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trust me -- billy the kid x barowner!reader
hi everyone :) sorry I've been MIA â law school has been kicking my #ass but it's ok. I saw the new thg movie and while IAMNOTACORIOSNOWSTAN but I am a t*m bl*th and the man was so fine in this show. so fine. I've only seen like three fics for this man (maybe I just don't know how to search correctly thats probably my fault) but I was SEARCHING FOREVER and then I just got pissed because I couldn't find any so I wrote almost eight thousand words for this man that is how down bad I was
informal warnings: me. 1) I should be put on a leash 2) I use italics way too much 3) and whatever the fuck this "â" is 4) will i ever give up the female bar owner trope 5) will I ever stop tho? [vanilla ice voice] no, I don't know
as always, the actual warnings: smutty smut smut SMUT!, unprotected sex (1880's bby but you still gotta wrap it before you tap it), violence, guns, bit of gore but like the tiniest bit, virgin!reader, p in v sex, oral sex, bit of a dom!billy, bit of a bratty!sub!reader, overstimulation what can I say I should be put on a leash
anyway.... here's trust me:
when your father died⊠it was hard to be sad. he wasnât very kind and he never seemed to like you very much⊠but in his will, being his only surviving kin, he left you money.
a lot of it.
and an old building.
the town it resided in was convenient in the way that many people that were passing through had to stop there. so what did you do? well, the only thing you could do â turn it into a restaurant and boarding house.
the money he left behind was used to fix up the place and pay your employees.
within a few weeks time, your place was up and running with very little vacancy. families and important people were always in your bar or comfortably in their rooms. never had you ever thought someone could be as lucky as you.
until one day. that day.
you worked alongside your employees but flipped between positions. sometimes you were a hostess, ran the front desk, a bartender, or anything else that needed tending to. in response, many people did not know you were the owner â and, therefore, some people treated you like you werenât.
mainly gross old men, which you could handle. however, when a young, strong, and tall man challenged you?
that was dangerous. too dangerous.
even a fake wedding ring didnât steer them away.
on that day, a young blacksmith had found his way into your bar. he was handsy with you much of the night, and you tried your best to steer him away. it wasnât until you pulled a knife on him that he finally let up. it didnât look like anyone saw, but still â you were scared and worried. would people think you classless, for pulling a knife on a patron? would they see you as weak? would they notice that the alcohol you served brought in too rowdy of a crowd? would they stop venturing in?
you thought no one noticed, and tried to convince yourself of that fact â but you were wrong.
when you were closing for the night, mostly everyone had left. a small group of men usually stayed until close â and you didnât mind. they drank well, paid their tab, and were mostly quiet and polite. you didnât know any of their names â but it was usually bad when you did know a patronâs name, so you liked them.
you had your back turned to the front of the bar, stacking bottles, when someone cleared their throat from behind you.
âmaâam?â
you turned around.
a tall, fair skinned man with a hat stood before you. his clothes were old and worn, and his fingernails reflected that he was a hard worker during the day. that type of exhaustion was also reflected in his eyes.
but, damn... his face? no one could deny that that man was handsome.
you smiled. âanother drink, sir?â
âno. thank you.â he paused for a moment, keeping your gaze. âi wanted to check if you were alright.â
you immediately knew what he was talking about, but kept your face stoic. âyes, sir, thank you.â
he looked like he wanted to say something, but struggled with how to word it. âhe usually a problem?â
you clenched your jaw. âheâs⊠heâs fine. too much drink, âsâall. gets the best of working men. canât blame âem.â you swallowed, trying to keep your anxiety at bay. who was this man and why did he care? was he a friend of the man? âyou sure thereâs nothing i canât get for you?â
âsome wouldn't blame âem.â he ignored your question. his bright blue eyes held your gaze. âi would.â
you forced a tight lipped smile. with a laugh, you joked, âiâll⊠be fine, sir. thank you. thought a fake wedding ring would do the trick⊠gotta think of something else now.â
he smiled, but in a sad way. âi was going to ask if your husband ever checked in on the place.â
âno husband,â you affirmed with a sigh. you introduced yourself, and then asked, âwhatâs your name?â
âwilliam h. bonney, maâam⊠but you can call me billy.â
ânice to meet you, billy,â you smiled. âand, please â donât call me maâam.â
âalright.â he returned your smile. âthe men behind me⊠we run a sort of â security detail for part time work. if you ever wanted to hire us, we could have a man here when we can spare.â
you nodded, contemplating your offer. he explained the per diem, and you immediately agreed.
âif your man can keep this place safe with little bloodshed, iâll even throw in a free bottle a day,â you countered.
and that was how your business with billy the kid and his men began.
the men that came along were usually polite and quiet, and mostly stayed at the edge of the bar. they watched for problems, and slowly but surely your fear had begun to subside. there was a minor scuffle one day, where a man had cracked a glass and cut you with it⊠but billyâs man had stopped him before he could do anything else. you didnât hold it against billyâs guy â you cared about your business and if the business got bloody, not so much yourself.
billy, on the other hand⊠did not agree.
one day, bright and early, he parked himself at the middle of the bar where you stood behind the counter.
ârarely see you for detail,â you smiled, wiping down a glass. âmuch less this early. breakfast, mr. bonney?â
âbilly, maâam,â he responded. âbreakfast does sound fine.â
you laughed. âi hate when you call me maâam.â
âdonât much like it when you call me mister,â he quirked an eyebrow. billy was a rather emotionless and hard man, but you could tell he was joking.
you laughed again. âsteak and eggs for billy, coming right up.â
the rest of the day went on peacefully, and you kept billyâs glass full. he was quiet and didnât talk much, which you werenât too keen about. he was mysterious, tall, dark and handsome â which was usually a bad combination. you knew it was, and you shouldâve cared â but you didnât.
as you were filling billyâs glass into the later hours of the afternoon, you finally bucked up the courage to ask him a question.
âso why did you stop in today?â you asked. ânot that i mind. i just have only seen you when you come in at night.â
âwe made a deal, sweetheart,â he responded. your eyes perked up at the nickname. you didnât hate the nickname â but you hated yourself a wee bit for how much you liked hearing billy call you it. âthe man i sent here was supposed to make sure he kept you from harm â he didnât hold up his end on the deal.â
âit was kept quiet from the other patrons,â you responded. âthatâs all i really care about. iâm a woman in the restaurant and boardinghouse business â stuff like that is bound to happen. no need to be hard on him.â
âyou keep my menâs glasses too full for them to let slip ups like that happen,â he replied. âhe knew better. should've acted better.â
âyouâre the boss, billy,â you sighed with a smile. âiâm just the bartender.â
âdamn good bartender at that,â he spoke. âtoo good.â
you giggled, and grew ashamed rather quickly at how much you enjoyed his company. you didnât know him well, no⊠but damn, was it nice to have him around.
the rest of the night was rather quiet. a few families had stepped in and out, and a few meetings were being held where the tables sat. that was until the blacksmith that started this whole thing came in and sat himself only a stool away from billy.
you threw a look at billy, but he didnât meet your eyes. his peripheral vision was already on the man. billy remembered him, and you couldnât say fondly.
âwhiskey, sweetheart,â he grunted. âleave the bottle.â
you sighed. a quiet day was going to turn into a rough night in a matter of a few moments.
âmr. martin, i canât leave the bottle unless you settle your tab from the nights prior,â you answered. âi can get you a double and add it on, though, if thatâs alright with you?â
âthatâs not alright with me, girl,â he grunted again, glaring you down. âleave the damn bottle!â
you stood your ground. âthereâs a bar across the street, mr. martin.â
âyou donât want my business, that it, sweetheart?â
ânot much business if you donât pay," you quipped.
through gritted teeth, he spat, âleave. the damn. bottle.â
âpay. the. tab.â
he went to catch you by the arm, but you were too quick. you anticipated his antics this time. you snatched an empty bottle, and broke the base of it in the sink. you put the broken, jagged edge of the neck of the bottle in between the two of you. your eyes were wild â you could feel it, and both men could definitely see it. startled, he drew back.
âthis is the only bottle youâre getting with that attitude.â
that was when billy stood up and walked towards the man. the thuds of his boots, though few considering the short distance, were deafening in the mostly silent bar. you may have had a makeshift weapon, but billy? billy the kid? everyone knew what he had on him.
âtime for you to leave, friend.â
the man laughed. âfriend? whoâs my friend to tell me when i need to leave?â
âthe one whoâs a quicker draw than you, that's who." his answer was slow and cool â too calm, which only made the shiver of a threat run up and down your spine faster.
the man, all talk, clenched his jaw as he stared at billy. he slapped the tab money on the top of the bar, and walked out.
you didnât let out a sigh of relief until the man left.
but billy was the one that spoke first. âwas going to step in immediately⊠but you held your own. they need to respect you before theyâre scared of me.â
you laughed. âlittle does he know iâm all talk as well.â
âwith that bottle?â he chuckled. âsweetheart, even i was scared.â
âyou threatened him with a gun⊠i donât think anything scares you, billy,â you asked. âthank you for stepping in.â
ââs my job.â
âi know⊠but still,â you spoke.
you were continuing to close before he spoke again.
âwhat made you want to start this place?â he asked.
âmy father passed a few moons before i opened this place,â you responded. âno parents, no husband â thought i might try this out.â
âmy ma wanted to start a place like this,â he replied. ânever got the chance.â
you nodded with a sad smile. âdidnât know her⊠but i think sheâd be proud of how you handled that. donât think heâll be much trouble anymore.â
âsheâd think iâm trouble with how full the lovely bartender keeps my glass,â he spoke, but looked like he instantly regretted it. âmy apologies, i shouldnâtâve â the whiskey ââ
âyouâre fine,â you laughed, your blush pinching your cheeks. as you walked away, you threw over your shoulder, âhopefully your ma wouldnât mind that i keep her sonâs glass full for his good work⊠nor that i think her sonâs handsome.â
from that day forward, billy was always the man who sat at your bar.
he always greeted and made pleasant conversation with you, and glared at any man that got too aggressive with you. if looks could kill⊠billy would never need what he held in his holster.
youâd giggle to yourself after the creepy men would walk away. youâd never know⊠but when billy would hear your giggle afterwards, heâd smile, too.
but he kept that to himself.
however, slowly⊠he was becoming more comfortable with your company.
âso why didnât you marry?â he one day asked randomly.
you were wiping down a glass when you got lost in the thought. âwhen thereâs a nice one thatâs interested⊠maybe. havenât already because there arenât very many nice ones. it was very convenient when you started keeping the bad ones away.â
to your dismay, he didnât say anything in response.
but you had gotten comfortable with his company, too. too comfortable.
âand why isnât there a mrs. bonney, billy?â
âsheâd get jealous about how much time i spend with you,â he responded.
there was very little emotion in his voice, and you were afraid of reading into what he was saying. was he returning your flirtations? was he telling you that you were a drag? to answer your own question, you jokingly said, âwell if iâm too much trouble, mr. bonney, you are more than welcome to have another one of your men step in.â
âwell, maâam ââ he began. âthen iâd get jealous of how much time they were spending with you.â
you couldnât hide the blush that rose into your cheeks. billy looked upon your face with a small smile tugging at his lips, and his gaze didnât waver.
âkeep talking like that, billy, and iâll become trouble for you,â you raised an eyebrow at him.
âcanât say iâd mind much,â he responded, taking a sip of his glass, but holding eye contact with you.
if you werenât frozen, you wouldâve pulled yourself over the bar right then and then and planted yourself in his lap. you wouldâve flung his glass to the floor, and wouldnât have cleaned it up until you had kissed every inch of that man. you wouldâve responded, but you couldnât...
that was when billyâs men had stepped into the bar.
the air immediately darkened. the blonde one, named jesse, had led the pack as they stalked in. billy immediately flipped around to see what the problem was.
âsweetheart, give us a minute,â billy asked, calling over his shoulder.
billy never gave you orders, let alone in your own bar. however, if he was asking you to⊠you figured you should probably listen. you left the bar and went into the back. most of your employees had left for the night, so you helped the remaining ones clean up. it would be a few minutes or so before billy had come back into the kitchen to find you. you went back into the bar with him.
âiâll be back before you close,â he spoke. âlock the doors.â
a second order. something he never did in the first place. something was wrong. you didnât pry⊠you just scrunched your eyebrows in response.
âsomethingâs up,â he spoke. he pressed a quick kiss to your cheek before he turned to leave. âiâm takinâ care of it.â
there you stood, absolutely stunned. billy and his men left the bar with haste and didnât look back. you, on the other hand, stood frozen⊠unable to leave the spot where you had billy the kid, known for his deadly skills, kiss you on the cheek.
you finally moved, reluctantly, but only to close up.
it would be close to an hour before billy finally came back. a few of his friends came with him, and they dragged in a man on their shoulder who was grunting in pain. blood was pouring from his leg, and you immediately went for the medical supplies you kept hidden under the counter. you grabbed two bottles of whiskey for good measure, arguably also a part of your makeshift kit.
âput him down on the table,â you gushed. his men were stunned to see you hustling, but they didnât hesitate to rest their friend. you immediately took a look at the manâs leg, and were thankful to see that there would be no permanent damage. you shoved a bottle at jesse, and stated, âmake him drink this.â
jesse had unscrewed the bottle and helped his friend drink before you fished out the bullet. thankfully no arteries were punctured, but it would be some time before he was good again. you cleaned up the man the best you could, and asked if any of the men needed anything.
âno, maâamâŠâ jesse responded. âwe were going to bring him here and do it ourselves, your place was closest⊠so thank you.â
you smiled at him. âtake the bottles. need it more than me.â
he tipped his hat to you.
âjesse,â billy began. âyou and the boys head home.â
without question, jesse nodded. they helped their friend to his feet and left with a goodbye. even though they left, the unsettling feeling of the room hadnât changed. billy seemed⊠different. heavier. he wasnât the same man that had kissed you on the cheek before he had left.
you turned to him. âi wonât pry, but ââ
âgood,â he spat, turning to you. billyâs eyes bore into yours like you were one of the problem men at your bar. âdonât.â
a look of hurt flashed across your face. you could feel it. âyouâre looking at me like i did something.â
âi told you to lock the door,â he spat again, his look of anger unwavering.
you had only seen billy's eyes that wide and that angry when there was someone being cruel to you. the thought made you shiver.
âhow would you have gotten back in?â you asked.
âknocked,â he bit.
you narrowed your eyes at his curt response. âi had a feeling something was wrong. if i had waited to unlock, i couldnât have gotten that bullet out as fast as i did.â
âdoesnât matter,â he bit. âhow am i supposed to keep you safe if you wonât listen to me?â
you scrunched your brows together in confusion. âbilly⊠whatever happened where you were, it wasnât here. i couldâve gone to bed⊠but i stayed up. waiting for you.â
âand what if someone came in, huh? what then?â he hollered. âwhat would you have done then?! what would i have done if you had gotten hurt?â
you shook your head in disbelief. you couldnât believe billy was speaking to you with such disdain. âwith the way youâre talking to me, billy â sounds like youâre used to women who donât pull knives on creepy men, hold broke bottles to their necks â or fish bullets out of legs when i donât know why he was shot in the first place. youâre used to those kind of women, and have a problem with me? maybe you should go back to them.â
you immediately turned away from him, beginning to walk towards the bar. billy was hot on your heels when he reached out to grab your wrist and turned you around.
he grabbed both sides of your face and pressed his lips to yours.
you wanted to scream at him, throw fists at his chest, push him away â anything to let you know how he hurt you, how he wronged you... but you couldn't.
no. you couldn't.
you were so stunned you stood frozen in place as his lips moved against yours. you loosely held his wrists in your hands, and kissed him back.
âdonât want those girls, darlinâ,â he spoke, breathless, in between kisses. âknew you were a real woman the first time i saw you. the kind that puts the fear of god into you, but looks at you with such a sweetness in her eyes that you canât look away.â
âbetter believe it, bonney,â you spat, half joking. âyouâve seen how quick i am.â
âi know, darlinâ, i know,â he whispered, kissing you once more. âi also know i was wrong to speak to you the way i did.â
âshut your damn mouth and kiss me,â you replied, pulling him closer to you.
âyes, maâam,â he playfully responded, and you slapped his shoulder.
billy had backed you up against the wall and pressed his body towards yours. you stood on your toes to reach him, and even then he had to lean down a foot or two.
âbillyâŠâ you began, pulling away. âiâve never⊠but if you wouldnât think less of me, we could go upstairs. to my room.â
âiâd never think less of you,â he spoke, shaking off your comment. âbut⊠whatâdâya mean, ânever?ââ
âiâve never been with a man, billy,â you responded, suddenly embarrassed.
he was quiet for a moment, before stating, âyou sure you want it to be with me?â
you nodded. âif⊠if you want to, that is.â
he didnât respond to your statement, he just kissed you. he kissed you with every emotion you didnât think he ever possessed â raw, hot, desperate emotion that held you close and tight to him. the heat and the intensity made your brain swim, but you could only care so much when billy the fucking kid wanted you.
he slipped an arm around your shoulders and then underneath your knees before he picked you up. you bit back a squeal before you threw your arms around his neck.
âlight as a feather, sweetheart, donât you worry,â he spoke.
âall that steak i been feeding you?â you joked.
âmy belt canât help it if my woman feeds me well,â he replied, almost at the top of the stairs.
âyouâre a flirt,â you giggled.
you pointed him towards your room. once in, he laid you down on the bed and laid on top of you. his body was warm and sturdy over yours, and you couldnât help but feel warm. his hips were pressed against yours, but you couldnât feel him through your dress. you grew frustrated at the thought.
you made quick work to undue his shirt, and billy was quick to catch on. he pulled away to take off his shirt, and you tried to take off your corset with his help.
âdamn death trap,â he spat, fussing.
you giggled. he was cute when he was flustered, but nothing compared to the way he was looking hungrily down at you. you were completely bare before him, and you shouldâve been embarrassed⊠but shame wasnât present in this moment. the only thing you registered was how billy looked down at you â with adoration in his eyes as they raked down your naked form.
âwill youâŠâ you began. âwill you show me⊠how to please⊠you?â
âanother time, sweetheart,â he spoke, stealing a quick kiss from you. âi need my head between those legs of yours.â
âyou-you donât have to ââ you spoke. âi know thatâs not something â that boys ââ
âyeah â boys.â billy snapped, glaring at you. âreal men want to taste their women.â
that shut you right up.
billy wedged himself in between your thighs and spread your folds. it caused a sharp intake of breath on your part, but you didnât realize what you were in for. billy flattened his tongue, and licked a long stripe up your slit. your teeth sank into your lip at the foreign feeling that cause so much warmth to make your veins twitch.
âŠbut when billyâs nose had nudged a specific spot at the top of your slit â your legs jerked.
âwhat â what ââ you stammered.
âshh,â billy cooed, slightly laughing. âi forgot how sensitive you were. my apologies, sweetheart.â
you trusted billy, sure, but you had never felt anything like that before in your life. the jerking motion of your legs was involuntary and made you fearful. billy could see the fear written on your face.
âthat spot that i touched, that you felt?â he asked.
his eyes were so wide and meaningful you felt like you could melt in them. you brought yourself up to your elbows and hummed in acknowledgement.
âthat is the most sensitive part of a woman, and if i play it just right ââ ever so lightly, you felt his middle finger and ring finger touch the spot. you shivered at the feeling, but you didnât flinch like last time. you held his gaze as the warmth began to spread inside you. âi can make you feel better than youâve ever felt.â
billy bent over your body and held himself up with extended arm planted firmly by your side. he swiped the two fingers over his tongue to lubricate them, and brought them right back to where they were. you both watched his fingers play at the most sensitive part of you, and your lip began to quiver.
âlook at me, sweetheart.â
your eyes glanced back up to him.
like you thought before, if angry looks could kill⊠anyone would die by just a look from billy the kid. however, what would they say about the way heâs looking at you now? with his plump lips parted, and his eyes wild and hungry? you didn't know... but you knew you would find out.
âyâtrust me?â he asked.
you hummed in agreement, nodding.
âsay it.â
you sharply inhaled, caught off guard by his order. âyes, billy â i trust you.â
instead of leaning back down to plunge his face in between your thighs, he kissed you. his lips connected with yours in one of the most dominating ways you ever thought a man could. with his hand playing between your thighs, he swallowed every moan and cry you struggled to keep hidden inside of you. billy was breathing hard against you â relishing in how it felt to have you so vulnerable and close to him.
that was when his fingers picked up speed.
and, god⊠did it feel damn good.
âb-billy,â you whimpered. âfeelsâŠâ
âstill trust me?â
âyes,â you cried, screwing your eyes shut. âyes, itâs justâŠâ
he leaned his head down so his mouth was right by your ear. his breaths were hot against your ear, and you hummed at the feeling. your hand played with the curls at the nape of his neck, tugging at the roots.
âfuck â you takinâ what iâm givinâ to you, darlinâ,â he rasped, then continued, âdrives me insane.â
you could barely hear what he was saying, nor could you respond. your head was swimming with the weight of billy so close to your naked body, holding you down and safe, with those skilled fingers of his working you like you were a damn trigger. you were a whimpering, crying mess â and billy loved every second of it.
âsomething â feels ââ
âdâya want me to stop?â he asked, breathless.
âno,â you whimpered, confused how the warmth inside you felt like it was going, going, going. you didnât know where it started, where it was going, and definitely didnât know where it ended. you were worried that you were going to explode â but you didnât understand. âsomething feels â like iâm â iâm going ââ
âlet it happen, sweetheart.â his kisses were wet and sloppy along the skin of your throat. he nipped at the skin, and that only sent you into more of a frenzy. âthatâs right, darlinâ. thatâs it. trust me. iâve got you.â
and that was it.
the thing â billyâs words, that sent you toppling over whatever metaphorical edge you could think of to describe it. it felt like white, hot sparks went off behind your closed eyelids and were going off on every nerve ending in your body. whimpers left your bitten lips like you were a babe, and your back arched off the bed. distantly, you could hear billy cooing with excitement, laughter⊠and praise.
a light sheen of sweat was on both of you, and billy had never looked better. his musk was wafting through the air and had completely taken over your senses. you felt like the only thing in the room was billy and the only thing in the world that mattered was billy. men got drunk off whiskey, but you? you got drunk off of that pure, unfiltered scent and look of a masculine man who showed you how to experience the pleasure of a woman you had never known.
âfuckâŠâ you whimpered as you came down from your high. you tried pushing billyâs hand away, but you were so weak you didnât think you could.
âsorry, darlinâ,â he laughed, kissing your throat again. âgot selfish. wanted to keep seeing that pretty look on your face.â
it was difficult for you to find words, let alone enough for an adequate response. âbilly⊠that⊠that feltâŠâ
âiâm gonna be trouble for you now.â he stole a kiss. ânothing better than seeing you below me, like thatâŠâ
âi want you to feel good, too,â you began. âplease, billy? i wanna see you, too.â
his lips formed a tight line. âi donât want it to hurt you.â
âfirst time doesnât always hurt,â you spoke. âno one says the second time hurts.â
he smiled at that, and began to roll on top of you. you stopped him, and gestured for him to sit up against the headboard. he was hesitant at first, but he did it anyway. you hovered your hips above his before licking one of your palms and gliding it over the tip of his length. you stroked him a few times, and a soft moan left his lips at the feeling.
âi can keep going,â you spoke, throwing a sultry look up at him. âi want to make you feel good.â
âno, doll,â he rasped. âtoo selfish. need to see that pretty face of yours do what it does again.â
you pouted for a short moment before you lifted your hips above his length and began to sink down. you could feel a slick leaking from your folds, which made you feel better about actually getting him inside you.
âgo slow,â he ordered suddenly. âyou stop if it hurts, got it?â
you nodded, half ignoring him.
but it didnât hurt.
the first inch didnât hurt. the second didnât. the third, the fourth, the fifth, sixth, â you lost count. billy was so big and filled you so nicely that you were so greedy with how you sank down into him. you couldnât have cared less about what he said before about going slow â all you needed was to feel all of him completely.
âyou didnât listen ââ he grunted, slightly mad. âyouâre so lucky you feel good, fuck â youâre so tight ââ
âso what if i didnât listen, mr. bonney?â you smiled coyly at him, a sudden bout of confidence coming over you. maybe it was the post orgasm glow, maybe it was the new feeling of having the most perfect man inside of you â you werenât sure. âyou feel â so good.â
âdonât get bold on me, sweetheart,â he smirked.
you didnât listen. you picked up your pace, rocking your hips back and forth to what felt good inside of you.
billyâs cock liked that, sure â but he didnât. you could see the mental turmoil on his face as his neglected cock was finally getting the attention it deserved, but his hothead person didnât like that his girl was getting smart on him.
that was when billy flipped you over onto your back, much to your dismay. you liked putting on a show for him and doing all the work for a change.
âyou wanna act like that, darlinâ, huh?â he asked in your ear with a raspy, lust filled voice. ânot gonna listen to me?â
âit just felt so good, billy, please ââ you were whining at this point, pissed he had taken away that feeling.
âoh, youâre a greedy thing, that right?â he taunted. âgets one fuckinâ taste, and now she canât get enough?â
you shook your head, desperate for something â anything. âso greedy, baby. please, billy â please just fuck me.â
his hips snapped against you. hard.
maybe it shouldâve hurt â but fucking christ, it didnât. it felt so good to have his strong, forceful hips thrust against yours and hit that spot so deep inside of you.
âyou like that?â he asked, taunting you. âthatâs what my greedy girl wanted? â needed?â
his hips were relentlessly snapping against yours now as he hovered above you by holding himself up on his elbows. the sight of his broad and strong chest and shoulders⊠enough to make any woman weak. a firm crease was in his brow, signaling he was struggling to keep up his mean persona.
âyes â yes ââ you cried. âbilly, youâre so deep â it feels â fuck, you canât stop billy. please ââ
âsweetest fuckinâ pussy,â he grunted. âsqueezing me so tight.â
âright there â thatâs the spot, baby,â you bit your lip to keep your voice down.
billy leaned his forehead against yours, and his exhales fanned against your face. little moans were escaping his lips as well, but nothing like yours. instead, he spat, âcouldnât let me be nice to you and fuck you sweet, huh? had to get smart on me?â
you could barely hear him. billyâs usual raspy, and commanding voice was enough to make anyone stand at attention â but now? now you were some cockdrunk whore who didnât care how she got what she wanted, only that she did. his thrust were hard and fast, hitting a deep spot in you that was making that warmth swell up in you again.
âdidnât want sweet, billy,â you whimpered. âwanted you to use me just like this.â
you werenât sure what came over you â and billy wasnât sure either. his thrusts didnât falter, but he couldnât understand how the pretty, innocent looking bartender could be so fucking naughty â but only for him. a sense of pride had never welled up inside him like that before, knowing that he was the only one who got to see the prettiest girl in town keen for someoneâs touch like this.
his touch. only his touch.
âgonna be the fuckinâ death of me,â he spat against your ear. âshouldâve known youâd be such a good girl for me â taking my cock like this. can you cum around my cock like this? gonna be the best girl â and show me how that pussy tightens around me?â
the curse words billy drew from you were not your sunday best, but they made billyâs guttural groans against your throat and ear that much more enticing. you were both covered in sweat, spit, and slick â and nothing had ever felt better. you were close, so close â and all you wanted was to see him finish so you could see it for yourself.
âbilly, iâm so close ââ you cried. âbut i wanna âi wanna see you ââ
âshhh,â he cooed. âgonna take what i give you, sweet girl.â
he sent a hand in between your bodies, and started playing with that spot that had made you explode the last time. you almost protested, but there was nothing like having a man buried so deep inside you do whatever he could to make sure you felt the best you could. you whined, you cried, you screamed, fuck â you did everything to let him know that you were close, billy, iâm so close, please, iâm begging, please donât stop, and billy refused to look away from your beautiful face as you came undone below him once more.
with your beautiful hair fanned out around you, billy thought you looked ethereal as your second orgasm overtook you. there was something about the way your eyes fluttered softly closed, but broken gasps left your lips like you were so far gone in pleasure that you were lost in it. here, beneath him, before him, was a woman he had spent so much time protecting, so worried about her safety⊠all he wanted to do was make her feel good. when your limbs began to quiver, knowing you were so deep in your orgasm that you were at the peak, billy couldnât help himself. he knew you were sensitive, he knew how it would be too much, he knew he shouldn't â but he had to. he was so, so selfish with his greedy girl.
his fingers kept spinning circles on your pink rosebud, and it was like the white light behind your eyes couldnât stop. you were gasping for air â begging, pleading, hoping, wishing. it was so much. it was too much. it was everything and anything all at once, and you didnât realize how far you were falling until tears leaked from your eyes.
he should've hated himself for making you feel so lost, but he didn't. not one bit.
âbilly ââ you cried, shaking. âiâm so â so sensitive ââ
he engulfed you into a long kiss, smiling smugly against your lips. you wouldâve laughed with him, but you were so weak. so, so weak. he knew how sensitive you were, and stopped his movements completely. you didnât realize he hadnât finished with you until he began to pull out of you.
âbilly â you didnât ââ
âsâalright, darlinâââ
âno, itâs not,â you said firmly. âteach me how to do â that thing.â
âthat... thing?â
âwith my mouth.â
he hesitated before shaking his head. âi donât⊠tonight was a lot â for you.â
you narrowed your eyes at him. âboys donât taste their women, right? men do?â
he scrunched his eyebrows together, confused, but nodded anyway.
âand what about real women, billy?â you asked. âyou think they like leaving their men unsatisfied?â
his lips parted at a loss. he couldnât argue with that, could he?
âsit on the edge of the bed,â you spoke, sliding out from under him and finding a place on the floor.
he hesitated, but he didnât argue with that, either.
you tried to hide your smirk from him.
he'd never tell you he saw it. he also would never tell you he loved it.
"you gonna tell me what to do, or what, cowboy?" you smirked up at him, taunting.
he shook his head, and pursed his lips in a way that he knew you were in over your head. "you're acting bold. let's see if you got a reason to."
you narrowed your eyes at him, but smiled anyway.
you returned your attention to the muscle you were holding in yours hands. it was long and thick â you weren't sure how it fit inside you before, and you definitely weren't sure how you were going to fit it in your mouth.
"too much for you, darlin'?" he quipped.
you shot him a look. "wasn't too much a minute ago, was it?"
you didn't let him respond. you licked the palm of your hand â throwing manners to the wind â and wrapped your hand around the tip and the top of the shaft. you made circular, stroking motions at the top and licked a stripe, like he did to you, up his shaft.
that shut him up.
a long and drawn out fuuuck had left his lips.
you shouldn't've â you knew you shouldn't've.
but you did anyway.
you started to kitten lick at his balls, and you could feel him shift from above you. hot and heavy groans were leaving his lips, to the point where he was incoherent. now that you had found his sweet spot, you'd never let go. just like he didn't.
"fuck, you are naughty," he rasped, voice dry and cracked. "my naughty girl. so good f'me."
you hummed as you wrapped your lips around the skin of his balls. they were warm and salty, and you relished in the taste. billy placed a heavy palm on the back of your head. you realized then and there he was foreign to giving up control â usually you'd give in, but not now. not when he was teasing you before.
you replaced your hand with your lips, and brought him down as far as you could.
from the corner of your eye, you spotted him beginning to fist the sheets.
tears were springing to your eyes, but you didn't care. you wanted to â had to keep going. you wanted this so badly â to take care of him. you needed this, and if he wanted it, too â he was going to give it to you.
you began to bob your head up and down, taking care to mind your gag reflex and teeth. the slurping sounds from your mouth were obscene â as was the drool falling from your lips, down your cheek, and along the skin of your raw neck.
both of billy's hands were on the back of your head now, giving you slightest â almost ghost like â push down. you welcomed it, hoping to show him you could take him far, farther than he thought you could handle.
above, he was going crazy. fucking nuts. his entire body was hot and on fire, and it took every ounce of him to not drag you back up into his lap and impale you on his cock. however... his muscles were tired, and his sweet girl looked so perfect on her knees before him, and who was he to deny her what she wanted so badly â what she earned?
he'd never tell you â but he wanted you to have it more than you wanted it yourself. he wanted you to know that he only felt comfortable enough with you to be in such a vulnerable position like this â pretty woman, teeth so close to his jewels. he wanted you to know that you were setting every nerve, vein, blood vessel on absolute fucking fire with the way your silky tongue slid down the length of his shaft, and the way your tight, warm throat enclosed around his sensitive cock... he wanted you to know how much he adored you, and how much he wanted to give you everything you had ever wanted.
"fuck, sweetheart â" he bit. "I'm so close â you better â pull off â"
"too much for you, cowboy?" she only pulled off for a second, before she put him into the deepest parts of her throat.
the way you teased him set a raw set of anger and adoration through this veins, and he didn't know what to do with it. he was so weak, tired, spent, and fucking horny â he couldn't move, think, or fight back. all he wanted was to cum down this sweet girl's throat and make her his.
"that's it, baby, fuck â" he spat through gritted teeth, the hands on the back of your head encouraging your movements. "right there, right there â fuck."
you held your place, keeping a few inches of him in your mouth. his thick cock throbbed a few times before ropes of white decorated the walls of your throat, and you swallowed every last drop. you pumped him a few more times, for good measure â and also to get back at him for earlier.
"don't be mean to me, baby â" he whined. "come up and lay with me."
you giggled, crawling up the bed to lay next to him.
"gonna tell me how that was?" you asked. "or too proud?"
he chuckled then. his post orgasm glow was so beautiful... for the first time, william h. bonney didn't have a permanent from embedded in his brow. he looked so... peaceful.
"not too proud to admit that was the best I've ever had in my life," he laughed, letting his eyes close. you trailed a hand up and down the soft skin of his chest and stomach before curling up next to him. "going to be proud after i take you to the courthouse tomorrow and make you my wife."
you scoffed at that. "i didn't think cowboys were the settling down type."
"they're not â but i'm no cowboy, sweetheart," he rasped, turning to look at you. "you're it for me â if you'll have me, that is."
you smiled then. a real smile. the type of smile that gave billy hope.
"on one condition," you spoke.
his eyebrows furrowed, but he nodded his head anyway.
"you'll ask me for real in the morning, mr. bonney."
"i'll give you anything you want, mrs. bonney â as long as you're mine."
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Accidents Happen
Warnings: hospitals, mentions of injuries, let me know if I missed any :)
Pairings: Avengers x reader platonic
Request: Hi hi! Can you please do a avengers x little reader? R is 6 and maybe Natasha or peter drop her off at school but a few hours after school starts they get a call saying she had an accident and got injured badly. So the whole team shows up at the school to rush her to the Emergency room and the person who dropped R off feels really guilty but the R tells them it wasn't their fault (also could R be wise for her age?) Anyways thanks feel free to ignore this or change some things thank you!
Request by: Anon
*not my gif*
Summary: Nat blames herself for the accident you had at school that causes the entire team to rush to the hospital
A/N: I loved writing this
Please donât plagiarize my work, you may reblog if you like but Iâm asking that you donât steal my hard work
âThank you, Nattie!â You called, scrambling out of the backseat and sending a wide, toothy grin to the redhead.
Natasha smiled at you fondly, âYouâre welcome, n/n, have a good day.â
You closed the car door and turned on your heels hurrying towards the entrance, excited for school to start. The woman couldnât help but chuckle, youâre the only kid sheâs ever met thatâs been happy to go learn, especially at six years old.
She watched from the car until the entrance door swung shut softly behind you before she put the car into drive once more and set off to begin her no doubt long day, though a soft smile still lingered on her lips from her interaction with you.
-âą-
âWhere the hell is she?â
âWhatâs going on?â
âDo you know who I am? I could have you fired with the snap of my fingers!â
âThis place is full of so many puny humans, and yet not a single one of them is giving me a straight answer!â
The outraged roars of Earthâs mightiests heroes might not have been what anyone in the hospital was expecting in the middle of the day, but to be fair- they were beyond stressed and concerned. They had no idea what was going on, not really.
About fifteen minutes ago, Natasha had received a phone call from your school- her being your emergency contact- in the middle of a debrief with her teammates. The principal on the other side of the phone had been very vague as she informed the woman that she had been in an accident and was rushed in an ambulance to the nearest hospital, all but hanging up before Romanoff could fire off any one of the thousands of questions racing through her mind.
Chaos had followed that phone call, the avengers all scrambling around, trying to get to the hospital as quickly as possible with no real direction as to what was going on.
So now, they stood in the lobby, anger and worry etched onto each of their faces respectively as they swung around in circles, demanding answers from any of the many people working there.
Bucky and Thor both looked seconds away from lunging towards the closest doctor and shaking them until they gave them an explanation and to point them in your direction.
Tony was sneering at every person that passed, trying to intimidate them while Steve tried to ask questions as calmly as he could. Clint looked seconds away from diving through the doors dedicated to doctors only.
The only one that was silent was Natasha. She stood in the middle of the chaos with her arms pulled around her stomach, face paler than normal and looking as though she might be sick.
She had dropped you off this morning. She had been the one to leave you at that school without a second thought. How could she not realize that something would go wrong? She always had a sixth about that kind of stuff.
And now, because of her lack of realization, you were somewhere in this vast building, lying in a hospital bed, all alone- probably scared. And she didnât even know if you were alright.
âMiss. Romanoff?â
The voice automatically silenced all of the avengers and they all whipped in the direction of it.
The doctor who spoke, to her credit, didnât look the least bit intimidated at being stared down by the people, instead glanced down at her clipboard, âYouâre here to see Y/n L/n, correct?â
Natashas head immediately bobbed up and down, moving forward, fear gripping her heart, âIs she okay?â
A sympathetic and reassuring smile appeared on the womanâs face, âSheâs going to be fine,â She assured the group.
Everyone's muscles immediately loosened and Natahsa felt a shaky breath leave her lips as fear's grip loosened a bit on her heart.
âWhat happened?â Tony demanded, still not fully convinced.
With an incline of her head, the avengers all piled after the doctor as she led them through the workers only door, âShe was in an accident at school. Apparently she had been trying to jump to the monkey bars at recess, but misjudged the distance and landed at the wrong angle on the metal pole of the jungle gym, hitting her head. She was knocked out, so the school called us. She has a concussion, but sheâll be fine in a few weeks if you take the proper precautions. We can discuss those later.â
There it was again, the fear and worry and guilt that was consuming the redheads entire being. She could tell by their reactions that her team was feeling the same.
âRight in here.â The doctor cast them one last smile before leaving them at the door of your room.
Immediately, Bucky all but threw the door open and everyone rushed in, crowding into the small room.
Natahsa pulled up short at the sight of you, lying in the hospital bed, looking smaller than normal surrounded by all the big equipment in the oversized bed.
You turned your head with wide eyes at the sound of footsteps, but relaxed into a smile when you saw who it was.
âHi, guys,â You piped happily- as if nothing happened- but your voice was a bit weaker than normal.
âOh, n/n,â Nat breathed out, immediately falling to your side, crouching down, grasping your hand in hers and squeezing it, âAre you okay?â
You nodded, smiling up at the woman, âIâm fine, my head just hurts.â
The woman frowned, smoothing back your hair from your forehead, âDo you need anything?â
Apparently, the team had caught onto Romanoffs feelings of guilt a while ago, because they exited the room at that moment, knowing that they should give her some space with you for a few minutes to sort through her emotions. They hated leaving you, but knew you would always be safe as long as Natasha was around.
You shook your head- slowly so as to not hurt yourself more, âIâm fine.â You promised, âIâm happy youâre all here.â
A shaky breath once again slipped from the woman's lips, âIâm so sorry,â Her eyes were welled up with tears.
It was then your turn to frown, confusion pulling your eyebrows down, âFor what, Nattie?â You had no idea what she was talking about.
âIf I hadnât left you today, if I had known that something was wrong, I never wouldâve left you.â A single tear slipped down her cheek as she squeezed her eyes shut and put your still intertwined hands to her forehead.
You squeezed her hand once, âItâs not your fault, Nattie, you couldnât have known.â You were smiling kindly at her now.
âBut-â
You shook your head stubbornly, a trait she often wondered if you got it from her, âItâs not your fault. It couldâve happened to anyone and thereâs no way to tell if or when itâll happen. Accidents happen.â You insisted.
A shaky huff of a laugh left her lips as she pressed a kiss to your forehead, âWhen did you get so wise?â
A wide grin appeared on your face, âI always have been, youâre just noticing now.â
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Hi so I went a bit overboard with this one but Iâm having so much fun writing those you guys have no idea
Anyways enjoy <3
GUYS IT HAS PART 2 NOW WTFFF
James
pads i need you to come here like RIGHT NOW
Pads
???
Who are you?
James looked at the message confused.
James
your best friend?? who needs your help with your dog?????
Pads
Wrong number.
Now he was super confused. He talked with Sirius this morning. He called this number and he talked with Sirius.
James
this is really not the time for pranks pads
moony isnt answering his phone and gigi is vomiting all over my place
what do i do???????
The answer didnât come right away, but when it did his confusion grew even further. He was trying to give the poor Gigi a bowl to puke into when he read âI might know what happened. Send me the address, Iâm coming over.â Without thinking twice he shared his location with the person who was supposed be his best mate. After that, he put down his phone and went back to calming Gigi and giving her some water. If it works for people, it should work for a dog, right? RIGHT???
15 minutes later he heard the doorbell ring and thatâs when it hit him. Sirius knows where he lives. Sirius wouldnât take this long to get to his precious child, as he calls the black mass of fur on Jamesâ carpet. This really wasnât Sirius.
His first reaction was panic - who the fuck did he send his address to? Then he thought he could pretend heâs not here. But what about Gigi?
When the doorbell rang for the second time, he decided to text that person.
James
who are you again?
Pads
Open the door. Iâm not going to kill you.
Or am I?
Now he was scared. Although it was a bit funny, he had to give them that.
Slowly he went to the door, checking in the viewfinder who is on the other side. Unfortunately the person had their back turned to him so it didnât give him anything. With shaky hands he turned the key and opened the doors with a gentle creak. Hearing that, the person in front of him turned and- wow.
The snow-white face was surrounded by a delicate halo of black waves. His strong jaw and sharp cheekbones could make him look rough if it weren't for his soft, pink lips, turned up in a gentle smile, and his eyes. Eyes in which you could immerse yourself as if in an endless, silvery cloud of stardust.
âHi there, Sunshineâ Siriusâ younger brother said passive-aggressively. Ah, nothing has changed since school. Also, it would explain the âwrong numberââ thing. Somehow?
âHello, Little Starâ James replied with a nervous smile, after clearing his throat several times. They stayed there in the doorway for few seconds, intense enough to make it feel like hours.
Finally, James cleared his throat for the last time and turned, letting Regulus in. âThank god youâre not a murdererâ he laughed lightly as he led his guest (his one-man-rescue-team?) to the living room, where Gigi was shaking under fluffy blanket.
âDid you give her something?â Regulus asked, kneeling next to the poor thing.
âWhat? No! Why and what would I give her?â James burst out, terrified of the accusation. What if he accidentally gave her something he shouldnât have and now sheâs going to die? That would mean he was going to die shortly after. Oh no, oh no, oh-
âCalm down, I was just making sure. Look at your carpetâ Reg grumbled pointing at the destroyed thing.
âYeah, I know - she puked at it like a thousand times. No need to point it outâ James huffed, now irritated a bit by Regulusâ rudeness.
âI- Thatâs not what I meantâ shorter man laughed softly, such a sweet sound. âShe ate a pice of it, look at the right corner.â
âWhat do you- ohâ in the whole mess oh vomits he didnât even notice a part of the carpet disappeared. âSo she was just-â
âClearing her stomach, yeahâ Reg smiled at him crookedly. âShe did the same to my shoe last week. Just give her some water for now and weâll take her to the vet.â
âWhat do you mean we? I can handle a vet appointmentâ James said, pouring some water for his goddaughter (yes, sheâs his goddaughter, fuck off).
âNo, you canât. Now take her, Iâll driveâ Regulus said strutting out of the room. James just lifted the, whatsoever, heavy dog and ran after his best friendâs brother.
He asked Reg to close the door behind them and take the key. The clinic wasnât far away from his flat, but either way it felt like forever to get there since Regulus refused to talk to him, because âit distracts himâ.
When they finally got there, the vet just laughed at them for coming to her for the second time in a week and cooed at Gigi, mumbling something about her âcool uncles not being very good for herâ (hopefully jokingly but who knows). She checked if Gigi was alright, gave her some medicine and asked them to come in few days for checkup.
Walking out of the clinic Regulus asked James if he needed any help with cleaning up after Gigiâs accident.
âActually yeah, would you help me?â he replied with hopeful eyes.
âI literally just suggested thatâ Reg said, rolling his eyes.
So, they did just that. They rolled the destroyed carpet, cleaned the floor and some of the mess left on the sofa Gigi was sleeping soundly in the corner of.
When they finished, Regulus went to the door, with James thanking him all the way down the hall. They stood in the doorway again, same intense silence between them as before.
Reg cleared his throat. âSo, Iâm gonna go now. Bye.â
James nodded slightly. âThanks againâ he said once more, getting a fond eye roll from the other man. With that Regulus turned and went to the elevator. ThenâŠ
âHey, Reg?â He turned again, one brow raised. James gather himself, swallowed thickly and on the exhale, almost shy, he asked âWould you like to stay for dinner?â
The younger man stood there, both brows raised now. Slowly he smiled at James and nodded.
âI would love to, actually.â
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cold coffee and sloppy notes
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summary: As the 141 returns home, they're always more than happy to support their favorite student as you work towards your degree.
pairing: Task Force 141 x student!civ!Reader
warnings: none :) all fluff
a/n: i thought this was fitting as i'm now officially back in school! good luck to everyone who is also heading back and feel free to reach out if you need any help or just want to destress :)
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price - defending your thesis
"How's it going in here, love?" John asked as he entered the living room. He observed the TV that had your thesis defense presentation and the collection of papers and notecards on the table. "It'sâŠokay?" you said, almost questionably. In fact, it was not okay. You had gone over your presentation to the fictional group of panelists thousands of times but always tripped up on your words. He could sense your distress and enveloped you in a comforting hug. "Is there anything I can do to help?" he asked as he rubbed your back lightly. "I don't know," you mumbled, "I just need to get this presentation down." He took a step back and made his way to the couch. "Then present it to me, and I'll give you some feedback."
âGood morning panelists,â you began nervously as you clasped your hands together. âTake a deep breath,â John corrected and you sighed before taking a seat next to him. He placed a comforting arm around your shoulder before you leaned into his side. âWhat if they donât approve of my research?â you shakily spoke as your mind flooded with the possibility. You had spent 4 years researching this topic and the only thing in between you and your doctorate was your thesis defense. âWell you canât go in like that,â he advised, âresearchers can smell fear.â You lightly punched his shoulder as you both laughed. âIâm serious!â you exclaimed, âWhat if they tell me I wasted all these years?â You sighed again and he placed a gentle hand on your cheek. âYouâre the expert on this topic, you just have to show them that,â he reassured and you smiled back to his soft gaze. You spent a few moments like this before getting up again and trying to go through your presentation.
You looked down at the coffee table of notes before John snatched them in his hand. He held them gently in his lap before looking back at you. You were about to object when he placed a finger to his mouth. âLove, if you keep a script then youâre going to sound like wet cardboard,â he explained as your face twisted in a mix of emotions, âI doubt theyâd want to sit through another boring defense.â You took a moment to compose yourself before he gestured for you to start again. âGood morning panelists,â you repeated, with more vigor than the last time, âI am Y/N, a Ph.D. candidate in the Department ofâŠâ Even if tomorrow you left as a candidate, you knew that you would have Johnâs unwavering support through it all.
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soap - mathematics work
As you lay on the loveseat with Johnny, you groaned loudly. You stomped your feet childishly on his lap which caught his attention. He looked up from his phone as you frustratingly erased at the paper. "You alright?" he asked and you shook your head. This assignment for your maths class had taken you hours and you still could not figure it out. The words on the page began to blend together and you were at a loss of where to start. "I don't understand why I took a maths class," you mumbled and put your forearms above your head. Soap patted your leg reassuringly before trying to peek a look at your notebook. "Let me take a look," he offered and you couldn't help but laugh.
âThanks, babe but I donât know if you can help,â you said, chewing on the end of your pencil. âTry me,â he joked as he looked at you. Deciding it didn't hurt to let him try, you threw over your notebook with impossible equations and problem sets. You took the time to check your phone and take a break from your calculations. After a few moments of him thinking out loud and throwing out various âhmmmmsâ and âI sees,â you sighed as if you were wasting his time. You were about to take the notebook back when he hit a eureka moment. âPencil me,â he commanded and you passed it over to him. After a few more scribbles and mental math, he presented you with the solution. âHere ya go,â he said smiling and you couldnât believe he found an answer. Your eyes scanned over the sloppy handwriting but you were able to see it followed the equation you had learned and the answer was reasonable.
âHow-how did you do that?â you asked as you looked over his work. You hoped it was correct but weâre at a loss for his sudden stroke of genius. ââm more than just a pretty face,â he joked and you pushed you eyed him suspiciously. âIâm serious, Johnny.â âThink âbout it, my job is all about maths,â he explained, âdemolitions is about figuring out how much ya need, how big the building is, and where the pressure points are.â You shook your head in disbelief. He was right after all, geometry was so integral to many professions even if you didnât enjoy it. "Thank you," you smiled and leaned forward to give him a quick kiss, "might just ask for your help on all my assignments."
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gaz - studying
Kyle returned from the kitchen with two cups of tea, surprised to find you had overtaken the living room floor with your textbooks, notes, and electronics. You had been at it for hours now and Kyle was more than happy to make dinner and clean your flat while you worked. The room was filled with a mix of classical music and lo-fi beats. Somewhere in there, he could've sworn he heard the Coconut Mall theme song. "Hey, you," he called and you looked up at him. He noticed the bags around your eyes as you pushed back your blue light glasses. "How's it going," you weakly asked and motioned for him to sit. You shuffled a few papers around on the couch behind you as he maneuvered through the mess.
He placed your favorite cup of tea down on the glass table before settling on the comfortable seat. You sipped it gently and savored the taste. "Decaf?" you asked, looking back at him, and he nodded. "I don't think you need more caffeine," he chided as you rolled your eyes in response. "I just have so much to do," you replied before looking back down at your organized mess. You always dreaded finals season and would procrastinate studying until the last week. Despite having copious amounts of notes, you were at a loss to remember all the material asked of you. You wished there were more hours in the day to study.
âLove, you should rest,â Kyle gently suggested as he put a hand on your shoulder. You leaned back into his touch, groaning at the eye strain and the now persistent headache. âI donât know if Iâm ready,â you whispered, trying to overcome your anxiety and disappointment in your lackluster study habits. Kyle massaged your shoulders as you closed your eyes. âWeâll wake up early tomorrow and I can help you study in one of those cafes you love,â he offered and you nodded with a smile on your face. As you relaxed into his soothing motions, he stopped before cupping your tired face. âLetâs go to bed and start again tomorrow, yeah?â you again nodded, this time eyes heavy with sleep, before you followed him to bed.
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ghost - reading and revising
When you were nose-deep in a textbook heavier than his tac vest, Simon knew to vacate the room. You were a model student and Simon would always let you know when he returned home. While you loved seeing your boyfriend, you also enjoyed his clean flat without any flatmates. Youâd often lug your materials to his and request a table to organize everything. After five minutes, Simon would walk by to see you with a stack of textbooks to your side and your iPad propped up in the center of the oak table. He also noted the sticky tabs and highlighters organized by some unknown hierarchy delicately placed in arms reach. You were your own tour-de-force and with your large headphones, it was only you and your revisions in this world.
Simon didn't mind the peaceful atmosphere. It often allowed him time to clean his flat from the accumulating dust or exercise in his bedroom. "Just tell me if I'm being too loud," he'd whisper before you put on your headphones, tuning out the world. He would leave you until you finished or you found him in another room. It was a functional routine and Simon enjoyed it. This time, you had a large exam coming up and Simon had run out of errands and chores to do. As he entered the room with some paperwork in hand, you nodded in approval before returning to your work. Every so often, he would look over at your hunched-over figure and smile to himself.
Eventually, as the sun began to set, Simon decided to return to the paperwork another day. He closed up the manila envelopes before stretching slightly and making his way to the door. He was pondering what to order for dinner when he heard you take off your headphones. âCan you stay?â you said, barely over a whisper and Simon stopped in his tracks. He looked over to you but your eyes remained trained on the minuscule font. âYou want me to stay?â he questioned as he walked back over to the couch. As he reclined himself on the seat, you looked up. âIf you donât mind,â you smiled, âyour presence is reassuring.â Simon let out a soft chuckle at your explanation. It wasnât every day someone told him he was a comforting presence in the room. "I can stay for few," he replied, "but we're getting dinner in an hour and you're taking a break." He laughed as you shooed him away with your hand before returning to your productive state. Simon closed his eyes and rested, knowing you wouldn't mind. Hopefully, your headphones were loud enough to drown out his snoring.
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Hi love, can i request one for peaky blinders? Where y/n is in school with Finn and he knows sheâs struggling at home so he asks Tommy and the others if they can get her a job or something to help her out. So maybe she gets to clean at the Garrisons and/or maybe watch Johnâs kids. One night when he gets home late she stays and help him clean up and maybe something happens. Then he says he doesnât need any help with the kids anymore. Cause he feels bad dragging her in to that life and taking care of his kids and all. But everytime they meet they canât keep away from eachother.. they end up together maybe Tommy speaks some sense into John or have a talk with y/ns parents to let her marry John? You can do with this idea what you like? I would love to read it!
John Shelby- Canât Stay Away
Hey! So I changed it a little because of the ages hope that ok so instead of being in school with Finn YN went to school with John and they stayed good friends.
John and I have been friend since we were 4 years old when we started school. My home life wasnât always great, my father was an alcoholic and my mother was abusive. Mrs Shelby ended up most evening cooking me meals, making sure I had clean clothes. When she passed away it broke all of us.
After wanting to leave my home, Polly gave me a place to live, but finding a job was very hard so I ended up marrying a man who I didnât love, but he passed away during the war. Tommy got me a job at the Garrison and after Martha passed away I started helping John look after his kids, which caused me to start catching feelings for him. Iâve been doing this now nearly every other day, picking the kids up from school.
Today was no different. I just put them all to bed when John finally comes home
âHeyâ I smile at him âhave you eaten anything? Thereâs left oversâŠ.â
âIâm getting marriedâ he blurts out making me stop walking towards the kitchen. I turn around with a frown on my face, my heart feels like itâs been crushed into thousands of tiny pieces ïżŒ
âOhâ is all I can say
âItâs errr Lizzie. Lizzie Starkâ
âWhat?â Lizzie? The woman whoâs slept with all of the Shelby brothers, well all except Finn as heâs like 12
âYeah so errr I donât need to to help out anymoreâ
âOh. Ok erm well Iâll erm see you round thenâ not really knowing what to say I give John a small smile âcongratulations John. I hope she makes you happyâ I quickly grab my coat and leave Johns house before he can see that my eyes are starting to tear up.
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Over the next few days YN tries her best to stay away from John, but she just canât. Not only is that her best friend but she loves him. Tommy being so wise knows how YN feels, but he also knows John also has feelings for his best friend. Heâs just being stubborn.
Tommy and his brothers are sat in the snug at the Garrison nursing a whiskey
âSheâs gonna changeâ
âSheâs not. I offered her money and she took itâ
âFuck!â John yells running his hands over his face
âBut ya know who wouldnât take the money⊠YNâ
âTomâŠâ
âTommys right John. That girl loves you. She has from the day you metâ
âBut she got marriedâ John frowns at his Aunt who rolls her eyes
âMen⊠she married because you got marriedâ
âButâŠâ
âYes you did the right thing, but did you love Martha?â
âOf course I didâ
âLike the way you love YN?â Tommy ask
âIâŠ.â
âYour a fool if you marry Lizzieâ Arthur comments downing his whiskey. Just then thereâs a knock on the door and YN walks in
âHey Iâm just about to go, but is there anything else you want before I leave?â YN asks looking around, mainly looking at John
âNo thank you love. Weâll see you tomorrowâ Polly smiles. YN nods her head and says bye to everyone before walking out. Tommy looks at John whoâs staring at the door of the snug. Tommy then looks at the door then back at John
âBloody hell, go after her!â John quickly gets up and leaves the room as quick as he can. Tommy downs his whiskey âthank fuck for thatâ.
John runs down the street shouting YNâs name. YN stops and turns round confused to why John is runnin after her. Had she forgotten something?
âJohn?â but before anything else could be said Johns lips are immediately on YNâs. YN pulls back still feeling confused âwhy did you do that?â
âBecause Iâve finally had some sense knocked into me. I love you YN. I canât stay away from you. Itâs you I want to marry, to help look after my kids and maybe even had kids with⊠thatïżœïżœs if youâll let me?â
âWhat about Lizzie?â YN asks
âIâll break it off with her, I promise, butâŠâ John then gets down on one knee âwill you marry me?â
âThatâs all Iâve ever wanted to hear. Of course I willâ with that John gets up and spins YN round, kissing her lips. Little did the couple know that Tommy had also left the Garrison hoping to catch a glimpse of the two. He wonât ever tell anyone, but he did smile when he saw his brother and YN happy in each otherâs arms finally.
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The thought I can NEVER get out of my head for academic rivals is when both of them end up putting their brilliant minds together to solve one thing can we get that w academic rivals gavi plsplspls đ
here you go anon bae <3
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warnings. business class mentions & suggestive content 18+
a/n. literally went through the depths of pinterest to find pictures of gavi in this specific suit. spain needs to bring these suits back idk.
lightly tapping your pen against your lips you kept analyzing the last question on your presentation. while gavi flipped through his many notes trying to find any piece of information that could back up his claim. the two of you had never been paired up for a project before so the newfound territory was not helping either of you. in retrospect the question was quite simple all the two of you had to do was pick the best business offer of the three given to you.
âitâs the third option-â gavi starts
âwhat? no itâs not.â you scoff. âif our business chose that offer weâd lose more than twenty percent of our ownership.â
âokay, yeah but theyâre giving us over a half a million euros plus additional funding for marketing purposes. itâs a really good deal if you think about it.â he stands up from your desk making his way towards your bed.
ânot when our company has already made over five million in sales in just one year. weâre fine in the marketing department. yes, we need the money but we also shouldnât be giving up such a high stake of our company. itâs too risky.â you try to reason as he stares up at you. the red tie from your school uniform making his brown eyes pop out.
âokay fine. which option do you find more appealing then?â he grabs his pen pointing it at you. âand it better not be the first option.â
âwell obviously not. itâs clearly the second option. weâre only giving up ten percent of the company and theyâre giving us over three-hundred thousand euros which is more than what we need to expand our warehouses. not to mention theyâve also helped thousands of other local companies become big names around the country. itâs the smart choice.â you type down your reasoning as you explain it.
âyou knowâŠâ he leans over you carefully removing your laptop from your lap. âyou get ten times more attractive when you do that.â
âdo what?â you look up at him and notice his smirk.
âwhen you take your work all seriously like that. our company isnât even real.â he teases you. âitâs so hot.â
you barely have time to react before his lips on yours your hands making their way towards his hair like second nature. his hands trails from your cheeks to your neck before making their way to your ass. you gasp into the kiss as he gropes your ass, the brunette using it as the perfect opportunity to leave a trail of kisses from your mouth to your neck.
âwell one of us has to- fuck...â you can barely speak as he places kisses on your neck. âto be the smarter one out of the two.â
âoh, so now youâre the smarter one? i recall you calling me asking me for help-â he tries to tease you.
âyou know now that i remember you left your stinky uniform here the other day. maybe you should go take care of that.â you push him off you. âi donât want my room smelling like sweaty athlete.â
you walk him towards the laundry room dropping off some of your clothes as well. he watched intently as you place his clothes in the washer and carefully pour in some detergent. the act feeling too domestic. he wondered how you could possibly take care of him while you still had your own problems going on. you were too good for him.
âhave you ever done it on top of the dryer?â he sneaks up on you.
âyouâre disgusting pablo.â you shove him away.
âoh, come on.â he grins.
#chat i have become attached to academic gavi#academic rival!gavi#pablo gavi x reader#gavi x reader#pablo gavi smut#gavi smut#football imagine#football smut#gabri writes#gabri answers
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scheduled hopefully for appropriate insanity causing hours
304 cant believe everyone in gin.tama just lives like this. the. speech convictions dramatic childhood flashbacks promises lifestyle. not just for main characters i guess (is this guy the shogun.....)
yay yay yippppppe the guys. yay ayay yippeee flashbacks. DONT DIE.
kaaaaaaruga. always suspected. if i understood her more id be obsessed. Confirmed. 2 second in pulling that. i was waiting for ur weakness bullshit. BEAT UP UR OLDER BROTHER. (<- comma. gay? ) kagura born on this planet.... half a second of taka.gin grappling could sustain me for a life time (gin puts his hands on him to throw him) hey fellas i know this is the Sword Penis show but have u considered going at it meg.op. style. for me?
omg baby flashback leftest infighting. sugi ur not the most oppressed person in the world u know. well u would say that scholarship baby zura. diddddddd they shape each others ideologies like that. where they reading theory together as shitty little kids -> well prob not this show but lets indulge
oh right gin former. ghost eating thing. showing up to the school yard beef with a real sword.
HI SHOU.YOU. HI. his little pogchamps
loveeee how they do the blood in this show looks like velvet, alll dark shimmery. also the editing. wooooo.
bushido speech. this shit is cool actually. also leon.ardo the ninja turtle would love it (03)
zura giving him fooooood oh no. little. verbal redirects of kindness transparency
NOOOO SUGI beats gin for the first time clip NO NONO SUGI LAUGHING SLOW MO CLIP (already tearing up)
ahhhh the position of the school and the attitudes of the backgrounder kids actually very affecting and interesting isnt it.... shou.youuuuuuuu the man(thing) that u are....
ep. 305
theeeeee babies. the babies.... the babiest guys. so so charmedddd by them charmeddd again by how. unexpected? maybe. sugi and zura stick together.... the remainers..... kidtoki why are uuuu such a perfectly cromulent. thing. little. video game character ass look. perfect. shitty cool affect. wanna pinch his little cheeks 10/10 letting this kid be the leader of the playground gang.
shou.youuuuuu shou.youuuuuu. such a. believably. man with his complexities but hes being around children so (friendly voice) 'thats right. what do you think' sooooo. yeah immediately believes 100 thousand percent he means everything he says so truly yeah i probably would get. horrible weird trauma give the givens too
THROW THE SWORDS AWAY YAYYYYYY. flashback. ohhhhhhh sugi. i little. weird bitch (said in. desperate scrambling fondness. i love the things that are wrong with him)
gin boots are so hot...
SOMEONE INTIMATE TO CUT AND CURSE!!!!!!! ohhhhh babes (what could i possible say abt it that hasnt been said) well i hope they fuck themselves to death about it
fightscene styles gt vs tf <- place holder i left for myself. that will be extricated to a diff post.
gin scrambling in the blood and dirt under all the promises he has given his loved one. YES BABE. thats exactly what ur supposed to be going
ohhhhhh godddddddd the fucking beheading scene back to back from both of their perspectives oh jesus fuck oh hell. im going to. cut and curse at someone else. i guess. THANKS HIM. THANKS HIM FOR IT. (crying) cool. thats normal. i feel normal about the man (shou.you)(gin)
what the fuck. oboro real? thats fucked up. THATS WHO TAKES THE EYE? (knew this techincally) WHO THE FUCK IS OBORO. (am seeing him) why is he a grown ass man i thought he was a kicked dog of a boy.
SUGI. SUGI YOU DUMB BITCH (loves him)(loves intractable positions)(loves the emotional incommunicability of reality)(loves an emotional confliction you can never resolve and just have to die about) he did it to save u fucking losers. cause his fucking teacher dad man asked him too. and thanked him for the service. ohhhhh u miserable fucks
why did you SAVE US. say it like that. damn.
oh youd do anything. youd kill shou.you. youd kill sugi himself. just to save the student your teacher loved. okay. okay. jesus. so you are the same. so your exactly the same person. your saying things that dont even make sense youve both lost any plane of reality cause you cant separate the things youve lost from the things you have. the very people youve saved are now reflected in those youve lost and youll both kill them to keep them alive. okay. no yeah thats fine cool lol.
(i guess sugis version would technically be said in reverse, you cant separate what youve have from what youve lost and the very person you lost are reflect in the one who saved you. and to keep him alive (crying gin.toki) youd kill him)
and MOST IMPORTANTLY. because you are the same person. you see yourself in him and him in yourself and u cant figure out where you end and he begins and your diametric opposed mirror reflection goals that lead you to taking. the exact same actions. okay. lol. OKAY. lol.
WHO THE FUCK IS OBORO. GET OUT OF HERE FREAK. i was talking.
id alt. im always saying this. or even just. Why is Oboro.
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heyyyyyy kagura! hiiiiii. youre not dead yay! hi. older brother. youre still here.
squints ohhhh these are. the cops? mayo man and. is this the other canonical gay sex haver or. (only has the normalest of second hand knowledge)
'if im just gonna end up as fertilizer anyway, i dont care if my path there is paved by roses or thorns.' damn dude. get out of the fucking. whatever ur in. and go become a metal music lyricist. what the fuck
oh shin.pachi. ur in this show.
googling. cant figure it out. whoever this green zombie bitch is sounds familiar. wish he had a name or smth.
damn there really is space in this show huh. thats crazy thats crazy. planet of the big hats vs planet of. umbrellas? anyone wanna watch space military anime.....
shogun 'i will protect the country were my friends live' what kagura said abt the planet. 'and to fulfill that goal, you'll even endure the deaths of your friends here?' gestures at the shou.you trolley problem. wow. that is tidy. good job recursive gin.tama
why do you grip that broken sword. you killed your teacher. you battled your friend. - my enemy is right here. WEVE NEVER CHANGED. weve all been fighting our own selves. ill stop him. even if it means having to kill him. but im also the one who understands how he feels better than anyone else
ohhhhhh gin. tama. ohhhhh gin. toki. i love u. i love u so much for just. saying insane thesis shit. like. yeah! YEAH OKAY! yeah thats. making out sloppy style with the narrative theming <- what do i mean by that.
be it killing him or protecting him. their both my job (gets so hard i pass out)
gin: says the most homoerotic twisted identity shit ive ever heard in my life that rests solely on. how unextractable gin. and sugi both are from each other due to. their love of shou.you. and thus. reflectionally. each other. oboro: his students are burning with hatred. <- IS HE STUPID?
and second question. upon reflection, looking at this grown ass man thing. do we have a classic ninja turtles adult beefing with teenagers situation. please tell me yes i will roast this man to shit.
(sugi also say gay twisted identity shit) [impact image font] we are. we are going to beat you to death.
[ending bumper comedy thing] u cannot deny their commitment to the bittism. need this shit for my annoying nitpick continuity fandoms. yeah no it was cause he pooped his pants. he shitted and farted.
#some shit#post for just that one blogger i suppose. but anyone can come hang. just everytime ppl on my blog thinking i actually know what gin.tama is#I DONT. i just like my friend and his little gay bitches#anyway yeah scheduling this hopefully right swinging for as early as possible while still in instructed bounds.#leaving on my pet electric fence. you two have fun (tosses remote)
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Hello again! Since you said that you HC König to be Styrian, do you think he'd be the kind of person to sometimes speak his dialect with reader to tease them a little? The dialect is kinda hard to understand for people, who only speak High German (the German you find in texts and the one you're taught at school and stuff). Because I speak with a dialect as well and I'd love nothing more than to banter with König in our Austrian dialect together! Of course, there's a thousand dialects in Austria! So, someone from Styria has a hard time understanding someone from Vorarlberg, but still! (Also, because I HC him from the southern part of Styria, I like to imagine he "barks" a little when he speaks! It's gotten better as he grew up, but when he gets drunk he still barks, which makes it harder to understand him! It's really hard to understand some people from southern Styria >.< Are we allowed to share our own HCs with you? I just thought it'd make sense since I am Austrian! Not trying to sound entitled or anything, of course! But I just love giving him HCs of things I'm familiar with :>)
Anyway, sorry for the long ask! Have a nice day! ^^
đđđđđ HELLLLOO it's great to see you back again :D I hope you're doing well! Also prefacing this with I'm an American so I'm admittedly not the most well versed in everything Austrian! I do put in my research and know some but I haven't even been there so if I'm ever wrong, absolutely feel free to correct me (I try my best not to be totally ignorant)
To answer your question simply in one word: ABSOLUTELY. Caps, bold, and all.
Naturally, his default IS his dialect. That's what he grew up speaking, that's what he learned, that's what sounds the most correct to him. Yes, it's not the standard, but it's HIS standard.
If reader doesn't know his dialect or if he's going out of his way to be a bit of a little shit, he'll be teasing about it - he's got a sense of humor (as unconventional as it might be). Assuming reader is learning German, he of course will still be helpful with teaching! He'll speak the "textbook" standard, but he's still slipping his dialect in, especially if they're catching onto what he's saying and he wants to make a sly comment.
What did he just say? Oh, nothing, you'll figure it out :) .... eventually, in due time.... and maybe a few post it notes in your text books there...
If they already know German, he'll pretty much insist on his dialect and will maybe speak a bit slower if you're lucky. But he'll talk so much if he likes you, you'll catch on - sooner or later (all apart of his masterplan). He's far more comfortable speaking German so he naturally adopts a faster talking pace too to match
Side note Dialects are SO interesting. One of my pals is Norwegian and he'd look me dead in the eyes and switch to another dialect whenever I understood him. Frustrating, actually pretty hilarious, and gives me MORE incentive to learn and to try and figure it out. How a single language can vary so differently from place to place in the same country is very interesting to see and hear alike
(Also you're absolutely welcome to share head cannons with me anytime!! đđđ I love hearing them and I love seeing that people can relate and have their own experiences to add. It really adds depth when we know we're never getting more than the bare minimum and it's not entitled at all its so nice to hear these little details)
I'm absolutely on board with that head cannon and support it FULLY in every sense of the word. That's 110% HIM. Since he wasn't much of a talker as a kid too I think it certainly was much more pronounced for that reason before it lessened as he grew up, and especially had more exposure to his peers.
I adore niche head cannons like this, it's my bread and butter. Because you KNOW we'd not get that level of love and attention to detail with or from the game alone and it's just adding that extra pizzazz, that extra depth that he deserves
đđđđđđđđđ If you don't mind, I'll adopt that for him because it's so perfect??? It's so him I just love the idea so so so much
#cod#call of duty#call of duty x reader#cod modern warfare#reader insert#gender neutral reader#konig cod#konig call of duty#könig call of duty#könig x reader#cod könig#könig cod#könig#konig x you#konig x reader#könig x you#he's always a bit of a shit when it comes to teasing#but it's cute#he means it good heartedly its just how he shows his affection#and he WILL be overjoyed if you speak his dialect because that's not just any german#that's HIS german#we love this vibe#i adore these headcannons theyre what i live for
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Rejanis 4
(Number kiss thing)
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⧠One kiss(is all it takes)
Janis âImiâike x Regina George
Warnings: coarse language, fluff, minor injury
âKiss me.â
âStop pouting, you baby.â
âIâm not a baby.â
âIâm almost ready, Reg. Cool your tits.â Janis snickered, placing her phone down on the credenza by the front door as she put her Converse on.
âIâm not saying anything.â Regina chuckles, âI am also not rushing you. I just called to tell you I was outside. You told me not to honk because you didnât like that sound.â
Janis laughs again, âI know. Just messing around.â
âMmkay, see you in a sec, baby.â With that, Regina hangs up. Janis grabs her keys, unlocks the door and heads out with her backpack slung over her shoulder. Skipping off the couple of steps on her porch, Janis makes eye contact with Regina as the blonde turns her head. âHi, baby!â
âHey!â Janis beamed, strolling down the frontyard. Then, she suddenly trips over something on the groundâ a couple of branches and twigs, she thinks. She couldnât have tripped over nothing. Sheâs walked down this path hundreds, if not thousands of times throughout her life. Regina let out a horrified scream, âWhat the fuck?! Are you okay?â
Janis swiftly got back up on her feet, dusting herself off, âIâm fine, Iâm fine.â Within seconds, she got into the front passenger seat of Reginaâs Jeep. Regina gives her a habitual kiss on the cheek, âIf youâre sure.â
âEh.â Shrugged the brunette as she buckled her seatbelt.
âJanââ Regina seethed, âYour arm.â
âWhat?â Janis asked absentmindedly.
âThereâs a red spot, baby. Itâs gonna bruise.â
Janis admits, âI know.â
âWhatââ
âIâll be fine, I just bruise easily.â
Regina squints, âWhy? I mean? Yeahâ why?â
âApparently itâs a thing. Ehlers Danlos Syndrome.â
âOh.â Regina nodded, she knew what that wasâ sheâs heard of it, sheâs looked it up, she just didnât know Janis had it.
âItâs different for different people, but for me, one of the things is that if I get hurt? Bruises. Very quick.â
âI didnât know youââ
âI didnât either.â Janis said, âItâs a recent thing. Like three years, maybe? Dealt with it for as long as I could remember, though.â
âOkayâŠwell, if you need anything let me know, please.â
Janis only nodded, blinking furiously as she tried to not give in to the fatigue. Yeah, she gets that too, even when she has enough sleep.
âIâm fine. If Iâm not, youâll know. Iâm serious.â
âI just donât want you to push yourself.â
âI get that.â Janis put her hand on Reginaâs thigh, âBut I will tell you if one of the symptoms I deal with gets bad. So, youâll know. I promise.â
The rest of the drive was quiet, but it was comfortable silence which neither of them minded. Once at school, the pair went their separate ways for their classes. âIâll see you in Home ec?â Regina pulls her in by the waist and presses a gentle kiss to her lips.
âMhm.â Janis nodded, kissing her back, âSee you in a bit.â
It was the norm for Janis to get bruises just about anywhere, without herself even realising it. She was a little clumsy, thatâs just who she was. It never bothered her and it never will, but somehowâŠhaving Regina know that bit about her made her feel a littleâŠwarm and fuzzy inside that Regina cared about such a trivial thing.
Ever since she started dating Regina, sheâs become moreâŠokay with physical touch and affection. She honestly loved it, especially from Regina. Janis slid into her chair, backpack placed on the floor by her desk. With her phone in hand, she contemplates texting Regina just âcause.
Regina responded within a minute.
âIâm fine. Lol. Just not much to do at all in homeroomđâ
âđ bored?â
âYep. Wish we had more classes togetherđâ
âClingyđâ
âOk. đâ
âAwww, are you mad?â
âNoâŠâ
âIf you say sođâ
Janis bites back a chuckle at that last text, she didnât want to get told off for using her phone. Mrs. Norbury usually doesnât care as long as the students werenât disruptive. Then, she puts her phone down. Though thankfully, the time passed rather quickly. Janis saw Regina again before she realised. âHiiii.â Janis briefly clung onto the blonde from behind, making her laugh.
Regina squints, turning around as she suppressed a laugh, âAre youâŠhigh?â
Janisâ eyes went wide as she gasped, âNo way! Canât I justâŠmiss you?â
âAww.â Regina hides her smile with a smirk, âYou want a kiss?â
âIâm not a child.â Janis nudged her playfully, âBut kiss me.â
âStop pouting, you baby.â
âIâm not a baby.â The conversation just went on as they walked to home ec class together. âYeah, you kind of are.â
Janis sulked, going quiet. Regina picked up on that instantly, of course, tapping the shorter girlâs arm. âHey.â
âYeah?â
Regina intertwined her fingers with Janisâ, thumb brushing over her knuckles. âYou okay? Does the bruise hurt? Anywhere else?â
âA little. And, no, just that bruise.â
Regina stopped walking a little ways before the classroom. Janis abruptly stopped too, her sneakers squeaking. She cringes, âWhat? Whatâs wrong?â
Regina hummed, âNothing.â She turned Janis to face her. âJustâŠwant to give you a kiss.â The apex predator smiled, brushing the hair out of her eyes. Regina peppers kisses all over her face, making her laugh. âWhat are you doing?â
âBringing a smile to your face.â Regina answered matter-of-factly. And finally, Regina crouched down a little to press a kiss to the girlâs arm, on the now-formed bruise.
âAww.â Janis grinned cheekily, âThank you~â
Regina smirked again when their eyes met. âGot what you wanted?â
Janis flashes her girlfriend a similar expression, shrugging her shoulders before taking her hand and walking into the classroom together.
After school, she waited for Regina with Damian. âThat is a nasty bruise.â
âEh, Iâm used to it. Doesnât really hurt anymore whenever I get one.â
âYeah, right.â
âYeah okay, Iâm just used to it. So I ignore it.â
âWe saw that kiss thing in the hallway.â Damian dropped the information way too casually.
âWow, âkiss thingâ.â
âWhatever we call it, it was sweet. So fuckinâ cute.â Damian laughs, âThough Iâm still not used to either of you being softies.â
Janis smacked him on the arm.
âUm, ow?!â
âThatâs what you get for teasing me.â Janis chortled, âIâm injured, mind you.â
Damian pulled a shocked face and dramatically gasped, âReally? I could not have known, given how painful that slap was!â
They laughed. âSorry.â The artist told him. âIâm kidding.â Damian chuckled over his words, âOop, here she is. Iâll see you tomorrow, okay? Brunch at the mall?â
âAlways.â Janis did finger guns at him, he burst out laughing.
âHi, Regina.â He waved in his usual fashion.
âHey.â Regina waved back.
âOkay, yâall enjoy your little night in.â Damian continued, âBye now. Please donât let her clumsy ass fall again.â
âIâll try my best.â Regina smirked, amused.
âThank you.â Damian leaves after that, so did Janis and Regina. Regina took her hand, and then leaned closer, âBut after all, one kiss is all it takes for you to feel better.â
âNot if I fall and breakââ
âHey! No, no, no. Not going to happen. No.â
Janis giggles, Regina shut her up with a kiss. Janis blushes, instantly going mum. âAlways gonna work whether or not you wanna believe it.â
âWho says I donât?â
âThen why are you sulking again?â Regina teased. Usual conversations picked back up once Regina drove off, but Janis being pouty was irresistible in Reginaâs eyes. It makes Regina want to kiss her and squish her cheeks. Well, anyway, once they got to Reginaâs, they quickly learnt that the house was empty. June was out, for the weekend, according to the note on the fridge.
Regina chuckles, in a way that Janis recognises to be devious. She froze in her tracks and gulped. And then, not even a moment later, Regina had her hands on Janisâ sides, âTickle attack!â
Janis squealed, running away. She was surprisingly fast, though, and startled Regina. âGet back here.â Regina narrows her eyes at Janis from where she was standing in the middle of the living room. On the other hand, Janis was in the kitchen, standing beside the kitchen island. One look and Janis knew she was getting chased again. Given the size of the Georgesâ house, they wound up taking a few laps around the first floor, with Janis laughing and squealing adorably. Honestly this sound was why Regina didnât want to stop. She found it cute, and it made her smile.
âIâm gonna get you.â Regina stood in the door leading out to the pool, âYouâre dangerously close to the pool.â
Janis stuck her tongue out at Regina. Regina had to keep herself from laughing to make sure this tickle thing went on for a little bit longer. So far? Not very successful with the tickling but Janis was laughing a ton which was much needed. Janis slipped back inside the house when Regina wasnât paying attention.
ââImiâike.â She warned, taking bigger strides and tackling the petite girl onto the couch, âGot you.â Janis flopped onto her back on the sectional, Regina straddled her so she couldnât escape.
Janis was cackling by the end of it, being so ticklish. Regina used that to her advantage. âStop stop stop.â Janis said through the giggling.
âOkay.â Regina looked her in the eye, indeed stopping, âSay you love me.â And, she resumed. Janis was writhing beneath the other girl, âStooooop.â
âSay it.â Regina kept tickling her.
Janis grabbed her wrist, which got her startled, then flipped their positions. Janis was now straddling her instead, âHehe. I love you.â Regina nearly snorted at the abrupt change in tone. Then Janis was just laying on her like that, head on her chest. âCan we nap?â
Regina sighs softly, âYou knowâŠI thought you wouldâve jumped into the pool to hide.â
âDo you want me to jump in there?â
âNo.â Regina shook her head, a hand combing through the Hawaiianâs hair. âI just thought you would.â
âNo.â Janis mumbled, âIâm tired today.â
âOkay.â Reginaâs hand continued the soothing motion, âClose your eyes. Take a nap.â
Janis only nodded, eyes fluttering shut soon enough as she felt Reginaâs kiss on the top of her head.
âI love you.â Regina whispered as she watched her sleeping figure, her heart swells and melted at the sight of Janis so comfortable, so soft, soâŠcute. Really, really cute. âIâm so in love with you.â
Janis chuckles, obviously sleepy, âI love you more.â
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This weekâs writer spotlight feature is:Â deadratz/@munsonkitten! They have 32 works in the Stranger Things fandom on AO3 and 31 of those are in the Steddie tag!
Our anonymous nominator recommends the following works by @munsonkitten:
the sound of silence
float among the wreckage
share the same space for a minute or two
you make me feel like i am whole again
sugar on my tongue
"In a fandom with over 20 thousand fics, it's hard to find fics that stand out, and Grim has so many that feel like a breath of fresh air for the characters. His specialty is exploring Eddie's trauma, past and present, and being patient with letting him heal in a messy, realistic way that tears your heart out and puts it back. Grim takes on topics that can be difficult to explain, like trauma and gender exploration, and puts them into words so perfectly. His fics are entertaining and heartfelt and always hot, no matter which one you open, you're in for a treat and he has some hidden gems! Regardless of what's popular, Grim stays true to the characters and it's easy to trust him with them, and that's something to appreciate!" -- anonymous
Below the cut, @munsonkitten answered some questions about their writing process and some of their recommended work!
Why do you write Steddie?
When Season 4 came out, I had lost all motivation in my old fandoms. I hadnât written anything in months, but then I saw Eddie and fell in love instantly. As I was watching, I started to have this little thought like âis anyone else seeing this?â when I saw Steve and Eddie interact, and I ended up on AO3, reading through anything that looked good out of the 300 fics that came out in those first couple of days, and then I kept reading, and I was completely inspired. I was pulled in, and I tried to write something between volumes 1&2 that didnât go anywhere, but I didnât want to give up on them because there was just this pull that kept me thinking of them, and then, of course, we saw Eddieâs fate and I immediately had to rectify that in my own way. I love writing Steve and Eddie because they come from very different worlds, but as a queer punk who also played sports in high school, I know firsthand how those worlds can collide and I can relate to both Steve and Eddie and how they fit into their places as the freak/jock. Thereâs also just a certain coziness that comes with writing Steddie for me, like theyâre familiar and something I can find safety in. Theyâre both complex characters with traumatic experiences and thereâs comfort in that and thereâs comfort in being able to process my own life through the perspective of the two of them and apply different things to their canon personalities and backstories. It really comes down to, like, even though theyâve fought monsters, theyâre really just regular guys, too. Theyâre relatable and accessible because their lives are pretty average without the monster stuff. I donât find myself wasting time doing tons of research about certain jobs or lifestyles as I have with other pairings in the past. Steddie has just given me a lot of freedom to do what I want.
Whatâs your favorite trope to READ?
There are so many tropes that I love. I think a lot of them depend on how theyâre written, of course, so even tropes I donât typically like to read can end up being really good to me. My go-to answer for this is usually pre-dating sharing a bed/only one bed, whether theyâre sharing because they get paired up together on a trip; theyâre laying low at Steveâs and Steve needs to keep an eye on Eddie while heâs healing; nightmares bringing them to each other in the middle of the night; or one of them just crashing in the otherâs bed. I think thereâs something so intimate about the way these scenes can be written, something very vulnerable that I just love. Thereâs a lot of trust that goes into being comfortable enough sleeping near someone else, and I think itâs a really good way to start Steve and Eddieâs relationship. I also love, love like any kind of friends with benefits situation where theyâre obviously pining for each other and completely in love but try to pretend the things they do together is just âhelping a friend out,â while mutually being in denial of feelings. It serves for great tension and thereâs always really good pay off when they start dating.
Whatâs your favorite trope to WRITE?
My answer for this is really similar to the last one. First and foremost, I write what I want to read. Iâm just very drawn to these kinds of fics with pre-relationship intimacy that turns into something solid between them. So I love writing only one bed and pining/fwb/friends to lovers fics as much as I love reading them.
Whatâs your favorite Steddie fic?
Itâs hard to choose just one favorite after almost two years of reading Steddie fics, but some real stand out fics for me that Iâve read fairly recently have been Trouble Looks Good on You by indelicate, Metamorphoses by fastcardotmp3, Play it Right by stereobone, and Doing Nothing with You by redoaktree. All of these give such nice depth to the characters and their situations and have stuck with me. âTroubleâ is still ongoing, but I trust Rue (indelicate) with these characters so much that I can say itâs one of my favorites without having the entire fic yet. It just hits so many of my boxes for Steddie, has all the right factors for a phenomenal fic, and stays so true to the characters in my opinion.
Is there a trope youâre excited to explore in a future work but havenât yet?
I have so many plans for upcoming fics, but one Iâve been trying to find time to write for over a year now deals with a lot of grief/mourning of a loved one and includes rockstar!Eddie with a good slooow burn. Itâs all things Iâve somewhat explored, but want to really expand upon with this one. I feel like I havenât written a proper slow burn, either, because I tend to do fwb situations with slow burns on the emotional aspects and admitting feelings part of their relationship, and I want to do a full slowburn in more aspects of their relationship.Â
What is your writing process like?
Usually Iâm inspired by something, whether itâs a situation that happens to me or something I see on TV, and I think about what kinds of stories could be told with those elements. Sometimes I take one trope and try to build a fic around it, sometimes I see a tiktok or a scene in a show and decide I need to use that in something. Other times, I just have a sentence in my head that I have to write down and it turns into a whole page and then suddenly I have 5k words. A lot of my process is spent brainstorming with friends, talking through scenarios and seeing what kinds of responses they get, other times I have an idea and I run with it and donât tell anyone until itâs done. There are some fics Iâve fully outlined and then gone in completely different directions, and there are some fics I never wrote down a single note for. Iâve had a few fics that started as just single sentences and turned into paragraphs and merged them with other ideas in other documents. My process is kind of chaotic and always changes, if Iâm being honest, but it works for me. I think it entirely depends on the mood of the fic Iâm trying to write, how much research goes into it, and how long itâs going to be, and all of that. Sometimes Iâll sit down to write something fully knowing it wonât go anywhere just to get me into a writing mood. Iâm really all over the place with my process.
Do you have any writing quirks?
I donât know if this is really a quirk, but Iâm the type of person who will go weeks without writing anything and then suddenly have an entire chapter or oneshot finished in two days. I procrastinate until I realize I need to do something or until inspiration really hits me and then I just lock it in and write nonstop until itâs done.
Do you prefer posting when youâve finished writing or on a schedule?
This is kind of fic-dependent. If I know for sure that I have the time and motivation for a story, I post as soon as I get chapters finished. If I know I donât have the capacity for another long form fic, Iâll write out the first chapter and leave it in my drafts until I get a bit further on it, just working when Iâm between other projects or stumped on something else. I wouldnât exactly say I post on a schedule because itâs nowhere near consistent, but Iâve never finished a full multi-chaptered fic before I start posting. I do write a lot of oneshots and two chapter shorter fics, though, so those two chaptered ones are usually close to finished before I post them.
Which fic are you most proud of?
Hands down, the sound of silence. Theyâre not done yet, but âyou make me feel like i am whole again,â and âsugar on my tongueâ are also up there with âsound of silence.â Itâs my longest fic in this fandom (currently) and my second longest fic Iâve ever written. I put so much of myself into this fic and Iâm just really proud of myself for it. There were some definite challenges with this one, with one character in the main pairing barely having any dialogue for the first half of the fic, with the other half of the pairing navigating his newfound sexuality and his life being turned upside down yet again, and I also have a few outsider POVs like Wayne, El, Robin and Hopper sprinkled in there, which is always difficult to work in for me. Iâm proud of myself for doing all of that and finishing it.
How did you get the idea for the sound of silence?
This fic started as two separate documents, just unconnected pieces of different stories, both of them hitting dead ends with no hope for continuation. I had started with just a simple idea of Wayne and Steve meeting after the events of season 4 put Eddie in the hospital, and I wanted to show the way Wayne cares for the people who love Eddie, and that ended up becoming the beginning of the fic once I put all the pieces together. The other document I had started around the same time was a short Wayne POV about living with Eddie after S4 and the person he turned into after losing so much of himself. I wanted to explore the idea of someone as loud as Eddie going non-verbal for weeks to months at a time (something I explored in a different fandom, so that sort of inspired me to write SOS too), and when I finally put those together, it just felt like everything was so clear to me and I took off with these ideas.
When writing float among the wreckage, what was something you didnât expect?
Oh boy. This one was actually difficult for me because I wanted it to be a hate sex fic, and I realized Iâm just incapable of making Steve and Eddie hate each other at all. I did something like that one other time earlier when the fandom was still pretty new, but wreckage came to me nearly a year into writing them and Iâd really cemented the idea of these characters in my head, and it was just⊠Very unexpected that I struggled to tap into that tension and hatred. It ended up being less about hating each other and more about misplaced/misidentified feelings in the end.
What inspired share the same space for a minute or two?
I think my friend Teddy actually gave me the main idea for this one. An end of the world âIâm going to die a virginâ apocalypse setting during âseason 5.â From that, I just started writing and saw where it took me, and Iâm happy with where I took it. Sometimes all I need is one sentence and then I have 11k words written in just a few days, and that fic was one of those times.
What was your favorite part to write from sugar on my tongue?
This is a really hard question because I love so much of this fic and itâs still ongoing so I might still write something I love even more than any previous parts. Without giving too much away, itâs probably a tie between their first smut scene in chapter 1, their club night in chapter 2, and the part in chapter 3 where Eddieâs walking down the road after he runs out of gas and has a lot of introspection about his life and how he finds safety in Steve. One of my close friends told me the writing in that last part was beautiful and Iâve since decided itâs one of my favorite things Iâve written.
How do/did you feel writing the sound of silence?
Sound of Silence was very cathartic for me. Iâm so proud of this fic and it deals with so much I rarely see in fanfiction â some of the topics are unsexy and there are a lot of symptoms of mental illness that are highly stigmatized that people just might not want to read in a story. But I knew it was the story I needed to tell for Eddie, mostly, but for Steve, too, and for myself. Itâs not always happy, but itâs real to me. Life can be ugly and people can be volatile and traumatized and struggle with sexual function and have undesirable compulsions, and writing that whole fic felt like a release in a way because itâs stuff I relate to and stuff my best friends have also gone through. And the comments on this fic have made me feel seen and less alone in the things I struggle with that I had Steve and Eddie struggle with, as well. I think itâs just really important to have those fics that give at least one reader some comfort in their own situations.
What was the most difficult part of writing you make me feel like i am whole again?
This fic is about gender identity and pregnancy and love and all sorts of stuff that can be hard to put into words. Iâve never experienced a pregnancy, so thereâs a lot of research that goes into that, a lot of reading firsthand accounts and finding out all sorts of things that werenât taught in sex-ed classes. Itâs also been a very vulnerable fic for me because Steve and Eddie both experience gender in ways that I do, too. Every time I write about identity and dysphoria through them, Iâm putting parts of myself on display for others, and that can be hard, especially when people donât always understand. Iâm very protective over this fic, and Iâve had to defend aspects of it from people who canât always accept other peopleâs experiences with gender identity and queerness. Thatâs been difficult, even well meaning comments can come across as criticism when the writing is so close to home, and itâs been a struggle to keep my head on straight with this one. But as difficult as that may be, the pros outweigh the cons with this fic. Itâs so rewarding when people DO relate to the things I write about, and itâs been validating for my own identity and Iâve been told so many times the fic has felt validating to others, too. So as difficult as it can be, I wouldnât change anything.Â
Do you have a favorite scene and/or line from any of your fics?
I mentioned this bit of sugar on my tongue earlier and I think itâs my current favorite, but I have so many scenes and lines from other fics Iâd consider my favorites: The sun beats down on his face and arms. Heâs burning, red skin and hot tears. He feels like he needs to crawl out of his own skin. To leave it on the ground and walk away someone else. Someone who doesnât have to deal with Al Munson, doesnât have to deal with a town that hates him for things he didnât do. He wants to be someone who doesnât have to be Eddie Munson at all. He just wants to be someone else, to feel safe in the skin he wears. He thinks Steve might be the only person who makes him feel that way, even if itâs only for a glimpse, a small fraction of his life. Even if itâs just in the quiet hours of the morning when theyâre curled up in Eddieâs bed, or when theyâre just two boys kissing in a bar where no one knows their names. He wants to feel like that again. Safe.Â
Do you have any upcoming projects or fics youâd like to share/promote?
Iâm helping with a Sub Eddie Week event in April, so if anyone wants to do a fic or art for that event, you can find all info @subeddieweek. Most of my upcoming work is going to be made for this event, so stay tuned.
Thank you to our author, @munsonkitten, and our anonymous nominator! See more of deadratz works featured on our page throughout the day!
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Driving Tips
As I understand it, there's actually quite a few of you on here who either don't drive or are very new at driving, or are very scared of driving! So as someone who has been driving for 15 years, here are some tips from good ol' Steph in no particular order.
Put more space between you and the car ahead of you than you think you need. Especially on freeways/highways/motorways. I grew up with the rule of "for every ten mph, add another car space." So if I'm going 30mph, then I should have at LEAST 3 car's worth of space between me and the car in front of me. I don't know how that translates to kph but I'm sure there's something similar.
I extend this even to coming to a stop. I try to leave at least a car space even when stopping at intersections.
The reason for this, if you remember from driving school, is to be able to come to a safe stop for your vehicle. But did you know it's not just for you? It's ALSO for the people BEHIND you, who may still be up your ass. If you come to a sudden stop, they're going to ram right into your backside. The space to slow down gives them time to slow down too.
If you've never had to come to a hard stop, YOU NEED MORE SPACE THAN YOU THINK YOU DO TO COME TO A FULL STOP. YOUR CAR WILL JUST KEEP GOING IF YOU WERE GOING FAST ENOUGH.
See this bad boy? The little circular mirror?
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If your side mirrors don't come with one of these, get one. They will let you check your blind spot without twisting around in your seat--meaning you're not taking your eyes off of the road ahead of you so you can see behind you! They're literally like $5 and you can get them almost everywhere from convenience stores to supermarkets to auto shops.
It also helps with parking!!
The more scared you are, the worse you are going to drive. Like yes, don't be lackadaisical, you're driving a machine that weighs several tons. But the more afraid you are, the more you're going to overreact and overcompensate when things go wrong and in a car, keeping a cool head is going to be one of your biggest strengths if something goes wrong. Panicking will make things worse. You need to take active steps to stay cool when driving.
One of the ways you can do that is trying to find things you do enjoy about driving. You're controlling a scientific marvel full of incredible math and physics at play! Find ways to turn driving into something you can enjoy and it'll get easier to keep a cool head in it, rather than focusing on the myriad of ways it can kill you.
A horse can kill you in a myriad of ways too. But so can a dedicated duck. Your car ain't special.
In the same vein, I approach cars kind of like riding horses: yes this thousand pound animal can kill me, but also if it moves wrong it will break all of its bones, so while I need to respect its power, I also need to remain calm and take charge, to keep both the horse and myself safe. Do it. Anthropomorphize your car.
Another way is learning how to take care of your car, yourself! There are countless youtube videos that can teach you how to change a tire, emergency supplies you should keep in your car, how to change the oil, etc.. Taking care of your car helps turn it from something scary to something you start to understand inside and out--and knowledge helps us be less afraid.
In the same way, take some time to sit in your car, pull out the owner's manual, and read it over. Learning all of the buttons and what-does-what also helps give you a sense of control over your car.
Wear your fucking seatbelt jesus christ the laws have been in place for 50 fucking years (in America) for a reason
Figure out the best driving setup that works for you and keeps you the most comfortable and relaxed. For some people, this means putting on some tunes. For some, it means turning them off. Adjust your chair so that you have the best view around you, of your mirrors, while not putting strain on your back.
Keep your eyes ahead but take glances at cars to either side of you. There are two kinds of driving, called "reactive" and "proactive" driving. Reactive driving means only reacting to whatever immediately comes up, proactive driving means anticipating things that could come up. So for example, I'm driving down the highway. The car to my side is driving faster, at such a rate that if they continue, they will hit the car in front of them. If there is space in front of you, that probably means they're going to try to merge into your lane! (And probably suddenly, without using heir turn signal!) I slow down in those cases, to give this manic plenty of room to merge.
This also looks like keeping an eye not just on the car ahead of you, but several cars ahead of you. If you notice red lights in the distance, that means people are slowing down or coming to a stop, and you should be preparing to do so, too!
Just let people merge, man. If you're moving forward, you lose nothing by letting people merge with you. I don't put a "limit" on the number of people who "can" merge into my lane--if you keep enough space between you and the car ahead of you, there's always enough room to merge. There's literally nothing to be gained by not letting someone merge, besides being called an asshole.
And I mean. How many times have you tried to merge and fucking nobody would let you? And then some saint of a person finally lets you in before you miss your turn and you want to kiss their feet. Just imagine how many people will call you a saint for letting them merge. Imagine how many days are made when you let people merge.
In addition, though you probably won' reap the benefits, letting people merge helps keep the flow of traffic going and prevents backups and slow-downs! You, personally, can help clear up traffic that's come to a crawl. I have watched it happen in my rearview mirror, just by letting people merge.
(Think of how many accidents you also prevent because someone isn't panicking as they try to get to merge and trying to make sudden decisions under high pressure.)
Obviously don't do it FREQUENTLY if you don't have to: but try to learn how to drive one-handed. Being able to do so (briefly) means you know what to do if an emergency comes up and you need one of your hands. (Secret: it's your palm, not your fingers, for one-handed driving.)
Look, I KNOW the temptation is fucking real. I know. I KNOW. But do not brakecheck people. It is way more dangerous for you than it is for the shithead up your ass. It doesn't even work most of the time, if they're gonna get on your ass, they're gonna get on your ass, and brakechecking them is just gonna make them even pissier about it.
I do, recommend, however, going slower. Ease back on the gas~ This will also piss them off but it will make them more likely to just get fed up and pass you. If they can't pass you then you get to drink in the exasperation on their face in your rearview mirror.
When it comes to seeing other Problem Drivers on the road, there's kind of two main schools of thought, which is to either keep them ahead of you or put them behind you. I personally like to keep Problem Drivers ahead of me, if I can help it. I'd rather be able to see a problem and be able to react to it than put it behind me and then the Problem driver slams into me from behind because I had no idea they were still there.
If you have problems with night driving, try getting some kind of anti-glare lenses. It's glare that's typically the biggest issue with night-driving, so cutting through that will make things easier, safer, and more relaxed if you have to do so by night.
If your tire is losing air somewhat slowly and you can't afford to get it replaced just yet, there's an old solution that younger people might not know: find an air pump at a gas station, and fill the tire with air, yourself! It's really not hard, you just need to find what psi the tire is supposed to be pumped to (this will be on the side of the tire). At the air pump station, most stations now will let you set the psi you need for the tire, so you can set it to idk 42 psi? And it will automatically cut off or warn you when the tire pressure hits that psi! Pchow, easy fix, and if it's deflating slowly, this will buy you a little more time. Best of all, some stations offer their air pumps for free, but even if you have to pay, I think when I filled my tire a few months ago it was like $2 for 5 minutes of unlimited air pumping, which is more than enough for all of my tires, let alone just one.
That's all I can think of for now, so if you have any questions or want any advice, please feel free to ask! I am happy to impart whatever cultural knowledge/adulting information I can to you!
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Acca Larentia | E | Hope Lupin/Lyall Lupin | 16/24 | 111K
My firstborn child. Twenty-ish years of exploring the magical world from a muggleâs eyes, the rise of Voldemort, and what it could have been like to raise the worldâs coolest werewolf.
The First Train Home | T | Remus Lupin/Sirius Black | 5K
Three Wolfstar scenes (post-prank, post-Azkaban, post-veil). A good dose of hurt/comfort and a fun little diddy I wrote to try out a new style.
Way to Go, Tiger | G | Scorpius Malfoy & Draco Malfoy & Harry Potter | 2K
Draco takes Scorpius to the zoo for his seventh birthday. Harry keeps an eye on them. Is it Drarry? Is it not Drarry? The world may never know. (Pls. Itâs so obviously drarry.)
Thanks for the tag @wolfpants đ©· youâre the reason I started writing, and one of the best parts of this fandom - and my whole life.
My first year writing! (Okay, technically I started in December 2023, but for the sake of this post letâs give me three weeks of grace time).
I started writing when I was stressed and overwhelmed with grad school, and I was exhausted from the constant work - study - work - study - work cycle. I wanted to do something just for me, to bring myself some joy, even if no one I knew was aware of it and no one online even read it.
It was hard at times, no doubt. Iâve deleted thousands of words (utter shite), had months-long writers block, or (worse) months where I wanted desperately to write, but didnât have the time or energy to get the words down. Iâve learned some difficult lessons, and got hurt in ways I didnât see coming.
But even when it was tough, I can honestly say it was worth it to try. Iâm so happy I decided to start writing after years of telling myself I wasnât good enough, or that there were enough stories out there, or asked myself who would even want to read this? To that girl, I say now - it doesnât matter. Itâs okay to be an imperfect writer. Itâs okay if there are similar stories already. Itâs okay if no one reads what you write. Do it for you, and have fun with it.
I feel like Iâve learned a lot about myself this year. I can slowly but surely see places where Iâve improved in the last few months. Iâve written some things Iâm really proud of (and some things that make me cringe). But most importantly, it gave me a much needed creative outlet and a purpose outside of work and school. Writing has also led me to the most amazing community, and thatâs been the greatest gift of all. I love the friends Iâve made through this fandom dearly, and if youâre one of them, I hope you know how loved you are.
My goals for 2024 were to just write. And good golly Miss Molly, I did it. Yeehaw! I put those words in the doc and I uploaded them to the archive. Pats on the back for me. Go girl!
In 2025, I want to finish my WIP and start posting my next long fic (similar to Acca, a female POV rare pair). I also want to write more one shots for fun, and explore new pairings and plots (muggle AU maybe? Drarry maybe? One of the dozens of ideas I have locked in a note on my phone?) And I want to leave a comment on every single fanfic I read.
Im glad I took the chance in 2024! And as I wrap up the year I want to say - thank you for being a part of mine đ©·
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Officially got this first part out. Iâm also using the design I had for Jason. I actually liked it enough to want it to carry over. As always, enjoy! Iâll also put forth a bit more effort for the mini comics for the story at the bottom moving forward so, Iâll add in the scars and what not.
â ïž warning: sickness, death, weapons, crimeâ ïž
Pre-show
There are six cities in Gotham, over thirty territories that belong to thugs and grimy people of all kinds, and over thirteen thousand streets. I happen to know all of them. I spent years of my life driving them, memorizing them, making them a part of me.
Growing up I lived in a rough place. Crime alley in uptown Gotham. Two parents, one apartment. Like every other kid in crime alley if they made it past the age of eight. It stayed like that for a while. Parents argued like every other couple over things I canât even remember now. My mother loved me, a lot. My father was a âtough loveâ kinda guy. More of a passive show of affection. However, unlike most, I knew they both still had a deep connection to each other and Mr that most don't have a chance to get. It didnât last for long though.
My mother, Cathrine Todd, died from cancer when I was around ten. My father tried to tell me that it was an overdose of some drug. However, I knew better. One hospital visit, sitting outside the room I heard it. Cancer. When I was allowed to go into the room the doctor happened to leave the result copy in the open. The word was plaster there in bold print. Something in the brain. Stage four. Notably, leading up to her death she wasâŠforgetful. Clumsy. Just odd. What I know now was the pressure of the cancerous tumor she had made parts of her brain to not function properly. Well, thatâs what I think. I honestly donât know for sure. My mother just took meds to try and ease the pain and struggle. I think my dad just wanted to blame it on her instead of something that was out of his control. Yes, he knows itâs not the truth but, I think this lie is easier for him to accept. With her in mind, at eighteen I got her name tattooed over my heart. The place where I held her close. Even when she wasnât here.
My father, Willis Todd, has beenâŠin and out of my life. Well, more like I was in and out. Willis took care of me as best as he could. It wouldnât last too long and heâd take me to Ma Gunns boarding school. The woman there wasâŠinteresting. As the last name suggests, she knew a lot about guns. Sheâs how I learned to shoot a gun, break it down, put it back together, and shoot it again. Learned how to faith. The whole timeline from 11-18 I was in and out of Maâs and living with Willis. Switching like a flipping coin.
Now, at the age of twenty - four, I work with Willis in the mechanics shop. Something I learned to master. Become quite the wizard at all sorts of mechanics. Fixing anything with wheels. A bit later I gained a new job. A bit more tantalizing. Getaway driver. Clients commit the crime and I help them get away from all sorts of crime scenes. It starts with the need, that need turns into a call that gives the rules and rundown of the plan. Drive to the location, give them seven minutes, get in and out in that time. I havenât been caught. For getaway driving that is. This job was given to me by Willis. He provides the cars that I use for my nightly activities. That is my life.
Jason pulled into the âTodd mechanicsâ with his 1973 Chevrolet Chevrolet Malibu with a 350 coupĂ©. Red, Jasonâs favorite color. Cutting off the engine he stepped out of the car into the third garage. âWillis, ya here?â He called out. A muffled reply came from the back. âYea, Iâm here, give me a minute.â As Jason waited her looked into the popped hood of a ford F-150 nice engine, great gas, not his kind of transportation. Upon closer inspection of the exposed insides, the fan belt was missing. Probably broke or wore out. Knowing Gotham though, it probably was stolen. A 15-21 size fan belt would do for replacement. The sound of the door that leads to the parts in the back dragged Jason attention from his analysis of the car. Willis Todd came out whipping his blackened hands off with a bluish green cloth. âWell, there you are. Been waitinââ for you, you make the call?â He questions Jason. âYea, letting them at Iceberg lounge.â Willis nodded, taking the fan belt off his shoulder. âGood.â Jason wasnât sure why he asked anymore. Itâs not like Jason was irresponsible.
He watched Willis as he started fitting the fan belt into its place with practiced ease. âSo, got the plain Jane Honda civic?â Willis paused looking at Jason with furrowed eyebrows with the expression of almost disgust. âCut out that damn fancy âplain Janeâtalk. You ainât in the fancy crowd. Makes you sound dumb.â Jasonâs own face scrunched up in annoyance. Jason liek using phrases and big words. Made him feel smarter than he thought he was. Jason rolled his eyes ignoring him. Finally Willis sighed, âyes, itâs in the sixth grade.â Willis straightened back up leaning back, popping his back with a groan of relief. âRemember to come back to your old man.â Willis and Jason clapped their hand together pulling in for a hug. Jason didnât respond. He never did. He was afraid that if he did say something heâd jinx himself. Either way Jason liked hearing it. It was the closest thing heâd get to a âI love you son.â
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Today I want to talk about the Bible. I think that my views on Christianity will put some people off, but I need to get these thoughts out somewhere. This is gonna be long lol.
I grew up going to church, singing in the choir, getting up early for Sunday school, and giving up my Wednesday evenings for Bible study. But I also loved history; it was my favorite subject in school. I always felt like we were missing some context with the BibleâŠlike pastors and church leaders would preach on the same handful of concepts or verses out of the whole anthology, and then there were tons of different âtranslationsâ (KJV, ESV, NIV, etc.) that didnât all say the same thing.
I learned Spanish in middle school and high school and noticed that some things wouldnât directly translate to English and there were some meanings that would change. I learned who King James (of the King James translation of the Bible) was and some things started to feel inconsistent. I learned about things like the Spanish Inquisition and the Crusades and then I wondered how we got to become Christians hundreds of years later. What was an old King of Englandâs motivation to translate religious text? What was it translated from? What gave those clergymen under the Kingâs employment the right? The people that kidnapped and enslaved my ancestors for centuries supposedly followed this text, so what does that mean?
And then I learned that our modern version of the Bible is missing a lot of booksâŠand then I remembered things like the burning of the library of Alexandria and Nazi book burnings. Governments have stolen peopleâs written knowledge for social control for millennia, even today with book banning and censorship around what can/canât be taught in schools. So is it safe to base an entire religion, an entire reason for being for some people, on this inconsistent text? What if itâs saying the âwrongâ thing?
And then, from my experience, pastors spend very little time talking about Jesus and his teachings while he livedâŠshouldnât that be the whole point? If weâre followers of Christ, shouldnât we spend our time studying him and trying to live more like him? Jesus was a revolutionary and a champion for the poor and downtrodden, not for the rich. So what would kings, military leaders, politicians, and billionaire CEOs know of Jesus? Why would a nation that deems itself a Christian nation (I know the whole point of the Constitutionâs Establishment Clause was to not be that, but be fr, thereâs a church on every street corner here), criminalize homelessness and let people starve? Why are pastors living in mansions and driving luxury cars when their congregation is living paycheck to paycheck? When there are people in their congregations that have no safe place to sleep? When people in their congregations are dying for lack of effective healthcare? Why are billions of US taxpayer dollars going to dropping thousand pound bombs on children in various different countries hundreds of miles away?
I still believe in God and I believe in Jesusâs teachings, but everything that I mentioned makes me a little critical of the type of Christianity that people credit for giving them promotions at their jobs, Grammy nominations, and multi million dollar companies. I believe that God gave us everything we need to live in peace on this Earth and blessed us with a moral compass, but God left it up to us to care for this place and the people and things in it. I believe that Jesus was here to leave us examples and works to help us live the way that God intended, but after he was killed by the state, so many of us lost our way in money, power and glory. I think that churches need to change and start talking about this kind of stuff and our place in the world to get people thinking. To be frank, I donât think that God cares about sexuality and âsinâ, and we frankly spend far too much time talking about it. I think there should be room for more discussion and questioning without fear of being considered âblasphemousâ and shunned.
Signed,
Still a Christian, I guess, but a lonely one.
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Banquet Beneath the Clouded Moon - Chapter 5
English translation by @raikanata. Not proofread.
Characters: Rinne, Kanata
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A few hours later. Aoumi Aquarium.
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Kanata: we made it~ this is the "aoumi aquarium".
Rinne: I was expecting a small place, but this is much larger than I thought.
Kanata: there are many "sea animals" here, after all.
Kanata: since "chief"-san isn't a high school student, it'll be the adult entrance fee.
Rinne: Huh!? You're gonna take money for this!?
Kanata: but of course. it costs money to "run" an "aquarium".
Rinne: Iâll try and take a look through my wallet, but⊠Iâve really got no moneyâŠ
Rinne: -oh?
Kanata: what happened?
Rinne: I found a thousand yen bill! I hadn't noticed it âcause it was folded!
Rinne: Gyahaha, it's extra income! I'm lucky~â
Kanata: you put it there in the first place, so it doesn't really feel like "extra income"?
Rinne: Don't worry about the little things âȘ
Rinne: Though it'll all go towards the ticket fee soon. How sadâŠ
Rinne: Ah, I got it! Kanacchi, can ya wait here for about an hour? I'll double this money playing slots âȘ
Kanata: "gambling" again? in that case, there's no "guarantee" that the "money" will increase.
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Kanata: there's no other way, huh⊠since it was me who invited you, this time i will let you in as an "exception".
Rinne: Eh, for real? Thank you, Kanacchi âȘ
Kanata: but, next time, please pay it back "two-fold".
Rinne: You'll⊠charge me twice as much, huh? I got excited for nothingâŠ
Rinne: As expected of Mr. Director⊠Ain't ya too serious about this?
Kanata: ufufu~ i am the "manager" after all.
Inside Aoumi Aquarium
Rinne: ...
Kanata: how's your first "aquarium", "chief"-san?
Rinne: ...
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Rinne: If I'm being honest⊠I didn't have a good impression of the place called an "aquarium".
Kanata: hm? what made you think that way?
Rinne: I found it pitiable to take animals from the sea where they lived freely, and close them in this small space. So I'd been avoiding them for some reason.
Rinne: But that may have been just prejudice, or a preconception.
Rinne: So I accepted Kanacchi's offer to confirm the truth with my own eyes.
Kanata: and now, has your "impression" changed even just a bit?
Rinne: Well. I don't comprehend all of it yet, but I get that aquariums aren't just "freak shows".
Kanata: yes. "aquariums" have a number of "social" roles.
Kanata: aquariums spread information, and "educate" people about the "conservation of species" that protects lives.
Kanata: they do "research" to extend the lifespans of sea animals. they are also a place of "recreation" to enrich your heart.Âč
Kanata: you can have fun in an "aquarium", while learning about these things.
Kanata: and your fun memories will forever stay with youâŠâȘ
Rinne: I see. I'm real glad I came here to see it for myself.
Kanata: fufu. i'm also glad that i invited you here.
Rinne: âŠHey, Kanacchi. You got sea anemones here?
Kanata: of course. they're in the "petting corner" there, so you can also touch them if you want.
Kanata: do you like "sea anemones"?
Rinne: I've been told I look like one when I put my hair up. I'd never seen one outside of pictures before, so I thought I should see them now âȘ
Kanata: hmm. i think "chief"-san looks like a "sea slug".
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Rinne: Sea slug⊠Is that the kind of slug with all sorts of colors?
Kanata: yes. a sea slug has "all sorts of colors" to give off a warning to those who get too close.
Kanata: isn't that just like your "image" of seeming dangerous?
Kanata: also, sea slugs spend nearly all their time eating and sleeping.
Kanata: in that aspect too, they're just like you doing nothing but eating and sleeping on your days off âȘ
Rinne: Gyahaha. I merely had an impression of the sea-dwelling slugs, but⊠I started to feel a kinship after you put it that way âȘ
Kanata: in that case, let me introduce you to the "sea anemones" first, and then the "sea slugs".
Kanata: since there are more than "3000 kinds" of sea slugsâŠ
Kanata: if we look for it, we might find one that is exactly like "chief"-sanâŠâȘ
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Kanata is talking about the four social roles of zoos, which are also accepted for aquariums! Conservation, education, research and recreation - which are each reflected in his emphasized words here.
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A Masterpiece of Confusion
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When I got back, I didnât really know what to do.
I was stumped. I had to wait till my Dad got back, to sort this out â to sort my feelings out.Â
I had breakfast. I went to school. I went to drill. I washed and ironed my uniforms. I got a few extra demerits at school, a few hundred lines to write, and I was happy to just sit down and do that and not think about anything.
Looking back, now, itâs easy to question the behaviour of His Excellency the Admiral. What was he thinking, interfering in the private life of a schoolboy and his father? Why did he feel he could confront me â the obedient cadet â with a half-baked analysis of my âtrueâ psychological make-up? Wasnât this just a way to recruit a confused 15-year old, perhaps as a showcase for his precious Academy, âSee? Even European kids are attracted to our countryâs well-organised and disciplined way of lifeâŠâ
But at the time, in that place, people like the Admiral had near god-like status (I mentioned he was a relative of the royal family, and to the Malayans, he really was kind of super-human). Nobody would object to this kind of intervention; in fact, people were quite jealous of my âpreferential treatmentâ, and my friends at school wondered why I had been singled out and wanted to know everything about this âwonderfulâ development. Applying to the Military Academy there was very difficult, and there were thousands of eager cadets who wanted to get in. So why would I get a free pass?
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When my Dad got back, I told him the whole thing. It turned out he had already had a message from the Admiralâs office, in which my going to camp in the summer was already a done deal â all he had to do was give his consent. The Admiral had also â very sweetly, it seemed â offered to help out if due to my Dadâs busy work schedule âthe cadetâ (me) required supervision, or a place to stay.
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Now my Dad was confused â and annoyed. Sure, he had put me in that school with the mandatory cadet program, and yes, he had consented to me going to Elite Camp, but this was going a lot further than just a schoolboyâs hobby.
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He was already not pleased with the 240-hour disciplinary measures, nor with the arrival of military personnel inspecting his sonâs bedroom. So his first impulse was to say âIâm not having this, youâre not in their bloody army, Iâm putting a stop to it.â
âBut DadâŠâ
He also saw me, however, close to tears, in my perfect uniform, just back from having my haircut.
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This son with his excellent grades, who was so diligent and helpful around the house, never complaining about his Dadâs absence, or his motherâs âillnessâ, who had found a meaningful life of his own in this new country, who was busy, who had made friends â even though they kept showing up in uniformâŠÂ
So his main question in our big talk was: âDo you really want this, son?â
I confess that I cried a lot, then, it was all too much. I felt that the Admiral had seen me for what I really was, and I tried to explain to Dad that I was perhaps different to what he thought of me, or wanted of me, without saying that he had neglected me â because I really didnât feel that.
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âI think I am really like that, Dad, I just feel so calm and⊠real, when Iâm doing those things.â
âReal?â
âWell itâs like when Iâm doing these punishments, like doing the dishes for two hours and then doing the ironing for half the platoon, all those things, I feel really useful, and I feel ⊠peaceful.â
âBut these people are not just punishing you for a few errors, theyâre using youâŠâ
âYes Dad, I know, and sometimes I find it annoying when the Disciplinary Officer comes in and finds something wrong with the work, even though I tried hard, but I think the punisments areâŠâ
âWhat, son?â
âI think I deserve them, Dad, surely they must be right, or they wouldnât correct me, right? They told me to do something and I was distracted and I didnât pay enough attention, or my mind wandered, and itâs not just against the orders, or that I was found out â I feel bad about that myself. Really bad, Dad.â
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[I cried a bit, here. Dad didnât get it]
âWhat, you want to be punished? You want to work for hours for that bunch of soldiers?â
[This was the hardest question, perhaps. Nobody wants to be punished. I didnât want to be punished. I wanted to be perfect â and thatâs why I felt the punishments so deeply, not as anger, but as disappointment in the people I admired.]
âI just want to be good, Dad.â
âBut you are a good boy, youâre a wonderful boy, you donât need all that.â
âYeah but Dad, I can be better. The Admiral also said so, he wants to help me with thatâŠâ
âWith what?â
âWith being a better cadet, or a better person, or a better ⊠son, I donât know â I just donât want to feel bad when I disappoint everybodyâŠâ
âYou donât disappoint me, never.â
âBut I disappoint myself, Dad.â
âRight. So. You want to be in uniform, all the time.â
âYes Dad.â
âAnd you want to do what the Admiral wants?â
âI guess so, Dad, but not if you donât want me to, Dadâ
âFine. Or not, Iâm not sureâ.
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Dad, being a Dad, thought about all this for a while. He could see my confusion and my distress. But he had another problem too â I only realised much later what that was: as a diplomat, he was the intermediairy for a potential deal, a very large one, between the two countries, I believe it involved building submarines, or something. So stepping on the toes of the No.1 officer in the Malaysian navy was not a bright idea. He was clear that he would not use me as a kind of bonus, sweeting any deal â but it did bother him.
âVery well, son. Hereâs what Iâll do. Iâll get in touch with the Admiralâs office and straighten this thing out â the camp, this idea of you staying with him as a boarder or something, even this notion of you going to Military Academy. If you still want to spend the summer in the jungle instead of going somewhere with me, then so be it. I wonât stop you.â
âThanks Dadâ
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âBut! Weâre going to spend some time together, first. Iâve been away too long, I can see that. So cancel your plans for the weekend, Iâll take you on a trip. How about Bangkok?â
âAlright Dad, if you say so, Dadâ
âI say so.â
âIâll be great Dad.â
âOne rule: youâll be out of uniform, for the duration. No shoulder lapels. No standing to attention, alright?â
âBut Dad, thatâs impossible, I mean, Iâm under disciplinary correction, if someone sees me out of uniform, there will be trouble, andâŠâ
âI mean it.â
âI canât, what if someone sees me, and there'll be more demerits...â
âYou will do what I tell you, for a change'
We compromised: I was going to wear âjustâ my school uniform, shirt and tie, grey pants, normal shoes. And I was going to bring swimwear. There was going to be a beach, the sea, father and son stuff.
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It had to happen too, I guessed.
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