#also tom when you say tell me try not to look like yall are about to kiss like bffr.

[gregoftom]

oh my fucking god

[astonmartinii]

ballad of lovebirds and puppy dogs | lando norris social media au

pairing: lando norris x fem actress!reader

face claim: rachel zegler

everyone is a hunger games fan, even if you say you're not a hunger games fan you are. this includes lando norris.

based on this request: could you please do a lando norris smau with rachel zegler as the fc!! where the ballad of songbirds and snakes recently came out, twitter could be freaking out over it, and then someone spots her with lando or something!! take it from there queen that’s just my like base plot‼️‼️ - @inejghafawifesblog

MASTERLIST | BUY ME A KO-FI?

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yourusername: kinda have a movie coming out, have yall seen it?

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user1: ANNOUNCE RELATIONSHIP NOW

user2: friendships can exist between men and women you know?

user3: look at her holding his arm though that shit ain't platonic

hunterschafer: my favourite girl in the whole world

yourusername: that's crazy because you're my favourite girl in the whole world too

hunterschafer: crazy when that happens huh

tomblyth: does that mean i'm your favourite man in the whole world

yourusername: my lawyer said i can't answer this question

tomblyth: god you get a boyfriend and all of a sudden i don't mean shit

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tomblyth: does our frolicks in the woods mean nothing to you?

user4: WE SAW THAT GRANDPA

user5: sooooo. there is a man.

user6: and it's not tom :( so disappointing their chemistry was insane

user7: babe that's called acting

user8: lando norris in the likes i knew my man had TASTE

user9: i knew there was a reason i liked that man

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f1gossipandtea: lando norris was spotted multiple times out in monaco with y/n y/ln !! this comes after his appearance at the premiere of her new film the ballad of songbirds and snakes. do you think they're a cute couple?

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user15: try not to say parents challenge (impossible)

user16: has someone looked into my brain and pulled out my dream threesome and made them a couple

user17: i need them to give me a chance for real

user18: i am defo anti-paparazzi but thank you for these absolute gems xx

user19: those motherfuckers must've been camped out cause literally got the whole itinerary

user20: this feels like such a random couple but after watching the BTS of tbosas they defo have very similar personalities

user21: i did a lil bit of sleuthing and tom has posts of him at races? so do we think he suggested lando? or showed him to y/n?

user22: i also had a wee look and y/n follows basically all of the grid and a couple of the retired drivers so that tells me she likes the sport? like if she just liked lando surely she'd only follow him and maybe some of his friends?

user23: so like my vision is y/n y/ln either performing or singing the national anthem at one of the american races

user24: someone get this gal in the fia stat

user25: who is this girl? she's too irrelevant for lando ...

user26: and who are YOU? he's not going to pick you girly

user27: she's in the top film in the world for weeks now ... let's not be silly

landonorris

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landonorris: what the paps didn't get ...

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user28: screaming, crying, throwing up i did not know i needed this so much

user29: i am so unwell this is so cute

user30: i was so on the y/n and tom train but i am happy to say it has been hijacked by lando

yourusername: paps didn't get our good angles :(

landonorris: i'd like to keep the best angles to ourselves

yourusername: no for real, for MY eyes only

maxfewtrell: god you people are obnoxious...

landonorris: you literally told me to stop complaining about being lonely and now i'm being attacked 🤨

maxfewtrell: NOT LIKE THIS THERE ARE CHILDREN HERE

yourusername: fuck them kids

landonorris: what y/n said

danielricciardo: free enchante promotion, y/n you're invited to my wedding

yourusername: the girlfriend effect x enchante goes crazy tbf

landonorris: are you saying i didn't dress well?

yourusername: you either didn't dress well or can't pack for shit you came to GEORGIA IN THE SUMMER WITH A SUITCASE FULL OF HOODIES

landonorris: but that's my brand :(

georgerussell63: the twitch quartet formally announce our disappointment about finding out about this relationship via @f1gossipandtea, we expect a big apology and perhaps and visit from tom

tomblyth: i am THERE

yourusername: eh i think that's on lando .... but real question is who follows @f1gossipandtea

georgerussell63: me duh, i need to check for potential GDPA incidents

alexalbon: i also follow it 👍 no real reason i just like the drama thanks @charles_leclerc and @carlossainz55

yourusername: LMAO

charles_leclerc: i am disappointed in you lando. ALEX WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN

carlossainz55: ???

landonorris: lol would you have even believed me ?

georgerussell63: no

alexalbon: no

charles_leclerc: no

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yourusername: some cheeky behind the scenes pics, including lando demanding to be pampered while i was in hair and make up

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user31: i hope lando can fight (i have brass knuckles on, sorry not sorry)

landonorris: UMMMM ???

yourusername: soz babe they're just passionate

user32: HE WAS ON SET? HOW LONG HAS THIS BEEN GOING?

landonorris: how dare you !! the makeup girlies LOVE ME

yourusername: sure, if that's what you wanna believe

landonorris: they liked me better than you they said so :p

yourusername: they were just being nice i told them you're fragile

landonorris: i am NOT FRAGILE I AM SOFT THERE IS A DIFFERENCE

user33: okay now i get them 100%

maxverstappen1: so this is why you didn't play fifa with me 🤨

oscarpiastri: so this is why you abandoned me at the airport 🤨

danielricciardo: so this is why you blocked me after i called you seven times in a row it was an emergency you ASSHOLE 🤨

carlossainz55: so this is why you've ditched golf dates the last couple months 🤨

alexalbon: so this is why you didn't come to watch tbosas with me and lily 🤨

georgerussell63: so this is why the GDPA chat was muted on your phone 🤨

yourusername: i ain't reading alla that, i'm happy for you or i'm sorry that happened, i'll see you all in the parking lot at the vegas gp

landonorris: ...sorry?

user34: Y/N IS GOING TO THE VEGAS GP?

maxfewtrell: actually could you have him more often?

landonorris: AHAHAHAA :(

yourusername: gladly :)

landonorris: :)

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f1: lando's new helmet for vegas... we wonder where this inspiration came from?

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user38: IS THAT A BALLAD OF SONGBIRDS AND SNAKES HELMET

user39: maybe men do deserve rights

landonorris: the ballad of songbirds and snakes is out in cinemas everywhere now !!

yourusername: i knew they should've given you a cameo

landonorris: THERE WAS A CHANCE OF THAT?

yourusername: no, but it would've been funny tho

landonorris: don't get me excited like that :(

danielricciardo: maybe you could have a cameo in snow white, you are what the kids call a short king... sorry

yourusername: LMAO

landonorris: can we stop bullying me on my special post :(

yourusername: sorry babe, i love you and i love your helmet, thank you xxx

landonorris: THANK YOU :)))))

maxverstappen1: so you're telling me i sat through whatever the fuck that opening ceremony was when you could've had y/n perform the whole time?

yourusername: new agent incoming?

landonorris: I KNEW YOU WATCHED THE FILM

maxverstappen1: i am a supportive friend?

landonorris: you didn't even know her?

maxverstappen1: i saw you at the premiere, went through your instagram, saw you only followed her, put two and two together, went to see the film because we're friends by proxy now 👍

yourusername: i am scared and impressed

landonorris: fine... that's kinda cute

user40: okay soz i love this relationship and all the friendships starting

user41: okay but @yourusername who is winning the games

yourusername: fernando or valterri they scare me

fernandoalo_oficial: compliment!

valterribottas: i'll take it

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landonorris: i wanted to impress her :( she's a lot better at her day job

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user46: (i'm glad he's okay) lando really was the 'this one is for you babe' and misses meme this weekend

landonorris: not wrong

yourusername: GET OFF YOUR PHONE AND STOP TALKING DOWN TO YOURSELF

user47: currently picturing y/n whisper yelling positive affirmations at lando

yourusername: yes !! baby boy is way too hard on himself and NOT on my watch

landonorris: :)))

yourusername: you did so well this weekend, i loved watching you do what you love - don't be too hard on yourself !!

landonorris: i just wanted to do your helmet proud :(

yourusername: i am more than proud

landonorris: can you sing to me in your country accent again?

yourusername: of course

maxverstappen1: is this a kink?

landonorris: 1. no it's not a kink 2. ASK ME IF I'M OKAY BEFORE YOU TRY TO KINK SHAME ME

maxverstappen1: you're actually spelling even better maybe a concussion was what you needed

yourusername: TOO SOON MAX

maxverstappen1: did you just send me a picture of lando pouting

yourusername: yes ! say sorry now !!!!!

maxverstappen1: fine. i'm sorry lando. i'm glad you aren't hurt and that you don't have a country accent fetish

user48: are these the new terror trio?

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yourusername: don't listen to this bozo, he's the most talented boy in the world

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user49: THEY HAVE A CHILD?

user50: that's a dog...

yourusername: just because i didn't birth him, doesn't mean mr. fluffy isn't my biological child

landonorris: i'm not a step dad i'm the dad who stepped up 🆙

tomblyth: tom blyth erasure

yourusername: boo you whore

tomblyth: ermmm EXCUSE ME?

yourusername: lando appreciation post must be mean to all other men, sorry !!

tomblyth: understandable, continue.

landonorris: the most talented??? coming from you??? this is high praise

yourusername: and you BETTER take it

landonorris: yes ma'am

maxverstappen1: is this another kink?

landonorris: MAX?

maxverstappen1: it's winter break i'm bored and you have a GIRLFRIEND so i can't terrorise you in person :(

yourusername: attempt to kink shame us one more time and i'm sending mr fluffy at your ankles

yourusername: fuck it i'll send ankle biter yuki in as well

yukitsunoda0511: i'll do it

yourusername: @landonorris i see why he's your favourite now

landonorris: yuki-san!! can we give mr. fluffy a brother?

yukitsunoda0511: i love you guys but i see you way too much as it is

yourusername: harsh crowd

landonorris: at least you have me?

yourusername: TRUE

user51: my life pre and post y/nxlando was so vastly different - i love them

note: thank you for the request !! i have been swamped with work... and recovering from my birthday weekend. i hope you enjoyed it!! i love the hunger games and i can't wait to see tbosas !!

[braxlrose]

silly and weird tom hcs

a/n: the last ones got deleted for some reason so I'm making a new one!

• this mf steals your food all the time. hes always munchin on something so if you have something that looks good, he's taking it. especially if it's watermelon. he loves watermelon 🍉

• he doesn't tell anybody, but he gets his nails done. he gets pedicures and manicures and loves it so much. you found out one day when he kept going off and not telling anybody where he was going. so you followed him and saw his finger and feet soaking in water 💀

• when you walked in you were trying so hard to hold in a laugh and he was so fucking embarrassed when he saw you. you thought it was extremely ironic because he always called mani-pedis "girly"

• now you two go all the time, and you're way better at making excuses than he was.

• he got high on edibles and thought his feet weren't attached to his body anymore so he started screaming 💀

• over indulges on gushers when he's high

• you guys know those Chinese finger traps? Idk if that's what they're called but you put two fingers in them and they're like really hard to get out of. he LOVES them for some reason, he thinks they're so much fun

• he loves the snow so much, and especially loves snowball fights. it's so much fun, and he also gets to wear extra layers of clothing because of the cold

• during the winter, he gets a bunch of different kinds of hot chocolates and when anybody asks what he's drinking he swears by it that it's black coffee 💀

• he loves watching futurama and says that he strives to be bender 💀 (have yall seen the new episode? I actually really liked it, ik a lot of people said they didn't but I did.)

• gets on his knees while begging (not sexually 🤨) and will even fake cry. he's a master manipulator 💀

• when you guys go to the beach he's always asking you to come play in the water with him

• for any reason if you guys happen to be at a hospital, he goes and looks at all the little newborn babies. they're so cute and he gets all smiley just looking at them.

• he loves romance movies. mf will deny it till the day he dies when anybody asks but you've seen his collection of vhs tapes and dvds. plus bill even admitted tom cried during The Notebook.

• he tries to balance random objects on his head while walking to see it he can do it. he'll add on a object every time he does it.

• he's weirdly amazing at solving Rubix cubes?

• he loves making balloons animals and he always makes the sword ones. he will literallt sword fight with anybody.

• he eats bowls and bowls of cereal so he can get to the prize at the bottom of the box. (I full-heartedly believe he's a little kid at heart)

• he tries to make home-made pizza but ends up burning it 90% of the time.

• he's extremely ticklish on his armpits, stomach and feet and will literally die laughing if you tickle him

• he also loves kids cartoon movies like fox and the hound, Anastasia, Mulan, James and the Giant Peach, etc.

• he loves slap bracelets and has an entire collection of them.

• it wouldn't be the first time you've caught him dancing and singing to Britney spears.

• tom loves everything bathes. on camera he says he prefers showers but in reality he likes bathes better. With candles, dimmed lights, bath salts, face masks, etc.

• do you guys know that episode of Friends where Monica convinces Chandler to take a bath and he ends up loving it and shit? he's just like that. if you don't know what I'm talking about here's some clips.

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• he tried on one of your thongs one time because you dared him to wear it the whole day.

• you also dared him to get his legs waxed and he ended up doing it and he was crying the whole time

• he loves those little stories where you add in words to them. I can't remember what they're called but it asked you for like an adjective, plural noun, verb ending in ing, etc. etc. (I hope yall know what I'm talking about, I think it starts like a m or something someone tell me please 😭)

taglist: @hearts4kaulitz @burntb4bydoll @spelaelamela @bored0writer @fishinaband @billsleftnutt @tokiiohot @bluepoptartwithsprinkles @saumspam @5hyslv7 @killed-kiss @memog1rl @80s-tingz @billybabeskaulitz @victryzvv9 @banshailey

[redscreendarkwin]

People being stupid (again, what a surprise)

Saw someone say that people who have "limiting beliefs" such as believing race changing and aging yourself down to date minors is wrong will keep you from shifting. Bitch, explain all the other shifters who have shifted (including myself through minishifts) with said "limited beliefs". Actually, explain anti-shifters who got into shifting because they didn't believe it wasn't real until they shifted.

You could literally claim ANYTHING is a "limited belief". Like for example, murder. I along with other shifters believe that murder is wrong. Does it mean I'm not gonna shift because of that? NO. Just because murder drs exist doesn't mean you should go to them just like how people who are not a certain race shouldn't shift to be another. Or like how if you're an adult, you should leave minors ALONE and not shift for them. Because that's stupid as fuck and I don't know about the rest of you people who claim anything is a "limited belief" but I have morals.

Like, you realize those people who murder innocent people in their drs could literally claim if you’re against it that that’s a limiting a belief. Some of yall don’t even think your arguments through and it SHOWS.

Do you see how your argument makes no logical sense?

This app has genuinely shown me that the majority of y'all are chronically online. Jumping through hoops to make it seem like you're not attracted to children or gaslighting minorities into thinking that race changing is ok just because you have a few Uncle Tom's backing you up.

"Well, I'm already that age in my dr so why does it matter?" why are you attracted to that child in the first place that you want to shift for them? Answer that, diddy. You're telling me that you see it as perfectly ok for 30 year old shifters to age themselves down to date someone who's 12 or even younger?

"B-b-b-but I'm already that race in my dr so why is it bad?" Maybe it's the fact you're purely using it for aesthetics/fetishization? If you're white, don't argue with me. I am never gonna look at your opinion as valid so you can stop typing on your keyboard now. Go outside.

I'm also so tired of people saying "It's not your dr, why should you care?" As if it's not human to care when people are culturally appropriating my or other people's culture for aesthetics/fetishizations or being pedophilic. Y'all care when people literally MURDER innocent people in other drs, why is it so different with this? Using your logic, we shouldn't care because it's not our dr.

And it’s so ironic that shiftblr proclaims itself as people who don’t spread false information when one of the biggest shiftblr blogs (this is targeting a specific person) is spreading false information like “if you don’t believe ____ you won’t shift.” You are quite literally doing the very thing you hate on shiftok for doing..

This app is FUCKED.

And dont try to debunk my post if you aren’t even gonna read my post in its entirety. Hint hint, you know who you are 😉

[billsbabydoll]

“𝓃ℴ ℴ𝓃ℯ𝓈 ℯ𝓋ℯ𝓇 𝒽𝒶𝒹 𝓂ℯ, 𝓃ℴ𝓉 𝓁𝒾𝓀ℯ 𝓎ℴ𝓊.”

contains:PURE FLUFF<3

summary:being apart of tokio hotel was a complete dream come true! me and bill had quickly grown closer as the years passed but would we ever tell each-other about our secret crush on one another? one day while working our new album “humanoid” someone has a long confession to make.

WARNINGS:cringe fluff again, friends to lovers, crush confession, first kiss.

notes:requested by anonymous hope you enjoy this story!also my dms are open to more suggestions:)))

ive been apart of the band since they were devilish and i played second guitar, working with the four boys throughout the years has been a wonderful experience.they all were like family to me but bill was different, every other member i saw as a brother but him something about him was different.he was confident, silly understanding, caring, and obviously sooo handsome.

bill and me had become best friends over the years, doing each-others makeup, shopping together, writing lyrics together, sometimes we even cuddled together in the tour bus.

the other boys would poke fun at us and say “can yall just kiss already?” or tom would usually say “bill fuck her before i do.” we both would just nervously laugh it off but something about the way he looked at me longingly afterwards told me maybe he did want to do just that, but too afraid to just say something.

today we had to do some recording and stuff in the studio, i was the first to arrive making my way inside beginning to set up and plug in my guitar.

then the door suddenly opened and there came in my favorite boy ever, little to no makeup on, his dreads resting on his shoulders, wearing some black sweats, his adidas sweater and a pair of sneakers.he yawned as he closed the door and made his way over to me, tapping my shoulder from behind.

“hallooo liebling! (hi darling).” he said his thick german accent coming through as he clapped his hands excitedly together.

i turned around meeting his gorgeous hazel eyes and cheesy smile, i quickly return the smile “hii billy!” i reply matching the same excitement as i pull him into a gentle embrace, before letting go.

he lets go as well before taking a seat on the nearby stool tapping the one next to him, signaling for me to sit as well.i nod and take a seat turning myself to the side now facing him, he does the same thing, our eyes meeting again.

we began talking about whatever random things we always talked about giggling and laughing our heads off like we always did, not realizing 30 minutes passed and the other boys still hadn’t shown up.

when we do realize, we confusedly check the time seeing it’s been an hour passed the original time we were supposed to be recording and working on some new lyrics.we debated on leaving or waiting it out for a little while longer, we figured it could just be traffic.

we decided to make use of us being at the studio and began to work on this song we came up with “down on you”.

“how about we change it to -an angels kiss is waiting- ?” i suggest humming it softly to him.

“okay okay i like it!” his eyes lighting up at my suggestion, writing it down quickly on his notebook.

we continue working on the song for a bit (more like 5 minutes) before soon giving up, finding it too hard to work and also focus as bill keep cracking jokes and making me laugh.bill got up putting the notebook, coming back to sit down again.

he suddenly began to speak up again his demeanor now anxious and tense, “i have something ive been keeping from you and I don’t know an easier way to say this.”

“bill what’s wrong, it’s okay i won’t judge you if its something bad?”i responded trying to sound as reassuring and polite as possible, trying to make him feel at ease.

“ich mag dlich wirklich du bist alles was ich wollte und suchte.ich weib dass es kompliziert sein wind wenn du schriebst dass ich auf tour bin, wir werden dafür sorgen, dass es klappt, das verspreche ich. (i really like you, your everything ive wanted and been looking for.i know it will be complicated when you write i tour, we’ll make it work i promise).”he said looking down to not see my expression.

truly i was shocked but not at his confession but that I was right, i knew he felt it too!

“ich mag dich auch wirklich, du hast recht, wir werden dafür sorgen, dass es klappt liebe. (i really like you too your right, we’ll make it work love).” i reply while reaching my hand down grabbing his chin making him look up at me, letting go once his eyes meet mine.

his expression transforms into a delighted and happy one a smile now tugging at the corners of his lips, his eyes glistening with joy.he then leans in wrapping his arms around me as he holds me in a tight and warm embrace, kissing the top of my head.

he sways me in his arms for a moment longer before letting go, his hand now intertwined in mine.looking at me with so much excitement and adoration, (this guy was whipped).

i move in closer closing my eyes as i place my lips upon the lips ive been longing for forever, catching his lips into a gentle and perfect kiss.fireworks seemed to pop around us, our first kiss of many.

he moved his hand onto the side of my waist the other on the back of my head keeping me in place. his tongue finding its way inside, our tongues soon moving in perfect harmony.he’s an even better kisser than i ever imagined, tasting like mint and sweet honey.

the moment was quickly put to an end as we heard the sound of hands clapping and laughing, we both confusedly pull away and look over, seeing tom, gustav and, georg giggling like little school girls.

“when did yall come in?!” me and bill unanimously yelled.

“oh not long ago yall were just too busy swapping spit to hear us come in, so we decided to enjoy the show.” tom chuckled crossing his arms over his chest, the other boys still laughing.

“TOM!”we both yell.

THE END

[slytherinboysappreciation]

OMG OMG i see ur fic abt prof riddle w the mreader n im in loveeee god its so cute 😭😭💖💖💖 have you ever thought when the roles were reversed? Like reader is a wizard that came from the future, he adopt tom from the orphanage n becomes a father to him n he's also the one that stopped tom from kill1ng ppl n shi omgg that would so cute give this man sum parental figure yall he needed it 😔🫶🫶

Adopted - T. R. x platonic male!reader

A/N: thank you so much for the request!! 💛 I’m so glad you like my fic!

This is the first part of a short series I’m planning for this request. It’s completely unedited and barely proofread. There’s no use of Y/N

CW: alternate universe, death mention, lying, manipulation, Reader is from the future, Reader lies to adopt Tom, slight Dumbledore bashing, slight fluff during the middle/end, this is kinda fast-paced sorry

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In another universe, Tom Riddle was introduced to magic by Professor Dumbledore, a cunning old man who saw the evil before he saw the boy.

In another universe, Tom Riddle becomes Lord Voldemort, the most feared Dark Wizard since the old days.

In another universe, a couple dies for their baby, a boy too young to remember anything but his mother’s scream.

This is not that universe.

In this universe, Tom Riddle is introduced to magic by a very unconventional wizard. A man with no friends, odd mannerisms, and a habit of using strange spells.

You.

You appear in Tom’s life exactly half an hour before his fated meeting with Dumbledore.

You hurry up the steps to the orphanage and knock on the doors. They open to reveal a haggard woman with a sharp face. She questions you, and you lie as smoothly as still water.

A few moments later, you’re face to face with the boy.

Because that’s who he is, after all. An eleven year old boy with no friends, odd mannerisms, and a habit of talking to strange snakes.

He looks up at you, half scowling, half nervous. “Who are you?”

The lie rolls off your tongue with ease. “I’m your uncle.”

Tom waits till you get in the cab before asking questions.

“Are you really my uncle?” His expression clearly says he doesn’t believe it, but you can see the flicker of hope in his eyes.

“For all intents and purposes, yes.” You give him a slightly sympathetic look. “But no, I am not your kin.”

Tom wilts a bit. Then tries hard to hide it. “Oh. Okay.”

There’s a brief pause, then his forehead wrinkles. “Who are you, then?”

“You wouldn’t believe me if I told you.”

“Try me,” he challenges.

“I am a wizard,” you say calmly. “Sent back in time after an unfortunate mishap with a Time Turner artifact.”

Tom blinks. Stares. Tilts his head. “You’re… not lying… are you…?”

You give him an odd smile. You had to give it to him, the boy knew how to spot his lies.

“Of course I’m not lying. It’s far too ridiculous for me to have come up with something like that.”

You settle into your seat. “Besides, you’ll understand more once we reach my house.”

Tom, who still seems to be having a hard time digesting your earlier words, just nods quietly. You give him the silence of the car ride to figure his thoughts out. As a courtesy and all.

Tom seems to like your little house. It’s tucked away from the city, in a small village that’s used to your odd antics by now.

It’s quaint and cozy and just big enough for separate rooms for the two of you.

Tom surveys the house, then turns to you. “If you’re a wizard, I want to see your magic.”

You look down at him, amused. You can already tell he has a sharp mind, important for the days to come.

You pull out your wand and cast a simple spell. One that causes pretty blue butterflies to flit about the room.

Tom goes still, eyes wide. One of the butterflies flutters over to him and lands on his nose. He goes cross-eyed trying to look at it and you stifle a laugh.

“Is that proof enough?”

He waves the butterfly off, looking at you in awe. “You really are a wizard…”

You stifle a grin, trying not to seem too proud. “I am. And you are too.”

His eyes go wide. A slow flush creeps up his cheeks, his eyes gleaming with excitement.

“I knew it,” he breathes, “I always knew I was special. Everyone else called me crazy, but I knew.”

You pat his shoulder and smile down at him. “You are special. You’re a wizard, Tom.”

His answering grin is worth all the problems you know are coming.

Dumbledore, especially, will be furious once he finds out.

But you’ve done what you’ve done, and you’re prepared to face the consequences. As far as the wizarding world will be concerned, you really are Tom’s uncle.

And you’re going to keep it that way.

[en0xx]

Tommy Shelby x young fem!reader.

(My first time writing a story on here I hope yall like it, well… whoever reads this. Let me know if anyone wants to get tagged & tell me if yall want a pt2!)

Reminder: *This was ‘insipired’ just a tad bit by the song, Bang Bang by Nancy Sinarta.*

TW: Mention of blood, AGE!gap.

Summary: Y/ns father as a Sicilian Gang leader, he has his enemies, like Tommy Shelby, but will that stop Y/n for loving one of her dad’s enemy, which… the interactions with this man that she loves, wont be easy.

y/ns pov:

'I was my dads only daughter, no other siblings, He was a man with power, as a Sicilian gangster, that was well known all across Italy, even Europe for years, we were not so welcomed in the so known Birmingham lands. I was born in my motherland, but raised in England.

The WWI had already ended its full on terrifying paths, while...

One day, I was about 16, a young girl full of life... when me and my father were having a walk after I had just left the school for that day, and we were just talking about how my day had gone so far, but then. I see a man might have been 28yo or even 29 at the time, he was riding up on a black horse, which he gracefully stood straight while riding that horse, as I could then see my father glared at him as he glared back, then his eyes fell on mine, just a kid to his eyes as he raised his eyebrow, while my two pair of eyes looked up at him I could feel a weird feeling rumbling inside my stomach, that I never felt before. Then his eyes left mine as he took his own road leaving.

Later on as years passed, I found out that his name was Thomas Shelby, the leader of the Peaky Blinders and also my dads most hated rival. I knew his aunt, Polly, his two brothers, Arthur and John and his only sister Ada, how he lost his wife by the Italian mafia...

My father never talked to me about them, but his left letters on his desk openly, and his 'private calls' were not really read or heard by only him.

At some point as a messy adventurous teen, I would always walk with my friends after school by his pub, god each time his eyes landed on mine, my legs would fall weak, until a so sudden night, no man was around that pub, as the whole place was claimed by the dark, I looked around as I felt someone stand behind me, I turn to look up as I was met by the same pair of eyes I was searching for, and everything lead to another, with now him being the one to lay on my bed at nights where my mother and father wouldn't be home at all, or me sneaking out of my house, to just feel his touch on my skin...'

PRESENT TIME.

I was laying on the warmth and arm running down my spine, Tommy was laying there, his sharp features that cut right through me with emotions that I didn't know how to bare them within me. He held his cigarette with his other hand, as he took slow puffs with those full

lips of his, that parted ever so slightly.

"Somethin wrong wit' me face?" he said looking down at me, raising one of his eyebrows as he would always.

"No, its not that at all..." I only managed to get out, what was I supposed to do or say, when he stared at me with his icy piercing eyes.

"So what then ey? You stare at people like that for no reason?" I could see the slight smirk on the tail of his lips, that he tried to hold within but failed to.

"No, once again... I just like staring at you." Those words passed in a whisper through my lips, admitting, as I lifted myself up to look at him, face to face as then I got up, my back was facing him, trying to hide the fact that I got embarrassed and I could feel my face burning as that warmth passed on to my core as I then picked up my silk robe that was laying on the floor.

He could see her whole entire body get wrapped by the soft material delicately and beautifully, just like a charismas present, for him to unwrap...

Once more...

"Ya say that and ya decided to get up tryin to get away from' me?" he had a grin all wrapped up around his face.

"You should leave Tom, my father will be back in a hour by now..."

I sat at my vanity, looking at my trashed makeup, from the night before.

He just rolled his eyes as she got up, as the sheets slid down his skin revealing him whole, as my eyes studied his body through the mirror.

As he got dressed, and him walking past her opening the door, and just letting out just a 'See ya.' like he forced just those two damn words out of his mouth.

I stared at myself my hairs a mess, I am a mess, I smell like sex and sweat... at a point it felt like he didn't... care. he was there just for a good fuck, never gave a goodbye kiss, he would get her presents, yeah but that's not all that anyone wants... at least not her.

As the day had started, she took a hot soapy bath, then puts on a dress, white, short and light weighed on her as it hugged her figure, she walked down the stairs of her mansion as the sounds of the chirps from the birds and the table being set for breakfast. which only she was to attend, she walked in the back of the kitchen where all the cooking was to be done as she looked around greeting everyone as she walked to the oldest maid.

"Meredith! Good morning!" y/n said cheerfully kissing Merediths cheek.

"Oh my dearest, good morning, how did you sleep?" MEredith turned to look at the young girl, as she stroked her cheek.

'Meredith, also known as 'Mery' always was like a grandmother for her, she was there always for y/n, from the day her father had first walked with y/n in his arms, Meredith never had any grandchildren after her only son had died at a young age in the war... so, y/n was so much to her, after all she had never got.'

"I had a good sleep, really." smiling down at her I could see worry in her eyes. "Maryy please! Don't start again..."

"But y/n, what if your father found out? He is a threat, hes no good... You know that by now honey!" I just rolled my eyes my smile not leaving my lips as I took a handful of raspberries on my hand running off.

"Y/n! You have to have breakfast! Don't just leave with just some berries and call it breakfast!" Meredith tried to run after her as she stopped on her tracks breathing heavily not getting to reach the young girl. "When will that girl ever listen to a word I say..."

I walked out on the back door, through and through to reach the stalls where we kept the horses.

"Nevi... good morning my strong boy..." I reached my hands to the Andalusian Cremello coloured horse, as its hair wrapped long down the horses long neck.

The horse neighed as I reached to kiss the top of Nevis head.

"Nevi' is short for 'Nevicare' which in Italian it means 'snow'.'

One of the Groomers asked me to make Nevi ready for a ride, but I always took care of him myself really, it was therapeutic to me, so I tacked up my horse as I put on his saddle and bridle. I made sure everything was okay and in place, I took Nevi by the bridle leash as I walked him around for a while just for a warm up, as then after a while, I lifted myself up on the saddle to sit on it comfortably as I mount first on a gentle walk to make sure the horse is all adjusted.

"Your ready... hup!" as I put out a gentle pressure, as at first the horse started walking just a bit faster on the field, as he then started to pick up speed as I passed around through trees as the sunshine peaked in between leaf's, the soft breeze... brushing on my skin ever so lightly as I felt so free, felt like I could breath.

It felt like it was just me in this world, no war, no hate amongst anyone...

The run turned into a slow walk as Nevi stopped to freshen up, to wet its long dried out throat, as the hot weather pulsed on, the horse got in the lakes cold waters, and I didn't stop him, he slid inside the deep waters until they reached the hem of the bottom of my dress, the horse swims through, around the lake.

I felt, the presence of someone there, I looked around then turned to see...

"Tommy... what are you doing here...?" I could feel no longer oxygen on my lungs.

He didn't speak, but we stood there looking at one another, so different, two whole different spirits, the one is a man, full on black clothes, strong features staring straight as if a predator was looking at his next pray with his ashy black horse, and the other, a young woman all in white skin glowing as the short white dress hugged her figure, a soft sculpted face that held so many emotions by just looking into her beautiful eyes, she looked like a luring spirit where she was, like an illusion that wanted to take you, with her white horse...

"Figured you might be here, I see that I was right, I forgot my watch I think in your bedroom, yeh? I need' it." He obviously got straight to point.

"Tomorrow, my father has already come home by now..." I blurted out in a sigh as I could see his slightly irritated expression.

As I lead Nevi out the water, I now was going around him in circles.

"You should've reminded yourself earlier, you know, its not my fault so bare with it." Its the first time I ever talked like this to him, it was about time really, but he looked at me in a questioning look.

"All' right, I'll come and get it tomorrow then now will you stop." He looked at me as I still was going around in a circles.

"Stop what?" I took it up, as a tease really, I smiled at him as I couldn't really see the fire building in.

"Stop the fokin' circlin' me and me fokin' horse!" he spat out as I immediately pulled back on the reins in shock to stope my horse.

"Bloody hell, can't ya' listen?" He huped at his horse as he looked away blurting out. "Fokin Italians..."

That took me out, it stroke down like a bullet in the guts. I didn't know what to say, nor do. I took a brief moment to get myself together as Nevi took me home as the road was all done by a slow walk, and numerous thoughts.

I passed all my day in my room, not getting out one bit, just laying in bed, I then heard the door open and closing, it was Mery, as she sat beside my bed, as she had brought me a blueberry muffin, she always knew, she knew me... And I did too, always when someone in the family was upset, or anything had happened to any of us, she would always make blueberry muffins, to comfort us in a way, at least it did comfort me in every way possible I rested my head on her lap as hot tears streamed down while she stroked my long hair.

"Its okay darlin' I know its no easy task to love someone like him."

Like I too said, she knew me, always.

THE NEXT DAY.

I woke up with my head pulsing and my eyes all puffed up from the crying. I got up and I took a shower, as I got up I let my hair down to brush them and let them dry, as I chose what to wear, cream color that extenuates the waist as it has just a little volume on the skirt, it had tailored handmade details on every inch in the dress. It was a tad bit chilly outside so I put on a fur coat on matching the color of my dress, as well as a pair of kitten heels, took my purse as I slid his gold watch in it as I then got out my room as my chauffeur was waiting outside for me. I got in the back seat of the car as it was about to start when I hear my father call out.

"Y/n, piccolina mia! Where are you goin? The only day me and your ma' are here you go and leave so early." my dad spoke in his typical sicilian/italian accent, and looking at me.

"I am just... going out with my friends just for brunch! It'll be quick, really, I'll come back as soon as I can!" I then signed to the chauffer to start the car as he did, and as the car moved my father backed off the car, and the car continued to drive away from the house.

As the ride continued my mind was going through so many thoughts in a short period of time. It was the first time I had ever gone to where he would do most of his work, I had only ever gone once that night on his pub, but never above, on his office... and nervousness got the best of me, and as soon as I arrived, and I got out of that car I took a deep breath while my heart was pounding out of my chest. As I walked in that pub, I could feel the mans hungry gazes but I tried to avoid any, I walked straight to the bartender.

"May I have a word with Thomas Shelby?" the man looked at me in a questioning look but still nodded while cleaning off his hands on his apron. After a little time while my heels kept on tapping on the hardwood floor, I saw him, Tommy walking in front of me, as he just nodded at me as he signed me to follow him, and I did, I walked after him, as he held his office door for me to get in, then closing it after I stepped in.

"Tommy..." It was all I could let out, at first.

"So, what brought you' here? Did you bring me pocket watch?" he raised his eyebrow, as he usually did, and I just sighed in frustration, I reached into my bag slamming the watch on the oak wood desk.

"Here's you fucking watch, what brought me here, its you, honestly or mostly the words you said to me the other day."

I set on the chair across from his as I tried to keep on a neutral face on.

"What words, 'fokin' Italians'?" He couldn't put nothing than a smirk on his face.

"Seriously, really what do you take me off? One of your whores? I am not, I can assure you I am not like that Lizzy Grant, or any of the others that you might fuck and talk to like that." I got up to leave as then I feel a hand on my upper arm pulling me back, spinning me around as I faced him.

"I never said you were and I too take back what I said..." His deep voice sent shivers down my spine as I could feel his hot breaths on my face brushing through, he then reached down to kiss me as I didn't push back, I felt his lips press on mine, the kiss was soft at first but, it got deeper.

I then was brought back to reality as I pushed him off me I stared at him for a split second and then I walked out of his office, while I didn't look back one bit.

'3 days passed, I grew each day more tired then ever, I would take Nevi out for a couple of rides, bought new dresses but I felt so empty in the inside, until when Meredith walked in my room while I was reading one of my books by the window.'

"Y/n theres a letter for you." she handed me the letter opening it, and unfolding the paper as I read.

'Meet me by the alley, near the woods by sunset, I need to talk to you.'

~Tommy.

I quickly got dressed putting on a coat, then Meredith took the letter as she read it.

"Y/n I don't have a good feeling darlin' please don't go." She said in a worried tone and face expression.

"I wont take long, okay?" I ignored her pleading as I then smiled back at her and I left.

TOMMYS POV.

"Are ya' sure about this Tom?" Arthur glanced at me.

"Yes, Arthur I'm sure." I said as I finished signing the documents. I then got up to put on the flat cap and my coat on, reaching in to my hip to fix my gun.

Arthur looked at me, I knew he had more to say I could see him holding back.

"You know Tom, its not the young girls fault'..." Arthur finally got out in a sigh.

"They killed me fokin' wife, she took a bullet meant for me!" I said through my teeth out of anger.

"TOM, its not them that killed Grace, the Italians were from Nap—"

I had no time nor nerves to listen to him, I slammed the office door after me as I walked out to the car.

NADIAS POV.

I waited for a short period of time, then I heard a car pull over a bit further away as I saw Tommy get out as I waited for him still where I was standing. he got closer by each step to the point where we were face to face, he had a calm look to him.

"Why did you call me here, at this time?" I looked at him while he just smiled.

"I wanted' to see me girl." he softly spoke, weird I thought, so suddenly calling me his girl...

While we started walking, we had just reached the woods.

"Do we go there?" I glanced at him as he leaded me in without any word spoken.

We passed the trees while I could see the sun setting and the night gobbling the views of what eyes could reach taking a grayish color.

He then suddenly stopped, in the middle of a meadow, as I could see the life of most flowers was taken over by the autumn cold coming through.

"I never took anyone here... at least without reasons." his tone was serious, as he then scoffed at the last words he said while his back faced me.

I tried to understand what he meant but only I got more confused, the church so distant... but its bells was so clearly noticeable to the ear, I looked through the distance I lifted my hand to do the sign of the cross, as I closed my eyes.

I moved firstly on my forehead "In the name of the Father..."

Then in the middle of my chest " ...and of the Son... "

Sliding my hand on my left shoulder "...and of the Holy..."

Reaching to my right "...Spirit..."

"Amen..."

I lastly kissed my fingers as I opened my eyes to a gun in front of my face, freezing at the moment feeling my blood running cold through every bit of my veins and being.

"T...Tommy...?" I let out, out of complete shock.

"It was 'bout time you were gone, to make you repay..." He murmured pulling the guns trigger.

"Repay for what? Your wifes death? Tommy my father and even my family had nothing to do with anyone that included your wife and you in... was it all a game to you, Tommy... was I a game to you? Was this all just to reach here so you could shoot me and leave my dead body lying here?" choking out the words while I could feel my throat growing tight.

He just stared straight at me, his hand too shook, then I see his hand get lower, but still the gun pointing at me.

"Your people, should feel the pain, that they caused and started." he was being hard headed not trying to hear her nor anything or anyone.

I glanced at him as my eyes filled with a thick sheet of salty hot tears as I was about to lean in, to close the gap in between us two. But then...

BANG BANG!

'Bang bang, he shot me down... bang bang I hit the ground... bang bang, that awful sound, bang bang, my baby shot me down...'

He glanced at her laying body, covered by the dead flowers, the wound caused by the bullet on her right side of the chest, leaking blood down her clothes like gold, as he could see the tears that traced her closed eyes and cheeks.

'Music played, and people sang... just for me, the church bells rang...'

Taking steps back, as he left her really right there... lifeless.

'Now he's gone, I don't know why, until this day sometimes I cry...'

'He didn't even say goodbye, he didn't take the time... to lie...'

...

A WEEK PASSED.

TOOMMYS POV:

Glancing at the fire over the chimney, while I fidgeted with the glass with a tad bit of whiskey left, her face flashed before my eyes, her hitting the ground as her body grew limp.

My heart... ached, for whatever reason it was like something died to me too, a weird feeling build in me that made me want to put a gun to my head from what I did to... 'me girl'.

"Are you going to stay there all day long Tommy?" I turn to be met by Polly walking through the door.

"Arthur told me... Tommy you shot an innocent girl' from your passive aggression, nor her and her father had to do anything will this, the Italians in Naples have nothing common with the Sicilians... and have you gotten any other news, really?" Polly looked at me wile she stood in front of me.

I looked at her, in confusion...

"That girl... is so strong that... THAT bullet of yours didn't take her, and her life..." She mumbled the last words, wile shock struck my face.

"Fix this, before her father does, because trust me Tom' a fathers love for his only daughter, is stronger than anything, will be the end for us all."

She left, I glanced back again at the fire, as it was going down...

I took the last sip of that whiskey as I got up, I put on my coat... and headed off.

The ride felt like it took hours, but then I had reached where I needed to be, in front of her house, took myself out of the car, to her houses doorstep, I nocked once, and twice until one of the maids opened the door.

"Yes?" the woman looked straight at me as I cleared my throat.

"Thomas Shelby, can I have a word with y\n y\l\n?" suddenly an older maid snuck in front of the other maid,

"Leave, Mr.Shelby, the young misses, is taking her rest after what you caused! and..." as the maid was about to continue a deep voice was heard from one of the rooms.

"Meredith, lead Mr.Shelby in, will you?" A mans voice said calmly, the maid nodded as she slid away from the door leading the way to a big study, which a man sat on a leather chair turned to the windows, as it slightly moved.

There was a long, long moment of silence, as I glanced over at the chair, the man was smocking calmly while the chair moved, now the man facing me.

"So, how did it all feel? To shoot my own and daughter that I ever had, which I thank god has not died in my arms while her blooded clothes bleed through mine... Is the revenge that you take, on innocent people, feel better and more then good than it could ever feel from doing that to the one who was really guilty?" The man said, clearly I could hear the mans voice break at the mentioning her daughter. but he held in all the build up emotions.

"Tell me Mr.Shelby..." he lastly looked at me while I choked on my own spit, that's how tight my throat had tightened.

"I know that my actions had caused, anything that it wasn't meant to be caused not to you or your daughter... and I came here to apologies to you..."

"To me? My daughter is the only person who should deserve that apology firstly... then whoever is next... I will tell you one thing Thomas Shelby, I chose this path of life as it was passed by my own father down generations, and I am happy my lil' girl was born no such thing as a son, because she wont have to take after what I took... and I have never returned the bullet, with a bullet. If I ever did, you would've been dead by now... but I know you have a son to look after, and I know your mistakes that you regret. I still hate you, for hating us and what you did to my daughter, only, and hate never burns out... but I will keep my fires in me, without burning anyone around me, I better burn myself... I will tell that to you as a man to a man, a soul to a soul, a father to a father."

While he said those words, I looked at him, as I had no words, I just nodded me head admitting while he was right, a wise man.

"Go..." he let out lastly, signing the way up to the stairs peaking through the door.

"Thank you." was the only thing I could say, walking out that door, as I stepped up each stair as her door down the dark halls peaked brighter that any other any. I reached me hand, to open it, half of me face peaking in to see...

The room was bright white, the window was slightly opened, as the light white curtains moved after the breeze, I look towards the bed, as she laid inside those white sheets there, peacefully as she slept her hair over the pillow laying so beautifully, as I saw the injurie I had caused underneath the white cloth.

As I got closer to her, I couldn't help but brush me hand on her cheek, so lightly for her not to wake up.

Suddenly she slowly opened her eyes, she looked at me, a tired look shot her face as I looked deep into her eyes.

"Y\n..." I whispered, while she just stared at me with those beautiful eyes of hers.

"What are you doing here?" her voice was so cold, I was used to her talking to me with warmth, and the cold I feel now, I never felt before...

"I came here for ya', to... ask for forgiveness."

NO ONES POV.

Thomas Shelby, the leader of so called Peaky Blinders, became the weak one at that moment, he never had kneeled before to anyone, asking for forgiveness which, y/n was taken aback...at first.

He stroked her hair, as his eyes glanced at hers.

"Get off me."

Y/N'S POV.

"Tom, you heard me, get off." I calmly spoke.

Well he did as she said, his eyes shifted at the wound.

"I'm sorry, did I hurt ya'?" he said in a caring, worried tone.

"No, I just don't want you to touch me." looking down at my laying body, I tried to act like I didn't want him there, nor to touch me... but god knows I needed his touch, because... I love him, he's the one I fell for, the one I got shot from, but it felt like pure bliss, pure love. Even though my blood gushed out, as if too late, he might had taken my life away. I feel sick at my own self for feeling this way for the man in front of me...

But is this feeling of sickness what love really feels...?

"Y/n, please... me' girl" he whispered closely to me.

"Sweetheart' I was wrong, I did wrong, and I know, and I do regret everything I did..."

He tried to explain over and over again, and I just looked at him...

GOD how I wanted to kiss him, how I craved this sin of a man...

"Tom, please..." I tried to say but he cuts me off.

"I love ya', sweetheart' I fucking love ya..." he looked at me, my eyes lingering on his as my breathing stopped for a moment, I felt something growing within me...

He ran his hands on each sides of my cheeks, cupping them.

"Don't push me away, luv..."

His face was inches from mine, I could feel his hot breath caress my skin, I lifted my head up, just for my nose to brush lightly on his, trying to hold back wasn't easy... How could it be easy, it would never.... if you love a person that much, resistance is no word to be listened, heard, even known... when it came to someone you loved...

[slut-for-zendaya]

zendaya with r who is 5’1 (like me ) always arguing with each other like “get your tall ass down here so i can tell you something “ and zendaya be like “ sorry you just disappeared “ also the are actres and everyone love the dynamic between them

thank you and may lord bless you ❤️❤️❤️

SUMMARY; zendaya and you are a couple, the whole world knows that, but you too have one thing that keeps you bickering the whole time.... your hight diffrence, not in a bad way tho A/N im so exited to write this, its my first time getting a request, this is my first time writing i know its going to be bad, but i hope u like it ..........................

"hey give it back" you were practically jumping as if ur life depends on it she was holding your script

you were to busy memorizing the script so she took it out of no where

"na uh" Zendaya smirked "make me" you sat on the floor and crossed your arm then pouted..

"its not my fault your a giant!"

Zendaya puts the script on the desk then sits next to you

"ur the small one" she snorted out, she looked at u, she's pretty sure u tried to fake getting mad right now

"i hate u" you said trying to fake it but as soon as u said it u leaned in Zendaya's now open arms

"you love me" she said confidently it was hot

every thing she did was hot

"yeah" you mumbled

she grabbed your chin so u can look at her she leaned in gave you a peck on the lips

then she pulled away "let's get going we are going to be late"

..................................

Butterflies erupt your stomach as she drapes an arm around your lower back

"What movie do u want to watch baby?" she asked u looking at the movies in front of her

"Z u know we aren't going to watch the movie, and start making out in the first 5 min" you said smirking

"Then we'll choose the worst one so no one can be there"

You hit her by your elbow a yelp escaped her mouth "what did I say?"

"No its not you. Its.... There are paparazzi" you whispered

"Where?" Zendaya asked clueless

"Your the tall one and you can see them great so she is a giant and blind" you snorted

"But in bed I'm 'so good' these are your words not mine" she mocked your voice

"I do not sound like that!" I frowned

"Yes, you do" she held you tighter

"Shut up"

"Ur cute when ur mad" she said admiring you

You felt your face getting hot, pretty sure you were as red as Tinkerbell right now

"You have said that more than a billion times you know that right?" You breathed out

"Eh" she said, "and dont worry about the paps they know we are dating so no big deal, besides jacob and tom are joining us"

"oh yeah i forgot, we should wait for them then pick a movie, they'll be pissed if we chose one" you snorted

you can see tom and jacob starting to make an apearence by how the paps started to call thier names

"whats upppppp!!" you said to jacob doing ur little handshake

"good, you?" he asked

"perfect"

you saw tom and gave him a hug

'hey, quackson, been long time since we've seen eachother"

he acted offended "Y/N I DO NOT SAY IT LIKE THAT"'

"mhm sure lets pick a movieeeeeee" zendaya said as her arms drapped around ur waist again.

zendaya felt you shiver a little

"are you cold down there?" she asked smirking

you elbowed her "its cold okay! and once again ur the giant one!" you huffed

"yall are bickering like teanage couples" tom said "but its cut tho" jacob chuckled

you and zendaya rolled ur eyes

"here take this" she took of her jacket and draped it around your shoulder

"noo you'll get cold" you said concerned

"dont worry the weather up here is not cold"

[destinyc1020]

Just to jump on the Tom train, I'm actually really bored of comparing him to his peers. Yes, Timmy is the critics darling but 2 back to back biopics. He's clearly going down the awards nom route.And no offence to 1 of your fans, Austin he has a lot of momentum, but he isn't leading films YET(pls don't say Elvis,bcos its Elvis)as much as i liked Bike riders, it didnt do well .Then we have Glenn, who I find charming but off the back of 1 lead with Twister, and now he's a leading man?. People have to stop....

Fans want casting news for Tom, I get that, but dogging him because he's not doing as much as everyone else is crazy. He told yall he was concentrating on his life for the next couple of years,and that's what he is doing and good for him. But plsss, if anons/stans don't think he's getting offered stuff weekly, then you're delusional. He's by far the most bankable,most liked by the general public, and to be brutal, he's far more famous. I'm not saying he's a better actor because he's still raw, but that boy will be fine. Long after some are forgotten about

Yea, I'm kind of bored with the whole comparing of actors to each other thing too honestly. To me, actors don't really need to be compared to each other. Their careers at least. To me, every actor's career journey is their own! 😊

Yes, Timmy is the critics darling but 2 back to back biopics. He's clearly going down the awards nom route.And no offence to 1 of your fans, Austin he has a lot of momentum, but he isn't leading films YET(pls don't say Elvis,bcos its Elvis)as much as i liked Bike riders, it didnt do well .Then we have Glenn, who I find charming but off the back of 1 lead with Twister, and now he's a leading man?. People have to stop....

Well now, I think we can uplift Tom w/out having to put other actors down in the process can't we? 🤔

I think it's a little unfair to try and claim that every single actor who does a biopic film is "looking for awards". 🥴 Let's face it, not all biopic films do well, and not all of them even get a sliver of anything as far as award recognition. Where were all of Naomi Ackie's nominations when she played Whitney Houstin in the Whitney biopic? 🤔

According to IMDB, Timmy already has like 107 award nominations with 42 wins, including the highest honor of them all...an Oscar nomination. I doubt Timmy is out here acting simply to try to win awards.... I doubt that most actors are doing that lol. Do you know how hard it is to get a nomination in the first place? If you are just acting simply to try to win awards, you will quickly burn out. 😅

When you get to Timmy's level, directors are calling YOU for roles, and you're just picking out of what interests YOU. So maybe the biopic films are interesting to him? 🤷🏾‍♀️

With regards to Austin... he IS leading films! What are you talking about? 😅 Elvis was the title role lol. He was lead lol. 😅 Maybe we can argue about the bikeriders because to me, Jodie was probably the main lead, but he's definitely been getting leading roles. He's currently filming "Caught Stealing" in which he plays the lead character. He has also signed on to "City on Fire", in which he's also the lead. And goodness knows what else will come after that? 🤷🏾‍♀️

I never expected the bike riders movie to be a film that does huge numbers at the box office. Even director Jeff Nichols would tell you that this movie was not really a big, huge movie. I think the film did fairly well for the type of niche film that it was. Not all films need to decimate the box office. The movie didn't take that much to make, so to me, the film did perfectly fine. 🤷🏾‍♀️

I just think a lot of directors see a lot of old-school movie star quality in Austin. 😊 And I'm thinking they think the same thing about Glen Powell as well. Glen Powell might not be super bankworthy yet, but he definitely has star quality, and they can see his potential as well. Glen has actually been acting for many years, but he has had mainly smaller background parts. But he's actually been in the game for quite some time! 😊

I think both of them have a lot of great potential, and I think that's what directors are seeing.👍🏾

But Nobody needs to compare these actors to Tom, and nobody needs to compare Tom to these actors. Either way, every actor has their own career journey, and there is no right or wrong way to be in this industry.😊

I think that's the problem. A lot of these fans are thinking that there's one sole right way to have a career in this hollywood business, but there really is not.

I definitely don't think that fans should be dogging on Tom just because they aren't getting the type of casting news that they want from him. I don't think that's right at all.😑

Like You said, Tom is going to be perfectly fine! 😅 And fans need to just keep that in mind. And even if Tom were not that famous or weren't making a ton of money, that's also okay as well. He's a good actor. I keep saying that you don't have to be a super huge star to be successful or a good actor.

Jmho 🤷🏾‍♀️

[dogstarblues]

Last Song I Listened To:

"You" by Tennyson! it's a sweet little song and i use it for my qpr-in-my-series playlist. "What's the point of that? I could be pressing flowers with you. Savor all this time rather than fret all afternoon. Take me from my thoughts, now would be riper than limes in June." so soft.

Last Book I Read:

The Ballad of Black Tom by Victor LaValle is the last book i finished. phenomenal book. absolutely wonderful on a craft level. It pushes the reader to question the role of a black main character in an american horror, pushes the reader to question what constitutes horror is for black americans, and in that push answers your question for you, delicately, carefully. Deserves all the praise it got. Recontextualizes one of the most racist lovecraft stories and shows the character of Black Tom's humanity even as Black Tom tries to leave humanity behind. also. sentence level? so fucking good. down to the sentence it's so good.

I'm currently in the middle of like 15 books but off the top of my head

Witch King by Martha Wells

Dreadgod by Will Wight

To Say Nothing of the Dog by Connie Willis

On the Shoulders of Titans by Andrew Rowe

The Future Is Disabled by Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha which feels more like a manifesto than anything else so im not really getting as much out of it bc disabled people on tumblr have been talking about the contents of this manifesto since 2015 or earlier

The League of Gentlewomen Witches by India Holton

The Last Sun by K.D. Edwards

Paul Takes the Form of a Mortal Girl by Andrea Lawlor

Way of the Hunter by Samer Rabadi

Female Masculinity by Jack Halberstam

Coming up, I'm doing a buddy read soon of The Black Shoals: Offshore Formations of Black and Native Studies by Tiffany Lethabo King with @markeyverse and a buddy read of The Cooking Gene: A Journey of African American Culinary History in the Old South by Michael W. Twitty with @toopunkrockforshul and a book club read of When the Angels Left the Old Country by Sacha Lamb

Last Thing I Watched:

Star Trek: The Next Generation. I simply don't Watch things these days, unless we count youtube, in which I have watched Drawfee's "Driving from Washington to Mexico for Charity" to cope with grief bc omg you do not need your brain for that. it's comforting. and also my roommate is obsessed with Azerbaijani Village Cooking Videos and points out different foods and how like the ones he grew up with they are and how they differ from Georgian and Russian preparation and consumption and he tells me the names of the food and what they taste like. so we watch that almost every night if i dont fall asleep first.

Current Obsession:

my own work tbh. my poetry, my fiction, my paintings. trying to get better. i suppose outside of that. hm. my interest is turning toward gay nuns as of yesterday with a Realization of christian religious trauma being more real than i thought. im looking at "Immodest Acts", "Lesbian Nuns: Breaking Silence", "Scorched Grace: A Sister Holiday Mystery", and im hoping "Sisters of Sorrow" is gay bc if its not what the fuck are you doing. but i cant delve into them all yet nor buy them yet. and im trying to prioritize my TBR.

i'm also reading eco-justice poetry/nonfiction, afrofuturist, transformative justice, disabled, and solarpunk literature for my solarpunk wip

Tags 8 people:

im tagging yall. no big if you dont wanna do the meme. im gonna go lay down now. sleepy.

@filthburgur @cadencekismet @mysanaf @vorellaraek @markeyverse @pacifistrun @outside-your-window @cassandors

[bruce-wayne-simp]

Like Minds

Hey hi hello im about to watch Like Minds (aka Murderous Intent) and apparently the only way i can watch movies now is by liveblogging them so 🤷‍♀️

(Maybe expect the LotR trilogy next idk)

Like with Remainder i have a vague idea what this movie is about. Well, maybe a bit more of an idea what this is about. All i know is there are 2 teenage murderers and a TON of homoeroticism (not canon i think but youre crazy if you dont see it)

Also this liveblog/my watching of Like Minds was heavily sped up by @catlovingwitch who sent me a lovely ask which fuckign FUELED me to do this so thank you v v much ❤️❤️❤️

Once again, i am a T Sturridge stan so this will probably be very heavy on him. Unless over the course of this i become an Eddie Redmayne stan

Spoilers be ahead

Idk why im like. Anxious? Whatever.

Its starting aaaaaa

Eddie R screaming on a train (hes thrilled)

Ooh theyre stealing stuff?? T Sturridge isnt here yet

(The way its set up is Alex (Eddie) is captured by the police and is basically giving them The Backstory™️ which is where Nigel (Tom) comes in)

Oh shit he killed Nigel

Ok so psychiatry lady is here and her name is Sally

God Alex looks so young

Ooh this is interesting and actually really good

Flashback starting

THERES NIGEL god hes pretty

Lmaooo Nigel is the new kid and hes Alex's roommate and Alex is kinda pissed lol

Thats what you get when you snoop. Alex was looking in Nigels trunk and found a taxidermied cat(??)

Lmao Nigels in the doorway like 'Do you mind?'

Oh hes so concerned about his taxidermy

'Hes weird' they say as they explode a cockroach for fun

Lmao Nigel reads books about anatomy/autopsies?? yikes

Oof Alex is pulling the misogyny card. Hes telling the psychiatrist lady shes running out of time to have kids 💀 sir youre not helping your case

"Nigel got what he wanted." "And what was that?" "Eternity."

Sally is Over It. She doesnt think Alex is guilty

Shes listening to the tape she recorded from her talk with Alex and is like 'hmmmm'

Back to flashbackss

Oh god Nigels dissecting a bird IN THE DORM ROOM

Lmaooooo i love Nigel

Alex is PISSED and is like 'the least you can do is show me some common courtesy' and Nigels like '??? K.'

Well that interview just went to shit

So Alex was kinda taunting Sally but mostly the detective dude. So detective guy comes in and is like 'Gunshot residue says you were holding the gun when it went off'

Alex asks to see his father, the detectuve is like 'he cant help you', Alex panics a little, grabs Sallys wrist snd is like 'Nigel was holding the gun when it went off, i didnt do this' and the detective dude loses it and punches him and Alex is dragged off to lockup kicking and screaming

Apparently Nigel ALSO had GSR on his hands so anybody couldve pulled the trigger

Yall need to watch this fucking movie

Ok so basically a guard runs back in and is like 'He wants to talk'. Well actually hes holding 2 guards hostage w a police baton and is pleading to be let out of the cell. He fights the guards, loses and Sally shows up as hes on the ground being cuffed again. They sit him on the bed, Alex insists he didnt kill Nigel and then starts talking about someone being 'here' and 'listening' and Sallys like '???'

Ooh ok so Alex thinks someone is talking to him im his head?? Does he think Nigel is?? We are at a flashback btw

Wait did they already steal stuff off the train??

Alex youre a bit of a brat lmao

Wait was he stealing stuff for his dad????

Ok Alex and his friends are kind of dicks

Ooh Alex is challenging the pastor dude who is teaching religious history i assume

Nigel is looking at him like hes kinda in love

HOOOO CHECK AND MATE. GET REKT PASTOR DUDE

Lmaooo Nigel keeps dead things in jars. He has a big thing of formaldehyde hanging up lmaoooo

You know what i actually kind of agree with Alex. I mean thats p reasonable

(The Headmaster (who seems to be fond of Alex) sees Nigels collection of dead animals and is trying to justify why Nigel is there and allowed to stay. Alex is the first quote)

"He's a part of your club and nobody else wanted him so youre doing the 'brotherly' thing. Yeah well does my future depend on that?"

"Thats enough-"

"No, you dont give a fuck about me or this guy the only thing that you care about-"

"Thats enough!"

"-is the amount of kudos his father's-

"I said enough!"

"No, which is fine, but just dont give me the 'brotherhood' bullshit."

Then the headmaster slaps him and is like 'This boy will be made welcome' and walks out lol

Oooh theres Nigel

Lmao he walks in, slides in behind Alex, grabs his notebook off the desk and walks out, visibly amused.

Jfc Nigel is making psychological notes on Alex and his friends

"This little shit needs to be taught a lesson"

Alex's friend, Josh, is a pos. He just made a literal Nazi joke. To Alex's credit he tells him to knock it off

At least one of his friends has 2 braincells.

Are they straight up chloroforming Nigel??? Wtf

They dragged him onto the train unconscious

Oh shit Alex is like holding him outside of the door while the steel beams to the side are rushing past them. Nigel seems out of it tbh cause hes not freaking out

Josh is lighting firecrackers and tossing them out of the train and he dropped one and freaked so Alex and Nigel got back in. Nigel went to walk away and Alex pushed him up against the wall like 'Where do you think youre going??'. Nigel just spit in Alex's face and Alex punched Nigel

Oooooohhhh shit Alex leaned Nigel out of the door again and Josh started freaking out and told him to let Nigel go and the handle Josh was holding onto the train with BROKE

Oh shit Nigel just let him fall

Like he straight up waved his hand over Josh's hand to taunt him i guess and he got sucked out of the train wtf

I feel like the thing to keep in mind here is all of this is being told by Alex and hes Not a reliable narrator

WAIT THE HEADMASTER IS ALEX'S FATHER???

Oh yeah Alex is an unreliable narrator for SURE. Besides some fondness there was 0 mention of him being Alex's father. Or maybe im just dumb which is entirely possible. Likely, in fact.

Lmao Nigel staring at Alex like a freak at Josh's funeral until his dad nudges him like 'Knock it off'

Alex's dad eyeing Nigel as he walks away

Alex and Nigel arent roommates anymore

Nigel reading basically smut in front of class (in front of Alex 😏😏) classy smut im sure but still

Alex is watching rehearsals of the play and Nigel comes up super close like 'sorry about ur friend' and is kinda. Creepy and morbid about it. Which tracks

I think its interesting that TS's facial expressions and delivery here is SO reminiscent of his role as Dream. Ive seen him make these EXACT expressions in The Sandman while talking. Its odd seeing them on a younger face tho (not in a bad way)

Oh my god Alex just got a human hand in a package. 3 guesses as to who its from? (I assume. I dont actually know. Im not gonna do my boy Nigel dirty like that)

Alex vomited and hes telling Sally that when he got back it was gone

Nigel comes into Alex's room, gives him some papers to help with his essay while Alex is yellimg at him to get out and leaves lmaoooo

My boy Nigel doesnt deserve the slander 😤😤

"How did he know i was struggling with my essay?" Youre a dumbass and hes smart

"How did he know my topic?" Idk maybe if you made an effort to know him youd find out. Im sure Nigel can be charming when he wants to be but hes not gonna be on guard 24/7 so you got to see the spooky shit hes into when you were roommates

"I mean he had answers to questions i hadnt even thought of yet." Omg could Nigel be... Smart?? Impossible. Only idiots study anatomy and dissect things. 🙄 CMON ALEX

Jfc Alex you are dramatic as hell. Hes comparing using Nigels notes to 'selling his soul'. Just get the easy A my guy

Me every time Nigel comes on screen: 🥰🥰🥰

Nigel and the dog im DECEASED

The dog doesn't like ALEX oooooo

Dogs know who you really are 🧐🧐🧐

"I've never brought anybody here before. You're the first. Okay? First."

Nigel just wants to be friends 😭😭 he brought Alex to his hideout and the first thing he asks is 'Do you like it?' 😭😭😭😭😭

Oh jfc Nigel is as crazy as Alex

God that LOOK he gives when Alex is flipping through the book. You cannot convince me Nigel isn't in love with Alex

"An implement for killing. That's what I am." N I G E L

Jesus. Alex thinks Nigel is in his head.

Alex just asked a girl (Susan) out on a date and Nigel came up afterward all friendly and tried to give him a book and Alex completely cut him off

Poor Nigel :(

Ok also poor Alex but i don't feel as bad for him cos hes an ass

Holy shit did Nigel kill someone?? Alex woke up and someone threw a knife on his desk stuck to a Jack playing card with blood

Oh my god its Susan (that girl Alex was gonna go on that date with)

Nigel this doesnt look good for you buddy

Nobody's accusing him but she was kinda.... dissected. Its pretty graphic if you watch this movie just be aware

Oh shit she was in the school greenhouse

I think Alex did it. Hear me out. Hes the one telling this story. If he did it, hes gonna tell the story in a way that makes Nigel look bad. Nigel, conveniently enough, cannot say anything otherwise. Cause he's dead. I think at the very least he did kill Nigel but telling the story this way makes him the hero for killing the big bad serial killer.

Ok back to the movie the knife and the card are gone from his desk and Alex is looking for Nigel.

Now the detective is getting statements from all the students who saw Susan before she was killed

Oooooh Alex got caught in a lie

'Ooh I sense some hostility' just kiss him already JESUS

OH SHIT. Nigel is remorseful about what happened and Alex was like 'You did it. Didn't you?' And Nigel says 'No, Jack. You did.'

(Jack is a nickname. It's explained in the movie i just don't feel like rehashing it sorry)

Alex punched him

"Well im sorry Jack but you were the one who got inside my head." OHHHHH FOLIE A DEUX

Nigel: You can fix him? I can make him worse <3

And we love him for it

Something something criticism of upper class structures (see: quote above about 'brotherhood'), parents being not involved in their kids lives and not seeing obvious signs of mental illness due to that (Nigel's... everything and Alex's authority issues, sense of grandeur and family issues)

This scene is where Alex's dad tries to get the detective to drop the charges and tries to use his connections to the detectives father to do so but he refuses to drop it.

Oh shit apparently theres no evidence Nigel did anything to Susan

Also apparently the detectives cant find Nigels parents so 🤨

Hmmm

Sally is gonna look at Nigels hideout

Damn Nigel had a TON of notebooks

Oh SHIT Nigel had photos of a sleeping girl

Nigel its really hard to defend this i hope you know that

Oh fuck theres a dead body under Nigels house

Apparently 2??

ALEX DID IT. FINAL ANSWER.

Nigel showed Alex the hideout!! Alex was the FIRST and ONLY person (besides Nigel) who knew about it!!! The bodies were fresh!!!! Alex did it. Nigel my babe ill defend you to the death Alex is a psycho

Its ride or die for Nigel Colbie in this house

Aww Nigel introduced Alex to his parents

"Helen and John, this is my best friend Alex. Hes working on the play." Oh yah rich ppl are fucked up. Imagine introducing your parents to your friend by their FIRST NAMES 🤮

Ooh he just read Nigels bible

Nigel thinks hes directly descended from the Knights Templar

See, Alex seems to be reading this like it's his first time seeing all of it. But HE BROUGHT IT UP FIRST. In that class with the pastor earlier. Nigel was watching him. This was right before Nigel started pursuing him (and i don't think this was how it happened. Hold on i'll talk about it later. I think Alex went after Nigel. And I've seen other people think this as well)

Alex's mother died while giving birth to him and he told his father that her death was his fault since he got her pregnant 😬

Oh god

Ok so

Sally found a card that said 'My beloved Maraclea' and Alex is telling her who Maraclea is

Maraclea was the lover of a knights templar in the 13th century who died and the knights templar. Uh. Had sex with her dead body. And basically 9 months later he goes back and her skull is moved from her shoulders to on top of her thigh bones which are crossed. He has to protect the skull bcs itll give them grest fortune or whatever

While hes telling her this theres a flashback to Nigel and Alex meeting up at night and uh. Theyre in a morgue.

I dont like where this is going 😣

Oh fuck its Susan

Is. Is Alex gonna necrophile Susans body

Did he do it???

Hes saying Nigel took him there to basically recreate the whole Maraclea thing but its ambiguous as to if he actually did it

Holy shit thats fucked up

So Alex is watching through the window

Nigels father found those photos that Sally found and. Um. I think those are of Nigels mother actually.

Implied incest/CSA warning (im gonna italicize it. Skip the italicized part. Nothing graphic and not even really explicitly abuse but theres an accusation being made basically. CSA bcs Nigel is 17)

Nigel is in his bed and so is his mother. Shes in a slip and hes in pajamas and his father is holding a gun and yelling and basically accusing them of sleeping together (tho Nigel is 17 and also thats his mother so uh. Yeah.)

Tbf it only incidentally looks like that and she claims they were just talking. But also i have no reason to trust her so uh. Yeah.

Oh my god

Nigels father just shot his mother right next to him.

Holy fuck.

Alex came in and grabbed the gun and asked Nigel what hes done and Nigel said she was 'chosen'

Alex points the gun at Nigel and Nigels dad gets in between them and is shot by Alex

Oh my god wtf

'Ill have my Maraclea' What. In the actual. Fuck.

And he just. Casually dumps his fathers organs into the fire.

"Dont you think they're gonna be missed?"

"Well as long as they dont find her nine months it doesnt really matter, does it?"

🤮🤮🤮🤮

Nigel i cant defend this.

Oh god Alex did it too with Susan

Tom Sturridge angry with a shotgun is something i didnt know i needed but im glad i have it

Oh shit they both did it

Nigel used Alex to kill himself

Holy shit

Alex had the shotgun pointed at Nigel and Nigel is very obviously upset and doesnt understand why Alex thinks hes the crazy one.

He told Alex to pray for him, reached up and pulled the trigger while Alex was holding the gun

ALEX WALKED????

HOLY SHIT ALEX IS MAKING HIS OWN BIBLE

HE LEFT AN ENVELOPE ON SALLYS CAR AND IN IT THERES A JACK CARD THAT SAYS 'MY BELOVED SUSAN'

Holy fuck he broke into Susans tomb and took her skull

Holy shit hes doing the same thing Nigel did to him to someone else

Roll credits

Ok ok ok wow so um.

I dont think Nigel did it

Well ok. I think the truth is somwhere in the middle. Alex is putting a lot of blame on Nigel for someone who may or may not have killed 2 people to Nigel's 1

God its so hard to collect my thoughts about this film. Also its like 2 am so uh. That doesnt help.

I think Alex had a more dominant role than he let on. Also considering how quick he was to pick up the mantle, idk. I just know while watching this i was surprised by how much Alex killed even as Nigel called himself an instrument for killing. All Nigel did that we know for certain was let a kid fall out of a train. Alex straight up shot Nigels father.

Nigel is more quiet and reclusive and morbid and Alex is more intelligent and outgoing.

Of course Alex makes a point to emphasize how morbid Nigel is and ive already pointed out how i think Alex is an unreliable narrator. Alex is smart. He knew how he needed to tell the story and he succeeded. He got off scot free.

Unfortunately i dont think Nigel would have been able to do that. Nigel was smart but not as smart as Alex. He would have slipped up

So what happened to Susan? I keep going back and forth on this. I think it could go either way. But i hate to say it. I think Nigel did it. This whole thing kinda goes back to the Maraclea thing and Nigel knew about it already. So he kills Susan and guts her so Alex has his Maraclea and he goads his father into killing his mother so he 🤮 has... his...

Basically i think Nigel is more evil but Alex had a bigger part than he lets on

Its v v complicated. Or its just 2 am idk. (respectfully) Leave your thoughts if you feel so inclined

Oh my god he said Alex killed her because in Nigels mind he chose Susan as his Maraclea oh good lord

(But Nigel is pretty and fictional so we'll give him a pass)

Im definitely rewatching this at some point. Its actually really good

Ok thats all lol bye im gonna go see if theres Like Minds fanfic

[yesitsmewhataboutit]

Poker Face

Mob!Tom Holland x Reader

You get a knock on your door, detectives wanting to use your apartment for a stakeout. Of course you say yes, little do they know you have a secret of your own. Little do they know you know more about their investigation then what they tell you that night

Warnings⚠️: talks of injuries, angst, tbh 1.5k words of sadness (it’s 2.3k total) it’ll be ok tho yall😭

Masterlist

Prologue // Chapter 1

Chapter: 6

It's weird how time seemed to move quickly but also slow. You all knew it would be a slow recovery. After two days, only Harrison had woken up. The doctors are still keeping Sam sedated, and they said they weren't sure when Tom would wake because of the brain injury.

"No," Harry says sternly.

"Harry, come on-"

"No. Y/n. Not happening," Harry says, his voice showing no sign of letting up.

"Haz, tell him," you say, turning your head to the boy in the bed.

Before the warehouse accident, Tom had said when you started getting better: you'd need to practice walking more since you hadn't in a while. You were getting better, and you knew he was right, so Harry would walk with you around the bedroom or living room when it was clear of Tom's men. Today, you and he are pacing the length of the infirmary in front of Sam and Harry's beds.

"I don't know, Y/n. Harry might be right," Harrison says, his voice still slightly weak.

"No. Come on, you guys went up there. It'll be a quick in and out," you urge, looking between Harry and Harrison as you hold on to Harry's arm, still walking back and forth slowly.

You're trying to get Harry's ok on you leaving to go back to your apartment to pick things up. They don't think it's a good idea since there's no way the police don't know what happened to the warehouse. If you go up there, it could be extra suspicious. Especially if they knew about the gala, you showing up, obviously injured, could bring suspicion.

"Y/n, you know Tom wouldn't want you out while he's not able to be around to help," Harry says.

"That's not true! He knows it's safe. He and Haz went there. All I'd do is go, get some clothes, and give a reason to why I'll be gone for a while," you say. "Harrison, tell him to let me go. You're second in command. You're technically in charge now."

"Nope, I'm not doing any of that while I'm still in this bed. You either go to him or Tom, and Tom's still in dreamland, so what Harry says goes."

"Harry!" you whine and look at him.

"Y/n, if you go up there and something goes wrong, Tom will kill me. We don't know if they know about the gala, and they definitely know about the warehouse. It isn't safe for you to show up their injured after you never came home," Harry says, removing his arm from you and taking both your hands, walking backward with his arms stretched out between you, wanting you to balance by yourself.

"What if I bring you? You'll be like my bodyguard, and if anything goes wrong, you'll be able to take those guys," you smirk at him.

"Um, 'those guys' have guns," he laughs and nods.

"So do you!"

"Two guns against one aren't great odds."

"Ok, ok. Harry give her a break. It's not that bad an idea," Harrison pipes in.

"The mafia isn't based on giving things breaks. And if anything goes wrong, I will end up dead, and none of you will know since," he turns his head to Harrison, "you're in a hospital bed," he turns his head to you, "you'd end up in jail, and the sleeping beauty brothers wouldn't help in any way."

You sigh, trying to come up with something as you continue to walk around the room with Harry. "Ok. What if we go, bring as many of Tom's men as we can and tell them if we aren't out within ten minutes to come in and rain havoc," you suggest.

Harry eye's you and then sighs, "Fine. Ok, fine. We'll do it. But when Tom wakes up, you have to tell him and make him promise not to blame anything on me."

"Deal," you smile.

You guys plan to go the next day, and after you get tired and finish your walking with Harry, he helps you back to Tom's room. He helps you up into the high bed and makes his exit, leaving you in the room with your unconscious boyfriend.

Hours later, you wake to a sound in the room. At first, it startles you, making you think someone was in or trying to break into the room. Maybe wanting to get to you or Tom, knowing he can't fight back. But, quickly, you realize that wasn't the case. The sound came from Tom. He woke up.

His hospital bed is on the left side of the bed, farthest from the door, and you had fallen asleep facing him, but in your sleep, turned over to where your back is facing him. When you realized it was a soft groan that sounded through the room, you sat up and looked over at him, the darkness in the room not hiding the way he was squirming.

You reach your hand out, feeling for the room's light switch, the small light from his heart monitor not being enough for you to see clearly. When you find it, you quickly flick it up, light shining into the room. You scoot over to the side of the bed, crossing your legs, and sit next to Tom.

"Tom. It's ok, you're ok," you say gently. You move close to him, reaching out to touch his hand.

He opens his eyes, his head slowly tilting your way. "My head is pounding," he groans.

"Sorry. The nurses said you aren't able to have much more medicine for the pain," you say, rubbing his hand.

It's quiet for a few minutes while Tom continues to get his bearings. He slowly goes through his memories. Then it hits him. "H-haz- and Sam they-"

"They're ok. It's all ok. It was tricky, but Harry was perfect in command and made the right decisions. Without him, you guys might not have survived," you say quietly, watching his face as he turns his head your way and looks at you. "I'll tell you more in the morning. Just get some rest and get stronger." Tom lets out a slow breath, closing his eyes.

You lean over and turn the room light off, laying down, staying close to the edge next to his bed, your hand staying in his as you snuggle under the covers and get comfortable, looking at his figure through the darkroom, watching as he slips into sleep and soon you do the same.

In the morning, you wake up, and Tom is already awake. Your hand is still in his, and he's starring at nothing like he's deep in thought. You sit up, scooting close to him again. "Tommy, hey, how are you feeling?" you ask softly.

"How's Haz? And Sam?" his eyes don't shift, continuing to bore into the wall.

"Harrison is awake. He's fine. Sam's neck and spine were injured, so they're keeping him sedated until it's healed enough cause if its too much movement, Sam could end up paralyzed. When he does wake up, at minimal, he'll only need a little physical therapy," you answer him. Tom doesn't say anything, so you decide to keep going. "And you," that caught his attention, and he looked at you, "um, your ear, your left ear, it was severely damaged. The ear itself is still there, but they said you had blunt force trauma to that side of your head and lost all hearing in that ear."

Tom takes in the information, letting it settle in his mind. He realizes when you speak he can't hear your voice in his left ear, how now it's weird, unbalanced. "What're you thinking about?" you ask, watching his facial expressions.

He looks at you for a moment, weighing his options of how to respond. "Come sit?" You perk up and nod, carefully shifting over to his bed. You put your arm above his head, not touching it but letting it lay there while you lay on your side, your hand in his right one, touching it gently. "When the explosion first happened, and the warehouse came crumbing on us, we were all still awake. There were 5 of us, the other two were somewhere else, but Harrison, Sam, and I ended up in the same area, slowly getting crushed." His voice shakes as he tells the story.

"I remember the pain. It was a lot of pain, and uh, Harrison was a few inches from my left, Sam on my right," he used his free hand to gesture, "it was still early in the morning, so it was very dark, and my vision was blurry, but I saw Harrison in a puddle of his own blood, his face crushed under the rubble." His face doesn't change much, but you feel your eyes wheel with tears, unable to imagine how it all must've felt.

"I've been in a lot of situations, many, bad situations, but that time I saw no way out, no way of survival. I kept looking at Harrison next to me, seeing my best friend as his life was slipping away. Sam had caught my attention, his eyes were wide, and there was blood spilling from his neck. I remember thinking, 'how could so much blood be leaking out, and he's still alive?' He opened his mouth to say something but only coughed blood, so instead, he reached his hand out and grabbed mine, looking at me with pure fear."

Tears are free-flowing from your eyes now, and you can't fathom how Tom isn't crying himself, how his face is staying neutral as he tells the story. Sure, he's the mob boss, he's supposed to be tuff, but this, this was traumatic.

"When I first took over from my dad, my mom had pulled me to the side, and she said, 'You harden your heart, you harden your face, but never turn on your brothers. Sam, Paddy, Harry, and Harrison. They're the most important things you need to worry about, so protect them. If you don't know anything else or how to deal with something, always protect them. Cause, in the end, say you fail, which I know you won't, cause I know my boy will be the best, but if anything goes wrong, you need them by your side. You guys have spent so much time together and made so many memories. Even if the mob fails, you keep them around. At all casts, no matter what.'"

"She told me that, and I kept it with me. Protect them at all costs. When you came around, I kept it even more in mind. I trust you all, so I wasn't going overbored, let you guys be involved, but laying there, seeing Sam pleading to me with his eyes, I failed. He was hurt. Harrison was hurt. Both were life-threatening injuries, and there I was with them, completely helpless."

This' the first time his face changed, his voice wobbled, and he let out a breath. "When, um, when my vision started to go, and I was losing consciousness, I thought about my mum, how heartbroken she'd be when she found out that 'her boy' wasn't the best. I thought about you," he pauses, swallowing as he gets a lump in his throat. "When Sam's eyes closed, it was crazy 'cause we hadn't talked, but at that moment, I figured they could be dead, and I felt alone there, so alone. I laid there, and I thought about quitting the mob. If I made it out alive, just leaving, keeping you, Harry, and Paddy safe. I don't know what the emotions were, but I'd never felt them before, and I wanted it to stop. I wanted to leave. I hated everything about what got me there." He sniffs, tears now falling from his eyes.

"Tom-"

"No. No, let me finish." You close your mouth and nod. "Me and my brothers, even as kids, I'd never seen any of them cry. We were always tuff, and yeah, we played around, but that was only us. I could see the tears rolling down Sam's face, showing how much pain he was in, even while unconscious. But now, now you say he's ok, that we're all ok, and the only thing I can think about is finding out who was behind it and shoving a knife through the person's skull."

His voice spits venom, almost like his cheeks weren't stained with tears. "The only thing I want to do right now, more than sitting here with you and spending time with you, is do everything I can to make whoever did it suffer. To make the person know what it was like, laying under the rubble and thinking, all I could do was wait for death. Momentarily making me hate everything about myself. I want them to pay."

Your tears have stopped, and you're speechless. You stare at Tom, mouth agape and mind blank, not knowing what you could say to make any other this better, not knowing if you even can make any of it better. You want morals to win. You want to tell him it's wrong, that there are other ways to get even, that it could be too dangerous, but that's not what comes out of your mouth.

You think about how the three boys looked when they came in, how terrible it must have been for them, how much pain they'll be in for the next few weeks, how much work it'll be to get themselves back in working condition.

"I agree. Show those bastards what the Holland Mob is made of."

Chapter 7 >>

Masterlist

Ahem: @notyourcupofteax @dreamsarecloserwithyou @tomsirishgirlx @novaresque @b0kutoswaifu @iamasimpingh0e

[sailorhyunjinz]

Do you write yandere? If so, can I request skz yandere headcanons on how they would react when S/O rejects them because she doesn't wanna deal with whole drama that would come with dating an idol?

i mean kinda?? i have a seungmin yandere fic in my drafts sooo BUT YEAH

oh also, requests are not open but im just gonna do this one cause headcanons are kinda fun BUT REQUESTS ARE CLOSED <33

also why is the felix one so short-

Warnings; yandere!skz, rejection, k-dnapping, slight gaslightning or like manipulation, restraints, threats, aggression, mentions of masturbation, stockholm syndrome

Chan

nobody rejects him. nobody.

you two were friends from school and you were sooo happy when chan made it as an idol, finally persuing the dream he had been yapping on about for years. 

but in the midst of that he realized that he had feelings for you, he missed you all the time, just wanting to hang out with you and maybe explore the things he had on his mind. so,, he decided to confess when you guys were at a cafe.

“look y/n,,, there’s something I wanna tell you” he started to which you tilted your head

“nooo,,, are you guys going on a tour again,,, i wil miss you sooo much channie” you said with a pout but the boy shook his head.

“i like you y/n” 

your mouth stood agape, this was not what you expected and truthfully,,, not what you wanted. 

“chan,,, y-you know thats not possible” you said with a frown, looking at him straight ahead.

“of course it is,,, why wouldn’t it be? w-what are you trying to say y/n?!” his voice started growing louder, you looking around in order to see that people werent turning their heads towards your table. 

Minho

you have made a big big mistake my friend- 

wont even hesitate to keep you hostage in his basement LIKE IM NOT JOKING-

might just tie you up and like,,, not even do anything to you, just talk to you and admire you, maybe tracing your facial features and cuddle closer on the cold floor

just wants to keep you as a pet or smth and you are scared out of your mind cause you cant move cause of the restraints, you cant speak because you have silvertape across your lips that he only removes to feed you but if you start screaming you wont get any so you deicde to just stay calm and quiet before someone saves you and play along. 

i mean you do,,, kinda fall for him but you know you cant,, but you cant help but to fall for him and miss him whenever he’s out on schedule things

he always returns to you and you get so happy when you see the little crevice of light from outside when he opened the basement door

whenever he lies next to you, you put your head against his shoulder and take in his scent the best you can

he told you everyday that he would let you go if you agreed to date him but you shook your head,, maybe cause you liked being his prey. 

Changbin

he’s more of the threatening type of yandere,,, like,, not that he’s violent but if you try to block his number he will create new ones and keep on sending you messages about how you have betrayed him and how he wished that you loved him back and all that,,,,

you guys often meet because you go to the same college and are students in the same department sooo,,,, avoiding him is pretty impossible 

he stares a lot at you,,, you guys have a couple of classes together and he just stares the entire time, his eyes are just filled with revenge, he somehow wants you make you his, own you but he doesnt know how yet, for now he can just look.

watch this fucking message conversation just be this;

[why did you talk to him during class?]

[you could have just asked me]

[nobody loves you like i do. no one y/n]

you are never getting rid of him basically,,

he’s gonna get to you first ;))

Hyunjin

i feel like he goes more to the stalking route than the kidnapping and drugging and whatnot- 

ok,,, you rejected him,,, but that doesnt mean you’re getting rid of him.

ohmygod what if he turns into a peeping tom- cause he obviously knows where you live. 

like yall were not even that close?? he just saw you backstage at one of the concerts and thought you looked good so he decided to go up to, you werent an idol so no problem he thought.

but he gets a bit too,, hasty with his decisions and often falls for people randomly and so when he politely greeted you and gave you his number you simply shook your head, explaining that this wouldn’t be possible since you worked in the same industry and you needed to stay clear out of any scandals in order to keep your job. 

no was not answer in Hyunjins mind. 

luckily he managed to catch your full name by flickering through some papers in an office and also saw your full adress there, knowing exactly what he was going to do on his free time. 

Jisung

if im being completely honest,,, i have no idea-

like,,, he gives me kinda pervy yandere vibes,,,

what if youre like his ex before he became an idol and now he wants to get back together with you-

oh,,, he masturbates to your pictures-

i feel like he always thinks about you, wondering what you like and wants to write songs about you but he doesnt do much-

but when he finds out that you have been hired by the same company as him to work as a like,,, economics accountant thingy he is all of a sudden vEEERY interested-

always asking the manager of when the group will have meetings with the accounting team,,, although they had nothing to do with them-

he just wanted to be in a conference room with you (and think pervy things about you in your tight office skirt and white blouse)

you went to the toilet on day and you saw him lurking around the same floor,,, WHICH ONCE AGAIN WAS NOT CONNECTED TO THE GROUP AT ALL- 

and idk,,, probably sneaks in with you and locks the door before you even react that theres someone else in the toilet- 

i feel like he’s pretty mild,,, but when he’s alone with you he is aggressive broooo

probably pins you to the wall and threatens you or smth along those lines,,,,,

(writing this is what my life has become to-)

Felix

“what do you think you’re doing?”

you turn around again, you had just thought of just leaving with a vague answer to his question but he was not having it. 

“answer.” 

his words sounded cold, his dark voice making an entrace, the exact one you’ve heard on many of the songs you listened to.

“felix,,, you have to understand,,, u-um,, if we date theres gonna be some issues” you said but he just stared at you with cocky eyebrows and a dark gaze, running his tongue on the inside of his cheek.

“do you think i care? would i ask you if i cared?” he said to which you shook your head automatically, what more could you do?

“you get until tomorrow to think and if i don’t get the answer i want well,,, we’ll see what i’ll do to you.”

Seungmin

he plots shit behind your back yk?

he’s more of the sneaky type of yanderes (oop spoiler to a fic heh)

like he makes this like fucking year long plan where the objective of the mission is to make you obssessed with him-

he starts kinda subtely,,, first its going to the same gym as you and like,,, knowing where you placed your stuff

and then he starts putting small notes like under your waterbottle when you went to grab something that say like “i think youre cute, call me” and then his number

you obviously dont react,,, because why the fuck would you contact a stranger at the gym 

BUT THEN you realize that its him, its mf kim seungmin. yo,,,, u didnt know he went to this gym,,, that was not,,, the best-

of course you got a bit interested,,, you wanted to know how he was off camera,,, like just in his everyday life and i meeean,,, he was attractive but obviously you should stay away bc,,, he’s a celebrity but seungmin didnt want to stay away

he notes somehow started to get more aggressive,,, suddenly being like “why are you ignoring me?” and such,,,

and one night you were left alone in the gym with him,,, it was sooo quiet, only the sounds of your strained breaths as you lifted a dumbell

here where the plan came to play ;))

Jeongin

he’s obsessed with you and you are not going anywhere, even if you rejected him. 

he’s more clingy?? LIKE HE WILL NOT LEAVE YOU

ok sure,, he falls more into the stalking category too,,, 

also veeeery much a obssessed kinda yandere,,, like his mind is not thinking about how to like capture you,,, more about how to make you soooo comfortable and fool you into loving him despite the circumstances?

i just imagine that you work in a cafe and jeongin often meets you there when he buys coffee and you are already in awe when you see fucking yang jeongin enter the coffee shop on your shift but you were even more excited when he leaves his phone number on a napkin and slides it over the counter before leaving. 

you thought about it,,, contemplating multiple times but,,, you decided it would be best not to since well,,, safety purposes 

but he would visit you and every day his face got more and more perplexed cause he wondered why you didnt call

mf would not leave you alone, he would even wait outside the coffee shop until you finished your shift and walk you home,,, so now he knew where you lived- 

and then do the same thing over and over again until you talked to him.

does. not. give. up. 

[cartmankisser]

OKOK HEAR ME OUT CLYDE DONOVAN FLUFF ALPHABET

thwy did him so dirty in the post covid special thing :(

sammie i am so sorry this is from like december and was buried at the bottom on my drafts. just a heads up i am not doing full alphabets anymore (unless i really like the character so maybe give it a shot)

this is an old request please read my rules if u wanna learn more 🙏

putting it under the cut because it is long but no nsfw don't worry

Activities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?

likes to go on flashy dates, or dates where a lot of people would see you two together, especially people he knows. if he's feeling lazy (or out of money) then he's cool with just chilling. he really likes watching horribly rated movies and making fun of them/mocking the actors. also i can see him being overly cocky when it comes to board games

Beauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

he's not using you for your looks or anything, but damn aren't you hot. he's an honest man that can appreciate a pretty face, but personality wise he would have to say patient you are. a lot of people, including his friends, get frustrated at him so even if your upset or annoyed, you'll never actually leave him. he likes that a lot :)

Comfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?

he honestly doesn't know so has gonna give you a cheesy ass speech that he heard on a movie or something. you'll have to tell him how to help because homie's kinda dumb be patient he's trying his best

Dreams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?

probably something totally unrealistic like you guys are gonna be the next zendaya and tom holland. realistically if yall end up dating long term, it will be pretty much the same, but a bit less energetic and spontaneous

Equal - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?

id say you two are rather equal? he doesn't really mind, but around his friends he gets a bit embarrassed so he likes if you let him be all manly and show off at school

Fight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

bringing this back from the beginning of my account if u remember what post this is from ily to death

Gratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

oh he just adores everything you do for him. like you could pick him up his favorite soda on the way to his house and he would tear up at the fact that you remembered. it's kinda cute kinda dramatic 🤷🤷🤷

Honesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?

he couldn't keep a secret if he tried. he's not really problematic so you don't have to worry about him hiding anything bad from you anyways

Inspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?

he kinda lives inside his own little bubble,, dating you means that he gets to travel outside of his normal routine, even if it's just a little!! sleepovers on school nights, exploring where you shouldn't be, whatever! he loves doing in exciting stuff with you that he'd normally wouldn't

Jealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?

jealous often and easily, but it's more in a petty way than him actually getting angry at you. he just gets whiny and uses it as an excuse to get attention from you

Kiss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

mm average kisser i would say? he likes kissing you on the cheek a lot like idk he thinks it's super cute.

the first kiss was something spontaneous like you both were super excited and jumping around because of some good news and you both just looked at eachother for a second and leaned in i guess

Love Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?

he's a pussy i'm sorry he wouldn't make the first move unless he knew 100% that you were gonna say yes

that being said, once he knows you like him back, he goes all out, super flashy and obnoxious, just so everyone would see the confession and he could brag to them about how he's going out with the hottest person in school now

Marriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?

i'm gonna skip this one because i can't stand clyde in post covid 😓

Nicknames - What do they call their s/o?

anything he can think of. he googled pet names to call your s/o

but usually just babe. he whines it a lot like

"but baabbbbeeeeeeee"

On Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?

it's so obvious like he blushes and giggles like a schoolgirl whenever you're nearby,,,

PDA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?

mostly likes to put his hand on your lower back or an arm around your shoulder, but he also likes holding hands and giving you kisses on the cheek

but he will do as as much pda as you will let him,,,

Quirk - Some random ability they have that's beneficial in a relationship.

easily agreeable. arguments don't really happen 🤷

i think it's because hes pretty empathetic (and stupid)

Romance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?

he tries to be creative but mostly he likes small dates at either of your homes. like where you light candles and eat pizza and watch movies!!

besides from date, he's pretty cliche when it comes to romance, but it's super adorable

Support - Are they helping their s/o achieve their? Do they believe in them?

clyde is your biggest supporter

he would probably cheer you on if you wanted to kill someone

10/10 great cheerleader believes in you with all his heart

Thrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?

i mean, your routine is constantly all over the place, but he likes the controlled chaos!!

he needs a high energy routine to keep him entertained, but other than that he doesn't need much to spice up the relationship tbh

Understanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?

ive said it before i'll say it again. so empathetic he's cried for you.

on multiple occasions.

he's such a sweetheart he's so understanding of your problems and always wants to help you out

Value - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?

dude you mean the world to him. i don't know how else to say it but your really important to him.

i don't think he would ditch his friends for you if they already have plans together, but he would think about you the whole time

Wild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.

when he goes for hugs/cuddles, he will not let go. it doesn't matter if you're walking or if you have to pee, you aren't going anywhere 😭😭

XOXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

yes read the one above this ^^^

Zeal - Are they willing to go to great lenghts for the relationship? If so, what kind of?

he wouldn't kill or anything, but he would sacrifice a lot for you.

you really keep him happy and shining when he can't get out of bed and he knows he won't be the same without you

[spaceyflowers]

stuff about latest lookism chapters (390-398)

ok i finally caught up. originally i was just planning to read along with the webtoon but its kinda behind from the latest updates and i am.. so tired of trying to avoid spoilers 😭😭😭

here are some thoughts i wanna say !

-magami is my poor little meow meow and i love him with all my heart (more thoughts on him here <3)

-doo's character development 💪 his bromance with ryuhei was pretty sweet too <3

-i thought yall were joking when yall said ryuhei's backstory for liking mitsuki was "my dick dont work but when youre around it does [lip bite]" but it was real. holy shit.

-his romance with mitsuki was ok btw. im glad it was somewhat expanded outside of "you make my dick not broken ❤️" but i still dont think he had enough of a reason to like mitsuki so much he'd lay his life down for her. all he liked were little surface level details about her ?? 😭 ("she smiles at even little things you do for her" ok bro..)

-but idk maybe surface level attraction is all he needs to feel ready to do Anything for someone which is... just sad. either way he and mitsuki should not become a couple 💀

-w.... why is cap guy obsessed with strong guys

-i hate tom lee. seriously. i dont want to see anymore of him and his creepy ass "danglers" thing.

-BIG DEAL IS HAPPY AND REUNITED EXCEPT FOR SAMUEL AAGGGRRHGHGG 💔💔💔💔💔💔

-SO HAPPY FOR WARREN AND SALLY <33

-PTJ WHEN WILL CHEONGLIANG ARC COME OUT I WANT TO SEE VIN JIN AND MARY'S BACKSTORIES AND HAVE MC PESITCIDES BE RELEVANT AGAIN. ALSO FINDING OUT WHAT EXACTLY HAPPENED WITH THE MURDER VIN JIN APPARENTLY COMMITTED

-i just want more family agendas to sob over ok. cheongliang fam looks like a tragedy story i want to know what happened

-gun is such a freak <3 and i still wonder what the hell went thru his mind when he put on that hideous fit

-i pray for little and big daniel's survivals from their own personal hells

-also praying for zack and whatever the hell he's gonna go thru with that "crazy monk" 😭 ??? i also really hope this is the last act in his inferiority complex character arc thing bc i feel like it's been dragging on for too long 💔

-for zack's part, too; was absolutely wild seeing characters (cho ma and daegong ji) we havent seen since lookism was actually about lookism and not gang wars lmao

-what did eugene mean by hes gonna bring xiaolung back. my mans got his legs broken by jake. whatre yall gonna do, give him some batshit leg surgery to fix him up????? (im pretty sure its implied jake broke his legs beyond repair ?? or like. are u telling me a few months have passed and xiaolung is perfectly healed and ready to fight ?)

-jinyoung is a freak but him crying over that flashback with him and gapryong arm wrestling as they had fun bantering... i guess they did have a genuine bromance? what were gapryong's goals exactly?

-wonder how the mystery (?) with gapryong's death and jake's older bro is gonna all unfold

-lua im is ...... something! (more thoughts on my post about her here)

-i still hate johan's new haircut

-ALSO I HOPE ELI AND HOSTEL/RUNAWAY FAM STAY SAFE...... cool to see manager kim again tho 😭

afterthoughts

-will crystal be relevant anytime soon. what about her two bodies.

-i still miss jay 😭 his dad is way more involved than him???? youd think maybe jay would be more involved, too, then, but nope hes just gonna stay queer bait ig... no hope for ptj but i still wish jay got to do more with the story than be devoted to daniel bc he has an interesting design/vague backstory to be expanded upon and his dad is literally someone the main character daniel is teaming up with to take down the antagonist like ????!

-sobs.... j high gang... i miss the girls and burn knuckles 💔

-i dont know how to feel about daniel's current character arc. i understand his feelings but i honestly dislike seeing characters say "i dont want to depend on people anymore so im gonna get stronger on my own" 😭😭😭 like sure, hun, but dont leave all your friends behind to go ask an insane person like gun for help ?!

[words-for-holland]

Always Yours

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Summary: Sometimes dating a celebrity is hard...but Tom & Y/N have always said no matter what happens they could get through anything. Some angst but a lot of fluff.

A/N: So sorry for leaving yall hanging! Life is just crazy right now and this blog needs a lot of TLC tbh!! Also ehh I def dont think this was my best work but enjoy?

“Oof” Y/N lets out as she plops on to her boyfriend who was lying comfortable on the couch. Tom groaned at the impact with a cheeky smile on his face, his arms instantly wrapping around Y/N’s frame.

“Y’know..there are empty seats right there.” The soft brown-eyed boy gestured with the flick of his thick head as Y/N raises her eyes looking down at him, pretending to be slightly offended.

“Oh I see how it is then. It’s cool...Ill just cuddle with Tessa instead. I know she would welcome me with open arms instead of—” As she slowly starts getting off his chest, Tom is quick to pull her back in, securing her with his strong arms. “No baby, I was just kidding. I want you right here, and Im never letting you go.” he pleas.

The only thing Y/N could manage was letting out a fit of giggles into his chest, a sound that Tom adored and would do absolutely anything to hear every minute of every day. They stay like this for a while enjoying the feeling of each other as they both run their hands into each others hair, the feeling of their chests moving up and down, the subtle thumps of their heartbeats, and the little slips of adoration that came out of their mouths. It was peaceful. A moment that nobody could really take a way because it was theirs.

Y/N casually pulls up her phone, and scrolls through Twitter when she noticed a particular tweet on her timeline. Her eyebrows furrow, as she read the 160 character message.

Why Tom Holland Should Be With Aaliyah Cole and Dump Y/N: A Thread.

She knew it wasnt a good idea to open up the thread. She knew very well that everything within the shallow string of tweets would be a complete waste of her time because it was made up by fans who just wanted to satisfy their fantasy of shipping Tom with his co-star. Who can blame them? They always had great chemistry, but it was part of the job and thats all it would ever be.

“You’re awfully quiet.” Tom murmurs, as he places soft kisses at the crown of her head. “Whats going on?” She was lucky her phone was facing away from Tom, quickly closing the app and pretending to be on one of her many tabs in Safari.

“Mmm..nothing.” Y/N lies softly, a tight-lipped smiled plastered on her face.

“Absolute bullocks. Youre not a very good liar.” He chuckles. “Tell me darling. Whats on your mind?”

Y/N rolls her eyes in response. She’s heard that comment one too many times in her life from everyone shes known. After not giving it much thought, she gives in, sighing heavily. “Dont judge me for what Im about to say.”

“Mmm...I think it might depend on wha— Ow” Tom reacts as he playfully rubs the side of his chest that Y/N hit. “Okay too soon for jokes. Go on.”

Again, Y/N sighs as she props herself up. “Its just ... well a lot of your fans keeps talking about wanting you to get with Aaliyah.” She looks down trying not to make eye contact with Tom, who she’d imagine was looking at her with annoyance.

Tom rolls his eyes at the ridiculousness. Not so much at Y/N but the fact that some of his fans just didnt want to accept the fact that he was happy with Y/N. If it had to come from his mouth to stop the stupid rumors and give his girlfriend peace, then hed gladly yell it from the rooftops for everyone to hear. “Thats it Im making a statement about it.”

Y/N’s eyes widen in fear, scrambling to prevent him from grabbing his phone on the table next him. “No no no no.” She repeatedly declines. “You’ll only make it worse.”

“Darling, Im not going to stand here and watch you get all insecure because of their delusional ship.”

“Yeah well Im not gonna be the reason your fans hate me because Im getting in the way of your friendship with Aaliyah Cole.” She fires back.

Tom was ready to open his mouth only to be cut off once again. “And you know better. That is how your fans will always see it.”

“Okay, are you done?” He calmly asked, cautiously observing her. Rarely did Y/N ever get worked up about anything, but when she had her tangents, Tom always made sure she got off everything she needed to say before he becomes her voice of reason.

“Yeah, I guess.” she says feeling defeated. “Look its whatever and Im tired, can we just let this go and forget this whole conversation even happened?”

Tom was unconvinced, but didnt want to push her further. So reluctantly, he gave in and wrapped his arms around Y/N as they both tried to lull themselves to sleep.

***

Y/N wasnt sure how she ended up in the Tube. It was strange how the lights flickered off the rusted tile floor. The train was no where to be seen, but off to the side of the railroads was pitch black, she could hardly see beyond. To her right she noticed herself standing in the corner of the room, and to her surprise Aaliyah was there. Her milk chocolate kissed skin, and fashionably long frizzy hair dropped down past her shoulders. Her figure long and poised, as she wore a rain jacket and sweats. An outfit only she could pull off and make it look like she was a model for Vogue. Aasliyah smiles brightly at Y/N.

“Hey Y/N.” She says cheerfully as a genuine friend would.

To Y/N’s surprise she greeted her back in the same tone. “Hey Aaliyah...uhh whats going on?” Y/N wasnt sure if she wanted the answer of how they both ended up in the Tube or if she truly wanted to know how her day went.

“Well Im getting ready to present at the Oscars.” She replies, a smile plastered as if she was so excited about it, almost too excited like she was keeping a secret.

“Really? Oh my god, that’s amazing! Im so proud of you Aaliyah! Who are you taking?”

Aaliyah pauses for a few moment looking back and forth, making sure no one else was around. “Okay can you keep a secret?” She whispered.

Y/N nods her head slowly, not having the slightest clue of what was going on. “Im taking Tom. I think he really likes me, and well...I like him too! Do you think maybe I should ask him when we go?” Aaliyah asked genuinely. It was almost like she had no recollection of Y/N and Tom being a couple. “I think we would look good together. Everyone is already making rumors and ships about us.”

Y/N backs aways lowly only to bump into a broad figure. As she turns around she sees Tom, emotionless and almost sad. “Y/N.” He speaks out. “I dont think this is going to work out. Im leaving you.”

Y/N’s heart quickens, and her breaths become shorter as she tries to find a way to run. Running and running into the darkness, until all she could hear was Tom’s faint voice calling out her name.

***

“Y/N! Y/N! Baby wake up please.” Tom cries as he gently shakes his girlfriend from her disturbed sleep.

Quickly Y/N opens her eyes and clutches on to Toms hoodie firmly. Back home, and in Toms arms. It was a dream was all she thought. A sigh of relief escaping from her mouth.

“Darling...” he speaks softly, worried about his girlfriend. “Are you okay?”

Y/N looks up at him and nods frantically. “Mmm..bad dream.”

“Yeah it seemed like it. You were so frightened...I was scared. What happened?” He’s looking at her, trying to read her saddened eyes, wanting to desperately understand what scared her so he could make it all go away for her.

Y/N looks down at her fiddling hands, as she sits on the couch. “I uhh...” she lets out a chuckle, thinking of the ridiculousness of it all. “I uhh...dreamed about Aaliyah going to the oscars and saying how she loved you and how you two are perfect for each other. When I turned around I saw you but you werent happy and said you were leaving me.”

Tom doesnt say a word, all he could think about was how sorry he felt to put Y/N in this position. Though both of them knew, It wasnt Toms fault, or anyone’s for that matter. Feelings are feelings and that was okay. No human being was ever born perfect and without insecurities.

Y/N always tried to be a good sport with situations like this knowing every shippers theory and evidence were hardly ever true, but at some point there was only so much she could take before it all came out like an oil spill. Maybe it was a sign that she wasnt good enough to be with Tom if half of his fanbase thought this way as well.

Tom cradled her into his arms again, holding her tightly and kissing the top of her head. “Darling, I know youre still doubting yourself about all of this, but please believe me when I tell you that I love you so so much and no matter what happens...Im always yours.” He whispers gently in her ear. “It was only a dream and these ridiculous rumors and theories are just that. No one woman in the world could ever make me feel the way I feel for you.”

Y/N blinks softly, as she stares into space. Afraid and in a weird way ashamed, its funny how something so small and so minimal could affect her self-esteem so greatly. Tom gently brings her head up, so her eyes can meet his. He rolls his thumb on the bottom of her soft lips. “Hey, I love you.” Tom smiles.

Time stopped for the both of them the moment Y/N looked into his eyes, she felt safe. All the bad words and thoughts slowly disappear. Tom was right, none of the things that anyone said about their relationship mattered. She knew Tom loved her, and how much she truly loved him. Isnt that enough? Of course not. It was more than enough. A smile slowly forming on Y/N’s face. “Theres that smile I love so much.” He comments.

“Im sorry, for being such a —”

“No. Its okay. You have a right to feel the way you did.” He picks up her hand and leaves a gentle kiss.

“I love you so much Tom.” She says pressing her lips to his. “I dont deserve you.”

“Darling, its me that doesnt deserve you. Im always yours.” Tom proclaims as he kisses her back.