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 Neptune gives them a grin and pulls out his katana. "It seems you have let one enemy slip, Captain Jupiter Jim." Blue lit up excitedly, eyes practically sparkling and his grin nearly splitting his face. He shakes himself and gave the turtle a grin. "Blasted! It's Sir Neptune!" Blue points a finger at him. "The betrayer!"
i really liked this flashback in B.E.A.S.T. by @skylerskyhigh
the idea of rise and 87 turtles acting out a jupiter jim movie together got stuck in my head cuz its so delightful
#tmnt#rottmnt#rottmnt b.e.a.s.t#b.e.a.s.t. rottmnt#rise leo#87 leo#tmnt 87#my art#art#im not very good at backgrounds and yet i tried to do the circular ship#but if we dont try we dont get better#i could have added more turtles but i wasnt that confident in my ability to make a scene im sorry#also 87 leo standing in the doorway like a dad watching his kids play? muah#GREETINGS FROM THE FINAL CHAPTERS LINK#HOPE YOU ALL ENJOYED IT AS MUCH AS I DID#it has taken me days to realize i should have put a shadow under neptune but OH WELL
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I cannot shake my thoughts about this and Iâll know Iâll keep this drama close to my heart. The fact that Myung haâs âsunbaeâ opened the riff to the world with the question âwould you change it for me?â Also the fact that Myung haâs alternate universe/game world started with the sound of an ocean tells already a lot about it but we wonât know until Episode 8 why. Throughout the series we watched Myung ha doing everything in his power to make Yeo woon happy while he himself couldnât rely, couldnât trust, couldnât open himself up to him. We know the phrase of his ex gf âyou donât know how to love anyone.â left a deep scar in his soul which he carried with to the alternate universe/game. I try to think the system errors which occurred during the game was a way to change Myung haâs mindset to not make the same mistakes and/or go on with his habitual habits he did in his life before he drowned himself. Also the different tasks was it actually for Myung ha to realize that heâs the one who makes Yeo-woon happy (which he didnât). He retreated himself from Yeo woon because he couldnât choose between the most important persons in his life as we saw his grandma died in real life which makes me think if he also knew that because in one sequence in the game/au it asked him if he wants to bring back some memories of Myung haâs life. Also the last I love you from Yeo woon was the cherry on top to let the system completely crash where he distanced himself from Yeo woon. âI want to spend my remaining time making Yeo woon happy as best as I can. But it seems the more I try, the more unhappy I make Yeo-woon.â Which Myung ha remembers what Yeo-woon said: âwhenever I see you, I both feel good and want to cry. I feel so much about every little thing. But Iâm not happy at all right now.â Which again I try to think it is about why Myung ha doesnât rely more on him? Why he doesnât open himself up to him? A relationship is based off of trust, give and take⌠etc. but Myung ha goes into this relationship with deep rooted traumas which causes lack of self love. If one loves not itself enough how can they expect to love someone else which what explains Myung haâs last phrase in the same scene so much. âWhy did I think I could make you happy?â Itâs as if he doesnât think that a loner like him could be the one to give him love and happiness. What follows after is that he choses Yeo woonâs happiness even if heâs not his happiness⌠which again brings me to the beginning where Myung ha thinks âbut I prefer lonely supporting characters to happy protagonists.â In this case heâs the lonely supporting character to our happy protagonist Yeo-woon. âBut being fated to live that kind of life⌠is just so unfair.â He knew/knows how cruel life can be so he chose his happiness over everything and got vanished from the game. He realized by now that Yeo-woon is/was more important than he wanted to admit. Yeo-woon is/was a glimpse of happiness in Myung haâs life. What brings us to the tragic backstory of his life and how he lived. All the obstacles he endured and went through led to his drowning (at this point we saw Yeo-woonâs obstacles in the alternate universe/game at least in my opinion). This is the turning point for Myung ha. âI was hoping if you saw yourself from someone elseâs perspective, you would learnt to love yourself. I thought if you learned to love someone, you would be a little happier.â I want to make a reference here to the title itself âLove for Loveâs sakeâ because all the sacrifices he did and cared more for others than himself⌠but he found happiness. In Yeo-woon. And he chose his own happiness for once. Itâs the way he chooses all these things for himself, to open himself up for him, to rely and be cared for. âIt would be nice to have someone. Someone who cares by my side. Someone who gives me chances when I fail and feel hopeless. It would be nice to have someone who always gives me love.â Which they found both in each other.
#caddi watches#love for love's sake#I didnât proofread it and itâs already 3 in the morning and I wrote this while I had cixâ âIâm here for youâ didnât help either#also the one scene in the hospital where he met his sunbae the background genius. I try to think that this scene couldâve been#a turning point but when the sunbae asked to be with the loved one longer he chose the painless way#he still didnât got it in my opinion⌠thatâs why the remaining days deducted so fast itâs what I want to think#he was still bitter and rather pessimistic about love âpeople donât stay together foreverâ (I didnât looked it up this time)#anyway this already got super long so I donât wanna ramble extra in the tags#if you read this congratulations for reading a novel if not also okay because I wrote it down for me :)#which barely do btw I donât write my thoughts and opinions anymore#and yes I chose the word âwhichâ a lot#zey rants#zey rambles
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#that phrase has NOTTTT left my HEAD since i read it. i hope u know how insane it is i was in a GENETICS EXAM this morning thinking abt it đ#the reference i used for this was a still from a stage production of romeo and juliet and this woman's face HAUNTS ME. BIBLICAL emotion#anyway this is meant to be interpreted kind of any way u want like is it sayna predicting the moment she will save drako?#is it her desperation before hammari cuts out her tongue? as she tries to save rin? is she mourning him or herself?#or drako? is she trying to save herines or is she saving a harasaeon and dooming a harasaeon at the same time?#hahahahahaha! đđđ this makes me genuinely SICKKKKK#also it's really rough bc again i was doing this in 15 minute bursts between revising population genetics lmao đ#ALSO ALSO i really like the gold bc in my head it's kind of the burden of prophecy? which is why it's almost dragging her shoulders down#like she's resisting it#ANYWAY#i also couldn't find a visual description of sayna so i kind of just winged it and i may redraw this lol#also i love how? haunting? the emptiness of the background is lol like she's centre stage in a play with no audience#no one is watching. divinity has abandoned you <3#i need to stoppppp. insane series ââ
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âoh, drunken gods of slaughter
you know i have always been your
favourite daughterâ
#i love tall god women who canât understand the complexity of human emotion#ruin me with apathy my love#iâm so lonely hold me in your glowing loveless hands#MMMMMMM i love my ocs#sheâs so#UGAKSBWLANKSNS#when your oc is god>>>#not even joking#this is bible fanfiction at its peak#also the quality for this art is super fucked#i have two different pictures of it on my phone with vastly different qualities because itâs different between tumblr and tiktok#who decided that#iâm not even gonna try posting this on instagram that would be hell#also i broke ibis paint doing the background for this#so that was fun#and it only took me five hours!#no this is not good omens fanart#donât even ask#iâve never WATCHED nor READ good omens PLEASE
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as someone who knew nothing about the books or show until i watched it last year on a whim, i was a belly x conrad girlie. i still am, but man, with season 2 already foreshadowing how much theyre soulmates, i feel bad jeremiah doesnt get a fair and fighting chance as bellyâs love interest. every time he is, itâs just an afterthought. and it makes the âlove triangleâ a lot less intriguing bc, well, theres nothing to be intrigued about!!! theres no pining, we all know â even jeremiah himself â that she will always have conrad as number #1. justice for jeremiah and belly to have a fair love story actually
#whats the fun in a love triangle if everything in the show is pointing towards bonrad lol. cmonnnnn#its to the point that every time a jeremiah x belly moment or scene comes up my bonrad self goes out the window and i root for them#but then watching gavin and lola actually act out those scenes - try as i might - i just cant...... i dont believe it#like idk if this is just me but i also feel like gavin and lola just dont have chemistry#again as someone who didnt read the books or have a vested interest in waiting for the show to come out last year#so i wasnt predisposed one way or another#and like. normally i would go for jeremiah and belly bc hes the healthier fit. but i just dont feel any sparks btwn them the way chris#and lola do. and on a larger scale i feel like gavins chemistry w everyone isnt strong either??#i thought he and sean were great last season but idk. it feels like he doesnt jive w everyone as well#you can see it more in the scenes where theyre improving or riffing in the background#and watching the cast interviews it feels that way too. but not for lack of trying on gavins end#just my observations#tsitp#belly x conrad#belly x jeremiah#lola tung#christopher briney#gavin casalegno#mytext
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You guys think the one piece movies are on letterboxd?
#or are they not cinema.....#my letterboxd user is the same as this one yes... you can see it but you cant laugh. i will know#talking tag#watching heart of gold bc i didnt back then but now i have nothing to watch so here we are#i was like this is not worth it... but now i am famished#is this fucking gernica??? hello what the fuck is he doing here#the girl's design and animation is so different it looks like it doesn't belong there... its so strange...#how is gernica getting beat up by this no name... use tekkai or something like damn...#luffy using meat as bait??? ooc... we would never give it away like that...#*luffy being taken hostage* everyone: đ#sanjis cunty off white turtleneck.... slay also it feels like they are stretching the scenes... this is a movie come on now#what the hell is sanji wearing now... rip off white turtleneck....#COME ON NOW!! what are robin and nami wearing..... enough!!!! fanservice (this one not the one i like) is a plague upon this earth#this feels like an animation test for wano... it looks kinda similar except the backgrounds#so they were all free and didn't try to escape but most importantly is that brook wouldnt be bothered by the arrows bc he is dead indeed#âi just used them [your crew] as toolsâ didn't we get past this in arlong park... come on now give me something original something new#murder suicide </3 not again.... nevermind it did not work... massive L. *j bieber voice*:hah... i love that laugh... CHIAAAA LALALALALA#luffy one shot this man. come on now that is this nonsense....#gear 3 his ass out of here. also funny how zoro went for the woman... he knows#the ahots of nami and robins unimpressed faces when pirate franky shows up akshakajai... nobody (everyone but them) moved#sanjis cunty chunky bracelet... where does this come from... his gay ass closet of course....#omg he did gear 3 one shot him akdhakshsk i do know him don't i... omg he got dissolved akdhakajak#but how did the father survive without pure gold?? lmao#so this was the gold film prequel.... i see i thought it was the other way around#alright.... kinda mid and too long. strong world clears and gold was kinda better too bc of nami lesbianism. final review#watching one piece#watching one piece movies
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i've been talking abt my voltron playlists and @iveofficiallygonemad asked to hear them and i want to share with anybody who wants!! i know they're not perfect, i'm working on them & trying to make them better. if you have any recommendations for any of them, let me know!! there's like A Lot and i want to give a lil explanation for most of them, so i'm putting them under the cut ^-^
SO first i have my favorite one <3 it's just. all of them. it's the whole team. it's a mess and it's a bunch of different genres because it's them fighting over the aux cord on a road trip. it's them trying to make each other laugh or annoy each other or play something catchy enough it will infect everyone in the vicinity with brain worms.
Hunk: i'm pretty happy with my Hunk playlist! chill vibes. he strikes me as the kind of guy who listens to calm music to try to find his own calm, and that's what i got here :)
Pidge: this is messier and less cohesive than my usual playlist because frankly i think pidge would have a shit taste in music. all over the board. this is a mix of meme songs and 8-bit covers and vocaloid and stuff that i think pidge would genuinely connect with, and i think pidge listens to all their music on shuffle without any regards for genre or mood because they're a gremlin. nobody gives pidge sole control of the aux.
Coran hears 80's music for the first time and loses his mind. He thinks ABBA is humanity's single greatest achievement.
Lance: i have ideas about where I'm going with this but haven't really settled yet. Lance seems like the kind of boy that loves to dance (is that canon? i forgot) so most of these are Bops That Make You Move in some way or another. he likes to present an upbeat face to the world, so there's no angsting in this playlist! we are clinging to the things that make us happy with both hands until our knuckles turn white!
Keith: i'm gonna be honest. i made him a playlist but i honestly don't think he cares about music very much. it's very important to some people! he's just not one of them! i haven't cracked this playlist open in a while but i'm pretty sure it's full of songs that i think he would conceivably train/work out to.
Shiro: this playlist involves the dumbest headcanon i have for shiro that has just not left me alone since i first thought of it. most of the playlist reflects the fact that he had an emo phase in middle school (that one isn't a headcanon, you just have to look at him to know) but BUT there are a few songs on here that are on here because. little known fact. he also went through a Twilight phase that he told nobody about. (keith knows. keith was there.) he has the entire twilight soundtrack memorized. he moved past the story but the music stays forever. he used to daydream about slow dancing to Flightless Bird, American Mouth. the first time Coran mentions that they have to avoid a place because there's a supermassive black hole there, he has to bite his tongue in order to keep a straight face. do NOT ask me why i believe this so wholeheartedly.
Allura's playlist sucks right now. I think it's because in my heart of hearts i know that, were she on earth today, she would go fucking nuts for taylor swift. i have ambivalent feelings for taylor swift. i cannot do allura justice like this. if you see my vision and have recs as to what might actually fit her, PLEASE.
Klance: i haven't done it yet but i'm gonna go through this and sort it to be a sort of progression of their relationship, starting with the more combative Rivalry songs, then slipping into "oh shit oh shit" songs, then maybe ending on the more lighthearted purely romantic songs <3
(i have two songs in a shallura playlist which does not at all encapsulate how much i'm obsessed with them. the tiny cop inside my head is just constantly screaming at me that i'm going to get yelled at for liking shallura. i am going to kill the cop inside my head.)
#mj talks#oooooh i don't know if i actually want to put this in the show tag. that's a lot of people. that's a lot of people that might see this.#fuck it we ball#voltron#anyway. as i said if you like music and you have songs that you think fit please send em over#also who wants to talk about shallura? i want to talk about shallura.#i rewatched the first ~3 seasons (the best part of the show and some of season 3) with my roommate a while back and.#ngl if we're strictly talking about the show itself and not fanworks. i care about shallura SO much more than i care about klance.#oh i should probably tag#klance#in case anyone has that blacklisted and just doesn't wanna see it#BACK TO MY POINT.#rewatch seasons 1 and 2 and you will see there was a REASON everyone included shallura in the background of their fics#and it wasn't just shoving 'space mom' and 'space dad' together#there is a very real and very compelling dynamic there. the mutual respect. the connection that comes with taking responsibility.#watch shiro's whole deal after allura gets herself captured so that he can go free and try telling me it's all in my head. just TRY.#anyway i have a lot of complicated thoughts about shiro's sexuality and most of them boil down to I Don't Think It Was Planned#i think they shoved it in last minute because somebody higher up#(not the writers i don't blame u writers i know that you have people breathing down your necks telling you what you can and can't do)#some higherup didn't like any queer storylines that might have been in the works and pulled them from the show#but then there was fan backlash because... gay people are loud now? people wanted A Queer In Space? wild thought#so they had to save their ass and actually deliver on what they had promised in interviews/on the internet/idk i didn't keep up too much#because it was so clumsily revealed! there was no buildup!#it felt very shoehorned to me unfortunately. when a) they had already built a solid and compelling potential relationship for shiro#(see above)#and b) klance was? right there? like. dude. you /had/ to have seen that. or at least some of it????#backstory dead fiance was not the best move vis a vis queer representation and i reject him#if you want me to care about a relationship try going back to storytelling basics and Show Don't Tell :)#not giving you brownie points for that 'queer representation' :)#anyway. that's my shallura manifesto in the notes.
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rip chiaki nanami you wouldve hated poppy playtime
#chiaki nanami#sdr2#i just watched a playthrough bc i was bored. and. good god#it's just....not that good. they're trying to do too much in one thing thematically speaking#also the gameplay itself is? ?? esp for the last fight. its so needlessly complex. it's so awkward. its so unintuitive.#no wonder they needed to include a bit that explains how to do the boss fight LMAO#sorry. i put it on to be background noise while i was writing but i ended up distracted by how frustrated the letsplayer was getting#anyways. game critique by me. a danganronpa fan. im going to bed
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*2015 voice* i wish i had the chillness instead i got the mental illness
#evidence of life#tw for mental illnesses major distress illness symptoms that arenât romanticized (lawl) suicide ableism i guess?#idk just a massive tw for what iâve said in the notes / donât read if descriptions of mental illnesses bother you etc#///////////////////////â///////////////////////â///////////////////////â///////////////////////â////////////////////////////////////////////#i literally had to mix rubbing alcohol into my body wash then put it all over my body except my hair to stop myself from committing suicide#iâm so serious if thereâs one thing i donât say with my convoluted levels irony itâs suicide whenever i say kms im 100% serious#suicide is literally a constant ideation for me and i just canât teehee about it ever i think itâs because it is one of the few ways i feel#that i can take total control full autonomy#anyways isnât crazy traumatic things will happen and we have to just keep going like im literally on tumblr after [redacted]âŚ#also why is my psychosis so obsessed with break ins these days when i was doing my rubbing alcohol scrub it did the break in scenario#like miss girl literally nobody want us that bad take a seatâŚ#anyways this day started out okayish and now itâs literally *burning building in the background*#i wanna try to at least make it possibly kind of better by going to watch the sunset but no promises kinda itching for more rubbing alcohol#anyways slayyyy respectfully i hope this scares offâŚwho it usually doesâŚ#like bro i am not a manic pixie dream girl i am not a smol bean with anxiety not a depressed gloomy muse etc#i am [as described by men who thought that i was just another goth bitch with daddy issues that knew all the right moves to make me into#whatever they needed me to be and or thought i was being hyperbolic when i say i am insane in the head and the pussy (as above so below)]#âcrazy crazyâ âfucked upâ ânot worth it [because i am crazy for real]â â[in need for a dude who one course in psychology and thinks that and#his dick are enough to âcure meâ âweirdâ âfreakâ âlooneyâ (kinda love that one like so true) etc (bc i donât want to talk abt this anymore)#edit: my âtemporary icon bothering more than it should rn ughhh bad end all around goodness
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How many more flop posts until youre done talking about that one piece character asking for a friend
Girl this is my blog im posting for me and if you dont like the ride you can get off at any time
#if i wanna make a fool of myself for loving anothwr background character im gonna fo it#kinda the bedrock inwhich my blog was formed#idk if this was a joke ask or not but like#im very fixated on rena and therefor her boyfriend so its not gonna stop any time soon lmao#i do tag them all so if its really bothering you just blacklist rena x killer#or donquixote rena#cause i try not to put them in the main tags#but i also dont watch my follower count so its not gonna bother me if you unfollow like... curry your dash to your liking!
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i suddenly remember why i hate drawing over my art
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i'm never doing pen outlines again
#i have ruined so many arts by trying to do outlines#it seems i havenât learned my lesson :/#also i think i should stop watching those art discussion videos#they kinda demotivate me? especially if there's a speed draw in the background#god i wish i was better at art#specifically backgrounds and uh. just generally anything that ISN'T a human#oh and perspectivr#...i say that but then i'm not gonna do anything about it like an idiot#yeah........ :/#mia has a stupid thought#ignoreable post
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me saying i want to write fic again. monkey's paw curling bc i am now writing three (3) different persona 5 fics and can't post any of them anytime soon until I get far enough in my replay that I can check my futaba & sojiro characterisation
#talking#im in that thing where i try to read fic and immediately get distracted thinking about my own fics#i could just watch youtube videos for futaba & sojiro's confidants i guess#but theres so much background info in futaba's palace chapter and also getting there is good motivation#for me to get through the parts of the game i find boring#also keep having that thing of oh no one will care about these fics#but *i* care very much so that will have to do
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Yuka Shiraishi. btw.
#she has 20 lines at most but i love her#i'd really like for an 5 to have more yuka content... especially since ken is training vbs#ken is working them rough which for people surrounding vivid street (or at least vbs) would seem tough but understandable#but yuka is an outsider. yuka is a caring mother who still supports her daughter and her friends despite not growing up in vivid street#yuka would possibly consider this too much for the moment and try to get them to relax#and. i really want the current vbs arc to end with them relaxing a little#i don't think they'll go straight from âwe're surpassing rad weekend and carrying nagi's wishâ#to âwe're tying ourselves down to this one event when we could go even furtherâ#but they could definitely recognise âwe're still kids we have timeâ#and yuka could be the one to bring that up. radder were all adults when rad weekend happened. vbs are in their second year of high school#and they're talented. so incredibly talented. kohane showed that at crawl green. akito finally realises his growth in his 4th event#toya has just came to terms with his classical music background and draws from it to write songs for the group#and an has had years of experience singing. except she also holds herself back in her want to be line nagi#which i'm almost certain will be addressed in her 5th event. and with yuka being the one who comforted an during lutf (in her card)#well. i think it would be nice for her to come back#especially as she is - again - an outsider to vivid street. she could represent how vbs can go beyond vivid street#another possibility is kohane's father. he sort of just disappeared after sdsc (at least i recall akito and an mentioning meeting him?)#and considering the impact he has on kohane (photography and his doubts regarding her sudden change in early game)#it could be nice seeing him again since with kohane/akito/toya seemingly reaching the end of a current arc in the last year#(ie the kohane and taiga plot/akito no longer feeling like he's behind the others/toya and classical music)#the next step in the group's story could be happening#half of this has nothing to do with yuka fjrjdiejd. i just like the concept of her being the group's link to going outside of vivid street#or going beyond is suppose. beyond the way...#bagel's rambles#i'm on break. watch me draw yuka design
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this is not the exact one I watched but I saw one of these "dish scape" things at someone's house who actually has TV (like they pay for dish/cable instead of just watching stuff online) and I think they're meant to be relaxing atmospheric stuff that you mostly ignore, but I sat there for 35 minutes watching absolutely engrossed.. further proof that I genuinely think my brain is incapable of experiencing boredom lol..
#IT'S BECAUSE there's so many little details that like you can spend minutes just scanning every corner of the image and taking it all in and#you keep finding new things! like 'oh I didn't know that blade of grass moved!' or 'I didnt see that bucket before!'. And then on top of#so many details - some things genuinely do change. The one I saw was a Beach house scene and sometimes a bird would fly by or ONE TIME kite#came out of nowhere. a sandcastle built and unbuilt itself. there's a firepit and it comes on when the sky changes from day to afternoon!!#this is like watching a sports game to me. I need weird detail oriented friends who will sit for 20 minutes staring at a barely moving pict#ure & cheer and clap with me when a seagull flies across the screen ghgj.. THERE HE IS!!!! etc!! and there's just so much to think about!!#Like how the images are layered or animated and the choices that were made (like I think the sunrise and sunset sky background images for t#e beachouse are just the same picture flipped and recolored) and trying to predict what's going to happen next (will the lights in the hous#turn off for night time? will another bird show up??) etc! I even got up at one point to walk close to the screen and get a better view of#hese paintings that were visible through the beachhouse windows. and then thinking about building a similar home in the sims! OR ALSO THIS#WOULD BE SUCH A COOL medium I think to tell a story! Like you upload a video to youtube that is framed just as a completely average moving#screensaver ambiance type of thing. It's like 7 hours long and mostly loops the same still image. However. over time at certain points you#can see some thing happen like watching characters interact through the windows. animals or people walk across the screen. certain elements#in the environment morph or change. etc. In such a way that an entire like plot is conveyed. maybe like fantasy mystery sort of thing. I WI#SH I could do this style of art / had friends who could or had money to pay somebody to. I would LOVE to collaborate on a weird surreal#It's Just Your Average Slowly Looping Moving Screensaver Video I Promise' type story.. jjhhgHH.. Or even just making one of these set in so#me of my fantasy world environments. not as a secret thing with easter eggs that tell a story but just literally an image like this tha#moves over time and etc. HHRRGRGHhhhhGG.. ANYWay!! I had to actually turn it off not because I was bored but because it was distracting me#. which is funny since again. I think for most people it's meant to be a 'just leave it on in the background' type of thing that's bland an#neutral . But it was just making me think too much ghjgh.. This is why I can't go to amusement parks or nightclubs bars or concerts like..#a moving screensaver image is too overstimulating to my brain. Could you imagine me going to an environment just full of sensory informatio#like loud noises poeple talking flashing lights etc. etc. ? hghghb... Visiting a grocery store at a slightly busy hour is like my upper lim#it... Anyway.. everything is just so interesting to me. Even if I was locked in a room alone I would have plenty to think about & amu#se myself. I am also a hater definitely like I'm a very analytical person who is critical of society and systems & everything that exists#and even generally am just very opionated and have distinct preferences - so just because everything is INTERESTING does not mean I LIKE or#enjoy everything or never get tired of/annoyed by situations or ideas or etc. But it's more just like.. I literally dont think I could ever#be bored because of the way my brain works and also I approach life with elements of childlike whimsy and constant obsessive curiosity and#attention to detail. so as much as I am an analytical bore I also love everything and the world is fascinating at all times. lol.. duality#of man. if you get it then you get it. ANYWAY.. wanted to ramble abt it. I don't like the above video as much as the one I actually saw but#I couldn't find the beach one online.. BUt.. aaHH! best viewed whilst talking to yourself narrating/cheering! ALSO I want to make one!!!
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#the thing is#is that I make things#itâs relaxing to me and itâs genuinely my favorite thing in the world#but I am also very burnt out on it#and I donât have any other hobbies that donât require making something!!!#like what the fuck am I supposed to do???#watch tv??? I canât focus on that without a little project to work on!!!#and so far#trying to cure artblock/burnout by continuing to draw anyway#funnily enough#isnât working!!!#anyway#doesnât help that generally Iâve been kinda feeling shitty#and usually making something is what I do to distract from that and help calm me#like do you see the problem here#like for real I have to stop drawing after this redraw#I gotta cool it or else Iâm gonna lose all the progress Iâve made in the past seven months#all that being said đ#the speedraw did make me want to practice backgrounds
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I want to speak out against the whole push towards DEI. I feel that ever since you made the push to make identity the forefront of a character it has hurt the stories you tell. Captain Sisay's race was never the focus of her character and she was a complete badass! And I fear if you did it over again Gerrard would be trans, black and disabled just because. It also cheapens the stories of world devastation when characters worry more about their gender than Bolas destroying everything.
The reason I started this blog is so we can have frank conversations about things, so please letâs talk about this.
Imagine if every time you turned on the TV or watched a movie, no one looked like you. For some of us, thatâs never happened. We see ourselves constantly, so itâs hard to truly understand what not seeing yourself represented in media is like.
I do have a personal window to this experience. While I am white and male, thereâs an area where I am the minority - my religion. Jews are just under two and a half percent of the US population. I have had many experiences where Iâve been in situations where everything is geared towards a group I do not belong to, and zero consideration is given that not everyone at that event is part of the majority.
You just feel invisible and like an outsider. Itâs not a great feeling. And I just experience it a tiny portion of time, only things that are geared specifically towards something religious. Most minorities have this feeling all the time, whenever theyâre outside their personal community.
Now imagine, after years of not seeing yourself ever, you finally see someone that looks like you, but nothing about the character rings remotely true. They donât sound like you, they donât act like you, the facts about their day-to-day life are just wrong. Itâs clear whoever wrote the character didnât truly understand the lived experience of the character, so the character feels fake.
You bring up Sisay. Michael Ryan and I didnât technically create Sisay (she played a small role in the Mirage story), but we did do a lot to flesh out her character as the creators of the Weatherlight Saga. We turned her from a minor character into a major one.
And while Iâm proud, in general, of our work on the Weatherlight Saga, I donât think we did justice to Sisay as a character. Neither Michael nor I have any knowledge of what itâs like to be a black woman. Nor did we ever talk to someone who did.
And if youâre someone like us that has no knowledge of that experience, you probably didnât notice. But that doesnât mean itâs a good thing.
Imagine if we made a movie about your life, and we just made everything up. We invented people you never knew, we gave you a job you never had, and we had you say things youâd never say. The movie might even be a good movie, but your response would be, but thatâs not my life - thatâs not me.
Now imagine we put the movie out, and people that never met you assumed that was what you were like. When people met you for the first time, they assumed things, because, you know, theyâd seen the movie.
Thatâs what misrepresenting people does. It not only makes them feel not seen, it falsely represents them, spreading lies, often stereotypes, making people believe things about them that arenât true.
Our move towards diversity is just us trying to better reflect the world and the people in it. Weâre trying to do to everyone else what a certain portion of people get every day without ever having to think about it.
But why are we âmaking it the forefront of their characterâ? Weâre not. Weâre making it a part of their character. But in a world where youâre not used to ever seeing it, it feels louder than it is. Things that are a natural part of the world that youâre used to feel like the background of the story because you understand the context to it.
If a man kisses his wife before going off to a battle, thatâs not a big deal. Itâs just a thing a husband might do to his wife when he leaves. Itâs not the forefront of his character. Itâs just part of his life. But youâve seen it hundreds of times, so it feels normal.
When someone does something that isnât your lived experience it pulls focus. It seems like a big deal, but only because itâs new to you. Itâs just as mundane a thing to that character as the man kissing his wife is to him.
Even the turn âpushingâ implies that itâs unnaturally here, that weâre forcing something that naturally shouldnât be. But why? That thing exists naturally in the real world, and it doesnât make the real world any less. Maybe youâre less aware of it, but is making you aware of how others live their life âpushingâ something on you?
How you live your life is represented constantly, everywhere. Why isnât over-representing your experience at the expense of everyone elseâs âpushingâ it? Why is media only being the experience of those in power the âproper wayâ?
Having more depth and variety doesnât lessen stories. It makes them deeper, more rich, more nuanced. In short, it makes them better stories. In my former life, I was a professional writer. I took a lot of writing classes. One of the truism of writing is âspeaking truth leads to better storiesâ.
Thereâs another famous quote: âWhen youâre accustomed to privilege, equality feels like oppression.â Youâre used to being over-represented, so being a little less over-represented feels like something has been taken from you. But really it hasnât. Having a better sense of the rest of the world comes with a lot of benefits.
Iâll use food as an example. Letâs say all you were ever exposed to was the food of your heritage. Yeah, that food is really good, but sometimes isnât it nice to eat foods of other nationalities? Isnât your life better that you have a choice? Isnât your exposure and access to the food of other nationalities a positive in your life?
Exposure to variety is a positive. It allows you to learn about things you didnât know, experience things things youâve never experienced, and get a better sense of understanding of your friends and neighbors.
Our actions are not to harm anyone, and if you think thatâs what weâre doing, please take a minute to actually absorb what Iâm saying. Youâve spent your whole life metaphorically eating one type of food, and weâre just trying to show you how much youâve missed out on.
And while this might not impact you directly, weâre making a whole bunch of people felt seen. Weâre bringing joy. Think of it this way. We make a lot of cards. Not every card is for you. But if it makes someone else happy, if they get to include it in a deck, and it makes Magic better for them, how is it harming you that we include it? You have so many cards that you can play.
To this poster or people that share their viewpoint, the narrative that a gain for someone else is an attack on you is just not true. As I just pointed out above, you play a game all about personal choice, about players getting to choose how they play and enjoy the game. Why should life be any different than Magic?
Thanks for reading.
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