#also this has been happening for years btw. not as a constant thing otherwise it would drive me LITERALLY INSANE. but it's just a thing

[fruitsyrups]

anyone else have that one noise that nobody else in the room can hear? like what the fuck do you mean you can't hear the CONSTANT AUDIBLE TAPPING that is happening RIGHT NOW??? and also where the fuck is it coming from. why does the noise stop whenever I try to figure out where it's coming from. is this normal? why am I the only one who can hear this

[waokevale]

Soo when you say wilson is of shadow origin and has always been weird, is there any sort of reason? Like was he born like that just because of Their natural influence that was happening even before the codex? Or was it more as in his power started as a child ( since thats when the whole codex thing happened) and he just got cursed by it? Or a mix of the two with the merge of the constant and the real world simply accelerating/ boosting the corruption he already had?

( also i'd love to know everyone power on a 1-10 scale like you did for charlie and maxwell 👉👈 )

Love your AU btw!

Well...Let's say he was always 'special', since his parents got involved with a very peculiar group before he was born, but the release of the constant's magic did in fact trigger those powers to expand. So you got that right.

And hmm, I guess I could give away a couple of those power comparisons, but I should also take in consideration their combat abilities, since one's isn't power isn't all that there is.

Wendy & Abigail – 3/10 (In combat it's usually Abigail in charge of the body since she's more skilled, while Wendy bullies the opponents shadow basically )

Webber - 4/10 (His Venom helps although he rarely uses it since he's scared of killing ppl)

Wurt (when she's in a body of water) 4/10, otherwise 3.5/10

Walter – 3/10 (if he knew about his abilities more, that would've been at least a 6.5)

Warly – 4.5/10 (3/10 otherwise) While his abilities don't help with combat, he focused on his agility and weapon throwing.

Wes – 4.5/10 He had to get better at combat, since Maxwell keeps sending him on missions, Max claims he could've easily been a 6/10 if he tried harder.

Winona – 5/10 her gadgets and combat ability make up for her power.

Wickerbottom – 5/10 (if she used her spells more often, would've been about a 7)

Maxwell – 5.5/10 (has more limitations set than Charlie)

Charlie – 6/10

Wigfrid – 6/10

Wolfgang – 6.5/10 (has at least 15 years of military training on him + his power certainly enhances those abilities)

Woodie – 6.5/10 since he's more in control of his various forms and their quirks

WX-78 – 6.5/10 when equipped with Winona's upgrades, without them, 4.5/10

Wortox – 6.5/10 (though he rarely engages in combat, his teleportation and life draining ability certainly helps. if he did, he would've probably been a 7 at least)

Willow – 7.5/10 though she's normally restrained into using only some of her abilities so 4.5/10

Wormwood – 7.5 4/10

Wilson – normally a 2/10 has little combat skill and is one of the newest hires. (In a monster form, which he can't control he's around 8/10)

Wanda – if she wasn't constantly supervised she would've easily been a 10/10, shes limited to being about a 6.5/10

[dominijoyce]

Sun and Saturn!

Sun: what’s something that’s an everyday part of your life that reminds you of how beautiful the world is?

Mmmm... In general, just people. Or rather, how we tend to forget that everyday on streets alone we pass by hundreds if not thousands of different people. Each of them has a different story, different opinions, different interests, different goals and motivations. Maybe that's eevesdropping for some, but I do like sometimes listening to a group of teenager friends on a bus, talking about some school teacher they hate or some other plans; on a train stations families often talk of their plans or parents reminding the kids to keep close and to make sure to keep track of their things... I dunno, for many it seems insignificant but I just love being reminded that everyone around us exists. I love talking with people, yesterday I had a chance to talk with an older man about generosity as I was waiting for my food at restaurant - I will never meet him again and yet I might remember him and his words in a few years... I have this story I like telling people, that is a perfect example of this so this is a perfect opportunity to mention it.

So like, back in high school I would often skip sleep and because I would do it many nights in a row, I knew this was a common occurence but I kept seeing the neighbouring building to mine and every night there was always a light on. The stairway in that building is similar to mine (I know that cause I have been inside of it before) and it works by motion detection - if it detects someone moving inside, the light turns on. The window that I kept seeing the light being on from is also not an apartment window - it is definitely the window you encounter when walking the stairs to get either up or down a floor. The light turns off automatically after some time without any motion and in that case it would happen a lot - it would turn off but then soon to be turned on, I assume by someone who suddenly went into motion. Which meant that every night for more than few weeks if not months, someone, very late into the night would just... hang in the stairway - they weren't working or walking down and up or anything, otherwise the light would constantly be turned on due to detecting constant movement - they were just hanging there, every night - for multiple hours btw (back then, I noticed this happening from as early as midnight to as late as early morning, think 6 or 7 am). The light was definitely not malfunctioning as the light was mostly turned off in the day time as it should work.

I dunno... I just find it interesting and fascinating, most people wouldn't care about that, but I do - it really gives me a perspective about how there are so many people around me, at any moment, all of them have different thoughts and traits and goals - and for someone, that person just felt like spending most of the night in the cold (it was cold, it was winter season) stairway and just hanging out there for multiple hours - sometimes the full night. Maybe they had a reason for this, maybe they don't and they just liked that routine - I don't know and will never know. No one is hanging out there anymore as of over a year now. And yet. I still keep thinking of it. In that way, life is beautiful to me.

Saturn: Name 5 very cute animals!

Desmarest’s Hutia (Capromys pilorides)

Lion’s Mane Jellyfish (Cyaneacapillata)

Victoria Crowned-pigeon (Goura victoria)

Tarzan’s Chameleon (Calumma tarzan)

Northern Pinocchio Frog (Litoria pinocchio)

[mikuni14]

Moonlight Chicken Ep 5

So I made my own little private PalmChopper ship once, now I have a cute little JimAlan ship (if they want, they can add Gaipa, the more the merrier!). Seriously, Jim would be better off with a dedicated, caring dude with a good job lol

Both Gong and Alan said what I mentioned earlier, that Wen's unclear behavior and his constant presence (it turns out they still have sex, or at least it happened after the break up!!!) gave Alan hope. What I want to say is how deeply I dislike Wen, it's been a long time since anyone has ever annoyed me as much as he does, and I feel sorry for Jim for the quality of the men he chooses. Jim has so many worries, so many really big problems, and he needs someone strong and supportive next to him. Most of all, he needs someone ADULT like him. Wen is very immature for me, he is weak, indecisive, easily swayed, running away from responsibility, able to lie to his close ones for MONTHS. And he has an extremely annoying tendency to blame everyone else for his decisions, but in a way that makes other people feel shitty, because "the sacrifices has been made." I KNOW THAT KIND OF PEOPLE, and it took me a long time to recognize this manipulation. And Wen does just that: he tells Alan that he ate beef he doesn't like for Alan, that he was with him and slept with him even after they broke up because he felt sorry for Alan. He does it in such a way that Alan comes across as a monster because poor Wen sacrificed himself so much for him - like doing all these horrible things eating disliked foods, living together and sleeping together just to please Alan. No Wen, NOBODY expected this from you, and I’m sure Alan would appreciate your honesty more than your useless sacrifice. Alan is not a violent, abusive criminal, nothing would happen if you said what you don't like to eat and if you just moved out after the breakup, and not lived among the photos documenting your relationship. Wen carried it on for MONTHS. He told his closest friend about the breakup ONLY NOW. And he still twists it around as if Alan is to blame! Does Jim really need someone like Wen?? Especially now that everything is falling apart around him? As soon as things got awkward, Wen stopped coming to work, adding to Jim's worries. How can you create a stable, trusting relationship with someone like that? What does Wen, who is almost 30, do when it's difficult? He wants to avoid confrontation and tries to spend the night at his friend’s house. When Gong reminds him, to act like a fucking grown up he finally comes home, Alan doesn't even confront him, just cares for his wound right away. Because Alan is an adult, which unfortunately I can't say about Wen.

It’s ironic when Wen says, what he would do for love, because he certainly doesn't do a lot and his words reflect what actually Alan does, which is very funny btw :) And that bit about love, which must hurt, because otherwise it's not love is particularly childish, it sounds like from the cheap melodramas . You can clearly see the difference in their maturity when Jim talks about what it looks like from a mature person point of view, which Wen completely ignores and dismisses with a smile.

I haven't enjoyed some BL pairings in the past, but I must say that WenJim is an extremely unsatisfying pair to me.

But that's still nothing compared to this episode's revelation: Heart's parents haven't learned sign language in three years to talk to their own son. Something Li Ming did in 4 months. BECAUSE HE WANTED TO. Also: Dear parents, when your kids are going through a difficult time and say that you are ashamed of them and run away to their room, you do not stay behind and comfort each other and say "the child will be ok", but like Li Ming you run after them to reassure them of your unconditional love. Like this is a BASIC stuff.

Seeing the keyboard in Heart’s room, that he wouldn't hear anymore, those notes taped on the wall, then hearing Jim scold Li Ming, which, again, he did not deserve - ow, that hurt. My poor boys... 🥺

It was a really good episode, in my opinion totally dominated by Alan and Li Ming who literally “ate” every scene just by being there :) I just still can't believe that Wen couldn't make a decision and act decently for 4 months and Heart's parents didn't try to talk to him in a way that was convenient for him for 3 years...Basic stuff, BASIC STUFF PEOPLE. 

[mynameiskanade]

Chrys has allowed me to give descriptions of new characters as they appear in his au of lunium - Stephanie Purnama

Mio Meat- 14 she/her MTF biromantic. Alcreamie(matcha cream, flower sweet): Mio is one of the children at Apple Blossom Orphanage. She attends Queer Middle.

Mio appears to be quite shy, however the only thing on her mind is hate. She could find any reason to hate anyone, otherwise, she feels nothing twords the person. The only one she does not appear to disrespect is Lady Fancy.

Chrys' note: "I'm surprised it too me THIS long to make a alcreamie gijinka since it's one of my favorite Pokemon, I had her in mind to be a foil to Iris"

Sari Savory- 13 she/he demigirl aroace. Alcreamie(ruby swirl, star sweet): Sari is one of the children at Apple Blossom Orphanage. He attends Queer Middle.

Sari is a kind girl, trying his best to see the good in anyone, even those who could be seen as hostile. He's the most popular one at school and his orphanage due to his friendliness, however, while he thinks everyone is nice, he deems Mio his best friend.

Chrys' note: "Sari might be one of my favorites, her obliviousness and kindness might make or break her COMPLETELY. Also -- .. --- / -.. --- . ... -. .----. - / .-. . .--. .-.. .. -.-. .- - . / .... . .-. / ..-. . . .-.. .. -. --. ... .-.-.- / ... .... . / .- -.-. - ..- .- .-.. .-.. -.-- / - .... .. -. -.- ... / ... .... . .----. ... / .-. . .- .-.. .-.. -.-- / .- -. -. --- -.-- .. -. --. .-.-.-"

Millia Koijenka - 18 they/she/it gender fluid lesbian. Red bluborb: Millia lives in Peachkeet village. They attend Pronoun University.

Millia gives people the creeps with all the horrendous vibes they give out with the constant grinning. They look ready to kill someone, but luckily they haven't attempted that. What's even stranger is that they used to be normal only a year ago, that is until their girlfriend died.

Chrys' note: "Millias been in my brain for a while now, I scrapped her having a wheelchair and gave it to Maya(sry Maya, Lillie can't walk either). Btw she used to be childhood friends with ... .- -- --..-- / .--- . .-.. .-.. .. . --..-- / .- -. -.. / .- .--. .-. .. .. until a event imma reveal later happened. Millia feels like she did nothing wrong, and that those 3 should be the ones to apologize"

OMG WAIT. SARI SOINDS SO CUTE ??? that is so SIGMA !! ill translate the morsecode later Tumblr isnt beong the very skibidi today

Pronoun university is such a name im giggling

[zhuhongs]

Since rewatching the guardian drama after reading the novel has made me mad about how bad and good both of them are I am Obligated to write out a list of what I think the perfect merger btw both versions of canon are. This will be in list format otherwise I’ll end up writing like 6k words again. 

TLDR: the genre stays as supernatural from the novel and not Sci fi, bc that was rlly not fleshed out well. Shen Wei is a ghost king, and all the dixingren are ghosts or demons like originally intended. The ghost race naturally exists and wasn't born from kunluns shoulder fire or anything. They just exist separate from humans. Not all ghosts are former humans, some people are just born as ghosts, like Shen Wei. Zhao Yunlan has the guardian whip and all the cool stuff that comes with the Guardian order.  Overall, i’d keep the novel’s plot and relationship progression and ending without the backstory. Instead the backstory is a merger of both canons. From the drama I’d keep the characterization and themes as well as like half the extra cases and omit the other half. 

I’ll be elaborating much further on my ideal backstory and other stuff under the cut bc the rest is 1.5k and I don’t wanna clog the dash 

Okay SO In my ideal backstory there are two timelines just like the drama but the mythology of the book. The god Kunlun is actually zyl that went back in time and became a god. But the one that went back isn’t the current Zhao Yunlan. There has to be an original timeline where the god Kunlun never existed. Thus the great seal nor the separation of the three realms don’t exist either. Zhao Yunlan must go back in time to become a god, meet Shen Wei in the past, and create the current timeline where the separation exists but isn’t perfect. The current timeline is the one that the majority of the series takes place in.

In the original timeline, Zhao Yunlan is just some dude living in a world where ghosts, fairies, and all other beings just live in a giant free for all and it's kinda just a mess. 

Like there’s government in modern context and all and all races live with each other but there's constant tension. ZYL works at some equivalent of the SID (same staff and side characters, but novel vers. Lin Jing is a monk, CSZ a zombie, etc) to protect people and all that and their job is rather hard. One day encounters the thousands year old ghost king Wei (who isnt shen wei yet bc zyl gave him that name in the future) who works alone as like a rouge cultivator of sorts. He lives on the surface undercover as a professor still bc he’s trying to not catch Yezun’s attention but does all the stuff he normally does as Heipaoshi. The two ally together for a case and bc they both have the same goals of getting all races to live in peace. At current, there are forces working together to decimate the human race, all lead by Yezun

As they work together they become closer and all that. Shen Wei tells him about how he was unable to prevent the great war 5 thousand years ago and neither could the gods so  he’s spent the past 5 thousand years trying to make up for it. As they search for ways to stop Yezun, they gather the 4 hallows and learn how to use them to manipulate time so ZYL can go into the past and stop the great war and separate the three realms (living, dead, ghost).  Shen Wei wants to go back with him but he can’t because he was alive all those years ago so if he goes back it will create a paradox. ZYL promises he’ll find Shen Wei in the past and create a timeline where they could be together in peace (that is the current timeline)

When goes back he becomes the god kunlun because there needed to be a new god born at the time to prevent the war.  Also this time traveller looked promising to Nuwa, Fuxi, and Shennong. And I know in the guardian universe gods are usually born and ppl don’t become gods. EXCEPT this can happen when a god passes on smth from their body onto them bc that did happen in the novel with Kunlun making shen wei a demigod. And since fu you and ma gui are supposed to be gods Nu Wa and Fuxi I think that when they die, they should make ZYL a god and that's how this stuff happens.

So like ZYL explains to the gods the time he came from and how he wants to save everything and they make him a god and he works to save everything just like he did in the drama but this time with the novel plotline. During this time he meets young Shen Wei (he’s still like a hundred or so years old) and they get close and all the stuff from the backstory happens. He gives him his name, all that good stuff. The entire time doesn’t let him know that he’s from the future or that his real name is ZYL. He just poses as kunlun. 

The two of them alongside the other gods (who still die at the times they do in the novel) work together to end the war and establish the great seal and set up the cycle of reincarnation, per the current timeline. Although the seal and cycle of reincarnation aren’t perfect. Gods can’t reincarnate, and ghosts still don’t have souls. And just like the novel, doing all of this kills ZYL bc it takes a lot of energy to create the seal even though it isn’t perfect.

Shen Wei of course doesn’t want ZYL to die and zyl says it's alright because he fixed the timeline so there must One day they will meet again and ZYL reveals the truth about the timeline to shen wei before he dies. This becomes the promise that Shen Wei mentions to meet again. Before he dies, ZYL gives him the shoulder fire as a memento ( i still like the candy wrapper necklace deal but i’ll take this too. Maybe both.. The pendant is still just rlly cool.. Gay ppl)

Shen Wei knows gods can’t enter the cycle of reincarnation and still makes the deal with Shennong to strip Kunlun of his godhood and let him reincarnate. This sets us into the novel timeline where isn’t allowed to meet any of zyl’s reincarnations before he becomes zyl otherwise he will die and also fuck up the timeline. The same 5 thousand years of pining still ensue bc Gay Ppl and i love making Shen Wei suffer but he doesn’t have the shrine room thing bc i think thats weird and yea.. Bad. 

In the meantime Shen Wei does a lot of things mostly just protecting the great seal and working for Hell to keep the peace but still does other stuff. He still watches out for ZYL’s reincarnations but doesn’t do much besides make sure they don’t die a premature death. They meet again finally at the beginning of the series and the timeline resumes like canon. And that's my master plan that merges both drama logic and novel logic while making a much better timeline. (I hope that makes some sense)

Da Qing is still Kunlun’s pet cat and important. Novel backstory applies to him. And I already mentioned him kinda but as for Yezun (Gui Mian in the novel) his deal is similar as in the drama but just a ghost. And he is a big player in the great war, he thought Shen Wei abandoned him as a kid but they were just separated. Shen Wei doesn’t know it's him till the end of the war and couldn’t stop him in the OG timeline and vows to bring him to justice and make amends. Shen Wei continuously tries to explain things to him but he just won’t listen and is imprisoned in hell bc yk… war criminal stuff and yeah he’s the main antagonist trying to break the great seal bc he’s still made about the past. Idk. Yezun wasn’t well written in the novel OR the drama so like… honestly he just needs to be completely rewritten and I don’t care enough about that. He can just be a weak villain idk

the drama characterization stays the same for everyone else bc found family go brr. However for Lao Chu i… hmm… i think he should still be a zombie but the reason he killed someone should be related to his brother. I like that addition and then shen wei realized his sentence was unjust and exempted him. i like that storyline merger. bc the brother thing and him admiring Heipaoshi was drama only. in the novel lao chu just murdered some kid for a rlly whatever reason.

uhhh in terms of the cases… id make adjustments to most of them. i think the li qian case should be like the drama bc the novel just had her as a murderer and it was boring. 

For the mountain river awl one was fine… novel version was funnier and more interesting action wise tbh… rip zyl and his exorbitant flirting. uhhh the whole reveal that shen wei was the soul reaper thing was kinda… ehh in the novel but i did love the comedy of afterwards Shen Wei pretending he went into cardiac arrest when he actually just… has no pulse bc he's a ghost. 

ID KEEP THE WORTH IT SCENE AND RAIN SCENE… THOSE FUCK SO HARD… I love the drama for adding those every damn day. the novel version of zyl losing his sight sucked and was sooo boring.  Keep the drama version on that.

also id keep dr. cheng. i'm very pro dr. cheng and her friendship with shen wei it adds so much to his character imo. keep the fruit seller man and his wife for the merit brush..omg it adds SO MUCH the way the drama did it.. like the drams build up with the novels pace of that arc.. mwah. it felt like it dragged a bit in the drama but if it went faster and without the hospital ep and with sha ya (sorry sha ya) that would've been so good. tho keep novel version of da qings memory loss and lao li. that was rlly impactful.

id say keep some of the cases like the mirror one, the eyes doctor one, etc. just to like.. yk have more to fill in general.. novel pacing but drama characterization without the bs that wasn't fully realized. and novel ending ofc. And that’s it!!

I hope most of this makes some amount of sense  but it probably doesn’t. In my head it all tracks but like ik most of u don’t know anything about the novel so this sounds like gibberish. Also I know this would literally never happen but this is MY ideal merger of the two canons that I feel compelled to expand on for some reason. Anyways, as io said,, we need to rebuild guardian. Like literally let me and the mutuals write Guardian and it will be 500 times better.

[titconao3]

tagged by @beguilewritesstuff​

i’m going to change the formatting bcs i’m evil like that and must ramble on, feel free to ignore. as usual, i take these things way to literally and i don’t understand the questions, probably.

tagging: whoever’s into this!

indoor plants or gardens: depends on whether we’re talking in my place, or everywhere. If everywhere, both. If my place, none: i can’t be arsed to take proper care. also i’ve tried to have plants in pots and i tried to Do Things Right and it didn’t work out, so... i gave up. know thyself and thy limits etc

cloud-watching or star-gazing  both yes both, as long as i have proper eye-protection from the sun for option 1.

water or fire ...uuuh.... watching a fire in a hearth etc (i mean, not Nero style, obv) is great? but the ocean too? i don’t understand T_T

paperback or hardcover hardcover: too heavy. but i often use an e-reader.

running or hiking: omg neither. running means dying lungs, Extremely Painful Knees, etc very quickly. Hiking is... idk, everything is bad: i get all the branches in my face, all the rocks start moving when i step on them, etc. Put me in a city and i can walk for hours; put me in nature and i #suffer. i have also been somewhat traumatized by people claiming “Oh come one it’s a small easy walk not even a HIKE” and it was in fact climbing up a small mountain with very narrow, gravely, unstable paths hugging the side of the mountain and if you stumbled, ti meant a fall so SOMEHOW i have become Extra Wary of the word “hiking”

sleeping with socks or without socks although with wouldn’t be a problem. i use a hot water bottle in winter.

fruit or vegetables fruit only if i can use them in a salad, or cook them LIKE a veg.

hanging plants or succulents see above re indoor / outdoor plants. succulents also mean repotting etc; they’re not care-free.

dark wood or light wood both yes both. i have both at home, in the same room.

handwritten or typed typed is way easier to read. ofc if we’re talking postcard, personal letter etc, handwritten is more pleasant, personal touch etc. my handwriting is terrible, btw.

instagram or pinterest: neither. who wants to see my face or what i eat? no one, not even me. pinterest: i don’t even really understand what it’s for apart from thing to filter out of my google & co searches.

braids or pigtails: on me, neither. my hair refuses (because length when it’s short, because it’s not thick enough if not, and in any case it just Won’t Stay In Place)

dc or marvel i’m not super familiar with DC, although Batman is my kind of character.

books or movies why would i choose? my attention span has drastically reduced since childhood, but it means it affects both. 

oceans or meadows: meadows > flowers > sneezing.

forests or fields: see meadows above

sweet or salty oh yeah i’m def not one for sugar.

ice cream or chocolate you... you (person who created this) do know there’s chocolate ice-cream, right? but i’ll go with DARK chocolate. DARK only, 70% cocoa minimum. i can accept salt / pepper / coffee / mint if i MUST, in it. D A R K

hoodies or sweaters: tbh both but a hood is def good at times.

piercings or tattoos: i have or want neither. they’re cool on other people, but i don’t really feel a need for myself. If for other people, both, if for myself, neither.

summer or winter well, the cold is easier to deal with than the heat because once you’re naked you can’t take your skin off, but longer sunlight is good? probably??

boots or sneakers WhaT Am i DOinG How Am i SupPoseD tO KnoW

cars or motorcycles: public transportation ;-) but i have a licence for cars only, not motorcycles.

curls or straight hair: i have curls, if that is the question; on other people, idgaf

castles or cottages to visit? to live in? i mean, castles are super expensive to maintain... and what kind of castle? European Middle Ages? even among those, there is a Wide Variety in architecture. if we’re including more geographical & historical areas... 

sunny days or storms: once again, *bafflement* storms are really cool to watch but can be destructive, and sunny days can be too hot or painful if i don’t have sunglasses but are pleasant if mild...

reptiles or birds: as pets neither. i don't want to be responsible for a living thing, and end up not caring for them properly because i’m too tired / not in the mood etc. otherwise, i’m totally cool with both. however... birds are dinosaurs are reptiles (private joke moment!!! @pixelbypixelfanfic​ do you remember that museum). a baby bird pooped on my once, idk if that counts. oh and i got adult bird poop on me too. this hasn’t happened, yet, with reptiles.

disney or nickelodeon: (what about if you’re not the USA) i have never been into what we think of Disney (princesses and THE CONSTANT SINGING), and don’t have nickelodeon here

strawberries or watermelon: well i’m not into fruit or sweet things, as previously established. Watermelon can go into salads, and strawberries one in a while are okay i guess?

essays or posters... i don’t understand. posters go on wall? do you people put essays on walls??? what IS the question *sobs*

phones or laptops or desktop desktop because big screen, big keyboard, separate mouse: more comfortable. if not, laptop. if i’m desperate and far away from both, phone.

glass or stone i drink in glasses, i wear glasses, i have Pretty Decorative Stones. ik, what are we talking about?

dark or light: if it’s a computer screen setting, dark. if we’re in winter and outside, light, otherwise it’s too cold. i need context!!1!1!1!

photos or paintings: uuuuh. i have a few paintings from my grandfather around, but not photos. that's, um. i mean. photos... that’s... old? or are we talking about stuff that stays on your hard drive? i have a bunch, from trips. as long as my face isn’t there, cool; i take them to remember. i’ve found that the action of taking the pic was enough to help me remember, not necessarily looking at them again: because i make the conscious decision of taking the pic, thinking about what i want to preserve,et c, somehow it sets the brain drive into memory mode, at last better than if i didn’t take pics.

circuses or theatres: neither; RL, live shows make me uncomfortable.

reading or writing i do both but i only write fanfic.

dogs or cats i like both, i would have neither.

poetry or novels poetry just leaves me cold. i know, i know, how dare i.

monsters or ghosts why choose?? (shaniac though)

thrift shops or libraries: i like browsing through thrift shops, and i’ve lost my voracious Real Grownup Book reading obsession that i had in my younger years. i like looking at silly mugs and cute objects and sometimes i’ll buy something, and Do Good at the same time when they’re charity shops!

fiction or non-fiction both, although these days fiction is mostly fic.

[pauleonotis]

So I was thinking. I really adore body swap fanfictions (especially with Drarry, it’s hilarious) but I haven’t read one yet which includes going home over the vacation and to really know the other one better.

Just imagine

Both being annoyed at the beginning and then trying to make the other one suffer by doing some really embarrassing things

Harry having fun being over dramatic

Draco having fun being the chosen one and acting like everyone’s hero, insulting Ron and Hermione

Harry being annoyed that thanks to Draco his friends are really angry at him but having fun complimenting Ron and Hermione (sometimes in front of other students) and being really nice to them

Both, when alone, arguing a lot of how easy it is to be the other one and how much they‘d love having 'such an easy life' and that they shouldn’t dare to ruin their reputation or destroy friendships (or making new ones-)

Harry as Draco forced to go to malfoy manor, finding out Narcissa is actually a loving parent (only when no one can see tho) and Lucius being really harsh to Draco all the time and being really manipulative towards him and instantly talking bad about him whenever he does just a tiny mistake (and it feels like he’s doing everything wrong)

Draco as Harry completely freaked out by the muggle world but even more of how abusive the Dursley’s are

Harry finding out that Narcissa is really scared about Draco’s well being and noticing how horrible it must be to live with death eaters knowing full well that what was once a home for them isn’t anymore and they don’t feel safe there but at least they have each other

Draco finding out about the cupboard and how much the Dursley’s hate magic and is shocked they don’t know (or at least don’t want to know) about anything Harry has done for the whole wizard world

Harry starting to miss his own parents whenever he notices how caring Narcissa is and thinking of how it would’ve been to have a real mother

Draco being constantly reminded of what he said to Harry (for example the time he told him that children who stay at Hogwarts during the vacation are not wanted home etc.)

Harry, even tho he starts to love Narcissa and feeling comfortable around her, being constantly scared and paranoid, doesn’t eat much which seems like it isn’t a new behavior of Draco since Narcissa doesn’t comment on that

Draco trying to cook but failing miserably, constantly in a bad mood for being treated like a house elf and also a little paranoid he might’ve done something wrong during the day for Vernon to yell at him again or Dudley inviting his friends over and making fun of him (he’s starting to hate Dudley because he reminds him so much of hisself towards Harry)

Harry having problems to get any sleep because Voldy is basically right next door and he’s missing his friends so much who probably still hate him thanks to Draco

Draco having problems to get any sleep because he’s missing his mother so much after seing this one photo that Harry possesses of his parents

Harry hugging Narcissa as goodbye when they’re at the train station waiting for the Hogwarts express and being surprised when Narcissa asks him if there’s a potion or something ready so that the body swap will be over soon (because you can’t tell me this woman wouldn’t notice. Tho she didn’t say something since Harry was in constant danger at the manor)

Draco being grateful he managed to get Vernon drive him to the train station but also freaking out because he’s sitting in a muggle transport device, or whatever they call it

Harry awkwardly telling Narcissa about how the swap did happen and that there is indeed a potion to swap them back which needed to be brewed over the vacation

Draco now understanding why Harry grew so fond of the Weasleys after Molly warmly greeting him and then giving him a big hug (fully unaware that this is Draco Malfoy but no one knows about the swap apart from Harry and Draco of course, Slughorn who is brewing the potion, Dumbledore ...and Narcissa) and even Ron and Hermione being happy to see him again even tho he was an ass towards them

Harry wanting to enter the compartment of his friends but hesitating after seing that 'he‘s' with them already and being reminded he has to be alone during the train ride again but oddly enough Hermione invites him in because after being so nice towards them why not

Harry and Draco awkwardly sitting opposite to each other trying not to stare too much and not to answer any questions about how the vacation was and what they did during them

Hermione and Ron looking at each other thinking it’s a rivalry thing again and finding an excuse to leave them alone for a while

Both starting to talk at the same time and then awkwardly stop talking until Harry says to Draco to tell him first

Draco hesitates and somehow gets extremely nervous, he’s trying to say something but nothing comes out and he’s about to give up and tell Harry to start talking first but instead says »I‘m sorry«

Harry is confused and asks for what since the potion accident was his fault after all

Draco huffs and tells him for everything he‘s done and especially for everything he has said (not only towards him also about Hermione and Ron)

Harry just smiles and apologizes too before offering his hand asking him to be his friend

Draco being surprised but accepting his hand (even tho it’s a little weird since both bodies are still switched)

Both getting switched back as soon as they’re at Hogwarts again

They ended up as great friends and both never assumed of the other that his life must be so easy again

They fell on love slowly over the year

Then the fight and everything did happen, Voldy died etc. etc.

After that Harry thanked Narcissa for basically saving his life in the forest and she just smiled (but not just smiled, she looked like a proud mother would look at her child)

Harry and Draco sitting somewhere together a couple of days after everything happened and talking about how scared they were and Draco admitting how horrible it was when Voldy announced him dead

Harry telling Draco it’s not that easy to get rid of him and Draco answering that this better be true or else he’s going to regret it

Both being silent for a while before starting to talk at the same time saying »I think I love you.«

Both blushing really hard after that.

End.

(It’s btw 5am atm and I’m tired as hell but I had to write this down first otherwise I couldn’t sleep anyway so pls don’t be mad for any mistakes either in spelling or whatsoever because my brain usually barely works during this time)

[trulyhopelessromantic]

I need a vent

I'm still recovering from heart surgery. Learned today that recovery should be done at around 6 months... I'm on month 3 (just started)

But I have to help my family and extended family with tasks... And I'm on the verge of annoyance and gratitude and defeat with this fact

All I want to do is get into a routine where I can properly rest, be productive on one or two things a day then relax and do something I would like for leisure before dealing with the unmoveable routine of the evening hours where we must tidy, make supper, put my niece to bed and me have to listen to arguments and whining almost every night about either her eating her food or her bedtime or both. Then peace and quiet for less than 2 hours before I should start getting ready to sleep myself

But I'm being volun-told to help with setting up her online school because my mom gets upset and rage quits if things aren't easily done with a computer/technology and the system that they have in place for online right now wasn't clearly set out/accessible to me who was given a half hour today after I just woke up to set it up on the computer and/or a tablet (which has no storage space left btw) before I had my 'Stress Test' for my heart today to learn about how much physical exertion I can handle. So not a good morning for me today.

I'm being volun-told to help with pricing out insurance items for my grandparents' basement which flooded because my mom cannot do it all on top of her work, helping them with other things at their house, other insurance things for their house, planning her camping vacation coming up beginning of June and more. So because I'm 'available' I've been asked to help.

I'm being volun-told as of this evening I'm also now going to be responsible for selling some things online for my grandparents so that my mom and Aunty don't have to do it (because again they also have a lot on their plates).

My annoyance is that I want to get well in my own time in my own way. Being given tasks to do on top of living in a space where I have to put up with the stresses of living with my brother and niece who have several bad habits between them that stress me out (one of which is never tidying up much after themselves and honestly making quite a mess each day so if not done the mess just mounts and you can't for example use the kitchen counter after day 2 because it's covered in dishes and other items -_- ffff) anyway yeah it's already hard enough on me as it is to wake up each day and have constant stresses from them thrown at me. Then to already be unhappy with my own lack of routine that I do want to establish for myself and also my To Do list not getting done each day to be given tasks to do on top of it is just emotionally draining and makes me feel defeated before I begin.

I'm grateful that I am recovering and that others can see my energy levels are up. I'm grateful that I have my grandparents and my mom to help. I'm grateful that I have enough health to be up and about and to have so much support from these people.

I want to help because I want to make things easier for my mom and her stress levels which are huge also. And I want to help out my grandparents because they do and have done so much for me. These people have been such a huge support for me during this time and I feel happy and willing to inadvertently thank my mom and grandparents by doing something that would help them all out a lot.

But I also just...want to be selfish.

I won a contest to publish my book this year but with the amount of 'work' and research I'm still required to do for it looks like that process may not happen this year especially because of being set back by my heart incident and recovery taking me out of commission for over a month...

And my room is starting to be a mess on surfaces because I don't have the motivation or energy to clean up what's on the desks/put down on the floor in bags. And being in here is stressing me out a mild amount each day due to that.

So I'm just emotionally and mentally not in a good place right now (my mental health supports for this heart thing aren't available til June now) and I don't sleep well most nights (well can't fall asleep easily most nights really is what I should say). So I just wake up already feeling like I have a couple of energy dollars to spend and they automatically get withdrawn towards several reoccurring things and I'm left with so little that I just feel tired and at least the last couple days mentally defeated before I even do anything...

I've got to buck up, put a routine down for myself and stick to it. But again writing out a daily schedule will take time and so that also feels daunting to put my energy towards.

Just gotta do it.

Not even gonna address the pandemic problems I'm having that have taken so many energy and motivations away from me never mind stress relievers... fuck man.

And I know I don't have it as bad as others. I'm just in that phase that I get to where I have less mental energy and need a recharge but I'm not getting it. A 'rut' is what I've nicknamed this part of my cycle of emotions. I do get out of this eventually after a week or two but it's frustrating to be in while I'm here...

Anyway that's all for this rant. Just needed to put it out to the universe otherwise it would weigh me down inside and I don't want that. I want to be lighter in hopes to fall asleep a little faster tonight.

[kazkari]

i'm sorry you had to go through that, and i hope you will never have to again... do you mind sharing your experience? if not, that's understandable, if you don't want to think about it. i hope you can get some justice along with the other victims

This might be a bit rambly, I am currently still trying to sort my thoughts on the thing that are happening...Mind you that I to this point do not have the full info, because even now there’s stuff leaking that makes me go “Oh.”. There’s probably a lot of better and more in-depth accounts by people that were more connected than I am. I might also forget some stuff because wowie this thing goes WAY back. I invite people from back then to add or correct me if I misremembered something!

I am again, going to make abundantly clear that I was neither a close friend of him nor am I one of the underaged people he had inappropriate relations with. I do not claim to be a victim or a survivor. I do not claim to have been abused by him myself. My personal beef with him included that he made me feel like I’m a sad, pitiful loser that nobody would have any interest in besides pity.That my only worth is to be someone’s charity project.  Someone you can point to and go...aw, look at this sad lonely piece of shit...Am I not a good person for talking to them?

 But I’ve also seen the devastating effect his general behaviour had on people, even if I’m not going to bring up any names. 

 I was a mediocre artist in the fandom and, to be completely honest, incredibly immature for my age...Otherwise, I wouldn’t have based so much of my self worth on a parasocial relationship to someone playing videogames on youtube. I’m also going to come forth and say that not all of my behaviour in the past was super great myself. I struggled a lot with mental illness, suicidal ideation and did in no way possess the emotional maturity appropriate for someone my age.It became increasingly evident that there weren’t healthy boundaries in this fandom, whatsoever. I’m ashamed of having not spoken out earlier due to my social anxiety and my fear of getting harassed over it.  This in no way apologizes that I sometimes have acted as an absolute asshole back when I still had wool covering my eyes, just an explanation. I’ve probably hurt my fair share of people, some of I will never even have the ability to apologize to.

From what I can tell my experiences were pretty similar to a lot of other people leaving that cesspool behind. It was a culmination of seeing someone do nothing while their friends struggled, even to the point of suicidal ideation, to just to keep up the facade of a clean funnyman that can do no wrong, seeing the constant outright gaslighting and manipulation targeted at people that brought up even the slightest hint of criticism. People HAVE spoken up and said their piece about these things even back then when they happened, and even years later, but a lot of time warnings and critique were just swept under the rug. It was made abundantly clear, again and again, that fans weren’t taken seriously. The fandom had the reputation of being mostly made up of teenaged girls, which was constantly used against people that “acted up”. It felt like we had nothing to say and no worth beside churning out ass pats and fanart, tbh. I feel like there was a lot of manipulation going on making it seem like most of his shitty behaviour was the result of chey’s bad influence over him. Which is super fucked up. Sure, she didn’t seem like the most pleasant person to be around, btw she was also still very young and suffering from mental illness. It doesn’t excuse some of her behaviour, but making it seem like she as some dark overlord manipulating a grown ass man from the shadows? Nah. People assumed this was a way to paint her as an unredeemable crazy ex-gf in case she leaked some info on him...I get the feeling that some people are still trying to do that.

I’ve seen the way people he was very close to break and fall apart because of the way he treated them like his personal emotional garbage dump. He didn’t treat them like people, in my opinion. People have come forward on social media to detail how he treated them, and that’s just the tip of the iceberg. I urge you to believe them, they know what they are talking about.

There was the thing where he went for his best friends GF. Where he watched ppl get bullied out of his crew and giving them zero support. I was aware that he was having sexually charged conversations with fans, even during a time most of us didn’t even know he was in a relationship. But again, I was not aware of the scope until much later. I didn’t know it were so many. Apparently, Snake mentioned around 14 during his latest stream? (And it was HARD to know because people that had contact to him did not bring it up lightly.) Later I’d learn that he also talked to people because he felt pity towards them, more than one. It felt like people did just exist because they had some kinda use, either for direct gratification or because he could feel like a better person for saving them in some weird self-serving way.

I also hope there will be justice for the people he has hurt. They didn’t deserve to be treated like this. 

[callsignbaphomet]

Which of your ocs are in a relationship and which are single?

Aaaaahhh 💖💖💖

Ok so current state of things now.

Eli, Loke and Jelani's paternal grandmother, is a widow and prefers to stay single. She would just rather not date or what have you.

Subira and Jelani, Loke and Jelani's maternal grandparents, have probably been married for about as long as the sun has been setting and rising and still act like teenagers in love.

Sanaa and Ingvarr, Loke and Jelani's parents, have been married for a fuck ton of years and are blissfully happy and somehow still have a fairytale type of marriage. To this day he still worships the ground she walks on.

Grete and Jørgen (Ingvarr's younger brother), Loke and Jelani's aunt and uncle, have been married even longer than Ingvarr and Sanaa have been. They're super comfortable together and are very happy.

Nkosazana and Jaali (Sanaa's older brother), Loke and Jelani's aunt and uncle, married in December 31, 1999 because honestly they thought it would be fun.

Fae (Sanaa's younger sister) and Shawn, Loke and Jelani's aunt and uncle, married a year after their first daughter was born. Marriage was always the goal but Leah just made it come a lot faster than intended but otherwise they're super happy. And even happier later when they had the triplets.

Aleksey, Angelus' grandfather, is single as he doesn't care for marriage or even relationships. There was ONE exception but she declined. They had a kid together and the rest is history.

Mahmud has two partners, one of which is AJ! He's very devoted to both and are all three altogether happy.

Radek and Shaine have been married for over 30 years. Not the oldest marriage but not the most recent either.

Tre is kind of a wildcard. One minute he's dating a girl and the next he's moved on to another one. Not exactly the most stable. He just doesn't know what he wants at the moment.

Latoya is currently dating a woman (Jade) and she just wants things to go by smoothly and easy. No rushing anything. She hasn't had more than 3 relationships in her life so she's kinda shy about it.

Manami is currently single. She ain't looking but she isn't exactly opposed to it.

Mason is single. However, Mason is crushing hard on Jelani but that ain't gonna ever happen or go anywhere. The man's married and even if Jelani and Angelus do have threesomes sometimes Jela knows about Mason so she wants to put as much distance in that sense between 'em.

Ginger and Abigail are married. April 28th because Abby wanted a spring wedding and who was Ginger to deny her? So they had a goth spring wedding. I don't actually like setting dates for any event in the current era but for the sake of argument let's just say it was in 2016. Before Abby Ginger used to be with Jelani but they split amicably because she actually prefers women a bit more than men. Still good friends and she is his husband's best friend.

Loke is currently single. If he finds someone that's fantastic, if he doesn't that's fantastic too. They're happy either way.

Trevor is aromantic so he doesn't need or want relationships. Bit of a slut that one not gonna lie. Jela had actually fallen in love with him (obviously before he was with Angelus) and that kinda put a strain on their friendship but they worked it out and now they're back to being really good friends. Trevor also fucked Loke a couple of times and then everyone else found out. Despite all this Trevor will actually get together with a woman (he's pansexual btw) who is also aromantic but both end up having a child. They both have a constant hand in raising their kid and the kid ends up with a bunch of really weird aunts and uncles. Don't have a date for when this will happen yet though. I wrote the mom's name down somewhere but I freaking lost the note, probably buried in all the notes I got everywhere. Trevor names his son after his little brother who died centuries ago. Connor.

Jelani and Angelus are happily married since December 23, 2017. Ya know how they say marry your best friend? They did and it's been a dream since especially for Angelus 'cause he's been in love with him since he was a kid. They sometimes bring in a third person to fuck around with for the night. Only exceptions are Trevor and Loke because Trevor and Loke are kinda like big brothers to Angelus, Trevor also sees Angelus like a little brother and Loke and Jelani are siblings so absolutely the fuck not. Ew.

That's everyone I could think of! :}

[depressedkakashihatake]

I took a criminology college course in highschool (and passed), and it's entirely possible for minors ages 15-16 to get tried as adults for certain offenses. And in the college au Obito would've been around 16 years old when his HPD symptoms went full force after learning Kakashi didn't have a crush on him anymore. What could've happened is Obito attacking Kakashi during that period led to Obito slashing Kakashi's left eye with a knife, meaning Kakashi now has a scar and is partially blind (1/2)

in that eye. It would make sense since Obito would've been tried and acquitted for 1st degree murder (btw our teacher was ex military & told us there no such thing as 3rd degree murder) and that's why he's been locked up in prison ever since. All I'm saying is: 𝘪𝘵 𝘧𝘪𝘵𝘴. (2/2) - Sanna

It does fit XD also who even came up with '3rd degree murder*??? That's not a thing wtf?

Kakashi hates looking in the mirror and seeing his eye. It's a constant reminder of what happened.

So he doesn't have mirrors at home. Gai has one mirror that's portable that he uses, but otherwise Kakashi just relies on Gai telling him if he looks presentable or not (which doesn't always work out in Kakashi's favour cuz sometimes Gai doesn't tell him that his hair is exceptionally messy today).

And even to this day Kakashi will freak if someone manages to sneak up behind him because that's how Obito got to him the first time. The only place he feels safe enough to let his guards down is at home, and obito ryins that for him. Kakashi has not had to move out of his home twice because the bastard made it feel unsafe to him

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 202: Rival Break and the 3rd Set

Previously on BnHA: Momo made a giant cannon and used it to fire a bag of emergency supplies over the onomatopoeia wall back to her pals. The bag contained some fungicide which Tokoyami and Hagakure doused themselves with to ward off Toadette’s horrific quirk. It also contained a pair of night vision goggles which Toko used to track down Toadette and Kuroiro. For a moment it looked like he had them both contained, but then Toadette sprouted some mushrooms in Toko’s fucking windpipe, cutting off his air supply and causing him to release them. Meanwhile Kendou showed up to rescue Manga from Hagakure’s flurry of invisible attacks. She’d managed to knock Momo out, but not before Momo sprouted a bunch of steel cables from her left side to tie Kendou up and attach herself to her while she herself was still attached to the giant cannon. So basically she slowed her way down, and tbh they would have had this if Hagakure and Tokoyami (and Aoyama, who got captured before any of them) hadn’t dropped the ball. That’s my story and I’m sticking to it. But anyway, so the round went to B Team, and now the classes are tied and we’re about to move into the third round.

Today on BnHA: Since Momo and Kendou’s teams absolutely trashed the battlefield, Aizawa and Vlad announce a short break before the start of round 3. All Might takes Deku aside and asks him if things are all right with his quirk. Deku says he’s fine, only to be interrupted by Kacchan who’s all THE FUCK ARE Y’ALL DOING HAVING THIS WEIRD CONVERSATION SO CONSPICUOUSLY and he makes them fill him in. Kacchan’s response to the whole OFA situation is to basically egg Deku on to become stronger already, and it fucking works is the thing, so y’all know this one-page conversation is easily the most “!!!!” I’ve been about this series in fucking ages omg. But anyways, so then round 3 starts up with Team TetsuPonyHoneSen VS Team TodoIidaShoujiRo. Shouto briefly thinks back to when he was like six fucking years old and Endeavor was trying to teach him a new fire technique by being an abusive dick. Shockingly this method didn’t pan out, but Shouto’s been thinking about it again recently since watching his dad battle the Noumu at Fukuoka. Meanwhile Iida is hyped to win since he’s representing his brother as the successor to the Ingenium name. And Tetsu is also hyped because he’s always fucking hyped! So basically everyone is getting ready to do their best and this should be good!

(As always, all comments not marked with an ETA are my mostly-unspoiled reactions from my first readthrough of this chapter. I’m caught up with the manga now at chapter 223, so any ETAs will reflect that.)

oh wow Toadette is actually offering Tokoyami a throat lozenge like I was joking about earlier. haha. only the reason it was a joke on my part is because I thought it was fairly obvious that a fucking lozenge wasn’t exactly going to do much to help after you sprouted fucking mushrooms all along the inside of his goddamn windpipe! these kids are fucking savages I swear to god. they’re out for blood

anyways he’s still coughing and hacking and she’s telling him to go see Recovery Girl before this turns into one of those hanahaki fics

meanwhile Momo also appears to be ill after using her quirk as much as she did, and she’s shaking and doesn’t seem to be able to stand, so two sarcastic asshole robots are wheeling her off to RG as well

yeah I’m gonna need you two to shut up. were they specifically programmed to be douches? this is someone’s idea of a joke isn’t it

anyways I hope my girl Momo is gonna be okay. Kendou go with her please!

Shinsou’s all “wow everyone got really fucked up” and Aizawa’s just like “yeah that’s just how it goes with hero training” as though this is in any way acceptable lol. well I guess it’s been a little while since U.A. did anything outrageously irresponsible though, so maybe we can cut them some slack this time around. plus ultra?

(ETA: nope I take it back. within three chapters all four teachers will be idly standing by shrugging their shoulders and hoping none of the kids fucking burn to death by accident. lesson learned, never ever cut the U.A. faculty any slack whatsoever.)

btw I almost forgot to mention it but it’s super cute that Shinsou is hanging out next to Aizawa. they have clearly built up some kind of bond by this point, and as usual I’m delighted by any and all instances of Aizawa being a dad

looool

did I mention that Manga’s quirk is seriously unbelievably strong though?? is there an onomatopoeia for “All for One-destroying weapon” that I don’t know about that he could speak into existence perhaps? hmm?

also smh at these teachers being more concerned with the property damage than with the attempted murder. Tokoyami’s fine by the way. but sure let’s scold them for doing some mild damage to your industrial training site which you specifically created for this very purpose

so apparently they’re going to change the stage? or “move the stage” at any rate? does this mean they’re cleaning up the training ground, or are they moving to one of the other areas? I’m not quite clear here

but at any rate, Vlad says they’re going to take a short break which I’m all for because it means more chances for the kids to interact!

look at them interacting!!

so I’m just going to assume the two speech bubbles on the right are Kirishima and Tetsutetsu, yes?

also, Manga, I’m gonna need you to stop whining about how your ultra-powerful and crazy broken quirk gives you a sore throat. fuck outta here with that nonsense son. I assume the only reason no one gave OFA to you is because the series would already be over

Deku is happily taking notes on everyone’s growth while Ochako watches, and it’s super fucking cute. I am shipping this more these days now that she’s not losing her damn mind any time she thinks about him and he’s not on the verge of passing out whenever she gets within two feet of him

and now All Might’s coming to say hi to his apprentice!

are y’all gonna talk some more about the Avatar State. because if you are then I’m the one who’s gonna start taking notes omg

so he’s beckoning Deku over so they can have a quick private chat in the corner

Mina’s all “well aren’t they close~” and I know she’s just making a mild observation, but once again I’m reminded of how these two are just the absolute worst at hiding their secret. like for real though

so All Might’s asking Deku if anything has felt off since their last conversation

and Deku says “nothing in particular”, which is a bit of a curious answer since he could have just gone with a straight “no”

All Might says he’s planning to ask Gran whether or not Shimura ever mentioned anything. I doubt it though, otherwise you’d think he’d have brought it up before now. not everyone is as cagey as you when it comes to passing on vital information

anyways, he says for the time being Deku should take care since he’ll be facing off with Shinsou

and interestingly, he says Shinsou is a piece of the puzzle as far as the Vestiges/Traces are concerned

really? I mean it’s true that Deku first saw them during his initial fight with Shinsou, and now he just so happens to be fighting Shinsou again on the same day that he had that crazy dream. but is that not just a coincidence? how could Shinsou actually be involved with this?

OH MY GOD

(ETA: speaking of onomatopoeia, Kacchan has his very own complete with exclamation point lol. what happens if Manga uses this. do the letters explode)

KEEP KACCHAN IN THE LOOP 2K19!!!! OH MY GOD YES PLEASE THANK YOU MANGA GODS

holy shit I was wondering if he was gonna get annoyed since he could hardly fail to notice them sneaking off to chat while he was right fucking there

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

OH MY GOD YOU GUYSSSSSS

IT DID!!!! AND NOW THEY’RE FINALLY GONNA TELL HIM WHEEEEE

oh my god. Kacchan/Deku rivalry. it has been so fucking long you guys. it’s been 80 fucking chapters!!

things I love:

DON’T KEEP ANY MORE SECRETS FROM KACCHAN ABOUT ONE FOR ALL, HE OFFICIALLY GETS ANNOYED ABOUT IT. HE WANTS TO KNOW SO MAKE SURE YOU KEEP HIM POSTED

for reals though, he’s making sure they remember that he’s part of the OFA squad now. that wasn’t just a one-time thing, he wants to actively be involved. I don’t know if they actually realized this before, but now they’re aware so I hope Deku tells him the next time without having to be asked

also him yelling at them to be more fucking secretive for christ’s sake lol. RIGHT?

and him immediately getting competitive and reminding Deku of what his goals are. they always do this with each other, and it’s honestly so important. the shounen rival relationship is, at its core, one of constant growth. if done right, the two rivals will each be the one person who can always unfailingly push the other when they think they can’t go any further, and nudge the other back on track whenever they start to go astray. and that is so, so important, and it’s especially important for them to keep establishing this relationship now, when for once things are actually calm and there aren’t any villain plots or other angsty things going down for the time being. because this quiet period is not going to last. and there will come a time when Izuku will need this type of push again, when the fate of the world might even depend on it. they help each other to focus and they keep each other grounded, and this shit right here is why it’s my favorite relationship, and I can’t say enough good things about it

lastly, this is fairly subtle, but you can see that this is Katsuki’s way of reassuring him. like, he realized Izuku was... not unsettled, exactly, but certainly confused and still trying to figure out what the hell is going on. so he immediately sets onto distracting him. and I’ve gotten completely distracted by my own excited ramblings and I haven’t even finished the damn conversation yet, but I bet you anything that it worked, too. because that’s the power of rivals, dammit

yeppppp

I fucking love it you guys. every damn time. this is what keeps sucking me back in. this is why I’m reading. give me some good old fashioned shounen rivals showing their concern for one another in the most indirect way possible and it fucking works

PREACH IT ALL MIGHT!

NO, HE DEFINITELY IS. THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT I’M SAYING. SEE, ALL MIGHT GETS IT

like, I don’t really have much more to add other than what I already said, lol. although I will say I’m fairly sure that not only is he not actually pissed off, but he’s actually relieved that Deku did smile, and it was the exact effect he was going for, which is why he called attention to it before immediately trying to play it off like h was mad

anyway, so that was everything to me you guys, but the show must go on, and we are now all set to begin round 3! and it looks like we will be staying in Ground Gamma and that they’ve just relocated to a different part of the stage, or something. idk

so Sen is the only guy in this round who we haven’t already met, although I don’t think we actually know Pony’s quirk. Honenuki’s quirk is of course the quicksand quirk of cavalry battle fame, and I’m looking forward to seeing that in action again

meanwhile they’re up against these legends!

once again I can’t for the life of me figure out how they can possibly screw this up. but we know they will somehow! guess they’ll just have to get creative

and now a quick flashback of Tokoyami, who you can tell is feeling better because he’s coming up to Todoroki and just rambling on and on for no real reason

no you don’t you boob. calm the fuck down man. go eat some ice cream and lie down

well what have we here

friendly reminder that I ship these two. by this point I think I ship Todoroki with almost as many people as Bakugou and I’m not quite sure how that happened. this boy is more social than I give him credit for

so now Shouto’s thinking back to his dad’s battle against High N’ Tight Noumu

and what’s this?

the prominence burn thing? or the flying thing? I personally think he ought to learn the flying thing first

and now some flashbacks to Endeavor being abusive

jesus christ. please tell me Shouto is smoking from his own quirk. please tell me you didn’t actually set your child on fire you utter trashpile of a man

and what the hell is with the shinai? because the fire wasn’t fucking enough??

props to Horikoshi though for showing this. it’s not pleasant to see, but the fact that he doesn’t shy away from it even after starting Endeavor’s redemption arc is really important. none of his past deeds have been erased. he’s not pretending it didn’t happen or that it’s okay now because things are finally starting to get better. it’s such a fucking mess, and I really, really appreciate that we’re being confronted with it even now and nothing is being swept under any proverbial rugs

correct me if I’m wrong, but I feel like this is pretty rare for redemption arcs, both in Eastern and Western media. usually once the former bad guy starts down the right path, the story stops addressing those past sins, presumably in the hope that audiences will eventually forget about them. but not only is Horikoshi not doing that, he’s actively showing us the bad shit again in vivid detail, the resulting effect being something like “hey, just in case you forgot...”

anyway, so here’s more confirmation that Todoroki Touya is in fact Dabi

just fucking confirm it already you cowards. it’s not like you’re trying to hide it; you purposely alluded to it so overtly at the end of the Endeavorhawks arc that no one could possibly fail to miss it. so I really don’t know why you’re playing games with it at this juncture. he must have some sort of plan here but idk

anyway, he says that Shouto is the one, and that he can pass this technique on to him and only him

I wonder if Touya accidentally immolated himself with a failed prominence burn. god I want to know what happened so bad uggghhhh

ahhhhhhh

they’re so cute omg

Ojiro says he had no idea anything was wrong because Todoroki’s expression “never really changes that much”, and he’s impressed Iida could tell

it’s because they’re lovers, Ojiro! but not really, but do you agree with me that they should be? because if not then I really don’t know why you’re wasting my time here tail boy

Iida’s all “but of course!” and says he’s the class president and is always there to lend a hand to a classmate in need. and sure. but also, lovers

AHHHHHH

SUDDEN TENSEI MENTION MY HEART WASN’T READYYYY

(ETA: his face is so cute here too oh my god. fucking adorable.)

so now he’s putting on his helmet, and he says he’s also representing Ingenium’s good name

is this in reference to what Tokoyami said earlier about him and Todo representing the #1 and #2 heroes? did your feelings get hurt bud lol

and he’s reminding everyone that he placed third in the sports festival, “so allow me to show you all!”

damn, somebody sure is fired up

you better watch it son, this enthused 40-year-old nerd is stealing your boyfriend before our very eyes

now we’re cutting to class B!

and Tetsutetsu is also all fired up!

no one thinks you’re dumb, Tetsu! just passionate!

lol but he is acknowledging that this is one of the less strategically balanced class B teams

but he has a plan to address that!

kick some ass!!

yessssssss

and stfu Sen. he has exactly one specialty so of course he’s gonna lean into it. nothing wrong with that

now I’m honestly starting to wonder how he would fare against Todoroki. he might be the only one who could actually stand up to the Prominence Burn attack if it turns out Shouto does have it

...or he might melt. but surely Shouto wouldn’t actually fire a potentially lethal blow during a training exercise... right?

(ETA: ...)

so now Vlad is grumbling about how THEY JUST SAID not to destroy the whole fucking stage, and here Tetsu is, destroying the stage

nice hero name! but it definitely is a misspelling! I’m sure it’ll be corrected at some point later on though

lol this group is something else

this is definitely my favorite class B team to date lol. and Honenuki’s personality is in such stark contrast to his somewhat terrifying appearance, who knew

also props to my boy Sen for having the appropriate reaction to being pitted against Todoroki freaking Shouto. though you could have had it worse, bud! it could have been Bakugou or Deku. at least you guys are somehow going to win which I still can’t get over

lol because it’s literally their only choice given the makeup of their team

well, bring it on!

[nycfae]

pix power masterlist ! 

( this was totally inspired by @towercursed btw—not so subtle shout out but you should go follow right this instant )

so, to start off, let’s establish really quick that pix can do basically all the same things in her small form as she can in her hero form, just to a lesser extent. while i still have no idea what exactly powers her transformation other than some form of magic, i’m going to assume until proven otherwise ( and probably even after that ) that whatever magic allows her to transform into her hero form also gives her a major magic boost, but only to stuff she already had. 

so ! powers ! 

1. flight. this one’s pretty self-explanatory. she’s got the wings for it, after all, and while realistically they wouldn’t be enough to get her off the ground, fae magic allows for that sort of thing. she’s obviously faster in her hero form, but nothing to sneeze at in her smaller form either. she has no idea how fast she can register on a speedometer, but hopes to one day figure it out.

2. plant manipulation / arborkinesis / botanokinesis. this one is also pretty much exactly what is says on the tin, but it’s based on magic instead of any sort of mutation or anything. pix has incredible power over plant life—she can accelerate the growth of basically everything, even in harsh conditions. her main methods of attack are using vines to trip up and / or grab her foes, but she’s been known to use more creative methods as well. she’s not super amazing at using the healing properties of plants ( mostly because of different biologies; what works for fae may not work for humans ), but she’s got some basics down after trial and error periods, and is always willing to learn more about how she can use this magic more effectively. 

3. glamour. pix is actually really good at glamour even without the magical power boost; it’s just something she’s got a natural talent for, even if that doesn’t really translate to any sort of fae job or anything. she also practices a lot, which helps. but basically, pix has two kinds of glamour; conscious, and unconscious. 

conscious is when she deliberately uses magic to change her appearance, or the sound of her voice ( so it doesn’t sound like bells or so it sounds like another language to someone else ), etc. this is how she maintains a human form, though it was the magic boost that allowed her to finally perfect it, since her hero form and human form are really similar ( obviously ). 

unconscious is the kind of glamour that’s more like an aura, and it’s not specific to pixi; all fae have this. this is the kind of glamour that messes with people’s recognition, or what makes cameras and other recording devices short out / get fuzzy pictures. sometimes it’s more intense than others ( it also depends on what she’s doing at the time ) but this is the main reason the people in NYC don’t really have any specifics on what’s going on—any collateral due to pix and the monster of the week fighting is chalked up to natural disaster, like the witches of madoka magica. 

this isn’t really a power, it more comes with the territory of being a faerie, but pix is also pretty long-lived. like, she could easily get to hundreds of years old without any trouble. i haven’t decided just how long she’s going to live ( nor really how that translates right now with her chronological / biological age ), but just know that she’s gonna live a Long ass time unless something gets her first. 

and those are the three main ones that she’s using on a constant basis / are obvious without anything from the show having come out. obviously, there may be things added as we get more information ( if that ever happens......... ) because i have no idea where they’re thinking of going from a power standpoint for her other than the obvious, but depending on what happens, this list may be in flux. but for right now, these are the big three !

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Is it weird that when I come to a really hard part in my life and I keep thinking about asking you? I think once a year i've been in your ask box trying to get advice. My partner is severely depressed to the point where he seriously talks about killing himself nearly every other day. Its been almost a year and its just getting harder and harder to handle emotionally. He's terrified of being put in a psych ward from pas experience. I don't know what to do. I love him and he needs me but it hurts.

Hi, Anon! I don’t think it’s weird at all, not to worry~! It’s perfectly fine to ask me for help, and to talk to me whenever you want to! I just can’t give, like professional answers (since I’m not a professional) and I just offer advice/help casually when I’m able to, which can often be reeeeeeally delayed, especially when I’m off my meds and such – executive dysfunction is a huge problem for me, so during emergency events, definitely contact a distress centre before talking to me, as I won’t be able to get to time-sensitive asks promptly, and I certainly don’t want you to be stuck waiting for me! :’O

That being said, I am always open to sharing my perspective, any resources I can find, and basically any help I can potentially offer, so it’s always okay to message me – sending multiple asks is totally fine too – if you want to hear my take on things!

Wrt what you’ve shared with me here, I want you to know that it’s okay to be open about the pain that you’re going through as well, and to reach out to people for help! I know there’s a lot of pressure on folks to, like, forego their own health and safety when a loved one is struggling, but that’s never something that you have to do – in fact, if you take care of yourself, seek help when you need it, and ask for the same support that you’ve been giving your loved one, you’ll end up being more effective in changing their life (as well as your own) for the better.  Too often, we feel like it’s our sole responsibility to find a solution to our loved ones’ incredibly serious emotional distress… but few of us are professionals in these areas, and even if we were, it’s terrifying and difficult to know what to do when someone very close to you is the one suffering.

It’s very hard, and very painful to see someone we love going through so much… and you’re not doing anything wrong by seeking to regulate the pain that you’re experiencing too, as a result! So I’m going to share some resources that are specifically for you, so you can find support for what you’re feeling and for coping and making decisions based on how this situation has affected you! Depending on what happens, you may end up having to make a truly hard choice.  It’s not healthy to stay with someone who doesn’t want to make changes to their life, while simultaneously causing you harm.  But I also know that it’s awful to feel like, if you need to take time for yourself, away from the person and the situation, that you could be responsible for anything bad happening.

You’re not responsible for someone else’s personal health – it’s important to support loved ones, and to do what you can for them, but sometimes there’s just.  A limit to how much we can actually do, you know? The other person needs to meet you halfway, and aim to care for themselves as well, even if they really, really don’t feel like it.  

When I started DBT, I was doing it for my mother, my brother, my brother’s partner at the time, and my big sister.  Basically, I was doing it for all the people around me, neglecting myself entirely, and because of that, it wasn’t working long-term.  It did, however, get me to take that first step and seek help when I didn’t feel I deserved it (and therefore wouldn’t have done it otherwise at that point in my life, in my own self-hatred), because I didn’t want to hurt others, but the therapy itself only started solidifying in my mind and truly working once I made the conscious desire to find reasons to live for myself – once I decided (and it oftentimes has to be a constant choice), to hold onto the life I have.  To build that life into something I could care about, instead of writing it – and myself – off entirely.

I know this is probably, like, the last thing you’d want to do, especially since your boyfriend has had awful experiences with psych wards, and ppl can often end up in a psych ward when this is done – but you may have to call for help for your boyfriend (if an emergency situation occurs, and you’re afraid he may take his life).  

All lives are worth saving, and your boyfriend deserves a chance at life, which is something he would no longer have if he committed suicide.  That’s just my perspective, though.  I’ve been in a place where I did have to call the police on someone that I knew would hate me for it, and I’ve been in a place where the cops have been called on me and I hated the caller for it.  You don’t necessarily have to call the police, specifically, btw; calling an ambulance is often just as effective, and possibly even better, because they’ll have life-sustaining equipment and a proper vehicle on them if your loved one has already done something that compromises their physical safety…

Remember though, I’m not a professional – it’s good to call ppl who are trained to know what to do in this situation (like a crisis centre) to ask them what steps you should take if an emergency like this occurs! I’ll link them below, along with the other resources for you, Anon! I’m worried for you, and I want you to be safe, and healthy, and regain some peace in life~

For you:

https://www.beyondblue.org.au/the-facts/supporting-someone/looking-after-yourself (this link is out of Australia, so the crisis lines here won’t necessarily be applicable, but the site itself – and this page specifically – goes through some steps as to how to look after yourself when you’re supporting someone else with depression).

https://www.theguardian.com/society/2017/jul/10/how-to-support-a-depressed-partner-while-maintaining-your-own-mental-health (this article is about spouses, and has a mixture of suggestions for maintaining your own health, but there are a couple important ones here – I personally think the paragraph “Don’t stop doing the things you love,” is crucial).

https://www.habitsforwellbeing.com/22-ways-practice-emotional-self-care-letting-go/ (emotional self-care tips~!)

http://www.upworthy.com/101-self-care-suggestions-for-when-it-all-feels-like-too-much (more psychological and emotional self-care suggestions – I feel like these ones are especially down to Earth, which is great!)

https://www.lessonsforlove.com/blog/taking-care-of-yourself/651-taking-care-of-yourself-emotionally (more emotional/psychological self-care tips, with a couple specified ideas that could be helpful~!)

https://teenhealthcare.org/blog/6-ways-to-take-care-of-yourself-on-social-media/ (I don’t know what your age is, or whether taking care of yourself on social media would help with your specific situation, but I thought I’d include this just as, like, something supplementary if your primary communication with support systems ends up having to be online, you know? A whole lot of mine are, and these are things I often have to remind myself of :’)

For both you and your boyfriend:

https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/helping-someone-else/supporting-someone-who-feels-suicidal/how-to-help/#.WwRuktMvx-U (this site is out of the UK, so the crisis numbers here might not be relevant to where you live, but the site itself has some suggestions as to what you can do for someone who is suicidal).

https://www.helpguide.org/articles/suicide-prevention/suicide-prevention.htm

https://www.huffingtonpost.com/ruby-fremon/depression-spouse_b_7557410.html (this is in reference to a spouse, but in reading it, I suspect it would be applicable to any close relationship!)

https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/supporting-family-and-friends-with-a-mental-health-condition-(carers)/need-advice-to-cope-with-depressed-partner (more tips on maintaining a healthy relationship with someone who is depressed/suicidal).

http://codedredalert.tumblr.com/post/109005732295/helpline-masterlist (helpline masterpost for a wide variety of struggles!)

http://myresourcemasterlist.tumblr.com/suicide (more resources, including ones for suicide, and coping with your own intense/distressing emotions).

Wrt your boyfriend specifically, again, it’s totally understandable that he’s afraid to be placed in a psych ward, like, I personally get that (I’ve had nasty past experiences with those as well).  There are other ways to seek treatment though, like, through outpatient (but intensive) programs.  I have no idea what the options are where you two live, but I can dig up any resources online that I find that may be relevant, as well as anonymous crisis hotlines/chatlines, and self-help and self-soothing resources! They’re not a permanent measure, and unless a genuine effort is put into them, they should mainly be used by him to help make himself feel better in the moment.  Hopefully they can also give him some tools to start working with as it pertains to regaining the parts of his life (and life itself) that he’s lost interest in.

I’ll be linking a couple DBT skills specifically for the latter there.  While DBT skills are used more for people with BPD, the particular skills I’m linking are applicable to basically everyone – and especially people who are suicidal, depressed, and who want to build a life worth living.  Because I understand why people become suicidal (and up until recently, I was suicidal myself), and sometimes, especially depending on a person’s external circumstances (circumstances that are often completely outside of their control) it can feel like life has gotten so bad that it’s unsalvageable.  What I’ve found is that there is always something – even the tiniest thing – that is worth salvaging.  And from that tiny place, a person can spark an entire life, building on every small good thing until they can see that there really is a life out there, waiting for them.  They built it themselves.

For your boyfriend:

https://www.dbtselfhelp.com/html/emotion_regulation1.html (these are some very straightforward worksheets for emotion regulation skills – they do essentially what they sound like they would, and they’re long-term skills that can become 2nd nature through practice~! It just makes handling all the painful emotions in life that we don’t always know how to pull ourselves out of).

http://www.anythingtostopthepain.com/dbt-skill-of-the-day-improve-the-moment-from-the-distress-tolerance-module/ (this is for distress tolerance – it’s the ‘IMPROVE’ skills specifically.  Not every part of the acronym will be applicable, but a few might help when it’s just an especially terrible day/night…)

https://www.mindfulnessmuse.com/dialectical-behavior-therapy/improve-the-moment-with-emotion-regulation-strategies (this explains the ‘IMPROVE’ skills in more detail).

https://www.7cups.com/forum/BorderlinePersonalityDisorderSupportCommunity_81/DBTSkilloftheWeek_1304/DBTSkilloftheWeekIMPROVEthemoment_76695/ (the ‘IMPROVE’ skills again, with specific suggestions as to practicing the skill! 7cups also offers free online chat-based help, so it can be a great place to vent, and potentially gather external resources!) 

https://www.dbtselfhelp.com/html/using_self_soothe.html (crisis survival skills! These are especially important for incredibly bad moments – for when a crisis occurs and a person needs to be able to step back from particularly rough events/triggers that can really make it difficult to refrain from harming oneself in any way!!! I included this link because it looks like it has a few videos, which may be nicer than all this reading!)

http://creativityintherapy.com/2016/05/create-a-sensory-self-soothing-kit/ (how to create a self-soothing kit – this link could be helpful for you as well, Anon~!)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CBopCkdBwsk (I really, really think this video could be helpful.  The speaker explains why these skills are used, and how to create plans/backup plans based on these skills.  It’s about building the life you want, but also acknowledging how much pain you’ve been through, and how to healthily ‘Distract’ oneself during a crisis!!!)

So, I know that was a LOT to read~!!!! I hope that some of these resources and perspectives can be helpful.  And Anon, I just want to reiterate that I believe you’re a good person, and a good partner! You clearly care about your boyfriend deeply.  Needing to have time for yourself, and taking care of yourself are not things that make a person selfish – they strengthen you, and you deserve happiness and peace in life~

[margridarnauds]

Ronan/Laz and Wash/Mira

Thank you!

Ronan/Laz

To fully understand my relationship with this ship, we have to go into one of the darkest periods of my life, a period of time that, to this day, I struggle to talk about: The first time I was into 1789, circa 2015-ish. I was young, I was impetuous, I was heavily closeted (to myself; my mom had already given me my “YOU KNOW I WILL LOVE AND SUPPORT YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS” conversation) and…I shipped…Ronan/Olympe. 

100%. 

Like, “Google Translated French Fanfiction on FF.net to get more content” shipped it. (Now, I suspect it’s because I was a bisexual mess, but I digress). 

As I said, a dark, cursed time where I shipped the *100% canon* brother-in- law/sister-in-law. 

I barely remember it. I scarcely acknowledge it happened. It physically pains me to mention it.

I had the Takarazuka version, but I didn’t have subtitles to it and, as a result, I didn’t really…watch it…all the way through, instead skipping around as it suited me. I knew about Laz’s sex dungeon, but it really didn’t…register, I suppose? How very, very gay it was and the chemistry that was there. I did NOT like Lazare, I didn’t see why he occupied a considerable piece of fandom time (Not enough) when he has such a small role and he’s portrayed fairly consistently as an asshole throughout the musical (Yes, he’s an asshole, but he’s my asshole now). R/L has NOTHING on FF.net to this day and, I don’t think at the time, there was anything on AO3? And if there was, I don’t remember seeing it and, if I did, I’m pretty sure my initial reaction would still have been, “Who cares about Lazare? He’s so mean! EW!” (Oh, my sweet, naive, teenaged self. How the tables will turn. How the tables will turn.) 

Now, it’s hard to sustain an interest in a show with negative chemistry between the leads and the growing realization that French!Ronan is an asshole, and eventually my interest in 1789 dimmed considerably. Not entirely faded, but dimmed. 

Then came The Stream. 

So, last year, around June-ish, the Moraholics set up a series of European Musical streams that lasted around half a year and was an absolute masterpiece of cooperation, and among them, we had the Takarazuka 1789, as subbed and hosted by the utterly phenomenal @berncat, who I’m eternally grateful to but who is also still not off the hook for getting me back into this Hell. And, suffice it to say (1) Having the Japanese actually translated and, for example, hearing Lazare promise to “give [Ronan] release” while looking at him with bedroom eyes, (2) Watching Magee with that whip, answering many questions about my sexuality that I didn’t know I had, and (3) Watching it with a group of people who were likewise cheering it on was a completely different experience with the musical than I’d had before and I jumped onto the ship HARD. (Btw, whoever said, “Someone should write a smutfic with Peyrol/Ronan” fuck you because it’s been nearly a year and the Abomination is, well, the Abomination and my 2k-4k pwp is now a sprawling universe in its own right currently clocking in at around 31k words and most of them aren’t even smutty, damn it). And, the week immediately afterwards, we watched the French and, well…

If I had any doubts about the viability of French!L/R, this kind of showed me that they were unfounded, with the Other Maniaque video (You know the one to which I refer) being the clencher (Was it really necessary to nuzzle your future arch-enemy, Ronan? And Laz, couldn’t you have been at least a little more proactive in making sure you didn’t get peasant germs on your nice fur coat rather than leaning into him?) That’s the weakest ass intimidation tactic I’ve ever seen and the only way I can justify it is Laz being in a constant state of “CUTE PEASANT BOY ABORT ABORT. CONCEAL DON’T FEEL” Right now, the only production I’m not really certain about is the Toho, since it looks like the Lazare there is significantly more…brutal than we’ve gotten before but, tbh, I can probably find some way to ship it there by selectively ignoring the canon as I always do. 

So, yeah, I’ve basically been stuck in 1789 Hell since then, because apparently my brain said, “Special Interest? SPECIAL INTEREST?” It’s a bit unusual to me since I’m really not used to actually creating content for a ship this much (even if very little of it gets published). 

I still ship it as hard if not harder than I did when I first jumped on; I think that they both have the most potential for growth and development from each other and the most potential as far as an overall plot arc (and delicious, delicious angst, hence why, across the board, no matter how much of the French production I bring into a given WIP, I always keep Peyrol being the one responsible for Ronan getting shot, though there’s also significant angst potential in Peyrol not knowing, thinking bitterly that Ronan had gotten what he wanted but still going back to their apartment only to find it empty, keeping hope that he’s alive for the rest of the night even as it becomes increasingly unlikely, thinking that perhaps Ronan’s still mad at him for everything that happened in Nous ne Sommes, only to learn the next day that Ronan’s dead). I can drop them into roughly any situation, both in the French Revolution and outside of it, and, for the most part, I can have fun with it. September Massacres? Check. Zombie Apocalypse? Check. Being dropped into the Cretaceous Period? Check. One of them’s a dragon who abducts the other one? Check. Afterlife Fic? Check. Going to Disney World together? Check. I was going to say “Childhood Friends AU” but we both know that only leads to pain but, otherwise? CHECK. 

It’s very much a multipurpose ship for me; I can do basically whatever I want with it as it suits my mood, and Lazare de Peyrol is an absolutely fantastic torture subject.10/10 would recommend. 

Mira/Wash

I hadn’t even considered this one until you brought it up and I’m very, very grateful you did because ANGST! PAIN! BETRAYAL! ANGST! WASH GETTING CHARACTERIZATION! ANGST! BONDAGE! ANGST! It’s definitely my dominant OTP for Terra Nova, I absolutely love it to bits. I liked both Wash and Mira the first time I watched it; I thought that both of them were more interesting than the main plot we got and, tbh, I wanted Wash content that wasn’t necessarily Wash/Taylor centered because I tried it once and it just felt…off. It’s not “NO BAD WRONG” for me and I have the distinct feeling that it’s what the writers were edging towards (which, given the other relationships in TN, might be why it felt off), but I definitely ended up preferring it as mutual, longstanding respect/loyalty rather than an actual romance.

 So, Mira was definitely a better fit for me, in the sense that there’s a lot of potential there for Wash’s characterization that’s not really touched on in the show, there’s a chance for conflict for both of them, there’s a lot of potential as far as backstory, etc. And, looking at the trajectory of the series after Taylor goes, to use the clinical term, bat-shit insane, I think that there’s a lot of potential for a team up between the two of them and a moment where they basically end up meeting in the center so they can fuck up their respective old sides together, get Sienna, and live happily ever after. (Which is also why the Taylor/Mira team up was such a waste compared to Wash/Mira, because WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU SET UP THAT OPPORTUNITY FOR A PARALLEL SCENE IN A FEW SEASONS AND NOT USE IT.) 

The only reason I’m not as active with it as I am with, say, Laz and Ronan is because I feel significantly more uncomfortable writing in sci-fi and fantasy settings than I am with historical fiction/modern day fics. Because with that stuff, I have a decent grasp of the world I’m dealing with, how it works, the basic technology I’m dealing with, how to navigate it, etc. whereas with a sci-fi/fantasy element, it’s harder to nail it down, especially with something like TN where we got so little time in the world and most of it was wasted doing other things. (GIVE ME A SERIES BIBLE, SPIELBERG YOU COWARD; NOT JUST THE ARCS AND MYTHOLOGY WITH CREEPY!!TAYLOR.) I can’t really do research on it the same way I can for, say, The Women’s March to Versailles, and I don’t personally feel like I have as good of a grasp on that universe as a whole. I’m fine taking the characters in places that would make the original writers faint, but I want to have a decent grounding for it when I do it.