#also pretending it's a “disability” thing like you fucking kidding?

[jade-curtiss]

...do you also need the reasoning behind the concept of wiping your own ass too or you'll be fine?

[adorawasright]

ppl tend to act like you're exaggerating for disliking spop, since they love arguing "but it's a show about (romantic) love and redemption! you're just mad to see lesbians winning <3"

but the thing is, c//a ISN'T the only issue with spop.

it's all the "friendships" where the characters don't like each other OR WORSE, the "cool and popular" characters bully the ones that are "weird", "annoying" or "different" overall (read: entrapta and kyle).

most romantic relationships weren't written well or were downright forced, such as g/limbow, s/corfuma, and especially r/epkylonnie (rooted in bullying of all things!). even the healthier ships like s/pinnetossa or bow's dads were sidelined. they only gave spinnerella and netossa screentime in s5 bc they wanted to parallel them with adora and catra.

the diversity isn't even that good, honestly. the characters of color receive little to no love from the show and from the fandom. BOW, my god, he's not only the black best friend character, he also has no meaningful character arc. he's just there for the plot, he changes his personality and morals when the plot wants him to (especially to make catra look better). although glimmer was probably one of, if not THE best character in the show (saying this with s4 in mind), sadly s5 only shoved her with bow romantically since they were reduced to wingmen and not adora's actual best friends. and if i talk about the other characters of color, such as micah and castaspella, we'll be here all day, and i've written about it in other posts.

other than that, disabled characters (hordak and shadow weaver) are the villains, the canonical trans/non-binary character was deceiving the good guys by pretending to be a little girl, the themes of war were never taken srsly, only when it was convenient, and in the end the creator dared to sum everything up by "it's catra's and adora's show!!!".

yes, there were elements in spop that i loved, like the original best friends squad and entrapdak, and i liked the narrative of abuse when it DIDN'T spit on adora's face. i loved seeing her standing up to shadow weaver and catra for what she believed was right. like it was so inspiring! i would've loved this as a kid!

this show had so much potential but they teach the worst messages to kids, especially "they hit you because they secretly like you". that fucking sucks. i don't hate lgbtqiapn+ rep - the rep here is BAD. and again, the grievances ppl have with spop are BEYOND the romance!!!

[fatphobiabusters]

"I don't believe that fat people deserve basic human needs like love, food, or clothes. I think fat people are automatically ugly because I grew up only seeing thin people treated as beautiful in media and society. Because fat people aren't fuckable to me, I tell them to kill themselves and call them ob*se pigs. Which reminds me, the term the medical field uses for fat people, I actually treat it as a slur. I also treat the word 'fat,' the most basic term for a specific human body type, as a taboo insult that you should never, ever call someone. Unless you want to call them ugly or worthless, which I treat 'fat' as a synonym for. I give fat disabled people judging looks because how dare any fat people be disabled. I think fat people should be forced to pay more taxes and to park as far away from a building as possible to force these fat asses to walk. There's countless insulting euphemisms for fat people: fat ass, lard ass, butter ball, diabetty. Oh, that reminds me! I also believe I know the medical records of all fat people and use that to call the over 2 billion fat people on this Earth the dirt underneath my feet. I associate different diseases with fat people, who I hate, so I also put stigma on those diseases. I think it's okay for fat people to pay extra for clothing despite me being a size medium and not having to pay more than people who wear a size extra small. I mock fat people for dancing, walking, running, eating, exercising, swimming, existing, and even breathing! Literally! I laugh when a fat person breathes heavy for even a single second after they walk up a flight of stairs! I support and buy all of the diet culture products that make money off of fat people being viewed as scum. I once saw a fat person on the news talking about how she was enduring food insecurity, and I laughed for a full minute because obviously that fat woman is nothing but the stereotypes I support about fat people and actually overeats. I secretly have a thing for fat women, but I would never dare actually date a fat woman or be with a fat woman in public. That's why I fuck her in private and then pretend she doesn't exist. Whenever I create a character and want to make people know that the character is bad in some way, I make the character fat. I help bully fat people whenever I can. I not only make jokes when fat people die, I also assume every fat person died because they're fat and tell random fat strangers on the internet that they're going to die at age 35. I freely harass fat people because I know not a single person on this Earth will defend them from me, not even progressive people. But no, fat people definitely aren't oppressed. Stop kidding."

How every fatphobic asshole sounds when they tell me fat people aren't oppressed.

-Mod Worthy

[soldiergf]

happiness is a butterfly - part two (natalie scatorccio x misty quigley)

part one

summary: after nat's death, misty is convinced she's never going to get to see her best friend again. and then nat's ghost appears in misty's bedroom and everything changes

tw: none

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“so, can i touch you?” “no, misty, you can’t.”

once misty got over the fact that nat was there, in her house, and they were actually having a conversation, they naturally went back into their usual banter - misty asks a lot of questions, and natalie refuses to give her an answer that isn’t something along the lines of “shut up.” the only thing she actually learned within the past 45 minutes is that natalie is only able to get as far as 50 feet away from misty or else she teleports right where misty is (which is great in misty’s book) and that apparently, natalie is capable of touching inanimate objects but not anything with a beating pulse (which is not so great in misty’s book).

while, yes, the situation was rather unfortunate, she was just glad to have her best friend back. at least this way, misty could gaslight herself into pretending that things were normal. because, technically, they were. for now.

her and natalie haven’t exactly had the ‘oh, yeah, sorry for accidentally killing you while trying to kill the girl that pointed a gun in your direction oopsies’ talk yet, and it was one neither of them wanted to have. misty knows that nat probably expected her to push farther on the little they did talk about it, given that all misty ever does is push when it comes to uncomfortable topics (read: the wilderness), but misty really wasn’t in the mood to talk about this uncomfortable topic, and she knew damn well natalie wasn’t either. and sure, she knows that talking about it helps you feel better or whatever, but does misty even want to feel better? cause once she does, nat is gone for good. but then again, if she feels better, she’s going to be okay with nat being gone for good…

honestly, misty can’t imagine a world where she’s okay with nat being gone for good. and she really doesn’t want to. 

“so, i can’t touch you or you won’t let me?”

“both.” nat says, her tone sharp and glass. misty flops down onto her bed. “what do you mean both?” she asks, tilting her glasses up from where it had fallen down onto her nose, a nervous habit of hers she’s picked up when she was a kid. natalie crosses her arms, leaning against the dresser. “i mean, no, you can’t touch me, and even if you could, i wouldn’t let you. there. you happy?”

misty just scoffs, rolling her eyes. “it wouldn’t hurt for you to lighten up a bit. god, you’re always so…pissy.” natalie just laughs, and even though her laugh sounds really pretty in misty’s opinion, she could automatically tell it wasn’t the good kind of laugh (misty bets natalie would sound even prettier if it was the good kind of laugh). “what’s next, you’re going to tell me to smile more?” nat says, a little too sarcastic for a dead girl.

��you know, natalie, you could be a little bit nicer to me. i mean, you’re like, stuck with me for who knows how long. so.” she gives natalie a look as if to say duh, and before she gave nat a chance to say something snappy back, she opens up her laptop and starts typing away. 

“you find anything on the mysterious texter?” natalie asked, and misty lights up and both the fact that it was nat who initiated the conversation and also, misty fucking loves talking about her job as a citizen detective. she knows it’s probably weird, she’s 43 and geeking out about true crime, but misty’s always been the weird one, hasn’t she?

“well,” misty says, motioning for nat to come sit next to her on the bed, which the brunette does not do. “the little shit used a burner phone and then disabled said phone, which, i was kind of expecting that.” she sighs, turning over to natalie, who muttered something under her breath. “let me see.” nat finally climbs onto the bed, prying the laptop out of misty’s hands, for her to see, and misty ignores the implications that natalie just straight up didn’t trust her. 

“but,” misty says, yanking the laptop away. “i did find a location before he disabled it.” 

she opens up another tab, smiling to herself as natalie leans in to read the coordinates of the screen. “it says its from beaver hill, oregon.” natalie raises her eyebrow. “beaver hill? who the fuck names a town after a rodent?” misty just giggles, because first of all, beavers were cute, and second of all, the mental image of natalie interacting with a beaver was even cuter. she imagines the beaver climbing all over natalie, getting all clingy and adorable, maybe crawling into her lap for cuddles or whatever. she thinks the brunette would probably act all annoyed at this, given the fact that she always acts all annoyed, but misty likes to think nat would secretly enjoy it. that maybe she’d actually like the obvious care and affection the beaver has for her, or maybe she’d eventually seek out the beaver herself.

(don’t read too much into that. it’s obviously not how misty wants nat to feel about her. duh).

“i’m not exactly sure. but what’s strange about it, is that it’s an unincorporated town. it’s not governed by any sort of local corporation or municipality, which, i guess makes it kind of perfect for this cryptic kind of shit. right?”

natalie just rolls her eyes. “whatever, i’m not doing another fucking road trip with you, misty. not again.” natalie shoved the laptop back into misty’s lap and got up from the bed. “you can go by yourself or whatever, just leave me out of this.”

“right, what happened to the whole ‘you cant be more than 50 feet away from me’ thing?” misty says in an overly sweet tone, cocking her head to the side, knowing that she won. natalie groans, tilting her head backwards as a sign of annoyance (misty ignores the feeling she gets when she sees natalie’s exposed neck, knowing that if they could make physical contact she’d totally want to leave little marks all over the flesh).

“you’re fucking insufferable, you know?” natalie jabs her pointer finger in misty’s direction, to which the blonde sighs, crossing her arms. “but you know i’m right! don’t you want to find who’s sending this shit, and what they want from us?”

“what they want from you, misty. i’m dead, remember? or at least i should be. so, no, misty, i don’t want to find out who’s sending this shit!” and misty knows what the implications are. she knows that none of this affects natalie anymore, directly anyways. she knows nat’s supposed to be dead but isn’t because misty’s pathetic, clingy ass can’t seem to get a grip. she knows that nat is only dead because of misty. it’s all because of misty.

and to make matters worse, she knows however badly misty fucks up, no matter how much nat wants her to leave her alone, natalie’s never going to outright say it, because that’s just not who natalie is. she’ll passive aggressively imply the hell of it - like she’s doing now - but there’s not a mean bone in natalie’s insanely hot body. even when she deserves it, nat would never actually lash out on misty. and she hates it. and she kind of loves it too.

“right. sorry.” misty nods, giving herself a second just to sulk, before cracking a smile because passive aggressive or not, nat was still going to be stuck on another road trip with her and it was going to be so. much. fun.

“wait - do you think i should ask the others about the text? i mean, they probably got it, right? or something of the variation. i mean, my first thought was that the thing the texter meant they knew about was the wilderness, because duh, but then i thought maybe they were talking about you? because, like, you know, 25 years since the plane crash and the first survivor is down and maybe they put the pieces together and-”

“dont.” natalie says sharply, and it takes misty a second to realize what exactly nat is saying ‘dont’ to. and then she realizes. 

natalie doesn’t want to tell the others.

which doesn’t exactly surprise misty, but it doesn’t not surprise misty. she knows nat is pretty much a loner, despite misty’s various attempts to get herself involved in natalie’s life. but it’s not like nat had that many issues with the others in the time leading up to her death. but even if she did, it’s not like she’d have to talk to them or anything. and it’s good to have to backup, in case shit goes south. misty simply tilts her head to the side to convey her confusion, and natalie just looks away as if she’s contemplating the right words to say. “i just- i don’t want them knowing, you know…about me. like this. the ghost thing. you know?” natalie says sheepishly, and no, misty doesn’t know, but her face immediately softens, because if there’s one thing you’re rarely going to get from natalie scatorccio, it’s vulnerability. and this feels probably as vulnerable as natalie is going to get.

“i just…it’s weird. i don’t know. maybe later we can tell them but not now, okay? can this just be our secret for now?” natalie says and all misty could do was smile at her because that sounded a lot like nat wanted something just for the two of them - which, realistically, is not what she meant at all, but then again, misty was known for being little miss delusional.

“okay.” misty agrees, because honestly, who needs backup when you have the ghost of your dead best friend by your side?

“we’re really doing this again, aren’t we?” natalie asks, sighing in defeat, to which misty enthusiastically nods. “yep! back at it again! i should pack my stuff.” the blonde bounces up and out of bed, murmuring to herself as she grabs an old knapsack from the fucking 90s and shoves some clothes in there, as well as her other belongings. 

misty hears a notification from her phone - the little ding go off - and her mind immediately goes to the unknown texter. “you think it’s our mystery bitch?” natalie asks, already knowing the answer. misty tries not to act too excited, except fuck it, she’s very excited. she crawls onto her bed to pick up her phone, flopping down onto the sheets, enthusiastic in a way that made her disappointment all the more obvious when she realized it was, in fact, not the mystery bitch.

“what?” natalie asked. “he threaten to kidnap your bird or something?”

typically, misty would have just rolled her eyes or told natalie not to bring caligula into this. but this whole situation was not very typical, so instead, misty just stared at her phone for a few more seconds, before shaking her head, snapping out of whatever little trance she was previously in. “uh, no, sorry.” she says. “it’s not the texter. it’s walter.”

walter. misty had met him on her citizen detective site a little while back, when she was trying to figure out what the fuck happened to natalie - turns out she was kidnaped by lottie’s acolytes - and he actually proved to be of pretty useful help. he was odd, and a little strange, but misty can’t deny that they kind of work well together. he was just like her, all kooky and weird. he assured misty that her (nonexistent) ‘serial killer tendencies’ were actually charming and he made her feel like an actual person instead of just the quirky outcast she’s been stereotyped as her whole life. now, statistically, she’s never had the best relationship luck (the whole ‘murder basement’ thing is pretty off-putting for most people), and it’s not that she’s actively pursuing anything with him, but she’s not stupid. she can tell he’s into her. and she’s not not into him. she’s just….not into him. sort of. 

“walter? the little boyfriend?” nat asks, furrowing her eyebrows together slightly. “the fuck does he want?” misty knew natalie was never walter’s biggest fan, and she knew that, and even though misty’s still not entirely sure what she wants from walter, she kind of wishes her best friend had a higher opinion of the one person who actually took an interest in her.

“he’s asking if i’m okay. after, you know, tonight. he drove me home and offered to come in, but uh, i wanted to be alone.” misty says, to which natalie just laughs. “you, misty quigley, wanted to be alone? how ironic.”

and yeah, in any other circumstance, it would have been pretty funny to misty. now? it just makes misty want to curl up into a ball and cry.

“you gonna answer him?” natalie asks, and misty hates the way nat’s voice softens, she hates how much it sounds like pity. misty just nods, typing back from short response or whatever, hoping it’ll sound real enough for walter just to drop it. she does want to talk to him, she really does, but, not right now. he would understand. this is simply too important.

“how far is oregon from here?” nat asks, to which misty immediately responds with “about 1 day and 18 hours.”

surprisingly, natalie doesn’t put up a fight, simply groans but nods. “alright. well, given the fact that you’re going to have to drive the whole way, we should probably wait until the morning to leave. you’re going to be too tired to drive in a couple of hours if we leave now. get some rest, misty. go to sleep.”

and misty did just that, knowing that even if it was just for a short period of time, it was going to be her and natalie against the world again. just as it should be.

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[insectfem]

don't you think that some of the horrific shit that trump is going to do cis people, including cis women (vis a vis birth control and abortions) might have something to do with the "trans shit". you call him a nazi and then dismiss the "trans shit" as if the actual german nazis from the early 20th century that were led by the actual real hitler did not historically also round trans people into camps, as if the nazi book burning photos we have today are not of magnus hirschfeld's institute for sexual research.

i understand that you're scared of losing birth control. that is horrible, yes. historically though the "trans shit" that the nazis did involved the trans people getting put into camps. i just think if you want to talk about fascism and use nazism specifically, you have to realise that the "trans shit" is a part of the nazism.

the "trans shit" that trump is doing isn't some kind of distraction or inconsequential whatever. why compare someone to a nazi then dismiss something that they've done that actually aligns perfectly with the original nazis as "trans shit". come on, lets use our brains for a second here

no, i don't think abortion rights have anything to do with transgender people, and everything to do with controlling women's bodies and trying to turn us into breeding stock for men again. because, again, I CAN GET TESTOSTERONE IN MY STATE BUT NOT AN ABORTION. IT IS A FELONY TO GET AN ABORTION IN MY STATE. IF A WOMAN MISCARRIES, IT COULD POTENTIALLY MAKE HER A FELON IN MY STATE.

yall keep saying "him going after trans people is a sign he's gin a go after women" WHEN WEVE LOST OUR BODILY AUTONOMY ALMOST THREE YEARS AGO. THE ONLY PUSHBACK YALL HAVE SEEN IS THAT CHILDREN CAN NO LONGER GO ON HRT. that's not even a bad thing. there's a state where a child as young as 9 can get tattoos as long as their parents are okay with it. i 1000% think that state needs the age changed to 18. we don't let children get rhinoplasties or take ozempic or get breast implants. it is not an infringement on one's rights to not be able to permanently change your body before you turn 18. i have tattoos. im extremely happy that i couldnt get them before 18 because id probably have a fucking steven universe sleeve. kids are fucking stupid. yall acting like trans people are dying because kids can't make permanent changes to themselves is stupid. asking people to neglect biological sex is stupid too.

also ☝🏻 why are you spewing historical revisionism about the holocaust to a disabled jew? homosexuals were targeted. cross dressers were targeted. yall loooove to take gay male cross dressers and pretend they're transgender (ie marsha johnson, famous, self reported, gay man) so i assume yall see femine gay man and immediately think TRANS. this is just a other example of tras trying to take over literally every other tragedy and making it about them. when are yall gonna start saying 9/11 targeting trans office workers?

also² "i understand you're scared of losing birth control" sounds so goddamn condescending because im not scared ABORTION IS GONE FOR ME. MILLIONS OF AMERICAN WOMEN CANNOT ACCESS ABORTION. my birth control costs ONE THOUSAND THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS. they're making it hard to accessfor poor women, especially when theyre taking insurance away. "i know you're so scared" just sounds like you're saying "damn hoes be crazy amirite."

the trump is hitler comparison is because someone he appointed to a department in the government heil'd hitler twice during his inauguration. he's overwriting something signed in the 1960s to end """"affirmative action"""" (making sure that companies don't hire only white men). him and many other republicans are constantly referring to a they, and we all know they mean (((them))). the threats of mass deportation.

saying there are two sexes is not a nazi thing. if a nazi said "the sky is blue," he's not incorrect just because he's a nazi.

im scared for black people. im scared for gay people. im scared for women. im scared for disabled people. im scared for latinos. im scared for immigrants. im not scared for you, just on the basis of being trans alone, because there are much more pressing issues

[monkmain2]

I figured if I were to post these pictures here I might as well include the whole thing

extremely long page of text below the cut

his idea has been rattling around in my brain like a little gremlin who just snorted five lines of coke and drank an entire can of monster energy

I was extremely reluctant to actually get this idea out there because my little autism creechur brain was 100% convinced that it was the most cringy shit ever created and i would be violently and incessantly beaten down by the very fact that i had posted something so blasphemous on the internet by my very own conscience

But at this point i feel like there’s no point in keeping it in or else it’ll just infect my brain forever and i’ll never be able to think about anything else so if it is disgustingly cringy i suppose i’ll just have to embrace the cringe and deal with it

Ok fine admittedly if it is cringe i’ll probably just disable reboots and comments on this post and adamantly deny its existence if anyone brings it up

Ok so uh it’s a concept for an alternate UTMV

God this is so fucking cringe i hate it already why am i like this

I don’t even want to keep going why is this so cringe to my gremlin brain

AHEM

So uh

It’s sorta an expansion of that “UTMV but Ink is really fucking short” idea i had a while ago

So like it’s like when Ink tried to destroy his soul it did the refusing to shatter thing for no particular reason other than i couldn’t think of a better way to cobble together an explanation for why he still has one

So it still made all his memories go away but it also reverted him back to the age in which such a mentality would be expected aka a baby

As for how he left his AU after this that’s something that i have to talk about Nightmare and Dream’s weird convoluted story in this AU for you to understand

So unlike normal Dreamtale instead of Dream being a perfect angel that everyone loves and Nightmare being jealous of him he’s a belligerent little shit with anger issues that everyone just kind of puts up with because he’s the guardian of positivity so they can’t really hate him

Nightmare isn’t jealous of him and is instead self-conscious because everyone hates him for no reason even though he’s just a shy bean who’s trying his best and he thinks something must be wrong with him

So one day some kids decide that it would be fun to climb the tree and steal an apple. Nightmare sees them doing this and climbs after them, and they get into a slight scuffle which ends with one kid falling out of the tree with a couple apples. When Nightmare goes to make sure he’s ok, the kid shoves an apple in his mouth for bullying reasons.

Nightmare does the whole explodey goop thing, but he doesn't go crazy or anything, and instead it hurts so much he accidentally thrashes his tentacles too much and levels the whole area, killing the kids and obliterating the tree.

Dream comes running and yells at Nightmare for destroying the tree and killing the kids even though it’s clearly not his fault. And then uuuh i don’t really know the other stuff about Dreamtale after the whole Nightmare eating all the apples part so bing bang boom some shit happens and now Dreamtale is uninhabitable and Dream and Nightmare decide to fuck off and go protect the multiverse instead.

Dream solves all his problems with violence and Nightmare solves his problems by either pretending to have an intent to kill or curling up on the floor and crying. (he just like me fr (i’m totally not projecting here (why would you think such a thing))) also Dream isn’t allowed to enter the Omega timeline for anger management reasons

Some bullshit happens that results in a Swap!Sans exiting his universe right as a reset happens so that’s how i shoehorn Blue into being a character

Also Error is still here by the way he’s still destroying universes and stuff nothing much is different about him

Speaking of Error, at one point he notices Ink’s AU and moseys on over to destroy it as usual. Nightmare and Blue jump in to protect the AU, but when they realize Ink is the only one there, they decide to just distract Error instead of actually fighting him while they get Ink out of there. Blue grabs Ink, and Ink uses his magic AU powers or whatever to sense the coordinates of Blue’s AU and teleports there to get away from Error. After they get Ink to the Doodlesphere, (Error can’t go the the Doodlesphere in this AU) they realise they can’t just dump him in the Omega timeline, because if he gets stressed he’ll read the coordinates of someone's AU and teleport there, and there are so many characters from so many AUs there, it’ll be unreasonably difficult to find him if he does. so they decide that the best course of action is to keep him in the Doodlesphere to protect him from Error themselves.

Oh yeah Ink is also mute for some reason

That’s pretty much it i think

Vaguely related rant time!!!!!!!!!!!

Honestly I don't think posting about this will help me stop thinking about it. In order to, like, not get bored in the undertale fandom, you have to constantly make AUs because focusing on one AU doesn't really work unless you want an extremely convoluted story that drags on forever. The only other option is to make an alternate multiverse, so you can just fuck about with no real storyline. But that gets old too after a while, and if I don't have access to drawing tools I just get lost in this one repeating storyline with stupid amounts of angst because it’s not interesting without angst. 

Being in a fandom does kind of stifle your creativity after a while, but the very fact that I'm hyperfixated on undertale makes it hard to tear myself away and try other things even if I know I should. That’s part of the reason I'm trying to get back into writing my wolf story, so I have something else to think about,. the problem with that is, it isn’t an open storyline. I know how it’ll end and what will happen next, so I can't really imagine random circumstances to chuck the characters into since that would never realistically happen in the world I created.

The moral of the story is my school better fix the weird restrictions on every single decent drawing website in existence or I might explode

My god this entire thing spans two and a half pages of a google doc i had to make a new one just to write this without it lagging

[bulldyke-rider]

Now, I am of the opinion that we do owe eachother. People do owe eachother. I've talked about it in posts talking about the "don't treat your friends like therapists" fuckin epidemic.

But I think the whole "Where's my village" thing is fundamentally sexist. Most of y'all's moms still have jobs, some of y'all's moms are disabled. But you think your mom owes you endless labor your entire life.

There are the grandparents who don't see their grandkids and just post pictures of them on Facebook and pretend to be in their lives. That's one thing to complain about. I think that's fucked up too.

But sometimes the "well, my grandma watched me every weekend and every weeknight until I was old enough to drive" gets tired. Your grandma also never had a job out of the house and was never appreciated for all she did.

I think the line for me stands at reciprocation and appreciation. If you cry about your problems to a friend, they need to be allowed to cry to you. If your mom watches your kids all weekend so you have time to do this or that, you better put something in it for her.

"It takes a village" you can't just be part of the village when you need help with your kids. That's fuckin selfish. And that's you expecting free labor. A lot of the women saying this stuff will be the grandmas who won't watch their grandkids. They want some free labor, and that's it.

You should not ask for free labor as an adult. You give and take or pay.

[mothmoonle]

Mystreet Zane Headcanon:

Garroth threw a rock in at his eye.The eye is a delicate organ, something like a rock being thrown at it would permanently damage it. Especially when the kid throwing it has SUPERSTRENGTH. He probably couldn't go to school for weeks after that.

His eye got badly damaged, so much it had to be removed. Not only that, but they rock also broke his nose, and fractured some of his skull around the eye area. He has scars on his right side from surgery, and his nose is slightly crooked. Because of that, Zane covers that side with his hair and wears the mask. Children aren't the best at caring for themselves, so the scars healed terribly.

So Zane doesn't have an eye anymore, he just has an empty socket, which isn't that comfortable. So I imagine he got a fake eye, in a colour that matches the other. It doesn't move as well as his real eye, so its more for comfort than looking 'normal'.

Apparently you're supposed to go to eye doctors or whatever every 6 months to clean it, and get revisions and whatever necessary, so that's in his schedule.

Sometimes for halloween, or to fuck with his brothers he'll wear different eye or just take it out mid conversation

Sometimes he will use concealer, just for fun.

In the beginning he found it hard to judge distances, and bumped into things or knocked things off, ball sports were off the table for him. By PDH he got used to seeing like that, but he still didn't participate in sports (didn't like it, and asthma ect.)

He's insecure of his face and eye, so comments like "cyborg" or "one-eye" even though they refer to him just covering it, hurt a fuck ton. He considers himself disabled, would strongly advocate for the community and anyone in real life, without referencing himself though. Zane would pretend to be fine with it as a teen, but getting it was pretty traumatic. Once he got older he started accepting himself.

I can't decide between 2 things: Zane hiding the fact, or being really open about it and making jokes.

If he never told anyone and only his family knew, then people would talk about things about him, exactly like in cannon. And he would just have to deal with it, probably making snarky comments in his head.

Aphmau: "Did you see that?"

Zane: "No?"

Aphmau: "How?? It was right there! you were looking at it!"

Zane: grumbles

He purposefully stands to the left of people he doesn't want to see, and always stands to the right of people he does. Imagine your ships yourself.

If people knew, well, they'd probably not be as much of a prick about it, it would be interesting to see people who made fun of him (jokingly or maliciously) realise they bullied a disabled guy. (Gene. I'm talking about Gene, but of course there's others.)

Regardless, I think Garroth (and possibly the rest of the family) for the longest time after the incident, wouldn't speak about it at all. So regardless, the only way people would know is for Zane to tell them, or see for themselves. But I feel like if Garroth was present when someone mocked Zane about his sight, whether they knew or not, would be going to the hospital. He won't stand for that shit.

Garroth: "You don't talk to my brother like that!"

Zane: "I couldn't care less if-- Well that wasn't necessary."

Essentially, Zane should be fully blind and scarred, and it shall be explored in literature.

[polyhexian]

Can you elaborate on previous Darius post?

Darius is mean. He's fucking mean. Darius isn't like Raine, who always knew fascism is bad and has been intentionally working their way up the ladder with the intention to stop it, knowing they will have to make hard decisions that hurt others on the way. Darius got that job because he wanted it. He didn't think anything was wrong UNTIL Raine turned out to be a rebel, and he decided he trusted raine's judgement above his orders. Like. He heel turned at the last minute. He's not like. A perfect dude.

And moreso like. Darius was just. Not good??? To hunter??? In the emperor's coven??? You can absolutely write or draw Darius coming to his fucking senses earlier than he does in canon, but. In canon he does not care about Hunter. He is not nice to him. The very first thing Darius ever says to him is a deep annoyed sigh and ugh, we rescheduled the meeting, so, "run along and do your arts and crafts, or, whatever it is you do" with a little mocking wave. Then he yanks off his patched up cape and laughs at him mockingly before he realizes it's his mentors sigil and he stops laughing and suddenly he's like legitimately mad at this teenage boy about this. He takes his cape and gets INTO it and calls him the emperor's nephew and implies he's a nepo baby and he's weak and useless and that his predecessor was one of the greatest witches to ever live, but Hunter being canonically disabled makes him pathetic and that he will never ever live up to the shoes he's trying to fill. The man knows everything. He knows hunter is supposedly belos's nephew. We know that he knows hunter is sixteen because HE is the one that tells US he's sixteen. He knows EXACTLY what the golden guard role entails because his mentor was one. He knows that hunter is a disabled teenage soldier and he has an overwhelming amount of evidence to make the assumption that he is also an orphan. And yet he stands there and mocks him and laughs at him and rubs his face in the fact he thinks he's useless and should be ashamed of himself for- you know. Being disabled.

Not to mention that like. The scene where Darius gives hunter a scroll is cute. Or like. It would be. If he hadn't just threatened to hit him?? Like it wasnt even that he was willing to FIGHT him. Hunter was standing still and Darius thought it would be funny to raise his hand like he was about to hit him, he let him flinch and squeeze his eyes shut and brace to be hit and to take it and he thought it was funny to be like psyche haha dink! I tapped your head. Psyche! You really thought I was gonna hit you lol huh? Thats not funny. That's not funny????? Why did you even do that? You didn't change your mind or something. He'd already decided not to hit him. Why did you pretend like you were going to hit him????

Like I am THE Darius guy, I've written an OBSCENE amount of Darius, I've written an OBSCENE amount of Dadrius myself, and "au where Darius decided to be nice to hunter earlier" is great and all but. That is not canon. He would not do that. Not in canon. In canon Darius is cool with mocking disabled and (probably) orphaned teenage soldiers and that doesn't change until hunter does something that makes him think he DESERVES to be treated with respect. He's a kid. That's insane. Darius thats a whole ass child. The fuck are you doing

He's just fuckin mean lol

[fuck-customers]

Hello everyone. I’d like to give y’all a quick recap of my time in retail this holiday season:

-two guests tried to fight one of our online order guys, and from what I heard they absolutely provoked him and started the beef by stealing things from the order he was picking for

-had two female guests try to fight ME because I had the audacity to ask them why they were opening boxes of makeup, and management pretty much did nothing about it bc they continued shopping and got to checkout like nothing happened. Then had a leader, who knows nothing about my dept, try to come over and say it was my fault for not saying the exact right thing to her

-had a leader complain to upper management that I “don’t follow direction” bc she tried to come over to my dept, completely change the way we do shit by having me and my coworker switch areas (despite me telling her that our fucking SCHEDULE literally confirms that she is wrong, which she even later admitted herself???)

-had a lady throw boxes of makeup sponges at me

-had to tell multiple groups of very obviously rich and entitled teens/kids that is in fact extremely shitty to get the electric scooters meant for disabled guests and instead use them to race, play bumper cars, or stack three people in the basket on the front of it

Also. A VERY SPECIAL FUCK YOU to some specific customers. An hour after I got screamed at and threatened by the two customers I mentioned above, I guy walking through my area then drops an entire like 24 pack of topo Chico onto the floor and there’s fuckifn glass and water everywhere. Since I had just been screamed at and my leaders did nothing to have my back, I was little bit in a bad mood by the time the broken glass happened. Fucking sue me right?? Wel two guests who SAW ME cleaning up the glass (didn’t even fucking interact with me, I remember) and I guess thought that I didn’t look happy enough while I was doing that and decided to fucking FILE A COMPLAINT ABOUT IT.

Literally what fhe FUCK is wrong with you that you see a worker clearly having a very hard day, in the middle of holiday season, and you then think to yourself, “you know what? That worker needs to be smiling while being plowed in the ass by capitalism. And the fact that they’re not deriving physical, spiritual and sexual pleasure from their shitty retail job offends me so much I think I’ll have to complain about them and make it even worse.”

I even remember who might’ve complained too. Bc the guy that dropped the damn bottles in the first place didn’t even stick around to see it resolved (naturally) and so I didn’t even interact with any customers while cleaning it. HOWEVER, there was a couple standing nearby that when it happened, they immediately ran to his side like “oh man that’s so terrible you must be having a bad day? Are you alright? Do you need help?” So I guess fuck the person who actually has to clean this all up, no instead we should fawn over the jackass who broke all this glass and couldn’t even pretend he cared about it. Because that makes perfect fucking sense. Also love the casual implication that retail workers must be smiling deliriously all the fucking time and that I am not allowed to show any emotions besides that bc I am subhuman and not deserving of any grace or empathy. So dear customers who complained… I’m literally BEGGING the universe to fuck you over and YOU personally because if you truly had nothing better to do than scrutinize the facial expressions of a retail worker you never even interacted with, you are truly a waste of oxygen and are detrimental to society. I hope your nastiness comes back to bite you in the ass. I hope someone kicks YOU while you’re down and I hope it fucking sucks, you worthless piece of shit.

Posted by admin Rodney.

[girltigerclaw]

breaking into ur house rn

top ten characters and bottom ten. reasons are optional

I just finished this chart thing i think i actually stole from your blog a few months ago <3 Slightly edited to my own prefs.

If anyone wants the template check the reblogs, and feel free to add you own. I'd love to see. I'm just rambling under here:

Leafpool: She is more special and sacred than the virgin mary. She has everything. Daughter of the first protagonist, ex boyfriend for me to hate, TONS of wlw situationships<3, a lifetime of tragedy, and some of the most gorgeous canon art to exist.

Crookedstar: Crookedstar is a trans woman to me. Her life is genuinely just so tragic and fucked, I love it. The erins asked: “How much truama, death and misfortune can you fit into a single cat?” and then they wrote Crookedstar’s promise.

Tawnypelt: GIRLS WHO HATE THEIR FATHERS. The erins dont love her like I do.

Tallstar: I love old men… I fucking love seeing older characters and how much they’ve changed from their younger selves. Tallstar is considered one of, if not the most peaceful leader in the clans. But also when he was like 19 he went on a quest to fucking murder a guy :3

Cloudstar: I rlly do not care abt anyone in Skyclan(I like Leafstar but she's not a fav yknow?) Cloudstar... he was based as fuck. Why did Starclan get away with this shit for real??

Scourge: It’s fucking Scourge. He’s awesome

Briarlight: I’m disabled and I love her. She has such a consistent fun, sweet personality and she makes me happy!!<3

RavenBarley: It deserves all the attention and hype it gets. Though I wish mlm ships didn’t overshadow wlw ones in this fandom, RavenBarley is genuinely well written and makes me very emotional even if the publisher didnt allow it to be explicitly canon.

CrookedBlue: TRANS WOMEN CROOKEDSTAR YURI. Two leaders having a forbidden relationship and kits is way more interesting than Oakheart. The angst of Crooked and Blue sitting next to eachother every gathering while the entire forest has their eyes on them. Don’t look for too long, don’t let the mourning slip into your voice. You have to pretend your lover is a stranger. You… have become strangers. You can never be together again. You're enemies now. This is what we wanted, isn’t it? …We’ll never be happy again.

Mothwing: Her novella delving into her relationship with Hawkfrost was so good and heartbreaking.

Heathertail: Daughter of leader, sister of a major villian, and former love interest of a protagonist! Why did she fall off the second po3 ended. She’s shown to be very compassionate and willing to put her own feelings aside for the sake of others. Would’ve honestly prefered her as a mate to Lionblaze or get a pov herself over the nothing we got.

Blackstar: *Murders an elderly woman trying to stop me from kidnapping children. Supports a dictator openly abusing/neglecting children and the elderly. Murders a man for refusing to kill mixed raced children- then tells said man’s sister that she will never be safe.* Man…. i sure do feel bad for abusing and killing all of those people…. Good thing I will face no consequences and proceed to be made leader, where I will have even more power over the wellbeing of others.

I hate. This guy.

The New Prophecy: A classic. My first series was actually tnp! i feel more attached to first arc cats tho, if you couldn't already tell by my list lmao

Johanna Map- Best Tawnypelt content out there

BlueQuince: My personal handcrafted, homemade Yuri. Bluefur feels terrible about Tiny going missing and promises Quince she’ll help her find him. They never did, but they had a very… fleeting but intimate relationship. Quince is grieving and Bluefur feels so overwhelmed by the duties in her clan. They’ve always thought of eachother since but never met again.

Tigerclaw: My name sake<3 The angst of his earlier life is so, so facinating to me. Starclan being straight fucked up and decided killing him is their only option? He was a kid and they saw him as a lost cause from the start. They never tried any other methods, never tried to steer him in the right direction or… even just take it into their own hands and kill him themself, which they have SHOWN they’re capable of.

They watched all the the horrific crimes he commited, entirely aware they were going to happen. Thats. Fucking. Horrifying. Starclan is scary as shit… and his death? FANTASTIC. I only wish he’d gotten lives from cats he killed so that him coming back to life to suffer over and over was an actual curse from Starclan and not blessings. They knew how he would die and they gave him the lives to torture him for his sins…

Flywhisker: Adhd girlies. Painfully relate to that feeling of the constant scolding for never being “good enough” because I prefer to do things a certain way or struggle to focus. So, SO happy for her when she left the clans! You don’t have to prove yourself to anyone! Hope she’s happy and warm indoors with her brother💕

(P.S. I was very suprised to find she actually had an official art piece!)

Bluestar: Get behind me women with mental disorders. I will defend you. Beautifully complex and tragic character, my favorite written in the series. Literally can't think of a single other female character in handled as seriously and with the complexity of Bluestar. (Although her super edition was a bit of an L with how others treated her, it ultimately makes her breakdown even more painful.)

Exile from Shaodwclan: Nightstar my beloved! He's such a great guy. The rightful leader of Shadowclan, always and forever.

Ravenpaw's Farewell: HE DIED IN BARLEY'S ARMS, TELLING HIM HE WILL FIND HIM, NO MATTER WHERE HE IS. FUCK.

Crookedstar art: So beautiful. I genuinely think she's one of the prettiest cats in the series. This along with her official art by Wayne Mcloughlin.

Leopardstar: As a kid I hated her and loved Blackfoot, now I hate Blackfoot and love her. #feminism. But seriously I think she has way more going for her than he ever has. Her father is a medicine cat who hates violence, the DRASTIC change in Riverclan's view of outsiders upon Crookedstar's death and her leadership. Her already having a position of power before proving she's unworthy of it. (Unlike Blackstar who gets rewarded for his racism and violence by being made leader afterwards) and the fact she has to interact with her victims on a daily basis after what she did.

The writings attempts to redeem her are really lame and dismissive of the actually damage she did, but at the very least they TRIED to do something else with her. Personally, I would have loved to see her assassinated by Mistyfoot. Just like her mother Bluestar was almost killed all those moons ago by Tigerclaw... The parallels of violence for power and violence for peace. A victim repeating the actions of the very man who killed her brother to put an end to what he started in Riverclan.... A shadow in Riverclan, if you will. (<-Pretending erin hunter has hired me to rewrite their series)

Windclan: Tunneling as a concept and inviting outsiders into their clan so friendly and casual makes the clan seems so much more diverse than the others. It always stuck out to me!

Andddd there are my current warrior cat options as of 2023! If someone actually read this whole ramble ily<3

[eggwriting]

Butters very own deep dive!

although being for 5 years in the south park fandom , watching a LOT of analysis of butters i had always been confused on some of his actions. why would a kid with such strong morals hurt people? a character who stands up for himself so fiercely also get pushed around? now though, i feel like i can understand him way better after re-watching south park.

-BUTTERS AND HIS MORALS;

ever since the first episode where butters stopped being just a background character and started having actual dialog we establish that he has strong morals and unlike pip ( a character which butters steals the spotlight from and fills his role as the 'adorable loser' in the earlier seasons before taking a main character role) he has a backbone. he stands up to his parents in "butters own episode" when they start fighting and the reason I choose this episode in particular is because in this scene you can see both his traits: he is not afraid to stand up for what he thinks is right.

"so then egg, why does butters get pushed around and does all these horrible things?" well my dear readers it all starts from butters morals. we often see cartman and the others use butters empathy as a way to get what they want. in season six its espesally evidient as they'll use phrases such as "Kenny would have done it" while kicking their feet and looking down at the ground. butters immediately after seeing their expression gets hit with sadness and you can see it in the way is brows relax and his lips frown as he lets out the words "fine, ill do it".

but this isn't the only reason why butters often does 'horrible' things. although this instant is more rare, it is still shown in the show. of course butters parents are very...not quite mentally there (if i had a guess they have some sort of narcissism because they rather than seeing butters as a human being, they see him as a property. an extension to themselves. and of course because they believe they themselves are perfect that's what they expect from butters too). they are extremely controlling which leads butters to do some rebellious acts. often they are harmless though like professor chaos or butters punching his dad when he had the 'VR set' on.

although butters has done some real fucked up shit in the past he still is considered to be one of the most morally good character. that's because we often see that butters really doesn't want to do the things others force him to do weather that's because it goes against his morals or his intense fear of getting grounded. another reason is because we see his genuine kindness. my favorite example of this is in A.W.E.S.O.M.O where butters sends the money he makes to the needy children. i mean heck the kid needs a costume to do anything that goes against his morals, needs to be someone else (i.e prof chaos, detective butters).

i think butters morals are a big mix of lawful good and chaotic good (leaning more on chaotic). his morals are by the books but while a character like Kyle who is lawful good sees things like "this is bad, I'm not going to do this" butters is more likely to do a 'necessary evil': tap dance again knowing the consequences to help south park not get 'served', pretend to have a disability so you can help your friends and make them happy. i have to say though these strong moral are starting to shake a tiny bit and the reason for that has to be eric cartman.

"Butters has picked up a number of habits from Cartman both positive and negative." this quote is taken directly from the official wiki of south park which imma link here if you want to do your own deep dive or if you need it for characterization research:https://www.southparkstudios.com/wiki/List_of_Characters

there are two traits in particular that i think butters has gotten from hanging around cartman, positive and negative:

Leadership- throughout the earlier seasons butters has shown to be a follower but in season 20 and beyond he has been more of a leader. of course even though it is unfourtunate that butters leadership in season 20 had gone to a anti-feminism movement there are plenty of times it has gone for good such as; when butters motivated the guys in 'butters creamy goo' or in 'dikinbaus' where the moment butters takes over the business he is making money left and right.

aggressiveness- i know it sounds impossible-LOOK AT HIM? how could he ever be aggressive? well the aggressiveness is more of a half and half thing rather than a thing he that repeats itself often. what i mean by it is that the only times butters truly gets aggressive is when he is overstimulated (going native, bullied by grandma) his aggressiveness often is shown as passive but there has been times where he hasn't hesitated to use his fists.

i have to say though with these additions butters has started to be a little bit more worry of cartman, not to say that he has built a wall between them- in fact they have a more genuine friendship now than ever, as also described in the official south park wiki site- but he definitely has a sort of plan B to fall back on when cartman does something shitty (A.W.E.S.M.O, dikinbaus)

but at the end of the day butters is still his sweet, pure and innocent self. he still leads with his heart and not with his head and he will forever be my favorite adorable loser.

with love, egg.

[3liza]

the Jason Genova/Del Rey Misfits story (ongoing) hasn't really gotten outside of bodybuilding YouTube despite several attempts (aborted Netflix show etc) but I think beyond it being a typical "being famous on YouTube usually fucks people up" situation theres a b-plot about the medical abuse of disabled people.

I found out recently that Genova is on monthly injections of long-acting haloperidol, a truly brutal first-generation antipsychotic that causes uncontrollable appetite and weight gain, neurodegeneration, akathisia and dystonia (this was prescribed to him on top of an active tourettes diagnosis which seems unlikely to have made it better). now despite his level of cognitive disability, Genova is a bad person to whatever level of "bad" a person can be blamed when he's got to be around 50 IQ, and level 2 autism, and I certainly dont like him, so this isn't a defense of his behavior. autistic people can be taught empathy and consideration if anyone bothers. so i think his mother absolutely fucked this kid up. but whatever doctor put this kid on monthly haloperidol is either 90 years old or incompetent or both because the only thing that will do for someone like Jason is make him sleepy (and thus easier to control) . people who take antipsychotics typically are constantly fighting brain fog and usually seek out stimulants to stay awake, just like Jason does.

so the antipsychotic weight gain and compulsive eating of junk food (I've personally experienced this with seroquel and it isn't something you can control even with full cognitive function. I used to get up in the middle of the night to eat sugar out of the bag) was being treated as laziness and lack of discipline by the Misfits and the fanbase the entire time. this is normal in bodybuilding, it's part of the culture. it was a cornerstone of the "plot" tension, Jason's "inability to commit" to weight training and cutting. none of his supposed professional coaches or trainers ever address this or consider what piling pre workout into a disabled kid on psychoactive drugs was going to do, and while it's possible they were never informed of his medical history they absolutely should have asked, and with Jason's known reputation as a compulsive liar , they should have double checked until they got a straight answer. Jason's mother enabled Jason to drive by himself, and of course he got into a half dozen serious accidents, injuring himself and god knows who else. this is mostly treated as a joke in the series. and that's kind of a different issue, how the boomer attitude towards disability of just ignoring it as much as possible and pretending the disabled person is average causes just as many bad outcomes as low expectations. Jason many times angrily denies being autistic, or minimizes it as barely diagnosable, when five seconds looking at him shows anyone with any familiarity with autism and other developmental disorders that the only reason he isn't in a care setting is that his mother is in denial and his friends don't have the background to see how bad it is.

it's clear that everyone involved is aware that Jason is "slow" but it's also clear that all the competent adults consider severe disability to be shameful and most of them seem genuinely unaware of the fact that Jason isn't just kind of a goofball who needs a good talking-to, he's developmentally delayed, cognitively struggling at all times to follow basic social interactions and conversations, is borderline illiterate, and has no impulse control. he's also constantly stimming both voluntarily and involuntarily in a way that interferes with his dexterity. he shouldn't have internet access or a smart phone, he shouldn't be allowed or enabled to use preworkout and especially not steroids and research chemicals.

and over the years he is documented, he degenerates badly in a predictable way, becoming more and more incoherent and impulsive. it's basically a moneymaking franchise centered on a profoundly sick man who is being medicated in a way that causes more monetizable outbursts and brain damage leading to compounding eccentricity, which is fairly common in bodybuilding even with participants who start out with average function and ability.

so what the fuck. I don't have a conclusion for this other than the level of dysfunction is impressive, and the amount of the exploitation that does genuinely appear to be occurring ignorant of the full extent of Jason's handicap. Jason really reminds me of the boyfriend I just kicked out, who wasn't nearly as disabled but had many of the same issues, just less severe. and people around him (also a white man) just assume he's a little goofy, and that his expressions of confusion or inappropriate comments are intentional jokes and not times when the masking isn't fully working.

[polyklok]

Movies I think Dethklok members would really like

No this is not based on anything I’m just in a mood™ rn

Nathan Explosion

Mad God

So, no, I did not have any ounce of an idea of what this movie was about when I originally watched it, and I’m still not 100% sure tbh but an hour and a half of these pure vibes would totally be up Nathan’s alley. The post-apocalyptic setting, all the gore, the details of the various monsters, and I think he would just really appreciate it from an artist’s standpoint as well. This movie would just resonate with him, even if he wouldn’t have a fucking clue what was going on the whole time.

Mary and Max

I’m, personally, a bit on-the-fence about this movie, but it is undeniably sweet and I headcanon Nate to be on the spectrum so 🤷

This would be, like, his guilty pleasure film. The movie he knows is for kids and is totally not brutal but he loves it anyway. The, “I do not feel disabled, defective, or a need to be cured” really hits for him every single time. He rewatches it at least once every few months, especially when he’s in some sort of emotional slump.

Mandy

Another one that just like, like, big Nathan energy, you know? He just seems like a guy to really love loose plots with trippy visuals and strong emotions attached to them. Also, this movie is so completely badass, it is certified metal in his book. He also finds the story incredibly tragic; having the love of your life stripped away from you in such circumstances really tugs at his heartstrings, but in a way that gets him pumped up rather than sad. This is probably his go-to when people ask, “what’s your favorite movie?”

Pickles the Drummer

Son in Law

Okay this is my guilty pleasure movie. I usually don’t like stoner-comedy from the 90s, but this movie hits different. Maybe I just find Crawl hot. Anyway, I’m projecting that onto Pickles. He honestly probably finds a lot of crappy comedies to be peak film, and this is no exception. Pauly Shore pretending to be a country boy for a whole movie? Hells yeah. Pickles would watch while high off his mind, laughing his butt off and going to town on some cheez-its or something. And you know what? He deserves it.

Opal

I’m counting short films because I feel like Opal is the movie for Pickles. He’d watch it on a whim, because these are not usually the types of things he enjoys, and then he’d in tears over the emotional rollercoaster he did not agree to go on. Like, he grew up in a neglective household with authority figures that were overly-selfish and projected their own problems onto the youngest one in the house, to which he had to hide within his own brain more often than not just to properly function. And then he just…watched it happen all again in the hypnotic style of Jack Stauber. The Mom’s song had him in gasping tears for a while, the way you get when a movie somehow perfectly captures your own trauma right in front of you. And the ending??? Ugh. Go watch Opal, guys, it’s on YouTube.

Nathan and Pickles both get very emotional about certain stop-motion films, isn’t that crazy?

House

Thank you to Lucy for this Letterbox review that I think he would write

Anyway-

This movie is actually so insane. It’s not scary in a horror-movie way, like it meant to be, it’s scary as in ��What the hell is happening and why do I understand it?’ Pickles doesn’t like most traditional horror films, as the long, quiet suspense bores him and the sudden jumpscares freak him the hell out way more than they should. But he loves the campy-wacko-type horror that they were apparently making in 70s Japan. It’s just scary enough to get his heart pumping, but the pure silliness of it all overrides that, getting him in a giddy mood and excited to see what happens next.

(No I am not done but tumblr won’t let me add more pictures)

[imqueerandadeer]

Okay it's time again for rants and personal stories no one fucking asked for. Todays topic: How fucking rampant and normalized ableism is, with comments from @pansgoobernonsense as usual.

Really long post ahead guys you've been warned.

The reason it has been featured in the last post and now this one is because it's also ND and Asian and I wanted to get other peoples experiences with ableism.

It also said that I can interview it for practice because journalism sounds cool to me and I might want to be a journalist.

Anyways obligatory disclaimer/reminder. I don't speak for all mentally disabled people because we are not a monolith!! For example I am great at masking my ADHD and Autism (I'll get into that with more context later) and it's somthing I've picked up subconsciously. Other people with my same conditions may not be good at masking.

Also this post will mostly center around mental disabilities, specifically ADHD and autism because thats what we have and know most about. Neither me nor my friend are physically disabled (to my knowledge) so I won't speak much on it because It's not my place.

Alright with that out of the way lets add some context.

Hi, if you don't know me or haven't seen my blog before (most of you probably have though in some shape or form) I'm Ollie or Cupid. I have ADHD, self diagnosed (and peer diagnosed) autism, and possible dyscalculia. Theres also a millon other things I'm suspicious about having but I won't get into those.

Lets start with this, imagine (or don't idc) that your back in *gasp* middle school. Terrifying. Now since this is tumblr I'm gonna assume most of you have autism and/or ADHD so y'all most likely know what it's like to be in middle school and be ND. But still I wanted to talk about my experiences with ableism in school.

Okay I've noticed that the difference of how I get treated because I mask and those that can't mask for whatever reason is wildly different. I have instructional support which is technically special ed and no one has ever called me "Sped" or the R-slur. Versus the the kids who visibly have support needs and their disabilities are present. They get called those things all the fucking time.

The hypocrisy of it all is what really gets me. Kids at my school will really stand there and call these other kids dehumanizing things while I stand there as a person with ADHD and autism having to akwardly laugh it off and pretend it doesn't effect me. Yes of course I tell them off but it doesn't work, because they have been taught that what they're saying is fine and people who have higher support needs are not human, which is wrong and ablesist.

Thats not even their fault really it's what they were taught. Although if they weren't taught it and they know It's wrong but still do it then it's their fault

It genuinely got so bad that me and my friends wrote a letter to the office telling them about the ablesist language at our school, I don't think the letters ever got sent but yeah it was that bad.

On another note I don't think my schools very wheelchair accessible at all, although I wouldn't know really because I don't use a wheelchair.

Now heres @pansgoobernonsense experiences woth ableism as a whole, while mine were mostly about school its are more personal

"My personal experiences with ableism are mostly from my parents, and since I have not one but two neurodevelopmental disorders I’ve experienced it a lot. The most notable of these experiences come from my parents reaction to my autism.

A notable example was the time I was crying because I didn’t want to go to a party (I had had a panic attack at another similar party at the same place with similar people) and my dad had said I didn’t need to go but my mom made me.

I tried to explain (through tears) that I didn’t want to go and my dad angrily called me “autistic”. I’ve also been told to just “act normal” in social situations (despite the textbook definition of autism being essentially “I can’t act normal in social situations”). My parents have also neglected to tell me about my diagnosis for basically my entire life.

I was diagnosed when I was 2-3 and only found out this year. The reason behind this decision was “if I knew I’d tell everyone and use it as a get out of jail free card”.

They seem to treat my diagnosis as a label rather than an actual disability. It makes sense, since historically mental disabilities haven’t been treated the same as physical disabilities, but it’s still an awful experience."

While my experiences with things like this haven't been as severe as Nicks experiences I do have some of my own.

One time I was talking to my mother and she said that they suspected I had ADHD but didn't get me tested until I was 12 because she didn't want me on meds that early, which yes is a semi fair point but still why would you keep your suspicions a secret until I startes to notice and suspect it myself. That seems so weird to me and it could have saved me a lot if trouble if she had just told me.

Anyways thats it, sorry if it's not cohesive or coherent it's 1:00 am for me, I need to sleep

[cryptid-artha]

''kids who fake disorders make people look bad'' so that means being a bigot is 100% justified because *checks notes* mentally ill children pretend to have a different mental illness for attention sometimes.

Anyway I want every disability, illness diagnosis, and doctors note you have ever received in your entire life on my desk for Friday because I saw a 13 year old say they had autism in tiktok. I am very woke and normal

Jokes aside I'm pretty sure ableism existed before tiktok and other social media. This whole thing about ''fakers taking away resources from DA REAL disabled people'' is mythology. They don't leave disabled people to die because of fakers, it's because the disabled are considered a strain on able-bodied people's resources and therefore do not care if they die. But yes let's limit access to people's ability to live just because a child who wouldn't be able to get those resources as a minor anyway annoyed you once.

You kinda misread and misconstrued my ENTIRE FUCKING COMMENT lol

I said that the fakers add to the problem and make it worse. The problem is already there. But those who fake stuff make it worse on those of us who are disabled.

Hello, ADHD and Autistic here, with severe memory loss and brain fog I can hardly function through half the time. People abusing the meds I need for my ADHD has made getting medicated literally impossible. Or, at least, gave the shit government an excuse to restrict it for those of us who really do need it. Like. I gave the fuck up and am just going unmedicated. I would go through illegal means, but that's unsafe and expensive and I get to starve this week because my weekend commission stream flopped worse than it ever has before but that's besides the point.

Yes. People in power are a huge problem for disabled people. That's a given. But, those people who fake it to look cool or get sympathy make it worse. They cause and reinforce bad steriotypes that cause damage to people who actually have the condition. Like.... I never said they were the main problem? Like, ever???? I just said they add to a problem that's already there and make it worse.

I also finished out with something along the lines of "Don't treat people like shit because some people fake it." so that people don't have to suffer more than they already do because of some kids who think being mentally ill is a trend to follow for views. We can't do shit about the people in power. But we CAN do our part by treating disabled people with the respect they deserve.

We already have it bad enough with how we are treated. We don't need negative steriotypes being created and reinforced by people who fake it on top of that, thank you very much.

Also, one thing being true does not mean the other thing can not also be true.