellscape sooooo fuck us and our chances for recovery ig

salt in the wound: none of our abusers have ever wanted for anything financially and are still doing well for themselves to this day (except the one who's in and out of jail ig), but we've had many, many months where our electricity got shut off or we didn't have enough to eat.

working a full time job that makes enough to live off of and will actually be sustainable as an extremely traumatized person is damn near fucking impossible. and literally everything that is normalized under capitalism can be so fucking retraumatizing especially when you've also survived financial abuse on top of everything else.

anyway i dont rly have a point with this post ig except that i wish we talked more abt how absolutely crushing it is to escape ur childhood abusers only to still be stuck under an abusive societal system where we are expected to beg and fawn and cut ourself into a "societally acceptable" mask 40+ hrs a wk just to meet our most basic material needs (and let's be real most jobs aren't even covering THAT anymore).

i dont know how im supposed to heal under this system. i dont think im meant to. and spite has carried me this far, but idk how much further it can take me.

im tired.

[sanstropfremir]

what's the most interesting fashion element you've been seeing lately in kpop styling/fashion in 2023 in general? least interesting?

hmm. least interesting is definitely Jeans and Tshirt but that is a universal constant. if i were to pick something specifically from this year, it wouldn't be one single element, but instead a very prominent trend of stylists not being able to accessorize and/or being unable to pick garments that have the innate interest to carry a look without accessories. accessorizing and understanding cut are one of the most important aspects of styling and design so it's a bit baffling to me that half the stylists in the industry can't do the basics of their job description, but that's very much the thing i've noticed about all the meh styling this year. for examples, itzy's cake was probably the most egregious, especially when compared to their earlier styling for cbs like wannabe and not shy.

for most interesting? specific element would be the mschf boots! i am obsessed with statement shoes and these honkers are some of the most statement to statement, plus i love the fact that they are extremely polarizing. when they dropped a couple years ago a lot of people HATED them, so i really admire the two stylists that have decided to use them, bc they are very effective in communicating silhouettes. they first appeared for nine.i's turn it off, which is video game themed so it absolutely makes sense to use elements that pare down silhouette lines to something more cartoonish:

and the second is in key's! they're used as part of his boksillie outfit, which again, they're aiming to achieve a cartoonish silhouette. i'm pretty sure that boksillie doesn't even have foot definition, so using the mschf boots its a great way to interpret that onto a human form:

[indosentia]

Re-education lesson so damn succinct Marazhai catches Kharael on his knees “servicing” his Bill.

Not like he had to find it the hard way, what with the loud sounds procured from the rogue trader when his Dracon’s tongue slides between the folds of her sopping wet cunt, or the guttural moans that rumble from his throat when she grabs his hair and shoves him further into her.

[frostbite-fable]

You left me speechless, Frost! Just got done reading Will You Weapon Your Skin, and I am floored by how heartbreakingly beautiful it was. About to read Gentlemen Prefer Blondes and I’m STOKED. I look forward to seeing more from you!

I will throw my hat into the ring for requests: Feral!Alastor (perhaps Vox dosed him with something) and the hotel gang trying to get him under control. Then Lucifer comes up with the idea to lure him in with his blood (angelic blood, the house specialty) and Al just just goes to town on his neck or something until he goes back to normal. Cue awkwardness.

And one last thing— do you happen to take writing commissions?

So I finally checked my tumblr after being on a friend vacation for a week, and I got to read this just in time to have it rotate in my head for my entire drive to my dad's house. And lemme tell you, having 3 hours alone with nothing else to do but spin a bunch of wild ideas for what should be a nice easy little oneshot can really spawn some serious plot bunnies lmao. So yes, definitely putting this on my list to do after I finish the other oneshot I accidentally talked myself into doing lol

Thank you so much for the kind words. I really hope you enjoy blondes, Sugar and I have been having so much fun writing it and we're so excited to get to more <33

Unfortunately, I don't take commissions. I'm just too slow of a writer to feel comfortable taking any kind of payment for my works, and the added pressure tends to make me much less happy with the final products (when I even manage to produce them ;___;). You're always welcome to drop requests my way though! No guarantee on if I'll get to them or how long it'll take, but I do love trying them out when I can.

But yes, thank you again for the ask and for filling my head with all kinds of feral!Alastor thoughts, I will now be haunted for however long it takes me to get this all down on paper :']

[finalexpenses]

every day i think abt how easy it is to read harry du bois as a system . its real to me tbh

[pinktinselmonstrosity]

GOOD NEWS the expensive pair of jeans i impulse-bought last week (bc my current jeans make me actually angry to wear) don't fit me, so i can return them and get a refund 😊

[deixa-eu-te-fazer-sorrir]

Alter Bridge - Brandão new start

[bmpmp3]

as an outsider to the subculture i really adore looking at lolita fashion photoshoots and advertisements 1) because its an interesting alternative fashion style and its cool to see but also 2) whatevers going on in some of these photoshoots prop and styling wise is BUCKWILD and im like. im too distracted to pay attention to what clothing item is being advertised because this is just an awesome character design LIKE hold on lemme grab some examples

im mostly familiar with a lot of the smaller chinese lolita and adjacent fashion style brands because they always go off the wall with it so these examples are all probably gonna be from taobao but like IS THAT A FURRY BOW

(from BoliCherry) WE SHOULD HAVE MORE FURRY BOWS....FURRY ARROWS... put some FLOCKING on that SWORD

This one's just a very striking composition for some of the photos but also

(I believe the company is called ChokerRabbit) hee hee hee calico cat fabric..... hee hee heee

just three gals hanging out like gals do (one homie on the dresser):

(u.rtto or sometimes spelled urtto)

and why does she have claws? because its awesome next question

(I believe this brand is called Moluo or Moluo Lolita?)

and well she just kinda rules

(LeMiroir)

and this ones a really fun mushroom situation with and awesome mushroom hat but im also like. in love with her matching mushroom headed doll friend behind her

(Nikki Tomorrow, apparently this brand might be affiliated with the Nikki games somehow?)

I dunno like the stylists and set designers and prop artists in these photoshoots....theyre geniuses im like constantly jealous of their character design skills HJKFNDJKSLE