#also there are lesbians making songs abt wanting to fuck other women

[clowncloud]

i mean i kinda get the point but girl in red does make songs abt wanting to fuck girls like that's actually a ? significant thing that happens???

[buffysummers]

tw: mentions of rape

speaking of rape in btvs... tbh it's always bothered me that willow's rape of tara is almost never addressed. i definitely understand why it's so uncomfortable when spike's attempted rape of buffy is dismissed, but why is what willow did to tara almost never talked about??? she erased her memory of a fight and then slept with her (and had explicit sex with her during under your spell, tara was basically magically roofied) and like... idk no one in the show even talks about what a violation that was outside of tara talking abt willow fucking with her mind after what glory did to her, and in the fandom it's even more rare for it to be called what it was. why is that? is it just bc it wasn't violent, or bc it's two women and ppl are reluctant to call it out, or do ppl not realize that's actually what happened?

I think it's actually a mixture of all of those things. I have spoken about this before, I believe. I think it's one of those things that appears to be super romantic (and the song IS so romantic, like the entire scene is beautiful and magical) that people don't realize that Tara never consented to having sex with Willow. If Willow hadn't messed with her mind, Tara would STILL be fighting with her and would in no way have sex with her. I honestly think given the time it was written, conversations about consent weren't really discussed or even as aware or present in people's minds like how it is now. It was more cut and dry. Like, people had the mentality that if you're married to someone or even dating them, it can't be rape. I think what was considered 'consent' when Buffy was airing is way different than how people perceive consent now. I think it's just one of those things that can make Buffy feel dated in certain ways. But at the time, it was totally normal and most wouldn't even register that it's violating.

There are several other moments in the show that could easily be considered rape by today's standards, but wasn't then. I don't even think the writers CONSIDERED what Willow did to Tara as rape. In the song, Tara is quite literally saying that she's under Willow's spell, but it has two meanings. The meaning that the show is highlighting is the romantic meaning. Everything about that scene is telling the audience this is a song about love and desire, and on the surface, it is. It could also be intentional. The episode is about being powerless to resist revealing hidden truths through music, is this Tara telling Willow that on some level, she knows she did something to her? Is she breaking through the spell? Or is it simply meant to be poking fun because Tara IS actually under Willow's spell but doesn't know it? It also ties back to the metaphor used throughout season four when Willow and Tara first got together. Willow and Tara doing 'spells' was just a euphemism for the writers being like, 'yeah, they're having sex.' (ie: "I've been uh thinking about that last spell we did... all day." and literally the entire scene in 4.16). The network did NOT want there to be anything too direct or too physical between Willow and Tara. They were very conservative in that regard, (hence why they don't even kiss onscreen until 5.16 despite the fact that they were dating for like well over a year at that point).

What makes Buffy so great is that it does have so many layers and it does facilitate conversations like this, whether the writers meant to or not. It's also a delicate topic because Willow and Tara mean SO much to so many people. Like this relationship was groundbreaking even if it has some major flaws. I think people love to focus on the good because there really wasn't lesbian representation like this at the time. Like, sure, there were lesbians, but mostly just side characters whose entire identity is that they're a lesbian without ever actually kissing or dating a girl. Like, Willow and Tara had a fleshed out and developed romance that was at the forefront of the show for seasons. So, I'm thinking fans like to forget about the bad because of what the relationship meant to them when it was airing.

I do think it's valid and important to discuss this and I do not shy away from it. I guess I just understand why some people may not want to think about it or even discuss it.

[mrs-nate-humphrey]

This is totally cool, lol! That's why I tagged you, I like different perspectives 🥰 and I adore lesbian Jenny

I've been thinking a lot about Jenny's character and sexuality lately since I'm in the middle of rewatching the show. I totally agree that she's attracted to women and most times she pursues guys it's mainly to increase social status and not because of genuine interest. Nate always felt different to me, though. Like, the two times she really pursues him is in season 2, when she's being homeschooled and trying to make it as a designer, and the end of season 3, which is after the whole Damien drama and she's just looking for someone who cares about her and respects her (I know you said once that it doesn't even feel romantic here, which I also agree with, poor girl just needs a connection). I do really see how it can be interrupted as comphet, though. Like she feels like she's supposed to be attracted to Nate because who wouldn't be?

I think the reason why I lean the other way is probably just projection. Jenny's been my favourite GG character since I first watched the show when I was 12, partly because I relate a lot to her, and since I'm bisexual... Add that plus the fact that I totally have had a crush on Nate and of course I'm gonna ship them. I've been relating to Jenny even more this time around cause I dropped out of school this year, so her season 2 arc really hit close to me. So this made my jenate feelings come back tenfold and also made me that much madder at Rufus, lol. I just wanted to go through the screen and shake his shoulders like "There are other paths than the one you want your daughter to have, not everyone has to go through life like society expects you to let your daughter carve out her own unconventional path you fucking idiot!" Luckily my parents have been way more supportive.

Mainly I just see Jenny as bi with a strong lean towards women, but I like to think about lesbian Jenny, too. It wouldn't exactly be the first time I had contradicting headcanons.

I don't know I just think it's really cool that different people can have such different interpretations of the same character. I think that's what's so interesting about fiction, to see how we view things differently depending on how we view and relate to things based on our own experiences. Tumblr can be so focused on hating people who disagree with you, but I like following people with different opinions, it helps me understand people better.

Yeah, I'm glad you tagged me!! back in November, some anons were mean to me about shipping Jenate (me??? who literally does not even - anyway) and ever since then I've been trying extra to ensure that Jenate shippers feel welcome on my blog - you may already know this, because I've brought it up before, but I'm saying it here to let you know that every time you tag me in your Jenate edits I get so happy that you're sharing something you're so passionate about with me!! I'm also a big believer of like........ making the content you want to see (a big part of why I even learnt to gif is because nobody was giffing Dan & Nate, and I was like...... that's the content I need, so if it's not already existing, I'm gonna make it happen!) so regardless of my feelings it's always so cool to see the way you conceptualise JN + their feelings re: each other, and your choice of scenes + lyrics (??? I'm not actually familiar with where you got the words for your edits, they're likely songs I haven't heard, haha) is just so interesting & good!

OH my full Jenny & Nate feelings are a lot more complicated than just comphet on Jenny's part. I feel like..... neither of them was romantically/sexually into each other? and that is kind of the appeal to me? I've always interpreted Nate's interest in Jenny during the s2 arc as sort of like - everything in his life is so unstable and undetermined, and here is Jenny who is so clear on who she is and what she wants, and he admires and respects that, and he wants to be there for her and support her, so when she kisses him he just sort of lets her take their dynamic wherever she wants to? that is very much the vibe I got. You already know how I feel about lesbian Jenny, I mean, you quoted my meta right back at me :'))

but I DO agree with you that Nate is different from the other guys to Jenny. JN have this really specific kind of honesty to them - well, when Jenny wasn't spiralling and trying to get power and acting out, and when the writers actually cared? I still think that NJ had the potential to be a SOLID dynamic but the writers made it sorta unhealthy on the show :(( - but I've spoken abt moments like in seventeen candles and the empire strikes jack before, where they're both able to be emotionally vulnerable around each other in ways we don't see them be with anyone else. I've even compared that to what I like about Derena, whom everyone knows I ship in every possible way, haha. But there's something about characters who trust each other and allow themselves to be honest with each other in ways that they wouldn't otherwise EVER be - especially with characters like Jenny & Nate who have spent so long trying to seem fine and okay even when they're really not.

I honestly really like the idea of queerplatonic Jenate - they're life partners, they're each other's rock, they're each other's person - but it's not romantic OR sexual - and for Nate & Jenny, whose adolescence has involved navigating other people sexualising them so much + not having the best track record with romantic relationships - for them, I feel being qpps gets REALLY interesting, because you get all the perks of a relationship without the romantic/sexual obligations? (obligations isn't the best word, but i don't know what else to use here? LOL) and that's something i love to explore.

I feel like book Jenny was bi! The way she gushed about Nate, whom she canonically had a crush on, and the way she gushed about Serena were EXACTLY the same. Also YES I love multiple headcanons always, it's a lot of fun seeing people explore that!!! I know people who have aroace readings of Jenny, or aro lesbian / ace lesbian readings of her, and I find that really cool, too!

I also definitely get you about relating to Jenny a lot, and feeling that kind of connection. It's similar to how I feel about Dan, and .... explains a lot of my contradicting dair views, actually. A few years ago I had a seriously intense crush on a girl who was... a lot like Blair, in many ways. I spent a ridiculous amount of time writing poetry about her, etc etc, but I never actually acted on it. If she'd fabricated schemes that involved us kissing, though..... I don't know. I don't think I would've denied it if I'd felt like I actually had a chance. I think we just had a case of bad timing, & I like to think in another universe, maybe we were actually together for a bit. I'm glad that your parents are supportive of you and better than Rufus! <3

I think that's what's so interesting about fiction, to see how we view things differently depending on how we view and relate to things based on our own experiences <- THIS exactly! this is a big part of why that "proship" is in my bio. like this is exactly what it means to me and how I conceptualise & understand it!!! Like you, I also like engaging with people who have different understandings and opinions of the characters -> it definitely helps you make new friends you would otherwise not meet by staying in your bubble, & from a fandom point of view, it also helps you develop a more nuanced understanding of a character. Some of the best written Jenny Humphrey I've read was in Jenate fics - and I've had people who don't even ship Blenny tell me they liked the way I wrote Jenny in my post canon blennyfic, so... idk. it's loving Jenny hours - each and every single iteration of Jenny!!!

[bronanlynch]

weekly (monthly?) media roundup

ok so I do want to actually do these on some sort of schedule but unfortunately, as you already know, brains,

listening: Malice in Wonderland by Fangbanger, which I found from a tumblr post that described them as band for “if you have a complicated relationship with gender, had a falling out with god, hate the government, or just think that vampires are neat" and y’know? yeah. my notes on this song from several weeks ago are that I might not know any of these people’s genders but I do know they’ve listened to MCR

reading: the new Cassandra Clare book, Chain of Iron. it’s boring and homophobic. in the first book of this series, we find out that the heroine’s brother is gay and in a relationship with a man who has no intention of ever coming out publicly because 1) the book is set in 1903 in England, it was literally illegal and 2) he’s trying to have a career in politics. the heroine decides that this means he’s ashamed of her brother and doesn’t deserve him, and she is present and active in their breakup conversation.

above is the relationship chart I made from the first book, it really hasn’t changed much except now the main guy and the main girl are married, the lesbians got back together and then broke up again, the main girl’s gay brother hooked up with one of her husband’s friend, who’s a Good Gay and therefore worthy of love unlike the Bad Gay ex who is constantly mocked by just about every character for. checks notes. caring about appearances and manners given that his life and career are based on those things. the brother and his new love interest break up because the brother still thinks he’s a bad person for ever having dated his ex. also the main girl has now platonically run off to Paris with her husband’s platonic soulmate who is allegedly in love with her but it’s really unconvincing that he’s not actually in love with her husband (he’s not for very stupid lore reasons, the whole ‘parabatai are magically prevented from being romantically in love, except for these two straight people, when historically parabatai pairs were two men’ makes my fucking blood boil)

you might ask why I still read these books even though they make me angry and the answer is the 1) the aesthetic slaps 2) some of the characters are fun 3) the premise has enough potential that it could be good if it was good 4) sometimes I need to get cathartically angry abt bad fiction bc it just. does not matter

watching: so many things that I’m gonna just. run through them real quick

Word of Honor: gestures vaguely at how it’s slowly taking over my blog

Sleuth of the Ming Dynasty: love a found family, eh about the politics, can’t believe I predictably got a new fave character within the last two episodes of the show because one of the main characters is betrayed by his second-in-command and I think treason is the sexiest part of a relationship

SamBucky show: in the original draft of this post I said that it was so boring that week (episode 3) that I completely forgot about it until I saw the draft below this one talking about how bad and boring it is. at least more happened in later episodes and they’re finally giving me some tasty queerbaiting but the premise and the politics are. wow. it sure is military propaganda

My Hero Academia: new season is fun, love a tournament arc. don’t love that they tell us right away that the double agent character is a double agent, it was more fun in the manga when you’re not sure if he’s a traitor or not for a pretty long time

Welcome to Demon School, Iruma-kun: new season is cute, there sure is some gender happening. there’s a tsundere bisexual catgirl

Backflip!!: I usually avoid high school sports anime for backstory reasons but my roommate wanted to watch it with me and oh boy these gymnasts sure are gay for each other huh

Joran: The Princess of Snow and Blood: my roommate pitched this to me as ‘cyberpunk but in the 1930s’ and there sure is dark lighting, lots of glowy neon stuff, and government oppression, which are the most important elements of cyberpunk apparently. not sure how I feel about it yet, because there’s a cool shapeshifting lady assassin with a revenge quest but there’s also a trans character who was revealed to be trans in a way that I personally did not enjoy. yes you can have transphobic villains but like. hmm. maybe the audience shouldn’t find out that someone is trans because the villain cuts his shirt away specifically to ~put him in his place. or maybe I personally am just sensitive to that but either way no thank you

on the other hand, the main character is sick as shit

The World Ends with You: god I love an anime about the power of friendship. I’ve only had these kids for two episodes and I would lay down my life for them

Nirvana in Fire: we’re only three episodes in and I did spend the first half of the first ep being like. oh god which of these people are actually important who am I supposed to care about here. and then by the end of the first ep I knew which ones I cared about and am now very afraid for their safety. do love the political intrigue though

playing: got through the first mission of Brigmore Witches. I love a good undercover mission, I wish I hadn’t been too afraid of like. alarms going off if I freed the other prisoners because I think Comrade Daud should do a jailbreak, and Lizzy Stride can call me anytime

also recently have played various ttrpgs including Firebrands, more Things, Eldritch and Terrifying, Link, and of course more Beam Saber (oh shit I meant to do my recap post for last session OOPS)

making: Zan and I made some real good chicken parm the other night, vaguely based on this recipe. by which I mean, we looked at the recipe to see how many eggs to use and how long to cook it and pretty much nothing else. the egg marinade step seemed unnecessary and I made the sauce the way I always make tomato sauce, which some day I should write down because it does in fact fuck. the secret is a shit-ton of oregano and basil and no chunks of tomato because fuck that. bad texture

Zan made the zucchini which also slapped, using some of the leftover bread crumbs

writing: I’ve posted a couple of things but most recently I wrote some rarepair femslash. this is the first fic for this ship on ao3 and the second ship in the f/f tag for this fandom that’s actually about the women in the show (as opposed to showing up in the f/f tag because it’s marked as “multi” or like. genderbent versions of the main m/m ship) but like. look at them. they’re terrible evil assassin women and they’re in love. anyway I’ve gotten over being embarrassed about having written a sex scene and moved on to wanting people to read my fic. there’s sparring as foreplay it’s a good time

[colour-outside-the-liness]

Hi Colour! This is going to be a long one, so buckle up!

Oh wow, that's so precious! You've definitely earned the "real life Dani" nickname haha I wish I could find something meaningful like that to do with my life. I'm actually autistic and have ADHD so hearing you do this kind of work makes me really happy! Keep up the good work Ms. Clayton! 😁 Haha

You sound like a lot of fun to hang out with at pubs! Haha I'm glad you identify with that bit of info on your star placements. I had a lot of fun doing it too!

The thing about Hozier is that some of his lyrics are incredibly sapphic to me for some reason, I'm still trying to figure it out. NFWMB is one of the songs that feels like that to me. Don't know if you've heard it before but give it a try if you haven't. If you close your eyes it sounds like you're in an epic romantic story and there are swords, pretty gowns, and rooms lit by torches. Haha

The beginning of this song was inspired by a poem written by W.B Yeats called "The Second Coming" in 1920, and it talks about an apocalypse of sorts, alluding to all of the horrors men inflicted upon the world which ends up awakening this beast that goes to Jesus's place of birth in the Bible (Bethlehem) to be born. The last lines being:

"And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,

Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?"

So the song starts with:

"When I first saw you

The end was soon

To Bethlehem it slouched

And then, it must've caught a good look at you"

And oh boy do I think of Dani when I hear that. Especially bc of that scene where Viola accepts Dani's invitation to live inside her. And nobody knows why she accepts it (but I do!).

And yeah at first glance you might not think much of Dani. in the beginning she's just a tiny frail small-town girl with a lot of anxiety, running away from her past traumas. But she proves us wrong again and again and again. She moves to a country she's never been before entirely by herself, sees an opportunity, and doesn't let go of it even when it looks like it went wrong. Then is very loving and tender with these children who have gone through so much and are still going through so much. Tries to fight (with a fire poker!!) the threatening man that keeps harassing her, the children, and her friends. THEN manages to soften the angry, grumpy lesbian who's given up on people after A LOT of trauma (too much in my opinion) and doesn't give up on her when she rejects her either. Freaking exorcises her ex and makes him stop haunting her so she can be with the love of her life. And then finally as if all of that didn't make her the bravest hero in this story, she literally stops an apocalypse from happening and saves everyone from this beast by sacrificing herself without even thinking twice. Saves everyone that came before her and then the ones who'll come after for the rest of eternity. I mean the P-O-W-E-R this girl has. 💪 so hell yeah the lady in the lake wanted to take her.

When Hozier says:

"Ain't it a gentle sound, the rollin' in the graves?

Ain't it like thunder under earth, the sound it makes?

Ain't it exciting you, the rumble where you lay?

Ain't you my baby? ain't you my baby?"

I can only think of Dani at the bottom of the lake laying on top of all the bones of the people Viola killed and how she's at peace living forever in a dark place like that. That's kinda hardcore y'know?

After the first verses, Hozier goes on to talk abt his lover, someone so utterly terrifying even the beast of the end of the world can't stand to look at them. But this song is also about being proud to be this person's lover bc nothing can fuck with them, not bc you are there to protect them and wouldn't let anyone harm them, but bc they're more than capable of protecting themselves and you too. So in my head, this song is Jamie's declaration of love to Dani.

And then I think of Jamie's devotion to Dani when she said "If you can't feel anything, then I'll feel everything for the both of us." shown in this verse:

"If I was born as a blackthorn tree

I'd wanna be felled by you

Held by you

Fuel the pyre of your enemies"

And the fact that she took what she could get just to be with Dani. She knew she'd have to suffer for/bc of her at some point, but chose to be with her anyway. I have no doubts in my mind she'd want to be anything for her as long as they could be together in any way, shape, or form. In all the lives they happened to meet one another too.

Wouldn't it be cool to see them in an AU where Dani is like a medieval princess who's supposed to marry Edmund to form an alliance between kingdoms or something and Jamie is an assassin who is hired to kill the princess so she has to pretend to be Dani's personal guard or wtever but they fall in love and run away together and Jamie teaches her how to fight so Dani becomes this warrior but turns out Dani is naturally good at it and then she becomes a legend? Hahaha I can see her riding a horse in the winter with paint on her face and her blonde hair falling over this fur-lined cloak, fierce look on her face, and Jamie riding next to her (always). Then they come across Viola who's a witch and puts a curse on Dani and then Dani and Jamie have to travel to all sorts of places and fight all sorts of people and go on this whole adventure to rid Dani of this curse. Maybe Dani has to go back to her kingdom bc her father dies and there are other people trying to take her kingdom so there's a lot of angst and suffering but then they win at the end after a lot of sweat and tears and they live happily ever after! 😎Hahaha

Anyway, I hope you're having a great week so far and hope you had fun with your niece today! (I know if I was her and you had us make fudge and paint I'd worship you haha) I'm sorry for the very (very) long ask, but I've been obsessing over this idea for months and I just had to share it with someone! ✌️✨

(And you can call me Libby or wtever since I'm not anon anymore 🤗)

Awwh thank you so much for saying I have earned my 'real life Dani' title is means a lot to me that you guys see that in me!! I am sure you do so many meaningful things in life without even realising it!! I honestly just want to make a difference and I love helping people so going into a career like this just seemed so natural to me and I really do love what I do!! Thank you so much I really hope I can keep up the good work!! I hope I'm a lot of fun- I know I have helped win a few pub quizzes and there's been a few times I've won games of trivial pursuit as well so that really did make so much sense to me and learning about all the placements of my chart was so much fun and was so interesting so thank you very much!! I have heard some of Hozier's lyrics are quite sapphic and I always mean to look into more of his songs and then just never do but I will definitely look in to NFWMB because the lyrics you have sent me here are incredible and definitely give of Dani x Jamie vibes I definitely agree with you in everything you have said about why Viola accepted Dani's invitation- Dani and Viola are similar in some ways and this was something I was explaining to my niece when she watched it with me. I explained to her that both Viola and Dani are strong willed, and stubborn, and would do anything to fiercely protect the people they care about. We saw that time and time again with Dani, how within days of knowing Miles and Flora she was out with a fire poker trying to protect them from a strange man that she kept seeing around the manor. And how Viola would've done anything to protect her daughter. One major difference between them though is that Viola seemed to have a slight selfish streak where as Dani is entirely selfless, she was selfless for the longest time in even agreeing to marry Eddie so she wouldn't hurt him, she was selfless in protecting Miles and Flora, and even more selfless in saving Flora's life and freeing all the trapped spirits of Bly Manor and then she is selfless in the fact that she won't drag anyone down and won't hurt anyone else at Bly ever again. The one thing she did for herself was being with Jamie- and she was able to make Jamie open up and trust people in way she probably hadn't for the longest time. Dani is a truly strong person as was Viola and I can see why she would accept Dani's invitation. I will have to listen to this song to see it from a Jamie perspective which I will definitely do tomorrow but from the lyrics you have sent me I can definitely see it being a love declaration to Dani from Jamie. Jamie knew in the end she would suffer because she knew she wouldn't be able to keep Dani forever, and knew that one day she would have to leave her- but she knew loving Dani for as long as she was allowed to would be worth that pain in the end and Jamie is a truly strong person as well for knowing this and staying by Dani's side anyway when that must have been such a hard thing for Jamie to ever have to accept. Jamie would've been anything for Dani and would've one anything for her as Dani would've for Jamie and that's why I love them so much. They loved each other so purely and without conditions and so wholeheartedly and it really was such a lovely thing to watch play out in front of us (even if it did hurt us all at the end). I think it would be so cool to see an AU like that I think medieval stuff is always so fun and so interesting and a good enemies to lovers start never fails either because there's so much tension there between them. And Jamie being undercover as someone to get close to Dani and them slowly falling in love with each other would just be a great thing to see!! And I am all for warrior Dani and Jamie (women with weapons is a little bit of a weakness of mine)!! This whole AU just sounds incredible I love a good curse in fantasy stories and the curse slowly taking over and you thinking they're going to run out of time but everything works out in the end!! Dani going back to her kingdom because of her sick Dad dying would be great for angst because it would look

like she would have to marry someone to create an alliance and that she would have to take over a kingdom (perhaps something she never wanted to do in the first place)!! I think this could be a very angsty one shot and could be so interesting and fun and the happy ending would definitely make all the angst worth it in the end!! I am having a good week so far thank you and I had so much fun with my niece today, making fudge went great and she was happy that I was able to show her how to do it because she'd never made it before so now that's something she knows how to do (I think she thinks I'm way cooler than I actually am haha thank you for saying you'd worship me though if you were my niece haha 😂) but tomorrow she is teaching me how to do something because I taught her how to make fudge today... she's gonna teach me how to draw in an anime style- which is something she is really into and even though I'm not she loves drawing so I've asked if she can teach me since I taught her something today!! There's no need to apologise I loved this long angst and I loved this idea I think it's really great and interesting and that song just seems amazing and I am definitely gonna listen to it tomorrow when I get chance!! Thank you for sharing this idea with me I loved it!! ☺️ Haha oki doki then as long as that's alright with you Libby is what I'll call you!! Like I said you can seriously call me anything!! ☺️

[r0de0s]

mila for ask post

favorite thing about them

GOD ur rly gonna make me pick??????? i love Everything abt her . i definitely like the contrast between her and her brother, crypto. he’s very secretive and keeps to himself meanwhile mila is very bold and loud and she just does not give a fuck . women want her, authority figures fear her

least favorite thing about them

respawn killed her off for cryptos backstory and i had to do all the work myself. AND she isnt even in the game. this shit is so disrespectful

favorite line

the chance-for-a-new-life quote is good . she cares abt her family and wants the best for them ,,,,,,

brOTP

OCTANE AND MILA....... chaotic forces that cant be stopped. lifeline and crypto suffer bc of it

OTP

milaith.......... wraith hears mila make a stupid joke and she’s just “oh i cant not fall in love with her”

nOTP

her and crypto . there are some freaks out there and i want them GONE

random headcanon

her heirloom is a spiked bat !  it’s got pride stickers, like the trans flag and the lesbian flag . it also has a lot of small drawings and signatures from the other legends . also also, she wears a rly cool oni mask as a legend . she’s a little bastard creacher

unpopular opinion

canon mila is cute and all but. i don’t vibe w white mila. sorry

song i associate with them

i disagree by poppy . any authority figure talks to her and she thinks abt that song in her head

favorite picture of them

no pictures other than the picrew........but at least she is cute

[anarcho-decepticonism]

we fixed hsm

here are our 3 page fanfic plans

Troy & gabriella break up after like a month in college. Gabriella is around people smarter than her for the first time in her life & she’s really struggling & he doesn’t understand what she’s going thru & she realizes that he’s not that empathetic & bad at communicating. She’s single for like a year just adjusting to college & making new friends & figuring out who she is after hs & also not putting her entire identity in her intelligence. She tries out for theater & they’re like “you’re not that good at singing” & she’s like “never mind” bc she liked it because it was with her friends in the first place. She finds community elsewhere & eventually is in a more fulfilling & communicative & mature relationship

Troy is having a lot of trouble bc being a student athlete isn’t enough at FUCKING BERKELEY!!! And he’s having trouble at school. He also isn’t getting lead roles in the theater program bc it’s like. A hobby as opposed to his major/career path. He has to learn to like things without being the best at them & also communicate w people better. He’s no longer super special and the focal point of everything. He immediately tries to rebound by getting a new gf & she realizes right away that he just wants her to love him and pay attention to him and solve his problems and is like “fuck that dude go to therapy”. He goes to the school therapist which sucks but he finds a good therapist & like. Improves as a person lol. He has to think more abt the experiences of others and not need to have everyone love him all the time. He gets a dog -- good for him bc he has to be responsible for the life of something else but also dogs are very affectionate

Sharpay goes to UA & at first loves it bc she’s the star but then is super underwhelmed & depressed. She talks to Ryan and he’s like “you know you can just transfer” and she’s like “wow i’m so smart i’ll just transfer”. After like a semester she transfers to a different school with a good theater program (not Juliard tho). She has a good mentor figure who’s a prof who’s like “your ambition and drive are good things actually especially bc ur a woman and will be told that ur awful & bossy for standing up for yourself.” she makes her first real friend other than her brother (i am So sad) in a theater class-- not someone who worships her but like an actual human connection. Specifically a girl who she respects & doesn’t feel she has to compete with. She has a learning moment when her friend gets the lead role and Sharpay is genuinely proud of her and she realizes she wouldn’t have been suited to that part and that she doesn’t have to be the center of attention all the time. She learns to derive self worth from her love of theater instead of from everyone validating her. Also her friend is goth & tells her that all the pink she wears is bad. They both initially loved the theater bc they wanted to be accepted but learn together that they can just find worth in each other and themselves and their work. Also at one point Sharpay starts dating someone and gets really annoying and her friend is like “you’re being annoying” and they get in a fight and Sharpay is like “i don’t even like him that much but i feel like i have to be in a huge romance relationship (bc of troy and gabriella but also Society)” and this eventually leads to her realizing that she’s a lesbian and also that she has an unhealthy view of relatioships. She goes to therapy (it takes her a really long time to go but once she realizes she gets to talk abt herself she is more willing). Important that she does not date her friend (her emotional support system) but she does eventually get a gf. It takes her a long time to figure out how to be a good girlfriend and that her professional ambitions are different than her personal ambitions (she’s used to treating her relationships like a business instead of a two-sided thing where there needs to be emotional connection and both people being like vulnerable w each other)

Her and Ryan having space from each other where he can shine by himself and she feels like she doesn’t have to upstage him all the time. He feels for a long time that he can’t rely on her bc she’s a mess but eventually he texts her like 16 times in a row abt a person in his program he’s really annoyed at and she’s like “oh my god he’s ruining your show you Have to talk to the director!!!!” and it’s really helpful to just talk it out w her even if he doesn’t take her advice. It’s helpful for him to realize that it is a problem and he’s not overreacting but also that he should not take things to the extremes that Sharpay does lol. He should not poison this person. They eventually fall into a good & more balanced sibling relationship where they can rely on each other for a certain subset of things but they aren’t the only people in each others’ lives

Ryan meets other gay guys at Juliard who tell him that his hats are bad and show him how to dress not like an idiot. They’re like “it’s ok buddy. I know you were the only out guy at your high school but you don’t need to do that”. He’ll like. Do fine in college! He’s like fairly confident in his abilities and identity & good at like. Balancing career & personal life. He’s fine enough at school and doing well in his theater things. He’s charismatic and makes more good friends. He “formally comes out” to his parents in like a big thing. He choreographs it and makes Kelsey write him a song to sing. His parents are like “well we knew that but did you have to make it this much of a thing” and he’s like “yes”. His mom is generally more accepting than his dad and his dad is like “please don’t talk about this to the people at the country club” and he’s like “i… wasn’t? I don’t know these people. They’re your friends”

After college Ryan gets famous before Sharpay does and generally has a good thing going wrt doing choreography for “really important things” (he isn’t public facing)-- he’s good at choreo and also good at working with divas (thanks Sharpay i love u). He gets Sharpay a good role in a thing but he makes a big deal like “I got you an audition i didn’t get u the part u did it all yourself :)” but he totally got her the part lol in that he recommended her. She does a rlly good job tho (obvs) and does well in the spotlight bc she;s actually like. Hardworking and driven and good at musical theater. Her Big Break is in like a movie adaptation of a musical. She’s Glinda when they finally make a Wicked movie. The choreography is really good bc Ryan does it

Taylor tries to become a politician but slowly realizes that her passion for being an activist doesn’t super align with that and figures out that she wants to enact social change without like. Being a part of the system. She has a youtube channel where she talks about social issues and wears her stupid sweater vests & ties. Also she dates someone who likes women. Before she was invested in the public-facing aspect of the relationship and she learns what it means to actually have private moments of caring & how to not follow a stereotypical relationship and instead to do like. What she actually wants to. She’s bi and she dates a woman and enjoys not having societal expectations wrt how relationships are supposed to go. She dates a guy and realizes that a m/f relationship also doesn’t have to conform to societal expectations. Both are super important experiences for her even if neither are “endgame” (i love u matty)

Chad is heartbroken after Troy goes to a different school but tries to hide it/is in denial. He kind of lashes out at people who want to make friends with him and goes into a depression spiral. He eventually snaps out of it when Sharpay (who is still going to UA at this point) is like “what’s your problem?? Anyway i started going to therapy and it helped actually. Toodles!” and he’s like “what the fuck just happened” but he makes an appointment. The first session he’s like “hwatever this is stupid idk why i’m here. Whatever” and the therapist is like “yeah. Okay.” but he eventually opens up and then like. Learns to see himself as not part of a friendship or group/team and see himself as an individual. He gets over Troy, which takes him a while but he does it & we’re proud of him <3 it also takes a while to make friends who he can be emotionally vulnerable around bc he’s never really had that type of relationship before (bc he and troy are very guys being dudes & he like. Wasn’t super close w Taylor as they were p much just a relationship for show). He makes friends w both some guys and girls who aren’t all on the basketball team and has friends from lots of different places. This process takes him like. All of college.

Chad doesn’t date anyone in college and afterwards it’s super awkward bc it’s like the first time he’s actually dating someone. He ran into Ryan and they have a talk where Ryan’s like “you could’ve been my first love but you were never really emotionally available bc u were in love w a straight guy and also not confident in the fact that u are gay. Like that summer was fun but it wasn’t real” and chad is like “oh”. Ryan was like in a serious relationship at that point but didn’t mention it bc he didn’t want to feel like he was rubbing it in lol. And then Chad thinks about things. This is like during a Thanksgiving break while still in college. Chad eventually dates a guy who understands how it’s like. Hard to be gay and figuring out relationships and stuff at different life stages.

Kelsey gets negative feedback for the first time and freaks out but eventually learns that a prof who only gives positive feedback when she deserves it is good actually. She incorporates criticism and starts to write songs that don’t suck. She continues to wear awful outfits. She has a nice girlfriend who also wears awful outfits. They are an awful annoying couple but they’re happy. They do annoying theater kid things

Ms Darbus realizes that it’s bad to force her students to completely write & choreograph their own shows and stops pouring her entire life into high school theater and fixes her problems with her “legal domestic partner” whom she was feuding with

Zeke realizes that he likes Sharpay in the same way he likes celebrities and that isn’t a crush. He makes plenty of friends in college bc everyone loves a guy who brings baked goods to places. He continues doing basketball & baking as hobbies but neither is a career & he finds passion elsewhere. He loves doing whatever he’s currently doing but doesn’t have like a Thing he wants to do forever and it takes him a while to find a forever career. He ends up teaching a variety of classes at community college and is happy doing that but also he might not do that forever. He comes to terms with his “contentment w the transience of life” and is like “if i’m happy doing what i’m doing now then that’s good enough for now”. He serves as a good contrast to all of the super driven people who know exactly where they want to be (gabriella, sharpay, ryan)

We did it. we fixed high school musical

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can u Please talk more abt daphné and/or amélie && someone should write a daphné/amélie season fanfiction KDJSJ your mind is so powerful

okay one possible daphne lesbian season plotline

episode 1: daphné is focused on other things, like preparing for graduation, upholding the foyer, stuff like that, but she meets this girl (amélie) and this girl is openly lesbian and daphné thinks she’s like extremely cool

episode 2: daphné keeps talking to the girls about how cool it is that she met an actual lesbian and how amélie is lucky that she gets to date girls and how fun is it that the foyer is the cool place where gays hang out! and everyone is like okay daphné. anyway on friday there’s a party and amélie is there, daphné is like HI :DDD and they hang out and amélie mistakes daphné’s interest in her as romantic and tries to kiss her and daphne is like haha sorry i like guys not girls but im flattered :) and amélie is like haha sorry :(

episode 3: okay honestly amélie is embarrassed about what happened and she doesn’t want daphné to think she’s predatory so she tries to stay away but daphné is really incessant that amélie helps her work on whatever project she has going on for graduation or into her study group for the bac or whatever also she keeps talking to the girls about like ugh amélie is so cool isn’t she? and alexia is like “daphné if i didn’t know better i would think you had a crush on her…” and daphné is like haha a crush?? on a girl??? me??? no way! i’m straight!!! but daphné internally is like okay so i’ll cool it on my interest in her so the girls don’t think i’m a lesbian :(

episode 4: anyway so daphné a) can’t get amélie out of her head and b) can’t get alexia’s words about how she has a crush out of her head and she’s like haha there’s no way though… because i’m straight. and she starts googling like “girls kissing” “how do you know if you’re a lesbian” “kinsey scale test” and she downloads the her app, gets one notification, then deletes the entire app from her phone kjhgh. also ideally she wouldn’t see amélie this episode she has other things going on so this episode is about her soul searching

episode 5: she sees amélie again for the first time in a week and a half and it’s like oh yeah she’s like extremely pretty and cool and nice. but daphné had sort of been cold shouldering her so amélie obviously thinks she doesn’t like her very much anymore but internally daphné is like hm. she tried to kiss me once so maybe she would do it again. still not a lesbian but just to see. so in the friday clip she tries to kiss her and at first amélie is happy!!! but daphné as we know doesn’t shut up and she’s like haha yeah like i’m still not a lesbian i just wanted to see :-) and amélie’s face falls like she really likes daphné for real! and she’s like i’m sorry but i don’t want to be with you just so you can experiment. like i’m past that stage in my sexuality plus i don’t want something fake with a girl i like. so like goodbye and daphne is sad. also i want to mention that basile is still around and not leaving daphne alone and daphne at some point in this episode is like BASILE. I DON’T LIKE YOU PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE. and basile is like :o

episode 6: another soul searching episode… she talks to imane and alexia and everyone like baring her soul and everyone is like uh, daphné? you like her. like you clearly aren’t straight. and alexia is like daphné do you like men though? like do you see yourself with a man forever or do you just like the idea of being with men? and daphné has to be like holy shit I don’t even like men do i… that whole thing with charles was about social status and i was relieved to find out he didn’t like me back… like holy shit i’m literally a lesbian…. maybe she also talks to lucas about how he knew he didn’t like women. and also mika. like she enlists all the gays she knows kjhgfgh and eliott is like daphné if you like this girl you should let her know! and daphné is like omg i should.

episode 7: okay so on like tuesday maybe she sees amélie at school and she’s like amélie!!!! hi!!!!! :D and amélie is still kind of ashamed and sad bc she really likes daphné but she thinks daphné just views her as like. A Lesbian who she can experiment with, i don’t know. so amélie is maybe cold to her. and daphné is like she hates me!!! what do i do!!!! and imane is like she doesn’t hate you she just feels embarrassed. and eliott is like you should do something embarrassing like so she can know you like her. like go all out. and daphné is like. hm. okay i don’t know what the grand gesture is yet, something lame and romcom-y. maybe she sees her at a party on friday and she grabs the mic and sings a song while staring right at her, i don’t know. anyway amélie is like. :) and they go to another room and they kiss and they’re really happy!

episode 8: like this one starts with daphné and amélie waking up together, like at amélie’s apartment and they’re wearing like t shirts and they have no makeup and it’s just like really tender. but daphné is like btw i’m not ready to go down on a girl and amélie is like i didn’t ask but okay. it’s a sweet scene! at some point they have a long talk where daphne talks to her about her whole journey these past 2 months of coming to terms with her lesbianism and realizing she has a crush and all that. amélie also opens up to her about her journey with her sexuality, her first girlfriend maybe. they’re really happy this episode!!! but in the final clip basile does/says something homophobic and stupid and daphné remembers why she thought she was straight and how she seeks everyone’s approval and popularity and she shuts down a little :(

episodes 9 & 10: the other sideplots that i haven’t come up with get resolved, also daphné is still sort of struggling because she’s not ready to be out yet but amélie is like i can be patient with you but please don’t treat me so hot and cold!! and daphné is like :o but anyway amélie is mad at her for treating her poorly and daphné has to make it up to her. but everything is fine in the end and daphné comes out and basile is terrible about it obviously but everyone is like fuck off basile and they drop him :) anyway daphélie is happy

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Activist anon 1/? You & critical thinking anon are really helping me sort through my complex feelings abt Harry. I got into the fandom based on appreciation of Harry’s & Louis’ seemingly sweet, early relationship, their willingness to be loving & gayish on camera (witness the giftset you just posted) & the genuineness & goofiness of 1D as a group. I grew to love Harry’s seemingly sweet, cheeky, & kind personality, & his willingness to show qualities that are traditionally not encouraged in men -

2/? qualities like emotion, vulnerability, crying, etc. As he developed his shows as queer friendly with rainbow flags, lesbian personal ads, coming out moments, & making america gay again (one of my shows) I became more endeared & appreciative. When he evolved in his acknowledgment of Black Lives Matter, I became hopeful that he was growing in political understanding & willingness to communicate it. However, that has been coupled with vague All Lives Matter, level playing field-type

Anonymous said:3/? statements (whether you are black or white, straight or gay...), cringe-worthy MLK video appearance, and icky lyrics about women on HS1, some of which you have dissected and which also includes for me the Kiwi lyric “she’s all over me it’s like I paid for it, I’m gonna pay for this”, which insinuates there is something wrong with women sex workers and sex that is paid for. And that women can and should only be sexually voracious when they are paid for it. And that women use sex to entrap.

4/? I like to think he is feeling his way & is on a journey that will lead to deepening of his politics, action beyond the performative, & more complex lyrics that show more nuance & respect for women. I feel like 1D’s early songs had a lot of thinly-veiled sexual coercion & I hope he’s thought about that & that his lyrics mature. I am still at a point of love of Harry for his qualities that I appreciate, but I have skepticism about whether his politics will evolve.

5/5 I have a wait-&-see attitude for the future. At some point his words & (in)actions might put me over the edge into your “I can’t support this man” category. That would make me sad...I’m really not sure why I have this attachment to Harry & stake in his evolution. Appreciate hearing from others. Thanks again for offering insightful & critical thoughts abt the 1D guys & their place in the politics of our times. This is too long, do with it what you will of course. :)

Hi activist anon - good to hear from you. I find your thoughts both about his actions and about how to understand his actions really interesting.

One of the things what you said made me think about is openness and vulnerability.  And there are really good reasons that girls and women do respond to that in men and that queer people respond to queer openness and vulnerability. Harry (also for very good reasons) has withdrawn - except on stage - where I don’t know if vulnerability is the right word, but some of that still exists.  But he’s not going to be touring for a while now and working out how to think about him and understand him in the meantime is something that I think will be a bit of a transition.

I’m not as sure as you that Harry is feeling his way or on a journey.  Partly because I don’t know what to make of the ‘Black lives Matter’ flags. Possibly also because I kind of disagree with your interpretation of the Stockholm speech.  I think the ‘black and white, gay and straight, etc and etc’ rhetorical device is reasonably common one and doesn’t for me have the connotations of ‘all lives matter’ (maybe this is because I’m an old - and that meaning is changing in some places).  I think one of the reasons I’m unwilling to see it as a journey is because how tied in some of this stuff is with his brand.  The minute he started greenwashing his tour - I think I lost the ability to be generous to, or even interested in, his underlying politics.  What he does has to be more important than what he thinks.

I think the lyrics question is really interesting. I definitely agree with you about the ‘pay for it’ lines on Kiwi - and it’s something he really leaned into on the performance.  I think in general, Kiwi drips with contempt for it’s subject, in a way that really reveals the narrators contempt for women as a class (I think the lines ‘ Hard liquor mixed with a bit of intellect/And all the boys, they were saying they were into it/Such a pretty face, on a pretty neck - very much sets up the whole song as being from the perspective of a man who hates women, because he’s attractive to them.

Before HS1 came out - I wrote a long post about how the lyrics of 1D songs had changed.  In the early albums, they’re almost all about how the object of the song doesn’t care and she should.  They’re passive agressive and completely ignore her angency and desire.  And there was an interesting tranisition.  First to more ‘grown-up’ forms of sexual coercion, but also a real expansion of themes beyond ‘men’s feelings are important and it’s not fair that women don’t love them’.  I see HS1 as in some ways a reversion, back to a more grown up version of the themes that were on UAN and TMH, with it’s combination of fucked up idea of women’s sexuality and taking men’s feelings way too seriously.

And I am expecting his music to develop - maybe it’ll develop in a way that I like better. But I’m not necessarily counting on it - I’ll wait and see.

So I’m looking at this a bit differently from you.  I think I find it easier that way - to think ‘Harry is who he is and I am who I am - so he’ll keep doing things and I’ll keep writing long posts about it’ - and not expect any change.  But I’ve definitely been in the position of wanting or expecting development from him and being disappointed before.  I think any way of responding to all this is super legitimate.  I think what you say about being drawn to his open gay love is really beautiful and is a really good reason to be invested in him and his development.

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Kay, new icon is Vriska’s dice cause the gradient was lame, and every Vriska blog halfway to sunday has already had every photo of her face as their icon twice. It also works cause of yknow liking dnd and stuff. one thing I really liked about my last vriska pic one was the negative space made it feel like it popped and I feel like this one has sort of the same thing going for it. Wow, it can be that deep. I’m just rambling cause it’s 3am and yet again I have stayed up this long. I can;t wait til it’s winter again so I can force myself back into a normal sleep schedule. I stayed up all night a couple nights ago, and that gave me one decent night of sleep so I might just try that again tonight. Rest put under the readmore because it’s irrelevant and sleep deprived rambling I wouldn’t dare subject my beautiful followers and browsers to.

While I’m here, posting a late night thing no one will see or interact with; thank god; I was cleaning and I came across one of those neck warmer things that legit just a tube you pull up your face to keep your nose from freezing off because Canada Winters, I never can use them because I always fog up my glasses, and I just wanted to say that Niqabi gals with glasses are so brave? Legit if I had to deal with my glasses fogging up I’d die, I’d rather lose my nose to frostbite than fog them up (like I go outside enough loll) so for them to deal with that everyday is like, legendary. I mean, I guess if you were pretty antisocial you wouldn’t have to deal with it much but still, point totally stands. 

While we’re on the positivity train? Lesbians? y’all really like Vriska HUH? Thank you for interacting, I appreciate, yall are so valid. I’m torn between “You have good taste” jokes and “Yall will just like anything w/ vriska in it” and either way it takes too strong a stance on my own content to feel good about it. Obvs goes the same way for all the NB and Trans ppl interacting, yall are also Excellent and I appreciate yall. Obvs I’m cis so I don’t have any real godtier takes or anything abt. gender, but reading your guyss stuff is excellent please keep making it.

Uh sexuality update; Still labelling as bi, IDK if I really want to date men tho, before I actually and FINALLY get a taste of the other side; please; because I feel like the problem with my relationships re; dudes is just that I can’t just be myself, I’m just 900000% in my own head about it and not even like; trying to be idealized, idk whats going on I just have a hard time connecting w/ them and it’s defo my fault so idk bro. IDK it’s fun to have crushes but dating is BORING from my very limited experience with only guys which is why a gf would be excellent. Or girl aligned partner. I feel like maybe what I’m attracted to is like, femininity, not necessarily femmes or women. IDK bruh it’s weird. doesn’t help I can’t even figure out how to get and keep friends LOLLL it’s 3am. Sorry

Honestly before I started vrisrose posting I felt so useless yknow cause in the vriska circles there are a lot of intelligent people who understand canon better and are overall smarter and better spoken so I just felt like everything I had to say was just old hat and not very interesting. But the thing I like about VrisRose is no one else is talking about it as frequently ( I was searching the tag and my blog came up in the recco’s for blogs up top and I was very happy) so I feel like, hey, this is my niche. That one engineer of useless inventions quote: The best way to become top of your field is to specialize:, I jsut love rarepairs so much! I think it’s such a great way to approach character analysis because no one exists in a vaccum so seeing peoples interactions and what people like is so fun!!!! I say, invalidating all my personal issues lollll

CHARACTER ANALYSIS! FUCK TALKING ABOUT INTERACTIONS OR ACTIONS ON THEIR OWN OR THOUGHTS OR HC’S, I STAND BY MY ONE TAAKO ‘vriska did nothing wrong’ QUOTE; Trying to understand what characters morals, and their opinions on certain things by analyzing their opinions and interactions in canon is 500x more productive seeming to me than other things. Like, say taako’s thoughts about vriska, V and Lucretia are p similar actions wise, and he was pissed at her but that was mostly cause of the personal connections, when it doesn’t affect him Taako doesn’t seem to have any moral objections to any of the icky moral stuff; think robot planet or whatevs where they were gonna genocide the place and lup was like no and that was like the only reason he didn’t I’m pretty sure, I’m not too big brained on taako or adventurezone either so don’t take my word; So I think that Taak’s would be chill with Vriska. Another thing? The Lucretia thing was like, giving up which Taako is not ok with and Vriska thigns were about not giving up so I do legit think he would be totally coool with her, even if she were real, unless obvs she hurt one of the seven bird red robe people and their new friends.

ISN;T THAT SUCH A FUN METHOD OF CHARACTER ANALYSIS? I’m not drunk or in an altered state just tired enthusiastic and with a lot of pent up thoughts. Speaking of which, this song just came on it’s “Slowdance with you” by the Marcus Hedges Trend Orchestra and it is SOOOOO good, it’s on a vrisrezi playlist I put on bc I’m rereading song of the pyre because it was vriska day and it’s super good soo so good. It’s on loop now, legit best

Quick detours before I lay out some more hs thoughts; 

Overwatch:

-Ben “Captainplanet” came out w/ a new article and I LOVE IT so much and I want hhis job so bad I wanna get into stats so much ahhh  please so good it’s giving me a , this is crude but it’s the best way I can phrase it, a math erection. I love math so much <33333333

-The Shock, my faves, are doing well and I’m happy for them! I hope they go 7-0, I believe in them! I’m lying I am so fucking nervous for literally every match they have they’re gonna 2-5 AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Why am I so INVESTED? They technically could take first spot but that’s require titan’s to lose every match left and the shock to 7-0, but the thing is I thought that I wanted that but 

-then I watched the titans london match today, and I HATED the thought of titans losing. And losing so hard to other teams too, and I didn’t realize this but I think I do actually kinda like the titans?The thought of them not being a great team makes me sad. I think it’s like I really like them and shock as rivals, yknow, stage one and two, then this upcoming map? If Titans aren’t still Good in this meta it just sorta makes their rivalry not fun. Kismesis vibes is what I’m gonna say cause I’m TRASSSHHHHH pls stop my terrible hands from typing also if I ever saw actual ship stuff I would kill whoever made it. Like I’m not gonna check their socials or anything but if they’ve got a match against most teams I’d probs root for them. The Wolf section today was so funny lollll

-I think I might hate the London Spitfire. I have literally no reason to? I think all the players are good and I like them as people and I would never actively hate on them? But I’m like. Really mean to them in my head. I was so satisfied seeing htem lose to Florida, and Titans like IDK? Also they’re hella overrated so anticlutch jfc. Hate the franchise, love the players if that makes sense. IDK WHYYYYYYYYYYY

-Also I’m gonna miss tomorrows shock match and I’m so scared rip.

Misc: 

-Tripped backwards and somehow upturned my moms glass scale and it fell on my foot, that shit hurted.

-Oh My God I’m Projecting a million different things right now because I feel like this will not have an audience if you see this I’m begging you please don’t interact I’d die of embarassment keep the fact you’ve seen this a secret from me

HS:

-JFC song of the pyre is an excellent fic, I wish it would ever get updated it’s so fucking good guys

-I need to read more vrisrezi long form

-Non-sgrub vrisrezi is best vrisrezi

-My ideal Vrisrezi au would be like HS canon, diverge into non-sgrub and they completely fall out of touch, Killing Eve season 1, then Song of the Pyre. THAT is what I want.

-Killing eve season one and two would be an even BETTER VRISROSE AU AHHHHHH

-I once read a very good trollstuck rose but it was an eri-rose ship so basically what I want is that persons troll rose but paired with vriska. For how much I blog about it I’ve read very little vrisrose fic but almost everything I know comes from this fic. . Oh uh this is not the erirose fic that I read w trollstuck although it does unfortunately have erirose but I can excuse it when the vrisrose is this Excellent

Alright I’ve run out of hyper juice, have a nice night, sorry for posting thisssss

bye

[possibilistfanfiction]

hey jude!!! just read ur last anon abt being nb and wondered if u could talk abt ur own gender experience?

well basically i didnt grow up in a very open household, like rly Zero discussion of gender, so i know i Experienced gender entirely but i played almost exclusively with the boys in my class until probably grade 6 or 7, & at puberty, even tho i was a better athlete than most boys in my class still, i started hanging out with girls more, at recess, etc. i was always into androgyny, even if i had no idea (& i didn’t) what that was—i liked some femme things, absolutely, but i wanted nothing to do w skirts or pretty shoes. i wanted to be in adidas running sneakers 24/7 if i could help it, & i wore a uniform to school w the option of a skirt/pants, & im p sure i always wore pants. at the time this, to me, seemed more functional, & it was, but it was also, as i can understand now, something that made me feel Less like a girl, although not at all like a boy.

when i was older, 12, 13, 14, my parents wanted me to dress nicer, & i was v much into like american eagle shit, although by mid hs i was into some vintage stuff. one rly big odd style influence for me was mia wasikowksa in this weird movie called restless bc it was this v soft femme androgyny & i think for me this kind of gender expression became very important to see & understand. it wasn’t that she didn’t look like a girl, or that she wasn’t a girl, but she also sometimes looked like a boy, or wore boys clothes, but she wasn’t butch. idk this movie sent me for a loop honestly lol. 

& obviously my understanding of gender expression didn’t correlate (& doesn’t correlate!) w so many gender identities, & “passing” is extremely harmful as a notion, etc. but when i was younger my understanding of gender & sexuality was very limited & began to expand when i saw very femme but still andro ppl, even tho i couldn’t articulate it at the time. 

when i was a teenager i knew i didnt want to rly have a single thing to do w any boy, which made me sure i was a lesbian bc thats the only narrative i’d rly known abt queerness, or queer women, or even queer ppl who presented as femme. there werent any out lesbians at my school (no fucking way), & the only out queer kid at all was a white gay guy a year older than me, who was popular in the way white gay boys can be popular in high school. but i read voraciously, was fascinated by the crossdressing in shakespeare (paris in the merchant of venice was a particular fixation of mine?) & anyway. i knew i was queer, i knew i liked girls, & i knew i was outrageously uncomfortable w my body, particularly my breasts. for a long time i thought this was because i was ashamed of my sexuality, when i came to sort of understand that, but ofc now i know abt dysmorphia & dysphoria, so yknow. knowledge.

when i went to college i came out big time, & it became very important to me to both be queer & look sort of queer but not queer enough to be Queer—i wanted ppl to be like ‘maybe into girls, but maybe straight.’ as im sure many of us know, this was a lot of internalized shame abt a lot of things, so that sucks. however, i cut my hair which was like the first comfortable thing i had done for my appearance in a v long time, & also smth which my parents hated & i did anyway. i wore a Lot of rly femme stuff bc they hated it tho? so this was all v confusing for me bc my parents are v homophobic, & here i was in college starting to read queer theory & gender theory & falling in love w like. the most beautiful, brilliant girl, & also spiraling into a mixed episode after i got diagnosed w bipolar I, which sort of put everything else on the backburner for a year. 

eventually tho i sorted that out (as much as u can sort smth like that out) & i started to rly pay attention to androgyny. i went to europe & i think theres a whole bunch of nuances to fashion that exist there that certainly arent here, & i spent a winter in warsaw so there were aspects to fashion & expression there that were entirely abt functionality, which i was v attracted to. in college, as well, & especially after college, gender became smth i was v much invested in bc i was (& absolutely am) a feminist, so my place in the canon & zeitgeist was one as a queer female writer. it was so so central to who i was, & what i was writing abt. every single thing i wrote in college was in some way a balm, some sort of piece abt myself, learning abt trauma & the body. sorting through a lot of hurt. i could write a theory piece abt elizabeth bishop & reading it back now i know it was also abt me, that kinda stuff.

when i went to toronto i rly rly started being invested in looking critically at gender & my experience of it bc being read as a woman was smth that was grating on me, even tho i had identified as woman for so long, & had no desire at all to transition. i know 100% i am not a trans man, so that was confusing for a long time because i sort of knew there was a space between but it was very hard to conceptualize. eventually i sort of came to understand gender is a color wheel where cis boys are blue & cis women are pink & then theres literally a ton of other colors out there, so yknow. lots of different experiences of gender. some days i feel much more strongly like i identify w women (in mostly political situations, it matters to me to be read as “female” sometimes bc rights for ppl w vaginas AND trans women are FUCKED UP in so many places). some days i hate the idea of identifying as a woman. i also never want to identify as a man. so when i was in toronto i rly started to know a LOT of queer ppl w so many different expressions of gender. & we were all young & lovely & open & fucked up & we would get fucked up but we would also go read together in the park & wander around alleys in the snow & like. there’s a Muchness to toronto that i experienced that helped me, personally, understand these intersections between my own sexuality & gender & expression as much more than just a gay woman who isn’t butch & isn’t femme. i was rly lucky to become part of a community that identified as Queer, & so i became v much understanding of these different aspects of my own identity that fell outside of binary—my sexuality, my gender. Queerness is a vital & profound thing to me & i was rly able (& so fortunate) to have a close friend group of mostly queer ppl & then a few of the actual literally most incredible allies i’ve ever known & will ever know. 

so then from there i just rly kinda thought abt things & like i got a binder & stuff in TO but rly started to evaluate my dysmorphia & dysphoria (i had struggled really badly w an eating disorder in/post college) & was able to sort out that so much of it had to do w feeling uncomfortable in the way my body was read in the world. & that will always happen bc i LOVE makeup & i have a “feminine” voice & sometimes i love skirts & i shave my legs bc i like how it feels sometimes & i dont ever want to go on T—none of these things make anyone ANY gender, but ofc theyre coded as “female.” but i’m learning to just yknow educate where i can & take a lot of solace in the community of ppl i have fostered who support & understand my Being. i’ve also allowed myself to be invested in aesthetics & fashion & how much a role that plays bc like. yah fuck Yah i look cool shit bc my friends love it & absolutely i wanna wear the same vans maia mitchell has & i want a melodrama hoodie & i LOVE local toronto designers & their angsty patches abt sad songs & whiskey but i love fashion born out of histories that is connected to smth i can understand, like queer punk movements, or smth my friends & i share, like blundstones (which are gender neutral, which is cool). i’m fascinated in how ppl express their Selves, & we are so unfortunately Finite in our bodies in the sense that that’s rly how the world, in our day to day interactions, processes who & what we are. so i invest in the care of mine by trying to listen to it, trying to make it comfortable—& clothing is a huge thing that can do that. also its fun so anyone who thinks loving (ethical, cool) fashion is vain can eat my ass

anyway lmao now i have a p decent sense, atm at least, of what makes my body its most comfortable (even if that is v far from Comfortable at times). i love my tattoos, & i basically never rly want long hair again i’m p sure, & i love makeup, & if i could wear vans or blundstones every day for the entirety of my life at this point that would be incredible. those are easy things, & i try to allow my body, in its cultural place, to have access to them as much as possible, which is so important to me in a sense of having access to a physical space that matches my mental space of gender identity. politically sometimes i feel v v much a “woman” in terms of my lived experience, & i allow that of myself as well. sometimes when i write it’s important to me that my poetry be read as a queer person but also someone who is culturally coded as a woman, bc those are still always central concerns of my work—the trauma, the power there. but day to day i’m mostly happy spending my time obsessing over other things, like what to call this new genre of music halsey & lorde are making, or why my dog stevie is a Fanatic when it comes to ice cubes. ive come to enough terms w my gender, & my sexuality—& the expression thereof—that unless someone is talking abt gender, or someone asks me a question, it’s not smth that is constantly on my mind, which is. Nice. its so nice lol. 

also i would like to point out that i know my experience being non binary is rly rly white & western in so many ways & i get that. my cultural experience of non binary gender is also v much this like. ive felt frustrated before but never in my life have i felt scared to be non-binary while i was like out & abt in the world, bc i still pass as a cis white woman literally everywhere all the time (which has its pros & cons but like, still, a lot of privilege). so i do try to keep all of that in mind as well when i try to center myself & all that jazz

& who tf knows where all of that will take me. i feel like, bc ive learned to listen to my body & my brain so much better than i did when i was younger—even when they might hate themselves—i am so much better at filling up a space in the world that occupies smth healthy. which is not smth i take lightly, & i’m also so open to changes, as long as they feel good & beneficial & true. which is sort of new for me. who knows man ur mid twenties are a wild ride 

[dovescape]

i was tagged by @x-runaway-sailor-x to do a get to know me meme! i think ive done this one before but like its cool cause i change a lot

Name: allison

Nickname: allie but i prefer allison usually

Gender: female

Star sign: cancer

Height: 5′6 (anyone wanna be taller cause i want to be really short again and ill give u a couple inches hmu)

Sexual orientation: lesbian

Hogwarts house: hufflepuff but im not like.. really a harry potter person js

Favorite color(s): purple or orange probably or green. i like some shades of blue too

Favorite animal(s): cats i guess but i dnt think abt this a lot

Lucky number(s): i dont really know uh.. 7 i think,, and maybe 13 (yes i know)

Average amount of sleep: 5-6 hours a night

Cat or dog person: cat person by a mile

Pokemon team: mystic

Favorite fictional character: god... pharah and roxy lalonde and peridot before the show fucked her character over to hell. AND JOLYNE KUJO. AND AND hermes costello

Number of blankets you sleep with: 1 or 2

Favorite singers/bands: i dont listen to a lot of music like, ever actually. i like panic at the disco i guess

The song that’s stuck in your head: im the bad guy from woy cause i just saw the russian version on my dash

Last movie you watched: i dont remeber

Last TV show you watched: i watched the americans with my mom its actually pretty good

Dream trip: i dont think about this a lot either uhh anywhere really is cool

Dream job: freelance artist probably or like i definitely would want to do a lot of comicon attendance. video game art is really cool to me too. especially concept art. i would  die for overwatch concept art

Wearing right now: sweatpants and a hoodie and fallout tshirt

Time right now: 8:10 am cause im at school

When was your blog created: november 2 2013 (yes over three years now im an Olde Woman

Current number of followers: 1020

Number of people you’re following: 485

When did your blog reach its peak: now i guess. or like when i make shit ass posts and they get a shitton of reblogs

What kind of stuff do you post: overwatch and jojos and like miscellaneous whatever i guess

Do you get asks regularly: not really but the occasional ask i get makes me happy cause ilyasm <3

Any other blogs: @gay4pharah which is pharah screenshots, and like i also have more inactive ones like @dailyjolymes and @dailyjojolionkira . and also @jolymesweek which im definitely using again so yeah idk if id classify it as inactive

Why did you choose you URL: cause i love pharah and shes butch and loves women and i love her. i traded for this cause i found the url butchdva and asked for it and the owner also had butchpharah and offered this one and basically ily original owner of this url i see you on my dash a lot

I tag: i probably tagged at least some of yall before but @shrimpass @project-beast @aasimaar @lesbianaldrich @futchjolyne @lesbeanmercy @space-doritwo @becquerel @bipharah @neonfem @aapotskinaisahkomaapi @skittylesbian @aceticplum @jolmes @kmeuy @celesteela @kirbylesbian @fringnubs @frogwlw and anyone who wants to do it! u dont have to do it if you were tagged though!

edit: god damn fuck im a fool im also tagging @widowtomytracer @r3dcardigan

[vanilladella]

how about uuhhhhhhh 2,5,7 and 29-39 it’s only fair (but honestly i love getting many questions)

ok i deserved that asdfghjkl tHANK U

AAND we’re going under a read more

2: Which origin is your favourite? 

HMMM gameplay wise i rly like the mage origin, but i have such a soft spot for elves that its a tie between the dalish and the city elf

5: Did your Warden want to become a Grey Warden?

ophelia amell: YES, ABSOLUTELY. she had a major case of starry eyes and she wanted to be a great war hero who lives on in history and songs.

hallen mahariel: absolutely not. he begged for the keeper to let him stay, duncan had to drag him away. he cried the whole way to ostagar, feeling homesick, heartbroken and survivors guilt all at the same time.

meri tabris: she hated leaving her family, but was happy to rub her immunity in the shems faces lmaoo. she was also v pleased to finally get out of the alienage and do things that amtter ykno??

7: What was your Warden’s first impression of Duncan? 

ophelia: she was a bit “huh. ok.” when they were introduced, but the second she heard he was a grey warden commander looking for recruits she shadowed him the whole time in the tower. she was so nervous and determined to be the one who was picked to go.

hallen: he was v sick and in abd shape when he first saw him, but when he kinda got a hold of himself hallen was scared of him. wardens leave and never come back, wardens are in war, wardens die. hallen was terrified of being taken away by duncan, and did not trust his motives at all.

meri: “who the fuck are you.” were her first words to him, and p much what she thought of him lmao. she didnt care much for him, but threatened to slit his throat when he talked abt looking for recruits.

ie. ophelia adored him, hallen was terrified, meri gives no fucks

29: What is your Warden’s favourite color?

ophelia: purple and dusty pink

hallen: forest green and like... navy blue

meri: cyan and bronze

30: What is your Warden’s favourite food?

ophelia: spicy food with lots of protein

hallen: stews and soups (esp w rabbit)

meri: kalakukko ! its fish baked inside a ryebread

31: How old is your Warden?

ophelia: 19 when conscripted

hallen: 20 when conscripted

meri: 22 when conscripted

32: What is your Warden’s gender identity (this does not have to match gender chosen in the character creator, of course!)

ophelia: woman

hallen: man

meri: woman

33: What is your Warden’s romantic/sexual orientation?

ophelia: bi woman w a HEAVY preference for women

hallen: gay man

meri: lesbian

34: Does your Warden end up with one of the companions in any way?

ophelia: alistair had a major crush on her, small flirty weird thing w zevran, endgame a happy ever after w leliana

hallen: ...alistair had a crush on him, morrigan expressed interest, engame married w zevran in antiva

meri: idk actually! in game i romanced morrigan but idk if meri could actually hold a relationship, so for now its a maybe w morrigan?

35: Is your Warden a warrior/rogue/mage?

ophelia: mage!

hallen: rogue!

meri: warrior!

36: What is your Warden’s weapon of choice?

ophelia: staff with a cickle on the end

hallen: two big ass daggers, hes p good w a bow too but prefers daggers (dual wield)

meri: sword and shield! shes good w two-handed too but likes precision more than raw power

37: What are your Warden’s specializations?

ophelia: shapeshifter and bloodmage

hallen: assassin and duelist

meri: champion and berserker

38: What are some of your Warden’s strenghts?

ophelia: shes very headstrong and passionate. shes v empathetic and caring, not to mention shes generally good-willed and humorous.

hallen: hes v v gentle and caring, not a mean bone in his body. hes optimistic and tries to keep a positive outlook.

meri: VERY strong-willed, never willing to back down when she feels like theres more she can do. protective as shit, maybe the most selfless of my ocs.

39: What are some of your Warden’s weaknesses?

ophelia: shes got a v strong sense of her own morals, and follows those no matter who it hurts. she does what she wants. she has a bad habit of creating a mess or taking on a responsibility and running away from it.

hallen: he has barely no sense of independence. hes not a leader, hes a follower, he cant make decisions on his own and is easily influenced by others. hes very sensitive, quick to anger and tears. he also kinda.... disregards his own morals whenever the dalish are involved. they come first, no matter the cost.

meri: shes very cynical and a nihilist. shes very.. harsh and doesnt sugarcoat anything. she speaks before she thinks, and usually prefers violence over diplomacy.

[interruptingkau]

All the pride month asks!!

Goodness me. Well alright!

🌈 - what’s your orientation and gender?

Cis lesbian gal

🌹- what would be your ideal date?

I dunno, I just wanna feel like, close to the other person and do something fun we both enjoy. Going to a museum or something low-stress like that would be cool.

💘 - what personality traits are attractive to you?

I love kindness and people who are inclined to remember small things about you. I admit that I’m sorta into like, aloof cool mysterious ladies but tbh at the end of the day I just want someone who can be totally open and honest with me. I really appreciate people who are able to be vulnerable with others. A good sense of humor too, obvs.

💋 - what do you find physically attractive?

Gi.rls..uh specifically? Sorta bulky strong women who looked like they’ve done their fair share of manual labor are so fucking hot hkbbjhb. Butches who have a sort of devil may care attitude about them? Ooh golly. I also really love wide hips and curvy legs, and like “pear shaped” people specifically, but I can’t help but feel super jealous of them too hykbnk

🐻 - what is your favourite animal?

Cattle! Of course!

💭 - when did you realise you were lgbt?

Tbh I was in like middle school when I first got the inklings of it but when I tried to discuss it with my friend she started acting weird so I just tucked it away for another day and didn’t really think about it again until high school. I only really came to be sure I’m a lesbian rather than bi when I finally got a girlfriend and realized I didn’t want to be with men ever.

💌 - what makes your heart melt?

Ugh I’m a big sucker for sappy shit tbh like if you make me art of some sort or write me something or even just tell me something makes you think of me I Die. Before we were dating my ex sent me something sweet and sappy and tbh? I think I started crying when I read it.

🎤 - do you have a favourite lgbt song?

I’m pretty basic in that I haven’t listened to many lmao. Like of course Girls Like Girls is an anthem but I also don’t know a lot of other specifically lgbt songs. 

🍀 - what’s your fav thing abt being lgbt?

I love women?? I love that for everything men raised in typical society would make me feel abnormal and gross about, there will be women who think it’s beautiful and good?? And that’s everything from physical to personality traits, like there will be girls who love my chub and how I’m built and how soft my heart is when for men most of these things would be something they could “look past” at best. Or fetishize, perhaps. Wlw are just. Different. We operate on a lot of different rules, socially, because we’re all learning to exist outside of what society considers acceptable. We are able to be more ourselves, in a way, I think, and the love we cultivate is beautiful!!

🌠 - advice for young lgbt people?

The labels you identify with may change over time, and that’s not a bad thing. You’re allowed to go by different things as you learn about yourself. It can take a long time to really feel confident in who you are! I thought I was bi for a long time, but realizing I’m a lesbian didn’t make me a traitor or make bi women look bad, just as any changes in your own identity are completely personal to you and not tied to morality or purity of The Gays.

☁️ - where do you see yourself in 5 years?

God I just wanna be okay and know my mom is safe and happy tbh. I’m hoping I’ll have a decent job I’m settled into by then. It’d be nice to imagine a pastoral scene with a wife and chickens but uhh, let’s be reasonable.

[wyrmsandrocs]

all the ocean asks!! u can skip any that r uncomf

pearl: if you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?- Hm, i really want to do a trip to see the historical stuff on the US east coast, I’d also really like to go see ruins in Rome and Greece. Aside from historical interests I just…really want to be in Oregon right now

sails: describe your perfect partner. - Someone I love who loves me too

lighthouse: how much makeup do you wear? - I usually do white or black winged eyeliner, silver + whatever my colour for the day is eyeshadow, lots and lots of mascara, and some lipstick, usually non natural colours like purple, green, or just like pastel pink. Even if i decide to forgo my eye makeup im usually wearing lipstick

shells: would you prefer to be a vampire or a werewolf? - tbh a vampire cause then I would have eternity to figure out who Agent 355 was

mermaid: most embarrassing moment? - Hoo boi okay sO. One time many years ago I was a 10 year old girl on quotev. I really really liked one direction. I clicked something I probably shouldn’t have seen because of quotevs lack of an sfw/nsfw rating system. I read a lot of these because I was confused as to what they were. Instead of forgetting all about them and deleting my account like a sane person, I sent them to my best friend at the time to get /her/ to read them. Instead of asking questions abt why the hell i was reading this shit, she found way worse and kinky ones. I was horrified. I didn’t know how to delete my web history. My dad almost found the links like 20 times

turquoise: weirdest dream you’ve ever had? - The dream where my subconscious tried to tell me i was gayyyyy. It was, again, years ago, and I thought I was straight. I had just made up my first ocs cause I was doin NaNoWriMo for the first time (spoiler alert, I made it to 50,000) and i had this dream where I met and then fell in love with my oc who was super pretty and i refused to believe I was a lesbian i just chalked it up to my sleeping brain being weird

waves: favourite season and why? - Autumn and Winter are my faves because there’s rain.

breakers: would you ever consider getting married? - Yes, definitely, but gdi why isn’t poly marriage legal yet

seafoam: describe your ideal summer vacation. - Ignore summer all together and continue school where it’s rainy

rain: if it were possible, what exotic animal would you keep as a pet? - Omg a Fennec they are my favourite little animals they are so cute. My first original story that i actually wrote down and still have was about Fennecs

sunlight: least favourite song? - The Sans version of Stronger than you

marine: would you ever consider plastic surgery? - Probably not i’m ot the hugest fan of surgery at all

sea glass: what do you consider to be your best physical feature? - Man I really love my eyes i have sectoral heterochromia so my eyes are green with stripes of deep brown.

storm: do you like piercings and tattoos? Why or why not? - I really do like them, but i probably wouldnt get any more piercings than I have, I have two on each ear, but I wear a fake nose ring cause it’s pretty. I dont love the idea of getting a tattoo cause owww im a wimp also needles are not good.

boardwalk: who is your favourite fictional couple? - I really love Wylan and Jesper from Six of Crows, also lotsa ships from other stuff but right now I’m loving my children, Aria and Sitara. My smol gay witch daughters

coral: if you had to describe your personality as a food, what would you be and why? - Super dark chocolate that gives you a headache but is also really great. I’m known for giving people headaches lmao not really. Idk why it just seems right, like I may seem sweet and nice but i am actually like the most bitter person. Or sea salt caramel. I am like super salty and bitter save me lmao

nymph: old-fashioned or modern decor? - buddy old fashioned decor is the shit 

seawater: scariest movie you’ve ever watched? - Okay it’s really stupid but Dot and the Red Kangaroo scared the /fuck/ out of me as a little kid the bunyip song was terrifying. I don’t really watch scary movies tho

siren: in a fantasy setting, would you be a warrior, rogue or mage? - Maaaaaage

tempest: your favourite Pokemon? - Eevee or Vaporeon. I also really love Vulpix

tropic: what is your least favourite thing about your appearance? - I’m p self conscious abt being not a small person height or weight wise. I used to always want to be a lot smaller so that I could just kind of disappear but recently i’ve just decided that if people are gonna notice me, they are gonna notice that i’m beautiful. It’s actually really helped my confidence which is kinda weird but i’m really glad for it

aquamarine: describe your dream date. - Staying at home watching musicals and drinking hot coco in the middle of a storm

brine: gold or silver? - Silver

tidal: what is a colour that best describes your personality? - I actually really like pinks and reds and how quickly a pink can merge to a more red colour. They both stand for love, but red is also anger

azure: what is something that you do that makes you happy? - Writing honestly. Also like i really enjoy school and learning about history and languages

fog: describe where you think you’ll be in five years. - Hopefully well into college by then, I’m still in highschool but I’m gonna add college english in the fall.

coastline: what is your favourite flower? - Violets. I really like the smell of jasmine or orange blossoms

shallows: what is your typical Starbucks order? - Venti Java Chip Frappuccino idk how to spell that tho

voyage: what are your favourite names? - I really like names related to the sea like Mara

shipwreck: do you have an OC? If so, describe them. - Okay I’m gonna tell ya abt Aria and Sitara.  Aria is a Hellenic polytheist who leans toward tarot and sigils rather than actual spell work. She’s pan and loves her gf v v much. Her parents were shit and she had to leave home as soon as she could. Her parents gave her the name Megan but she really hated it so she gos by Aria. She doesn’t really know all of her parents lineage but her mother was of middle eastern descent way back in the family that no one really remembers. She doesnt want to find out and prefers looking to the future. Sitara is an atheist and has a more traditional path. Shes bi and attractd to nb peeps and women but not men, she’s also polyam which shes v v happy her gf accepts. Her parents were better but they fell out of contact a while ago. Despite not believing in Aria’s deities, she lets her worship on her own and doesnt bother her. They met in an art store, both needing to get red ribbon for a love spell. Bonus: Aria means song and Sitara means poem

cerulean: do you believe in true love? - I do, but not just the romantic kind. I think that true platonic love is also super important.

shoreline: if you could become fluent in another language, which would you pick and why? - French because I’m trying to learn it rn and it’s a royal pain. Eventually I want to learn all the Latin based languages

tsunami: describe a dream outfit of yours. - Someday I’m gonna get cute heeled boots and wear them with tights and a skirt and like a flowy long sleeve black shirt I have and do all purple makeup this will happen someday

riptide: are you introverted or extroverted? Are you happy with this? - I’m somewhere in the middle. I love talking to my friends and like that but its also really nice to just shut down skype and tumblr and read a book, yknow?

hurricane: describe a strange habit of yours. - I tend to carefully chack all the walls and corners of a room while I’m entering it, like just look around and check for anything weird, even if I’ve been there a lot. This happens with places that feel specific ways tho, like they just have suspicious energy.

Ty so much for asking, friend! ^u^

[bronanlynch]

series: the untamed. I don’t know anything about it talk to me about the untamed

ok so! thanks for walking directly into the hyperfixation ambush where I am physically incapable of shutting the fuck up abt this bc it consumed my entire brain! first of all the untamed is. the live action version of mdzs/mo dao zu shi/gdc/grandmaster of demonic cultivation and I tag everything as mdzs bc I started reblogging stuff abt it before the show came out and I’m too lazy to change my tagging system now and I answered that ask meme abt it here but it uh. will make absolutely no sense to you probably

the tl;dr of the plot is that it’s abt being gay and hunting monsters and pining and doing necromancy in fantasy historical china. half of the story is the main character’s tragic backstory before he dies tragically but he comes back to life a bunch of years later and then gets married to the love of his life so like. it’s fine

Favorite character: the main character, the guy who does necromancy and dies and comes back to life. he’s a disaster, he’s beautiful, he does necromancy for the very valid reason of wanting to stop other ppl from doing various war crimes and other human rights violation, he’s an adhd icon who got kicked out of class for backtalking a teacher and has never sat still or correctly for a single second of his life, he wears all black and does the necromancy by playing the flute, he does a lot of swooning with like. tasteful trickles of blood on his face, he doesn’t realize that 1) he’s in love w his best friend or that his best friend has been in love w him for a very long time until after he dies and comes back to life even though they keep saving each other’s lives and making dramatic declarations abt how much they care abt each other. basically my ideal man.

Second favorite character: the main character’s best friend/future husband (they’re literally for real married in the novel I am not making this up) is a repressed nerd who basically starts out as that one tweet that’s like “I had feelings for someone when I was a kid and didn’t know what to do abt it so I wrote them a note that said ‘get out of my school’” and then realizes that maybe being lawful is not the same thing as being good

there are also several very cool women who deserve better, including one who is a doctor who also has a sword and basically adopts the main character as her annoying little brother. she has big lesbian energy I don’t care how popular it is to ship her w a man

Least favorite character: aside from. y’know. the actual villains who are mostly the people doing the war crimes that the main character is mad about, the love interest’s uncle did a really shitty job raising him and continues to disapprove of his life choices in a way that I personally do not care for. also he’s a bad teacher which is my personal least favorite type of character

The character I’m most like: the dramatic gay flute-playing necromancer. obviously

Favorite pairing: the main couple Invented Romance. but also the cool lady doctor and the main character’s sister have some Vibes

Least favorite pairing: lots of ppl including apparently the ppl who made the show ship the cool doctor lady w the main character’s brother instead which I personally think is a wasted opportunity

Favorite moment: ok so. there’s this bit fairly early on, they’re still repressed teenagers who have just started to acknowledge that they’re friends, they get stuck in a cave together w a monster that they’re fighting. they both get injured in the process and there’s lots of tenderly cleaning wounds while fondly calling each other dumbasses. and then the love interest plays a song that’s 1) named after their ship name and 2) plays while you see various clips of their Gayest Moments Together So Far which is A Lot considering this is still not that far into the show. love when the show makes a canon amv so the fandom doesn’t have to do it for themselves.

Rating out of 10: for the show specifically 9, they do lose a point for not being able to be explicitly gay due to censorship but they do a damn good job making it clear how gay it’s supposed to be. so much ~yearning. I personally don’t like the novel as much bc some of the more explicit scenes make me personally uncomf but that’s. a whole other thing. there’s also an animated show that I haven’t watched yet but that’s next once I finish the live action