#also... so expensive... why even have insurance tbh

[rimouskis]

emailed a therapist for the first time. feel a bit like the melting emoji

[heartshattering]

So...

I've been prescribed heart meds since I was 13 years old, and my doctors don't want to give me stimulants to treat ADHD thanks to my history of arrhythmia

Buuut I really have to wonder if excessively caffeinating myself on a daily basis is really any better just because you can have hundreds of milligrams of caffeine without needing a prescription? ����

[paper-mario-wiki]

may i ask why you want to move to japan specifically? wouldn't you be able to find a place to live in america?

tbh the differences in quality of life between countries are so stark that i can give 1 reason at a time and you'd understand why any of them individually would make me want to move.

here's 1 reason: insurance.

in the united states, i pay $450 a month for private health insurance. with that health insurance, i have a yearly deductible, which means that on top of the $5k+ a year I have to pay monthly just to HAVE the insurance, I also have several thousand in medical bills that I've got to pay out of pocket before my insurance begins covering things proper. and after i spend almost $10,000 to actually have my insurance start kicking in (which i have to meet every year, meaning in January I have to start paying the 10k all over again), i also have to pay coinsurance (the percentage of my healthcare that my insurance DOESNT cover), which is a different percentage and base rate based on what specific healthcare service I'm getting. even then, healthcare in the USA is significantly more expensive on a foundational level without insurance than most other countries.

in japan, the amount I could have been paying monthly for the government subsidized National Health Insurance was $5 because I was a student, but I didnt know how to apply for that so I paid the general price of $70 monthly. after that, starting immediately after you begin payment, the national health insurance covers 70%-90% of healthcare costs depending on tax bracket (higher coverage for those earning less). Japanese insurance ALSO has a deductible, which resets monthly instead of yearly, starting at around $150. if the amount that you pay out of pocket exceeds your monthly deductible and you still need healthcare services, you can apply for a reimbursement on all medical expenses for the rest of the month.

that is 1 reason i want to move away from the united states and back to japan.

[caralara]

The difference between Lucky’s and Freddie’s bdays is quite telling tbh I mean of course F lives in LA but it’s not like money is an issue in Louis’ family, his sisters haven’t been in school for years and none of them has 9 to 5 job in office. One could say that maybe they celebrate F’s bday during his Christmas visit but it’s literally month early and for a child in F’s age it feels like a year

honestly, seeing how louis is so absolutely lovely and affectionate and a natural with Lucky and his siblings just underlines the contrast of how he used to be so fucking stiff and awkward around his own son ??? up until two years ago so so much.

I also believe F’s actual birthday is in October, so the whole sad one candle in a muffin charade just seriously doesn’t cut it.

Like really??? As if that trash family wouldn’t show off all the expensive shit louis would get for F?? If he’s dressing his nephew in Burberry head to toe then why the fuck doesn’t his son even have health insurance???

[krikeymate]

something I've always wondered in scream 6 is how does Tara pay for college and all of her stuff, we know she cut off her mom and Sam works 2 jobs, but does Sam pay for everything? Like does she have a part time job or does Sam just gives her allowance? Who pays for her asthma inhaler, because I know it's quite expensive in the US without insurance.

I'm British so I have zero understanding of how this stuff works over there.

A quick search tells me that a child can stay under their parent's health insurance until 26. I'm guessing that maybe the 'cutting off' happened at around the time they moved to New York, she would have been under her mum's until that point. It looks like you can't add an adult sibling to health insurance, but that there are special circumstances if you're supporting someone with a disability, which may apply. Asthma is considered a disability under the ADA, so it's likely Tara is on Sam's health insurance. Maybe one of Sam's shitty dead-end jobs actually comes with health insurance which is why she took it.

Education wise, ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I'm guessing grants/scholarship. I've actually mentioned in a post reply discussion that maybe the reason Mindy/Chad don't live with Sam & Tara is that if they had a scholarship and that part of the requirement may be to live on campus. We don't get any details of where Mindy lives - it's implied it's not with Sam & Tara when Mindy questions how Quinn came to be rooming with them.

It's possible that there were some lawsuits around everything that happened. Against the hospital, against Amber's family, perhaps, because it went down in their house? Maybe even against the Woodsboro police for their failure to protect her. It seems like you can sue for literally anything over there.

It's not mentioned if Tara has a job, but it's possible - although I find it hard to believe that Sam would let her tbh. If she did, then I imagine it's on campus during daylight hours. It's also possible that the girls do actually have a 'trust' or savings account already existing from say, grandparents.

[windybit]

My comments aren’t going to be hidden in the tags this time because I’m very passionate about this specifically.

Another issue is that if you want a job with decent pay, they expect you to have a degree (OR 8-10 years of experience). And even if you do have one, you still might get paid like shit because it’s the BARE MINIMUM. Going to college for four years and earning a Bachelor’s degree is not the achievement it was back in the day. And it’s even LESS affordable now than it was 30+ years ago. So companies are expecting all these 20 somethings who have nothing to their names to spend tens, sometimes HUNDREDS of thousands of dollars to get an 8.5x11 signed by some old fuckers that says congrats you learned some shit specifically pertaining to a career path. And even that’s not enough. You have to have 2-5 years of experience SPECIFICALLY pertaining to the job you’re applying for too. Where do you get it? Who the hell knows. I sure don’t. And how are you supposed to get it if nobody will hire you because you don’t have it?

Also have you guys TRIED writing a cover letter? After growing up being told not to brag about yourself, it’s really hard to write a whole letter bragging about yourself in a professional manner.

Third of all, and this is a big pet peeve of mine, so many people say “You need to call them and bother them. Ask if they got your resume and when you can expect an answer.” News flash: you can’t. Nobody posts phone numbers for their HR departments, and I can guarantee they don’t want to hear from you either. You could maybe send them an email, but it’s SO easy to just ignore an email and claim you never received it. Or they actually won’t see it because it’ll get buried under all the other emails they’re getting from the hundreds of other applicants who are also trying to get a job.

For example, my degree is in engineering. Computers to be exact. You would think I’d have an easy time finding a job because everyone needs computer bitches. And you would be wrong. I have been applying for jobs for almost ten months now. I graduated in May. I have had THREE interviews, countless rejections, and even MORE who have just. Not replied at all. The lack of progress has been infuriating. I’m living with my parents, I’m driving a car that they own because I can’t afford to buy one (not even used), and I have no dental or vision insurance because the cutoff age for those is different than for medical. I have loan payments that start in a month. And it’s not that I don’t want to work. I want to work so bad. I want to make money and be able to pay my bills and be financially independent and move out. I had a job, but it was seasonal because I thought for sure I’d have found a full time job by the time October rolled around. Because 8 months should have been more than enough time to find a job. And tbh I love my seasonal job and would probably do it forever if not for the fact that insurance is super expensive and it doesn’t pay the best.

So yeah. Please please please don’t buy into the “nobody wants to work” biz. Yes there are some lazy fuckers out there who don’t want to work. But there are way more of us who are trying and trying to get a job and are just being rejected and ghosted constantly by these companies who won’t even give so much as a reason why. And please, if you know someone who is or has been struggling to find work, don’t tell them what they should or shouldn’t be doing or what they’re doing wrong unless they ask for your advice. Nothing has been more frustrating than the boatloads of unsolicited advice people (mostly over the age of 50) have been throwing out left and right. Just support your friends and sympathize with them as they wade through hundreds of job postings that they’ll never hear back from. And maybe send them one or two if you happen to find one that fits what they’re looking for :)

[idontblushsrry]

Platonic Soulmates||Gojo Satoru

A/N: So this is because while I do think Gojo is fine asl, he’s a player and tbh he’s better as a friend lol. I feel very sorry for all the Gojo stans who either just now realized or can no longer deny that their boy is a player. Also I would like for best friend Gojo to buy me a Teuta Matoshi dress, that’s all

Word count: 652

Ok so, first off, Gojo is literally the most annoying person you know

 Like forget every other annoying person you thought you knew, he is now them

And if he still isn’t, don’t worry he’s working on a way to reach that number 1 spot

Aside from being a menace, he’s actually a really sweet friend

As platonic soulmates, you are both just really in tune with the other’s emotions

Gojo when he notices you feeling distressed, does everything in his power to make you feel better

Although if you don’t feel better by his third knock knock joke, he’ll start teleporting you to different places

Speaking of teleporting, Gojo only does this because he CANNOT drive

Well, he can but he should only be allowed to do so if everyone in the car has a life insurance policy

First of all, Gojo literally drives blind, like his glasses are pitch black

And second, he thinks that the general layout of the road and it’s rules are suggestions

Mans out here playing bumper cars on the freeway

Because of the fact that Gojo cannot drive, you tag along when you can to drive in Ichiji’s stead

Whatever it takes to keep the madman named Gojo off the road

Aside from that, Gojo is also the only person you trust to take your pictures

Something about the way he takes them that just makes you look absolutely extraordinary

A part of your relationship is just people asking why the two of you aren’t dating

At first you were both just like “oh you know we’re just better as friends, yada, yada”

But after a while it just became a contest to see who could come up with the most ridiculous excuse

“We’re not dating because combining our beauty together will bring about the end of the universe.”

“If we were meant to be married then I think a unicorn would’ve told me by now”

“I actually can’t date him, if I do I might actually have to put up with his tall ass instead of pretending.”

Gojo pouts whenever you use that one

Anyways Gojo is also the best to tell random shit

Like if you need to rant, he’s there and he brought sweets

They’re mainly for him but you can have some if you must

Gojo is also gonna be your sugar daddy, but in a friend way

Like he’s buying you whatever expensive shit you want even if you don’t mention it 

He also always brings you random shit back from the places he visits

It’s kind of a contest between you two (especially if you’re a jujutsu sorcerer and you go on missions or what not)

You now have a section in your broom closet dedicated to the random shit Gojo buys you

Today it’s a fly swatter from Korea, tomorrow who knows?

Also this is completely unrelated but when you two do hangout, it’s always wild

Like you’ll start walking around Tokyo just chillin and end up at an underground karaoke contest

You wish you were kidding but this really happened

Other times with the two of you just time jumping include;

The time you ended up at a fortune teller’s lounge after Gojo dared you to say yes the whole day

The time you played rock paper scissors and ended up at an intense game of bingo at the senior citizen center (Gojo being the winner of that game of course)

Finally, the time you were walking along the boardwalk and you ended up back at your house playing a game of Candyland

After everything the two of you have been through together, sometimes you do ask yourself if you and Gojo would be better as a couple

But then he sends you a text that says ‘this song reminds me of you!’ and it’s just peepee poopoo

And suddenly you remember why he’s your best friend

[lastoneout]

It's not even about Portland that's literally poverty wages anywhere in the US. Like "you qualify for multiple forms of government welfare" poor. $26k a year comes out to like $12.50/h before taxes, $15 isn't even a living wage, you would have to make upwards of $25/hour to even call yourself barely financially stable, and by financially stable I mean not middle class, certainly not rich, more like upper lower class. As an example, my fiance makes about that much and I still had to take out a loan to pay for my wisdom teeth surgery, and I can barely afford new glasses every year. My fiance lost his job and we were dead broke by the end of the month it took him to get a new one, had he not found one we would have been fucked. The only reason we aren't underwater is bcs Tucson is a relatively cheap place to live and we don't have to pay rent, just utilities. If we lived in Portland, even without paying rent, we'd be paycheck to paycheck.

The submitter is out of their mind for thinking $12.50/h doing backbreaking work like delivering oxygen tanks is a "lavish" income. (Also, besides the point, but a 2015 Nissan Leaf is NOT a nice car especially if it gets heavy use.) Their roommate contributes a fourth of their income to the household grocery fund which apparently they don't even use that much, on top of insurance for their car and any medical bills/household necessities they need, and had to pick up a second job just to afford a decent winter coat and boots, which are basically a necessity if you're delivering heavy ass oxygen tanks in a place that recently had the whole town shut down due to snow and ice. A decent pair of boots is the difference between being able to work and injuring yourself on a daily basis.

$24k a year is NOT a living wage, god forbid wealthy. The submitter is wildly out of touch with like, fucking reality. C does have some privilege in that they make a little more money than their housemates, own a car, have a steady job, and don't have to pay rent, but it's pulling hairs. They're barely better off than their housemates, and I have no doubt one expensive personal crisis would leave them destitute.

Tbh this has gotten so ridiculous I genuinely suspect the submitter is just a troll(which is why I'm willing to reblog this post) bcs fr them thinking it's reasonable to drop $5k on furniture and clothes for their housemates but acting like $2k a month makes C rich is INSANE, but make no mistake, if what they say is true C is NOT rich and barely has anything over on their housemates.

Okay. Am I the asshole if I call out my roommate's self-centered behavior? I live in a communal space, where everybody except C shares freely. C got a good job through connections and is able to spend freely on themselves, spending little on household items, groceries, etc. They say they're broke every month, but I've seen their takeout containers and amazon boxes, so maybe it's a spending problem. Worst of all, when we are low on food, C just disappears for a few hours and comes back instead of cooking with everyone.

I've told C that they're being selfish and they should start considering other people, but it goes in one ear and out the other. I offered to help budget but they don't listen! They barely spend more than $400 of their $2000 a month on groceries for the house; the rest goes to their lavish lifestyle while the rest of us suffer. I just want them to pay their fair share. AITA for asking them to be fair??

Including some more specific INFO from version 1 of this post (which wasn't postable due to being about emotions rather than actions):

What are these acronyms?

[ofkareenas]

.  ∘ ∗   :   🐝   𝙸𝙽𝙲𝙾𝙼𝙸𝙽𝙶   …

JANHVI KAPOOR, CIS WOMAN, TWENTY-FIVE, SHE / HER  ⟨  ✽  ⟩   hey, you haven’t bumped into  kareena puri  lately, have you? they have been living here for the past  two years  and during that time, locals have gotten to know them as  charismatic  &  creative.  a little birdie told me they can be quite  stubborn  &  opinionated  though. explains why they’re an online fashion brand owner and designer .  they really remind me of  morning beach walks, sketchbooks filled with new designs, the sound of a sewing machine running.  if you’re ever looking for them, i bet you can find them around port briar lighthouse.

hi again, it’s tally ! this is my second baby kareena !! she’s very new to me and it’s pretty exciting bc i tend to just recycle characters kjhfgkj again, if you’d like to plot, please reach out to me on dms, or you can like this and i’ll reach out. you can also talk to me on discord if you’d prefer that. ( gowon face insurance company#8416 ) also pls excuse how messy this is, i havent written a proper full intro in a while.

.  ∘ ∗   :   🐝   𝙱𝙸𝙾𝙶𝚁𝙰𝙿𝙷𝚈   …

kareena puri

march 30th, 1996 - 25 yrs old ; aries

cis woman, she/her, bisexual (closeted to her family, not so much to anyone else)

born in mumbai, india. raised in seattle, washington.

currently residing in port briar, maine

pinterest board: here

TW / CW: none, other than a controlling family, which idk if it even should be tagged but yuh

kareena knew it, she was lucky compared to others. she had it better than some of her peers, and she recognized that privilege. but if she could trade her family life for a “normal” one, she would in the quick snap of a finger.

kareena’s family was pretty much old money. she came from a long line of doctors in almost every medical field, and they own so many private hospitals and clinics in many countries. if you happen to hear the Puri family name, you probably would associate it with these things: a big hospital that you probably drove by with your car or a surgeon that your doctor wanted to refer you to.

every child in the family was expected to go to med school. it was the only way to keep the family legacy and pride going. of course, the more new generations came in the family, the more there were those who decided to take different fields of work instead. and of course, the eldest members in the family would always voice their disappointment in them, and would always make sure to remind them that they’re a disgrace no matter how successful they are in whatever field they went into.

kareena didn’t know what she was doing at the young age of sixteen. her parents would boast about how she would be a successful doctor when she grows up, just like her older siblings, and how her younger siblings would be the same as well. all kareena did was nod and smile. she didn’t want this.

the thing is, she was a naturally great student with really good grades, and yet her parents would be disappointed if she got a B+ or even an A- on a subject every once in a while. she didn’t get it. she thought she was doing her best. although the complaining about her report cards was getting a bit too much coming from her mother, and that’s when kareena really started to not give a fuck. yes, she still got good grades for her own sake, but she started to do whatever she wanted. she hung out with kids her parents would call a bad influence, and started to skip some school days or go to parties on the weekends. it was fun and liberating to her.

once her senior year was over and kareena was graduated with a high school diploma, her family was back at it again, trying to get her to apply to all the notable medical schools out there. she had protested about it, and family fights ensued, and with some threats, kareena was forced into applying. next school year, she was in another city, studying to be a surgeon, and her mind wasn’t into it at all. she only lasted one year before she decided to drop out and transfer to FIDM, a fashion school in L.A, instead.

kareena has always been into fashion. the way she dressed would tell you so. how she was always on the latest fashion, and how she would have so many sketchbooks and scrapbooks of fashion related things. she loved making her own clothes at home with her sewing machine. her mother would tell her that it’s a nice hobby, but she never guessed that her daughter would want to pursue it as a career. the color drained out of her face when she saw what kareena had done. she was angry and disappointed, and mostly worried about what the rest of the family would say, more than she cared about her daughter’s wants and needs. kareena, however, didn’t care. she was happy. she moved out to be closer to campus, and soon enough after graduation, she left everything behind and decided to go somewhere quieter: port briar, maine. this was completely different from everything she was used to, it was so quiet and small, but she loved it. she finally feels at peace with herself.

now, kareena is a successful fashion designer. she started an online business, and it has been booming, with fashion influencers promoting her work. she was hoping that someday she would get to do bigger things, like making custom items for celebrities and being featured in fashion magazines and fashion weeks. she could only wish and work towards that for now.

and even with all of that, even when kareena had picked herself up from the ground on her own and built her own business, her family still didn’t approve. they still pretended to care about her, but would make sure to remind her of how disappointed they are in her and the path she’d taken. they would sit and wonder what it would’ve been like if she continued to go to med school, and how successful she could’ve been. and all kareena would do in response is smile and say that she’s successful anyway, but at least now she’s doing something she actually loves.

.  ∘ ∗   :   🐝   𝙷𝙴𝙰𝙳𝙲𝙰𝙽𝙾𝙽𝚂   …

born in mumbai, india. moved to seattle, washington when she was still a baby, and was raised there for the rest of her life, all while still visiting family back home.

kareena is the middle child of 5 siblings. two older brothers and two younger sisters

she is bisexual, and she’s pretty open about it. except to her family. shes not out to them

she believes in working hard, but she also believes that everyone deserves to have fun and get a break every once in a while. she currently is the only main person doing all the work for her business, but she’s hoping to soon hire anyone who has the same interests as her

her designs are mostly evening wear dresses and such. think teuta matoshi or marionela type of dresses, all flowy and puffy, giving fantasy feels

altho i would say her success is more like early hope macaulay, when she was still starting out. if no one is familiar with her, she is an irish fashion and textile designer who got famous for her knit wear on instagram, and she’s p young !! u might recognize her work if u look her up <3

she currently lives alone port briar, with her rented home facing the beach. exactly how she likes it. it was different and definitely not lavish like her home growing up, but she liked it better. she could’ve lived somewhere more expensive, but she didn’t want that.

owns a studio where she usually works. there is more space for her there than what she used to have at home. all the design process, sewing and even photoshoots take place there usually

if not working, kareena could be found at the rocky beaches near the port’s lighthouse or off somewhere on an adventure. she is always here to have a good time

honestly kareena is still such a new character for me, so if i think of any other hcs, i’ll add them here

.  ∘ ∗   :   🐝   𝙲𝙾𝙽𝙽𝙴𝙲𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽𝚂   …

friends from school, could be from seattle or L.A: kareena would’ve kept in contact with those friends tbh shes the type of person to keep her friends around. even if they were just added to her snapchat or followed on instagram. she would keep up with them

toxic relationship / gf: THIS

exes ?? we could definitely plot this out

high school ex perhaps 👀

FWB: no strings attached 

neighbors: she lives on sea sprite lane

family members? kareena would be hoping that left them all behind in the past, but it can’t be denied that she has a big family and she could possibly run into any of them at any moment

omg crush perhaps ! idm if it’s one sided, and it could either be kareena having feelings or the other person

a friend she had a falling out with: she probably met this person two years ago when she first moved here. something might’ve happened and one thing after another, they dropped each other and it was probably the worst falling out for both of them

clients / customers for her business perhaps. or maybe a helping hand!! 

literally anything u wanna do, lets gooo

[moldy-mold]

Hello! It’s already May... Life updates - a roller coaster of emotions

A tempestuous, tearful April... Aghh the struggle has not eased up a bit. Living is just too expensive to be shouldered by part-time wages, meager freelance, and fickle confidence. My parents are disappointed - I’ve always tried to dodge the questions about my uncertain future. After all, I don’t have any answers.

What nearly broke my spirit was the humiliating scolding I received on my birthday. “You’re almost 30. Stop playing around at the cafe, don’t you know your bank account is nearly empty? How will you pay for this? If you can’t afford car insurance then just bike to work!” I didn’t even have time to think about how inconsiderate that was. In a daze, I hung up and went to my second part-time job that day.

Well, Dad, those are the questions I asked myself every single day. All I can do is keep trying even if you don’t believe in me. Because, despite everything, I still believe in myself.

Nothing good will come out of asking these punishing questions. I don’t know if things will get better or worse. Just gotta do what I can to get by as a small creature existing in this universe.

I learned to stop blaming myself for not being successful. Given the circumstances, I think the odds are stacked pretty high against most of us right now.

“Banish the nonsense. Some questions will ruin you if you are denied the answer long enough.” - Annihilation

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I’ve begun my investment journey! After studying how it all works I have come to understand the value of investing. It was one of my resolutions for this year and I’m glad I’ve achieved it.

My brother, a crypto enthusiast, knows my monetary plight and has been helping me out in the weirdest ways.

6 am text: “Hey Sis, you got $1000? Put it into Dogecoin... like NOW.”

I don’t like doing these kinds of high-risk-high-reward investments but what the heck, I was desperate. I applied for an account that can trade crypto.

In the end my account got rejected (there was no explanation) and I gave up. Because of course that would happen lol.

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“Hey, do you have time to talk about the future?” “UM... are we breaking up???” “LOL don’t say it like that!”

My roommate / best friend decided she wanted to move to her own place and find her own way in life. Of course, my fragile heart, still tender from the previous month’s beating, took it very personally. I was reassured it wasn’t my fault - there are plenty of other valid reasons why.

We’ve been sharing an apartment for 6 years now, and although I knew it would happen someday, it was quite shocking to hear it being said to me in reality. At first, I laughed it off because I’ve been dreaming about moving out of the country anyway and it all works out. I’m an introverted, neat-freak, homebody! It’s perfect! But after a very pensive shower, I realized that I’m actually terrified to be without any companionship. Either way, I have to put my feelings aside because I don’t wanna hold her back from her dreams. I may have trouble accepting it now but hopefully I can genuinely be happy for her in time.

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The Plant Life Please welcome Rokurou, the newest addition to my jungle.

It’s been a few weeks and he totally ate bugs already lol. Nice! I was thinking the smaller traps wouldn’t catch anything, but it turns out they’ve been doing the most work. The larger traps can’t catch ants or tiny gnats. They just crawl out after the trap snaps shut.

This venus fly trap is rather picky about what water he gets so I’ve been out there collecting rainwater in buckets JUST for him! Kind of a pain, but I will do whatever it takes to keep him alive.

It was a very tiny dream of mine to collect and care for carnivorous plants. If the shop had more varieties, I would probably buy them all.

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I thought I was gonna die... Hostess for a day. One day while working at the cafe, this old Chinese man came in asking how much I made here. Then he told me if I work as a hostess/front desk person at his restaurant (which was next to the cafe, by the way), he will pay me more than the cafe. He slipped me $5 to go see him after my shift at 9pm. It was soooooo sketch. But I went anyway to at least hear him out after telling my roommate and my parents where I was going. You know... in case I die.

Luckily I didn’t die. It was a normal Chinese restaurant. I met the staff and they were all super cool and the mysterious old man goes by Mr. Lin.

Mr. Lin was very chill about it. He said I can have a trial run after my bakery shift on Saturday. If I don’t like it, I can just tell him no and he will pay me for my time.

I knew it was a bad idea to take another shift after a long shift at the cafe but I did it anyway. It was BUSY. Too busy for anyone to teach me how to be a hostess so I literally just had to guess what I’m supposed to be doing. It was kinda obvious though, showing people to their tables. I picked them at random bc I didn’t know if there was a method to seating people or not.

There are three different menus: Chinese, Korean and English and they’re ALL different. Depending on the nationality of who walks in, I have to decide for myself which menu to hand out. Uhhhhh despite being Asian myself, I cannot tell the difference between Korean and Chinese people lmao so I have to keep awkwardly asking people which menu they want. *screams*

The manager, Vincent, is so OP though. He knows exactly which menu to get every time. I was like HOW DO YOU KNOW?? He only responded with “working in the business for 24 years.”

Anyway, it was a long and confusing night of people thinking I am a waitress and me not knowing where the spoons are. But I don’t think this job is for me, even if it pays a lot.

There sure is plenty of demand for part-time food service workers and zero demand for full-time graphic designers... sigh. My journey doing random jobs in 2021 continues.

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My brother graduated pharmacy school last week. In our culture, the older sibling’s shoulders is where all the expectations should rest. Maybe in another AU I would feel small and inferior to my younger and more successful sibling. But I don’t feel anything like that. In fact, if he can take care of my parents while I’m trying to figure out my own life, then I’m just more grateful to him. Maybe my parents don’t expect anything of me anymore, which is okay. Either way, my brother and I have each other’s backs.

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Berseria I went into it with ZERO expectations because of its infamous predecessor, but I have come out pleasantly surprised. I liked it more than I thought. I’m at the end but I’m not done with the story yet.

I remember expressing my utter confusion about Zesty and everyone was like “play Berseria, it will answer a majority of your questions.” And boy, it did and I’m so glad. I loved all the throwbacks and references and lore that had to do with the previous game. Like, they really had something interesting going on here but it never quite came to fruition last time.

Is it just me, or did it take a very long time to understand all the battle mechanics? Like... I didn’t get the hang of the game until we got to Meirchio. Now I am quite good at playing Rokurou, my main. And it feels way more fun. I usually like mage characters in the old tales games but tbh I wasn’t really into it this time.

After we finish Bersy, we will be moving on to Xillia 2, our final Tales game! Gaius, I’m coming for you.

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Xenoblade At the same time, I am also finishing up Xenoblade after spending nearly a year on it. I have weeks where I’m just grinding the side quests to unlock the skill trees. When I’m down, traveling and exploring in this game puts my worries to rest. Really though, the maps are so beautiful... And the music! T_T

This is one of the few games where I like every character pretty much equally, though Dundun and Riki win by just a little bit.

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That’s it for now. Thanks for being here!

[musicallisto]

the most you could potentially pay for giving birth is the car parking fee tbh,,, as for actual treatments, your health insurance covers up to 80% of hospital costs and sometimes 100% of pharmacy costs for prescribed medications. Say you break an arm in France; the total cost of the ER + surgery + anesthesia + overnight stay + cast & sling + medication is around like 1500€, which is approx. $1600

hold up,,,,, this has to be a full on ask because !!!!!!!! i'm cRYING?????

we all know the E.R. is expensive as hell, but you're telling me an E.R. overnight stay, and a super deluxe pack of surgery with your essentials is only $1,600? did you forget a zero, clara? pLEASE tell me you forgot a zero,,,, 😭😭😭😭😭 i've never broken an arm, but i just phoned a friend who did, and the surgery alone cost ~$15,000. admittedly, they didn't have insurance at the time, so that jacks up the price, but i still weep for them. 😭😭😭😭😭 a typical overnight E.R. stay in my state (minus any kind of tests) is ~$1,400 (with insurance) alone. can you imagine with a surgery? and medication is hell, i tell you. my little sister has asthma and for one (1) of her required inhalers, it's around $250 a month after insurance. 😭😭😭😭

if you want, i could pull up my medical records and tell you what it was for my heart surgery after insurance (which was a valve repair, wayyy cheaper than a replacement), but i'm pretty sure you'd cry.

interestingly enough, though, dental is pretty much the same! my sister got her wisdom teeth out (only 3 tho) and it was about the same price. i'm not sure how good or bad our dental is, though. i want to say it's good, but idk.

sadly, though, i don't have optical insurance, so that's a lot™.

in conclusion: i'm crying.

✧˖°࿐ I am 100% serious and I did not forget a zero! I used to go to the hospital all. the. time when I was a kid because I had severe allergies, and the last time I went (I was around 6) and they ran a battery on tests on me, my parents did not pay a dime. Or like, a ridiculously low price that insurance didn't cover. How it works is the public healthcare system (called Sécu) pays for 80% of the price for everyone regardless of insurance, and then if you have an insurance they cover the remaining expenses. According to a 2012 study, the average cost of a surgery in France was $5300 for heavy surgeries, and $1500 for light ones (which rounds up to $1060 and a whopping $300) after the Sécu has worked its magic). I found another, more recent article that claims a day at the hospital costs approximately $1500, and a day in intensive care is $3500. But what you really pay if you don't have insurance is more around $300 and $700 for intensive care. In some cases the Sécu covers all of your hospital charges and you effectively pay a grand amount of $0 without insurance (but that's rare cases, like a prolonged hospital stay or reconstructive surgeries).

I'm baffled that a hospital stay could be so expensive in the US, like,,,, how do you guys live?? I understand now why Americans are so prone to smiling through the pain and going to the doctor only when they're on the brink of death because holy shit- another instance of you being so much tougher than us lol

I'm curious about your medical records, even if I don't want to breach your privacy of course! But I feel like we will both just weep. Also, I do not want to shatter you but I checked the price of an inhaler in France and it's... $4. (According to Google, because my asthmatic friend is telling me it's more) Tell that to your sister and see how she reacts because I'm honestly crying for her 😭 When I was highly allergic I had an Epipen on me at all times (a pleasure many know too, I'm sure!), and one of them cost my parents something like $28.

(Ok, I'm not saying I don't believe you but I HAD to do some research because there is no way that an inhaler is so expensive. Like you need it to BREATHE?? but alas...)

(there is no way that's real. There is NO WAY that's real.)

Funny to see that dentistry is the same though! I had the nightmare helmet machine that Katy Perry has in the TGIF video (or the Charlie and the Chocolate Factory thing) + braces so I know what it's like and it's a PAIN. And glasses are SO expensive too??? Like I just want to see,,, be a normal, functioning human being,,,, not run into every fucking lamppost on the street,,,,, I'm very short-sighted so my lenses are thick af and last time I changed them my glasses were like $800?????? bitch?????

no but also - you guys have different insurances for different things?? like you have one insurance for the dentist, one insurance for the ophtalmologist...??? i'm,,, i'm feeling anxious.

one last thing we need to discuss in the price of PHONE PLANS in the usa... i mean this is not a phone plans in the usa are overpriced thing, it's more so that phone plans are cheap as hell in France (because there's a lot of competition? idk shit about economics). i have nightmares on the daily when I think about your phone plans,,,

[shcnley]

╰ ✧ ZOEY DEUTCH. MUSE SEVEN. BISEXUAL. ❞ say hello to the s club’s very own SHANLEY EVANS! a TWENTY-THREE year old CISFEMALE that goes by SHE/HER pronouns. i heard they were voted MOST TALKATIVE in high school, which says a lot about them because they’re very VIVACIOUS and DEPENDABLE, but watch out for their IMPULSIVE and STUBBORN side as well. i hope they’re ready to take a break from being a TEACHER and finally get this summer started! 

hiiii friendssss, i’m gigi!!! and here’s my lil french fry lovin’ bb, shanley. sooo excited to plot w/ you allllll <333 

B A S I C S

full name: shanley nicole evans gender: cisfemale pronouns: she/her sexuality: bisexual age: 23 years old birthday: january 27th 1997 birthplace: NYC currently living: chicago, il relationship status: single zodiac: aquarius sun, virgo moon, leo rising occupation: teacher ( 1st grade )

I N S P O

characters: jessica day ( new girl ), lorelai gilmore ( gilmore girls ), harper ( set it up ), summer roberts ( the o.c. ), alexis rose ( schitt’s creek ), & amy march ( little women ). music: click this sentence for playlist !!  pinterest: click this sentence for pinterest !! 

B A C K G R O U N D

kso, i’m going to be honest. shanley had an extremely normal and happy childhood. her parents met in high school, fell in love and were married after graduating college. her father ( theodore evans / think sandy cohen from the oc ) is an executive vice president of an insurance company while her mother ( clara evans / think kristina braverman from parenthood ) is a stay-at-home mom. born and raised in new york city. she has an older sister ( haddie evans / think prue halliwell from charmed ) who is three years older, she has an extremely close relationship with her. shanley is obsessed with family, tbh. she tells them just about everything. they had dinner together every night and talk about their days, have inside jokes, go on family vacations every summer ( before sclub summers ). overall, her parents are very loving and supportive, wanting only the best for their daughters. in high school, shanley was convinced she wasn’t like other girls *pUkeS*. she was very outgoing. like she literally made friends with anyone and everyone. a friendly face; probably the student who showed the new students around. it was rare to see shanley upset or rude to anyone unless she was defending someone. she had good grades (our shanny was v advanced), kind of a teacher’s pet but like still got her seat moved or sent to the hallway because she wouldn’t stop talking. i almost made her superlative most likely to say something stupid because like that’s her too. she was on the yearbook committee, played volleyball, and was a part of the student government. if she wasn’t at school or home, you would most likely find her with arlo, which whew. a story there. when it came to the sclub, she spent whatever free time she had left with them. encouraging all the trouble; shanley will do ANYTHING you tell her to and probably doesn’t think about it. don’t give her dumbass a dare because she will do it. sorry , i forgot what i was going to say; let’s change topics. NO i remembered, lets carry on. she’s always up for a good time. don’t hesitate to invite shan...even if you don invite her...she’ll invite herself SO. fast forward to college, shanley was accepted to loyola university and moved to chicago. how excite!!!!  kso she always knew she wanted to go away for school yanno be miss independent thats why they love her BUT college life wasn’t easy, not in the beginning at least. she was going through a breakup and lost herself for a while. became cold and detached; honestly after the break up her routine was to go to class then back to her dorm, study, cry and repeat. she was only friends with her roommates till finally they forced her to go out and deal with her heartbreak the “””normal””” college way aka getting stupid drunk. *tiktok vc* it izz what it izz. joined a sorority then dropped it because it was too culty for her. she got a part time job at insomnia cookies. slowly became high school shanley again. her spirits were especially lifted when she began student teaching. the kids made her so happy. they also proved to her that teaching was what she was meant to do. next thing ya know, four years are up and our girl has a degree in elementary education.  no one probably asked but her love life !!! like mentioned earlier shanley is single. she was convinced she was going to end up marrying arlo, maybe not right after high school like people assumed but eventually. they just connected on another level so when he ended things after their first year of college, shan was crushed. but if you’re curious, she's still got the hots for arlo. are we surprised tho? no? exactly. thanks for reading, pals. dsjkn okay i’ll add more. fine. so she hooks up with people and goes on dates but no one sticks. she doesn’t want them to stick either. she knows she had that like one great love and doubts she’ll ever feel it again so she just prefers to be on her own. she don’t need no man !!!!!!!! except for one...but mind ur business. so like what is shanley nicole evans up to now? well, her original plan was to move back home once she had graduated. but she was offered a teaching position in chicago and gladly accepted it. she figured since she loved living in chicago so much and it was at the school where she completed her student teaching; it all felt right for her to stay there. this was a fresh start for her. and she got it!! ya girl moved into a beautiful ( expensive ) apt near lake shore drive, started her own tiktok account where she randomly went viral and fell in love with all her students who she calls her kiddy beans!!

E X T R A !!

has 4 tattoos:       portrait of her dog, on her left calf // why? again obsessed w/ her dog       aquarius symbol,  on her right outer elbow side // zodiac hoe. Is v proud       coffee mug, on her right wrist side // her first tattoo. couldnt think of anything else.       honey bee, back of her arm above elbow // got really drunk, heard a song, thought of arlo, ended up at a shop with friends as a joke and woke up the next morning with it. 8 piercings: 3 each lobe. Industrial ( left ). tragus ( right ). sings when she talks sometimes most of the time speaks in really bad accents; new jersey being her fav is always in a dress...look at her pinterest...all she has is dresses. she likes to show off her legs ok. obsessed with animals ( if she’s not paying attention, its bc she’s thinking about her dog and/or bunnies ), coffee, and junk food. a jonas brothers stan, nick is her favorite brother. shelf is her favorite song. cries whenever she hears when you look me in the eyes ( she sang it to arlo when he took her to their concert ). has a big following on tiktok. on the teacher side. she posts her ootd and weird shit her students have said. sometimes even reenacts scenes from new girl. a reality tv show about birds she sees. its quite entertaining.  potatoes and pasta are her favorite foods. grew up making fairy gardens has a concentration face  dances for no and every reason.especially if she’s excited or beat someone in something. rambles way too much, forgets what she’s talking about mid sentence, attention span of a fruit fly. she has a hammock named bartholomew and she chills on it when she’s sad...so most of this trip. :-)))

welcome 2 the end; gimme all ur plots. i wanna plot with you all. i am down for everything and anything. 

[organized-chaotic-disaster]

5 8 and 12 for the asks!

Ah thanks for sending an ask!! o: let’s see...

5. What’s a new hobby/interest you’ve gotten into since quarantine started?

I’m, uh... pretty boring tbh 😅 I haven’t really picked up anything new per se, but during summer I got a LOT of writing done for my novel, so that’s neat! It’s largely due to a combination of COVID restrictions, having more time because I wasn’t taking classes, and getting to some scenes I’ve been looking forward to writing for literal years!

8. Have you picked up a new identity label since quarantine started?

This one’s kind of a weird one? Because yes and no. Be warned, this gets quite rambly and maybe a little personal? Not in a way that I’m uncomfortable with, but some others might be (it’s entirely sfw tho)

A while back, I was exposed to the idea that some people consider PCOS to be an intersex condition/something that qualifies someone as being intersex. I didn’t think much of it for a while because of some backlash I got when I made a post asking about it (basically people saying “that’s dumb, PCOS doesn’t make someone intersex, it’s a FEMALE condition,” backlash which I know now was worded in an aggressive way and comes across as very icky). It wasn’t until early this year that I thought about it again and started thinking more about it and my own feelings toward how it impacted my relationship with gender. It all started with something that’s honestly completely irrelevant to the topic, but it planted a seed, essentially, but this was around the same time quarantine was starting

I’m still thinking it through tbh. I do feel my best when connected with femininity, but part of me feel like I’m not entirely feminine? Though I do have some rare moments when I do feel completely feminine. I’ve been sort of privately trying out some different labels, primarily genderfluid, genderflux, girlflux, genderqueer, nonbinary, or intergender if I feel comfortable identifying as intersex. I’m not sure if I’ll ever fully figure it out? But we’ll see. Gender is weird sadfsSDKLFJKDLSJF

I’m kind of scared that I’m just faking it tbh, like, though my PCOS does impact my body to behave differently than a typical AFAB person, but it’s certainly not as extreme as other cases I’ve seen? So it feels like an overreaction at times. And even then, one’s physical body doesn’t dictate their gender, so why am I so stuck on that in the first place? 

I will say that I have a much more nuanced understanding of gender than I had before or would have had if not for the PCOS, at the very least lmao

12. Have you experienced anything new, fun, or exciting during these past few months?

Ehhhhhh I mean kinda sorta? Like, a lot has changed, but also not a lot has changed, if that makes any sense

My sister moved out to rent a basement suite with her best friend, so that’s been a pretty major change! And I moved from my room to her old room, which I’m LOVING (my old room was tiiiiiiiny, my new one is bigger and frankly much better. I actually have a desk now!!!! I used to do everything on my bed but now I have a desk and don’t have to ruin my back!!!!)

I also saved up to buy a used car this summer! I was planning on saving before COVID started tbh, it’s something I’d been planning to do for a while. My old car, the one I learned to drive in, was a 2005 Toyota Echo, so it was very old, My parents bought it back when my sister was learning how to drive, which would be... 10 years ago at this point? My current car is a 2015 Honda Fit, so a 10 year difference in models is a nice upgrade :P

Something else that’s changed is my antidepressant medication! I used to take trintellix, which was... okay? But tbh it was so much more expensive than it was worth or than I could afford, so I decided to switch to sertaline, which is completely covered by my (admittedly limited) school health insurance ;v; I personally feel like it’s helped more than trintellix, so that’s also nice! The main thing is I get acid reflux more easily now but it’s a decent tradeoff in my books

Thanks again for the ask!! I hope you have a lovely night <3

[psychefm]

talk to the hand [ TIMOTHEE CHALAMET ], [ REED ‘NEWT’ NEWTON ] is the new kid on the block around here. at [ TWENTY ], the [ CIS BOY] works at [ BABBAGE’S ] in the mall and, like, [ HE ] totally reminds us of [ CHANDLER BING ]. oh snap! what? their favorite movie is [ HOME ALONE ]???? so is mine!

ABOUT THE MUN.  i used to lie to y’all, my mom didn’t say no, i did

i hate this site man. and that’s it, that’s all you gotta know about me. 

BIO. good news!!!! i’ve successfully replaced all my emotions with jokes !!!! tw bullying

reed newton was born in london england to sylvia anne bixby and cornelius otis newton and honestly, he’s regretted it ever since.

newt was an accident. he was the product of one of his mother and father’s first ever lustful encounters, and their subsequent shotgun wedding so honestly they both spent most of newt’s formative years in the honeymoon period. some of newt’s earlier memories are of him walking in on his parents doing the devil’s tango in the broom closet and his nanny rushing to cover his eyes. good times. 

honestly newt walked in on his parents doing the do more times than any kid should have before the age of nine. and then he walked in on a parent doing the do with a non parent. in other words newt got an eyeful of his father and the pool boy and it wasn’t long after that that his parents went through a long and messy divorce. once again, good times. 

his mother decided to pack up their things and move herself and her nine year old very impressionable son to nebraska, because fuck that kid amiright. newt was quickly designated as the skinny weird nerdy kid with glasses and a funny little accent, and so as you can guess he was pretty mercilessly bullied from age nine to eighteen. he really never stood a chance.

i feel like this is a good time to mention that newt’s mother was a sex therapist, which is not the same as a regular therapist but still, therapist is in the name. he should have been able to talk to his parent in this time of strife and get some level of support right? nope. sylvia bixby is well known for writing a men are from mars, women are from venus like book on communication and dating and all that, so his mom was generally on book tour after book tour. but maybe she would have been supportive if she was ever actually around, right? again, nope. 

unbeknownst to newt whenever his mother was around she was not only just casually psycho analyzing her only child for shits and giggles, no, she as also writing about it. newt’s mother wrote an entire book about raising a highly repressed teenage son with newt as the star, and you can only guess what that did for newt’s stellar high social status in high school. nothing great. 

did newt ask her not to publish it once he realized she had wrote it? yes. did she still publish it? also yes. so newt and his mother no longer have the greatest relationship. holidays are awkward.

things were not better on his fathers end, but it wasn’t because his father particularly did anything nearly as tone deaf as his mother. yes, his father was a famous erotica novelist and yes that made newt’s life a living hell, but newt luckily wasn’t the subject of those books. neil transitioned from writing fabio like novels to writing some lgbt fiction which, great for representation, horrible for your teenage son who is now known around school for having a dad who writes porn. to top it off, neil ended up starting a long term relationship with the pool boy and gaining a pseudo step son from it. benjamin caley was not only more athletic than newt, not only more attractive than newt, but also better than newt in every single way imaginable which was a real self esteem booster. his father actively prefers benji and every time newt visits him in england over the summers he comes home hating himself a bit more.

which works out because after the book being published, most people kind of hated newt too so at the very least he was on trend. there was a lot of classic nineties bullying you know, wedgies, swirlies, shoving newt into lockers. all very cliche. newt would tell his bullies as much, but it never really went over that well. 

but then finally newt graduated. he was free from the hell that was the public education system and his childhood household. he graduated with honours, moved out of his mother’s house, and got himself his own apartment with a roommate near the mall where he got his first real job. 

goes to university for software engineering. has an internship at apple that he’s absolutely terrified to mess up. has an old beat up car that was like the first big purchase he ever made with his own money, so he loves it to death even though it’s a piece of shit. 

PERSONALITY.  do you fear me? don’t feel so special now. i have social anxiety. i fear everybody.

this is my first time playing newt so all of this is subject to change BUT

INSECURE. newt is a weird mix of cripplingly insecure and weirdly confident and there is no in between ever.

WITTY.  humour is and always will be the only defense newt has against anything, so he makes a lot of jokes especially when he feels uncomfortable.

EMPATHETIC. newt is a big push over when it comes to emotions like he would never do anything to hurt someone unless it was by accident or he was provoked or you’re his step brother benji or either of his parents in which case he will run you over with his car on sight. but no really, if newt is in a position where he has to hurt somebody he will do absolutely everything in his power to either not or avoid the situation completely. 

AWKWARD. sometimes honestly, although it depends on the day. v clumsy though. usually he can try to make his awkwardness funny but does he always succeed? the answer is no. 

HEADCANNONS.  actually all of my systems are nervous.

has to drink like six cups of coffee or tea a day. very serious about his tea because english. also has vegemite on his toast. 

can actually cook pretty well even though he prefers to eat takeout. cooks because it’s cheaper and he’s a broke ass student yk. won’t take money from his parents ever, and will straight up give it away if it’s forced upon him. 

writes star trek fanfic for fun and has a kind of weird relationship with writing because of his parents honestly?? but he enjoys it so, maybe the apple in fact does not fall from the tree. 

has commitment issues because of his parents divorce but don’t we all. 

developed a stutter after all the divorce drama because he thought it was his fault. he later had to see a speech therapist. his mother later had a fwb relationship with this same speech therapist. newt wanted to die. 

traded his glasses for contacts and you will literally only see newt in glasses if he rips or loses his contacts or if he’s at home. 

in love with all things sci fi, will rent and see every sci movie ever made if he can 

accidentally knocks down at least one display in babbages per day so there’s that.

speaking of newt runs a small side gig out of babbages where he fixes up tech because paying for university, rent, and car insurance out of pocket gets up there. so if you need someone to fix your desktop newt is your guy. 

is actually a pretty good flirt when he’s drunk or feels comfortable. is constantly teetering between painfully insecure and confident. 

is very bi and very hesitant about it because of his father and all his feelings towards that, but he will eventually stop fighting it so much soon hopefully. has probably had a few drunken hookups with guys but tries to convince himself that is just a drunk thing yk. 

is allergic to bees so death has a kiss just for him i guess. 

loves video games but that goes without saying

has anxiety and takes medication for it, one of the few healthy things his mother has ever done for him. 

speaking of his mother if newt ever sees her book about him in a book display he will spend as much time as needed taking each book and hiding them in obscure places so that no one will ever be able to find them and buy them. he read the whole thing because he had to know and yep he absolutely hates it. 

goes by newt and only newt so that no one can make the connection between him and his mother or his father upon first meeting him or hopefully ever. a lot of the kids he went to high school with still know though and with the accent and everything, he’s not fooling anyone who has at least heard a rumour 

idk what else y’all imma fite tumblr for making me write this twice

WANTED CONNECTIONS.  actually wait, i take that self deprecation back, i’m great.

ROOMMATE. because newt can’t afford his place on his own between all his expenses. please. think of the shenanigans. 

ON AGAIN OFF AGAIN THING. kind of inspired by chandler and janice tbh. these two are pretty incompatible and whenever they’re together all they talk about is breaking up with each other but whenever they’re broken up and they see each other they somehow always find themselves waking up in bed together the next morning. it’s a mess.

NERD SQUAD. give me newt’s friends from high school please and thanks. just a crew of absolutely dweebs and misfits. 

FWB/EWB. self explanatory considering newt’s big commitment issues but i just imagine like making out in the back room and like hooking up in the break room and someone leaving like a damning article of clothing in there and the two of them scrambling to get it before anyone notices. just fun. 

EX. self explanatory but yes, an ex gf or bf, an ex fwb or ewb, give me all the exes please. 

REPEAT CUSTOMER. this person is always paying newt to come fix their computer and other tech and newt just doesn’t understand how they mess it up so badly. like he doesn’t get how or why technology hates them as much as it does, but he’ll take the money.

HATESHIP. just good old fashion animosity. could be hate from school or the fresh hate upon working in the mall together or they can just be newt’s least favourite customer and he can hate them for that. 

CRUSH. maybe newt had a crush on them in school. maybe they had a crush on newt in school. maybe newt has a crush on them now. maybe they have a crush on newt now. 

and anything else tbh. i’d love a smoking buddy for newt, a friend who he can never get any work done around like when they’re together they’re just like !!!, someone who used to be one of the popular kids who he is now getting along with or still holding a grudge against, his big gay awakening in school maybe like the first masc person he had a crush on, someone who tries to get newt to party and come out of his shell, someone who idk steals from babbages skjsdj idk man i am open to anything at all so just like this and we can brain storm if anything!

[alleyskywalker]

Personal venting. Under cut so that its easy for ppl to avoid, but I have to put this somewhere.

Before the quarantine started I was actively in search for a therapist. It was hard for me to find, because I tend to be picky (like I try to read reviews and stuff) and it’s hard to find one I can easily get to/who isn’t far away, or otherwise works evenings, and isn’t outrageously expensive/is covered by my medical insurance. I’ve done therapy a couple of times before with pretty limited success. But I figured I’d make a run at it again. And I did finally find a therapist I wanted to try, but then the stay at home orders came down and I left town to go quarantine with my parents. It didn’t seem like such a big deal at first, but with the weather about to start getting worse, as it always does in August/early fall and with my workload increasing now that we’re back to fulltime AND with extra work/backlog/etc, and probably predictable tensions of living with your family for perhaps a little too long.... I’m starting to really feel like I’d like to at least try? Maybe just to talk through day to day things like not murdering my brother when he’s yelling on voice chat every night for several hours? But, of course, that’s not particularly possible anyway, because the COVID19 isn’t inspiring me much to go see any therapist/doctor in person, masks or not, and I’m def not doing it remotely from home where anyone could walk past my room and hear what I’m talking about, especially since you can hear fucking everything in this house. Like, therapy is embarrassing enough as it is.

I don’t want to like...describe the details of my depressive spirals here - bc TMI and I don’t wanna weird/freak out any friends who could potentially read this. I’m not really putting this here for a response, more just....needing to scream into a void bc actual screaming isn’t an option, lest my parents hear and come to tell me I’m insane (which is a thing they do sometimes unironically anyway lol). Plus it’s late and I don’t want to scare/wake up any neighbors lmao. And then my mom asks why I cry. Dude? I have to air out the pent up frustration somehow. I guess I could just go back to my apartment like the adult I am. But my apartment isn’t the most relaxing place either tbh. (Also, oh boy, I’d get so much shit and emotional manipulation about it too.)

I’m just so Done with everything.

[whoreforfanfiction]

What do you think the RFA would be like in a swapped roles!AU? Ex. Assistant!Yoosung, CEO!Jaehee, Agent!Zen, Actor!Jumin and College!Saeyoung? (It’s up to you tho) Love your blog btw :)

Ahhh this is a cool one thank you for submitting!!! And I’m really glad you like my blog haha I’ve worked really hard on it. It takes me around an hour to write a post about this length so it makes me v happy when people like it! 

Yoosung

- he went through with Jumin’s offer on becoming an assistant

- makes really good money so he’s glad he can buy all the LOL skins

- is super sad tho because he barely has any time to play

- gets stressed super easily and heavily misses being a laidback college student with no major responsibilities 

- he gets the job done and works really hard, but he’s just not the type of person who deals with stress easily

- i can imagine work really takes a toll on him and he loses all/most of his spunk

- also, he finds it really difficult to deal with Jumin’s personality all day 

- it feels like he’s around his mom 24/7 only a worse, much worse version

- all the nagging and asking for more favors and more cat jobs

- V eventually talks to Jumin after seeing how depressed and stressed Yoosung has been lately

- Jumin agrees to cut back the work-load slightly, but Yoosung refuses because he knows he can do it and doesn’t want Jumin to take pity on him 

- Jumin promotes him to a higher position because Yoosung proved himself worthy

- I don’t think it’s the best career for his personality type, but I know whatever field he is in, he’ll do amazing 

Zen

- SO FREAKING EASY FOR THIS BOY TO BE AN AGENT

- he LOVES working out so the physical aspect of the job is super duper easy 

- flies through training with ease and instantly gets promoted to one of the top agents 

- they send him on all the missions that he can do because he has a high success rate

- only issue I can imagine would be the hacking part

- yes he’s smart, but nowhere near the level of smart Seven was at

- but, I really can’t imagine it being a big deal since they can probably find an agent to do the hacking portion while Zen is doing the actually physical part

- with all the money, he gets a really luxurious apartment 

- an apartment on the top floor that overlooks the city in the nicest part of town

- it’s beautiful and he adores sitting outside gazing at all the city lights

- but, i can’t imagine him being truly happy with this role

- he takes so much pride in his work that i think he’d feel empty without it

- not nearly as fun and cocky as he was when he was an actor

Jaehee

- tbh she might even be a better CEO than Jumin it

- she’s very analytical and clever so she deals with any problems easily

- she takes her workers emotions into account so her morality rate is super high and people LOVE working with her 

- doesn’t waste funds on silly cat projects so the company racks in more money

- i can imagine her donating a lot of it because she’s super compassionate

- like so much so she only saves a little bit for her own income

- doesn’t really like the appeal of the larger more expensive houses, so she goes for a more modest one

- isn’t super into high fashion so she doesn’t spend tons of money on the newest most expensive clothes

- it’s the same old Jaehee, with a new job title and a better company

- with her new money, she opens a coffee shop (a really nice one) and spends her free hours there

- makes sure her employees aren’t stressed or mentally ill and has little safe spaces for people to go if they’re feeling stressed

- makes sure her company’s insurance covers EVERYTHING 

- earns a lot of respect from her workers and local community and the company easily becomes the best in Korea

- everyone loves her because she uses her money for good 

Saeyoung

- BAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA

- college Saeyoung makes me chuckle

- is that kid that everyone thinks is dumb, but he’s actually super smart

- brings a computer SOLELY to play LOL on 

- or he uses it to hack into the sound system and blast meme songs 

- rarely pays attention in class but when the teacher calls on him trying to embarrass him for not paying attention, he aces the question then goes back to playing LOL

- gets the best grades in the class and graduates early

- living in an apartment tho would suck ESPECIALLY if he had a roommate

- saeyoung lives in an absolute mess which would piss his roomate off

- “WHY DO WE ONLY HAVE PHD IN THE FRIDGE I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU WERE GETTING ENOUGH FOOD FOR THE MONTH” “I did, this is enough PHD to last me a month” 

- complains a lot about how easy and boring the work is and how college is a huge waste of his time which pisses the other members off