#also the door closed!! it literally closed!! closure!!
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lukazade Β· 27 days ago
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Can't sleep have to say one last thing
This episode literally had a "sometimes closure is just letting something go" moment and I'm reeling about it I can't lie,,,, she didn't get "closure" with gummigoo when she saw him. She had to leave it at goodbye. You never get to see that rly, idk it was just nice. Some people just leave. It's not your right to force them to explain or bring things up that will open up a can of worms. Get closure by moving on without asking them for answers or to listen to you talk. Nobody is owing you their time or trauma, even when all you want to say is "sorry." Find it within yourself to close the door behind a person.
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sirenmoontarot Β· 3 months ago
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A letter from your Future Self πŸ“œπŸͺ½
𝒲𝒽𝒢𝓉 π’Ήπ‘œπ‘’π“ˆ π“Žπ‘œπ“Šπ“‡ π’»π“Šπ“‰π“Šπ“‡π‘’ π“ˆπ‘’π“π’» π“Œπ’Άπ“ƒπ“‰ π“Žπ‘œπ“Š π“‰π‘œ π“€π“ƒπ‘œπ“Œ?
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π‘€π“Ž π“ˆπ’½π‘œπ“… ~ π’«π“ˆπ“Žπ’Έπ’½π’Ύπ’Έ π‘…π‘’π’Άπ’Ήπ’Ύπ“ƒπ‘”π“ˆ ~ π»π‘’π’Άπ“π’Ύπ“ƒπ‘”π“ˆ
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Group 1
Okay guys for this group i am sensing your future self wants you to understand the importance of the unseen right now in your life, the unseen powers, the etheric guidance you receive, clairvoyant, intuitive hits. The power of the unseen forces in your life.Your future self is telling you that the apparent dead ends in your current road have an important and necessary purpose, they are meant to be. You have a vision, and its important you become more conscious about it, about your sense of purpose, some of you felt it since very young, and if not, try to know yourself more, to de depth to understand what drives you. All that is happening now, is leading you to your vision, and to your purpose here, and much more you cant yet see, this is the biggest theme here, being led to where you really cant see, all the detours, road ends, side paths... all is subtly and succesfully leading you to where you need to be. Some of you guys have important father issues, you have to acknowledge these issues and start healing them. You have to become your own parent, a nurturing one, and use the masculine energies to hold and support your vision. The masculine energy inside of us is very important, it also help us protect ourselves, defend what is important for us, sutain us and our projects, responsibility, etc. You need nurutirng, again, this is very important for you. The nurturing side of the archetypal father energy. You lack and need a strong healed masculine energy. Nurture, balance and heal the masculine in yourself, it will help you to find a suitable partner with healed masculine energies. you must allow changes to come to your life. you msut trust in the power of syncronity, in order to fruition your goals. For some of you guys, you are really encouraged on just focusing and working on your present time, your gudes are like, winking at you and just giving you the present moment certainty because its the only way you could make things work right now, everything else is blurred so you focus on what youhave to focus till the fog disappears! And a very different and exciting landscape will be in front of your eyes. Work on celebration, celebration of this present moment, gratitude, engage more with the people around you, finx excuses to gather or celebrate a party.
Thank you for reading dear group number 1 🀍 Lots of blessings πŸ¦‹see you in next PAC readings πŸͺ½β­οΈ
π‘€π“Ž π“ˆπ’½π‘œπ“… ~ π’«π“ˆπ“Žπ’Έπ’½π’Ύπ’Έ π‘…π‘’π’Άπ’Ήπ’Ύπ“ƒπ‘”π“ˆ ~ π»π‘’π’Άπ“π’Ύπ“ƒπ‘”π“ˆ
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Group 2
Okay guys, in this group, damn the messages are getting are so deep T.T. Your future self is calling for you to literally melt into oneness, in order to release, find divine acceptance, forgive, and then, let it go, let it fade into the light, let it destroy itself even. This is also a message of, closing the doors of past traumas, finding closure, in order to finally end them, to end the ways they influence your life right now, because they are not benefitting you. I keep hearing β€˜β€™destroy’’. Maybe some of you have to give yourselves the liberating power of saying β€˜β€™not again’’, of getting mad, of feeling the rage that initiates the fire to let all that that needs to be destroyed, burn. Rage initiates change. Sometime it is good and it is called sacred rage for a reason. Maybe some of you have supressed anger for a long time and, specially your true feelings for so long, trying ti behave, trying to react and behave in the proper way. For some of you this is a huge rock, tied to your foot that doesnt let you advance. How could you dance trhoguh life with such thing attached to your foot. It is time you claim your sovereignity, your power, it is time to do so and only you can do it. You are not meant to carry these stuff that holds you, you are meant to decide, choose for your life and embrace all your power, some of you are scared of that. Now for this group you are also encouraged to heal the mother energies, the mother wound, and integrate this aspect, healthily in your subconscious. Mohtering yourself, your inner child, the aspect of the mother energies that is capable of supporting you, holding you, loving you unconditionally while you are transiting this time is the one you need. You need not to feel alone and unsupported by yourself.
Your future self is telling you to call in the Queen archetype, the queen energies, the worthy, the one that knows her value, her deservingess, her power, she is sovereign, she chooses her own life, she knows what she wants, she has no doubts, she doesnt believe in β€˜β€™no’’, i feel some of you in this group, restrict or have restricted yourselves a lot and your future self is telling you noooo dont do that. Embody this powerful archetype and believe all you want you can have and you will have because that is how the Queen believes so, eveyrthing is possible for her. Having a safe space is important but do not constrain yourself, do not put too many limits on yourself, for example you might be a bit shy, and you think it is okay etc, but at some point you will have to grow and for some situations you will have to need not to be so shy, it is just an example, it is not wrong to be shy, but the thing is that, for some of you, your path requires you to grow certain aspects for certain situations that you are not comfortable with.
Thank you for reading dear group number 2 🀍 Lots of blessings πŸ¦‹see you in next PAC readings πŸ‘‘πŸ°
π‘€π“Ž π“ˆπ’½π‘œπ“… ~ π’«π“ˆπ“Žπ’Έπ’½π’Ύπ’Έ π‘…π‘’π’Άπ’Ήπ’Ύπ“ƒπ‘”π“ˆ ~ π»π‘’π’Άπ“π’Ύπ“ƒπ‘”π“ˆ
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Group 3
Your future self is telling you is to stray from the enrgies of self judgment, be midnful how you use this archetype within you, if its limiting you. You are very wise, you have a lot of discernment, a lot of knowledge of the truth, but you need to stop the internal judge. And i am getting lush mountain vibes, you have to connect with your inner queen energy, again this archetype is coming up in this reading, like in the group two but in this case, this archetype might be less alien to you. You are called to own your sovereignity, self worth and the belief in your power and ability. You are called to do so, and to also find your own personal temple, some of the people on this group have gone trhough insane big internal changes, for you the time is for rest and restoration now. Your future self is telling you that you have worked so hard and that you need this period now. Your future self wants you to engage in more recreational, enjoyful non productive activities, stop working so hard for a while you deserve this rest and restoration. And very importantly, Love. Ahh love is essential, I feel the energies are telling you guys, that you are born warriors, you fight for your causes, it is in your core, however you are being called to, embrace the heart energies, connect to your dreams, connect to love. Not everything has to be a fight… put the warrior energies at rest. You have to understand what youre going trhough, face your shadow, your darkness. And love is a big theme here in the sense of, a positive influence that will come in your lives, you need to work on your relations, add more love into your life, allow love into your life.The big changes you went trhough or are going trhough are revolving your deepest roots. A need to reassess your fights, endeavours, a need to become more serious and awake about what is important to you, and to connect to your heart more and give it more space and presence in your life with healthy, meaninful positive relationships, let yourself love.
Thank you for reading dear group number 3🀍 Lots of blessings πŸ¦‹see you in next PAC readings πŸ’˜β˜οΈ
π‘€π“Ž π“ˆπ’½π‘œπ“… ~ π’«π“ˆπ“Žπ’Έπ’½π’Ύπ’Έ π‘…π‘’π’Άπ’Ήπ’Ύπ“ƒπ‘”π“ˆ ~ π»π‘’π’Άπ“π’Ύπ“ƒπ‘”π“ˆ
Alla 𓇬 @sirenmoontarot
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sillsif Β· 2 years ago
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i can never say i want kit dead bc he’s the only mf making the show interesting rn
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3vergr3en Β· 3 months ago
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THAT BOY IS A MONSTER πŸ‘»
PAIRING (πŸ“ž) . collegeau!maki x fem!college!reader
A/N (πŸ”ͺ) . heyy.. hii... please forgive my absence with this maki fic 😣🀲🏼 I feel like a bummy boyfriend begging for my girlfriend (you guys) to take me back 😭 I also wanted to bring some closure to my old ethan landry series with this fic (you shall be forever missed.) ANYWAY. HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE THIS HALLOWEEN SPECIAL <3
ADDITIONAL INFO (🩸) . this fic contains suggestive content!! there will be NO p in v, literally all they do is have a (detailed) heated make-out. DON'T CRUCIFY ME πŸ˜­πŸ™πŸΌ
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The red-haired man leans his upper body over the granite counter, "What did he say?" he yells over the blaring music.
"He'll be here in a half an hour!" You yell back, receiving a confirming nod from the male across from you. As Nicholas turns his head away to presumably check out the girls in short mini skirts and corsets, you gently tug at the hem of his sleeve to avert his attention back onto you, "I'm gonna use the bathroom! Oh, and can you grab me a drink, pleaaasee?"
"Sure, but don't be surprised if it tastes weird." He sends you a warning smile before he walks off in his rainbow-stripped long-sleeve and blue overalls. He yells to a person, "Yo! Put that shit down before I throw you out myself!" You still don't know how the guys manage to convince Nicholas to dress up as Chucky, but either way, you loved it.
"Excuse me! Sorry- just let me pass through, thank you!" You squeezed past through the crowded kitchen and down the hallway. Miraculously, you managed to find an unoccupied bathroom which was usually filled with couples making out or in some cases,, a little more. You walk in, shutting the door behind you with a click! But you were just thankful enough to have one all to yourself.
knock knock knock
Oh, you gotta be shitting me.
"It's occupied, sorry!" You shout, fixing your blonde wig in the mirror.
knock knock knock
You curse out, "Oh my fucking god." Shuffling your way over to the door, you unlock it before swinging it open with an annoyed expression. "I said it was-" You stop mid-sentence when you see the famous white mask and black cloak. Okay.. creepy. "Sorry, Mr. Ghostface, but this bathroom is occupied." You sigh, taking a step back to close the door.
But a firm grip on the side of the door halts it. You stumble backward, "Dude, what the fuck?" The person pries it open before walking in, slamming the door behind them with a click. "This isn't funny, you need to get out. Now."
But the person just.. stands there. No words. No movement.
"Alright, this is bullshit." You sigh, "I'm just gonna go." You begin to walk past the person, but they forcefully grab you by your arms, and with that familiar raspy voice, they speak, "Dressed as Casey Becker? How convenient." They tilt their head with a chuckle as you manage to push them off of you.
"Nicholas!" You yell, but you know that it is no use against the loud music outside. You take several steps backward till your back is pressed up against the wall behind you, leaving you cornered. "Nicholas isn't coming to save you." They state.
The person takes a step closer till they're practically right up against you, feeling your heart beating rapidly against their chest. "So, you got a boyfriend?" They taunt, lifting their hand to your chin, forcing you to look up at them.
They reach up behind their head to swiftly yank the mask off. Once they did, they shook their head to reveal your boyfriend who smiled sickeningly.
It takes you a little bit to let the realization sink in, but when it does, your immediate response is to shove your boyfriend as hard as you can. "You fucking jerk!" You curse.
Maki couldn't help but laugh hysterically. "Hey, I'm sorry, okay? But don't lie, you were lowkey enjoying it." He chuckles, cradling you in his arms as he presses kisses on your forehead.
"No, I didn't." But you knew deep down that he was right.
He nods, not believing a word you just said. "Do you like the costume?" He asks with a slight raise of eyebrows, tilting your chin up to meet his gaze. "..Yeah, I do." You quietly confess.
He has this cocky smirk plastered on his face, "Yeah?" His voice had gotten deeper as his eyes were glued to your lips. And you shamelessly did the same, eyes staring at your boyfriend's plump, pink lips.
"Well, I think we both know that you like it a little more than you think.." He whispers against your lips before moving to your ear, "Why else didn't you push me away when I was right up against you earlier?"
As if your hands had a mind of their own, they grabbed the collar of your boyfriend's cloak to pull him in so you could smash your lips against his.
You can feel your boyfriend's hands gripping your waist through your bulky sweater, pulling your hips to be flush against his. "Up." You hear him muffle in between kisses as he taps your thigh. You quickly obliged, hopping up to wrap your legs around his waist while his hands held you up by your thighs.
He brings you over to the bathroom sink, resting you on top of the marbled counter. His lips never seem to leave yours, not even for a split moment.
"Maki," You breathe out, hands finding their way into his black, soft locks.
Everything was so messy. The way he kissed you feverishly, almost like he had gone days without having your lips on his. His big hands holding the back of your head, causing your wig to slip off. Or maybe it's the fact that seeing your boyfriend in a Ghostface costume has done wonders for you.
His lips trailed down your lips to your chin, planting open-mouthed kisses along your jaw. He breathlessly chuckles, "I find it cute how we accidentally matched costumes."
"You need to wear that Ghostface mask more often."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah."
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saerotonins Β· 1 year ago
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tied red strings of fate
ft. gojo satoru x gn!reader
request: omg .. tadhana by udd + satoru please ? 
content warnings: fluff, angst, hurt/comfort, jjk manga spoilers [ch 236], canon divergent, implied that reader knows about curses but is not a sorcerer, lowkey a character analysis but yeah, happy ending
wc: 1283
note: when i saw this request i was so happy because tadhana* is literally one of my fave opm classics! also, im sorry nonnie if this was long overdue, figured i'd give him some fluff at his death "anniversary" heh (albeit a little late). i miss our glorious king sm :(( happy holidays πŸŽ€
song: tadhana-up dharma down
*tadhana=destiny
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gojo satoru is a force to be reckoned with. his name rings a bell and brings shivers to the spine of any potential enemies he has. 
he's gojo satoru, the strongest of all, the holy grail of jujutsu sorcery. he's gojo satoru, whose power literally repels and divides everyone else and him.
but to you, he's a lover, a man of his own, an independent being who is capable of emotions. he's satoru. the love of your life.
so when he decided to call it quits, to say you were devastated is an understatement. you were left broken, calling out his name at night hoping he would appear in front of you just one, for closure. him closing the chapter of your book got you weeping and yearning for more of him. 
because even though he's your lover, even you have a hard time of catching a glimpse of who he really is. satoru is an open book, but he's hard to understand. you did all your best to ease him and make him open up, show more of himself to you, bare his truth, the good, the bad, and the ugly, all of them you're willing to accept.
alas, the universe has other plans, the challenge ended even before it began, he is most definitely an enigma, someone that you will probably never get to solve. satoru's backed turned against you was a sight you are never going to forget. you spent months moving on and try to live a life where he isn't yours. it's hard but you try to manage anyway.
so when a knock on your door was heard by the 31st of december, you didn't expect gojo satoru in his full glory standing before you. as shocked as you are, you see his eyes had sunken. he's beyond exhausted but when he sees you, his eyes lighten up and you feel the warmth of his arms and your feet off the floor. you miss this, you miss him, it was all so familiar and something you very much miss. every fiber of your being remembered the way he touched you, triggered by the way his hands gripped onto your waist for dear life. as confused as you are, you reciprocated his gesture, opting to rest your hand on his shoulder blades.
"satoru?" you managed to voice our before you feel him put you down but his embrace remain. he then rests his head on the crook of your neck, then you hear him sniffle. suddenly you feel something drop onto your skin. his tears slowly roll from his face to your neck and shoulders.
satoru's lips wobbles as he tries to contain himself but to know avail, he lets his cries out, deciding to bare himself to you and be vulnerable. he was so so so tired of fighting. as great as the title 'the strongest' sounds, it gets too lonely even for him. being on the top is lonely. and he knows it himself.
he'd rather fall from grace than live a life where he isn't yours. he was too late to realize it. he was so stupid, too cocky, too condescending that it took him facing death before realizing that he wants to live, just for you. so when he finally defeats the evils of the jujutsu world, his first thought is you. the only one who provided light in his dark and desolate world.
as charming and bright satoru is, he is often left in the shadows in the cave but when he came to know you, he was absolutely in love and smitten. you were like a fresh breath of air to him. but when he decides that creeping into your mundane and simple life would rather be selfish of him. someone cursed like him shouldn't be able to be with someone who is blessed and down to earth like you. 
but being selfish be damned, he had faced battles, including one that almost left him biting the dust. he wants you, he needs you in his life and letting you go was definitely a mistake, something that he will never do ever again.
when his cries had calmed down, you finally get his voice again after a long time. "i'm so sorry," satoru started. "i was an idiot, i love you so much and i never stopped loving you. i was so stupid to let you go, i have never loved someone as much as i did with you." satoru knows his worth is probably lesser than any other being the moment he let you go, the only pillar who provided stability and balance in his life. he was impulsive, too proud, and too strong. but the way you held him every time you caged him into your arms is like he was fragile, someone to be protected, someone to cherish.
satoru loved that. and he was stupid to think that was worth letting go.
knowing you has made him scared of death, an entity or event that could break the two of you apart and live in separate worlds, and he couldn't bare to face it. he loves you too much to let himself go and so he fought with you in mind and thank any deity that exists, he finally won.
gojo satoru is the strongest.
so seeing him crumble right before your very eyes as his knees meet the concrete is a shock. he had bowed before you first before he had bowed to any higher up. hell, satoru bowing before anyone else would come as a shock. he held onto your ankle for support, his voice begging to take him back as he spews even more apologies that he can manage.
"please, please, i'm so sorry darling, i'll do what it takes for you to take me back. i love you so much, no other human had made me feel this way, please i'm so sorry. i miss you so much, god, i can't even remember a life before you, please." satoru had begged, begged, and begged, his voice getting louder and louder and each increased volume of his voice his hurt is more evident.
with the way his voice cracked broke your heart, and that's when you knew he meant every single letter, every syllable, every drop of tear, and every breath of his apology. 
you had completely broken the strongest. but satoru doesn't mind. even if you break him a thousand times, he'd painstakingly pick up every single piece of himself to present it to you. and that's what he's doing right now.
"i forgive you 'toru," he barely hears you say through his wails and it slowly comes to a halt. he then lost the feel of your ankles as he sees you kneel yourself to his level. your hands reached to touch his face and there you see his eyes, glassed with tears, love, and regret. satoru feels the heat of your hands on his cheeks and his instincts leaned into it. "i was hurt, but i'm never mad, i just wished you'd tell me why," his heart broke when he heard your voice crack.
"but you're hear now, right? we can fix this, we can fix us." you say as you carefully wipe the tears on his face. satoru nodded as he holds your wrists and caress his thumb on it. "yeah, we'll fix us."
"together?"
"together," satoru said in confidence. 
and with a light heart, satoru leans in to catch your lips on his, sealing his silent promise to never hurt you ever again, or he will never get to forgive himself.
he's gojo satoru.
he'll always find a way back into your arms.
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another note: i'm quite unsure with the ending but this is all that i got πŸ˜” i hope this was on par with your expectations nonnie hehe 🫢🏻
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sunsetsentiments Β· 6 months ago
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okay so i love you i'm sorry by gracie abrams is totally about jason and piper from piper's pov. HERE'S WHY,, it's a long one lol
"I told the truth, oh, but you didn't like it, you went home." // "That's just the way life goes, I like to slam doors closed. Trust me, I know it's always about me."
piper is the one who broke up with jason,, and from the burning maze, we know she saw it as an inevitable event. internally, she has been struggling with figuring out who she is outside the perils of demigod life,, and if she's living the life she wants or the one hera/aphrodite wanted for her. basically, she's dealing with the confusion and exhaustion as a result of all the life-changing events of hoo.
while i have comments about the way rick wrote and explained this break-up (again,, topic for another day),, it's clear that piper needed time away from everything to deal with her turmoil, and it's this that drives her to end things with jason. she needed to search for clarity, and she couldn't with him around when his presence in her life only added to her confusion. so she slammed the door closed and thought that it was for the best, and i can imagine jason responding as maturely as he could while still showing signs of heartbreak. all piper could do was let it happen.
"Thankful you don't send someone to kill me."
piper being absolutely relieved and guilty about the way jason responded to her decision 😭
"Two summers from now, we'll have been talking, but not all that often, we're cool now." // "Wistfully lean out my window and watch the sun set on the lake. I might not feel real, but it's okay."
these lyrics capture the kind of relationship piper and jason had - because romantic drama aside,, piper considers him to be her best friend ("more than annabeth"), and even when they were on shaky terms,, they were still able to communicate and understand each other well as noted by apollo. so yeah,, they'd definitely continue being friends even after a break-up. and it's nice and weird and comforting all at once. because the old piper wouldn't have expected things to happen this way,, but the present piper is glad that they can still be in each other's lives.
if only they had enough time to work things out though. because here comes the tragic part 😭
"You were the best but you were the worst, as sick as it sounds, I loved you first. I was a dick, it is what it is, a habit to kick, the age-old curse."
no bc in my head,, this whole bridge is piper's thought process as she deals with losing jason post-burning maze.
he was the best - literally, not only one of the most powerful and reliable demigods, but also the most supportive boyfriend she could ask for - but also the worst,, bc sometimes she felt like she didn't know him,, sometimes he was distant and too inside his own head,, sometimes she wasn't sure if they were meant to be together or not,, and that uncertainty and doubt nagged at her, and it's exactly why she breaks up with him later. but was it really the right decision, or did she let her insecurities control her? and if the latter was true,, then she broke both of their hearts for nothing,, which ultimately led to their strained relationship, and they would neve have full closure bc of what caligula did.
in piper's head,, she might start to think that she made a mess that didn't have to happen,, and the crazy part is she let it happen even though she was the one who loved him and had feelings for him first,, whether they started as an illusion or not.
so how could she possibly let all this happen? we know piper has struggled with a low self esteem since before, and she might look back to past actions that were rash in retrospect,, like stealing cars to get her father's attention. so piper might mistakenly spiral into thinking that everything is her fault bc she was lacking as a person,, and that bc she didn't beat her age-old habits, they haunted her like a curse.
"I tend to laugh whenever I'm sad, I stare at the crash, it actually works. Making amends, this shit never ends, I'm wrong again, wrong again."
piper tried to accept the break-up and losing jason as best as she could. she tried to play down the emotional weight of the break-up in the burning maze bc she felt as though she thought it through,, and at the end of toa, she's obviously trying to move on. these methods seem to work for her on the outside,, but that doesn't mean the grief and confusion has gone away.
the pain and the memories might keep coming back,, and piper might have to grapple with the possibility that she was wrong this whole time, again leading her to believe it was all her fault. in short,, she's confused and devasted and has no idea what the truth is anymore (which is why a book fleshing out her and leo's grief would be SO good).
"I wanna speak in code, hope that I don't, won't make it about me." // "I love you, I'm sorry."
the last chorus of the song beautifully reflects piper's confusion and longing, wishing that maybe she did things a little differently, wishing that maybe she and jason had a different ending.
but the thing is, in spite of all that happened and the confusion she's facing now,, the one thing that never changed was that she loved him, and it's both because of this and in spite of this that she did what she had done, and why she's feeling all these mixed emotions now.
"i love you, i'm sorry" is so powerful coming from piper considering the first time she told him 'i love you' in mark of athena,, and also bc of the whole i'm sorry part. she's sorry about breaking his heart. sorry if she ever made him doubt himself, if he was good enough, if it was his fault. sorry about never properly reconciling. sorry about not being enough to save him. sorry about being unable to say goodbye. sorry about never seeing him one last time.
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stuffyflowers Β· 6 months ago
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What are your Dalv and Anyone Other Than Starlo dynamic headcanons
OK SO!!!!! DALV FRIENDSHIPS…… what a world it would be if I had two whole friends……….. so criminally underrepresented in this fanbase but I guess I have to be the change I want to see in the world..
So in marts case, I like to think they hang out the most given their close distance. It’s good to have someone much more outgoing than him to assist with his reintegration into monster society; she helps him reintroduce himself to the locals and gets his name out there, like by hanging up posters for his organ concerts all around snowdin and such. They’re both creatives at heart too, I think they’d always talk about and share progress on their projects with each other. Mart helps fill up his new house with little wooden trinkets she made (maybe even bigger stuff like furniture… it would be a nice way to show how much she’s learnt and improved since becoming chujins apprentice all those years ago) and Dalv returns the gesture by showing her early drafts of his books and organ performances. They also would probably talk about clover a lot, too. Starlo and Ceroba have each other, but neither martlet nor dalv were already close to anyone else Clover bonded with. Definitely a lot of reminiscing on how they changed both of their lives for the better. There’s maybe even some shared feelings of guilt from both of them, that they let this human who affected them so deeply sacrifice themself for the good of their people… Maybe they use their combined creative talents to create another little memorial for them…
And ceroba aughhhhhh dalv and ceroba. Do you ever think about how similar they are. They’ve both dealt with an absurd amount of trauma and regret, and perhaps not dealing with it in the best way for a long time. They would be able to connect with each other through that, I think. Knowing what it’s like to be trapped in that spiral of depression, isolating themselves from those who try to reach out to them and lashing out at clover in the hopes that it would fix their problems. They’d also enjoy hanging out in general, of course. Ceroba β€œthey’re a bit too rowdy for my tastes” and Dalv β€œwants to be left alone” would appreciate each others more relaxed company on occasion. Ceroba brings him corn in the credits, I like to think it’s a weekly thing of sorts. She takes it from the weekly markets and then they share a nice dinner using it as the main ingredient. Maybe she shares the corn chowder recipe she used to make for her family? Dalv is still used to literally only eating corn that it’s nice to have a little more variety, even if it’s still just corn in some way. Oh and of course ceroba is the one who finally lets dalv know what happened to his friend. Why they stopped leaving corn at his door. There were a lot of tears that day, but it was definitely good for both of them: ceroba telling the truth to people after hiding it all for so long, and dalv finally getting closure, knowing why his friend never returned, but perhaps he will still be able to see her again one day…
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maltcrescent Β· 4 months ago
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one door closes, another door opens
Found out about the news of cohost being wound down by the end of 2024 (while going into read-only mode in October), and I'm bummed about it tbh. cohost holds a little more importance for me than others in that it was literally the second platform I branched out to after getting my start here, so I give it major credit for giving me my first true outlet where i could comfortably find others' risque/explicit works in addition to becoming more comfortable with publishing my own. (Since given the history of this site...needs no further explanation.)
More to the point, I also valued the site since it's one of the few notable social media platforms willing to allow and host NSFW material and their associated communities when nearly every other social media outlet is expunging it (and a sizable chunk of their audience) from their platform to appeal to advertisers and/or credit card companies. Current plans are to keep posting as usual until the the site switches over to read-only, though it depends if people stick around to the end or not. Nonetheless, I've still posted a formal sign-off post for everyone there.
On a brighter note, cohost's closure does also mean that I finally worked up the interest to create a Pillowfort account, which you can find in the link. I hope it works out a good spiritual successor to cohost as an tumblr alternative. If you like my works, I hope you take the time to drop in and check me out over there, and follow me if you can!
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sirfrogsworth Β· 2 years ago
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I'm home. It was a long day. The night nurse asked me to stay a little longer to keep an eye on my dad because of his confusion. (Last night Dad tried to make an escape and they had to use soft restraints.) I told him I was tired and if I felt my dad was going to be a spaz and cause trouble again, I would stay. But if he seemed calm and sleepy with the new sedative they are trying, I would need to get home to rest. The nurse was cool with that, and my dad looked sleepy as heck, so I left.
The hospital is a bit frustrating with their closure procedures. They let visitors stay until 9pm. However, they close the main doors right at 9 and make you walk to the other side of the building to the secure exit. They also close off all the parking lot exits, minus the emergency one, directly at 9. Wouldn't it make sense to wait until 9:15 so people have time to get to their cars? And when they close off all the exits, you end up having to take this maze-like circuitous route to exit the parking lot. It literally takes more time to drive around that maze than it takes me to drive home.
My dad is really out of it. I am trying to be the best advocate possible and communicate to the staff how to help him become more lucid. HE NEEDS SLEEP. Like, long, restful, deep sleep. There hasn't been one time that has not fixed his confusion. But they are all trying to solve a bigger puzzle. They are like, "Maybe it is excess CO2 in his lungs. Maybe it is a new infection. Maybe he got COVID."
And I'm just like, "He needs sleep. Give him something to sleep."
And they are like, "Mayyyybe."
But I think that answer is too simple when they are in puzzle solving mode. So I broke it down...
"He had dialysis yesterday which wipes him out every time. Usually requires a 3 hour nap afterwards. But instead of napping, he had a catheter procedure with anesthesia. Then his foot hurt so bad he couldn't fall asleep all night. Plus they are giving him pain meds which always make him drowsy and loopy. HE'S EXHAUSTED."
And they were like, "Could be. We'll run some tests though."
I do think I convinced them to try and help him sleep with whatever options are safe right now. But I don't know if this sedative they are trying will end up having drowsy side effects which will cancel out the benefits of sleeping. I guess we'll see in the morning.
It really sucks that he choked on that food. He really didn't need this setback in his healing. It seems like the hospital always makes him sicker before they finally get around to helping him.
And lastly, podiatrists don't do weekends.
Apparently.
So it will be Monday until I know if my dad has a chance at standing and walking again. Why is a damned podiatrist the only one qualified at determining what to amputate?
I've been trying to brainstorm ways I could take care of him if he is unable to stand up on his own and transfer to a wheelchair or rolling walker. I know they have lifty things you can put over the bed. But I'm not sure that is a good solution for our house. I just wish I was strong enough to lift him on my own. He is just a tad heavier than I can manage. Maybe I need a mech suit.
There must be a solution though. Lots of people are without limbs. Hopefully I am just unaware of how caretakers deal with this issue.
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reachexceedinggrasp Β· 7 months ago
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tbqh iβ€˜m not a big fan of Janey and/or Barb being the sole purpose and reason Coop stayed sane all those years. obviously, in a lot of ways he hasn’t processed the betrayal of his belief system and the hurt, let alone getting closure. And I mean, from where he stands at the end of s1 and from what we learn about him, it makes total sense that he’s so driven to find his family.
A message that I (personally) would find a lot more compelling though would be a possibility of a new life and closing the door on the past completely? In a way dwelling on the past keeps ourselves from healing, I think, and I really wish for Cooper to find meaning in the present and truly β€˜take it as it comes’.
Ghoulcy brainrot aside, I think that it could be a nice way, narratively speaking, for Coop to let himself be soft and vulnerable and learn to trust someone (Lucy potentially) again? Like, he’s been in survival mode for the last 200 years, and there’s no question that there’s a lot to resolve with Vault-Tec, Barb, Hank etc. But I think it would be all backwards if his character arc would lead to him being a father again, without acknowledging how he changed in the meantime.
I mean, there’s a difference what a character THINKS they want, and what they really need. And I don’t see this tidy, neat, narrative bow of Cooper and Janey reuniting and going back to their old dynamic, happening. Which also completely negates Janey’s change and perspective (we still don’t know what happened to her and how she got separated from Cooper. Maybe she was lied to? there’s so many possibilities)
Sorry. All this rambling, just to say that I like the idea of Cooper finding his new purpose in the changed, new world, that is very different from the past, just like he is a changed man. And I hope that his character arc in s2 helps him get closure instead of β€˜β€™β€™seemingly’’’ giving him what he wants, as in his family.
I agree that I wouldn't like the idea of it as his sole purpose in the ultra-literal sense I mentioned of it being the physical only reason he's alive, ie: he'd go feral if he got answers. That rubs me the wrong way, I think, because I feel like it implicitly denies the inherent value of his life and suggests he can't or shouldn't survive finding closure. Or, like I said, that he's 'already dead' and more like a ghost with unfinished business than someone who can find a way forward. Which I hugely dislike, thematically, because I always want the possibility of hope and healing to exist or what's the point investing in anything. I want characters to feel like they have narrative worth beyond their quests or immediate goals. He's been symbolically resurrected already because we meet him literally rising from his grave, and I want that to be resurrection not reanimation. I think he's alive and therefore still capable of choices and therefore still capable of healing etc etc.
They could take it in a hopeful direction (he's alive and can change) or in a bittersweet or tragic direction (Cooper died and the Ghoul is either his ghost or the wasteland is his Hell, he can serve only as a messenger or vengeful spirit).
I don't agree it's going backwards for him to 'become' a father again. He's never stopped being a father. He's the same person and will always be a father whether Janey is alive or not. To me, healing for him inevitably involves becoming more like he used to be, but that's not going backwards, that's reconnecting with his authentic self. It doesn't mean the intervening years are wiped away and nothing he's gone through since then matters, it just means he realises he buried parts of himself that he needs to be whole. That he doesn't have to let the wasteland turn him into its creature, there's ways to adapt and survive without discarding your soul.
He's already being confronted with that and already questioning himself just from the interaction he's had with Lucy so far. She's a mirror and a challenge for him and she's already showing him there might be another path, that it wasn't inevitable he ended up where he is now. He doesn't have to play this role he felt forced into to survive, it's not the only way.
I don't think you ever leave the past behind. It's part of you. To me it's not a binary between nostalgia and trying to 'go back' or drawing a line under it all and getting closure. His past is something he has to reclaim and reintegrate, not something to 'let go'.
If they're reunited, it will obviously never be the same, but that doesn't mean having a relationship with his daughter isn't something he should want. He'll always want that, that's a fundamental part of his identity. I don't think it's a simple bow to tie things in at all, because the most difficult part about it is that they'll have to figure out a way forward in the changed world. They can't go back to the way things were before. He can't go back, he can only reconcile.
I'd argue it'd be more of a challenge to his character if she's alive, because he'll have to deal directly with the reality of who he really is under the role he's taken on and be vulnerable just in order to even talk to her. If she's not alive, someone else would have to force him to do that.
Which I think can be Lucy, of course, because she's already made him reflect and confronted him just by being herself, but she can never create the emotional reckoning Janey can. The way his arc is going could be equally leading up to a reunion and a crisis or to him having to accept Janey's death. I think either is valid and possible, though again I think her being alive is more challenging and thus more likely.
If Janey is dead, that puts ten times more weight on his relationship with Lucy and makes their intimacy or lack thereof completely determinate of his trajectory, because he'd have no one else left to make him vulnerable. But like. He already dropped his exaggerated persona several times, including for Lucy simply because he empathised with her. I feel like he's more aware of what he's doing by playing a character to survive, and his authentic self is much closer to the surface, than people generally suppose.
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sukirichi Β· 7 months ago
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omg ur back!!! i love all of ur works and before discovering ur acc, i really didn't care about naoya at all lol but OH BOY did ur naoya trophy wife fics converted me into a naoya whore 🫣
another fave of mine is ur koko fic entitled "open doors and closed walls" i literally reread it all the time like the angst is just that good 😭 and what keeps me up at night is whether koko got his shit together and fixed everything with y/n or he just let her go and one day he saw her with another guy and she seems genuinely happy, so he regrets letting her go and it's like a the one that got away situation 🫠
im sorry if rambled way too much about that koko fic i got carried away bc i just love it that much 😭 anyways, welcome back and thank u for blessing us again with ur grear writing skillls 🫑🀍
hello anon! and OHHH another naoya enthusiast?!?! that fills me with sm joy when i hear people are liking naoya thru the trophy wife collection like yes! join me!
andd ooohh that kokonoi fic </3 i feel like koko is so perfect when it comes to angst fics. but in that fic actually i don’t think i wrote a proper ending or gave anyone real closure there but we can assume that kokonoi has truly lost a good love </3 maybe one day he does see reader around and how she’s sm happier without him. who knows, maybe he’ll be tempted to finally be better the next time around πŸ’• also no worries anon, i’d love to hear everyone’s rambles! thank you sm for showing that fic a lot of love and the warm welcome <3
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doveriathegoddess Β· 2 years ago
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I want to hear YOUR ideas of Tatiana and Kliff >:)
OH SHIT-
Ok Eri since you asked very nicely I will go ahead and let you hear on my ramblings on both Tatiana and Kliff :3
We'll start off with Tatiana first
First Impression: I knew she was the final boss of the game but I had no idea that I would come to enjoy her as a character and eventually simp for her like the bisexual I am. Tatiana is indeed a queen <3
Impression Now: She's one of my favorite characters and I absolutely adore her character. She's the icon, she's the legend, and she's the moment
Favorite Moment: After her boss fight when she goes off on Mayday, I could feel how much truth her words were, especially when she said "Never have heroes honey, believe me you'll have fewer disappointments." I honestly related to that sentence so hard due to past experiences-
Idea for a Story: This mainly involves my OFA AU but Tatiana and her oldest daughter Titanium having a heart to heart when Tatiana finds out her daughter is literally overworking herself being the current CEO of NSR so she has to tell her it's ok to ask for help and to take a break. Just thinking about this idea makes my mind go brrr-
Unpopular Opinon: I'm not sure if this counts as unpopular but I really wish we could've had more lore about the Goolings and Tatiana's past, it would've been so much more intriguing-
Favorite Relationship: Tatiana being like a mentor to Mayday is something that always makes my heart flutter. Mayday showing how much she can play on Tatiana's old guitar that she gave her while Tatiana just smiles like a proud parent. Of course I also love shipping Tatiana with my NSR sona Olive it's a match literally made in heaven like yivdugdefuyvcbdfuyfva- the first time they meet is after the Music Revolution and the Garden of Thorns comes to town and right away gets a lot of attention that NSR also gets wind of them. They get invited to the NSR Tower to discuss collaborations but when Tatiana arrives at her office to meet them she's quick to notice that one of the band members is missing. Percy (lead singer) tells Tatiana that the drummer went to go grab some coffees and right when Tatiana says they can start without her, Olive comes in through the door with said coffees, not giving any mind that she's late and Tatiana notices just how tall Olive is-
Favorite Headcanon: Trans and Lesbian Tatiana. Being Kul Fyra also inspired a lot of LGBT+ people to be themselves, especially the fans.
And now it's time for Kliff and his moment to shine >:)
First Impression: When I saw him for the first time my heart skipped a bit, Kliff was the most cutest ginger I ever saw in my lifetime and I wanted to hold hands with him. I was a bit disappointed that he was a twist villain at first but then I realized he could still be redeemed if I put my mind to it via fan fiction lol
Impression Now: He could've taken a different approach in an attempt to get closure instead of trying to use a falling satellite, but at the end of the day Kliff is a stinky man and I love him.
Favorite Moment: When he first shows up in the game, Kliff is not only a cute ginger but he's also very helpful. His Kliffnotes on the NSR Artists are also very interesting and if you look closely there could be lore.
Idea for a Story: I need to update it but I'm working on a fanfic where Kliff does apologize to everyone for his actions and the Queen herself aka my oc Artemis helps him out, and while they're doing that they're also falling in love with each other because yes. Another idea which involves my OFA AU again is after the stunt Orion pulls with hacking into a satellite and blasting Burning Constellation's music on all technical platforms, Kliff is very proud of his daughter in a sense like "THAT'S MY GIRL :D " before his wife/Artemis gives him a look and Kliff goes "I mean Orion you can't be doing that- (I'm still proud of you though hack those satellites like I taught you >:D)"
Unpopular Opinon: I feel that there are some people that kind of go a bit too far with hating Kliff and I've come across fanfics where people write Kliff as an irredeemable character/a literal psychopath and I'm like ??? Can y'all chill??? I get that he's a bad person but he's not that evil-
Favorite Relationship: I would very interested to explore the concept of Kliff in his younger days and his relationship with Kul Fyra. Of course there's also me shipping Kliff with Artemis which is also a match made in heaven they're like so adorable Imma cry-
Favorite Headcanon: Kliff figuring out he's bisexual since back in the day he would flirt with other Goolings fans which were both men and women. Also DILF Kliff and him and Artemis going to every concert that their kids perform (Orion and her band Burning Constellation and Prince Astral's concerts with Linus because violin and piano duets are my favorite things in the world-)
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steelthroat Β· 1 year ago
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I was laying in bed and I felt like something was missing, like the position I was in was wrong, that there was something uncomfortable about it. And then I understood what the problem was; the lack of my cat.
Sunny always sleeps with me, laying on my legs, making it impossible for me to turn or change positions while I'm asleep. She provides warmth and a certain weight that I now feel as something habitual.
Before having this cat, I had no such "troubles," and Sunny is literally one door away from me, so that's good... but that made me reflect on something.
I had a bird, she died months ago, she had her own biological clock that she followed regardless of us humans who lived with her. We always put a "curtain" over her cage so that the light wouldn'tdisturb her... and that also led to us barely turning the lights on or doing so quickly because we were mindful of her comfort.
The bird isn't here anymore, but after a certain hour, it still feels weird turning the lights on and not having to mind about the little bird who's trying to sleep. The lack of the (very big) cage and colorful curtain that draped it make the living room feel different. We don't have to constantly sweep up all the seed husks which she consumed, and there's a lot more silence in our home.
That little bird sang quite a lot, and I used to whistle back at her and even tho I wasn't particularly close to her as I am with my cat now or my old goldfish, it was still our way of acknowledging each other's presence. She sang because that was her nature or because the weather was nice, I sang back because I liked the sound she made and I wanted to participate.
Now that sound doesn't exist anymore and never will again.
And it's bittersweet really, it doesn't make me particularly sad, it's just something that I know will happen again.
One day, a day as far as I hope it'll be, my cat will also die and I will lose that distinct warmth and weight over my legs at night. I won't get to hear her cheerful meowing every time I come back home, I won't get to pet her soft fur, I won't have to remind the fact that I have to give her more food, water, change her litter or brush her.
One day I will lose a lot more than just that, I will lose friends, my parents, people who were more or less close to me. People who left their marks on me, changed my habits, my way of living.
And then those little habits, those little things I did in response to the existence of something or someone will be slowly lost or will change.
As I don't mind keeping the lights on 2 seconds more one day I won't be able to call my parents and ask them how they're doing.
As some of the places from my childhood, the people, the situations don't exist anymore so won't last the the things I'm living/going though as of now.
And that's a weird thing, not inherently bad or good... just weird.
I recently visited a place who carried a lot of trauma, and even though in many years things had changed, the core of the place was the same. But I'd like to think that I am one of the things who changed. Neither that place nor its people have power over me anymore, I went there probably one of the lasts times ever to get my closure and I got it, or probably I'll come back in a few years and see again what changed and what didn't.
And it is weird thinking how everything changes but also some things never really do. Does that make everything meaningless or does this give them even more importance? I genuinely don't know.
But that's something I really don't know if I will get ever used to or understand. But that doesn't matter, does it? I'll just have to live and see for myself what changes and what doesn't, what the things and people I interact with are gonna leave me with going forward.
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netherfeildren Β· 1 year ago
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First of all (literally no one asked me to speak on this and I’m not even the previous anon lol but) I so agree with anon, and with you, and their ask made me want to speak on the ending of Pink too because it is absolutely brilliant and deserves to be talked about. As you say, you did what the story asked of you. Whatever happens after that point is part of the joy of reading, you get to bring to the story what you carry within yourself, and you might walk away as someone slightly changed. There’s such a satisfaction to me with open endings, despite the complicated feelings they might evoke. I guess I just want to encourage more people to take risks with their endings and to be fearless in my own writing too. Writing toward happiness and resolution can be lovely, but it’s that can also serve as a kind of finish point of feeling. Closure like a firmly closed door in your face. But endings like this, with nuance and pain and passion and fear, are like a ringing bell that echoes with you long after you read it. Pretty, perfect bows tied on everything doesn’t leave us with any of that beautiful resonance. Okay bye. Smooches to you and that anon.
hello and one million apologies for sitting on this for so long. the idea of the open ending was not one I'd considered much previous to writing pink solely because I don't think I appreciated it for what it could be prior to actually having to think up my own and put it into words which was HARD let me tell you. I literally never have like a beta or someone I bounce my ideas off of when I'm writing like ever ever but for that I did have to consult my best friend, who also writes, and kind of work through what it was that needed to be said and what didn't. I knew how it was I'd be ending, but building that openness that's part resolution / part imagination like you said is actually so incredibly hard to do. I think there's merit to both sorts of endings of course, a perfectly tied off one, and one that leaves us thinking of what could happen next, but it depends on the story and what possibility there is for afterwards. I see pink with so much potential for what can happen next, but I think with something so convoluted it's better to leave it to the reader to imagine what it is they'd like for the characters, what they'd feel comfortable with, what would satisfy you in your own mind.
thank you so much for reading and smooches back 🫢🏻
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dirtyoldmanhole Β· 1 year ago
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chapter twenty six, part one of three because this is detailed af.
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ugh. my heart, man.
as much as i've been ironically joking about (waves hand) most everything, this is legitimately going to hurt. the first playthrough was more about figuring out wtf happened. this one? this one i'm going to feel every line. cuz here's the thing.
it'd be one thing if gunter had your typical villain arc and having fun with this chapter all the way through, god knows i appreciate somebody who can go ham in an entertaining way.
here though?
this is his second worst day of his life. only second because the first was.... bad.
not to be all gross ass feels on the literal hornyblog but. you spend four months writing a literal 100k word fanfiction with this guy in your head, you're going to get attached to some degree, y'know?
...
all right.
last time we left off, we fought possessed!sumeragi, and there was a genuinely touching death scene between the hoshidan kids.
(it's a pity the nohrian ones never really have that same emotional catharsis/closure that the hoshidan ones, either with garon or their own nameless mothers. gunter's really the only nohrian parent (figure?) around, and that's more with corrin specifically.
ugh fuck, you know what I just realized? remember that "you can't stop believing in everyone?" line he lowkey threw back at her in last chapter. this one:
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gunter's going into this confrontation genuinely thinking this is the betrayal that will break her. that's one of the reasons why he's so bitter.
he's thinking to himself 'no you won't, not with me :) ~' all sardonically. and holding that little poisonous resentment close to his chest with the fucking closet of all the others. again, anankos is less possessing him like a puppet and more about tweaking all of his most uncharitable resentments and bumping the intensity of those up.
and the man has. a fuck ton. of resentments.
anyway, everyone's all huddled by the next set of doors, saying the vallite king is behind them. (big ol' red flag by nintendo that it's somebody other than anankos, b/c why would the title suddenly change?)
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they charge in to find the throne room (complete with stark throne) very empty.
then surprise attack fireballs, enter left.
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(actually that's interesting, anankos obviously juiced gunter up enough that he can unleash some pretty potent magic divine shit. normally gunter has zero magic to save his life.)
fireballs target everyone but corrin and azura.
(clever, clever sir. )
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(really, you almost had them all fooled. in another world you could have wiped them out remarkably easily.)
also: note the emphasis on the royalty. you can practically hear anankos leaning down hard on his resentment of royalty to hear that menace of satisfaction.
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ohhhhh holy shit
guess what i also just realized. the shots where corrin/gunter are there? ANANKOS' MASK IS LITERALLY IN BETWEEN (in the background).
holy FUCK that is some brilliant as hell cinematography. anankos ""literally"""" being his mask / the malignant presence blocking their communication/trust/etc. jesus, whoever did these shots needs a raise.
gunter gives it all he's got.
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bullshit, bullshit, bullshit.
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interesting .... that was your idea all along, wasn't it, encouraged by anankos? "lure the royals in the one place and kill them all"
(it's all projection, all the way down in this conversation.)
heh i didn't actually realize i'd be so bang on the mark there, actually, with the last post. (I had forgotten the specific details of this conversation).
...
man, I just feel for corrin here so bad.
like (waves hand) ship stuff aside, at minimum this is the one guy she's trusted for the longest sustained time as a background parental figure. corrin really has not had a single fucking authority figure other than him present. like, at all. who (a) could, and (b) gave a shit enough about her to mentor her with the basic stuff.
this betrayal really does blindside her.
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okay, the scarlet stuff is not as interesting, imo, to his characterization to him really harping in on the vallite royalty part.
part of it is that's his cover story, right.
but remember that "interesting" line from him when shit all the sudden went sideways, when corrin found out she's vallite royalty?
lord, you can practically hear anankos piledrive on his hatred when that revelation all but slapped him in the face. beforehand he was somewhat likely to give corrin a chance, but after that...
and i really do think he always hated corrin, to an alarmingly large degree.
(love's closer to hate than apathy, as the line goes.
and i think that was nowhere more accurate than with their bond.)
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goddamn i can hear the vitrol in these lines.
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"I wasn't sure now" yeah, corrin was really lowkey suspecting him when he pointed the finger at azura the last chapter. she's learning.
a little too late, maybe, but she's learning.
all right, i ran out of the image maximum and this is a decent stopping point for a breather, onwards to part two.
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quarterette Β· 1 year ago
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Spent 35 hrs on Spiritfarer over 4 days because I don't know self control, spoilery thoughts under the cut
First off, sending off spirits hits hard. Esp at 3 am when you deliriously try to see what happens at the Everdoor (and also the pain of having to lose a companion to continue the plot, urgh the last time it hurt that bad for me was Pyre and they weren't even dead)
That said by the time I met Jackie the honeymoon phase was wearing off and a lot of the stuff was hitting too close to home. I know comparison of suffering is sussy but... while dentistry doesn't see much suffering on a day-to-day basis, there's some days there's just no juice left in the tank to care...and when the bumps in the road hit it's easy to get cynical and seeing that first hand makes me question all of my own conduct and whether or not I tried my best too.
That long run on sentence aside, kinda mad the death owl (Hades?) doesn't show up again after the 3 convos. I know the Lily update hammers down most of the loose bits regarding Stella's true fate but it feels like by contextualizing the pictures from reality they kinda dropped Hades being a thing... And same with Charon. It just feels like the Greek mythology inspiration was forgotten rather than intentionally discarded/removed in order to give a more "grounded" answer to what exactly Stella is going through.
NGL I would have probably liked the Lily bits better as a NG+ rather than in the base game. Never been a huge fan of "happy fantasies while the person is suffering in reality" tropes in fanfic and it also left a bitter taste when I pieced it together. Without the Lily update, I would guess I would have remained trapped in a more mythology-inspired mindset (as in Spiritfarers being an inheritable role, and she would eventually need to pass that role onto someone else as Charon did)... instead of "this is a dream Stella is having to give herself closure". Like, I get what they were trying to do with the silent bit of Stella passing through the door silently with just Lily's butterflies and Daffodil, but kinda would have liked it more as a call to action of "yes other people can become Spiritfarers too".
(someone headcanoning Buck as the next Spiritfarer tickles my imagination, salty to hear about his actual situation in reality)
TLDR the game was an emotional heavy hitter, just wish the resolution stuck with its Greek mythology trappings, or went harder on "breaking" the dream world to give us the reality (there's bits of it but imo not enough). The "it was all a dream" route is hard to pull off and at least for me, the ending soured the journey for me.
Probs won't replay for a while, until I can get enough emotional distance to actually get through the full Jackie and Daria bits. Literally I noped out part way through that whole plotline and just sent Stella to the Everdoor cuz I couldn't watch it play out more. I'm glad the game does end up discussing the harder parts of patient care (like Alice/Beverly in a more cynical game could become more combative and mean as they regressed) but I need my escapism after work.
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