#also this is my first time hearing of this book and it's like okay now i see where all these sexist dating culture things come from
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Teacher's Pet Baby
First Time
Cg!Professor!Wanda Maximoff x little!student!reader
Summary: You slip during class for the first time and it doesn't go unnoticed
Word count: 1.4K
Warnings: Age regression, mild anxiety, emotional vulnerability, fluff and comfort
Authors notes: After writing the first part this had started to come to mind so it was nice to get it all written out~
Also, to all the littles, seeing this, please tred lightly on this blog! This is my big 18+ blog, but I do have some little!reader fics. Everything is marked accordingly!
The first few weeks of class were nothing out of the ordinaryâexcept for the way you found yourself drawn to Professor Maximoff. There was something about the way she spoke, how her voice carried both authority and warmth, that made you want to listen more intently. You were eager to impress her, to ask every question that popped into your head, just to see that soft smile she reserved for students who showed genuine curiosity.
You didnât know what it was that made you crave her attention so badly, but you knew that every time she praised you, something deep inside you warmed, a feeling of safety and validation that you couldnât quite explain.
Then, one day, as you flipped the page in your textbook, your eyes landed on the title printed in bold letters at the top:
Coping Mechanisms: Age Regression
Your stomach twisted immediately.
Two whole pages on the subject, defining it, explaining how it functioned as a response to stress or trauma. You barely heard Wanda begin her lecture, your mind spiraling as you felt yourself slipping, your fingers tightening around the edge of the book.
It wasnât until you heard the soft laughterâquiet, but unmistakableâthat the dread fully set in.
"People actually do this?" one student muttered under their breath.
"Thatâs so weird." Another scoffed, shaking their head.
Your breath hitched, and you had to blink rapidly to stop the tears from forming. They didnât know. They had no idea that right here, in the same room, was someone who didâwho couldnât help it, whose mind sometimes reverted without warning. You wanted to shrink, to disappear, but before the panic could settle in further, Wandaâs voice cut through the murmurs, firm and unwavering.
"Thatâs enough," she said sharply, silencing the room in an instant.
All eyes snapped toward her, and you dared to look up. Her expression was serious, her usual soft demeanor replaced by something strict and protective.
"I expect professionalism in my class," she continued, her gaze sweeping over the students. "We are here to learn, not to ridicule others for coping mechanisms that are valid and often necessary for mental health." She let her words settle before adding, "If anyone here finds it difficult to show respect for psychological concepts that people actually experience, then perhaps this is not the right field for you."
Silence.
Your hands trembled slightly in your lap, but for an entirely different reason now. No one had ever defended you like that before. No one had ever made you feel like what you didâwhat you wereâwas okay.
Wandaâs gaze flickered to you for just a moment, softer now, like she knew. Like she had already pieced something together but wouldnât call attention to it. Instead, she resumed her lecture, effortlessly guiding the class back on track, leaving you sitting there with a heart racing for a whole new reason.
From that moment on, you werenât just drawn to Wanda Maximoff. You needed her.
As the lecture came to an end and you were trying to pack up Wanda called you over, "Have a good night everyone and remember to do the reading and get your assignment done for Monday's class! Oh and y/n please stay a moment. I'd like to discuss something with you."Â
Your heart was pounding so hard you were sure Wanda could hear it. You werenât in troubleâat least, she didnât sound upsetâbut you still couldnât shake the nerves twisting inside you.
She had never asked you to stay after class before.
You stayed frozen, hands gripping the edge of your desk as you watched her move. But instead of standing over you like a professor scolding a student, she did something entirely unexpectedâshe walked to the door, locked it with a soft click, and then made her way over to you.
Wanda crouched down in front of your desk, leaning against it with an easy, open posture. Her smile was gentle, and when her warm eyes met yours, something inside you softened, though your body still trembled slightly.
"Hi, sweetheart," she murmured, her voice filled with nothing but kindness. "You're feeling pretty small right now, arenât you?"
You swallowed thickly. It was impossible to hide, not when she knew, when she could see right through you. Words felt too hard, too big, so you just nodded, blinking rapidly as emotion threatened to well up in your chest.
"Thatâs okay, sweetie," she assured, her tone soothing as she reached out, resting a hand over yours for just a moment. "This was your last class, right?"
You nodded again.
"I have papers to grade," she continued. "You and I can stay right here, okay?"
Another nod. This time, accompanied by a tiny, shy smile.
Wandaâs expression softened even further. She stood up, her fingers reaching out to gently comb through your hair, the touch grounding in a way you didnât even know you needed.
"Youâre safe with me, Malyshka," she whispered.
ââ â â â â
While Wanda graded her papers you decided to draw, pulling out your crayons and drawing pad. Wanda let her eyes flick up every so often to watch you. Her expression softened as she saw you so concentrated, your tongue just poking out past your lips.Â
She wanted to giggle, but worried it might upset you so she held back, turning her attention back to her papers until she heard you get up, feet padding over to her. She looked up past her glasses.Â
"Yes sweetheart?" She asked softly, "Do you have something to show me?" You nodded eagerly and turned the page around.
Wanda let a warm smile tug at her lips as she examined the drawing, her heart melting at the sight of it. You had drawn yourself much smaller, hand held securely in hers, your features simple but unmistakably you. Wandaâs own figure was a little more detailedâher hair a mess of crayon strokes, her glasses perched delicately on her noseâbut the most touching detail was the way your hands were clasped together.
Wanda ran her fingers over the crayon lines, her chest tightening in the best way as she admired your drawing. It was simple, childlike, but so full of love that it made her heart ache.
"You did such a good job, sweetheart," she murmured, looking up at you with a soft smile. "I love it, Malyshka."
Your lips curled up, eyes sparkling at her praise. You rocked on your heels, waiting, hopeful, and Wanda knew exactly what you needed. She set her papers aside, focusing entirely on you.
"Come here, baby," she said gently, opening her arms. "Come sit with Mama."
The second the word left her lips, she felt itâthe way you froze. Your happy sway stopped, your hands clenched slightly at your sides. You blinked at her, uncertainty flickering in your expression as you searched her face.
"Mama?" you echoed, your voice barely above a whisper.
Wanda stayed perfectly still, giving you space to process. She hadnât called herself that before, at least not out loud, though she had thought about it more times than she could count.
"Only if you want me to be, sweetheart," she assured softly, her voice steady, warm. "I would never make you do something youâre not comfortable with."
You shifted on your feet, fingers curling against the fabric of your sleeves. "But... do you want to be?"
Wandaâs breath caught for just a moment before she exhaled, nodding. "I do," she admitted, her hand resting gently on her knee, not reaching for you, just waiting. "Iâd love to take care of you in whatever way you need."
You stared at her, the hesitation clear in your expression. But beneath it, Wanda could see something elseâlonging, hope, the deep desire for safety and care.
She kept her voice soft. "You donât have to decide right now, Malyshka."
You bit your lip, shifting your weight from foot to foot before, slowly, you stepped closer. Wanda didnât move, letting you take the lead, and after a brief pause, you finally climbed onto her lap, settling hesitantly against her.
Wanda wrapped her arms around you carefully, rubbing soothing circles along your back.
You stayed stiff for a moment before you melted into her, resting your head against her shoulder. A soft sigh left you as your fingers grasped at her sweater, holding onto her like you were afraid she might disappear.
Wanda pressed a gentle kiss to your temple, her lips brushing against your warm skin. "I've got you, sweetheart. Always."
And this time, you didnât hesitate to believe her.
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Another Azzi fic! I just feel like she'd be the sweetest girl ever. Hope you all enjoy! Constructive criticism is always welcome :D Find my masterlist here :)
Pairing(s): Azzi Fudd x female!reader Word count: 6.2k+ Warnings: Cursing, stuttering Summary: In which your voice isn't the only thing that stutters, but your heart as well. ------------
UConn was the place to be if you wanted to be someone in the world. To some people, at least. You were one of them. Youâve wanted to go to UConn since you were 11 years old, and now, 7 years later, youâre living the dream.Â
Okay, maybe living the dream was a slight overexaggeration that you told your parents to make them stop worrying about you. But you were happy. You were studying something you actually cared about and werenât struggling all that much. So what if you didnât live the typical college student life, going to parties every week? Youâd much rather curl up in bed with a good book and some great music. And so what if you didnât have any friends? You didnât need anyone. Youâd gone through your life alone for most of it anyway.
Whenever your parents asked, however, you always lied about how much fun you were having with your new besties. You just didnât want them worrying about you when you were miles from home. You also didnât want to hear your mom nag about how you need to go out more and actually talk to people. Youâd tried that when you were younger, but it just didnât work.
The whole making friends thing wouldnât be so bad if you didnât suffer from social anxiety and didnât also have a speech impediment. Youâve had a pretty bad stutter your entire life, which always gets worse when youâre nervous. And so nerves make the stutter worse, which makes the nerves worse, which means you get stuck in a vicious cycle. Always being left a stammering mess at the slightest inconvenience.Â
It was really bad when you were still young. The kids in your school constantly bullied you for being different. Theyâd always mock you and tease you but pretend to be nice kids when the teachers were around. It took you a while to tell your parents about the abuse you suffered in school, but when you finally did, they let you stay home. So you were homeschooled for most of your life. Your parents couldnât exactly give you a whole college degree at home, though. So now you were at UConn!
Thankfully, youâre mainly surrounded by mature adults now, so the bullying was over. That sadly didnât mean that they understood, though. Most people donât really have the patience to listen to someone when they can barely say 2 words without a stutter coming through. You can see it in their eyes, the way they dart around the room, looking for an escape. Or you can tell by the way they try to help by finishing your sentences for you. You suppose itâs nice of them to try to help, but in reality, itâs just annoying. It completely throws you off, making you forget what youâre trying to say. Or it just makes you feel like an inconvenience.
So yeah, you didnât really try to socialize with the students around you. Youâd accepted your lonely life a long time ago and had made your peace with it. You never raised your hand in class, emailing the professor when you had any questions. You avoided group projects, opting to do all the work alone over having to deal with the anxiety of talking to your peers. So, maybe it wasnât the best life you were living, but you tried to make the most out of it.
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Youâre making your way out of the library when you first bump into her. Youâd planned on getting some studying done in a quiet corner, surrounded by the smell of books, but the universe had other plans. Or, well, all the other students with the same idea did. The library is filled to the brim with people, so youâll have to make do with studying in a coffee shop nearby.Â
You grip your books a little tighter as you walk, eyes trained on the floor. You donât notice the athlete making her way towards you until you crash into her. You fall down, dropping your textbooks along with the articles youâd planned to read. You quickly get up into a crouch as you start collecting your stuff, as well as the papers from the person youâd run into. âS-s-s-s-orry,â you mutter, still not looking up as your face turns red with embarrassment from both running into someone and your stammered apology. A hand enters your view as the person helps you grab everything.Â
âDonât worry about it,â you hear a female voice say. You finally glance up and freeze for a moment. The angelic voice belonged to an actual angel. Your heart skips a few beats as you feel your mouth drop open a little. The girl in front of you might just be the prettiest girl youâve ever seen. Even though sheâs crouched down, you can tell sheâs tall and athletic. She has big, beautiful eyes that twinkle in the light. Her soft-looking lips are curved into a sweet smile. A smile that reaches her eyes and can melt the heart of anyone.
Once youâve both grabbed everything, the brunette stands up, one hand holding some books as the other is stretched out towards you, ready to pull you up. You accept her hand as you stand up. Her hand feels both soft and rough at the same time. You smile awkwardly at her as she looks at the items sheâs holding, trying to figure out which ones are hers and which ones are yours. You stare at her a moment longer before looking through your own pile.Â
âOh my God, you also have Mr. Davis? Is he also such an assh- I mean, is he also super strict in your class?â She asks, a small grin forming on her face at her slip up. She tilts her head a little as she waits for an answer. You swallow harshly, hoping you wonât completely embarrass yourself in front of the goddess standing before you. âYeah, heâs p-p-p-pretty s-s-s-strict,â you mutter, clenching your jaw in annoyance at the stammer. You prepare for the inevitable. The classic âWhy are you stuttering? Are you nervous?â or maybe the typical awkward smile as people try to get away from having a conversation with you.
Youâre surprised to see and hear none of that. Instead, the girlâs smile softens just a bit, her eyes still looking into yours. âI have an assignment of his due tomorrow, and I honestly have no clue what Iâm doing. Heâs also too much of a jerk to give people an extension, so Iâm screwed,â she huffs as her lips form into a pout. She straightens up a bit, her smile returning. âIâm so sorry, I just realized I never introduced myself! Iâm Azzi,â she grins, stretching out her hand to shake yours. You hesitantly shake it as you open your mouth to speak. âIâm Y/N,â you reply, exhaling a sigh of relief when you donât stutter.
Youâre about to hand Azzi her papers when you see the assignment she was talking about. It was the same one youâd finished working on yesterday, and it was definitely not an easy one. Before you can overthink it, you start speaking. âI can help you if you w-w-want?âÂ
The brunetteâs smile becomes even wider. âReally? Youâd do that?â You can already feel regret bubbling up in your chest as you realize youâll have to talk a lot if you want to help her. You almost back out, but you canât. Not when Azzi is looking at you with those wide, hopeful eyes.
âMhm,â you hum as you shrug your shoulders. âThank you so much! Are you free right now?â she asks as she taps her fingers against the spine of the book sheâs holding. You open your mouth to reply, but shut it again, instead choosing to simply nod. âAlright, letâs go,â she grins. She starts making her way to the library when you gently grab her arm to stop her. âThe library is f-f-full. Wanna go to a c-c-coffee sh-sh-shop?â You ask, nervously scratching your arm.Â
âSure! Have you been to the one that only just opened? I swear their coffee is the best I've ever had,â she claims, leading the way. You shake your head as you follow her. The whole way to the cafĂ©, Azzi talks about everything and nothing. From Mr. Davisâ class to her upcoming basketball game (You knew it, there was no way she wasnât an athlete!).Â
You listen to her voice, nodding and shaking your head at the right times. You reply when she has questions, but you try to avoid talking when you can. Whenever you do speak, however, your heart swells a little. Not once does the brunette try to hurry you up or talk over you. She patiently waits for you, the smile on her face never leaving.
When you reach the shop, the athlete tells you sheâll order the drinks as you go find a seat. You give her your order with a small smile before finding a table. Once Azzi has the drinks, she hands you yours and plops down with a smile. You grab your wallet to pay her back, but she holds up her hand to stop you. âNo, no, itâs okay! Consider this payment for your help.âÂ
You start shaking your head, ready to tell her she doesnât have to pay you for that. You donât get the chance to, however, as Azzi gives you a playful glare. You sag your shoulders with a huff, but a smile makes its way onto your face as you hear the brunette giggle.
âAlright, letâs get this show on the road,â she says, looking at you with hopeful eyes. You give her a firm nod as you crack your knuckles. You spend the next 45 minutes explaining the assignment, giving examples, and showing her a step-by-step on how to solve the issue. Once she finally understands, she makes the task before looking at you for approval. You quickly scan the page as a bright smile makes its way to your face. You show her 2 thumbs up as she cheers, leaning back in her seat with relief.Â
You canât believe youâd just spend almost an hour with someone who wasnât a family member, and you didnât even feel bad once. Every time you got stuck on a word, the brunette would just calmly wait for you to continue. Sheâd look at you with kind eyes and a relaxed posture, never once getting annoyed or losing her patience.
Itâs silly how you havenât even known Azzi for a day, but you already feel so safe in her company. Is this what it was like to have a friend? You feel a pit grow in your stomach as you realize youâll both go your own ways again soon and probably wonât ever talk again. Because sure, Azzi didnât mind spending some time with you, but itâs not like sheâd want to be your friend and deal with you all the time, right?
You get shaken out of your thoughts as the athlete speaks again. âHow about we exchange numbers? You seem like a cool person to hang out with outside of school stuff,â she says, her pearly whites on display. You stare at her in shock for a moment. It feels like you somehow ended up in a movie. The pretty and popular jock befriending the shy, nerdy girl.Â
âI mean, we donât have to if you donât wanna! No pressure!â She continues as you donât reply. âN-n-no! Thatâd be n-n-n-n-,â you sigh in frustration as you clench your fist. âJesus Christ, can I please just speak like a normal person for once?â You think to yourself. A warm hand lands on your clenched one. You look into Azziâs eyes as she sends you an encouraging nod.Â
âExchanging n-n-numbers would be n-nice,â you stammer, but you donât break eye contact. The athlete grins as she grabs her phone and hands it to you. You try to suppress the disappointment that goes through you when Azzi takes her hand off of yours. You give her your own phone before quickly adding yourself as a new contact in hers. A tiny grin curls on your lips as you see hers. âAzzi đđžđ©·â
âI need to head off. âve got practice soon, but weâll talk, yeah?â The basketball player states as she starts getting up. You follow her lead, planning on leaving your own schoolwork for some other time. You think you deserve some time to relax after how well youâd done this afternoon. âOkay, good luck at p-p-practice,â you mumble with a grin. She sends one of her own in return, as well as a playful wink, before leaving. For a minute you stand still in the quiet coffee shop, your chest warm but light.Â
The smile on your face doesnât leave for the rest of the day.
You donât hear from Azzi the next day, but you donât mind. (Really, you didnât. You just kept checking your phone to uh⊠see if your mom had any updates on her newest plants! Or maybe your dad needed some help with his e-mails again!). Maybe it wouldâve been too good to be true. What are the chances an angel like her would want to befriend you?
The following day, you donât expect anything, either. You figure Azzi just wanted to be polite and didnât actually want to hang out again. Youâre in the middle of writing a boring essay when your phone buzzes. You know you shouldnât look, being well aware that youâll get distracted and push aside your work. But what if youâd gotten an important message? You eye your phone for a few seconds before rolling your eyes and grabbing it. Your breath catches in your throat as you see itâs from your⊠friend? Acquaintance? From Azzi.
She sent a picture of her assignment with a few happy faces. The assignment has a big red A marked on the corner. Your heart fills with happiness at the fact that she let you know she did well. You quickly send a reply congratulating her, your homework completely forgotten.Â
Azzi immediately sees the message and starts typing. You quickly close out of the messages as you bite your nail nervously. When your phone buzzes once more, you look at the text through your notification bar, too anxious to let her know youâre reading it.
âDo you have any classes left today?â The message reads. You open the app again as you reply, âNope, what about you?â You press send before throwing your phone on the bed next to you as you get up and pace around. You were glad the brunette was texting you, but at the same time, it made your anxiety skyrocket.
Buzz buzz
âIâm free for the rest of the dayâ âWanna get lunch together to celebrate? My treat, as a thanksâ
Your cheeks blaze a bright red at the invitation. You quickly start replying. âLunch sounds nice :) Also you really donât have to do that! You already paid for my coffee!!â You bite your lip anxiously, scared youâre coming on too strong with the exclamation marks. âThat was a thank you for explaining the assignment, this is a thank you for getting me an A đâ You shake your head in amusement. âIâm not going to be able to change your mind, am I?â
A giggle escapes your mouth as you see her react with a đ. Your smile drops when you read her next message. âText me your dorm number, Iâll come pick you upâ You freeze for a moment, realizing youâre about to hang out with a pretty girl for the second time this week, and this time, you had time to prepare. Sure, it wasnât a lot of time, but enough to make you panic about how you can fix your appearance quickly to somewhat look okay.Â
You text her your room number before getting up and running to your closet. You stumble out of your pajama pants while simultaneously trying to take off your coffee-stained shirt. You hurriedly put together an outfit that looks nice but doesnât make it seem like youâre trying too hard. After a lot of tumbling and cursing, you finally finish getting dressed. You spin around your room a few times trying to locate your hairbrush while also attempting to put on your shoes.
Once youâre happy with your appearance, you sit down on your bed and take a deep breath. âChill before you give yourself a panic attack,â you think to yourself. Once youâve calmed down a bit, you walk over to your desk and grab everything youâll need later. You take one last look around your room, making sure youâve not forgotten anything, when you hear a knock on your door. You wipe your sweaty hands on your pants before making your way towards the door.
âHi,â Azzi says with a beaming smile. âHi,â you grin back. You lock your door behind you before making your way down the hall with the athlete beside you. âI honestly still canât believe I got an A on that assignment. I didnât even know Mr. Davis gave people Aâs.â Azzi starts the conversation.Â
âYeah, he r-r-rarely gives out Aâs, and f-f-f-for some r-r-r-reason h-h-h-e,â you huff in annoyance with how much youâre struggling to speak right now. You shake your head a little, letting the brunette know she can ignore you. You feel a familiar heat crawl up your face.
You knew this would happen. You were hanging out with someone you barely know, who is extremely pretty, and who is definitely way too cool to be your friend. Itâs a surprise youâve been able to say some words without stuttering, with the nerves youâre feeling.
âHe what?â Azzi asks, looking at you with wide eyes, her head slightly tilted with interest. Your blush burns even brighter, but this time itâs not from embarrassment but rather the adoration you have for the taller girl. âH-he seems to h-h-h-,â you clear your throat, taking a quick glance at Azzi. She still has that easy, calming smile on her face as she listens to you. âhate to give p-p-people an A⊠Which d-d-doesnât make sense, because heâs a t-t-teacher, so he should be happy that his s-s-s-students score well.â
Youâre surprised with yourself. You try to avoid talking as much as you can, but with Azzi itâs different. She listens to you. Really listens to you. It makes you actually want to have proper conversations with her. Because sheâs the only person outside of your family and speech therapist that doesnât seem to judge you.
Azzi chuckles as she nods her head. âYeah, it makes no sense at all. I hate teachers like that! Why become a professor if youâre gonna hate your job and students?â You send her a grin before looking away. You continue to listen to the athlete ramble about the professors she loves and hates, adding your own opinions as well.Â
You spend hours with the girl. The lunch âdateâ spilling over into a walk around campus as you both enjoy each otherâs company. You make sure to have a pit stop for ice cream, giving the employee your card before Azzi has the chance to pay again. When hours have passed, and the skies have become a mix of oranges, pinks, and purples, you finally decide to call it a day.
The brunette walks you back to your dorm before wishing you a goodnight with the promise of another hangout soon. You give her a tiny salute, regretting it immediately when you realize what youâre doing. Your regret melts away the second you hear Azziâs sweet laugh, her eyes crinkling as she smiles widely. She shakes her head in amusement and adoration as she gives you a salute back before leaving.Â
Not long after sheâs gone, you get a message saying she made it to her dorm safely. You heart the message before getting ready for bed. Your chest feels warm with giddiness as you crawl underneath your blanket. Once you finally fall asleep, you dream of a beautiful, tall girl holding your hand as you walk on the beach, without a worry in the world.
The following weeks, you and Azzi text every day. You give each other updates on how classes are going, talk about your families, and laugh at each otherâs silly stories. You even arrange some more hangouts. Youâve already made plans to meet up at the library to study together, the coffee shop to give life updates, and even your dorm for movie nights.Â
Your heart feels light when your parents ring you for their scheduled video call. You tell them about the new friend youâve made and how much youâve been enjoying university lately. Your chest is free from the familiar ache, as you donât have to lie to them for once. Youâre in the middle of recounting your latest adventure with the tall girl when your phone buzzes. You pause your story for a moment, glancing at the message. âIs that her?â Your mom interrogates you with a tiny smirk. You roll your eyes at her, but you canât hide the smile thatâs growing on your face.
âMhm,â you hum. âShe wants to h-hang out later,â you reply as your eyes linger on your phone. âWeâll let you go then, sweetie,â your dad says with an affectionate wink. Youâre glad they donât tease you any longer, saying their goodbyes. The second your laptop screen goes dark, you snatch up your phone, typing a reply. âSounds good!â
âGreat! Would you mind if my team also comes over? They wanna meet youâ Azzi replies. You feel a pit form in your stomach but feel a bit calmed when you see the next message come in. âYou can totally say no! No pressure :)â You feel your heart swell two sizes as you read the comforting words. The brunette always made sure you were comfortable, never making you do anything you werenât into. She always picked up on your anxiety the second you started feeling nervous. Sheâd even googled all the ways you can help someone out of a panic attack after learning you struggled with them sometimes.
Azzi is your first ever friend, and youâre extremely grateful to have her in your life. You hope you two will stay friends for a long time, which is why you hate yourself for falling for her. She can never find out. Sheâd probably finally realize that being your friend wasnât a good idea, and then youâd be all alone again.Â
You donât realize youâve zoned out until your phone buzzes again. âY/N seriously, donât worry about it! I can see youâve read my messages and I know youâre probably freaking out but you donât have to, Iâll tell them now isnât a great time :))â
You immediately start typing back. âNo no! Iâd love to meet them too! When should I come over?â Azzi was right, of course, you were freaking out, but that didnât mean you were going to let her cancel on her friends for you. Besides, you really did want to get to know the girls from Azziâs stories. If they were as great as the brunette says they are, you had nothing to worry about. Youâd also seen the team pass by on your TikTok plenty of times to know they were some of the funniest people youâll ever meet.
âIâm just chilling rn, so whenever youâre free you can come over :) the girls wonât be here for another 2h so we can relax a little before then if you want? :Dâ You let her know youâll be at her dorm in 10 minutes, not even letting yourself rethink anything. You quickly get ready, giving yourself a brief glance in the mirror before leaving.
When you knock on the athleteâs door, it opens almost immediately. Your heart skips a beat as you see Azziâs dazzling smile. âHey! Come in, come in!â She beams. You grin as you follow her to her room. She plops down on her bed, patting it to invite you in. She grabs her laptop, putting on a show you two had started a while ago but never really cared for that much. The taller girl knew you liked having something as background noise as you talked, so all the focus and pressure wouldnât be on you.Â
Youâre in the middle of a story when you see Azziâs expression shift. Sheâd been looking at you with wide, interested eyes and a tiny smile as she listened, but now her eyes look softer. You can almost see a hint of⊠adoration? In her eyes. Her smile looks more real too. âW-what?â You stutter as your ears start burning.Â
The brunette shakes her head softly before saying, âI just⊠Iâve noticed youâve started stuttering less when youâre with me.â Her voice is barely louder than a whisper, but you hear it perfectly fine with how close you two are sitting. You look down, trying to not let her see the blush on your face, but you know thereâs no way she could miss it.
âY-yeah, I guess Iâve just b-b-become more comfortable around you,â you mutter back before looking her in the eyes. You see Azziâs own cheeks change into a different shade. As she opens her mouth to reply, a knock can be heard on the door. You both jump in surprise before the athlete gets up to go open the door.Â
You can feel your heart pounding in your chest, and youâre not fully sure why that is. Is it because the team had arrived? Or is it because you only just noticed how close you and Azzi were sitting when youâd jumped apart?
You take a sip of water, trying to calm your nerves. As youâre putting the bottle down, KK and Paige bounce into the room. Azzi is quick to follow, settling back down beside you and sliding her hand over yours below the blanket. A few seconds later, the other girls walk in, but youâre too overwhelmed by Paige and KK to notice. You look like a startled deer as they excitedly introduce themselves, pushing their hands towards you to shake them. Azzi doesnât hesitate to slap their hands away with an amused grin as she shakes her head. âCan you guys please be normal for once?â She asks, sending you a smile when she hears you chuckle at her friendsâ chaos.
The excited girls pout as the rest of the team introduces themselves as well. You can already feel the nerves melt away by just being near them. They just have this aura that makes you feel comfortable. Once everyone is done, you introduce yourself as well. âH-h-hey, Iâm-m Y/N, itâs nice to m-m-m-meet you guys.âÂ
You see KKâs eyes widen a little at your stutter before she looks over at Paige. The blonde immediately gives her a little push with a quick shake of her head. Theyâre subtle enough that no one else notices, but youâd grown up watching the people around you and blending in, so it wasnât a surprise youâd caught their interaction. You send Paige a thankful smile, sending KK a grin as well to let her know you arenât upset. Youâre used to people giving you looks when they hear you stammer. You also know that the team didnât mean anything bad by it, they probably just didnât expect it.
The girls all find a spot to settle down in, some on the floor, some on the beanbag in the corner of the room, while KK sits on Azziâs desk chair, spinning it in circles. As you all hang out, your smile never leaves your face. Have you ever laughed this much before? If you werenât chuckling at Paigeâs sass, you were laughing at KKâs dramatics. During the rare moments when they shut up, Nikaâs voice fills the air as she teases the younger girls. The constant murmur of voices makes you feel a type of comfort youâve never felt before.
Right now, youâre listening to a funny story Paige is telling as KK and Ice squabble in their corner of the room. You feel lighter than air with the relief of feeling like you finally fit in. Thankfully, Azzi is there to ground you. Somehow, you two have ended up fully leaning against each other, the brunetteâs arm around your waist. You donât know how you got here, but you werenât complaining.Â
You can feel yourself becoming a bright shade of red as Paige glances at Azziâs hand on your hip before looking up at you and wiggling her eyebrows. You look down as you try to hide your blush and the smile that canât seem to leave your face. Feeling the brunette squeeze your side, you look over at her with a raised eyebrow. She mouths the words, âAre you okay?â making sure youâre doing alright without alerting the others. You stare at her lips a moment longer than you should before sending her a tight-lipped smile and a nod.Â
You quickly look back at Paige, checking to see if sheâd noticed the whole interaction. The blue-eyed girl is already facing you with a smug look. You roll your eyes and stick your tongue out playfully, feeling a bit surprised at how at ease you feel, even after getting teased.
When the skies become a dark shade of gray, the team slowly starts dispersing. The girls all give you their number, demanding you all hang out again soon. Paige is the last to leave, sending you both a sleepy wave as she closes the door behind her. You donât miss the sly wink she sends your way when Azzi turns towards you.
You sit up a bit straighter as you stretch your arms and crack your back. The brunette sends you a playful look of disgust, scrunching up her nose as she hears your joints pop. You give her a wide, innocent grin. âI should get g-going,â you sigh, not wanting to part with the girl just yet. âStay,â Azzi says, her voice barely above a whisper. You look back at her, a little shocked at the request. Her brown eyes meet yours. Her shoulders look a little more tense than usual, but her face looks calm and steady. âOkay,â you whisper back.
Azziâs shoulders immediately relax as she sends you a soft smile. She gets up and walks over to her closet, finding you something to wear. âIs this okay?â She asks, holding up a pair of her shorts and a shirt with her basketball number on it. âMhm,â you hum, trying not to blush at the fact that youâll be wearing her clothes, her number.Â
After she hands you the clothes, you walk over to the bathroom and get ready for bed. You take an extra minute to let your face cool down after seeing yourself in the mirror. Once youâve calmed down, you walk back into the bedroom and over to Azziâs bed. The athleteâs eyes linger on you for a moment before she briskly walks into the bathroom to get ready herself.Â
You donât see the brunetteâs reddened cheeks as she goes to hide. You canât tell Azzi is splashing water in her face to calm down as her mind goes a million miles per hour at how cute you look in her clothes. Youâre completely unaware of the fact that your crush is fully losing her mind about the fact that she has fallen for you.Â
When Azzi returns, she crawls into the bed next to you, sliding down so youâre face to face. Your left hand is lying under your head, as your right lays between you two. She mimics your position before slowly sliding her hand into yours. Azzi sends you a soft smile, receiving one of your own in return. The smile doesnât leave your face as you fall asleep staring at the angel in front of you.
When you wake up the next morning, the bed feels cold and empty. You frown a little as you get up. You pad over to the bathroom, scratching your head when you donât see Azzi in there either. You swiftly get ready before making your way to the living room. You immediately see Paige and Azzi as theyâre leaning over the kitchen counter. Theyâre both leaning in close, talking in hushed voices, before the blonde notices you in the doorway. She loudly clears her throat, straightening up as she exclaims, âY/N! Good morning!â
âM-morning,â you say softly, sending Azzi a raised eyebrow. You wonder if something is wrong when she sends you an awkward smile that looks more like a grimace than anything. Noticing her look, Paige gives her a tiny push with her elbow before walking over to you. âSo, do you have any classes today?â She asks.Â
âY-yeah, in an hour⊠I should probably head b-b-back to my dorm to get r-r-ready,â you reply as you grab your stuff. You give Azzi a questioning look as she awkwardly stands behind Paige, looking down at the floor.
âOkay, w-well⊠See you guys l-later, I guess,â you say as you give them a small wave before leaving. You hear Paige turn to Azzi and say, âOh my God, bro,â as you close the door with a small frown. Did you do something wrong? Did she find out you have a crush on her, and did she hate you?
You barely pay attention to your classes, still too focused on the way Azzi was acting this morning. Around noon, she texts you, wishing you good luck in Mr. Davisâ class, like she always does. You feel a bit more at ease, figuring youâre probably overthinking stuff. The athlete sends you her usual good night message when she goes to bed, as well as a routine good morning. You let the weird morning fall to the back of your mind as you both continue everything like normal.
Your nerves flare up again when a few days pass and Azzi doesnât text you anything other than a good morning. She doesnât even look at the messages you send in return, though she usually replies within a few minutes. By the time itâs noon and hours have passed, youâre pacing your dorm so much, you think you might leave a walking trail on the carpet. Youâre biting your nails, the pit in your stomach growing by the minute. Your mind is floating with thoughts of something having happened to her or her not wanting to be your friend anymore.Â
You get shaken out of your thoughts when you hear a knock on the door. You quickly walk over, hoping itâs the girl you canât stop thinking about. When you open the door, you lose your breath for a moment. In front of you, Azzi is standing, holding a bouquet of your favorite flowers. She swallows harshly, looking at you nervously but also with determination.Â
She clears her throat a little, gripping the flowers a bit harder. âHi,â she says. âHi,â you breathe out, staring at her with wide eyes. âListen, I⊠I really like you and⊠Damn it, I had this whole speech planned, but now that Iâm here, Iâm completely blanking,â she says as she starts frowning, looking at the floor.Â
You take a step closer to her, now standing halfway into the hallway. âAzziâŠâ you whisper, biting your lip to stop yourself from smiling. She looks back up at you before taking a deep breath. âI really like you, and itâs completely fine if you donât like me back, but⊠I was wondering if you wanted to go out with me?â She says, trusting the flowers forward. You take them with a wide smile. âIâd love t-that,â you reply.
Your heart skips another beat as her face brightens. She pulls you into a hug, squeezing you tightly while making sure not to crush the flowers. You wrap your arms around her waist as you put your face in the crook of her neck. Inhaling deeply, you relax into her hold. You pinch yourself, making sure youâre not dreaming, grinning even wider when you realize youâre not.
You let go of each other as you hear a âYES!â from a few feet away. You both look towards the end of the hallway, seeing Paige peeking around the corner. The girlâs eyes widen as she quickly moves back behind the wall. You giggle as Azzi huffs. âI swear that girl cannot be normal.â âHEY!â The blonde yells back but doesnât show herself. âNor can she be subtle!â Azzi raises her voice. âSorry!â Paige apologizes before you hear her retreating footsteps.
You grin up at Azzi, whoâs rolling her eyes in amusement. âSorry about that. I practiced my speech with her and told her to stay in our dorm, but sheâs Paige, so she didnât listen.â You shake your head, your eyes twinkling in entertainment as you pull the brunette into your dorm.Â
You two have a date to plan, after all.
#azzi fudd x reader#azzi x reader#oneshot#imagine#azzi fudd oneshot#uconn wbb#azzi fudd#azzi x you#uconn huskies#azzi fudd x fem!reader#wlw fanfic#BaPeach writes
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Final Duet pt. 3 - c.s.
Cairo Sweet x fem!reader
"My thoughts will follow you into your dreams."
Summary: You and Winnie surprise Cairo with a birthday party.
a/n: Inspired by Omori, if you haven't played it, do. The story is beautiful. There will be no spoilers in this so don't worry about that :)
Warnings - Bullying, Homophobia, Death
Part 1. Part 2. Part 3. Part 4.
I wake up on a Saturday, the first wildflowers of spring blooming just beyond my bedroom window.
This is my first free weekend in awhile because we usually practice or hangout, but you have some plans with your mother this time around.
I slip out of bed, finding today as an opportunity to start something new. After finding my clothes for the day, I head to the bathroom to get ready.
I walk past my front door, admiring the warmth of the spring sun before walking down the street.
After finding the local plant nursery, I find the section for seeds, my eyes instantly find some for white egret orchids.
I discovered this flower to be my favorite, likely because it's also yours. I grab the packet and a few other gardening tools.
As I check out, the cashier looks at the flowers I choose. "I haven't seen you here before, are you new to gardening?"
I find myself caught off guard. "I- uh. Yeah, I'm new to this." I say, sheepishly.
"I wouldn't recommend this flower for a beginner, I can show you some easier options if you'd like." The lady behind the cash register gives me a patient smile.
I break eye contact, staring at the packet of white egret orchid seeds. "I'll be okay, these are my favorite."
She shrugs before I finish checking out, walking out of the nursery with my hands probably a little too full.
When I get back to my house I see Winnie sitting outside, waiting too patiently. She stands when she sees me, waving.
I walk down the pathway to my front door. "Hey Winnie, what's up?"
She takes a moment to stare at the gardening supplies in my hands before finding my eyes again. "I was just curious if you wanted to do something today."
"I'm free today, sure." I walk towards the door, motioning her to open it for me.
I put down my new belongings by the back door before turning back to Winnie. "Did you have anything in mind?"
We found ourselves walking on a dirt path through the woods, admiring the wildflowers we walk past. Squirrels scurry past us, alarmed by the sound of our footsteps.
We soon reach a point that opens to a field, finding a red and white quilt on the grass with you sitting there next to a basket.
You're surrounded by picked flowers with a flower crown on top of your head. Your face has a smile as your hands work tirelessly, making another flower crown.
Your head tilts up, hearing our approaching footsteps. Your infectious smile widening before reaching into the basket revealing a cake. "Happy birthday, Cairo!"
My smile somehow widens past the one you already gave me. I take a moment to admire your face full of glee.
I find myself sitting on the blanket, your hands placing down the cake before picking up the flower crown you just made, placing it on top of my head.
"Let hurry up with the cake so we can get to your gifts." Winnie says, finding a spot next to me.
You start placing candles on the cake while Winnie lights them, adding up to 17 candles.
I smile, feeling a bit of second hand embarrassment as you both attempt to sing me happy birthday. Keyword, attempt.
I take the first slice of cake, followed by Winnie, and then you. It's clear by the expression on your face you're trying to hide your excitement.
Winnie looks at you. "I think we can give her her present now."
Your smile widens, reaching back into the basket pulling out a flyer about a recital. "This is kinda the first gift, I booked us a recital!"
I grab the flyer out of your hands with a smile, it says it's a month away.
Your excitement emanates off you as you grab a present from behind the basket, wrapped in birthday wrapping.
You gently place it into my hands as I take a moment to think about what resides within. I tear through the wrapping paper with the same gentleness, revealing a box taped closed.
I tear the tape, opening the side of the box to reveal a violin case. The sound of a zipper fills the air as I open it, revealing a new violin with engravings of flowers.
"Winnie and I spent the past couple months saving up to get this." You say with a smile. "I figured you'd want something nicer than that crappy school violin."
I look between you too, astonished. "You guys shouldn't have. I-"
"Just accept the gift, Cairo." Winnie says with a smile.
My smile widens, taking a moment to admire the engravings on the new violin.
We spent the rest of the day together, making another flower crown for Winnie, walking around a shopping center, and spending much more time than I expected in the bookstore.
I find myself back at home, the sunsetting behind me. I walk by the back door to my new gardening supplies.
After taking the supplies out into the back yard, I begin to fill the pot with soil, followed by planting the seeds.
I fill up the watering can, spraying my new flower with the water. I take a moment, staring at the wet soil before going back inside.
I stare out the window of my final class of the day. A month has passed and it's the day of our recital. The recital is being held near your place so we're just going to walk there together.
For the first time in my life, I'm the first person to leave the classroom as the bell rings.
I meet you by the forgotten music room, humming that forever familiar tune.
"Hey, Cairo!" You say, turning to me with excitement. "Before we go, let's double check we have everything.
I nod, searching through my bag. I instantly recognize I can't find the sheet music. My hands navigate through the bag quickly, panic on my face.
"Shit! I think I forgot the sheet music at my house!" I tear my anxious eyes away from my bag to find your calm ones.
"It's okay, we still have plenty of time." You say, comfortingly. "I'll head to my place to see if I have a spare anywhere, while you go back home to look around."
I nod, followed by you leading us outside. "Everything will be okay." You say, calming my anxiety. "I'll see you at my place soon. Okay, Cairo?"
I nod, finding my heart calming down. "I'll see you soon, Y/n."
We turn opposite ways as I quickly walk to my house.
I run to the backyard, finding my sheet music clipped to a music stand in front of the orchids I've been growing.
I find myself smiling as the first white egret orchid has bloomed, but not taking a moment longer before grabbing the sheet music. My steps click off the sidewalk as I practically run back to your house.
I stop in front of your home, admiring the coziness of it before approaching the door.
I knock loudly, waiting for a response. A few seconds pass, and nobody answers the door.
My heart rate accelerates, as anxiety settles in.
There's no way you're not home with the amount of time it takes for me to get home and then here.
My knocks are louder and faster than before, riddled with anxiety and fear. I find myself losing patience as I twist the knob, pushing open the unlocked door.
"Y/n!?" I shout, full of panic.
I only hear my own voice echoing back to me as my heart rate increases. My steps are quick as I begin to search the house.
My search quickly ends as I see a silhouette laying on the ground in front of the stairs. I approach the figure, my steps slow and unbalanced.
I take my final slow step forward, now recognizing the silhouette as you. Your neck is contorted out of place, your lifeless eyes contrasting the usual joy that reside there.
Shock quickly settles in, my steps rapidly increasing as I fall to my knees in front of your lifeless body.
"No! Y/n!" I instantly find my eyes becoming glossy, blurring my vision. "Y/n please tell me this isn't real!"
I stare at your body, as if waiting for a response. I cry out, throwing my body over your lifeless one. My tears staining your last outfit as I violently sob over your corpse.
It's as if I can feel the last of your life leaving your body as I soak your shirt in my tears.
I find myself dressed in all black, bags under my tired eyes. I haven't been able to sleep, only seeing your lifeless, contorted body every time I close my eyes.
Your tombstone read. "Y/n Y/l/n, taken from us far too soon."
I stand over your grave, the sunsetting just beyond the horizon as I reach into my purse.
I take out a packet of white egret orchid seeds, tossing them around your tombstone before a singular tear breaks the threshold of my glossy eyes.
I hear footsteps approaching from behind me. "I'm sorry Cairo, I know how close you two were."
I recognize the voice as Winnie's as I turn around. I stare at the ground as fresh tears stream down my face. "If I didn't forget my sheet music, maybe this wouldn't have happened."
Winnie steps closer, rubbing my shoulder comfortingly. "Cairo, you can't blame yourself for this."
I avoid her face. "Maybe I- I could have grabbed her before she fell, I- I-" My tears interrupt myself as my throat closes.
Winnie's arms wrap around me. "This isn't your fault, Cairo. There isn't anything you could have done."
My tears strengthen to sobs as I reciprocate her embrace, digging my fingers into her clothes as I hide my face into her shoulder.
Winnie caresses the back of my head comfortingly as I soak her clothes in my tears, remembering your smiling face that was so full of life.
a/n: I'm sorry Y/n
#cairo sweet x reader#cairo sweet x y/n#cairo sweet x female reader#cairo sweet x you#cairo sweet x fem!reader#jenna ortega x y/n#jenna ortega x fem!reader#jenna ortega x female reader#jenna ortega x reader#jenna ortega x you
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Feveruary Day 3: Caught in the Rain
Fandom: ATEEZ
Sickie: Seonghwa (fever)
Caregiver(s): ATEEZ
Word Count: 1,359
Notes: There's more to this story, but I cut it where it felt natural to cut it. Maybe I'll release a part 2 in the future...
The photoshoot was supposed to be quick and easy. A luxury brand had asked KQ for ATEEZ to model for them, specifically requesting Seonghwa and Yunho. Their communication had been timely, respectful, and cooperative. The shoot was going to be Quick and Easy. That was the whole reason Hongjoong and their manager had ultimately allowed Seonghwa to go: the schedule was short and the required energy low, a perfect first engagement back after the eldest had just barely recovered from a nasty case of bronchitis.Â
What actually ended up happening was neither quick, nor easy.Â
The marketing associates who had previously been in contact with their managers are no where to be found on set. Instead, two company executives, clearly in the middle of some sort of power struggle, were running the show, and constantly trying to undermine one another. They nitpicked the stylist teams, unnecessarily extending the process. They kept interrupting the director of the shoot, asking the photographers ridiculous questions, touching equipment they knew nothing about, trying to chat with Seonghwa and Yunho when they were trying to listen to directions. Theyâd made it through a handful of pictures inside the studio before moving outside, like executive B had wanted, but by the time they got out there, the weather had stopped cooperating. A storm had begun to roll in, and while the photographers and managers pushed to go back in, both executive A and B had insisted they get the outdoor shots, assuring everyone that things would be âfine.âÂ
Theyâd only been snapping pictures for thirty minutes before the downpour started.Â
So now, ten minutes later, Seonghwa was sitting on a bench outside the studio, shaded somewhat from the rain under the large leaves of a tree, but still shivering from the chill of the wind against his soaking wet clothes. He wasnât sure where Yunho or their manager were; the photographer had left him here a few minutes ago while the executives and director argued about what they wanted to do with the shoot. Seonghwa didnât much care at this point. He was tired. He was cold. He was ready to go home.Â
But he was also professional enough not to say anything until he was asked, so he simply sat shivering on his bench in the meantime.Â
Seonghwaâs daze was broken when his shoulders dipped as a jacket was placed on his shoulders. He blinked up, shelling his eyes from the rain to better see Yunho.Â
âNo.â Shaking his head, Seonghwa began to shrug the jacket off.Â
Yunhoâs hands held the fabric in place. âNo, yourself.â Seonghwa continued shaking his head, so Yunho kept his hands in place on his hyungâs shoulders.Â
âYou need your jacket,â Seonghwa insisted.Â
âNot as much as you do.â Yunho shifted to sit next to Seonghwa, looping one arm around his shoulders.Â
âYunho, itâs raining. Youâre all wet.â
A chuckle rumbled in the taller manâs chest. âSo are you.â
Lightning flashed above their heads, a roll of thunder following lazily. Seonghwaâs head rested against Yunhoâs shoulder. âI want to go home,â he said quietly.Â
Yunho placed his head on top of Seonghwaâs. âMe too. This whole thing has been one big clusterfuck.â
âDonât say that too loud,â Seonghwa warned.Â
âHyung, the closest person is more than three meters away, and thereâs no way they could hear me over this rain.âÂ
âStill.â He paused, clearing his throat. Not quite a cough, but it made Yunho frown all the same.
âYou feeling okay?â
Seonghwa shrugged. âIâm tired.â
âMe too, hyung. Me too.â
*
âOh my god.â San threw his book to the side, standing immediately when Seonghwa and Yunho walked into the den. The rest of the group, (minus Hongjoong, who was working at the studio,) were waiting patiently for the duo to watch a movie. But this was unexpected: while Yunho and Seonghwa had already removed their jackets and shoes, they were still visibly damp. âWait, stop, why are you all wet?â He ran over to the pair, one hand running through Yunhoâs hair, the other feeling Seonghwaâs shirt. He pouted in confusion, wide puppy eyes scanning between them. âWhy are you all wet?â Â
âNot sure if youâve noticed, Sannie, but itâs raining,â Yunho replied with a good-natured smile. He readjusted his arm around Seonghwaâs shoulders, tightening his hold on the older man, who had yet to stop shivering since their moment on the bench two hours before. âAnd our photoshoot was, surprisingly, outside.â
âIt was outside?!â Wooyoungâs jaw dropped. âDid you know that?â
Seonghwa shook his head while Yunho replied with a simple, âNope.â
âAnd they didnât take you inside when the rain started?â Wooyoung clarified.Â
âNot for a good 45 minutes,â Yunho answered.Â
âBut youâre makeup and hair and stuff?â San asked, incredulous. âThey didnât think about all that hard work going to waste?â Yunho shrugged one shoulder, shaking his head.Â
âWe apologized to the stylists on their behalf,â Seonghwa spoke up. âThanked them for working so hard despite⊠it getting ruined. It didnât help that the one exec kinda liked it better messed upâŠâ His voice trailed off, his eyes wandering away to the floor.Â
Wooyoung shook his head. âThatâs ridiculous. I wouldâve fought someone.â
âKinda hard to fight a high-profile brand executive.âÂ
Wooyoung scoffed, pushing off the couch, stomping to the kitchen and back to blow off steam. San had yet to stop pouting, running a comforting hand up and down Seonghwaâs arm (the one not currently smushed against Yunho).Â
âIt wasnât horrible,â Yunho added, his voice placating. âThe shoot director was really kind, and had some amazing ideas. He tried to get us back inside the minute the clouds rolled in. And the stylist team? Iâd go back just to work with them again.â
âStop all this toxic positivity.â Wooyoung crossed his arms over his chest. âYou can be mad at people for treating you like shit, Yunho.â
âHe called them a âclusterfuckâ earlier,â Seonghwa supplied unhelpfully.Â
Yunho nudged him. âOf course thatâs what you remember.âÂ
âWait, hyung, you called the a clusterfuck to their face?â Jongho asked, shock evident on his face.Â
âNo, of course not, we were-â Yunho breath caught, as he pitched to the side with a loud sneeze. He shook his head after, blinking in surprise. âShit, excuse me. Didnât expect that oneâŠâ
âFuck! Now youâre sick too!â Wooyoung started pacing again, threading his hands through his hair.Â
âOkay, okay. Calm down, letâs not get ahead of ourselves,â Mingi said, taking control of the situation. He pointed towards Yunho and Seonghwa. âLetâs get you two warmed up. Go hit the showers. Hwa-hyung, be honest, can you stand on your own? Cause you havenât let go of Yuyu since you got home.âÂ
On a normal day, such a direct call out would invoke a demonic wrath from the eldest that few were brave enough to face. This was not a normal day.Â
âI would like someone to stay with me, please,â Seonghwa admitted, voice quiet out of exhaustion rather than embarrassment.Â
Mingi nodded. âSannie, go with him please. Jongho, Woo, you guys go heat up dinner. Sangie, do something productive, I trust you.â
âYou donât trust me?â Wooyoung whined.Â
âNever,â Mingi replied simultaneously with Yunho and Jonghoâs emphatic, âNo,â and Yeosangâs âLet me have ONE thing!â Â
Amidst the chaos, San had successfully extricated Seonghwa from Yunhoâs embrace, and had led their eldest down the hall.Â
âPretty sure his feverâs back,â Yunho muttered to Mingi after the bathroom door closed behind them.
Mingi shook his head. âOh, definitely. Heâs so quiet.â The rapperâs eyes turned to scan Yunho. âYou better not get sick, too, mister.âÂ
âMingi.â Yunho put his hands on his friendâs shoulder. âIâm fine.âÂ
âYou better be. Go shower.â He hit Yunhoâs butt playfully as the dancer turned to go. Yunho whipped back around and clumsily hit Mingiâs hip, earning a laugh from his friend.
Once Yunhoâs footsteps had disappeared up the stairs, Mingi joined the group in the kitchen.Â
âHongjoong-ahâs gonna kill someone,â Wooyoung singsonged under his breath to Mingi as the taller man leaned against the counter.Â
âAs long as its not us, Iâm not complaining.â
#ateez sickfic#ateez sick#kpop sickfic#kpop sick#feveruary#feveruary day 3#sickie seonghwa#caretaker yunho#caretaker ateez#obviously yunho's sick in part 2#darlingfics
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Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~
(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)
#ootd#jfashion#fashion#fantasy fashion#mori kei#....like... adjacent... lol#no idea what style this would be lol.. makes me think of like whimsical vaguely fantasy themed childrens book character#finally posting one of my aforementioned seven million drafts of actual outfits and costumes i have finished and edited#the photos for but just never feel like posting lol..#I need to find one of those people whos like 'omg i am ADDICTED to social media ugh i wish i could get off of it#im just browsing and posting like 60 times a daaaaay!!!' and take a little magical bottle and suck some of the social media#enthusiasim out of them. for moi. In exchange they can have some of my 'literally just never in the mood to post or interact with the#outside world ever' energy. We can balance each other. huzzah and so on#Though I think maybe it's part of the general thing I've heard of like.. I can't remember if it was in reference to adhd or just some sort#of general execcutive functioning issue type of thing - but the idea that things have to be ''just right'' before you do something. like#'oh i need to do this task. but i have to wait until XYZ first' or 'oh i can do this but only if X specific condition is met' or etc#The fact that I even have to be in a Specific Mindset to post. or sometimes will delay posting on social media because like 'oh well#I'm going somewhere tomorrow. somehow this matters. i cannot spend 5 minuts posting TONIGHT. clearly it will interfere#somehow schedule wise with the doctor appointment i have 15 hours from now. yes. yes. i must wait until my appointment is over#tomorrow afternoon. THEN i shall post' or etc. etc. lol. NOT even taking into account the many days#I just genuinely and physically sick and it's not even a mental thing. I just physically dont feel like sitting at the computer lol..#ANYWAY.. trying to get back into it. trying to get a business bank account.. make a proper paypal so i can start selling sculptures again.#selling clothes and sculptures.. posting about such things then of course as one must. etc... chanting to hype up and motivate myself lol#But yes. this is my favorite outfit out of the bunch so I am posting it first I guess.. maybe others later..#Also the purple dress says its from shein. which I've heard is bad fast fashion stuff. but maybe okay since its second hand? I havent#been to the bins since like 2020 or late 2019 even. and I think stuff like shein and temu has only become poular in the past few years#but I bet if I went to the bins now I might would find a good handfull of that stuff. Probably now not much different than what you#find in a walmart or a forever 21 or actual physical stores you can go to though. I hear quality of clothing is down everywhere no matter#where you get it or whatnot. What bountiful joys unfettered capitalism and exploitation bestows upon us (<being sarcastic).#Wearing one of my favorite little vests though. I love the texture of it and the clasps on it
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im so glad that we never get a clear picture of sophieâs background in leverage & i hope we never do. however i also really like making up various, often conflicting backstories for her in my head. perhaps theyâre all backstories for an alias of hers, ones she laid to rest back in season two.
#leverageposting#leverage#sophie devereaux#particularly that one of or both her parents had to move around a lot for work & so she would change herself to fit in at every new school#or new town etc etc. and that whatever original identity she had was dropped due to some kind of really awful event and her bio family think#sheâs dead. eg she got into some kind of extreme legal trouble for the first time & she faked her death & everyone she knew as a kid thinks#sheâs dead too. like. astrid wasnât the first person she left to miss/mourn her.#but also that she was a teen runaway at like age ~16 and pretended to be an adult (like. 18/19) cause theres not much you can do by yourself#as a minor like booking flights or renting an apartment. and so began her first proper alias. and she was a pickpocket until she could fund#her life fully through grifting & cons.#or alternatively her parents died when she was a teen & she was old enough to become an emancipated minor (everyone in lev is an orphan)#and she kind of just fell into crime from there bc she had no one#or perhaps she got married at 17 and realised how fucked it all was and stashed money until she could run away & leave it all behind. thatâs#bc of a single vague sentence on john rogersâ blog saying she was married at 17 and in context it was quite possibly a joke or random#hypothetical example but i was like what if???? What If???????#i also like the hc that sheâs trans which iâve seen a few times#in some versions in my mind her parents were okay and in some versions they were awful and in some versions it was so complicated.#i think tara has heard one story and parker or hardison have heard another and nate has never heard any story. heâs never asked.#she is here now and thatâs all that needs knowing. and sophie devereaux is her real name in any way it matters.#eliot has also never asked and she asked if he was curious once and he just asked if she was curious about What He Did and that was answer#enough for the both of them. just a mutual agreement not to ask and it actually solidified their bond.#i think she struggled for a long time about whether to tell her new family The Real Story but in much the same way we never hear her birth#name bc itâs not Her anymore⊠she never gives The Real Story. bc it no longer defines who she is. sheâs so much more than whatever happened.#lvg
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literally such a tragedy what channel zero did to search and rescue woods youre telling me the author lost the publishing rights for THAT like im still so mad. we could have had a book. we could have had a book
#sorry i hate the third season of channel zero always have and im speaking my truth now HJKDLSJHFKD#okay like. channel zero in general. the first season is like#i wouldnt say its good. honestly it started okay and kinda intriguing#and then got kinda bad. and then at one point it flipped back around and became camp to me#so i kinda like the first season but through no credit of itself HJKHJKDS#and as an adaptation i thought it was like too confusing for people unfamiliar with the creepypasta but too uninterested in the details#of said creepypasta to appeal to fans of it. but it was a bit camp. a little bit#the second season was fine. it wasnt perfect but i thought it held up decently as a story and as an adaptation#i never got around to watching the fourth season. i hear it was fine#but that third season was WRETCHED i remember it being rated well as a story but it was so like. disrespectful as an adaptation#(also it was too focused on gore and blood for me at the time. like i dont mind gore but it felt so like. meaningless?)#(and i wasnt sure about its depiction of mental health at the time but maybe my opinion would change nowadays it has been a while)#like you got the rights to such a weird and surreal concept and ignored it entirely....what on earth#no baby crying loop in the middle of the wilderness alone....no stairs that cut off your arm cleaning in the woods...NOTHING#literally so tragic. @ nosleep authors and other online horror writers PLEASE watch out when giving out adaptation rights#if i remember correctly the poor search and rescue author got screwed over by syfy which is so sad đ#also please publish some kind of paperback version of ur stories for lil ol me. pretty please#basic print on demand is fine id just love to have more creepypasta and nosleep stuff on my bookshelf LOL#also still sad theres no left right game book. blease it would be so good published BLEASE
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cool cool cool
#succession#i'm not really a believer in tom womancoding but wow tom womancoding moment#tom queercoding however#also this is my first time hearing of this book and it's like okay now i see where all these sexist dating culture things come from
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# âWOULD YOU DO ANYTHING FOR ME?, BUY A BIG DIAMOND RING FOR ME?â ââ .⊠( how batboys act when theyâre engaged w reader )
dollish note ౚà§: I lowkey crashed out over losing Americans on tiktok but this woke up to post on tumblr but hey, also can we talk about how trump used that as a pr stunt && thought we wouldnât notice wtf like omgg the way many americans caught on, alsoo please leave some motivation for me because I just kinda lost motivation for this app after the tiktok thingy went down đ« tags: (batboys x engaged!reader)
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DICK GRAYSON ââ .âŠ
Over the moon and not afraid to show it. Dick tells everyone the second you say yes. Alfred? He knows. Random stranger in the grocery store? The metro security guy?, Yep, they know too. Heâs got that goofy, lovestruck grin plastered on his face 24/7.
Wedding planning enthusiast. You thought youâd do most of the planning? Wrong. Dickâs fully invested, showing you Pinterest boards of venues, color schemes, and âDo you think Nightwing blue (dollish note: I think â#3366CCâ perhaps?) would be tacky for the napkins?â
Gets sappy at random times. Youâll catch him staring at you with a dreamy look, and when you ask why, he just shrugs. âIâm just thinking about how lucky I am.â, âDick calm down you only proposed like 2 weeks ago.â
Brags to the Batfam constantly. âGuys, Iâm going to be a husband! Can you believe it? Me! Richard Grayson!â Bruce pretends to be joyful a bit but heâs done hearing it for the 777x time but even he cracks a small smile when Dick wonât shut up about you.
Practices saying his vows in the mirror. You walked in on him once, and he was mortified. âOkay, but you didnât hear the good part yet!â, âYou literally finished the whole paper !!â
JASON TODD ââ .âŠ
Acts like itâs not a big deal, but itâs huge for him. Heâll play it cool at first, saying something like, âItâs just a ring, babe.â But deep down, heâs nervous, excited, and trying not to let it show.
Keeps the engagement low-key. Jasonâs not one for flashy announcements or grand gestures. He wants this to be something special between you two, not the whole world.
Protective x10. Now that youâre officially going to be his spouse, Jason is extra watchful. Heâs already looking into ways to keep you safe and makes sure youâre never caught in the crossfire of his vigilante life.
Wants you to be 100% comfortable. He checks in with you constantly about the wedding plans. âWe donât have to do anything big, okay? Just say the word, and itâs done.â Heâll let you take the lead but secretly loves when you include him.
Teases you with the whole âfiancĂ©â thing. âHey, fiancĂ©e. Can you grab my coffee? Oh, did I mention youâre my fiancĂ©e now?â Itâs his way of hiding how excited he really is.
TIM DRAKE ââ .âŠ
Nervous wreck but totally in love. Tim overthinks everything after proposing. Did he pick the right ring? Did he say the right words? Is he even ready to be a husband? But every time he sees you smile, it calms him down.
Keeps it practical. Tim doesnât want a huge engagement party or a grand wedding. Heâs more focused on what your future together will look like your shared goals, finances, and making sure youâre both on the same page.
Researches marriage like itâs a mission. He has books on successful relationships, listens to podcasts, and even makes a checklist for wedding planning. You find it adorable when he starts using color coded spreadsheets.
Loves when you call him your fiancĂ©. The first time you said it, he blushed so hard he had to look away. Now heâs low-key obsessed with hearing it. âYou donât have to keep calling me that⊠but donât stop either.â
Gets emotional when he thinks about the future. You once caught him staring at the engagement ring on your finger, looking teary-eyed. When you asked what was wrong, he said, âI just canât believe youâre actually mine.â (I wouldâve smacked the shit out of him for that, I donât do romance đđȘ)
#jason todd#jason todd x reader#batboys#dick grayson x reader#dick grayson#dc#nightwing x reader#nightwing#nightwing imagine#nightwing headcanon#red hood#red hood x reader#jason todd headcanon#jason todd imagine#tim drake imagine#tim drake x reader#tim drake#tim drake headcanon#red robin x reader#red hood imagine#red hood headcanon#red robin headcanon#batboys s/o#batboys x reader#dick grayson imagine#dick grayson headcanon#dick grayson drabble#jason todd x fem!reader#engaged!reader#dc x reader
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WATASHI NO AIDORU SAMA!
summary: IN WHICH BLLK BOYS DATE AN IDOL!
characters: isagi yoichi, bachira meguru, itoshi rin, nagi seishiro, mikage reo, chigiri hyoma, hiori yo, shidou ryusei, itoshi sae, michael kaiser, alexis ness.
warning: fem! reader implied
isagi yoichi
isagi is in awe of you. your determination, charm, and the way you captivate an audienceâheâs lowkey your #1 fan. heâs also the boyfriend who overthinks everything. is he doing enough? are you eating properly? is his goodnight text too basic? but when youâre overwhelmed by the pressures of being an idol, heâs the one who brings you back down to earth with his soft smiles and reassuring words.
when he attends your concerts, he tries to keep a low profile, but the way he beams when you glance at him gives him away every time.
"yoichi, they caught you smiling like a lovesick puppy in the crowd."
"but you looked so cool up there! how could I not?!"
"next time, at least wear sunglasses."
"then how will you see me cheering for you?"
bachira meguru
bachira lives for the drama of dating you. the glitz and glam? he loves it. sneaking into your dressing room mid-rehearsal? absolutely. he thrives on making you laugh, especially when the idol world feels too suffocating. he even suggests the most ridiculous disguises when you want to go out, like matching frog hats or dressing up as old people.
heâs also not shy about flaunting your relationship, sending chaotic selfies to your fan club and saying, âarenât we cute?â yeah, heâs banned from your socials now.
"bachira, stop posting pictures of us!"
"what? they love me. look, 10k likes already!"
"i will revoke your access to my phone."
"awwww :("
itoshi rin
rin doesnât care about fame, but oh boy, he cares about you. the media knows him as the stoic, no-nonsense soccer prodigy, but behind closed doors, heâs your biggest supporter. he secretly streams your performances and even sets your songs as his alarm (though heâll deny it if you ever find out). when youâre busy with schedules, rin shows his love in quiet waysâmaking sure you eat, sending random texts like, âdonât overwork yourself. i mean it.â
but paparazzi catching him sneaking into your concerts? yeah, thatâs not part of his plan.
"you know they saw you, right?"
"tch. who cares?"
"rin, theyâre calling you my biggest fanboy on twitter."
"...well, theyâre not wrong."
nagi seishiro
nagi finds your idol schedule exhausting just hearing about it. but he loves you, so he makes the effort. heâs the type to show up to your rehearsals half-asleep, holding your favorite snacks. when youâre performing, though, heâs laser-focused, recording every moment because âyou look cool up there.â
he also doesnât get jealous often, but when a fanboy gets too enthusiastic, heâll casually sling an arm around your shoulder and deadpan, âsheâs taken.â
"sei, were you napping backstage?"
"mm. comfy couch."
"youâre unbelievable."
"but i got your favorite chips."
"...okay, forgiven."
mikage reo
reo is the ultimate boyfriend-slash-manager. need help with your contract? done. overwhelmed with schedules? heâs already booked a spa day for you. heâs your rock in the chaotic idol world, always reminding you that itâs okay to take a break.
he also spoils you shamelesslyâdesigner dresses for red carpets, private dinners after concerts, and the fanciest bouquets delivered to your dressing room.
"reo, you didnât have to buy out the whole bakery just because i said i liked their croissants."
"but you deserve the best."
"...iâm keeping the chocolate ones."
"all yours, my love."
chigiri hyoma
chigiri gets it. as someone constantly in the spotlight himself, he knows how draining it can be. heâs always there to hype you up, whether itâs helping you perfect a dance move or rehearsing lines for interviews. when you feel insecure, heâs the first to remind you of how talented and beautiful you are.
his favorite moments are when itâs just the two of youâno cameras, no fans, just quiet walks or lazy afternoons.
"hyo, do you think iâm doing okay?"
"youâre doing amazing. and even if the whole world doesnât see it, i do."
"youâre too sweet."
"only for you."
hiori yo
hiori loves your passion for performing, but he worries about how much it takes out of you. heâs the type to leave little notes in your bagâ"youâve got this!" or "donât forget to eat!"âand surprise you with coffee during long rehearsals.
he doesnât love the spotlight, but for you? heâll put up with it, even if it means sitting front-row at your concerts surrounded by screaming fans.
"yo, are you okay? you looked uncomfortable out there."
"yeah, iâm fine. just not used to being around so many people."
"next time, iâll get you noise-canceling headphones."
"iâll wear them if they have your voice recorded on loop."
shidou ryusei
shidou lives for the chaos of your idol life. paparazzi? fans? scandals? bring it on. he thrives on being the center of attention, especially when it involves you. heâs the boyfriend who gets caught sneaking onto stage mid-performance just to blow you a kiss.
heâs also fiercely protective, ready to throw hands with anyone who disrespects you. but when itâs just the two of you, heâs surprisingly soft, reminding you why you fell for him in the first place.
"ryu, you canât just interrupt my concerts!"
"what? they loved it. besides, i missed you."
"you saw me five minutes ago!"
"five minutes too long."
itoshi sae
sae isnât the best at expressing his feelings, but his actions speak volumes. he doesnât show up to your events often, but when he does, itâs with flowers in hand and a rare smile just for you. he admires your dedication but worries youâre pushing yourself too hard.
heâs also your harshest yet most supportive critic, always giving honest feedback because he wants you to be your best.
"sae, was my performance okay?"
"it was good. but you can do better."
"...you couldâve just said youâre proud of me."
"i am. but you already knew that."
michael kaiser
kaiser adores the spotlight, and dating you? it only adds to his charm. he loves flaunting your relationship, whether itâs through matching outfits or casually mentioning you in interviews. heâs cocky, but his support is unwavering, always hyping you up like your personal cheerleader.
heâs also lowkey competitive, challenging you to see who can trend on social media first after a big event. spoiler: you always win.
"kaiser, stop refreshing twitter."
"i need to know if weâre trending."
"youâre ridiculous."
"ridiculously in love with you."
alexis ness
ness is the sweetest, most wholesome boyfriend. heâs constantly in awe of your talent and works hard to make you feel appreciated, from writing you letters to learning your favorite songs on the piano. heâs also your biggest fan, always gushing about you to anyone whoâll listen.
he gets flustered when fans recognize him as âyour boyfriendâ but secretly loves it.
"ness, are you blushing?"
"n-no! i justâyour fans are so nice."
"youâre adorable."
"not as adorable as you."
© txrully :: 2024
do not copy, translate or plagiarize my works.
#isagi x reader#isagi yoichi#bachira meguru#bachira x reader#itoshi rin#rin itoshi x reader#nagi seishiro x reader#nagi seishiro#reo mikage x reader#mikage reo#chigiri x reader#chigiri hyoma#hiori x reader#hiori yo#shidou x reader#shidou ryusei#sae x reader#itoshi sae#michael kaiser#kaiser x reader#alexis ness#ness x reader#bllk x reader#idol
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â THE WAY I LOVED YOU
pairing: theodore nott x reader
summary: in which theodore nott will do anything to get you to go out with him, but youâre just as stubborn rejecting him
warnings: swearing, kissing, dangerous stunts and theo being stupid (ryan gosling in the notebook style), unedited since i wrote this in the middle of the night on no sleep again lol. enemies to lovers if you squint a bit
authorâs note: since everyone loves theo iâll pretend this isnât just for my own selfish needs <3 (especially the notebook reference) also surprise surprise mc is a gryffindor as always, youâd never know i was a slytherin my bad guys⊠as always let me know what u think! enjoy, angels đ
The first time Theodore Nott asks you out, you spill a pot of ink directly into his lap.
Itâs not like you meant to do it. But when thereâs a Transfiguration worksheet to be getting on with, the Slytherin boy seated next to you by Professor McGonagall asking you out would surely take anyone by surprise.
The second you twist in your seat to look at him in shock, your arm slides the pot right off the desk and directly onto his grey trousers, instantly staining them with the black liquid before you have a chance to speak.
Your hands fly to your mouth to stifle your gasp and you look up at him, anticipating an angry glare in return. Instead, he looks mildly surprised at the ever-growing stain on his crotch, but mostly⊠amused?
âA simple ânoâ would have sufficed, darling,â he says, raising an eyebrow and suppressing a smile.
You begin stuttering out an apology and scrambling for your wand to wave away the stain before you can do something stupid like attempting to rub it off with your sleeve. Your cheeks instantly heat up at the humiliating image now plaguing your mind and you barely contain a sigh of relief when you realise the lesson has finished.
Itâs a miracle your shoes havenât left scuff marks on the ground in a cartoonish trail with the speed at which you leave the classroom. Godric knows why Theo Nott of all people wants to ask you out, but since it canât possibly be for any good reason, youâd rather not think about it too much. This, however, isnât helped by Hermione pestering you about why you look so flustered for the entire walk to the Charms classroom.
Twenty minutes later, her attention is finally diverted. On the other hand, itâs because sheâs berating you for accidentally burning the end of her left eyebrow off with a charm gone wrong.
The second time Theo asks you out, there are thankfully no ink pots around.
âHey,â he whispers from behind you, making you jump within an inch of your life despite his low volume. You swivel in your chair to glare at him, incredulous. Seeing that heâs startled you, Theo grins. âSorry. What are you doing?â
âBaking a cake,â you deadpan, once your heart has started beating at a normal pace again. Holding up your Potions book, you feel the annoyance start to seep in when Theo continues looking at you, undeterred. âWhat does it look like Iâm doing?â
Apparently unfazed by your sarcasm, he drags out the chair next to you and spins it around to sit on it backwards. Settling his arms on top of the backrest, Theo rests his chin on them to look at you. âYou never did answer my question.â
âI donât know what youâre talking about,â you mumble, eyes scanning the page in front of you but taking in nothing. âIf youâll excuse me, I have to study-â
âAre you going to make me ask you again?â he sighs. You panic a little at his bluntness and continue pretending to read, not knowing what else to do. Theo takes your silence as encouragement and shuffles his chair closer to your own. âGo out with me.â
The arrogance practically drips off his voice, and the pit of anxiety in your stomach immediately turns into irritation instead. âNo,â you grit out, slamming your potions book shut to scowl at him. âAnd I donât hear you asking anything.â
âOkay,â Theo says slowly, nodding as though he understands. Itâs clear that he doesnât though, because the next words out of his mouth have you stunned. âPlease, oh please, will you do me the absolute greatest honour of going out with me?â
âMerlin,â you exhale, pinching the bridge of your nose. Dropping your hands into your lap, you see no solution other than gathering your things to return to the common room. âYouâre having me onâŠâ
âI can assure you, Iâm not,â Theo says quickly, stopping you from leaving by gently grabbing your elbow. You stop in your movements to catch him looking more unsure than youâve ever seen, and youâve never been more perplexed. âIâm completely serious right now. Go out with me?â
âWh- I donât even-â you sigh, cutting your senseless muttering off to cross your arms over your textbook. âWhatever happened to a simple ânoâ sufficing, darling? Arenât there a million other girls for you to go and pester? Godric knows youâve got an entourage following you half the- What are you looking at?â
Amazingly, Theoâs expression has lost all trace of vulnerability and now displays a slightly faraway look, his signature lazy grin in full effect. âSorry, I didnât hear a word after you called me âdarlingâ.â
Resisting the urge to hit him over the head with your textbook, you take a deep breath and grasp the potential weapon tighter in your hands before speaking. âAs hard as it is for me to believe that girls actually fall for this rubbish, your history with them shows that they do. Donât think for a second, Iâm going to let you use me like they do.â
Theo considers your words for a few seconds, mulling them over as carefully as though heâs trying to solve a brain teaser. Eventually, he seems to come to a satisfying conclusion, because he tucks his hands into the pockets of his trousers and tilts his head. âSo you need me to prove Iâm serious about this⊠and then youâll say yes?â
âOh, for the love of-â Huffing, you turn on your heal without saying another word and storm out of the library. Theo doesnât follow you, allowing you to clear your head and think about the incredibly odd interaction.
Youâre climbing through the portrait hole into the Gryffindor common room when you realise you never actually refuted Theo and his theory to make you go out with him. Whether or not it was on purpose, you canât quite decide.
Over the next few weeks, you start wishing you had stopped Theo before he could start trying to prove himself to you.
You canât go a single day without the question of going out with him popping up. Much to your bewilderment, it isnât always him asking. Sometimes itâs his friends, sometimes itâs students at the Gryffindor table who are sick of the multiple owls every morning flocking to your table with a note in their beaks. Sometimes itâs even your friends.
âI mean, really,â Hermione says at breakfast, huffy as always when reprimanding someone. âItâd be benefiting everyone if you just went out with him. Why donât you, anyway?â
âHeâs a Slytherin,â Ron butts in, talking to Hermione as though heâs explaining something to a child. He takes a gigantic bite of his toast before speaking, his next words coming out muffled. âSurely thatâs reason enough.â
âNo, that isnât reason enough,â Hermione says sternly, furrowing her brows. âA good reason would have been all the girls heâs always with. Of course, thatâs flown out the window recently. Heâs also never given them as much attention now that I think about it.â
âHeâs definitely not the worst of the group either,â Harry adds, leaning in as nosily as Ron. âNot like weâre talking about MalfoyâŠâ
âDonât you two have Quidditch tactics to be discussing?â you snap, exhausted by the subject already. The two boys hold up their hands in surrender, before shuffling down the bench. Whether thatâs to be closer to the Quidditch team, or to get away from you before you start throwing hexes - you arenât certain.
The fact youâre awake early in the morning on a Saturday isnât helping your sour mood, and the Quidditch match being between Gryffindor and Slytherin only adds to this.
âWeâd better go and get a good seat at the front, so we arenât on our tiptoes for the whole game like last time,â Hermione says, already sliding off the bench. You give your cup of coffee one last longing look before you allow yourself to be dragged away.
You havenât even made it onto the Quidditch pitch before youâre already wishing for that cup of coffee to give you strength, because you find none other than Theo standing outside the Great Hall in his green and silver Quidditch robes.
As soon as he spots you, Theo plasters on that charming smile of his and opens his mouth, no doubt to ask you if you could talk privately.
Hermione interjects before he gets the chance. âDonât bother, Iâm leaving.â She simply sighs when you look at her, betrayed. âHeâd have convinced you anyway! Iâll save you a seat.â
You watch her leave, helplessly before turning to Theo and crossing your arms. âYes?â
âI have a proposition for you,â he says simply, getting to the point. The proposition has, without a doubt, got something to do with you and him and a trip to Hogsmeade, but you gesture for him to continue nonetheless. You canât deny itâs been entertaining watching Theo come up with new ways to ask you out these past few weeks. âIâll throw the match and let your lot win if you go out with me.â
This startles a laugh out of you, something between a chortle and a gasp. âOh, you cheeky bastard,â you exclaim, but you canât help grinning. That was quite possibly the last thing you expected him to say. âFirst of all, I think my lot is perfectly capable of winning on their own. And secondly⊠as funny as it would be, Iâd rather not have your death and Malfoyâs subsequent imprisonment in Azkaban be on my conscience.â
You only realise just how wide your smile is when it starts to fade under Theoâs unwavering gaze. His lips twitch up into a smile and you immediately frown as an automatic response. âWhy are you looking at me like that?â
âYouâre bantering with me,â Theo says, grinning as though heâs extremely pleased with himself. You realise with a jolt, that yes you were bantering. âOne step closer to agreeing to go out with me.â
âThatâs not happening,â you protest, but it sounds fairly weak, even to you. âLike I keep telling you, Iâm not going to be one of those girls.â
Theo shrugs. âAnd I think you already know youâre not one of those girls. Itâs fine, I can wait.â
The relaxed manner in which he says this has you flabbergasted to say the least. Truthfully, you arenât completely sure why you havenât just agreed at this point. No one in the whole school is used to witnessing such extravagant displays from Theodore Nott, so youâve accepted the fact youâre an outlier in this particular subject area. Youâre starting to think Hermioneâs right, and itâs pure stubbornness thatâs keeping you going.
âYouâll be waiting a long time then,â you say, giving Theo a bland smile.
âNah,â is all he says, the smile still gracing his unperturbed face. âKeep an eye out for me in the Quidditch stands.â
Theo winks at you before walking away in the direction of the pitch and you linger in the castle for a good few minutes before snapping out of it and walking in the same direction.
You find Hermione quickly at the front of the Gryffindor stand and youâre about to ask how long until the game starts when Lee Jordanâs voice begins to boom from the commentator stand.
âStrong start for Gryffindor with Katie Bell taking the Quaffle and- nope, Vaiseyâs taken it and passed it onto Urquhart, his fellow Chaser and the new Slytherin captain.â Youâre thankful for Leeâs commentary as itâs easy to follow and you probably wouldnât have a clue if it werenât for him. Surprisingly, he keeps it professional enough for a while. âGinny Weasley tries to take the Quaffle after a near hit there to Urquhart, thanks to new Gryffindor Beater Jimmy Peakes and that very solid Bludger over there. Unfortunately, he missed-â
âJORDAN.â
âSorry, Professor McGonagall, I meant fortunately. Slytherin Chaser Mattheo Riddle now has the Quaffle and seems to be aiming to score and- oops! Heâs missed, thanks to Gryffindor Keeper Ron Weasley. Good on you, Weasley,â Lee says, unable to be impartial as shown by McGonagallâs glare. âAs for the Slytherin Keeper, Nott seems to be distracted by something in the Gryffindor stands. Or should I say someone.â
Laughter echoes in every stand, much to your utter humiliation and some people even start whooping and cheering in your direction. Theoâs antics are common knowledge at this point, but it doesnât make the laughter any less embarrassing. You try and maintain a shred of dignity by standing still and glaring as hard as you can at Theo. Horrifyingly, he starts to fly in your direction.
Lee looks at McGonagall before speaking, but she merely shrugs helplessly, looking flustered herself. âEr, well it seems Slytherin are open for Gryffindor to score. No one seems to be taking advantage, however, as I think I can speak for everyone when I say we want to know whatâs going on with Nott and Y/N.â
Glancing at the others, you realise Lee is right and all the players are hovering in place, making no move to continue the game. They look partly confused, but mostly nosy.
Theo stops just outside the Gryffindor stand, his attention focused wholly on you. You raise both eyebrows in question, waiting for him to speak. âGo out with me.â
âUnfortunately, I canât quite hear what Nott is saying, but I think we can all guess heâs asking her out again,â Lee says, causing a few more cheers and even a couple groans. âTake the hint, mate.â
âTheo, get back to the game!â you hiss, wrapping your arms around you as if itâll shield you from everyoneâs eyes. âYouâre embarrassing m- What the fuck are you doing!â
Theo swings a leg over the side of his broomstick so that heâs sitting completely facing you, legs dangling dangerously off one side. Lee sits up a little in his booth and McGonagall looks positively horrified. âFor unknown reasons, Nott is balancing precariously in a position no Quidditch player wants to- Merlin, heâs hanging off his broomstick!â
Everyone in the crowd screams and shouts when Theo slips off his broomstick, but they quieten down and watch with fright when they see heâs still holding on with both hands. You think youâre going to faint.
âTheo,â you plead, with the same voice youâd use to coax a bloody kitten out of a tree. âGet back on your broomstick. Please.â
âOnly if you go out with me,â Theo says, eyes determined despite breathing a little heavier. The broomstick is thin and despite his strength, itâd be hard for anyone to maintain a grip for long. âSay youâll go out with me and Iâll get back on.â
âJust say it!â Hermione grabs you by the shoulder to shake you.
Professor McGonagall seems to have shaken out of her previous daze and begins scrambling around for her wand while Lee narrows his eyes to better assess the situation. âGodric, Y/N. Just say âyesâ and end everyoneâs misery already.â
âButâŠâ you trail off, hands shaking as you keep your eyes on Theoâs white knuckles still gripping the broom. âI donât want to encourage this stupid behaviour.â
Theo rolls his eyes as though he canât believe youâre still objecting. He shakes his head at you, though his chest is shaking with laughter. âGo out with me, and I swear Iâll never do anything stupid again. Fucking hell, Iâll quit Quidditch altogether if you want.â
You open your mouth to say something, youâre not sure what, but before you can get a word out, Seamus Finnigan pipes up from beside you. âPersonally, I say let him fall off the bloody thing.â
Tutting, you turn to Theo just to find the idiot raising an eyebrow challengingly. His left hand begins to loosen on the broomstick, deliberately.
âTheo, donât you dare.â
He drops his left hand completely and you scream, the noise drowned out by everyone elseâs yells.
âOKAY!â you yelp, heart in throat as you watch Theo dangling from his broomstick with one hand, clearly struggling. âOkay, Iâll go out with you, you stubborn idiot!â
The Gryffindors that hear you, begin to cheer, setting off the other houses and once McGonagall sees Theo begin to pull himself up on his broomstick, she visibly relaxes, slumping in her seat as she clutches her chest. Lee soon gets the message. âFinally, after a good month of watching Nott pine pathetically, Y/N has agreed to go out with the poor bast- Er, beggar. Sorry, Professor. By the way Nott, youâve got detention for a week.â
Now sitting normally on his broomstick, Theo grins at you like the cheeky bastard that he is, with elation clear as day on his face. You struggle to fight off your own grin and you can tell by his expression youâre not doing a very good job at it. âPull something like that again and Iâll push you off your broomstick myself,â you warn him, though it lacks any real threat. You were more worried than angry, and it definitely shows. âOkay?â
âNo more stupid behaviour,â Theo promises, sounding sincere as he nods, messy hair falling into his eyes. The wind blows it out of the way almost immediately and you find yourself wanting to do it with your fingers. âAfter this, though.â
You furrow your brows as Theo flies close enough to the Gryffindor stand to get off his broomstick and hop right into the crowd, landing next to you. Broomstick in hand, Theo doesnât take his eyes off you when he holds it out to Hermione. âIf you donât mind, Granger.â
Clearly baffled, Hermione gingerly takes the broomstick from him and watches the two of you, as enraptured as the rest of the school.
You face Theo properly, looking up at his eyes to see them glittering with pride and achievement. You tilt your head in question, wondering why he hasnât yet returned to the game.
Theo answers you by gripping your waist to pull you into a stupidly dramatic, dizzying, wonderful kiss. His lips are soft against your own and cold from the wind, but the shiver that runs down your spine has nothing to do with the temperature and everything to do with the way Theo is pressed against you.
You could go on forever, but the cheers and claps and hollering around you remind you that youâre surrounded by all your peers and, Godric, your teachers.
Pulling away, you clear your throat and attempt to gain back some of your dignity by keeping a serious face. Theo attempts nothing of the sort as heâs still wearing a silly grin. You try and avoid his eyes for the sake of your nerves and you mutter the first thing that comes to mind. âErm, good luck then. I hope you win.â
This is the wrong thing to say surrounded by your fellow Gryffindors as a few of them boo at you.
Theo rolls his eyes at the dramatics, while you simply scowl, pointedly at Seamus who seems to have booâed the loudest. Hermione is beaming at you when she hands Theo back his broomstick, though she also gives a little frown directed at Seamus.
Getting back on his broomstick, Theo hovers near you outside the stand. You lower your voice to a whisper that only he can hear. âI still hope you win.â
Theo shrugs, looking more relaxed than youâve ever seen him during a Quidditch game. âIâve already won, darling.â
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Break-up
Characters : Mattheo Riddle, Draco Malfoy, Tom Riddle, Theodore Nott, Blaise Zabini. Pancy Parkinson ( background )
How Slytherin boys will react when you ask them for break up.
Warning : might be toxic, alcoholism, possesive and obsessive behaviour, Reader feels they are too much ( in Blaise Zabini hc, you can skip that )
Mattheo Riddle
He's not going to listen a word so don't even bother.
He will shut you up real quick in more than one way, speaking too loud, cutting you mid, changing topics and rushing to classes that don't even exist and his most favourite, kissing you.
He would kiss you so hard that every thought inside your head would evaporate in fuzzy vapour, the bubbles in your head popping with each moan that would escape your throat.
âYou were saying something?â He would ask so wickedly, amused with the dumb look you have plastered on your face and relishing while your fumble within words.
â I don't think it's important." He would take your hand, kissing the inside of your palm, his sweet words vibrating through your skin.
â yeah, not important.â
Draco Malfoy
Ofcourse he would be a nonchalant bastard about it, despite the brimming tears at the inside of his eyes.
â oh, fancy potter now, don't you ? â he would snarl, accusingly, his voice harsh and contempt choking him.
Draco would do everything wrong, say the wrong things, do even more.
He would start by parading Pancy around, so desperate that he would also accept Miss Greengrass's date invite.
But he would also cry, as soon as the facade will crumble, he would grip the sink till his knuckles went white, face wet and red with tears that wouldn't stop.
Then a word with his mother would do the miracle and the next thing you know would be a very drunk Draco howling and sobbing his undying love for you, refusing to leave and would make everyone listen how much he loves you, and how you belong with him.
â Draco.â you winced at the grimness left behind after dries tears, softening.
â Go back to your dorm.â
â kiss me night and i'll go.â Draco slurred, you were pretty sure you smiled as soon as he said 'fight' instead of night.
âNo.â
â Yes!â He would lean down at you, pouting, and how much you loved this boy, all his tantrums, all his shenanigans. Your pretty, smart and silly boyfriend.
âOkay.â you breathed, pecking his cheek, tasting his tears and how much you hated it.
â I'll be good...good for you.â he will be, you thought.
Tom Riddle
â You decided that yourself ? â Tom would whisper ever so dangerously, pressing closer, you could hear the pitch silence outside the tapestry.
â It's not... It's not working Tom.â you knew he loved you but he was gone half the time, half the time with books that were too bold and dark, of magic that was malicious beyond your wits.
â yeah ? â He would smear his thumb across your face, kneading your cheek and you tried your best to stay quiet but the arousal that lurched inside you, just by his mere touch, sometimes just the way he looked at you, like he was part of your soul.
Tom would smirk, delighted when you moaned for him like that, he wasn't accepting at first how you drived his crazy just by existing. He wouldn't let you go, never ever.
â I want to bury my soul into you.â His nose mapping your neck, taking your scent.
â oh.â you trembled when his hands worked their way inside your shirt, cold rings blazing in your warm flesh.
â But it will take time my darling.â his disappointment flushed when he looked up at you, breathless and hot under him.
â so for now...â his mouth twitched, Head boy Tom Riddle, sinking to his knees, eyes glinting so bright. Oh how much he wishes to mingle your souls together, how much.
Theodore Nott
He's going to sensible, furrowing hard but listen when you tell him all the reasons how it could'nt work , he's considerate enough to pat your back, soothing you, when you break down in between.
â If you need time baby, then I'll be patient.â he would say, kissing your forehead.
He wouldn't sit next to you in classes despite his soul wanting to crawl out of his body and embrace you.
Theo only sometimes snuggled next to you in armchair, you couldn't even blame him for it was too cold
He was on his best behaviour ignoring the totally 'accidental' beat ups of guys who were going to ask you or almost did, but in either way they never showed up.
â I see you aren't dating anyone.â He would make no attempt to get up from your lap, discarding your homework with a swish of his wand.
â shut up, or i will pour this ink pot on you.â you would bristle like a cat, it was inevitable not to card your fingers in his hair, scratching his scalp, he relaxed into your touch, chuckling.
â It wasn't me.â
You sighed, looking at the bruised knuckles because your baby wasn't even trying to be subtle. He could have used his wand, phew.
â c'mon, now can we please date again ? â He would look up with puppy eyes, sticking out his lower lip to look extra cute. Shit, you shouldn't have told him that.
â You guys stopped dating ? â Draco asked, brow raised in question.
â hey.â His fingers reached to trace your jaw, arching a little as you gaped a soft, âTheoâ
â Please, please, please.â He pleaded, his chin raised, as if he could claim your lips just like that.
â Get yourself a room ! â Pancy snapped, Theo only sneered while you looked away flushed pink.
â Theo, stop.â you whined, when he got up, hawling you up in his arms as you wacked him repeatedly.
â I've been a good boy.â he would mouth, smiling when you would hide your blush in the crook of his neck.
â The only thing I am interested in breaking with you,â a pause, â is my bed.â
Blaise Zabini
â What did I do wrong ? â that's his first question and you're already guilty.
â It's just everything is so messy Zab, it's too much for me.â
He couldn't say anything more, the lump in his throat strangling each sound that passed between his cartilage.
â Blaise...â you whispered when his whole face, that shined brighter than the whole sky withered away.
â Hey...â you cooed and nudged him lightly and it was enough to break free the sob that grasped his chest, his whole heart. He hiccuped before large tears streamed down his coppery skin, gleaming in the basking glow of midnight.
â Don't... please..d.. don't â he sobbed harder, his whole body shaking.
You wrapped your arms around his waist, pulling him closer till your heart were crossed.
â I am too much Blaise... Like a black hole.â you could never take away his glisten, never.
â I love you.â he said, wrapping himself around you, closing his eyes as tear escaped and brushed against your clothes, love lorned and love sick.
â I love you too.â because how could you not say it back ? When he loved you like you were the most precious one to him.
You will try, try your best and let him shine, protect him from your drakness, you have to try your best.
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I'ma sell my soul to you too if you write more Mr crawling smut đđ
Most likely like... I dunno, him waking us up in the middle of the night for yk what or smth đ
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Mr. Crawling x Fem Reader SMUT
Typos omg so sorry đ also for the first time I make him pull out lol
The room was dark and quiet. The only sound Mr. Crawling could hear your soft breathing and small snores. Sometimes you'd mumble something or groan and change your position on the bed.
He looked at your back, your hair a mess now. He remembered you'd complain about it getting messy and he smiled. He liked nights. Nights where he could simply stare at you while you slept. How peaceful you sounded asleep. He moved his hand to touch your hair. How nice it felt in his hand. It smelled so nice, you smelled nice. He scoots closer to you in the bed and brings his face close to your hair. He sniffed and groaned as he buried his face in your hair. You smelled so nice right now.
He moves his hands to your hips and brings you closer to him. His long hair was probably tangled up already from how much he was moving around trying to get closer and closer to you. Mr. Crawling can't really sleep. He doesn't need sleep but takes naps only with you or when he is bored. So whenever you are asleep, he either wakes you up to some cuddles or wants something else. And right now, he wants to be super close to you, he wants to be inside of you.
Mr. Crawling already knew of how some humans show their love. Kisses, hugs, gift giving, and sex. Sex was at random. You two were in the living room watching some TV. He couldn't really understand what the hell was even going on since he didn't understand a word. But by the hugs, kisses, and hand holding, he knew those two people were together and that they loved each other. He knew all this because he's done that with you and loves you. The couple were getting to the bedroom and started to kiss, hug, suddenly their clothes were off and they were in bed, one on top of the other as weird sounds came from the partner. You quickly turned off the TV and apologized to him.
He saw how nervous and a bit red you were from showing him that. He also found out about it when he found your Manga collection. You had some on your bookshelf. The color of the manga really caught his attention and grabbed it. When he opened it, the first thing he saw Was a couple kissing as the cock of the man pushed inside the woman's cunt. He was puzzled At this yetâŠhe felt funny. He grabbed another one and this one was of two men. He was amazed by these.
Mr. Crawling showed you at the end, wanting To do what the people did in the books and TV. And you two did. Since then, he has been needing to do everything You taught him. To eating your pussy, to you sucking his cock, and fucking you. He loved the feeling and hearing those sweet sounds you'd let out.
Mr crawling moved his hips to your ass, his bones rubbing against your ass. Your smell could only really ever get him hard anytime. He whines and starts to kiss your shoulder up to your neck, sucking and whining. You groan and shuffle your hips close to him as you hug your pillow. You were still asleep, which birthed him. He sighs and pouts as he rubs his bones a bit faster. He moans quietly and bites down on your shoulder.
The bite wakes you up, making you whine. âWhat?â You ask, your eyes still closed. But Mr. Crawling continues to hump himself on your ass as he had a tight grip on your hips. You didn't hear a response and yawn. That's when you feel him humping you. Your eyes are open and you chuckled. âMr. Crawling?â You call his name, making him shiver and whine. He licks the spot he had bit and rubs his face in your hair. He pants and whines.
You turned to look at him and smiled. âDo you need help?â You ask him in a sleepy voice he nods as he whines and buried his face in your neck. You smiled and kissed the top of his head. âOkay.â You softly say. He moves his face to look at you and kisses you. You kissed him back as you moaned and moved your hand to his cock. He shivers, whining in the kiss. You smiled and wrapped your hand around his cock, stocking him up and down. He pulled away from the kiss and lifted up your shirt. He pinched your nipple, earning a moan from you.
He cups your breast and sucks on your nipple. You whine and bring your chest close to his face, your other tit needing attention too. With his other hand, he cups and plays with your nipple. He switched to the other needy nipple and brought it to his mouth. You shiver and moan as your hand pumps his cock. You rubbed the tip, making him jump.
You giggled and kissed the top of his head. You rubbed his precum and continued to jerk him off. He whines in your Boob and sucks a bit harder. He couldn't do it anymore, he needed to be inside of you.
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Your face was pressed on to the pillow, Mr crawling kissing your back as he thrust his hips in and out of you. âFuck!â Your eyes rolled back as his cock went in and out of you. His hair brushed your back, making you shiver. Mr. Crawling giggles and groans as he thrusted in and out of your pussy. You felt so good, you sounded so beautiful and you smelled so nice.
He looks at your ass as it juggles at every thrust he makes. He holds your hips and harshly thrusted inside, earning a loud moan from you. He hummed and thrusted slowly and suddenly harshly. He smiled as he heard your loud moan. He pulled out of your pussy and made you bring your ass higher. You whine, missing the feeling of his cock inside your throbbing pussy. You moan as you feel his lips kiss your wet and folds. He giggles and licks your cunt. He buried his face in your pussy as he sucked and licked your clit, spreading your folds with his fingers as ge fucked his tounge on your clit. You buried your face into the pillow as you moaned.
He holds your ass with one hand while the other spreads your pussy. He moans and sticks his tongue inside of you, wanting to taste you. You held on to the sheets tightly as you felt his tongue inside of you. It felt so nice, this all felt so nige. Mr. Crawling felt so much love. He loved you so much and he loved making you feel so good. He pulls away and kisses your ass. He makes you turn to look at him and he grins. He pins you on to the bed and rubbed his cock up and down your folds before he pushed himself inside of you again.
You moan and close your eyes. You looked up at him and brought him in for a kiss. âLove- Ah! You!â You moan as he thrusted inside of you. You whine you were close. You brought your hand down to your clit and started to rub it. He held your thighs and pushed them towards you as he thrusted faster. His thrusts start to become faster and sloppy. He's close as well. He is whining at every thrust, feeling your poor pussy squeeze him. You rubbed your clit and threw your head back as you finally came, getting his cock more wet then it already is. He whines and feels how your pussy squeezes him. He thrusted and thrusted the best he could and pulled out quickly, cum shooting out of his cock. He whines and whimpers as he looks down at how his cum reached all the way to your exposed breast.
Mr crawling whines at the sight and holds your hand. âGood?â He asks and you nod as you pant. He smiles and gets off the bed and crawls to the bathroom. He grabs a washCloth and crawls back to the bed. He smiles as he cleans the cum off your stomach and boob. You whine at his touch, your body sensitive. You smiled at him and said, âThank you.â And kiss him softly. He kisses you back and lays next to you.
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If I Was Your Boyfriend
"If he was your boyfriend, he would give you the actual world. Sadly he is just your best friend with the biggest unrequited crush ever."
Pairing: Jungkook x f.Reader
Genre: Unrequited Crush!AU, Idiots in Love!AU, Best Friends to Lovers!AU, Slice of Life, Fluff, Romance
Warnings: OC is scared of a bug (me fr), he kills it for her, he would do anything for her, yearning, unrequited feelings (? mhhm ?), listen. he may be a lil bit dense when it comes to reading signs jsjjss bless his heart, i need him as my boyfriend, so much tension between them, jsjsjs this is pure torture i want them to kiss!!, brief mention of adult toys, miscommunication because he suuucks at love confessions, protective & slightly jealous!Kook, he is the greenest flag though like seriously, the happiest end hihi, the inspo was seven mv kook, she is shorter than him because i have the hugest size kink with him and this is so self-indulgent <3, once again i need him as my boyfie
Wordcount: 10.5k
a/n: sometimes i have ideas for one specific trope without wanting to write the whole book lmaooo, so enjoy this lil slow burn fluff scenario which is so self-indulgent and fanfiction coded. also, it was inspired by a real life event where i found a bug in my bed and i had to kill it on my own :( i was being very brave about it đ ps: this is very unrealistic 'cause like why would you only be best friends with HIM? that wouldn't be an unrequited crush if that was me. happy birthday to kookie đ
The call comes around two at night. Jungkook picks up with the first ring. He was working out before that.
âHello? Are you okay?â he asks, resting his head against the edge of the sofa as he is currently sitting on the floor. He was doing sit ups before that, trying his hardest to regulate his sped-up breathing right now.
âKook, please help me.â
Jungkook sits up straight.
âWhere are you? Are you safe?â
âI donât know. I think itâs following me. I locked it inside my room but I can still hear it.â
âStay with me, Iâm getting dressedâ, he says, jumping to his feet to hurry to his front door.
âPlease hurry please. Iâm so scared.â
âIâm coming, donât worry. Are you home?â
âYes. Hurry please.â
âIâm coming, stay strong. Yeah?â
âYes, thank youâ, you say and end the call.
Jungkook curses, shoving the phone into his pants pocket. He puts on his jacket as he runs down the hallway and puts on his beanie once he is inside the elevator. He is restless in the small space, wishing for it to go quicker. Itâs too slow.
âCome on, come onâ, he stresses it, knowing that it is fruitless.
You are his best friend. Well, at least that is what you would call him. Best friend. Jungkook sees so much more in you. His best friend, his person of trust, his crush. He would never tell you his feelings because he doesnât want to make it awkward. But if there were no consequences for speaking up, Jungkook would tell you that you are his dream girl. You are funny, sweet, caring, talented, intelligent, wonderful, perfect, amazing, beautiful, pretty, stunning. Yes, Jungkook thinks that you are all of these things and more. When he is close to you, his heart races and he wants to keep looking at your face. When you are sad, he wants to make you happy again and when you smile, he wants to keep it on your face. When you arenât with him, he misses you and when you are with him, he hopes that time stops passing. You are the person he updates on the most mundane of things and whose text messages always bring a quick flutter to his chest. Your voice is the voice he could listen to for hours and your face is the face he doesnât get tired of staring at when you and he video chat late night till you and he both run out of things to say. And at the same time, you are the person with whom Jungkook never runs out of things to talk about, if he didnât have to breathe, he would continue to babble to you until your ears wore off. Jungkook swears that if there were no consequences for his words, he would tell you all of this.Â
But alas, there are consequences and so Jungkook is left keeping his true feelings hidden.
The outcome of tonightâs phone call obviously wouldnât have changed whether or not he had romantic feelings for you. Jungkook loves you as a friend as well. And he will always be there for his friends. Especially when they are clearly scared by something.
Jungkook rings your bell. You open the door as if you were waiting for him, grabbing him by his wrists to drag him inside. Jungkookâs entire body flutters at the feeling of your touch.Â
âFinally you are here. Come in quick, pleaseâ, you tell him.
You must have been sleeping already. You are in your pyjamas and have no make-up on. Jungkook swears that you have never looked more beautiful before.Â
âWhat happened? Did someone break in?â he asks instead of telling you that you are beautiful.
âWorse.â
âWorse?â
âKook, there is a huge bug in my room. Please kill it.â
Jungkook stops in his tracks. You call him over for that? You stop when you feel his strength all of a sudden, looking over your shoulder. He has his right brow cocked up.
âWhat?â you stress.
âYou give me a heart attack for that?â
âWhat? Of course. Itâs a bug.â
Jungkook sighs in annoyance, âseriously?â
âYes, seriously.â You round him to shove him by his back. âKill it for me, please Kook.â
âFine, Iâll kill itâ, he gives up and groans, letting you shove him to your bedroom. Jungkook would never dare to think this way, but right now he wished that you were shoving him to your room for something else. Nothing dirty of course, just cuddles. Lots of cuddles. He would literally trade both his kidneys so he could hold you in his arms until you fall asleep just once. He would make sure that you were warm and that you felt safe in his embrace. He would kiss your face and tell you sweet nothings like how he thinks of you when he listens to love songs and how he wishes that it was you and he whenever he sees a romantic scene in a movie.
God, Jungkook is so done for.Â
âWhere is this stupid bug?â he acts annoyed to make the yearning a little easier. It is difficult when you have your hands on his back and they are so, so warm.
âIn there.â You open the door carefully and look around. âFollow meâ, you say, tiptoeing into your room.
Jungkook follows you, smiling fondly. You are cute when you are acting like this.Â
âWhere is it?â he asks, trying his hardest not to think about how he wants to snuggle you for being cute.
âI donât know. It was right there when I last saw it.â
âMaybe itâs already gone.â
âNo, it was-âÂ
The bug flies past you, you scream instantly, jumping at Jungkook for help.
âThe bug! Eeeek Kooook! I hate bugs!â you squeak, hiding away in his chest.
Jungkook hopes that you canât feel his racing pulse, because it is racing. You never touched him like this before, let alone snuggled so close to him.Â
Act cool. Act cool. Act cool.Â
He wraps one arm around you, patting the back of your head.Â
âThere, there you big babyâ, he teases.
âI hate bugs so muchâ, you whine, snuggling closer.
He glances down at you, feeling every beat his heart takes.
Act cool! Act cool! Act cool!
What if he wrapped both arms around you? Would that go too far? He wouldnât mean anything dirty behind it, he just really wants to hug you and feel you melt in his arms.
âKill it, Kook pleaseâ, you whine and move your head so you were looking up at him. Your eyes lock.
Jungkook bites down on his tongue, forgetting to breathe for just a few moments.
ACT COOL! ACT COOL! ACT COOL!
What if he cupped your face right here and now to kiss your nose and cheeks and forehead and chin and lips and eyes? What if he did that?
âPlease kill it.â
âI am, you gotta let go for thatâ, he gets out, surprised at how normal his voice sounds eventhough he is currently losing his mind.
Please donât let go. Please donât let go.Â
You let go. Disappointment from his side. You hide behind him and grab his waist for moral support. Butterflies in his tummy, his knees buckle a little. Holy moly. Holy moly. Wow. Oh wow oh wow oh wow.Â
âYouâre seriously so brave for thisâ, you tell him.
âYeah, yeah or maybe youâre just a scaredy cat.â
He has no idea how he is able to talk properly right now when you have him literally messed up.Â
Jungkook inches close to where the bug is sitting on the wall while his thoughts and heart are racing. He has to act nonchalant about the situation. You are only holding him like this because you are scared.
âDo you have a shoe?â he asks you, hating his hand for shaking when he presents it to you.
You bend down and take off your right slipper, âwill this do?âÂ
âPerfect.âÂ
Jungkook takes the slipper and carefully moves closer to the bug. Your fingers tighten on his waist.
âCareful nowâ, you comment.
âI amâ he gets out, concentrating vigorously. He canât mess up now, you are counting on him.Â
âAlmost there. Almost thereâ, you cheer him on.
Jungkook slams the shoe down. The bug has no chance of escape. You scream.
âGotcha.â
âDid you get it? Is it dead? Kook, is it dead?â
Jungkook lifts the slipper and looks at the squished bug on its sole. He shows it to you.
âDead.â
âYay, itâs dead. Ew how nasty, you can see the intestines.â
âRight. Give me a minute, Iâm cleaning it.â
âUse acid for it. Just to be sure it doesnât come back.
He chuckles, âsure, Iâll use acid.â
He leaves you in your bedroom to hurry to the bathroom.Â
Your apartment is familiar to him. He spends a lot of time here. Mostly to chill on your couch and watch shows with you. Sometimes you also cook dinner together and then eat it by the table, while other times you do a workout together. Seriously, you are his fucking dream girl.Â
One time as you and he were cooking together, he needed something from the shelf above you, but you couldnât step away from the stove. So he got it while you were right in front of him and his chest brushed against your back and he swears that he heard your breath hitch for a moment. Jungkook wanted to hug you back then. When you later that evening turned to let him taste the cooking only to use the same fork to taste it yourself, Jungkook almost kissed you.Â
One time when you were watching a show, you got cold hands and Jungkook offered to warm them for you. He didnât think you would accept, but you did and so he ended up with your cold hands under his hoodie as you warmed them up on his skin. Jungkook swears that he wanted to pin you against the sofa and kiss your cute face back then.
One time when you were doing a workout together, you struggled with a movement and asked him for help. He ended up having to hold you by your hips as he guided you through the movement. He wanted to flip you and kiss you senseless back then.Â
He never felt like this before. He was scared of these feelings at first, but now he canât get enough. You are a foodie, a romance lover and a lover for couple workouts and itâs so impossible for him not to be in love. You are seriously his dream girl. There is no fucking way around this.
Jungkook knows that tonight will be such a memory as well. the kind of memory which tingles, but which also makes him regret that he didnât act differently. When you cuddled into him, he wanted to hug you properly. When you grabbed his waist he wanted to turn in your grasp and kiss you against the door. But he knows that he canât. He would ruin what you are having and he could never get over this heartbreak.
Jungkook looks at your toothbrush as he cleans the shoe. Sometimes he thinks about how it would feel to be represented in your bathroom as the second toothbrush right next to yours. Â
Jungkook bites down on his tongue, burning holes into the empty space next to your toothbrush. He would put so much effort into taking care of himself so you could always look at the best version of him. He would do skincare nights with you. He would try out hair masks with you and rub body lotion on the spots you canât reach. He would brush his teeth, floss them and use mouthwash religiously just so his kisses would always taste good. He would do all of this if it meant you had an attractive boyfriend.
Jungkook looks away. He is doing it again, he is getting delusional. He shouldnât do that. It isnât his right.Â
He turns off the water and leaves the bathroom so he could return the slipper to you.
You are in the kitchen, looking at him instantly.
âIs it gone?â you ask him.
âYup, itâs gone. Your slipper.â
âThank you seriously. You just saved my lifeâ, you say and lift a bottle of his favorite beer. âThank You Beer?â
He shakes his head, âI need to drive.â
âOkay. Then a Thank You Water?â
âYeah, I can drink that.â
Jungkook accepts the offer because he can stay with you longer that way.
âComing right up. Get comfy in the meantime.â
Jungkook waits on the sofa, but stands up when you come inside the room. He accepts the water and sits back down. You plop down right in front of him, pulling your legs onto the pillow. Your knees are almost touching the side of thigh.
âYou seriously saved my ass tonight. I was already in bed when I felt something tickle my arm and then I turned on the lights and it was right on my arm. I screamed so loud, you have no idea.â
âThat sounds traumatic.â
âIt was traumatic.â You shudder. âI hate bugs.â
Jungkook laughs softly.
âWhat? Are you laughing at me?â
âNo, just laughing âcause I agree. You really hate bugs.â
âI do. Awful things, seriously.â
He laughs and you laugh as well. Your eyes meet again. He takes a sip of his water then asks a question which scares him a little.
âWhy did you call me?â
âWhy not?â
âI, I meanâ, he stutters, feeling his heart do somersaults.
âYou were my first thought. Itâs probably because youâre always keeping me safe.â
Jungkook swears he wants to kiss you right now. He is the first person you think of when you need help. He is your safe person. Wow, wow, wow.
âIs that weird to say?â you ask him shyly.
âNot at allâ, he gets out in a terribly hoarse voice.
âOkay phew. I knew that I could count on you.â
Jungkook gives you a smile. One you retort with a vast glance at his lips.
Jungkook brings the empty glass to the kitchen to clean it after he finishes it. You follow him.Â
âYou donât have to clean thatâ, you tell him, trying to reach for the glass but he moves it away.
âI got itâ, he assures you, looking at you over his arm.
You and he are so close again. He canât stop looking into your eyes. He knows that he is delusional, but in his mind, your eyes are so bright when you look at him. But itâs not real and he is acting stupid when he is staring like that. He turns his head away, blind to the few more seconds your eyes seem to linger on his face.
âWhat were you doing when I called you?â you ask him, watching his hands as he washes the glass.
âWorking out.â
âReally? At this time?â
âThatâs when I get energised.â
âOf course you do. What were you doing?â
âJust stuff on the floor.â
âNice. Like push ups and stuff?â
âYeah and sit ups.â
âThatâs cool.âÂ
He has his back turned to you, putting away the glass. He is wearing a white oversized shirt, but the movement makes it stick to his body, showing not only his skinny waist but also his built, muscular back. His shoulders grew so much over the past seven months. (Seven months ago was when you decided to download a dating app and told Jungkook about it. Jungkook started working out harder since then.)Â
He closes the cupboard and turns.Â
âSomething wrong?â he asks, somehow oblivious to your stares.Â
âNothing, no uhm.â You look to the side. âYou probably wanna leave now?â
He doesnât want to leave.
âIf you still need me here, I can stayâ, he offers.
Please say yes. Please say yes. Please say yes.
âReally?â
He nods his head, giving you a sweet smile with teeth. He would do anything for you, even mess up his sleep schedule.
âMaybe there is another bug, you know?â you say, playing with your own fingers shyly.
His heart is jumping in joy. He can stay longer.Â
âThat could be possible, yeah. Should we check?â he offers as calmly as possible.
âYeah, please.â
Yay! Yay! Yay!
âI know I sound so stupid.â
âYou donât. Come on, Iâll check.â
You and he go to your bedroom together. Jungkook wants to hold your hand, but knows that he canât. You close the door to your bedroom. His pulse flutters for a moment. In another lifetime, this would be the moment you pull him into a kiss. But Jungkook knows that stupid things like different lifetimes are stuff of movies, not reality.
He has to act as your best friend who doesnât have a crush on you if he wanted to or not. He lifts your blanket and shakes it out.
âNo bugsâ, he comments.
âThatâs good, yeah. I should probably check the pillows.â
You crawl onto bed and make it your job to flip each individual pillow. Jungkook looks at you for a moment. He hates that things like different lifetimes are stuff of movies. Because in a different lifetime, he jumps onto bed with you to hug you. He listens to your giggle and makes you giggle even harder by tickling your sides.
You, oblivious to his longing stares, flip yet another pillow.Â
âNo bugs here, thank god. I probably sound insane to you, but Iâm actually so scared that thereâs a whole bug family in this room.â
âYou donât sound insane. Iâll take care of them if we find them.â
âYouâre seriously my hero.â
Jungkook is thinking. Maybe he could still make you laugh, he thinks. Not by showering you in skinship, but differently.Â
âHey, check this outâ, he says.
âWhat? Did you find another bug?!â you gasp, whipping around instantly.
âIâm a bug. Bzzzâ, he says and jumps onto bed, flapping his arms as if he was a bug flying.
You cough out air, following it up with a loud laugh.
Jungkook flops onto his back and wiggles his limps.
âNow Iâm flipped onto my back and canât get upâ, he says, squirming from side to side stupidly. âHelp me. Bzzzz.â
You laugh to the point it becomes just a little ugly and way too loud. At least you would call it that. Jungkook calls it the most beautiful sound he has ever heard. He loves to be goofy when it means that he can make you laugh. Some people call him childish and tell him to act his age, but Jungkook doesnât care about these people because you love the way he is. You always smile and laugh so much when he gets goofy and childish and it is so worth every rude comment he gets. One time, he played around with a snapback hat, acting silly with it until you cackled loudly. Another time he showed you a card trick with goofy sound effects, basking in the giggles you gave him. He knows that he looks stupid in these moments, but he would literally turn into a silly jester if it meant that you could laugh just one more time.
âHelp me, Iâm a bug and I canât get upâ, he whines dramatically.
âWait, Iâll help youâ, you joke and place your hands on his torso. One on his chest, the other on his stomach.
He tenses up like a board of wood, forgetting all about being silly. His limbs drop, as does his heart. You are touching him! This never happened before when he acted goofy. What should he do? What is the correct reaction to this?
âWhy are you such a heavy bug? I canât flip youâ, you are still being playful with him, but Jungkook canât find humour anymore. He is starstruck.Â
He chuckles deeply, letting out a breathy, âyeah.âÂ
You glance at him. The second your eyes meet, his heart is racing. You are so fucking beautiful.Â
âHehâ, he lets out and places his hand over yours, eyes flitting to your lips unknowingly.
âHmâ, you let out, studying his gazing eyes. Your lips feel kissed just from his look.Â
âMhmâ, he hums and smiles, shimmying his head just a little closer to you. He feels your minty breath swirl over his face like this, squeezing your hand in reaction. What if he just did it? What if he just kissed you right here and now?
Your smile falls.
âSorryâ, you whisper, pulling your hands back and sitting up.Â
Jungkook gasps for air, coming back to reality. What was this moment? Is he going crazy? Why would he do that?
Your eyes meet for a brief second then you look away again, rubbing the side of your neck.
Jungkook sits up, âI should, uhm, probably check under the bed too, right?â he tries to change topics and rolls over to stick his head under the bed. He might die of heart palpitations.
There are a few boxes under the bed, some shoe boxes and an exposed adult toy. Jungkook does a double take. Oh god, panic.
Jungkook shoots back up, staring at you with big eyes.
âWhat?â
âYou uhmâŠâ
âWhat?â You crawl to the edge and bend down to look, shooting up again within a second, âWhat did you see??â
His entire face flushes, he looks to the side instantly, right hand coming to rub the side of his neck. Your entire face feels on fire, you want to die on the spot.
âI, I didnât see anything I swearâ, he stutters.
âKook, please donât remember thisâ, you insist, shaking him by his shoulders.
âItâs seriously fineâ, he assures you, panicking so so much.
âThis is so embarrassing.â
âNo, itâs okay. Sorry for invading your space like that.â
âIâm actually gonna cry, please donât remember thisâ, you beg him.
âI didnât even see anythingâ, he lies, feeling his heart give up. For real, it will give up. He feels so guilty. You are so upset and uncomfortable and itâs all his fault. âIâm sorry.â
âNo you, I guess, I donât know, I justâ, you stutter, unable to form any coherent sentences.
Jungkook feels just as awkward as you, suddenly needing to stand up.
âI think I should goâ, he says.
âReally?â
âYeah, itâs getting late.â
âOh, yeah. Totally.â
Fuck, fuck, fuck. You fucked it. You are internally panicking, blind to the fact that Jungkook is panicking as well.
His face is so red and itâs making him scared that you can see it. He doesnât want you to think that he is imagining you like that, because he really isnât. But for just a second it crossed his mind and it managed to dye his face so red that he feels like crying. Of course he wants to stay with you. Of course he wants to spend every single second of this night with you, talking and laughing and looking at you, but he might not be able to get rid of this blush right now. He needs to leave.
You follow behind him, panicking more and more. You let him put on his shoes and his beanie, you watch him close his jacket unable to say anything. You swear that you always clean up after yourself, but you were busy this morning and forgot to put it away after sanitizing it. Jungkook was never supposed to see it. Not him. Everyone but him.
âIâll text you once Iâm homeâ, Jungkook tells you.
âYouâre not disgusted now, are you?â you finally get the scary words out.
âWhat?â
You are both dragging out the inevitable.Â
âI donât know, justâŠI tried the dating app stuff. I met people, you know?â
Jungkook feels like dying when you talk about this stuff. He stands in the apartment complex hallways, looking at you as you tell him about your hook ups and he wants to fucking die as he does. He has been loyal to you ever since he started this stupid crush on you. Of course he knows that it is impossible of him to expect the same from you. But he has been so fucking loyal to you that you literally broke his heart seven months ago when you told him about your newest download. He wasnât strong enough to get over his crush, so now he dies all over again each time you tell him about your hook-ups.
âAnd it just felt weird. I couldnât do itâ, you confess.
âReally?â suddenly what happened before is wiped from his mind. You never went through with it? His loyalty was reciprocated? Jungkook knows that he is being so delusional right now and yet he still hangs on to your every word like a worshipper of your syllables, staring at your lips as you talk.
âYeah, but I still have needs, you know? Oh god, why did I say that? This didnât make it better. Just forget I ever said anything.â
âI, I didnât hear anythingâ, Jungkook stutters, feeling weak-kneed. The wall between him being a good person and a reckless person is as fragile as a sheet of fresh ice. One wrong step from you and he might actually confess how he really feels.
âOkay good, letâs keep it at that.â You push at his chest. Jungkook swears he actually whimpers as you do it. âGo home and let us forget about all of this, please.â
Should he do it? Should he be reckless?
You step back, now standing in your apartment.
Do it! Open, mouth!
âText me once youâre home, okay?â
âOkay.â
No! This isnât the right thing to say! Be reckless!
âThank you for tonight, sleep tight.â
âSweet dreams.â
Tell her! Fucking tell her!
The door closes.
Jungkook falls out of his fearful trance, gasping for air. His heart tells him to knock for another chance, his mind tells him not to. He turns and leaves, hitting his own head as punishment for being the most stupid person that ever existed. Tonight could have gone so well. He could have had more time with you, he got the confirmation that you never tried the dating app thing, he had everything and he has to ruin it by being a creep. Why did he look under your bed? Thatâs where most people store their sexy stuff. Why did he have to make you uncomfortable? What if you never want to see him again? What if he ruined your friendship without ever doing the one thing he always wished to ruin it with? In his dreams he always ruined it by confessing his feelings, but his reality was because he was a creep.
Jungkook cries in his car on his way home. He forgets about texting you and spends a sleepless night regretting his choices.
Maybe he did fall asleep, otherwise it would be impossible for his phone to rip him awake the next day. He barely opens his puffy eyes at first, but opens them widely when he sees that it is you calling him.
âHello?â he picks up hastily.
âOh thank god. You didnât text me last night and I was worried.â
The text! Jungkook slaps his own forehead, sitting up straight.
âIâm so sorry, IâŠâ
âItâs okay, I already had a gist that you forgotâ, you assure him, âdo you have time?âÂ
âOf course, whatâs up?â
âYou know, uhm.â You laugh in embarrassment. âLast night was a mess, wasnât it?â
âNo uhm, itâs fine.â
âYou wouldnât be down for a grocery trip with barbeque and beer afterwards, would you? My treat, as an apology for traumatising you.â
âOf course, I would. Today?â
âYes, in like two hours? Iâll get off work soon and could go straight to the store.â
You and Jungkook often go grocery shopping together. You already have a favourite store to go to. Jungkook loves these moments. He loves to carry the heavy bags for you and get the stuff you canât reach. He loves to push the cart while you tell him about your day and then load the groceries into the bags with you. In another lifetime, you and he push the cart together and he steals kisses between aisles. In another lifetime, he holds your hand and the bags in the other. And in another lifetime, you and he go to your apartment to cook dinner for date night on the couch. Jungkook really wishes to live a different life sometimes.
âTwo hours sounds greatâ, he agrees in a cool voice even if he wants to squeal. He gets to go grocery shopping with you! How amazing!
âNice, then weâll see each other there.â
âYes, weâll see each other. Iâm really excited for it.â
âMe too. See you later, yeah? My boss is coming back.â
âSee you later. Good luck at work.âÂ
âThanks, Kook. Bye bye.â
Goodbye, my everything, my dream girl, my love. He thinks.
âBye.â He says.
The phone call ends. Jungkook drops back into the pillow and lets out a yelp of celebration, following it up with excessive kicking and punching of the air as well as squeaky giggles.Â
He didnât ruin everything and he will see you in two hours. Today is the best day of his life! But wait! Jungkook gasps and jumps out of bed.
âI need to get ready! Shower and wash my hair and pick an outfit! And do my skincare and brush my teeth! There is so much to do, oh godâ he talks to himself, running through his apartment.
You are pacing in front of the store. Jungkook isnât late, you are just early. Early enough to become painfully aware of your nervousness. You wonder how it will be between the two of you after last night. You could barely fall asleep because you were so embarrassed. Work didnât distract you either, your thoughts kept repeating what had happened last night. You hope that he doesnât look at you differently after what he had to see. It would literally ruin you.
Jungkook is your best friend. But if someone asked you honestly, you would say that he is the boy of your dreams. He is everything you ever dreamed of and everything you will never be able to have. He is too perfect for you. If there were no consequences for your actions, you would tell him how you really feel. You would tell him that you think that he is the most attractive man and person you have ever seen, that he is the kindest soul with the sweetest heart. That he is talented and amazing and the funniest person ever. And that you feel safe with him.Â
You would tell him that every time he comes to your place or you to hisâ and you spend time together, you wish that it was a date instead. You want to tell him that every time your bodies touch, your heart jumps out of your chest. You want to tell him that you keep repeating all the moments with him over and over again and that sometimes at work, you text him because you canât stop thinking about him. You also want to tell him that you thought about killing the bug yourself before deciding to call Jungkook just to have him close.
And the worst of it all? You want to tell Jungkook that the only reason why you downloaded the dating app was to get over your feelings for him because you knew that someone as perfect as Jungkook would never want to have you. But actions have consequences and so you call him your best friend whilst secretly wishing for him to just be reckless and kiss you.
Jungkook appears on the horizon, swerving through the crowd in a stoic expression. Your heart speeds up instantly. He is wearing black pants with a stripped shirt and a black jacket today. His hair falls on soft waves, his skin glows in the sun. He is so dreamy and handsome.Â
His eyes find you in front of the store, his face lights up and he lifts his arm to wave at you. You wave back, bouncing on your tiptoes. He saw you! He is waving at you!Â
He hurries through the crowd faster than before, reaching you within moments.
âHey thereâ, he says.
âHeyâ, you tell him and give him a hug.Â
Jungkook short circuits. He gets no time to react before you already step back again. You just hugged him. Holy moly, wow.Â
âSorry, was that not okay?â you ask, studying his frozen features.
âWhat?â He flinches back to life. âNo, it was amazing, I mean, it was okay. I uhm, I have this for you.â
He lifts a bouquet of sunflowers.
âSunflowers? For me?â
âYeah, I saw them and thought of you.â
âYou did?â
You accept them with shortened breath and a quickened heart. You are currently screeching inside. You feel on cloud nine.
âA-as a best friend of course, because weâre best friends.â
âOh. Yes.â You clear your throat. âWe are. Thank you for the friendship flowers. Iâll put them in water once Iâm home. Hopefully theyâll survive till then.âÂ
âIâm sure they will. Thatâs why I put the paper towel there.â
âI know, I saw. Thatâs so clever.â
âYeah, thanks.â He does a little twirl so he stands next to you, hands stuffed into the pockets of his pants in a cute way. âSo what do we need? Any particular groceries in mind?âÂ
You and he start walking to the store. He opens the door for you, holding it until you are inside. He follows and goes straight for the carts. You are next to him.
âYes, Iâm out of multigrain rice so Iâm buying all of them to make my mixture again and I wanna stock up on udon because they have a sale going on.â
âNeat, a sale. Iâll get some tooâ, Jungkook says, leaning his elbows on the cart as he pushes it. âI wanna see if they have the lychees again. They were so yummy last time.â
âThey were. Especially with that sauce you made.â
âI can make them for you again.â
âReally?âÂ
He nods his head, âsure, you could come over Saturday and weâll watch a movie. I heard that thereâs a few new movies to stream.â
âI should be free on Saturday.â
âNice, then youâll come over.â
You and he exchange a look, breaking it quickly to look at opposite sides. Unbeknownst to either, you are both panicking. Jungkook is so excited to have you come over but is also terribly nervous about the aspect of it. You canât wait to visit Jungkook but are also scared of the yearning.Â
A moment of silence where you each fill the cart with stuff you want. You and Jungkook always fill up the cart together and then separate the groceries afterwards. In another lifetime, you donât need to separate the groceries. In another lifetime, you share the same bag and fill the same fridge to cook from the same pots and eat on your shared couch whilst a show was running.Â
âHow was your day?â Jungkook asks because other lifetimes donât exist and in his real life, the only shared thing he gets with you is time.
âIt was okay. Yours?â
âI woke up like two hours ago.â
You chuckle, âof course you sleep while I have to work my ass off.â
âHey, Iâm on a well-deserved break, I earned the night owl lifestyleâ, he throws back, making you laugh with it.
âIâm not saying anything against it. I need a break soon.â
âIs work stressful?â
âYeah, quite. Thereâs been lots of new projects coming in.â
âNo, Iâm sorry. If there is something I can do, let me know.â
You look at him.Â
âI will, thank you.â
In another lifetime, you would hug his arm and rest your head against it and you would tell him that you donât mind a stressful workday when it meant spending time with him afterwards.Â
Jungkook meets your eyes. His heart flutters nervously, speeding up more when you look away. If he was your boyfriend, he would hold your hand and tell you that you looked beautiful after a long work day.Â
âI like the way you did your hair todayâ, he says instinctively. He has no idea why he said that because he never says stuff like that to you. He panics because of it. His tongue worked quicker than his brain.Â
You reach up to feel your hair, âyou do?â
âYes, it fits you really well.âÂ
âThank youâ, you murmur and cross a corner without warning, leaving him alone for a few seconds.
Jungkook follows after you hastily, confused as to why you so abruptly fled. Oh no. He went too far with the compliment. He definitely creeped you out again.Â
You are squatting down in front of the grain section, reading the labels carefully. Jungkook parks the cart next to you, standing still. He tries not to, but still looks at you. You shift your eyes to him, widen them and look away again. Jungkook swears he might cry. He made you uncomfortable.Â
âIâm sorry for saying that. I, I meant it as a friend.â
âHm? Ah, itâs okay. Thank you for saying it, I liked itâ, you say and stand up, filling the cart with the grain. Jungkookâs heart flutters happily. He didnât mess up. Yay!
âGot everything you wanted?â he asks.
âYep, except black rice. Do you see it somewhere?â
âUp thereâ, Jungkook says, pointing at it. The lower racks are empty, only the racks which are clearly for staff to reach so they could refill the store are stacked with the rice.Â
âNice.â You try to reach it, but fail. âKook, can you get it?â
âSure, let meâ, he says, stepping right behind you to get the rice from the staff rack. His chest brushes against your back. You gasp. He feels dizzy, but acts nonchalant.
âThere we go yourâŠ.riceâ, Jungkook says, eyes flitting down to you looking up at him. He didnât even realise that you turned.Â
There is almost no distance and so Jungkook tries to step back to be respectful because friends donât stand this close. You grab him by his jacket, making him gulp and panic greatly. His left hand grabs the edge of the shelf, his chest lifts in a deep gasp. You are taller today because of the shoes you are wearing. The shortened distance between your lips is making him dizzy.
âAbout last nightâ, you begin, but he interrupts you before you apologise for something you have no reason to.
âItâs alright. I shouldnât have snooped, Iâm sorry.â
âYou didnât snoop, I justâŠI clean up, I was just busy and forgot and Iâ, you exhales deeply, âIâm not making it any better talking by about it, am I?â
He laughs softly and reaches down to cup your hand, caressing your knuckles softly. The lines blur more and more. You both feel weightless. You can smell his cologne like this, he can smell your perfume. Itâs like you are high on each other.
âIf it makes you feel any better, I have some toys tooâ, he says, making your eyes widen. You look to the side and let out a giggle. Jungkook knows that it is of shy nature and so he giggles with you. âDid that help or did I just embarrass myself for nothing?â
âNo, it helped.â You meet his eyes, fingers squeezing his jacket.Â
Jungkook holds his breath, fingers tightening on the shelf. He is being so greedy. Itâs so unfair to you.Â
âI, uhm.â He clears his throat and slips his hand from the shelf to present the rice to you. âYour rice.â
âOh? Thanks, uhm, put it in the cart.âÂ
He steps back. Your hands slip from his jacket, his fingers stop holding you. They tingle in the memory of how it was to cradle you this way. His thoughts are racing, trying to calculate the weight of his confession. If he confessed, what would he lose? Your friendship, your time, the movie hangouts, the cooking together, the shared workouts, your texts and calls and video chats. All your laughter and smiles and giggles. Jungkook gulps. The loss is too great. He canât confess. Nope, never.Â
He grips the cart and pushes it, hoping that walking it off will help with the heart palpitations. You walk next to him, resting your hand on the metal cage part of the cart.
âDid you sleep well last night?â he asks you.
âCan I be honest? Not really. I was so embarrassed.â
âIâm sorry.â
âItâs not your fault. Iâm just awkward.â
He chuckles, you chuckle with him. You give him a glance.
âI think I donât have to ask you if you slept well at night because you never sleep at night.â
He laughs, you do as well.
âThatâs not true. I can sleep at night too, I simply choose not to. Oh wait. I need buckwheat noodles.â
You and he stop in front of the section. You stay by the cart while Jungkook browses the options.Â
âShould I make you makguksu?â he offers mindlessly.
âToday?â
âYeah.â
âSo you donât wanna go for barbecue and beer?â You chuckle and nudge his arm, sending tingles all over his skin. âDid you already forget again, you doofus?â
âI might have.â He gives you a sorry, cute smile.
Jungkook makes you laugh with it.
âKook, you little scatterbrain youâ, you chuckle, leaning into him.Â
Jungkook leans closer, placing his arm around your waist without touching you. In another lifetime, he would close the last distance. But not in reality. He looks at your lips, asking himself why you seek him out today and why he takes the chances so greedily. He shouldnât do that. You are just friends, nothing more.
âUh, sorryâ, you say and step away again.Â
Jungkook gulps, gasps for air. He doesnât understand what today means, but whatever you are doing is actually messing with him. He hasnât been able to breathe properly ever since that hug you gave him. You seem so clingy, but he doesnât understand why.Â
You grab the cart and push it.
âI think I have everything I need. You?â
âYeah, yeah sureâ, Jungkook stutters, stumbling after you like a lovesick puppy. He doesnât know where to put his hands and so he ends up stuffing them into his pants pockets while his eyes are glued to the back of your head. He is seriously under your spell. Every part of him.
You load the groceries on the conveyor belt together and then load them into separate bags. You pay for all of them and wish the cashier a good day. Jungkook carries the bags like always, while you are allowed to walk freely with the bouquet of flowers cradled in your arms.
âIâll pay you back at homeâ, he says, swerving outside as you hold the door open for him.
âTodayâs on me. As a thank you for yesterday and an apology.â
âWhat? But I bought so muchâ, Jungkook gasps, pouting sadly.
âItâs fine. I have money.â
âBut-â
âNo buts. Iâm paying.â
Jungkook pouts, huffing out air in defeat.
âFine, but Iâll pay for your stuff too one day.â
You chuckle, âdeal.âÂ
You and he walk together.
âYou should really start accepting when I offer. Itâs not a competition.â
âI just feel uncomfortable making you pay.â
âWhy?â
Because youâre his dream girl and you should never have to pay for him. He should be your wallet whenever you are out together, he should fulfil your every wish.Â
âI donât know, just so. You work so hard for your money.â
âYou work just as hardâ, you say and chuckle. âKook, youâre so competitive.â
Jungkook smiles, shaking his head in defeat.Â
âI guess am.â
You grin, hugging the flowers tighter. With a little skip in your steps, you close the distance. Just enough that one small movement would be enough for your arms to brush.Â
Jungkook glances at you. You are gazing at the flowers, smiling so brightly that your nose scrunches up. He could swear that your eyes are sparkling.Â
The lines blur again. He wonders if it would be okay for him to be a bad person, if he was allowed to slip his hand into yours even if you never gave him consent for it. There is not much he can still take.
You lower your nose into the flowers and smell them, closing your eyes in a happy squint. The metaphorical glass of how much Jungkook can take floats over.
He says your name and knows that the next words are coming out of him before he can think them through.
âYeah?â You look at him.
He is nervous and scared, but still talks, âcan we talk about something?â
âSure. Whatâs up?â
Panic. His situation finally sunk into his consciousness.Â
âI uhmâŠuhâŠI have a crush on someone.â
Microexpressions wash over your face. Shock, surprise, disbelief, jealousy, hurt, friendliness. A smile curls your lips. It doesnât reach your eyes.
âYeah? Itâs about time you doâ, the words and your voice carry a hint of teasing, but most of all forced friendliness.
You lower the flowers, carrying them in one hand by your side. They look sad like this. Jungkook doesnât notice because he is staring at the road in front of him because otherwise he would pass out in nervousness. He is almost twenty seven, but feels sixteen again.
âSheâs like really, really great and awesome and amazing and wonderful and so kind and perfectâ, Jungkook continues, heart racing to the point he feels dizzy. He saw this kind of confession in movies. He always thought that it was so cute when the guy did it. It isnât obvious enough to ruin everything just in case you didnât feel the same, but it is still cute enough that you canât help but be giddy.
âMh-hmâ, you hum, nodding your head.Â
âAnd I keep thinking about her. She is so pretty when she laughs and I love being in her presence. She likes my jokes and she always makes me laugh in return. YeahâŠâ
âThatâs great.â
âYeah, she is so great. I really wanna ask if she feels the same.â Jungkook falters in nervousness. He is going to ask the question. He is so scared. âIf you were me, what would you do?â
You take a deep breath and release it loudly, âI donât know. I havenât had a crush in so long.â
Jungkook falters, heart tightening. Oh no. Oh no, oh no. Oh. This is bad. This is really bad.Â
âAh, I see.â He gulps.
âBut let me know if you figure it out. Then we can go on a double date.âÂ
Wait. Wait. This is bad. Double date? This is so bad.
âWhat do you mean?â he asks weakly.
âYou know, you and your girl and me and my boy.â
âYou have a boy?â
âYeah, soon. Iâm talking to this boy on the dating app. He is very cute.â
âButâŠdidnât you say that you gave up on the app?â
âNo uhâŠno, itâs just that I only talk to this one boy now.â
Jungkook bites back tears.
âI see.âÂ
âMhm, yeah. Letâs go on a double date.â
No. No this is all wrong. No this isnât what was meant to happen. No.Â
âPlease.â
Jungkook doesnât even realize that he begged out loud until you look at him in question.
âPlease what?â
You and he stop. Strangers stream past you like you and he were two rocks in a river. You are facing each other, so close yet so far away.Â
You lied to him. There is no other boy. There never was and never will be. But there will always be other girls for him while you stay his best friend. Lying is all that you have at this point.Â
âPlease what?â you repeat the question.
âIâŠâ Jungkook breathes. âIâŠnevermind.â
Silence. Your eyes are locked so deeply that the world around you is blurry.
âOkay?â
âMhm yeah.â
His jaw tightens and he breaks the eye contact, looking to the side with his tongue in his cheek. He seemed angry. You would be lying if you said that you werenât feeling angry yourself. You turn away from him and continue walking. You donât want to be next to him right now. It hurts to only stay his best friend.
He looks at the back of your head and how it becomes smaller and smaller from distance. He doesnât understand you. He thought that the way you looked at him in the store meant something. And yet all this time you had another boy. He feels so betrayed that for just a second, he considers walking the other direction and leaving you to wonder where he went. However, two things hold him back; his competitiveness and his honest feelings for you.
He wonât stay your best friend any longer. He just decided that. He is going to fight for you, make you fall for him and forget all about the stupid boys you meet on this stupid dating app. He is better than any of them. He could treat you better, make you laugh harder, give you better hugs and kisses and provide you with afterglow so addicting you will get hot cheeks at work just thinking about it. He is your best friend, goddamn it, and he knows you better than any of these strangers ever will. And he is not going to lose you to some boy.
He jogs to catch up with you, calling your name with a certain harshness.
You turn. Your eyes meet. Jungkookâs brain short circuits.
âWhat?â you ask him, sounding small because of being called so harshly.
âI, I was just wondering, uhm, should we get ice cream after?â he asks because he panicked.
You shrug your shoulders, âI guess.â
âItâs on me, yeah?â
âYeah, okay.â
Jungkook inches closer, saying your name softly.
âWhat do you want?â
âI messed up before.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âI, I just. I thought that I was doing a good job, but I think I made you think something else.â
âJungkook. I had a long day, please donât talk in riddles.â
âDonât date other boys.â
âExcuse me?â
Jungkook gulps, panicking because of your offended and harsh tone.
âI, I, I justâ, he stutters, widening his eyes.
âNo. What do you mean? I can date who I want.â
âI know, I didnât mean it like that. I meant that, oh god, I meant that I donât want you to see other boys.â
âHuh?â
âAh no, wait.â He slaps his own forehead. âWait.â
You cross your arms in front of your chest, âwhat makes you think that you can tell me what I can or canât do?â
âNo I didnât mean it like that. Wait just give me a moment, please Iâm panicking.â
You purse your lips, studying his face intensely.
âAre you also so nervous?â he asks.
âWhatâs with you all of a sudden?â you ask him, honestly worried. His face is as red as ripe strawberries.
Jungkook closes the distance and takes your hands, eliciting a gasp from you. He squeezes them gently, staring into your eyes as deeply as possible.
âThis wasnât how I always imagined this to go, but I canât stay quiet anymore. ___, the girl I have a crush on is-â
âSeriously?â
You and Jungkook turn around at the angry voice next to you. Â
âSuho? What are you doing here?â you ask.
âWhoâs that?â Jungkook says.
âKim Suho. I met him on the dating app. We went on like one date a month agoâ, you explain and slip your hands out of Jungkookâs hold to turn to the other guy, âwhat are you doing here?â
Jungkook stares at him darkly, clenching his jaw. You told him about this dude in passing. He hates him so much, hating him even more now that he interrupted this moment.
âThatâs what youâre going with? Seriously?â Suho throws back.
âYeah, you-â
âWhat the fuck are you doing with him? I told you to stop being friends with him, didnât I?â
Jungkook looks at you with big eyes. You never told him that. You always said that you lost interest in Suho because of different hobbies, but never mentioned that he could have been the actual reason.
âAnd I told you that you canât tell me what to do. Jungkook is my best friend and I wonât give him up for a man.â
âYes but I wasnât any man, I was your man.â
âHuh? No you werenât. We went on one date and you totally lost it when I told you that I had a male best friend.â
âBecause he isnât just your friend. Youâre in love with him.â
Jungkook swears that he passes out standing up for a second. Feelings? You have feelings for him? Did you tell Suho that or is he assuming because he is one of those weird men that think women arenât allowed to have male friends? What does all of this mean?
âWhat?â You laugh nervously. âNo? Of course not.â
âOh donât be ridiculous. I followed you from work and through the store. I saw everything.â
âHuh? What?â you gasp, hurrying to Jungkook instinctively because you know that he will keep you safe.
âDude, what the fuck? You creep, stay away from herâ, Jungkook says harshly and steps in front of you, feeling the fire of protectiveness start to burn in his chest.
âI saw what I saw. You have feelings for each otherâ, Suho says, pointing an accusing finger at you and Jungkook.
Jungkook and you exchange a look.Â
âNo IâŠâ
Suho scoffs and looks at Jungkook.
âAnd you? Gonna fucking pretend that youâre just friends or should I start punching you?â
âDude, Iâve never even met youâ, Jungkook defends himself, crossing his arms in front of his chest.
âIâll still fucking punch you.â
âDonât you dareâ, you hiss at him.
âShut up, ___.â
âHey, donât talk to her like thatâ, Jungkook speaks up loudly, making himself bigger. He doesnât care when people are aggressive to him, but he cannot accept aggression towards you.
âOr what?â
âYou wanna find out? Donât talk to her like that.â
Suho rushes to Jungkook and pushes at his chest. He thought that he could move him, but he canât. Jungkook just gawks at him in utter surprise.
âWhat are you doing?â he asks confused.
âWhy arenât you budging? Fall over you idiotâ, Suho growls and tries again with all his might.Â
Jungkook takes a small step back but then stays unmoving.Â
âDude, seriously. What are you doing?â
Suho growls and punches Jungkook. Except that he is so bad at it that Jungkook can easily dodge him. He reacts calmly to the aggression, redirecting Suho by turning him and giving him a gentle push away from him.
Suho stumbles and whips around.
âYou-â
Jungkook steps closer, âgive it up, man.â
Suho shifts his attention to you, pointing his finger at you. He tries to get to you by swerving past Jungkook, but the latter steps in front of you again, stopping Suho with a firm hand on his chest. He didnât show it, but the contact was definitely made with strength because Suho stumbles back from it.
âI said. Give it up. Iâm not gonna repeat myself againâ, he warns. For just a second his voice was deeper than usual and his eyes darker. You canât stop staring in awe, feeling so attracted to him that it is difficult not to grab him right here and now.
Suho ignores him, talking over Jungkookâs shoulder.
âItâs over. Iâm breaking up with you.â
âHuh? We werenât even together in the first place?â you say very confused.
âYes, wellâŠ. Now itâs really over. And just so you know, Iâll block you on everything.â
âI mean, okay.â
Suho turns and runs down the street clumsily.
A moment of silence. Jungkook turns to you. He is ready to take you into his arms if you need support.
âEverything okay?â he asks hesitantly.
âHonestly? I couldnât care less about this tantrum. What the fuck was that? We went on one date and it sucked ass. I mean, who in their right mind expects someone to give up their best friend? I donât even know this dude.â
âWould you have done it if you liked him?â
âWhat? No, of course not. I like you, not him.â
âWhat?!â
You look at Jungkook with big eyes.
âI, I meanâŠâ you look at his lips and Jungkook finally notices.
Holy fuck. Suho was right.
He drops the grocery bags and closes the distance, cupping your face. To his delighted surprise, you practically melt into his hands, gazing at him with dreamy eyes and your fingers closing around his wrists greedily.
âWas he right?â Jungkook asks, looking between your right and left eye. âDo you have feelings for me?â
âIâm scaredâ, you whisper.
âScared of what?â
âYou are so perfect and Iâm not. I donât want to know how you feel about me, so justâŠletâs just forget about what happened please.â
âYouâre not perfect? What the fuck? Youâre literally perfect. If someoneâs unworthy, itâs me.â
âWhat?â
Jungkook gulps.Â
You touch his chest.
âKook, what?â
âYouâre my fucking dream girl, ___â he finally confesses and now canât be stopped, âI get excited when you text me and get sad when I donât hear from you. Each time we hang out, I kinda wish that we somehow magically end up together. I repeat every little touch and shared laughter and look. Sometimes I canât fall asleep because of you, but wish to do so because in my sleep I can meet you in my silly, wishful dreams. Do you have any idea how in love I am with you?â
âAre you serious?âÂ
Jungkook nods his head, forcing your tears to finally flow. He gasps and begins wiping them away instantly.
âIâm sorry. Fuck, Iâm sorry. Please donât cry, I promise I wonât try anything. You, you wonât lose your best friend.â
âIâm just happy. So happy.â
âYou are?â
âI feel the same for you. I have done so for a long time.â
âReally?â
âYes, really.â You sniffle. âYouâre my dream boy too, Jungkook.â
âOh my god. Oh my god! Yippie!â he exclaims and overtaken by happiness, he swoops you off your feet to twirl with you, making you squeal happily as you hold onto him for dear life. Strangers definitely look at you weird, but you couldnât care less. They are non-existent for you and him. He likes you and you like him back. This day is the best day you and he ever had.
He sets you down after the twirling, cradling your face so he could hold it still for way too many kisses. He gives you kisses everywhere except your lips, making you giggle and laugh and tingle the entire time.
âIâm so happy, youâre so pretty and perfect and amazing and pretty and amazing and Iâm gonna kiss you there and there and there and oh my god youâre so perfect, Iâm gonna kiss you there and there, wow oh wowâŠâ he babbles between kisses, truly sending your heart into overdrive.
He probably would have continued his babbling for hours if you hadnât stopped him by lacing your fingers in his hair and pulling his mouth into a kiss.
âAndmhgmhâ, he lets out, gawking at you first before the realisation of his situation sinks in. His knees buckle, his left hand grabs your hips and his right hand cradles your head, eyes falling closed. He is kissing you. He feels weightless, floating in time and space. His heart races so much that he feels it throb against his ribcage, the butterflies in his stomach are unbearably exciting. He dreamt of this moment a million times before, fantasised about it twice as much and yet he still wasnât ready for it. Your kiss is like heaven on earth. He swears that he gains new life through it. He wants to kiss you until his lungs run out of air, but you break it.
âWas that okay for me to do?â you ask him shyly.
Now itâs his turn to spill tears and for you to wipe them.
âIâm sorry, I should have ask-â, you donât get to finish your sentence, getting kissed again by Jungkook.
âIâm so fucking happy, you have no ideaâ, he murmurs, showing you his feelings one deep kiss at a time. âYou taste so good.â Kiss, oh so deep. âYour lips are so soft.â Kiss, the kind which makes your knees wobble. âYouâre perfect, youâre so perfect.â
You giggle, gazing up at him droopily. Jungkook giggles as well, peeling his eyes open to gaze dreamily. You and he cup each otherâs faces, resting your foreheads together.
âIâm happy.â
âIâm happy too.â
âWow, Iâm so happy.â
âMe too. So happy.â
You giggle together, swaying from side to side. Nothing, truly nothing, has never felt as right as this.
âWere you trying to confess to me before Suho interrupted us?â
âYeah.â
You giggle as you talk, âyou were really shit at it. I thought you were talking about someone else.â
âI know, I panicked so bad. I was so nervousâ, he is giggling too, âare you actually talking to another boy?â
âOf course not, you doofus. I lied.â
âOh my god, Iâm so relievedâ, he gets out and sweeps you off your feet again, carrying you under your butt. He twirls with you, smiling up at you as you squeak and laugh with your head thrown back.
âJungkook stop please, Iâm getting dizzy.â
He sets you down, but keeps touching you, seeking your closeness by rubbing his nose against your cheek. He is so close that the sunflowers are getting squished between you and him. It is a price you sadly have to pay in exchange for finally being able to be glued together.
âIâm so happy, I love you so much.â
âI love you too, Kook. So like barbeque and beer? Is it a date?â you ask.
âItâs the datiest date that has ever datedâ, he says, making you giggle because he is so cute and funny and you like him so, so much. He giggles with you because you are so perfect and perfect and perfect and he likes you so, so much.
âI feel like we have a lot to talk about.â
âYeah, oh god.â He kisses your cheek multiple times. âYou have to tell me all the thoughts you had when we hung out. Were you also so giddy, oh god, I was always so giddy and I kept looking at you because you are so pretty. Were you looking at me too? And, and did you also wish for me to be reckless? I always wanted you to just kiss me. Iâm talking so much, wow, Iâm so happy.â
You giggle, cuddling into him, âyouâre the cutest person ever. I canât wait to tell you everything.â
You nudge him to leave, but stop when Jungkook exclaims a loud âwait!â
âWhatâs wrong?â
âThe groceries. I almost left them hereâ, he says, bending down to get them.
âOh god, youâre so cuteâ, you snicker, hugging his arm and nuzzling into him like you always wanted to do.
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hi could i rq. general konoha 11 + sand siblings nsfw hcs ! (aged up/boruto ver obv) <3
Also: nobody understands Uchihas better than I do and I donât even like most of em. /j Why are they all practically evil in fics? Iâm going crazy. Most of them are clearly softies when it comes to love. Am I right or am I right???
And sorry, you can tell who I have more ideas for and who I was drawing a blank on.
Oh and sorry yall for the gap in my writing. This one took a while. Iâve been working on it for a bit. And part of it got lost and deleted, so I rewrote it. A long with a couple other stories got deleted and I lost some motivation for a moment lol
Konoha 13 + Sand Siblings HCs
Naruto Uzumaki
Heâs energetic, and that 100% applies to in bed too.
Likely inexperienced, but eager. And a little nervous.
Talked big game beforehand, but even if you didnât know before, you definitely know it was all talk now.
That being said, heâs a quick learner, even if he complains about being confused at first.
I think heâd have like little to no knowledge though, being such a loner for a while, in all. Hope you have patience.
That being said, he is a bit of a pervert with what he does know.
Overall though, heâd set a fast pace, but the sex would still be intimate and soft.
Praise. Praise. Praise. Giving and receiving.
Sasuke Uchiha
No experience, but he knows the ins and outs.
He wasnât too concerned with sex or anything of that matter before, but when he returned to Konoha, he realized he had feelings for you. So he starts to think about it.
Heâs not a pervert like Kakashi or Naruto, and heâd never lose his cool over sexy jutsu, BUTTT heâs secretly horny as hell. Like low sex drive usually, but just being around you makes it sky rocket to abnormal levels.
Heâs very private about sex though, so usually only happens in your bedroom or⊠cough cough in a quiet forest with nobody around cough cough (if you know, you know)
Heâs got a breeding kink. Next question.
Uses a mix of degradation and praises.
Lots of demanding, but also lots of giving sooooâŠ
I truly believe Sasuke would be a softer partner than people make him out to be. Like did yall watch Boruto or not?? Heâs got awkward and sweet energy. Heâs TRYING. Heâs emotionally stunted yall.
More dominant and likes to be in control, but will fall apart in your arms anyways. Usually more of a soft dom than anything.
One of the most likely to be fairly kinky though. I think heâd slowly discover heâs into things as they occur or cross his mind.
Sakura Haruno
She knows a lot about the human body.
Might have experience, might not. I could see it either way.
I think your first time with her would happen after like a romantic dinner together. And it would be romantic and slow.
But⊠that depends on you, because sheâll mostly go with what you want. It makes her happy.
Sheâs okay with being degraded or praised, but she really only likes to praise you.
Low sex drive.
She likes any position she can see your face.
Sheâs a switch, depends on her partnerâs preference.
Sai Yamanaka
(Obviously not married here but just to have a last name to add)
He read a book about what to do.
Probably does something incredibly stupid at first, but that being said, heâs not an idiot, so not too bad.
Youâd probably have to correct him a little bit. Also, tell him to forget the book and just go with the feeling and follow your lead.
Youâd be in the lead at first. Probably go down on him first thing.
Heâs not small. (I mean did you hear the way he talked to Naruto? Heâs probably got something to work with if heâs talking so confidently LMFAO)
So youâd probably have to use your hand for the base while your mouth sucks on about half or so of his cock.
His hand tangles in your hair/rests on top, not pulling, but resting there.
He throws his head back, letting out soft sighs and small moans that escape his lips. Heâs not trying to be quiet, but heâs not loud either.
Although, he might have read girls donât like when guys make noise. Who knows. Then you might have to tell him thatâs not true.
At first, sex is just discovering things with him. Youâre both exploring how everything feels.
But, after a few times, he starts taking the lead and initiating.
He has a low sex drive though, so he wonât initiate too often.
Itâs also hard to get him to realize what youâre asking for if you drop hints. He saw your underwear when you bent over⊠okay. He might even comment on how you should be more careful since he knows you donât like to expose yourself so much.
You just deadpan and tell him it was supposed to turn him on.
âOh.â And now heâs unbuckling his pants and asking you to come sit on his lap. :)
Shikamaru Nara
Low sex drive, usually at least, because now heâs consumed by the desire to be rode by you. Like he dreams about it.
He calls you troublesome to himself when he wakes up hard in the morning occasionally.
He lowkey loves to just lay between your legs or have you sit on his face so he can eat you out (pussy or ass, donât matter)
Lazy morning sex. He loves it.
Heâs dominant, but he can be rather lazy most the time. That being said, he will fuck you how you want him to if you ask.
Degrading but heâs not super mean about it at all. More like soft grunts with degrading terms, but the rest of it comes out more like soft sighs and groans of pleasure and praise.
Choji Akimichi
The sweetest. He takes his time with you every time.
Body worship. More so giving than receiving, but heâll be a blushing mess if you give back the same energy.
Praise. Lots of it.
Heâd be the type to kiss down your body, from your lips to your neck to your chest all the way down til he gets between your legs.
He canât bring himself to be rough or harsh with you in anyway. No degradation, rough sex, or anything.
Likes to be able to see your face during sex.
Heâd like to try food play.
Ino Yamanaka
Pillow princess unless asked to do otherwise.
She loves to be praised and worshipped, but also likes things rougher.
Sheâs a bit of a brat about things. Constantly going against what you say for fun.
She does it on purpose so youâll go rougher on her, she likes it.
She also likes when things are slow and romantic though.
And sheâd love it if you planned like a candlelit dinner and put a trail of rose petals on like Valentineâs Day, or even just cuz.
Shino Aburame
Heâs in charge. Heâs on top. Whatever. He doesnât like to not have control.
He also just wants to please you, and often heâs not too worried about himself.
Might get a little self conscious if you skip over touching him or giving him head more than once. Like if itâs been a few times now and you havenât bothered⊠did he do something?
He doesnât need it, but he just⊠you know how he is.
He doesnât make much noise.
But I do believe that right before he cums, he whimpers. He canât help it, and donât bring it up afterwards. Heâll be so embarrassed and not want to do it for a while because heâs scared heâll do it again.
If he gets like that, just tell him you loved it. Then go down on him and tell him you wanna make him do it again.
Heâs good with his hands, I just know it.
He can go rough and be stern and demanding, but other than that, heâs rather vanilla.
Heâs a big fan of missionary so he can see your face.
And he doesnât want to do anything unless itâs in your own home or absolute private, like an inn.
Kiba Inuzuka
Hickeys.
He loves giving them.
You will have like 20. From your jaw to your thighs, heâs marked. Plenty of them are visible and hard to hide because theyâre dark.
He doesnât exactly take his time. No, those hickeys are from the entire act. He starts leaving them during foreplay, then when heâs pounding into you, he quiets himself down by latching onto your skin.
When he eats you out, he leaves bite marks and hickeys around your thighs.
He calls it âmarking his territoryâ then has to explain himself because no he doesnât mean youâre a territory, youâre not a place or an object⊠he just⊠youâre his partner!
Heâs rough.
Likes doggystyle most, but then he gets upset that he canât see your face and next time he sets up a mirror.
Quickies. He canât wait. Heâll whine if you tell him NO he canât fuck you under the blanket, because YES people will notice the movement.
You might want to settle and pull him into a bathroom and let him fuck you over the counter, but he wonât force or beg you to the point of you giving in or anything. Heâll wait if you really mean no.
Heâs got a high sex drive
Very likely to be pretty kinky. Heâd be willing to tie you up, spank you, degrade you, etc.
He wonât do pet play. Thinks that shit is weird. So donât think that because heâs a dog user, heâs gonna act dog like or have you act dog like. In fact, heâs more likely to hate it as a dog user.
I think heâd find any roleplay to be useless though. You could convince him if you wanted, but heâll complain.
Hinata Hyuga
Much more intimate and gentle sex is what she wants
Sheâs not a pillow princess. She literally fantasizes about pleasing her partner.
Like probably day dreams, gets lost in her own thoughts, then is a blushing mess when she realizes that somebody is talking to her and sheâs imagining what your moans would sound like when sheâs between your legs, ESPECIALLY if the person talking to her is you.
She likes to do it in private, but she canât deny that she imagines doing it where you both currently are. Not that she would.
Secretly has a high sex drive
Long refractory period though. She needs breaks between rounds.
Neji Hyuga
Took him a while to get vulnerable enough to take off his clothes if heâs being honest
Also I think Hyugaâs are very reserved and conservative until marriage, but he has such a tough time following that.
He really wants to jump your bones. And itâs almost like the fact he canât because of his clanâs reserved and traditional nature just makes it WAYYYY more tempting.
Youâre literally irresistible to him
Secretly, heâs just a little bit of a pervert. (Like Rock Leeâs Ninja Pals says he is)
I think he would have wet dreams from sexual frustration. Like the longer he holds back from having you under him, the worse it gets. Like a disease with no treatment.
I think your first time with him would be sudden, and it would be his first time ever.
Youâd look WAYYYYY to good, and this time he canât bring himself to ignore the boner he gets. No heâs gotta see if youâll indulge him.
He may stop and pull away, get his act together if you remind him of his clanâs pride, and how he was so bent on following it before.
Maybe the first time, but by the next time he tries to give in, there is no try. He is cancelling any plans yâall had and tearing the outfit that made your body look so irresistible off.
He doesnât have a super high sex drive, but he has such a hard time resisting just laying you down when you look so damn good. You are the reason heâs horny.
He loves when you ride him, and he WILL whimper. He tries not to, but Neji canât be silent with the way you are squeezing him. The way you do it is so perfect, every bounce is drawing a noise out of him until heâs literally just letting out a stream of loud whimpers as he cums.
I think his cum would actually taste good. Next question.
Rock Lee
PervertedâŠ
He feels bad for it when he catches himself, but Oop itâs too late⊠heâs got a boner
Boners are obvious in that green spandexâŠ
He wouldnât agree with doing it in public or semi-public though, but if you noticed his behavior or boner and pulled him off into the bathroom, ignoring his âthis is indecent!â Protests because when you look at him before diving in to give him head, his eyes are literally pleading and he shuts up, pushing his hips towards your face.
He canât be quiet so youâll have stuff something in his mouth or cover it with your hand.
He secretly wants your chest in his face. Heâs a chest guy. Boobs, pecks, whatever. He loves everything chest.
But he also loves ass. Small or big. Wants to grab a handful anyways.
Total switch
Because listen, he loves to pin your hips down and force you to accept the pleasure youâre trying to deny yourself.
Loves to pound his hips against yours until youâre a mess, but he also loves to do as you say.
He loves to be broken down until heâs in pieces by your mouth, body, words, whatever.
He whimpers like constantly, especially when heâs submissive. He tries to shut up when heâs dirty talking as heâs in charge, but he lets GO otherwise.
Tenten
Iâm sorry her portion of this will be⊠lacking. I donât know enough to say much. I love her, but Iâve never really thought about this at all.
I think sheâd be a switch, but prefers to be in charge.
I think sheâs depend greatly on you though.
If you donât want to bottom/sub, thatâs good.
Or vise versa.
She likes to take her time when sheâs in control.
Sheâs fairly willing to try new things if you want to.
She enjoys going down on you most of all.
Gaara of the Sand
Heâs very private about everything. He believes that his private life and his kazekage life should stay relatively separate. However, it is known that you are his partner. Thatâs no secret.
Heâs not super into PDA, so itâs no surprise that he refuses to do anything risky or public in anyway.
He will not do it in the kazekageâs office. He has too much respect for it, but he also doesnât want to get caught anyways.
Heâs very intimate during. Slow and sensual for sure.
I can see him being into bondage, but like you get tied up, not him. But⊠depends. And might take some encouragement.
Refuses to hurt or degrade you for any reason. He only does praise. He could not bring himself to call you names or anything. Or to draw blood from you or hit you, etc. he doesnât see why those things should be brought into the bedroom for âfun.â
He doesnât think theyâre fun.
He knew like nothing about sex before you. I actually think heâd have no idea how to initiate at first so you definitely initiated it.
I think heâd be the type you have to teach what to do a bit, but he gets the hang of it quickly. Then next time, heâs got every spot memorized.
Awkward. Like the first couple times were awkward, but romantic and cute.
Kankuro of the Sand
One word: kinky.
He likes to degrade you with a shit eating grin on his face. His degradation feels like a compliment most of the time though. Like he calls you a slut and it feels like heâs calling you a prince/princess. Itâs confusing.
Heâs so good at dirty talk. Heâll have you writhing in your spot, desperate for him and heâs not even touched you yet.
Heâs got incredible patience when it comes to you. He takes his time breaking you down into a mess for him.
His face paint would 10 billion percent be smeared across your thighs and chest. Your neck is purple from bites AND his face paint to the point you canât tell which is which.
Only when you wash off the face paint do you realize he left way too many dark hickeys thatâll probably take at least a week to fade away.
Confront him about this and heâll just laugh.
Donât tempt him to leave more, because he will.
He forces you to maintain eye contact when he goes down on you. If you look away for more than like 3 seconds, he give you a little tap as a warning, but twice and he stops.
Orgasm denial for sure. He would be the type to make up an excuse as to why he pulled away. He tells you all sorts of excuses. âYou werenât moaning enough.â âYou moved your hips too much. Stay still.â And of course, âyou looked away.â
He can make you cum hard almost every single time. You see stars.
The most fun part for him isnât dicking you down, itâs the breaking you apart and putting you back together again.
Temari of the Sand
Dominant. Dommy mommy for sure.
Even when she decides to âsubâ or âbottom,â sheâs not doing a good job at it. Sheâs still telling you what to do, where to move, etc.
Sheâll pull your hair, slap you, etc. as long as you are okay with it and want her to.
Loves to boss you around, telling you what she wants. Demanding you to please her.
âGet on your kneesâ
Head pusher for sure, but you two have a like physical que to let each other know when itâs enough.
All that being said, sometimes she really really just wants sweet, slow sex. Intimate nights filled with nothing but love.
She likes to keep all of this private though. No public or risky stuff.
However, she does like to do it beyond just in bed.
Would be the type to start kissing all over your neck, unbuttoning your shirt while youâre trying to cook breakfast.
You might want to turn the stove off.
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hi neil. i've held off on writing this message for a bit because i didn't know if i could get it out or not.
i work in a senior healthcare facility. not a nurse or anything, i actually just serve food to the residents, but it's given me the ability to get to know a lot of the people that live there. because of this, i was able to befriend a wonderful lady named sally. she would always come talk to me while i served up the meals, and we'd have nice chats. she spent most of her time reading books, since she didn't like to do many of the activities with the other residents, and since she loved books with mystery and suspense, i loaned her my copy of american gods, thinking that she'd enjoy it. and she did! i loved it when she'd come talk to me about the chapter she'd just read, our little chats about wednesday, just everything. i was happy that she liked the book.
our chats kind of tapered off after awhile, and we didn't talk as much. she's had my book for well over a year now, which i hadn't minded, but she eventually started picking up our chats again, about the book. but she was talking about how she had just started reading it and that she was really interested in it so far. i came to realize some time later that sally was actually just finally showing signs of dementia, which was saddening for me to hear, but it's one of the heavy realities of working in a facility like this. she had always struggled with some memory and speech issues, but i'd always chalked it up to her older age.
anyway. i am saddened by this onset, but at the same time, i am also finding some strange comfort in knowing that she will come up to me at breakfast, wanting to talk to me about american gods, because she's forgotten that she's already read most of it, and she just reads the first few chapters over and over. she doesn't leave her room without it, she brings it to the table with her every day. when she leaves the facility with her family for an outing, she brings it with her. i am just. so comforted knowing that your book i loaned her a year ago is a source of joy and delight for her, and continues to be so over and over. i know i'll never get that book back, and i won't ever try to get it back from her, even if she stops reading it. i want her to keep it.
i now have a streak regarding losing my books that you've written, i'm two for two now, haha
idk. i'm just really kind of overwhelmed today by all the emotions surrounding it and i'm just happy that you wrote something that she likes so much, and that we talk about it even though she doesn't remember that we've talked about it a dozen times before. i love each and every chat with her so much, and i want to keep having them with her for as long as i can. thank you for your work.
Some of the happiest hours of my life were spent with a friend with advanced Parkinson's dementia, sitting on his porch with him, both of us reading. And he read the same few pages over and over and it was okay.
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