#also trying smth a bit different with how i draw eyes. it looks weird to me but i think its just cause im not used to it

[sirenspells]

[Omori Fantasy AU]

More fantasy au guys!! I can't believe I drew them and the dragons before any of the other human main characters

The Stranger is an ancient and powerful faerie who lives in a dark and foreboding forest, with no one else but his crow familiars, who he's able to see through the eyes of. Humans and magical creatures alike avoid trespassing on his sector of the forest, as he is known to curse anyone who gets in his way.

Rowan was the faerie who lived in that forest before The Stranger, and under his ownership, the forest was beautiful and a haven for many animals and other fae. Hundreds of years ago, The Stranger took over the forest, and Rowan hasn't been seen since. Theories about what happened to him continue to circulate, from him having been killed by The Stranger, to The Stranger keeping him imprisoned somewhere, to Rowan having fled and now in hiding, biding his time to confront The Stranger and take back what is his. Or so the stories say...

Design notes under cut. for fun

Stranger's design was inspired by The Beast from otgw, specifically a design from someone on instagram who drew him as the beast in an otgw crossover (god I wish I could remember who it was...)

His wings weren't based on a specific moth, but the eye patterns were based on the eye spots that certain moths have

Yeah speaking of, those aren't extra eyes, they're just patterns

He is Tall. Like 7 feet. Big

He hasn't had to fly in like hundreds of years so he's sort of forgotten how to. He sometimes forgets he even has wings

Rowan's wings are based on a luna moth

He is Not Tall. He's the same height as Basil, like 5'3

His cloak grows flowers based on his emotions, with flowers blooming on it if he's happy (like the pokemon shaymin)

[teddybeartoji]

lays down and kicks my feet, tell me some thoughts you have about satoru, draws circles on your blog with my finger

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII JAZZ HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII:3333333333 IT'S SO GOOD TO SEE YOU HEREE HEHEHEHHEEE i have a bunch of smaller headcanons for him i hope that's what you were looking for!!!!!!!!

HE DROOLS WHEN HE SLEEPS!!!!!!!! like actually drools. he also snores but the snoring is so fucking cute??????????? i hate him why is everything he does always so perfect?????????? bro can't even fucking drool and snore in a bad way smhhhhhhhhh

HE LOVES WATCHING YOU DO "HARD WORK"!!!!!!!!! and by "hard work" i mean shit like carrying around heavy things and idk putting together furniture or smth lmao. it most definitely turns him on too.......... there's just smth abt your dirty clothes and your sweat and your concentrated face and he loooooves when you tell him that you don't want his help!!! he always offers bc he's a Gentleman like that even though he knows you don't necessarily need it. but the way you just go "no-no, i got it." gets him going!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he wants youu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he's bringing you drinks like he's a proper malewife and then proceeds to just admire you while you work lmao.

HE LOVES CALLING YOU!!!!!!!!! calls you over the smallest things. he just wants to talk to you and he wants to hear your voice!!!!!! some of the calls are literally just minute long (and that's only bc he spends 30seconds on saying that he loves you), while some calls are hours long. oh and he absolutely adores if you do the same. he wants you to call and send voice messages!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOSES HIS SOCKS ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and he steals yours btw. he's constantly going "baaaaaaaabee! have you seen my sock?!" while the said sock is literally sitting on the chair right next to him SMHHH ok but when you show it to him he just turns to you with a dopey smile and gives you a sloppy, haste little kiss, mumbling how he doesn't know what he'd do without you............... i wanna marry him jazz i wanna marry him

LOVES KISSING YOUR TUMMYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he's always smiling while doing it too. you could just be lazing on the couch, scrolling on the phone and he's crawling on top of you. he pushes up your shirt just so he can see and feel your skin before pressing light, gentle kisses on you. if you peek at him from under your phone, you'd just find him staring back at you with sparkling eyes.

HE DOESN'T LIKE TEA???????? idk this just feels right okay... don't judge me i am an avid tea drinker so i am upset abt this too. no matter how much honey or sugar you put on it, he's always scrunching his nose at the taste. he is willing to try different ones just for you but i really feel like he's not a fan of any of the flavours. (FLAVOUR???? TEA FLAVOUR???? idk english is weird ok)

(he knows exactly how you like yours though. suguru has taught him how to make good tea, so satoru relishes in making you smile whenever he surprises you with a cup!!!! he knows when you want it too; he's a bit of a mind reader honestly. you sit down on the couch and he's already marching into the kitchen with a mission. it's his love language<33)

SHOWERS EVERY MORNING!!!!!!!!!! i think he loves showering. just overall. it gives him so much energy and it makes him feel so good, so fresh - it's the best way to start his day!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also sings in the shower. or more like yells in the shower. a lot. he's dumb and i love him. and then he always steps out of the bathroom with wet hair and just like a pair of pyjama pants on and he smells so fucking good aaaand it makes you wanna get him all dirty again!!!!! i said what i said.

(he sometimes just leans on the doorframe as he's brushing his teeth and just grins at you knowing full well that you wanna EAT HIMMM)

OKE I THINK I'M GONNA STOP HERE BEFORE I FULLY LOSE IT!!!!!!! BUT WAHHH I LOVE TALKING ABT HIM SOOO SO MUCH THANK YOU FOR DROPPING BY AND THANK YOU FOR INDULGING ME JAZZ<333333333333333 I HOPE YOU'RE HAVING AN AMAZING DAY MY LOVEE MWAH MWAH MWAHMWAH!!!!!

[jaysswlvrr]

Academic Rivals: An Unlocked Drawer| p.sh rival!reader x rival!sunghoon

request>> its a bit long but tysm(!) to the anon who sent it, i was planning on smth for hoon but tysm for the idea<3

authors note>> ik i haven't posted in a while but somehow we gained another 100 followers overnight?! guys tysmmmm<3

minors do NOT read or interact (please)

"your grades have dropped drastically, I thought you were better than that", your teacher scolded. "I really want to help you so" you looked curious as your teacher stopped talking. "I got you a tutor, I think you know him". She walks toward the door revealing the presence of one and only,

Park Sunghoon.

He had a big smirk, entering the room and facing you. Your teacher thins her lips in a reassuring smile,"Ill leave you two to it then", she spoke, gathering her books and leaving before you could stop her. You look up at him, a pout of hatred and anger plastered on your face. You lightly roll your eyes as he bends to your height. Telling him your address with a quick 'dont be late', before turning on your heel to leave.

And thats how you got here now, bored and revising things that you never even knew existed. He stops talking, causing you to look up at him as if you knew he was going to say something off-topic. "Got any snacks?" he asks, smiling as you reluctantly stand up, letting out an annoyed sigh. You walk out of the room, unintentionally swaying your hips.

Sunghoon's gaze moves from your back to your ass. Your small shorts barely cover any of your flesh. He bites his lip, forcing his eyes away from the sight. You on the other hand are struggling to get the snacks for the top shelf (lmao) 'how did they even get there?' you think. You can't find anything decent to give him, so you make popcorn instead.

Meanwhile, Sunghoon looked around your room. It was filled with small pictures of yourself on beaches and small revision notes. His eyes were slowly drawn to small drawers, the middle draw with a black silk bow on the handle. It had a lock, but when he realised it was slightly opened, it made him more curious as to what was inside. Maybe it was some weird cringy 'dear diary' or childish photos.

In fact, it was the opposite. It was full of different sex toys, ones he never expected you would own, or even know of.

Instead of being disgusted, he bit his lip, never knowing that you were this filthy and dirty. He loved this, so many lewd thoughts ran through his mind. Imagining how you would twitch around the toy, letting out small moans and whines, oh he wanted you so bad.

He grabbed a small vibrator turning it on and seeing the small bud move made him smirk. There was also a small matching remote, a setting to speed and slow down the vibrations. He grabbed it and put it in his pocket, waiting for you to return.

You finally enter the room, your shirt exposing your waist as you were reaching for the top cupboard earlier. You place the popcorn in front of him and sit down. "There were no snacks so I had to make popcorn"

"Try it for me, please?" you watch as he takes one in his hand. His eyes never leave yours ashe puts the piece in his mouth. You gulp down the horniness building up in you, ignoring the wet patch forming between your legs. "Its alright" he answers, breaking your thoughts.

You turn back to your book but his deep voice stops you. "I think you forgot to lock something" he starts as your eyes connect to his, not understanding him. He pushes the chair back on its wheels, pulling the draw with him.

Your eyes widen as he reveals what you had thoughtg you locked before. You start to stutter an explanation but before you could protest, he pulls you towards him. "youre just as filthy as i thought you were" his breath blows on your face and he lets out a breathy laugh as you dont respond. "Couldve just asked me to fuck you" he taunts in your ear, his breath tickling down your neck.

"You want a cock don't you?" He mocks you, pouting as you slightly nod. "Get up for me then" you immediately get up like an eager puppy, ready to do anything for him. You watch as he pulls down his jeans, revealing his revealing his pink, leaking cock.

And look at you know, all on top of him and trembling as the small vibrator sped up again. "C'mon then, next question," he smiles as you still try your best to focus. You have sweat running down your neck, back, forehead, everywhere possible. "I-is is 52?"

He chuckles softly, "wrong baby" he coos. You start to sob again. "Sunghoon, t-too much!" he laughs as your body jolts to him adding the speed. "c'mon next one". This question was way more easier so you finally (estupido) got it right. "please let me cum sunghoon- please!" You can feel him thrusting up into you, it feels overwhelming but its just so good.

You can feel his dick hitting so high into those spongey spots no one has hit before. Even when you looked down, you could see the bulge in your belly which only made you moan more. "Hold it in a little longer baby" but you couldnt hear him anymore. Your eyes were at the back of your head at every thrust he did.

"Please sunghoon!" he sighs loudly, finally giving you a reassuring hum. As if you could hold it any longer, you feel your orgasm rain over you. Both yours and sunghoons liquid mix down your thighs.

♡

small aftercare~

Your in the bath with sunghoon bent over to your level and scrubbing your sore plush body. "Want to do this again?" your eyes grow bigger in plead but he just giggles lightly.

"Sure"

took me so long, i apologise

[lalalian]

let’s talk students: aethergarde dr (dragon rider school dr)

date: july 18, 2024

jkdshfkhskd it's been a hot sec since I've done this. Teagan won the poll last time, so we'll be going over him today!

pronunciation:

Teagan: (Tee-gen) (‘gen’ as in ‘again’)

Whit: (Wit)

appearance:

There are two kinds of people— you either prefer Teagan or Asterias. These two are genuinely so fine that students tend to like them (like a crush yk, not just platonically or smth LMAO) based on their personalities rather than solely relying on their looks.

Teagan’s got golden olive toned tanned skin, gray eyes, and full messy black hair. He’s got defined masculine leaning features and he’s ABSOLUTELY ripped. I didn’t make him like this without a purpose— It was simply because he helps his family transport heavy crates to different ships and wagons (I mean like he’s quite active in general, not just walking of course, he likes fighting and working out)

Teagan has a severe case of RBF despite his personality; he’s got no tattoos or piercings, tho I think he’d like to get his ears pierced.

I realized I haven’t said what style they like to wear, so I’ll do it for Teagan today (I’ll edit the rest of the posts with their own styles eventually). Teagan isn’t really into fashion; he values mobility and comfort over style as long as he doesn’t look, in his opinion, ‘noble and stupid’. He doesn’t like stiff shirts, so he usually wears looser garments. His wardrobe consists of brown, dark brown, black, cream, and very occasionally… dark green. He almost always wears some kind of boots (unless it’s a special occasion, he’d be wearing the black dress shoes his dad forced him to wear). As for his hair, if his hair’s long enough, he’ll tie it in the back. The most he’ll really do is brush through it.

personality:

Teagan’s a total extrovert and tends to have large circles of friends. When he’s alone for long periods of time, he can get a little antsy. I imagine that he’d bother his friends to hang out during finals season, but since everyone’s probably studying, he’d have to accept taking some notes in the library 😭

He’s the kind of guy that would try to help you out with literally anything, even if he’s not good at it. He’s a terrible artist, but loves to draw stupid things just to mail them to his friends. Teagan would definitely also pass notes around in class. Like Straus, he’s a terrible dancer, but yk at least Straus gets dance lessons… NEVER dance with this guy.

Despite his playful nature, he knows when to get serious. Teagan’s more of a logical thinker, but he’s incredibly kind and doesn’t like to see people he’s close to get hurt.

He really loves eating meat and raw fish. His dad had to stop him from eating fish straight up out a river (uncooked) many times as a child. Teagan’s also really good with kids; he knows how to cheer a kid up or teach them something without getting super irritated. Teagan’s weird asf not gonna lie, but hey at least he’s a really good cook. He doesn’t really cook for people he doesn’t know honestly, so like he only does it for people he’s close to.

relationships & status

Teagan was raised by his father after his mother died giving birth to him. Unlike a ton of Isekai manhwa fathers, his father didn’t hate him for being born, rather, he put all of his love into raising his son.

Teagan was raised well despite his non-noble status— his dad is a wealthy merchant. He often interacted with nobles because of his dad’s business; through these interactions, he grew a strong hatred for nobles. It isn’t rare for those higher in the social chain to treat people ‘lower’ than them with disrespect, and he definitely got a glimpse of this kind of mindset when attending meetings with his dad.

When Teagan was about 8 yrs old, his dad adopted another child off the street. This child ended up becoming Teagan’s little brother; his dad called him Archie because he used to arch his brow whenever he was the slightest bit confused— but then at around 3 years old, his dad decided that he needed a better name, so he named him ‘Archer’. Teagan and his dad still calls him Archie. When you shift here, Archie will be 13.

As you’d expect, Teagan’s really close with his dad and his younger brother. Teagan was supposed to inherit the family business, but since he’s an S-ranked rider, Teagan’s dad began teaching Archie all the stuff he needs to inherit his dad’s position just in case Teagan wants to do something else with his life.

His dad doesn’t want Teagan to be involved with super dangerous jobs; he’ll likely get pretty angry if Teagan wants to pursue a more dangerous career.

likes & dislikes:

likes:

-coffee, nothing added, just straight up black coffee

-wrestling with his brother

-cooking

-working out

-he likes fighting in general

-dogs. He likes dogs way more than cats

-the smell of leather

-dragons, he thinks they’re cool but he’s never aspired to be a rider simply because he didn’t think he’d be able to be one

dislikes:

-salads

-pooping (he’s got chronic constipation)

-reading

-tea unless it has boatloads of sugar in it

-nobles (yeah ik surprising, right?)

-chess

aura:

Teagan’s aura is an uncommon plume; unlike the students we’ve discussed before, his aura is single toned. I mean like the inner portion of his aura is darker, but like its bc the mana is more concentrated there yk?

#a8673e

dragon:

Teagan will bond to a male yellow wingwalker, and he’ll name him Kiser (Kai-sir).

strengths & weaknesses:

strengths:

-very physically strong

-good at cooperation (at times)

-great social skills

-dear god his martial arts skills are insane

-brave and persistent

weaknesses:

-finds reading boring; makes it hard for him to consume long texts, I’d imagine he’d ask someone close to him to read out a passage, then he’ll take notes that way

-a little dumb at times (it’s okay we love a himbo)

-has a habit of doing something crazy before thinking; he’d fight a monster he’s not really ready to fight for the fun of it

-can be lazy sometimes

-often wants someone near him to talk to; he likes to talk lmao

fighting style:

He mainly doesn’t use a weapon, but if he had to he’d fight with two sabers. His primary fighting skill is martial arts, his saber skills are average.

wanna know more about my aethergarde academy dr? here's a masterlist with everything I've posted about it!

[anaid-queen]

just two weeks late

the list of things i love about this!!

CAN I START WITH THE COVER. look at them!! ;___;

Daniel using his press badge to get in for free.... and Armand of course, side-eyeing him XD 'so cheeky, my boy...'

"You're a comedian, beloved." MY HEART!! IS SO FULL!!

'i want to give you everything why don't you want me to give you everything' will forever be the most

(also the hand on Daniel's back ;_;)

no, he was not going to ask, noooo. (maybe he really wasn't, but he'll always worry & consider every option for his beloved twice or thrice)

"We'll leave it to someone who needs it more." ok this is absolutely a front / not the real reason, but damn Daniel, that's still generous. leave it for someone without a vampire lover to prop them up!!

the colors begin!! and the painting facts, ofc

aaand there's the Marius mention.... is it intentional that the room goes very red there? i assume it must be

Armand's faaaace. aaaahhh

love is knowing your partner's obsessive tendencies very well <33

i like learning this artist's story (good man, stand your ground, screw these rich assholes), but do i spy... an embrace? a tender close moment at the very least?? it might be small and sharing space with a lot of text, but you can't fool me!!!!

also, Daniel playfully calling Armand "babe".... Armand going still for a moment and..blushing???... and Armand grinning like a shark and declaring the game on....... a thousand kisses, right there

"Is this why you insisted taking the metro here?" oh my HEART. Daniel convincing an old vampire of new tricks, Daniel trying to stay humble, in-touch with humanity. i LOVE IT. i want to ride the metro with them ;__; (sounds weird, but sue me, i love public transportation. and them! so win-win combo for me :3)

(and can i just say.... i love that you put different random people's faces in focus at times. makes the whole space feel really alive, almost *real*. amazing no notes.)

honestly, in the first moment i didn't even clock why Armand asked Daniel if he wanted to sit down - it's lovely sitting down at an exhibition you enjoy!! especially with your love there (i imagine, at least)

"People probably think you're my disability assistant." i made. noises. i will take every bit, every SHADOW of outsider!POV that i can get, and i WILL cheer it okay!!!

gotta love healing :333

ok this isn't really a 'love' point, this is a question. what's so funny/absurd about the word "ableism"?? old men, i swear XD

are those... are those shaky hands? 🥺🥺

his daughters following his footsteps will forever have my heart

🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 kiss?? or even without kiss. that's so tender i'm!!!

aaand there's the shot from the cover :3 in even prettier, with fancy background!

i should not be giggling about their expressions so much when they're fighting (even minorly), should i

"tone the lurking down a bit" as if he can, Daniel XD (as if you really mind)

blurry faces themeeee

the memory!! love the wife's and daughter's hair... and oh the SELFIE, i'm gonna cry!!!!!!

something, something about the new partner encouraging the connection to the former partner/kids. GOD.

did he cry?? 😧

Armand: options are our driver or the metro. Daniel: cab. i love them XD

i'm not gonna cry over handholding (or Fareed reference, Fareed and Daniel "ancient vamp's boytoy club" when), i am not

their faaaaces. never over how you draw angry (or cheeky) expressions <33

😳😳😳

"Mm. Elder abuse. I think I'd like that." can you develop a kink for smth you technically already liked before, asking for a friend. (that friend is very taken with this line delivery and swears she can literally hear Daniel say it)

Armand's love. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh

what do you mean meds work great Daniel, Daniel what do you mean- (rhetorical question)

Red on Maroon A 16-page IWTV (2022) fancomic about the vampire Armand and journalist Daniel Molloy visiting the Mark Rothko retrospective in 2024 Paris. Content mentions & warnings: The comic depicts Daniel’s internalized ableism. Rothko’s suicide is acknowledged but not discussed in detail. There’s angst, talk about kink and lots of fluff. Louis is mentioned as well as Daniel’s daughters. Marius is not named but is hinted at. The comic is set up in post-Dubai-interview time and based on my knowledge about s1 of AMC’s IWTV with sprinkles of book canon. Some notes about the comic below:

As with my last comic, I am not a native English speaker, so I hope you keep that in mind when reading <3 trying my best here meow meow

The Rothko retrospective can be visited until 2nd of April of 2024 in Louis Vuitton Foundation. I visited the place in January, so the comic’s surroundings are a mix of memories and some image searches, but in no way fully accurate. Since visiting Paris next week is probably not an option for most people, the foundation has a very cool free app, where you can listen to an audio guide about Rothko and paintings in the exhibition. I mostly used their app as a source for this comic, so in case you want to learn more, go here: https://www.fondationlouisvuitton.fr/en/events/mark-rothko

 I listened to a lot of Morton Feldman’s Rothko Chapel -album while making this. So put it in playing in the background if you’re into that sort of thing. Link to the playlist on youtube

Since I am Finnish and I found out that one of LVF’s first exhibition had some Finnish painter’s work, ofc I had to include them… Page 14 has Schjerfbeck’s “Dancing Shoes”  and Gallen-Kallela’s “Kullervo Cursing”.

Ok finally some headcanon stuff: in my head, while writing this comic, I imagined Daniel having accepted the dark gift from Armand, but both of them wanting him to live as a human as long as possible to enjoy the benefits of a… mortal body. :’D Since, you know, vampirism is forever anyway, so why not enjoy the variety of bodily fluids, body heat, aches and weirdness of aging? While having a chronic illness is shitty, his life is not, and while his disability marginalizes him, there’s a perspective there, a person living and enjoying things, allowed to take space and feel his thoughts develop from these changes (that also affect over 6 million people around the world with Parkinson’s).

After finishing the comic I am not so sure if Daniel is going to be turned into a vampire after all. So your guesses are as good as mine, would love to hear your suggestions, hehe!

I wish we knew more about Daniel’s daughters! I just came up with something here because I wanted to draw them and wanted to see their dynamics as a family.

I have now read the Devil’s Minion part from Queen of the Damned as a separate short story and appreciate the TV show’s changes to Daniel even more. I can’t wait for S2…..

My sincerest thanks to @anaid-queen for being a test audience, my informant and such a cheerleader the past week <3<3<3

Hope you enjoy xoxo

SORRY I POSTED THE WRONG IMAGE FILES FIRST WAHHH I had to repost ;_;

[noceurous]

—you can have your way with me until you go

summary: you couldn’t stop thinking about him, no matter how much you tried and he was no different

warnings: angst, fluff, dilf!bucky, alcohol consumption, mentions of smoking, mentions of weird dates and boring parties, bucky gives a late gift to the reader (pic is just a placeholder you can imagine it however you liked), swearing, usage of pet names [bunny, hubby], age gap (bucky in late thirties-early forties, reader in mid twenties), size kink (he is 6’6 or smth), praise kink, oral, fingering, spanks, choking kink, overstimulation, unprotected sex, some possessiveness if you squint, smut || 18+, minors dni

a/n: i suck at second parts, and it ended up fluffier than i hoped, please give feedbacks (comments, reblogs) 🖤 || second part of i know better than call you mine

The music was too loud again. The alcohol was almost too much again. The crowd was almost the same.

But he wasn’t there this time.

You haven’t heard from him since you put on your clothes and threw yourself in the street. You told him you didn’t need a drive back to your place. You tried your best to avoid crying and a huge fight. He didn’t say anything, just nodded his head, when you ended it.

You waited for yelling and screaming. Him getting mad because you went through his phone. But he just looked disappointed and defeated. You wanted to kiss that look away. Wrap your arms around him, and told him that you joked. You wanted to get back in the bed or have breakfast with him, not crying your eyes out in the subway.

You shook your head as you raised your alcohol glass to your lips again. You needed to stop torturing yourself.

You won’t be thinking about him again. Just like he wasn’t thinking about you too.

“You have nice eyes.” You turned to him from looking at the same corner where you first saw Bucky. You shouldn’t have said yes to come to this place again. But again, you have already done many things you shouldn’t have.

You smiled at the guy who complimented your eyes. A mutual friend of yours set you up. Saying that he just got out of a relationship too and was as depressed as you have been. He said that he hoped to see you two find a way to heal each other.

You didn’t want to get into any argument with any of your friends because it always ended sentence similar to. You’re always dating with red flags, try green for once.

“Thank you, Isaac.” You tilted your head. “You have really nice eyes too.” You added, leaning closer to him so he could hear you through the music.

It was true, you found his bright lively blue eyes were lovely. Reminding you the eyes of certain someone you swore to never mention again. Even though you really hoped that your friend chose someone who looked less like Bucky.

You felt how your glass get lighter from your continuous sips. Trying to find a way to numb your pain, which would end you up being on some cliche poster saying alcohol is not your friend. “I need to refill. I will be right back.” You said, swaying your hips slightly on your way. Hoping that your friend was right.

He won’t come back. He is happy and so should I be...

You sighed when you found that half of the bottles were empty. You turned around to take a look at Isaac but he was nowhere to be found.

Maybe a small trip to the liquor store would not be that bad. It was too close anyways, a small trip even on the feet. Isaac would not even notice that you were gone, if you were fast enough.

You went out. Your head felt light with the loud music being gone.

Your eyes hurt a little from the brightness of the store. Your feet were drawing little zigzags as you walked between the aisles. You hugged the bottle of gin, tucked it inside of your jackets packet. Also took a packet of chips just because, before walking for your payment.

“Bunny?” You were almost going to drop the chips when you heard his voice.

Shit! Shit! Shit?

“Hi, James.” You mumbled. He looked the same. His eyes looked a bit more tired though and it looked liked he missed a few trimming days of his beard.

“What are you doing here?”

“I was just hungry.” You said as you showed him your packet. Laughing to yourself, he clearly understood how drunk were you. Even though you tried your best to not slur. “And you?”

He swore under his breath. He took a sigh and jaw clenched. “Coming from a lousy date actually.” You smiled kindly, letting out a giggle.

You didn’t want to. But you found the situation really funny. So his wife was wrong, you weren’t the problem.

“So it didn’t work with Martha. That’s sad.” He shook his head.

“Let’s talk outside, shall we. Give me the bottle and the chips and let me by those for you?” You nodded. You felt defeated while giving him the bottle. You could already feel the eyes of the guy behind the cashier, watching the two of you.

“You are still the same, bunny.” He winked at you when he took the bottle. You smiled too, remembering you were doing the same thing while you were dating.

You watched as he took out of his wallet. You felt your throat getting dry when you saw the polaroid of the two of you. You were kissing his cheek, as he smiled at the camera.

“Another party at Peter’s?” He asked as you started walking towards his car.

“Yeah... You two live awfully close,” That’s when you remembered why you have said yes to the party. The chance of running into your ex, with the new dress.

“I should get going...”

“You should take a moment to sober up a little.” He said as he held you by your arm. “Please, I can’t let you walk back to Peter’s like that. It’s a miracle you’ve even made it safely.”

“Fine.” You said as you leant on the hood of the car. Taking in a deep breath. “How is quitting smoking is going?” You asked, when you saw the Marlboro packet in his pocket.

“I did that for you. You didn’t like the smell of it on my clothes, and on my tongue.”

“Does your girlfriend like it?” You blurted out, trying to not hear his evil wife’s evil laughs in your head. If I can’t get him, neither can you.

“She is not my girlfriend. Just someone my friend set me up with. I said yes for him to stop talking.”

You nodded. “Dating sucks.” You said as your hands scrunched the plastic bag under your fingers.

Your gin bottle was winking at you and you knew you two would be close friends for the night. If it would not decide to leave you for the toilet...

“Anyone you’re seeing?”

You raised your head, looking at him in the eye. “I—“ He stopped you before you could finish. You thanked him, since you didn’t think Isaac was worth of mentioning.

“I’m sorry I shouldn’t ask you that kind of questions.”

“I saw you still keep our picture in your wallet.”

“Yeah. The picture you took of us when you first crashed at my place. The same day I’ve started to call you bunny.”

“Yeah my pyjama shorts had the prints of a rabbits on them.” You said as you shook your head. “It was embarrassing.” You laughed at the remembering it. It was the day you understood the importance of laundry day.

“No, it wasn’t. It was cute and sexy. Your butt looked really good on those.”

“Do you still have the one with me bending over the counter and looking at you?” He laughed, nodding.

“It’s behind my driver’s licence.” He responded. “Those are work of art, I cannot throw them away.”

“I should get going. Thank you for the bottle and chips.” You said as you raised your bag. Hopping off from the hood of the car.

“Wait. Uhm— Do you wanna have coffee with me? I don’t think you want to be at the party since you’ve already left. I have the one that you like the caramel? Also I can drop you to your place afterwards.”

“Oh, James I don’t think—“ You saw the look on his face. The same guilt came back when you looked at him. You didn’t have the same strength of leaving him like that again. “Well, what harm can coffee cause?” You chuckled.

“So your wife took her belongings as far as I can see.” You said as you looked over the place. Some of the furniture have changed and many of the decorations were missing.

“Yeah, the divorce settled a few weeks ago and I sent back most of her things as soon as it was done. I didn’t want to leave anything lingering.”

“Oh I see.” You raised your head to see the egg shell coloured walls. “It looks better, I mean I always hated her style so...” You mumbled as you sat on the old green couch.

“Yeah I remember. I think I will hire a decorator too to fix all the stuff and make it look meaningful at the end too. I mean you can figure out where the frames are missing.” He explained as he came with two coffee mugs.

“Why not?” You said as you raised your mug to your lips. Taking a huge sip before you moaned at the taste. It was expensive for your budget so you didn’t have much opportunity to buy it often.

“Are you still living at your old place?”

“Yeah, my roommate is still an ass too. But I don’t mind since she pays more than half of the rent since she has the bigger room with the balcony.” He laughed.

“That makes sense. Oh, I should give you something.”

“What?”

“Well, there are somethings you left here and I didn’t know whether I should send you these because you didn’t want me to call you.” He explained as he came back with a box and placed it on the coffee table.

You frowned when you looked over it. You remembered that some of your stuff were missing. You just didn’t want to call him back. Also that excuse seemed cheesier than you would like to sound as.

“Oh...” You’ve made a small noise when you picked up your sweater from the box. Smiling to the fact that he made the loose button of it fixed.

“You took care of these also.” You said as you pointed out the button.

“Yeah, I was on my way to dry cleaners anyways. I know how much you liked it.” You gave a small nod as you continued to go through the box. A frown started when you found the album.

You chewed down your lip, hating yourself for bringing a camera to most of your dates now. Even though you knew half of those were filthy since he loved your naked body.

You tried to focus on something else and not focus on some of your ‘forgotten’ underwear. You felt the blood rushing to your cheeks and you cleared your throat. The you saw a small box, wrapped around a gifting paper.

“What’s this?” You twirled it around your fingers.

“Oh, you know our six month anniversary was coming up and I have bought a present already. I didn’t want to return it, knew you would like it.” You unwrapped it from the gifting paper, smiling at the dark green velvet box.

You gasped when you saw the emerald earrings shining at you like they were blinking. “Ar—are they what I’m thinking they are?” You tried to hide your smile.

“Yeah, I saw that you left the web site open. I know how much you like earrings like that.”

“James these are expensive as hell. You should have returned them.” You protested, cocking your head to the side when you looked at him.

“I bought them to make you happy. Even though you broke up with me, I didn’t stop lo— wanting to make you happy. I was just waiting for the right time I guess.” He shrugged but you knew it was a big deal.

“James I... These are beautiful. Thank you so much.” You bit down on your lip again. You raised yourself a bit to kiss his cheek. Even sitting down he was still taller than you.

“If they made you happy.” You chuckled.

“Yeah they did. Thank you for caring so much.” You said as you placed the earrings back in the box. “I’m feeling guilty now, I haven’t decided about your gift back then.” You explained as your eyes went back to your hands.

He held your hand in his. Thumb drawing circles on the back of it. Your hand looked really small, when it stood next to his large ones. “I’m sure you’d come with something great. You always do.” You chuckled.

You closed your eyes, the guilt came back. The same hands of flame loved playing with you. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have broken off with you so sudden. You’ve already told me the reason of you two broke up in the first place. She sent some texts, while you were in the bathroom that morning. I didn’t know she knew about me and the way she mention—“

“Hey, bunny. Look at me.” He said as he placed his large hands on your cheeks. You didn’t even realise you were talking on and on.

“She was mad, and delusional. Like I have told you several times, your presence gave me the strength to filling the papers. Maybe I should have done that before, but I am happy I did it anyways. As you can see, I didn’t step back once you broke up with me. So she saw the reason about the divorce also. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me.”

You softly chuckled, pressing your forehead on his. You had to sit on your feet to reach him. You took a deep breath. “I miss you.” You whispered on his lips.

“I miss you too.” He said, leaning towards you.

You smiled before kissing him. He groaned when your lips touched his. Pulling you towards his lap, causing box to fell down.

You straddled his lap. Wrapping your arms around his neck to pull yourself closer to him as he placed his hands on your waist. You could feel the heat moving around your body. Your heart beating out of your chest.

You knew what he wanted, because you wanted it too.

You let out a small voice when he held the hem of your dress. Pulling it over your body. You felt the goosebumps forming on your skin with the sudden breeze. Wriggling your butt, causing his erection grew bigger under you.

“Bunny.” He breathed out. When he broke the kiss. Helping you to take off his shirt. You licked your lower lip when your eyes met with his naked chest. Hands roaming around his large torso when his hands were on your thighs.

He quickly stood up, making you wrap yourself around him. You chuckled before leaning down to kiss him again. You bit down his lip, making him moan into your mouth. Your tongues met as your fingers pulled his hair.

The kiss was all teeth and tongue. Filled with longing and desire you both had for each other.

“Take me.” You whispered on his lips, before he kicked the bedroom door open. Throwing you back on the bed.

He watched your body on his bed again. Taking off his pants along with his boxers. You gulped when you saw how his cock bounced off. His tip was red and swollen, leaking precum. You felt your mouth watering.

Before he could lay down, you stopped him. Your hand went to his cock, slowly pumping him. He hissed at the contact of your warm hand. “You don’t have to...” He tried to explain but you stopped him by shaking your head.

You didn’t waste time as you leant down to lick his tip. Moaning at his taste before you took him into your mouth.

“Fuck, bunny! I missed your warm mouth.” He said as he let go of his breath. His large fingers combing back the hair got on your face. Making it a messy ponytail so he could pull your head closer.

You gagged around his cock, hands fisting around the his base. The tears were forming at the corner of your eyes as you took a moment to take a deep breath. Licking the tip, before taking him back. You twirled your mouth around his vein, hands went to his tight balls.

You could feel how close he was, his balls were tight. “Shit, bunny—“ He groaned as he pulled your face away from him. You gave a lick to his balls, before looking back at him. His hand went to his leaking tip, thumb smearing the wetness around. “Open your mouth and stick out your tongue.”

You did as he told you. He emptied himself on your tongue and cheeks. Covering your face with his load. “That’s my good bunny.” He said as he watched you lick his cum away. Trying not to jump at you and fuck you with his heart and soul.

He motioned you to get on the bed as you cleaned your face. He slapped your butt. You left a soft chuckle, at the familiar motion. “I really missed your butt.” He confessed as he placed his hands on your waist. Flipping you over. “I missed those tits too.” He added as he kissed each one of your breasts.

Your hands went back to unclasp your bra, taking it off and throwing it away. He pulled you to the gap between his legs more. Kissing along your naked chest and belly. “My beautiful bunny.” He whispered on your skin.

He licked on of your nipple before he started sucking it. His hands at the back of your thighs, raising your legs to wrap them around his waist. He pressed his hips on yours, making you feel that he was getting hard again.

You whimpered when you felt his warm tongue before his teeth. “James.” You moaned, your hands pulling down on his hair. He released the one with a pop and switched on the other one.

You could feel your wetness grow and almost soak his erection. You tried to raise yourself, and grind on his erection when he chuckled. “Can’t wait?” He said as moved down. Slowly taking off your thong.

“You are so wet.” He said as he dived a finger between your folds, slowly gathering your wetness.

“Please.” You begged, raising your hips again. His eyes were darker, a smile on his face as he leant towards you. He looked like he wanted to devour you.

He slowly starting licking you. His finger slowly moving inside your hole. “J—James...” You said as your hand clenched on the pillow. He hummed at your taste, adding another finger.

You swore under your breath. Your chest rosing with the feeling while his tongue was drawing circles around your clit. “I know you can be louder.” He whispered as he curled his finger, making you moan out.

“Fuck!” He smirked, his fingers hitting your sweet spot inside as he sucked on your swollen clit. Eyes closed as he was fixed on making you cum on his face.

You spread your legs further, hands pushing him down on you. “You feel so deep.” You said in bliss, feeling the knot on your belly getting tighter.

He looked into your eyes, lips closed around your folds and he added the third finger as he got faster with fingering you. Making you scream when your orgasm hit you. Toes curled and you felt your mouth gotten dry and fireworks inside your eyes.

“You taste divine.” He said, placing his cock between your legs. “And so tight bunny.” He tilted his head to the side. “Are you okay?” He sounded worried and you let go of your breath.

“I’m just nervous. It’s been a while.” You chuckled. Trying not to look at your ex.

“We’ll make it work.” He slowly pushed himself inside. Both of you moaned when his tip brushed against your sweet spot.

“You’re so big!” You breathed out, and he chuckled.

“I fit didn’t I?” He chuckled, started moving inside of you. He raised your leg, to hit you deeper. “You feel so good bunny. So tight and warm for me. You’re mine aren’t you?” He whispered on your ear, speeding up.

“Yes I’m yours.” You admitted.

He kissed along your face, leaving small trails of wet kisses when he moved along your neck. You could feel your walls clench when he kissed the sensitive spot belong your ear.

He sucked on the spot, biting down enough to leave a mark. “Fuck!” He groaned, getting faster and faster. Couldn’t get enough your feeling. “I’m never letting you go again. You’re mine.”

He placed his hand on the headboard, getting support so he would not crash you with his weight. You moaned when he continuously hit your sweet spot inside. “Right there! James, don’t stop.” You said, hand wrapping around his wrist.

“You feel so good around me, bunny. So tight and warm, all mine.” He said, his hips slamming into yours. The sound of skin slapping each other filling the room. He raised his hand and wrapped it gently around your throat. Not tight, just he could feel how your breath hitched when he hit the spot.

You could feel your orgasm building up. You dug your fingers on his arm. Your walls clenching around his cock like a vice. “I’m coming.” You moaned again.

He kissed you again. Your lips moulding into each other as your tongues danced. He swallowed all the moans you let out when you climaxed. The sweet haze surrounding your brain and senses. He pressed his forehead on yours, kissing the tip of your nose.

He raised both of your legs, placing them on his shoulders. You choked out with the new angle he was hitting you. “Cum inside me, hubby. Please.” You begged. His old nickname falling from your lips.

“You want me to cum inside of you? Fill you up nicely.”

“Yes. Please.” You nodded, feeling your eyes tear up. You could feel your third orgasm built up pretty quickly. “Fill me up. I wanna be full of your cum.”

He started chasing down his orgasm. Your words helped him getting on the edge pretty quickly. “Fuck! Cum with me bunny, I know you are close. You grip me so tight I cannot even think, bunny.” His hand went where your bodies met, he played your clit to just to give you one more gentle push.

You felt the same fireworks again for the third time. Your hands clenching on whatever they could find as the feeling took all over your body. Followed by feeling his warm cum filling up all inside you.

He threw himself next to you, wrapping your naked bodies with the pattern full sheet. You turned towards him and placed your head on his chest.

He leant down and kissed your forehead. “How are you feeling?” You smiled.

“Good. It was good, if not better.”

“I’m glad to hear that.” He smiled, fingers dancing at your forearm. “Would you like to stay? I—if not I can give you a ride back but you should give me at least half an hour bunny.”

You looked up to him, fingers following imaginary patterns with his chest hair. “I’d like to stay actually.” You admitted. “I don’t want to hesitate and lose again.” He smiled, you could see the childlike sparks on his eyes.

“I won’t make you hesitate again.” He said, caressing your cheeks. “You’re the one for me bunny.”

“Just like you are the one for me, hubby.” You kissed his jawline. He chuckled at the nickname.

Taking a deep breath you forgot to take since you told him that it was gone. You closed your eyes before wrapping your arms around his torso. You were sure you would have breakfast in the morning this time.

[yoichichi]

How They Cuddle

karasuno x reader

warning(s): none ! :)

a/n: some sweet luv for the hq boys :) I’m planning on doing a part for the other fandoms I write for too - aot, bnha, & jjk - as well as the rest of the hq teams/characters - so keep an eye out if you’d like! And as always I love interacting w you guys :) feel free to leave comments/flood my inbox :D!

characters: daichi, asahi, sugawara, nishinoya, tanaka, yamaguchi, tsukishima, kageyama, hinata, yachi, & kiyoko

Daichi

He’s a hugger for sure! If you’re on your phone, or reading, or doing anything before bed he’s snuggling up behind you and resting his head on your shoulder to watch what you’re doing - he’s nosey like that. Anyways, being the big spoon is a very convenient cuddling position for that, and he gets to wrap you up and hold you close <3

Through the night though he slowly scoots down off his pillow in his sleep, so when you wake up his face is nuzzled into the middle of your upper back with his arms still squeezing around your midsection so tight you know you’d have to wake him up to get him to let go 😭 he’s also for sure a light snorer, but it’s ok he makes up for it by being cute or whtv 🙄

Asahi

Another spooner! He’s not particularly bias to being the big or little spoon but he just can’t face you 😭

There’s a few reasons: 1) it makes him freak out and it’s like he can feel your eyes on him even if they’re closed. He’ll be constantly peeking one eye open to look at your face and he’s half scared he’s gonna open them and you’re gonna be staring at him like 👁👁 LMAO

2) the breath on his face tickles too much and will eventually start to irritate him and he gets pouty cause it makes it tough to sleep

And 3) what if he’s making a weird face in his sleep and you wake up to see it 😭

So spooning for the win it is

Sugawara

I don’t think he’d be a big fan of being held, it makes him feel too claustrophobic and he’d feel kinda bad moving you off of him if he had to use the bathroom in the middle of the night :( I also think he tosses n turns a bit while sleeping so holding him wouldn’t be the best option anyways, however!

He likes touching/lightly intertwining legs - one reason is because you can kind of get away with it from any angle but still find a comfortable position that suits you, the other reason is because his feet get cold in the middle of the night and this is the easiest way to steal your warmth

Nishinoya

Ok ok, so I know it’s cliche - but I do think he’s a teensy bit too excited for bedtime cuddles! Not in a restless way, he’s just too excited with the act of actually cuddling you, like every time. Day cuddles are different! When the two of you have some alone time and he’s snuggled up with you on the couch, leaving a bunch of kisses (his favorite are Eskimo kisses), periodically grabbing your face so your lips pucker and leaving a dramatic kiss there after he talks about how cute you are (“oh my god you’re so adorable I could crush you ☹️🥺”), and then squeezing you so tight sometimes your back even cracks, it’s fine! You’re not trying to sleep so it’s just sweet Noya doting on you - but you can see how this would be a problem when y’all are tryna get some shut eye 😭

Solution: back to back, but touching so you can still feel each other’s closeness <3, bonus: every time Noya becomes aware your guys’ butts are touching he giggles and wiggles a little until you remind him it’s time to sleep 😭

Tanaka

Ok but he needs to have a hand on your ass and not even in a sexual way 😪🤚🏼 he just grabs on naturally or rests his hand there and sometimes lovingly pats it when he kisses your cheek before either going back to falling asleep or being on his phone or smth :)

He also loves burying his face in your neck, it just feels so soothing to him and he also finds your smell so relaxing and makes him feel all warm inside! Like when he sees you after a long day he loves wrapping you up in a big hug and leaving kisses in the crook of your neck and burying his face there cause he just missed you sm <3

Yamaguchi

Very much like Hinata he also adores being intertwined with you!! He finds it particularly comforting with your face buried in his chest or neck while he has his legs wrapped up with yours. He thinks it’s the best position to lean down and press a kiss to the top of your head (his favorite kind of sweet kiss), which he always does right before he feels himself drifting off to sleep.

He also likes rubbing your back/neck this way until you fall asleep, or while you talk about anything you wanna talk about. Waking up this way is also his favorite, and if you guys have moved in your sleep, you bet he’s pulling you back into a hug. He periodically squeezes you in his arms, leaves feather light kisses to your shoulder, runs his hands up and down your back, sure you probably won’t be asleep for much longer now with all this movement, but he just can’t help it with how sweet you look sleeping! Don’t worry though he’ll keep up the soothing while you wake up and talk about your dreams and what you want for breakfast :)!

Tsukishima

Not much of a cuddly guy throughout the day but when bedtime rolls around you bet your ass he’s expecting some kind of physical affection. His favorite is when he lays on his back with his arm out so you can nuzzle into his side, and once you’re all comfortable he wraps said arm around you to pull you in close.

Your favorite is when he runs his hand up and down your side or draws little designs with his fingers on any exposed skin. His favorite is when you bring your face up to rest in the crook of his neck or rest your head on his chest, any light kisses you leave or the breath that puffs out of you and hits his neck every now and then never fails to give him goosebumps and make him blush.

Kageyama

I don’t think he’s particularly ~stiff cuddling with you but I definitely think it’s not his forte when it comes to bed time! He just finds a comfortable spot - usually on his side or back - and that’s that! He’s found it and is gonna be out in approximately 2 minutes, but he does love feeling you in bed next to him :(

A good compromise he’s decided is reaching his hand out next to him him so he can hold onto your hand while he sleeps, or being the little spoon! It actually feels super comforting to him to feel you all cuddled up to his back and keeping him warm no matter if you’re bigger or smaller than him <3 he also loves the way he has to pry your arms off of him when he has to get up in those early mornings, or the way he feels your face squish up against his back sometimes, he just loves you.

Hinata

He definitely gets hot in his sleep but he love love loves cuddling with you, so you’ll always start off wrapped up in each other somehow. Usually face to face with your legs intertwined cause he thinks talking to each other about any and everything is a good way to wind down before bed - and I mean anything. Sometimes it’s just him asking you odd questions he’s been thinking about recently before one of you remembers you can google it

But no matter how you two fall asleep at first, you always wake up clinging onto his sprawled out body (probably because he’s kicked the blanket onto the floor and you got chilly in your sleep) or far away from him with all the blanket to yourself as he peacefully snores beside you <3

Yachi

Play with her hair and she’s KNOCKED 100%! She also loves either holding you or being held, but there’s got to be SOME kind of holding going on for her heart to feel full <333

She’s also the queen of surprise hugs from behind once you’ve been together for a fair bit and she feels more comfy being publicly affectionate with you! And if you do the same to her it never fails to make her smile or cover her face cause she’s blushing from surprise

“(Y/n)!! You startled me!” And now you have a very excited & giggly gf 😽😽

Kiyoko

I personally see her as a pretty religious back sleeper so the most ideal position is you in her side or you laying between her legs while she holds you and your head is resting on her chest. PERSONALLY she prefers the second one but she leaves it up to you <3

She just thinks it’s most ideal how she could reach down and trace her fingers lightly on the side of your face; or play with your hair if she’s able to; or rub your neck, back, and shoulders to ease any stress from your day. She’s a big giver of private affection and thinks it’s so cute when you’re so tuckered out you she wakes up with a little drool on her shirt. Not to mention your weight and warmth is super comforting to her ! And even if she wouldn’t admit it, she likes being able to use not wanting to move and wake you as an excuse to get 5 more minutes of you cuddling with her.

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[starglow-xx]

(About the brother!atsushi) aRE YOU READING MY MIND MISS?! Because that has been on my mind for MONTHS. TYSM For writing it was amazing!! If you don't mind, may I request (if requests are open) atsushi, still an older brother, but with a sister that's 10-13 yrs old? It's totally fine if you don't wanna do it. Keep up the good stories, ily mwuah!

*sobs* you’re so kind thank youu 🤧🤧

i wrote this a bit differently i hope that’s okay anon! at first i planned for this to be mainly abt atsushi and the reader, but i decided to add in relationship hcs with the agency bc i ran out of ideas

if you guys liked this don’t worry! im planning a special part two for this one so be the look out for it hehe

atsushi with a tween! sister

ft. the armed detective agency

like in my baby sister hcs, you’re still the most important thing to him period

the two of you got picked up by dazai and kunikida when he was 18 (obviously) and when you were 12

for a 12 year old, you were a bit small bc of malnourishment (which makes atsushi feel so bad) so both dazai and kunikida thought you were a bit younger than you actually were

they assumed you were about 9-10ish

you and atsushi both share a favorite food !! chazuke :)

so when kunikida treated the two of you, he made sure you got more bowls bc like i mentioned above, he feels really bad that you were malnourished and under weight

(don’t bring this up but kunikida felt bad too hehe)

when dazai went with your brother to the warehouse, you were with kunikida

imagine the surprise of the other ada members when kunikida came in with a little girl dressed in rags that popped out from behind him

kenji was the one who vocalized his thoughts 

“kunikida-san you have a daughter?! wow! i didn’t know that! :D”

when you found out your brother was a tiger, you were a bit concerned but you were actually kind of excited

you were even more excited when you found out the two of you were going to be taken in by the agency

anything was better than the stupid orphanage

and besides!

you got a tiger for an older brother and a bunch of other super powered agents to take care of you! who could want anything else?

at your age, you’re very impressionable and can be influenced easily so atsushi makes sure to teach you more in depth of good morals and the importance of kindness

his heart swells with pride and relief when he catches you being kind to others

pride bc he’s proud that even after all the two of you have gone through, you still ended up being a good kid and having a bright view of the world

and relief bc he hasn’t failed as a big brother

pfftt like he could ever fail

but please, from time to time reassure him that he’s perfect and the only big brother that you’d ever want bc he rlly needs that kind of validation

with his salary and savings, he tries to buy nice things for you

what a sweetheart 🥺

he saw you eyeing that one dress at a store window? fast forward abt a week and half and it’s inside a pretty gift bag for you

you wanted to try that dessert from the nice bakery? that’s dessert after dinner at one point

but other than buying you things, he sets money aside for you

like all the time

(y/n), here have this, you might need it”

“but nii-san you just gave me—”

“take it”

#1 spoiler

also your #1 confidant and source of physical affection

you tell him anything and everything (except crushies and those kinds of things)

atsushi loves it when you talk abt your day and he can see the big smile on your face and the sparkle in your eyes

it gives him the strength to keep going 😖😖

the two of you aren’t as touch starved as you’d probably think, but that’s only bc the two of you had each other

in your opinion, no one can match the hugs of your big brother

and it got even better bc YAYY he has tiger arms now ٩(◕‿◕)۶

if you ask, he’d carry you around too hehe

you also get nightmares quite often so he’ll always be there ready to calm you down, talk if you need to, and rock you back to sleep

god i love him 🤧🤧

atsushi will do everything in his power to protect you and make sure you get to grow up happy, supported, and loved

port mafia attack? oop he’s already taking you to the nearest escape route

someone is starting to harass you? they just got suckered punched into the next week

you want to go out to have some fun? he’ll go ask the president for a day off

you’re not feeling well? he’ll take another day off and take care of you

whatever you want to do, he’ll do it with you! (as long as it’s within reason)

will always be your #1 supporter! and he’s the president of your fan club hehe

he loves you so so much and will do anything for you; your life and happiness will always be more important to him

you are his reason to keep going

agency head canons !!

atsushi is your big brother, but kunikida is most definitely some sort of father figure

everyone can see it

except kunikida of course

kunikida scolds you lightly if he thinks your manners need work or if you make a mess in the agency

you listen to him of course and in turn as some sort of a reward, he’ll give you pieces of stationary

he always gives you the nice, good quality kind and you’re over the moon

atsushi adores it when you come running to him showing your new notebook or fountain pen and blabbering what you’re going to do with it

sometimes it isn’t even as a reward for being a good child; he’ll just give it to you and he’ll say smth like “i noticed you’ve used up your last notebook quite quickly, so here’s another one” or “did you run out of ink? here have this then”

he usually has a soft spot for children in general, but he most definitely has a soft spot (or a thousand) for you

yosano is kind of like a motherly figure to you

she gives you the guidance a mother should and goes on shopping trips with you!

atsushi always gets dragged along by you, but he thinks it’s worth it seeing you look so happy

yosano being a doctor also tries to teach the things you should know, or things that would be helpful to you

she’ll teach you the basics of cooking, sewing, how to treat a cold/fever, etc

also gives you excellent advice 1000% of the time

“remember (y/n)-chan if someone hurts you come tell me and then i’ll chop them into—”

“yOSANO-SENSEI DONT TELL HER THAT—”

fukuzawa is like a father to most in the agency but you see him more as a grandfather figure

bi weekly tea and gossip sessions hehe

along with cat talk!

most of the time though, it’s just you talking and him listening to you, but the two of you enjoy it nonetheless

“and then kunikida-san ended up crashing into a pole and dazai-san started to laugh at him and i did too because it was really funny but we ended up getting scolded—”

“hmm i see...”

he’ll let you stay in his office as he fills out paperwork; you’re usually doodling or drawing in your notebooks

sometimes he’ll meditate and you’ll join him, but 4/7 times you’d fall asleep

you always wake up with a blanket over you

dazai is like a cool but a highly concerning and kind of high maintenance uncle

frequently takes you out with him when he ditches work

walks in the park, eating at uzumaki so he has the excuse of treating you so he doesn’t have to pay his tab avoiding kunikida and sometimes chuuya and akutagawa, all that fun stuff

also tries to not talk abt suicide in front of you especially if it’s just the two of you alone

he knows that you mean the world to his pupil and that said pupil would probably hate him for putting suicide inside your brain

he teaches you random but useful things like how to pick a lock, how to steal kunikida’s notebook if you’re looking for some information, how to sweet talk your way out of things, etc.

is also the one to tell you that if you ever get a significant other to introduce them to the agency first

he always wants all of your gossip; some of them work pretty well for blackmail

“dazai-san! dazai-san! did you know that kunikida-san lost his glasses and he was looking for them for nearly an hour when he was just holding them the entire time??”

“woah really (y/n)-chan?! hey hey can you say it again into this recording device so kunikida-kun would believe me when i tell him—”

always ends up giving kunikida a heart attack when he says that you’ve been with him all day

ranpo is also like a cool but a highly concerning and kind of high maintenance uncle

will share some of his snacks, but don’t push it or you might not get anything at all

loves it when you compliment him

if you tagged along with him and your brother on a case, he will show off to impress you

“...and that’s how the crime happened”

“UWAHH RANPO-SAN YOU’RE SO COOL”

atsushi is lowkey and kunikida is highkey stressed that ranpo’s eating habits will rub off on you

“ne (y/n)-chan do you wanna try this highly caffeinated drink and this concerning amount of sugar filled snack?”

“can i really?!”

“rANPO-SAN NO—”

ranpo definitely does stuff like that on purpose 

the tanizakis are like siblings to you!

a weird set of siblings but siblings nonetheless

the two of them adore you and think you’re precious

atsushi definitely knows how to do your hair whether it’s long or short but he got even better at it when he asked the two

hehe braid trains are definitely a thing + kyouka and kenji (and maybe even dazai)

sometimes you have sibling swap days

you’re with junichiro for most of the day and atsushi is with naomi

strange i know

each of the tanizaki siblings try to make it fun bc they know that the two of you did not at all have a happy upbringing

junichiro likes spending time with you by taking you out to different places that naomi likes to frequent

like the mall, different stores and restaurants, the park, places like those

naomi does the same thing with atsushi so if you ever bump into them, you go out and eat together :)

besides atsushi, the next one in line who spoils you the most would be junichiro (and yosano & kunikida both coming in at a close third)

he honestly can’t help it; you remind him of how naomi was when she was younger

and besides

he’s always been a sucker when it came to the happiness of a little sister

“would you really buy this for me junichiro-san?!”

“of course! don’t worry about it” :)

wanna talk abt boys/girls/celebrity crushes things like that? naomi is your girl

you feel a bit embarrassed to go talking to yosano or your brother abt that and kyouka does not know a thing abt them either

“uwahh naomi-san look at all these people in this magazine! they look so good!”

“right?! but of course onii-sama is still the best—”

you get along with kenji and kyouka quite nicely being roughly the same age as them; they’re also like siblings!

just pure, wholesome vibes from the three of you

you’re over the moon when she finds out that kyouka is staying with you and your brother

atsushi is twice as happy seeing you talk your mouth off and finally having a girl around your age to talk to

“do you think demon snow can change how she looks?”

“hmm... im not sure...”

you and kenji talk abt anything and everything

he even teaches you how to take care of plants!

sometimes the two of you are kind of in the same boat bc you don’t know much abt yokohoma being stuck in the orphanage and kenji doesn’t know much abt cities in general

“wait where are we again kenji-san?”

“ah we’re close to the ports! but im not really sure how close because i don’t know what the symbols on this sign mean”

“don’t worry! neither do i!”

bonus things!

yosano was kind of too late teaching you abt you know what

“NII-SAN IM BLEEDING IN BETWEEN MY LEGS”

you’re sobbing in the agency’s bathroom and atsushi is panicking trying to get you to open the door

“Y/N?! H-HOLD ON LET ME GET YOSANO SENSEI”

ranpo overhears and cackles making everyone around him confused

suddenly atsushi bursts in the agency basically on the verge of tears rambling incoherent sentences abt the bathroom, you, and blood

it just clicked for everybody in the room

(im going to pretend that kenji has sisters back home so that atsushi is the only one who remain oblivious here hehe)

atsushi is genuinely confused and sort of concerned that no one is freaking out with him

yosano waves her hand saying smth like that she’d take care of it and junichiro pulls atsushi to the side to talk to him

fast forward like half and hour and dazai and ranpo are cackling on the looks of both of your faces

honestly not sure who’s more traumatized, you or your brother

“why does this have to happen” :(

“ne ne (y/n)-chan!~ you’re too young but at some point you’re not going to have it!”

“uwahh really dazai-san?” :D

“yeah! but first you have to have ANFK—”

next thing you know your ears are being covered by your brother and dazai is thrown across the room by kunikida

you know

the normal

you’re twelve and have never gone to school, but the agency takes care of that

it’s too dangerous to go to school so they teach you what’s necessary and whatever else they can

kunikida takes care of math (obviously)

yosano takes care of science/biology/anatomy/health (whatever you wanna call it)

ranpo even dragged poe to help you with english

atsushi even got lucy to help you out with english too!

as tanizaki and naomi used to be students, they give you their old work books and they try to teach you all the other subjects

sometimes kyouka and kenji are there learing with you too!

sorry if there’s some errors! i’ll read through it again later :)

and as always, reblogs and shares are appreciated! i hope you all stay safe! and just in case nobody told you they loved you today, i love you! you are enough! <3

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nct ot23 reaction to: having a lazy day with their s/o

MASTERLIST

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taeil

taeil

lots of hugs and cuddles!!

he would like to wrap you in blankets so you can feel warm and look fluffy.

he would like to put some music on (like in his vlog) and he would dance for you and make you laugh :(

he would act cute for you just because he feels like it.

he would be like a little kid because he would feel so happy to have a day just with you.

johnny

he would just be flirting with you ALL DAY!! even tho you are his s/o because he would want to see you be blushed and flustered the whole day.

he won’t stop holding you, he would snuggle.

kisses all over your face.

romcom movies.

makeout sessions.

lots of laughing.

he would probably tickle you just to annoy you and make you mad, that would make him happy.

taeyong

he would like to stay in bed for the whole day because he deserves to rest and so do you.

he would try to be cute and make breakfast and bring it to bed.

for some reason I see him doing gardening that day, talking to you about his plants and how he takes care of them.

he would play some of the of the songs that he has been working on and ask you what you think because your opinion ia the most important.

he would lay beside you and hug you like there’s not tomorrow.

he would leave soft kisses on your nose.

yuta

he would make you watch his favorite anime shows and movies and would passionatly explain his favorite scenes and characters.

for some reason I feel like he would become really open and talk about is trainee days and his memories in Japan when he was young.

he would insist on teaching you how to play football (or soccer, whatever you call it).

even if you are bad he would just smie and tell you that you are doing well.

he would give some passionate kisses out of nowhere.

kun

it would be such a perfect day for him.

he would pamper you like there’s no tomorrow.

for sure he would cook every meal for you and he would do your favorite ones.

for fun, he would make you help him bake cupcakes and you both would make a mess but you had a lot of fun while doing it.

lots of kisses while he laughs amd shows his dimples!!!

I also see him taking out board games and play with you for the rest of the night.

doyoung

kisses all day long !!

he would always be attached to you like there’s no tomorrow.

he would sing the whole day just to impress you.

I seem him look for some diy stuff on the internet and asking you to do it together:

he would probably make a mess and get frustrated but he would look so adorable :(

he would ask you to watch as much kdramas as possible. He would comment about them and be really excited about specific scenes.

he would ask you to help him redecorate his room as well.

he would just keep hugging you and telling you how happy he is for that day, the whole day.

ten

he would want you to pamper him and give him lota or affection.

he would act cute just for you.

it would feel limw you are taking care of a little kid because he just wants you to take care or him.

he would show you some dances that he choreographed and would interpret the for you to see what you think.

he would make you listen to some nice music so you can help him choose a new song to dance to.

he would teach you how to draw on his tablet and you would have so much fun while doing it.

jaehyun

having some alone time with you like this would make him be really affective.

he would want to cuddle on bed all day.

he would make you watch the most romantic kdramas or romcom movies.

he would definitely cook something for you, whatever you want he would do it.

he would teach you some recipes and he would laugh whenever you start to feel stressed because of the cooking.

he would teach you some songs on the piano, oh my god i’m soft.

soft and sweet makeout sessions!!

he would ask you to help him organize his vinyls.

he would play some of those while he shows you his favorite songs and albums.

winwin

he would be really happy to spend the whole day with you.

he would want to watch some nice movies and cuddle.

smiles all day !!

he would ask you if he can bring louis or bella over to play.

he would love to spend time with you and his pets and y’all would play for the rest of the day.

he would show you some dances that he’s been working on.

he would teach you some wayv choreography just for fun.

jungwoo

he woud smile for the whole day !!

he would spend saying “I love you”, “You are the best”, “You are beautiful”. Basically all the cute things that you can imagine.

he would want to cuddle.

pouts all the time when wanting something!!

he would attack you with kisses.

he would tell you to play some football and he would teach you some tricks.

by mistake the ball would hit you and he would kiss where you got hurt.

lucas

he would just show up with bella.

he would show you all the toys that he bought for her.

he would also show all the tricks that she knows now.

y’all would lay in the couch together and play a nice movie.

you don’t notice but lucas would atare at you with heart eyes all the time.

he would hug you all the time.

he would grab your face in between his big hands hands and kiss you like there’s no tomorrow.

mark

he would smile all the time because he would be able to rest plus spend time with you.

I feel like he isn’t into skinship that much but whenever you hug him, kiss his cheek and snuggle he would blush, smile and be really excited because he likes it when you do it.

he would like to do something chill like watching a movie or playing some board game.

the board would become wild and you would be a laughing mess.

rap battle out of nowhere because he wants to make you laugh.

he would also show some songs that he’s been working on.

xiaojun

he would be the cutest ever.

he would ask you if you want him to do anything.

he would cook, clean, whatever you want him to.

he would like to cuddle 24/7 and never leave your side.

he would take out his guitar and simg for you.

he would show you some songs he is learning.

later he would be the sweetest ever and would give you a romantic guitar lesson.

he would encourage you when you start getting stressed and would say that you are the best.

hendery

he would be so insanely happy about it.

he is always smiling but you have never seen him smile like today.

I see him wanting to take naps, and you would do it together and it would be ao cute.

after the nap, some cuddles and watching together because resting is the best.

after you make a mess in the kitchen trying to make lunch.

after eating lunch he insists that you play some videogames with you.

he would teach you and later you would spend the rest of the night.

he would laugh really laugh whenever he wins because you would be pouty.

renjun

the sweetest boy ever.

he would be really happy to have some time alone with you.

I see him wanting to try something new and fun with you so he probably would look how to do donuts or smth like that.

it would become really really messy.

when decorating them he would try to impress you and would make the prettiest donuts you’ve seen.

he later would bring out his drawing tools and would make you draw something.

he would also show you the works he has done before.

jeno

i’m just telling you that he is bringing his 3 cats because he misses them a lot and he wants you to also be with them.

he would love to see you play and interact with the cats.

you would later lay on the couch with the cute cats while watching a movie.

he would look at you and admire you, thinking how important you are to him.

he would play with your hair softly and later would leave little soft kisses on your cheeks.

haechan

he would hugh you really really tight like there’s no tomorrow!!

he would kiss every parto of your body that’s possible.

he would tell you the corniest flirting jokes ever just to make you smile.

to make things more fun he would pretend that he is mad or jealous over something.

you would become a little upset and you would pout.

when you realize he it’s just joking you two would bicker a lot and he would be living for that!!

later at night he would want you to play some videogames together.

jaemin

he would be so freaking happy and just with the most beautiful smile for the whole day.

he would hug you and hold you in every way and position that’s possible.

he would pamper you for the whole day, you are his baby and he feels like you deserve it.

he would carry you all over the house he is being clingy and feels like it.

he would be around with his camera all the time!!

he would take the cutest pics of you while you are distracted.

later he would convince you to do a little photoshoot and you two would take the cutest and most romantic pictures.

yangyang

he would want to have fun with you on this day.

you would be there, chilling in bed and trying to watch a movie and 3 seconds later there’s yangyang jumping in bed.

he would beg you to play videogames with you.

he would become competitive and start moving you and taking the remote of your hand. You two would just be a laughing mess.

later he would ask you to some weird tiktok challenges that he found and you’ll spend the rest of the day laughing because of the mess you two are.

shotaro

he would be so excited to be with you !!

he would be the cutest ever and he would just spend the whole day telling you that you are the best s/o ever.

he would like to show you his gaming skills so he would make you play his favorite video game.

he would be nice and would lose on purpose just to see you smile.

he attempted to cook dinner but sadly it burned a little bit but you said it was okay and he felt happy :((

you would convince him of showing you some dance and some of the old tiktok dances he used to make........

sungchan

for some reason I see him wanting to do something different on that day with you.

maybe doing a puzzle??? or playing something like just dance.

while playing just dance your tummy’s would hurt of how much you are laughing.

he is kinda shy but on that day he would open up and talk about his feelings, his trainee days and your relationship.

he would feel so happy to have some free time with you.

chenle

he would want you to take care of him.

he wanta you to pamper him like there’s no tomorrow.

he would tell you that you need to do it because later he would have busy schedule and you will regret it.

he would be so cute and adorable all the time like he has never been before with anyone else.

he would even do some aegyo because he is happy that you are there.

he would 100% bring daegal around.

you two would spend hours playing with daegal🥺

jisung

he would be so insanely excited for this day, his cheeks are about to explote !!

he pretends like he doesn’t like skinship but as soon as you arrive he would instantly go to your lap you can play with his har and give him kisses.

he would feel like doing some diy too!!

he would like to do bracelets for each other because he liked doing it with chenle before.

you would compete on who does the cutest braceltes and dream members would be the judges through the group chat.

just to tease jisung they would choose you as the winner.

jisung would be a little grumpy but you kiss his cheek and everything goes back to normal lol.

he would show you some choreographies that he has done and wants to post in the future.

you would cheer for him really loud, making him blush but he is feeling happy.

[lost-in-the-spectrum]

How did I get my diagnosis for the Asperger-Synrome?

Hello Folks,

I hope you are doing well and hopefully this post will help some people out there with… whatever they need help in.

Today I’d like to tell you the story of how I actually got to my Asperger diagnosis: How did I know that there could be smth like that? How was the assessment? This post could help some people with getting prepared for an assessment like that, it could also help with even figuring out how to get to an assessment like that tho. All things which I am describing and writing in that post is only about me. These are experiences which I made and that doesn’t mean that you’re about to make the same experiences at all. Never mind if bad or good experiences ... don’t let this story unsettle you!

So... Everything started with meeting dad’s girlfriend for the first time. It was after a long search for a place to stay at. I was forced to be homeless for, I guess 6 months – luckily not longer – because me and my sister didn’t come along very well and my mother died 2013 which took my only home away from me. I also had a weird relationship to my other relatives which is the reason why I absolutely couldn’t imagine to live with them. And in addition, I couldn’t expect from the few friends I had that time that they take me to their homes and try to, you know... support me with food and all that stuff. They all had their own problems and at the same time they all haven’t had money either, especially not for a second person to feed.

So I had no other choice. My dad picked me up at my sister’s house and we both drove all the long way to Berlin, where he lived with his girlfriend. The story between us three is very difficult and private. Let’s say it at this way: Living with my mum became kinda impossible for my dad which is why he has chosen an other woman he could imagine to live with. Yes, I know, first I was furious about that decision too but after talking with my dad I could understand his point. Just to make that point clear that there is no reason to dislike him for the choices he had to make, also for himself. Anyway his girlfriend was a hard thing for me. I didn’t want to have an other woman except my mum by dad’s side and in general I was always scared of meeting her because I have never met her in my life before... and she has been in dad’s life since I was about five years old. So when we arrived at their apartment and ringed she opened the door for us. First of all: She didn’t look like I have imagined. I saw few photos of her somewhere as a kid – and thought she’d be only a good friend of dad... I was naive – and on these photos, I think, she looked a bit different. I was a little surprised, she too. But not because she didn’t know that I am coming – she did know – later she told me that she was stunned by my beauty and she was honest and serious about that thought she had. She also told me that she was scared too to meet me for the first time. She actually expected me to hate her by first sight because she knows what kind of role she’s playing in my life. I was nervous of meeting her for the first time but I’d never have been mean to her, never mind what kind of role or position she is having in my life.

We spent some time together, not only to get to know her better but also because I kinda liked her, at least for the first moments we had together. We talked a lot and went up to the bakery to bring some bread for the morning. We have done that together for many times so that I could see where to go and one morning she told me to bring the bread. So I did, I mean, we have walked that way for three times! I should know where the place is. Well, I didn't.

I walked the way I remembered but suddenly the streets and surrounding looked a little different to me. Or no, they didn't. It was the same as before but I couldn't find the way we both walked together. My “inner navigation” was so bad all of sudden, I didn't even know that it apparently was. So I went to the wrong bakery where the bread we always used to buy was a little more expensive. I was so overdone with that that I didn't care. I bought 5 breads for us, two for dad, two for her and only one for me. We all used to have two breads for the morning but I couldn't afford the second one for me. When I came back I told her my issue and explained that I didn't know where to go so I bought the bread in that bakery where I was. I was disappointed and upset and I didn't hide it. I never really do. She was understanding or at least not angry at all, she just said that we can go the way again or she tries to explain me the way. In the next times I found the right bakery but I seriously needed a self drawn map to find it … even though we have been walking there for three times.

Then one evening, she made some dinner- stuffed paprika with beef and rice and a really nice tomato sauce – and we started talking again about the issue I had. She started telling me that she thinks I could have a kind of disorder which I should already have had since the age of at least five.* She asked me then: 'Have you ever heard of the Asperger-Syndrome?” I of course said that I've never heard about that and asked what it is supposed to be. 'It is Autism or at least one of the many sorts of in the spectrum.' First I thought she's kidding me and in fact annoyed that I have got so many issues with things so that she called me like that or seriously thinks I should be autistic because I seem to be unable to do things. I thought she was offending me because all I knew about these people to that time is that they have a special or even strange behaviour. Also I mixed all these people up and have put them in one box because that is all I heard about them. I didn't know better. Then before I could ask if she's serious she already started telling me why she thinks like that: The way I talk, the fact that I never or barely looked in her eyes while we talked, the fact that I had that issue with finding the way which is actually a simple one – yes, it was... - and my talent and passion for drawing comics and illustrations in a really little time and almost totally perfectly. In addition the things my dad told her, how I was as a little kid and that I had problems to find the one or other friend at school as I never wanted to play with other kids in the kindergarten... she told me that all these things are very familiar to her. She is French-, English-, and German teacher and at the same time she worked half time in the school psychology to test children if they are gifted or having special problems with certain exercises and subjects. She has met many children there and some of them where autistic and behaved almost exactly like me. She also told me what's typical for that syndrome and the more she told me the more I recognized myself in her description. I was surprised and confused, nobody has ever told me about that before, no one ever mentioned that I could have it. I was only the antisocial, bad behaving kid – fun fact: bad behaving because I didn't always say thank you to someone – and many people didn't like me for that. She told me that we could make an online testing first before we start to maybe contact someone who's an expert in it. I agreed, what could go wrong? And I really wanted to know.

So, we made the online test which includes some general questions about my behaviour and “attitude” and the result told us: there is a high possibility for me to have the Asperger-Syndrome. It wasn't to 100% sure that I have it but it was a reason to contact that one person who's an expert in it and who could tell if I have. So dad's girlfriend contacted him and made an appointment. Unfortunately I was meant to wait over a year to get an appointment there and to finally figure out what's wrong with me. We didn't want to wait so we paid... and then we had an appointment just one week later.

We drove to Potsdam near Berlin where the person lived. We met him at his house – yes, where he lived and had his private life – and introduced ourselves, told him that we made this appointment with him because we think I could have the Asperger-Syndrome. And then he started to test me in different tasks. First of all I had to answer some several questions on a piece of paper. How do I feel in certain situations, what are my interests and hobbies, in which things I am absolutely not interested in even though these things are normally interesting to people at my age. I also had to watch pictures of human eyes to tell if these are happy, sad, angry or else. Then he asked my father about my childhood and if there was any special behaviour those days. Dad told what the matter was: I haven't had many friends, spent a lot of time alone in my room drawing comics for almost 2 hours because without that I got nervous and also aggressive. I needed this to feel comfortable. I had a strong imagination and fantasy, could create adventurous stories in a short time and when I was little – about 5 years old – I walked around with a little piece of paper or a small straw of wheat and talked to it or had conversations with it. Sometimes I even created conversations between two personalities, some kind of role play and all in my mind. People kept saying that this isn't a point because little kids mostly have a huge imagination in playing but the way I imagined was special and maybe a little odd. He also mentioned that on some days at my age 'now' – so eighteen those days – I've been sitting at the computer for about three hours – on some days less or even more – playing The Sims 3 creating crazy characters and building crazy houses. The way my dad told him seemed worried and I had such a feeling that my dad tried to convince that man to tell me that this isn't normal and I should stop that. But the man didn't say anything about it. He just wrote it down for the results if I've got the syndrome or not. The  assessment was made of talking and answering to questions on a paper including some “riddles” I had to solute. And at the end of it – after six hours including a little break in between – the man told us that he'll check my answers out. He wasn't sure if I really got it but he could tell that he thinks I may got an attention disorder which prevents me to be focused all the time and which makes me easy to get distracted. And so we left the place and got prepared to wait for the results... until today.

Yes, you read correctly: I haven't got the results by that man until today and the appointment at his place was already about six years ago. Getting a diagnosis never lasts that long so we've tried to contact this man for many times. Not only my dad and his girlfriend but also doctors and psychologists later. Never got an answer and never got the diagnosis if there even was one.

Before this the relationship between me and dad's girlfriend got worse and dad and her began to argue really often. I didn't know if this happened more often than I realized and if they already argued before I came around but I felt kinda uneasy and even a little guilty for that. I also have an insecure personality disorder which makes me often and easily think to be guilty in many things even though it's not the truth. The arguing lasted pretty long and I realized it was probably because of me just like I thought. One time I passed their bed room and just by accident I listened and heard what she said about me. She said since I've been there they argue really often and that I might be the reason for it. I felt very bad for it and that situation got worse.

Later my dad apparently decided to leave with me. He planned to live at his brother's place with me as long as we try to figure out what to do next. The late afternoon before we left, dad's girlfriend sat at the table in the kitchen and she was sad, crying of course. I joined her and before I could ask what the matter is – I mean I knew it but yet I wanted to ask – she just looked into my eyes, furious, sad, disappointed, that's what I could tell because there wasn't anything to misunderstand in that look... she told me again, that dad is gonna leave her for me and I just replied that I am sorry for that, feeling guilty and that I never meant to make that happen.

She just said: 'Well I can't take that feeling of guilt away from you. And I don't want to. If I have to suffer, you should suffer too.'

Those words were very hard. They hurt me and made me feel like a huge mistake. I started thinking many thinks because... I wasn't just depressive. I was suicidal. And that feeling got stronger after hearing this. My dad gave me my suitcase and took his own one. We went downstairs and put them into the car. Then we left.

Some time ago I got a kind of 'legal guardian ', a very nice woman who took care of formal things and who also took a look on my money on my bank account. Her job was it to support me with all these things in life. My dad told her about the disaster we were in and that it's an emergency. So the woman did her best and found a place for me to stay at: A 'social psychological' commune for young people with depressions and other conditions – like me. This commune was in Kiel. My dad and I drove to that place for an introducing meeting to get to know the commune. It was a very nice place, the house was kind of 'JugendStil', so pretty vintage but also modern in either way. The educators there and also the Chef of the commune, a woman at the age of about 35 I guess, were totally nice to me. They noticed the emergency and understood why it was so important to me to finally get help. They met me as a very skinny, depressive person who was tired of life and being. I moved there and had finally the chance to be able to build up an own life.

Living in this commune I also found a psychologist there where I mentioned my Asperger-Syndrome which people think I could have. She started to contact the man in Potsdam too, even twice, as did my 'legal guardian '. No success, no answer, neither to the phone nor to the mail address. But it was certain that we need this diagnosis to maybe find the right therapy for me. So my psychologist contacted an other woman who is also making  assessments   like that. She came around one day and met me, started the assessment. But this  assessment was different. This time my dad wasn't there to tell how I was a child. I repeated the things he told the man in Potsdam and answered to some questions the woman asked me. About my attitude, behaviour and so on. Actually the same but without testing sheets. At the same time she had a white board next to her and explained me what the Asperger-Syndrome actually is, how differently 'our' brain works in contrast to people without the syndrome. That was pretty interesting and something the man in Potsdam didn't do. I got tested in it and at the same time  I learned what it actually is. I also gave permission to be filmed while she's testing me. I still have the video here and it's so weird to see how I looked those days. Much more different than now.

At the end of it all she told me: 'Well, you indeed got it. There is no doubt.' I was happy but confused at the same time. How is it possible that a person who is known for  assessments  like that wasn't sure about my syndrome but this woman who got the same knowledge has no doubts that I'm having it?

I then finally got my diagnosis that day and to be honest: I had a feeling that my life would turn into a better and more confident one because I finally knew who I am.

So Folks, that's my story how I got the diagnosis. It's a pretty long text but I needed to tell you everything what happened to finally get the explanation of who and what I am. You see, the way to this diagnosis can be very long and complicated. The man hasn't given me my diagnosis yet until today, there for I got it from an other person at the same day where I got tested and it was obviously clear that I have it.

Maybe you're prepared now if you should ever want to get tested and as I've already said: This is only my story. It could be that you'll get an appointment much quicker than me and that you get your diagnosis just some days or weeks later – not like with that man who has never given me this until today – maybe you also get the result on the same day as I got from that woman. Just be sure and think about these things before you try to get an appointment: Do you really need it because you want to know what's wrong with you? Because you need special help which you can only get if you have that diagnosis? Would it help you or others to understand you? Or do you actually have no issues with it so that it doesn't matter? Think about these questions before you go on a probably exhausting journey as me, prepare yourself and listen to what your heart needs. My heart needed an explanation for my personality to realize that it's not because of me people got problems with my personality. It's because of them because they have never taken the time to figure out what kind of person I am.

Just saying: There are many people who love the way I am. I seem to be a cool person, not as crap as some idiots tried to make me think.

Have a good day, friends! See you later!

[szopenhauer]

When was the last time you cried and what was the reason?: family issues

Do you believe in ghosts?: maybe

If you could live on the moon, would you?: almost all of it belongs to Tom Cruise so no 

What is your favorite time in history to learn about?: I just like many interesting history facts in general

When is the last time you felt discriminated against because of your gender?: not sure which situation was last

What race are you?: caucasian, white, european, polish, slavic

What is your favorite sex position?: I’m not into sex tbh Have you ever lost your SO to another person?: yup

Have you ever had a thing for a friend’s parent?: no

Have you ever believed in Santa Clause? from what I remember

Have you ever thought you were getting a surprise party, but you really weren’t? nah and I don’t like surprises so I’m glad I never really had a party like this

Have you ever forgotten someone’s birthday? I suck with dates

Has a friend looked bad in a profile picture and you didn’t tell her? it was my opinion but if they liked their pic then it’s their problem

Does it take forever for your internet to load websites? sometimes

Have you ever pretended to listen to someone but you really weren’t? yeah :x

Are you a bad driver, or do you know someone that is? I know some that are bad yet say they’re oh so awesome at it ugh!

Have you seen the animated movies Tarzan? sure

Have you actually called 911 for an actual emergency? If so, what was the emergency? not me but my parents

Do you sleep in the living room a lot? I never do

Did you enjoy watching The Flintstone’s growing up? yep

Do you wish you were born in a different year? kinda wish I was born after war and die before 2020 or even live in another time period 

What do you buy more: Movies or candy? neither

Did you used to eat chapstick when you were younger? ewww, noooo, not even toothpaste

What made you pick up the last book you started reading? I was watching a movie and heard that book has a different ending so I had to see for myself Have you received any bad or troubling news lately? shitload When was the last time you were relieved about something? I wish I was... What about your life concerns you the most? my health related issues mostly but also money and fam, love life, religion etc. Is there a common thing most people seem to do without trouble, but it scares you (talking on the phone, driving, interviews, etc)? When was the last time you had to do one of these kinds of things? there are, recently

Describe a time when you were there for a friend? were there in person? When was the last time you went somewhere for the first time? days or weeks ago What is a situation that makes you feel especially confident? umm... Hypothetically and generally speaking, how would you go about breaking up with someone? Is there anything you would make sure to say, or perhaps not say? depends Would you say you’re easy or difficult to offend? I guess I’m easily offended Is there a belief you have that most others around you don’t have? Do you share this belief with others, or do you tend to keep it to yourself?  sure, might talk about it if asked and in the mood  If you’ve moved out from home, what was the scariest thing about it? What was/is your favorite thing about it? I didn’t move out yet but there are dark scenarios I imagine that could happen and they concern me What are your thoughts on “forgiving” murderers or rapists? Do you think it’s even possible to forgive these people? I wouldn’t forgive a rapist but particular murders can be justified If you could learn about anything without the stress of grades or cost, what kind of classes would you take? who cares about grades and cost when you have no possibility/talent/ability anyway?... Last item of clothing you purchased - do you wear it often? didn’t wear it yet Has anything made you feel nostalgic lately? lots What was the last chore you completed? I just helped mom around kitchen and bathroom - przynieś/podaj itp.

Which of the Seven Deadly Sins do you commit the most? sloth?

Has anyone ever told you that you’re incapable of whispering? nope, my mom is incapable, she whispers louder than when she’s normally talking to someone

Who was the best kisser you’ve ever dated? I’ve only kissed one person in my entire life

When was the last time you watched a YouTube video? yesterday

this one

and I plan on doing smth similar

Do you personally think Wikipedia is a reliable source? one of the most reliable sources that are available for free

When you were a child, did you ever want to become a wizard/witch? meh

Do you want to repaint your walls? I prefer to move out 

Would you rather have hardwood floors or carpet? hardwood

Who would you say is the most selfish person you know? majority of society

Have you ever made out in a movie theater before? waste of the movie

How old were you when you got to go on your first date? dunno what I can count as one

Would you call your parents over-protective or under-protective? weirdly protective

Did your parents ever let you play in the pits of those multicolored balls? never had a chance to

Has anyone ever called you a good kisser before? I had my moment

Have any of your siblings ever had a crush on your significant other? she’s into men so...

Do you know someone who cares about themselves more than their child? it seems that most of parents act this way

What’s your favorite hairstyle you’ve had so far? hmm...

How many dogs do you have, if any at all? 1

Do you think biting is weird or sexy? biting hard is very dangerous and I’m not into being bitten but I might/can bite a little

Would you rather be called hot or beautiful? neither but I'll “believe” slightly more in being beautiful than hot I think

Have you ever had a pet turtle before? yep

Do you still sleep with your parents when you’re scared sometimes? just once I had a bad night and my dad was working overnight so I went to my mom’s bed but then I left in the middle of the night anyway as she was snoring, not that it usually bothers me 

Have you ever met someone with two different color eyes? saw pics on the internet only

How many surveys on average would you say you’ve done in your lifetime? shitload

Do you enjoy going school shopping? tiny bit as I enjoy shopping in general?

Do you think Pug dogs are adorable or just plain ugly? adorable

Have you ever met someone who completely resembled their pet? lookalikes

Has anyone ever knitted you something before? sure

Do you think there is a soulmate out there for everyone? then why some ppl die single?...

Do you like short or long surveys the best? it’s not about length, I need interesting questions

Have you ever bought fake money and tried to make it pass for real? I didn’t try to make it pas for real wtf

Are your siblings nice the majority of the time? *rolling my eyes*

How many uncles do you have? don’t know nor care as they don’t give a shit about me

Do you freak out when a thunderstorm comes along? nah, sometimes I feel physically bad because of it tho

How often do you shower? basically everyday

What is the absolute worst thing about high school? from my personal experience - stress

How many sodas do you usually drink in one day? I don’t drink soda for years

Have you ever met an annorexic pregnant woman? woah I can’t imagine that

Have you ever simply looked at someone & could tell they were homosexual? oh well...

Do you have the ability to read someone without even knowing them? sometimes

Would you rather eat or sleep? sleep

Are you one of those die hard Twilight or Harry Potter fans? am not, especially Twilight - I didn’t read/watch it because it sounds awful

Have you ever cried while watching a movie trailor? yes 

Have you ever learned that someone had lied to you all along? sadly

When was the last time you had a physical injury? this ending week

Have you ever wanted to be a lawyer? not really

Have you ever had to bail someone out of jail before? nope

Is there anyone in your imediate family who was adopted? no

Do you know anyone who doesn’t have any common sense? I meet many ppl like this often on the streets or online

Do you think you look anything like your parents? I know I do

Who is the skinniest person you know? Is it because of a disease? when it comes to look or weight? disease though

Is this year the best one you’ve had so far? r u joking?...

What color is your significant other’s hair? natural or dye? XD

Are you ashamed of anyone in your family? yeah The best Christmas gift you ever gotten? The sims 2 as I dreamed of it and didn’t expect my poor parents will afford and give it to me ever, I was so moved that I cried and my sister was jealous and angry 

Who is your favorite actor or actress? can’t decide

What is cuter: kisses on the forehead of the cheek? I don’t consider them cute when I receive them but kind of awkward actually but giving them is a different story

Do you believe in evolution or creation? smth in between, it’s complicated 

What group would you say you’d normally fit into the most? I feel that I wouldn’t really fit any

Are you better at drawing things or painting? drawing

Have either of your parents ever called you a failure before? I am a failure

How long have you been on the computer right now? too long, about 6 hours Name three black things that you can see? celphone, pendrive, necklace would you perfer to do the dishes or hang washing/laundry? dishes

[jakkuvian]

if you could read any au or storyline for a finnpoe fic, what would you want it to be? also what are your favourite finnpoe headcannons?? 😍

FIRST OF ALL GOD BLESS YOU ANON FOR THIS QUESTION, i've been wanting to go off on this topic for a while like....

Theres one that's really specific...and i haven't worked it out quite yet but...

Finn has a life that he wouldn't call out of the ordinary...he gets along day by day with his humble job as a the right hand of a furniture business owner lady, Leia Organa. He has his small circle of friends, Rey and Rose whom Finn knows since middle school and Ben whom he got close to (and introduced to Rey after his first year of working there, becoming bens gf and thus the close knit friendo circle blah blah), through Leia since Ben helps out her mother sometimes with his hobby of making a few pieces for the shop, mainly what his father does as his official job. So the 4 of them are close knit, they do the things friends do, hang around, go to bars, have roadtrips together, but Finn always has a strange feeling inside, he can't quite understand, like something is missing, but he usually pushes this away. One day he stays in the shop after the closing hours, to get some papers ready for upcoming deliveries and he wanders around a bit in the storage room in the back of the shop, finds a strange looking mirror and somehow he's just drawn to it....then in a blink of an eye a man appears at the other side of it. They both freak out and Finn rushes back to the front trying to pass it as exhaustion and hallucinating things already. He tries, but that small thought in the back of his mind keeps bugging him and keeping him awake, remembering the man's eyes, and how he wishes his mind wouldn't make up such things in desperation. So then days later after he convinced himself that he would only check this to make sure it was his mind playing tricks, he waits for leia to go on her lunch break and goes back to the mirror again. To his greatest surprise the man is there again, but this time none of them run away, they stand there puzzled, trying to understand the situation, at least he sees the same wheels turning inside the man's head on the other side. The vision is the one who breaks the silence first, "So are we doing the talking now because this is one hell of a situation and i can't decide if there was something in my morning coffee or i'm truly going crazy." His voice is like rainbow after rain to Finn, and he doesn't understand why, but his heart skips two beats, without even understanding what is happening around him. They try the introductions, finally putting a name to the face. "Poe" he kind of just repeats after him quietly, before he could shake himself out of thoughts that flood his mind, but then Leia is back and he has to get away as quickly as he can. So he asks her to let him stay in the shop after his shift ended, and then they talk for hours and hours, this goes on for weeks since he tries to limit down his stay to avoid suspicion. But he soon finds himself falling for this beautiful man and his heart aches how he's just a vision inside a weird mirror. Then out of the blue Finn just asks leia about the mirror, how they got it, and she tells him that Ben and his father found it abandoned in the middle of nowhere, but both saw the challenge in it and just made a personal project of it to renovate, but eventually not changing up many things on it. Now i thought about smth like one day Finn not finding the mirror in the shop anymore, but that would be the great turning point of it, also the big plot of the whole thing is that the mirror is actually a window to the same life from two standpoints, so with small differences but Poe living the same life what Finn does, the same people around them, and they only find it out almost too late, and then getting desperate to find a way to be together but alas i can't write to save my life lmao fnfnnfjrj but this would have a great share of angst as much sweet moments....jesh i truly got carried away...

Also ugh greaser au???? Fucking peak in my opinion, poe in a motorcycle gang, finn's place is the only one where he can run to, and he's just so mad at him because he loves him so much, but he's an idiot and tries to make him leave them, and when he's trying to take care of his wounds after he gets into fights, kisses his scars and udgdhdhhd shut up i cry even thinking about the soft moments but thats a different case and im weak and

Also i have one drawing i would love to make and it's soft and it would be a wedding kind of thing i guess?

ALSO ALSO MERCUTIO POE AND BENVOLIO FINN god just stop me

Anon you started a fucking forest fire

[toomuchdickfort]

Okay. I’m allowed one(1) ramble post and then I have to put forth an effort to sleep. And I’m gonna do a ramble I’ve meant to do for. Fuck. Long time.

READY FOR SOME LORE AND THINGS THAT PROBABLY DONT MAKE COMPLETE SENSE SINCE IVE DESCRIBED IT TO SOMEONE ONE TIME AS COMPARED TO RUNNING THROUGH IT WITH LIKE THREE OR FOUR DIFFERENT PEOPLE BC IM HONESTLY A BIT OBSESSED WITH THIS WORLD

ANYHOW

LETS GET STARTED ON THE SHADOWED ONE AND THOSE WHO DRAW UPON HIS POWER (and heads up for some possibly gross descriptions Bc I like my gore and stuff when I can find a way to not think about the damage itself too much and Vista is a bloody character)

-

So. Okay. First. He started with a scene that I made on Pinterest Bc a friend sometimes sends a pin for a scene or a character or smth (honestly I might see if I can find something neat to send the other way sometime soon but that’s off topic) and it was like... a character being affected by an artifact... because she trips and faceplants into it. And then I made Vista Demm, who has magic marbles in her eye-holes. Gal is... not great, in general. She took out her eyes for some magic and also fancy artifact duderinos. I think it was technically that she removed her eyes first (fairly gruesomely... and in a ‘fit of rage’ I think is how I had originally phrased it in that scene I deleted years ago?) and just. Stumbled across a temple of sorts.

Technically, the small ‘temples’ are like... little religious boxes. But. The beings that made them are all very long gone (thanks to a certain sword *COUGH*).

These beings were called Lyrime (found the note recently with it so yeet) and they had their own sort of ‘gods’? Like... modern peoplefolks on Elysur have their own gods and Deians (but I’m generally just sticking with gods anymore Bc deians sort of became a thing for a different story but that’s where the term was made for). And TSO(the shadowed one) was one of em. Sort of. He was a lyrime, and a group of em basically went ‘what if we made ourselves gods’ and they did it. And then most of them got pissed at each other... but TSO is just a big ol friendly nerd who wants to make friends. So he wasn’t in that drama. And they didn’t trust him so they tried to yeet that boy out of reality. It both did and didn’t work... because he wasn’t yeeted/yoten into the void (which is basically... between universes? Space between existences?) but he’s in the space between the outermost layer of reality and the metaphorical plastic wrap that keeps the real stuff from spilling out all into the void. Yeah, that breaks later, but TSO has the worst luck and is just stuck until the entire reality falls apart and there’s nothing for him to go to but into the abyss. ANYHOW. in that space... you can just see... the abyss. It’s dark and he can affect it a bit just from fancy schmancy titan god powers, and you can see the distant lights of other realities. And he is just... a smoky silhouette. At best, he can form himself with an outline.

Well. In each of the religion boxes, there’s a small pool of something that seems like liquid, and when you come into contact with it, your like... consciousness is projected into his space area? And Vista just. Stumbled across it. And used the side of the magic space birdbath to stand up and ended up making a friend. Wowie zowie.

Since I’m just hopping around now... TSO can conjure artifacts in his religion boxes. As long as the fancy liquid is there, he can access it. (Thought... what if when he was yoten out, that space water was displaced and that’s how it was gathered?) Anyhow. Magic liquid looks and functions like the artifacts... and it’s made of the not-stuff from that space between the real stuff and the metaphorical plastic wrap. This is a whole lot of weird metaphors and I’m sorry but I’ve gotta try and explain stuff sometimes. Anyhow. Anywho. Anyway. The artifacts are... basically windows to that semi-space where TSO lives. Like... if you’ve got a plate of it and hold it up facing north, you’ll see one pattern. And you turn west and the pattern isn’t static... it just stays there and you see a different area. Please let me know if I need to rephrase Bc this bit is harder to describe but it’s SUPER cool to imagine. Because... like... there’s a universe where Raelin has whole wings of the stuff. Just imagine... this woman looks at you and this substance runs out from her harness (like a knife harness thing? I just think it feels cooler than a belt) and grows into this pair of wings and as you look at them, you can see out of existence itself. You’re greeted with something that resembles the night sky in the middle of the day, and... it’s hard to tear your eyes away.

So! While I’ve got some idea of artifacts going!! Let me tell you about the most developed artifacts I’ve written. Aka Vista’s fancy space marbles in her eye spaces. She wears a lace mask, because... some folks go for eye contact while talking, and it’s easy to get lost in her ‘eyes’. And it’s very hard to look away, often times, so she puts her mask back on. Her artifact has two definite effects... 1: she just can look into the semi-space at any time (and this is one of the closest people to TSO at the moment, because... he’s lonely and just wants company. I would say send him a friend but like. He wouldn’t want another person to be stuck there too. So) and 2: if you look into them, you find one piece of information previously hidden. (Bc TSO was a good thing of secrets and hidden information... didn’t know if I had put that out there). It can be something so extreme as how to conjure a being from nothing, or something so little as Jerry is cheating on his wife. Don’t know who Jerry is? That’s your problem now. Jerry could live halfway across the world. It’s honestly just a random piece of info.

...........okay I think that’s most of the info I wanted to like... verbally vomit into a post. It probably doesn’t make too much sense, as I’ve said a few times, but... yeah. Feel free to have me rephrase chunks or smth... I just feel like this is something that might be easier to convey if I have feedback on what does and doesn’t make sense for a few run throughs.

[maribelsawyer]

- ̗̀ * ( ella purnell + cisfemale + she/her ) have you seen ( maribel sawyer ) walking around campus ? they are a ( nineteen ) year old, studying ( journalism ). we hear they are in ( delta gamma chi ), and can be ( benevolent & impressionable ), maybe it’s because they are a ( gemini ). they sort of remind us of ( scraped knees , magnifying glasses , vintage oxfords ), maybe we can find out more ! *  ̖́-  + newspaper writer

god okay looks like i’ve fallen in love w ella purnell and i want to b her. anyways maribel is my newest baby n im sorta making her up as i go so pls bare w me lmao

TW: eating disorder mentions, subtle abuse?

{she is not currently in that mindset ^}

gen. info

full name: maribel ottoline sawyer

nickname(s): mari, bell, lottie b/c middle name, etc. etc. just sawyer sometimes idk

b.o.d. - june 1st, 19 yrs old

label(s): the marionette, the demure, the prevaricator, etc. etc.

height: like 5′3″ prolly tbh

hometown: duluth, minnesota

sexuality: shit she don’t know

bio. info

her dad’s in the air force, her mom’s published three diet cookbooks and two different DVDs--maribel is the only middle child

one of those conservative, all american families, they were strict and definitely made it known that they were parents and not friends by any means

9pm curfew, not leaving the dining room until all ur food is gone, grounded if ur grades were below their expectations, etc. etc. 

her older sister can evoke emotions in others thru her acting like no other. has taken the hearts (and leads) of all her acting directors since childhood. her voice is broadway material.

and her older brother? has been the best linebacker on any high school team he’s joined; hopes to make it to the big leagues. but if he doesn’t? he’s been taking college-level classes since he was a sophomore.

and...maribel?

maribel is...just, maribel.

for the longest time, there was nothing special about maribel

she couldn’t sing, or dance, or compose words in pretty prose

her grades were only satisfactory after hrs n hrs of studying everyday

homegirl can’t even cook w/o smth exploding

in short, maribel has never been good at anything. can’t draw within the lines, can’t follow the line, opens her mouth at the wrong time. etc. etc. shit? rough.

ANYWAYS

her family moves around a lot b/c of her dad, so she’s never really been in one place long enough to really prove herself? always been the quiet girl in class while her siblings brought home gold stars everyday

the kinda girl others would sorta push around n bully a lil bit bc she would never know what to say; prolly just cried a lot tbh

grew up w a lot of insecurities b/c of this

definitely doesnt help that her mother is obsessed w beauty n fitness n like

their mother p much forced her lifestyle onto her children, mari has a rough relationship w food b/c of it

ANYWAYS part 2

grew up always in the shadows of her siblings and their accomplishments, and spent a lot of her time tryn find something to be good at just so somebody could give her a stamp of approval

was always the ~wannabe~, the girl who would just endlessly suck up to the most popular girl she could find and try to mimic her to the best of mari’s abilities, just so she could survive her school experience

by the time mari was a freshmen in high school, her parents had divorced and she finally thought she could have a normal school experience and make something for herself

obv not. her mother shipped her off to a boarding school in nevada and that was it; her sister had already graduated and her brother was still in middle school.

it was finally just mari.

of course like she tried to suck up to others but it wasn’t really helpful, everybody was a lil too boujie for her and she always froze up when she tried to speak to the ~popular kids~

they only rly spoke to her b/c she’s got this knack for forging shit, like i dont think she even has her own handwriting; she always copies other people’S b/c she’s just. so used to tryn to mimic others n be them as much as possible

around this time she found herself fucking around in her computer class more often than not; it’d been the only elective left b/c she arrived in the middle of the year

but she surprisingly enjoyed it, like, a lot

her parents never really allowed much computer use b/c like. rots ur brain or whatever.

got into programming, but when she found out that u could ? hack shit ? kinda peaked her interest.

her shift into programming to hacking was subtle but before she knew it, she was fucking around on websites for the fun of it. never anything severe

computers became her friends, y’know

that was until her sophomore year and there was another loser fucking around on the computers during lunchtime

and like...they just started kinda talking, y’know? became friends, prolly mari’s first legitimate friend in...forever, really

the kid was kinda weird but she didn’t mind b/c fuck, mari couldn’t be picky n she didn’t mind weird

like...they were obsessed w conspiracies n mysteries n shit

it started to rub off on mari too, b/c homegirl is an idiot but. an observant idiot.

so she started getting reeeally into mysteries and shit. started acting like a mini investigator w/ her pal; solving stupid things like ‘who wrote ‘mindy is a whore’ in the bathroom stall’ and ‘does mr. roberts have a secret obsession w kpop’

no mindy is not a whore it was slander

yes mr. roberts is into kpop

ANYWAYS part 3

so they were these nancy drew, scooby doo, veronica mars knock off duo

by junior yr her partner started getting into like. drinking and minor drugs and other things that the other boarding school kids were smuggling in, y’know. 

this meant that mari was getting into that shit too, y’know. cant stay innocent forever.

became a lil bit of a pothead lmao

so like now theyre just stoners who go around solving shit and prolly also stirring shit up for the hell of it

so like . . . . . one night they were doin’ their thing, right? and her partner brings up this...completely wild idea

they live in nevada. y’kno what else is in nevada?

area 51

these fucking idiots want to go break into this fucking. air force base. to find area 51.

guess what they did?

they attempted to break into the air force base. like. of course they tried.

they failed like, super miserably, got arrested for trespassing and had to be bailed out of the county jail by their parents

her dad almost lost his job so he was mcfuckin PISSED esp once they figured out she was high as shit

her partner? disappeared. nobody knows where they went.

mari was moved from the boarding school to a public school closer to where her mother could, begrudgingly, keep an eye on her

kinda spent the rest of her high school career p miserable, she gave up on her whole ~detective~ thing and resorted to making fake IDs for her fellow high schoolers

was drug-tested like every week or so, too

around this time her mental health and relationship w food got worse, she barely made it to graduation. took a gap year to recover, worked a buncha jobs but usually gets fired from them b/c she’s really fucking bad like most things besides her two (2) unconventional talents that are decidedly useless

came to ucla b/c her mother p much made her, her mother’s a legacy and that’s about the only reason why she got into delta gamma chi

doesn’t want ppl to know she was a loser and also like . fucked up her dad’s life a lil, b/c it was def a thing that made the news and the only reason why her name wasn’t in the articles was b/c she was a minor at the time

so she like...lies abt her childhood a lot

tells a lotta lil white lies b/c she just. doesn’t wanna b her

uuuhh wanted to do computer science bc she loves it but her parents were both like ‘lmao we’re not paying for shit if u do that’ bc they don’t think it’s very ~ladylike~ n they still want her to like. just be submissive and obedient n shit.

so she took up journalism b/c neither her parents think it’s like a real career and they just want her to find a husband n get married n settle down n stop being troublesome

fun fact: she has a scholarship for being lefthanded so that pays for Some of it esp b/c she’s an out of state student

still struggles a lil bit w food but she’s like. doing a lot better. goes to group therapy, probably

uuuh that’s it for now i think ??

OH SIKE !! she’s a writer for the newspaper and writes ADVICE columns on various topics b/c she’s good at offering advice but only when she can sit down n think abt it lmao

^^she goes by an alias b/c she just. doesnt want ppl to know its her idk she thinks its embarrassing

other than that she’s probably like ... doing campus tech support b/c that’s her current job but who knows how long that’ll last lmao

knowing her she’s going to accidentally switch into her phone sex voice (another, old job she doesn’t do anymore) n get fired for tryn seduce a man with ‘did u try turning it on and off again?’

OKAY i think that’s all lmao

personality

mari is just. awkward, man

i mean like...she’s sorta bad at talking to others a lot of the time??

like ppl r kinda like ‘how tf r u a delta gamma chi girl’ n she’s just like i mean u  h h h h 

prolly stutters a lil bit b/c she’s usually rly anxious

but she’s v v nice, like, she tries her hardest to be a good friend n everything

but she also kinda switches her personality to appeal to whoever she’s talking too ?? like she wants to be. likable. she’s not real w/ others v v often

if ur boujie yeah she’ll pretend to be boujie too

she prolly still sells fake IDs to high schoolers n some of her college peers, she has one herself n hasn’t gotten caught yet sooo

always fidgets like she can’t rly sit still often b/c she’s so nervous

is a lil bit of a stoner but i feel like u can’t ever tell tbh

a lil shy n hesitant at first i’d imagine, or maybe just always lmao

has a bit more of a personality once she sucks it up n gets closer to u but she’s always v v cautious abt befriending ppl just b/c she’s had a bad time w bullies n her one friend in life disappeared so like...bummer, y’kno?

can never say no. like, i dont think it’s in her vocabulary. she’s a yes gal.

will p much do anything u ask of her b/c she’s constantly seeking approval

can ramble a bit when she’s nervous which is always but she also apologizes like a lot.

squeaks like a mouse

present at parties but it’s always kinda like. who r u. n she has to remind everybody that she’s a sorority gal too

considers herself v v forgettable, like, just v unimportant

like she’s just rly insecure

still does computer shit n is still rly good at it but she hasn’t done anything srs w/ it so it’s just wasted potential

going to use her journalism degree to do investigative journalism and maybe escape her parents, eventually

she just. bends easily to other’s wills, y’know? she’s hashtag soft

even tho she’s like. shy n awkward n shit it doesn’t take a lot for her to like, laugh, or smile

like she tries rly hard to appear happy n an optimist n just like. unfettered

a lil plain jane we stan

i cant think of anything else but she’s. she’s a good kid

OH she’s rly good w numbers n math but like that’s abt it. she’s a whole dumbass on everything else sometimes

is bad w talking n giving advice like in person but like ?? in her column or ovr text or smth ? she’s good. she’s concise.

is a good team player/good w/ projects/etc. etc.

OH OKAY YEAH

she’s rly observant n b/c she’s a lil bit of a compulsive liar she can usually tell when ppl arent honest

depending on how close y’all r she’ll prolly crack down on ur bullshit

but she’s also timid so like who knows tbh

this isn’t a personality trait but she wears like medium hoop earrings all the time n it’s cute ok bye

OK OK LAST THING

she’s so. fucking. clumsy. she will bump into everything. she’ll bump into the air. fuck, she prolly falls over just standing straight. usually has bruises n scratches from just being a clumsy idiot

like she can b a lil ditzy y’know ?? doesn’t have much common sense, sometimes, n can b naive but idk it’s all rly dependent on her n who she’s w n just. how i end up playing her lmao

lovs vintage. is cute.

wanted connections

her roommate uwu

ppl she’s interacted w/ during her childhood !! she’s moved around a lot so like . . . . they could kno each other

mmm sorority sisters

um gimme a ride or die or like a best friend or smth PLS she needs more friends

just more friends in general. she’s awkward but she needs ‘em

?? a one night stand ?? she’s not really . . . known for hooking up w/ ppl but i think an accidental occurrence would b fun!

idk somebody for her to just. crush on from afar. prolly stutters whenever they come near or talk to her or smth

^^i mean like an unrequited crush

SOMEBODY USE HER ! RUIN HER !

FRIENDS OR FUCKING OR WHATEVER

fake friends too! use her for her ~kewl skillz~

bad influence

let her b a good influence

some kinda...skinny love idk what that means. a will they wont they. smth cute. smth pure

it’d be wild if her partner just popped up outta the blue like that b/c mari 100% thinks they were like killed by the government

ppl she gets high w n talk abt conspiracies w/ tbh

ppl she gives or has given advice to w her column pieces ! love it

idk partners in a class

enemies or smth. i want conflict.

a tutor for her dumbass

but also anybody who needs help in math? she can tutor u

idk like this we can work a lil smth smth out

i give u one penny, if u plot w me. pls. i am poor.

[justkpopjokes]

Oops || Tattoo Artist AU

Ft. Tattoo Artist!Mingyu

Anon: “OKAY, THIS IDEA JUST CAME TO MIND AND I THINK IT’S FREAKING COOL AND ALL, OMGGG LOL. tattoo artist!mingyu GOD BLESS ME”

A/N: Mini mini collab with @justsomekpopstuff!! I asked JJ if we could connect our AUs together because we both have tattoo artist AUs lol. God bless this anon for this idea anD SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT

Tattoo Artist!Joshua

So Mingyu is really good at drawing APPRECIATE THE TOL BEAN

His good drawing skills make him a really good tattoo artist, and to make it even better he’s friendly!!

A real gentle clumsy giant

He does a great job at balancing his gentle personality and his skill while working

People know him for his “creativity”, but to his co-workers, he’s only creative because he needs to cover up his mess-ups

He’s a good artist but like,,, he’ll get distracted while talking and accidentally colour smth wrong

So he’ll draw smth else to cover it up

To the customers, he’s just improvising

But his co-workers just know he messed up

At least all of his works are “unique” lmao

Since he’s really kind, he often is tasked to work on people who are getting tattoos for the first time or need something to distract them from the pain

Despite people being scared bc he’s like the tallest guy in the shop, Mingyu always makes sure people feel comfortable with having a needle on their skin & understand what’s happening so they don’t feel scared

I can barely write this though because let’s be honest Gyu shouldn’t be let near needles much less holding one BUT ANYWAYS

I mentioned Gyu is tasked with people who haven’t had a tattoo done before

You’re one of those people.

You and your friend went into this store to get matching tattoos

She’s one of your best friends, but contrasting to you, she has a lot of tattoos

She managed to drag you to the shop to get one and “live a little”

Once you walked in, your friend was immediately recognized and she took a seat at one of the empty stations

Mingyu came over and was about to ask what she wanted when she called you over to look at a collection of designs

Cue him freezing up and staring at you

Honestly, he’s a bit shaken because you look really anxious but cute whAT

He tries to focus more on the anxious part and comfort you by asking “is this your first time here? It’s ok if you’re nervous, just don’t think about it too much. It’ll be alright!”

Tbh just seeing this tall guy act so sweet makes you calmer already

You both make eye contact for a couple seconds until your friend tugs at your shirt to look at a design she wants you to get while rolling her eyes

It’s an arrow made with the word “forever” to show you’ll “forever be friends…because let’s be honest, if we weren’t meant to be friends for life I wouldn’t have been able to drag you into this in the first place” (as said by your friend)

My friend says this sounds like a stereotypical cringey tattoo but hey

“I’m here because you promised me coffee”

“And I promised coffee because you’d still be asleep otherwise”

Mingyu is cracking up at your friend’s teasing and starts to gather what he needs to start

After your friend has her tattoo done, she steps out to buy your coffee

Leaving you alone,,, with this dude,,,,

You’re not really scared of needles but for some reason, the whirring noises are making you nervous and shaky, so Mingyu has to stop before he’s even started

You apologize, but the shaking and that giddy feeling don’t disappear

He notices you getting embarrassed, so he sets down the needle-pen and  looks at you for a little bit

“Are you scared of needles?”

“No…I’m just…I dunno, nervous?”

“Yeah, almost everyone’s like that their first time. Nothing to be embarrassed about you know. I’ll make sure it doesn’t hurt so much”

hoW CAN SOMEONE BE SO CHEESY ADORABLE WHEN TALKING ABOUT TATTOOS

He proceeds to place his hand over your shaking one and looks into your eyes mK THEN

It’s weird but you just do the same

Thankfully his co-worker Joshua managed to help snap him out of his trance

By literally shouting across the shop “HEY MINGYU”

And then screaming playing some overused romantic songs through the speakers

Once you hear the lyrics, you both turn red

Gyu just turns around and glares at a snickering Joshua

“Sorry about my co-worker…”

You just giggle and say “Oh it’s fine…you do look really red though”

That just makes him turn redder and mess up badly

“Oh goD IM SORRY”

You look at the mess up; the arrowhead looked like the feather side (↟)

He usually would improvise immediately, but as this was part of a match, he didn’t know what to do

Luckily you were really calm and had something to say

“Hm…how about you tattoo that into a heart?”

Mingyu goes with your idea, grinning like a dork

When it was done, you smiled and looked at your new tattoo fondly as Gyu looked at you fondly

That’s when your friend returned and saw that there was a difference

However, she was content with it, though she said she might return to change hers once it healed

You quietly thank Mingyu and take your ice coffee from your friend

Mingyu goes off to clean up but looks to the door right as you’re about to leave, where you shyly wave and leave Gyu with a helpless grin on his face

Now oBViously Gyu’s gonna get teased for acting so smitten which is exactly what Josh does :’)

So now Mingyu desperately wants revenge

Which he tries to do when Josh finds himself in a similar smitten situation

But it was just too cute and awkward that Gyu couldn’t bring himself to do it

Thankfully manager Seungcheol took matters into his own hands and set them up on a date LOL (trust me this is relevant)

And that kinda makes Gyu realize how soft he is

A couple weeks later, Mingyu’s taking a short break when your friend comes back in to get her tattoo updated to be like yours

He fixes her tattoo as normal, but right before she leaves she asks what his favourite coffee is(???)

He just answers green tea latte or smth idk what coffee he likes ok

“Oh ok, I need to talk to you abt something, so can you come to the coffee shop next door in a few minutes? I’ll order your latte before you get there”

Mingyu’s really confused because…why

But he goes next door anyway after cleaning up and leans on the wall on his phone, waiting for his drink

When the barista finally calls his name, he gets his drink

…which is not a green tea latte

He’s about to ask the barista if there was a mix-up

But then he realizes that right next to him is you

“oH HI fancy seeing you…here…with my drink?”

Turns out you were also wondering why your order is wrong too

And when you look up to meet Gyu’s eyes, you flush and step away from the counter to talk

“So uh…are you taking a break from the shop?”

“Yeah. Actually, your friend invited me here, she said she needed to talk to me about something.”

“She did? She told me she’d meet me here after she got her tattoo done”

“Where is she?”

“She’s been in the bathroom since she ordered my drink…”

Then everything falls into place

Mingyu just says “Hmm…I think I know why you have my drink now…I’ll take that,” while swapping the cup in your hand for the one in his

When you look out the window, there’s your friend, smiling cheekily and waving

You don’t say anything to Gyu

So you chat for a while until Mingyu needs to go back to the shop

He doesn’t leave without your number though ;)

You can bet Joshua notices the smile on his face and forces persuades Mingyu to gush about what happened

One day, you arrive at the shop

And when you sit in front of a distracted Gyu he jumps 15 feet into the air

To everyone’s surprise, you actually want another tattoo

Just a small one on your wrist

He gets to choose which one ;)

So Gyu starts drawing a tiny design

When suddenly there’s this chorus of screaming from across the room

Because Joshua and the girl he went on a date with have started blasting Careless Whisper over the speakers

“i’M nEVer GoNnA dANcE AgAIN,,,GUiLTY feET hAVe gOT nO RHYtHm”

Cue you both getting really flustered

“godDAMIT JOSHUA I MESSED UP AGAIN”

“HOW ABOUT YOU TRY NOT TO MESS UP YOUR RELATIONSHIP AND GIVE THEM A KISS”

[system-architect]

50 Q for Vax... please, I need it

OH BOY vax... i’ve been rping him a lot lately but he still remains a bit of an enigma!! lets see..

Personal

1)      Age? 23! he acts older than his age i think

2)      Gender? like all my other ocs bc i’m very self indulgent, he is a trans guy!

3)      Romantic/Sexual Orientation? vax can think boys are cute, but he’s never been a very romantically active person. he doesn’t lack a capacity for affection, he’s just always... busy with other stuff? it’s not something he thinks about often. if he’s buzzy around someone it’s probably bc he adores their cybernetics/etc work

4)      Height? probably smth like 3′9″

5)      Race? asura (+ cyborg??)

6)      What do they look like? (i.e, hair color, eye color, etc). i’m gonna link The Vax Draw, i’m undecided about whether his hair is naturally full black or if the white stripes are weird pigment loss... PS he has a ton of moles all over, not just on his face :D

7)      Any disabilities? hokay this is a Vax Secret but he has some sort of muscular and/or skeletal disorder i need to research into/get specifics on but the general idea is that he can get very weak and achey and have trouble moving sometimes! he deals with this via another Vax Secret i might talk about sometime

8)      Is there a meaning to their name? in asuran ?? idk i dont think their names have meanings, but irl its a shortened asurafied version of ‘vaccine’ bc i thought it sounded cool

9)      What makes them, them? Odd Question but he’s very shaped by his childhood experiences studying his father’s work and looking up to his dad and he’s very defined by his innate drive to bulldoze towards goals he has and wants to research... he’s a very stubborn and determined person who’s very much an agent For Himself

10)   What do they want to be when they grow up/what do they want to do with their lives? he is Growed Up but he really wants to keep chasing revolutions in prosthetics/augments/cybernetics.. he wants to help people in ways they couldn’t otherwise be helped (atypical inquest huh)

Family

11)   Do they have parents? What are they like and how do they act with their child(ren)? yes one parent, a single dad! ppl who’ve been watchin my hell rp server stuff will know his name is akka and he’s one of the top prosthetics smiths in the industry and was very private about his work but had a very cutting edge philosophy towards artificial parts and lead some really revolutionary work... dr. akka is a very kind and patient man with a good soul who is a tad weary from the world but he loved his son very much! he and vax had a great bond and vax was always eager to learn about his dad’s life work and his dad was always eager to teach him.. akka is an overall pretty amazing man, it’s a shame he joined the inquest for some reason and now we don’t know his current whereabouts......

12)   Do they have siblings? How do they interact with them? If not, do they wish they had siblings? he technically has a sibling! maybe more? but he’s never met them... vax is perfectly pleased with being an only child, we’ll have to see how he reacts if he ever meets this one. it’s actually a character y’all are already familiar with.......

13)   Extended family? Do they see them often? nope and nope

14)   Do they like where they live? (Is it a safe place?) vax essentially lives out of his workshop within the sigma-5 prime division laboratory space which is Not a safe place no....... but he loves it... he technically has an apartment somewhere in soren draa that is as much of a junk pile as his workshop whoops (vax is very much a ‘i know where everything is in this chaos. don’t move it’ person...)

15)   Where do they live? Are they wealthy? Poor? Middle-Class? i semi-answered this above but he has enough funding via the inquest to do his research projects as well as have a place for himself! i wouldn’t call him upper class probably just kinda middle ish, he keeps himself afloat alright

16)   Do they have a lot of expectations/pressure on them from family to do great? despite vax’s attachment to akka’s work and vice versa, akka is a very chill guy who never expected vax to live up to it or anything like that.. he just thought it was great vax had the interest in it

17)   Do they have pets? alas, no.... if he did i could see him owning smth more atypical like a ferret and fuck i kinda like that idea now i’ll have to meditate on it

18)   Who do they look up to the most/are the closest to in their family? take one guess

19)   This there anything special about their family? his dad being a renowned prosthetics doctors is pretty special yeah

20)   Do they wish they lived in a different family/household? absolutely not

Friends

21)   Best Friend(s)? alas vax is... very very much a lone wolf! this section is gonna be hard to answer and i’m probably gonna have to cross out some stuff because vax purposefully doesn’t really get close to anyone and he’s exceedingly unperturbed about this.. i meant it when i said he’s very self-driven! he’s not ultra egotistic and he doesn’t hate other people, nor is he unempathetic (i’d say he has a good degree of empathy actually), he’s just kind of... uninterested? he won’t hate you or be nasty to you for no reason, he’s just not interested in befriending/being around you as an aspect of his life

22)   Who was their first friend? probably some of the other progeny tried to befriend him in precollege he he was Smart which is Cool but they quickly learned that vax’s idea of friendship is he will give you a quick synopsis of what he’s currently on and then go silent as he continues to work on it

23)   What is their friend group like? there are a lot of inquest underlings who try to suck up to him because he’s their boss and also a shining star virtuoso with his work................. vax remains oblivious and unpeturbed

24)   Do they have a love/hate relationship with any of them? yes. specifically plex. who is his best tech ops drone but plex is a... sort of pushy person wrt trying to Befriend vax and he has a very obvious crush on vax and vax is mostly oblivious to it but sometimes feels weird about plex’s sudden ‘random’ bursts of being super buddy-buddy with him. in plex’s defense a bit, plex doesn’t know how to interact with people either

25)   Do they consider any of their friends to be like siblings?

26)   Have they ever hurt a friend or lost one? he’s probably unintentionally driven off people by coming across as super cold... i think he feels bad if he accidentally upsets people with his demeanor but he’s not quite sure what to do about it bc he doesn’t really want to upset people but he also doesn’t want to force himself to be MegaFriendly anyway esp considering his trials with social interaction are kind of a hardwired brain thing (he’s got like... vague assorted ADHD-autistic spectrum traits)

27)   Do they have a crush on any of their friends?

28)   Do they share classes with good friends?

29)   Whom do they go to the most when they need a shoulder to cry on? vax internalizes all his problems and works through them privately khgjdf he’s a weird mixture of stable and mature but sometimes unhealthy

30)   What would this person do without their friends in their lives? [img of vax doing vague shrugging motions here] as aloof as he is he probably at the very least appreciates that other people have interest in his work! so would be a bit sad if he didn’t have that

School

31)   What grade are they in? If they aren’t in school, how come? he has graduated college! he was top of the class his year at dynamics

32)   Do/Did they like their teachers? Was there a good one? Bad one? i’m sure he’s had a Variety of teachers but most of his teachers probably liked him a good bit since he’s smart and yknow, Asura Be Like That... i’m sure he’s conversely had a few who butted heads with him over his philosophy on cybernetics because he has a much more open ended approach that’s a bit focused on the idea that prosthetics are body parts and people with prosthetics are Whole People not People With Additional Bits Slapped On/In and he’s very ginger with prosthetics/augments he handles and treats them like they’re the same as fleshy body parts and deserve the same delicate care despite being metal, and overall he has more of a focus on the actual people he’s working with i think, and i can see some more hardass/uptight teachers in particular not liking this because it’s kinda unasuran to more traditionalist types to have such a.. humane view on work rather than being enthused solely with your numbers and research results

33)   Do/Did they listen to their teachers or are/where they goofing off a lot? vax is very headstrong and if you have useful advice then its useful advice but if you dont then fuck off and let him do his work how he’s determined to do it... he doesn’t goof off but he has no respect for authority if authority gives bad commentary

34)   Are/Where they a good student grade wise? top marks except for in classes where he was abrasive with the teachers who’s work ethics clashed with his but what can you do

35)   Do/Did they need extra help? nope... he probably ended up tutoring a few people actually (which probably was due to a nudge from a teacher and not.. vax’s sole volition of wanting to tutor people)

36)   What is/was their school like?

37)   Do/Did they have bullies in school? i’m sure he Didn’t Get Along With some others bc he’s Weird

38)   Have they ever gotten into a fight at school? yes he’s absolutely metaphorically gone for someone’s throat because they had the audacity to challenge him on something that they were both wrong about and not as passionate about as him

39)   Have they ever done something stupid/embarrassing at school? i’m sure he has but i can’t rlly think of anything (boring answer srry)

40)   How far do they plan to go with school? If they dropped out, do they want to go back?

Other

41)   Are they dating anyone? Do they want to date? Are the married? Divorced? i already kinda answered this but he’s not partic romantically involved... however i think if he found someone he was In Sync With and who understood his mannerisms then he’d be very content with them... i think he would need a stable easygoing relationship based on shared interests and just casually fitting together and supporting each other rather than anything passionately heated or overly focused on traditional displays of affection

42)   What is their favorite hobby? Do they keep it a secret? he’s a big nerd who collects various prosthetics/augment models and he absolutely doesn’t keep it a secret...................... 75% of the RP i’m in with him rn has been him geeking out over augs. the other 25% was me describing the facility.

43)   If they could have one thing in life, what would it be? i think he’s more overall focused on the idea of a continuous stream of improvement over a few static goals? he’s constantly laying out new traintracks in front of himself to steam ahead on... he’d like to be happy and successful at what he does, ultimately, and really attain super advanced inventions

44)   Do they work? If so, what is it? If not, are they looking for one or even want one? despite everything i’ve said here about him being a good empathetic guy, he is Inquest........ the inquest funds his research he does at their labs and they pay him for being the sigma-five supervisor

45)   Do they use social media? i can’t see him using social media much tbh... he might be into podcasts and asuran youtube a bit

46)   Have they ever been in the hospital? due to his strength issues and some stuff that happened as a very small child he has been quite a bit yes

47)   Do they believe in the supernatural, that there is more than the eye can see? this is a weird question in the context of gw2 which has canon ghosts whoops.. im gonna interpret it as ‘are they superstitious’... vax isnt superstitious and i think he’d be very brave facing questionably supernatural forces but in a sort of logical way uh... he would Not be the first to die in a horror movie.... he’s a skeptic of non-scientific magic things with i think some lingering internal paranoia.. he’s a very logical person

48)   What do they do when they get angry, stressed, or upset? broods in private probably....... depending on what he’s heated about he might go sit by himself for awhile or he’s gonna take his anger out while working on a project

49)   Would they consider themselves as a good person, bad person, or morally grey? i think he tries to be a good person but he’s skeptical of that Status a lot and worries over it a good bit... again, typical inquest!

50)   Does this OC have any part of you in them? (I.e, personality traits, similar background, etc) all of my ocs have parts of me in them to some degree, i think vax carries some things related to my disabilities, interpersonal and moralistic struggles, and the nerdy passion over my special interests