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character teaching their love interest to fight >>>>> flirting

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Y'know when other people... when faced with divinity are respectfully asking important life altering questions.

Then there's me who'd probably be like: " Do tardigrades have souls?"

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I have a feeling this will become iconic in due time.  

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I got into meditation because its basically socially approved daydreaming time

Also really helps chill your nuggets apparently

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more wip of big boy(tm)

(now contains more chicken nuggets for your money)

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hi. so, uh, i dunno how to say this, but... we used to be friends way back in the cry days. and... i just wanted to say that.. im so glad to see you still around. and im so glad to hear that you're doing so great. these days im a lot more shy than i once was so im sorry we cant have a proper heart to heart. but i just wanted you to know that i still think of you even now, all these years later. and you were a really good friend to me. its so great to see you again, kari. thanks for everything.

Aw, hello there!

Thank you for your message! It’s still baffling to me that even at my worst times I managed to have at least a bit of a lasting positive impact on the people around me. Thank you.

I understand how hard it must be to take the first step in reaching out to people, and I’m really happy you did it :) I’m still struggling a lot with my social anxiety, even via the internet so I completely understand that messaging me must’ve been really scary.

I understand that you might now want to reach out in a more direct matter, but I want you to know that if you should ever feel like you would want a more direct way to talk, that I’m here, okay? Please take care of yourself <3

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I hate when people won’t let me say I “grew up ugly” in peace. “You were never ugly” YES I WAS. Leave me alone boys used to ask me out as a joke, girls used to call me cow or big bitch and make fun of my clothes. I might not have been “ugly” but I grew up being taught to think I was.

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Girls don’t want boys, girls want their friends to watch musical bootlegs with them.

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Holy shit, you're doing well and still doing art! Feelsgoodman (Don't know if you remember my name, chaos brought me back to Tumblr after years, but it feels good to see you doing alright.

MEXIE!!!! WHY WOULD I FORGET YOU❤❤❤❤❤❤

Yupp, I'm still trucking! :D And suprised by how well I'm holding up tbh

I hope you've been well and are managing through this....whole thing. The only upside so far is that A LOT of ppl from back then are reaching out to each other and stuff.

We currently got a (albeit still smöll) discord for us artists from back then going, if you're interested I could slide you an invite?

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I’m so glad your doing well on your mental health journey! I had to check back on you after this whole Cry thing. At least there were always good people like you in the fandom no matter how rotten Cry was/is 😂

That fucker had an entire army of young, super creative, caring, genuine, funny, and bright people following him, yeah. It’s kinda sad that he was too busy being an egocentric two-faced pervert asshole to realize the potential and worth in that.

Honestly? The only good thing that’s coming out of this is that I’m getting to talk to wonderful people I’d never thought I’d ever talk to again. 

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piggybacking off of some other asks, I have also followed you for a long long time and I'm glad that I have! i love following you and your art and I will always be wishing you the best cause you deserve it

Thank you so much for sticking around!

Sorry I couldn't properly show how much I appretiate everyone and their support all these years, because I appreciate it a lot!

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I cannot remember when or why I followed you, probably in connection to some hitherto cancelled fandom. But the growth you have displayed since the early-to-mid 2010s has been inspiring. I know next to nothing about you, but I am proud of and happy for you.

Thank you! Y'all making me real flustered. But man, I was an Idiot. I was...so scared and desperate all the time.

But I was also a product of bullying and social idolation that exacerbated already underlying mental illnesses...without any real support system. All my actions were based on my felt brokenness, lack and desperation to have my existence validated, since I never got that from the people that were SUPOSED TO DO THAT when I was growing up. I was severely behind a lot of things compared to my peers and I don't think I will ever be able to catch up to them, but that's just something I gotta life with. It's fine.

One day not even very long ago, the realization that I had always been complete, that I had always been whole no matter how broken I felt struck me like lightning and brought parts of me back to life I had forgotten about completely. I don't even know how it happened. It's almost so surreal.

I'm still not perfect, I still have a lot to learn...But I'm alive and that means I can try to do and be better with every new day 😎

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I'm glad you're still kicking around Kari, it's always been a pleasure seeing your stuff on my dash

I’m like that colony of moths that pops up in your pantry every few months even though you were SURE you had killed every last one of them and deep cleaned everything.

Except I’m fucking hilarious.

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i've also been following since 2015 i think, when i started using tumblr! i always admired your art and was always happy to see you on my dash! i am happy to hear you are doing better than before!

Aw, thank you ;w;

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Hey! I've been following you since your cry fandom days and I just wanted to say that I'm really happy things are getting better for you. I've always thought you were a really kind and great person. Hearing your mental health improvement has been one of the brighter updates I've been reading from members of the older fandom days.

Hi! Thanks for sticking around and also for your kind words :)

Honestly, I’ve used this opportunity to start combing through my older posts, that I all pretty much pretended didn’t exist because I couldn’t bear looking at them without being pulled to a very dark place. Looking at them now makes me wonder how people even put up with me back then. Oof. Being hard on myself for this time doesn’t help anyone though! The thing about mental illness is that you don’t see what it does to you until much later.

I hope everyone that is currently having a hard time will soon be able to FINALLY get the closure and justice they deserve.

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how've you been holding up lately?

2020 is an absolute trash fire and I wouldn’t say my life is perfect... 

I still got to fight my own stuff (social anxiety, etc . ) But the first time in over a decade I’m in an emotional/mental state where I no longer want to die, and I no longer feel worthless. Even with all the other things happening right now and some bitter memories being brought up, I’m surprisingly fine. Constantly surpressing the urge to spartan kick someone into a deep hole, but fine.

I never thought I’d ever get to experience that. I finally have the clarity and capacity to not only live in my own head and maybe start becoming the kind of person and friend the people around me deserve :)

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okay have this  wip

angels make my brain produce serotonin