#also unexpectedly sad

[evehaze]

The duality of man

[unmerrymagdalene]

Sydney burying aeself in work does not change based on corruption. Corrupt Sydney is no more likely to take a nap on PC than pure Sydney. The dialogue for it isn’t even that different: (corrupt) "Don't move. Taking a nap." versus (pure) "Hope you don't mind if I doze off on you.". Corrupt Sydney just works in Sirris’s shop after school before going to pray in the temple. The underlying problem has not been solved.

Jesus fucking Christ that is so depressing

The underlying problem hasn’t been solved!

This goes into my other headcanon/“I’ve thought about this too much,” but I really don’t think Pure and Corrupt Sydney are all that different?

Like, in terms of how they express their sexuality it is: Corrupt Sydney is more upfront, while Pure Sydney needs to “convince” PC because he can’t make an active decision, otherwise only he can be blamed for it

But they still have the same or similar ideals? I remember seeing this screenshot for the Confessional (while doing research):

I know logistically they’re the same for coding/game reasons, but it still asserts Sydney holds the same ideals after being corrupted. I could talk more about the above but that’s for another post

It feels less like being corrupted fixed all of Sydney’s problem, and more of “it fixed(?) one, but created a whole bunch of others on top of them.”

Corrupt Sydney is also reminiscent of good, straight A teens eventually breaking and swinging into the other direction. They are trying to prove something to themselves and others (mainly that they aren’t that person anymore), but are in a very difficult/sensitive place in their lives. They are figuring out their identity now, and are conflicted and confused.

Imo, Corrupt Sydney still harbors all the problems they had before: overworking themselves, having confusing/damaged ideals on relationships/sex, and still not really handling the whole other parent situation. The only difference is that they fit in with the town way better now.

[wonder-worker]

I've been thinking about the tragedy of Elizabeth Woodville living to see the end of her family name.

I don't mean her family with her husband, which lived on through her daughter and grandson. I mean her own.

Her sisters died, one by one, many of them after 1485. When Elizabeth died, only Katherine was left, and she would die before the turn of the century as well.

All her brothers died, too. Lewis died in childhood. John was executed. Anthony was murdered. Lionel died suddenly in the peak of Richard's reign, unable to see his niece become queen. Edward perished at war. Richard died in grieving peace. For all the violence and judgement the family endured, it was "an accident of biology" that ended their line: none of the brothers left heirs, and the Woodville name was extinguished. We know the family was aware of this. We know they mourned it, too:

“Buy a bell to be a tenor at Grafton to the bells now there, for a remembrance of the last of my blood.”

Elizabeth lived through the deposition and death of her young sons, and lived to see the end of her own family name. It must have been such a haunting loss, on both sides.

[herbofgraceandpeace]

😅

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

High Infidelity or Gorgeous?

Hmm I think I like the lyricism of HI better but for some reason Gorgeous is just a bop I’d listen to way more often.

[frostbeees]

i need to sleep but it’s not coming easily so instead i’m here thinking about how happy it makes me to read y’all’s tags on rb’s of my posts. the silly ones, the insane ones, the h***y ones. they all make me go 🥰 bc you guys are so funny and smart and ridiculous

[ghwosty]

working on one of my little stories and I just wrote the phrase "I left him as a sad wet lump on my floor yet again" and couldn't catch my breath bc I wheezed so hard

[apocalypticdemon]

stubbed my fucking toe so hard this afternoon that i have Schrodinger's Broken Toe. this sucks

[the-girl-with-too-many-ideas]

I started getting into Heaven Official's Blessing, and the similarities between Xie Lian and Guda have me sobbing.

Both were seventeen when their lives were irrevocably changed forever. Kind and naive teens, with hope in their hearts of saving the world. Only to have it all thrown in their faces in the worst ways possible. Forced to become hardened and cruel when all they want to be is kind. Sacrificing so much, even parts of themselves, only for it to mean nothing to ungrateful masses.

Two people who have taught themselves to be overwhelmingly optimistic or be crushed with the absolute horror and trauma of all that they've endured.

All I can imagine is Xie Lian being summoned as a servant towards the beginning of Guda's journey. Seeing this poor kid put in this horrific situation in which they have to save the world or risk extinction, and them accepting it with absolutely resolve and unwavering determination. Looking at them and being reminded so much of himself and the words he once uttered so long ago.

"I wish to save the common people"

Remembering leaves a bitter taste in his mouth and thinks, 'Not this child. I won't let their journey turn out like mine'.

When the singularities are resolved and humanity restored, Xie Lian is desummoned back to his own world. He is left feeling sad having to leave Guda (who he has come to see as his own child), but proud about how it all ended without them losing it all. He is happy that Guda's journey ends in an optimistic note.

Until he is resummoned during the lostbelts, and is met with the broken down shell of who Guda used to be. He is beyond horrified and devastated at the realization that not only did Guda's journey continue, but had gone down a much more horrific path than his own did.

Nothing is worse than thinking you've saved someone, only to realize that you didn't and that their fate was far darker than yours ever was.

[green-mug-tomato-juice]

star trek needs to either give spock his GAY CATHARSIS NOW or drop the character forever. we can't have you guys making prequel upon heterosexual prequel about him i don't care if spock is factually gay or if he was intended that way it's just that telling his story in the het way doesn't make any sense at all. everything that happens to him in the nimoy canon is so nonsensical if spock is straight. also nobody fucking cares if characters on tv are gay anymore except bruce harold and steven the last three homophobic star trek fans who made 200 email addresses to spend all day writing bigoted comments. star trek is supposed to be about going where noone has gone before breaking boundaries and blahblah so why don't you break the straight spock boundary. if you're not gonna do that what's the point. spock is supposed to boldly have sex with men or never be spoken of again

[aria0fgold]

Delaying my bath time so badly I start looking around the house in a bathrobe trying to find where that bulbasaur plush had gone.

[unopenablebox]

NEW YARN IS HERE

making a pact with self that if i put in laundry, pack the paper goods, and find and pack my sleeping bag i can probably look at the yarn. if i do all that and go to the grocery store i can DEFINITELY look at the yarn

[oculusxcaro]

SO! Writing didn't happen (unsurprisingly) due to certain health issues cropping up after several long shifts back on each other but I did clean my laptop up, rearrange icons and folders and made a whole bunch more for when I'm feeling better again so that's something, I guess...?

[mekatrio]

finished day 2's investigation..............................

[outstanding-quotes]

My kitten baby a few summer ago, chillin on a copy of Mary Oliver’s Devotions

You and I will always be back then 💖

[l0se]

how to grieve? tips for making grieving more bearable? thanks in advance friends